Me every fuking day : • imagining how I wish I would look like • wearing the best clothes • scenarios of my crush that'll never happen • creating people and having a close connection towards them even though they're not real that it feels like I'm living a double life. • being able to sing and dance and perform any other skill that looks cool • depending on the song, it shapes my thoughts based on the mood • having super powers or being part of a show as if I'm a character. • being in an anime and being in a relationship with a 2D character •making fake scenarios in my head, and it can shape in different forms depending with music I am currently listening • going to a concert and imagining myself with an army girls and screaming the fanchant Sometimes I feel like I should write a novel or manga with the whole story/scenarios just writing itself from my day dreams because of music. And while I'm in this state I start pacing around and around in my room for hours and I get startled when someone walks in the room and I come back to reality. I've noticed that I do hand gestures and facial expressions too. I'd rather daydream than do my hw any day. I guess it's my only escape from real life. I just want to make dad proud just one time
At least you can think of stuff and have some creativity, my brain is always empty and I can't think of stuff. Kind of like I'm brain dead or empty, idk
I feel empty man, life without purpose, without anyone really. I hate my looks, and go back to when I was truly happy, and wasn’t worried about looks. I miss the old me, where I didn’t have to worry about basically everything, where I actually spent time with my friends, actually went outside, was an extrovert, was being happy and kind. Now I’m so alone, so lonely, I’m bitter and angry. At myself, at the world. I’m angry that I couldn’t change everything that has happened to me, I wish I could just be normal. Be loved, truly loved, but I’m in my bed rotting, going to sleep at 6 am. I’m truly lost.
I'll pray for you but remember! “God blesses those who are poor and realize their need for him, for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs. 4 God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted. 5 God blesses those who are humble, for they will inherit the whole earth. 6 God blesses those who hunger and thirst for justice,[b] for they will be satisfied. 7 God blesses those who are merciful, for they will be shown mercy. 8 God blesses those whose hearts are pure, for they will see God. 9 God blesses those who work for peace, for they will be called the children of God. 10 God blesses those who are persecuted for doing right, for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs. 11 “God blesses you when people mock you and persecute you and lie about you and say all sorts of evil things against you because you are my followers. 12 Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in heaven. And remember, the ancient prophets were persecuted in the same way. @@unfoundederrorsmilk
none of you are alone. I am proud that you have made it this far. Life has its downs but we still find a way to smile at one point or another... So keep going. We love you. Every sunset is followed by a sunrise
@@Honey0re0s-Z I hope you reach it. I don't see one in sight for me yet. I am trapped, Im fighting my way out, but we will get there if we try hard enough. keep going, You got this.
You know, the thing is that it's taken me little over ten years to just figure out that I don't want to die. No, I don't want to kill myself. I'm happy, I have everything I could ever ask for. Yet, still no matter how much pain meds I take there's this pain within my soul that will never go away. And it has never gone away.
Maybe there's certain beauty in being able to at least *experience* this pain (and any other feeling) I know because I feel like that myself and try to look at it differently
For some reason this pain exists Maybe it's somehow useful Maybe one day it's more apparent, and one day it is slightly forgotten But we're still here and it's beautiful That's what I wanted to say
staring at the ceiling on ur bed at 2am while listening to this song is pure perfection floating has a whole other meaning i don’t even feel in my right conscious
music was never my passion but my music taste is so unique, i like too many genres that i can’t wrap my mind around it i’d be listening to rnb, then gansta rap, kanye, then the weeknd, then lucki, drake, 21, c#sh, then radiohead, deftones, then this. I don’t even know who i am
today is june 25 and i have my hs graduation in two hours. it feels as if time has flew by. life has been a pit of hell, but, i continue to have hope for better days. for days to dance in the rain, instead of sitting in it. i wish you all the best, a good day, a good tomorrow, and a good life. always remember you are not alone here and better things are coming for you. farewell!
This feels somewhat relatable. I have lived a life some would call amazing, and some would call hell... truth is, there's no black and white to it, there is only a grey area. a sacrifice is made to balance all the good that has come to me. and in turn better has come to balance the pain. now i am left trapped, feeling pain with each day and wishing more than anything that i die, yet not being able to, as it is not my life to give. Ive put that gun to my head so many times... it got to a point where i didn't fear... i wasn't afraid of my finger slipping, or something going wrong... i was almost hopeful luck would do it for me... But i met someone... in all my life i had never had one love me as i love them. never held another's hand, never been loved... this person, they do not give me hope... but... they give me reason, they give me purpose. i do not have a will to live of my own life, but i have the will to live in hopes that i may help this one person's life beautiful. i they will not ease my pain, but they keep me going for in death i have failed them. everything is balanced... and it hurts...
It’s funny, I don’t want to die, but idk if I wanna keep doing this. But I also want to live. I guess apart of me will always want to live. The sadness keeps coming back. Sometimes there’s a pit that’s never ending, and then I’m fine the next day. Was I just being dramatic? Idk what to do.
I miss her so much. I would do anything to go back to how it was, I would do anything to even speak to her one last time, or even just be friends. Im so alone.
I just feel like i let everyone down and i feel like im just amalgamation of just sadness and anger that i cannot tame. Some days im having the time of my life and other days i feel like i shouldn't be alive. Its even harder when you dont have a support group or even friends to rely on. Sure im trying to improve myself and have such a amazing woman by my side but i just have this pain inside me that is just slowly warping into somethinf worse. Idk i just can't seem to take it ngl
100 Reasons to Keep on Living: Sunrises and sunsets. The sound of a baby’s laugh. Watching someone talk about something they’re passionate about. The first snowfall of the season. The smell of artificial watermelon. Fresh baked cookies. Shooting stars. Stepping on crunchy leaves. Splashing in puddles. Traveling the world. Your future children, pets, spouses, or friends. The feeling of being held in someone’s arms. New books by your favorite authors. Christmas lights. The one influential person in your life that has helped you through everything. The way dogs gets excited to see you when you come home from a long day of school or work. Smiles on other people’s faces. The warmth of sunshine on your skin. The smell of coffee. Sitting in a warm house or by a fire with a really good book. Decorating the Christmas tree. The chill that racks through your body when you’ve accomplished something you’re proud of. Clumsy first kisses. The warmth and smell of fresh laundry. Music. Compliments and praise. The feeling your heart has when you see your crush. The sound of good laughter. Your support system (because they would be broken and lost without you). The feeling of someone paying attention to you - the one that makes you feel safe and loved. The movies that you leave you speechless after you walk out of the theater. The feeling you get after you pee for the first time in hours. The first day of spring when you can finally see the green grass peeking out of the snow and everything feels more hopeful. Puppy kisses. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. Trampolines. Ice cream. Stargazing. Cloud watching. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. Receiving thoughtful gifts. “I saw this and thought of you." The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." The relief you feel after crying. Sunshine. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. Your future wedding. Your favorite candy bar. New clothes. Witty puns. Really good bread. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. The smell before and after it rains. The sound of rain against a rooftop. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. Trying out new recipes. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. Breakfast in bed. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). Meaningful sex. Forgiveness. Water balloon fights. Orgasms. Fireflies. Birthdays. Realizing that someone loves you. Spending the day with someone you love. Spending the whole day in bed. Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.) Bonfires and s'mores. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them. Coming home to someone you love. The color of autumn leaves when they change. Summer. Singing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends. Cuddling. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. Someone’s skin against yours. Holding hands. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. Singing off key with your best friends. Road trips. Spontaneous adventures. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. Thunderstorms. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. The taste of your favorite food. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. The day when everything finally goes your way. You have to be alive to see the world become a better place (because I’m so hopeful that it will).
" I stopped myself from doing it. From committing suicide, I have to spend the rest of my life in a mental hospital. They let me finish my book. . and uh, it has helped me. . alot, I wrote a happy ending. Just for myself. "
Real. (Days go on and on, they all pass and they blend within one another. I am already detatched from society and my humanity and that there is no real happy ending, only just a ending for me which i know is gonna be shit.)
Only God, Jesus Christ can save us all, its all we have and should need. I know it's not the place but having a relationship will ease and relax your life significantly. The road is not easy, but no road in this life is easy. So please take the road, give it an opportunity. It has helped me so why cant you be helped? No one deserves to be saved honestly but God saw all good first when he created us. Did he regret creating us afterwards? No
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Me every fuking day :
• imagining how I wish I would look like
• wearing the best clothes
• scenarios of my crush that'll never happen
• creating people and having a close connection towards them even though they're not real that it feels like I'm living a double life.
• being able to sing and dance and perform any other skill that looks cool
• depending on the song, it shapes my thoughts based on the mood
• having super powers or being part of a show as if I'm a character.
• being in an anime and being in a relationship with a 2D character
•making fake scenarios in my head, and it can shape in different forms depending with music I am currently listening
• going to a concert and imagining myself with an army girls and screaming the fanchant
Sometimes I feel like I should write a novel or manga with the whole story/scenarios just writing itself from my day dreams because of music. And while I'm in this state I start pacing around and around in my room for hours and I get startled when someone walks in the room and I come back to reality. I've noticed that I do hand gestures and facial expressions too. I'd rather daydream than do my hw any day. I guess it's my only escape from real life. I just want to make dad proud just one time
twininem
Bro.. you will not regret having God in your life. Please just consider it
real
i am you.
At least you can think of stuff and have some creativity, my brain is always empty and I can't think of stuff. Kind of like I'm brain dead or empty, idk
I feel empty man, life without purpose, without anyone really. I hate my looks, and go back to when I was truly happy, and wasn’t worried about looks. I miss the old me, where I didn’t have to worry about basically everything, where I actually spent time with my friends, actually went outside, was an extrovert, was being happy and kind. Now I’m so alone, so lonely, I’m bitter and angry. At myself, at the world. I’m angry that I couldn’t change everything that has happened to me, I wish I could just be normal. Be loved, truly loved, but I’m in my bed rotting, going to sleep at 6 am. I’m truly lost.
Consider Jesus bro, you wont regret it.. please
if you want, we can be friends
@@Miguel....................... I know, I love Jesus but I don’t think I’ll make it to 2025 man
I'll pray for you but remember!
“God blesses those who are poor and realize their need for him,
for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs.
4 God blesses those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
5 God blesses those who are humble,
for they will inherit the whole earth.
6 God blesses those who hunger and thirst for justice,[b]
for they will be satisfied.
7 God blesses those who are merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
8 God blesses those whose hearts are pure,
for they will see God.
9 God blesses those who work for peace,
for they will be called the children of God.
10 God blesses those who are persecuted for doing right,
for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs.
11 “God blesses you when people mock you and persecute you and lie about you and say all sorts of evil things against you because you are my followers. 12 Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in heaven. And remember, the ancient prophets were persecuted in the same way.
@@unfoundederrorsmilk
i thought i was the only whos like this lol welcome to the party brother
"I wrote a happy ending,just for myself,i feel better now and i'm more in peace with myself"
Perfect song and perfect monologue for this song
none of you are alone. I am proud that you have made it this far. Life has its downs but we still find a way to smile at one point or another... So keep going. We love you. Every sunset is followed by a sunrise
im gonna kms.
@@Black-sketBall You aight, man? Just checking up.
What if im?
Everyone is deserving of a happy ending, no one can just always have one so easily though
i want mine so badly tho.Its been 3 months
@@Honey0re0s-Z I hope you reach it. I don't see one in sight for me yet. I am trapped, Im fighting my way out, but we will get there if we try hard enough. keep going, You got this.
we all will have. some day..
@@wackityhackity553 thank you brother.I appreciate you.
We don't get one easily...
This game has the most chill community I love it
man i really miss her i have depression but i never liked talking abt my feelings only to her but now i lost her.
You know, the thing is that it's taken me little over ten years to just figure out that I don't want to die. No, I don't want to kill myself. I'm happy, I have everything I could ever ask for. Yet, still no matter how much pain meds I take there's this pain within my soul that will never go away. And it has never gone away.
Maybe there's certain beauty in being able to at least *experience* this pain (and any other feeling)
I know because I feel like that myself and try to look at it differently
For some reason this pain exists
Maybe it's somehow useful
Maybe one day it's more apparent, and one day it is slightly forgotten
But we're still here and it's beautiful
That's what I wanted to say
@@ShesTiredd that was quite beautiful, I have to say that it's true.
Good to see that you, beated depression Bro 👍
hey uh, if nobody told you this yet, im proud of you, you'r a strong person
staring at the ceiling on ur bed at 2am while listening to this song is pure perfection floating has a whole other meaning i don’t even feel in my right conscious
music was never my passion but my music taste is so unique, i like too many genres that i can’t wrap my mind around it i’d be listening to rnb, then gansta rap, kanye, then the weeknd, then lucki, drake, 21, c#sh, then radiohead, deftones, then this. I don’t even know who i am
today is june 25 and i have my hs graduation in two hours. it feels as if time has flew by. life has been a pit of hell, but, i continue to have hope for better days. for days to dance in the rain, instead of sitting in it. i wish you all the best, a good day, a good tomorrow, and a good life. always remember you are not alone here and better things are coming for you. farewell!
Wish you good luck aswell @AmandaMidari9
the perfect song and monologue Doesn't exi-
This feels somewhat relatable. I have lived a life some would call amazing, and some would call hell... truth is, there's no black and white to it, there is only a grey area. a sacrifice is made to balance all the good that has come to me. and in turn better has come to balance the pain. now i am left trapped, feeling pain with each day and wishing more than anything that i die, yet not being able to, as it is not my life to give. Ive put that gun to my head so many times... it got to a point where i didn't fear... i wasn't afraid of my finger slipping, or something going wrong... i was almost hopeful luck would do it for me... But i met someone... in all my life i had never had one love me as i love them. never held another's hand, never been loved... this person, they do not give me hope... but... they give me reason, they give me purpose. i do not have a will to live of my own life, but i have the will to live in hopes that i may help this one person's life beautiful. i they will not ease my pain, but they keep me going for in death i have failed them. everything is balanced... and it hurts...
nao tem como aguentar mais....
realmente, ser analfabeto deve ser difícil.
Sim, eu quero tanto me m4tar...
So do i man
Please dont do it. ❤vent it if u want to me
It’s funny, I don’t want to die, but idk if I wanna keep doing this. But I also want to live. I guess apart of me will always want to live. The sadness keeps coming back. Sometimes there’s a pit that’s never ending, and then I’m fine the next day. Was I just being dramatic? Idk what to do.
I miss her.
real asf
go get her gng
but does she miss you? exactly.
“ shut up boy let me get one last look at the house” oh stop it Dad you’ll be back…
I miss her so much. I would do anything to go back to how it was, I would do anything to even speak to her one last time, or even just be friends. Im so alone.
No man can walk out on his own story.
- guy from rango
I just feel like i let everyone down and i feel like im just amalgamation of just sadness and anger that i cannot tame. Some days im having the time of my life and other days i feel like i shouldn't be alive. Its even harder when you dont have a support group or even friends to rely on. Sure im trying to improve myself and have such a amazing woman by my side but i just have this pain inside me that is just slowly warping into somethinf worse. Idk i just can't seem to take it ngl
100 Reasons to Keep on Living:
Sunrises and sunsets.
The sound of a baby’s laugh.
Watching someone talk about something they’re passionate about.
The first snowfall of the season.
The smell of artificial watermelon.
Fresh baked cookies.
Shooting stars.
Stepping on crunchy leaves.
Splashing in puddles.
Traveling the world.
Your future children, pets, spouses, or friends.
The feeling of being held in someone’s arms.
New books by your favorite authors.
Christmas lights.
The one influential person in your life that has helped you through everything.
The way dogs gets excited to see you when you come home from a long day of school or work.
Smiles on other people’s faces.
The warmth of sunshine on your skin.
The smell of coffee.
Sitting in a warm house or by a fire with a really good book.
Decorating the Christmas tree.
The chill that racks through your body when you’ve accomplished something you’re proud of.
Clumsy first kisses.
The warmth and smell of fresh laundry.
Music.
Compliments and praise.
The feeling your heart has when you see your crush.
The sound of good laughter.
Your support system (because they would be broken and lost without you).
The feeling of someone paying attention to you - the one that makes you feel safe and loved.
The movies that you leave you speechless after you walk out of the theater.
The feeling you get after you pee for the first time in hours.
The first day of spring when you can finally see the green grass peeking out of the snow and everything feels more hopeful.
Puppy kisses.
Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek).
Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
Trampolines.
Ice cream.
Stargazing.
Cloud watching.
Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets.
Receiving thoughtful gifts.
“I saw this and thought of you."
The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
The relief you feel after crying.
Sunshine.
The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
Your future wedding.
Your favorite candy bar.
New clothes.
Witty puns.
Really good bread.
Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
The smell before and after it rains.
The sound of rain against a rooftop.
The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
Trying out new recipes.
The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
Breakfast in bed.
Getting a middle seat in the movie theater.
Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
Meaningful sex.
Forgiveness.
Water balloon fights.
Orgasms.
Fireflies.
Birthdays.
Realizing that someone loves you.
Spending the day with someone you love.
Spending the whole day in bed.
Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream.
Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky.
First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.)
Bonfires and s'mores.
Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them.
Coming home to someone you love.
The color of autumn leaves when they change.
Summer.
Singing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends.
Cuddling.
Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
Someone’s skin against yours.
Holding hands.
The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
Singing off key with your best friends.
Road trips.
Spontaneous adventures.
The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
Thunderstorms.
Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
The taste of your favorite food.
The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning.
The day when everything finally goes your way.
You have to be alive to see the world become a better place (because I’m so hopeful that it will).
Gotta come back to this
" I stopped myself from doing it. From committing suicide, I have to spend the rest of my life in a mental hospital. They let me finish my book. . and uh, it has helped me. . alot, I wrote a happy ending. Just for myself. "
What is that from if i may ask?
@@sugerierchip6626 Cry Of Fear
@@RummyGuy Tysm
@@sugerierchip6626 ofc
@@sugerierchip6626THE ENDING PART OF IT
CRY OF FEAR OMG IM CLICKING!!
Real. (Days go on and on, they all pass and they blend within one another. I am already detatched from society and my humanity and that there is no real happy ending, only just a ending for me which i know is gonna be shit.)
i tried to od 2 times and i failed
Same
This is real, but I tried 7 or 8 times and STILL failed.
ts song is too real
balls to the walls
fr dude 😍
dam
i don't have another choice, is the only way out.
No it's not
Man wtf im not even 15 and im already scared for the future
Can you do more slowed or reverbed (simons voice )
Real...
nice
AHHHHHHHHHH
Real
damn bro
People who hurt and greed in pain👉
im so lonely
Only God, Jesus Christ can save us all, its all we have and should need. I know it's not the place but having a relationship will ease and relax your life significantly. The road is not easy, but no road in this life is easy. So please take the road, give it an opportunity. It has helped me so why cant you be helped? No one deserves to be saved honestly but God saw all good first when he created us. Did he regret creating us afterwards? No
Im already dead
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god kill me if my lover leaves me
im a man and i wear makeup to feel pretty
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