Just an update for everyone Cameron is doing amazing. He finally went to treatment and has 19 months clean. I met him while I was also in recovery and we are now engaged and have a beautiful daughter. It just shows that if you put your all into this fight you can come out on top. I am so proud of him, and anyone else that struggles with this disease, there is a way out, never lose hope. Kyla Gould
I know nothing about homelessness. One factor has become apparent from watching these videos. 1.) If you're a man, people care a lot less. It's horrific, especially when it deals with veterans. I'm 36, was both a combat medic and flight medic in the Army for 8 years. I was NEVER in battle. However, I've witnessed a plethora of soldiers who have sustained the rigors of war where cortisol is constantly eating your health away due to the dangers/stresses of combat. I've had to treat the damaged minds/bodies of soldiers. While the word PTSD is thrown a lot today, to really see it's full manifestations on the physical/psychological deterioration of soldiers is heart breaking. Men, of all people, have been conditioned by society to "take it". In doing so, they shut themselves in... they don't dare ask for help. They literally destroy themselves via drug addiction, isolation and in many cases killing themselves, violently, with a gun straight to the head. Conditioned apathy for their own lives. 2.) The institutional programs aren't set up to truly get people off the streets. They're there to keep people with jobs. I'm humbled to watch these videos. Every time, it makes realize how much I have to be grateful for.
Interesting comment. "They're there to keep people with jobs"... Sometimes it feels like as someone who has worked very very hard in life... What do I have to show for it? A crap load of debt and a life of working my arse off and paying taxes into the system... If I slipped and stumbled... like with a drug addiction... and lost my job... I'd be homeless and broke in no time flat and probably nobody would give a shit if I didn't have family to catch me. So yeah... I do kinda think that the institutions are there just to keep us in the rat race... running on that wheel... feeding more taxes into the system... never really getting ahead...I also am competely against the war on drugs... that's my tax dollars at work... ruining people's lives with a health problem...
+Edwin. Interesting comment. But we often forget that those people who make up "the system" are themselves only human with the same human limitations and frailties as those they treat. And no I'm not one of them here defending myself. I come from a family where there was some severe mental illness (my sister) and while trying to help her I experienced first hand the deep flaws in a system that was supposed to make people better when in fact it appears to make many worse. It was frustrating and despairing. But when we stop to think about it we really do expect health workers to possess more empathy and less mental frailty than we possess ourselves. It's not an excuse, just a fact of life. When all is said and done only empathy and love help people in need, and we can't expect people to produce these in exchange for a wage packet.
Of course I'm sorry he passed away on March 12, 2019 but I am grateful his 3 wishes were not only fulfilled, but being topped by him being a dad, a partner and a friend to many people.
I found his wife on FB and looks like he passed in 2019. I’m happy he got that normal life with a wife and kids but sad for him he passed so young and sad for his wife who sounds sweet in the message below and sad for his daughters who I’m sure miss him. I’m happy this man can still live on in pics and video. ❤️
Once again I really appreciate this channel for what it does. I fully admit I would have been very judgmental towards this man, writing him off as an addict and a thief and looking down on him. But this channel always shows how we are all the same, and all these people want is a normal life with some love and a bit of dignity. His three wishes said it all. I often think of how I could easily have ended up in this same situation had my life gone differently.
I can't believe he's my age! He looks older with the tough times he's going through. Praying for his permanent recovery. So sad! I hope he'll get the help he needs.
R. I. P. Cameron so sad to hear you have passed on sending my love to your fiancée and children i hope they are doing good and know you are looking over them from heaven 😢😢xx
I am so glad to hear that this guy finally got it together. I currently have 35 years of being clean and sober and it was God's gift to me. When you're stuck in the cycle of addiction you don't think clearly and all you can see is the next fix or the next drink. People may think we'll why didn't this guy just get on a bus to somewhere where they had a methadone program but unless you've been in his shoes don't judge.
I'm a former heroine addict and I can confirm that everything he says is true. I'm lucky to live in Sweden where we have free health care and I've been in the Methadone maintanance program for about 8 years now, and here in Sweden we don't have to pay for the Methadone. It's really hard to get Methadone maintainance in Sweden but when you finally get it its great. I'm alive today thanks to my methadone. I truly hope this guy is doing fine nobody should have to live like that. Much love from Sweden
Whitdraving from methadone is worst than gear,I was on 85 ml and dicied to go cold turkey, didn't have proper sleep 2 month,first month my bed sheets were soaked whit sweat,it was so bad I wouldn't wish to my worst enemy,its better to just cut off heroine and be sick for 1 or 2 weeks,and if u really have to take methadone don't go higher then 30 ml . .
SIN MAN Thanks for your answer bro.. shit I’ve been on 150mg for 8 years now but the last month I’ve cut my dose down to 110mg and even that made me sweat 😓.. but I’ll keep pushing it down nice and slow because I’m so tired of this liquid handcuffs..
i don't know man, if you gotta for to work (no matter what you do) it ain't happening when your dopesick, now if you know you've got 10 days off where you can dedicate to lying in bed going crazy it's not the end of the world.
Everything that Cameron said is true about addiction and if you do not have services it is so difficult to get clean without services. I am so happy to hear that Cameron did finally get the help that he needed and is doing amazing. Many people do not understand how addiction works and have no business commenting in a negative manner.
I’m glad he’s doing well. However, I’d disagree with the last sentence. Addiction within itself isn’t necessarily the biggest issue, aside the fact that you can overdose, what gets me is when you neglect everything like your responsibility, such as bills and children all to get that high. That’s problematic and I know a lot of people that have had parents that chose drugs over their own kids and it does stay with them and it’s sad. And because addiction can lead to people neglecting their responsibilities, their decisions affect other people because now other people, whether that be grandma grandpa aunts and uncles have to take over to raise their kids and if you’re addicted and neglect to pay bills, you’re most likely gonna be on the street And in reality, you shouldn’t expect someone including family to take you in because you made bad decisions which led to bad consequences. I’m just saying 🤷♀️
God Bless this man It sounds like he has turned his life around Never judge a person until you’ve walked in their shoes And yet do not judge anyone anyway
I had a friend who was a drug dealer when young. He tried to kick it, but couldn't, before he died. He also had a job, and one day I called his job to talk to him, and they told me he was dead. He died in his 20's. Sad. He was a smart young man, just got caught up.
It's great that he is doing well! But man, the amount of people, especially mentally ill men, who fall into homelessness and addiction and have almost nowhere to turn makes me so sad.
The opioid crises effects those of us who have chronic pain and need opioids to reduce our pain so that we can function. I can not get the medication I need because the medical community’s hands are tied. I have never been addicted to anything nor would I ever mis use medication. I just want to stop suffering and live a happy, productive life. It’s sad for those addicted and sad for those who really need them. What struck me is he said he wanted to be “clean” and normal but he also said he got “clean’’ in jail. What happened? If that is what he truly wants, why did he start using again? I wish he would have been asked these questions for clarity.
People that have never been through addiction have no clue what it's like and this guy nailed it on the head at the end most addicts aren't bad people at heart and want nothing more but to be able to contribute and give back to people but the drugs make you do awful things you otherwise would never even have thought of doing. Once you break that barrier, since you don't know you'll be an addict until after the fact, it messes up your mind to the point that even after you manage to get clean life still isn't what it was before you ever started and you wish so bad you could go back and be able to have the energy and excitement you once had for life, it really takes all of that away and becomes mundane and boring.
Me as well. Try, those tins of beans and sausages. I eat half a tin of beans and sausages. In a day, plus whatever else is in the kitchen. So, this provides good nutrition balance. And, it's helping with weight loss. So, watching these UA-cam is quite helpful in that, I need to chill a lot. You want be friends in support? I am on Facebook: A Robert Farr So message back maybe, I am struggling with that problem. Hopefully we, can form a support group?
Dope is the stupidest thing I’ve ever done to myself. I’m sitting outside at this very moment trying to understand why I did this to myself. I’m killing myself with a drug that doesn’t even get me “High” anymore. Because I’m too much of a coward to be “sick” for 7 or 8 days. I am so ashamed of myself and I must try really hard to not end my own life because I am a spiritual and mental weakling. This is not the life I promised myself as a kid, this is not the life God gave me to live, this is a lie and I am a liar. I lie to myself every time I put this poison up my nose. I’m not looking for sympathy or even compassion at this point. I am completely and utterly lost. The thing is, I know better and I knew better the first time I put this poison in my system. Now, here I am at a crossroad, either I make a choice to live or it’s time to die. I’m “sick and tired of being sick and tired” and unless I make a change, I see no reason to continue. Hard Drugs Suck and they are a lie. I’m wishing Everyone well.
he had obviously just fixed prior to this video. i'm very happy to hear that he had got clean and stayed that way. hopefully he still is. i have been in his shoes by the way, when i was younger.
Try to help yourself and realize what that means it doesn’t mean help yourself to as many drugs as you want and expect the world to do whatever you say
I've been homeless, had financial hardship for a good time and fixed it by making rough choices, the only creature who ever accepted me as I am day to day.. he died and I lived in mental hell for a year after that, had psychosis and tried suicide with real intent. And there's more I ain't gonna go to. And I consider myself lucky as hell compared to this guy. Vet, 16+ years homeless, and so deep in physical addiction... I never realized how bad physical addiction can be before watching this. It's always tied to your mind and it is a habit, but still.
The physical part of an opiate addiction is truly hell on earth. You NEVER get a day off. The addiction is a full time job. Everyday you need to make money so you’re not sick. It doesn’t care about Xmas, birthdays..nothing. I’ve been addicted 16 years because I just can’t make it through the withdrawal. To me it’s nothing like the flu... even X10. I am loosing hope that I will ever get off this shit Sorry to hear about what you went through. You seem like a strong person. A fighter. I believe you’re gonna be ok
If you have underlying illnesses that can be made worse by the symptoms then you can die, but you cant actually die from opiate withdrawals alone, it is other factors that cause this. Im addicted to heroin as well and it really sucks lol.. But the ikely hood of you dying from withdrawals is extremely extremely low and is usually only possible when other factors are involved and even then it is uncommon. You do FEEL as though you might die, but thats just the reality of how painful and horrible withdrawals are. Your dad was probably not going to die dont worry :) I hope hes doing better now!
and nno theyre not gunna give you opiates for your withdrawals in the hospital no matter what you do. They dont give drugs to drug addicts man, thats just a policy.. Theyre literally not aloud to, is not tht they dont care.
they dont give the drug addict the same type of drug theyre addicted to i shoudlve said. Sure they can give you valium to calm your breathing but they arent ever gunna give you opiates just because your in withdrawal lol thats the funniest thing ive heard all day xD lol trying to ggo to a hospital dope sick and ask for opiates hahahaha im suprised they didnt laugh at you
I hope he got back to B.C. ! He seems like an intelligent man , brutally honest too ! Hennessey medical detox and rehabilitation ! He is only 40 years old , he has a lot of good years ahead of him ! God , he deserves a second chance !
I hope this guy will kick his addiction to the curb and be able to get his life back on track. Just give it your very best effort guy, and ask God for strength and help. Good luck guy. You're an intelligent man.👍
I believe so. This is one of my favorite interviews. He got sober, got married, and raised kids. Sadly, he passed away about a year ago from natural causes.
IS MORE COMPLEX THAT WE THINK !!!, My Grandmother tell me, Kids are like Trees, they need a fertile soil, they need a great rain sometimes, someone taking cake of them, if you want to have kids, think before, WHY, ? and ask yourself if you have the qualities to be a Mother, because if you love your child, BE PREPARED BEFORE BRING IT INTO THIS EARTH. Many of this persons have PAIN behind the DRUG-ADDICTION, that is the root, How you born, How was your life with your parents, HOMEOPATHY IS GREAT FOR THE ETHERIC BODY, YOU DON'T NEED TO HAVE FAITH, this is, the natural help, that our body need, to face; depression, sadness, fury, abandonment, violence. All this are the reaction to emotions in our body, we need to heal our HART, SOUL, MIND, SPIRIT. God guide your destiny, you take the actions. Blessings.
....Everyone is in a rush, government departments etc are struggling to survive or my not and don't give a rats ass to the homeless, maybe because there are more and more hitting the streets it's becoming overwhelming. No one has time for anyone anymore, it's true, everyone is running around trying their hardest to keep their heads above water level, it'll only get worse.
Jesus loves you! He loves u so much that He died on the cross for your sins and rose from the dead so that you could be saved from sin!! You can be saved from hell if you believe and trust in Jesus!!
Ditto! 100% spot on!! To hear edifying, dispensational, doctrinally sound, politically incorrect, King James Bible-only preaching, check out the following UA-cam channel: KJVM - Bryan Denlinger
IwantAgoodCleanFight ,addiction isn't a disease ,people with cancer have a disease & they didn't do it to them selves ,if u stick a needle full of drugs in u r arm ,that's not a disease ,that's self destructive behavior
This is a complex issue. However, one thing that is important is the one abusing the drugs also take ownership of their problems. Yes, it is way too easy to get prescription opioids and a lot of people with jobs take them. It is an epidemic. But as mentioned before, change starts with the one taking the drugs and it is NOT an excuse for stealing and committing other crimes. It seems Cameron has gotten the help he needed and he is sticking to it. That is great and I hope he realizes that once you are an addict, you are always an addict which means he cannot afford to slip up. It is the same with alcoholism.
I'm sooo tired of this BULLCRAP! I did kratom everyday the last 8 months, because guess what: Its an addictin opioit! Actually first day off right now and having physicall withdraw symtoms, they are the same as heroins, just a little bit less severe and only for like 3-5 days but still HORRIBLE! And psychological withdrawl goes like 3 weeks, this stuff is not the healing guys belive me
thats true, every herion addict is, why schould that change with the substance? Their mind will simply attache to the new subastance (Kratom) and replace the old (heroin). its called 'addiction shift', been there done that. The Problem is not really the substance itself, but the traumatas within the user that have to get healed. Otherwise they will always find ways to soothe the pain (and herion is the most effective and easy way)
When he says it took him a month to start sleeping in jail he wasn’t joking. First time I kicked smoking it a small habit I didn’t sleep for 6 days. That’s the worst part of it, it wouldn’t be bad if you can get a break at nite.
I appreciate and am so happy about the fact he got clean but just to point out he can’t be upset garbage men didn’t know a woman was in the garbage. That’s... you know.. I am also a recovering addict, it truly is the most difficult thing to do and it is even more challenging to maintain. But you have to find something to be your Why. For me it’s my family who has always tried to help me and who were always there. I owed it to them. I didn’t do it for me at all.
This guy has the entitled junkie mentality. You got yourself into this rut, it’s nobody’s fault but your own. I’ve been there before, it was the hardest struggle of my life and it still continues to be 5 years later.
While I agree that he showed some of the typical junkie mentality, I gotta disagree. People choose drugs in order to self-medicate a trauma of some sorts. To fill a void they didn't even know was there. And nowadays we know that blaming addicts is the worst thing you can do. They need full support, love and good relationships to get them out of their vicious cycle.
"I am poisoning myself intnentionally and have been for 15 years, why are there not free services to relieve the negative effects of the poison? It is so unfair".
Ridiculous. Heroin and opioids in general are not poisonous and do very little actual damage to the body. Compared to caffeine, I'd say opioids do less damage. The big difference is that they create physical dependence. It's nothing toxic, it's just how our brain works. The more exogenous opioids your body receives, the more the endogenous processes grow out of balance. It's not like he's poisoning himself. He's self-medicating. Would you say the same about a person who takes an aspirin every other day for headaches and happens to harm their organs with it (opioids don't do that btw)? Or how about the millions of silent sufferers who suffer horribly for years after taking prescribed benzodiazepines which they got from their doctors, and which they took responsibly? They are addictive no matter what, you cannot take them and not become addicted. Would you also say they're "intentionally poisoning themselves and now want free services to relieve the negative effects"? If you don't know anyone who has lived through stuff like this, or you yourself has lived through it, you won't understand how horrible this is. These people feel absolutely trapped.
iWillWakeYouUp You might think you're doing him a kindness by removing all personal agency and responsibility for his situation from him, but it's the opposite, it's that mentality that causes this problem in the first place. I have huge compassion for people in his situation, I just don't think acting as if this isn't their own doing helps matters. Time and time again I see interviews with people who get clean who say the only way they managed it was taking personal responsibility for where they were and seeking the solution inside themselves, not in others.
I’m in exact same situation. There’s no sensible right minded person that wouldn’t agree that there’s some sort of effort to keep this cycle going. Some would say that drugs are sold by the govt and that’s why they will never be legal
I'm not looking for a handout, but I'm looking for a handout. Not sure where the mindset of there should be a facility to take care of me or why doesn't the country, the state, the government take care of me comes from. Its called life and your conscious decisions. Pull up your socks and climb out of the hole you put yourself in.
I agree it did take courage to be so honest. The thing I just will never get is simply why they keep doing the drugs and making the bad choices yet expecting someone else to take care of them.
Thats great news.. had a friend dealing with same stuff and was at the end of his rope. I guided him away.. away from it all even his friends. Just move get away and clean up and pull yourself together. Death is not the answer he too is smart and can grow but I have seen a friend almost the same boat as this guy but also meth was involved. He now has been clean 2 years and 8 states away from this place.
@@Partheseus www.gofundme.com/f/xrqmyt-presley-amp-harlowe My brother, Cameron McGillivary, died accidentally, suddenly, and unexpectedly on March 12th, 2019. He leaves behind his partner, Kyla Gould and their two daughters, Presley and Harlowe in addition to numerous friends and family members who are all heartbroken and devastated by this loss. We are still searching for answers. ... Sincerely, Christie
Hey all you haters...Cameron is still clean and has a life he could never imagine, with two beautiful kids so the next time you wanna wish ill upon someone who has suffered in their life from trauma, and dealt with a horrible drug addiction, think twice. Don't judge people until you have been in their shoes, and God forbid you ever have to. If you don't understand addiction then why do you find the need to comment on raw videos about it? Wishing my fiance dead? Thinking he left Janice in the dumpster to die? You are sick, heartless people. And for everyone that has shown support and love for this video, bless you. You are all the reason that me and Cameron are still clean to this day. It takes support, love and compassion from people to help see the good in yourself. Getting clean is alot of work but it is possible and it is worth it!
and also @invisiblepeople you are amazing and if it wasn't for you I never would have met Cameron and had the life I have today. You helped in more ways than you will ever know. God bless you.
kyla gould this is awesome. Use the haters as ammo to push you. So glad you both are well, praise god. God answered his prayer. He was sincere in his 3 wishes and it had turned away.
wow, that's totally cool....but weren't you guys engaged the last time you commented? a few years back? are you on an extended engagement? Just wondering. Also, I've been off the heroin for several years now, but for some reason my life isn't getting any better. I'm SO tired/fatigued/exhausted all of the time, no energy at all, and I cannot seem to find a medical reason for it. I feel so much regret, guilt, remorse, sorrow, feelings of worthlessness, despair, loneliness etc.etc. Is this common for a person in recovery 4 years now? I started taking drugs during the period when my mom kept attempting suicide every few months after the divorce.
Crimson King yes we are still engaged. Kids happened which has been a blessing and we've taken the time to focus on them and worry about a wedding later on. As for how you are feeling, I can totally relate. I still struggle with those feelings at times but the thing that works for me is reaching out and talking to my sponsor or going to a meeting. It is important that you do some work to get to the root of the problem. N.A steps help. The drugs are not the main problem, its the behaviours and why you did the things you did. I know being clean for almost 5 years, my head is still a mess sometimes. I think about some of the things i've done and i feel guilt and shame and remorse but when I dig deep and work through those feelings and find a solution for them, I can move forward and learn to heal. Good luck on your journey. You should be proud of all you have accomplished.
It takes balls to be this honest. I cannot believe some posters are hating on this guy. Anyone can end up homeless and addicted to drugs; it is NOT a planned life scenario...
No. Not anyone can end up addicted to drugs. I never had any desire to do drugs. At an early age I was well aware of the consequences. Around 16 I guess. I'm 52 now. I'm not sure how I knew of the consequences at such an early age. Was it education at school? Was it a conversation I had with someone? I don't know. I just remember at an early age to stay away from drugs and alcohol, doctors, and hospitals. I hate to take otc pain relievers. I know it's not natural. Drinking a 6 pack of beer a day is also unnatural. I understand some people get addicted by prescription meds but some people start that kind of shit just so they can feel cool and accepted. I never cared about the peer pressure shit. I also knew my Dad would beat my ass if he ever caught me doing shit like that. And I would certainly be deserving of a good ass whooping if I did do drugs or alcohol. Being homeless can probably be considered a much needed ass whooping for a lot of these people. Homelessness. The ass whooping that keeps on whooping.
Truthinvideos this is for you, its the honest truth that anyone could end up in this situations. "want to not be in pain? here this will make it all better, got a broken foot? here this will help." thats exactly the type of attitude doctors have towards people which is exactly what causes these situations. They get physically addicted, then the doctor cuts them off so they end up finding heroin on the street or buying pills from someone which leads eventually to them buying heroin, which in turn leads to more of an addiction, and possile death because alot of ther heroin here in alberta is cut ith fentanyl as it is alot of other places. Painkillers may seem innocent enough but when you start going through withdrawals and end up on the street youll think alot differnelty. it may seem like a big step from prescription pain meds but it realy isnt. And withdrawals will make you do dumb things you get extremely desperate so if they can find heroin and tey cn aford it and it will make them feel better then thats exactly what theyre gunna do. You are clearly uninformed on the matter so please dont speak on it, regardless of your age your comment is very asinine and uninformed. I'm only twenty years old and even i know better, you should be ashamed, because it can happen to anyone and drug adicts are people too.
regardless of being raised in a good family, you can be prescribed a medication which ends up in heroin ddiction and doctors push it because they get paid commision by prescribing these knds of drugs to people, so really it odesnt matter if you detest drugs because when your in pain sometimes you feel as though you need something to help with it, which is where this comes in.
benzos can be harder to come off so don't put your accomplishment down, to others who haven't already gone cold turkey for benzos be careful, taper down if you suddenly stop taking benzos you can fit, take care, drink lots of fluids, remember to eat. been there not a nice place but after 3 week you should over the hump.......... stay strong ive heard coming off benzos 'cold raven' cos its so much worse.
Dude stay strong! You got the initial symptoms behind you but now starts the hard fight. DO NOT consume any benzos, Z-drugs or alcohol now! The next 9 months will be very hard to get through but you will! And you'll get gradually better.
there's a guy on UA-cam who makes a series called "Fresh Out" who said that homeless drug addicts can sometimes become shotcallers in jail. because they finally start eating meals and get much healthier compared to how they were on the streets. but of course they're doing drugs inside as well, aren't they?
This was me literally a year ago with my fiancé on the streets of Chattanooga TN living in my Ford Taurus stealing and pan handling every day to support two heroin & eventually fentanyl addictions. I was addicted to just about everything you can name & on and off the streets for 8 years. Today we are both a year sober, he works full time, and I’m a stay at home mom to our now 2 month old baby girl in Scranton PA. I never thought I could be sober for a day let alone a year and now life is beautiful, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been! Praying for everyone still struggling! I love what you guys do it’s a beautiful thing ❤️❤️
the girl that he was talking about on the grbadge truck sortof part. Her name is Janice desjarlais, shes my auntie and I miss her deeply :c its hard for me to live with , to know that she is missing right now. shes been missing 2 years.its going to be 3 years on this upcoming October, I would love to see her again.
maria rain why did he leave her in a dumpster if she was passed out? He calls her a body as if she was already dead. Something is weird with his story. Have you called the police in this one town this guy claimed this happened in ? I would I’d be finding out why she was never looked for and why nothing is being done. You got to start there .
That's horrible to hear. I watched the video and was really hoping he'd get help somewhere. Then, I started reading the comments that he was clean for a good while and I felt so good for him. Now, reading that he's passed away, I feel awful that after what he's been through that his journey is over. I hope he didn't suffer from whatever happened to him. RIP sir. Your video will continue to perhaps help others that have walked in your shoes. You have made a difference in your own way and may inspire countless others who watch this that there is hope where there seemingly doesn't appear to be any at all.
@@Evasroses6543 www.gofundme.com/f/xrqmyt-presley-amp-harlowe My brother, Cameron McGillivary, died accidentally, suddenly, and unexpectedly on March 12th, 2019. He leaves behind his partner, Kyla Gould and their two daughters, Presley and Harlowe in addition to numerous friends and family members who are all heartbroken and devastated by this loss. We are still searching for answers. ... Sincerely, Christie
Just an update for everyone Cameron is doing amazing. He finally went to treatment and has 19 months clean. I met him while I was also in recovery and we are now engaged and have a beautiful daughter. It just shows that if you put your all into this fight you can come out on top. I am so proud of him, and anyone else that struggles with this disease, there is a way out, never lose hope. Kyla Gould
kyla gould. Bless you in i'm.
***** thank you so much, @cameron is coming up on 4 years clean and we now have 2 kids. Life is great ❤
h collinet thank you ❤
dachicagoan thank you so much
Adam Coyne that's a little strong
"Become a son, a brother, an uncle." That one hit me.
Martin Jutras I’m every single one 🥺😖
He became a father! ❤️
@@xoOhGoshiRockxo he overdose and died
Martin Rivera no he died but not from an overdose. He quit and was clean for 5 years I believe. He died from health issues
@@xoOhGoshiRockxo muchas gracias por corregirme, creo que entendí mal.
I know nothing about homelessness. One factor has become apparent from watching these videos.
1.) If you're a man, people care a lot less. It's horrific, especially when it deals with veterans. I'm 36, was both a combat medic and flight medic in the Army for 8 years. I was NEVER in battle. However, I've witnessed a plethora of soldiers who have sustained the rigors of war where cortisol is constantly eating your health away due to the dangers/stresses of combat. I've had to treat the damaged minds/bodies of soldiers. While the word PTSD is thrown a lot today, to really see it's full manifestations on the physical/psychological deterioration of soldiers is heart breaking. Men, of all people, have been conditioned by society to "take it". In doing so, they shut themselves in... they don't dare ask for help. They literally destroy themselves via drug addiction, isolation and in many cases killing themselves, violently, with a gun straight to the head. Conditioned apathy for their own lives.
2.) The institutional programs aren't set up to truly get people off the streets. They're there to keep people with jobs.
I'm humbled to watch these videos. Every time, it makes realize how much I have to be grateful for.
There is a lot of truth to what you wrote
ErwinSchrodinger64. True. Homeless men are f***ed. Very sad.
Interesting comment. "They're there to keep people with jobs"... Sometimes it feels like as someone who has worked very very hard in life... What do I have to show for it? A crap load of debt and a life of working my arse off and paying taxes into the system... If I slipped and stumbled... like with a drug addiction... and lost my job... I'd be homeless and broke in no time flat and probably nobody would give a shit if I didn't have family to catch me. So yeah... I do kinda think that the institutions are there just to keep us in the rat race... running on that wheel... feeding more taxes into the system... never really getting ahead...I also am competely against the war on drugs... that's my tax dollars at work... ruining people's lives with a health problem...
Wise comment.
+Edwin. Interesting comment. But we often forget that those people who make up "the system" are themselves only human with the same human limitations and frailties as those they treat. And no I'm not one of them here defending myself. I come from a family where there was some severe mental illness (my sister) and while trying to help her I experienced first hand the deep flaws in a system that was supposed to make people better when in fact it appears to make many worse. It was frustrating and despairing. But when we stop to think about it we really do expect health workers to possess more empathy and less mental frailty than we possess ourselves. It's not an excuse, just a fact of life. When all is said and done only empathy and love help people in need, and we can't expect people to produce these in exchange for a wage packet.
Of course I'm sorry he passed away on March 12, 2019 but I am grateful his 3 wishes were not only fulfilled, but being topped by him being a dad, a partner and a friend to many people.
This guy died😢??
I found his wife on FB and looks like he passed in 2019. I’m happy he got that normal life with a wife and kids but sad for him he passed so young and sad for his wife who sounds sweet in the message below and sad for his daughters who I’m sure miss him. I’m happy this man can still live on in pics and video. ❤️
So sad 😞
How did he die?
Thanks for the update
@@Nando-po3db Wondering the same? I don’t use FB…
How did he die?
Once again I really appreciate this channel for what it does. I fully admit I would have been very judgmental towards this man, writing him off as an addict and a thief and looking down on him. But this channel always shows how we are all the same, and all these people want is a normal life with some love and a bit of dignity. His three wishes said it all. I often think of how I could easily have ended up in this same situation had my life gone differently.
I can't believe he's my age! He looks older with the tough times he's going through. Praying for his permanent recovery. So sad! I hope he'll get the help he needs.
R. I. P. Cameron so sad to hear you have passed on sending my love to your fiancée and children i hope they are doing good and know you are looking over them from heaven 😢😢xx
Celina Sanchez hes dead.
How did he die 😢
RIP to his soul. Found his girl on IG and from her posts it seems he passed either late 2018 or early 2019.
That's fucking sad.
Got out of the hell... I feel that being an opioid addict myself.
Very sad indeed
Well shit!!! He just got married a few years ago with a family. Two kids. My god, that's horrible.
Seriously?
I am so glad to hear that this guy finally got it together. I currently have 35 years of being clean and sober and it was God's gift to me. When you're stuck in the cycle of addiction you don't think clearly and all you can see is the next fix or the next drink. People may think we'll why didn't this guy just get on a bus to somewhere where they had a methadone program but unless you've been in his shoes don't judge.
Ya I agree I'm an alcoholic , grew up in a drink culture drank young , nobody said it was addictive
I'm a former heroine addict and I can confirm that everything he says is true. I'm lucky to live in Sweden where we have free health care and I've been in the Methadone maintanance program for about 8 years now, and here in Sweden we don't have to pay for the Methadone. It's really hard to get Methadone maintainance in Sweden but when you finally get it its great. I'm alive today thanks to my methadone. I truly hope this guy is doing fine nobody should have to live like that. Much love from Sweden
Same here. 8 years now
Whitdraving from methadone is worst than gear,I was on 85 ml and dicied to go cold turkey, didn't have proper sleep 2 month,first month my bed sheets were soaked whit sweat,it was so bad I wouldn't wish to my worst enemy,its better to just cut off heroine and be sick for 1 or 2 weeks,and if u really have to take methadone don't go higher then 30 ml . .
SIN MAN Thanks for your answer bro.. shit I’ve been on 150mg for 8 years now but the last month I’ve cut my dose down to 110mg and even that made me sweat 😓.. but I’ll keep pushing it down nice and slow because I’m so tired of this liquid handcuffs..
....This man is smart, he's sharp, he's alert. I hope he gets a job helping people in problems, his words are so wise!
What a nice guy. I really hope he gets the help he needs.
I always said I can cope with the pain of dope sickness it's the anxiety and lack of sleep which gets me
Exactly
i don't know man, if you gotta for to work (no matter what you do) it ain't happening when your dopesick, now if you know you've got 10 days off where you can dedicate to lying in bed going crazy it's not the end of the world.
Everything that Cameron said is true about addiction and if you do not have services it is so difficult to get clean without services. I am so happy to hear that Cameron did finally get the help that he needed and is doing amazing. Many people do not understand how addiction works and have no business commenting in a negative manner.
I’m glad he’s doing well. However, I’d disagree with the last sentence. Addiction within itself isn’t necessarily the biggest issue, aside the fact that you can overdose, what gets me is when you neglect everything like your responsibility, such as bills and children all to get that high. That’s problematic and I know a lot of people that have had parents that chose drugs over their own kids and it does stay with them and it’s sad. And because addiction can lead to people neglecting their responsibilities, their decisions affect other people because now other people, whether that be grandma grandpa aunts and uncles have to take over to raise their kids and if you’re addicted and neglect to pay bills, you’re most likely gonna be on the street And in reality, you shouldn’t expect someone including family to take you in because you made bad decisions which led to bad consequences. I’m just saying 🤷♀️
Cameron is so switched-on and clear-minded despite his addiction that it's hard to understand what led his mind astray to do drugs at all.
God Bless this man
It sounds like he has turned his life around
Never judge a person until you’ve walked in their shoes
And yet do not judge anyone anyway
Help yourself. You got yourself in that situation. Get yourself out! Don't give up
*This dude is 100% right*
"I want to be angry because my phone bills too high" when even the shit that comes with being average is a dream come true 😔
I had a friend who was a drug dealer when young. He tried to kick it, but couldn't, before he died. He also had a job, and one day I called his job to talk to him, and they told me he was dead. He died in his 20's. Sad. He was a smart young man, just got caught up.
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beautiful work your doing here, everyone has a story.
It's great that he is doing well! But man, the amount of people, especially mentally ill men, who fall into homelessness and addiction and have almost nowhere to turn makes me so sad.
"Become a son, a brother, an uncle." That one hit me.
The opioid crises effects those of us who have chronic pain and need opioids to reduce our pain so that we can function. I can not get the medication I need because the medical community’s hands are tied. I have never been addicted to anything nor would I ever mis use medication. I just want to stop suffering and live a happy, productive life. It’s sad for those addicted and sad for those who really need them. What struck me is he said he wanted to be “clean” and normal but he also said he got “clean’’ in jail. What happened? If that is what he truly wants, why did he start using again? I wish he would have been asked these questions for clarity.
Addiction is a disease that should be treated not a crime to be treated as a criminal...prayers to all in need
People that have never been through addiction have no clue what it's like and this guy nailed it on the head at the end most addicts aren't bad people at heart and want nothing more but to be able to contribute and give back to people but the drugs make you do awful things you otherwise would never even have thought of doing. Once you break that barrier, since you don't know you'll be an addict until after the fact, it messes up your mind to the point that even after you manage to get clean life still isn't what it was before you ever started and you wish so bad you could go back and be able to have the energy and excitement you once had for life, it really takes all of that away and becomes mundane and boring.
as homeless people go...this guy is better than most
I could tell instantly he was intelligent. Articulate. Drugs can snag anyone. I know firsthand. I know exceptionally well.
Moral of the story for all that do drugs. Don't start. Glad he got clean.
I’m addicted to food. I’ve been trying to lose weight for so long but I always end up caving.
Me as well. Try, those tins of beans and sausages.
I eat half a tin of beans and sausages. In a day, plus whatever else is in the kitchen.
So, this provides good nutrition balance. And, it's helping with weight loss.
So, watching these UA-cam is quite helpful in that, I need to chill a lot. You want be friends in support?
I am on Facebook: A Robert Farr
So message back maybe, I am struggling with that problem. Hopefully we, can form a support group?
His gf was dumped.... I just cried thinking about this...These poor people.
That is sad
Dope is the stupidest thing I’ve ever done to myself. I’m sitting outside at this very moment trying to understand why I did this to myself. I’m killing myself with a drug that doesn’t even get me “High” anymore. Because I’m too much of a coward to be “sick” for 7 or 8 days. I am so ashamed of myself and I must try really hard to not end my own life because I am a spiritual and mental weakling. This is not the life I promised myself as a kid, this is not the life God gave me to live, this is a lie and I am a liar. I lie to myself every time I put this poison up my nose. I’m not looking for sympathy or even compassion at this point. I am completely and utterly lost. The thing is, I know better and I knew better the first time I put this poison in my system. Now, here I am at a crossroad, either I make a choice to live or it’s time to die. I’m “sick and tired of being sick and tired” and unless I make a change, I see no reason to continue. Hard Drugs Suck and they are a lie. I’m wishing Everyone well.
Oh that's a great result kyla, wishing u both a great life & sucessful.
he had obviously just fixed prior to this video. i'm very happy to hear that he had got clean and stayed that way. hopefully he still is. i have been in his shoes by the way, when i was younger.
Cameron you can be clean after 7 days of detox. You had that. Some people I've known personally didn't even have that but they're clean.
I appreciate this video. ..thanks for sharing
Try to help yourself and realize what that means it doesn’t mean help yourself to as many drugs as you want and expect the world to do whatever you say
Some people have said he has passed away,Has it been confirmed or is it just some made up rumor...? If it is true, than Rip Cameron🕊..
2:23 the correction he makes from "abuse" to "addiction". i have never related to something more than that.
We see a deep desire in a great part of the homeless community to get back to a normal life. I hope he‘s fine now. 🍀🌷
He has died.
One of the best ever.
I wish you make it with your goal. You are giving, by sharing and being honest about the harsh realites. Thank you guys 🙏
I've been homeless, had financial hardship for a good time and fixed it by making rough choices, the only creature who ever accepted me as I am day to day.. he died and I lived in mental hell for a year after that, had psychosis and tried suicide with real intent. And there's more I ain't gonna go to.
And I consider myself lucky as hell compared to this guy. Vet, 16+ years homeless, and so deep in physical addiction... I never realized how bad physical addiction can be before watching this. It's always tied to your mind and it is a habit, but still.
The physical part of an opiate addiction is truly hell on earth. You NEVER get a day off. The addiction is a full time job. Everyday you need to make money so you’re not sick. It doesn’t care about Xmas, birthdays..nothing. I’ve been addicted 16 years because I just can’t make it through the withdrawal. To me it’s nothing like the flu... even X10. I am loosing hope that I will ever get off this shit
Sorry to hear about what you went through. You seem like a strong person. A fighter. I believe you’re gonna be ok
He seems to be very well spoken and intelligent
Years ago, my dad almost died trying to get off dope on his own. He tried to do it cold turkey. 2 weeks later, he was in the hospital.
If you have underlying illnesses that can be made worse by the symptoms then you can die, but you cant actually die from opiate withdrawals alone, it is other factors that cause this. Im addicted to heroin as well and it really sucks lol.. But the ikely hood of you dying from withdrawals is extremely extremely low and is usually only possible when other factors are involved and even then it is uncommon. You do FEEL as though you might die, but thats just the reality of how painful and horrible withdrawals are. Your dad was probably not going to die dont worry :) I hope hes doing better now!
and nno theyre not gunna give you opiates for your withdrawals in the hospital no matter what you do. They dont give drugs to drug addicts man, thats just a policy.. Theyre literally not aloud to, is not tht they dont care.
they dont give the drug addict the same type of drug theyre addicted to i shoudlve said. Sure they can give you valium to calm your breathing but they arent ever gunna give you opiates just because your in withdrawal lol thats the funniest thing ive heard all day xD lol trying to ggo to a hospital dope sick and ask for opiates hahahaha im suprised they didnt laugh at you
I hope he got back to B.C. ! He seems like an intelligent man , brutally honest too ! Hennessey medical detox and rehabilitation ! He is only 40 years old , he has a lot of good years ahead of him ! God , he deserves a second chance !
Man I was very surprised to learn he's 42, the same age as myself. He seems so much older than that. I hope he can find the help he needs.
How does one survive the brutal winters in Fort McMurray without a home?
Garry Burgess people don’t
Homeless shelters and churches? How else.
I appreciate your honesty Cameron.
I hope this guy will kick his addiction to the curb and be able to get his life back on track. Just give it your very best effort guy, and ask God for strength and help. Good luck guy. You're an intelligent man.👍
He was sober for over 7 years and ended up having children too. But unfortunately he passed away soon after
It's 80% physical nd 20 mental
That was a awesome video. I am sure his honesty,helped a lot of people, battling addiction,
I believe so. This is one of my favorite interviews. He got sober, got married, and raised kids. Sadly, he passed away about a year ago from natural causes.
IS MORE COMPLEX THAT WE THINK !!!, My Grandmother tell me, Kids are like Trees, they need a fertile soil, they need a great rain sometimes, someone taking cake of them, if you want to have kids, think before, WHY, ? and ask yourself if you have the qualities to be a Mother, because if you love your child, BE PREPARED BEFORE BRING IT INTO THIS EARTH.
Many of this persons have PAIN behind the DRUG-ADDICTION, that is the root, How you born, How was your life with your parents, HOMEOPATHY IS GREAT FOR THE ETHERIC BODY, YOU DON'T NEED TO HAVE FAITH, this is, the natural help, that our body need, to face; depression, sadness, fury, abandonment, violence.
All this are the reaction to emotions in our body, we need to heal our HART, SOUL, MIND, SPIRIT. God guide your destiny, you take the actions. Blessings.
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....Everyone is in a rush, government departments etc are struggling to survive or my not and don't give a rats ass to the homeless, maybe because there are more and more hitting the streets it's becoming overwhelming. No one has time for anyone anymore, it's true, everyone is running around trying their hardest to keep their heads above water level, it'll only get worse.
Wow, it's like he's a real person or something!
Like you and me.
He seems very intelligent, just some help this person can be a corporate individual very smart!!
The interviewer never asks how they're paying $80 a day for dope.
Jesus loves you! He loves u so much that He died on the cross for your sins and rose from the dead so that you could be saved from sin!! You can be saved from hell if you believe and trust in Jesus!!
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My heart goes out to this brave man. I hope he's doing better.
I believe addiction is a terminal disease.
IwantAgoodCleanFight ,addiction isn't a disease ,people with cancer have a disease & they didn't do it to them selves ,if u stick a needle full of drugs in u r arm ,that's not a disease ,that's self destructive behavior
joe momma Then you don’t know anything about addiction you stupid fuck.
Yes
Joe, It most definitely can be a disease of the mind as well as being physically addictive.
He accepts no responsibility for his actions. Good luck.
You are so fucking ignorant
This is a complex issue. However, one thing that is important is the one abusing the drugs also take ownership of their problems. Yes, it is way too easy to get prescription opioids and a lot of people with jobs take them. It is an epidemic. But as mentioned before, change starts with the one taking the drugs and it is NOT an excuse for stealing and committing other crimes. It seems Cameron has gotten the help he needed and he is sticking to it. That is great and I hope he realizes that once you are an addict, you are always an addict which means he cannot afford to slip up. It is the same with alcoholism.
Where is it easy to prescription opioids ..not here in NY ..but I'll travel
@@ptee9507 by doctors who overprescribe them
bro thats fucked up he just left his passed out girlfriend in that dumpster to die like wtf
KRATOM.
Kratom is not the same as opiates at all, doesn't make you high at all.
I'm sooo tired of this BULLCRAP! I did kratom everyday the last 8 months, because guess what: Its an addictin opioit! Actually first day off right now and having physicall withdraw symtoms, they are the same as heroins, just a little bit less severe and only for like 3-5 days but still HORRIBLE! And psychological withdrawl goes like 3 weeks, this stuff is not the healing guys belive me
funjunkyy ya but ur a junky though..
thats true, every herion addict is, why schould that change with the substance? Their mind will simply attache to the new subastance (Kratom) and replace the old (heroin). its called 'addiction shift', been there done that. The Problem is not really the substance itself, but the traumatas within the user that have to get healed. Otherwise they will always find ways to soothe the pain (and herion is the most effective and easy way)
Kratom is a game changer for opiate addiction. Kratom absolutely helps you get off hard opiates.
`i feel for this guy.that story about his girl friend being killed by the garbage truck really got to me i hope he makes it the odds are against him
When he says it took him a month to start sleeping in jail he wasn’t joking. First time I kicked smoking it a small habit I didn’t sleep for 6 days. That’s the worst part of it, it wouldn’t be bad if you can get a break at nite.
I appreciate and am so happy about the fact he got clean but just to point out he can’t be upset garbage men didn’t know a woman was in the garbage. That’s... you know..
I am also a recovering addict, it truly is the most difficult thing to do and it is even more challenging to maintain. But you have to find something to be your Why. For me it’s my family who has always tried to help me and who were always there. I owed it to them. I didn’t do it for me at all.
I have travelled.
The coldest night I ever spent was Northern Alberta.
Don't ever "decide" to be homeless there.
DRUGS are a dead end street ! Death 💀 sentence 💀
True words, i wish the politic people would listen to this, wonder how many of them look at these comments and realise they can help.
why the hell should we use our money because he got addicted to drugs
Because if not these addicted people may resort to crime to get their drug
This guy has the entitled junkie mentality. You got yourself into this rut, it’s nobody’s fault but your own. I’ve been there before, it was the hardest struggle of my life and it still continues to be 5 years later.
While I agree that he showed some of the typical junkie mentality, I gotta disagree. People choose drugs in order to self-medicate a trauma of some sorts. To fill a void they didn't even know was there. And nowadays we know that blaming addicts is the worst thing you can do. They need full support, love and good relationships to get them out of their vicious cycle.
You don't know anything about the guy, don't be quick to judge
"I am poisoning myself intnentionally and have been for 15 years, why are there not free services to relieve the negative effects of the poison? It is so unfair".
Ridiculous. Heroin and opioids in general are not poisonous and do very little actual damage to the body. Compared to caffeine, I'd say opioids do less damage. The big difference is that they create physical dependence. It's nothing toxic, it's just how our brain works. The more exogenous opioids your body receives, the more the endogenous processes grow out of balance.
It's not like he's poisoning himself. He's self-medicating. Would you say the same about a person who takes an aspirin every other day for headaches and happens to harm their organs with it (opioids don't do that btw)? Or how about the millions of silent sufferers who suffer horribly for years after taking prescribed benzodiazepines which they got from their doctors, and which they took responsibly? They are addictive no matter what, you cannot take them and not become addicted. Would you also say they're "intentionally poisoning themselves and now want free services to relieve the negative effects"?
If you don't know anyone who has lived through stuff like this, or you yourself has lived through it, you won't understand how horrible this is. These people feel absolutely trapped.
iWillWakeYouUp You might think you're doing him a kindness by removing all personal agency and responsibility for his situation from him, but it's the opposite, it's that mentality that causes this problem in the first place. I have huge compassion for people in his situation, I just don't think acting as if this isn't their own doing helps matters. Time and time again I see interviews with people who get clean who say the only way they managed it was taking personal responsibility for where they were and seeking the solution inside themselves, not in others.
I truly hope he makes it. Bless him.
I like this guy.
Drugs also take the intelligent.
Glad to read he’s doing better.
I’m in exact same situation.
There’s no sensible right minded person that wouldn’t agree that there’s some sort of effort to keep this cycle going.
Some would say that drugs are sold by the govt and that’s why they will never be legal
I'm not looking for a handout, but I'm looking for a handout. Not sure where the mindset of there should be a facility to take care of me or why doesn't the country, the state, the government take care of me comes from. Its called life and your conscious decisions. Pull up your socks and climb out of the hole you put yourself in.
They dumped his girlfriend in the garbage? oh my god
Really love the content of your channel dude
Thank you
I love this man's accent
He seems like he knows what he has to do..... So sad....
RIP Cameron 🙏🏼
did he die?
Savy :3 yeah he died in March last year
How do you know this?
Josh Sae his ex girlfriend was posting about it
Best wishes Cameron!
Good luck dude
This guy has a great story and speaks well. With some practice would be a good public speaker to make change for the homeless
Bless his heart. Good bro this man.
Yes, grit your teeth. That's exactly right. Don't blame everything and everybody under the sun for not having babyproofed life for you.
I agree it did take courage to be so honest. The thing I just will never get is simply why they keep doing the drugs and making the bad choices yet expecting someone else to take care of them.
Are you paying attention?! He makes it clear in this video, he's vulnerable on the street because of the withdrawals.
chemical imbalance
Did you watch the fucking video for god's sake you fucking moron? PHYSICAL ADDICTION is why they CANNOT stop unless they get treatment.
I just found this dude on Facebook and he’s doing really well with a loving family. Just thought I’d give y’all an update ✌️
Lewis Fricker that’s awesome!!
Thats great news.. had a friend dealing with same stuff and was at the end of his rope. I guided him away.. away from it all even his friends. Just move get away and clean up and pull yourself together. Death is not the answer he too is smart and can grow but I have seen a friend almost the same boat as this guy but also meth was involved. He now has been clean 2 years and 8 states away from this place.
Awesome! Thanks.
Lewis Fricker apparently he passed away last year
@@Partheseus www.gofundme.com/f/xrqmyt-presley-amp-harlowe
My brother, Cameron McGillivary, died accidentally, suddenly, and unexpectedly on March 12th, 2019. He leaves behind his partner, Kyla Gould and their two daughters, Presley and Harlowe in addition to numerous friends and family members who are all heartbroken and devastated by this loss. We are still searching for answers. ... Sincerely,
Christie
Hey all you haters...Cameron is still clean and has a life he could never imagine, with two beautiful kids so the next time you wanna wish ill upon someone who has suffered in their life from trauma, and dealt with a horrible drug addiction, think twice. Don't judge people until you have been in their shoes, and God forbid you ever have to. If you don't understand addiction then why do you find the need to comment on raw videos about it? Wishing my fiance dead? Thinking he left Janice in the dumpster to die? You are sick, heartless people. And for everyone that has shown support and love for this video, bless you. You are all the reason that me and Cameron are still clean to this day. It takes support, love and compassion from people to help see the good in yourself. Getting clean is alot of work but it is possible and it is worth it!
and also @invisiblepeople you are amazing and if it wasn't for you I never would have met Cameron and had the life I have today. You helped in more ways than you will ever know. God bless you.
kyla gould this is awesome. Use the haters as ammo to push you. So glad you both are well, praise god. God answered his prayer. He was sincere in his 3 wishes and it had turned away.
wow, that's totally cool....but weren't you guys engaged the last time you commented? a few years back? are you on an extended engagement? Just wondering. Also, I've been off the heroin for several years now, but for some reason my life isn't getting any better. I'm SO tired/fatigued/exhausted all of the time, no energy at all, and I cannot seem to find a medical reason for it. I feel so much regret, guilt, remorse, sorrow, feelings of worthlessness, despair, loneliness etc.etc. Is this common for a person in recovery 4 years now? I started taking drugs during the period when my mom kept attempting suicide every few months after the divorce.
Crimson King yes we are still engaged. Kids happened which has been a blessing and we've taken the time to focus on them and worry about a wedding later on. As for how you are feeling, I can totally relate. I still struggle with those feelings at times but the thing that works for me is reaching out and talking to my sponsor or going to a meeting. It is important that you do some work to get to the root of the problem. N.A steps help. The drugs are not the main problem, its the behaviours and why you did the things you did. I know being clean for almost 5 years, my head is still a mess sometimes. I think about some of the things i've done and i feel guilt and shame and remorse but when I dig deep and work through those feelings and find a solution for them, I can move forward and learn to heal. Good luck on your journey. You should be proud of all you have accomplished.
Thanks for responding! I appreciate the advice and suggestions. They're helpful.
It takes balls to be this honest. I cannot believe some posters are hating on this guy. Anyone can end up homeless and addicted to drugs; it is NOT a planned life scenario...
No. Not anyone can end up addicted to drugs.
I never had any desire to do drugs. At an early age I was well aware of the consequences.
Around 16 I guess. I'm 52 now.
I'm not sure how I knew of the consequences at such an early age.
Was it education at school? Was it a conversation I had with someone? I don't know.
I just remember at an early age to stay away from drugs and alcohol, doctors, and hospitals.
I hate to take otc pain relievers. I know it's not natural.
Drinking a 6 pack of beer a day is also unnatural.
I understand some people get addicted by prescription meds but some
people start that kind of shit just so they can feel cool and accepted.
I never cared about the peer pressure shit.
I also knew my Dad would beat my ass if he ever caught me doing shit like that.
And I would certainly be deserving of a good ass whooping if I did do drugs or alcohol.
Being homeless can probably be considered a much needed ass whooping for a lot of these people.
Homelessness. The ass whooping that keeps on whooping.
truthinvideos Spoken like someone who’s never been seriously abused or neglected as a child.
Truthinvideos this is for you, its the honest truth that anyone could end up in this situations. "want to not be in pain? here this will make it all better, got a broken foot? here this will help." thats exactly the type of attitude doctors have towards people which is exactly what causes these situations. They get physically addicted, then the doctor cuts them off so they end up finding heroin on the street or buying pills from someone which leads eventually to them buying heroin, which in turn leads to more of an addiction, and possile death because alot of ther heroin here in alberta is cut ith fentanyl as it is alot of other places. Painkillers may seem innocent enough but when you start going through withdrawals and end up on the street youll think alot differnelty. it may seem like a big step from prescription pain meds but it realy isnt. And withdrawals will make you do dumb things you get extremely desperate so if they can find heroin and tey cn aford it and it will make them feel better then thats exactly what theyre gunna do. You are clearly uninformed on the matter so please dont speak on it, regardless of your age your comment is very asinine and uninformed. I'm only twenty years old and even i know better, you should be ashamed, because it can happen to anyone and drug adicts are people too.
regardless of being raised in a good family, you can be prescribed a medication which ends up in heroin ddiction and doctors push it because they get paid commision by prescribing these knds of drugs to people, so really it odesnt matter if you detest drugs because when your in pain sometimes you feel as though you need something to help with it, which is where this comes in.
Duterte 2020
I’m 14 years clean of Heroin and Crack and my name’s also Cameron 😅✌🏼
Cam Ron good for you!! Keep it up!!
Janice Pagano thank you. I intended to keep it up
Killa Cam??
No one forced you to do it... You did the shit and now what you want a medal
@@chrisredig1381 are you going 2 recommend him 4 a medal
Im not a heroin addict but this is motivating, been 3 weeks clean off xanax and counting
fuckyeaaa
Proud of you bro. Keep it up. Benzo's are horrible!
benzos can be harder to come off so don't put your accomplishment down, to others who haven't already gone cold turkey for benzos be careful, taper down if you suddenly stop taking benzos you can fit, take care, drink lots of fluids, remember to eat. been there not a nice place but after 3 week you should over the hump.......... stay strong ive heard coming off benzos 'cold raven' cos its so much worse.
Dude stay strong! You got the initial symptoms behind you but now starts the hard fight. DO NOT consume any benzos, Z-drugs or alcohol now! The next 9 months will be very hard to get through but you will! And you'll get gradually better.
I don't know you Carlos, but I am rooting for you! I hope when and if you see this post, hope you are doing well. You can beat this!
working in a jail for 34 years has made me well aware of how bad addiction is
there's a guy on UA-cam who makes a series called "Fresh Out" who said that homeless drug addicts can sometimes become shotcallers in jail. because they finally start eating meals and get much healthier compared to how they were on the streets. but of course they're doing drugs inside as well, aren't they?
To say that the your statement that "Homless drug addicts can sometimes become shotcallers in jail" is incredibly vague is an huge understatement
Yes sir, I myself also worked in a jail for many years... learned a lot about drugs and addiction. You see a perspective most ppl don’t see...
I know you’re addicted to something and I know what it is.
Wtf are u talking about
Been clean for 28 years now, feels really good.
Good 4 u. I have 8 years clean and loving life. Take care
Congratulations for ALL.👍👍
Congratulations on your sobriety 🥰
Great job, someone said that once you've been an addict you're forever in recovery since it's so easy to relapse is that true?
that's cool af!!!
this guy is well spoken
Sadly being well spoken doesn't guarantee a successful life.
How is that relevant. Lots of people can speak well, people don't automatically throw money at you for it
@@blackham7 is whether or not people throw money at you the only measure of relevance?
dont you mean sssspoken
Kinda sounds like a POS. Not the gov't job to keep you from being a POS, it's all up to you.
These interviews are invaluable! Giving a voice to the unheard can change a lot.
This was me literally a year ago with my fiancé on the streets of Chattanooga TN living in my Ford Taurus stealing and pan handling every day to support two heroin & eventually fentanyl addictions. I was addicted to just about everything you can name & on and off the streets for 8 years. Today we are both a year sober, he works full time, and I’m a stay at home mom to our now 2 month old baby girl in Scranton PA. I never thought I could be sober for a day let alone a year and now life is beautiful, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been! Praying for everyone still struggling! I love what you guys do it’s a beautiful thing ❤️❤️
Stay awesome Abbey!
God Bless 🙏🏾
Glad you are seeing the benefits! Keep up the good work 👏
This is the Pam and Jim backstory that they never released
Great news, hope you are both happy and healthy, all the best and good luck for the future
the girl that he was talking about on the grbadge truck sortof part. Her name is Janice desjarlais, shes my auntie and I miss her deeply :c its hard for me to live with , to know that she is missing right now. shes been missing 2 years.its going to be 3 years on this upcoming October, I would love to see her again.
Maybe she's dead?
Solomon Grundy childish, immature,selfish JERK! Why u got to be so mean and nasty?😡 such a cruel comment.
I love his three wishes. Truly humble man that needs a break.
+Winnie Azikiwe no, I would have gone flight, invisibility and time travel.
maria rain why did he leave her in a dumpster if she was passed out? He calls her a body as if she was already dead. Something is weird with his story. Have you called the police in this one town this guy claimed this happened in ? I would I’d be finding out why she was never looked for and why nothing is being done. You got to start there .
According to kyla's fb page, he died in 2018 or 2019? Wonder what happened...
kevinsnyder333 that’s terrible to hear 😢
March 12, 2019 =(
That's horrible to hear. I watched the video and was really hoping he'd get help somewhere. Then, I started reading the comments that he was clean for a good while and I felt so good for him. Now, reading that he's passed away, I feel awful that after what he's been through that his journey is over. I hope he didn't suffer from whatever happened to him. RIP sir. Your video will continue to perhaps help others that have walked in your shoes. You have made a difference in your own way and may inspire countless others who watch this that there is hope where there seemingly doesn't appear to be any at all.
@@Evasroses6543 www.gofundme.com/f/xrqmyt-presley-amp-harlowe
My brother, Cameron McGillivary, died accidentally, suddenly, and unexpectedly on March 12th, 2019. He leaves behind his partner, Kyla Gould and their two daughters, Presley and Harlowe in addition to numerous friends and family members who are all heartbroken and devastated by this loss. We are still searching for answers. ... Sincerely,
Christie
I'm so sorry to hear he's passed away.!!!!😢😢
Prayers for his family...🙏🙏🙏