You’re really sick and most of your subscribers and patrons will understand that at the moment. If you can’t make stuff for us, that’s ok. If you feel the need to make stuff for us, now is the time for easy. I don’t know what’s easiest for you. For me, it would probably be reacting To TV show episodes or Book chapters. Maybe you just want to film some art making and do a voice over of sped up footage. Maybe you want to react to other people’s art videos. Maybe reviews are what’s easiest. Maybe react to art that you can see online, like from the library of Congress or whatever. Maybe just do some story time. Whatever’s easiest
Cindy I've been watching you since you threw your bullet journal in the freezer at the end of 2019. Just having you checking in and to see that you're OK is more than enough right now. Go easy on yourself, we'll keep ourselves occupied rewatching the chaos washi destash and all the other joyful things you've brought us ❤
Cindy, you need to take care of yourself and not worry about UA-cam. Your fans will wait for you until you feel like you can return. Your health is the most important thing . Wishing that all this craziness slows down and that you feel better. We'll wait for you 💖
A couple of videos ago, you mentioned the Jessy was worried that you might not survive these surgeries. I'm just soooo grateful that you did. Thanks for the update. Sending lots of love 💖 from sunny 🌞 Arizona 🌵. Take care of yourself and each other 😷.
WOW, Cindy, that is a lot. Lifting you, your hubby, the kids and all your family up in prayer (as well as all your medical team)!! Show up when and how you can - just like this video. I admire your vulnerability and thank you for sharing!
It's proof of my parasocial attachment to you that I genuinely teared up when you posted a little quip on your Instagram stories, because your channel had been so quiet for so long that I started to worry you might be too ill to ever return or that you might have passed away. I was worried about you like I would be for a friend. I'm so glad you've had some improvement with the iron infusions. You've been through so much, and your suffering and need to rest are super legit. I like all your content and will be happy to see anything you feel up to doing, but please take it super fucking easy. Health is first.
Felt 100% the same. I checked the channel and then went to IG, fearing the worst. Sending you and your family love, Cindy- hoping for your speedy recovery ❤️🩹!!
So happy to see you!! I'm so sorry all this stuff happened. You're in my thoughts and prayers. (You could put up a lost poster for the IUD and design it so it makes everyone laugh, last seen heading north, has no sense of direction. If seen please send it back to original location)
I don't care at all that you're not responding to messages--and nobody here should either. You take care of you the very best you can, please. I'm glad to see you feeling better in this video. Much love.
Oh my dude. Don’t be too hard on yourself. If you worked a “regular” job, you’d be COMPLETELY off work for probably at least a couple of months. Take the time you need. We’ll be here for you when you’re ready. I started subscribing to your channel originally for your lettering content, but now, I come just as much for your “life updates”. It feels like catching up with an old friend. (Although weirdly one sided? Lol.) So, as your weird one-sided friend, please take whatever time you need to take care of yourself. Much love. ❤
I enjoy watching you draw with the pens you use in planners. Maybe without planning you can just do one page doodles (with themes like animals, buildings, words) for us to watch and zen out.
I work for myself and went through cancer last fall- so I get how much this all sucks. Advice from getting to the other side of it: focus on your health. It's okay to not be "productive". Your job right now is to heal and rest. Work will be there when this is all settled. It may not feel like that's the case, but it will be. Just do what you can, rest, and when you're not in mid-crisis you can start working again.
I remember old videos when you talked about knowing kidney failure was in your future. I’m so glad you have a caring husband who is willing and able to support and provide care. Taking care of yourself is all that matters right now. Keep us updated and just do what you feel up to doing. I’m pulling for you! You look good.
Glad to see you Cindy. I’ll watch anything you make, but if it’s too much to be creative, then videos sharing how you feel are very impactful and relatable even when people have different struggles in life. If you want to use this channel as a creative outlet, consider talking over videos of short drawings of yours - why did you choose to draw what, how did you pick the colors, maybe what kinds of drawings do well in your shop, etc. Wishing you better times ahead.
Happy to see your face all up on my UA-cam feed. ❤❤ As for suggestions, what I’d like to see, anything you put out is fine with me! I’m more here for your vibe over the actual content. Maybe something vlog style where you can sort of film whenever you’re up to it? I just think your regulars know what’s up and lack of consistency in posting or longer breaks is totally understandable. 👍🏼👍🏼 best wishes on whatever you decide to do and hope your healing goes well!
Cindy! Damn! Take your time. I can wait. We just want you to be well. Stupid IUD. I hope everything gets better for the family. As far as creativity, I am game to find out what you are reading. Favorite pens when you are exhausted. A David Attenborough or Steve Irwin style voice over of the animals doing their thing. What ever you want. Take all the time you need. Much love
I love your random chats and doodling videos! Take care of yourself, Cindy! We’ll be here when you’re ready to come back. Before surgery, they never said anything about your iron? That’s weird!
Woah boy that's a lot! So sorry you had to go through all that. Your strength is amazing (even when you don't feel it). I'll watch anything you do, so I don't care, as long as you have the energy to record anything. Positive energy heading your way.
Bless you…how can we support you as you take all the time you need to heal? Amazon wish list? Some other way to get money or other support to you and your family? Praying for you to continue to heal as much as possible physically, mentally, and emotionally. Praying for your family as they walk with you on this journey and as they continue on their own individual journeys. I will watch anything you post. I love watching you draw, paint, letter, talk…anything, or nothing because your health is the most important thing for your energy to be spent on. If you are able, checking in on Instagram or quick videos like this one or as a voice over, keeps us worrywarts from worrying too much and will hopefully let us know how we can support you. ❤
Not much to add except sending love your way. These chatty updates are just as interesting as the plan with Mes, etc, and if they're easier on you then I'm all for it. Or don't post at all. Your community knows and cares about you first and foremost. What I want to know is this: how can we best support you right now?
So glad you are starting to feel better and this past month sounds like a nightmare. I think slow and steady is the answer. Do what works for you, what you feel up to doing and people will understand. I like these videos personally.
Cindy, I've been watching you ever since 2020; just hearing about your story of how the past month has been was enough to bring me tears because it felt like it was coming from one of my best friends. You are such a strong woman, Cindy. Please take all the time you need to heal and take good care of yourself! We are all here for you and understand that you can't stick to your normal schedule while you're going through all of this. Wishing you all the best for your recovery. God bless. ♥
Take care of yourself first. You've been through a hella lot! Thanks for coming on to give us an update. Creativity wise, go with whatever seems the best for you & your ❤ at moment. Speaking for me, I just like to see you and hear you and laugh along with you, whatever creative thing you're showing us at that time.
it is so good to see your face on camera again! I can only imagine how hard all of this is for you to be going through. i am just glad to see you feeling well enough to check in with us. (I do love someone's idea below about a lost & found drawing of the IUD, like in the style of the old Shitty Kidney stickers lol) But please absolutely do not feel like you have to make content to please us fans! We will stand by you no matter how long of a break you have to take if it means you are taking care of yourself
For all that you’re going through you look fantastic! For me I’ll watch your videos even if it’s just you chatting! Do whatever brings you joy and take care of yourself. And thank goodness you have such a caring/loving husband! 💙💛🪴
So glad you posted this. I went poking around yesterday to see if you were ok because I hadn't seen a video in such a long time that I wad getting worried.
You started this video with what format to choose... I think with all you have going on, this format is great! You can only do what you can do, so just showing up is what counts. Yes, this is your job, but I started following you years ago on a chronic disease video, the planner stuff (for me is a bonus). And I've found that a lot of your followers are also chronic disease patients. So, don't feel bad for not posting planning videos... The chronic disease videos target the other part of your subscribers. 💖🌞🌵😷
Prayers going up for you and your husband ,You are a very strong women …..I know your a nerves wreck ….show up when you can …slow and steady wins the race. Prayers and love hugs coming to you and family .🫶🏻❤️🥰🌻🙏
I'm so glad your surgeries went well. Please rest and take care of you and the family. ❤❤❤ I'm also recovering from surgery and I know how much these things take out of you. These things do suck balls, but I'm so relieved they took care of your fistula! As for what to post, whatever the fuck you want to post! Oh you could do a live chat and pretend we are having our own Go Wild. Other people who have attended in the past could share stories!
First. You look fabulous! You may not feel it, but you look it. Second, thank you for sharing your Adenomyosis diagnosis. I seem to be experiencing something very similar, and the waiting for tests and a diagnosis is frustrating. You are such an inspiration.
I'm glad to see your face again, was definitely concerned for you. I hope they figure out the IUD and bleeding issues :/ It's so frustrating to me because it genuinely sounds like your experiences are not being taken as seriously as they should be
As much as I have missed you, the #1 thing I want is for you to heal and feel better. You would take medical leave from an outside job for what you just went through. Be a kind boss to yourself. You have made me laugh and rant along and think. I wish I could do the same for you, especially now. The laugh part. Shit maybe a good rant! Just know I am always quietly over here rooting hard for you and your family. Sending so much love it might be questionable.❤
So great to see you. Glad you are doing better but sorry you have had so many problems. We would love to see you Sunday, and you could just talk to us like today and do just a little planning if you feel like it. Don’t try to do a lot. Just come online for a short time and get some mojo going. We love you!
Oh I'm so happy to see your face, but woah...you have been through too much lately. I can understand the blood clots because there were days when I could barely leave the toilet because of losing so much blood. Mine was from fibroids and i had to have a hysterectomy. But with your dialysis, I'm just thankful you have such a great support team. I'm sending lots of love & good vibes & healing energy your way. As for content, you could just come on to say hi & let us know you're ok. Don't push yourself. You need to focus on YOU! Love ya!
I'm so glad to see a video from you. I was getting concerned. Please just take the time you need. In terms of creativity...what about a draw flowers or something while chatting? I'm sure you don't even want to plan anything in a planner! I'm no help but just know we're here and sending all the healing vibes your way. ❤
Sending positive vibes to you, Cindy. I hope it all works out and you can return to what you enjoy doing, but even if it doesn't, you take care of you first! We are just the beneficiaries of any time/energy you have to spend on YouTubing. If you can't/don't want to, know that we want the best for you and will be thinking of you and wishing you the best in your absence. Much love.
What's most important is your own health and well-being, physically yes but emotionally and mentally as well! If you wanted to put out content, definitely things that aren't too taxing like doodling or art with VO or reviews of things if that is easier. Thinking of you and sending love to you and your family 🧡
That sucks for all that's went on but glad you're still alive. I worried the surgery went waaaay south until I saw you creeping on the gram. continue to take care of you, it's the priority. big hugs
I’m so sad you’ve been this bad. I really hope things turn around and get better. Don’t overdue it. We’ll be here. When you’re up to videos great. If you did cute pet videos that would be fine if you feel like you need to do something. Who wouldn’t love to see them playing together or judging each other. ❤
I have been following you for a long time, although I dont see as many videos as I would like... I have seen update videos, and I am always happy you're surviving. Glad that Jessy had been there to help you, and walk with you through this. You need to take time to heal, and your subscribers should understand that. This is not a new development, but a journey youve been on for a long while. You and your family are in my thoughts, and I wish you a speedy recovery.
I’m so glad to hear you’re starting to feel better but DAGGONE, that’s A LOT going on! You need to take care of you- you don’t owe us anything right now. Heal & come back at your pace, we’re not going anywhere 🙌❤️🙌
Whew! Sounds like what next month is scheduled to be for me (3x pain Clinic, 3x pt, and more). I want to thank you for sharing. I have CF but I've been feeling worse. Think I'll ask for blood work. ❤ Glad you feel better. I'd like videos on coping with chronic illness. How do you decide what to let go of? How do you find motivation and strength for the 'must dos.'
My sister had that happen with an IUD--it perforated and gave her PID. So definitely, hoping you find out what happened with as little trauma as possible. Hugs and wishing you all the best.
Girl - hang in there. Much love, heart and well wishes. Take all the time you need to get better and maybe give yourself some time away from IUD. We'll be here, quitely rooting for you.
Oh Cindy, that is a lot to deal with. I am so sorry you have been going through so damn much. Sending you lone and healing. ❤ As for content, I will happily watch whatever you feel up to, and if you don't, I completely understand. You need to take care of you right now. ❤
So happy to see you in my UA-cam feed this morning! I'm glad to see that you were up to making a video. I know it has to be hard. I generally like your vlogs and plan with me videos, but I understand if that is too much for you right now. Take it easy. Your health is more important. We will always be here. ❤
Oh gosh, you’ve been thru it. I wonder if a uterine ablation would work for you. I found out last month that I may need a total spine fusion. It’s been rough and I basically said goodbye on my channel for now. When I had anemia, I thought I had narcolepsy. I hope things get better for you soon!
I stopped watching planner content ages ago it seems. I just like to know how you are doing. I'm wrapping up some post surgery short term disability myself and I've done very little during recovery, it really takes a toll. Focus on you and the fam, check in with us if and when you can and just know there are a ton of strangers out here rooting for you. ❤
I don’t comment on social media much, but I’ve been following you since… damn I don’t even know lol. First video of yours I watched you were using a personal size ring planner. Anyway I appreciate you trusting us to share your medical journey. When I was a baby my family was exposed to contaminated well water from mine run off and we’ve all been sick. I’ve had multiple cancers and rare immune disorders. My oldest brother passed away last February from his 6th cancer battle. It sounds really messed up, but I’m so comforted by listening to someone else who is medically complex talking about all this stuff. My issues caused period problems too and my IUD made me miserable. Like miserable! I ended up with severe organ prolapse (like my cervix was on the outside) and had to have a hysterectomy. Best thing ever tho! F that uterus! 😂 My mom had to have dialysis and she died of renal failure. You’re a freaking champion!!! She had a load of other health issues tho and dialysis just wasn’t going to work for her. I myself might have to get a port. I don’t know if that’s similar to a catheter like yours, but my veins are so scarred and just way too delicate now. Takes 7 holes and two hours just to get blood for labs. Doing my infusions is a nightmare. But eh I’m rambling. I don’t have kidney disease, but I just identify with what you’re going through. I also have a seven year old with moderate to severe autism and being his full time care giver while I myself belong in a morgue is some tough stuff!! Anyway I don’t “know” you, but I’m proud of how strong you are and I love you for the amazing strong ass lady you are!!! 💪🏻❤️
I guess there's some virtue in taking the crap all at once. As one who had mega fibroids and saturated towels, sometimes 5 days in a row, I feel your frustration with having this on top of everything else. It does indeed drain you. My solution, and it was only mine, was an endometrial ablation. That may not be at all suitable for you. But God, that is rough, to have that with your other surgeries and the usual stresses of being part of a family plus needing to work - holy cow. So glad to see you looking good. Continue taking such good care of yourself (and Jesse - as your support I hope he is taking care of himself too) and many blessings to your kids as well.
I’m so sorry that you’re going through so many health issues. Although I miss your videos, please put yourself first right now and just do what you need to in order to get better. Prayers that everything goes well in the upcoming appointments and procedures. Sending love and hugs 🥰❤️🥰🙏🙏🙏
I was just thinking about you. I've been worried. I was hoping that UA-cam was just Fucking with my subscription. I wish you didn't have to go through all this crap. I am sending you all the light and love I can. You make me want to become a live donator. I'm not sure if I can with all the things wrong with me. As far as you being worried about UA-cam take your time and do what you can when you can and I know at least for I'm not going anywhere. Love you bunches❤❤❤❤
I don't know about others, but I personally just enjoy hearing about your life and experiences because I enjoy your personality and care about you as a person. I enjoy hearing your opinions about the planner community and your planning system, but I also enjoy hearing about how situations in your life necessitate changes to that system and way of thinking. I think we planner people think similarly in that we like to have an organization to life, and I like hearing about how that changes under different circumstances and life events bc life isn't smooth and predictable. So in some ways, you just talking about your experience and opinions is interesting to me. I hope you do everything you need to do to care for yourself right now and find ways to do what still feels important to you, but also can find ways to scale back as needed. I think ALL of us support you in whatever you're needing. Also, I had a partial hysterectomy last November, so I can definitely relate to the utter exhaustion that comes with medical procedures. I imagine it's especially wearing when you're body is already struggling with kidney failure. Your resilience and outlook on all of the struggles you've been through has been so inspiring to me. I definitely thought about you during my surgery recovery, and it made me feel stronger bc you're always so strong even when you feel weak. You're an awesome person. I think that is what people enjoy about knowing you (even if it's just through the internet) ☺️💗.
It's great to see your smile. I'd love to see a video on planning and coping when just the basics/just the minimum *has to be enough*. I think you're probably an expert at that right now.
My heart goes out to you. I had my female bleeding issue for 3weeks straight and I got a headache likes horse hooves running in my ears I literally bled to death and was admitted to hospital with a blood transfusion in the ER and was admitted for 3 more blood transfusions. The dr said I had uterine cancer I have had it twice and I am so grateful someone else can understand how much it takes out of you its like your body is one low charge for weeks
Watched this again because I miss seeing your sassy self 😞 Hope you're travelling OK and your health issues are improving. It'll be a party when you're well enough to come back. Sending Big Love from Australia ❤❤❤❤
Hi Cindy. Glad for this update! I think in terms of going back to work… just think, if you had an office job or something, would you be on sick leave? Probably. (I’m Canadian so maybe people wouldn’t be in the states?!) but my point is that we all understand! You’re on sick leave. Come back when you can- we’re all fine over here. We miss you but we’re fine. All the best with the next steps of your treatments!
Yo dude!!! It's been a long time, because I'm shit and never get round to checking UA-cam. Sorry to hear you've had to deal with all this - that is pretty fucking shitty. Sending loads of love a hugs your way my beautiful friend xxx
I literally had to lie down while watching this video because I felt faint from just hearing about your medical issues. It all sounds so severe and HORRIBLE to experience-- Definitely take as much time as you need to rest!!!
Cindy, you are a crazy strong woman! Right now is the time for you to take that time you need to really heal. I know this place is your source of income, and your creative outlet & you really wanna get out of the funk, but your body is telling you that it needs “you” time. If that is a month, two months - so be it, we also want you to be safe, healthy, and take care of you (above everything else).❤ Man, I remember sitting in my car for lunch break watching your videos & being inspired… watching you try out bullet journaling for the first time. You were in your old apt in CA (before the Napa house), and I still wish I had your natural handwriting ability! Decades later and I’m still trying to figure out what planning style works for me 😂Mama, we love you & will be here whenever you do have the energy, but please don’t rush it. Big hugs & light being sent your way 💕
Oh Cindy! I've been thinking about you, and it sounds you've been dealing with a triple whammy of major health stuff. My heart goes out to you and your family, and all the good vibes that the next few appointments go well and it's uphill. I would say that whatever videos you feel like making, we'll take, but I realize that's probably not helpful. So I'll offer this: What do you think of the new two color mildliners they showed at Go Wild? Those tips look so weird to me, but I'm excited to try them.
So glad you are recovering! I am a worrier, and while I knew ahead of time you would be having hella going on this month, I still started to worry when you were gone for so long. I miss your videos a lot. (But don’t be posting for my sake, take care of yourself first. 😉) To answer your question as to what kind of videos: pwms, life updates, and Bujo doodles have always been my favorite.
You’re really sick and most of your subscribers and patrons will understand that at the moment. If you can’t make stuff for us, that’s ok. If you feel the need to make stuff for us, now is the time for easy. I don’t know what’s easiest for you. For me, it would probably be reacting To TV show episodes or Book chapters. Maybe you just want to film some art making and do a voice over of sped up footage. Maybe you want to react to other people’s art videos. Maybe reviews are what’s easiest. Maybe react to art that you can see online, like from the library of Congress or whatever. Maybe just do some story time. Whatever’s easiest
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Cindy I've been watching you since you threw your bullet journal in the freezer at the end of 2019. Just having you checking in and to see that you're OK is more than enough right now. Go easy on yourself, we'll keep ourselves occupied rewatching the chaos washi destash and all the other joyful things you've brought us ❤
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Cindy, you need to take care of yourself and not worry about UA-cam. Your fans will wait for you until you feel like you can return. Your health is the most important thing . Wishing that all this craziness slows down and that you feel better. We'll wait for you 💖
A couple of videos ago, you mentioned the Jessy was worried that you might not survive these surgeries. I'm just soooo grateful that you did. Thanks for the update. Sending lots of love 💖 from sunny 🌞 Arizona 🌵. Take care of yourself and each other 😷.
WOW, Cindy, that is a lot. Lifting you, your hubby, the kids and all your family up in prayer (as well as all your medical team)!! Show up when and how you can - just like this video. I admire your vulnerability and thank you for sharing!
It's proof of my parasocial attachment to you that I genuinely teared up when you posted a little quip on your Instagram stories, because your channel had been so quiet for so long that I started to worry you might be too ill to ever return or that you might have passed away. I was worried about you like I would be for a friend.
I'm so glad you've had some improvement with the iron infusions. You've been through so much, and your suffering and need to rest are super legit. I like all your content and will be happy to see anything you feel up to doing, but please take it super fucking easy. Health is first.
Felt 100% the same. I checked the channel and then went to IG, fearing the worst.
Sending you and your family love, Cindy- hoping for your speedy recovery ❤️🩹!!
Yeah, what she said...
So happy to see you!! I'm so sorry all this stuff happened. You're in my thoughts and prayers. (You could put up a lost poster for the IUD and design it so it makes everyone laugh, last seen heading north, has no sense of direction. If seen please send it back to original location)
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I showed this to mom and jesse to make sure they had seen it because it amuses me so much
@@ssuncatcherr Thank you! I'm flattered. I hope it made them chuckle. Sending you all lots of love and prayers.
I don't care at all that you're not responding to messages--and nobody here should either. You take care of you the very best you can, please. I'm glad to see you feeling better in this video. Much love.
Please just say, “time out folks” and sleep until you don’t want to sleep anymore. We will be here whenever that happens❣️
Oh my dude. Don’t be too hard on yourself. If you worked a “regular” job, you’d be COMPLETELY off work for probably at least a couple of months. Take the time you need. We’ll be here for you when you’re ready.
I started subscribing to your channel originally for your lettering content, but now, I come just as much for your “life updates”. It feels like catching up with an old friend. (Although weirdly one sided? Lol.) So, as your weird one-sided friend, please take whatever time you need to take care of yourself. Much love. ❤
I enjoy watching you draw with the pens you use in planners. Maybe without planning you can just do one page doodles (with themes like animals, buildings, words) for us to watch and zen out.
I work for myself and went through cancer last fall- so I get how much this all sucks. Advice from getting to the other side of it: focus on your health. It's okay to not be "productive". Your job right now is to heal and rest. Work will be there when this is all settled. It may not feel like that's the case, but it will be. Just do what you can, rest, and when you're not in mid-crisis you can start working again.
Covering you with love and light! Praying for the best outcome with your xray and speedy recovery. Miss you but want you to recover at your speed. ❤
I remember old videos when you talked about knowing kidney failure was in your future. I’m so glad you have a caring husband who is willing and able to support and provide care. Taking care of yourself is all that matters right now. Keep us updated and just do what you feel up to doing. I’m pulling for you! You look good.
Glad to see you Cindy. I’ll watch anything you make, but if it’s too much to be creative, then videos sharing how you feel are very impactful and relatable even when people have different struggles in life. If you want to use this channel as a creative outlet, consider talking over videos of short drawings of yours - why did you choose to draw what, how did you pick the colors, maybe what kinds of drawings do well in your shop, etc. Wishing you better times ahead.
Happy to see your face all up on my UA-cam feed. ❤❤
As for suggestions, what I’d like to see, anything you put out is fine with me! I’m more here for your vibe over the actual content. Maybe something vlog style where you can sort of film whenever you’re up to it? I just think your regulars know what’s up and lack of consistency in posting or longer breaks is totally understandable. 👍🏼👍🏼 best wishes on whatever you decide to do and hope your healing goes well!
Cindy! Damn! Take your time. I can wait. We just want you to be well. Stupid IUD.
I hope everything gets better for the family.
As far as creativity, I am game to find out what you are reading. Favorite pens when you are exhausted. A David Attenborough or Steve Irwin style voice over of the animals doing their thing. What ever you want. Take all the time you need. Much love
I love your random chats and doodling videos! Take care of yourself, Cindy! We’ll be here when you’re ready to come back. Before surgery, they never said anything about your iron? That’s weird!
Woah boy that's a lot! So sorry you had to go through all that. Your strength is amazing (even when you don't feel it). I'll watch anything you do, so I don't care, as long as you have the energy to record anything. Positive energy heading your way.
Bless you…how can we support you as you take all the time you need to heal? Amazon wish list? Some other way to get money or other support to you and your family? Praying for you to continue to heal as much as possible physically, mentally, and emotionally. Praying for your family as they walk with you on this journey and as they continue on their own individual journeys. I will watch anything you post. I love watching you draw, paint, letter, talk…anything, or nothing because your health is the most important thing for your energy to be spent on. If you are able, checking in on Instagram or quick videos like this one or as a voice over, keeps us worrywarts from worrying too much and will hopefully let us know how we can support you. ❤
Not much to add except sending love your way. These chatty updates are just as interesting as the plan with Mes, etc, and if they're easier on you then I'm all for it. Or don't post at all. Your community knows and cares about you first and foremost. What I want to know is this: how can we best support you right now?
So glad you are starting to feel better and this past month sounds like a nightmare. I think slow and steady is the answer. Do what works for you, what you feel up to doing and people will understand. I like these videos personally.
Sending all love to you Cindy 🩷 wishing you peace and comfort in navigating all of this. We are here for you whenever you are ready ✨
Cindy, I've been watching you ever since 2020; just hearing about your story of how the past month has been was enough to bring me tears because it felt like it was coming from one of my best friends. You are such a strong woman, Cindy. Please take all the time you need to heal and take good care of yourself! We are all here for you and understand that you can't stick to your normal schedule while you're going through all of this. Wishing you all the best for your recovery. God bless. ♥
Take care of yourself first. You've been through a hella lot! Thanks for coming on to give us an update. Creativity wise, go with whatever seems the best for you & your ❤ at moment. Speaking for me, I just like to see you and hear you and laugh along with you, whatever creative thing you're showing us at that time.
it is so good to see your face on camera again! I can only imagine how hard all of this is for you to be going through. i am just glad to see you feeling well enough to check in with us. (I do love someone's idea below about a lost & found drawing of the IUD, like in the style of the old Shitty Kidney stickers lol) But please absolutely do not feel like you have to make content to please us fans! We will stand by you no matter how long of a break you have to take if it means you are taking care of yourself
So glad you're feeling better - prayers continue for all of you. And for what it's worth, I'm here primarily for the rambling and the rants 😂
For all that you’re going through you look fantastic! For me I’ll watch your videos even if it’s just you chatting! Do whatever brings you joy and take care of yourself. And thank goodness you have such a caring/loving husband! 💙💛🪴
Love to see videos of you playing and talking to your kitties. Whatever you decide just check in once and awhile so we know your ok.
So glad you posted this. I went poking around yesterday to see if you were ok because I hadn't seen a video in such a long time that I wad getting worried.
Same!
Me too!
Me too!
same
Oh Cindy, take all the time you need to recover and get treatments. We will be here whenever you are ready. We support you. 💜
You started this video with what format to choose... I think with all you have going on, this format is great! You can only do what you can do, so just showing up is what counts. Yes, this is your job, but I started following you years ago on a chronic disease video, the planner stuff (for me is a bonus). And I've found that a lot of your followers are also chronic disease patients. So, don't feel bad for not posting planning videos... The chronic disease videos target the other part of your subscribers. 💖🌞🌵😷
Every time I saw you post a story, I was relieved.
I kept checking back and breathed a sigh of relief.
Prayers going up for you and your husband ,You are a very strong women …..I know your a nerves wreck ….show up when you can …slow and steady wins the race. Prayers and love hugs coming to you and family .🫶🏻❤️🥰🌻🙏
I'm so glad your surgeries went well. Please rest and take care of you and the family. ❤❤❤
I'm also recovering from surgery and I know how much these things take out of you.
These things do suck balls, but I'm so relieved they took care of your fistula!
As for what to post, whatever the fuck you want to post!
Oh you could do a live chat and pretend we are having our own Go Wild. Other people who have attended in the past could share stories!
Thanks!
First. You look fabulous! You may not feel it, but you look it. Second, thank you for sharing your Adenomyosis diagnosis. I seem to be experiencing something very similar, and the waiting for tests and a diagnosis is frustrating. You are such an inspiration.
I'm glad to see your face again, was definitely concerned for you. I hope they figure out the IUD and bleeding issues :/ It's so frustrating to me because it genuinely sounds like your experiences are not being taken as seriously as they should be
As much as I have missed you, the #1 thing I want is for you to heal and feel better. You would take medical leave from an outside job for what you just went through. Be a kind boss to yourself. You have made me laugh and rant along and think. I wish I could do the same for you, especially now. The laugh part. Shit maybe a good rant! Just know I am always quietly over here rooting hard for you and your family. Sending so much love it might be questionable.❤
It's lovely to 'see you'. Please focus on strength and wellness, we'll be here if and when you can return. :)
The most important thing is your health -- take as much time as you need to feel good. We will be happy to see you whenever you feel like posting.
I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling. Sending you some positive vibes for recovery
Cindy, my heart is with you. Take care of you!
You look amazing and your hair is beautiful! We will wait on you, get better and take care of yourself! ❤
So great to see you. Glad you are doing better but sorry you have had so many problems. We would love to see you Sunday, and you could just talk to us like today and do just a little planning if you feel like it. Don’t try to do a lot. Just come online for a short time and get some mojo going. We love you!
It’s so lovely to see your face! Hang in there! I’m sending all the good vibes and juju your way. Don’t rush. Heal. 😘
Oh I'm so happy to see your face, but woah...you have been through too much lately. I can understand the blood clots because there were days when I could barely leave the toilet because of losing so much blood. Mine was from fibroids and i had to have a hysterectomy. But with your dialysis, I'm just thankful you have such a great support team. I'm sending lots of love & good vibes & healing energy your way. As for content, you could just come on to say hi & let us know you're ok. Don't push yourself. You need to focus on YOU! Love ya!
I'm so glad to see a video from you. I was getting concerned. Please just take the time you need. In terms of creativity...what about a draw flowers or something while chatting? I'm sure you don't even want to plan anything in a planner! I'm no help but just know we're here and sending all the healing vibes your way. ❤
Sending positive vibes to you, Cindy. I hope it all works out and you can return to what you enjoy doing, but even if it doesn't, you take care of you first! We are just the beneficiaries of any time/energy you have to spend on YouTubing. If you can't/don't want to, know that we want the best for you and will be thinking of you and wishing you the best in your absence. Much love.
What's most important is your own health and well-being, physically yes but emotionally and mentally as well! If you wanted to put out content, definitely things that aren't too taxing like doodling or art with VO or reviews of things if that is easier. Thinking of you and sending love to you and your family 🧡
I have been worried about you and have missed you very much. You are loved! Hope you feel better soon!
Prayers for you and your family You are amazing
Cindey prayers you you and your family. Feel better soon take all the time you need to heal! We all love you!
That sucks for all that's went on but glad you're still alive. I worried the surgery went waaaay south until I saw you creeping on the gram. continue to take care of you, it's the priority. big hugs
I’m so sad you’ve been this bad. I really hope things turn around and get better. Don’t overdue it. We’ll be here. When you’re up to videos great. If you did cute pet videos that would be fine if you feel like you need to do something. Who wouldn’t love to see them playing together or judging each other. ❤
I have been following you for a long time, although I dont see as many videos as I would like... I have seen update videos, and I am always happy you're surviving. Glad that Jessy had been there to help you, and walk with you through this. You need to take time to heal, and your subscribers should understand that. This is not a new development, but a journey youve been on for a long while. You and your family are in my thoughts, and I wish you a speedy recovery.
I’m so glad to hear you’re starting to feel better but DAGGONE, that’s A LOT going on! You need to take care of you- you don’t owe us anything right now. Heal & come back at your pace, we’re not going anywhere 🙌❤️🙌
Whew! Sounds like what next month is scheduled to be for me (3x pain Clinic, 3x pt, and more). I want to thank you for sharing. I have CF but I've been feeling worse. Think I'll ask for blood work. ❤ Glad you feel better.
I'd like videos on coping with chronic illness. How do you decide what to let go of? How do you find motivation and strength for the 'must dos.'
We all understand.
I was just worried about you when it was radio silence. I'm glad you are ok.
Sending warm hugs! Take care of you!
Wish I could reach through screen and give you a hug. Take all the time you need. Rest. We understand.
My sister had that happen with an IUD--it perforated and gave her PID. So definitely, hoping you find out what happened with as little trauma as possible. Hugs and wishing you all the best.
Girl - hang in there. Much love, heart and well wishes. Take all the time you need to get better and maybe give yourself some time away from IUD. We'll be here, quitely rooting for you.
I'm so sorry you're going through so much. Not gonna lie I was legit worried about you. Sending gentle hugs.
Oh Cindy I am so sorry about everything you are going through! We love you and are here for you!
Take your time. Be gentle with yourself and heal. We’ll be here when you’re feeling it. ❤
Oh Cindy, that is a lot to deal with. I am so sorry you have been going through so damn much. Sending you lone and healing. ❤
As for content, I will happily watch whatever you feel up to, and if you don't, I completely understand. You need to take care of you right now. ❤
Hemodialysis is hard and scary, I applaud you for being able to do it at home!
So nice to see your face again! You've been through it! Rest up and take the time you need. We'll be here when you're ready to come back. 🤗
Cindy, don't worry about UA-cam... Focus on resting and healing!
So happy to see you in my UA-cam feed this morning! I'm glad to see that you were up to making a video. I know it has to be hard. I generally like your vlogs and plan with me videos, but I understand if that is too much for you right now. Take it easy. Your health is more important. We will always be here. ❤
Sending you positive thoughts.
Cindy, I hope that you are well!
Oh gosh, you’ve been thru it. I wonder if a uterine ablation would work for you. I found out last month that I may need a total spine fusion. It’s been rough and I basically said goodbye on my channel for now.
When I had anemia, I thought I had narcolepsy. I hope things get better for you soon!
I stopped watching planner content ages ago it seems. I just like to know how you are doing. I'm wrapping up some post surgery short term disability myself and I've done very little during recovery, it really takes a toll. Focus on you and the fam, check in with us if and when you can and just know there are a ton of strangers out here rooting for you. ❤
I'll rewatch old videos. Hopefully that will also help some financially. Take care of youself.
I’m so sorry for what you’re going through.
I don’t comment on social media much, but I’ve been following you since… damn I don’t even know lol. First video of yours I watched you were using a personal size ring planner. Anyway I appreciate you trusting us to share your medical journey. When I was a baby my family was exposed to contaminated well water from mine run off and we’ve all been sick. I’ve had multiple cancers and rare immune disorders. My oldest brother passed away last February from his 6th cancer battle. It sounds really messed up, but I’m so comforted by listening to someone else who is medically complex talking about all this stuff. My issues caused period problems too and my IUD made me miserable. Like miserable! I ended up with severe organ prolapse (like my cervix was on the outside) and had to have a hysterectomy. Best thing ever tho! F that uterus! 😂 My mom had to have dialysis and she died of renal failure. You’re a freaking champion!!! She had a load of other health issues tho and dialysis just wasn’t going to work for her. I myself might have to get a port. I don’t know if that’s similar to a catheter like yours, but my veins are so scarred and just way too delicate now. Takes 7 holes and two hours just to get blood for labs. Doing my infusions is a nightmare. But eh I’m rambling. I don’t have kidney disease, but I just identify with what you’re going through. I also have a seven year old with moderate to severe autism and being his full time care giver while I myself belong in a morgue is some tough stuff!! Anyway I don’t “know” you, but I’m proud of how strong you are and I love you for the amazing strong ass lady you are!!! 💪🏻❤️
I guess there's some virtue in taking the crap all at once. As one who had mega fibroids and saturated towels, sometimes 5 days in a row, I feel your frustration with having this on top of everything else. It does indeed drain you. My solution, and it was only mine, was an endometrial ablation. That may not be at all suitable for you. But God, that is rough, to have that with your other surgeries and the usual stresses of being part of a family plus needing to work - holy cow. So glad to see you looking good. Continue taking such good care of yourself (and Jesse - as your support I hope he is taking care of himself too) and many blessings to your kids as well.
Holy Moly! I am SO glad I YEETED my uterus before I need Dialysis. I am so sorry you had to go through all of that.
I’m so sorry that you’re going through so many health issues. Although I miss your videos, please put yourself first right now and just do what you need to in order to get better. Prayers that everything goes well in the upcoming appointments and procedures. Sending love and hugs 🥰❤️🥰🙏🙏🙏
Take care of yourself first! We will be here when you are ready and able to return 🖤
Cindy, I am just glad to see you face on my feed. thinking of you.
Thank you for the update! I’ve been wondering how everything went! Glad to see your beautiful face!
I was just thinking about you, good to see you 💗
I was just thinking about you. I've been worried. I was hoping that UA-cam was just Fucking with my subscription. I wish you didn't have to go through all this crap. I am sending you all the light and love I can. You make me want to become a live donator. I'm not sure if I can with all the things wrong with me. As far as you being worried about UA-cam take your time and do what you can when you can and I know at least for I'm not going anywhere. Love you bunches❤❤❤❤
I don't know about others, but I personally just enjoy hearing about your life and experiences because I enjoy your personality and care about you as a person. I enjoy hearing your opinions about the planner community and your planning system, but I also enjoy hearing about how situations in your life necessitate changes to that system and way of thinking. I think we planner people think similarly in that we like to have an organization to life, and I like hearing about how that changes under different circumstances and life events bc life isn't smooth and predictable. So in some ways, you just talking about your experience and opinions is interesting to me. I hope you do everything you need to do to care for yourself right now and find ways to do what still feels important to you, but also can find ways to scale back as needed. I think ALL of us support you in whatever you're needing.
Also, I had a partial hysterectomy last November, so I can definitely relate to the utter exhaustion that comes with medical procedures. I imagine it's especially wearing when you're body is already struggling with kidney failure. Your resilience and outlook on all of the struggles you've been through has been so inspiring to me. I definitely thought about you during my surgery recovery, and it made me feel stronger bc you're always so strong even when you feel weak. You're an awesome person. I think that is what people enjoy about knowing you (even if it's just through the internet) ☺️💗.
It's great to see your smile. I'd love to see a video on planning and coping when just the basics/just the minimum *has to be enough*. I think you're probably an expert at that right now.
My heart goes out to you. I had my female bleeding issue for 3weeks straight and I got a headache likes horse hooves running in my ears I literally bled to death and was admitted to hospital with a blood transfusion in the ER and was admitted for 3 more blood transfusions. The dr said I had uterine cancer I have had it twice and I am so grateful someone else can understand how much it takes out of you its like your body is one low charge for weeks
And I must add how do you track that in a planner because it's hard to just put generic period sticker when the devil is in the details
What do I need from you? Just take time to heal. We will be here. ❤
Good to see you again!
We all hope you feel better. I do love seeing your planner videos, but I wouldn't mind if you took even longer of a break to take care of yourself.
Watched this again because I miss seeing your sassy self 😞
Hope you're travelling OK and your health issues are improving.
It'll be a party when you're well enough to come back. Sending Big Love from Australia ❤❤❤❤
Hi Cindy. Glad for this update!
I think in terms of going back to work… just think, if you had an office job or something, would you be on sick leave? Probably. (I’m Canadian so maybe people wouldn’t be in the states?!) but my point is that we all understand! You’re on sick leave. Come back when you can- we’re all fine over here. We miss you but we’re fine.
All the best with the next steps of your treatments!
Yo dude!!! It's been a long time, because I'm shit and never get round to checking UA-cam. Sorry to hear you've had to deal with all this - that is pretty fucking shitty. Sending loads of love a hugs your way my beautiful friend xxx
I literally had to lie down while watching this video because I felt faint from just hearing about your medical issues. It all sounds so severe and HORRIBLE to experience-- Definitely take as much time as you need to rest!!!
Cindy, you are a crazy strong woman! Right now is the time for you to take that time you need to really heal. I know this place is your source of income, and your creative outlet & you really wanna get out of the funk, but your body is telling you that it needs “you” time. If that is a month, two months - so be it, we also want you to be safe, healthy, and take care of you (above everything else).❤ Man, I remember sitting in my car for lunch break watching your videos & being inspired… watching you try out bullet journaling for the first time. You were in your old apt in CA (before the Napa house), and I still wish I had your natural handwriting ability! Decades later and I’m still trying to figure out what planning style works for me 😂Mama, we love you & will be here whenever you do have the energy, but please don’t rush it. Big hugs & light being sent your way 💕
Oh Cindy! I've been thinking about you, and it sounds you've been dealing with a triple whammy of major health stuff. My heart goes out to you and your family, and all the good vibes that the next few appointments go well and it's uphill.
I would say that whatever videos you feel like making, we'll take, but I realize that's probably not helpful. So I'll offer this: What do you think of the new two color mildliners they showed at Go Wild? Those tips look so weird to me, but I'm excited to try them.
Cindy - missing your videos. Hope all is relatively well with your health. If you could update us. Peace.
So glad you are recovering! I am a worrier, and while I knew ahead of time you would be having hella going on this month, I still started to worry when you were gone for so long.
I miss your videos a lot. (But don’t be posting for my sake, take care of yourself first. 😉) To answer your question as to what kind of videos: pwms, life updates, and Bujo doodles have always been my favorite.