Peter, the love you feel for Mary really showed. It was like watching a great love story unfold in a matter of seconds! You two are what marriage is all about. Love, compassion and understanding, without needing to use words to show.
When you said to live for today, and kiss your people...that really hit home. It is SO easy to forget that there are some of us that DO NOT HAVE ANY PEOPLE! .( I am happy that you are not alone, Mary.
+K Butler The time will come when, with elation, you will greet yourself arriving at your own door, in your own mirror, and each will smile at the other's welcome, and say, sit here. Eat. You will love again the stranger who was yourself. Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart to itself, to the stranger who has loved you all your life, whom you ignored for another, who knows you by heart. Take down the love letters from the bookshelf, the photographs, the desperate notes, peel your own image from the mirror. Sit. Feast on your life. -Derek Walcott (Love After Love) x
None of us are alone, even when we are lonely. I was widowed almost 5 years ago. My husband was only 31, and our daughter was 17 month old. Sure, I feel lonely a lot, but I know I'm not alone. I know that no matter what happens in my story, Mary's story, Peter's story....any of our stories....God isn't just there along side of us. He wrote the story.
FreebirdTMH I dunno, many folks are alone and have no one. The words of Jesus do not feed and water the destitute. Like poems, beautifully written, it takes more to sustain the lonely the sick, and others.
Mary you are so strong . I'm a momma of a little boy with an immunity disorder. We have to fight every day . Life is so precious I wish you all the best.
MARY and Peter I don't have CF nor do I know anyone with CF. I am not sure how I found your channel. I am glad I did though. My husband and I watch and pray for you!
Praying for you Mary ! I have metastatic cancer and sometimes I get down about it too . But God is bigger than any disease and you are going to have the most awesome testimony!!! Love your family .
Loretta Tinkham I'm so sorry that you're facing this but it sounds like you've got the best attitude possible. Plus 7 kids are the best motivation for you to fight as hard as possible. I've faced my own battles starting when my oldest was 10 and youngest was 7 and I was a single mom. I had amazing support from my family but I always felt, and continue to feel guilty (and very, very emotional...as I type this i'm already tearing up..) that I wasn't as present in their lives as I wanted to be...physically or emotionally. It wasn't like I had a choice but its still hard. My oldest is now 22 and graduating from college 4 weeks from today and my youngest is 18 and graduating from high school 3 weeks later. I could not be more proud of my babies. My daughter, the oldest, told me a few weeks ago that she wouldn't be the successful woman she is without me. The last assignment for one of her nursing classes (she wanted to be a nurse because she wanted to give back to other patients what all my nurses have done for me...yes, more tears lol) this semester was to write an essay about her hero and how she can try to use those traits when caring for patients and she chose me as her hero. She emailed the essay to me to read last night but I literally can't open it yet because every time I try, I start bawling before it even opens lol (emotional irish woman, what can I say lol) So I know my kids have been thru hell but I know I've done the best I could and they are thriving. I'm quite positive your 7 babies feel the same. Keep fighting hun and come back here for support. The Frey Life "family" is by far the most supportive group of people I've ever seen on YT. Many prayers and good wishes :)
I'm so sorry anyone especially you have to go threw this. I know whenever you close your eyes to the skg, you will sit on the highest realm of Gods realm..you are blessed.
Love you guys, and love that you're honest enough to post this. At 35, I've learned to cope with the ups and downs of life as a disabled-and-chronically-ill person, but when I was about 12, I had some pretty horrific bouts of depression, and it took a lot of talk therapy to get to the root of it - namely, that I felt like being sad or angry was the same as being ungrateful or somehow unappreciative of what I had. Nobody had thought to take me aside and say "Hey, having a bad day doesn't make you a bad person!" I know you've said that many times on your channel, Mary, but I'm posting this in case there's a teen/young adult lurking in the comments who has a chronic illness or disability and needs to hear that again.... bad days happen, and it's okay to feel however you feel about them, and good days will come again. Here's to putting one foot in front of the other, literally or metaphorically. :) And God bless all three of you for sharing your lives with us.
Your sweet doggy is amazing. We are looking into getting a service dog for my son with autism. Just want you to know you are so amazing and strong. I admire your openness and believe you are changing lives through your channel. Praying for you friend!
Mary, I cry on a daily basis so don't feel bad. While depression is not on the same level as CF, it is my illness that I have to fight every day. Your Frey Life family will be praying for you in the coming weeks. You got this girl! Just think how much more convenient it will be to get those calories in, without that nasty tube in your throat! By the way, I started a team for my nearest CF walk! I signed up as a virtual walker for the time being, as I do not know if my anxiety issues will actually let me attend. I am going to promote the heck out of it anyway in hopes of raising a truck load of money! Love you both from Iowa!
Anxiety Depression Praying for you and that your depression and anxiety symptoms lessen. I have a chronic illness as well as depression and anxiety all of which I was just treated for in the hospital. It's a daily struggle that many people don't see as the same level of importance as 'physical' illnesses but mental health is just as important! 💜
I love having you guys as part of my day. Today I got inducted into a honor society for college, I graduate soon! But I did not feel well today. Then we went and took pictures for my grad. Announcements and it was such a busy day and I got home and just went to my room, pulled the blinds down to make it dark and laid down not feeling well. Chronic illness is so hard sometimes. I love watching you and Peter and Ollie doing life together. Real life. Not something fake.
Jamie Singleton congratulations on your impending graduation. I will also graduate from college in June. (at 42!) but I get so tired between classes and student teaching. People don't understand how bad my pain is or if I am in a fibro flare. Congratulations again!
I am apart of Al's Army here in Columbia, SC. I am a tech and currently in school to become a nurse, but I have a lot of CF patients that I have watched grow, and love them to pieces!!
Tears are are rolling down my cheeks as I'm watching you share Mary. Praying for you both. Deut 33:27 "The Eternal God is your Refuge and underneath are the Everlasting arms" ❤️❤️❤️
Prayers for you and Peter. You are such an inspiration. There is a student in my school with CF. Your blog helps me try to see things from a perspective that gives me some valuable insight into what she might be dealing with. Thank you.
Mary you are a true warrior 💜 I have lived with many chronic incurable illnesses for a long time now and have gone through many treatments and surgeries. lately this past year or so I've gotten much worse and developed more illnesses with worsening symptoms and my body has really had a hard time getting through even laying in bed. I've done treatments but never so many and ones that require so many steps and routines and I gotta tell ya I'm exhausted!! I know you do it bc you have to, bc you want to give your body the best chance it has at fighting, but, you are just amazing!! you vlog everyday, inspiring so many others to live life with joy and hope even with an incredibly tough and life threatening illness and not with empty words but with your actions in everyday life. You truly have a beautiful spirit Mary and I'm just so inspired n encouraged by your perseverance and just your attitude towards it all! 💜 Thank you for sharing all the real moments with us. And, as always, I'm praying for you, Peter, and Ollie boy ❤
two years ago on 4/8/15 Oliver James was reunited with Mary. I'm so glad that you guys vlog your daily life because we can celebrate the good times and celebrate the unforgettable moments like this
I pray for you daily, and cry when you cry. My daughter has several chronic illnesses, none terminal, but she's 19. The best she can do is 2 hours out on a Saturday. She lives with her art to make her feel better. I thank you for helping me daily with trying to be positive and grasping on to God through her illness. We've had to put college on hold for now. Love you guys so much for making me feel welcome in your life.
Our annual Ladies' Retreat theme this year is hope, and in a ladies' Bible study leading up to our retreat, my mom said, "The God of hope has no hopeless situations." That quote has really been an encouragement to me and I hope it is a blessing to you as well!
I love you guys and think of you 3 everyday. I can only try and imagine a portion of your struggles. However I wanted to say, the love you two have is what most can only dream of , it's so heart warming - seriously makes me tear up nearly ever time I watch you guys because your love is so deep and real. I love the devotion and dedication ❤️ and strength you guys have.
I think a lot of people think of UA-cam and UA-camrs as superficial "light" entertainment...and some is, but then there are channels like this, which aren't so much watching as they are building an emotional relationship. I feel so firmly invested. As a result, I feel high highs, and today....low lows. I cried hard at your reality. Your family of 3 is so precious. I'm praying hard for you. Funny thing is, I'm not a prayerful person. Love you guys.
Thank you for choosing to be on this journey with us- sometimes I wish I could show you guys all puppies and rainbows...but that's not reality. Thanks for laughing with us and crying with us!
It's my 18th birthday tomorrow (April 9th) and I just finished work and I am not good (chronic illness sufferer) and I know tomorrow isn't going to be a good day. But I am so excited that it's live stream day tomorrow so I get to watch it no matter how I feel and that's what makes me happy. Thank you for being my constant no matter how I feel and what is going on
You are a champion Mary, I admire EVERYTHING about you. And Peter, you too are a beautiful soul. My heart is with you through all the amazing days & the bad days ❤️
Mary - you are beautiful and your tears are beautifully hard and hopeful! Yes, death IS real....my twin sister lived courageously for seven days....my hope, like yours, is in Christ Jesus and the promises of Heaven and being reunited with her for Eternity! No more pain, no more suffering, no more tears. Even in my anxiety, depression and complex PTSD, I choose to fight for a healthy mind, body and spirit each day! Cheering on from Chicago!
I love that you are so open and honest with your emotions with us. Please know we are praying for you and Peter in dealing with reality. It could be my age but your parents always come to mind to pray for when the moments or days are tough.
Mary, like many other subscribers as well as yourself, I face my own mortality everyday. There are times, when i'm having a really good day with my family that I end up in tears because the thought of my family losing me is too much to bear. THAT is what keeps me strong, positive and what keeps me from giving up. You are so right about having good and bad days...sometimes both in a day. I'm not trying to be a "suck up" here but since finding you and Peter, I constantly have Do What You Think You Can't Do, Be An Overcomer and Don't Forget To Laugh Everyday in my repertoire of mantras that get me thru some really tough things. I'm incredibly grateful to you guys for that and please know I pray for you guys a lot. It's amazing to me how i can truly care about you guys yet I don't even know you but I do and i'm just really grateful for you. Much love :)
HI. I don't have cf walk where I live. I live in canada. I did my walk this morning for you guys. I did join walk. I think I joined yours. I always do relay for life for cancer and volunteer for relay for life. I been doing it for a few years now. I don't have cf but I do have mental illness problems. Like depression, chronic lower back pain, chronic constipation, hard of hearing, seizure disorder.I do have Cornelia De Lange syndrome (mild). My mom and 2 sisters have Cornelia De Lange syndrome (mild) too. I agree with you about good days and bad days. All we can do is trust god and pray to him. I enjoy watching your shows everyday. I love your dog. He is so cute. Try to have a good day. All we can do is take it one day at a time. Hugs.
I have only been watching for three months but I have grown so attached to watching you guys! You guys are awesome and such a strong couple! I cried with you during the video, life is so precious and we do need to enjoy each and every day!
I'm so sorry you had a rough day and that you have to suffer from CF. I so admire your strength in dealing with it. Last weekend, I was dealing with the diagnosis of lymphoma cancer. I went through the emotions of sadness, acceptance, and coming to a peace with whatever was to come. And then miraculously, I was told this week that I did not have lymphoma. They still don't know what is going on, but the experience has given me a new perspective on life.
Mary, as someone who was born with Cerebral Palsy and other disabling conditions, as a result of CP or including the same, I want to say that you strength and courage is something that I truly admire. You and Peter are the greatest example of what love really means and to what extend love will go. Love , "never fails". My prayers are with you, as you face each day, with challenges, anticipated and unexpected. Keep doing what you do, as you continue being a blessing to me and thousand of others. PS: I plan on purchasing a decal for my new powered wheelchair... which I expect to receive at the end of this month or the beginning of next month.
Mary I wanted to let you know that you inspire me. I have a spinal injury and narrowing of the canal around my spinal nerve bundle so I am in constant pain and on some serious medication just to get through the day. After years of seeing different doctors and praying that it was something that could be fixed with a surgery, I found out it is inoperable. It is hard to face the fact that I will forever be in this pain and never get my normal life back. Watching you and Peter make everyday amazing inspires me to do the same in my life. I pray for the two of you daily and wish you nothing but happiness and joy all the days of your lives. ❤
Misti Stallard-Stancil hey! I have Spina Bifida so I live with constant spine pain as well. I'm so sorry there is no surgical treatment. I hope your doctors have found the right combinations of medications so you get some pain relief while not being constantly loopy and/or tired.
Misti Stallard-Stancil I have CRPS and am in constant pain ( it's like the feeling of being burned alive, my skin temperature is usually around 103 degrees). There is no cure. I also morn the loss of my normal life and find Mary really inspiring as well. Sometimes I have to say I'm a bit jealous of her yoga abilities though.
You guys (all three of you) are the real deal. I love your devotion to God, one another, and to life itself. I have already been window shopping your store and I see orders and purchases in the very near future😀 Love the t-shirts, love your art, Mary-I'm rather partial to the Ollie prints. Most of all I want to thank you for teaching us how to live. Today is all any of us have. Love you, Guys!
Due to Adams sin we are all terminal. As the Bible says no one has the promise of tomorrow. I hope everyone that watches your video lives each day as if it is your last. Enjoy every day. Sending love and best wishes.
Yes, treasure each moment with your loved ones and tell them because one never knows what the next minute will bring. Last night, my father in law passed from bone cancer and I am thankful I told him last night that he meant the world to me and that we understoodd if he needed to go and we would be alright. He passed minutes later. I am proud of him as he was told 7 months ago he had 30 days and he fought hard til the end. So tell your loved ones everyday how special they are.
God bless you guys. It is very difficult being sick, but it's a beautiful thing to have real hope in Jesus. That's where we get our strength. You're beautiful and so brave. Praying for you!❤🦋🙏🏻
I couldn't imagine a better husband for you Mary. In every video, we all see how much you guys love each other and how well you guys belong with each other! 💖 I hope you feel better Mary!
I just cried with you Mary. If there were any comforting words, or words to make the pain go away, I'd say them for you now. Hang in there. Life is beautiful.
Our hope and love in and for Christ and His love for us will never EVER fail us. We are weak but even in our weakness we are our strongest because Christ is in us and HE is our strength. Hallelujah!
Oh gracious Mary, I am so sorry that moments of today were tough. You are a great example of vulnerabilty and resilience. I'm praying for you guys. I ordered my t-shirt and can't wait to share a picture!
Thank you for sharing your life and your journey with us Peter and Mary. I pray that the Lord continues to give you the strength you need to keep fighting and spreading awareness the way you have. Your both an inspiration to many people and we thank you for it.
You're such an inspiration, and no disease can take that from you. You've touched my heart and so many others as well. Sending out all the love and prayers to you guys!
Mary you made me cry when watching this. You both are so inspiring to me. Thanks for teaching us to enjoy our lives as best as we can and to not take each day for granted. Praying for you..
You guys are so strong. Seeing Peter's bravery and strength is incredible. Mary's positive outlook and motivation is so amazing. You guys are so inspirational.♥️
Love you guys and saying extra prayers for you tonight. I completely understand how the reality of chronic/terminal illness hits out of nowhere! There are days I just scream (usually in prayer honestly) that it's not fair. But then there are days like I had today where I got to go to the Orioles game (they beat the Yankees btw!!) and I felt fine and thankful and not anxious at all (my pain makes me anxious). I hope you have a blessed Holy Week and esp that Peter doesn't get stressed preparing for preaching on Easter Sunday.
I just lost my husband from chronic illness. I cared for him 6 and a half years. My prayers are going to you both because you both are having trials and frustrations
I agree @thefreylife the good days tend to make me teary all by myself. And allowing yourself to cry, be angry, sad what ever you're feeling is all part of life with a chronic & terminal illnesses. I hope your Saturday was a good one and your Sunday is even better.
Mary, I don't have CF, but I am totally disabled with another illness, and from an "illness" standpoint, I understand 100% the ups and downs on a daily basis. I send the 3 of you much love, and pray for you all the time. Xoxo
I found you on instagram. This is your first video I've watched so far. I'm having a really rough night. In and out of the hospital for the last few days, getting bad news at the doctor, realizing that I don't really have a "Peter", having to cancel plan with friends... it all hits sometimes. It really sucks. It really sucks. I really needed this video. 💕💕
Hey, I hope and pray you have a better day tomorrow. Your comment really hit home when you mentioned having to cancel on friends. I've done that more times than I can count because of my chronic illnesses. It sucks! I just wanted to let you know you're not alone.
I'm so glad you include both, the bad and the good of your lives, living with a terminal illness. I can relate my own terminal illness so easily. Sometimes I laugh through the tears and sometimes the laughter is no where around. I've never heard the term, 'air hungry'? Is that what you called it. It fits so well! Because of the pulmonary hypertension and necessary meds, I've also have had other health problems come up. Right now I have a blockage between my bile duct and liver. Certain foods and drugs aggrevate it, and they can't do surgery because of the condition of my lungs and heart. They can only make me confortable with pain meds until i die. last two weeks, I was so sick from it WE didn't think I was going to pull through. I'm down to 90lbs have no strenghth. I told God that if it's my time, I'm ready, if not, that's great too. It's not my time. I'm snacking while reading. Lol Tonight I was able to laugh through the tears. Thank you, Mary! You too Peter!
Hi Mary:). I know you may not see this but I wanted to let you know that I am praying for you, peter and Ollie boy :)! I started watching your videos over a year ago when I was going through a tough time. I look forward to your videos EVERY SINGLE DAY. Since starting to watch your channel my husband and I welcomes our first baby into the world. The first few weeks following his birth were very draining, and emotionally challenging. The one thing that kept me going was your video. It gave me hope that God would help me and give me rest. You showed me how to find the joy in the little things. Thank you for being so positive and so incredibly important in my life ( is that weird...?). Thank you.
Oh Mary....., I wish I could give you the biggest hug. You are so positive even on a crappy half hour. Much love ❤️ and hope you wake up feeling better xxx
Ollie reminds me of Goliath from Davey and Goliath (my childhood favorite). His facial expressions scream sincerity. You and Peter are a constant source of inspiration.
You both inspire me everyday, i have chronic illnesses n often feel like giving up but then i think of yous n i feel ashamed of how i feel when yous both find joy and happiness even in your darkest days. i found your vĺog by accident a couple of months back n just watch to see what it was all about but now i try n watch everyday to hear your journey that you share with each n everyone of us each day. your both amazing special ppl. all my love from sunny Sunderland in the north east of England xx
Thank you again for being so open and real and honest!!! I too try to use what function I have and got bummed when things happened I wasn't expecting..... (Stranded in WC) you reminded me again that no matter what our situation (my case CP and power chair) WE can choose to lock ourselves away and keep ourselves in a bubble OR choose to take a risk and enjoy life, even as bumps and hills arise!! Keep on going Mary!!! AND all the others out there who are just keeping on keeping on!!!!
On a light note I have the same elephant watering can. But on a slightly serious note, it sucks you have to be fighting daily to breathe you are one of the few in society nowadays that appreciate each and every day. Stay strong Mary!
I wanted to reach through the screen and give you a hug. I know exactly how that feeling is. You are a superstar and your my inspiration to keep smiling and fighting
Love seeing you plant things Mary. I'm a big garden freak! I planted our second batch of tomatoes and peppers. Have some nice pepper and tomato plants I grew from seed in March already getting flowers on them. They will probably have some peppers on them by the time I transplant them into the garden. We have some kale and beets coming up in the garden now. Still waiting on the peas, carrots and swiss chard.
Prayers for you Mary. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 Thank you for sharing your life with us. You are such an inspiration to so many people. I'm glad you can show some of the "down" moments, too, so we know it's okay to struggle but then we can bounce back and smile.
Yep, reality is not all sunshine and rainbows like we want it. We will only see that when we get to Heaven. I get "how do you keep going?" I just tell them that I've learned to deal with it and I lean on God. I've had SLE since I was 4. I know my limits and I just work with it. Even my drs are amazed that I keep going. My mom went in with me to my Rheumatologist appointment and my dr told her that I was a strong woman with all the pain I'm in. God is the only one who can help us through these times. Times of pain, emotional and physical, and times of exhaustion, emotional and physical. What gets me down the most isn't the pain, it is all the treatments and treatment changes I have to go through. Figuring out what will and won't work. Going through countless dosages and medicines and having to deal with all the side effects that might come with them.
Bless your heart Mary, my hugs and prayers are with you when you always show encouragement to others even on your rough days. And Peter you are such a loving, loyal supportive husband, I send my hugs and prayers to you too, and sweet Ollie boy, makes your complete beautiful family. Love and hugs to the 3 of you, see you tomorrow!
Mary, you are the same age as my daughter who lives across the country from me and she has epilepsy. Even though it's not a terminal illness I still worry about her safety daily. She has no warning when she is about to have a seizure and she could fall down a flight of stairs or in front of a car. I watch you be so positive and I pray that you can help me become that way as well. Love each other as hard as you can for as long as you can. God bless you.
Denise Angonese She should see about getting a seizure alert dog. A service dog could alert her to seizures ahead of time, get help, and keep her safe when she has a seizure!
having several chronic illnesses, I completely hear you. I know that, even though I may have bad days (often... it seems that I may be put on a drug I am afraid of, but whatever does the trick so I can live somewhat comfortably) there are definitely worse days to come, but we do have today. today is what matters. yes tomorrow might be there (god willing), but living for today, doing what we think we can't do, pushing some limits sometimes, having fun today, making memories we can remember on our worse days. that's what matters. I hope you're feeling better soon, and I'm so glad you have amazing support in your life!!
Good to see your passion for CF awareness is really taking off :) I'm so happy for you. Mary, get some rest. You pushed yourself just a bit too hard today. Love and prayers with you. Peter - please help mary's garden along (once the fence is in place) In new england, the gardens that thrive the best are those that are in raised containers, up and away from the bugs, slugs and digging, nibbling critters. The ones I love the most are made of rail road ties, about 2 high, with some chicken wire fencing around them.
Mary, I think we all hope you have many good years but we also know it's uncertain and difficult. There is a reality and you live with it every day. It's okay to feel sad about that. I have COPD stage 4 diagnosed as stage 4 in 2006. I do the best I can, or try to, to take care of my health and be preventative. I can't walk very far anymore but it's reality. I'd rather make friends with my vlog and talk to people who are physically in my life and be able to laugh with them and share interests than cry about it. That doesn't mean I don't cry about it. I most certainly do. I'm glad you're willing to show that part of yourself. It helps others who watch to know that it's okay to cry sometimes. Bottled up emotion isn't healthy. I bottled mine for years and they hit me like a ton of bricks when my youngest daughter needed her mother most.
you're the reason i started having a slightly positive outlook on my lung illness. the past week i was in the hospital and watched a bunch of your videos, told your story to my nurses (i get treated by a cf doctor so i go to the cf/pulmonary wing) and just wanted to thank you for making these videos. it makes me realize how much i should enjoy life even when my lungs aren't giving me the easiest time.
I cried with you Mary. I am so in awe if how brave you are. I watch you fighting everyday. Living your life to the fullest. I'm praying your J tube goes without a hitch. I agree it's imperative to get more nutrition in you. It was a incredible difference thos few week's you had GJ tube. You've got more fight in you and a lot of life yet to be fulfilled.
Hugs. It seems like it's in the air. I had a good cry yesterday about similar things. It's ok and healthy to grieve and be sad or scared or whatever it is. I know you know that already. 💛
My daughter has a brain tumor and like you she walks through life with faith and grace.
"Carve your name on hearts, not tombstones. A legacy is etched into the minds of others and the stories they share about you."
Peter, the love you feel for Mary really showed. It was like watching a great love story unfold in a matter of seconds! You two are what marriage is all about. Love, compassion and understanding, without needing to use words to show.
When you said to live for today, and kiss your people...that really hit home. It is SO easy to forget that there are some of us that DO NOT HAVE ANY PEOPLE! .( I am happy that you are not alone, Mary.
Papercranesrock we still have self, and we need to love, embrace, support self, regardless..
+K Butler
The time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other's welcome,
and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was yourself.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.
-Derek Walcott
(Love After Love)
x
None of us are alone, even when we are lonely. I was widowed almost 5 years ago. My husband was only 31, and our daughter was 17 month old. Sure, I feel lonely a lot, but I know I'm not alone. I know that no matter what happens in my story, Mary's story, Peter's story....any of our stories....God isn't just there along side of us. He wrote the story.
Papercranesrock You'll always have the Frey Life family. 💜
FreebirdTMH I dunno, many folks are alone and have no one. The words of Jesus do not feed and water the destitute. Like poems, beautifully written, it takes more to sustain the lonely the sick, and others.
Mary you are so strong . I'm a momma of a little boy with an immunity disorder. We have to fight every day . Life is so precious I wish you all the best.
MARY and Peter I don't have CF nor do I know anyone with CF. I am not sure how I found your channel. I am glad I did though. My husband and I watch and pray for you!
Praying for you Mary ! I have metastatic cancer and sometimes I get down about it too . But God is bigger than any disease and you are going to have the most awesome testimony!!! Love your family .
Loretta Tinkham 💕💕💕💕💕
Loretta Tinkham Sorry to hear that. How is treatment going?
ginny atchison I'm doing better . I'm on 2.5 years . I have seven children so I'm trying to be here for them as long as I can .
Loretta Tinkham I'm so sorry that you're facing this but it sounds like you've got the best attitude possible. Plus 7 kids are the best motivation for you to fight as hard as possible. I've faced my own battles starting when my oldest was 10 and youngest was 7 and I was a single mom. I had amazing support from my family but I always felt, and continue to feel guilty (and very, very emotional...as I type this i'm already tearing up..) that I wasn't as present in their lives as I wanted to be...physically or emotionally. It wasn't like I had a choice but its still hard. My oldest is now 22 and graduating from college 4 weeks from today and my youngest is 18 and graduating from high school 3 weeks later. I could not be more proud of my babies. My daughter, the oldest, told me a few weeks ago that she wouldn't be the successful woman she is without me. The last assignment for one of her nursing classes (she wanted to be a nurse because she wanted to give back to other patients what all my nurses have done for me...yes, more tears lol) this semester was to write an essay about her hero and how she can try to use those traits when caring for patients and she chose me as her hero. She emailed the essay to me to read last night but I literally can't open it yet because every time I try, I start bawling before it even opens lol (emotional irish woman, what can I say lol) So I know my kids have been thru hell but I know I've done the best I could and they are thriving. I'm quite positive your 7 babies feel the same. Keep fighting hun and come back here for support. The Frey Life "family" is by far the most supportive group of people I've ever seen on YT. Many prayers and good wishes :)
I'm so sorry anyone especially you have to go threw this. I know whenever you close your eyes to the skg, you will sit on the highest realm of Gods realm..you are blessed.
Love you guys, and love that you're honest enough to post this. At 35, I've learned to cope with the ups and downs of life as a disabled-and-chronically-ill person, but when I was about 12, I had some pretty horrific bouts of depression, and it took a lot of talk therapy to get to the root of it - namely, that I felt like being sad or angry was the same as being ungrateful or somehow unappreciative of what I had. Nobody had thought to take me aside and say "Hey, having a bad day doesn't make you a bad person!" I know you've said that many times on your channel, Mary, but I'm posting this in case there's a teen/young adult lurking in the comments who has a chronic illness or disability and needs to hear that again.... bad days happen, and it's okay to feel however you feel about them, and good days will come again. Here's to putting one foot in front of the other, literally or metaphorically. :) And God bless all three of you for sharing your lives with us.
Your sweet doggy is amazing. We are looking into getting a service dog for my son with autism.
Just want you to know you are so amazing and strong. I admire your openness and believe you are changing lives through your channel. Praying for you friend!
Mary, I cry on a daily basis so don't feel bad. While depression is not on the same level as CF, it is my illness that I have to fight every day. Your Frey Life family will be praying for you in the coming weeks. You got this girl! Just think how much more convenient it will be to get those calories in, without that nasty tube in your throat! By the way, I started a team for my nearest CF walk! I signed up as a virtual walker for the time being, as I do not know if my anxiety issues will actually let me attend. I am going to promote the heck out of it anyway in hopes of raising a truck load of money! Love you both from Iowa!
Anxiety Depression Praying for you and that your depression and anxiety symptoms lessen. I have a chronic illness as well as depression and anxiety all of which I was just treated for in the hospital. It's a daily struggle that many people don't see as the same level of importance as 'physical' illnesses but mental health is just as important! 💜
Anxiety Depression I'll be praying for you! 💚
@@keric3673 another person with chronic illness and mental health issues i hope you [and everybody else here] can stay safe and healthy
I absolutely love when Peter talks for Ollie.
I love having you guys as part of my day. Today I got inducted into a honor society for college, I graduate soon! But I did not feel well today. Then we went and took pictures for my grad. Announcements and it was such a busy day and I got home and just went to my room, pulled the blinds down to make it dark and laid down not feeling well. Chronic illness is so hard sometimes. I love watching you and Peter and Ollie doing life together. Real life. Not something fake.
Jamie Singleton congratulations on your impending graduation. I will also graduate from college in June. (at 42!) but I get so tired between classes and student teaching. People don't understand how bad my pain is or if I am in a fibro flare. Congratulations again!
You are such an inspiration Mary! Don't let this stop you! Keep on fighting and keep living every day to the fullest
I am apart of Al's Army here in Columbia, SC. I am a tech and currently in school to become a nurse, but I have a lot of CF patients that I have watched grow, and love them to pieces!!
Tears are are rolling down my cheeks as I'm watching you share Mary. Praying for you both. Deut 33:27 "The Eternal God is your Refuge and underneath are the Everlasting arms" ❤️❤️❤️
Prayers for you and Peter. You are such an inspiration. There is a student in my school with CF. Your blog helps me try to see things from a perspective that gives me some valuable insight into what she might be dealing with. Thank you.
Mary you are a true warrior 💜 I have lived with many chronic incurable illnesses for a long time now and have gone through many treatments and surgeries.
lately this past year or so I've gotten much worse and developed more illnesses with worsening symptoms and my body has really had a hard time getting through even laying in bed.
I've done treatments but never so many and ones that require so many steps and routines and I gotta tell ya I'm exhausted!!
I know you do it bc you have to, bc you want to give your body the best chance it has at fighting, but, you are just amazing!! you vlog everyday, inspiring so many others to live life with joy and hope even with an incredibly tough and life threatening illness and not with empty words but with your actions in everyday life.
You truly have a beautiful spirit Mary and I'm just so inspired n encouraged by your perseverance and just your attitude towards it all! 💜 Thank you for sharing all the real moments with us.
And, as always, I'm praying for you, Peter, and Ollie boy ❤
two years ago on 4/8/15 Oliver James was reunited with Mary. I'm so glad that you guys vlog your daily life because we can celebrate the good times and celebrate the unforgettable moments like this
I pray for you daily, and cry when you cry. My daughter has several chronic illnesses, none terminal, but she's 19. The best she can do is 2 hours out on a Saturday. She lives with her art to make her feel better. I thank you for helping me daily with trying to be positive and grasping on to God through her illness. We've had to put college on hold for now. Love you guys so much for making me feel welcome in your life.
Our annual Ladies' Retreat theme this year is hope, and in a ladies' Bible study leading up to our retreat, my mom said, "The God of hope has no hopeless situations." That quote has really been an encouragement to me and I hope it is a blessing to you as well!
Oh Mary, I'm so sorry that you are going through this trial. You are so loved, you are an example to so many people.
I love you guys and think of you 3 everyday. I can only try and imagine a portion of your struggles. However I wanted to say, the love you two have is what most can only dream of , it's so heart warming - seriously makes me tear up nearly ever time I watch you guys because your love is so deep and real. I love the devotion and dedication ❤️ and strength you guys have.
I think a lot of people think of UA-cam and UA-camrs as superficial "light" entertainment...and some is, but then there are channels like this, which aren't so much watching as they are building an emotional relationship. I feel so firmly invested. As a result, I feel high highs, and today....low lows. I cried hard at your reality. Your family of 3 is so precious. I'm praying hard for you. Funny thing is, I'm not a prayerful person. Love you guys.
Thank you for choosing to be on this journey with us- sometimes I wish I could show you guys all puppies and rainbows...but that's not reality. Thanks for laughing with us and crying with us!
It's my 18th birthday tomorrow (April 9th) and I just finished work and I am not good (chronic illness sufferer) and I know tomorrow isn't going to be a good day. But I am so excited that it's live stream day tomorrow so I get to watch it no matter how I feel and that's what makes me happy. Thank you for being my constant no matter how I feel and what is going on
You are a champion Mary, I admire EVERYTHING about you. And Peter, you too are a beautiful soul. My heart is with you through all the amazing days & the bad days ❤️
Mary - you are beautiful and your tears are beautifully hard and hopeful! Yes, death IS real....my twin sister lived courageously for seven days....my hope, like yours, is in Christ Jesus and the promises of Heaven and being reunited with her for Eternity! No more pain, no more suffering, no more tears. Even in my anxiety, depression and complex PTSD, I choose to fight for a healthy mind, body and spirit each day! Cheering on from Chicago!
praying for you Mary. you too Peter. You both are such strong, amazing people.
Thank you for sharing your journey and reminding me to thank God in EVERY situation.
I love that you are so open and honest with your emotions with us. Please know we are praying for you and Peter in dealing with reality. It could be my age but your parents always come to mind to pray for when the moments or days are tough.
Mary, like many other subscribers as well as yourself, I face my own mortality everyday. There are times, when i'm having a really good day with my family that I end up in tears because the thought of my family losing me is too much to bear. THAT is what keeps me strong, positive and what keeps me from giving up. You are so right about having good and bad days...sometimes both in a day. I'm not trying to be a "suck up" here but since finding you and Peter, I constantly have Do What You Think You Can't Do, Be An Overcomer and Don't Forget To Laugh Everyday in my repertoire of mantras that get me thru some really tough things. I'm incredibly grateful to you guys for that and please know I pray for you guys a lot. It's amazing to me how i can truly care about you guys yet I don't even know you but I do and i'm just really grateful for you. Much love :)
Thanks for letting us in and seeing the raw and vulnerable side. I think it encourages us all to be raw and vulnerable as well.
HI. I don't have cf walk where I live. I live in canada. I did my walk this morning for you guys. I did join walk. I think I joined yours. I always do relay for life for cancer and volunteer for relay for life. I been doing it for a few years now. I don't have cf but I do have mental illness problems. Like depression, chronic lower back pain, chronic constipation, hard of hearing, seizure disorder.I do have Cornelia De Lange syndrome (mild). My mom and 2 sisters have Cornelia De Lange syndrome (mild) too. I agree with you about good days and bad days. All we can do is trust god and pray to him. I enjoy watching your shows everyday. I love your dog. He is so cute. Try to have a good day. All we can do is take it one day at a time. Hugs.
I have only been watching for three months but I have grown so attached to watching you guys! You guys are awesome and such a strong couple! I cried with you during the video, life is so precious and we do need to enjoy each and every day!
You are a inspiration x
My partner has terminal liver cancer and he is very poorly, my heart goes out to you both and your lovely dog xx
I'm so sorry you had a rough day and that you have to suffer from CF. I so admire your strength in dealing with it. Last weekend, I was dealing with the diagnosis of lymphoma cancer. I went through the emotions of sadness, acceptance, and coming to a peace with whatever was to come. And then miraculously, I was told this week that I did not have lymphoma. They still don't know what is going on, but the experience has given me a new perspective on life.
Lab Cat I pray your doctors find out what is going on soon and that there is treatment to help. Thank God for the miracle that it wasn't lymphoma
Thank you!
Mary, as someone who was born with Cerebral Palsy and other disabling conditions, as a result of CP or including the same, I want to say that you strength and courage is something that I truly admire. You and Peter are the greatest example of what love really means and to what extend love will go. Love , "never fails". My prayers are with you, as you face each day, with challenges, anticipated and unexpected. Keep doing what you do, as you continue being a blessing to me and thousand of others. PS: I plan on purchasing a decal for my new powered wheelchair... which I expect to receive at the end of this month or the beginning of next month.
I love you Mary!! I pray for you everyday
We are all terminal. I think that those of us with illnesses are just more aware of how short of a time we have. Hugs!!!
Mary I wanted to let you know that you inspire me. I have a spinal injury and narrowing of the canal around my spinal nerve bundle so I am in constant pain and on some serious medication just to get through the day. After years of seeing different doctors and praying that it was something that could be fixed with a surgery, I found out it is inoperable. It is hard to face the fact that I will forever be in this pain and never get my normal life back. Watching you and Peter make everyday amazing inspires me to do the same in my life. I pray for the two of you daily and wish you nothing but happiness and joy all the days of your lives. ❤
Misti Stallard-Stancil hey! I have Spina Bifida so I live with constant spine pain as well. I'm so sorry there is no surgical treatment. I hope your doctors have found the right combinations of medications so you get some pain relief while not being constantly loopy and/or tired.
Misti Stallard-Stancil I have CRPS and am in constant pain ( it's like the feeling of being burned alive, my skin temperature is usually around 103 degrees). There is no cure. I also morn the loss of my normal life and find Mary really inspiring as well. Sometimes I have to say I'm a bit jealous of her yoga abilities though.
You guys (all three of you) are the real deal. I love your devotion to God, one another, and to life itself. I have already been window shopping your store and I see orders and purchases in the very near future😀 Love the t-shirts, love your art, Mary-I'm rather partial to the Ollie prints. Most of all I want to thank you for teaching us how to live. Today is all any of us have. Love you, Guys!
So amazing to go back and watch how different things are today! Many blessing to you both.
Keeping you in my prayers, love you.
Due to Adams sin we are all terminal. As the Bible says no one has the promise of tomorrow. I hope everyone that watches your video lives each day as if it is your last. Enjoy every day. Sending love and best wishes.
Your love is amazing, your strength is humbling. Made me teary thinking of all you go through....so glad you have each other. God bless you both. 😢😊❤️
Yes, treasure each moment with your loved ones and tell them because one never knows what the next minute will bring. Last night, my father in law passed from bone cancer and I am thankful I told him last night that he meant the world to me and that we understoodd if he needed to go and we would be alright. He passed minutes later. I am proud of him as he was told 7 months ago he had 30 days and he fought hard til the end. So tell your loved ones everyday how special they are.
God bless you guys. It is very difficult being sick, but it's a beautiful thing to have real hope in Jesus. That's where we get our strength. You're beautiful and so brave. Praying for you!❤🦋🙏🏻
Sending a hug!! Or three! You inspire me to live with purpose. Thank you.
Oh Mary I'm crying with you, love you guys . Stay positive❤
I couldn't imagine a better husband for you Mary. In every video, we all see how much you guys love each other and how well you guys belong with each other! 💖 I hope you feel better Mary!
I just cried with you Mary. If there were any comforting words, or words to make the pain go away, I'd say them for you now. Hang in there. Life is beautiful.
Sending you thanks for the joy you bring me even during your tough moments. Peace.
Our hope and love in and for Christ and His love for us will never EVER fail us. We are weak but even in our weakness we are our strongest because Christ is in us and HE is our strength. Hallelujah!
Oh gracious Mary, I am so sorry that moments of today were tough. You are a great example of vulnerabilty and resilience. I'm praying for you guys. I ordered my t-shirt and can't wait to share a picture!
Oh,you sweet sweet soul. I love you Mary and Peter and pray for your walk through this world with Jesus ❤️
Thank you for sharing your life and your journey with us Peter and Mary. I pray that the Lord continues to give you the strength you need to keep fighting and spreading awareness the way you have. Your both an inspiration to many people and we thank you for it.
You're such an inspiration, and no disease can take that from you. You've touched my heart and so many others as well. Sending out all the love and prayers to you guys!
Mary you made me cry when watching this. You both are so inspiring to me. Thanks for teaching us to enjoy our lives as best as we can and to not take each day for granted. Praying for you..
I pray for you guys for everyday all day long
You cry I cry friend. Hope you found more peace today.
You guys are so strong. Seeing Peter's bravery and strength is incredible. Mary's positive outlook and motivation is so amazing. You guys are so inspirational.♥️
Love you guys and saying extra prayers for you tonight. I completely understand how the reality of chronic/terminal illness hits out of nowhere! There are days I just scream (usually in prayer honestly) that it's not fair. But then there are days like I had today where I got to go to the Orioles game (they beat the Yankees btw!!) and I felt fine and thankful and not anxious at all (my pain makes me anxious).
I hope you have a blessed Holy Week and esp that Peter doesn't get stressed preparing for preaching on Easter Sunday.
I just lost my husband from chronic illness. I cared for him 6 and a half years. My prayers are going to you both because you both are having trials and frustrations
You two are amazing! Sending love and prayers!!
Love you Mary & Peter 💝 Sending hugs from my home to yours, with many prayers. 💝
It looks like you guys have a nice big yard. Have fun with your gardening! 🌱
I agree @thefreylife the good days tend to make me teary all by myself. And allowing yourself to cry, be angry, sad what ever you're feeling is all part of life with a chronic & terminal illnesses. I hope your Saturday was a good one and your Sunday is even better.
You are a real inspiration!
Mary, I don't have CF, but I am totally disabled with another illness, and from an "illness" standpoint, I understand 100% the ups and downs on a daily basis. I send the 3 of you much love, and pray for you all the time. Xoxo
What a great support you have in peter.
I found you on instagram. This is your first video I've watched so far. I'm having a really rough night. In and out of the hospital for the last few days, getting bad news at the doctor, realizing that I don't really have a "Peter", having to cancel plan with friends... it all hits sometimes. It really sucks. It really sucks. I really needed this video. 💕💕
Hey, I hope and pray you have a better day tomorrow. Your comment really hit home when you mentioned having to cancel on friends. I've done that more times than I can count because of my chronic illnesses. It sucks! I just wanted to let you know you're not alone.
I'm so glad you include both, the bad and the good of your lives, living with a terminal illness. I can relate my own terminal illness so easily. Sometimes I laugh through the tears and sometimes the laughter is no where around. I've never heard the term, 'air hungry'? Is that what you called it. It fits so well! Because of the pulmonary hypertension and necessary meds, I've also have had other health problems come up. Right now I have a blockage between my bile duct and liver. Certain foods and drugs aggrevate it, and they can't do surgery because of the condition of my lungs and heart. They can only make me confortable with pain meds until i die. last two weeks, I was so sick from it WE didn't think I was going to pull through. I'm down to 90lbs have no strenghth. I told God that if it's my time, I'm ready, if not, that's great too. It's not my time. I'm snacking while reading. Lol Tonight I was able to laugh through the tears. Thank you, Mary! You too Peter!
Hi Mary:). I know you may not see this but I wanted to let you know that I am praying for you, peter and Ollie boy :)! I started watching your videos over a year ago when I was going through a tough time. I look forward to your videos EVERY SINGLE DAY. Since starting to watch your channel my husband and I welcomes our first baby into the world. The first few weeks following his birth were very draining, and emotionally challenging. The one thing that kept me going was your video. It gave me hope that God would help me and give me rest. You showed me how to find the joy in the little things. Thank you for being so positive and so incredibly important in my life ( is that weird...?). Thank you.
Oh Mary....., I wish I could give you the biggest hug. You are so positive even on a crappy half hour. Much love ❤️ and hope you wake up feeling better xxx
Ollie reminds me of Goliath from Davey and Goliath (my childhood favorite). His facial expressions scream sincerity.
You and Peter are a constant source of inspiration.
You both inspire me everyday, i have chronic illnesses n often feel like giving up but then i think of yous n i feel ashamed of how i feel when yous both find joy and happiness even in your darkest days. i found your vĺog by accident a couple of months back n just watch to see what it was all about but now i try n watch everyday to hear your journey that you share with each n everyone of us each day. your both amazing special ppl. all my love from sunny Sunderland in the north east of England xx
This hit me last week. I got super frustrated with my CF last week. So much that it ended up being the main focus of my vlog.
Thank you again for being so open and real and honest!!! I too try to use what function I have and got bummed when things happened I wasn't expecting..... (Stranded in WC) you reminded me again that no matter what our situation (my case CP and power chair) WE can choose to lock ourselves away and keep ourselves in a bubble OR choose to take a risk and enjoy life, even as bumps and hills arise!! Keep on going Mary!!! AND all the others out there who are just keeping on keeping on!!!!
Peter looked so sad when Mary was crying, it broke my heart
Been Praying for you mary! God loves you, don't lose hope.
we all love you Mary💟
It’s so crazy to see this pop up in my UA-cam suggestions. How different your life is now! Thank God for Trikafta!
On a light note I have the same elephant watering can. But on a slightly serious note, it sucks you have to be fighting daily to breathe you are one of the few in society nowadays that appreciate each and every day. Stay strong Mary!
Love the three of you, to the moon and back! Keep fighting the fight!
I wanted to reach through the screen and give you a hug. I know exactly how that feeling is. You are a superstar and your my inspiration to keep smiling and fighting
Love seeing you plant things Mary. I'm a big garden freak! I planted our second batch of tomatoes and peppers. Have some nice pepper and tomato plants I grew from seed in March already getting flowers on them. They will probably have some peppers on them by the time I transplant them into the garden. We have some kale and beets coming up in the garden now. Still waiting on the peas, carrots and swiss chard.
Mary you are so strong and I hate to see you cry. Keep up the fight you have so many people rooting for you.
My heart and prayers are with you today and always🙏🙏!
Narcy Dishon
love you two! you guys are truly inspirational
Hugs Mary! I love watching you guys! Live in Brockton Ma. Not too far! Big hugs, we all have our times!
Stay strong Mary!
Prayers for you Mary. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 Thank you for sharing your life with us. You are such an inspiration to so many people. I'm glad you can show some of the "down" moments, too, so we know it's okay to struggle but then we can bounce back and smile.
Yep, reality is not all sunshine and rainbows like we want it. We will only see that when we get to Heaven.
I get "how do you keep going?" I just tell them that I've learned to deal with it and I lean on God. I've had SLE since I was 4. I know my limits and I just work with it. Even my drs are amazed that I keep going. My mom went in with me to my Rheumatologist appointment and my dr told her that I was a strong woman with all the pain I'm in.
God is the only one who can help us through these times. Times of pain, emotional and physical, and times of exhaustion, emotional and physical.
What gets me down the most isn't the pain, it is all the treatments and treatment changes I have to go through. Figuring out what will and won't work. Going through countless dosages and medicines and having to deal with all the side effects that might come with them.
Bless your heart Mary, my hugs and prayers are with you when you always show encouragement to others even on your rough days. And Peter you are such a loving, loyal supportive husband, I send my hugs and prayers to you too, and sweet Ollie boy, makes your complete beautiful family. Love and hugs to the 3 of you, see you tomorrow!
Mary, you are the same age as my daughter who lives across the country from me and she has epilepsy. Even though it's not a terminal illness I still worry about her safety daily. She has no warning when she is about to have a seizure and she could fall down a flight of stairs or in front of a car. I watch you be so positive and I pray that you can help me become that way as well.
Love each other as hard as you can for as long as you can. God bless you.
Denise Angonese She should see about getting a seizure alert dog. A service dog could alert her to seizures ahead of time, get help, and keep her safe when she has a seizure!
having several chronic illnesses, I completely hear you. I know that, even though I may have bad days (often... it seems that I may be put on a drug I am afraid of, but whatever does the trick so I can live somewhat comfortably) there are definitely worse days to come, but we do have today. today is what matters. yes tomorrow might be there (god willing), but living for today, doing what we think we can't do, pushing some limits sometimes, having fun today, making memories we can remember on our worse days. that's what matters. I hope you're feeling better soon, and I'm so glad you have amazing support in your life!!
Good to see your passion for CF awareness is really taking off :) I'm so happy for you.
Mary, get some rest. You pushed yourself just a bit too hard today. Love and prayers with you.
Peter - please help mary's garden along (once the fence is in place) In new england, the gardens that thrive the best are those that are in raised containers, up and away from the bugs, slugs and digging, nibbling critters. The ones I love the most are made of rail road ties, about 2 high, with some chicken wire fencing around them.
Mary, I think we all hope you have many good years but we also know it's uncertain and difficult. There is a reality and you live with it every day. It's okay to feel sad about that. I have COPD stage 4 diagnosed as stage 4 in 2006. I do the best I can, or try to, to take care of my health and be preventative. I can't walk very far anymore but it's reality. I'd rather make friends with my vlog and talk to people who are physically in my life and be able to laugh with them and share interests than cry about it. That doesn't mean I don't cry about it. I most certainly do. I'm glad you're willing to show that part of yourself. It helps others who watch to know that it's okay to cry sometimes. Bottled up emotion isn't healthy. I bottled mine for years and they hit me like a ton of bricks when my youngest daughter needed her mother most.
you're the reason i started having a slightly positive outlook on my lung illness. the past week i was in the hospital and watched a bunch of your videos, told your story to my nurses (i get treated by a cf doctor so i go to the cf/pulmonary wing) and just wanted to thank you for making these videos. it makes me realize how much i should enjoy life even when my lungs aren't giving me the easiest time.
I cried with you Mary. I am so in awe if how brave you are. I watch you fighting everyday. Living your life to the fullest. I'm praying your J tube goes without a hitch. I agree it's imperative to get more nutrition in you. It was a incredible difference thos few week's you had GJ tube. You've got more fight in you and a lot of life yet to be fulfilled.
Hugs. It seems like it's in the air. I had a good cry yesterday about similar things. It's ok and healthy to grieve and be sad or scared or whatever it is. I know you know that already. 💛