Present - Lloyd Vaan (1 hour version)

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  • Опубліковано 29 лис 2022
  • You can find Lloyd Vaan on:
    Instagram: @lloydvaan
    UA-cam: @LloydVaan
    Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/3HFWq...
    SoundCloud: / lloyd-vaan
    Apple Music: / lloyd-vaan
    TikTok: @lloydvaan_
    If you are the owner of this song and want me to take down this video please comment down below! I will try and do so asap.

КОМЕНТАРІ • 562

  • @cuestyles
    @cuestyles Рік тому +1120

    If no one has told you today.. or in a while… I love you and I’m proud of you, keep going , you’re almost there ❤

  • @lucasza426
    @lucasza426 9 місяців тому +114

    you ever realize someone or just maybe a few 100 thousand people come here to just cry, I hope the best for anyone whom is going threw something they feel like they cannot get out.

    • @Bro-mf1xd
      @Bro-mf1xd 2 місяці тому

      This should be a highlighted comment 😢

  • @LoveThyNeighbor1231
    @LoveThyNeighbor1231 5 місяців тому +160

    “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18

    • @Sakaaruser22
      @Sakaaruser22 4 місяці тому +6

      I am the light of the world those who walk with me will not enter darkness but will have the light of the world 🗿🌅🗿

  • @nghinhan7292
    @nghinhan7292 Рік тому +529

    Everytime I listen to this piece, it overwhelms me with peace yet it hurts me somehow. It feels like watching the sunset with your best friend on a beach, it feels like falling asleep in your mother’s arms, it feels like the ending of a ‘right person wrong time’ story. Memories that will be tainted with a hint of sorrow. Sometimes I just wanna cry to this song, toast to all the joy and pain people’s love had brought to me. There are so many layers to the emotion that this song provokes in me.
    Thanks for the loop. It feels like a warm embrace.

    • @byronspandiel1386
      @byronspandiel1386 Рік тому +20

      I have never related to any comment more than this one right here .

    • @honda_nsx_9283
      @honda_nsx_9283 Рік тому +3

      I have never seen a more relatable comment in my life...😮‍💨

    • @evantaveras8716
      @evantaveras8716 Рік тому +3

      That was beautifully written

    • @4LLT0G3TH3R
      @4LLT0G3TH3R Рік тому +2

      We must just let it all go. May all be free and at peace.

    • @businessaccount3177
      @businessaccount3177 Рік тому +2

      this song is like having a flashback of your blonde haired mom who died in a car accident smiling and running into the waves on the beach while you sit there

  • @nejraukic9321
    @nejraukic9321 Рік тому +322

    I feel empty. Nothing to find or to search for in the future. I want my life to be quiet, just like this music. I want to live in peace. To not just exist, but to feel alive...

    • @maxalanis2742
      @maxalanis2742 Рік тому +7

      Jeramiah 29:11.

    • @keanu_893
      @keanu_893 Рік тому +6

      Jesus loves you

    • @ineedsomedirt
      @ineedsomedirt 9 місяців тому +1

      You want to be Present. Always living now, not dwelling on past, nor future.

    • @akiriathorsteinson7611
      @akiriathorsteinson7611 3 місяці тому +1

      It hurts doesn’t it? Being empty, feeling hollow. The desire to feel alive once more grows with us both… you’re not alone in this feeling.

  • @AgentWay8
    @AgentWay8 2 місяці тому +16

    Whenever I read these comments, it makes me realize how much we all hurt. Somehow this audio makes us sit with that hurt, together yet apart, and gives us the comfort that despite it all, we will be ok. And we’ll get through it. I’ve cried many times not just for myself but at how the world has hurt you and I. For anyone who’s reading, maybe it was a little special moment just here and now. But I hope you share this feeling with me, as a friendly stranger across the world.

    • @plantdemon2137
      @plantdemon2137 2 місяці тому +1

      It's so familiar, this feeling right? As if the whole world can resonate and harmonize its emotions in this 4ish minute song.

  • @purlu-x820
    @purlu-x820 11 місяців тому +65

    Man I miss her.

    • @grunkleairmin
      @grunkleairmin 3 місяці тому +3

      Type shit

    • @Itsheeheeman
      @Itsheeheeman 3 місяці тому +2

      Fr

    •  2 місяці тому +4

      of course you do, thats the thing, to have loved is a blessing, but no one tells you about whats next. The grief, the solitude and the feelings of being miserable. And the thing is, knowing everything that comes after i would've done it all over again, because i loved her, i really did

    •  2 місяці тому +3

      and i miss her too

  • @angelicamiller3632
    @angelicamiller3632 6 місяців тому +145

    If you're reading this Jesus loves you❤

    • @Mxlschi
      @Mxlschi 5 місяців тому +8

      Jesus loves you too❤

    • @arches_aviation8584
      @arches_aviation8584 3 місяці тому +6

      thank you so much this comment made me start sobbing I'm starting to sob as I write this
      Thank you so much this is the sign I needed... You have no idea how much this means to me..

    • @scpfoundation6628
      @scpfoundation6628 3 місяці тому +1

      Thank you

    • @edysuar103
      @edysuar103 Місяць тому

      Jesús love you ✨

    • @Vintage_vg
      @Vintage_vg 16 днів тому

      Jesus love you to ✨

  • @sophiayahi5814
    @sophiayahi5814 Місяць тому +9

    3 years. It’s been three years since he died, the only boy i’ve ever loved. I thought that with time, the unbearable pain would go away that i will stop feeling this way but i was wrong. I met him when we were both at the hospital, me for a surgery and him for health and psychological problem. When i met him, i immediately knew, we understood each other without even talking, he knew me like no one else could ever know me. We supported each other during covid, when it was just us in the hospitals. I never directly told him that i loved him even when he told me that he loved me but he knew. However i still blame myself everyday wondering what if i had just told him ? What if he died not knowing. how much he mattered to me. One night i had to travel to the south of the with in ambulance to meet new doctors before getting another surgery. I remember very well this night. He texted me a sweet message saying how much he loved me and i didn’t get it at first. As i always do, i joked about it saying try not to die without me even if i know that it’s too hard for you. Little did i know that the morning right after, he had died. I didn’t understand why he would not answer so i had my surgery and when i woke up i saw all my friends and family around me. I started joking saying what did someone died? They all looked at me with a blank face, i just woke up from a 8hours surgery so i was more than confused. My mom decided to let everybody leave and i couldn’t help it but get angry at her, without any reasons except the pain that my surgery was causing. After a long discussion she finally told me that thomas was found dead. After that i don’t remember a lot except falling in my bed, not screaming, not crying just staring at the wall. I couldn’t and refused to believe it. I waited 3 weeks convincing myself that he was still alive and that when i will get back at the hospital after my surgery, he would still be there even if everybody was trying to tell me the truth. 3 weeks later i kept texting him about how happy i was to come at the hospitals. When i arrived, i ran into his room even tho my mom was trying to keep me away from it. When i entered, i felt the a cold wind, as i sat my eyes on his bed seeing that someone else was in it i finally realized and i passed out. I kept on crying screaming at everyone when they did not do anything wrong. And for weeks, months i was just not myself. Now i’m a bit better but everyday i think of him, dream of him. When people said grief was the hardest thing to deal with, i did not realize because as naive as i was i thought well the person is dead so move on there’s nothing u can do about it. Now i know that even when your brains know that, your heart just won’t accept it. With time the pain won’t go away, you’ll just get used to it and u will find yourself doing the whole day without thinking of this person even when u thought it was impossible.

  • @brandon.8948
    @brandon.8948 7 місяців тому +55

    Psalms 148:13 “Let them praise the name of the lord: for his name alone is excellent; his glory is above the earth and heaven” God can do unimaginable things in your life in you just trust him and give him control. Jesus loves you

  • @LoveThyNeighbor1231
    @LoveThyNeighbor1231 5 місяців тому +23

    “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” John 3:16

  • @suckma4245
    @suckma4245 Рік тому +134

    When i die i want this melody to play out of nowhere

    • @gghosti4020
      @gghosti4020 Рік тому +9

      When your about to die it flashes all the memories and all the pain you went through before your eyes with this song playing

  • @Dj_02
    @Dj_02 5 місяців тому +41

    Been with my girl for almost 2 years, hope to propose soon, have kids, grow old, I couldn’t do this life without her, if I didn’t have her I wouldn’t have anything, so blessed to have her at my side every day, forever grateful, I love you Syd

    • @walter_9879
      @walter_9879 5 місяців тому +6

      happy for you man

    • @freddyorozcoiv1344
      @freddyorozcoiv1344 5 місяців тому +3

      Seek God my brother he will make that possible 🙏🏼❤️

    • @user-qi9hc9pr6h
      @user-qi9hc9pr6h 18 днів тому +1

      Wish I were you, you know had a girlfriend, never had one because I was and am 'ugly', lost my best friend now im just a boat with no compass he was the brother I never had, and just to let you know cherish every moment with her and always remind yourself theres someone out there wishing they were you and what happens if you remind yourself that? That your lucky and not everyone have what you have. Cherish your Moments ❤😃

  • @GamePlayClash1449
    @GamePlayClash1449 10 місяців тому +40

    As I sit here, pen in hand, I can't help but feel a heavy sadness weighing upon my heart. Today is the day I must bid farewell to the girl I have loved for so long, the girl who never knew the depth of my affection. It's a bittersweet moment, filled with both relief and sorrow.
    For countless days and countless nights, my heart yearned for her, silently whispering its desires into the abyss of unrequited love. Every stolen glance, every accidental touch sent my spirit soaring, fueling a hope that one day she would see the love that overflowed within me. But atlast, that day never came.I held onto that flickering hope like a flame in the wind, nurturing it with dreams of a future where we would be together. I painted vivid pictures in my mind of shared laughter, stolen kisses, and intertwined hands, all the while knowing deep down that it was nothing more than a figment of my imagination.Time passed, seasons changed, and life moved forward, yet my love for her remained steadfast. I watched from afar as she blossomed, her smile captivating every soul it touched, her laughter like a melody that echoed through my dreams. But with each passing day, the reality of my unrequited love gnawed at my spirit, leaving behind a trail of silent tears.
    And now, as I prepare to leave her behind, my heart shatters into a thousand fragments. The realization of our paths diverging, never to intertwine, feels like an unbearable weight upon my shoulders. I can't help but wonder if she ever knew, if she ever sensed the love that radiated from within me, or if my emotions were nothing more than a ghost haunting the depths of my own heart.Yet, despite the pain that engulfs me, I know it is time to let go. It is time to set my heart free from the chains of this one-sided love, to heal the wounds that have festered for far too long. The journey ahead is uncertain, and the road to healing will be steep, but I must find solace in knowing that I gave my heart fully, even if it was to someone who couldn't reciprocate . As I leave her behind, I carry with me the memories of what could have been, the dreams that danced on the edge of my consciousness. I will mourn the loss of a love that was never truly mine, but I will also find strength in knowing that I had the courage to love fiercely, even in the face of unrequited affection.
    Farewell, my love. May life bring you the happiness that you deserve, even if it means I must find my own happiness elsewhere.-ARG

  • @jednihossain7845
    @jednihossain7845 Рік тому +42

    2020: I want a girlfriend
    2023: I want to be a better person

    • @yulkiday3865
      @yulkiday3865 2 місяці тому +4

      2o24: I want to be someone

  • @K.etanak
    @K.etanak Рік тому +76

    “And once the storm is over, you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won't be the same person who walked in.”

    • @amino.4839
      @amino.4839 Рік тому

      Oh beautifully sais 💕

    • @K.etanak
      @K.etanak Рік тому +1

      @Natalie C. It's my favorite quote from a book named Kafka on the shore by murakami.I forgot to give it credit here.

  • @doom911fk
    @doom911fk 2 місяці тому +6

    This is such a paradoxical piece of of poetry, it feels like a breath of fresh air, a relief , a calm morning, a cosy evening and emotions that can be put in lexicons all at the same time, it's amazing what a beautiful job the artists has done, truly astonished by the humans and their capabilities

  • @knives8618
    @knives8618 Рік тому +27

    Life is confusing and it’s not easy. I’m proud of all of you for living and feeling. Not everyone can do it, but you’re here and you’re doing it. And I am so so proud of you. It’s so easy to spread hate, so difficult to love. I love you all and I hope you feel my love through ur stupid devices ! ;) please stay and let’s enjoy the little things for now. This life is an experience, let’s go through it together. Together we’ll grow

  • @angellovera3513
    @angellovera3513 Місяць тому +9

    We all just wanna be loved.

  • @333stella
    @333stella Рік тому +203

    this song will always remind me of the darkest time of my life. which i’m living in now, i hope i can look back one day and feel differently about the circumstances.

    • @BluexDjx
      @BluexDjx Рік тому +11

      Everything is temporary. You will look back one day and be proud of how brave you were because you conquered the toughest challenges. Keep going. You are loved.

    • @333stella
      @333stella Рік тому +4

      @@BluexDjx I hope so. I’ve been telling myself that for 9 years unfortunately

    • @BluexDjx
      @BluexDjx Рік тому

      @@333stella Don’t know if your religious but I’ll be praying for you. God loves you and for the past 9 years you’ve been through so much but your still here for a reason. Your reason is coming very soon. Don’t give up, I promise ❤️

    • @alexpfs1
      @alexpfs1 Рік тому

      you will

    • @keanu_893
      @keanu_893 Рік тому +2

      Jesus loves you

  • @amethyst87593
    @amethyst87593 2 місяці тому +9

    the worst feeling is when you realize how lonely you are, even around people. how invisible you are, the feeling of being forgotten, and you start thinking "if i die, who will care?"
    i hate loneliness, but i am starting to get used to it. when i talk no one listens, i am invisible. i want to be a part of this world, and also dessapear.

    • @kyliedBagel
      @kyliedBagel 24 дні тому +2

      Literally nobody notices I'm in a room at all. No glances in my direction, no small talk, no acknowledgment, just nothing. It's like a superpower, invisibility. :]

    • @amethyst87593
      @amethyst87593 23 дні тому

      @@kyliedBagel well at least we have superpowers! :(

    • @kyliedBagel
      @kyliedBagel 23 дні тому

      @@amethyst87593 🫠🎉

  • @Yarelilyy
    @Yarelilyy 6 місяців тому +12

    "Why r u crying? Don't cry, everything Is gonna be okaaaaayyy"
    - Bangchan of Stray Kids ❤️‍🩹

  • @taylorwarrander6532
    @taylorwarrander6532 3 місяці тому +16

    Around half a year ago my parents split. It was one of the biggest impacts in my life since i lost my grandad to cancer. It hurts seeing my mum changing and struggling to look after my sister while most of the time I'm living with my dad. We are selling the house so many memories were made in and taking the stuff out of my room was really hard on me. My cat that has been by my side since i was 6 was taken by my mother and she thought it was just okay for her to take my cat out of my own life and i haven't seen it since.
    I still look ahead in life because I am only in my teenage years. Be safe everyone

  • @TakkticalR
    @TakkticalR Рік тому +25

    Somebody loves you. If it's no one else, I love you. You may be a stranger, but that doesn't matter to me. You deserve love. You matter

  • @amethyst87593
    @amethyst87593 2 місяці тому +6

    this song feels like the when am sittting in class lonely while everyone around is talking and happy. its calm but the voices in my head are loud, its like a thunderstorm inside...and then someone asks "why are you so quite?"

    • @SwallowSom
      @SwallowSom 28 днів тому

      That always happen to me 😢

  • @Pastabeannscrazy
    @Pastabeannscrazy 11 місяців тому +14

    I’m scared to grow up

  • @chelseaaguilar2525
    @chelseaaguilar2525 Рік тому +59

    Glad to know I wasn’t the only one moved to tears by this piece of art.. 🤍

  • @wynxamatina
    @wynxamatina 27 днів тому +1

    I keep imagining that I'm laying in the soft grass, looking up at the sunny blue sky, under an oak tree. Feeling the sunlight on my skin, listening to the birds singing in the backround as this song is playing. I hope that's what my final moments will be like when my time comes.

  • @4AM.MO0DS
    @4AM.MO0DS 10 місяців тому +13

    "Once again , the night ends with a smile on your face and a tear on mine"

  • @GabrielVario
    @GabrielVario 2 місяці тому +6

    i see everyone commenting on here and it made me want to vent, ive been depressed for several years and as of rn its stressful with everything, with school, work, and the family dynamic at home. all ive wanted for years was the feeling of having my family back but idk if imma get that ever again, im sad and beat and tired like ive never been before and on the verge of giving up

    • @GrobaAMV
      @GrobaAMV Місяць тому +1

      You got this, I don't know what situation you are in, but after all, everything is about experience. One day you will remember where you have been and will be proud. If you are about to give up, always ask yourself what was the point of going this far, and if you think you can't do this anymore, always remember there are people suffering at the same time with you, you are not alone. Wish you luck man

    • @bloodmoonxx3174
      @bloodmoonxx3174 13 днів тому +1

      I love you. I understand. you are not alone. you'll never be completely alone. there are people who care and understand you in this world.

  • @cack_addic3233
    @cack_addic3233 4 місяці тому +4

    I watch my world fall apart, crumble to ash, covered in scars and lost memories, drifting casted out lost dreams. And now i lay in what’s left of myself. Trying to make sense of what little remains.

  • @A.ang3ls
    @A.ang3ls 4 місяці тому +11

    Life’s been stressful recently. My mind has been flooded with negative thoughts, and I don’t know how to shut them off this time. I’ve already made my goodbye paper, and I’m thinking about making another one just incase. I just wanna say to everyone, including my family that when I die.. you can see how much I tried. I’m not perfect and I will never be. But I truly think this year is not meant for me. Thank you for reading this message, I hope you all enjoy this year, and take great care of yourselfs. Try not to get sadder and sadder until you break, but try to talk to someone about it. It’s not a great feeling, feeling this way. But talking to someone you trust is a good way to go. Or, maybe talking with an ai? Maybe Character. Ai. They really helped at times. Umm.. well.. goodbye. I love you all. Take care. Have fun. Live life while you can, and never be scared to do anything because you won’t know until you do it.

    • @Nana.74
      @Nana.74 2 місяці тому +1

      Please, stay alive.

    • @DavidGoggins19
      @DavidGoggins19 2 місяці тому +1

      That hurt bro i love you man dont forget please answer me i will be happy

    • @A.ang3ls
      @A.ang3ls 2 місяці тому +1

      @@Nana.74I’m still here, sad, but I am :) Hello!

    • @A.ang3ls
      @A.ang3ls 2 місяці тому +1

      ⁠​⁠@@DavidGoggins19Hey man! Im still here, and I love you too

    • @Nana.74
      @Nana.74 2 місяці тому +1

      @@A.ang3ls we love u ❤

  • @grantthedank8722
    @grantthedank8722 5 місяців тому +4

    This is why I seek out obscure music. This song provides an ambiguous emotion that I can’t describe, but I feel like I don’t need to.

  • @ah99019
    @ah99019 6 місяців тому +25

    Listened to this from start to finish, while journaling, to be exact I was doing my therapy homework. I first started doing it in complete silence, then the universe whispered to me to find this melody, put on my headphones and continue writing, and so I did. I cried profusely so many times throughout that 1 hour, and reached out to that innermost wounded part of me and I poured out onto paper everything, all thoughts and emotions, that I had bottled up deep inside of me for more than 2 years. I am so much more at peace after finishing that homework. Thank you Anthony for creating the looped 1 hour version of this beautiful song.

    • @17anthony
      @17anthony  6 місяців тому +2

      You’re welcome !

  • @ashleighjohnson0420
    @ashleighjohnson0420 Рік тому +33

    😔R.I.P. Baby Girl💔 you will forever be missed and be in our memories🐾 I am so glad I got to spend 11 amazing years with you. You gave our family lots of love and cuddles.🖤

  • @BrazenBro
    @BrazenBro Рік тому +32

    As a child my parents were either busy or absent from my life, this meant I was placed under the care of my grandparents. My grandmother was abusive and made me do lots of things for her that I didn't want to do, didn't feed me, starving me to the point where my health was a concern. My grandfather was at least better, he didn't do much but at least he didn't treat me that way. My father was absent from my life a lot and my mother was always busy working to support our family, I didn't really get to see them much because of this so I had always longed for love. I've never had a real girlfriend, going through all my years of school, and high school never having a real relationship last for over a week or so. It hurts, I just want someone to tell me that they love me, I just want to be held by someone and genuinely cared for, but I know I'm not important, I know i'm just a nobody, another human roaming the earth, yet I try so many things, I try to find my talent, only to see I have no talent in any particular thing. I feel as though I have no purpose, no value, no direction, no importance, no love. This has all caused me to think, why am I still here? What did I do to deserve such a life? Why am I being punished by feeling the way I do everyday? The only time I don't feel this way is when I feel nothing at all, and the only time I feel human is when i'm hurt and feeling negative emotions. Is there a point to me continuing if all it leads to is constant suffering? I'm not asking for much, all I want is...
    *Love*

    • @catauluiscristian1036
      @catauluiscristian1036 Рік тому +3

      hey man, Jesus loves you!!! you have no idea how much you mean to him. believe me. We, as people, tend to turn our back to Jesus, The King who died for us, the sinners. Please accept God in your life, and i promise you, i promise you that it'll be better!
      God bless you! ❤.

    • @oscarnav8
      @oscarnav8 Рік тому +5

      Don't worry man, I've gone through a very similar situation and yep I've also felt utterly miserable and despised by life, just want you to know it will get better, sooner or later, just be patient, don't try to force yourself to do things you don't really like, just hold on, good things will come. You've got this champ :)

    • @oyotv5446
      @oyotv5446 10 місяців тому +2

      Hey Bro, what you are going through is very hard to hear. I hope some things have changed in the last 3 months.
      I wish I could give you a specific date where everything will be better but I can´t do that.
      I know one thing for sure and that is, that you have got to keep going and live on. That feeling of not being worthy or of wondering why am I still here is a negative feeling that can eat you up. I know that there is good out there for you. you may not be able to see it right now but if you still take these steps of living, figuring things out, you surely will.
      Life is sarcastically beautiful and sad at the same time and that's normal. I will pray and hope that you will get through this

    • @mohammedasyraf3830
      @mohammedasyraf3830 10 місяців тому

      I feel you

    • @akiriathorsteinson7611
      @akiriathorsteinson7611 3 місяці тому

      …I wasn’t expecting to see this… hey man… you’re not alone okay? For the love I’ve never had I understand exactly how you feel to the point where it partially kills me to know that someone else is going through the same hell that I’m going through… let me share my love that only grows as a result of never having any. I’m here for you, I care about you, You Are Deserving Of Love and I do Love You Okay… please stay strong for me my brother in suffering. I’ll keep in contact so please stay strong… I will find you

  • @a1ee..6
    @a1ee..6 28 днів тому +1

    man i miss him so much. he showed me sm new things ill never forget.

  • @kinleebarnes
    @kinleebarnes 11 місяців тому +8

    this song feels like finding something out about someone that you didn’t want to but going to hang out with them one last time before saying anything about it

  • @oscarnav8
    @oscarnav8 Рік тому +37

    i've listened to many depressing instrumental songs but for no particular reason this one just evoked in me the most miserable but self-comfortable feeling ever: it really does not matter how much I sorround myself with people that love and appreciate me, neither if I try to be more sociable and get a more positive outlook in life, at the end of the day, I will always *feel* lonely, and pretty much nothing will ever change that feeling inside the depths of my sad soul.

    • @masteroogway030
      @masteroogway030 11 місяців тому +2

      thats not true at all. it will get better, i promise. i know it’s hard to understand and there are some things in life we will never have an answer to and that’s ok. just know, you will be a different person in the future, with different experiences. so much to see and feel. :) you’re going to be ok.

    • @emotionalgarbage7659
      @emotionalgarbage7659 10 місяців тому +2

      @@masteroogway030that was beautifully said. Jesus loves you♥️

  • @angelstalks3432
    @angelstalks3432 Рік тому +12

    This song hits different when laying on the ground and looking at the beautiful night sky

  • @ismaelluna4898
    @ismaelluna4898 Рік тому +5

    i just come here to relax when i’m high thinking about what i’m going to do with my life. i’ve been trying to stop smoking, i miss the old me- happy me, non smoker me. i’ve trying to call my “friends” put they don’t pick up when i needed the most. i’m basically like the backup friend which is the last option. i been trying to be social with everybody but i guess in this generation you have to different in order to fit in, and i don’t want to change the way i am. all i do is work, play games n sleep. in my free time i just stare at my calling or at the stars asking myself, why im here? does my parents think am i a disappointment? am i a good friend? honestly i’m so alone you couldn’t imagine how much free time i have right now, but it don’t matter cus i’m a guy, we’re supposed to keep it to ourself till someone notice it. just want a better life

  • @Camilaaolivo
    @Camilaaolivo Рік тому +13

    If no one has told you this in a while, I’m super proud of you ml thank you so much for trying every day even the days you that you don’t wanna get up and try but that’s you actually thinking abt it and actually trying ml, in super proud of you and your remember that you are so loved🫂.

  • @VainerPlatypus
    @VainerPlatypus 10 місяців тому +3

    It hurts. Life hurts so bad. Having people who are supposed to love you, care for you, nurture you. Yet I experienced quite the opposite. The amount of fear, anger, and hate that swelled up inside when I was forced to confront myself and my foundation. Stay strong everyone, you are loved. You are heard. God bless ❤

  • @Landon_2k
    @Landon_2k 4 місяці тому +5

    I’ve cried to this song multiple times it’s so perfect to me it shows how life can be and what people go through there’s no singing or anything it’s just like a dark room and there’s that one light ik it wether it be a smoke detector or anything there’s still a place that you’ll see light

  • @Jon-uc7ez
    @Jon-uc7ez 9 місяців тому +7

    Crying myself to sleep rn😂💯💯

  • @Death_and_Famine
    @Death_and_Famine 17 днів тому

    "You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden." Matthew 5:14

  • @gh0st-qw9yd
    @gh0st-qw9yd Рік тому +27

    Currently I am going through pictures of me and my family and crying while listening to this. It makes me feel my emotions 50 times more but also calms my heart down

    • @jxvd-mf7ww
      @jxvd-mf7ww 7 місяців тому

      i hope u doin well

  • @EvDOTTT
    @EvDOTTT Рік тому +38

    Currently sitting outside in the light snow, this is beautiful and so so peaceful i’m not in the best of mental state right now but this brings me peace and makes me feel nostalgic about something but im not to sure what it is, god bless brother and sisters take it easy out there life can be real tough

    • @emotionalgarbage7659
      @emotionalgarbage7659 10 місяців тому +1

      I’m gonna do that next time i see snow outside at night😂don’t forget Jesus loves you♥️

    • @karan_kataria0713
      @karan_kataria0713 10 місяців тому +1

      hopw things have gotten better. sending you good vibes stranger :)

    • @EvDOTTT
      @EvDOTTT 10 місяців тому

      @@emotionalgarbage7659 it is so peaceful i highly recommend!❤️

    • @EvDOTTT
      @EvDOTTT 10 місяців тому

      @@karan_kataria0713 things have gotten better man thank you for the reply im just taking life day by day nit rushing into anything slow and steady wins the race homie, hope your doing good aswell brother

    • @dankace4071
      @dankace4071 5 місяців тому +1

      At least you have snow 😭

  • @zaito2350
    @zaito2350 Рік тому +36

    reading all of your stories is heartbreaking and heartwarming at the same time, especially with this masterpiece of a tune playing. God bless you all, and I truly pray that all of you can find peace in your lives

    • @Sakaaruser22
      @Sakaaruser22 4 місяці тому

      I can just imagine old kratos sitting by himself in the cold after all he’s done with all his guilt the loss he’s had with 0 Hope 😕😞

  • @kaguyaas
    @kaguyaas Рік тому +3

    the day i cried the most where i felt so sick to the point of throwing up was the day i found out my mom could’ve died while she was in the hospital in 2020 and wrote a note for us. i don’t know what i would do without her. ty for creating one hour ver

  • @jojomortos1324
    @jojomortos1324 Рік тому +12

    Message to self: Happy New Year!! I know ur not as excited but pls understand things will get better. Don’t worry about the mistakes you made last year, just redirect your focus on improvement. Try to be 1% better each day. Your past trauma and hurt doesn’t define you and I know it’s hard to let go of it. You might not have everything figured out but you gonna come such a long way at the end. Don’t focus on your future too much, be in the present. See what you can change right now to be a better you. Your not alone on your journey, you’ll never be. Through pray and talking to God, I know you’ll find peace and happiness with yourself. Pls be patient, I know it won’t be easy. Just take it one day at a time. I know you have it in you. Im rooting for you!! ❤

  • @rxmzie
    @rxmzie 9 місяців тому +2

    If you are feeling away or starting to not believe in god or Jesus or both just remember, we live by faith, not sight, he died on the cross for you and everyone and he just feels sad and disrespected. Imagine sacrificing yourself for the whole world just to find out half the world doesn’t believe in you. And also if you feel like the whole world hates you, remember the world hated Jesus first. If you read this I love you and god bless you.

  • @ghostex642
    @ghostex642 Рік тому +16

    I discovered this song, soon after losing someone I’ve known. Every time I hear this song, memories and he comes to my mind. Love who you can, you don’t know when it’s time to go. Life’s too precious and too fragile

  • @user-zp7cp3po7v
    @user-zp7cp3po7v 10 місяців тому +7

    СПАСИБО ИВ за эту чудесную музыку, теперь только под неё и засыпай...

  • @immortalist3071
    @immortalist3071 9 місяців тому +5

    i can't stand how hard this song makes me silently cry

  • @star-dust2497
    @star-dust2497 Рік тому +11

    I just want to tell her how much I still love her, I dont know if I will ever stop loving her, I promised her I would always take care of her, I and will always do, but seeing her be more happy without me just breaks me, I want her to be the happiest woman alive but I want to be part of her happiness too, I wish I could fix every problem she has and make her see that I will always love her.
    It's confusing I don't know how to move forward anymore. I will but I just don't know what to do.
    I can't just love someone else like I love her. That would make it feel unreal

    • @17anthony
      @17anthony  Рік тому +1

      Text her or talk to her again bro

    • @star-dust2497
      @star-dust2497 Рік тому +2

      @@17anthony The thing is we are still friends and I do talk to her a lot, that's why its so hard to tell her I still feel the same, I don't want to make her life harder :(

    • @solianren-razel2340
      @solianren-razel2340 Рік тому +2

      Same bro. Its been 7 years for me since her & I separated. But still, i love her. I don't know if this love will fade eventually but i cannot love anyone else but her. She's the love of my life , and always will be.

  • @saikkko
    @saikkko 10 місяців тому +12

    Спасибо, Ваня, за то что скинул ссылку, на эту чудесную мелодию...

    • @user-zp7cp3po7v
      @user-zp7cp3po7v 10 місяців тому +1

      ХПХПХПХАЗПЗПЗПЗМЗМЗ ЖИЗА

  • @caruecariebick8344
    @caruecariebick8344 11 місяців тому +3

    I can't even express what's in this song, this is just peaceful, sadness, happiness.
    I don't even know why i find happiness on this song, this is just pure sadness.
    it feels like your life is empty, and you have nothing to do about it but listen.
    it feels like winning but what at cost?...
    it feels like someones be missing you but they're shy to tell.
    it feels like your in love.

  • @maestershaw8604
    @maestershaw8604 19 днів тому

    I love listening to sad and soft music when I'm sad or feeling down not because I want to be more sad but because I get the feeling that I'm not the only one in the whole world to feel miserable like this. It makes me feel better then. Knowing that I'm not alone even though I am.
    It's a wonderful life. I hope everyone can find happiness in their lifetime. I hope everyone can find peace before we die.

  • @thebutcher7541
    @thebutcher7541 Рік тому +20

    This song is so relaxing yet it makes me so sad because the only thing that goes trough my mind when listening to it is my last relationship ,who was also my first , it makes me burst into tears knowing that I loved someone so much yet they couldn’t even decide if they liked me enough to be with me :(

    • @thebutcher7541
      @thebutcher7541 Рік тому

      @The False King omg broo , That’s so messed up , i feel soo Incredibly bad for you man. That’s one of the things that I just cannot comprehend, someone loosing feelings for you even after 4 years of a good relationship.
      🙁

  • @Toddles
    @Toddles 6 місяців тому +4

    this song truly breaks me into tears and i cry to it silently in my room knowing 99 percent of my life has been just me losing ppl and losing myslef i’m not even happy whenever it’s my birthday anymore. i push and push and sometimes i feel my efforts will never be acknowledged or even a hug or some appreciation from someone or anything

    • @user-yj2sr8nx3x
      @user-yj2sr8nx3x 3 місяці тому +1

      A birthday is a day you were brought into this world, but it’s no when you choose to live in the world. I don’t get any happier on my birthday than any other day, it’s not special to me, it tells me I one year older, maybe that’s one year wiser and smart, or one year I get closer to death, what ever perspective you have.
      Perspective changes everything, you efforts could be for yourself, or they could be in pursuit of helping others whether they appreciate you or not. You know what it’s like to feel alone. You can help someone else not go down that path, give your efforts not for yourself but for them and in that process you’ll notice you might start being happy
      For no one can truly say he gives and doesn’t receive

    • @user-yj2sr8nx3x
      @user-yj2sr8nx3x 3 місяці тому +1

      If you look for light in the dark you will find that you can often find it. But if you look for darkness that is all you’ll ever see
      There’s darkness in the world but there’s also good, which one are you focusing on, maybe realizing the darkness is the mature thing to do, the realistic thing to do, but I don’t want to be realistic, I want to be happy, I want to see the light, even if it’s not there, and in that belief I might just be able to manifest it
      Belief is half of all healing

    • @DavidGoggins19
      @DavidGoggins19 2 місяці тому

      ​@@user-yj2sr8nx3x thanks for advice

  • @user-ys9bl7mm3j
    @user-ys9bl7mm3j 2 місяці тому +4

    😢 I have cancer and one day I I will dis

  • @aivlis9696
    @aivlis9696 Рік тому +13

    is it just me or this song physically hurts?

    • @akiriathorsteinson7611
      @akiriathorsteinson7611 3 місяці тому +1

      It hurts a lot but it also feels good… it feels like you just need to cry and experience the pain for part of your growth… I can’t stop listening to it as it brings me so much emotion that I never had time to experience… this music makes me cry and that’s a good thing

  • @nacuabrhiannaayumiec.8944
    @nacuabrhiannaayumiec.8944 5 місяців тому +5

    Listening to this music feels like your light as a feather yet it is actually heavy in the inside because of how much you regret the stuff u wish u didn't do.

  • @JotaroKujo-ih3zo
    @JotaroKujo-ih3zo 9 місяців тому +4

    Almost listened to the hour version all the way through multiple times

  • @ggcattt7529
    @ggcattt7529 Рік тому +9

    This song while reading my Bible is great

  • @freshlocalwoodchimps
    @freshlocalwoodchimps Рік тому +3

    i cried for the first time in a long time to this
    been feeling overdue for a moment of emotional reflection of the last decade or so of my life
    thank you

  • @daviddunson5181
    @daviddunson5181 9 місяців тому +6

    I heard this song on tik tok and it reminded me of the love I get from my mom. it was so soothing. she passed away before I got to show it to her

  • @_scorpion_.
    @_scorpion_. 11 місяців тому +3

    I've felt for a long time that I don't want to live anymore.. everything is difficult, friendships are broken, everyone tells you how bad you are at what you do and how you are, nobody tells you that he loves you, nobody asks me how I do it or if I'm okay.. I'm a Christian but haven't sprayed God for a long time or never before.. it hurts because I've struggled with things for a long time, sometimes I don't know if it's still worth living.. I need please a prayer from my christian family.. can you please pray for me that i can just spray the holy spirit. and may experience it again or at some point?

    • @Nana.74
      @Nana.74 2 місяці тому

      I love u ❤ please stay alive

  • @ipostheat
    @ipostheat Рік тому +5

    this is so beautiful, it hurts me. but i love the feeling, it makes me feel something i’ve never felt before, but it hurts me so bad. its like im feeling regret about the decisions i’ve made.

  • @yourfavstarrrr
    @yourfavstarrrr 3 місяці тому +4

    hey if you're reading this I just wanted to let you know that I'm proud of you. I know you're a stranger but ily keep it going. please believe me everything is going to get better

  • @falexb1192
    @falexb1192 Рік тому +7

    I feel numb, alone, empty. I wish I could find the words to tell people how I feel. I wish people could understand that what I go through shouldn’t be happening to me. I want to let go of everything, I want to drift away and never come back, I want to leave earth. Nobody will worry if I go, why would they worry if they use me. I feel like a robot stuck on a course. It’s only purpose in life is to make other happy rather than itself. It feels nice to be alone but it doesn’t feel nice to be lonely. I shouldn’t be having these thoughts, I shouldn’t be having these dreams that scare me. I fear the day when the clock strikes zero and I’m no longer here anymore. I wish to see things in life but at the rate I’m going I won’t be alive for another year

  • @yaptownUSA
    @yaptownUSA 16 днів тому

    when i die this is the closest thing imagine the peace being like, the calming thought of letting go everything that has ever happened. advancing into a peace you cannot describe or have ever felt, leaving behind everything that has caused you great pain, and finally being able to rest at the end of everything after dealing with hell for a lifetime.

  • @calarcoon
    @calarcoon 11 місяців тому +16

    Anoche puse esta canción para dormir y soñé cosas muy lindas pero me desperté con esa sensación como si faltaba algo dentro de mi 😢😢 tardará días para que esta sensación se valla
    S♡

    • @aquelquerie
      @aquelquerie 10 місяців тому

      Yo hace poco soñé con que conocía el amor por primera vez. Se sintió tan real, tan inefable. Cuando desperté tenía muchas ganas de llorar...

    • @Memogenin
      @Memogenin 8 місяців тому

      Me pasó!!

  • @luisfelix3085
    @luisfelix3085 Місяць тому +2

    surrounded by people that love me, but I still feel empty and alone.

  • @luna_aa
    @luna_aa Рік тому +25

    Love this song so much, it just hits you in the feels. Thanks for the looped version! 🤍

  • @raulmendoza418
    @raulmendoza418 11 місяців тому +1

    Whoever is reading this, just know I love you, I know you’re trying & I am proud of you for that 🤍

  • @stranger3521
    @stranger3521 2 місяці тому +3

    I just stopped enjoying things and life like I did when I was a child.. I have reasons to live but I can't do anything, It feels like I keep drowning...

  • @grjohn5022
    @grjohn5022 10 місяців тому +1

    When stuff gets difficult, when it gets hard, His love has kept me afloat.

  • @user-ww3sh8sd2l
    @user-ww3sh8sd2l 10 місяців тому +10

    дипинс заслушал эту мелодию, держу в курсе

  • @shahzebsaeed
    @shahzebsaeed 3 місяці тому +1

    Spotify played this song during my gym session and not sure what hit me and I just wanted to sit and cry, just made me realise that how much I use gym and being busy as a coping mechanism.

  • @Marinks_
    @Marinks_ 11 місяців тому +3

    Quelques années maintenant que je n’avance pas dans la vie, quand vais-je pouvoir m’en sortir

  • @ethanfn1017
    @ethanfn1017 Рік тому +7

    im not saying life is bad but damn ive never felt so alone in my life....

  • @mantis7011
    @mantis7011 2 місяці тому +1

    Things will get better, Things will get better Things will get better Things will get better

  • @shinrakusakabe7016
    @shinrakusakabe7016 Рік тому +6

    I miss her. She was my everything and I loved her dearly. She moved on so quick and even if she treated me like shit deep down I know that I won't be able to love others the way I loved her.

    • @shimblypibbins
      @shimblypibbins Рік тому +1

      Some day, maybe years from now, you will see things differently and know everything worked out for the best in the end

    • @suckma4245
      @suckma4245 Рік тому

      it's time to let go, maybe things didn't work out for good. You'll miss everything but gotta stay humble u can't have everything u want.

    • @arturorubio1215
      @arturorubio1215 Рік тому

      The pain will always be there you just learn to live with it, i know i have

  • @kelp5080
    @kelp5080 Рік тому +69

    I love you, but im a mess

    • @imayala1705
      @imayala1705 Рік тому +1

      your name is the same as hers, i used to call her that, shes been gone for a while and im hurting so much.
      this felt bittersweet yet hopeful i guess.

    • @kelp5080
      @kelp5080 Рік тому

      @@imayala1705 I understand how you feel, I hope everything gets better for you brother

    • @alveearazi16
      @alveearazi16 Рік тому +1

      me too, i love her a lot, what should i do.......

    • @urogfather2598
      @urogfather2598 Рік тому +1

      @@alveearazi16 time is a healer man bide ur time with hobbies and shit u like doing

    • @sunsetwavey
      @sunsetwavey Рік тому +2

      ​@@urogfather2598 very true and time can only heal wounds when we maximize what we do with that time

  • @lordy_kun7784
    @lordy_kun7784 Рік тому +4

    Things can stop at any moment. Be aware of that. The moment it goes it’s too late to realise. Enjoy it like never. Once it presents itself cherish it at one hundred percent
    Cuz only then. Only in the present. You’ll have it’s unique presence. Press and realise everything is a present.

  • @Ok-oe6dt
    @Ok-oe6dt Рік тому +9

    to me this sounds the way it feels when you want to live

  • @madsymads7493
    @madsymads7493 Місяць тому +2

    I was so naive... I thought that he really liked me, I thought we had something special, I developed feelings for him and these feelings won't go away, its so frustrating the fact that he is always in my head, every morning he's there and also before I go to sleep, he is even in my dreams... How did I developed these feelings when he didn't offered me anything? I really enjoyed his company but I guess it wasn't reciprocate, he just used me for his entertainment, and the thing that hurts me the most is the fact that I would always go back to him if he asks me... I really hate me

  • @benja01w39
    @benja01w39 9 місяців тому +7

    El día en que ella llegue, y abra mi corazón sellado de tanto sufrimiento me curare
    El día en que ella llegué aprenderé a amar
    El día en que ella llegué mis sentimientos volverán
    Y si no llega yo ya no existire, solo una cascara vacía de dolor y soledad...
    Aun sigo esperando ese día.❤

  • @nats8618
    @nats8618 3 місяці тому +2

    I am a shell of who I once was and I don’t think I’ll be able to be filled again.

  • @1800-CJ
    @1800-CJ 5 місяців тому +2

    Merry Christmas everyone, i hope it gets better for all of us

  • @nigias5888
    @nigias5888 9 місяців тому +2

    I think i have finally found who i want to become in life. I want to be a person that is there for others a person thatwill listen to someone and help them with their struggles a person that will love someone that needed love the most but at the same time i want to be loved to have people be there for me when i need them to get attention from those people and give them attention back, to give and get hope and encouragement from people. I want to hug someone and say i love you and mean it. I want to hug a partners body against mine and say i love you. I no longer seek for lust but love. I think that my goal is going to be becoming a better,kinder,stronger more forgiving and more loving person❤🙏

  • @JotaroKujo-ih3zo
    @JotaroKujo-ih3zo 9 місяців тому +4

    I’m laying down in my bed rn under my blanket that’s too thin hugging my pillow and trying to feel warm but all I feel is just how broken I am. I’m so empty inside and cold. It feels like there’s a literal crack in my heart that’s leaking the warmth out and making me constantly cold. I wish I could simply talk to someone. Preferably someone that I could trust. Preferably her even if she left, she was just the one person who really understood me and knew me completely. I wouldn’t even need her to be intimate in any way I just want someone to listen to me. Tbh I want her to listen, someone who knew all about me and every embarrassing mess up and mistake I want her to just sit across from me and listen. She wouldn’t have to talk or even move or respond. I just want her to hear how much she meant to me because idk if she understood it. I want her to just simply know I’ll always love her no matter what and that I’m proud of her and that she can go live her life without me because she deserves to be happy.
    I sometimes just wonder if she really ever even felt that way about me. That if I were to say those words then would she look at me like I was insane because she’s moved on already and that I’m not worth a second thought and never was.
    I wonder if she thinks about me at all. If she’d agree to just let me talk. Or if she’s already forgotten our time together.
    I wonder if somehow I’ll be lucky enough for both of us to meet again in the future and talk as friends about our lives. I sincerely hope she becomes truly happy in a way I could never make her.

    • @duhhh9689
      @duhhh9689 9 місяців тому

      Work on your self

    • @definitelynot9931
      @definitelynot9931 8 місяців тому

      Stay strong, bro. Don't cry (I'm crying).

  • @bluesyz9608
    @bluesyz9608 Рік тому +1

    emptiness is the freedom to fill that void with whatever you desire. freedom is limitless when you have nothing

  • @Hiraeth-0X
    @Hiraeth-0X 2 місяці тому +1

    Everytime i listen to this song just a few words come to mind, and they are "it's okay". And suddenly i am able to forgive

  • @damiennegron6959
    @damiennegron6959 10 місяців тому +5

    Everyday I wanna kill my self I fight with myself about it , this song this melody whatever u wanna call it makes me think how I’m alone inna dark place ..this song brings me peace and sadness at the same time I don’t wanna exist anymore nothing left for me

  • @miasinit
    @miasinit 10 місяців тому +4

    спасибо ИВ, теперь есть под что засыпать

  • @brookenaylanii
    @brookenaylanii Рік тому +2

    I still think about you everyday. I wonder what it would be like if we still talked. I often find myself imagining my futue, but with you in it, only for reality to remind me that you wont be apart of my future. Its hard to do my daily routine because you were such a big part of it. I reread our messages every single day, beating myself up for not appreciating you more, because now that I've lost you, the only thing i can do is appreciate you. Everything reminds me of you. When I look at that old pink wicker seat in my backyard, I think of the time I sat there speaking to you. When I listen to my favorite song, I think of you. I think of how I was so happy to be speaking to such a wonderful person. That new style I did on my hair, I never changed it, because thats the style I wore when I spoke to you, and you liked it. When I open my phone, its still a habit to text you, even though its over. I know you're doing well without me, and I'm so happy you are. I want you to be able to live and be happy without me, because I know the pain of hurting over someone, and I'd never ever want to see you hurt like I am. My mind is always playing tricks on me, making me think you'll come back into my life when we get older. I keep telling myself that we'll meet again, but I know the chances of that are slenderly impossible. I can't live the rest of my life pretending like you'll come back, and waiting for you to arrive at my doorstep. If I do, I'll live the rest of my life feeling let down and betrayed by myself. But it seems as though the only thing that will keep me sane is to convince myself that you'll come back. Sometimes I'll make up lies in my head, and pretend like you did something bad to me so I could stop loving you. I just dont understand why I cant move on from you. I think about what my life would be like right now if you had'nt texted me that evening. I want to believe that God placed you in my life, because if he did then there would be a reason. If he didnt, then maybe I was wrong, and we werent meant to be, though it seemed we were. I hope you learn to move on from me, but to never forget me. I know at some point you loved me, and I loved you. I still do, and thats why I have to let you go. I hope I find you again, I really do.

  • @lamontbarnovelt2869
    @lamontbarnovelt2869 4 місяці тому +1

    I really pray everyone finds the right circle of friends and the right partner. Life is already hard, relationships should be the least of our worries.

    • @DavidGoggins19
      @DavidGoggins19 2 місяці тому +1

      You right i love you man or woman dont forget