I totally get this as someone who has tried Coding, film making, screenplays etc. Although, not to disregard what you said as I agree the process loving is the most important part there is a certain level of interest you can gain by doing it, even if you dislike it at first. But if say, after a few months you really still don't like it then I agree it's not for you, as I've learned. Writing is something I loathed at first but have now began to enjoy more after getting through the initial block to where I can enjoy it. So I think there is a point to where forcing it can be done until you get diminishing returns.
Digi, I want to buy you a beer. In high school I wanted to be a film director. Afterwards, I wanted to write novels. The weird similarities go on. It'd be a hell of a time to riff on anime and shoot the breeze. This video hit the right kind of nerve, and I've watched it on a day when I really needed it. Thank you.
I think it was Mozart, where a man asked him "How can I raise my son to be like you?" and Mozart replied with "If your son was meant to be like me, he'd already be writing music." It sucks that we can't always be who we want to be, but when we find who we are it can be a really great thing.
That's really helping. I think many people get same thoughts and everyone heard of "be yourself" kind of crap, but it's the first time someone actually convey the idea in that way. Appreciate it.
That is how I felt for becoming a video game designer. I love video games, I love how they are created, and it would be an ideal job for me. But I don't like programming, I don't have the patience to learn all of it, and the industry is not convenient for me (in the sense of location. I would have to move to get viable work). So I decided to instead choose something that was became even more enjoyable to me and was a perfect fit for me while still being a sort of challenge. Trying to become a Japanese translator. I have the patience to learn that, and it is more convenient for me to go through the process and is more enjoyable than programming. Whether it is artistic voice or careers. If you have to force it, you are more likely to be disappointed than to be happy. With few exceptions.
Mostly same case as you, at the end of the day translating for other people to be able to enjoy foreign media or just learning a new language is much more enjoyable. Not everyone can follow their crazy dreams but we can still help in other ways.
asisin2 That is why Japanese suits my style more. I am into more small, individual or group-focused work rather than working in a big company. It just doesn't seem to fit into how I see myself at the moment. I'd like to see people improve and understand what a foreign language is actually saying literally and metaphorically. Tutoring is real great for that since people of different levels can learn different learning methods or strengthen their own. Some real great work.
You know, I'm in a somewhat similar situation as you. Although it's not necessary video games, I'm currently in college as a CS major and I've slowly started to realize that this just may not be for me. I thought at one point that programming/coding would be my future and I'd end up in that field, but reality is really hitting me hard and it's just not what I imagined. I wouldn't say I hate it, but I simply can't say I enjoy it and I can only imagine it getting worst when I have to do it 40+ hours a week for the next 50 years of my life. At the same time, I've been taking Japanese classes (originally just to fulfill my electives and because I thought it'd be fun), but man, I can honestly say it's the first time I've enjoyed learning in years. My Japanese professor who I've had classes with the last 2 semesters have made it really interesting for me and made me want to try and actually learn, rather than just passing the course. Unfortunately, everytime I tell myself I should just switch majors and do something I'd actually enjoy, the idea of getting a job that would have me financially struggle for years always come back. I know if I stayed in engineering that money would almost never be an issue, but I've been so stressed the past few years and don't know if I can keep this up. I don't care about making 6 figures or owning the biggest house. If I had a dream, it'd be to find something I can do as a living that I enjoy. If at the very least I knew I could get a job somewhere with my passion, even if it wasn't the best pay I'd switch in an instant, but pressure from family and life in general holds me back. Sorry for typing this long ass stupid/rant. It's late and I've barely slept and I'm just stressed. Feel free to ignore, I'm gonna go sleep.
Tomato-chan I was a CS major too before I switched to Japanese. I thought I'd go into a career of video game design or web design. Something to do with computers and electronics since I had a fascination with them. But after a few CS classes, I could feel it wasn't for me. I know it doesn't have to be enjoyable at first, but the sheer amount of competition I saw between students and the near endless hours I saw them put into it to the point of constantly contemplating sacrificing everything they do (hobbies, relationships, social time, and really anything that takes up even a second of time). It just wasn't a viable career path. Hell, I thought it was immoral for students to go through such hell just to learn something new or get a degree. I thought about that too since Japanese translator jobs or teaching jobs don't exactly pay well. I have pretty much assured my chance of a financially successful future is gone. But considering all I care for is food, shelter, and being able to watch anime. I don't really mind since I don't like collecting figures or decorating my room full of anime stuff. What matters to me is being able to still express my love for anime (when necessary) and staying up to date with the latest shows. That is all that really matters. The amount of joy I had from Japanese classes and the friends I made there outweighs any kind of trouble I ever had in either high school or college. It is always an honor to walk into class and sit down to learn something new. While sure, the weeaboos are quite annoying even after three years of classes and plenty of students are disturbed, depressed messes due to all the trauma and stress of Japanese courses. Also the perfectionists who cry and lose their minds over it all can be annoying at times too. But I feel a sense of joy when I can successfully apply what I learned from previous courses, in some cases even anime shows, and watch myself improve while still being able to maintain my grades *and* my sanity. All I can say is do your best and good luck. If you plan on continuing Japanese classes, know and remember the feeling you get when you first started. The joy I felt learning Hiragana and basic grammar structure is a great feeling. The pay-off is well worth it in the end too because I have already finished about 50~ shows without any subtitles and it is amazing how much anime is available to you when you don't need subtitles anymore. Seriously, has anyone here really thought about how much anime is available to you if you learned Japanese? Essentially, half of all anime ever produced becomes available to you and you no longer have to wait for simulcasts, fansubs, or any English dub. You could realistically watch a show as it airs for the first time on TV. Specials, OVAs, and Movies that were never subbed or English-dubbed are opened to you. It is amazing.
***** I don't believe that anybody can learn that in a week. Everyone has different learning speeds and some may take longer than others. Plus, these people aren't just trying to become a video game designer. They may need to take other classes and learn different occupations in the case they either A) have to work themselves up to that position B) specialize in a specific department (animation, character design, sound design, etc) or C) take an unrelated job until they can find an opening for a video game company. Sure, the basics may be easy to learn within a week. But time and learning is relative to each person.
I wish I could like this video twice. I find your content more relatable than that of any other channel I've run across because I also think deeply about the entertainment I consume, and I enjoy expressing my ideas about why I appreciate certain anime, movies, music, and video games more than others from the perspective of both a consumer and a content creator. Someone asked me recently why I don't make a UA-cam channel dedicated to reviewing/analyzing entertainment since I talk about the subject so much, but I recognize, like you did with film directing, that it's not for me. I don't enjoy talking in front of a camera or editing my rambling (that's what I go to your channel for)... I enjoy making videos with a narrative, from behind the camera, crafting an interesting story via (hopefully) thought-provoking images and editing. PLEASE keep doing what you're doing Digi, because I'm not sure I'll ever be able find such relatable and compelling content anywhere else on UA-cam.
It really hit home when you talked about your place being your room. I always feel like I'm so different because I rarely leave my room and just don't seem to like the hobbies everyone else enjoys.I have a few mental limits personally, but I also feel like this is just where I belong, where I should be, and where I'm going to accomplish the most. This was a really inspirational video especially I'm sure to people trying to find their place in the world, and more over introverted people who are.
I, for one, appreciate it a lot. I see this as some kind of a video podcast, and honestly, I became one of your patrons mostly because of after dark and not because of your main channel. Keep these long ramblings on! ;)
1 minute of silence for the lost beard. I do think that forcing yourself to do things when trying to be an artist is important, but enjoying the process is more important. And Digi's right understanding when something doesn't fit you is more important than anything else. I'm an art major (in a public art highschool) and I love art and learning about it but I don't particularly like doing art or writing about art. That's how I know I'm not going to be an artist (in a typical sense -painter, sculptor etc...). I love photography but I rarely go out and take pictures. Which is why I'm not going to be a photographer. Like Digi said, you need to enjoy the process of something not only the result.
i feel exactly the same about night time productivity! its great to hear you say this and the things you say about not liking to edit your dialogue. i really enjoy the long unbroken speach format and its something that i go for because it's natural to me. keep up the hard work your content is great and I'm looking to improve my content because of it .
digibro at first, u were really cool background noise when i drew for hours and hours and hours what i didnt expect is that i wll find someone this fucking relatable thanks man
This is some of the realest advice I've ever heard. I've wanted to draw comics for ages, but hardly ever get around to actually doing anything because the process itself can be so tedious. When I was younger I didn't give a shit about whether it was well thought out, I just drew pen straight onto paper I came up stuff and felt inspired while doing it. I might start drawing pen straight onto paper in a similar way and experiment with ideas in the process, then redo them properly once I get actually get everything on the page. Even if planning everything at the start and only doing page layout plans instead of entire pages is faster, I think being inspired and having that energy when creating is the most important thing. Sorry for the fucking blog post. Your advice on doing a process you actually enjoy doing and find comes natural to you is p great
i completely identify with most of what your saying. Grew up wanting to be so many different things, and i have a bunch of half written ideas, comics, a novel, and 2 ideas for short indie films, and blogs, etc. Now ive been finally working toward what i really want. To be a Writer/UA-camr who edits their own videos.
Yo this inspired me, I'm an artist going through art school and being reminded to just take it easy and let myself create content that suits me is really helpful.
I'm so glad you mentioned that interview with Inio Asano. The moment you began describing what the series was on I knew it'd be with him. I agree his process is crazy and it really made want to begin digital art again cause knowing that process was really interesting
I think there is a big difference between realizing a hobby is not for you and the original quote about forcing a hobby. You have to practice to get good at the stuff you do, you can expect to get it right on the first time. I think the idea of the "gifted" person is pretty counterproductive to learning a new hobby skill. I think all you really need is time (and sometimes money). You have to make time for yourself to practice. every single day until it is habit. When I started drawing I felt like I was never going anywhere but I made myself practice for hours every day. After months of making myself draw now I feel an "itching" to draw. The annoying thing about learning to draw is first you have to learn how to do it before you can learn how to express yourself creatively with the skill. The basics are boring, but learning to read so you can eventually type out reviews is also boring when framed that way.
as someone who did the same when Minecraft (don't judge me, it was years ago and I was a pre-teen or younger back then) when it became armies upon armies of "ME THREES!!!" I know how it feels...hell, I got into a lot of my favorite UA-camrs because of that ^_^
Thanks, Digi. This has been an inspiring to me, as a person looking for a way to express themselves and been hit by walls of not liking what I end up doing
Please consider making a video about your favourite sources of long-form content here on UA-cam. It's also my preferred format an I would love to see more of it!
Am I the only one who just watches Digi's AfterDark videos and not the actual analysis videos? I don't really watch anime but I'm really interested in digi as a person. I know that might be odd, but I can relate to him a lot artistically so I really enjoy these rants. Plus I discover a lot of really great media through these videos. It also helps knowing that there's somebody else out there who deals with the same struggles as an artist. Of course I make different forms of art from digi (for me, music) but I can definately relate to a lot in these videos. Anyways, sorry for the long comment, and thank you for these videos.
I'm glad that you found your niche. I actually got my degree in screenwriting before going on to get two more B.S. degrees in biochemistry and biotechnology and am now in pharmacy school. Don't let anybody tell you that they love the process of writing scripts; it's a horrible grind every morning, but at the end I come away with a product that I'm happy with after getting critiqued at writer's workshops and by some of my script reader friends. Anybody who says writing just comes naturally to them is a liar or is making garbage material.
I think the exact opposite of the duration comments: I wish you'd make those longer videos more frequently. That 250 anime on the other channel made my day.
digi i don't care what you think about yourself but you're a great guy, a great youtuber and someone i admire for being himself and someone who shows everyone his thoughts and ideas.
This reminds me so much of myself. For the longest time I told myself I wanted to be a 3D animator because there is so much out there for 3D, that and I wanted to work for Nintendo, yeah I had way too big of dreams. Then I got to a school [an art school where it was 4,400 dollars for 2 classes mind you] and I took drawing 101 and a 3D animation class. I learned REALLY QUICK that I HATED 3D animating. I hated everything about it. It was so tedious and boring to me and I just didn't care. I had been drawing all my life. And I realized that even though what I was drawing was traditional work [which I also don't really care much for] I was having more fun drawing this random picture of a drapery, or this random still life setup than I was creating this character and making this animation in maya and editing it all together in after effects and creating my own 2d intro in flash. That's when I ended up going to a community college and getting an associates in computer illustration. I had a much more fun time doing those classes than I ever did working in maya. Every time I was taught a new technique or added something to my style my mind gets blown. Now I'm happily graduated...and I can't find a job, can't get commissions, and in a bunch of debt. ...At least I learned a lot about art and subsequently about myself? I want to add on though that to anyone who gets depressed about or or feels like they wasted time, know that you're not alone when it comes to this. Actually, I think it's common for people to change their degree or profession at least once. My cousin changed it three times, both my parents changed theirs. You learn a lot about what you like and don't like when you start doing it. And it's ok to change your mind and keep trying until you find something that really resonates with you.
I sit through and listen to your whole videos. I love listening to your videos because I enjoy what you say and I like listening to podcast type stuff so you just talking is perfect me to listen to while playing videogames
This is honestly the first time I found someone with the same preference in content as me. Going on tangents and not leaving things out, I think I like it because that's how my thoughts roll usually.
This is a vlog that hits quite close to home. I once aspired to be an novelist, but all I could churn out was lame fanfictions that fulfilled a 12-year-old's fantasies. Especially when I have two siblings: one who could draw, and the other is an aspiring pianist and world-building story teller, I felt like I wanted to find my own niche. I wanted to write stories that contained nothing but epic moments, but wow, those stories were cheesier than a specialized cheesemaker that uses water buffalo milk. I couldn't stand that my stories had more plotholes than swiss cheese, and just went on hiatus for years, especially during university. When I went on to pursue a chemistry degree, I felt like I had a direction. There were motivated professors that cared more than the grades, and when you get to know them, their passion in their respective fields was infectious. I thought I could handle doing a Masters degree, and even pHD. However, after two months in a research course, I realized I only tolerated the monotonous data collecting, and not actually enjoyed or understood my end-goal. That was mostly my fault, but doing even a bit of research made me realize that it's an arduous and most-likely unappreciative career. Yet, I don't feel like my chemistry degree was a waste. There were definitely many fundamental backgrounds and theories that I appreciated. All in all, it was a slow and barely-tolerable process to realize and understand what one needs to commit to a passion. Hell, it's a lot of work just recognizing the right one. From sampling photoshop, to SFM animation, to various crafting hobbies, it's frustrating to be stuck meandering in a pool of interests with nothing to latch on. Talent may not be everything, but I bet it helps. I think I currently have a project I can spend a few hours a day working on, but it took me 21 years to get there. It's definitely twisted road from here on out.
I've also noticed significant peaks in productivity working late at night, which is something I've yet to understand. That is until you just now explained it as being not bugged by anyone and being stuck with no place to go, which I relate to.
Digi, ...that...was great. So rad. Sometimes I wonder if I'm wasting my time struggling to get good at anything I like to do. But really I don't care what I do as long as I get to make it myself. Just do what it do.
"There's a huge difference between enjoying the product of something and enjoying the process of it." This might be me. I don't know yet. I like certain anitubers' videos and I have ideas of my own that aren't being said elsewhere, but I haven't made any videos yet. I'm at least enjoying the pre-planning process of storing up ideas and planning my channel.
While I do agree that forcing things is a bad idea, and that taking what comes more naturally and running with it is good, I believe it's important to distinguish simple laziness from actual not wanting to do something! For example, I write; and though it can be "hit or miss" when it comes to whether I am enjoying the process or not, it is important to barrel through even the unpleasant parts of it, the writer's block, in order to reach a finished product. It is the same with drawing. Now, I agree--there has to be something to like about the process!--but it is also fine to accept that not all aspects of creation will be enjoyable! :) ....also, unrelated, but I have to say that I enjoyed the enormous swig of milk at the end. It was fascinating. The Habits of Dark Digi
This discussion reminds me of Carl Rogers' idea of self-actualization and the ideal self vs. the self-image (i.e. who you want to be and what you want to do vs. who you actually are and what you can do). This idea holds that the only way to reach your full potential is to find a place where your two selves are congruent, like a well balanced Venn-diagram
its ok digibro i always listen to these long video talks usually at 1.5 speed where i can still understand and it ends faster XD. A very nice topic to talk about and share your personal experience. thank you
This video made me think of myself a lot ;u; It was nice seeing a video like this from you and I think it's really helpful. I hope it helps others too.
I didn't know that Victor was able to persevere through the film making process to actually films. That's really awesome. I am more like you, where I have stories in my head for 10+ years, and haven't make a screen play yet. While I don't have as much of a problem of making objects in my mind as you seem to have, I really admire the fact that you have been making blogs! Of all the bullshit things to do, an anime blog! Good for you man! I am really happy for you. I watch a ton of your videos, and I really feel like your development is going to go far! I hope to see you go places in the future, and I hope that I do too.
Oh god the couple of pages of stories. Oh god the stories stuck in your head for years with no way to escape. I didn't have many good game ideas but the games I worked on when I was 10 normally had at least 1 completed level (one game had 10!). I've always felt like I'm a creative person but I'm not, I'm an imaginative person sure but beyond shitty D&D prep, I haven't made anything of worth while to anyone. I'm just gonna stick to doing academic shit that I'm actually good at and enjoy the process.
I'm glad you like making After Dark because the long unscripted style is my favorite to watch. Reminds me of a podcast, or a real discussion with someone
Fuck it! It resonated too strongly when you mentioned having stories on your head for 10 years and never writing a book. It's been only 7-8 years for me, but hopefully I'll have something to show for the 10 year "anniversary." Before writing this comment, I took an hour and a half to write three page description of characters and events for two of my stories. I'll see if I can start writing an actual draft tomorrow.
Hayao Miyazaki said that he didn't like create movies, there are tons of things that piss him off in movie making. But he said he makes film for the result, that's the only important thing, that's why he created The Wind Rises at such an old age. I don't like when people say that every good artist loves 100% of what they make, most of good artists struggle and don't like a high percentage of their job. If being an artist was "natural" there would be a lot more artist. It's a job, it's like anything else. There are good parts of it and bad parts of it. Also, being good at something helps with enjoying it. The beginning is always the hardest part because you're always shit at what you're doing.
re: sitting through 30+ mins of someone rant about a thing that is exactly what i thought was totally cool in the first place when i first stumbled upon your videos. which was your hour long SAO diatribe vid.
When you talked about the story that was stuck in your head, that hit me pretty hard. I've had two ideas I have always wanted to right, but I know i'm not good enough to write a full blown story :/ (I want one of the to be a novel and the other as a manga).
Honestly about the writing bit, I'm in a similar situation. I love writing, and I get so many ideas that I think that are cool, but eventually they fall out. Yet for some reason I feel like that if I keep it up, eventually I'll find an idea I like so much that I continue until I finish it. You should enjoy what you write and should become invested into it, if you can't invest yourself into what you want to do, then that job most likely isn't for you.
You're luckier than you realize Digi. Without going into my long dark backstory, I'll just say that I only recently came to these realizations you describe here... and I am 6 years older than you! I try not to worry about how much time I've wasted. Instead, I worry about if it's too late for me to really do what I want to do with my life.... Good times!
I feel like I am in the middle of your "i wanna be a filmmaker" thing (just with something else).. and i've known that for a while if I'm being honest to myself. Its just not me:P But I dont really have anything else (.-.) welp back to procrastinating about it, but you got me thinking again. so thank you Digi
I was one of the guys that said that the videos were too long. Seriously, you could found that comment. And now I think differently. I like this kind of videos, I changed a little bit. Now I like or have to be doing other stuff while I watched youtube. Now sometimes I don't have other noice and it's annoying having to look up music constantly or have to hear the same songs. So a long ass video is great because I can let it play, proccess the idea in a slower pase since every point is kinda going to the same place, so I don't have to hear every detail and if I hear something weird I then go and pay attention. This video form is good for me, now at least. And if a want a densely paced video I just go to the main channel and look for an interesting point. Just saying this as a way to say, I was that guy and now I agree with you.
This video made me overthink my plan to become a game designer. I mean, i'm not giving up on it, but I'll start actually trying to bring something to paper/programm so that I can test my actual skil and motivation.
I wouldn't mind taking up on any of those ideas for stories. I love writing and have always been writing fiction, so I could potentially make something out of it.
it's sad that on a solid video everybody is commenting about this new digi face which i guess is to be expectedwhen your look changes a decent amount but this is a great video and gives me a new perspective on that idea great video digi
I can relate to you so much. I also always look at things people do and imagine how i would do them, and have so many ideas I want to express, but just can't. Whenever I look back at a page of text I just wrote it feels like some bullshit a 10 year old me would write. I love drawing, but whenever I try to actually make something pretty I fail miserably. The idea of making movies also sounds amazing, but only because it's a way to see my ideas come true. So since I can't do anything else I just kinda make movies in my own head. I actually started doing it so much that I can spend a whole day just daydreaming and laying around.
I've heard this nugget of wisdom somewhere: "When I was little, I wanted to either write, paint, film or program when I grew up. Imagine my horror then, when I found out that being a writer, an artist, a director or a programmer is BORING."
Everything in my room pushes me out of my room because I work on computers and plus the influences around me such as anime. Also there are stores that I go to. I have been a writer since 2010 and most of the things I do is discuss philosophy. The beginning of truth is understanding that the truth is cold hearted. Truth is self-centered because it says that it is the most important thing in the world. Do not expect the world to love you. Love yourself and begins the beginning of love and then love the world even though the world does not love you. Do not expect the world to take responsibility for your actions. You can’t always expect people to care because you have to care the most about what you do in life. Honesty is kind of like truth except it plays second fiddle to truth because it embraces different kinds of truth such as honesty of thyself, yourself and absolute truth. Be honest about yourself as well as your feelings and you will be respected. I would rather respect an actor who hates their fan base who is honest about it to that fan base rather than respect the hypocrites. Honesty is the greatest form of sincerity as Endless Jess would say. Because of Endless Jess and Digibro I am going to do something that I have been wanting to do for years and that is anime reviews.
I'm learning to make video games in college. This has been really harder for me at times but their are things about it that I really enjoy. I'm not really sure what to do though because half the time I feel great about what I'm learning and doing in college but the other half the time I find myself so stressed out I'm not sure if it's worth it or not. I keep switching between being happy and being horribly stressed every few days. If anyone sees this and has any advice, it would be appreciated.
i can understand what you mean when talking about not enjoying the process of something. I draw comics and so much of the time when i have a cool idea in my head i just want to rush past the drawing part so i can see it on the page and sometimes i just get too lazy with the drawing and never get anything done...... i have been on hiatus from my current comic since February....
Honestly, I like what Digi said about his hours of productivity. I've been trying to make videos but I feel like I'm forcing myself cause my brain shuts off during the hours I'm up. I'm the most creative at night when I have to sleep cause I work full-time. I have made videos, but they're mostly practice videos. Like Vlogs with video editing to get used to it and I enjoy the process but it sucks that my working schedule just won't cooperate with me at the moment. Really hope to get used to writing during the day eventually, haha.
I do appreciate your content, and being a podcast lover, I not-so-secretly would enjoy if you also exported the audio from these and had them somewhere I could have pocketcasts pick up
Wow this vid is back. This saved me when it was released. Thank you.
I totally get this as someone who has tried Coding, film making, screenplays etc.
Although, not to disregard what you said as I agree the process loving is the most important part there is a certain level of interest you can gain by doing it, even if you dislike it at first. But if say, after a few months you really still don't like it then I agree it's not for you, as I've learned.
Writing is something I loathed at first but have now began to enjoy more after getting through the initial block to where I can enjoy it. So I think there is a point to where forcing it can be done until you get diminishing returns.
Digi, I want to buy you a beer. In high school I wanted to be a film director. Afterwards, I wanted to write novels. The weird similarities go on. It'd be a hell of a time to riff on anime and shoot the breeze. This video hit the right kind of nerve, and I've watched it on a day when I really needed it. Thank you.
When digibro uploads a 30 minute video I play a game and lisisn to him speak
I hope he never makes his audio more quiet or it's going to be hard to listen to him when im playing battlefront
same, I usually play the binding of Isaac
I usually do surfing in TF2, but i've recently got the original Doom and play that while listening.
Bruh I always do this. I just try to get high rounds on cod zombies while listening to his videos
adventuring through the wastes and listening to the king of otaku - 10/10
I think it was Mozart, where a man asked him "How can I raise my son to be like you?" and Mozart replied with "If your son was meant to be like me, he'd already be writing music." It sucks that we can't always be who we want to be, but when we find who we are it can be a really great thing.
That's really helping. I think many people get same thoughts and everyone heard of "be yourself" kind of crap, but it's the first time someone actually convey the idea in that way. Appreciate it.
That is how I felt for becoming a video game designer. I love video games, I love how they are created, and it would be an ideal job for me.
But I don't like programming, I don't have the patience to learn all of it, and the industry is not convenient for me (in the sense of location. I would have to move to get viable work). So I decided to instead choose something that was became even more enjoyable to me and was a perfect fit for me while still being a sort of challenge. Trying to become a Japanese translator. I have the patience to learn that, and it is more convenient for me to go through the process and is more enjoyable than programming.
Whether it is artistic voice or careers. If you have to force it, you are more likely to be disappointed than to be happy. With few exceptions.
Mostly same case as you, at the end of the day translating for other people to be able to enjoy foreign media or just learning a new language is much more enjoyable. Not everyone can follow their crazy dreams but we can still help in other ways.
asisin2 That is why Japanese suits my style more. I am into more small, individual or group-focused work rather than working in a big company. It just doesn't seem to fit into how I see myself at the moment. I'd like to see people improve and understand what a foreign language is actually saying literally and metaphorically.
Tutoring is real great for that since people of different levels can learn different learning methods or strengthen their own. Some real great work.
You know, I'm in a somewhat similar situation as you. Although it's not necessary video games, I'm currently in college as a CS major and I've slowly started to realize that this just may not be for me. I thought at one point that programming/coding would be my future and I'd end up in that field, but reality is really hitting me hard and it's just not what I imagined. I wouldn't say I hate it, but I simply can't say I enjoy it and I can only imagine it getting worst when I have to do it 40+ hours a week for the next 50 years of my life.
At the same time, I've been taking Japanese classes (originally just to fulfill my electives and because I thought it'd be fun), but man, I can honestly say it's the first time I've enjoyed learning in years. My Japanese professor who I've had classes with the last 2 semesters have made it really interesting for me and made me want to try and actually learn, rather than just passing the course. Unfortunately, everytime I tell myself I should just switch majors and do something I'd actually enjoy, the idea of getting a job that would have me financially struggle for years always come back. I know if I stayed in engineering that money would almost never be an issue, but I've been so stressed the past few years and don't know if I can keep this up. I don't care about making 6 figures or owning the biggest house. If I had a dream, it'd be to find something I can do as a living that I enjoy. If at the very least I knew I could get a job somewhere with my passion, even if it wasn't the best pay I'd switch in an instant, but pressure from family and life in general holds me back.
Sorry for typing this long ass stupid/rant. It's late and I've barely slept and I'm just stressed. Feel free to ignore, I'm gonna go sleep.
Tomato-chan I was a CS major too before I switched to Japanese. I thought I'd go into a career of video game design or web design. Something to do with computers and electronics since I had a fascination with them. But after a few CS classes, I could feel it wasn't for me. I know it doesn't have to be enjoyable at first, but the sheer amount of competition I saw between students and the near endless hours I saw them put into it to the point of constantly contemplating sacrificing everything they do (hobbies, relationships, social time, and really anything that takes up even a second of time). It just wasn't a viable career path. Hell, I thought it was immoral for students to go through such hell just to learn something new or get a degree.
I thought about that too since Japanese translator jobs or teaching jobs don't exactly pay well. I have pretty much assured my chance of a financially successful future is gone. But considering all I care for is food, shelter, and being able to watch anime. I don't really mind since I don't like collecting figures or decorating my room full of anime stuff. What matters to me is being able to still express my love for anime (when necessary) and staying up to date with the latest shows. That is all that really matters.
The amount of joy I had from Japanese classes and the friends I made there outweighs any kind of trouble I ever had in either high school or college. It is always an honor to walk into class and sit down to learn something new. While sure, the weeaboos are quite annoying even after three years of classes and plenty of students are disturbed, depressed messes due to all the trauma and stress of Japanese courses. Also the perfectionists who cry and lose their minds over it all can be annoying at times too. But I feel a sense of joy when I can successfully apply what I learned from previous courses, in some cases even anime shows, and watch myself improve while still being able to maintain my grades *and* my sanity.
All I can say is do your best and good luck. If you plan on continuing Japanese classes, know and remember the feeling you get when you first started. The joy I felt learning Hiragana and basic grammar structure is a great feeling. The pay-off is well worth it in the end too because I have already finished about 50~ shows without any subtitles and it is amazing how much anime is available to you when you don't need subtitles anymore.
Seriously, has anyone here really thought about how much anime is available to you if you learned Japanese? Essentially, half of all anime ever produced becomes available to you and you no longer have to wait for simulcasts, fansubs, or any English dub. You could realistically watch a show as it airs for the first time on TV. Specials, OVAs, and Movies that were never subbed or English-dubbed are opened to you. It is amazing.
***** I don't believe that anybody can learn that in a week. Everyone has different learning speeds and some may take longer than others. Plus, these people aren't just trying to become a video game designer. They may need to take other classes and learn different occupations in the case they either A) have to work themselves up to that position B) specialize in a specific department (animation, character design, sound design, etc) or C) take an unrelated job until they can find an opening for a video game company.
Sure, the basics may be easy to learn within a week. But time and learning is relative to each person.
I wish I could like this video twice.
I find your content more relatable than that of any other channel I've run across because I also think deeply about the entertainment I consume, and I enjoy expressing my ideas about why I appreciate certain anime, movies, music, and video games more than others from the perspective of both a consumer and a content creator. Someone asked me recently why I don't make a UA-cam channel dedicated to reviewing/analyzing entertainment since I talk about the subject so much, but I recognize, like you did with film directing, that it's not for me. I don't enjoy talking in front of a camera or editing my rambling (that's what I go to your channel for)... I enjoy making videos with a narrative, from behind the camera, crafting an interesting story via (hopefully) thought-provoking images and editing.
PLEASE keep doing what you're doing Digi, because I'm not sure I'll ever be able find such relatable and compelling content anywhere else on UA-cam.
It really hit home when you talked about your place being your room. I always feel like I'm so different because I rarely leave my room and just don't seem to like the hobbies everyone else enjoys.I have a few mental limits personally, but I also feel like this is just where I belong, where I should be, and where I'm going to accomplish the most. This was a really inspirational video especially I'm sure to people trying to find their place in the world, and more over introverted people who are.
I sit through it all myself because I love reviews and podcasts the most
After 3 or so years of knowing and watching you, this video finally made me subscribe. Unbelievably relatable.
I, for one, appreciate it a lot. I see this as some kind of a video podcast, and honestly, I became one of your patrons mostly because of after dark and not because of your main channel. Keep these long ramblings on! ;)
1 minute of silence for the lost beard.
I do think that forcing yourself to do things when trying to be an artist is important, but enjoying the process is more important. And Digi's right understanding when something doesn't fit you is more important than anything else.
I'm an art major (in a public art highschool) and I love art and learning about it but I don't particularly like doing art or writing about art. That's how I know I'm not going to be an artist (in a typical sense -painter, sculptor etc...). I love photography but I rarely go out and take pictures. Which is why I'm not going to be a photographer.
Like Digi said, you need to enjoy the process of something not only the result.
i feel exactly the same about night time productivity! its great to hear you say this and the things you say about not liking to edit your dialogue. i really enjoy the long unbroken speach format and its something that i go for because it's natural to me. keep up the hard work your content is great and I'm looking to improve my content because of it .
digibro
at first, u were really cool background noise when i drew for hours and hours and hours
what i didnt expect is that i wll find someone this fucking relatable
thanks man
This is some of the realest advice I've ever heard. I've wanted to draw comics for ages, but hardly ever get around to actually doing anything because the process itself can be so tedious. When I was younger I didn't give a shit about whether it was well thought out, I just drew pen straight onto paper I came up stuff and felt inspired while doing it. I might start drawing pen straight onto paper in a similar way and experiment with ideas in the process, then redo them properly once I get actually get everything on the page. Even if planning everything at the start and only doing page layout plans instead of entire pages is faster, I think being inspired and having that energy when creating is the most important thing.
Sorry for the fucking blog post. Your advice on doing a process you actually enjoy doing and find comes natural to you is p great
I feel like this about art. You always explain stuff so perfectly when I can't put it into words. Your awesome.
i completely identify with most of what your saying.
Grew up wanting to be so many different things, and i have a bunch of half written ideas, comics, a novel, and 2 ideas for short indie films, and blogs, etc. Now ive been finally working toward what i really want. To be a Writer/UA-camr who edits their own videos.
Yo this inspired me, I'm an artist going through art school and being reminded to just take it easy and let myself create content that suits me is really helpful.
I'm so glad you mentioned that interview with Inio Asano. The moment you began describing what the series was on I knew it'd be with him. I agree his process is crazy and it really made want to begin digital art again cause knowing that process was really interesting
this is probably my favorite of all of your rambles.
Oh Digi, don't ever change.
This was really relatable and something I needed to hear. Thanks for the touching blog, Digi.
this is how i feel about a lot of things. you are fantastic at putting your thoughts into words, especially in a way accessible to others.
you love talking, and I love listening to people talking, glad you exist!
This video gave me an existential crisis
This hit home so hard.
I think there is a big difference between realizing a hobby is not for you and the original quote about forcing a hobby. You have to practice to get good at the stuff you do, you can expect to get it right on the first time. I think the idea of the "gifted" person is pretty counterproductive to learning a new hobby skill. I think all you really need is time (and sometimes money).
You have to make time for yourself to practice. every single day until it is habit. When I started drawing I felt like I was never going anywhere but I made myself practice for hours every day. After months of making myself draw now I feel an "itching" to draw. The annoying thing about learning to draw is first you have to learn how to do it before you can learn how to express yourself creatively with the skill. The basics are boring, but learning to read so you can eventually type out reviews is also boring when framed that way.
i just deleted most of my subscriptions, but i kept this one. feelsgoodman.
as someone who did the same when Minecraft (don't judge me, it was years ago and I was a pre-teen or younger back then) when it became armies upon armies of "ME THREES!!!" I know how it feels...hell, I got into a lot of my favorite UA-camrs because of that ^_^
i unsubscribed to so many because i want to stop my addiction to youtube lol
Thanks, Digi. This has been an inspiring to me, as a person looking for a way to express themselves and been hit by walls of not liking what I end up doing
Thank you for always staying true to yourself.
Digibro talks about how he found his cutiemark.
Please consider making a video about your favourite sources of long-form content here on UA-cam. It's also my preferred format an I would love to see more of it!
Am I the only one who just watches Digi's AfterDark videos and not the actual analysis videos? I don't really watch anime but I'm really interested in digi as a person. I know that might be odd, but I can relate to him a lot artistically so I really enjoy these rants. Plus I discover a lot of really great media through these videos. It also helps knowing that there's somebody else out there who deals with the same struggles as an artist. Of course I make different forms of art from digi (for me, music) but I can definately relate to a lot in these videos. Anyways, sorry for the long comment, and thank you for these videos.
I enjoy one sided rambles. I love to just hear people talk, and not need to give any input directly to them.
ALL UR VIDEOS DEEPLY RESONATE WITH ME
I'm glad that you found your niche. I actually got my degree in screenwriting before going on to get two more B.S. degrees in biochemistry and biotechnology and am now in pharmacy school. Don't let anybody tell you that they love the process of writing scripts; it's a horrible grind every morning, but at the end I come away with a product that I'm happy with after getting critiqued at writer's workshops and by some of my script reader friends. Anybody who says writing just comes naturally to them is a liar or is making garbage material.
I love to listen to these videos. lots of interesting ideas.
I think the exact opposite of the duration comments: I wish you'd make those longer videos more frequently.
That 250 anime on the other channel made my day.
This video was really enjoyable and helped me think about myself quite a bit. Thanks
digi i don't care what you think about yourself but you're a great guy, a great youtuber and someone i admire for being himself and someone who shows everyone his thoughts and ideas.
i enjoy it, i didn't watch all your videos on this channel but I've watch most ;)
One of the best videos you ever made.
I actively look for videos of people rambling when I draw so your videos work out perfectly.
This reminds me so much of myself.
For the longest time I told myself I wanted to be a 3D animator because there is so much out there for 3D, that and I wanted to work for Nintendo, yeah I had way too big of dreams. Then I got to a school [an art school where it was 4,400 dollars for 2 classes mind you] and I took drawing 101 and a 3D animation class. I learned REALLY QUICK that I HATED 3D animating. I hated everything about it. It was so tedious and boring to me and I just didn't care.
I had been drawing all my life. And I realized that even though what I was drawing was traditional work [which I also don't really care much for] I was having more fun drawing this random picture of a drapery, or this random still life setup than I was creating this character and making this animation in maya and editing it all together in after effects and creating my own 2d intro in flash.
That's when I ended up going to a community college and getting an associates in computer illustration. I had a much more fun time doing those classes than I ever did working in maya. Every time I was taught a new technique or added something to my style my mind gets blown. Now I'm happily graduated...and I can't find a job, can't get commissions, and in a bunch of debt.
...At least I learned a lot about art and subsequently about myself?
I want to add on though that to anyone who gets depressed about or or feels like they wasted time, know that you're not alone when it comes to this. Actually, I think it's common for people to change their degree or profession at least once. My cousin changed it three times, both my parents changed theirs. You learn a lot about what you like and don't like when you start doing it. And it's ok to change your mind and keep trying until you find something that really resonates with you.
I sit through and listen to your whole videos. I love listening to your videos because I enjoy what you say and I like listening to podcast type stuff so you just talking is perfect me to listen to while playing videogames
This is honestly the first time I found someone with the same preference in content as me. Going on tangents and not leaving things out, I think I like it because that's how my thoughts roll usually.
This is a vlog that hits quite close to home. I once aspired to be an novelist, but all I could churn out was lame fanfictions that fulfilled a 12-year-old's fantasies. Especially when I have two siblings: one who could draw, and the other is an aspiring pianist and world-building story teller, I felt like I wanted to find my own niche. I wanted to write stories that contained nothing but epic moments, but wow, those stories were cheesier than a specialized cheesemaker that uses water buffalo milk. I couldn't stand that my stories had more plotholes than swiss cheese, and just went on hiatus for years, especially during university.
When I went on to pursue a chemistry degree, I felt like I had a direction. There were motivated professors that cared more than the grades, and when you get to know them, their passion in their respective fields was infectious. I thought I could handle doing a Masters degree, and even pHD. However, after two months in a research course, I realized I only tolerated the monotonous data collecting, and not actually enjoyed or understood my end-goal. That was mostly my fault, but doing even a bit of research made me realize that it's an arduous and most-likely unappreciative career. Yet, I don't feel like my chemistry degree was a waste. There were definitely many fundamental backgrounds and theories that I appreciated.
All in all, it was a slow and barely-tolerable process to realize and understand what one needs to commit to a passion. Hell, it's a lot of work just recognizing the right one. From sampling photoshop, to SFM animation, to various crafting hobbies, it's frustrating to be stuck meandering in a pool of interests with nothing to latch on. Talent may not be everything, but I bet it helps. I think I currently have a project I can spend a few hours a day working on, but it took me 21 years to get there. It's definitely twisted road from here on out.
Best video you ever uploaded on this channel
I adore Asano's work, he's incredibly innovative and inspirational.
I've also noticed significant peaks in productivity working late at night, which is something I've yet to understand. That is until you just now explained it as being not bugged by anyone and being stuck with no place to go, which I relate to.
Digi, ...that...was great. So rad. Sometimes I wonder if I'm wasting my time struggling to get good at anything I like to do. But really I don't care what I do as long as I get to make it myself. Just do what it do.
"There's a huge difference between enjoying the product of something and enjoying the process of it."
This might be me. I don't know yet. I like certain anitubers' videos and I have ideas of my own that aren't being said elsewhere, but I haven't made any videos yet. I'm at least enjoying the pre-planning process of storing up ideas and planning my channel.
this video made me think a lot more than your previous videos
kudos for that
21:08 I appreciate the work you d-... brilliant ending 10/10
While I do agree that forcing things is a bad idea, and that taking what comes more naturally and running with it is good, I believe it's important to distinguish simple laziness from actual not wanting to do something! For example, I write; and though it can be "hit or miss" when it comes to whether I am enjoying the process or not, it is important to barrel through even the unpleasant parts of it, the writer's block, in order to reach a finished product. It is the same with drawing. Now, I agree--there has to be something to like about the process!--but it is also fine to accept that not all aspects of creation will be enjoyable! :)
....also, unrelated, but I have to say that I enjoyed the enormous swig of milk at the end. It was fascinating. The Habits of Dark Digi
This discussion reminds me of Carl Rogers' idea of self-actualization and the ideal self vs. the self-image (i.e. who you want to be and what you want to do vs. who you actually are and what you can do). This idea holds that the only way to reach your full potential is to find a place where your two selves are congruent, like a well balanced Venn-diagram
I love this video and relate to it so strongly, thank you Digi
Thanks man, i actually think this is going to help me.
Your rambling is really inspiring.
its ok digibro i always listen to these long video talks usually at 1.5 speed where i can still understand and it ends faster XD. A very nice topic to talk about and share your personal experience. thank you
This video made me think of myself a lot ;u; It was nice seeing a video like this from you and I think it's really helpful. I hope it helps others too.
This felt like some fantastic introspection about your life decisions and style in general. I approve Digi 😝
I didn't know that Victor was able to persevere through the film making process to actually films. That's really awesome. I am more like you, where I have stories in my head for 10+ years, and haven't make a screen play yet. While I don't have as much of a problem of making objects in my mind as you seem to have, I really admire the fact that you have been making blogs! Of all the bullshit things to do, an anime blog! Good for you man! I am really happy for you. I watch a ton of your videos, and I really feel like your development is going to go far! I hope to see you go places in the future, and I hope that I do too.
Really interesting and useful video.
Oh god the couple of pages of stories. Oh god the stories stuck in your head for years with no way to escape. I didn't have many good game ideas but the games I worked on when I was 10 normally had at least 1 completed level (one game had 10!). I've always felt like I'm a creative person but I'm not, I'm an imaginative person sure but beyond shitty D&D prep, I haven't made anything of worth while to anyone. I'm just gonna stick to doing academic shit that I'm actually good at and enjoy the process.
I'm glad you like making After Dark because the long unscripted style is my favorite to watch. Reminds me of a podcast, or a real discussion with someone
Fuck it! It resonated too strongly when you mentioned having stories on your head for 10 years and never writing a book. It's been only 7-8 years for me, but hopefully I'll have something to show for the 10 year "anniversary."
Before writing this comment, I took an hour and a half to write three page description of characters and events for two of my stories. I'll see if I can start writing an actual draft tomorrow.
Is that Alfred Molina?
That rambling makes a lot of sense and actually pretty inspirational. Because I can relate. Thanks, Digi.
It's like you know when I'm awake. . . .
thanks, i needed that
This video was very reltable for the most part. Really great ramble. :D
This video was wonderful!
I appreciate you Digi.
The tale of how he found his cutie mark's true meaning
i enjoy sitting through the long rants.
Hayao Miyazaki said that he didn't like create movies, there are tons of things that piss him off in movie making. But he said he makes film for the result, that's the only important thing, that's why he created The Wind Rises at such an old age. I don't like when people say that every good artist loves 100% of what they make, most of good artists struggle and don't like a high percentage of their job. If being an artist was "natural" there would be a lot more artist. It's a job, it's like anything else. There are good parts of it and bad parts of it.
Also, being good at something helps with enjoying it. The beginning is always the hardest part because you're always shit at what you're doing.
I love rambling videos.
re: sitting through 30+ mins of someone rant about a thing
that is exactly what i thought was totally cool in the first place when i first stumbled upon your videos. which was your hour long SAO diatribe vid.
When you talked about the story that was stuck in your head, that hit me pretty hard. I've had two ideas I have always wanted to right, but I know i'm not good enough to write a full blown story :/ (I want one of the to be a novel and the other as a manga).
Wow I relate to this video on so many levels
Honestly about the writing bit, I'm in a similar situation. I love writing, and I get so many ideas that I think that are cool, but eventually they fall out. Yet for some reason I feel like that if I keep it up, eventually I'll find an idea I like so much that I continue until I finish it. You should enjoy what you write and should become invested into it, if you can't invest yourself into what you want to do, then that job most likely isn't for you.
You're luckier than you realize Digi.
Without going into my long dark backstory, I'll just say that I only recently came to these realizations you describe here... and I am 6 years older than you!
I try not to worry about how much time I've wasted. Instead, I worry about if it's too late for me to really do what I want to do with my life.... Good times!
I feel like I am in the middle of your "i wanna be a filmmaker" thing (just with something else).. and i've known that for a while if I'm being honest to myself. Its just not me:P
But I dont really have anything else (.-.)
welp back to procrastinating about it, but you got me thinking again. so thank you Digi
I was one of the guys that said that the videos were too long. Seriously, you could found that comment. And now I think differently. I like this kind of videos, I changed a little bit. Now I like or have to be doing other stuff while I watched youtube. Now sometimes I don't have other noice and it's annoying having to look up music constantly or have to hear the same songs. So a long ass video is great because I can let it play, proccess the idea in a slower pase since every point is kinda going to the same place, so I don't have to hear every detail and if I hear something weird I then go and pay attention. This video form is good for me, now at least. And if a want a densely paced video I just go to the main channel and look for an interesting point.
Just saying this as a way to say, I was that guy and now I agree with you.
This video made me overthink my plan to become a game designer. I mean, i'm not giving up on it, but I'll start actually trying to bring something to paper/programm so that I can test my actual skil and motivation.
I wouldn't mind taking up on any of those ideas for stories. I love writing and have always been writing fiction, so I could potentially make something out of it.
I feel the same. I wouldn't mind hearing some of Digi's story ideas to turn into stories/comics. :B
rest in peace the digibeard
it's sad that on a solid video everybody is commenting about this new digi face
which i guess is to be expectedwhen your look changes a decent amount
but this is a great video and gives me a new perspective on that idea great video digi
Cinema is the process, a film is the product. If you want to be a filmaker you need to love cinema, not only films.
I can relate to you so much. I also always look at things people do and imagine how i would do them, and have so many ideas I want to express, but just can't. Whenever I look back at a page of text I just wrote it feels like some bullshit a 10 year old me would write. I love drawing, but whenever I try to actually make something pretty I fail miserably. The idea of making movies also sounds amazing, but only because it's a way to see my ideas come true. So since I can't do anything else I just kinda make movies in my own head. I actually started doing it so much that I can spend a whole day just daydreaming and laying around.
I've heard this nugget of wisdom somewhere:
"When I was little, I wanted to either write, paint, film or program when I grew up.
Imagine my horror then, when I found out that being a writer, an artist, a director or a programmer is BORING."
"Sit through 30 minutes of content." Jokes on you, everybody, I can only tolerate youtube at double speed!
***** Digibro helpfully timestamped relevant genres, so I ended up only watching a little bit of that.
Great vlog fam
Inio Asano is working on a manga with alien spaceships? Whoa that got me really hyped!
Everything in my room pushes me out of my room because I work on computers and plus the influences around me such as anime. Also there are stores that I go to. I have been a writer since 2010 and most of the things I do is discuss philosophy. The beginning of truth is understanding that the truth is cold hearted. Truth is self-centered because it says that it is the most important thing in the world. Do not expect the world to love you. Love yourself and begins the beginning of love and then love the world even though the world does not love you. Do not expect the world to take responsibility for your actions. You can’t always expect people to care because you have to care the most about what you do in life. Honesty is kind of like truth except it plays second fiddle to truth because it embraces different kinds of truth such as honesty of thyself, yourself and absolute truth. Be honest about yourself as well as your feelings and you will be respected. I would rather respect an actor who hates their fan base who is honest about it to that fan base rather than respect the hypocrites. Honesty is the greatest form of sincerity as Endless Jess would say. Because of Endless Jess and Digibro I am going to do something that I have been wanting to do for years and that is anime reviews.
I'm learning to make video games in college. This has been really harder for me at times but their are things about it that I really enjoy. I'm not really sure what to do though because half the time I feel great about what I'm learning and doing in college but the other half the time I find myself so stressed out I'm not sure if it's worth it or not. I keep switching between being happy and being horribly stressed every few days. If anyone sees this and has any advice, it would be appreciated.
i can understand what you mean when talking about not enjoying the process of something. I draw comics and so much of the time when i have a cool idea in my head i just want to rush past the drawing part so i can see it on the page and sometimes i just get too lazy with the drawing and never get anything done...... i have been on hiatus from my current comic since February....
Honestly, I like what Digi said about his hours of productivity. I've been trying to make videos but I feel like I'm forcing myself cause my brain shuts off during the hours I'm up. I'm the most creative at night when I have to sleep cause I work full-time. I have made videos, but they're mostly practice videos. Like Vlogs with video editing to get used to it and I enjoy the process but it sucks that my working schedule just won't cooperate with me at the moment. Really hope to get used to writing during the day eventually, haha.
I do appreciate your content, and being a podcast lover, I not-so-secretly would enjoy if you also exported the audio from these and had them somewhere I could have pocketcasts pick up