Some people say that lyrics about suicide encourage those feelings. For me, it made me feel like I wasn't alone and the struggle I was going through was valid. This song honestly helped me a lot. Suicide is a huge problem that needs to be talked about. It's only a problem when shows like the one that lists 13 reasons why suicide is a good idea capitalize off of glorifying the act for drama. To whoever's reading this, you're not alone, people care about you and there is a light at the end of the tunnel; depression is just a cloth over your eyes that keeps you from seeing it.
Exactly, people that say that probably aren't depressed.Fight fire with fire, a sad song is a great way for the artist to vent or help others and for the audience to relate.
That's the problem! Avoid stuff! My father beat me, suicide looked good. I supported him to the age of 38! What a weak geek! He said he would kill my mother an sister if I left! He died 17 years ago! Terrible thing it is that u are glad your fathers dead! But I have been free for the past 17 years! My point is don't give up! That's why I am still alive!
When he sang "I had nothing to write about" I knew I wasn't alone. Someone else understands what it's like having everything on your mind but nothing to say. Please pull through. Maybe you don't believe this but I want you to know Jesus loves you. You're not alone and I hope everything turns out good for you.
This song has really hit home for me. My husband and I lost or daughter to suicide 7 months ago. Everyday I sit and think about my baby girl. I think about the last month of her life. What did I miss? Was she trying to tell me something and I just didn't listen. Did something happen and I didn't pay attention. Did I not talk to her enough...hug her enough? Laugh with her enough? Question get aboutwhat was happening I her life enough? Show her I care enough...love her enough?!!! I go crazy thinking about what I did to make her want to leave. She said good night and I love you too...went up to bed and was gone the next morning. No note no words of the pain my baby was obviously feeling. This song is the closest thing to What I imagine my daughter was feeling. It acc scares the shit out of me to think about how many kids and adults feel like they have no hope. That ending that beautiful life is the only way to make the pain go away. Most mornings I can barely get out of bed. I have no more tears left. My husband children and I hurt so bad and miss Krystine so much but we go on. For her and each other. I know I'm going on when everyone is just trying to listen to a song. Most won't careabout my story but I beg that if one person is reading this and thinking about taking their life just know that it does get better and there are people who love and care for you and can't imagine life without you in it. You can get help even if you have to scream at the top of your lungs to get someoneto listen. I'm a mother who lost her child. I would trade my life for hers in a second but I can't. I'm left here with the pain and questions. Please don't leave your mom or dad or family with that pain. Ask for help.
My brother committed suicide 7 years ago and there's literally not a single day that goes by without hearing about him or thinking about him. My heart goes out to you and your husband. The process of recovery is long and hard, and you're likely to be without anwsers for the rest of your life wondering what could have been done to stop this. Sometimes you don't get answers. I'm incredibly sorry for your loss. Having been to the point of self-harm myself when I was much younger, ive only come to realize that suicide is the most devastating way to lose someone. You're not alone in this. You've got my heart right now and I know you'll make it through this.
Kristi Fy my sister committed suicide in 2011 and its haunted every part of me every memory of her that I've ever had has been replaced by seeing her there lifeless and gone I'd trade with her in an instant I think about taking my life almost every single day the only reason I'm still here now are my two daughters if not for them I would've self destructed long ago
In the old days we were taught to cope with trauma and knew life wasn't fair. I believe it's the idea that bad wasn't ment to happen and is only bad. Some things nobody should experience but the rest are how we become our best selves. If I'd been born these days I'd have green hair and cut my thing off for sure cause I pushed the limits back than but in time I learned to handle things and to not ever expect anyone to care more about me than me. Hope you feel better cause feelings can't be controlled really. Those without are so lucky but also the problem the rest of us struggle with. Your worthy and someone's favorite person no matter who you are.
@@donaldhitman6724 exactly!! Please watch What is a Woman! and also watch anything about Mind control.... we are under a group of evil people who want us sick and hurting!
My son took his life 3/29/21. He wrote out 4 lines from this song to me 10 months before that. This is "his song" when I hear it. "I should have told my mom, mom I love you like a good son, but this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one"
I am so sorry for you loss. I instantly started crying after I read your comment. I cannot imagine what you are going through and I will pray that you find peace, or some facsimile
I'm sorry for your loss! Can't imagine losing a child. That same line hits me hard. My mother was dying from cancer in Michigan and my dad who lived near me in Florida passed suddenly of liver failure. Wish I could have been there for my mom. She was 61 and my dad was 60. If it wasn't for my brother I would have taken my life by now. I was 26 when my parents passed and almost lost my brother to fentanyl 6 weeks later. Truly I'm sorry for the loss of your son!
sorry to hear that. it's tough, some times things just happen so fast and its been hard enough to just live on your own, it becomes easy to overlook subtle hints. only after when things fully set in do the signs become clearer sadly
I remember when I first heard this song I had to pull over because I burst into tears. If you struggle with depression like I do just know that you are not alone. It gets better I promise.
I've struggled with suicidal thoughts and tendencies for years and even now I'm in a good place I have a beautiful pregnant girlfriend who loves me and an amazing mom and sister and her boyfriend is amazing too so are his kids just don't want them to find me dead in the bathroom
it gets better ive had that gun to my head many times it wasnt until i sobered up till i recognized how precious and short this life really is i have severe panic attacks whenever i pass a cemetary or funeral today i am scared to die im not ready to meet my maker
"Nothing very special ever happens in my life" and "This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one". I feel both those lyrics with every fiber of my being
🙏🏽 May he RIP, something similar happened to my brother in law his ex wife had a daughter that wasn’t his own but she looked at him as her Daddy, little did we know she took the divorce real hard and this was a song she listened too a lot.
WOW. I just lost my brother Feb 18. When you say this is how he felt, I can understand what you think/feel. " This life is overwhelming but I'm ready for the next one" no more pain. R.I.P Josh G.
My brother also named Christopher told me this song reminded him of himself and 2 months later we lost him. I will always remember this song! I miss my lil bro so much, i dream about him alot. Life just isn't the same and i dont feel it ever will be. Its been 2 1/2 years and i still struggle every day. Damn i miss him and wish he was here! He didn't go by suicide directly but substance abuse, depression and just lifes bullshit took him from us . He had a cardiac arrest at 35 years old which is 19 years younger than me so i practically raised him! My best friend! I love and miss him every single day and always will! Fuck!
Your comment sounds like you are an attention hound he is just sing a song I doubt he actually tried to kill himself he is just trying to make a statement about the way the world is going
@@rnk0716 Shut the fuck up. You probably don't understand what it's like to feel the pain of suicide, and how hard those couple of words hit you when you hear them. They are fucking soul-crushing. They hurt. Now get the fuck off of the internet. We don't need people like you making everybody's lives harder and more painful. Go fuck yourself while you're at it.
I lost my beautiful teenage son to suicide. I was driving to the cemetery this morning to visit him, something I do a few times a day, when this song came on the radio. I have never heard this song before, but it hit home with me... I didn't get a letter, all I got was unanswered questions, a broken heart, and a shattered life that will never be the same. I will never heal or understand why this happened. I had no hints, I had no clue. I woke up to find that my son had decided he was ready for his next life. A day I will never forget... If anybody ever needs to reach out, do it. You do matter to several people. Please reach out!
That has to be the worst thing possible 😢. I pray that God will touch you deep inside and ease your pain. And give you some answers that will help you deal with it and a deep wisdom that will rise from inside you.
@Brannon Williams I’m hoping everything is going good for you now. It’s not easy to be brave to stay alive, but you were given a second chance and one can only hope you have the strength now to keep fighting ❤️
Imagining there is a next life with different possibilities is what kept me from ending it. Takes the pressure off of yourself, because so many believe they only have one shot at being happy. I guess the imagined idea of there being other worlds just keeps my mind in wonder more than angst. Of course, others will have different reasons to live, but mine is just weird, and I can accept that.
There's a line from an A Perfect Circle that you should connote with this song as well, then. "What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die"
memillionthdoot interesting reason! You’re right that everyone has different reasons whether it’s longing for death & surviving this life & healing from past traumas. I used to think I was too chicken to kill myself......the love for my boys kept me here. Then two years later I lost one of them. It’s been a rough journey though the pain.
I lost my son to suicide 7 years ago. He was almost 29 years old. I didnt know he was so depressed. It still hurts so much. I just heard this song today and thought I would cry. But I didnt. For some reason it makes me understand more that he just didnt want to be here anymore. I love and miss you Brandon. SO MUCH.
@@rhondaharrison2764 Wow im speechless. I found this song suddenly and just got a urge to scroll the comments and reply to you. It being the same time as your sons day of passing is crazy. I truely believe it is a sign from your son. This life we live, has its share of joy, sadness, frustration and every possible range of emotion a human can feel. It is easy to get overwhelmed with pain. But I know once its our time to move on, we will be reunited with our loved ones. Your son is watching down on you with pride, keep living and make the most of the time we have left. One day its all going to make sense for all of us.
I want the artists to know: You LITERALLY saved my life with this song. As of when I'm posting this, I'm in the worst place I've ever been. But this song simultaneously provided me with both the perspective of my worst option as well as a catharsis of how I was feeling that enabled me to carry on and work to improve my life. Thank you for saving my life! I will work to make things better for me because of you.
@@lordhelmit1499 my guyyyy I don't even know you and I care. I know that probably doesn't mean anything to you (and honestly i'd understand that) but i really hope you'll get better and find something worth staying alive for idk also if somehow possible pls get help and if you already got a therapist or something and they don't help try getting a new one if possible (talking from experience there, getting kicked out by your therapist ain't fun yikes xD)
Its how it is at least for me. And I'd like to think that its that way for most others too. Its not that you want to die, you just want the pressure to stop. The expectations, the disappointment, the pain no matter how large or small. Its just the desire to escape the pressure, but not knowing how to accomplish that. Everyone has their escapes but unfortunately some times your escapes end up losing their intended effect. But to those of you that stay and push through, I'm proud of each and every one of you.
Songs like these are proof that EVERYONE struggles, gets depressed, etc. Depression isn't picky, it'll catch anyone it can. Musicians that write songs, such as this amazing song, are beyond brave and honest for writing lyrics about their struggles, suicidal thoughts, etc. This song truly does hit home for me. In a way it's nice to know that even some of my favorite musicians relate to how I feel, but sad at the same time because they're struggling with depression as well.
Everyone struggles? I disagree with that. Some people have it easy most of or their entire lives. Or the things that come easy to them, others struggle with.
I miss music like this. The crap that's playing now is sad. 15-20 years ago was the best time for rock fans. But, really people complaining about social distancing and being lonely are kinda lil bitches.
Wow, I am an older rock guy who doesn't really like new music (get off my lawn) but I heard this on the radio and I was blown away. Fucking incredible song.
I'm so glad these guys are just so unapologetically raw with their music. If anything I think this is the perfect "suicide song" for lack of a better term because it's so rare to come across a song that tackles the subject of suicide this well. It gives such a hauntingly accurate depiction of the thoughts you have going through this shit I'm sure anyone who's been in this position can agree, but at the same time it really exemplifies just how pointless suicide is and in my opinion it's almost acts as a warning to those who know people living with depression etc that this is the shit that goes through your head everyday at a million miles a second.
Yeah, they are great with their music! For me, this song is a reminder of what is lost through successful suicide...Seether has a great one as well...very accurate indeed! Is it pointless though? I mean, it DOES provide the outcome that is desired...yes, there are other side effects...such as being dead, but for someone who can not cope with their life, it's not at all pointless...it has a point, it's just fruitless...nothing good comes of it here, on this plane of existence...and who knows what repercussions there may be beyond our awareness. I want to clarify that his situation is not depression so much as guilt --he killed his girlfriend...his suicidal thoughts are not unwarranted--I mean to say that he has a clear REASON to feel this way about himself and his life...but he has no help to cope with the situation and his feelings and such. We must never ignore, or downplay any person's reasons for wanting to kill themselves! Even if they are irrational, those reasons hold the solutions to the problems leading them towards suicide. We have to LISTEN to the suicidal person--we MUST stop trying to help them, and just listen for the solutions to come! Thanks for sharing your views, they gave me something to really think about this afternoon!
This is why at these points in my life I listen to this song on repeat for hours on end.... I struggle and I cry but I don't do what needs to be done? Sounds terrible, I used to be a cutter, I briefly stepped back into it. This song reminds me that people rely on me, I can't do this because what of I do cut tooo deep? I've got a child, family, someone who loves me? They can't deal with the pain I deal with on a daily, I can't and won't put them through this!
Marco Havok, Lol, I heard this on the radio today for the first time. The text thing said “Ghost” and “Badflower” and I thought it was a new Ghost song (with a better singer). This song rocks, though. Ghost is pretty lame.
man that face when he 1st gets in the car is brutal. Its not "sad", its like this calculated cold - but somewhat content look and it depicts depression painfully accurately. Its fucked.
@@dylanleger8863 Don't give up. Been there off and on for about 16 years but you have to take the little glimpses of happiness to get you through it. It can get better.
@@jimjones7272 it's why I picked the most dangerous job I could. It was accepting that this will pay me enough to get away from everything one way or another. But there's nothing like accepting your death is probable but knowing someone else is in danger that wants to live motivates you to stay alive.
this song explains exactly how i felt when i attempted. my dad cut me down and sat with me in the hospital asking me to explain when i couldnt speak yet. thats when i wrote my letter. first time i ever saw him cry and those tears are the only reason i stayed long enough to have my daughter. i wish i knew this song then
@@aleenamarie9274 good news though. it got so much better for me. now im getting married in April to a man who sits with me in the dark when i cant find the light even when he doesnt understand, im pregnant with another little girl due in 3 weeks,my first is about to start school, i graduated with valedictory honors, i just bought a new car, and i moved away from the place that destroyed me as a child. it does get better and im more thankful than ive ever been that i was found in time. it took years of hard work but living was the bravest thing i ever did. so if you relate to this song, just know that it wont get better all at once. the biggest likelyhood is that you wont even notice it getting better as its happening. but a day will come where you wake up and look back and feel a sense of "its going to be ok". life has a way of working itself out, even when you think it wont or you dont see a path. keep breathing and the life that youll be living one day will make the hyperventilating you do now absolutely worth it. ❤
@@julia.carr1129 I never struggled with this thought. I did lose 2 good friends tho. I must say you are the bravest person! Your words are coming from the heart. I admire you
So many comments about being suicidal, knowing someone who has committed suicide, etc. It is truly sad how normal it has become. It is truly sad how many people really struggle with depression and other mental illnesses. I want all of you other survivors to know, i am happy you are still here and that you are never truly alone!
Sebastian Cortes I was always told that (when pointing my fingers at my chin and pretending to blow my brains out) “its a permanent solution to a temporary problem”. I’ve been lucky to have numerous mentors in my 46 years, and their guidance always came when i needed a push in the right direction of thinking. Now I return the favor when I have a coworker or family member that needs to be educated.
But who really cares about the "possibility" of getting better when you can just have eternal peace? Life is suffering. Birth is a gateway to torture. Yeah, we've all heard about the suicide is a permanent solution yada yada platitude, but no - life is a permanent problem, in at least as far as it can be permanent. Permanent problems would require permanent solutions. Medication, therapy, food, drugs, games, etc -those are pretty temporary, if they work at all. The last thing I want to see is another damn medical health professional and all their bullshit. Or another of those callous-ass hotlines flung out as quickly as pills.
This Band is in a category of their own. As I see them, real talent from real souls. Eventually, most good bands will die out. I feel fortunate to have lived in the era of Badflower. Thank you for sharing your emotional song with us.
The sheer amount of loving people who are reaching out to those in need in this comment section restores my faith in humanity. It is struggles such as these that seem to be bringing us together. It brings tears to my eyes hearing about other peoples struggles and just seeing how many people, despite not knowing them personally, care enough to let them know that they ARE worth it and they should survive. Seeing people just being loving and caring for each other to this extent is part of the reason I love the rock community so much. It just makes me so so happy to see that people care. People do care. You are all lovely people and deserve the world.
Ja Boi not with that attitude you won't my friend... Change your attitude, and change your life... Your the only one who can. No one else will do it for you! Get off your ass and on your feet!!
If i remember it right he said in an article that he had panic attacks every night after the shows whilst touring and was thinking about self harm. He played out the whole scenario in his head and wrote it down. So yes, I'd say it is from personal experience! Link: loudwire.com/badflower-interview-ghost/
@marychapman7295 Coming from a woman who can't have kids its very nice to hear a mother talk like that about their child. I become enraged when I hear people complain or they lose their kids to CPS and dont even try to get them back..because people don't know how lucky they are to have children. Good on you mom ❤
I think it's so refreshing to have a sonf about suicide that doesn't use cutesie words and metaphors for suicide. This song spells it out straight up. It seems from personal experience, that when you are depressed for a great deal of time (more often than not), people, even those closest to you will become desensitized to it and eventually, as the song says, "no one even looked up." My family barely cares, if at all anymore because they've seen me so depressed for so long (including hospitalizations and plenty of scars on my wrists and marks on my face) that it has become normal for them. They've no idea the level of seriousness of how I feel right now. Maybe if anyone gave a shit they would take notice? Suicidal ideation is beyond difficult. Most people think it's a "cry for help" and all this other bullshit, but there are people in such deep pain out there...it overrides their natural instinct for self-precervation...Keeping yourself alive is one of the strongest instincts we have...can you imagine the pain someone must be feeling to be able to ignore that genetic imperative? I am so sorry to all of you that go through this because I do too. You are CARED ABOUT, at least by this stranger. Love to you all. You're better than you think...
With all of the scars on your arms, it's certain that self-preservation did prevail. We've all been through horrible pain, you are not the first and you won't be the last. It may feel like no one knows, but there are a lot out there who have been through much worse and not only survived but thrived. The pain you feel will only be amplified by those who still care if you succeed. They can't help you until you are willing to help yourself. Pick yourself up and ask for help.
As a school counselor I sometimes tell my students that a depressed student once said, "It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when all around you is darkness". Sometimes I tell them that student was me. This is the one time I believe it is right to say All lives matter. Hang in there. People do care.
Wish all of you had someone like my mom. She went through everything with me and even though she’s gone now she never let anyone struggling down. We are not alone! Someone out there will care!
Not many songs bring me to tears but this one always does. Such a powerful song and such an amazing insight into the mind of the suicidal. I know Bad Flower got a lot of shit for this song, but for the wrong reasons; it doesn’t glorify suicide it epitomizes the pain too many people feel everyday
I don't see how anyone can think this promotes suicide. "I died to be the white ghost of the man that I was meant to be". I heard that for the first time a less than 10 minutes ago and my eyes can't stop leaking. I am reading these comments through the tears and seeing all these other people that found their hope and purpose. I found my hope over 10 years ago, but I am still struggling to be the man that I was meant to be.
This song hits home. It's amazing how our mind can convince us that nobody cares - and even if there are a couple of people who do care, theyd be better off without us.
"I couldn't tell my mother that I love her, I'm a bad son." When i was planning to overdose i remember visiting my mom at work. I smiled, hugged her, told her i loved her and left feeling like a horrible son for the way i lied to her. This lyric hits me really deep.
i tried to OD when i was 14 just to get away from my parents, the neighbor found me, i woke up in the hospital 5 months later my father nearly beat me to death, broken jaw, factured skull, black eye, concussion, dislocated shoulder, broken arm, multiple broken ribs, internal bleeding, i spent a few months in a medically induced coma because i was too small to give enough painkillers to keep me from screaming. but i survived, and met a man, a US Army soldier, who could never get a date because He had scars all over and now we're married, He's the kindest person in the world, He doesnt care if people are afraid of Him, because im there next to Him, clinging to Him because Hes my teddy bear never give up, the universe has a plan for everyone, but sometimes you need to go through hell to find where you belong
Omg! I am so very sorry for all your pain & suffering! I cant imagine the the damage in faith ,trust, you must of went through.no child should ever have to go through those type of injuries.. im so glad the neighbors found you,bless her hesrt!
It's odd, but having gone through hell is one of those things we would never want to part with. Edit: not saying that some of us wouldn't want to forget a traumatic experience, just that we wouldn't want to forget why it's wrong, to simplify things.
I listen to this song both when I'm truly considering it...And when I know I don't have the strength to follow through. Omg are the lyrics ever accurate to many who have attempted before. But life gets better. I love badflower for the true emotional honesty in this song. You've helped more than you will every know
My best friend Jordan passed recently. We met in rehab and he showed me this incredible song. It's very emotional to listen to now since after his overdose it has a whole new meaning to me. RIP JORDAN ROBERTS 08/03/2023.
I just lost a close friend of mine to suicide a few days ago. I was the one to call the police at 2 in the morning, unable to get to him because I live an hour away. I spent hours with my best friend sobbing, throwing up, trembling, waiting for the officer to call me back to tell me he was okay. He was found alive but did not make it out of surgery. When listening to this song... I just wonder. I knew he was struggling, I did everything in my power to help. But some things.. I try to take comfort in knowing that he saved seven people donating his organs. That somewhere on the same time zone, his heart is still beating. I miss you. There isn't a minute that goes by that I don't think about you, about what could've changed. 'Til we meet again.
And i honestly don't care what anyone says. When there's something that takes you back the pain is still the same no matter how long its been. If you need someone to talk to ill listen. I watch this page because i have one i lost but i have one who survived as well. And this is a trigger song but also a comfort song for her. So i watch it to try and help other people.
I just cried my eyes out after hearing this on the radio. I've had clinical depression for 23 years and am a survivor of multiple suicide attempts and this hit insanely close. Thank you for this.
My story isn't much different than yours and the first time I consciously heard this song, I had to stop everything. It's been a few days now and I'm haunted by it.
This is the first Badflower song I had ever heard and it got me hooked. I've had crippling depression and severe anxiety since I was about 14, and I'm in my 40s now. It took until my late 30s to find medication that made life bearable. I'm not happy, I'm not living, but I'm live. I was so sure I'd never live past 30, and life was incredibly surreal once I hit that age. I've struggled with suicidal ideation my whole life. I've never attempted, but I've thought up plans so many times, had sudden impulses while driving, and literally prayed to die in my sleep. As the lyrics say, nothing very special ever happens in my life, afraid of "haunting" the people left behind, I just want someone to care, and life is absolutely, utterly overwhelming and I am so ready for the next one, if it exists at all. Hearing this song was like an arrow straight into my soul, it spoke about thoughts I've had for so long, and put them into beautiful, haunting music. Yeah, I feel like a freak. Why can't I just be happy like a normal fucking person? Why do I need medication to make my fucked up brain just "sorta" work right? I was obsessed with Ghost the second I heard it, and it still seeks to me deeply. Many Badflower songs speak to me, one of the things I love in their music is their brutal honesty about mental illness and thoughts of suicide, tabboo subjects that nobody wants to talk about, either due to internal shame or fear of judgements, or for people who don't experience, not wanting to deal with the reality that so many people are struggling and that that's a difficult prospect to think about with no easy answer (or simple lack of empathy, understanding, or even belief that depression is a real thing). But anyway, Badflower is up there in my number 1 spot for favorite. I can't help feeling there's something special about them.
This is by far the best song for what is going through someone's head after a failed a suicide attempt. (Mine was the safety was still on) Even years later, and not being suicidal anymore. The feels are too fucking real.
Tried it myself with 2 different guns. Right gun trigger pull to head (click). Point to ground, pull, boom. Left gun to head, pull, click. Left gun to ground, pull, boom. Never once did I rack either. Happened 3-4x each gun. I’m here to stand for my family and help others who suffer inside like I do. Individually weak, but together strong.
i've never made it through this song w/o crying... every single word hits me to the point where i can't believe someone wrote this and made it public. i feel like this is just so... personal. truly beautiful.
Your music helped save my life, Badflower. I'm only 13 and I'm glad I lived to be a teenager. I'm going to your concert on Wednesday 4/27/22 Thank you so much
13? Listen kid I'm 40. I've been dealing with the bummers since I was like 8! So what? Move forward dude. You should check out the song just wait by blues traveler
So, I wasn't the one to discover this song, it was my boyfriend. I had recently attempted, but he stopped me and I was put in the hospital for a while and after I got out, this song came on his playlist. And we both just sat there listening to the lyrics and he started crying and I asked why and he responded with "I don't know how you must have felt to try to do what you did, but this song gives me a good idea" and that just kinda hit me.
Tahlato brings tears to my eyes. You have a wonderful boyfriend there. So many people turn away or are afraid when someone is suicidal. They don’t try to understand. Seems like he does and that’s so special. Sending love your way.
Yes.....that sounds about right. Sort of the best rationale I have for anyone that doesn't get it. Good luck to you, I hope your days since being admitted have been better, full of happiness, and less stressful. Sometimes people don't realize how hard it is to get out of bed and keep trying; but I do. You have a brave soul. Thank you for sharing.
To my younger self, I'm glad you were strong. I know things were so hard. You are so strong now and so happy. Thank you for hanging on. The pain goes away, I promise. Keep going. Keep going! ❤
As a suicide survivor, I do not think I have ever heard a song that so accurately encapsulates what goes through your head and heart during those most overpowering and dark moments where you feel compelled on to act on your pain.
I love how towards the end when it starts to layer the lyrics, really shows how negative thoughts compound and end up consuming your entire mind in these moments. Screaming at yourself to just stop. Very powerful use of the medium, really hits me hard.
This song is my family legacy. As for me, I have been there, tried, and failed. I came close to succeeding - it was touch and go in the ICU for a few days, but somehow I’m still here. My sister has been there too. She’s tried multiple times but (luckily) never succeeded. Our father made several attempts to end his life. Unfortunately, he got his wish after his final attempt. There was suicide note, no goodbyes - he just left behind three devastated daughters who didn’t know how to handle losing him. Suicidal depression is no joke. People like us can’t just “snap out of it”. There’s something fundamentally broken in our souls. When meds don’t work and therapy doesn’t work, there are two options: we can choose to live and suffer or we can choose to stop existing. Some of us simply stick around because we don’t want to destroy the people we love, not because we actually want to wake up tomorrow.
I agree im only around for my mom. Other then that nobody would even know I was gone. And part of me made sure that was the case just incase I did succeed. Tried 3 times all 3 failed so far i am ok but one day maybe. The only thing keeping me here is my mom and dog Ava...
I live in that world too! As, I've said numerous times! Those of us who suffer, & do battle mental health issues! We don't really want to die! We just the pain to go away! And, sometimes people just can't the pain anymore! My mom called me last night & just started putting me down & wouldn't stop! So, I finally interrupted her & said "Mom! I no longer care!" And hung up! And, I hate feeling this way! But, that's how it is!
For the longest time i was only alive because i didnt want to put my family through that i hated living and wanted to just disappear finally it got to be too much and i tried to slit my wrists i sent a text to my brother before i did it that said "i love you but im sorry" he kicked in my door and saved my life i still dont like myself but life is easier to live knowing what i have
You are alive because you matter. You are not broken, you are just in a dark place waiting for light to shine. God is love, you may not see him or feel him physically. But he is in everything and all around. Seek him with all your heart and these burdens will go away. I promise you. You are beautiful and you matter.
BlueCollarChick I’m not sure people can understand how deep the rabbit hole goes with clinical depression. Meds are a quick fix for some but to understand your own brokenness.........nobody else can. The chemical imbalance drives the brokenness deeper into the abyss. The place where it’s so dark you begin to see in it, the silence is deafening, and the pain grows numb......death is there waiting & you welcome it. It hurts when any light pierces the darkness. Being in the abyss allows you o succumb to the numbness enveloping you like a blanket. Your prayer is to never come back to anything. You begin to find peace in the darkness wrapped in numbness. That’s all that exists & all that matters. I’ve been there & struggle to stay afloat. When you surface you have to battle those demons that come at you full force!
It's strange, but this song hits an odd nostalgic note for me. It came out during a time when I was struggling with my mental health and wanted to end my life. I had it all planned out and this song was comforting to me. Then, just a couple of weeks later, I had a very serious accident and nearly lost my life. The accident made me realize I was not ready. It showed me just how much my family loved and supported me, and how devastating my passing would have been for them. Ultimately, I came to realize that I didn't want to go, I just didn't want to live the life I was living. Everything before the accident feels like a dream and the life I have now is where I'm supposed to be.
googled suicidal songs cause i wanted to destroy myself so much then i bumped into this. it's just good to be understood. i am not alone, we are not alone. if you are like me i just want you to know my heart is with you
Been on meds for over 26 years for depression and other shit .....it sucks tried suicide 3 times ...got a nice scar on my wrist from cutting ....guess Im suppose 2 be here...
14 years ago my son tried for the first time. I read the quote from the beginning of this video to him several times. I thought his troubles were behind him. Good job, going to school, happy go lucky. BAM! 8 years ago, he succeeded. The images I have when I found him are forever burned into my memory! If you have friends or family that are struggling, be there for them, whenever they may need you. Living without them sucks!
It always seem worse than it really is. I like to look back on all the bad shit and remind myself If I could get through those things, whatever is happening at the time is going to seem simple in hindsight.
@@Fred-wy7bt thank you but I have lost site of it a long time ago. I find peace when I think about how much better w everything and everyone would be without me here anymore. It brings a calm and peace to me
This gives me chills which lead to tears. It's truly amazing how many people are hurting, and how many of us feel alone. You're not alone, I know you're scared, but reach out. I promise you someone will help you up.
they say suicide is a cowards way out...but when life is so overwhelming, it doesn't matter how strong of a person you were. it's not a "cowards" way out, it's someone who gave up because all the strength in the world couldn't hold them together. when you have the balls to take your own life, then someone says that was a cowards way out...you have no idea the strength that person had and the fight they had to battle...but it's not about strength, it's about pain, and until you've lived in that persons shoes, experienced the things that they've experienced, then don't call them a coward, cause someday you may feel that same pain and wanna take your own life...and I honestly don't believe a coward would be able to take their own life...it takes an extremely strong person to do something like that, and though it ends their pain, the pain it causes their loved ones is imminent, and that's why they're called a coward...but the fight they had to battle was obviously overwhelming...but a coward just simply gives up, the person who takes their own life was fighting for a long time...and cowards don't fight...the person who took their own life was actually a warrior...but was overcome by pain they couldn't win.
Living day by day think about suicide all the time. On depression pills but they don't seem to work and I dreamt about dying. I know shouldn't think this way but I do
@@os9458 No plase stop thinking like that. I know life can be tough but you have to see the bright side. There are people that love and care about you. Feel free to talk to me whenever you you want. Hope you feel better💖.
You have to override every instinct to take the last step. It's not weakness at all. It's the ultimate act of strength. But don't succumb, keep going. After every darkest moment is another moment to keep going
Please don't take your life, I just found you guys, i know this was two years ago. But just like you, i know that number doesn't matter. You could still be feeling it today. You might hear a lot about how the composition and the feelings your music has is powerful but maybe not enough of why you should find that thing out there that makes you feel alive. At the basic foundations, you are all people hurting in the ways we are. The difference in dynamic is that you're the ones screaming it for us. Your healing is out there. Manifest it!!
Brings this hardened Marine to tears to see the Love posted on this page. Reach out and help each other. Some of the strongest people I've known in my life, needed help and didn't get it. 20 years and Marine Corps Ambulance Division taught me that everyone needs a little help sometime in their lives!! People who swear they don't? Look out for them the most, because they DO need help. They just have a little trouble seeing it. Never any shame in needing help. Be that person, to step up and help! Take that step to make this world just a little better. It's simple and it's just as easy as showing up! That's a great first step! Be there, and listen.
"But I waited there forever and nobody ever looked up" Imagine standing on a ledge a couple hundred feet above the concrete. All you want is someone to look up and acknowledge your existence, for someone other than yourself telling you "itll be ok" To anyone that has that feeling in their heart I can say, Calm down, Come down, Itll be ok.
I was listening the radio and this song came on. I immediately started bawling my eyes out. I've struggled with self harm for as long as I can remember and I used it for attempting suicide many times. This song hit me harder then any song I've ever listened too. I only cry around one every 5 months because my body simply just doesn't let me cry. And as I said before, I started sobbing. It's been 30 minutes and I'm still crying lol. Honestly I didn't really want to hear this song rn but at the same I'm really glad I found it. I've never related to a song more.
@@toorpat1410 No not at all. The comment section is made for a reason, I was only complementing the song. Good songs are able to share certain emotion with the listeners. I was just stating the fact that this song is very moving to anyone that has gone through it. All I did was say that I self harm, I could've went into detail about it but I didn't. I just said enough to get my point across.
I've dealt with the same thing. Im almost 17 and I've been cutting since I was 11. I have scars all over me. Some worse than others, suicide was almost every month. It seems no matter how much I tried I just couldn't die. I went to at least 8 mental institutions but they only made it worse. So I told my therapist about that and she acted like she cared but then turned around and put me in on again. I got raped by my own father. It went on for about a month but he got put in prison finally. Basically what I'm saying is that everyone has problems, some worse than others, but it always gets better. My grandma is dieing but I have the unconditional love and support from my amazing boyfriend.
This song really helps me to keep going, I have been in therapy for 7+ years and honestly you never quit being "Suicidal", the pain never goes away but you learn to live with it, therapy and songs like this helps me cope with life and all the events that happens within it, I have good days and bad days, the bad ones is when all my suicidal and self-destructive behaviors come around, but at least I have stopped hurting myself since 2016. "Once an idea has taken hold of the brain it's almost impossible to eradicate".
Lyrics I tried it once before but I didn't get too far I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up I tried it once before and I think I might have messed up I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die But nothing very special ever happens in my life Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough And I should have told my mother, "Mom, I love you" like a good son But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah I tried it once again and I think I might black out I should've left a letter but I had nothing to write about My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be I tried it once again and I think I went too far The man that I was meant to be I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart The man that I was meant to be I couldn't tell my mother, "Mom, I love you", I'm a bad son This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
"Maybe i'm alive cause didn't really want to die." Some massively deep lyrics that make me think of a line that Brent Smith once delivered: "the will to live will always be stronger than the ability to die"
I know the feeling of waiting 4ever n no one looking up .... I found this young a few yrs ago n I still listen to it when I'm deep lost in my my own mind n alone
After reading several comments, and taking a few minutes dry the tears and focus my eyes I've surmised that the band should probably work a deal with a tissue manufacture before they tour, and they should probably bring 2 extra busses and a small army of counselors. I'm sure many of you will try to catch their show, if you do, just take a wide look around the theater and KNOW that you are NOT alone. There are tens, even 100's of thousands of you needing someone to hear them. To grab hold of them when they reach out. YOU ARE NOT ALONE brothers and sisters.
I listen to this song every morning when I wake up to remind myself that suicide isn’t the right choice. The fact that y’all made a song that is so fucking relatable is insane to me. Thank you for saving a life.
i love how every one in the comment section has a different verse that speaks to them. Just shows to prove how relative these words are... for me its "i am afraid that all the blood escaping me wont end the pain.."
For me it's 2 lines "I should have left a letter but I had nothing to write about" "I couldn't tell my mother that I love her I'm a bad son" I'm afraid that in death I won't have the courage to tell my loved ones I love them, and I need to tell someone everything going on in my mind but it's just impossible to put it into words.
Man, I wish that I could explain how deep this hit... Alot of us listening to this song has been there before or even going through it right now. That feeling of pain, being alone and feeling that no one cares. Hiding the pain behind all the smiles and jokes hoping it would go away.
"This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one." Truer words have never been sung! And yet, they're also the most inspiring to live the best, most authentic, life I can live.
I've never heard a song that so directly and explicitly expressed my feelings at the time of hearing said song... I needed this. Really really REALLY struggling to stay alive right now..
There are numbers to call.. Please if it gets really dark.. Look for the light and call.. You are wanted here no matter no hopeless and alone you might feel.. You aren't alone
I do not know you nor your situation, However I do know that great things are possible for anyone including you! Having hope when life is bringing you down is no easy task but you are strong enough to push on and Fight Through iT!! Fight hard and fight with passion for your life will always be what you decide
Hannah Brown HEY... my name's J and I GIVE A FUCK. Been there, came back.... Idk your beliefs but regardless, I pray that whatever it is that's eating at you is weaker than your vision and purpose. I hope you conquer this pain by eating that shit up like a mf taco and using it as fuel to blossom. Find me on IG @jaylyn520. You need a listening ear to bitch about the ugly of the world? Well you're in luck, cause I'm lucky enough to own two baby. 😉 If you need to be reminded about all the beauty this world has to offer.... I can show you better than I can tell you. 💝
I saw these guys live in 2017 and the energy and fun was out of this world. This song is a extreme stark reminder to me that life is to damn short. As a 2 time survivor myself, this is always at the top of my playlist.
Discovered this song by accident on Spotify months ago. Sounded cool. It's just now that I noticed what the song is about and how real and serious it is. Reading your comments, seeing how people share their stories and support each other makes me really happy. Thank you all for being here and taking part #faithInHumanity Stay stafe! If you should ever doubt "being needed here" please know from the bottom of my heart that you are. It must be so random to read this from a random stranger on the internet, but it doesn't change a thing and it's true. YOU are GOOD. YOU have a PLACE on this earth (or whatever planet you are reading this currently from). You are unique and you are invaluable to humanity. If you should ever think otherwise, please PLEASE talk to someone. Talk to someone professional. Ask for help. Accept help. There is always someone who will help you out. Thank you all! ❤️
Same i found this song, I thought it just sounded nice. Like, I knew it was about mental health but I just realized its hella deep and about suicide and depression
It gets rid of the pain for tge person that feels it most. Energy is neirther created nor destroyed. By your logic that one person held enough pain to soread through whoever would be effected by it. By anyone's standard, that's a whole lot for one person. Energy is a set principle but emotion pain is different. Checkmate.
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Some people say that lyrics about suicide encourage those feelings. For me, it made me feel like I wasn't alone and the struggle I was going through was valid. This song honestly helped me a lot. Suicide is a huge problem that needs to be talked about. It's only a problem when shows like the one that lists 13 reasons why suicide is a good idea capitalize off of glorifying the act for drama. To whoever's reading this, you're not alone, people care about you and there is a light at the end of the tunnel; depression is just a cloth over your eyes that keeps you from seeing it.
Friend i could not agree more!!
Exactly, people that say that probably aren't depressed.Fight fire with fire, a sad song is a great way for the artist to vent or help others and for the audience to relate.
That's the problem! Avoid stuff! My father beat me, suicide looked good. I supported him to the age of 38! What a weak geek! He said he would kill my mother an sister if I left! He died 17 years ago! Terrible thing it is that u are glad your fathers dead! But I have been free for the past 17 years! My point is don't give up! That's why I am still alive!
When he sang "I had nothing to write about" I knew I wasn't alone. Someone else understands what it's like having everything on your mind but nothing to say. Please pull through. Maybe you don't believe this but I want you to know Jesus loves you. You're not alone and I hope everything turns out good for you.
Ghost helps with coping..they saved many a people...
This song has really hit home for me. My husband and I lost or daughter to suicide 7 months ago. Everyday I sit and think about my baby girl. I think about the last month of her life. What did I miss? Was she trying to tell me something and I just didn't listen. Did something happen and I didn't pay attention. Did I not talk to her enough...hug her enough? Laugh with her enough? Question get aboutwhat was happening I her life enough? Show her I care enough...love her enough?!!! I go crazy thinking about what I did to make her want to leave. She said good night and I love you too...went up to bed and was gone the next morning. No note no words of the pain my baby was obviously feeling.
This song is the closest thing to What I imagine my daughter was feeling.
It acc scares the shit out of me to think about how many kids and adults feel like they have no hope. That ending that beautiful life is the only way to make the pain go away. Most mornings I can barely get out of bed. I have no more tears left. My husband children and I hurt so bad and miss Krystine so much but we go on. For her and each other. I know I'm going on when everyone is just trying to listen to a song. Most won't careabout my story but I beg that if one person is reading this and thinking about taking their life just know that it does get better and there are people who love and care for you and can't imagine life without you in it. You can get help even if you have to scream at the top of your lungs to get someoneto listen. I'm a mother who lost her child. I would trade my life for hers in a second but I can't. I'm left here with the pain and questions. Please don't leave your mom or dad or family with that pain. Ask for help.
My brother committed suicide 7 years ago and there's literally not a single day that goes by without hearing about him or thinking about him. My heart goes out to you and your husband. The process of recovery is long and hard, and you're likely to be without anwsers for the rest of your life wondering what could have been done to stop this. Sometimes you don't get answers. I'm incredibly sorry for your loss. Having been to the point of self-harm myself when I was much younger, ive only come to realize that suicide is the most devastating way to lose someone. You're not alone in this. You've got my heart right now and I know you'll make it through this.
I'm so sorry for y'alls loss, from the bottom of my heart
God Bless Your Daughter! My prayers and heart are with you and your husband and family during this very rough period! God Bless All of You!
Im sorry for your loss i cant imagine the real pain you feel but i felt the emotion in your words
Kristi Fy my sister committed suicide in 2011 and its haunted every part of me every memory of her that I've ever had has been replaced by seeing her there lifeless and gone I'd trade with her in an instant I think about taking my life almost every single day the only reason I'm still here now are my two daughters if not for them I would've self destructed long ago
"I am afraid that all the blood escaping me won't end the pain and I'll be haunting all the lives that care for me" is basically what keeps me around.
Same.
In the old days we were taught to cope with trauma and knew life wasn't fair. I believe it's the idea that bad wasn't ment to happen and is only bad. Some things nobody should experience but the rest are how we become our best selves. If I'd been born these days I'd have green hair and cut my thing off for sure cause I pushed the limits back than but in time I learned to handle things and to not ever expect anyone to care more about me than me. Hope you feel better cause feelings can't be controlled really. Those without are so lucky but also the problem the rest of us struggle with. Your worthy and someone's favorite person no matter who you are.
@@donaldhitman6724 exactly!! Please watch What is a Woman! and also watch anything about Mind control.... we are under a group of evil people who want us sick and hurting!
I'm glad your still around🤘
I feel this completely!
My son took his life 3/29/21. He wrote out 4 lines from this song to me 10 months before that. This is "his song" when I hear it.
"I should have told my mom, mom I love you like a good son, but this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one"
Unfortunately, I've felt that way since I was 7 and I've tried more times than I can count. I'll be 51 this year. I'm so sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry for you loss. I instantly started crying after I read your comment. I cannot imagine what you are going through and I will pray that you find peace, or some facsimile
I'm sorry for your loss! Can't imagine losing a child. That same line hits me hard. My mother was dying from cancer in Michigan and my dad who lived near me in Florida passed suddenly of liver failure. Wish I could have been there for my mom. She was 61 and my dad was 60. If it wasn't for my brother I would have taken my life by now. I was 26 when my parents passed and almost lost my brother to fentanyl 6 weeks later. Truly I'm sorry for the loss of your son!
I'm so so sorry for your loss, my heart aches for you, I too have a son with the Angels ❤
sorry to hear that. it's tough, some times things just happen so fast and its been hard enough to just live on your own, it becomes easy to overlook subtle hints. only after when things fully set in do the signs become clearer sadly
“maybe I’m alive cause I didn’t really wanna’ die..” it’s been almost two years since my battle and I still relate to this...
No matter how dark the night, the sun always comes up. Dont waste your short time here:)
❤️so glad you’re still here
Keep fighting, you’re important ❤️
shane brady that reminds me of the Shinedown quote from The Sound of Madness “ the darkest hours never come in the night “
"You may say you don't want to live, but when tossed in the ocean, you struggle for the surface."
I remember when I first heard this song I had to pull over because I burst into tears. If you struggle with depression like I do just know that you are not alone. It gets better I promise.
Timothy Daly happens to me all the time this song hits a piece of my core I can’t explain
I've struggled with suicidal thoughts and tendencies for years and even now I'm in a good place I have a beautiful pregnant girlfriend who loves me and an amazing mom and sister and her boyfriend is amazing too so are his kids just don't want them to find me dead in the bathroom
When??
it gets better ive had that gun to my head many times it wasnt until i sobered up till i recognized how precious and short this life really is i have severe panic attacks whenever i pass a cemetary or funeral today i am scared to die im not ready to meet my maker
Sure it does...
"Nothing very special ever happens in my life" and "This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one". I feel both those lyrics with every fiber of my being
Hey, hope you're ok.
@@quotidian5077 thank you! Just taking it day by day to 💕
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@@dylanfitch2997 keep on keeping on!
Everyday of my life
Knew him back in kindergarten/early elementary. So excited to see him and his band are having such success!!
this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🐺 🎹
quit lying!
my buddy from that age killed himself, still havent processed it tbh
My brother sent me this song last month, 2 weeks before he died! This song is his life, exactly what he felt. RIP Christopher Neel, I love u brother!
🙏🏽 May he RIP, something similar happened to my brother in law his ex wife had a daughter that wasn’t his own but she looked at him as her Daddy, little did we know she took the divorce real hard and this was a song she listened too a lot.
Rest in peace. I lost my brother 8y ago
R.I.P I lost my father to suicide a few years ago
WOW. I just lost my brother Feb 18. When you say this is how he felt, I can understand what you think/feel. " This life is overwhelming but I'm ready for the next one" no more pain. R.I.P Josh G.
My brother also named Christopher told me this song reminded him of himself and 2 months later we lost him. I will always remember this song! I miss my lil bro so much, i dream about him alot. Life just isn't the same and i dont feel it ever will be. Its been 2 1/2 years and i still struggle every day. Damn i miss him and wish he was here! He didn't go by suicide directly but substance abuse, depression and just lifes bullshit took him from us . He had a cardiac arrest at 35 years old which is 19 years younger than me so i practically raised him! My best friend! I love and miss him every single day and always will! Fuck!
Waited there forever and no one even looked up. This line hits a nerve with me.
me tio
We see you brother.
Your comment sounds like you are an attention hound he is just sing a song I doubt he actually tried to kill himself he is just trying to make a statement about the way the world is going
@@rnk0716 Shut the fuck up. You probably don't understand what it's like to feel the pain of suicide, and how hard those couple of words hit you when you hear them. They are fucking soul-crushing. They hurt. Now get the fuck off of the internet. We don't need people like you making everybody's lives harder and more painful. Go fuck yourself while you're at it.
Yes. Bc so sad but true.
I lost my beautiful teenage son to suicide. I was driving to the cemetery this morning to visit him, something I do a few times a day, when this song came on the radio. I have never heard this song before, but it hit home with me... I didn't get a letter, all I got was unanswered questions, a broken heart, and a shattered life that will never be the same. I will never heal or understand why this happened. I had no hints, I had no clue. I woke up to find that my son had decided he was ready for his next life. A day I will never forget... If anybody ever needs to reach out, do it. You do matter to several people. Please reach out!
I'm so sorry for your loss and pain. 😞
fuck, i’m so sorry. so very sorry. i hope you can find some semblance of peace and healing.
so much love to you.
That has to be the worst thing possible 😢. I pray that God will touch you deep inside and ease your pain. And give you some answers that will help you deal with it and a deep wisdom that will rise from inside you.
@@joeelder4385 Thank you. It is the worst. No parent should have to bury their child.
I really feel for you.
People who don’t have to deal with issues like this WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND.
I promise you the one's left behind very much understand.
@BigOrangeMountain no they won't.
"The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked" . That fucking hit man
Deep, my friend
@Brannon Williams OMG 😢How are you now? Definitely a hard hit to your soul.
@Brannon Williams I’m hoping everything is going good for you now. It’s not easy to be brave to stay alive, but you were given a second chance and one can only hope you have the strength now to keep fighting ❤️
Dude
The whole fucking song hit. especially when its relatable, listening to the lyrics hit like a truck.
FACTS
The last line... makes me cry.
“This life is overwhelming and I’m ready for the next one”
Imagining there is a next life with different possibilities is what kept me from ending it. Takes the pressure off of yourself, because so many believe they only have one shot at being happy. I guess the imagined idea of there being other worlds just keeps my mind in wonder more than angst. Of course, others will have different reasons to live, but mine is just weird, and I can accept that.
There's a line from an A Perfect Circle that you should connote with this song as well, then. "What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die"
jasmin2847 yeah.......I so relate to it!
memillionthdoot interesting reason! You’re right that everyone has different reasons whether it’s longing for death & surviving this life & healing from past traumas. I used to think I was too chicken to kill myself......the love for my boys kept me here. Then two years later I lost one of them. It’s been a rough journey though the pain.
Johnny Bobcat excellent band!
I lost my son to suicide 7 years ago. He was almost 29 years old. I didnt know he was so depressed. It still hurts so much. I just heard this song today and thought I would cry. But I didnt. For some reason it makes me understand more that he just didnt want to be here anymore. I love and miss you Brandon. SO MUCH.
ur gonna meet him again, stay strong
Its today that I lost him, now 8 years ago. Thank you so much. I needed this comment.
@@rhondaharrison2764 Wow im speechless. I found this song suddenly and just got a urge to scroll the comments and reply to you.
It being the same time as your sons day of passing is crazy. I truely believe it is a sign from your son. This life we live, has its share of joy, sadness, frustration and every possible range of emotion a human can feel. It is easy to get overwhelmed with pain. But I know once its our time to move on, we will be reunited with our loved ones.
Your son is watching down on you with pride, keep living and make the most of the time we have left. One day its all going to make sense for all of us.
I thought the same thing, I also heard this song on my way to work that day. Thank you for your comforting words..
I'm so sorry for your loss. 😞
I want the artists to know:
You LITERALLY saved my life with this song. As of when I'm posting this, I'm in the worst place I've ever been. But this song simultaneously provided me with both the perspective of my worst option as well as a catharsis of how I was feeling that enabled me to carry on and work to improve my life.
Thank you for saving my life!
I will work to make things better for me because of you.
I want to die
Heck yeah. Thank You for chilling with us until it’s actually time!
I'm so glad you're sticking around, and I hope the past month has been better for you. ❤
I am glad you are here
The lyric, "This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one", hits me so hard
Might not be a next one
@@johnwilliams1186 for me, it'd be oh well.
Sometimes same here.
Same 🧡
Same here @chloemccain8900
I don't think the band realized exactly what they created with this song. This is probably one of the most raw songs I've ever heard in my life.
Damn.
Oh, I think they know
I would say that they cut open their heart and spilled every word onto the page.
i think they knew exactly what they made here...
I. Hate. This. Song.
@@CallMeCamuran Because. I. Went. Through. This. Shit.
"Maybe i'm alive cause i didn't really wanna die" gives me goosebumps every single time...
Thought about my friends and the way I didn’t give enough gets me
@@lordhelmit1499 my guyyyy I don't even know you and I care. I know that probably doesn't mean anything to you (and honestly i'd understand that) but i really hope you'll get better and find something worth staying alive for idk also if somehow possible pls get help and if you already got a therapist or something and they don't help try getting a new one if possible (talking from experience there, getting kicked out by your therapist ain't fun yikes xD)
Yep. I've said those words to myself too many times.
FRRR
Its how it is at least for me. And I'd like to think that its that way for most others too. Its not that you want to die, you just want the pressure to stop. The expectations, the disappointment, the pain no matter how large or small. Its just the desire to escape the pressure, but not knowing how to accomplish that. Everyone has their escapes but unfortunately some times your escapes end up losing their intended effect. But to those of you that stay and push through, I'm proud of each and every one of you.
Songs like these are proof that EVERYONE struggles, gets depressed, etc. Depression isn't picky, it'll catch anyone it can. Musicians that write songs, such as this amazing song, are beyond brave and honest for writing lyrics about their struggles, suicidal thoughts, etc. This song truly does hit home for me. In a way it's nice to know that even some of my favorite musicians relate to how I feel, but sad at the same time because they're struggling with depression as well.
Everyone struggles? I disagree with that. Some people have it easy most of or their entire lives. Or the things that come easy to them, others struggle with.
In high school, music like this made me feel less alone, in quarentine music like this is getting me through again
Hold your head up, brother!
Yep
I miss music like this. The crap that's playing now is sad. 15-20 years ago was the best time for rock fans. But, really people complaining about social distancing and being lonely are kinda lil bitches.
Same
*pets face*
Wow, I am an older rock guy who doesn't really like new music (get off my lawn) but I heard this on the radio and I was blown away. Fucking incredible song.
Clint Davis Guitar same
Clint Davis Guitar Old heads hanging with new guys huh?
No
Patrick Greear Okay buddy
I randomly heard this on spotify
Whoever directed this should be immensly proud. Such a good music video.
The Duke Of Dorks yup, that part
Welcome to my world
I absolutely agree
The message behind the song is real
Every line of this song is genius.
This is so good but you must hear “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🔥🤘
At first I didn’t notice the lyrics, just liked the song. Then I saw this video and listened a few more times. Chills. Just chills.
Same
Just got them again man heard this over last summer and it feels like im hearing it for the first time all over!
Same for me
For real though.
Same here I heard this song maybe the first couple of times I didn't even hear what he was saying
Sad but great song
When he said” I should have wrote a letter but have noting to write about” that’s deep
Unfortunately yes. I have been there
I just said that
Same thing BLAZE DEMAY
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I thought the same when I first heard it. It made my heart sink
I'm so glad these guys are just so unapologetically raw with their music. If anything I think this is the perfect "suicide song" for lack of a better term because it's so rare to come across a song that tackles the subject of suicide this well. It gives such a hauntingly accurate depiction of the thoughts you have going through this shit I'm sure anyone who's been in this position can agree, but at the same time it really exemplifies just how pointless suicide is and in my opinion it's almost acts as a warning to those who know people living with depression etc that this is the shit that goes through your head everyday at a million miles a second.
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Yeah, they are great with their music! For me, this song is a reminder of what is lost through successful suicide...Seether has a great one as well...very accurate indeed!
Is it pointless though? I mean, it DOES provide the outcome that is desired...yes, there are other side effects...such as being dead, but for someone who can not cope with their life, it's not at all pointless...it has a point, it's just fruitless...nothing good comes of it here, on this plane of existence...and who knows what repercussions there may be beyond our awareness. I want to clarify that his situation is not depression so much as guilt --he killed his girlfriend...his suicidal thoughts are not unwarranted--I mean to say that he has a clear REASON to feel this way about himself and his life...but he has no help to cope with the situation and his feelings and such. We must never ignore, or downplay any person's reasons for wanting to kill themselves! Even if they are irrational, those reasons hold the solutions to the problems leading them towards suicide. We have to LISTEN to the suicidal person--we MUST stop trying to help them, and just listen for the solutions to come!
Thanks for sharing your views, they gave me something to really think about this afternoon!
This is why at these points in my life I listen to this song on repeat for hours on end.... I struggle and I cry but I don't do what needs to be done? Sounds terrible, I used to be a cutter, I briefly stepped back into it. This song reminds me that people rely on me, I can't do this because what of I do cut tooo deep?
I've got a child, family, someone who loves me? They can't deal with the pain I deal with on a daily, I can't and won't put them through this!
This song helped me through a hard ass time..... I'm forever a fan. You saved me.... Michigan
This is so good but you must hear “The Wave” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘🤘🤘
I’m in Michigan too. We should meet up for a meal sometime. New friends are always good and I’m not a weirdo just saying
Now the band Ghost needs to release a song called Badflower.
Marco Havok,
Lol, I heard this on the radio today for the first time. The text thing said “Ghost” and “Badflower” and I thought it was a new Ghost song (with a better singer). This song rocks, though. Ghost is pretty lame.
I thought the same thing @Beach Girl. Ghost is lame tho
Lol
Yes!!!
(Cutting) gives me perspective on how close I was!! 6yrs down? Fucken have to forgive yourself! I love myself, do you?
“I felt a lot of pain, but it didn’t stop my heart”
Damn, the nostalgia almost makes me sick
((HUGS))
Nostalgia originally meant an old pain.
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man that face when he 1st gets in the car is brutal. Its not "sad", its like this calculated cold - but somewhat content look and it depicts depression painfully accurately. Its fucked.
It's the kind of exhausted I wouldn't wish on anyone. It's the face of being done.
@@dylanleger8863 Don't give up. Been there off and on for about 16 years but you have to take the little glimpses of happiness to get you through it. It can get better.
Just that cold feeling of acceptance and relief.
@@dylanleger8863 you ok bud?
@@jimjones7272 it's why I picked the most dangerous job I could. It was accepting that this will pay me enough to get away from everything one way or another. But there's nothing like accepting your death is probable but knowing someone else is in danger that wants to live motivates you to stay alive.
this song explains exactly how i felt when i attempted. my dad cut me down and sat with me in the hospital asking me to explain when i couldnt speak yet. thats when i wrote my letter. first time i ever saw him cry and those tears are the only reason i stayed long enough to have my daughter. i wish i knew this song then
This one made me cry in class.
@@aleenamarie9274 good news though. it got so much better for me. now im getting married in April to a man who sits with me in the dark when i cant find the light even when he doesnt understand, im pregnant with another little girl due in 3 weeks,my first is about to start school, i graduated with valedictory honors, i just bought a new car, and i moved away from the place that destroyed me as a child. it does get better and im more thankful than ive ever been that i was found in time. it took years of hard work but living was the bravest thing i ever did. so if you relate to this song, just know that it wont get better all at once. the biggest likelyhood is that you wont even notice it getting better as its happening. but a day will come where you wake up and look back and feel a sense of "its going to be ok". life has a way of working itself out, even when you think it wont or you dont see a path. keep breathing and the life that youll be living one day will make the hyperventilating you do now absolutely worth it. ❤
@@julia.carr1129 I never struggled with this thought. I did lose 2 good friends tho. I must say you are the bravest person! Your words are coming from the heart. I admire you
@@lynnmartiens5754 im so sorry for your loss. and thank you!
I don’t know you, but I’m so glad you here
So many comments about being suicidal, knowing someone who has committed suicide, etc. It is truly sad how normal it has become. It is truly sad how many people really struggle with depression and other mental illnesses. I want all of you other survivors to know, i am happy you are still here and that you are never truly alone!
“Suicide doesn’t end the possibility of life getting worse. It eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better.”
-Unknown
Sebastian Cortes I was always told that (when pointing my fingers at my chin and pretending to blow my brains out) “its a permanent solution to a temporary problem”. I’ve been lucky to have numerous mentors in my 46 years, and their guidance always came when i needed a push in the right direction of thinking. Now I return the favor when I have a coworker or family member that needs to be educated.
That’s deep and well....very true
Thank you. I needed this so much.
Goodnight randoms
But who really cares about the "possibility" of getting better when you can just have eternal peace? Life is suffering. Birth is a gateway to torture.
Yeah, we've all heard about the suicide is a permanent solution yada yada platitude, but no - life is a permanent problem, in at least as far as it can be permanent. Permanent problems would require permanent solutions. Medication, therapy, food, drugs, games, etc -those are pretty temporary, if they work at all. The last thing I want to see is another damn medical health professional and all their bullshit. Or another of those callous-ass hotlines flung out as quickly as pills.
I lost my brother last night. Heroin overdose. This song will always be apart of me
I'm sorry Kenneth.
You tried.
Adam
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So sorry
Sorry man ...may he find peace
I had same thing happen to my brother at 26 years old i feel all your pain
This Band is in a category of their own. As I see them, real talent from real souls. Eventually, most good bands will die out. I feel fortunate to have lived in the era of Badflower. Thank you for sharing your emotional song with us.
This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹
The sheer amount of loving people who are reaching out to those in need in this comment section restores my faith in humanity. It is struggles such as these that seem to be bringing us together. It brings tears to my eyes hearing about other peoples struggles and just seeing how many people, despite not knowing them personally, care enough to let them know that they ARE worth it and they should survive. Seeing people just being loving and caring for each other to this extent is part of the reason I love the rock community so much. It just makes me so so happy to see that people care. People do care. You are all lovely people and deserve the world.
Just Boosterz I may deserve it but I won’t get shit
Ja Boi why?
Just Boosterz I won’t be sane for long enough
Ja Boi not with that attitude you won't my friend... Change your attitude, and change your life... Your the only one who can. No one else will do it for you! Get off your ass and on your feet!!
glenn george changing my attitude won’t get rid of a fucking brain disorder
He should be an actor. His expressions are on point. Drives the lyrics home.
I wonder if there is any personal experience behind this song.
I really think there is. You don't write a song like this just because.
If i remember it right he said in an article that he had panic attacks every night after the shows whilst touring and was thinking about self harm. He played out the whole scenario in his head and wrote it down. So yes, I'd say it is from personal experience!
Link: loudwire.com/badflower-interview-ghost/
@@angelav3386 you can't*
i’m pretty sure there is personal experience
I'm sure theres personal experience. Only those who've been through this coul be able to express ot that well.
"I should have told my mother that I loved her, I'm a bad son."
It just hits like lightning into my soul.
I know what you mean
Never past decisions don’t make u. Regrets are just learning experiences to show us to love harder and more truer. Love from MGK
i could say it, but i know they dont think it back
The only reason I'm still here.
this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🐺🔥
My son is the reason I breathe every day. He is now 21. Thank you for this song. It has kept me alive. 💜
My son will be 5 in April and I 100% agree. No matter the pain I’m here for him to make sure he never feels that pain. He is my angel
So good but you must hear “Live Not Survive” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘🔥🐺
@marychapman7295 Coming from a woman who can't have kids its very nice to hear a mother talk like that about their child. I become enraged when I hear people complain or they lose their kids to CPS and dont even try to get them back..because people don't know how lucky they are to have children. Good on you mom ❤
Could u buy me a phone for gaming...I'm really sad without one
@@Dragox-mh8fb Wtf?
I think it's so refreshing to have a sonf about suicide that doesn't use cutesie words and metaphors for suicide. This song spells it out straight up. It seems from personal experience, that when you are depressed for a great deal of time (more often than not), people, even those closest to you will become desensitized to it and eventually, as the song says, "no one even looked up." My family barely cares, if at all anymore because they've seen me so depressed for so long (including hospitalizations and plenty of scars on my wrists and marks on my face) that it has become normal for them. They've no idea the level of seriousness of how I feel right now. Maybe if anyone gave a shit they would take notice? Suicidal ideation is beyond difficult. Most people think it's a "cry for help" and all this other bullshit, but there are people in such deep pain out there...it overrides their natural instinct for self-precervation...Keeping yourself alive is one of the strongest instincts we have...can you imagine the pain someone must be feeling to be able to ignore that genetic imperative? I am so sorry to all of you that go through this because I do too. You are CARED ABOUT, at least by this stranger. Love to you all. You're better than you think...
With all of the scars on your arms, it's certain that self-preservation did prevail. We've all been through horrible pain, you are not the first and you won't be the last. It may feel like no one knows, but there are a lot out there who have been through much worse and not only survived but thrived. The pain you feel will only be amplified by those who still care if you succeed. They can't help you until you are willing to help yourself. Pick yourself up and ask for help.
I'm sorry I'm going through something extremely similar. You are not alone
As a school counselor I sometimes tell my students that a depressed student once said, "It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when all around you is darkness". Sometimes I tell them that student was me. This is the one time I believe it is right to say All lives matter. Hang in there. People do care.
Wish all of you had someone like my mom. She went through everything with me and even though she’s gone now she never let anyone struggling down. We are not alone! Someone out there will care!
Thx for that... Care about u too ♥️
Not many songs bring me to tears but this one always does. Such a powerful song and such an amazing insight into the mind of the suicidal. I know Bad Flower got a lot of shit for this song, but for the wrong reasons; it doesn’t glorify suicide it epitomizes the pain too many people feel everyday
I don't see how anyone can think this promotes suicide. "I died to be the white ghost of the man that I was meant to be". I heard that for the first time a less than 10 minutes ago and my eyes can't stop leaking. I am reading these comments through the tears and seeing all these other people that found their hope and purpose. I found my hope over 10 years ago, but I am still struggling to be the man that I was meant to be.
I'm struggling..older I get the harder. Tears falling as I write this.
This song hits home. It's amazing how our mind can convince us that nobody cares - and even if there are a couple of people who do care, theyd be better off without us.
@@williambray7784I understand exactly what you mean. Im going thru the same thing right now.
I think anyone that would criticize music like this has never been suicidal before.
"I couldn't tell my mother that I love her, I'm a bad son."
When i was planning to overdose i remember visiting my mom at work. I smiled, hugged her, told her i loved her and left feeling like a horrible son for the way i lied to her. This lyric hits me really deep.
Oh
Don't know you. But glad you're still here.
I'm so happy that you're still alive to tell the story. Please keep fighting, I know it's not easy.
I love my son more than the air I breathe and I know your mother loves you the same. I’m so glad you’re here!
It makes sense for averyone who has a mom
"the cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked". Felt that
There are a few lines from this song they're too Heavy Hitters. That's definitely one of them.
i tried to OD when i was 14 just to get away from my parents, the neighbor found me, i woke up in the hospital
5 months later my father nearly beat me to death, broken jaw, factured skull, black eye, concussion, dislocated shoulder, broken arm, multiple broken ribs, internal bleeding, i spent a few months in a medically induced coma because i was too small to give enough painkillers to keep me from screaming.
but i survived, and met a man, a US Army soldier, who could never get a date because He had scars all over
and now we're married, He's the kindest person in the world, He doesnt care if people are afraid of Him, because im there next to Him, clinging to Him because Hes my teddy bear
never give up, the universe has a plan for everyone, but sometimes you need to go through hell to find where you belong
Ok....
Omg! I am so very sorry for all your pain & suffering! I cant imagine the the damage in faith ,trust, you must of went through.no child should ever have to go through those type of injuries.. im so glad the neighbors found you,bless her hesrt!
tiny so sorry to hear that
It's odd, but having gone through hell is one of those things we would never want to part with.
Edit: not saying that some of us wouldn't want to forget a traumatic experience, just that we wouldn't want to forget why it's wrong, to simplify things.
I'm so sorry you had to go through that but I'm glad you found someone to spend your life with😊
where the hell did this band come from with pieces of my soul
Teresa Ayers exactly!
Right!? I cant even explain how this song makes me feel when i listen to it.
Fr..
My soul right here
ironically my band is called pieces of me...
High school me would not have stood a chance if Badflower was around then. I love your music guys, keep up the exceptional work!
This song is precious my heart goes out to all those that struggle . Especially with the holidays being here. Lots of love to all
In treatment I listened to this on the radio. I rarely left my room, this song slowly healed me. 2 years later I'm home and I've never been so happy.
I listen to this song both when I'm truly considering it...And when I know I don't have the strength to follow through. Omg are the lyrics ever accurate to many who have attempted before. But life gets better. I love badflower for the true emotional honesty in this song. You've helped more than you will every know
Right there.... been on repeat for the last hour, crying and singing feeling ridiculous but it's what I need rn
This life is overwhelming and im ready for the next one. Ooof preach.
100%
My best friend Jordan passed recently. We met in rehab and he showed me this incredible song. It's very emotional to listen to now since after his overdose it has a whole new meaning to me. RIP JORDAN ROBERTS 08/03/2023.
I’m so sorry that happened to him and you, loosing someone is always a hard thing to cope with, I hope your feeling okay! ❤️❤️
Lost my brother jeremy 10 years to suicide ....all I know he's in a better place now....thanks to who cares
Brandon Butler Hope you’re doing well man, so sorry to hear that.
I care! I hear you!
Sorry to see that man. I care and hope you and your loved ones eventually found some sort of peace and happiness again.
I'm so sorry for you loss.... I lost my brother the same
I feel you man, lost my best friend as well. Sorry for your lose man.
I just lost a close friend of mine to suicide a few days ago. I was the one to call the police at 2 in the morning, unable to get to him because I live an hour away. I spent hours with my best friend sobbing, throwing up, trembling, waiting for the officer to call me back to tell me he was okay.
He was found alive but did not make it out of surgery. When listening to this song... I just wonder. I knew he was struggling, I did everything in my power to help. But some things..
I try to take comfort in knowing that he saved seven people donating his organs. That somewhere on the same time zone, his heart is still beating.
I miss you. There isn't a minute that goes by that I don't think about you, about what could've changed.
'Til we meet again.
I lost someone a year ago. No one new it was coming. I relate.
The Doom Slayer thank you. Peace and love ❤️
Ali Grace and that pain will be with us for the rest of our lives man.
And i honestly don't care what anyone says. When there's something that takes you back the pain is still the same no matter how long its been. If you need someone to talk to ill listen. I watch this page because i have one i lost but i have one who survived as well. And this is a trigger song but also a comfort song for her. So i watch it to try and help other people.
Your story is heartbreaking...sorry for your loss!!!
I just cried my eyes out after hearing this on the radio. I've had clinical depression for 23 years and am a survivor of multiple suicide attempts and this hit insanely close. Thank you for this.
Glad you're still with us!!
My story isn't much different than yours and the first time I consciously heard this song, I had to stop everything. It's been a few days now and I'm haunted by it.
I feel with you
@@davidwithnoid7642So am I :)
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This is the first Badflower song I had ever heard and it got me hooked. I've had crippling depression and severe anxiety since I was about 14, and I'm in my 40s now. It took until my late 30s to find medication that made life bearable. I'm not happy, I'm not living, but I'm live. I was so sure I'd never live past 30, and life was incredibly surreal once I hit that age.
I've struggled with suicidal ideation my whole life. I've never attempted, but I've thought up plans so many times, had sudden impulses while driving, and literally prayed to die in my sleep.
As the lyrics say, nothing very special ever happens in my life, afraid of "haunting" the people left behind, I just want someone to care, and life is absolutely, utterly overwhelming and I am so ready for the next one, if it exists at all.
Hearing this song was like an arrow straight into my soul, it spoke about thoughts I've had for so long, and put them into beautiful, haunting music.
Yeah, I feel like a freak. Why can't I just be happy like a normal fucking person? Why do I need medication to make my fucked up brain just "sorta" work right?
I was obsessed with Ghost the second I heard it, and it still seeks to me deeply. Many Badflower songs speak to me, one of the things I love in their music is their brutal honesty about mental illness and thoughts of suicide, tabboo subjects that nobody wants to talk about, either due to internal shame or fear of judgements, or for people who don't experience, not wanting to deal with the reality that so many people are struggling and that that's a difficult prospect to think about with no easy answer (or simple lack of empathy, understanding, or even belief that depression is a real thing).
But anyway, Badflower is up there in my number 1 spot for favorite. I can't help feeling there's something special about them.
This is by far the best song for what is going through someone's head after a failed a suicide attempt. (Mine was the safety was still on) Even years later, and not being suicidal anymore. The feels are too fucking real.
Damn...... You're here bro.
@@aliensource884 yeah. But I shouldn't be and don't want to.
@@LoneWolf-wu6yn you should be here. I know how you feel, honestly I do. But please, you've got every reason to be here. Please don't leave.
Tried it myself with 2 different guns. Right gun trigger pull to head (click). Point to ground, pull, boom. Left gun to head, pull, click. Left gun to ground, pull, boom. Never once did I rack either. Happened 3-4x each gun. I’m here to stand for my family and help others who suffer inside like I do. Individually weak, but together strong.
Just got out of crisis treatment #16 I can't stand this place
"This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one" , "the cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked" - these fucking hit home
Fr
" But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one. "
I know exactly how this feels.
Best new band I have listened to for years! Epic and quickly becoming one of my favorites. Seems to have honest energy and passion in their music !
this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🐺 🎹
I overdosed September 14th 2014 and God gave me another chance so this song really helps me remember why I'm so greatful to still be alive.
i've never made it through this song w/o crying... every single word hits me to the point where i can't believe someone wrote this and made it public. i feel like this is just so... personal. truly beautiful.
This song has saved my life at least once. Can't thank badflower enough for their raw and relatable music
Your music helped save my life, Badflower. I'm only 13 and I'm glad I lived to be a teenager. I'm going to your concert on Wednesday 4/27/22
Thank you so much
It was awesome
13? Listen kid I'm 40. I've been dealing with the bummers since I was like 8! So what? Move forward dude. You should check out the song just wait by blues traveler
Hey that's awesome keep holding on to the music it's what makes life life worth it in some cases. Hope you have fun
hang in there, kiddo. it gets better. you’re gonna be okay. stick around for us, please. you’re important.
@@jacobmaslin5481 I feel bad for you I go through it to bro
Being a veteran i just came across this song and i can relate in the struggle... now it inspires me great job Badflower!!!!
Thank you for your service sir :)
So, I wasn't the one to discover this song, it was my boyfriend. I had recently attempted, but he stopped me and I was put in the hospital for a while and after I got out, this song came on his playlist. And we both just sat there listening to the lyrics and he started crying and I asked why and he responded with "I don't know how you must have felt to try to do what you did, but this song gives me a good idea" and that just kinda hit me.
Tahlato brings tears to my eyes. You have a wonderful boyfriend there. So many people turn away or are afraid when someone is suicidal. They don’t try to understand. Seems like he does and that’s so special. Sending love your way.
Yes.....that sounds about right. Sort of the best rationale I have for anyone that doesn't get it. Good luck to you, I hope your days since being admitted have been better, full of happiness, and less stressful. Sometimes people don't realize how hard it is to get out of bed and keep trying; but I do. You have a brave soul. Thank you for sharing.
I am so glad that music was capable of bringing him to that understanding. It's so powerful.
Tahlato you teared me up!
Why am I crying in the club rn
To my younger self,
I'm glad you were strong. I know things were so hard. You are so strong now and so happy. Thank you for hanging on. The pain goes away, I promise. Keep going. Keep going! ❤
This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧🔥🎸
This is the comment I never knew I needed to read❤
there is no 20 years for me, only hate.
This band is so great and underrated. That drum fill at 2:35 is so amazingly simple but sounds sooo good
Sooooo underrated.
As a suicide survivor, I do not think I have ever heard a song that so accurately encapsulates what goes through your head and heart during those most overpowering and dark moments where you feel compelled on to act on your pain.
Darthsikk true that!
I love how towards the end when it starts to layer the lyrics, really shows how negative thoughts compound and end up consuming your entire mind in these moments. Screaming at yourself to just stop. Very powerful use of the medium, really hits me hard.
I agree...
me to.
Same man, can tell it is written with insight. He has already attempted suicide or knows someone.
This song is my family legacy. As for me, I have been there, tried, and failed. I came close to succeeding - it was touch and go in the ICU for a few days, but somehow I’m still here. My sister has been there too. She’s tried multiple times but (luckily) never succeeded. Our father made several attempts to end his life. Unfortunately, he got his wish after his final attempt. There was suicide note, no goodbyes - he just left behind three devastated daughters who didn’t know how to handle losing him. Suicidal depression is no joke. People like us can’t just “snap out of it”. There’s something fundamentally broken in our souls. When meds don’t work and therapy doesn’t work, there are two options: we can choose to live and suffer or we can choose to stop existing. Some of us simply stick around because we don’t want to destroy the people we love, not because we actually want to wake up tomorrow.
I agree im only around for my mom. Other then that nobody would even know I was gone. And part of me made sure that was the case just incase I did succeed. Tried 3 times all 3 failed so far i am ok but one day maybe. The only thing keeping me here is my mom and dog Ava...
I live in that world too! As, I've said numerous times! Those of us who suffer, & do battle mental health issues! We don't really want to die! We just the pain to go away! And, sometimes people just can't the pain anymore! My mom called me last night & just started putting me down & wouldn't stop! So, I finally interrupted her & said "Mom! I no longer care!" And hung up! And, I hate feeling this way! But, that's how it is!
For the longest time i was only alive because i didnt want to put my family through that i hated living and wanted to just disappear finally it got to be too much and i tried to slit my wrists i sent a text to my brother before i did it that said "i love you but im sorry" he kicked in my door and saved my life i still dont like myself but life is easier to live knowing what i have
You are alive because you matter. You are not broken, you are just in a dark place waiting for light to shine. God is love, you may not see him or feel him physically. But he is in everything and all around. Seek him with all your heart and these burdens will go away. I promise you. You are beautiful and you matter.
BlueCollarChick I’m not sure people can understand how deep the rabbit hole goes with clinical depression. Meds are a quick fix for some but to understand your own brokenness.........nobody else can. The chemical imbalance drives the brokenness deeper into the abyss. The place where it’s so dark you begin to see in it, the silence is deafening, and the pain grows numb......death is there waiting & you welcome it. It hurts when any light pierces the darkness. Being in the abyss allows you o succumb to the numbness enveloping you like a blanket. Your prayer is to never come back to anything. You begin to find peace in the darkness wrapped in numbness. That’s all that exists & all that matters. I’ve been there & struggle to stay afloat. When you surface you have to battle those demons that come at you full force!
It's strange, but this song hits an odd nostalgic note for me. It came out during a time when I was struggling with my mental health and wanted to end my life. I had it all planned out and this song was comforting to me. Then, just a couple of weeks later, I had a very serious accident and nearly lost my life. The accident made me realize I was not ready. It showed me just how much my family loved and supported me, and how devastating my passing would have been for them. Ultimately, I came to realize that I didn't want to go, I just didn't want to live the life I was living. Everything before the accident feels like a dream and the life I have now is where I'm supposed to be.
googled suicidal songs cause i wanted to destroy myself so much then i bumped into this. it's just good to be understood. i am not alone, we are not alone. if you are like me i just want you to know my heart is with you
You are not alone❤
I'm in the same situation
Been on meds for over 26 years for depression and other shit .....it sucks tried suicide 3 times ...got a nice scar on my wrist from cutting ....guess Im suppose 2 be here...
@@christinakalbaugh9409 stay strong💖
Theres a tattoo on my chest to remind me every day that we are not alone. You are not alone. Im beside you.
14 years ago my son tried for the first time. I read the quote from the beginning of this video to him several times. I thought his troubles were behind him. Good job, going to school, happy go lucky. BAM! 8 years ago, he succeeded. The images I have when I found him are forever burned into my memory! If you have friends or family that are struggling, be there for them, whenever they may need you. Living without them sucks!
That's one of those things that never gets easier. Sending love your way
I’m so sorry for you.
This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one.. I feel this so much rn
K C greetings I’m an idiot to not end it on yourself I’m not very good at English I speak idiot better but don’t end it we need you here
It always seem worse than it really is. I like to look back on all the bad shit and remind myself If I could get through those things, whatever is happening at the time is going to seem simple in hindsight.
Kc I feel you are you from gr
K C, you are valuable. Don’t ever lose sight of that.
@@Fred-wy7bt thank you but I have lost site of it a long time ago. I find peace when I think about how much better w everything and everyone would be without me here anymore. It brings a calm and peace to me
Forget how amazing these lyrics are for a minute, the song literally has the perfect sound. I really hope they release new music soon!
This gives me chills which lead to tears. It's truly amazing how many people are hurting, and how many of us feel alone. You're not alone, I know you're scared, but reach out. I promise you someone will help you up.
they say suicide is a cowards way out...but when life is so overwhelming, it doesn't matter how strong of a person you were. it's not a "cowards" way out, it's someone who gave up because all the strength in the world couldn't hold them together. when you have the balls to take your own life, then someone says that was a cowards way out...you have no idea the strength that person had and the fight they had to battle...but it's not about strength, it's about pain, and until you've lived in that persons shoes, experienced the things that they've experienced, then don't call them a coward, cause someday you may feel that same pain and wanna take your own life...and I honestly don't believe a coward would be able to take their own life...it takes an extremely strong person to do something like that, and though it ends their pain, the pain it causes their loved ones is imminent, and that's why they're called a coward...but the fight they had to battle was obviously overwhelming...but a coward just simply gives up, the person who takes their own life was fighting for a long time...and cowards don't fight...the person who took their own life was actually a warrior...but was overcome by pain they couldn't win.
Living day by day think about suicide all the time. On depression pills but they don't seem to work and I dreamt about dying. I know shouldn't think this way but I do
@@maryoaks7423 stay strong, better days are cooming💖
@@os9458 No plase stop thinking like that. I know life can be tough but you have to see the bright side. There are people that love and care about you.
Feel free to talk to me whenever you you want. Hope you feel better💖.
You have to override every instinct to take the last step. It's not weakness at all. It's the ultimate act of strength. But don't succumb, keep going. After every darkest moment is another moment to keep going
@@os9458 don't be. It's so hard I know. Just keep going.
Please don't take your life,
I just found you guys, i know this was two years ago. But just like you, i know that number doesn't matter. You could still be feeling it today.
You might hear a lot about how the composition and the feelings your music has is powerful but maybe not enough of why you should find that thing out there that makes you feel alive. At the basic foundations, you are all people hurting in the ways we are. The difference in dynamic is that you're the ones screaming it for us. Your healing is out there. Manifest it!!
i am a freak and i love it if anyone needs to talk to someone hmu
Brings this hardened Marine to tears to see the Love posted on this page. Reach out and help each other. Some of the strongest people I've known in my life, needed help and didn't get it. 20 years and Marine Corps Ambulance Division taught me that everyone needs a little help sometime in their lives!! People who swear they don't? Look out for them the most, because they DO need help. They just have a little trouble seeing it. Never any shame in needing help. Be that person, to step up and help! Take that step to make this world just a little better. It's simple and it's just as easy as showing up! That's a great first step! Be there, and listen.
this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🐺
"But I waited there forever and nobody ever looked up"
Imagine standing on a ledge a couple hundred feet above the concrete. All you want is someone to look up and acknowledge your existence, for someone other than yourself telling you "itll be ok"
To anyone that has that feeling in their heart I can say,
Calm down,
Come down,
Itll be ok.
I was listening the radio and this song came on. I immediately started bawling my eyes out. I've struggled with self harm for as long as I can remember and I used it for attempting suicide many times. This song hit me harder then any song I've ever listened too. I only cry around one every 5 months because my body simply just doesn't let me cry. And as I said before, I started sobbing. It's been 30 minutes and I'm still crying lol. Honestly I didn't really want to hear this song rn but at the same I'm really glad I found it. I've never related to a song more.
I think a lot of people feel this way about this song. Its become a lifeline for the struggling. I wonder if the band knows what they have done.
seeking attention much?
toorpat 1 insulting much? How about your negative ass just leaves people alone.
@@toorpat1410 No not at all. The comment section is made for a reason, I was only complementing the song. Good songs are able to share certain emotion with the listeners. I was just stating the fact that this song is very moving to anyone that has gone through it. All I did was say that I self harm, I could've went into detail about it but I didn't. I just said enough to get my point across.
I've dealt with the same thing. Im almost 17 and I've been cutting since I was 11. I have scars all over me. Some worse than others, suicide was almost every month. It seems no matter how much I tried I just couldn't die. I went to at least 8 mental institutions but they only made it worse. So I told my therapist about that and she acted like she cared but then turned around and put me in on again. I got raped by my own father. It went on for about a month but he got put in prison finally.
Basically what I'm saying is that everyone has problems, some worse than others, but it always gets better. My grandma is dieing but I have the unconditional love and support from my amazing boyfriend.
This song really helps me to keep going, I have been in therapy for 7+ years and honestly you never quit being "Suicidal", the pain never goes away but you learn to live with it, therapy and songs like this helps me cope with life and all the events that happens within it, I have good days and bad days, the bad ones is when all my suicidal and self-destructive behaviors come around, but at least I have stopped hurting myself since 2016. "Once an idea has taken hold of the brain it's almost impossible to eradicate".
Lyrics
I tried it once before but I didn't get too far
I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart
And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck
But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up
I tried it once before and I think I might have messed up
I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough
But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die
But nothing very special ever happens in my life
Take the blade away from me
I am a freak, I am afraid that
All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the man that I was meant to be
I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
And I should have told my mother, "Mom, I love you" like a good son
But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
Take the blade away from me
I am a freak, I am afraid that
All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah
I tried it once again and I think I might black out
I should've left a letter but I had nothing to write about
My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked
Take the blade away from me
I am a freak, I am afraid that
All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the man that I was meant to be
I tried it once again and I think I went too far
The man that I was meant to be
I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart
The man that I was meant to be
I couldn't tell my mother, "Mom, I love you", I'm a bad son
This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
This song is balm for any lost soul 🌊
ok :)
OFFSHORE I know
Highly suspect vibes....
802.321 aaweeew
Caitlyn
"Maybe i'm alive cause didn't really want to die." Some massively deep lyrics that make me think of a line that Brent Smith once delivered: "the will to live will always be stronger than the ability to die"
Is that from a Shinedown song or literally a Brent Smith quote?
@@ALP-nr8kx quote
I know the feeling of waiting 4ever n no one looking up .... I found this young a few yrs ago n I still listen to it when I'm deep lost in my my own mind n alone
Makes me feel at home. Suicidal thoughts cross my mind alot. PTSD is no joke.
Embrace the suck
@@revengesweetness2520 i have. It is the fact i have a wife and 3 amazing kids that show me life is worth holding on to
Facts
After reading several comments, and taking a few minutes dry the tears and focus my eyes I've surmised that the band should probably work a deal with a tissue manufacture before they tour, and they should probably bring 2 extra busses and a small army of counselors. I'm sure many of you will try to catch their show, if you do, just take a wide look around the theater and KNOW that you are NOT alone. There are tens, even 100's of thousands of you needing someone to hear them. To grab hold of them when they reach out. YOU ARE NOT ALONE brothers and sisters.
Titan_363 You, my friend, have a shining soul. Thank you.
I saw them last night in Westbrook maine.they did a acoustic version,and let me tell you..It was freaking amazing.
I listen to this song every morning when I wake up to remind myself that suicide isn’t the right choice. The fact that y’all made a song that is so fucking relatable is insane to me. Thank you for saving a life.
This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one.
i love how every one in the comment section has a different verse that speaks to them. Just shows to prove how relative these words are... for me its "i am afraid that all the blood escaping me wont end the pain.."
“and I’ll be haunting all the lives that cared for me” 😭
For me it's 2 lines
"I should have left a letter but I had nothing to write about"
"I couldn't tell my mother that I love her I'm a bad son"
I'm afraid that in death I won't have the courage to tell my loved ones I love them, and I need to tell someone everything going on in my mind but it's just impossible to put it into words.
@@hiddendraco2607 ooof thats the one too.
Man, I wish that I could explain how deep this hit... Alot of us listening to this song has been there before or even going through it right now. That feeling of pain, being alone and feeling that no one cares. Hiding the pain behind all the smiles and jokes hoping it would go away.
"I couldn't tell my mother that I loved her like a good son"
😢😢😢
Daniel Gibeault 😭
"This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one."
Truer words have never been sung! And yet, they're also the most inspiring to live the best, most authentic, life I can live.
This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧
I've never heard a song that so directly and explicitly expressed my feelings at the time of hearing said song... I needed this. Really really REALLY struggling to stay alive right now..
Sending you 💛 Hannah, hope things get better 💛
There are numbers to call.. Please if it gets really dark.. Look for the light and call.. You are wanted here no matter no hopeless and alone you might feel.. You aren't alone
I do not know you nor your situation, However I do know that great things are possible for anyone including you! Having hope when life is bringing you down is no easy task but you are strong enough to push on and Fight Through iT!! Fight hard and fight with passion for your life will always be what you decide
Life never stays dark...it gets better... Stay. ❤
Hannah Brown HEY... my name's J and I GIVE A FUCK. Been there, came back.... Idk your beliefs but regardless, I pray that whatever it is that's eating at you is weaker than your vision and purpose. I hope you conquer this pain by eating that shit up like a mf taco and using it as fuel to blossom. Find me on IG @jaylyn520. You need a listening ear to bitch about the ugly of the world? Well you're in luck, cause I'm lucky enough to own two baby. 😉 If you need to be reminded about all the beauty this world has to offer.... I can show you better than I can tell you. 💝
There aren't any songs that make me cry everytime I listen to them; except this one 💔
Music like this is exactly what keeps people alive. Thank you for your vulnerability 💙
I saw these guys live in 2017 and the energy and fun was out of this world. This song is a extreme stark reminder to me that life is to damn short. As a 2 time survivor myself, this is always at the top of my playlist.
This is so good but you must hear “The Wave” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘🎸🤘🎸🤘
Discovered this song by accident on Spotify months ago. Sounded cool. It's just now that I noticed what the song is about and how real and serious it is. Reading your comments, seeing how people share their stories and support each other makes me really happy. Thank you all for being here and taking part #faithInHumanity
Stay stafe!
If you should ever doubt "being needed here" please know from the bottom of my heart that you are.
It must be so random to read this from a random stranger on the internet, but it doesn't change a thing and it's true.
YOU are GOOD. YOU have a PLACE on this earth (or whatever planet you are reading this currently from). You are unique and you are invaluable to humanity.
If you should ever think otherwise, please PLEASE talk to someone. Talk to someone professional. Ask for help. Accept help. There is always someone who will help you out. Thank you all! ❤️
Same i found this song, I thought it just sounded nice. Like, I knew it was about mental health but I just realized its hella deep and about suicide and depression
found the song on the radio, usually an electrohead but this one stuck out so i googled the lyrics, and damn i didn't know how good they would be
🖤
Suicide doesn't get rid of the pain, it only transfers it to everyone that knows and loves you the most... Energy cannot be created or destroyed
Damn.
True
That's assuming people love you. Or care
It gets rid of the pain for tge person that feels it most. Energy is neirther created nor destroyed. By your logic that one person held enough pain to soread through whoever would be effected by it. By anyone's standard, that's a whole lot for one person. Energy is a set principle but emotion pain is different. Checkmate.
We don't need the guilt trip.