This short speaks (whispers really) to anyone who has ever felt apart, alienated from the world as it has become. If you are such a person, do not despair. Listen: There is a great, untapped well of power within you. Make it your mission to find it.
o-o please stop talking ur making me hate myself more why cant I be like her in the movie atleast she is not a no life wimp who stares at anything but the outdoors all day I need the computer while it destroys me :/ making any sense yes/no
Im in a emotional paradox the first thing happens not sad but it makes me really really really.... attached to pc also pc caused a lot of it while I need pc to keep my mind off things but I still find more stuff to be guilty of from pc and stuff I might of done on and off pc that caused me to think it was wrong leading to more pc whitch pc leads to more guilt whitch means more pc.... you get the point right?
message studio Step #1 Stand up. That's all, just stand up. Step #2 Help someone without expecting anything in return. Make them smile. Step #3 Repeat steps #1 & #2 every day for just 1 week without sitting at that screen for any more than 1 hour each day. Set an alarm to make you keep your promise to yourself. Don't make excuses. Don't put it off. Think about it. What have you got to lose? Going further in is not going to get you out. Know this: The further away you get from the person you think you are, the more you will be the person you know you are. Pretty strange right? Repeat that to yourself until it makes sense. There are no chains on you except the ones you've put there yourself.
+SimplyDeluxeSticks I think I know EXACTLY what you mean. Just had a bout with that myself: only just barely managing enough energy to distract myself knowing full well it doesn't help the situation. It's a behavior that often accompanies the downward spirals. Sloth is a child of despair. Depression is a particularly forceful problem because it robs you of the very tools to overcome it. I hope you're doing better now...
The amount of love I have for this animation is beyond words. I've had dreams like this since I was a kid... it's so incredible to see it with such vibrancy while conscious.
I have battled with severe depression, anxiety, and mild PTSD for years. My dreams often were chaotic nightmares, and the "good" dreams were ones where I drowned by jumping into the ocean and swam in the depths. The imagery in my dreams was like this (my favorite animals also happen to be turtles)... so even if it was originally meant to illustrate schizophrenia, the video resonates with me.
I advise looking up chakras and getting into spirituality. happiness can only come from within, but before that can happen, everyone's got a lot of inner cleaning up to do
EXPLANATION: Yes, that was suicide at the end, but in her mind she finally understood where she belonged. You see her finally let go, as she started doing when she dropped the pills. To the world it's just another case of a schizo who stopped taking her medication and committed suicide, but this film gave us her perspective, so if you could ask the girl we might understand she'll tell us she went home, the place she always saw, where she was always happiest, not death at all (it was no suicide for her just as probably as it isn't for many schizos that we see "take" their life) you saw it was her reality just as valid as yours or mine. This could help people understand better the people that get labeled "crazy" or "schizos". The world deems you mentally ill, where would you rather live the rest of your life? In a world where you're labeled as a mentally ill person and given pills that suppress the "crazy thoughts" and depress you, or give in to the beauty that no one sees but you where you're actually happy in a life that you see meaning in, not living as an 'outcast patient of something'? It isn't just the people we label "schizos" it's all of us. What I find interesting is the mere fact that we all imagine a more preternatural space in our minds to which we recluse to. This alone tells us the world we live in is in critical lack of exuberance.
+willwork4superpowazz I get how she saw good things.. But many of them get paranoid and even attack their families. My uncle was schizoid.. and do you know what he liked doing? Inflicting pain on others (He had a lot of sadistic traits) and stuffing his house with garbage. He thought everyone was against him. I can understand how she can represent the daydreamer crazy person.. But there should be a limit. All I see in this video (with the exception of the amazing art and the nice premise) is a lonely person that gives up on life.
Perfect representation of mental illness. My mom struggled with it and she felt like she wasn't herself on medication, she felt trapped and it was like the sane world was unbearable because the insane world felt more real to her, she had schizoaffective disorder but she was the one person in my life I'd give my life to take care of her and not think twice, she died this march. Why is it that I'm only 26yrs old and has lost so many of my loved ones, I only have two family members I care about left and one is dying slowly pretty much right in front of my eyes.
we're made of energy and energy never dies. fate lead me to your comment to let you know that though their physical bodies may be gone, they are still with you.
This is so personal on so many levels to me that I can't watch it without crying and feeling like I'm shattered in a million pieces. So I watch it extremely rarely... For me it's about a person that couldn't bear living in a enviroment humanity made. The cities, automatic schooling, automatic work, being a robot that made profit to someone. Living in a world where everyone worked fo a piece of cotton and paper. She was feeling unhappy being there. So much she got depressed and had to medicate herself just to exist in this place. To be numb. To not care anymore. But one day she realized she can't live like that anymore and she prefers to go peacefully being around nature. Humanity's bond with nature is very disregarded these days. We forget she's like a heart. We cannot live without her.
d3tach3d No. You can't blame the movie production companies for doing what makes them money. Companies all exist for the sole purpose of making money. If most people wanted to see a movie like this, they would be made. However, most people just want action, explosions and violence. After that it becomes a dissertation on human nature, which I do not feel compelled to do. Especially for a youtube comment.
Jesse Foust - for the most part, I agree with you. Sometimes something like "blade runner" comes and fails at the box office, but gets recognized later. Or sometimes something like "the matrix" gets made and changes all the rules of the game.
The trash in theaters? It comes down to what people want to see with whatever mood they're in. What a lot of people want are action, even horror/thriller movies. I have no problem with watching short/indie movies set in this tone and have beautiful meaning, I quite like them. Then again, I also like the majority of comic book hero movies, giant monster/robot fighting, decent comedies and other bigger names that come out. I agree on the quality, that this is one of the best short films I've seen and I WISH more people would see things of this nature though. :)
Watch the new rendition of "The Life of Pi". It has absofuckinglutey fantastic CG parts that will cause similar "shiver moments" that this short gives.
Having clinical depression, this is how I interpret the piece. The girl is extremely unhappy/disconnected with her life. She has to take medication for it, but it doesn't really help. She wants to escape and completely abandon her current life. But, realistically, she cannot. Too many ties and obligations keep her stuck where she is. So she found a permanent out. Maybe I interpreted it incorrectly, but that is how I connect with it and I enjoyed watching it a lot.
My dad showed this to me when it came out, I was nine, that was the year I started therapy. I’m 16 now and I know why he thought it was important. He knew. Edit: I wrote this while in a very sad state of mind so sorry for the dramatic formation of my sentences - though I want to say my heart goes out to those of you who understand, and those of you who don’t but still have your own struggles - you’ll be okay 💚
This speaks to my soul on a level no other visual video has. I am that girl. I hate this life...the city....how detached and cold people have become, the depression, the alienation...its all so dead and detached to me....and cold and hard. I survive but not really living. Every day is.....the same. Im in prison. I have a connection with the spirit. So few understand my being.....I have never felt I belongd in this world.....ever. Its not my home. I am just passing through. Trust with most ends up in betrayal........I long to be free.....to end this life and suffering I have known for so long. .....to be reunited with God. For my spirit to be released from the shackles of my body wrecked by pain and agony. I have faught afallen demon...just as she sees the demon in the distance. A breath....one last time...my spirit exploding from its prison of suffering, in ribbons of blue light ....into the hands of God.
@@angelslive9651 Why would you say such a thing? Have you no concept of severe agony of suffering and pain? Isnt it immoral to keep something in existence when its suffered its whole life??? She commits her life to God, in a situation beyond her control. no where in the Bible does it say if you commit suicide to end horrific suffering out of mercy that "God wouldnt want that and He wouldnt be happy". Are you catholic? Who are you to judge? Why do you say this? Answer me
Eres cobarde por qué la idea es luchar con los demonios, para poder hacer acá en la tierra las cosas que viniste a hacer y cumplí. tu misión, si entiendes el significado de la vida, no entiendes todo! Por Estár depresivos solo piensan es en morir,. Y no piensan cuál es sui misión?
yea, they did awesome, come check out my indie animated movie, I am using traditional animation, could use an opinion. Going to go live on Halloween with the first episode. ua-cam.com/video/TGotNWXh_Uw/v-deo.html
No wonder this won an award. The visuals were stunning, the animation was flawless, and the music was gorgeous. What I saw made me feel this feeling of "oh my god, I don't know what this is, but it's amazing". There were so many things that could be the truth. It could be some sort of mythical apocalypse. She could have a mental illness. It could simply be magic. No matter the plot or meaning, this film is a work of art.
My life is like the color black. It is dark, and cold. But I can see the light in the darkness shining through, the warmth seeping through the cracks, the colors creating a beautiful presence in the dark. Even if there is just one light, that's one more shred of hope to cling to. But the pills turn everything gray, and muddy, and the colors and the light blend together to the point where I can't see them any more, and the warmth is sucked out by the lukewarm nothingness. I'd rather live in a dark place with hope than a gray place with no life. I'd rather exist in a reality where I have something to pull me out of the dark pit and into the light, than lighting up the pit just enough for me to eek out an existence. I'd rather live with depression and have that one little light, than take pills and have nothing at all.
This was very beautiful... and though I've not been diagnosed with any mental illnesses, it still hit very close to home for me... because I have always felt that I don't belong here... that my home is somewhere else... This made me cry, but... not necessarily in a bad way. Thank you...
I have never felt my depression and my will to get better depicted so accurately, I felt like I was seeing my life through that short... THANK YOU, this is a beautiful gift... *THANK YOU*
This little gem leaves you speechless and breathless. This is mystical. I think the star represents the Source. She surrender to the Source and then she's pierced by the divine energy of pure Love. Kundalini. The soundtrack is amazing.
i almost feel weird by saying this.. but i wish i had the ability to see the world in such a fantastical way. i'm already alone even when i'm surrounded by people.
NO YOU WOULD NOT. MY FATHER SUFFERS SAME ILLNESS AND THEY DON'T SEE SUCH PRETTY MAGICAL THING'S. IT IS A EVERYDAY STRUGGLE. MOST TIME IT'S SO TERRIFYING TO THEM THAT THEY END UP HURTING THEMSELVES OR OTHER'S AROUND THEM. SO BECAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR.
I love absolutely EVERYTHING about this short film. It brings me to tears every single time. Thank you!I love absolutely EVERYTHING about this short film. It brings me to tears every single time. Thank you!
This should seriously be made into a fully fledged movie. It is absolutely amazing. Ive watched it three times already. Its my most favourite short movie of all short movies I have seen.
Wordless, evocative tone poem about alienation(?). Beautiful character animation. Evokes what I think many intorverts with a rich inner life feel in a soulless consumer society.
I often come back to this video (first seen 2013/14 maybe) once a year or so to ponder and put things into perspective. I don’t know why but it never fails to move me. Sometimes I lake swim in England and will go sub aqua briefly, hold my breath and stare downwards into the abyss. Except it has the opposite effect on me - I realise how much there is to live for. Please don’t ever remove this
I share this diagnosis, and have had what I like to call episodes, that bring me to some of the MOST frightening or amazing experiences. Since they are very much real to me, they are in fact, an experience.
If you don't understand this piece, then forget it. Just go on with what you know, since you are one of the lucky ones. You are content with 'this place'. Well, maybe 'lucky' is the wrong word. I'm glad I am not happy with 'this place', and I wouldn't trade my way of thinking for anything in the world.
There is no difference between a place and another on earth or anywhere in the universe, or even in the "other" worlds. Your unhappiness with "this place" reflects unhappiness with yourself. My 2 cents.
Lee Moe Ah, you are misunderstanding the context I use 'place'. My answer to your two cents is 'no shit', and by place I mean our society. Just like I stated in my comment, I am very happy with myself, and I wouldn't trade how I think for anything else in the world.
Not sure about the meaning of the video but the bike riding was spot on. The way the bike moved side to side was captured just the way it really is. Good work.
I know this animation is all about this girl suffering through Schizophrenia, but this also reminds me of lucid dreaming or astral projection in a way.
people with mental illness have talents they don't understand and society telling them they are sick. They never emrace their empath or astro exploration.
+The CGBros this reminded me of the left and right brain. The left is masculine, structural, analytical, and sees in parts, while right is feminine, intuitive, creative, and sees wholes. I think of how the world is now and I see the city as how society functions now, and and nature as how we truly are and have lost touch with. I also appreciate the message you yourself have created this video by. it is truly a work of art :) blessings to you and I'm sure your father is proud 😊
+TaB143 Yeah there is no creativity among men. Chess, Programming, and other male-dominated disciplines aren't creative. We also 'see in parts'. I guess that's why 100% of the greatest military commanders in the world were men. Gotcha.
+bgfamilyaccount So women only have a right half of brain and men only have a left half of a brain? It's like you went out of your way to be offended by what he said without even trying to understand it.
Watched before reading the meaning behind the video and my first interpretation is the girl is handling depression. With the way the normal world looks, no color, everyone is a robot or slave to something, her world is depressing as can be. But she decides to forgo the drugs and leave her "world" that they created for her. When looking back at the city, it seems bright and ideal, but she decides to continue on without it. The pond and light is her happiness/whatever that helps stops the depression or allows her to at least deal with it. She feels like she can be herself here. But when crazy floating geometry man comes for her, trying to force her world back into these predefined shapes, she leaves that to. It's still on the shore however, still reminding her thats where she can come back to and is never truly away for good. Then being stuck in the ocean is like being overwhelmed with everything to the point your drowning. After that I got nothing. But then read the description and very much liked your reasons for creating it. Just wanted to say my first non-biased interpenetration of it. Wonderful film with beautiful quality and scenes! Absolutely gorgeous and awe inspiring at many parts.
Since most people don't look at the description this is what film is trying show. Through the eyes of a young girl suffering from mental illness, CALDERA glimpses into a world of psychosis and explores a world of ambiguous reality and the nature of life and death. DIRECTOR'S STATEMENT CALDERA is inspired by my father's struggle with schizoaffective disorder. In states of delusion, my father has danced on the rings of Saturn, spoken with angels, and fled from his demons. He has lived both a fantastical and haunting life, but one that's invisible to the most of us. In our differing understanding of reality, we blindly mandate his medication, assimilate him to our marginalizing culture, and entirely misinterpret him for all he is worth. CALDERA aims to not only venerate my father, but all brilliant minds forged in the haunted depths of psychosis.
C'est vraiment un très beau film, qui est très relaxant. Malgré le rythme assez lent on rentre tout de même dans l'histoire. Cela nous donne une belle vision apaisante de la nature face à la robotisation des villes et de son caractère devenu plus inquiétant que chaleureux. Merci beaucoup de m'avoir offert une petite pause parmi le rythme éreintant de la ville !
"In states of delusion, my father has danced on the rings of Saturn, spoken with angels, and fled from his demons. He has lived both a fantastical and haunting life, but one that's invisible to the most of us." that's an issue, to assume his experience was delusion. Who's to say what's true? today we have physicist playing and experimenting with other dimensions, other so called "realities" we understand we are just a frequency in a radio, a humongous radio we can't even beginning to understand. Tom Campbell for example, is a great physicist who has been in other dimensions through OBE's (out of body experiences) and he says there are unnumbered dimensions, beings and things we could never understand from this tiny little perspective... I just wish Evan could get this info, could research scientist like Tom Campbell (he's everywhere here on youtube) to see that maybe his father wasn't delusional after all... but of course, I'm sure most of his suffering was because he was unable to control what he could see and therefore unable to tune it out, and well, because society thinks people like him are crazy and so he wasn't even able to share his experience with others... so little we know, about reality.
+Andromeda Maybe he saw more then everyone else, who's to say what he experienced wasn't real. There is so much we don't understand, but we love to put labels on everything.
+Andromeda Or we are just too scared to accept reality... To acknowledge that there is nothing more, nothing after death.. We are lonely, meaningless creatures evolved by coincidence so we make up our own "realities" ....
+Dulgrut but isn't that sweet? we sooo much believe we are just this mere "accident" here out of nothing, and yet we call it reality... implying your belief that meat and random perfect life (oxymoron there) is "reality"... still, that's a belief. the airplane, wifi, Tesla, all of those were mocked and thought to be impossible, that in "reality" could never exist. And now is so normal we don't even think about it. The best way to know if a belief is true is to test it. Anyone that really wants to know what comes next, should try OBE (out of body experiences) I recommend Tom Campbell experiments...he saw weirder things that this guy's dad... is all made by the computer's imagination anyway, only man is used to only believe what he can understand...
Andromeda I tried OBE but after many attempts it went ... very... unpleasantly for me so i kind of gave up and never tried again. But yes.. i understand what you think.. (But if it was "real" dont you think that there would be more "open-minded" persons....? ) After all mind can create many things that looks real but they arent... And excuse my bad english. I just glued this word nonsense after hard day...
I don't think the OBE phenomena is mental madness. I do it for more than 30 years and I still haven't found anything real in it. I may never find any connection. But that is OK. I didn't fall into thinking of it as real only because it feels so real. I'm firmly anchored into reality and I observe, experiment and relax out of body.
This is a deeply touching short film. I didn't know what to think of it at first but it brought out many emotions and, in my opinion, it deserves more than one viewing. Congratulations to the creators!
I've been unemployed this week, so I have seen a LOT of short films that youtube has to offer, and I have to say that the animation, music and sound effects for this one is truly amazing!
This was by far one of the most amazing things I've ever seen. I love the take on the subject, it's one that I'd never thought about but that is breathtakingly haunting and beautiful all at once.
Incredible animation, the music and the story blend together perfect. It reminds me about the story of Roald Dahl in which a boy took off with a giant turtle because people tried to eat it.
I saw this as a life of suffering severe depression, then she finds her happy place. Although strong suicidal thoughts and urges try to chase her, (the city falling apart) all she wants is to be happy or at the very least content with her life. At the end she grabs ahold of her happiness (the turtle) while she still can and ends her life on a good note. Since she believed suicide was inevitable, At least this way she left the world because she was happy enough and not because she couldn't take it anymore.
given the director's backstory of his dad, i'm thinking he created this animation to show that harmless crazies should be left alone; their whimsical concocted world is a serene salvation compared to our drab reality. how heartless are we to take away their inner peace and force them to conform to mundane life and pains; their minds make them happy and here we are, making excuses to fix them and being killjoys i love the flowy atmosphere when her clothes n hair are swayed by the water current, and the haziness and dullness of when she got in touch with reality, shows how displeasurable the real world is
IN.CREDIBLE! Wish I'd had the foresight to write down my... imaginings. Always felt the need to hide everything and shove it way down never to be found. This is BEAUTIFUL!
The whole time I watched this I thought "man I want there to be more films about the realities of how people with mental health issues experience the world, because the general populace just doesn't know. They think it's a comedic mechanism like in Monk, or that social disorders are just ppl being weird, and why can't depressed people just realize they can be happy.
Speaking of which, I met the guy who created www.kickstarter.com/projects/infinitap/neverending-nightmares I stopped and spoke with him when I saw the video of the demo and realized "oh man this is my OCD realized in video and it's horrifying". And of course, he based the game on his OCD obsessive imaging. See the video and see why a lot of us would take any kind of medication that allowed us to experience the world like most people.
You know... in some ways i do not understand what this is about... but at the same time i do. I read the description... huh so it´s about the point of view of a girl with a mental illnes... maybe that´s why i feel like i relate to this so much. I´ve seen what this girl sees through her eyes, i know what it feels like to have medication as a friend but also an enemy, to feel different, alone, that nobody understands you, to have a point of view that seems nobody else has... maybe you can tell, but i had and always will have a mental illness. But not only one... i had three. So i really feel connected through this even though it seems confusing and random... It´s different. And i understand more than anybody what that feels like. Different is not worse. It´s unique and special, and maybe not always understandable, but it doesn´t have to be... "All you need is love". Seems like the perfect thing to put here cause it´s true... that´s all we need, attention and care, someone who makes you feel normal, like you matter, that they make you feel they really care... i feel like i said something stupid but oh well...That´s all i can say about this really. I enjoyed every second of this, thank you and keep up the good work! :)
jamie petty thank you :) I really thought i had put something stupid cause it comes from me... xD but i'm glad you understood the message, it's hard for me to explain what i really feel but after watching this it just came out naturally :)
I've begun this sentence 1000 times to try and say in the perfect way how much I agree with you. It's incredible how there is such a huge percentage that feel like this. It's more incredible that when someone does share and everyone comes together.
I love your comment so much because I relate highly to what your saying and to this video as I myself have schizophrenia. I have had the most wonderful hallucinations and most horrific ones where I want to just jump back to reality but then sometimes I want to stay forever in them.
This brings up so many questions. If someone finds the meaning of life in something that is unreal, are we the foolish ones for looking down on them? After all, what makes our definition of success the correct one?
this made me think of my mental illnesses... so I read the description to see if I was just putting my internal thoughts and feelings into this and I realized that it is about a mental illness. so now I feel even more enlightened. so beautiful, marvelously animated and beautifully displayed. I am in love.
The cinematography and the celestial blue effects are gorgeously haunting. The camera breaks the "always have chin in a close-up" rule and the ""edge proximity rule" (what I call it when an object on the middle right remains on the middle right, and not the far right or switched left. Maybe it's part of the 180-degree rule.) The angles always look for a strikingly unusual composition (even going upside-down near the ending). The out-of-focus in the real world is a great touch. Though at times the human's face looks uncanny, the notions implied with it seem to work for it.
Fun Fact! A Caldera is a large volcanic crater, typically one formed by a major eruption leading to the collapse of the mouth of the volcano, which was where the girl went to at 5:09.
Schizoaffective diagnosed here. Curious interpretation of the condition from an outside perspective. Seems it's a bit different for everyone, but seeing it try to be explained from an outside perspective is equally interesting. Wouldn't say it parallels my experiences literally, but symbolically, not far off. Still glad to see people trying to understand it more. Gives me hope that it might be taken seriously one day.
Having suffered from social anxiety and clinical depression for my entire life, all 46 years of it, I have to say that this is an extremly powerful and beautiful representation of a fragile mind finding peace. I applaude the creators of this perfectly executed short animation, and the musical composition. - brought a tear to my eye.*****
Great movie... Once again I realized how much in common we all have. And once again I realized how much I hate my life, and I hate myself for being so weak and not able to change it. Thanks for the movie.
Hello youtubers! Now, I'm no expert. But if you have doubts on what the film is about, I suggest you read the video's description. It is very touching and moving! With a little more understanding you get to love it :)
Ahh, I see! :) I personally would have interpreted it completely different if it wasn't for the small explanation. I suppose even with the explanation we're all prone for that to happen, however. After all, we both see the same things but hold a different perception.
I believe so too, I've never thought for actual art to be self explanatory! I find what you just said quite interesting, too. I have one dear friend who also has schizophrenia but his behaviour proved his world to be far different and much more sinister than what the film demonstrates. Schizophrenia itself is a very interesting topic in my opinion, I've always wondered if it really is a "disease" as many doctors put it.
I've wondered quite the same. It is quite rare to find a diseased person of that kind, just as it is rare to find an actual dumb person. There may be lazy people but real dumb people is actually hard to come by, I think. I've always wondered how one sees something that "is not there". Your professor sounds like he would've given an interesting class!
Being a caregiver to a mentally afflicted woman my age for 3 years till she passed away I have often wondered the same thing: who was the saner of the two of us? Yes she had her moments but I miss the simple way she looked at our strange society, our weird habits that often don't make sense even to us and the way she had to see things according to her own perceptions that so often hit it right on the nail. I miss her total honesty about herself, how she saw herself and her big loving heart she kept despite her difficulties. She made more sense than I do in this crazy world, in fact I always enjoyed time with her as we were plunged in a very simple reality where things made sense in her world. If we are able to survive this world surely that would indicate a degree of mental 'trouble'?
Myriam Haar Very interesting concept! "If we are able to survive this world, surely that would indicate a degree of mental 'trouble'." Brilliant! :D I suppose we're all a little insane, some use it towards a benefit while others might as well back society up a few steps. I too, have been noticing that those well aware of what surrounds us and the society we live in are melancholic. It appears that once you understand the way we live as a human race, well it's rather depressing. After all it is well known that no great mind is free of sorrow, so maybe we're not as insane as to accept the lifestyle we carry. In the end, I will always believe that without the strange, odd or anything "labeled as something wrong", there'll be no real great aptitude.
No matter how many times I watch this, I still get chills from this incredibly deep story, so many things here ring true with the incredible artwork to portray her feelings and state of mind in each scenario :)
WOW!!! ♥____♥ JUST WOW! I can't get your Video in words! They are soo unbeliveble, breathtaking and just fantastic!! So much emotions and ... SOOO beautiful and lovely!!! Thank youu! :)
SYNOPSIS Through the eyes of a young girl suffering from mental illness, CALDERA glimpses into a world of psychosis and explores a world of ambiguous reality and the nature of life and death. When I read this part I cried. Even without reading it I did understood all the movie, to me it felt like she was suffering from anxiety or smth even deeper than that. I was right. That's why I understood this short movie, I do have those kind of feeling sometimes, being with the ones I love makes me feel better, that's the cure. Love
+Flo dri sometimes it's nowhere to be found and you still have to fight for survival. It's like running on empty batteries, scavenging for little pieces like a junkie scooping for some drug leftovers.. That's how I feel now.
Sometimes I have dreams. Once, I was talking with a God. Zeus. He led me to a large pool, and I jumped in. I dove to the bottom and looked up. He was gone. The surface was full of spines creatures, things that would kill me if I touched them. I started drowning. A brown bear appeared next to me and brought me back to the surface. There were no creatures around me, and there was a path clear of them leading to now the edge of a beach, land. But I turned and saw my friend opposite the path, in a pile of the creatures. I looked at the path and shook my head. I started to swim through the layer of creatures, pain as I did so. I touched my friend and she stopped drowning, she appeared on the beach. But the creatures were killing me, so I drowned saving her. (I'm not quite sure why I had this dream, but most of my dreams are about drowning an water in some sort of way. But I have always considered my favorite sport to be swimming. I'm not sure why these dreams are happening)
It takes my word. Just Beautiful. How could human make these beautiful images! This images told me about the girl suffered in cold hearted city. The girl choose univers for real freedom and for happiness.
This short speaks (whispers really) to anyone who has ever felt apart, alienated from the world as it has become. If you are such a person, do not despair. Listen: There is a great, untapped well of power within you. Make it your mission to find it.
o-o please stop talking ur making me hate myself more why cant I be like her in the movie atleast she is not a no life wimp who stares at anything but the outdoors all day I need the computer while it destroys me :/ making any sense yes/no
Im in a emotional paradox the first thing happens not sad but it makes me really really really.... attached to pc also pc caused a lot of it while I need pc to keep my mind off things but I still find more stuff to be guilty of from pc and stuff I might of done on and off pc that caused me to think it was wrong leading to more pc whitch pc leads to more guilt whitch means more pc.... you get the point right?
message studio Step #1 Stand up. That's all, just stand up. Step #2 Help someone without expecting anything in return. Make them smile. Step #3 Repeat steps #1 & #2 every day for just 1 week without sitting at that screen for any more than 1 hour each day. Set an alarm to make you keep your promise to yourself. Don't make excuses. Don't put it off.
Think about it. What have you got to lose? Going further in is not going to get you out.
Know this: The further away you get from the person you think you are, the more you will be the person you know you are. Pretty strange right? Repeat that to yourself until it makes sense. There are no chains on you except the ones you've put there yourself.
+SimplyDeluxeSticks I think I know EXACTLY what you mean. Just had a bout with that myself: only just barely managing enough energy to distract myself knowing full well it doesn't help the situation. It's a behavior that often accompanies the downward spirals. Sloth is a child of despair. Depression is a particularly forceful problem because it robs you of the very tools to overcome it. I hope you're doing better now...
Stephen Nielsen
Iyjn
The amount of love I have for this animation is beyond words. I've had dreams like this since I was a kid... it's so incredible to see it with such vibrancy while conscious.
no its about schizophrenia. wth
I have battled with severe depression, anxiety, and mild PTSD for years. My dreams often were chaotic nightmares, and the "good" dreams were ones where I drowned by jumping into the ocean and swam in the depths. The imagery in my dreams was like this (my favorite animals also happen to be turtles)... so even if it was originally meant to illustrate schizophrenia, the video resonates with me.
Gabriela Fermin ok but don't actually lose it's original meaning
I advise looking up chakras and getting into spirituality. happiness can only come from within, but before that can happen, everyone's got a lot of inner cleaning up to do
Random fan you're a douche
EXPLANATION:
Yes, that was suicide at the end, but in her mind she finally understood where she belonged. You see her finally let go, as she started doing when she dropped the pills. To the world it's just another case of a schizo who stopped taking her medication and committed suicide, but this film gave us her perspective, so if you could ask the girl we might understand she'll tell us she went home, the place she always saw, where she was always happiest, not death at all (it was no suicide for her just as probably as it isn't for many schizos that we see "take" their life) you saw it was her reality just as valid as yours or mine. This could help people understand better the people that get labeled "crazy" or "schizos". The world deems you mentally ill, where would you rather live the rest of your life? In a world where you're labeled as a mentally ill person and given pills that suppress the "crazy thoughts" and depress you, or give in to the beauty that no one sees but you where you're actually happy in a life that you see meaning in, not living as an 'outcast patient of something'? It isn't just the people we label "schizos" it's all of us.
What I find interesting is the mere fact that we all imagine a more preternatural space in our minds to which we recluse to. This alone tells us the world we live in is in critical lack of exuberance.
willwork4superpowazz Thanks a lot!
willwork4superpowazz it was a she? I thought it was a guy with long hair? Thanks for the explanation.
Abby-Ann Summers
You must now be aware of 90% of the American population then... Welcome to the world you sarcastic rose petal.
that was a beautiful explanation... I saw it about the same as this but I had some differences. all in all this was a wonderful animation
+willwork4superpowazz I get how she saw good things.. But many of them get paranoid and even attack their families. My uncle was schizoid.. and do you know what he liked doing? Inflicting pain on others (He had a lot of sadistic traits) and stuffing his house with garbage. He thought everyone was against him.
I can understand how she can represent the daydreamer crazy person.. But there should be a limit. All I see in this video (with the exception of the amazing art and the nice premise) is a lonely person that gives up on life.
Perfect representation of mental illness. My mom struggled with it and she felt like she wasn't herself on medication, she felt trapped and it was like the sane world was unbearable because the insane world felt more real to her, she had schizoaffective disorder but she was the one person in my life I'd give my life to take care of her and not think twice, she died this march. Why is it that I'm only 26yrs old and has lost so many of my loved ones, I only have two family members I care about left and one is dying slowly pretty much right in front of my eyes.
I'm so sorry to hear that
Sappige kaas in je keel
Thank you so much
we're made of energy and energy never dies. fate lead me to your comment to let you know that though their physical bodies may be gone, they are still with you.
Donovan M.
Thank you, I'm an atheist so your words definitely hit a cord with me.
Morrius07 a
This is so personal on so many levels to me that I can't watch it without crying and feeling like I'm shattered in a million pieces. So I watch it extremely rarely...
For me it's about a person that couldn't bear living in a enviroment humanity made. The cities, automatic schooling, automatic work, being a robot that made profit to someone. Living in a world where everyone worked fo a piece of cotton and paper. She was feeling unhappy being there. So much she got depressed and had to medicate herself just to exist in this place. To be numb. To not care anymore. But one day she realized she can't live like that anymore and she prefers to go peacefully being around nature.
Humanity's bond with nature is very disregarded these days. We forget she's like a heart. We cannot live without her.
This is easily one of the most stunning films I've ever seen. Why can't we have movies like this instead of the trash in the theaters?
corporate greed...
d3tach3d No. You can't blame the movie production companies for doing what makes them money. Companies all exist for the sole purpose of making money. If most people wanted to see a movie like this, they would be made. However, most people just want action, explosions and violence. After that it becomes a dissertation on human nature, which I do not feel compelled to do. Especially for a youtube comment.
Jesse Foust - for the most part, I agree with you. Sometimes something like "blade runner" comes and fails at the box office, but gets recognized later. Or sometimes something like "the matrix" gets made and changes all the rules of the game.
The trash in theaters? It comes down to what people want to see with whatever mood they're in. What a lot of people want are action, even horror/thriller movies. I have no problem with watching short/indie movies set in this tone and have beautiful meaning, I quite like them. Then again, I also like the majority of comic book hero movies, giant monster/robot fighting, decent comedies and other bigger names that come out. I agree on the quality, that this is one of the best short films I've seen and I WISH more people would see things of this nature though. :)
Watch the new rendition of "The Life of Pi". It has absofuckinglutey fantastic CG parts that will cause similar "shiver moments" that this short gives.
Having clinical depression, this is how I interpret the piece. The girl is extremely unhappy/disconnected with her life. She has to take medication for it, but it doesn't really help. She wants to escape and completely abandon her current life. But, realistically, she cannot. Too many ties and obligations keep her stuck where she is. So she found a permanent out. Maybe I interpreted it incorrectly, but that is how I connect with it and I enjoyed watching it a lot.
I interpret it the same.
My dad showed this to me when it came out, I was nine, that was the year I started therapy. I’m 16 now and I know why he thought it was important. He knew.
Edit: I wrote this while in a very sad state of mind so sorry for the dramatic formation of my sentences - though I want to say my heart goes out to those of you who understand, and those of you who don’t but still have your own struggles - you’ll be okay 💚
This speaks to my soul on a level no other visual video has. I am that girl. I hate this life...the city....how detached and cold people have become, the depression, the alienation...its all so dead and detached to me....and cold and hard.
I survive but not really living. Every day is.....the same. Im in prison.
I have a connection with the spirit. So few understand my being.....I have never felt I belongd in this world.....ever. Its not my home. I am just passing through.
Trust with most ends up in betrayal........I long to be free.....to end this life and suffering I have known for so long.
.....to be reunited with God. For my spirit to be released from the shackles of my body wrecked by pain and agony. I have faught afallen demon...just as she sees the demon in the distance.
A breath....one last time...my spirit exploding from its prison of suffering, in ribbons of blue light ....into the hands of God.
You have nice writing
You most Not End Your Own Life - God won’t want that God won’t be Happy 😞
@@angelslive9651 Why would you say such a thing? Have you no concept of severe agony of suffering and pain? Isnt it immoral to keep something in existence when its suffered its whole life??? She commits her life to God, in a situation beyond her control. no where in the Bible does it say if you commit suicide to end horrific suffering out of mercy that "God wouldnt want that and He wouldnt be happy".
Are you catholic? Who are you to judge? Why do you say this? Answer me
Eres cobarde por qué la idea es luchar con los demonios, para poder hacer acá en la tierra las cosas que viniste a hacer y cumplí. tu misión, si entiendes el significado de la vida, no entiendes todo! Por Estár depresivos solo piensan es en morir,. Y no piensan cuál es sui misión?
Late 2021, still coming back to this.
Same.
Do you mean 2024 ? 😊
2024. I'm here.
speechless
Me toooo
А был представлен как демон
yea, they did awesome, come check out my indie animated movie, I am using traditional animation, could use an opinion. Going to go live on Halloween with the first episode. ua-cam.com/video/TGotNWXh_Uw/v-deo.html
+Serega † кто
The Movie's Soundtrack is so powerful, it's so great and break my heart.
No wonder this won an award. The visuals were stunning, the animation was flawless, and the music was gorgeous. What I saw made me feel this feeling of "oh my god, I don't know what this is, but it's amazing". There were so many things that could be the truth. It could be some sort of mythical apocalypse. She could have a mental illness. It could simply be magic. No matter the plot or meaning, this film is a work of art.
My life is like the color black.
It is dark, and cold.
But I can see the light in the darkness shining through, the warmth seeping through the cracks, the colors creating a beautiful presence in the dark.
Even if there is just one light, that's one more shred of hope to cling to.
But the pills turn everything gray, and muddy, and the colors and the light blend together to the point where I can't see them any more, and the warmth is sucked out by the lukewarm nothingness.
I'd rather live in a dark place with hope than a gray place with no life.
I'd rather exist in a reality where I have something to pull me out of the dark pit and into the light, than lighting up the pit just enough for me to eek out an existence.
I'd rather live with depression and have that one little light, than take pills and have nothing at all.
+Jade Wilde This is morbid and beautiful.
wow
+Gabby Loverne what does morbid mean?
+Klonoa1211 Google is your friend
Beautiful.
This was very beautiful... and though I've not been diagnosed with any mental illnesses, it still hit very close to home for me... because I have always felt that I don't belong here... that my home is somewhere else... This made me cry, but... not necessarily in a bad way. Thank you...
I know what you mean. I was diagnosed not with a mental illness, but with a mental condition.
I have never felt my depression and my will to get better depicted so accurately, I felt like I was seeing my life through that short... THANK YOU, this is a beautiful gift... *THANK YOU*
💖
You never alone, Jesus is watching over you.
This little gem leaves you speechless and breathless. This is mystical. I think the star represents the Source. She surrender to the Source and then she's pierced by the divine energy of pure Love. Kundalini. The soundtrack is amazing.
i almost feel weird by saying this.. but i wish i had the ability to see the world in such a fantastical way. i'm already alone even when i'm surrounded by people.
Aspergers?
***** Actually it has to do with Schizophrenia. The director says himself.
Try Bicycle!!
NO YOU WOULD NOT. MY FATHER SUFFERS SAME ILLNESS AND THEY DON'T SEE SUCH PRETTY MAGICAL THING'S. IT IS A EVERYDAY STRUGGLE. MOST TIME IT'S SO TERRIFYING TO THEM THAT THEY END UP HURTING THEMSELVES OR OTHER'S AROUND THEM. SO BECAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR.
David Marple try saying that again, without all the capital letters.
the story struck me deeply... depression is truly a cruel battle only those who suffer from it can feel it
I love absolutely EVERYTHING about this short film. It brings me to tears every single time. Thank you!I love absolutely EVERYTHING about this short film. It brings me to tears every single time. Thank you!
This should seriously be made into a fully fledged movie. It is absolutely amazing. Ive watched it three times already. Its my most favourite short movie of all short movies I have seen.
Wordless, evocative tone poem about alienation(?). Beautiful character animation. Evokes what I think many intorverts with a rich inner life feel in a soulless consumer society.
+Cáca Milis sa Seomra Spraoi to each his own meaning
Felt that way too but for me I rather see it all as positive rather than negative esp the isolation
Isolation is a part of mental illness.
Don't you ever feel lonely. the whole universe is inside of you.
I Do Agree 🙋🏼♂️
I'm the opposite....wish most people would stay away.
Zo Mooi en aangrijpend!!prachtig filmpje zonder woorden❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🌈
I often come back to this video (first seen 2013/14 maybe) once a year or so to ponder and put things into perspective. I don’t know why but it never fails to move me. Sometimes I lake swim in England and will go sub aqua briefly, hold my breath and stare downwards into the abyss. Except it has the opposite effect on me - I realise how much there is to live for.
Please don’t ever remove this
I share this diagnosis, and have had what I like to call episodes, that bring me to some of the MOST frightening or amazing experiences. Since they are very much real to me, they are in fact, an experience.
If you don't understand this piece, then forget it. Just go on with what you know, since you are one of the lucky ones. You are content with 'this place'.
Well, maybe 'lucky' is the wrong word. I'm glad I am not happy with 'this place', and I wouldn't trade my way of thinking for anything in the world.
here let me shake your hand.
Your comment humbles us all. Thank you.
There is no difference between a place and another on earth or anywhere in the universe, or even in the "other" worlds. Your unhappiness with "this place" reflects unhappiness with yourself. My 2 cents.
Lee Moe Ah, you are misunderstanding the context I use 'place'. My answer to your two cents is 'no shit', and by place I mean our society.
Just like I stated in my comment, I am very happy with myself, and I wouldn't trade how I think for anything else in the world.
Aha, "no shit".
Sorry for poking your ego!
Not sure about the meaning of the video but the bike riding was spot on. The way the bike moved side to side was captured just the way it really is. Good work.
I know this animation is all about this girl suffering through Schizophrenia, but this also reminds me of lucid dreaming or astral projection in a way.
It reminds me of George Orwell's '1984'
Janeens_Lucidity I agree
Janeens_Lucidity me too
Janeens_Lucidi
people with mental illness have talents they don't understand and society telling them they are sick. They never emrace their empath or astro exploration.
This is fantastic, really love it with the graphics as well as the unspoken message it sends.
one of the best shorts i have ever watched! i loved it!!! congrats
+The CGBros this reminded me of the left and right brain. The left is masculine, structural, analytical, and sees in parts, while right is feminine, intuitive, creative, and sees wholes. I think of how the world is now and I see the city as how society functions now, and and nature as how we truly are and have lost touch with. I also appreciate the message you yourself have created this video by. it is truly a work of art :) blessings to you and I'm sure your father is proud 😊
+TaB143 Way to gender stereotype hero
+TaB143 Yeah there is no creativity among men. Chess, Programming, and other male-dominated disciplines aren't creative. We also 'see in parts'. I guess that's why 100% of the greatest military commanders in the world were men. Gotcha.
+bgfamilyaccount So women only have a right half of brain and men only have a left half of a brain? It's like you went out of your way to be offended by what he said without even trying to understand it.
You should watch Removed. Saddest but the best
Watched before reading the meaning behind the video and my first interpretation is the girl is handling depression. With the way the normal world looks, no color, everyone is a robot or slave to something, her world is depressing as can be. But she decides to forgo the drugs and leave her "world" that they created for her. When looking back at the city, it seems bright and ideal, but she decides to continue on without it. The pond and light is her happiness/whatever that helps stops the depression or allows her to at least deal with it. She feels like she can be herself here.
But when crazy floating geometry man comes for her, trying to force her world back into these predefined shapes, she leaves that to. It's still on the shore however, still reminding her thats where she can come back to and is never truly away for good. Then being stuck in the ocean is like being overwhelmed with everything to the point your drowning. After that I got nothing. But then read the description and very much liked your reasons for creating it.
Just wanted to say my first non-biased interpenetration of it. Wonderful film with beautiful quality and scenes! Absolutely gorgeous and awe inspiring at many parts.
The author stated this was made for his Father who had schizoaffective disorder. As that is what I am diagnosed with, this really hit close to home.
This one has stayed with me for years and shaped me as a person.
Every time I watch this animated short, I get teary eyed. I see why its award winning. Well deserved, well done.
So...perfect. Wow man! Gave me chills! Holy cow that was amazing.
Since most people don't look at the description this is what film is trying show.
Through the eyes of a young girl suffering from mental illness, CALDERA glimpses into a world of psychosis and explores a world of ambiguous reality and the nature of life and death.
DIRECTOR'S STATEMENT
CALDERA is inspired by my father's struggle with schizoaffective disorder. In states of delusion, my father has danced on the rings of Saturn, spoken with angels, and fled from his demons. He has lived both a fantastical and haunting life, but one that's invisible to the most of us. In our differing understanding of reality, we blindly mandate his medication, assimilate him to our marginalizing culture, and entirely misinterpret him for all he is worth. CALDERA aims to not only venerate my father, but all brilliant minds forged in the haunted depths of psychosis.
C'est vraiment un très beau film, qui est très relaxant. Malgré le rythme assez lent on rentre tout de même dans l'histoire. Cela nous donne une belle vision apaisante de la nature face à la robotisation des villes et de son caractère devenu plus inquiétant que chaleureux. Merci beaucoup de m'avoir offert une petite pause parmi le rythme éreintant de la ville !
Bojure angelique
Je n'aime pas l'ecole!
... The only french sentence I know...
MrPitiboy :)
"In states of delusion, my father has danced on the rings of Saturn,
spoken with angels, and fled from his demons. He has lived both a
fantastical and haunting life, but one that's invisible to the most of
us."
that's an issue, to assume his experience was delusion. Who's to say what's true? today we have physicist playing and experimenting with other dimensions, other so called "realities" we understand we are just a frequency in a radio, a humongous radio we can't even beginning to understand. Tom Campbell for example, is a great physicist who has been in other dimensions through OBE's (out of body experiences) and he says there are unnumbered dimensions, beings and things we could never understand from this tiny little perspective... I just wish Evan could get this info, could research scientist like Tom Campbell (he's everywhere here on youtube) to see that maybe his father wasn't delusional after all... but of course, I'm sure most of his suffering was because he was unable to control what he could see and therefore unable to tune it out, and well, because society thinks people like him are crazy and so he wasn't even able to share his experience with others... so little we know, about reality.
+Andromeda Maybe he saw more then everyone else, who's to say what he experienced wasn't real. There is so much we don't understand, but we love to put labels on everything.
+Andromeda Or we are just too scared to accept reality... To acknowledge that there is nothing more, nothing after death.. We are lonely, meaningless creatures evolved by coincidence so we make up our own "realities" ....
+Dulgrut but isn't that sweet? we sooo much believe we are just this mere "accident" here out of nothing, and yet we call it reality... implying your belief that meat and random perfect life (oxymoron there) is "reality"... still, that's a belief. the airplane, wifi, Tesla, all of those were mocked and thought to be impossible, that in "reality" could never exist. And now is so normal we don't even think about it.
The best way to know if a belief is true is to test it. Anyone that really wants to know what comes next, should try OBE (out of body experiences)
I recommend Tom Campbell experiments...he saw weirder things that this guy's dad... is all made by the computer's imagination anyway, only man is used to only believe what he can understand...
Andromeda
I tried OBE but after many attempts it went ... very... unpleasantly for me so i kind of gave up and never tried again. But yes.. i understand what you think.. (But if it was "real" dont you think that there would be more "open-minded" persons....? ) After all mind can create many things that looks real but they arent... And excuse my bad english. I just glued this word nonsense after hard day...
I don't think the OBE phenomena is mental madness. I do it for more than 30 years and I still haven't found anything real in it. I may never find any connection. But that is OK.
I didn't fall into thinking of it as real only because it feels so real. I'm firmly anchored into reality and I observe, experiment and relax out of body.
This is a deeply touching short film. I didn't know what to think of it at first but it brought out many emotions and, in my opinion, it deserves more than one viewing. Congratulations to the creators!
I've been unemployed this week, so I have seen a LOT of short films that youtube has to offer, and I have to say that the animation, music and sound effects for this one is truly amazing!
This was by far one of the most amazing things I've ever seen. I love the take on the subject, it's one that I'd never thought about but that is breathtakingly haunting and beautiful all at once.
Incredible animation, the music and the story blend together perfect. It reminds me about the story of Roald Dahl in which a boy took off with a giant turtle because people tried to eat it.
The story you described kinda gave me memories of 'The Iron Giant'.
I love that story!
What a beautiful short movie and stunning music and sounds...very touching and sad....well done Evan Viera.
I saw this as a life of suffering severe depression, then she finds her happy place. Although strong suicidal thoughts and urges try to chase her, (the city falling apart) all she wants is to be happy or at the very least content with her life. At the end she grabs ahold of her happiness (the turtle) while she still can and ends her life on a good note. Since she believed suicide was inevitable, At least this way she left the world because she was happy enough and not because she couldn't take it anymore.
This is also how I perceived the short, and very close to how I feel in reality.
given the director's backstory of his dad, i'm thinking he created this animation to show that harmless crazies should be left alone; their whimsical concocted world is a serene salvation compared to our drab reality. how heartless are we to take away their inner peace and force them to conform to mundane life and pains; their minds make them happy and here we are, making excuses to fix them and being killjoys
i love the flowy atmosphere when her clothes n hair are swayed by the water current, and the haziness and dullness of when she got in touch with reality, shows how displeasurable the real world is
Wow...
This is haunting. As someone who goes through some of this stuff myself... There are know words for it's truth and beauty...
Omg almost everyone of your films give me chills. And this was simply amazing
IN.CREDIBLE! Wish I'd had the foresight to write down my... imaginings. Always felt the need to hide everything and shove it way down never to be found. This is BEAUTIFUL!
When the operatic music drops --- Caldera is drifting in water staring up to space..... Wooooooooooo! Off the hook! Simply poetic! #IMAXneedsThis
Я доктор, клинический психолог и я плАчу......... Настолько достоверно получилось отразить чувства и эмоции за эти несколько минут!
The whole time I watched this I thought "man I want there to be more films about the realities of how people with mental health issues experience the world, because the general populace just doesn't know. They think it's a comedic mechanism like in Monk, or that social disorders are just ppl being weird, and why can't depressed people just realize they can be happy.
Speaking of which, I met the guy who created www.kickstarter.com/projects/infinitap/neverending-nightmares
I stopped and spoke with him when I saw the video of the demo and realized "oh man this is my OCD realized in video and it's horrifying". And of course, he based the game on his OCD obsessive imaging. See the video and see why a lot of us would take any kind of medication that allowed us to experience the world like most people.
You know... in some ways i do not understand what this is about... but at the same time i do. I read the description... huh so it´s about the point of view of a girl with a mental illnes... maybe that´s why i feel like i relate to this so much. I´ve seen what this girl sees through her eyes, i know what it feels like to have medication as a friend but also an enemy, to feel different, alone, that nobody understands you, to have a point of view that seems nobody else has... maybe you can tell, but i had and always will have a mental illness. But not only one... i had three. So i really feel connected through this even though it seems confusing and random... It´s different. And i understand more than anybody what that feels like. Different is not worse. It´s unique and special, and maybe not always understandable, but it doesn´t have to be... "All you need is love". Seems like the perfect thing to put here cause it´s true... that´s all we need, attention and care, someone who makes you feel normal, like you matter, that they make you feel they really care... i feel like i said something stupid but oh well...That´s all i can say about this really. I enjoyed every second of this, thank you and keep up the good work! :)
your comment was so heartfelt, and it wasn't something stupid. it actually made me smile more after watching this amazing video. thank you for sharing
jamie petty thank you :) I really thought i had put something stupid cause it comes from me... xD but i'm glad you understood the message, it's hard for me to explain what i really feel but after watching this it just came out naturally :)
Your comment is so heartfelt and honest! (NATSU WUVS LUSHI K?? And One Piece is lyfe)
I've begun this sentence 1000 times to try and say in the perfect way how much I agree with you. It's incredible how there is such a huge percentage that feel like this. It's more incredible that when someone does share and everyone comes together.
I love your comment so much because I relate highly to what your saying and to this video as I myself have schizophrenia. I have had the most wonderful hallucinations and most horrific ones where I want to just jump back to reality but then sometimes I want to stay forever in them.
Unglaublich berührend! Wir sind alle EINS
This is absolutely beautiful! I can relate to that medicated fog feeling you all visualized so well! Thank you for this beautiful creation!
Wouldn't say I got all the hidden meaning of this short, but it is beautiful.
She was schizophrenic. That was the hidden meaning.
Maybe, maybe not :p
Dirk Willrodt It says it right in the description -__-
:/ it does.
The ending was also symbolic of suicide.
This brings up so many questions. If someone finds the meaning of life in something that is unreal, are we the foolish ones for looking down on them? After all, what makes our definition of success the correct one?
For me, this related to me about my anxiety and panic attacks, also depersonalization. But that's just me.
im praying for you depression and anxiety is not good aswell as panic attacks
Myself as well Princess
this made me think of my mental illnesses... so I read the description to see if I was just putting my internal thoughts and feelings into this and I realized that it is about a mental illness. so now I feel even more enlightened. so beautiful, marvelously animated and beautifully displayed. I am in love.
The cinematography and the celestial blue effects are gorgeously haunting. The camera breaks the "always have chin in a close-up" rule and the ""edge proximity rule" (what I call it when an object on the middle right remains on the middle right, and not the far right or switched left. Maybe it's part of the 180-degree rule.) The angles always look for a strikingly unusual composition (even going upside-down near the ending). The out-of-focus in the real world is a great touch. Though at times the human's face looks uncanny, the notions implied with it seem to work for it.
Fun Fact! A Caldera is a large volcanic crater, typically one formed by a major eruption leading to the collapse of the mouth of the volcano, which was where the girl went to at 5:09.
Schizoaffective diagnosed here.
Curious interpretation of the condition from an outside perspective. Seems it's a bit different for everyone, but seeing it try to be explained from an outside perspective is equally interesting. Wouldn't say it parallels my experiences literally, but symbolically, not far off.
Still glad to see people trying to understand it more. Gives me hope that it might be taken seriously one day.
everytime I watch this makes me cry, it shows me what I go through every day.
Having suffered from social anxiety and clinical depression for my entire life, all 46 years of it, I have to say that this is an extremly powerful and beautiful representation of a fragile mind finding peace. I applaude the creators of this perfectly executed short animation, and the musical composition. - brought a tear to my eye.*****
Great movie... Once again I realized how much in common we all have. And once again I realized how much I hate my life, and I hate myself for being so weak and not able to change it.
Thanks for the movie.
Normally I would prefer 2-D animation over CGI but this was amazing !!!
Amazing short film!
Hello youtubers! Now, I'm no expert. But if you have doubts on what the film is about, I suggest you read the video's description. It is very touching and moving! With a little more understanding you get to love it :)
Ahh, I see! :) I personally would have interpreted it completely different if it wasn't for the small explanation. I suppose even with the explanation we're all prone for that to happen, however. After all, we both see the same things but hold a different perception.
I believe so too, I've never thought for actual art to be self explanatory! I find what you just said quite interesting, too. I have one dear friend who also has schizophrenia but his behaviour proved his world to be far different and much more sinister than what the film demonstrates. Schizophrenia itself is a very interesting topic in my opinion, I've always wondered if it really is a "disease" as many doctors put it.
I've wondered quite the same. It is quite rare to find a diseased person of that kind, just as it is rare to find an actual dumb person. There may be lazy people but real dumb people is actually hard to come by, I think. I've always wondered how one sees something that "is not there". Your professor sounds like he would've given an interesting class!
Being a caregiver to a mentally afflicted woman my age for 3 years till she passed away I have often wondered the same thing: who was the saner of the two of us? Yes she had her moments but I miss the simple way she looked at our strange society, our weird habits that often don't make sense even to us and the way she had to see things according to her own perceptions that so often hit it right on the nail. I miss her total honesty about herself, how she saw herself and her big loving heart she kept despite her difficulties. She made more sense than I do in this crazy world, in fact I always enjoyed time with her as we were plunged in a very simple reality where things made sense in her world. If we are able to survive this world surely that would indicate a degree of mental 'trouble'?
Myriam Haar Very interesting concept! "If we are able to survive this world, surely that would indicate a degree of mental 'trouble'." Brilliant! :D I suppose we're all a little insane, some use it towards a benefit while others might as well back society up a few steps. I too, have been noticing that those well aware of what surrounds us and the society we live in are melancholic. It appears that once you understand the way we live as a human race, well it's rather depressing. After all it is well known that no great mind is free of sorrow, so maybe we're not as insane as to accept the lifestyle we carry. In the end, I will always believe that without the strange, odd or anything "labeled as something wrong", there'll be no real great aptitude.
Absolutely engrossing. Spoke to my self perception.
Ethereal and majestic. Are the two words I could muster to describe this. The score really adds so much to it too. Beautiful work mate!
Серьезный мульт, для серьезных мыслей. Каждый его поймет по своему - кто то, и вовсе, не сможет понять.
This is beautiful! It's a great commentary on how we treat mental illness and how it affects those who have it.
Beautiful. I love the description.
No matter how many times I watch this, I still get chills from this incredibly deep story, so many things here ring true with the incredible artwork to portray her feelings and state of mind in each scenario :)
Wow. Just beautiful.
The animation was just stunning, amazing, and epic.
Never saw anything like this I know what the video means but the animation and the ambient music it is just stunning...
THIS IS LIKE A MOVIE!
It is a movie just 11 minutes long :D
Utterly beautiful...moved me to tears.
WOW!!! ♥____♥ JUST WOW! I can't get your Video in words! They are soo unbeliveble, breathtaking and just fantastic!! So much emotions and ... SOOO beautiful and lovely!!! Thank youu! :)
Well that was....interesting O-O
SYNOPSIS
Through the eyes of a young girl suffering from mental illness, CALDERA glimpses into a world of psychosis and explores a world of ambiguous reality and the nature of life and death.
When I read this part I cried. Even without reading it I did understood all the movie, to me it felt like she was suffering from anxiety or smth even deeper than that. I was right. That's why I understood this short movie, I do have those kind of feeling sometimes, being with the ones I love makes me feel better, that's the cure. Love
+Flo dri sometimes it's nowhere to be found and you still have to fight for survival. It's like running on empty batteries, scavenging for little pieces like a junkie scooping for some drug leftovers.. That's how I feel now.
Diamond Seeker I understand you very well.
beautiful ...
Oh my. This movie was so powerful. So beautiful. An adept hand was at work here.
Wow....I can see why this one was award-winning. Original, imaginative, beautiful.....just amazing!
Sometimes I have dreams.
Once, I was talking with a God. Zeus. He led me to a large pool, and I jumped in. I dove to the bottom and looked up.
He was gone.
The surface was full of spines creatures, things that would kill me if I touched them. I started drowning.
A brown bear appeared next to me and brought me back to the surface. There were no creatures around me, and there was a path clear of them leading to now the edge of a beach, land. But I turned and saw my friend opposite the path, in a pile of the creatures.
I looked at the path and shook my head. I started to swim through the layer of creatures, pain as I did so.
I touched my friend and she stopped drowning, she appeared on the beach.
But the creatures were killing me, so I drowned saving her.
(I'm not quite sure why I had this dream, but most of my dreams are about drowning an water in some sort of way. But I have always considered my favorite sport to be swimming. I'm not sure why these dreams are happening)
Nightmares maybe scary, but they actually help us in some way.
+Squidoodly2.0 MC SOMEONE ANIMATE THIS.
whoa I always drown in my dreams too..
...Npt sure if thats true,if God appears i. your dream it means you are fully of purity and love
I always fly in my dreams, i guess its the only way i can get away from everything.
ive never been more glad to have stumbled upon a random youtube video
I honestly think that this one will never get old
Wow... The soundtrack, the images, the emotion... everything. Absolutely incredible ...
It takes my word. Just Beautiful. How could human make these beautiful images!
This images told me about the girl suffered in cold hearted city. The girl choose univers for real freedom and for happiness.
Its beautiful.......... I loved it.......
Amazing *_*
Thank you for making this.
Wonderfully and masterfully created. Depressing and heartbreaking another short that derserves a 10/10
Breathtakingly beautiful - thank you for your work....
That ending gave me a Shadow of the Colossus vibe xD
Lol it does
It's always a tragic ending.
Alejandra Rodriguez poop evhdcj x
We're more than that. We're pure light, energy.
Wow, that was just mindblowing! Incredible visual & musical experience!
Very Beautiful!! Describes my life, except I really want to hold on and see if another day brings me solace and hope.
EPIC! ... I hope people wake up. drugs alcohol and psych drugs keep you asleep.
"psych drugs" also keep some people alive you know.
after much studying on your post I have not fond this to be true. there is a big defines in psych drugs and medicine. do you know the defines?