Drowning in Uncertainty

💭 Ever had one of those workdays where everything feels overwhelming? 😣
There are times when the pressure of a looming deadline and unclear directives can feel like too much to handle. For those of us with an NPF diagnosis, these situations can become even more challenging. The lack of clarity, structure, and support can turn a simple task into an internal struggle. 😩
I wanted to share a bit about how some of my workdays unfold, especially on those days when everything feels uncertain and frustrating. This text reflects the experience of trying to navigate through tasks without clear instructions and the stress that comes with it. It’s a glimpse into how these moments can affect us, and I hope it resonates with anyone who has ever felt like they’re fighting an uphill battle just to get things done. 💪
Here’s a deeper look into what that kind of day feels like.
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When I get tasks with a short deadline and no clear directives, it feels like I’m standing at the edge of a cliff, not knowing how to move forward. For someone with an NPD diagnosis (Neuropsychiatric Disorders), this is even harder to handle. I already struggle to maintain focus, and when the instructions are unclear or vague, it feels like I’m trying to solve a puzzle without having all the pieces. I want to understand what is expected of me, but without clear guidelines, everything feels uncertain and I can’t grasp what I need to move forward.
This creates immense frustration. Every time I try to do something, it feels like I’m just going in circles. The more I seek clarity, the more lost I feel. I start doubting myself - my ability to understand, my ability to do things right. And when I can’t get a hold of the task, when I can’t define what needs to be delivered, the frustration grows inside me. It’s like a volcano starting to bubble up, and when I can’t keep it in any longer, anger surfaces. It’s not anger towards others, but towards myself. I get angry because I can’t make it work, because I can’t find the way forward.
Then come the feelings of inadequacy. I feel vulnerable in a way that hurts - like the world expects me to deliver somehow, but I don’t have the tools I need to do it. I struggle to understand what’s required to do a good job, and when the vague directives make me even more uncertain, it feels like I’m failing again and again.
For us with an NPF diagnosis, this is especially tough. When things aren’t clearly defined, when we don’t get the structure we need, it feels like we’re trying to swim against a current we can’t control. Our thoughts spin, our emotions escalate, and we become easily overwhelmed. The stress and anger build up, because when we don’t have the support we need to handle that uncertainty, it’s easy to feel like we have no control - and that can turn back on us.
But despite it all, we try. We fight to understand, to do our best, to meet the demands placed on us. We just need more clarity, more structure, and more support to be able to deliver at our best. Because when we get the right guidance, when we have the stability we need, we know we can overcome the frustration and anger that come from uncertainty.
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