Just an update for everyone Cameron is doing amazing. He finally went to treatment and has 19 months clean. I met him while I was also in recovery and we are now engaged and have a beautiful daughter. It just shows that if you put your all into this fight you can come out on top. I am so proud of him, and anyone else that struggles with this disease, there is a way out, never lose hope. Kyla Gould
Thats great news.. had a friend dealing with same stuff and was at the end of his rope. I guided him away.. away from it all even his friends. Just move get away and clean up and pull yourself together. Death is not the answer he too is smart and can grow but I have seen a friend almost the same boat as this guy but also meth was involved. He now has been clean 2 years and 8 states away from this place.
@@Partheseus www.gofundme.com/f/xrqmyt-presley-amp-harlowe My brother, Cameron McGillivary, died accidentally, suddenly, and unexpectedly on March 12th, 2019. He leaves behind his partner, Kyla Gould and their two daughters, Presley and Harlowe in addition to numerous friends and family members who are all heartbroken and devastated by this loss. We are still searching for answers. ... Sincerely, Christie
Hey all you haters...Cameron is still clean and has a life he could never imagine, with two beautiful kids so the next time you wanna wish ill upon someone who has suffered in their life from trauma, and dealt with a horrible drug addiction, think twice. Don't judge people until you have been in their shoes, and God forbid you ever have to. If you don't understand addiction then why do you find the need to comment on raw videos about it? Wishing my fiance dead? Thinking he left Janice in the dumpster to die? You are sick, heartless people. And for everyone that has shown support and love for this video, bless you. You are all the reason that me and Cameron are still clean to this day. It takes support, love and compassion from people to help see the good in yourself. Getting clean is alot of work but it is possible and it is worth it!
and also @invisiblepeople you are amazing and if it wasn't for you I never would have met Cameron and had the life I have today. You helped in more ways than you will ever know. God bless you.
kyla gould this is awesome. Use the haters as ammo to push you. So glad you both are well, praise god. God answered his prayer. He was sincere in his 3 wishes and it had turned away.
wow, that's totally cool....but weren't you guys engaged the last time you commented? a few years back? are you on an extended engagement? Just wondering. Also, I've been off the heroin for several years now, but for some reason my life isn't getting any better. I'm SO tired/fatigued/exhausted all of the time, no energy at all, and I cannot seem to find a medical reason for it. I feel so much regret, guilt, remorse, sorrow, feelings of worthlessness, despair, loneliness etc.etc. Is this common for a person in recovery 4 years now? I started taking drugs during the period when my mom kept attempting suicide every few months after the divorce.
Crimson King yes we are still engaged. Kids happened which has been a blessing and we've taken the time to focus on them and worry about a wedding later on. As for how you are feeling, I can totally relate. I still struggle with those feelings at times but the thing that works for me is reaching out and talking to my sponsor or going to a meeting. It is important that you do some work to get to the root of the problem. N.A steps help. The drugs are not the main problem, its the behaviours and why you did the things you did. I know being clean for almost 5 years, my head is still a mess sometimes. I think about some of the things i've done and i feel guilt and shame and remorse but when I dig deep and work through those feelings and find a solution for them, I can move forward and learn to heal. Good luck on your journey. You should be proud of all you have accomplished.
It takes balls to be this honest. I cannot believe some posters are hating on this guy. Anyone can end up homeless and addicted to drugs; it is NOT a planned life scenario...
No. Not anyone can end up addicted to drugs. I never had any desire to do drugs. At an early age I was well aware of the consequences. Around 16 I guess. I'm 52 now. I'm not sure how I knew of the consequences at such an early age. Was it education at school? Was it a conversation I had with someone? I don't know. I just remember at an early age to stay away from drugs and alcohol, doctors, and hospitals. I hate to take otc pain relievers. I know it's not natural. Drinking a 6 pack of beer a day is also unnatural. I understand some people get addicted by prescription meds but some people start that kind of shit just so they can feel cool and accepted. I never cared about the peer pressure shit. I also knew my Dad would beat my ass if he ever caught me doing shit like that. And I would certainly be deserving of a good ass whooping if I did do drugs or alcohol. Being homeless can probably be considered a much needed ass whooping for a lot of these people. Homelessness. The ass whooping that keeps on whooping.
Truthinvideos this is for you, its the honest truth that anyone could end up in this situations. "want to not be in pain? here this will make it all better, got a broken foot? here this will help." thats exactly the type of attitude doctors have towards people which is exactly what causes these situations. They get physically addicted, then the doctor cuts them off so they end up finding heroin on the street or buying pills from someone which leads eventually to them buying heroin, which in turn leads to more of an addiction, and possile death because alot of ther heroin here in alberta is cut ith fentanyl as it is alot of other places. Painkillers may seem innocent enough but when you start going through withdrawals and end up on the street youll think alot differnelty. it may seem like a big step from prescription pain meds but it realy isnt. And withdrawals will make you do dumb things you get extremely desperate so if they can find heroin and tey cn aford it and it will make them feel better then thats exactly what theyre gunna do. You are clearly uninformed on the matter so please dont speak on it, regardless of your age your comment is very asinine and uninformed. I'm only twenty years old and even i know better, you should be ashamed, because it can happen to anyone and drug adicts are people too.
regardless of being raised in a good family, you can be prescribed a medication which ends up in heroin ddiction and doctors push it because they get paid commision by prescribing these knds of drugs to people, so really it odesnt matter if you detest drugs because when your in pain sometimes you feel as though you need something to help with it, which is where this comes in.
I know nothing about homelessness. One factor has become apparent from watching these videos. 1.) If you're a man, people care a lot less. It's horrific, especially when it deals with veterans. I'm 36, was both a combat medic and flight medic in the Army for 8 years. I was NEVER in battle. However, I've witnessed a plethora of soldiers who have sustained the rigors of war where cortisol is constantly eating your health away due to the dangers/stresses of combat. I've had to treat the damaged minds/bodies of soldiers. While the word PTSD is thrown a lot today, to really see it's full manifestations on the physical/psychological deterioration of soldiers is heart breaking. Men, of all people, have been conditioned by society to "take it". In doing so, they shut themselves in... they don't dare ask for help. They literally destroy themselves via drug addiction, isolation and in many cases killing themselves, violently, with a gun straight to the head. Conditioned apathy for their own lives. 2.) The institutional programs aren't set up to truly get people off the streets. They're there to keep people with jobs. I'm humbled to watch these videos. Every time, it makes realize how much I have to be grateful for.
Interesting comment. "They're there to keep people with jobs"... Sometimes it feels like as someone who has worked very very hard in life... What do I have to show for it? A crap load of debt and a life of working my arse off and paying taxes into the system... If I slipped and stumbled... like with a drug addiction... and lost my job... I'd be homeless and broke in no time flat and probably nobody would give a shit if I didn't have family to catch me. So yeah... I do kinda think that the institutions are there just to keep us in the rat race... running on that wheel... feeding more taxes into the system... never really getting ahead...I also am competely against the war on drugs... that's my tax dollars at work... ruining people's lives with a health problem...
+Edwin. Interesting comment. But we often forget that those people who make up "the system" are themselves only human with the same human limitations and frailties as those they treat. And no I'm not one of them here defending myself. I come from a family where there was some severe mental illness (my sister) and while trying to help her I experienced first hand the deep flaws in a system that was supposed to make people better when in fact it appears to make many worse. It was frustrating and despairing. But when we stop to think about it we really do expect health workers to possess more empathy and less mental frailty than we possess ourselves. It's not an excuse, just a fact of life. When all is said and done only empathy and love help people in need, and we can't expect people to produce these in exchange for a wage packet.
benzos can be harder to come off so don't put your accomplishment down, to others who haven't already gone cold turkey for benzos be careful, taper down if you suddenly stop taking benzos you can fit, take care, drink lots of fluids, remember to eat. been there not a nice place but after 3 week you should over the hump.......... stay strong ive heard coming off benzos 'cold raven' cos its so much worse.
Dude stay strong! You got the initial symptoms behind you but now starts the hard fight. DO NOT consume any benzos, Z-drugs or alcohol now! The next 9 months will be very hard to get through but you will! And you'll get gradually better.
This was me literally a year ago with my fiancé on the streets of Chattanooga TN living in my Ford Taurus stealing and pan handling every day to support two heroin & eventually fentanyl addictions. I was addicted to just about everything you can name & on and off the streets for 8 years. Today we are both a year sober, he works full time, and I’m a stay at home mom to our now 2 month old baby girl in Scranton PA. I never thought I could be sober for a day let alone a year and now life is beautiful, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been! Praying for everyone still struggling! I love what you guys do it’s a beautiful thing ❤️❤️
there's a guy on UA-cam who makes a series called "Fresh Out" who said that homeless drug addicts can sometimes become shotcallers in jail. because they finally start eating meals and get much healthier compared to how they were on the streets. but of course they're doing drugs inside as well, aren't they?
Makes sense that he got clean....this guy is very smart......not one wasted word or thought in that interview. He conveyed it with such clarity...This is the hidden shame of our society. Not having the resources to help addicts get clean and then putting shame and blame on them. He was already helping people with his words in that interview. God love him.
Of course I'm sorry he passed away on March 12, 2019 but I am grateful his 3 wishes were not only fulfilled, but being topped by him being a dad, a partner and a friend to many people.
Once again I really appreciate this channel for what it does. I fully admit I would have been very judgmental towards this man, writing him off as an addict and a thief and looking down on him. But this channel always shows how we are all the same, and all these people want is a normal life with some love and a bit of dignity. His three wishes said it all. I often think of how I could easily have ended up in this same situation had my life gone differently.
My name is Cameron I am an opiate addict as well. Been clean for almost 4 months. I loved what he said. I’m happy he is doing great. Keep it up big bro!
Getting clean is absolutely worth it! I used & was homeless for two years with my ex gf. Did fenty (Vancouver, so the only option) but it killed alota friends and folks I knew. I was a petty criminal trying to support my habit through stupid, criminal thuggery... I'm ashamed of it now, but regardless I'm quite proud of myself for being able to pull out of this crazy lifestyle. Used since I was 16 now I'm 21 and just about to finish school & join the CAF as an officer! 😬
Well done my friend! I used from 18 till 22 then went to rehab! Stayed clean till 30 then that evil drug came a knocking and i fell back in! I got clean again at 32 and fell in yet again at 36! Got clean yet again at 37 and im now 43 and clean 6 years! Please listen to me this drug will come knocking at your door threw out your life! Especially when you least expect it! I can tell you if something goes wrong in your life like a job loss or losing a partner it will come to your door and tell you i can make everything better for you! DONT BELIEVE IT ITS A LIE! It will do the opposite! It will DESTROY your life! Be strong in the hard times you will get threw i PROMISE you! Im proud of you and life/god is proud of you too! Stay humble, help others and be strong in hard times you will have a fulfilled life! And hard times will come just remember this comment it will stand you on strong ground!! ❤🙏💪
That was beautiful....when you feel less than zero. zero is like a treasure. I look at the years I wasted as a gauntlet it may kill you to get through, But If you do your reward is amazing and will make you the strongest person you could be. Now I almost can't imagine who id be if I never struggled. God bless anyone going through this and there family.
I found his wife on FB and looks like he passed in 2019. I’m happy he got that normal life with a wife and kids but sad for him he passed so young and sad for his wife who sounds sweet in the message below and sad for his daughters who I’m sure miss him. I’m happy this man can still live on in pics and video. ❤️
R. I. P. Cameron so sad to hear you have passed on sending my love to your fiancée and children i hope they are doing good and know you are looking over them from heaven 😢😢xx
God as somebody with a minor alcohol and weed problem I thought I had it bad until I heard this guy describing how dope sickness feels, I've got an addictive personality so I know better than to ever try anything harder
yes, but add to that , that you wont sleep for up to five days at a time during withdrawal and even when you do you get so restless s soon as you fal asleep you legs jerk and get uncmfortable which forces you to stand up and pace around to rid yourself of this restless feeling, but yet at the same time your so tired all you want to do is sit down or rest but no matter what you do you cannot sleep, or sit still without feelings a creeping sensation and pain in your legs, There is no break or rest or calmness or peace. even for a minute until you get so tired your brain just shuts off.. But then you get awoken by the restless legs again. And this will go on for about two weeks with heroin Withdrawal, in which time becomes meaningless because of how you long you dont sleep it all feels like one long herrible endless day. At least with a flu you can sleep. But this is much worse than you coud even imagine if you havent been through it, please try to abstain from alcohol as that can have some withdrawals too ut mostly only in extremly heavy abusers. Weed is fine haha trust me if you ever were addicted to opiates youd really know what "hard to quit" meant haha. :P please stick with what your ding and stay away from hard drugs :)
Taj Manzoor Well I wouldn’t place divisions on hard and soft drugs because they all vary in effect but if it’s heroin yes we stay away the addiction is horrendous I was addicted to hydrocodone and oxycodone and in one month problably went through a thousand worth the worst part is everything around me came crashing down on me after withdrawl and it got so bad I cried and muscles ached luckily I have been able to control my use I had been clean since April from pill binges last one was with codeine and been only relapsed just July 18 and trying to go another month at least again from the 18
Im 2 weeks sober after drinking 2-3 bottles wine every night for years. With a little valium its been easy. Had a oxy problem before that, nothing is like withdrawal, that was hell.
Taj Manzoor please don’t take your minor alcohol problem too lightly. I can tell you from experience that it gets worse, and worse, and worse. If you’re an alcoholic, that is can’t stop drinking once you start, please completely quit now. You’ll save yourself so much pain.
I can't believe he's my age! He looks older with the tough times he's going through. Praying for his permanent recovery. So sad! I hope he'll get the help he needs.
I am so glad to hear that this guy finally got it together. I currently have 35 years of being clean and sober and it was God's gift to me. When you're stuck in the cycle of addiction you don't think clearly and all you can see is the next fix or the next drink. People may think we'll why didn't this guy just get on a bus to somewhere where they had a methadone program but unless you've been in his shoes don't judge.
Cameron is so articulate and truly commendable, i wish him a trillion blessings. I wish many more people would watch this, people don't understand the struggle addiction creates. Treatment centers are needed ...please pass this on
the girl that he was talking about on the grbadge truck sortof part. Her name is Janice desjarlais, shes my auntie and I miss her deeply :c its hard for me to live with , to know that she is missing right now. shes been missing 2 years.its going to be 3 years on this upcoming October, I would love to see her again.
maria rain why did he leave her in a dumpster if she was passed out? He calls her a body as if she was already dead. Something is weird with his story. Have you called the police in this one town this guy claimed this happened in ? I would I’d be finding out why she was never looked for and why nothing is being done. You got to start there .
"And once the pain goes away, that's when the real battle starts. Depression, boredom . . . You feel so ****ing low, you want to ****ing top yourself." Mark Renton, Trainspotting
I remember those days, so sad and true. There is nothing worse than being dope sick. I got off of it by going to a rehab for 4mos and reading the scriptures and praying for strength to stop. His town needs a safe house. We are praying for safe houses. 🙏 💜 Praying for this guy. I understand completely.
ok I was an opiate addict for 12 years . If you really want to get clean you will, no matter the circumstances. I don't want to hear excuses and finger pointing. This guy can he's just not ready
I got the impression that this guy has had enough and is ready to seek control of his life again. Lucky for him he's verbally very competent. I think the videographer is doing a wonderful service by providing the opportunity fo addicts to have a good look at themselves and their singular ability to get out of this stupid lifestyle.
www.gofundme.com/f/xrqmyt-presley-amp-harlowe My brother, Cameron McGillivary, died accidentally, suddenly, and unexpectedly on March 12th, 2019. He leaves behind his partner, Kyla Gould and their two daughters, Presley and Harlowe in addition to numerous friends and family members who are all heartbroken and devastated by this loss. We are still searching for answers. ... Sincerely, Christie
Thank you for this update. I am so saddened by this news. I don't even know what to say. I was happy for him when his girlfriend gave us his good news. And now this! God bless you all.
I'm a former heroine addict and I can confirm that everything he says is true. I'm lucky to live in Sweden where we have free health care and I've been in the Methadone maintanance program for about 8 years now, and here in Sweden we don't have to pay for the Methadone. It's really hard to get Methadone maintainance in Sweden but when you finally get it its great. I'm alive today thanks to my methadone. I truly hope this guy is doing fine nobody should have to live like that. Much love from Sweden
Whitdraving from methadone is worst than gear,I was on 85 ml and dicied to go cold turkey, didn't have proper sleep 2 month,first month my bed sheets were soaked whit sweat,it was so bad I wouldn't wish to my worst enemy,its better to just cut off heroine and be sick for 1 or 2 weeks,and if u really have to take methadone don't go higher then 30 ml . .
SIN MAN Thanks for your answer bro.. shit I’ve been on 150mg for 8 years now but the last month I’ve cut my dose down to 110mg and even that made me sweat 😓.. but I’ll keep pushing it down nice and slow because I’m so tired of this liquid handcuffs..
DIAZ52 I haven't seem him under the bridge smoking crack and catching sewer shrimp with Cricket lately, so I'm fairly certain he isn't homeless anymore.
I got 4 years clean off heroin and know it's a vicious cycle. Your first step is to surrender completely and you next step is to stop making excuses. If I can do it you can too. Man up! Good luck man!
Everything that Cameron said is true about addiction and if you do not have services it is so difficult to get clean without services. I am so happy to hear that Cameron did finally get the help that he needed and is doing amazing. Many people do not understand how addiction works and have no business commenting in a negative manner.
I’m glad he’s doing well. However, I’d disagree with the last sentence. Addiction within itself isn’t necessarily the biggest issue, aside the fact that you can overdose, what gets me is when you neglect everything like your responsibility, such as bills and children all to get that high. That’s problematic and I know a lot of people that have had parents that chose drugs over their own kids and it does stay with them and it’s sad. And because addiction can lead to people neglecting their responsibilities, their decisions affect other people because now other people, whether that be grandma grandpa aunts and uncles have to take over to raise their kids and if you’re addicted and neglect to pay bills, you’re most likely gonna be on the street And in reality, you shouldn’t expect someone including family to take you in because you made bad decisions which led to bad consequences. I’m just saying 🤷♀️
I'm super thankful... That when I was at my lowest of low I didn't take the drugs offered to me that was 3 years ago.(there was also a period which I almost went to a dealer to give me overdose pills cuz I was too depressed I couldn't help it but on my way there with my bycicle I remembered my family and how much they love me so I rode back crying.) I'm 17 now, I'm glad that I searched help to defeat my depression. Going to a psychologist every 2 weeks now. It used to be each week but I'm feeling better so it's less often.
i don't know man, if you gotta for to work (no matter what you do) it ain't happening when your dopesick, now if you know you've got 10 days off where you can dedicate to lying in bed going crazy it's not the end of the world.
anyone can fall into this trap, just by a operation or break a bone, wham it got ya..we see pharma drugs as safe but they are not and the health system is great at pushing pharma drugs..always be on your guard..
Doctors get payed commision by big pharma companies for prescibing certain medications like painkillers, sleeping pills, and anxiety meds. So yes, they do try push medication on people.. its the honest truth that anyone could end up in this situations. "want to not be in pain?" thats exactly the type of attitude doctors have towards people which is exactly what causes these situations. They get physically addicted, then the doctor cuts them off so they end up finding heroin on the street or buying pills from someone which leads eventually to them buying heroin, which in turn leads to more of an addiction, and possile death because alot of ther heroin here in alberta is cut ith fentanyl as it is alot of other places. Painkillers may seem innocent enough but when you start going through withdrawals and end up on the street youll think alot differnelty. it may seem like a big step from prescription pain meds but it realy isnt. And withdrawals will make you do dumb things you get extremely desperate so if they can find heroin and tey cn aford it and it will make them feel better then thats exactly what theyre gunna do. You are clearly uninformed on the matter so please dont speak on it, regardless of your age your comment is very asinine and uninformed. I'm only twenty years old and even i know better, you should be ashamed, because it can happen to anyone and drug adicts are people too.
This true. God definitely helps. The only times ive ever been able to et through withdrawal i had god at my side. Unfortunately i went back recently but im planning to try stop again soon. And this time im gunna keep god in my life for good because thats the only thing pushing me to continue right now
As a guy who's addicted to opioids myself I can so relate to this guy... and the worst part of it is.. my doctors have prescribed me opioids for over 3 years on my repeat prescription and they have NEVER even seen me.. I joined a new doctors when I moved.. but because everything is online now I had no introduction to my new doctor and he has never seen me not once.. and yet he has prescribed me medication since 2019.. which naturally I became physically and mentally addicted to them to the point I need to buy it from people in bulk as addiction has taken over my life... I hope this guy finds happiness and gets clean 🙏
God Bless this man It sounds like he has turned his life around Never judge a person until you’ve walked in their shoes And yet do not judge anyone anyway
It's great that he is doing well! But man, the amount of people, especially mentally ill men, who fall into homelessness and addiction and have almost nowhere to turn makes me so sad.
It's hard to be in a place in your life as a parent where you Are resolved to.... well ...he'll either choose to live or he'll die. My son is addicted to heroin, he's 23 He's been on drugs since 16. What am I supposed to do with that??! I've ran to him when called. I feed him . I house him. I take him to the Dr. And dentist. I give him money. I love him .... But I am heartbroken with the way he has been existing. I hate the person he is when he is needing a fix. But ,oh how my heart aches for the kid he was.If you read this and are a praying person. Please pray for healing for Addison.
I read about dope sick during Layne Staley's downward spiral and he is among the most amazing human beings and musicians out there. It takes courage and real heart to do a candid interview like he did, and while I am glad to hear he got cured for a time and had kids and did well, I was so sorry to hear in the comments that he later died rather than stay alive to enjoy a sober life with his kids.
That's horrible to hear. I watched the video and was really hoping he'd get help somewhere. Then, I started reading the comments that he was clean for a good while and I felt so good for him. Now, reading that he's passed away, I feel awful that after what he's been through that his journey is over. I hope he didn't suffer from whatever happened to him. RIP sir. Your video will continue to perhaps help others that have walked in your shoes. You have made a difference in your own way and may inspire countless others who watch this that there is hope where there seemingly doesn't appear to be any at all.
@@Evasroses6543 www.gofundme.com/f/xrqmyt-presley-amp-harlowe My brother, Cameron McGillivary, died accidentally, suddenly, and unexpectedly on March 12th, 2019. He leaves behind his partner, Kyla Gould and their two daughters, Presley and Harlowe in addition to numerous friends and family members who are all heartbroken and devastated by this loss. We are still searching for answers. ... Sincerely, Christie
@@somespiritualdude9576 I quit heroin, am still on nicotine. Heroin withdrawal is 50x worse than nicotine addiction, the flu like sickness lasts 6 days, then depression for a year. The hard part about nicotine though is the temptation is everywhere since it’s legal and in every gas station, once I got clean and deleted all of my dealer’s numbers and separated myself from users the temptation wasn’t always in my face and I felt like I could get on with my life. I’m not saying heroin withdraw is easy cuz it is anything but, I’m just saying that nicotine has its struggles too
@Nevaeh Chanski nicotine is a joke to cut, a joke to start. that is the problem. with all kind off addictions i say: it is like a girl you really like but is a total bitch. just don't call her or respond to her calls. it may take a year or two but you will feel a lot nicer afterwards.
I would not compare nicotine addiction to any kind of opiate addiction. Even the weakest opioids of all time like tramadol and Kratom can get to a point where that's all you think about, and it slowly changes who you are overtime. Dont say you have an idea of what opiate addiction is like just because you smoke cigs, or eat junk food or are mentally dependent on cannabis....not even close.
Man, the story about the girl in the dumpster, same thing happened to my friend when he was emptying dumpsters. Ended up killing somebody on accident and it totally fucked him up since it happened.
His first wish, to be clean and never have to use again. This was my first wish and we aren't alone. God it's awful but people won't understand that unless they've been through it. It sounds like he's doing better now and I'm really happy to hear that.
I used to have a landscaping business and was working on a project where the roof was being done too. The roofing labourer was such a hard working guy so I hired him for a couple days just to move dirt around. He was a recovered addict, he said he had almost died from it, I guess some pretty nasty stuff. Point is, he made a point of doing talks at high schools to try to get kids to not go that road. He said to me "Who are they gonna listen to you, or me?" (middle aged gardener girl) I have so much respect for that guy. He had to work 7 days a week to stay clean but at least he was giving back to society.
Brucey Actually the jokes on you cause he ended up doing just that and more!! Fuck people are truly assholes with fuck all going on in their life so they just become useless tits that are spewing negative energy all the time
Jesus loves you! He loves u so much that He died on the cross for your sins and rose from the dead so that you could be saved from sin!! You can be saved from hell if you believe and trust in Jesus!!
Ditto! 100% spot on!! To hear edifying, dispensational, doctrinally sound, politically incorrect, King James Bible-only preaching, check out the following UA-cam channel: KJVM - Bryan Denlinger
Cameron you have all the makings for greatness in your life. You are articulate, smart, and a good looking dude. Stick with it, because the alternative sucks like nothing ever sucked before. Live long and prosper !
My father is going through that right now, he’s suffering heavy. Please seek help it will ruin everything in your life eventually, my dads now homeless and still killing himself
Nobody wants to be homeless obviously, problem is they use drugs and don’t want to work. Like i could be working right now but i am on youtube. Its not that i don’t want to be rich, i just don’t want to work hard.
Me as well. Try, those tins of beans and sausages. I eat half a tin of beans and sausages. In a day, plus whatever else is in the kitchen. So, this provides good nutrition balance. And, it's helping with weight loss. So, watching these UA-cam is quite helpful in that, I need to chill a lot. You want be friends in support? I am on Facebook: A Robert Farr So message back maybe, I am struggling with that problem. Hopefully we, can form a support group?
@@florisred I'm 16days now clean I'm doing it for me and my 3nhalf year old son peace ✌️ bro 🙏and another 2months left I no I'll do it now cause My son is everything to me now he can visit me ivebeen given a great chance in treatment
@@mark7831 so happy for you. Good luck with treatment, it must be unimaginably horrible but It is worth It, and your son Will grow up to be proud of his dad who did this for him.
@@florisred I really appreciate that brother cause alot of people except from family wanna here anything from you,I was just brought up in the 80s n 90s which was bad for opiates obviously heroin it was the norm you no,but nowadays I always tell the youngster's never even try it for nothing cause it not only ruins you but mainly loved ones so called friends don't care they only ring you when there looking for something (Drugs r dealers numbers)peace man ✌️
I beat crack after 2 stints in rehab over 20 years ago. You got to help yourself. You seem to be saying it’s our social systems fault. Stop doing heroin and stop calling addiction a disease. It victimizes you in thinking you’ve caught a disease when in fact you did this to yourself. Accepting that is part of you healing. No one but you took the first needle. I’m glad to hear your doing well, keep it up. 👍❤️🇨🇦
Lost Name there’s definitely hope, make it your goal, I took ‘the cure’ twice and am happily through the other side, it’s a great place, stick with it!
I also find this interview candid - he was straight-up with his condition and situation. So people, please please stop taking intoxicants (a Buddhist precept), don't even start - be it smoking, alcohol or drugs! It really is good that he wants to give without expecting any returns instead! Hope he and everyone gets the help needed to change for the better!
People that have never been through addiction have no clue what it's like and this guy nailed it on the head at the end most addicts aren't bad people at heart and want nothing more but to be able to contribute and give back to people but the drugs make you do awful things you otherwise would never even have thought of doing. Once you break that barrier, since you don't know you'll be an addict until after the fact, it messes up your mind to the point that even after you manage to get clean life still isn't what it was before you ever started and you wish so bad you could go back and be able to have the energy and excitement you once had for life, it really takes all of that away and becomes mundane and boring.
....Everyone is in a rush, government departments etc are struggling to survive or my not and don't give a rats ass to the homeless, maybe because there are more and more hitting the streets it's becoming overwhelming. No one has time for anyone anymore, it's true, everyone is running around trying their hardest to keep their heads above water level, it'll only get worse.
If I am understanding his story correct, he shot up with his girlfriend in a dumpster, he then left her when she was dead or unconcious without helping her, and then blames the garbage men for crushing her to death.
Kyla Gould That's not the story that was told here. Save your own judgementalism and righteous abuse and see the reality here. The impression described by Edi GG is exactly how he came across in this video - as full of accusations against everyone else for the situation they put themselves in. Blaming the town for being a hard place is amazing. His attitude seemed to be that everyone should be helping him. If that's changed great but please save your own abuse.
@@DiscoFang righteousness and abuse? Wtf are you even talking about. Im standing up for my fiance who the previous poster was portraying wrongly. Yes Cameron had some blaming mentality in this video. But he also shared some really raw stuff and i know this video has helped alot of ppl and its not fair for ppl to judge and belittle him for it. I dont understand why ppl find the need to comment on shit they know nothing about. Watch it if you must, but then move on.
thank you for your great posts and answers. im so glad you 2 met. i hope God blesses you both. since i was 17 ive had pills to treat severe back issues and yes, got out of control on certain pills for awhile. dope sick is the worst thing i felt in my life. a burst appendix wasnt even as bad as dope sick was. thank God, im in control and limited what i take and use. i hope your lives together continue to go well and dont mean to be rude or pushy, that you find a good church also. mine has helped a lot, not only in salvation thru Jesus Christ, but also in the social, mental, physical, and spiritual issues that come with pain/drugs. take care, eric
@@erictroxell2298 Good for you for getting through those tough times, and thank you for your comments, I definately do love God and would love to find a church to go to again. There was one i went to in treatment the first time that was amazing and seriously gave me goosebumps everytime I went. Maybe I will take the family there again! God bless you!
Just an update for everyone Cameron is doing amazing. He finally went to treatment and has 19 months clean. I met him while I was also in recovery and we are now engaged and have a beautiful daughter. It just shows that if you put your all into this fight you can come out on top. I am so proud of him, and anyone else that struggles with this disease, there is a way out, never lose hope. Kyla Gould
kyla gould. Bless you in i'm.
***** thank you so much, @cameron is coming up on 4 years clean and we now have 2 kids. Life is great ❤
h collinet thank you ❤
dachicagoan thank you so much
Adam Coyne that's a little strong
I just found this dude on Facebook and he’s doing really well with a loving family. Just thought I’d give y’all an update ✌️
Lewis Fricker that’s awesome!!
Thats great news.. had a friend dealing with same stuff and was at the end of his rope. I guided him away.. away from it all even his friends. Just move get away and clean up and pull yourself together. Death is not the answer he too is smart and can grow but I have seen a friend almost the same boat as this guy but also meth was involved. He now has been clean 2 years and 8 states away from this place.
Awesome! Thanks.
Lewis Fricker apparently he passed away last year
@@Partheseus www.gofundme.com/f/xrqmyt-presley-amp-harlowe
My brother, Cameron McGillivary, died accidentally, suddenly, and unexpectedly on March 12th, 2019. He leaves behind his partner, Kyla Gould and their two daughters, Presley and Harlowe in addition to numerous friends and family members who are all heartbroken and devastated by this loss. We are still searching for answers. ... Sincerely,
Christie
Hey all you haters...Cameron is still clean and has a life he could never imagine, with two beautiful kids so the next time you wanna wish ill upon someone who has suffered in their life from trauma, and dealt with a horrible drug addiction, think twice. Don't judge people until you have been in their shoes, and God forbid you ever have to. If you don't understand addiction then why do you find the need to comment on raw videos about it? Wishing my fiance dead? Thinking he left Janice in the dumpster to die? You are sick, heartless people. And for everyone that has shown support and love for this video, bless you. You are all the reason that me and Cameron are still clean to this day. It takes support, love and compassion from people to help see the good in yourself. Getting clean is alot of work but it is possible and it is worth it!
and also @invisiblepeople you are amazing and if it wasn't for you I never would have met Cameron and had the life I have today. You helped in more ways than you will ever know. God bless you.
kyla gould this is awesome. Use the haters as ammo to push you. So glad you both are well, praise god. God answered his prayer. He was sincere in his 3 wishes and it had turned away.
wow, that's totally cool....but weren't you guys engaged the last time you commented? a few years back? are you on an extended engagement? Just wondering. Also, I've been off the heroin for several years now, but for some reason my life isn't getting any better. I'm SO tired/fatigued/exhausted all of the time, no energy at all, and I cannot seem to find a medical reason for it. I feel so much regret, guilt, remorse, sorrow, feelings of worthlessness, despair, loneliness etc.etc. Is this common for a person in recovery 4 years now? I started taking drugs during the period when my mom kept attempting suicide every few months after the divorce.
Crimson King yes we are still engaged. Kids happened which has been a blessing and we've taken the time to focus on them and worry about a wedding later on. As for how you are feeling, I can totally relate. I still struggle with those feelings at times but the thing that works for me is reaching out and talking to my sponsor or going to a meeting. It is important that you do some work to get to the root of the problem. N.A steps help. The drugs are not the main problem, its the behaviours and why you did the things you did. I know being clean for almost 5 years, my head is still a mess sometimes. I think about some of the things i've done and i feel guilt and shame and remorse but when I dig deep and work through those feelings and find a solution for them, I can move forward and learn to heal. Good luck on your journey. You should be proud of all you have accomplished.
Thanks for responding! I appreciate the advice and suggestions. They're helpful.
It takes balls to be this honest. I cannot believe some posters are hating on this guy. Anyone can end up homeless and addicted to drugs; it is NOT a planned life scenario...
No. Not anyone can end up addicted to drugs.
I never had any desire to do drugs. At an early age I was well aware of the consequences.
Around 16 I guess. I'm 52 now.
I'm not sure how I knew of the consequences at such an early age.
Was it education at school? Was it a conversation I had with someone? I don't know.
I just remember at an early age to stay away from drugs and alcohol, doctors, and hospitals.
I hate to take otc pain relievers. I know it's not natural.
Drinking a 6 pack of beer a day is also unnatural.
I understand some people get addicted by prescription meds but some
people start that kind of shit just so they can feel cool and accepted.
I never cared about the peer pressure shit.
I also knew my Dad would beat my ass if he ever caught me doing shit like that.
And I would certainly be deserving of a good ass whooping if I did do drugs or alcohol.
Being homeless can probably be considered a much needed ass whooping for a lot of these people.
Homelessness. The ass whooping that keeps on whooping.
truthinvideos Spoken like someone who’s never been seriously abused or neglected as a child.
Truthinvideos this is for you, its the honest truth that anyone could end up in this situations. "want to not be in pain? here this will make it all better, got a broken foot? here this will help." thats exactly the type of attitude doctors have towards people which is exactly what causes these situations. They get physically addicted, then the doctor cuts them off so they end up finding heroin on the street or buying pills from someone which leads eventually to them buying heroin, which in turn leads to more of an addiction, and possile death because alot of ther heroin here in alberta is cut ith fentanyl as it is alot of other places. Painkillers may seem innocent enough but when you start going through withdrawals and end up on the street youll think alot differnelty. it may seem like a big step from prescription pain meds but it realy isnt. And withdrawals will make you do dumb things you get extremely desperate so if they can find heroin and tey cn aford it and it will make them feel better then thats exactly what theyre gunna do. You are clearly uninformed on the matter so please dont speak on it, regardless of your age your comment is very asinine and uninformed. I'm only twenty years old and even i know better, you should be ashamed, because it can happen to anyone and drug adicts are people too.
regardless of being raised in a good family, you can be prescribed a medication which ends up in heroin ddiction and doctors push it because they get paid commision by prescribing these knds of drugs to people, so really it odesnt matter if you detest drugs because when your in pain sometimes you feel as though you need something to help with it, which is where this comes in.
Duterte 2020
I’m 14 years clean of Heroin and Crack and my name’s also Cameron 😅✌🏼
Cam Ron good for you!! Keep it up!!
Janice Pagano thank you. I intended to keep it up
Killa Cam??
No one forced you to do it... You did the shit and now what you want a medal
@@chrisredig1381 are you going 2 recommend him 4 a medal
I know nothing about homelessness. One factor has become apparent from watching these videos.
1.) If you're a man, people care a lot less. It's horrific, especially when it deals with veterans. I'm 36, was both a combat medic and flight medic in the Army for 8 years. I was NEVER in battle. However, I've witnessed a plethora of soldiers who have sustained the rigors of war where cortisol is constantly eating your health away due to the dangers/stresses of combat. I've had to treat the damaged minds/bodies of soldiers. While the word PTSD is thrown a lot today, to really see it's full manifestations on the physical/psychological deterioration of soldiers is heart breaking. Men, of all people, have been conditioned by society to "take it". In doing so, they shut themselves in... they don't dare ask for help. They literally destroy themselves via drug addiction, isolation and in many cases killing themselves, violently, with a gun straight to the head. Conditioned apathy for their own lives.
2.) The institutional programs aren't set up to truly get people off the streets. They're there to keep people with jobs.
I'm humbled to watch these videos. Every time, it makes realize how much I have to be grateful for.
There is a lot of truth to what you wrote
ErwinSchrodinger64. True. Homeless men are f***ed. Very sad.
Interesting comment. "They're there to keep people with jobs"... Sometimes it feels like as someone who has worked very very hard in life... What do I have to show for it? A crap load of debt and a life of working my arse off and paying taxes into the system... If I slipped and stumbled... like with a drug addiction... and lost my job... I'd be homeless and broke in no time flat and probably nobody would give a shit if I didn't have family to catch me. So yeah... I do kinda think that the institutions are there just to keep us in the rat race... running on that wheel... feeding more taxes into the system... never really getting ahead...I also am competely against the war on drugs... that's my tax dollars at work... ruining people's lives with a health problem...
Wise comment.
+Edwin. Interesting comment. But we often forget that those people who make up "the system" are themselves only human with the same human limitations and frailties as those they treat. And no I'm not one of them here defending myself. I come from a family where there was some severe mental illness (my sister) and while trying to help her I experienced first hand the deep flaws in a system that was supposed to make people better when in fact it appears to make many worse. It was frustrating and despairing. But when we stop to think about it we really do expect health workers to possess more empathy and less mental frailty than we possess ourselves. It's not an excuse, just a fact of life. When all is said and done only empathy and love help people in need, and we can't expect people to produce these in exchange for a wage packet.
"Become a son, a brother, an uncle." That one hit me.
Martin Jutras I’m every single one 🥺😖
He became a father! ❤️
@@Amirasuperdope he overdose and died
Martin Rivera no he died but not from an overdose. He quit and was clean for 5 years I believe. He died from health issues
@@Amirasuperdope muchas gracias por corregirme, creo que entendí mal.
Im not a heroin addict but this is motivating, been 3 weeks clean off xanax and counting
fuckyeaaa
Proud of you bro. Keep it up. Benzo's are horrible!
benzos can be harder to come off so don't put your accomplishment down, to others who haven't already gone cold turkey for benzos be careful, taper down if you suddenly stop taking benzos you can fit, take care, drink lots of fluids, remember to eat. been there not a nice place but after 3 week you should over the hump.......... stay strong ive heard coming off benzos 'cold raven' cos its so much worse.
Dude stay strong! You got the initial symptoms behind you but now starts the hard fight. DO NOT consume any benzos, Z-drugs or alcohol now! The next 9 months will be very hard to get through but you will! And you'll get gradually better.
I don't know you Carlos, but I am rooting for you! I hope when and if you see this post, hope you are doing well. You can beat this!
This was me literally a year ago with my fiancé on the streets of Chattanooga TN living in my Ford Taurus stealing and pan handling every day to support two heroin & eventually fentanyl addictions. I was addicted to just about everything you can name & on and off the streets for 8 years. Today we are both a year sober, he works full time, and I’m a stay at home mom to our now 2 month old baby girl in Scranton PA. I never thought I could be sober for a day let alone a year and now life is beautiful, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been! Praying for everyone still struggling! I love what you guys do it’s a beautiful thing ❤️❤️
Stay awesome Abbey!
God Bless 🙏🏾
Glad you are seeing the benefits! Keep up the good work 👏
This is the Pam and Jim backstory that they never released
Great news, hope you are both happy and healthy, all the best and good luck for the future
Been clean for 28 years now, feels really good.
Good 4 u. I have 8 years clean and loving life. Take care
Congratulations for ALL.👍👍
Congratulations on your sobriety 🥰
Great job, someone said that once you've been an addict you're forever in recovery since it's so easy to relapse is that true?
that's cool af!!!
These interviews are invaluable! Giving a voice to the unheard can change a lot.
working in a jail for 34 years has made me well aware of how bad addiction is
there's a guy on UA-cam who makes a series called "Fresh Out" who said that homeless drug addicts can sometimes become shotcallers in jail. because they finally start eating meals and get much healthier compared to how they were on the streets. but of course they're doing drugs inside as well, aren't they?
To say that the your statement that "Homless drug addicts can sometimes become shotcallers in jail" is incredibly vague is an huge understatement
Yes sir, I myself also worked in a jail for many years... learned a lot about drugs and addiction. You see a perspective most ppl don’t see...
I know you’re addicted to something and I know what it is.
Wtf are u talking about
this guy is well spoken
Sadly being well spoken doesn't guarantee a successful life.
How is that relevant. Lots of people can speak well, people don't automatically throw money at you for it
@@blackham7 is whether or not people throw money at you the only measure of relevance?
dont you mean sssspoken
Kinda sounds like a POS. Not the gov't job to keep you from being a POS, it's all up to you.
Makes sense that he got clean....this guy is very smart......not one wasted word or thought in that interview. He conveyed it with such clarity...This is the hidden shame of our society. Not having the resources to help addicts get clean and then putting shame and blame on them. He was already helping people with his words in that interview. God love him.
Of course I'm sorry he passed away on March 12, 2019 but I am grateful his 3 wishes were not only fulfilled, but being topped by him being a dad, a partner and a friend to many people.
This guy died😢??
Thank you for giving these people a voice. It's really important.
Once again I really appreciate this channel for what it does. I fully admit I would have been very judgmental towards this man, writing him off as an addict and a thief and looking down on him. But this channel always shows how we are all the same, and all these people want is a normal life with some love and a bit of dignity. His three wishes said it all. I often think of how I could easily have ended up in this same situation had my life gone differently.
This is one of the most important channels Iv'e ever subbed into.
Great job brother
Wow. Such passion and energy. So happy to know Cameron is now clean and happy. Never give up the fight.
My name is Cameron I am an opiate addict as well. Been clean for almost 4 months. I loved what he said. I’m happy he is doing great. Keep it up big bro!
Getting clean is absolutely worth it! I used & was homeless for two years with my ex gf. Did fenty (Vancouver, so the only option) but it killed alota friends and folks I knew. I was a petty criminal trying to support my habit through stupid, criminal thuggery... I'm ashamed of it now, but regardless I'm quite proud of myself for being able to pull out of this crazy lifestyle. Used since I was 16 now I'm 21 and just about to finish school & join the CAF as an officer! 😬
Well done my friend! I used from 18 till 22 then went to rehab! Stayed clean till 30 then that evil drug came a knocking and i fell back in! I got clean again at 32 and fell in yet again at 36! Got clean yet again at 37 and im now 43 and clean 6 years! Please listen to me this drug will come knocking at your door threw out your life! Especially when you least expect it! I can tell you if something goes wrong in your life like a job loss or losing a partner it will come to your door and tell you i can make everything better for you! DONT BELIEVE IT ITS A LIE! It will do the opposite! It will DESTROY your life! Be strong in the hard times you will get threw i PROMISE you! Im proud of you and life/god is proud of you too! Stay humble, help others and be strong in hard times you will have a fulfilled life! And hard times will come just remember this comment it will stand you on strong ground!! ❤🙏💪
That was beautiful....when you feel less than zero. zero is like a treasure. I look at the years I wasted as a gauntlet it may kill you to get through, But If you do your reward is amazing and will make you the strongest person you could be. Now I almost can't imagine who id be if I never struggled. God bless anyone going through this and there family.
RIP to his soul. Found his girl on IG and from her posts it seems he passed either late 2018 or early 2019.
That's fucking sad.
Got out of the hell... I feel that being an opioid addict myself.
Very sad indeed
Well shit!!! He just got married a few years ago with a family. Two kids. My god, that's horrible.
Seriously?
I found his wife on FB and looks like he passed in 2019. I’m happy he got that normal life with a wife and kids but sad for him he passed so young and sad for his wife who sounds sweet in the message below and sad for his daughters who I’m sure miss him. I’m happy this man can still live on in pics and video. ❤️
So sad 😞
How did he die?
Thanks for the update
@@Nando-po3db Wondering the same? I don’t use FB…
How did he die?
R. I. P. Cameron so sad to hear you have passed on sending my love to your fiancée and children i hope they are doing good and know you are looking over them from heaven 😢😢xx
Celina Sanchez hes dead.
How did he die 😢
God as somebody with a minor alcohol and weed problem I thought I had it bad until I heard this guy describing how dope sickness feels, I've got an addictive personality so I know better than to ever try anything harder
yes, but add to that , that you wont sleep for up to five days at a time during withdrawal and even when you do you get so restless s soon as you fal asleep you legs jerk and get uncmfortable which forces you to stand up and pace around to rid yourself of this restless feeling, but yet at the same time your so tired all you want to do is sit down or rest but no matter what you do you cannot sleep, or sit still without feelings a creeping sensation and pain in your legs, There is no break or rest or calmness or peace. even for a minute until you get so tired your brain just shuts off.. But then you get awoken by the restless legs again. And this will go on for about two weeks with heroin Withdrawal, in which time becomes meaningless because of how you long you dont sleep it all feels like one long herrible endless day. At least with a flu you can sleep. But this is much worse than you coud even imagine if you havent been through it, please try to abstain from alcohol as that can have some withdrawals too ut mostly only in extremly heavy abusers. Weed is fine haha trust me if you ever were addicted to opiates youd really know what "hard to quit" meant haha. :P please stick with what your ding and stay away from hard drugs :)
Taj Manzoor
Well I wouldn’t place divisions on hard and soft drugs because they all vary in effect but if it’s heroin yes we stay away the addiction is horrendous I was addicted to hydrocodone and oxycodone and in one month problably went through a thousand worth the worst part is everything around me came crashing down on me after withdrawl and it got so bad I cried and muscles ached luckily I have been able to control my use I had been clean since April from pill binges last one was with codeine and been only relapsed just July 18 and trying to go another month at least again from the 18
Get yourself into a twelve step program now. Don't wait.
Im 2 weeks sober after drinking 2-3 bottles wine every night for years. With a little valium its been easy. Had a oxy problem before that, nothing is like withdrawal, that was hell.
Taj Manzoor please don’t take your minor alcohol problem too lightly. I can tell you from experience that it gets worse, and worse, and worse. If you’re an alcoholic, that is can’t stop drinking once you start, please completely quit now. You’ll save yourself so much pain.
I can't believe he's my age! He looks older with the tough times he's going through. Praying for his permanent recovery. So sad! I hope he'll get the help he needs.
I am so glad to hear that this guy finally got it together. I currently have 35 years of being clean and sober and it was God's gift to me. When you're stuck in the cycle of addiction you don't think clearly and all you can see is the next fix or the next drink. People may think we'll why didn't this guy just get on a bus to somewhere where they had a methadone program but unless you've been in his shoes don't judge.
Ya I agree I'm an alcoholic , grew up in a drink culture drank young , nobody said it was addictive
Cameron is so articulate and truly commendable, i wish him a trillion blessings. I wish many more people would watch this, people don't understand the struggle addiction creates. Treatment centers are needed ...please pass this on
the girl that he was talking about on the grbadge truck sortof part. Her name is Janice desjarlais, shes my auntie and I miss her deeply :c its hard for me to live with , to know that she is missing right now. shes been missing 2 years.its going to be 3 years on this upcoming October, I would love to see her again.
Maybe she's dead?
Solomon Grundy childish, immature,selfish JERK! Why u got to be so mean and nasty?😡 such a cruel comment.
I love his three wishes. Truly humble man that needs a break.
+Winnie Azikiwe no, I would have gone flight, invisibility and time travel.
maria rain why did he leave her in a dumpster if she was passed out? He calls her a body as if she was already dead. Something is weird with his story. Have you called the police in this one town this guy claimed this happened in ? I would I’d be finding out why she was never looked for and why nothing is being done. You got to start there .
What a nice guy. I really hope he gets the help he needs.
"And once the pain goes away, that's when the real battle starts. Depression, boredom . . . You feel so ****ing low, you want to ****ing top yourself." Mark Renton, Trainspotting
I remember those days, so sad and true. There is nothing worse than being dope sick. I got off of it by going to a rehab for 4mos and reading the scriptures and praying for strength to stop. His town needs a safe house. We are praying for safe houses. 🙏 💜 Praying for this guy. I understand completely.
Tks for this channel, giving the opportunity to speak about the real things.
ok I was an opiate addict for 12 years . If you really want to get clean you will, no matter the circumstances. I don't want to hear excuses and finger pointing. This guy can he's just not ready
I got the impression that this guy has had enough and is ready to seek control of his life again. Lucky for him he's verbally very competent. I think the videographer is doing a wonderful service by providing the opportunity fo addicts to have a good look at themselves and their singular ability to get out of this stupid lifestyle.
great interview man
real stuff.
Just looked up his fiance kyla Gould's IG, seems like he passed away recently. Dont know the details but rest in peace, Cameron. Hope you are at peace
www.gofundme.com/f/xrqmyt-presley-amp-harlowe
My brother, Cameron McGillivary, died accidentally, suddenly, and unexpectedly on March 12th, 2019. He leaves behind his partner, Kyla Gould and their two daughters, Presley and Harlowe in addition to numerous friends and family members who are all heartbroken and devastated by this loss. We are still searching for answers. ... Sincerely,
Christie
@@FloorEncer
:'-(
Thank you for this update. I am so saddened by this news. I don't even know what to say. I was happy for him when his girlfriend gave us his good news. And now this! God bless you all.
@@margiecasey9428 I was happy about his news as well..I'm saddened by it now...RIP!
RIP brother
I'm a former heroine addict and I can confirm that everything he says is true. I'm lucky to live in Sweden where we have free health care and I've been in the Methadone maintanance program for about 8 years now, and here in Sweden we don't have to pay for the Methadone. It's really hard to get Methadone maintainance in Sweden but when you finally get it its great. I'm alive today thanks to my methadone. I truly hope this guy is doing fine nobody should have to live like that. Much love from Sweden
Same here. 8 years now
Whitdraving from methadone is worst than gear,I was on 85 ml and dicied to go cold turkey, didn't have proper sleep 2 month,first month my bed sheets were soaked whit sweat,it was so bad I wouldn't wish to my worst enemy,its better to just cut off heroine and be sick for 1 or 2 weeks,and if u really have to take methadone don't go higher then 30 ml . .
SIN MAN Thanks for your answer bro.. shit I’ve been on 150mg for 8 years now but the last month I’ve cut my dose down to 110mg and even that made me sweat 😓.. but I’ll keep pushing it down nice and slow because I’m so tired of this liquid handcuffs..
....This man is smart, he's sharp, he's alert. I hope he gets a job helping people in problems, his words are so wise!
Help yourself. You got yourself in that situation. Get yourself out! Don't give up
Hey wish this guy success hope he gets good help
martin duffy o
He must help himself first.
He's married and has like 3 kids now. He's doing great.
Dennis Reynolds really dennis? You know that for a fact?
DIAZ52
I haven't seem him under the bridge smoking crack and catching sewer shrimp with Cricket lately, so I'm fairly certain he isn't homeless anymore.
beautiful work your doing here, everyone has a story.
Please God Bless this man and Help him kick his addictions away. 🌷❤️
I got 4 years clean off heroin and know it's a vicious cycle. Your first step is to surrender completely and you next step is to stop making excuses. If I can do it you can too. Man up! Good luck man!
Great light shined on this. Been there, man knows the truth and speaks it.
*This dude is 100% right*
Great interview. Honest dude.
A very honest candid interview from someone who definitely understands what real addiction is. ★peace
Thank you for making these videos and raise awareness of this issue.
Everything that Cameron said is true about addiction and if you do not have services it is so difficult to get clean without services. I am so happy to hear that Cameron did finally get the help that he needed and is doing amazing. Many people do not understand how addiction works and have no business commenting in a negative manner.
I’m glad he’s doing well. However, I’d disagree with the last sentence. Addiction within itself isn’t necessarily the biggest issue, aside the fact that you can overdose, what gets me is when you neglect everything like your responsibility, such as bills and children all to get that high. That’s problematic and I know a lot of people that have had parents that chose drugs over their own kids and it does stay with them and it’s sad. And because addiction can lead to people neglecting their responsibilities, their decisions affect other people because now other people, whether that be grandma grandpa aunts and uncles have to take over to raise their kids and if you’re addicted and neglect to pay bills, you’re most likely gonna be on the street And in reality, you shouldn’t expect someone including family to take you in because you made bad decisions which led to bad consequences. I’m just saying 🤷♀️
I'm super thankful... That when I was at my lowest of low I didn't take the drugs offered to me that was 3 years ago.(there was also a period which I almost went to a dealer to give me overdose pills cuz I was too depressed I couldn't help it but on my way there with my bycicle I remembered my family and how much they love me so I rode back crying.) I'm 17 now, I'm glad that I searched help to defeat my depression. Going to a psychologist every 2 weeks now. It used to be each week but I'm feeling better so it's less often.
What are 'overdose pills'?
@@creamydistortion any pills that will kill you if you eat a lot, my guess.
Crozzo hope u are ok 👍
I always said I can cope with the pain of dope sickness it's the anxiety and lack of sleep which gets me
Exactly
i don't know man, if you gotta for to work (no matter what you do) it ain't happening when your dopesick, now if you know you've got 10 days off where you can dedicate to lying in bed going crazy it's not the end of the world.
anyone can fall into this trap, just by a operation or break a bone, wham it got ya..we see pharma drugs as safe but they are not and the health system is great at pushing pharma drugs..always be on your guard..
stigonutube Na. They don't push shit. You're in pain. Want to not be?
Doctors get payed commision by big pharma companies for prescibing certain medications like painkillers, sleeping pills, and anxiety meds. So yes, they do try push medication on people.. its the honest truth that anyone could end up in this situations. "want to not be in pain?" thats exactly the type of attitude doctors have towards people which is exactly what causes these situations. They get physically addicted, then the doctor cuts them off so they end up finding heroin on the street or buying pills from someone which leads eventually to them buying heroin, which in turn leads to more of an addiction, and possile death because alot of ther heroin here in alberta is cut ith fentanyl as it is alot of other places. Painkillers may seem innocent enough but when you start going through withdrawals and end up on the street youll think alot differnelty. it may seem like a big step from prescription pain meds but it realy isnt. And withdrawals will make you do dumb things you get extremely desperate so if they can find heroin and tey cn aford it and it will make them feel better then thats exactly what theyre gunna do. You are clearly uninformed on the matter so please dont speak on it, regardless of your age your comment is very asinine and uninformed. I'm only twenty years old and even i know better, you should be ashamed, because it can happen to anyone and drug adicts are people too.
If you are right with God you can get through anything.
This true. God definitely helps. The only times ive ever been able to et through withdrawal i had god at my side. Unfortunately i went back recently but im planning to try stop again soon. And this time im gunna keep god in my life for good because thats the only thing pushing me to continue right now
@@richarddb1856 problem is peopke only seek god when they have big issues why not pray for others when life isa good too
As a guy who's addicted to opioids myself I can so relate to this guy... and the worst part of it is.. my doctors have prescribed me opioids for over 3 years on my repeat prescription and they have NEVER even seen me.. I joined a new doctors when I moved.. but because everything is online now I had no introduction to my new doctor and he has never seen me not once.. and yet he has prescribed me medication since 2019.. which naturally I became physically and mentally addicted to them to the point I need to buy it from people in bulk as addiction has taken over my life... I hope this guy finds happiness and gets clean 🙏
God Bless this man
It sounds like he has turned his life around
Never judge a person until you’ve walked in their shoes
And yet do not judge anyone anyway
It's great that he is doing well! But man, the amount of people, especially mentally ill men, who fall into homelessness and addiction and have almost nowhere to turn makes me so sad.
"Become a son, a brother, an uncle." That one hit me.
It's hard to be in a place in your life as a parent where you Are resolved to.... well ...he'll either choose to live or he'll die. My son is addicted to heroin, he's 23 He's been on drugs since 16. What am I supposed to do with that??! I've ran to him when called. I feed him . I house him. I take him to the Dr. And dentist. I give him money. I love him .... But I am heartbroken with the way he has been existing. I hate the person he is when he is needing a fix. But ,oh how my heart aches for the kid he was.If you read this and are a praying person. Please pray for healing for Addison.
Oh and big respect to this man Cameron, thanks for being so honest, your words although very sad were really inspiring.
Well done I’m so happy you both found each other and found the light!
I read about dope sick during Layne Staley's downward spiral and he is among the most amazing human beings and musicians out there. It takes courage and real heart to do a candid interview like he did, and while I am glad to hear he got cured for a time and had kids and did well, I was so sorry to hear in the comments that he later died rather than stay alive to enjoy a sober life with his kids.
I could tell instantly he was intelligent. Articulate. Drugs can snag anyone. I know firsthand. I know exceptionally well.
According to kyla's fb page, he died in 2018 or 2019? Wonder what happened...
kevinsnyder333 that’s terrible to hear 😢
March 12, 2019 =(
That's horrible to hear. I watched the video and was really hoping he'd get help somewhere. Then, I started reading the comments that he was clean for a good while and I felt so good for him. Now, reading that he's passed away, I feel awful that after what he's been through that his journey is over. I hope he didn't suffer from whatever happened to him. RIP sir. Your video will continue to perhaps help others that have walked in your shoes. You have made a difference in your own way and may inspire countless others who watch this that there is hope where there seemingly doesn't appear to be any at all.
@@Evasroses6543 www.gofundme.com/f/xrqmyt-presley-amp-harlowe
My brother, Cameron McGillivary, died accidentally, suddenly, and unexpectedly on March 12th, 2019. He leaves behind his partner, Kyla Gould and their two daughters, Presley and Harlowe in addition to numerous friends and family members who are all heartbroken and devastated by this loss. We are still searching for answers. ... Sincerely,
Christie
I'm so sorry to hear he's passed away.!!!!😢😢
Prayers for his family...🙏🙏🙏
Anyone who's ever smoked can surely relate to how damn addictive some of these substances are.
Man if i cant stop nic than i couldnt imagine quitting heroin, sad world
@@somespiritualdude9576 I quit heroin, am still on nicotine. Heroin withdrawal is 50x worse than nicotine addiction, the flu like sickness lasts 6 days, then depression for a year. The hard part about nicotine though is the temptation is everywhere since it’s legal and in every gas station, once I got clean and deleted all of my dealer’s numbers and separated myself from users the temptation wasn’t always in my face and I felt like I could get on with my life.
I’m not saying heroin withdraw is easy cuz it is anything but, I’m just saying that nicotine has its struggles too
@Nevaeh Chanski nicotine is a joke to cut, a joke to start. that is the problem.
with all kind off addictions i say: it is like a girl you really like but is a total bitch. just don't call her or respond to her calls. it may take a year or two but you will feel a lot nicer afterwards.
I would not compare nicotine addiction to any kind of opiate addiction. Even the weakest opioids of all time like tramadol and Kratom can get to a point where that's all you think about, and it slowly changes who you are overtime. Dont say you have an idea of what opiate addiction is like just because you smoke cigs, or eat junk food or are mentally dependent on cannabis....not even close.
@@Seforis-er2oc god, shut up.
Brought joy to my day to see he is doing well.
This is a smart man, you can just tell the way he forms his answers. I know exacly what he's going through
Man, the story about the girl in the dumpster, same thing happened to my friend when he was emptying dumpsters. Ended up killing somebody on accident and it totally fucked him up since it happened.
I appreciate this video. ..thanks for sharing
Oh that's a great result kyla, wishing u both a great life & sucessful.
His first wish, to be clean and never have to use again. This was my first wish and we aren't alone. God it's awful but people won't understand that unless they've been through it. It sounds like he's doing better now and I'm really happy to hear that.
I used to have a landscaping business and was working on a project where the roof was being done too. The roofing labourer was such a hard working guy so I hired him for a couple days just to move dirt around. He was a recovered addict, he said he had almost died from it, I guess some pretty nasty stuff. Point is, he made a point of doing talks at high schools to try to get kids to not go that road. He said to me "Who are they gonna listen to you, or me?" (middle aged gardener girl)
I have so much respect for that guy. He had to work 7 days a week to stay clean but at least he was giving back to society.
I have one single wish and that's absolute world peace!
I hope he gets clean and lives out his dreams
LMAO.
Cheers big ears
Brucey Actually the jokes on you cause he ended up doing just that and more!! Fuck people are truly assholes with fuck all going on in their life so they just become useless tits that are spewing negative energy all the time
Jesus loves you! He loves u so much that He died on the cross for your sins and rose from the dead so that you could be saved from sin!! You can be saved from hell if you believe and trust in Jesus!!
Ditto! 100% spot on!! To hear edifying, dispensational, doctrinally sound, politically incorrect, King James Bible-only preaching, check out the following UA-cam channel: KJVM - Bryan Denlinger
Cameron you have all the makings for greatness in your life. You are articulate, smart, and a good looking dude. Stick with it, because the alternative sucks like nothing ever sucked before. Live long and prosper !
Rest in peace :( At least, he made his dream come true! My condolences and prayers to his family and children!
even their drug addicts are polite in canada, this guy wouldn't hurt a soul
It was literally just talking about stealing and using people... but I get what you mean.
Some people have said he has passed away,Has it been confirmed or is it just some made up rumor...? If it is true, than Rip Cameron🕊..
I'm "only" addicted to beer, and I can fully understand him.
My father is going through that right now, he’s suffering heavy. Please seek help it will ruin everything in your life eventually, my dads now homeless and still killing himself
He seems so clear and coherent, I’d be a babbling mess.
This man is the TRUTH.
People act like these people always wanted to grow up to become homeless addicts. Get real, these people are just like anybody else.
Nobody wants to be homeless obviously, problem is they use drugs and don’t want to work. Like i could be working right now but i am on youtube. Its not that i don’t want to be rich, i just don’t want to work hard.
I’m addicted to food. I’ve been trying to lose weight for so long but I always end up caving.
Me as well. Try, those tins of beans and sausages.
I eat half a tin of beans and sausages. In a day, plus whatever else is in the kitchen.
So, this provides good nutrition balance. And, it's helping with weight loss.
So, watching these UA-cam is quite helpful in that, I need to chill a lot. You want be friends in support?
I am on Facebook: A Robert Farr
So message back maybe, I am struggling with that problem. Hopefully we, can form a support group?
He's not a homeless heroin addict he's a human who homeless and addicted to heroin.
Same Fucking thing don't sugar coat the truth hope he stays clean
This man is genuine 🙌 and I'm a heroin addict 26years now and I'm starting treatment tomorrow I'd love to help this guy ✌️
Good luck! Know that a setback is not a reset, its all part of the path to health.
@@florisred thank you ✌️👍
@@florisred I'm 16days now clean I'm doing it for me and my 3nhalf year old son peace ✌️ bro 🙏and another 2months left I no I'll do it now cause My son is everything to me now he can visit me ivebeen given a great chance in treatment
@@mark7831 so happy for you. Good luck with treatment, it must be unimaginably horrible but It is worth It, and your son Will grow up to be proud of his dad who did this for him.
@@florisred I really appreciate that brother cause alot of people except from family wanna here anything from you,I was just brought up in the 80s n 90s which was bad for opiates obviously heroin it was the norm you no,but nowadays I always tell the youngster's never even try it for nothing cause it not only ruins you but mainly loved ones so called friends don't care they only ring you when there looking for something (Drugs r dealers numbers)peace man ✌️
I beat crack after 2 stints in rehab over 20 years ago. You got to help yourself. You seem to be saying it’s our social systems fault. Stop doing heroin and stop calling addiction a disease. It victimizes you in thinking you’ve caught a disease when in fact you did this to yourself. Accepting that is part of you healing. No one but you took the first needle. I’m glad to hear your doing well, keep it up. 👍❤️🇨🇦
You did give something. You gave me hope ...
Lost Name there’s definitely hope, make it your goal, I took ‘the cure’ twice and am happily through the other side, it’s a great place, stick with it!
How to solved a problem ? Never ask a politician, just ask someone who deals with that problem.
What a shame, he was a smart guy. How sad about his girlfriend :-)
I also find this interview candid - he was straight-up with his condition and situation. So people, please please stop taking intoxicants (a Buddhist precept), don't even start - be it smoking, alcohol or drugs! It really is good that he wants to give without expecting any returns instead! Hope he and everyone gets the help needed to change for the better!
People that have never been through addiction have no clue what it's like and this guy nailed it on the head at the end most addicts aren't bad people at heart and want nothing more but to be able to contribute and give back to people but the drugs make you do awful things you otherwise would never even have thought of doing. Once you break that barrier, since you don't know you'll be an addict until after the fact, it messes up your mind to the point that even after you manage to get clean life still isn't what it was before you ever started and you wish so bad you could go back and be able to have the energy and excitement you once had for life, it really takes all of that away and becomes mundane and boring.
People make too much out of it the DTs from alcohol there's not even a comparison
There real similar tho ..alcohol is worse but opiates r still super bad 2 worse addictions out there bsides sugar
....Everyone is in a rush, government departments etc are struggling to survive or my not and don't give a rats ass to the homeless, maybe because there are more and more hitting the streets it's becoming overwhelming. No one has time for anyone anymore, it's true, everyone is running around trying their hardest to keep their heads above water level, it'll only get worse.
At least he has something i don’t have ... a girlfriend
This guy is very smart and articulate.
This guy is keeping it real AF. I hope he gets the help he needs and gets his life back
If I am understanding his story correct, he shot up with his girlfriend in a dumpster, he then left her when she was dead or unconcious without helping her, and then blames the garbage men for crushing her to death.
Kyla Gould That's not the story that was told here. Save your own judgementalism and righteous abuse and see the reality here. The impression described by Edi GG is exactly how he came across in this video - as full of accusations against everyone else for the situation they put themselves in. Blaming the town for being a hard place is amazing. His attitude seemed to be that everyone should be helping him. If that's changed great but please save your own abuse.
It's just classic junkie mentality. Even blaming the drugs for how he is.
@@DiscoFang righteousness and abuse? Wtf are you even talking about. Im standing up for my fiance who the previous poster was portraying wrongly. Yes Cameron had some blaming mentality in this video. But he also shared some really raw stuff and i know this video has helped alot of ppl and its not fair for ppl to judge and belittle him for it. I dont understand why ppl find the need to comment on shit they know nothing about. Watch it if you must, but then move on.
thank you for your great posts and answers. im so glad you 2 met. i hope God blesses you both. since i was 17 ive had pills to treat severe back issues and yes, got out of control on certain pills for awhile. dope sick is the worst thing i felt in my life. a burst appendix wasnt even as bad as dope sick was. thank God, im in control and limited what i take and use. i hope your lives together continue to go well and dont mean to be rude or pushy, that you find a good church also. mine has helped a lot, not only in salvation thru Jesus Christ, but also in the social, mental, physical, and spiritual issues that come with pain/drugs. take care, eric
@@erictroxell2298 Good for you for getting through those tough times, and thank you for your comments, I definately do love God and would love to find a church to go to again. There was one i went to in treatment the first time that was amazing and seriously gave me goosebumps everytime I went. Maybe I will take the family there again! God bless you!
How does one survive the brutal winters in Fort McMurray without a home?
Garry Burgess people don’t
Homeless shelters and churches? How else.
That's why I don't do dope
Cameron is so switched-on and clear-minded despite his addiction that it's hard to understand what led his mind astray to do drugs at all.
Wow, it's like he's a real person or something!
Like you and me.