First up I’m Welsh 🏴 second up I’m in awe of REN’s talent, but third, and most importantly, every reaction you do I have the same thought….what a bloody lovely, genuine guy who has a great moral compass. Not sure why I’m writing this, but felt the need to say it, as when you see someone good it is worth acknowledging it. Peace bro ✌️
Now let Ren pick you up back again. Watching this wonderful man having fun just brings me joy, too. Go find Ren - Karaoke - Fly Me To The Moon. You will not believe what he sounds like!
The transitions from spoken word to rapping are so seemless and smooth. This is one of my favorites. I love that his catalog puts words to my misery from... Fibromyalgia, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Bipolar Disorder, PTSD, Anxiety, Insomnia. I deal with so much of the same stuff he does/did. Like you said, when my kids weren't here, I tend to be scared and afraid, but with them here, I'm not. I go into protector mode. Isn't it weird how that happens?
I also asked God, "why" when I lost my baby. I'll never stop loving that baby but as I look at my living children, I know if that baby had been born then I wouldn't have had my youngest son and I can't imagine my life without him. So it took many years, but to me, that was the answer to my, "why?"❤
Thanks BP. You are a blessing to many. Including me. Your willingness to talk to us with your wounds wide open is inspiring. Currently, I can see God's hand in so many ways. However, there are also some difficulties I am going through that don't make sense. Faith is shown when we don't know why, but we still keep walking. Knowing that we are called to continue the journey. Wherever that might take us. Keep up the good work and please know that you are helping others on your path.
I commented before I listened to this. The song is painfully beautiful, I genuinely love all his music/poetry. But your reaction is what touched my heart today. I definitely relate in the way that I have lost people in my life, and it hurts too much. I was raised in a cult, so I am now an agnostic, and I have many times been crying in pain from losing loved ones or from my mental and physical pain. I've asked God why even though I don't believe because that's what I was raised to do. I don't think that will ever go away, I'm 43 and still do this. I'm so sorry for your loss, your sweet little baby is resting peacefully. Thank you for sharing this with us, I know how hard it is to talk about. 🖤🫶
BP The way you related your personal experiences of the sad loss of both your babies and your mum to this track was deep. ❤🤗Ren’s track really does highlight how insomnia can be fuelled by the emotional heft resulting from the challenges and deeper questions of life. It speaks to me in an emotional level as someone who experiences autoimmune problems as at times can find sleep difficult.
He uses a similar (the same ?) piano part in Crutch so I suspect this is from around the same time i.e. 2015 when he was at his lowest. Always amazes me how he can create anything, let alone the brilliant music that he does create, when he is so terribly ill.
An incredibly poignant song for anyone who suffers from insomnia, whether it's your pain or a million thoughts or feelings that keep you awake! Ren describes perfectly how in your head you can be! And he does it with exquisite rap accompanied by mad guitar riffs! BP, sorry for your loss, you are an amazing man! Appreciate this reaction as one who suffers ongoing insomnia🎉😊
Unfortunately I relate to this song, so much. I've had insomnia since I was a little kid. I also have Exploding Head Syndrome: basically auditory hallucinations that startle me awake as I'm falling asleep. So even if I can fall asleep I often don't stay asleep for long before I'm startled awake by loud crashes, explosions or gun shots that don't really exist, sometimes multiple times a night. It really gets the adrenaline pumping and can make getting back to sleep a challenge.
Thank you for talking about your experiences. Losing a baby is so painful. I lost one of my sons at 6 days old. You're never the same after that. A lot of other friends of mine who have lost babies became atheist after that, but it didn't change things for me. I don't really know why exactly. Maybe because I was raised to believe God is about love and positivity. I just didn't believe he did it. We found out later he had a rare condition (that I and his twin brother have as well) and what happened to him likely saved his twin brother, my little survivor. I doubt I'll ever understand it but I try to live for him and make him proud of me. And we remember him daily. Much love to you and your family.
Bless you, Believer and Holder of grief. My boy was 3 and died by bullet. I have continued to believe as well, but my faith has been through some fiery places. I thoroughly dislike it when people imply God was behind it all, or that there was a higher purpose for it. We live in a broken world. That's "why" enough, I suppose. Hugs to you.
@@sandiraymond1761 I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy. I feel the same way. I don't understand why everyone has to blame God for it all. I accept that I don't understand and I know that's not enough for some people but it's been enough for me. ❤️ Hugs back to you!
The irony of watching this at 2:15 am, when I have to be up for work in 4 hours….nothing new…been happening for years, but at 61, it’s getting hard to function effectively during the day. ASD and ADHD, only recently diagnosed(but long suspected by me) don’t help. Brilliant song by the bard of our time. Sometimes the only answer is “why not?”
I lost my mom to Cancer in 2009, and I still ask those questions! Not holding my breath for an answer tho....I'm not a religious person, but I'm praying you get your boy this time around! 🙏❤
I have chronic insomnia. I rarely sleep. I can go days without sleep, then only get 2 hours. The longest I have not slept for that I can remember before I collapsed was 2 weeks. I was working 2 jobs, evening and night shift too. My body just doesn’t like to sleep, even on sleeping meds, I can take dangerous amounts and still not sleep. Ironically I’m always exhausted due to M.E. And fibromyalgia too. So this song I really feel. Also it is a really beautiful song, his flows and that guitar at the end is stunning. Lots of love to you P 🖤🥰
We are very similar my friend. I started working overnights because I figured what the hell I may as well earn money if I’m gonna be awake anyway. My joke is ima hybrid Vampire/Werewolf. Which explains why I can work day and night. lol In the last couple of years I’ve found out I have ADHD, cPTSD (ok I kinda figured that one out myself but finally got a doctor see it), bipolar or borderline personality disorder since they can mimic eachother we still aren’t 100% sure then there’s the fibromyalgia and my beautiful herniated disc so pain really does do well with trying to sleep. Edit: One of the worst things for me is the constant thoughts, the voice telling me I’m worthless cuz I’m not out making money and being useful. The constant replays of horrible moments in my life just playing on repeat as if some demon was just going through my home movies and playing me a highlight reel of shit I didn’t even know they filmed. The nights I BEGGED for some kind of relief from the pain both mental and physical. How I’m still considered sane just baffles me. I am in constant AWE of REN’s talent in his writing and performances. We need to protect this boy at all costs.
@@SaraShadowSpirit oh wow you just basically explained me! I always call myself a vampire 🤣 also potential adhd, herniated disc, worthless feelings, depression, anxiety. Life’s a bitch isn’t it 🖤
Brother..... two stillbirths is tough my man. My wife and I had a stillbirth at 8.5 months in. Her name was Rosalee Claire Brown. Nothing can really put that pain into words from what we experienced. The craziest moment for me was the completely irrational hope and desperation when she was born and thinking, "ok, the doctors are wrong and she's going to breathe now and open her eyes.." thank you for sharing your pain and experience as well my brother. Love you BP.
Thanks for being so open with this one BP. The amazing thing about Ren and his music is that it often allows us to open up about things we might never have expressed before….we relate to what he says…..and that gives us a key to unlock thoughts/feelings we hadn’t articulated before.
There's different kinds of naked. Ren is emotionally naked and he just gives us everything he's thinking or feeling. All the light all the dark all the funny. I don't think there's anyone else to compare with Ren.
I needed this today. I just got back from a dr apt where I actually got into an argument with my doctor, because they can’t give me answers to my pain and my fatigue. It keeps me in bed and lonely, and isolated. I too have asked God. So far no answers from anyone so today’s been a rough one. So I appreciate your vulnerability and sharing this song makes me cry every time I hear it. Appreciate you BP. I watch every day. It’s a weird thing when you feel like you’re friends with someone who you’ve never met and doesn’t know you.
I could have written this comment myself. I’ve been sick for 15 years. So many diagnosis. A few stuck. But none of them explain all the issues. Just know you’re not alone, and I believe we will find answers. 🤍
@@rachellenoir2072 it’s a weird thing when they can’t give you any answers. so they keep giving you diagnosis. But the. Diagnosis just feel like symptoms. I’m like yeah I have this at the other but why what’s causing it? I’m sorry you’ve been sick so long. Mine started after chemotherapy for cancer when I was 28 and Covid turned it into this big ugly monster that I can’t beat because I can’t define it. Perhaps we should chat sometime
@@leslieballard9709 I get it! My symptoms got WAY WORSE in 2014 when I had to undergo radiation treatment for Graves’ disease when I was 21. I would love to chat sometime! How would you prefer to connect?
I had never suffered with insomnia until about a year and a half ago when I suffered a Traumatic Brain Injury. Since then it has been something I have really struggled with extensively. It can accompany you into some very dark places mentally.
It breaks my heart to hear you speak about your experiences with childbirth and I hope you know that the brave way that you openly share those awful, highly personal, devastating moments here may well help others deal with some of that pain and trauma themselves and not feel so alone! Thank you for everything you do!
After being mis diagnosed and 4 operations later I got hit with severe chronic pain which I still have 13 years later and many more issues/diseases. My Dad dying in my arms from a heart attack and the next year my Mom committed S. I had insomnia of note. With sleeping pills I maybe got 2 hours a night. It was an exhausting time. Finally off sleeping pills and get maybe 6 hours a night. Still have pain like you can’t believe. I also asked God many times why for everything. I had to trust my faith. Hugs BP ❤
You know... I dunno if I'm agnostic or an atheist or something else. When I lost my mom at 16 I went down a religious rabbit hole of sorts, trying to find meaning... went through all of them... found some answers, found a lot of questions... And I think it's this... That God feeling.. or whatever you wanna call it. it's the quiet reminder that you aren't alone. I don't think its something mystical, or spiritual like that... just literally you. are. not. alone. Your fellow man is there. your brothers and sisters in humanity. That's how we get better. That's how we become more than ourselves. Giving love to your fellow man. And when you're in hell, down deep... in sorrow and sadness, you feel alone.. and usually, it's the realization that you're not that lifts you up. I think if we just remember that we should all try to make our lives better by helping others... we might all just get through it. Ironically, I'm watching your reaction at 1 AM because I have a pretty bad case of insomnia right now, so there's that. Thanks again BP for everything that you do. I love that you're not afraid to get personal.
Thank you for your vunerable and touching reaction. Its good that reacting to Ren has allowed you to open up about your pain, I hope it helps. Please react to Ren and Liv Sangster
I think certain communities would come after REN hard if he tried to cover Tupac. I would love to hear REN do anything country because that’s the only genre he hasn’t delved into except his Elvis cover of I Can’t Help Falling In Love With You!!
God plucks the prettiest flowers. He needs them in heaven to search and be angles.I can't sleep either. Trusted in YOU! I'm sorry for your circumstances. Beautiful
❤❤😢I so understand. I spend all night trying to sleep, in pain and trying not to snack. You will try anything. Saying "GOD, I JUST WANT TO SLEEP!❤❤ Love you guys
Oh my gosh.. I've been waiting for this one!!. When I first heard this one it hit me so hard in the feels I almost couldn't take it. I also had not slept. I really like the mellow tones he used it was sonicly pleasing. Or I guess easy on the mind compared to the lyrics. I think most of us have had that why God? questioning moment. It's a strange one for me now since becoming a beleiver. I still search for answers but at the same time I have a level of calmness I never had before. I guess I feel now that humans are not meant to have all the answers. Idk I'm begining to rant lol sorry... Anyways great reaction BP ✌️
After tracks like this from Ren it is time to dive into The Big Push for some fun stuff, their covers of popular and familiar songs you can rock to. It's the only way to break the despondent feeling one gets from his pain and/or our own.
Unsure how much you check all the comments but i really love your content. If you havent checked out "depression" by ren i would recommend it..both that and this are next level with words and meaning behind it. ✌️
BP I can definitely relate I lost my father a month ago. I lost my son when he was 18 my wife had a stillborn. also 27 years of an abusive relationship and I just asked why. I know I’m not gonna get the answer that doesn’t stop me from questioning.
I have fibromyalgia, and the pain is so intense that sometimes even the meds don't work or stop working quickly. Rens music touches so ma y people he is our voice he explains what we feel when we cant. He is an angel to this world some people dont understand Ren, but those are the ones who have not gone through something
Your reactions can be very powerful, Losing an unborn baby is incredibly difficult….the docs usually do not really know why, I am sorry that you and your wife went through that.
Kids crying cause mostly every little bad thing they experience is the WORST things they experienced during their whole life. That's weird but true. But weird. But also true.
Tell me what you think, I asked him to do a Johnny Cash Cocaine Blues cover. Also I asked him to do a cover with Chinchilla You're all I need by Method Man and Mary J Blige. He would kill the beat, and she would kill those notes 🖤
Think about it? God answers every one of us but, are we really listening? If God opens the door but you refuse to see or walk through it who's fault is that? God gave Ren the strength to search for the miracle he needed, and he found it in Brussels, (the diagnosis.) How many Doctors from America are going to call a boy suffering in England and tell them they will treat you for free? The problem is we are stubborn and reactive instead of active to his guidance. If you really look you will find amazing times when God saved you. It may be a feeling that creeps into your soul warning you to stay away from a situation. Did you listen? God works in mysterious ways so you must heed when you hear. It is a personal relationship, not a religion.
I like because of your emotions,for Ren ,his poetry and music.and also because you always mention your mother,and this time Rens relation ships with mother. I m a little older and lost my mother and six monts later housband.(2019)..completely symphatized with everything. Strange place for share pain .And it s all Ren s "fault".
You asked what the meaning of life is. You said you believe in God. You should know that the meaning of life is to know Jesus. God allows things to happen to us to bring us closer to Him.
First up I’m Welsh 🏴 second up I’m in awe of REN’s talent, but third, and most importantly, every reaction you do I have the same thought….what a bloody lovely, genuine guy who has a great moral compass. Not sure why I’m writing this, but felt the need to say it, as when you see someone good it is worth acknowledging it. Peace bro ✌️
This is a quiet masterpiece, needs more daylight to shine at its deserved potential ❤️🔥
"Thinking about nothing and everything and f**king nothing!" That line is so so accurate.
The lyrics in this one are fucking heavy as fuck.. This one is extremely fitting for me right now and been listening to it a lot.
Now let Ren pick you up back again. Watching this wonderful man having fun just brings me joy, too. Go find Ren - Karaoke - Fly Me To The Moon. You will not believe what he sounds like!
The transitions from spoken word to rapping are so seemless and smooth.
This is one of my favorites.
I love that his catalog puts words to my misery from...
Fibromyalgia, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Bipolar Disorder, PTSD, Anxiety, Insomnia.
I deal with so much of the same stuff he does/did.
Like you said, when my kids weren't here, I tend to be scared and afraid, but with them here, I'm not. I go into protector mode. Isn't it weird how that happens?
I also asked God, "why" when I lost my baby.
I'll never stop loving that baby but as I look at my living children, I know if that baby had been born then I wouldn't have had my youngest son and I can't imagine my life without him.
So it took many years, but to me, that was the answer to my, "why?"❤
I appreciate you very much Black P. Thanks for always being real. Hope you get some shut eye brother.
Thanks BP. You are a blessing to many. Including me. Your willingness to talk to us with your wounds wide open is inspiring. Currently, I can see God's hand in so many ways. However, there are also some difficulties I am going through that don't make sense. Faith is shown when we don't know why, but we still keep walking. Knowing that we are called to continue the journey. Wherever that might take us.
Keep up the good work and please know that you are helping others on your path.
I commented before I listened to this. The song is painfully beautiful, I genuinely love all his music/poetry. But your reaction is what touched my heart today. I definitely relate in the way that I have lost people in my life, and it hurts too much. I was raised in a cult, so I am now an agnostic, and I have many times been crying in pain from losing loved ones or from my mental and physical pain. I've asked God why even though I don't believe because that's what I was raised to do. I don't think that will ever go away, I'm 43 and still do this. I'm so sorry for your loss, your sweet little baby is resting peacefully. Thank you for sharing this with us, I know how hard it is to talk about. 🖤🫶
BP The way you related your personal experiences of the sad loss of both your babies and your mum to this track was deep. ❤🤗Ren’s track really does highlight how insomnia can be fuelled by the emotional heft resulting from the challenges and deeper questions of life. It speaks to me in an emotional level as someone who experiences autoimmune problems as at times can find sleep difficult.
He uses a similar (the same ?) piano part in Crutch so I suspect this is from around the same time i.e. 2015 when he was at his lowest. Always amazes me how he can create anything, let alone the brilliant music that he does create, when he is so terribly ill.
An incredibly poignant song for anyone who suffers from insomnia, whether it's your pain or a million thoughts or feelings that keep you awake! Ren describes perfectly how in your head you can be! And he does it with exquisite rap accompanied by mad guitar riffs! BP, sorry for your loss, you are an amazing man! Appreciate this reaction as one who suffers ongoing insomnia🎉😊
Unfortunately I relate to this song, so much. I've had insomnia since I was a little kid. I also have Exploding Head Syndrome: basically auditory hallucinations that startle me awake as I'm falling asleep. So even if I can fall asleep I often don't stay asleep for long before I'm startled awake by loud crashes, explosions or gun shots that don't really exist, sometimes multiple times a night. It really gets the adrenaline pumping and can make getting back to sleep a challenge.
Ren wrote and recorded this at like 3:00am when he had been going through weeks of insomnia. One of my favorite Ren tracks.
Thank you for talking about your experiences. Losing a baby is so painful. I lost one of my sons at 6 days old. You're never the same after that. A lot of other friends of mine who have lost babies became atheist after that, but it didn't change things for me. I don't really know why exactly. Maybe because I was raised to believe God is about love and positivity. I just didn't believe he did it. We found out later he had a rare condition (that I and his twin brother have as well) and what happened to him likely saved his twin brother, my little survivor. I doubt I'll ever understand it but I try to live for him and make him proud of me. And we remember him daily. Much love to you and your family.
Bless you, Believer and Holder of grief. My boy was 3 and died by bullet. I have continued to believe as well, but my faith has been through some fiery places.
I thoroughly dislike it when people imply God was behind it all, or that there was a higher purpose for it. We live in a broken world. That's "why" enough, I suppose.
Hugs to you.
@@sandiraymond1761 I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy. I feel the same way. I don't understand why everyone has to blame God for it all. I accept that I don't understand and I know that's not enough for some people but it's been enough for me. ❤️ Hugs back to you!
The irony of watching this at 2:15 am, when I have to be up for work in 4 hours….nothing new…been happening for years, but at 61, it’s getting hard to function effectively during the day. ASD and ADHD, only recently diagnosed(but long suspected by me) don’t help. Brilliant song by the bard of our time. Sometimes the only answer is “why not?”
I lost my mom to Cancer in 2009, and I still ask those questions! Not holding my breath for an answer tho....I'm not a religious person, but I'm praying you get your boy this time around! 🙏❤
I have heard this one before. Listening with you changed it. I cried the whole time... For Ren, for you...for myself. Thank you ❤
Oh man, this one breaks my heart for ren. He needs a big hug from all of us 💜💜
I have chronic insomnia. I rarely sleep. I can go days without sleep, then only get 2 hours. The longest I have not slept for that I can remember before I collapsed was 2 weeks. I was working 2 jobs, evening and night shift too. My body just doesn’t like to sleep, even on sleeping meds, I can take dangerous amounts and still not sleep. Ironically I’m always exhausted due to M.E. And fibromyalgia too. So this song I really feel. Also it is a really beautiful song, his flows and that guitar at the end is stunning.
Lots of love to you P 🖤🥰
We are very similar my friend. I started working overnights because I figured what the hell I may as well earn money if I’m gonna be awake anyway. My joke is ima hybrid Vampire/Werewolf. Which explains why I can work day and night. lol
In the last couple of years I’ve found out I have ADHD, cPTSD (ok I kinda figured that one out myself but finally got a doctor see it), bipolar or borderline personality disorder since they can mimic eachother we still aren’t 100% sure then there’s the fibromyalgia and my beautiful herniated disc so pain really does do well with trying to sleep.
Edit: One of the worst things for me is the constant thoughts, the voice telling me I’m worthless cuz I’m not out making money and being useful. The constant replays of horrible moments in my life just playing on repeat as if some demon was just going through my home movies and playing me a highlight reel of shit I didn’t even know they filmed. The nights I BEGGED for some kind of relief from the pain both mental and physical. How I’m still considered sane just baffles me.
I am in constant AWE of REN’s talent in his writing and performances.
We need to protect this boy at all costs.
@@SaraShadowSpirit oh wow you just basically explained me! I always call myself a vampire 🤣 also potential adhd, herniated disc, worthless feelings, depression, anxiety. Life’s a bitch isn’t it 🖤
Thanks BP! I am a chronic insomniac so I get it! It is a great song and very relatable!❤️🔥✌🏻🫶🏻
His retakes aren’t covers. They are remixes. He takes the beat and creates new lyrics & raps over it
Brother..... two stillbirths is tough my man. My wife and I had a stillbirth at 8.5 months in. Her name was Rosalee Claire Brown. Nothing can really put that pain into words from what we experienced. The craziest moment for me was the completely irrational hope and desperation when she was born and thinking, "ok, the doctors are wrong and she's going to breathe now and open her eyes.." thank you for sharing your pain and experience as well my brother. Love you BP.
Thanks for being so open with this one BP. The amazing thing about Ren and his music is that it often allows us to open up about things we might never have expressed before….we relate to what he says…..and that gives us a key to unlock thoughts/feelings we hadn’t articulated before.
We see depth and authenticity, and we mirror it back.
There's different kinds of naked. Ren is emotionally naked and he just gives us everything he's thinking or feeling. All the light all the dark all the funny. I don't think there's anyone else to compare with Ren.
💯 🙏❤️
This song moved me so much when I first heard it. Ren is a Master Class in hitting the heart and soul hard.
Thank you for this Ren reaction 💚🤗🍀 you give him such a wonderful opening to be heard. I love hearing your perspectives
I needed this today. I just got back from a dr apt where I actually got into an argument with my doctor, because they can’t give me answers to my pain and my fatigue. It keeps me in bed and lonely, and isolated. I too have asked God. So far no answers from anyone so today’s been a rough one. So I appreciate your vulnerability and sharing this song makes me cry every time I hear it. Appreciate you BP. I watch every day. It’s a weird thing when you feel like you’re friends with someone who you’ve never met and doesn’t know you.
I appreciated an interview today Dr John Campbell and professor chance about fatigue. Worth a watch ...20th or 19th jan 24. I fatigue too.
@@jenw274 is it on you tube?
I could have written this comment myself. I’ve been sick for 15 years. So many diagnosis. A few stuck. But none of them explain all the issues. Just know you’re not alone, and I believe we will find answers. 🤍
@@rachellenoir2072 it’s a weird thing when they can’t give you any answers. so they keep giving you diagnosis. But the. Diagnosis just feel like symptoms. I’m like yeah I have this at the other but why what’s causing it? I’m sorry you’ve been sick so long. Mine started after chemotherapy for cancer when I was 28 and Covid turned it into this big ugly monster that I can’t beat because I can’t define it. Perhaps we should chat sometime
@@leslieballard9709 I get it! My symptoms got WAY WORSE in 2014 when I had to undergo radiation treatment for Graves’ disease when I was 21. I would love to chat sometime! How would you prefer to connect?
I had never suffered with insomnia until about a year and a half ago when I suffered a Traumatic Brain Injury. Since then it has been something I have really struggled with extensively. It can accompany you into some very dark places mentally.
Same, I'm 8 years in. The horrible irony about a brain injury messing up your sleep is that you desperately need your sleep to heal.
❤ I think no matter what you believe, we all have asked God "why"
Love to you & your wife BP 🤗💜
Artists like Ren and Dave keep reminding me that rap is spoken word poetry. It isn't always used that way, but it can be.
Love this BP. Much love to you.
Depression and Insomnia (and to a small degree Penitence)... Ren's def poetry takes. I'm here for them!!
Thumbs up for Dear Mama! Always brings the tears!
Much love for you and your wife BP ❤
It breaks my heart to hear you speak about your experiences with childbirth and I hope you know that the brave way that you openly share those awful, highly personal, devastating moments here may well help others deal with some of that pain and trauma themselves and not feel so alone! Thank you for everything you do!
One of my faves. Beautifully done, cheers.
One of your best reactions. Thanks BP
Thank you for finally reacting to this one. It has made me cry many tears because I can relate so hard. Awesome reaction!
After being mis diagnosed and 4 operations later I got hit with severe chronic pain which I still have 13 years later and many more issues/diseases. My Dad dying in my arms from a heart attack and the next year my Mom committed S. I had insomnia of note. With sleeping pills I maybe got 2 hours a night. It was an exhausting time. Finally off sleeping pills and get maybe 6 hours a night. Still have pain like you can’t believe. I also asked God many times why for everything. I had to trust my faith. Hugs BP ❤
You know... I dunno if I'm agnostic or an atheist or something else. When I lost my mom at 16 I went down a religious rabbit hole of sorts, trying to find meaning... went through all of them... found some answers, found a lot of questions... And I think it's this... That God feeling.. or whatever you wanna call it. it's the quiet reminder that you aren't alone. I don't think its something mystical, or spiritual like that... just literally you. are. not. alone. Your fellow man is there. your brothers and sisters in humanity. That's how we get better. That's how we become more than ourselves. Giving love to your fellow man. And when you're in hell, down deep... in sorrow and sadness, you feel alone.. and usually, it's the realization that you're not that lifts you up. I think if we just remember that we should all try to make our lives better by helping others... we might all just get through it. Ironically, I'm watching your reaction at 1 AM because I have a pretty bad case of insomnia right now, so there's that. Thanks again BP for everything that you do. I love that you're not afraid to get personal.
This was powerful. I relate to every word. BP, sending love and healing to you and your family. I’m so sorry about your losses. 💔
Love all of your reactions, top notch, you are very rare you have empathy you can see things from the writers perspective love it keep it up
Thank you for your vunerable and touching reaction. Its good that reacting to Ren has allowed you to open up about your pain, I hope it helps.
Please react to Ren and Liv Sangster
This is a sick track. Some of his older stuff is like the dawning of a new era in experiencing art, music and lyrics.
Love and best wishes to you and your family for the New Year❤Thanks B.P x
I really like this deep song
I think certain communities would come after REN hard if he tried to cover Tupac. I would love to hear REN do anything country because that’s the only genre he hasn’t delved into except his Elvis cover of I Can’t Help Falling In Love With You!!
God plucks the prettiest flowers. He needs them in heaven to search and be angles.I can't sleep either. Trusted in YOU! I'm sorry for your circumstances. Beautiful
❤❤😢I so understand. I spend all night trying to sleep, in pain and trying not to snack. You will try anything. Saying "GOD, I JUST WANT TO SLEEP!❤❤ Love you guys
As a chronic insomniac and former alcoholic, this song hits hard. Really enjoyed your reaction ❤❤
Oh my gosh.. I've been waiting for this one!!. When I first heard this one it hit me so hard in the feels I almost couldn't take it. I also had not slept. I really like the mellow tones he used it was sonicly pleasing. Or I guess easy on the mind compared to the lyrics. I think most of us have had that why God? questioning moment. It's a strange one for me now since becoming a beleiver. I still search for answers but at the same time I have a level of calmness I never had before. I guess I feel now that humans are not meant to have all the answers. Idk I'm begining to rant lol sorry... Anyways great reaction BP ✌️
I ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ this song!!
Thank you for being vulnerable.
Your friend , the slam port, would love this, as well as Depression, another of Ren's spoken word songs
BP your cover suggestions for REN are really good-you should still send them to him, especially Tupac ❤
Absolutely in Rens top ten for me ❤
Thankyou for appreciating this. If you know his back story too, it makes you appreciate him so much more
One bideo he does from his room in the middle of the night is heartbreaking. I can partially relate but sense the depth of his misery at that moment.
Love this song.
So sorry to hear about your personal loss. I can only hope it helps that many people here are with you.
Bless you BP 🙏❤️
So good. Thanks, bp
Great reaction, thank you ❤❤❤
Much love to you❤❤
Love this one ❤
After tracks like this from Ren it is time to dive into The Big Push for some fun stuff, their covers of popular and familiar songs you can rock to. It's the only way to break the despondent feeling one gets from his pain and/or our own.
Great reaction!!! ❤
Ren❤❤❤❤
Love this🌪
Sending some love to you brother 😟❤️🩹
Love this so much
I was born with childhood insomnia. It is actually something that I found a lot of peace in
To question is to understand
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Ren covered Johnny Cash and Elvis before. Elvis a full video/song of it, but johnny cash he sang in his live streams a little bit I'm pretty sure
This song kills me too 😢
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The beat was a heat beat.
Unsure how much you check all the comments but i really love your content. If you havent checked out "depression" by ren i would recommend it..both that and this are next level with words and meaning behind it. ✌️
BP I can definitely relate I lost my father a month ago. I lost my son when he was 18 my wife had a stillborn. also 27 years of an abusive relationship and I just asked why. I know I’m not gonna get the answer that doesn’t stop me from questioning.
I have fibromyalgia, and the pain is so intense that sometimes even the meds don't work or stop working quickly. Rens music touches so ma y people he is our voice he explains what we feel when we cant. He is an angel to this world some people dont understand Ren, but those are the ones who have not gone through something
Your reactions can be very powerful,
Losing an unborn baby is incredibly difficult….the docs usually do not really know why, I am sorry that you and your wife went through that.
I really wanna hear Dax and Ren collaborate man.
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Kids crying cause mostly every little bad thing they experience is the WORST things they experienced during their whole life. That's weird but true. But weird. But also true.
30?! You were lucky 30 people showed up. My first gig had 2 people. :)
Could you react "Right Here, Right Now" fatboy slim retake song? By REN
Another song of Ren's, that i wish was 4:30 minutes long instead of 2:30 minutes long
Tell me what you think, I asked him to do a Johnny Cash Cocaine Blues cover. Also I asked him to do a cover with Chinchilla You're all I need by Method Man and Mary J Blige. He would kill the beat, and she would kill those notes 🖤
Think about it? God answers every one of us but, are we really listening? If God opens the door but you refuse to see or walk through it who's fault is that? God gave Ren the strength to search for the miracle he needed, and he found it in Brussels, (the diagnosis.) How many Doctors from America are going to call a boy suffering in England and tell them they will treat you for free? The problem is we are stubborn and reactive instead of active to his guidance. If you really look you will find amazing times when God saved you. It may be a feeling that creeps into your soul warning you to stay away from a situation. Did you listen? God works in mysterious ways so you must heed when you hear. It is a personal relationship, not a religion.
I like because of your emotions,for Ren ,his poetry and music.and also because you always mention your mother,and this time Rens relation ships with mother.
I m a little older and lost my mother and six monts later housband.(2019)..completely symphatized with everything.
Strange place for share pain .And it s all Ren s "fault".
Ok, before I listen to your reaction, I have to say that JOHNNY CASH was my first choice too! I hope he does some!
Too many people do Johnny Cash. I said "Lou Reed". Take a walk on the wild side.
I’m an atheist by heart, but I ask “why?” All the time!
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Did you ever do children of the moon I cash app requested ages ago but can't find it, in play list
He did it. He was freaked out when the scene came up when Ren had mime white face paint. I remember that well. Lol!
Can you listen to gary numan a prayer for the unborn where he questions if tjer red is a god for the same reason.
It's because God is only a construction of people to find a reason which doesn't exist,
And it's all just a Life deal with it no reason
#like 10:32
You asked what the meaning of life is. You said you believe in God. You should know that the meaning of life is to know Jesus. God allows things to happen to us to bring us closer to Him.