Rafik - Thoughts Pt. 1 (Prod by Blutop)

Lyrics:
Sober mind with clouded thoughts
Everyday that's passing by I try hard to accept this loss
It's like my life is stuck in between two decisions at a cross
Praying to God asking for strength but still feeling like I'm cropped
Out the,
Picture of life cus I never felt I fit in
See the light at the end of the tunnel, trying to get in
I'm running a race with happiness but I never finished
Am I at my limit?
I need to find my spirit
Used to this cycle of being in denial
I've had dreams of blowing up as a kid like I'm going viral
But I never felt entitled
I feel disconnected with myself so I never tried to plug back in for the dial
This survival
In the mirror all I look at is my rival
Want to 'beat it' like I'm Michael
Think I need to read the Bible
To counter these thoughts that I'm feeling always suicidal
I think I need an M&M (Eminem) for some sort of 'Revival' (Eminem's Album)
One day I'll be great
I've had venom in my system for so long that I've turned to a snake
From fake friends that I hate
So the only thing left I cling on are these dreams cus I seem to just chase
I have to have faith
I have to retrace
What broke me and voided all of this space
But is it to late?
Is it to hard to want to go far
To shine like a star
Strings of my life are instruments and they strum like guitars
My life is at war
In a jail cell behind bars
I've shown all my cards
Couldn't catch them all, so now my life is hell fire breathing like Charizard
My hearts been hurt so many times that now I just stay on guard
Like on God
These are thoughts that I write down, hopefully someone can relate to them.
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