“Fear in the face of a world construed as dangerous and, at the same time, the urge to be rid of protective anchors and refuges, necessarily has a history behind it”. Valeria Ugazio, “Permitted and Forbidden Stories”
Wow! This was felt so deeply. I do struggle with acceptance & surrender to the trauma emotions/thoughts that my mind often times obsesses over. Thank you. When you said it was okay no matter the time it takes to truly surrender … I felt a slice of freedom. 🙏🙏❤️
Yes! You can both keep the possibility open that it may take no time at all, and also allow as much time as is needed for disentangling. No expectations is like the open loving space of Awareness (that you are) 😊
Thank you so much for this. I’m assuming “ big T trauma” means Complex Trauma or CPTSD? It’s very encouraging to hear how clearly you understand the processes involved and how wisely you have accommodated them. Especially you being so young there’s great encouragement here as I think about my own children who are around your age and if my Trauma has been passed down to them? I haven’t heard the term “ big T” before but it’s very appropriate… it might stand for “Terrifying” or “Troublesome “? Or “Tricky “ ? I love what you said about joy or bliss being available in the midst of suffering. This is the gospel. The big “S” Self is always here and now and available… Thank you for your great work and for sharing your experience. Keep going, we need you. Many blessings to you 🙏🏻❤️
@@zazo2911 thank you 🙏 all is ultimately well. There is no shame in passing on trauma, and you are still in this body to heal and offer a model of healing. I hesitate to speak definitively on psychology, as I use it as a loose framework for compassion toward experience - I don’t make the rules (or follow them 😊)
It's like you're describing me and my experience...😮😢😂. I feel like i have a foot in two worlds at the moment....i get glimpes of pure awareness and my ears kind of pop and my hearing expands exactly as you describe, its like everything opens up and gets lighter...then it goes again before i know it,
@@Johnjohnson-rj1vx goodness, yes. Gradual awakening is no joke. To settle into this and allow it to come and go is a confusing but important part of it. 🙏
Dearest Heather, I hear those lovely birds singing around you and I'm in a beautiful area aswel, for a break, but spiralled into a dark mindset. Thank you for your very honest and open sharing of your experience . It is so very helpful and precious🙏🏼💜
Resonates very much with me, in particulier the fact, that it's our individual way, and I feel that most gurus have not the faintest idea where I really stand and the difficulties I have to cope with. For me, the basic destinction remains the knowing of the difference between self and persona. The rest is my individual way and the biblical statement, that we should not have an image of God, seems rather relevant to me in this context.
Many gurus and teachers were spurred to seek because of great suffering, so human suffering, the experience of being seemingly lost to oneself, is understood. But only in your experience, with this particular karma and therefore these particular aversions, attractions, and lessons, will it play out as necessary to see what is already there. We take the value from the message and translate it to this experience :) you’re on it!
@@heatherralstonnonduality I literally just bought your book 5 minutes ago and just as I was starting to read it-your comment to me here showed up on my phone. ♥️
@@heatherralstonnonduality I definitely will. You already write in a way my soul can really hear. The synchronicity was a lovely confirmation to me that I am right where I’m supposed to be right now. ♥️
Thanks H. for sharing. I loved the insight on the not hearing people as your mind resist the now. That’s what I’ve been doing for years and now I know why. It’s funny how when I ask for guidance and understanding I’m always shown the right place to go.
there can be something scary in asking for guidance in itself, I'm glad that works for you! That is an excellent confirmation that mind isn't "it." This mind used to think all of this was stupid and oversimplified, so you're not alone in experiencing a resistant mind. When we "figure out" non-resistance (master it but not with the mind), the mind becomes like an upset child, easy to handle compassionately without buying into.
@@heatherralstonnonduality At this point in my life I’m going with the flow. It has helped me overcome alcoholism and some Big T trauma. I’m still searching though. I love your down to earth, honest approach to all this. Although we’re on different paths, we’re ultimately in this together.
Wow that's an amazing thing to say! 'To become the teacher younger Heather would have responded to' that's really got my attention...@@heatherralstonnonduality
Thank you for this description. Very familiar to me. Well, apart from the grace and bliss part, so far. The hellish experience part, definitely. The tears of gratitude for what we really are come sometimes. Not often. But sometimes.
I find talking about it, even to a camera, brings it out. It’s my pleasure to make these, I would’ve liked to see these twenty years ago though I may not have had the eyes for it :)
Have you worked with writing it? I found at least with a “ADHD mind” it helped a great deal to make it more linear and be accountable for what came up (making the unconscious conscious)
@@heatherralstonnonduality I do write it sometimes. It can help a bit to keep me on track. I do tend to keep "believing my thoughts", though. Frustrating. It feels like the mind has the power to take me away from being present whenever it wants. Like it's safer to be thinking about something - anything - than to be present. I've ordered your book now! (Don't read much these days, but I'll give it a go and probably contact you then.). Thanks again for making the videos. I find them very helpful. I do have that feeling that even the super-duper awakened people just often don't have this experience of trauma in the relative, as you say, so they keep repeating the same instructions and don't understand why you're not getting it! Or it's like I get it, but then I'm confused and distracted again straight away, instead of relaxing into the bliss of my true nature! Haha.
@@oconnordon I've been through all of that, you are on the right track. The mind has one million back doors, and it will try everything to stay relevant, present endless reasons to have to "think oneself out of this mess". It has already clicked for you, it will keep clicking. It was quite liberating in my experience to realize that if liberation is not experienced in the relative in this lifetime, it's okay, because who I am does not require liberation - we are only talking about changing the way the game is played. It took the fight out of the situation, no longer fighting the mind (mind fighting itself) removes so much of the charge behind it. My videos on this aren't meant to make folks feel like "definitely more time and techniques are needed for you," more that if these stripped down lessons aren't resonating there's nothing wrong. Keep going, I'll be happy to hear about your experience with the book.
Love you 💜
@@cameliaturda6472 love you too 🙏
The sad joy of awakening. Profoundly beautiful. Thank you😍
You are my tribe. ❤
@@amandabloodgood9950 what a beautiful thing 💕🙏
Speechless! ❤❤❤
You just described me
Even down to the example of narcissistic abuse
This has been truly helpful thank you so much more than words can express
I have no words I can say about listening to this video. It was so beautifully felt and amazingly deep. Tears and joy at the same time. 🥰
@@iammisanthrope7764 🙏
thankyou for your clear articulation of the experience as you have lived it.
“Fear in the face of a world construed as dangerous and, at the same time, the urge to be rid of protective anchors and refuges, necessarily has a history behind it”.
Valeria Ugazio, “Permitted and Forbidden Stories”
I can totally relate to all of this. I might not be enlightened now but I am way better than I was a few years ago. Thanks for the insightful video.
@@jonschmitt232 you’re welcome 🙏
I hear you
Wow! This was felt so deeply. I do struggle with acceptance & surrender to the trauma emotions/thoughts that my mind often times obsesses over. Thank you. When you said it was okay no matter the time it takes to truly surrender … I felt a slice of freedom. 🙏🙏❤️
Yes! You can both keep the possibility open that it may take no time at all, and also allow as much time as is needed for disentangling. No expectations is like the open loving space of Awareness (that you are) 😊
Thank you so much for this. I’m assuming “ big T trauma” means Complex Trauma or CPTSD? It’s very encouraging to hear how clearly you understand the processes involved and how wisely you have accommodated them. Especially you being so young there’s great encouragement here as I think about my own children who are around your age and if my Trauma has been passed down to them? I haven’t heard the term “ big T” before but it’s very appropriate… it might stand for “Terrifying” or “Troublesome “? Or “Tricky “ ? I love what you said about joy or bliss being available in the midst of suffering. This is the gospel. The big “S” Self is always here and now and available… Thank you for your great work and for sharing your experience. Keep going, we need you. Many blessings to you 🙏🏻❤️
@@zazo2911 thank you 🙏 all is ultimately well. There is no shame in passing on trauma, and you are still in this body to heal and offer a model of healing.
I hesitate to speak definitively on psychology, as I use it as a loose framework for compassion toward experience - I don’t make the rules (or follow them 😊)
It's like you're describing me and my experience...😮😢😂. I feel like i have a foot in two worlds at the moment....i get glimpes of pure awareness and my ears kind of pop and my hearing expands exactly as you describe, its like everything opens up and gets lighter...then it goes again before i know it,
@@Johnjohnson-rj1vx goodness, yes. Gradual awakening is no joke. To settle into this and allow it to come and go is a confusing but important part of it. 🙏
That was amazing
Dearest Heather, I hear those lovely birds singing around you and I'm in a beautiful area aswel, for a break, but spiralled into a dark mindset. Thank you for your very honest and open sharing of your experience . It is so very helpful and precious🙏🏼💜
I’m so glad this is helpful to you 🙏❤️
❤ 13:47, 17:44 🥹 Sincere gratitude for this post
Resonates very much with me, in particulier the fact, that it's our individual way, and I feel that most gurus have not the faintest idea where I really stand and the difficulties I have to cope with. For me, the basic destinction remains the knowing of the difference between self and persona. The rest is my individual way and the biblical statement, that we should not have an image of God, seems rather relevant to me in this context.
Many gurus and teachers were spurred to seek because of great suffering, so human suffering, the experience of being seemingly lost to oneself, is understood. But only in your experience, with this particular karma and therefore these particular aversions, attractions, and lessons, will it play out as necessary to see what is already there. We take the value from the message and translate it to this experience :) you’re on it!
I loved this so much!
So well articulated.
Much appreciation for you.
You described my experience as well per-fect-ly.
I’m so glad this resonated for you 😊
Wow this is me! Thank you so much for your open honest description of this!
This is indeed us
I’m just telling myself ❤️✨
@@heatherralstonnonduality
I literally just bought your book 5 minutes ago and just as I was starting to read it-your comment to me here showed up on my phone. ♥️
@@myrootsgraspNewsoil ah, synchronicity ✨ I will be happy to hear how it reads once you are finished, enjoy
@@heatherralstonnonduality
I definitely will. You already write in a way my soul can really hear. The synchronicity was a lovely confirmation to me that I am right where I’m supposed to be right now. ♥️
Thanks H. for sharing. I loved the insight on the not hearing people as your mind resist the now. That’s what I’ve been doing for years and now I know why. It’s funny how when I ask for guidance and understanding I’m always shown the right place to go.
there can be something scary in asking for guidance in itself, I'm glad that works for you! That is an excellent confirmation that mind isn't "it." This mind used to think all of this was stupid and oversimplified, so you're not alone in experiencing a resistant mind. When we "figure out" non-resistance (master it but not with the mind), the mind becomes like an upset child, easy to handle compassionately without buying into.
@@heatherralstonnonduality At this point in my life I’m going with the flow. It has helped me overcome alcoholism and some Big T trauma. I’m still searching though. I love your down to earth, honest approach to all this. Although we’re on different paths, we’re ultimately in this together.
@@Jamesglover71 your search is over whenever you, at the soul level, say it is. You’re it :) I’m proud of you for overcoming so much.
@@Jamesglover71 and thank you, my endeavor is to act as the teacher younger Heather would have responded to and it’s pretty specific.
Wow that's an amazing thing to say! 'To become the teacher younger Heather would have responded to' that's really got my attention...@@heatherralstonnonduality
Thank You ✨💜✨
You are welcome 🙏
🎉 beautiful video
what do you think of ketamine?
Thank you for this description. Very familiar to me. Well, apart from the grace and bliss part, so far. The hellish experience part, definitely. The tears of gratitude for what we really are come sometimes. Not often. But sometimes.
I find talking about it, even to a camera, brings it out. It’s my pleasure to make these, I would’ve liked to see these twenty years ago though I may not have had the eyes for it :)
Have you worked with writing it? I found at least with a “ADHD mind” it helped a great deal to make it more linear and be accountable for what came up (making the unconscious conscious)
@@heatherralstonnonduality I do write it sometimes. It can help a bit to keep me on track. I do tend to keep "believing my thoughts", though. Frustrating. It feels like the mind has the power to take me away from being present whenever it wants. Like it's safer to be thinking about something - anything - than to be present. I've ordered your book now! (Don't read much these days, but I'll give it a go and probably contact you then.). Thanks again for making the videos. I find them very helpful. I do have that feeling that even the super-duper awakened people just often don't have this experience of trauma in the relative, as you say, so they keep repeating the same instructions and don't understand why you're not getting it! Or it's like I get it, but then I'm confused and distracted again straight away, instead of relaxing into the bliss of my true nature! Haha.
@@oconnordon I've been through all of that, you are on the right track. The mind has one million back doors, and it will try everything to stay relevant, present endless reasons to have to "think oneself out of this mess". It has already clicked for you, it will keep clicking. It was quite liberating in my experience to realize that if liberation is not experienced in the relative in this lifetime, it's okay, because who I am does not require liberation - we are only talking about changing the way the game is played. It took the fight out of the situation, no longer fighting the mind (mind fighting itself) removes so much of the charge behind it. My videos on this aren't meant to make folks feel like "definitely more time and techniques are needed for you," more that if these stripped down lessons aren't resonating there's nothing wrong. Keep going, I'll be happy to hear about your experience with the book.
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