@@LuhraineETN Well no? He was affected by this woman as a child, he has every right to talk about it as much as he wants and when he wants. She’s faced barely any consequences despite the horrible things she did.
"stop talking about it" BYE HE'S A VICTIM??? props to you for not keeping it to yourself, honestly edit to add onto my comment. if he is still talking about it, it clearly still hurts in some way. if colleen gets to make money now, as an abuser of FAR more people than just adam, than adam gets to make money off of speaking up about what she did. it doesnt matter if its tiresome to you; this isn't petty, this is criminal. everyone against what adam is doing needs to grow up.
Also to note is that if you watch the chat section of each of Colleen videos then you will see she regularly makes a comment about her feelings about last year in some way or another. So I say let the other people speak their truth and feels too just because they’re not hiding it in a vlog doesn’t make it a problem ❤
Lots of criminals cry when theyre caught, my cheating ex cried when he got caught, how unfortunate. What is anyone to do about it? ain't that just the consequences of your actions
I don't mean to be rude but cheating doesn't make you a criminal right maybe he did something else that you haven't told us but it kinda sounds like you are calling him a criminal
@@moisavictoria "criminals cry when caught "," my cheating ex cried when caught" Did you just miss the day in school where they taught people how to structure sentences using punctuation to show that you're talking about two different things in one sentence? They didn't say it's criminal to cheat, they were making a point about types of people who get caught out doing something they shouldn't.
I’m literally rewatching the Colleen PowerPoint on H3 at this moment and it all still mind blows me to this day. You came out on top even as a 14-17 yr old. Much more maturity than any of the adults in the situation
I looked on the video, to downvote it and every single comment is in support of her and feeling sorry for her...I even clicked on the "newest" comments,.. it's so disturbing
@@taniacarrera7406 i think a lot of them developed some kind of parasocial relationship with her through her videos (especially because she seemed so down to earth, and many related to the struggles she was dealing with especially with motherhood) to the point where they feel that the persona she puts online is who she really is and now they feel so connected to that, that they can basically convince themselves that nothing actually happened and that she did nothing wrong. It's pretty sad. I used to watch her videos as a teenager and actually only stopped watching her because of the allegations, but throughout the time I've watched her, I've see that a lot of her audience also went from teens to adults during the time they watched her which is probably another reason that they find it hard to think she could ever do anything wrong.
You dont get to just move on from actual real life trauma, this isnt just internet drama. Are we forgetting this woman's track record of behavior and destruction? I havent
As Swoop says in every video: *It's not drama, it's dangerous.* Adam has every right to feel the way he does, to get emotional, and to things off his chest whenever he feels like it. The "just move on" crowd can go touch grass.
@@cassandral.5840 that’s not true there are police officers and lawyers let’s see another example going to a police officer because that’s what you do that’s what normal person does do you see me posting about my abuse about my father putting his penis inside me at the age of 9 to 12 years old I do not also went through the same trauma doesnot do that a normal person with trauma because they asked my therapist both of them if this was normal and they said no it’s not normal to post about your trauma because I’m posting about you again posting but not really
It's so wild to me how much people HATE survivors. I went through some shit and lost almost all of my "friends" because of it. So I really feel ya, Adam. Talk about colleen whenever you damn like.
@@HIAMraptorfriendly reminder that there's no "right way" to cope with trauma, and if you're uncomfortable with someone being frequently public about it, you can just scroll away! shocking, i know
@@alessiapa2000 let me put it this way you think it’s OK to put your trauma on the Internet for every single person to see instead of going to the police and continue going to the place going to family members and other friends to make sure they go to the police and try to put her down because making a video about it doesn’t help anybody because I know he’s trying to put her in jail and doing this doesn’t help anybody all it’s doing is putting people like me and my brother and other people who went through trauma like yours don’t count I actually do something. Here’s my trauma, my trauma is bigger than yours. That’s what it looks like if it’s not what he’s trying to do, but it really does look like that.
NEVER stop talking about it. People like Colleen will always skate by without consequences, and it’s up to people like you and who stand with victims to hold her, and her protectors to the fire.
It's probably because of money reasons and this person is a user of their platform and maybe in their case the personal gain outways the personal loss@@grxcedn
I originally found you through the colleen situation, but stayed for your humor, insightful takes, and overall entertaining videos. I always get so excited when you upload, and I’ve got to say you’re one of my favorite UA-camrs. You have every right to talk about this situation, as it was something so highly traumatic and personal to you. Anyone who says otherwise is an idiot. We love you Adam, just remember your fans will always support you and have your back.
Me too. I didn't even know who Colleen Ballinger or Shane Dawson were until I watched other creators like Swoop (who I started watching because I was subbed to Illuminaughtii). I have never watched any firsthand videos of Colleen's or Shane's and never will give them or people like them my views. Better content isn't hard to find.
i also found adam through this situation. i watched colleen off and on for years but stopped completely about a year before the kody video because when she moved house she pissed me off ("we're sick of our house so we're just going to rent this one until we find one we like! teehee so relatable!"). i like adam far more than i ever liked colleen, and he can talk about whatever he wants. it's weird people act like everyone but the people involved can talk about this.
Me too. I love you. Being a surviver not only doesn't take anything away from your brand, but it even enhances it to the rest of us survivors. Please keep sharing your strength and good humor. A whole bunch of us need to hear it too. Thank you for being you and sharing that.
What are we to do - dwell forever? Focus on bad things exclusively? I’m not disagreeing with you especially in Adam’s case or similar UA-camr allegations, but that’s a histrionic way to phrase that take.
Awareness not ignorance people need to know and remember but not dwell. A complex balancing act requiring nuance that's greatly needed in these situations. In not binary @sus4nah
@@sus4nahmodern society doesn’t give time to marinate. Everything is go go go and this is bad!! It’s a bad thing. We move on past things and don’t give it the attention it deserves and it comes back to bite us, and damage more things later down the road because we don’t want to take care of it now. Or just feel the way you feel now. Feel the emotion you need to feel. When it’s over move onto the next experience. If it comes back and you feel bad about it again that’s ok. Deal with those emotions then move on. People telling other people to move on before they’re ready to are the problem here. And the people commenting on here that are telling him to get over it probably comment other insensitive things on his feed that show they don’t understand The seriousness of the situation. Coleen ballinger grooms children and is rewarded for it. And she’s still being rewarded for it by her ignorant fans
See I was on board with Adam’s story until Swoop’s videos. She’s the reason I started second guessing everything that was being said. Her video with Colleen’s ex was such a bad move.
It’s not bullying in anyway I was raped. I was locked in the closet for a week without food. I was told every single day I was useless piece of crap that my mother wished that she did abortion. My father touched me every single day physically touched me and I’ve been dealing this for 10 years 10 years and do you see me posting about it? No I don’t because it’s not normal to post about your traumaalso if you if you say that it’s normal, it’s normal. I’ve asked two professional therapists if it’s normal and they said no.
@@HIAMraptorPlease don't take this the wrong way, but this isn't about you. I'm sorry you went through that, but you're all over this comment section trying to police how other people deal with their trauma and that's not something you get to do. Your way of dealing with trauma isn't the only way. Regardless, your situation and Adam's situation are in no way comparable. There are other videos to watch if this topic bothers you so much.
@@HeathenDivine you missed the point of my comment people in their right mind who actually went through something traumatic would not do what he’s doing a normal person who went through trauma we got to the police, and if it doesn’t work, you continue going to the police until it does going to loyal to lawyer to keep it private I’m gonna say that word again private because all he’s doing is offensive that’s why I’m all over the comic section. Rubbing into other peoples face insane oh I I am going through this. I’m going through this and he doesn’t every single day every single day not just with Colleen he does it with other people. He said that he didn’t know Daniel Prada. but I do he said that he didn’t know Joey Graceffa but I do he’s causing drama no matter who the person is and I understand there’s other videos but some reason he keeps popping up in my recommendation. It just needs to stop. It’s not appropriate. It’s inappropriate. It’s just playing out wrong.
@@HeathenDivine also my biological father who sexually abused me is in prison. The reason why he’s in prison is because I didn’t post on UA-cam about him every single day he is in prison, not jail prison because I kept it private because every single person in my life did everything they couldto put him there because we kept it private we didn’t put it on the news. We didn’t put it on the Internet. We didn’t put it in the newspaper. My army of people kept it private.
The fact that you can sit there and so eloquently and so precisely articulate how you feel and your reaction makes you 100x the person Coleen could ever be. She couldn’t imagine in her dizziest daydream what you have been through (at an incredibly young age too). For you to sit there and talk through how you feel is incredible, honestly incredible. Hats off, Adam.
The mom in me is going to come out. If talking about it is a way for you to heal… anyone telling you to stop watching it is, frankly, wanting you to be in a place you no longer want to be in. For your healing and mental health.. always do what’s best for you!
i found u thru the colleen controversy last year and never stopped watching after all that died down i just genuinely enjoy ur content, keep being you!!
What bothers me the most is that she's still trying to make you all seem like villains. She is a fully grown woman, and she made choices that she knew were wrong that led her to this point in her life and where she was a year ago. Like you said, it's genuinely sad and scary to see anyone feeling that way or in that low of a mental state, but why did she film it and keep it to release it a year later? She knows how crazy and easily manipulated her fans are, and I genuinely hope that her releasing this clip doesn't cause her fans to harass any of you guys who spoke out or try to guilt you guys for her being in a bad mental state during that time. I also just want to say that I found you through the colleen situation last year and have been here ever since. It's genuinely been so heartwarming to see how far you've come in that past year and how much better you're doing now. The muckers are proud of you, Adam ☺️🫶
She doesn’t even talk about them. How can she be trying to make them seem like villains? She doesn’t address them at all, the most she talks about is how her mental health was bad last summer.
@@Suprachiasmaticpeople like you…. What you did is classified as being an abuser enabler and it’s up to you to self reflect on on the impact your actions has. You ask a lot of bad faith questions similar trait of a shitty person who plays innocent…. I take it you’re likely a Colleen fan
@@Suprachiasmatic Because everyone knows why she has her "woe is me" attitude. She doesn't need to say names. She probably legally can't, but she doesn't need to for people to put two and two together. She made her bed, though. She can lie and cry in it all she wants. We know who the real villain is.
If you wanna talk about it. Talk about it. If you don’t wanna talk about it, don’t talk about it. You have a voice for a reason and it’s such a shame how lonely a child must have felt living through that. Swoop was amazing with her videos. It’s so sad what she’s gone through recently.
Wow already a year? Honestly glad you don’t stop sharing your story especially if it may help you deal with your experience! Honestly no one has the right to tell you to stop. Also that chair/couch looks so darn comfy
I support you speaking on this! “I won’t stay quiet so you stay comfortable” is a quote that sits with me. How can you ever forget these things and just “let it go”? To anyone STILL defending the ADULT in the situation and how “their life is ruined too”, please think about the hill you’re dying on. Good on you Adam for choosing what you engage with when it comes to this topic - you’ve taken back your power! I hope you continue to heal and keep your voice loud and heard ❤️
not only does she still have the video up, but she recently turned off remixing on the video. this means that any video that uses the direct audio or any directly linking clips gets removed from youtube.
Trauma isn’t something that can go away very easily. And these was a serious situation and I’m just glad Adam that you’re doing ok now then you were a year ago
To people slandering Adam for talking about it- There are so many channels out there where people talk about their trauma openly with their audience, why do you feel so offended by Adam doing the same? Growing up in a situation like this severely effects your brain developmentally not even just the mental anguish a victim would go through every single day, to you it's annoying internet drama but to Adam this is literally his life. Anyway, I hope everyone can hear you out and be respectful Adam, stay strong 💜
Colleen Ballinger SHOULD NOT be monitized. She should be ASHAMED at her actions and be held accountable as a predator, as should her brother!!!#ISupportAdam #ISupportVictimsSurvivors ✊🏼✊🏽✊🏻💜💜💜
this woman sat in her big ass house, crying over her own actions, NO ONE else did this to her and filmed that, to make the victims look like monsters and for people to sympathise with her. So it’s valid to feel angry seeing that clip because it’s manipulative.
@@HIAMraptor do you have any idea how insane that sounds? She gets criticized for not apologizing and when someone points out that she actually did apologize they’re told that it, what, doesn’t count because she “wanted attention”? She can’t win and this is why she’s smart to not bother trying to please you people.
@@Suprachiasmatic dude you need to listen people who enjoy making children, uncomfortable, will not apologize they will make themselves happy that she gets attention. Do you know how I know this because I was ranked and he doesn’t get it he is never gonna apologize and then there’s my stepmom verbally abused me and gaslighted me and she thinks it’s OK so a woman who gives a 14 year-old boy underwear women’s underwear her underwear a child putting their hand inside her pants don’t care if the child was touching underwear not she is letting this child put their hand in her pants. That’s not OK and then there’s another incident of this girl teenage girl where Colleen spread her legs and the girl told her to stop and going did not stop there many videos on TikTok and UA-cam that this girl made and you are a grown woman do you have a child because if you do, you wouldn’t have never let this woman this grown woman put your child’s hand in her pants if your child came crying to you because your child told her to stop because it made her feel uncomfortable but she didn’t stop. Do you see where I’m going it’s never OK to do that to your children or children at all.
all of this was a huge experience in your life as a CHILD and then an adult, meaning you are more than allowed to speak about it. no one can tell you otherwise. i’m glad you know that 💖
"Stop talking about it" Why? So the internet can forget and she gets her influence back like nothing happened? Like she didn't upturn lives (of CHILDREN) and doubled down because they spoke up about their abuse? Adam has the right to keep talking about her affect on his life for as long as his life is affected. That could be another year, that could be the rest of his life. It's traumatic. The victim blaming in this whole situation from the start has been INSANE.
I lost my mom when I was 17 and when you started talking about how much your mom supported you throughout everything it made me tear up. That’s what mamas do and I’m so glad you had her to support you through such a crazy situation that the majority of adults would have no clue how to navigate. Glad you’re thriving now Adam! 👏🏽 😊
It was NOT irritating to keep watching you cover Colleeen. If anything, as a victim myself, it was AMAZING to see someone be able to stand up the way you did. It’s ADMIRABLE Adam. THE TOTAL OPPOSITE. you were NEVER annoying to the ppl that wish could speak up. Every time I see you upload about her I AM ALL EARS!!!!
adam, i was also gr00med at a young age online & it’s been almost 8 yrs & your story brought back a memory i didn’t know i had. thank you so much, and awareness is timeless!!
I'm so glad you're still here Adam. Last summer was whack. I hope you're doing better now. Keep talking about it if you need to and don't listen to people who say you shouldn't. You're an inspiration to me, you got this ❤️
i am 32. i was bullied when i was 12, really horribly, by people who i considered friends. i was only able to completely let it go about 5 years ago. i didn't talk about it a lot, but that kind of pain stays with you and it's not fair for people to *expect* you to keep quiet, especially considering what happened to you was so public/online. keep being your authentic self and everything will fall into place. it's your channel, it's your experience, and your story to tell or not tell as you choose.
Bullying and being groomed are two completely different things one is physical and the other one is sexual, which is two different kinds of trauma. I went through sexual abuse, but I don’t post every single day about him.
@@HIAMraptorBoth bullying and grooming are relevant here, though, because both happened to Adam. So someone can relate to his experience of being bullied/betrayed by people he considered friends and share that to express solidarity, even if they don't also relate to the experience of being groomed. And keep in mind that grooming does not have a narrow definition. There are many kinds of grooming, but that fact doesn't take away from what you experienced. There were sexual elements to what Adam experienced even if it didn't go as far as what some people experience. This isn't a thing to be comparing what's worse and therefore what is legitimate trauma, or judging how someone deals with the unique trauma they experienced simply because it does not align with how you deal with yours. We can all support each other. How you feel about your experience is legitimate and no one can undermine it by how they feel about their own, different experience.
Adam you were not irritating to watch. It was beautiful watching you find your voice and stop taking shit from people. You have inspired so many others to speak up. More than you will ever know
I’m a silent watcher but I watch all your videos since last year! You’re so brave and well spoken. What you’re doing by sharing your story is helping survivors all around the world including myself feel validated and heard. I’m sorry your abuser won’t take accountability but I hope the immense support you have received this past year helps heal you.
One of the things that still baffles me, is that the “new” receipts that Kodee had in their video had already existed for a long time on Gossip Garden and the Reddit. I will always be confused as to why it took Kodee’s video to make people notice.
Maybe because of the "drama" of a perpetrator of bullying admitting fault? And admitting to conspiracies to drag someone innocent through the mud? That doesn't often happen, so maybe that made it exciting even to people who don't otherwise follow the topic, and so it blew up.
Because of this terrible situation, I found YOUR channel. I am so glad I did because I love your content so much and will always support you and your journey!
It's so immensely ignorant to tell a victim to get over something that's traumatized them. That's absent of any compassion whatsoever and it's just so gross. Adam, talk about this all you want. There should be reminders that Colleen's actions need to be talked about and given accountability. Adam, you talk about this within your comfort level.
The couch looks so comfy 🤩 People literally forget that Colleen has been in Adams life since he was 13... If you expect him NOT to talk about it, to continue to process it, you're so mistaken. You never fully process abuse and trauma, you can get past it and it not control you anymore. But you never stop asking why. So Adam, continue to talk about it all you want whether it be in front or behind to camera. It's better to talk about it than to keep it in.
@@89rojas08 focus on your own life. Would rather be Colleen living her life than hating on her under this negative ass video 😂 this dude says he’s just trying to get over trauma well knowing that his whole channel is just judging people. The vibes are fucking terrible here
This is your channel. You can talk about whatever your heart desires. And I’m glad you’re doing this as it helps with your healing journey. The scar left will always be there, but you’ve healed so beautifully and I’m glad I found you through the dark storm you had to go through.
Coming up on the “Anniversary” of a trauma can definitely cause a flare up of trauma response. We don’t get to choose when trauma hits us. You have always been completely valid in your story Adam and how/when you choose to express it. Also want to add that the Victim Complex she caused upon her self is maddening
Never stop talking about it, especially if it's therapeutic to do so. It's okay to not be over it either! I went through the worst summer too, last year. I'm still reliving and ruminating a lot from my traumatic moments too. People think it's so easy to simply "get over it" but it's quite the opposite. I think it makes it harder when you suppress anything or pretend you are okay.
she suffered so badly because she refused to give you an apology and truly acknowledge her own actions! like it’s sad to see someone feel that way but really she could have avoided it just by taking responsibility and reaching out
Yeah! I would probably have more respect for her if she did because even if it’s uncomfortable sometimes we have to take responsibility for our actions and recognize our behavior to grow but no she refused because she’s petty
Adam, you helped me heal trauma that I had been through in the past. Through your vulnerability online, I was able to not feel alone. There are so many emotions that come with healing and reliving trauma, and i really appreciate that you shared how you felt through all of it. Because of you, I felt stronger. So I wanted to thank you for that💕
you're better than me, adam. if i were you i would find it extremely difficult to have any empathy at all for somebody who hurt me so much. your feelings are 100% valid and don't let anybody make you feel otherwise.
Adam, I hope you recognize how powerful your voice can be. Thinking on where I was watching this all unfold a year ago, it was shocking, heartbreaking, and horrific, but it made me feel less alone. I’d just moved out of a DV situation, my health was failing, I’d lost my job, and I had no hope for myself to pull through because the people around me were blaming me for being sick. I believed them that it was my fault that I was sick and that I was a burden. Seeing you, Becky, Oliver, and everyone else overcome last summer and tell their stories, your stories, it’s a resilience I’ve continued to pull strength from. Thank you. I hope the years only get better from here.
The fact that there were people who were commenting saying "its been a year get over it" (which I saw in one video) its just heartless, Colleen never took responsibility and went on as if nothing happened. Adam never give up, You are a strong willed person to keep on doing for the truth.
talk about it adam. you can let it go, you can heal and still talk about it. it brings awareness to someone who should NOT under any circumstance have a platform, career, etc.
I can’t get over her acting like the victim when she was making millions and still attacking a child. Adam must have been so repulsed when she had kids while actively trying to ruin the reputation of him, an actual child
Just a reminder, Joey Graceffa still supports CB, isn't willing to acknowledge or apologise to Adam, he also just had a video with James Charles, I am so disappointed as someone who used to love Joey
Adam, you’re so incredibly strong and I think it’s horrible that victims are told they should stop speaking about their trauma or their abuser, and put an invisible timeline of how long it’s okay to talk about it. Victims deserve every right to talk about our abusers, and I think people need to realize that trauma can’t just be ignored, pushed aside, told they took too long to come out, shouldn’t talk about it anymore, etc. I’m so glad that you had people in your life like your mom and friends that believed and supported you through the absolute hell Colleen and her fans put you through. Oliver, Becky, Adam, and other victims in this situation you all are so incredibly strong and brave, ones that have spoken out or not.
idk i may be judgmental af but she's a raging narcissist that won't change. She'll always see herself as the victim regardless of the constructive criticism she may get. You are SO entitled to the emotions and thoughts you have associated with this. Hope you're doing well, Adam! Always speak your truth 💕
It's so bonkers how she says "oh poor me, life is so hard" As if she didn't do this to herself. Like...wow? It must be SOOO hard to live with the consequences of your actions, huh? Also, I've said it once and I'll say it again until I die on the hill...you were a victim. It is YOUR story and YOUR trauma. Only you get to decide until you want to stop talking about it. I know damn well that I'd watch every video talking about her because it can be cathartic to tell your story and reflect on it in a meaningful way. It's not about milking drama, it's about healing. Like Swoop says, it's not drama, it's dangerous. Keep telling the world your story. The second we forget the errors of others, the quicker we are to forgive them and enable the cycle. Sending you love, Adam. I believed you since day one and have been here for a while
As a victom of sa, its rare for me to have a day go by where something dosen't remind me of what happened. Living with it is extremely heavy. It permanently altered my perception of the world. I can only imagine what its like when you have to actually see her and people talking about her everywhere. For someone to say to you to get over it, they dont understand. Im happy for them, that they dont understand, but I hate the way they throw their ignorance around. Wishing you a peaceful day, one where you arent reminded of the pain she has caused you. A day where you can just be. ❤
last summer watching your videos, not only the colleen videos but anything you made helped me cope with my major surgery. this year, watching your dramageddon revisits have helped me cope with another major surgery
I support you. This video is so heartbreaking and I’m just glad you’re doing your best after all of this. Your story is important. Especially during this time. Adore you, mucker ❤ You’re so loved. We’re grateful for you.
you articulate your thoughts and emotions so well. it’s like you put my experiences into words when i couldn’t. and it feels almost as therapeutic than i’m sure it does for you to finally be able to openly speak about it all and actually be BELIEVED. never stop talking about it. don’t let people forget. don’t halt your healing on anyone else’s behalf. i’m listening and i believe you and i want to keep listening. thank you for your strength and vulnerability. ❤
Your story; you can talk about it whenever you want!! Those people who say for you to get over it and stop talking about it can go away. They don't have to be here. This is YOUR space. Sometimes people suck.
Her not receiving a charge for CP/sexting baffles me. When it’s literally in text and proof. I’m disgusted and she should not be around her children or any children. She’s a predator and should be on the offender list. You shouldn’t have to justify this. It’s trauma and a predator groomed you, also sending UNDERWEAR to you. She is a vile person.
I remember watching the first video you put out about Coleen and I remember sitting there heartbroken with the behavior of an adult woman towards a little teenager. I remember my sister used to watch Coleen and she stopped after that. I used to love Miranda sings and now it haunts my dreams
The way you're continuing to be so open and keeping us updated on where you are is so important, thank you for your transparency. We rarely get a look into how abuse effects people long term. It feels like victims get a burst of support at first and then it fizzles out while victims have to keep living with it. It's important to remember healing is a long journey that takes time
The fact that she's just continuing on as if nothing happened and she isn't the most delusional, narcissistic person...I think it's good that you continue to raise awareness so that there isn't other generations of fans who end up in vulnerable positions being preyed on by her.
This marks a year of me being a mucker and no longer being a Colleen fan. Thank you for speaking your truth and encouraging others to do the same. You haven't deserved any of the crap you've been through, and it's beautiful to see you living a great life in Brighton a year out 💜
This was one of the biggest moments of your life. You had to deal with this so long and you’re still dealing with this. It’s absolutely fair that you talk about it and share your feelings. This is not just some tea to laugh and giggle about this is people’s lives!! Literally fuck anyone who says you can’t talk ab shit you went through. The real ones will always support you🫶🏻
This video is so lovely Adam I don’t know any of people are talking about personally, of course, but following your journey over the last year and becoming invested in all all of these other creators like swoop as well, this video is making me so emotional and I’m just so happy that you’re at a point where you’re finding more and more solace and support
thank you for continuing to bring attention to this topic it's a conversation on the internet that NEEDS to be had. UA-camrs having relationships with fans even if it's seemingly friendly is NEVER a good idea. the responsibility always lies on the adults and yet the children and the victims are always the ones scrutinized and blamed!!! I'm sick of it!!!
i hate when people tell you to “let go”. trauma is trauma. it’s not something that goes away. i had the worst year of my life sophomore year of high school (gr00med, familial issues, disabled family) and it still affects me every day and i don’t think that will go away. i’ll stop thinking about it as much but that was such a pivotal moment that really screwed me over. it’s hard. it gets better.
I am BEYOND happy that you have so many amazing people around you supporting you throughout this. What you did is very scary but so, so important. Thank you for keeping on, talk about this as much, or as little, as you want. It’s your story to tell, not just some drama
"I think there is pressure on people to turn every negative thing into a positive, but we should be allowed to say, 'I went through something really strange and awful and it has altered me forever." - Marian Keyes❤
Adam nothing you say about Colleen is insensitive. She's a monster and if you want to insult her than your allowed to. The trauma that you were put through by her is inexcusable and you talking about it along with your feelings about it are valid. Always remember that❤
Never stop talking about your story when you want to! She should never be allowed to have a career with minors
Exactly.
hes obsessed
@@LuhraineETN Well no? He was affected by this woman as a child, he has every right to talk about it as much as he wants and when he wants. She’s faced barely any consequences despite the horrible things she did.
He's a victim 😡@@LuhraineETN
Please never stop talking about it.
It shows how little you have to say.
"stop talking about it" BYE HE'S A VICTIM??? props to you for not keeping it to yourself, honestly
edit to add onto my comment. if he is still talking about it, it clearly still hurts in some way. if colleen gets to make money now, as an abuser of FAR more people than just adam, than adam gets to make money off of speaking up about what she did. it doesnt matter if its tiresome to you; this isn't petty, this is criminal. everyone against what adam is doing needs to grow up.
Right they're acting like it's just drama like SOMEBODY WAS GROMMEDDD🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️
@@markslefttoes4456 I KNOWWW like they think HES petty 😭bfr
Also to note is that if you watch the chat section of each of Colleen videos then you will see she regularly makes a comment about her feelings about last year in some way or another. So I say let the other people speak their truth and feels too just because they’re not hiding it in a vlog doesn’t make it a problem ❤
plus his ab*ser pretty much forces him to talk about it more by saying hes lying
"Stop talking about it" = sweep it under the rug so we can forget about it
I don’t care what people think I will never get tired of Adam telling his truth !!
Could not agree more.
❤same here :)
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Infinitely agree with this!!! He has every right to speak his truth however much or little he wishes!!!
They must be the same few that still support her saying that😒
There’s a difference between letting go of drama and healing trauma. He went through so much and had to relive trauma. He can talk about his trauma 💀
Exactly
Right!
@@MidnightPulse1 then good for him?? you're still watching it either way
preach, say it louder for those in the back
Lots of criminals cry when theyre caught, my cheating ex cried when he got caught, how unfortunate. What is anyone to do about it? ain't that just the consequences of your actions
I don't mean to be rude but cheating doesn't make you a criminal right maybe he did something else that you haven't told us but it kinda sounds like you are calling him a criminal
@@moisavictoria it sounds like they were providing two examples of situations where people cry when caught. what are you on about ?
@@debsahappyfrog1they sound guilty lol
@@moisavictoriaprojecting much?
@@moisavictoria "criminals cry when caught "," my cheating ex cried when caught" Did you just miss the day in school where they taught people how to structure sentences using punctuation to show that you're talking about two different things in one sentence? They didn't say it's criminal to cheat, they were making a point about types of people who get caught out doing something they shouldn't.
adam mcintyre one year later: absolutely glowing.
and her? literally jumped a little with the thumbnail (she looks terrible and unhinged, which perfectly matches her actions 💀)
@@luisabolado adam tease
@@luisaboladorough💀
more like obsessed and still milking off of peoples drama (not talking about colleen, all the other BS that doesn’t include him he talks about)
I’m literally rewatching the Colleen PowerPoint on H3 at this moment and it all still mind blows me to this day. You came out on top even as a 14-17 yr old. Much more maturity than any of the adults in the situation
Absolutely
I’m rewatching stuff of theirs too since they are rudely on break 🤣
Thissss ^^^^^
Her crying like that is really the definition of "oh no the consequences of my own actions"
I looked on the video, to downvote it and every single comment is in support of her and feeling sorry for her...I even clicked on the "newest" comments,.. it's so disturbing
literally
@@alexb7092so true! Why people think that she is a good person??? It blows my mind
@@taniacarrera7406 i think a lot of them developed some kind of parasocial relationship with her through her videos (especially because she seemed so down to earth, and many related to the struggles she was dealing with especially with motherhood) to the point where they feel that the persona she puts online is who she really is and now they feel so connected to that, that they can basically convince themselves that nothing actually happened and that she did nothing wrong. It's pretty sad.
I used to watch her videos as a teenager and actually only stopped watching her because of the allegations, but throughout the time I've watched her, I've see that a lot of her audience also went from teens to adults during the time they watched her which is probably another reason that they find it hard to think she could ever do anything wrong.
@@alexb7092really doesn’t do anything if anything it’s engagement and money for her
You dont get to just move on from actual real life trauma, this isnt just internet drama. Are we forgetting this woman's track record of behavior and destruction? I havent
How many times does adam have to be blatantly used and backstabbed before people shut up with telling him to move on
The only ones saying to "move on" are people trying to hide predators and continue abuse. Keep talking Adam ❤
As Swoop says in every video: *It's not drama, it's dangerous.* Adam has every right to feel the way he does, to get emotional, and to things off his chest whenever he feels like it. The "just move on" crowd can go touch grass.
@@Goatings me neither.
@@cassandral.5840 that’s not true there are police officers and lawyers let’s see another example going to a police officer because that’s what you do that’s what normal person does do you see me posting about my abuse about my father putting his penis inside me at the age of 9 to 12 years old I do not also went through the same trauma doesnot do that a normal person with trauma because they asked my therapist both of them if this was normal and they said no it’s not normal to post about your trauma because I’m posting about you again posting but not really
It's so wild to me how much people HATE survivors. I went through some shit and lost almost all of my "friends" because of it. So I really feel ya, Adam. Talk about colleen whenever you damn like.
YES
@@HIAMraptorfriendly reminder that there's no "right way" to cope with trauma, and if you're uncomfortable with someone being frequently public about it, you can just scroll away! shocking, i know
@@HIAMraptor sweet summer child, bless your heart
@@alessiapa2000 let me put it this way you think it’s OK to put your trauma on the Internet for every single person to see instead of going to the police and continue going to the place going to family members and other friends to make sure they go to the police and try to put her down because making a video about it doesn’t help anybody because I know he’s trying to put her in jail and doing this doesn’t help anybody all it’s doing is putting people like me and my brother and other people who went through trauma like yours don’t count I actually do something. Here’s my trauma, my trauma is bigger than yours. That’s what it looks like if it’s not what he’s trying to do, but it really does look like that.
Who is saying that
NEVER stop talking about it. People like Colleen will always skate by without consequences, and it’s up to people like you and who stand with victims to hold her, and her protectors to the fire.
how tf does youtube allow her to even have a channel? she used the platform to reach these kids and take advantage. its so sick
It's probably because of money reasons and this person is a user of their platform and maybe in their case the personal gain outways the personal loss@@grxcedn
@@grxcednunfortunately youtube barely cares who’s on this platform there are so many horrid people on here
Pretty sure her consequences were losing Miranda sings lol. I’m very positive that was her main source of income.
here you go
I originally found you through the colleen situation, but stayed for your humor, insightful takes, and overall entertaining videos. I always get so excited when you upload, and I’ve got to say you’re one of my favorite UA-camrs. You have every right to talk about this situation, as it was something so highly traumatic and personal to you. Anyone who says otherwise is an idiot. We love you Adam, just remember your fans will always support you and have your back.
Me too. I didn't even know who Colleen Ballinger or Shane Dawson were until I watched other creators like Swoop (who I started watching because I was subbed to Illuminaughtii). I have never watched any firsthand videos of Colleen's or Shane's and never will give them or people like them my views. Better content isn't hard to find.
i also found adam through this situation. i watched colleen off and on for years but stopped completely about a year before the kody video because when she moved house she pissed me off ("we're sick of our house so we're just going to rent this one until we find one we like! teehee so relatable!"). i like adam far more than i ever liked colleen, and he can talk about whatever he wants. it's weird people act like everyone but the people involved can talk about this.
Me too. I love you. Being a surviver not only doesn't take anything away from your brand, but it even enhances it to the rest of us survivors. Please keep sharing your strength and good humor. A whole bunch of us need to hear it too. Thank you for being you and sharing that.
Same
No. People move on too quickly from serious things it’s the worst thing about the world
What are we to do - dwell forever? Focus on bad things exclusively?
I’m not disagreeing with you especially in Adam’s case or similar UA-camr allegations, but that’s a histrionic way to phrase that take.
We are meant to hold these gross predators accountable :/ (so easy to realize) @sus4nah
Awareness not ignorance people need to know and remember but not dwell. A complex balancing act requiring nuance that's greatly needed in these situations. In not binary @sus4nah
@@sus4nahmodern society doesn’t give time to marinate. Everything is go go go and this is bad!! It’s a bad thing. We move on past things and don’t give it the attention it deserves and it comes back to bite us, and damage more things later down the road because we don’t want to take care of it now. Or just feel the way you feel now. Feel the emotion you need to feel. When it’s over move onto the next experience. If it comes back and you feel bad about it again that’s ok. Deal with those emotions then move on. People telling other people to move on before they’re ready to are the problem here. And the people commenting on here that are telling him to get over it probably comment other insensitive things on his feed that show they don’t understand
The seriousness of the situation. Coleen ballinger grooms children and is rewarded for it. And she’s still being rewarded for it by her ignorant fans
@@okasart good take
Swoop is a real one. A girl’s girl. An advocate. A hero.
yess we love her!
Swoop isn't just a girl's girl, but a human's human. Or maybe she's just a real life angel.
See I was on board with Adam’s story until Swoop’s videos. She’s the reason I started second guessing everything that was being said. Her video with Colleen’s ex was such a bad move.
girl no
@@Suprachiasmaticcan you elaborate why it was a bad move? I'm not trying to argue, I just genuinely want to hear your perspective
crazy to tell the person who actually went through something to let it go or get over it
It is bullying and it is revictimizing the victim.
It’s not bullying in anyway I was raped. I was locked in the closet for a week without food. I was told every single day I was useless piece of crap that my mother wished that she did abortion. My father touched me every single day physically touched me and I’ve been dealing this for 10 years 10 years and do you see me posting about it? No I don’t because it’s not normal to post about your traumaalso if you if you say that it’s normal, it’s normal. I’ve asked two professional therapists if it’s normal and they said no.
@@HIAMraptorPlease don't take this the wrong way, but this isn't about you. I'm sorry you went through that, but you're all over this comment section trying to police how other people deal with their trauma and that's not something you get to do. Your way of dealing with trauma isn't the only way. Regardless, your situation and Adam's situation are in no way comparable. There are other videos to watch if this topic bothers you so much.
@@HeathenDivine you missed the point of my comment people in their right mind who actually went through something traumatic would not do what he’s doing a normal person who went through trauma we got to the police, and if it doesn’t work, you continue going to the police until it does going to loyal to lawyer to keep it private I’m gonna say that word again private because all he’s doing is offensive that’s why I’m all over the comic section. Rubbing into other peoples face insane oh I I am going through this. I’m going through this and he doesn’t every single day every single day not just with Colleen he does it with other people. He said that he didn’t know Daniel Prada. but I do he said that he didn’t know Joey Graceffa but I do he’s causing drama no matter who the person is and I understand there’s other videos but some reason he keeps popping up in my recommendation. It just needs to stop. It’s not appropriate. It’s inappropriate. It’s just playing out wrong.
@@HeathenDivine also my biological father who sexually abused me is in prison. The reason why he’s in prison is because I didn’t post on UA-cam about him every single day he is in prison, not jail prison because I kept it private because every single person in my life did everything they couldto put him there because we kept it private we didn’t put it on the news. We didn’t put it on the Internet. We didn’t put it in the newspaper. My army of people kept it private.
The fact that you can sit there and so eloquently and so precisely articulate how you feel and your reaction makes you 100x the person Coleen could ever be. She couldn’t imagine in her dizziest daydream what you have been through (at an incredibly young age too). For you to sit there and talk through how you feel is incredible, honestly incredible. Hats off, Adam.
The mom in me is going to come out. If talking about it is a way for you to heal… anyone telling you to stop watching it is, frankly, wanting you to be in a place you no longer want to be in. For your healing and mental health.. always do what’s best for you!
i found u thru the colleen controversy last year and never stopped watching after all that died down i just genuinely enjoy ur content, keep being you!!
Same!!!
What bothers me the most is that she's still trying to make you all seem like villains. She is a fully grown woman, and she made choices that she knew were wrong that led her to this point in her life and where she was a year ago. Like you said, it's genuinely sad and scary to see anyone feeling that way or in that low of a mental state, but why did she film it and keep it to release it a year later? She knows how crazy and easily manipulated her fans are, and I genuinely hope that her releasing this clip doesn't cause her fans to harass any of you guys who spoke out or try to guilt you guys for her being in a bad mental state during that time.
I also just want to say that I found you through the colleen situation last year and have been here ever since. It's genuinely been so heartwarming to see how far you've come in that past year and how much better you're doing now. The muckers are proud of you, Adam ☺️🫶
She doesn’t even talk about them. How can she be trying to make them seem like villains? She doesn’t address them at all, the most she talks about is how her mental health was bad last summer.
@@Suprachiasmaticpeople like you…. What you did is classified as being an abuser enabler and it’s up to you to self reflect on on the impact your actions has. You ask a lot of bad faith questions similar trait of a shitty person who plays innocent…. I take it you’re likely a Colleen fan
@@Suprachiasmatic Because everyone knows why she has her "woe is me" attitude. She doesn't need to say names. She probably legally can't, but she doesn't need to for people to put two and two together. She made her bed, though. She can lie and cry in it all she wants. We know who the real villain is.
@@Suprachiasmatic ew, please re-evaluate who you support. Do some research on how awful she is & continues to be. Don't be gullible, be pro-active.
If you wanna talk about it. Talk about it. If you don’t wanna talk about it, don’t talk about it. You have a voice for a reason and it’s such a shame how lonely a child must have felt living through that.
Swoop was amazing with her videos. It’s so sad what she’s gone through recently.
YES!
Wow already a year? Honestly glad you don’t stop sharing your story especially if it may help you deal with your experience! Honestly no one has the right to tell you to stop. Also that chair/couch looks so darn comfy
I support you speaking on this!
“I won’t stay quiet so you stay comfortable” is a quote that sits with me. How can you ever forget these things and just “let it go”? To anyone STILL defending the ADULT in the situation and how “their life is ruined too”, please think about the hill you’re dying on.
Good on you Adam for choosing what you engage with when it comes to this topic - you’ve taken back your power!
I hope you continue to heal and keep your voice loud and heard ❤️
not only does she still have the video up, but she recently turned off remixing on the video. this means that any video that uses the direct audio or any directly linking clips gets removed from youtube.
that's actually wild omg
she's evil. she's just straight-up a legit monster
Trauma isn’t something that can go away very easily. And these was a serious situation and I’m just glad Adam that you’re doing ok now then you were a year ago
Wishing you Becky and Oliver continued healing and recovery ♥️
To people slandering Adam for talking about it- There are so many channels out there where people talk about their trauma openly with their audience, why do you feel so offended by Adam doing the same? Growing up in a situation like this severely effects your brain developmentally not even just the mental anguish a victim would go through every single day, to you it's annoying internet drama but to Adam this is literally his life. Anyway, I hope everyone can hear you out and be respectful Adam, stay strong 💜
Colleen Ballinger SHOULD NOT be monitized. She should be ASHAMED at her actions and be held accountable as a predator, as should her brother!!!#ISupportAdam
#ISupportVictimsSurvivors
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Get her as s a damn
This is the devils world. Of course YT would keep her monetized.
this woman sat in her big ass house, crying over her own actions, NO ONE else did this to her and filmed that, to make the victims look like monsters and for people to sympathise with her. So it’s valid to feel angry seeing that clip because it’s manipulative.
The fact she never apologized publicly or privately is still so disgusting to me
People like that will never apologize even if they do they don’t mean it because they like hurting people
She apologized publicly, though.
@@Suprachiasmatic yeah because she wanted attention
@@HIAMraptor do you have any idea how insane that sounds? She gets criticized for not apologizing and when someone points out that she actually did apologize they’re told that it, what, doesn’t count because she “wanted attention”? She can’t win and this is why she’s smart to not bother trying to please you people.
@@Suprachiasmatic dude you need to listen people who enjoy making children, uncomfortable, will not apologize they will make themselves happy that she gets attention. Do you know how I know this because I was ranked and he doesn’t get it he is never gonna apologize and then there’s my stepmom verbally abused me and gaslighted me and she thinks it’s OK so a woman who gives a 14 year-old boy underwear women’s underwear her underwear a child putting their hand inside her pants don’t care if the child was touching underwear not she is letting this child put their hand in her pants. That’s not OK and then there’s another incident of this girl teenage girl where Colleen spread her legs and the girl told her to stop and going did not stop there many videos on TikTok and UA-cam that this girl made and you are a grown woman do you have a child because if you do, you wouldn’t have never let this woman this grown woman put your child’s hand in her pants if your child came crying to you because your child told her to stop because it made her feel uncomfortable but she didn’t stop. Do you see where I’m going it’s never OK to do that to your children or children at all.
ADAM im so glad you’re back - we’ve missed you. I’m so proud of you for doing this ❤️
all of this was a huge experience in your life as a CHILD and then an adult, meaning you are more than allowed to speak about it. no one can tell you otherwise. i’m glad you know that 💖
This is sooo off topic & unimportant but that chair looks so comfy 😭
Real omg it does
"Stop talking about it" Why? So the internet can forget and she gets her influence back like nothing happened? Like she didn't upturn lives (of CHILDREN) and doubled down because they spoke up about their abuse?
Adam has the right to keep talking about her affect on his life for as long as his life is affected. That could be another year, that could be the rest of his life. It's traumatic.
The victim blaming in this whole situation from the start has been INSANE.
Amen amen amen!
I lost my mom when I was 17 and when you started talking about how much your mom supported you throughout everything it made me tear up. That’s what mamas do and I’m so glad you had her to support you through such a crazy situation that the majority of adults would have no clue how to navigate. Glad you’re thriving now Adam! 👏🏽 😊
It was NOT irritating to keep watching you cover Colleeen. If anything, as a victim myself, it was AMAZING to see someone be able to stand up the way you did. It’s ADMIRABLE Adam. THE TOTAL OPPOSITE. you were NEVER annoying to the ppl that wish could speak up. Every time I see you upload about her I AM ALL EARS!!!!
personally the greatest thing I got from Colleen was discovering Adam & Swoop. i cannot believe it’s been a year
adam, i was also gr00med at a young age online & it’s been almost 8 yrs & your story brought back a memory i didn’t know i had. thank you so much, and awareness is timeless!!
I'm so glad you're still here Adam. Last summer was whack. I hope you're doing better now. Keep talking about it if you need to and don't listen to people who say you shouldn't. You're an inspiration to me, you got this ❤️
people have absolutely NO business or right to tell a victim to "get over" their trauma.
i am 32. i was bullied when i was 12, really horribly, by people who i considered friends. i was only able to completely let it go about 5 years ago. i didn't talk about it a lot, but that kind of pain stays with you and it's not fair for people to *expect* you to keep quiet, especially considering what happened to you was so public/online. keep being your authentic self and everything will fall into place. it's your channel, it's your experience, and your story to tell or not tell as you choose.
Bullying and being groomed are two completely different things one is physical and the other one is sexual, which is two different kinds of trauma. I went through sexual abuse, but I don’t post every single day about him.
@@HIAMraptor grooming doesn't have to be sexual
@@HIAMraptorThere's no need to gatekeep trauma. Everyone deals with it differently.
@@HIAMraptorBoth bullying and grooming are relevant here, though, because both happened to Adam. So someone can relate to his experience of being bullied/betrayed by people he considered friends and share that to express solidarity, even if they don't also relate to the experience of being groomed.
And keep in mind that grooming does not have a narrow definition. There are many kinds of grooming, but that fact doesn't take away from what you experienced. There were sexual elements to what Adam experienced even if it didn't go as far as what some people experience. This isn't a thing to be comparing what's worse and therefore what is legitimate trauma, or judging how someone deals with the unique trauma they experienced simply because it does not align with how you deal with yours. We can all support each other. How you feel about your experience is legitimate and no one can undermine it by how they feel about their own, different experience.
THIS 💔
Adam you were not irritating to watch. It was beautiful watching you find your voice and stop taking shit from people. You have inspired so many others to speak up. More than you will ever know
I’m a silent watcher but I watch all your videos since last year! You’re so brave and well spoken. What you’re doing by sharing your story is helping survivors all around the world including myself feel validated and heard. I’m sorry your abuser won’t take accountability but I hope the immense support you have received this past year helps heal you.
One of the things that still baffles me, is that the “new” receipts that Kodee had in their video had already existed for a long time on Gossip Garden and the Reddit. I will always be confused as to why it took Kodee’s video to make people notice.
Maybe because of the "drama" of a perpetrator of bullying admitting fault? And admitting to conspiracies to drag someone innocent through the mud? That doesn't often happen, so maybe that made it exciting even to people who don't otherwise follow the topic, and so it blew up.
Because of this terrible situation, I found YOUR channel. I am so glad I did because I love your content so much and will always support you and your journey!
It's so immensely ignorant to tell a victim to get over something that's traumatized them. That's absent of any compassion whatsoever and it's just so gross. Adam, talk about this all you want. There should be reminders that Colleen's actions need to be talked about and given accountability.
Adam, you talk about this within your comfort level.
The couch looks so comfy 🤩
People literally forget that Colleen has been in Adams life since he was 13... If you expect him NOT to talk about it, to continue to process it, you're so mistaken.
You never fully process abuse and trauma, you can get past it and it not control you anymore. But you never stop asking why.
So Adam, continue to talk about it all you want whether it be in front or behind to camera. It's better to talk about it than to keep it in.
Also Collen didn't have any consequences whatsoever. She still blogging like nothing happened. She doesn't even have one ounce of remorse.
Agree. I’m shocked she was not charged with all the evidence. But her vote count is brutal. I feel she did loose a lot of audience. As she should!
You have no idea what she went through
@@izzypayneeso what if she did? If that isn’t the consequences of your own actions
@@izzypaynee lmaoooooooooooo 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 Nothing!!!! Because like I said she is still blogging and all of her platforms are still up.🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄
@@89rojas08 focus on your own life. Would rather be Colleen living her life than hating on her under this negative ass video 😂 this dude says he’s just trying to get over trauma well knowing that his whole channel is just judging people. The vibes are fucking terrible here
dude, you literally weren't annoying at all. it was obvious you were processing what happened/was happening, and that's valid af !!
idgaf about what any one says, adam has a right to talk about what he went through as long as he wants.
one of the most authentic creators on this app, so grateful for Adam and this mucker community.
This is your channel. You can talk about whatever your heart desires. And I’m glad you’re doing this as it helps with your healing journey. The scar left will always be there, but you’ve healed so beautifully and I’m glad I found you through the dark storm you had to go through.
Wow I'm so proud of you for talking about this so candidly
Was rewatching everything and despite knowing it all it is still shocking honestly. You’re so strong for dealing with all that bs.
Coming up on the “Anniversary” of a trauma can definitely cause a flare up of trauma response. We don’t get to choose when trauma hits us. You have always been completely valid in your story Adam and how/when you choose to express it. Also want to add that the Victim Complex she caused upon her self is maddening
The fact that she still has a youtube career is plenty of reason for you to make as many videos as you want about it
Never stop talking about it, especially if it's therapeutic to do so. It's okay to not be over it either! I went through the worst summer too, last year. I'm still reliving and ruminating a lot from my traumatic moments too. People think it's so easy to simply "get over it" but it's quite the opposite. I think it makes it harder when you suppress anything or pretend you are okay.
she suffered so badly because she refused to give you an apology and truly acknowledge her own actions! like it’s sad to see someone feel that way but really she could have avoided it just by taking responsibility and reaching out
she’ll never realize the way she felt is the way she made you feel (and you were just a kid)
Yeah! I would probably have more respect for her if she did because even if it’s uncomfortable sometimes we have to take responsibility for our actions and recognize our behavior to grow but no she refused because she’s petty
Adam, you helped me heal trauma that I had been through in the past. Through your vulnerability online, I was able to not feel alone. There are so many emotions that come with healing and reliving trauma, and i really appreciate that you shared how you felt through all of it. Because of you, I felt stronger. So I wanted to thank you for that💕
one year is crazy 😭colleens shitty apology video was all over my YT recommended then and it only felt like a month ago when that happened
Cute couch Adam!!! So cozy. Hope you're feeling yourself, you very much should be proud of you. ❤️
ON VACATION IN BENIDORM BUT BABE I AM SAT
literally same haha
Never stop. It's sickening how she still has a career and suffered zero consequences.
you're better than me, adam. if i were you i would find it extremely difficult to have any empathy at all for somebody who hurt me so much. your feelings are 100% valid and don't let anybody make you feel otherwise.
You and your mom’s bond is so cute. You have a supporter for life. I love how vulnerable you’ve been through this whole situation. Love you Adam! ❤
It's so weird finally figuring out all the things she's done- I used to watch her all the time growing up
Adam, I hope you recognize how powerful your voice can be. Thinking on where I was watching this all unfold a year ago, it was shocking, heartbreaking, and horrific, but it made me feel less alone. I’d just moved out of a DV situation, my health was failing, I’d lost my job, and I had no hope for myself to pull through because the people around me were blaming me for being sick. I believed them that it was my fault that I was sick and that I was a burden. Seeing you, Becky, Oliver, and everyone else overcome last summer and tell their stories, your stories, it’s a resilience I’ve continued to pull strength from. Thank you. I hope the years only get better from here.
The fact that there were people who were commenting saying "its been a year get over it" (which I saw in one video) its just heartless, Colleen never took responsibility and went on as if nothing happened. Adam never give up, You are a strong willed person to keep on doing for the truth.
talk about it adam. you can let it go, you can heal and still talk about it. it brings awareness to someone who should NOT under any circumstance have a platform, career, etc.
you're so strong, im so glad u could overcome all of this and i hope you thrive forever!
I can’t get over her acting like the victim when she was making millions and still attacking a child. Adam must have been so repulsed when she had kids while actively trying to ruin the reputation of him, an actual child
Just a reminder, Joey Graceffa still supports CB, isn't willing to acknowledge or apologise to Adam, he also just had a video with James Charles, I am so disappointed as someone who used to love Joey
Adam, you’re so incredibly strong and I think it’s horrible that victims are told they should stop speaking about their trauma or their abuser, and put an invisible timeline of how long it’s okay to talk about it. Victims deserve every right to talk about our abusers, and I think people need to realize that trauma can’t just be ignored, pushed aside, told they took too long to come out, shouldn’t talk about it anymore, etc. I’m so glad that you had people in your life like your mom and friends that believed and supported you through the absolute hell Colleen and her fans put you through. Oliver, Becky, Adam, and other victims in this situation you all are so incredibly strong and brave, ones that have spoken out or not.
Wow a year!? Time is flying
i hate that adam thinks it's his fault for what happened to his mum. he was a kid, all of this is colleen's fault.
idk i may be judgmental af but she's a raging narcissist that won't change. She'll always see herself as the victim regardless of the constructive criticism she may get. You are SO entitled to the emotions and thoughts you have associated with this. Hope you're doing well, Adam! Always speak your truth 💕
Yep this is true. I was in a relationship with a narcissist and it’s crazy bc when you know one, you know them all.
It's so bonkers how she says "oh poor me, life is so hard" As if she didn't do this to herself. Like...wow? It must be SOOO hard to live with the consequences of your actions, huh?
Also, I've said it once and I'll say it again until I die on the hill...you were a victim. It is YOUR story and YOUR trauma. Only you get to decide until you want to stop talking about it. I know damn well that I'd watch every video talking about her because it can be cathartic to tell your story and reflect on it in a meaningful way. It's not about milking drama, it's about healing.
Like Swoop says, it's not drama, it's dangerous. Keep telling the world your story. The second we forget the errors of others, the quicker we are to forgive them and enable the cycle. Sending you love, Adam. I believed you since day one and have been here for a while
As a victom of sa, its rare for me to have a day go by where something dosen't remind me of what happened. Living with it is extremely heavy. It permanently altered my perception of the world. I can only imagine what its like when you have to actually see her and people talking about her everywhere. For someone to say to you to get over it, they dont understand. Im happy for them, that they dont understand, but I hate the way they throw their ignorance around. Wishing you a peaceful day, one where you arent reminded of the pain she has caused you. A day where you can just be. ❤
last summer watching your videos, not only the colleen videos but anything you made helped me cope with my major surgery. this year, watching your dramageddon revisits have helped me cope with another major surgery
hope you’re doing/feeling well girll🌸🩷
@@selma8337 thank u!! it went way better than last year's so im extremely happy
I support you. This video is so heartbreaking and I’m just glad you’re doing your best after all of this. Your story is important. Especially during this time. Adore you, mucker ❤ You’re so loved. We’re grateful for you.
you articulate your thoughts and emotions so well. it’s like you put my experiences into words when i couldn’t. and it feels almost as therapeutic than i’m sure it does for you to finally be able to openly speak about it all and actually be BELIEVED. never stop talking about it. don’t let people forget. don’t halt your healing on anyone else’s behalf. i’m listening and i believe you and i want to keep listening. thank you for your strength and vulnerability. ❤
Your story; you can talk about it whenever you want!! Those people who say for you to get over it and stop talking about it can go away. They don't have to be here. This is YOUR space. Sometimes people suck.
Her not receiving a charge for CP/sexting baffles me. When it’s literally in text and proof. I’m disgusted and she should not be around her children or any children. She’s a predator and should be on the offender list. You shouldn’t have to justify this. It’s trauma and a predator groomed you, also sending UNDERWEAR to you. She is a vile person.
I remember watching the first video you put out about Coleen and I remember sitting there heartbroken with the behavior of an adult woman towards a little teenager. I remember my sister used to watch Coleen and she stopped after that. I used to love Miranda sings and now it haunts my dreams
Adam, I appreciate you talking about this and spreading awareness, you're helping protect kids, you talking out has likely helped a lot of kids
The way you're continuing to be so open and keeping us updated on where you are is so important, thank you for your transparency. We rarely get a look into how abuse effects people long term. It feels like victims get a burst of support at first and then it fizzles out while victims have to keep living with it. It's important to remember healing is a long journey that takes time
The fact that she's just continuing on as if nothing happened and she isn't the most delusional, narcissistic person...I think it's good that you continue to raise awareness so that there isn't other generations of fans who end up in vulnerable positions being preyed on by her.
it's like revisiting an old creepy place like a tunnel again all grown up
i would listen to you talk about anything but will ALWAYS listen and appreciate you speaking on what you've been through i love you
ADAM IS REALLY FEEDING US WITH THESE VIDEOS ❤️
Such a cozy looking couch
This marks a year of me being a mucker and no longer being a Colleen fan. Thank you for speaking your truth and encouraging others to do the same. You haven't deserved any of the crap you've been through, and it's beautiful to see you living a great life in Brighton a year out 💜
This was one of the biggest moments of your life. You had to deal with this so long and you’re still dealing with this. It’s absolutely fair that you talk about it and share your feelings. This is not just some tea to laugh and giggle about this is people’s lives!! Literally fuck anyone who says you can’t talk ab shit you went through. The real ones will always support you🫶🏻
This video is so lovely Adam I don’t know any of people are talking about personally, of course, but following your journey over the last year and becoming invested in all all of these other creators like swoop as well, this video is making me so emotional and I’m just so happy that you’re at a point where you’re finding more and more solace and support
I appreciate you saying your piece here and speaking to your anger and how fucked up all of this was.
thank you for continuing to bring attention to this topic it's a conversation on the internet that NEEDS to be had. UA-camrs having relationships with fans even if it's seemingly friendly is NEVER a good idea. the responsibility always lies on the adults and yet the children and the victims are always the ones scrutinized and blamed!!! I'm sick of it!!!
i hate when people tell you to “let go”. trauma is trauma. it’s not something that goes away. i had the worst year of my life sophomore year of high school (gr00med, familial issues, disabled family) and it still affects me every day and i don’t think that will go away. i’ll stop thinking about it as much but that was such a pivotal moment that really screwed me over. it’s hard. it gets better.
I am BEYOND happy that you have so many amazing people around you supporting you throughout this. What you did is very scary but so, so important. Thank you for keeping on, talk about this as much, or as little, as you want. It’s your story to tell, not just some drama
"I think there is pressure on people to turn every negative thing into a positive, but we should be allowed to say, 'I went through something really strange and awful and it has altered me forever." - Marian Keyes❤
When the person in question takes no accountability, it's fair to keep reminding them you haven't forgotten.
Adam nothing you say about Colleen is insensitive. She's a monster and if you want to insult her than your allowed to. The trauma that you were put through by her is inexcusable and you talking about it along with your feelings about it are valid. Always remember that❤