Numb to life (Anhedonia)
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I'm tired of work tired of money tired of bills tired of depression tired of anhedonia tired of Anxiety, tired of peer pressure to "get my life together" tired of being tired
Same here
@AK KD exactly I'm like a rebel to society like I am am skittle amongst m&ms
At this point I would be thankful If my life was taken away be It (Murder, dying In my sleep, etc.)
It sounds like your tired of life in general.
It took me to be at the verge of death, to love life. I have debts, bad luck in love, must work hard to survive and I'm loving it! I hope I live 100, 200 or more years 😄
Existence is truly torture
This young man is 100 times wiser than both of my parents
I'm tired of life it's the samething and it's not even enjoyable
Life is extremely ill… some days I feel really numb to everything
I’m 55 and so ready to be fine with this place. Thanks for making me feel not so alone.
You're welcome
I can relate..I try to keep my sanity every day
Life just gets more and more unenjoyable for the most part the older I get.
It all makes sense why someone would be numb to this stupid pointless game that we are forced to play without our consent. It is highly flawed and filled with so much negative elements. Suffering, pain, hardship or misery are all elements that are attached to and imbedded in this game. There is hardly any positives aspects of life apart from temporary pleasure.
Hi ✋ let's discuss antinatalism ✋✋✋
@מוחמד אל חסן lol wtf
@מוחמד אל חסן 😂🤣😂
Exactly, and when we express things like this ppl are always like “well this is temporary, you won’t feel like this for long” Like nah it really isn’t, bc eventually what we find joy in is the REAL temporal, it doesn’t last and we’re gonna go right back to that state of being world weary or whatever they say about us. And like you said there are hardly any good aspects and the bad definitely outweighs the good. Besides trying to be oblivious to the harsh reality of life, how are we supposed to enjoy things and have a positive outlook on certain things when the world as a whole is a prison planet?? Whether it’s directly happening to us or not, what we hear about what goes on in the world with different countries and ppl and the government actually does affect ppl mentally, well for me anyway like I’m very sensitive to shit and we have to deal with all this just bc we’re here and a part of this shitty society… it never fails to make me wish that I never existed in the first place tbh.
@מוחמד אל חסן Corny comment
*_«I woke the same as any other day_*
*_You know, I should have stayed in bed...»_*
*Chris Cornell*
My main hobbies are reading, writing, making music, gaming & walking in the nature etc.
Those are good hobbies
@@lifeisoverrated96indeed they are
Anhedonia is possibly the worst thing you can go through in this miserable existence. I haven't felt joy or pleasure in years. It's really fucking rough. I don't know how I've survived this shit for so long.
You summarized this topic very well. I'm very similar. I eventually become disinterested in things and move onto another cycle, just to repeat it all over again. No matter how excited I am in the beginning, it always ends with boredom. I even go through this with things that have been consistent in my life for years (sports, video games, music). On top of that, when you're aware of the futility and deception of this life and realize we're all just coping with this existence, it makes it even harder to enjoy things. It's also difficult to explain this to most people. It's still hard for me to fathom potentially doing this for another 50 years -_-
Ain't no way in hell I'm gonna do this for 50 more years let alone 1 more at this point. I'm ready to leave this hell-hole NOW ! Just gotta work up the nerve to take all those pills some day. This place is pure hell man...
I try to stay postive but I'm no postive peter , like you I no longer search the truth in this life. Trying to make sense of life only drives you mad. I just want simplicity
@@lifeisoverrated96 The truth is simple but sad: we are here for no good reason at all, we suffer more than we enjoy ourselves and we are going to die.
@@nonexistenceisbliss9528 Be careful. You might survive as a vegetable. I survived several ODs. I had luck and didn't get brain damage. Well, not exactly luck, but it could have been worse.
@@francisdec1615 Omg that's crazy 😲 what kind of pills did you take??? I'm planning on using opioids and benzos.
That beginning describes Jayflamin313
Hope it gets better Jay, how you doing lately?
@@lifeisoverrated96 thanks man and same Ole same Ole slaving and just trying to survive😮💨
What's up ✋
@@potter5647 what's flamin my boi🔥
@@jayflamin313 bro let's discuss antinatalism
I developed Anhedonia that's why I can't find pleasure In this life.
Very good points
Thanks for expressing these thoughts, I can really relate to how you feel about life. I'm only 32 and feel the same way. The hardest thing to accept now is how much time we probably have left...
Agreed
for me, I have only really felt this way the last few years, before that I was content to do my hobbies etc...I was depressed but not quite like I am experiencing now. the term anhedonia is new to me. but it fits
Never heard of Anhedonia, but as soon as you said what it was, it totally describes me.
I used to enjoy many things in life, but not any more. I know the reason this happened, and I think my situation is irreversible. I no longer look forward to doing things, and I'm annoyed by most things in life.
Thanks for teaching me something new, though!
✋✋✋✋✋✋✋✋ what's up
@@potter5647 hi there! 👋👋👋
@@veganatheistandmore let's discuss antinatalism
@@potter5647 sure. 👍
Same here. I just want this horror movie called life to END already... 😞
Im 34 and i always remember being like this. Until this day I've been strugling with this, but it is as you say. . as far as I know, trying to find relaxing ways to pass time helps. The main problem is that if you try to explain it to anyone, everyone will think you're crazy or broken in some shape or form.
I'm 32 and I've realized after many times of trying to reach out to people about these thoughts is a waste of time and energy. All it does is create concern from the people you talk to. It's like you're begging to hear some profound wisdom from the people you reach out to, but it just ends up making you regret opening up... This has been my experience anyway...
@@Celwood Yep. Concern and gossip! People will talk abt. You behind your back 'cuz they don't get it.🙄 I don't open up anymore and just keep things to myself.
Like Charles Bukowski said in his one interview, "life takes on a repeat". You start hearing the same conversations, seeing the same reactions, same behavior's, same people doing the same things over and over again. It's nobody's fault, it just is what it is. Things get old and played out. This is the epidemy of what vanity means. You have been given through your own experiences in and of life the ability to speak, that can speak for long periods of time, and if that's what keeps you going, then by god golly gee and the universe keep on doing it. Maybe think about doing this for a living somehow...SBN RESONATE
I agree, I appreciate it
Ever see American Splendor or see the comics by Harvey Pekar? He was the GOAT, he's the person I think I most relate too
@@ennuiblue4295 I haven't
People say we all need
friends/companionship.
people are always around,no matter where you go.
most of my Anhedonia
comes from,compulsory interaction with people,gravely obsessing over financial matters,and my future
these things hinder me a lot
from deriving pleasure,from my escaping coping mechanisms
I can’t turn my brain off
so I get you completely as usual.
😊
@AK KD Most people are stupid herd animals. I like discussing things with fellow antinatalists and people who share my other interests, and I like sex with a partner, but the concept of being "sociable" by default is completely foreign to me. I hate herd people and chatting about the weather.
@AK KD I hate having to socially interact with people. It is just not my thing. When you are forced into these nonsense school/college group projects, you have no choice but to do something you inherently wouldn't enjoy based on your personality. I just don't like socialization. I prefer solitude, independent tasks and my own space. Most people are just fake as fuck. And the thing that annoys me the most out of it is fucking m*rons that are always trying to mold you to some "standard" or trying to force you to be a certain way that you were naturally not born to be... like stop asking me BS questions like "Why are you so quiet". I get so tempted to scream "I DON'T FUCKING KNOW LEAVE ME DA HELL ALONE"
@Evolved Spirit
🙏👍🏻
@AK KD
Absolutely.
🙏👍🏻
Thanks for sharing I stole out of the store I am 28 years old I like living off benefits because I know a 9 to 5 is just everyday until we all are in the ground casket
very true i experience this when i over burn myself out. but ever since i managed to go within, dig deep nd heal my nervous system, surprisingly almost if not everything in every area in my life dissolved completely, but 20% of it is the mindset work that really opened the door, the final key through that breakthrough.
like to add that “recovering from the perception of fear nd *creating the feeling of safety proactively* “ (within) helps your growth skyrocket immensely
saved me a decade of my life had i not heard those words from a wise fellow that i came across here, helped me tremendously find the awareness to become conscious enough to understand of what i hv been going thru all these wasted years of mine.
I didn’t understand this video when you first dropped it but now I do because I feel the same way everything bores me and even if I do find something interesting it’s only a matter of time before it gets boring.
Unfortunately man
Valid. So valid.
Appreciate it
The negativity of life ruins the positives.
the way you describe and break down anhedonia is so spot on! this is one of the best pieces i have ever seen on the subject.
I appreciate that
I usually smoke weed play basketball listening to music
@AK KD fr man I'm thinking about hooping rn
Thx for the shout out brother I just wanted to know if you have the same feeling to this futile existence the juice ain't worth the squeeze I just want to go to sleep permanently
Thank you for the recommendation
A video on free will is overrated is needed plz 🙏🏾
Society makes us guilty for everything that turns off in our life. They pretend that we have free will; which is a lie.
Bro let's talk about free will 👋
@@potter5647 I hope him to do a video on it. But yeah ! If u want we can talk about it ! For me it’s clear : it doesn’t exist. Free will can’t exist. The end argument is that we didn’t choose to be born in the first place.
@@pickywolf2728 I agree with you ✋ let's talk about this topic more do you have discord or something else like that
I'll do one on it soon
There is a movie called infinite and it was about reincarnation and the villain was trying to destroy the entire process of rebirth permanently because he said that existence is punishment its torture check it out
Netflix?
So the guy who wants to destroy the rebirth process is not the villain, is the hero.
Villain ?😅😅😅
I don't know how I'd survive without some help from pharma. Of all of them though, I have to say low dose ketamine has had the most beneficial impact in terms of returning my mental state to a more "neutral" place. I have pretty extreme anhedonia and "neutral" is about the best I can hope for.
Yea existing sucks. Everything hurts to the point of constant suffering. Im tired of you can do this, or you can do that to "make your life better." There is no "better" for me. Ive hit the wall. Constant boredom, tiredness, with a growing lack of compassion to care about anything or anyone. That's what humanity/life has taught me. To not care. When i did care, it was either too much or not enough. So ive embraced being cold for it not keeps you warm, but for it makes the pain and suffering of life hurt a little bit less to keep surviving. There is no "living" for me in whatever reality this is.(a countless amout of them at that lol) It's only surving in my perspective. Now i can see why The Joker had that signature laugh with the smiley face makeup for a presence because he was aware of the truth of life. Because, why give a shit? Everytime one did, the other end only used and abused as if its all a competition to gain faster traction to the next level when none of this matters at all. Losing all care isn't the answer, it's just a perspective of mines that i learned from having what i thought was compassion or sincerity to care. The old saying goes, "in this world, you only have yourself." Quite ironic that is considering all the things surrounding that are at play. And that is all that this is. A meaningless play of pain and suffering for survival. My harsh truth in the game of life.
PS- There is no "I"..... None of this is real and not to be taken seriously. For life is just happening while life goes on. I've lost all care of life and it was best(and worst) possible thing to happen. -Promtly, NOT I
I think it's because, we live in a society that turns life into this boring, tired hedonism, it's a movie, where everyone screams and laughs and cries the loudest and prettiest nonsense, no substance. Life is all about the individual, who is free from everything but himself, and can now only care about himself. The world is the individual too, and it's such a shallow place to be, one with very limited knowledge and without much awareness of anything else. The only thing to feed is the senses but not the soul. And what does the soul crave...?The only thing our world gives us is some material comfort, which makes bored individuals who are not mentally, spiritually stimulated, given worthy tasks to focus on, that could lift us all up. We live in such an artificial and superficial reality and we chafe against it. The way we live was made to be self serving and psychopathic in nature, like our leaders, the only difference is they don't have to work as much as we do but both groups have endless distractions. What we are living is the highest form of nihilism.
It really shines a light on everyone's true nature though. These broads with crazy expensive purse collections, what conspicuous consumption waste. I wish I made more just so I could help more. They could go to animal/veteran/child charities and be a hero, get they picture on the wall as a benefactor. Instead they have to show how shallow and vain they are. Money isn't the problem, it's people and their staggering greed
This is me definitely.
Jamie what's up
@@potter5647 not much bro. Just chilling how about you
@@MrJamiez do you have discord or skype or something else, let's talk there
Therapy is only useful for determining what meds you need to be on. If you find a really good therapist (good luck bc its a needle in a haystack) they can teach you coping mechanisms but the problem I have with that is the world is everchanging and the coping strategies you learn are challenged as soon as you leave the therapists office. The issues are here to stay no matter what. And there are some things that cant be coped with, plenty of sexual assualt victims rope for this reason.
Society needs to understand that some people can deal with problems but not everyone can, we need to legalize euthanasia.
Every cope has an end every day is the same I just want to sleep forever why is that a bad thing we got to sleep every single night sleep is death and it's so peaceful sleep is the only thing I enjoy
Fæp then sleep 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😂😂😂😂😂😂🌹🌹
Recently heard your poem on autumn, it's beautiful ❤️👍
Thank you ✌🏻
We r addictive on life and we will not be satisfied ever, we will always want more or better.
Athur schepenhauer refuse resorting to the material pleasures like sex drugs smooking etc.. rather that, he encourages u to do the spiritual or mental pleasures things that r safe and less harmful
Like art, reading drawing listening to music writing what ever
He is nihilist, pessimist of course there is no meaning in this life, but we don't have a lot of choices, we can only distract ourselves and decreasing the amount of suffering
He also advices to take care of ur health, because it's vital and it's more important than work itself.
@AK KD what to solve, we can't do anything, just point things out, more that, nothing really.
@AK KD They just want to express their ideas or thoughts, transfer it from their mind to papers. that's it
@AK KD BTW, some philosophers suggest solutions.
Yup, and it’s hard to get hired especially if you can’t use your former employer as a reference since they fired you ..
Hey man, I really relate to this vid. I do suffer from anhedonia and depression and like you I have tried a lot of things. But at least you are very articulate, you are good at putting words on your feelings and expressing yourself. Im not trying to selfpity, but you really have a gift that not everybody has. Thought that could bring some joy to your life 🤣 but anyways mate, cheers and thanks for the video.
I really appreciate those kind words
I been watching your videos and I can relate to everything you're saying I'm glad I found your channel I can't really talk about this type shit with anyone cause I'm surrounded by Christians who believe they have a purpose and believe in a happy ending lol good for them
Welcome I appreciate you watching
I can relate. I started a channel to vent and then christians came and started posting bible verses in the comments and I felt guilted into restraining myself again lol.
100% true good points
Wow! I thought i was the only one who felt this way. so finding there's a term for it is great. after listening to you, I can explain how I feel. I don't tell anyone, well no one ever asks, mostly because they don't know how to respond and would worry about me. I don't need that.
I get mildly interested in, maybe even a little excited about something and it lasts a few weeks. I've learned to buy the cheap stuff for my hobbies, ie get the art supplies on sale. i'm just killing time too. waiting for my exit. SO thank you. I feel SO heard and seen.
Thank you for watching, Anhedonia can be difficult to deal with, best of luck
A brutal & hostile & deadly buffoonery .. that’s what life is about 😖😖😢😢😢😢😢
I've been looking for this kind of video and i feel you, as long as i remember i have always been like this, life is extremely pointless and boring, once you have this thought you just can't get rid of it, it becomes part of you and your life. We go through cycles just to repeat them over and over again, i just don't feel this stuff and i regret i was born. At least i know i'm not alone in these feelings and it makes things a little bit easier.
Thank you for watching. Yes it's a vicious cycle
Excellent vid
Thank you
Antonio I didn't Felt anhedonia. But I can relate to the Sufferings and sorrows of Life recently one of the employers I worked with Cheated me by not paying the salary. It was a start up company. They were uncooperative with me.
Thanks for describing me
What's up man
@@potter5647 Hey dude whats up
@@ANTINATALIST_lewis I'm okay thanks what about you, do you have discord or something else like that? Can I talk to you
Yo, I either just made a video talking about that, or was planning on making one but I forgot if I did or not hahaa. Nice man. I totally have Anhedonia....shit sucks.
i hate life
"There's gotta be more to life
Than chasing down every temporary high
To satisfy me
'Cause the more that I'm
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life but I'm sure
There's gotta be more
Than wanting more"
-(there's Gotta Be) More to Life) by Stacie Orrico
Ahh one of my old ghost writings -- All seeing eye
If we are part god like I think and immortal spirits... We have to cope with eternity... thoughts?
it would be nice to see you rant in such setting as in this video background (mountains with trees), maybe you could do something like Walk and Talk (in a forest or somewhere), do u know Timothy Ward?? he has lots of walk and talk vids and i think ppl like that type of videos, so im not saying u should change ur topics or channel theme, im just saying u could add some new things here and there so that more ppl watch ur channel but in any case its all upto u, in any case ur channel is AMAZING AS ALWAYS
Yes I've seen him, im looking to make changes with my channel going forward
Thanks for the feedback
No problem! Btw I like Tim Ward but i also feel like sometimes he's kind of like "positive peter" if you know what i mean. I mean hes kinda cool but at the same time hes just too romanicising about life, dont u think so? @@lifeisoverrated96
I just saw a commercial for a show called Lego masters, on Fox network. people make huge lego figures on there, you could try to get on that show..
I'm not that good lol but the stuff the build is talented
Yeah I saw a segment on Sunday Morning once where they just have a mountain of loose Lego's and people put together their own creations, it's very cool 🤗
Only spirituality (yogi) can give internal permanent bliss. All external pleasures come to a end.
I personally think its all BS and over rated as well…just corporate gurus
@@meatmachine449 People think its B.S because they are unwilling to give it a serious attempt.
@@dcktater7847 We all understand external pleasures because we experienced it. You have to read and understand the teaching then experiment to accept the permanence of spirituality.
@@meatmachine449 I have siddhis
@@meatmachine449 most spiritual leaders of today are indeed fraudulent but the teaching isn't
I have this sometimes. Only 25 man im 35
I'm 51. Both 25 and 35 are young people to me.
Im 38. I drink coffe grind my own beans. Collect coffemugs. Read manga collect manga. Have a turtle feed him take care of him. I like also taking walks in a cemetary
My personal relationship with Jesus Christ has greatly helped with these struggles, in my life.
FINALLY I know whats wrong with me! thank you! ^^
15:55 it always been like that
you look sharp and fresh in this vid
Thank you
man, i tried watching a regular movie today after 25 minutes i realized its just another pronatalist BS, could u recommend some movie which would be fit for someone who is familiar with antinatalist/existentialist philosophies? @@lifeisoverrated96
Honestly you really just have to distract yourself in this life and don’t take nothing too serious because in the end we all die anyways so I guess just enjoy the freak show …..and don’t check out on your own terms
fighting dictators seem to excite me and give me a sense of purpose. 😒🖤 unfortunately there is no shortage of that bs on this planet.
Do video on day versus night. In my case I feel less depressed when I am awake at night than at day
I sort of relate
4 real I am autistic 😮
I got a question for you--- What if you and Everyone are immortal?? While I don't know about everyone else.. I am probably immortal --- I knew I existed before I was born and I was born with massive knowledge about myself and the world as a baby
I doubt it and I hope not
@@lifeisoverrated96 Well eventually it is said humanity will be in a true golden age instead of a dark age like today
@@lifeisoverrated966:43 yessirrr legos are great
28 and yea everything is lame
Wow you travelled quite a bit
This is pretty interesting though. I was not born with all of this. People and life created it. But then we're diagnosed? Dumb and frustrating to be having a label put on
Life is not that tragedy but it is tragedy due to our society ways collectively we conditioning people to make work very great society and create society which demand work and neglect whole human life that’s modernity and it’s madness .
PH 24/7
I'm confused
@@lifeisoverrated96 prn hub help me sleep😅
@@thebestmont4424 24/7? Give that thing a break lol
Dude ! I just did a video on this today too man ! Holy cow. This helps me understand what's happening to many of my Antinatalist brothers and sisters better !
Thanks Man :)
Idk I appreciate weed for dulling the here and now. I don't need to be entertained if im hyper focused or not even present.
Still doesn't make life worth it but it can make ot bearable, atm
Have you tried delta-8 instead of delta-9 (normal weed) it has more of a body high, less indica. So I think you get less anxiety
Also I think because weed dips into the psychedelic territory it essentially an amplifier for your emotions. So if you are baked and can trick yourself into being happy by smiling its a bit better... but yeah I agree its just killing time
Cya ur majesty, gotta spend some time with tp now, the 'thought provoker', let's c, I guess he'd be the.......earl/barron of rantin'.......
I thought of something: are you US guys aware that if you have strict gun control in your state, you can go to a state with less severe gun control and buy one without a license? For instance, you can make private purchases without documentation in Maine. That's really great. Here in Europe only the Swiss can do that, and it's pretty unlikely that they will sell to foreigners. And it might not be the easiest thing to bring it out of Switzerland, even in you do get hold of one. Only organized criminals can easily get hold of guns in most of Europe.
I thought about this, since I saw that it was relatively difficult to buy a gun in Massachusetts (although easier than in most countries in Europe, of course).
Intresting 🤔
It's not exactly legal, but people do it all the time 😇
Do you think infinite money would fix this ?? Because I can *Easily see that it WON'T*
Not really
@@lifeisoverrated96Yeah life can be so boring xDDD
I think the only good fix that sort of works but not 100%... Exercise and.. Find things u find enjoyable including masturbation/porn/sex... And just abstain from it for at least 8 days
Same age, same problem.
How about psychedelics?
I have never tried it
Doing BJJ can help a lot however being around those blue pill people can become grating on your psyche.
I did Bjj and muay Thai for like a year, I'd like to do it again
@@lifeisoverrated96 Yeah that is the only thing that I like. Because it is so complicated you never run out of stuff to keep you interested. However it is the people I can not stand.
you ever think the solution might be going inward and looking into meditation.
It's been getting better wiry the help of Cbd flower
For me, meditation hasn't changed anything, I still have thoughts and I prefer a different position as a way to relax 😅
I want to die because my phone and tablet are the only windows to see the world outside. And plus mom is an exorcist she doesn't recognize things in life such as inanimate objectives and other stuff she just talks about magic and sorcery, she lives in another world. And I want to live the world, but society is like mom and the world is sad and bad. I'm just living in my dreams.
Thats a funny guy. Steal scratch n sniff and get caught.
Steal something worth stealing or fowards a hobby or ups your calories 😂
Oh I did go on to steal bigger stuff lol