You're so brave. Proud of your bravery, not just as a psychology student, but as a person. I would warmly accept you as a person and not think any differently as most people do. But they just need some education about these stuffs. Love you, from Philippines
Greetings I hear a vedio before to same but mind control gang in Iraq use exactly the same and they use also spread rumors about thier victim that it sickness or psychology or else to can continue kill him if you have relationship with this girl or contact please ask her did she go to pray 2 did she noticed her family behave strange with her also did she feel variation in body in fingers for example 3 did she feel like something so like another brain beside her brain reverse or this brain or device trying to reverse for example when she want ignore this voices this device will let her think about its . I hear her talk a lot about suicide did she feel that her motion about life change I mean nothing became important this some questions I think if I get answers this will lead to take medical from mind control only
Sorry I add something Mind control exactly so like psychology hear voices so known also inforece thoughts I mean they can convert victim to what they need by they way do you know why I comment this because this girl from Europe or usa and these countries under target to biggest terrorism gang in Iraq this devil gang have so develop programme of mind control even this countries didn't even know about it . Also this gangs use the name if god cause who lead it is devil make himself a prophet I don't want talk a lot about this matter but because this girl didn't recovering and I thing this is second vedio I see by the way they psycho so easy to medical but mind control so so difficult cause I wish for her health and recovery Thanks
Uhmmm hello. Watch documentaries about schizophrenia. As I study Psychology, what we knew is that there are no causes of this illness. And yes, some people tend to manipulate their victims, which causes mental trauma or worse, mental illness. There is no such thing, like a device, that just puts you into a situation like having this kind of illness. And if your talking about her recovery, schizophrenia will be a part of her life. As of now, the only thing that can help her minimize her hallucinations is taking her prescribed medicines. Some people fabricate or make stories about Psychology, even movies. That's why people, especially those who are mentally ill, are afraid to go to the professional, because of the fear that the society has set for all the psychology related issues. I feel like you only see the negative/sad part of Psychology, which was used by bad people for their bad agendas. I hope you still do your research more further, so you will be enlighten.
I don’t have schizophrenia, but I do deal with depression and anxiety. People who rise above their pain amaze and inspire me so deeply. You are so strong! God bless you in your fight! ❤️
Thank you for sharing so much deeply personal information to help us understand schizophrenia and other disorders. You are brave and courageous , you are a trailblazer, a true pioneer in opening the hidden and largely misunderstood realm of mental illness. This is in No way easy to do and I applaud your strength and you are a beautiful soul. Thank you again, please continue sharing. Ps your eye shadow is perfect, I love the colors. Perhaps do a makeup tutorial, you really know how to do makeup. Thanks again.❤
Kaet - Most depression and anxiety are caused by pernicious anemia, which causes a low B12. Get a methylmalonic acid blood test to see the B12 at the tissue level. You can also have a serum B12 test, but 50% of the time it will show normal, while your tissue level of B12 is low. If your B12 is low, you can cure your depression and anxiety with a few weeks of daily B12 injections.
I'm 41 and 7 months ago I ended up in a ball on the floor hallucinating the most detailed abusive visions and voices it was absolutely horrendous. We can overcome our inner journey problems with the right people around us. I have to stay vigilant about what I let in to my life, my mind and my actions. I don't want to preach, but I found a loving God who saved me from it as long as I commit to learning and growing along good spiritual lines which means being the most loving, helpful person I can be. Peace and blessings.
Same. I didn't necessarily believe in God but when i started seeing this creatures and hearing evil hateful voices i started seeking Jesus and when i accepted Him as my savior it all stoped. It's conforming to know that we weren't crazy because whether people believe or not spritual world is just as real and even more real than this physical one because it's everlasting. Everyone needs to accept Jesus and repents of sins that's the only way to eternal salvation
I love seeing schizophrenic drawings, I draw those kinds of things all the time due to my schizophrenia and several other illnesses I struggle with, seeing other drawings similar to my struggles helps me relate and feel like I’m not alone
My younger brother got diagnosed after our older brother committed suicide. I had no idea what was happing. I just knew he was different and that it was serious. I saw his journals and they disturbed me because I was uneducated on what was going on. That one picture really reminded me of his drawings. He's doing much better now. He finally opened up to me about 5 months ago. I'm happy he's doing good because not everyone will. I'm now learning so much about it. Thanks again for sharing
I'm glad I found you, my best friend of 25 years was just diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia (he thought me and my other 2 friends where part of the Aluminati and where out to get him) but he is in a stage where it's scary we haven't found the right medicines to get him on and he has really bad episodes (I'm the only person in life he's got) and I don't fully understand the condition and I don't know when I'm helping or hurting but when he gets through the other side of an episode and I have him back its worth it, so thanks for giving me hope that he will have a successful life with his condition and he won't be looked at like a freak or a psycho, you give me hope
I had an aunt with paranoid schizophrenia but it was hard to talk to her because a traumatic brain injury left her speech severely impaired. Watching videos like yours help me understand what life was probably like for her, in a way that she could never articulate. I hope you were eventually able to get a psychologist and that you're doing okay. Thank you for sharing with us.
you’re so strong. no really one understands the experiences people diagnosed with schizophrenia experience daily. it’s great that you are journaling, i find it really helps with mental health ❤️❤️❤️ i hope you’re doing well and taking care of yourself 😊
My nephew was just diagnosed with schizophrenia and I have been the one helping him get the help he needed. Your videos have been helping me understand what he is dealing with so much. Thanks for being so open and sharing your experiences.
I absolutely love that you got the song of healing playing in the background. You are so brave and wonderful and I can relate to you so much even if we don't share the same diagnosiseseses. Big hugs!
i think it's weird how we all see similar things during our episodes, last night i had one and wrote everything down, i saw a lot of old bony creatures with huge eyes or like cat eyes and i saw that in some of your drawings too
Wherever you see them or hear them again just say name of Jesus or blood of Jesus. I know you might be sceptic but it will work I'm telling you from experience. They are real, we aren't crazy. Those are demons and they want to mess with us and terrorize us into ending our lives. But there is no need for that because Jesus will help you you just have to call on Him. Jesus is our savior in this and eternal life, just accept Him and seek Him daily. God bless
My son went through this and medication didn't help.Hes been in mental hospital a few times.These voices ARE REAL,their from the spiritual realm,called demons,its biblical. Drs dont know what causes it,so they label you with these names and dope you up on these medications that have severe side effects .Anyone who has this problem, need to find a good deliverance minister and have them work with you.You CAN be set free!
@@onickadominick6650 he couldve had treatment resistant schizophrenia. Where medication doesn't work. Please do your research before you say crap like this, its extremely dangerous and it doesn't help. It makes everything 3 times worse.
@@oddlysatisfying1790 no mate, mental illness is increase and hosiptal meds dont fix they simply just rid of symptoms. you cant completely say there is no spiritual healing, just like this girl in the video saying its stuck with your forever and you cant fix it. this is is what happens when you give up on other ways to cure yourself, i know some people who became more spiritual and fixed up.
Schizophrenics’ss I also have racing thoughts, but I usually journal it and give myself a time out. I use relaxing piano music 24/7 or space music 24/7 whenever I’m stressed. 6:36 I’ve learned to have the compulsion not to say things I’ll regret later. Your drawings remind me of that one guy from Birdbox who drew the monster he saw. It’s really interesting.
Hey lovely, I'm so sorry to hear of your full on struggles but really felt your strength for life in this video. I have diagnosed autism & schizophrenia but I don't have a borderline personality disorder. I can relate to quite a few things you were saying and even found that some of the voices you heard were saying things my voices say too. I was getting worse each day, struggling with suicide attempts over the years and trying to see how life is a good thing to live. Everyone around me seemed ok and happy to live life, I just needed to understand how. I knew that my mental state was different and that made things more challenging, but I just couldn't see what they saw. So I tried different psychologists, doctors, drugs, traveling, jobs - you name it, I probably tried it. But the last thing I tried has been helping so much and is the only thing that has ever helped long term. I've started practicing observing every thought (even the thoughts I considered "mine") and understanding that who I am is not confined to a thought. Through self observation I've come to realise that I am not my body, thoughts, emotions or achievements. It's a hard process and it's scary, but it seems we both have been through a lot of scary shit in our everyday lives. I've found people like Sadhguru, Mooji and Eckhart Tolle explain how to dissociate yourself from your thoughts and how to feel peace. It's the only way the thoughts have felt less severe for me, so I thought that it might help you too. I wish you the best life and think you're brave for putting your story online ☺️ Thank you for showing us what constant strength looks like 🌷
Thank you for sharing, you could choose to stay in the dark and let it consume you, but you aren't! I would never say I could understand what you are going through but you seem to be on a good path and want to conquer things. That makes me want to try harder about some things in MY life. Again thank you for sharing and keep the strength! I guarantee you are a light for people and are helping to change someone's life. Good on you!!!
i just started watching your videos a couple of days ago! i hope this doesn't sound repetitive, but i am honestly just floored by you. your reality sounds so incredibly disorienting and terrifying at times, i don't think many people could step into your shoes without getting lost within it. the fact that you can describe your thoughts, feelings and perceptions so clearly is such a gift to people like me who fall more within the nuerotypical spectrum. i really admire your strength, sense of humour and perseverance in life. thank you for making me a more understanding/compassionate person by sharing your story. -ali
Song of Healing in the background! Why can't the voices ever be nice, like.. Instead of saying mean stuff they should say; ''You are beautiful!'' ''Have a nice day!'' ''Believe in yourself!''.
The evil voices are coming from poison. Poisons that you may be addicted to are nicotine, alcohol, and all drugs. Caffeine is also not advised if your suffering, it is related to poison. The other problem is a starving brain. A starving brain hallucinates. Same as when one is lost in the desert with no food, eventually they hallucinate. You must force heavy foods like hamburgers with the lot and milk into your system. Then you will start hearing good voices. Easy fix. Stop all the poisons and start eating rich and heavy foods. You will get fat but don’t worry. Get your mind sorted first then you will lose the weight. More important to bring your mind out of hell first. Eat lots of ham, lamb chops, t. Bone, cheese, bread,tomatoes, onion, lots of amino acids to help rebuild. It will take time but be vigilant and determined. You will get there. You will be free from this condition. Oh! And don’t give up your medication, it wont affect your recovery, you will get to the stage where you will never need it again but that could be in 3 years. Take care> pan peter
You're a beautiful person.Thanks for sharing your journal, it's a personal thing and says so much about your episodes and what you go through.Keep being you.
I agree, my mum had this illness, and had a episode when i was early teens and some stuff she thought were hallucinations, walking, banging, voices, i heard at same time and the cat would react to it too, and then my mum she locked us out of the house saying someone was in the house my friend she put her hand through to open the door and something pulled her hand, the house was empty, a clairvoyant said they may have been drawn towards her because she was ill and would of been easier to manipulate, she said i was sensitive and picked up on them
Yes they are aware of the spiritual warfare around us. The 1/3 of heavens angels and Lucifer who fell and are out to torment and lead us away from Jesus to Hell with them. We need to keep our eyes on Christ and use the authority He gave us to stand against the demonic. He delivered me out of 10 years in the occult in which I had so many demonic portals open I was going crazy and saw the demonic felt it and they were trying to get me to kill myself so I would go to Hell. Christ delivered me and when they come back I use my authority to battle them. He is the way the truth and the life and gives us authority to tread on scorpions and serpents. I spent my whole life denying Christ and was shocked the night He came to me and I was overwhelmed with the Holy Spirit and on my face crying out for Him. He came and showed me that I was doing witchcraft which He is against and deceived by doctrines of demons in the New Age. Aliens, ghosts, spirit guides all deceived me but the Bible says they are the fallen angels and known as "familiar spirits" here to mislead us away from our salvation in Christ
Thank you for sharing this. This is how I found that my daughter had this disorder. She was feeling depressive, so I gave her a journal to write poetry or her thoughts as a therapy, but then found that she was just streaming the voices onto paper. She had said she heard voices before, but she was a child, so I figured she was just trying to explain thoughts in her head. I didn't realize that they were actual voices tormenting her.
Yes, it is actually a relief because she's had issues for years, but was misdiagnosed. I know it will not be an easy road, but now I feel like we can at least make progress. :)
I have schizophrenia and I draw and keep a journal. I draw because it relieves stress. The reason I keep a journal is because it shows me where I have low times in my life and sometimes I am happy and I realize that the depression will pass. I learn a lot about my life by keeping a journal.
I was diagnosed with bipolar and schizophrenia earlier this year. My episodes have religious / spiritual overtones. I magnify God and take my medication and seee a therapist regularly. God Bless you In your treatment. Praying for you. I can notice when an episode is coming on now so I'm better at not over reacting
Wherever you see them or hear them again just say name of Jesus or blood of Jesus. I know you might be sceptic but it will work I'm telling you from experience. They are real, we aren't crazy. Those are demons and they want to mess with us and terrorize us into ending our lives. But there is no need for that because Jesus will help you you just have to call on Him. Jesus is our savior in this and eternal life, just accept Him and seek Him daily. God bless
Yo I’m schizophrenic I seen that one drawing in person while having sleep paralysis and he wuz darker than night it wuz wild I feel you godbless take care I know how you feel it’s been 12 yrs now it’s finally getting better :) you be aight
Hi. I have listened to your sharing about scitzophrenia. I appreciate what you are sharing. I am 64. When I was 19 I had a severe breakdown and had to frop out of college. After dropping out of school I became aware of some coincidences that amazed me. I was being srawn to Jesus. After I believed I had a honeymoon experience with Him. But I still was sick. I had counseling with Christian counse
I had Christian counseling for several years. Each time I met with Him it was as if David shined a little light into dark rooms and hallways in my mind and gradually the darkness was forced to leave. I know that Satan finds foothold to enter people's lives and He must be forced to leave. So I recommend you seek out the Lord for yourself. Jesus said, I am the light of the world. Whoever follows Me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life. John 8:12.
This was both a fascinating and potentially very helpful video for individuals experiencing these episodes. Chris Anderson commented on here that you are an inspiration, and I couldn't agree more. Your inherent strength and ability to rationalise and verbalise these episodes , is unusual. It puts you in a position were you could be of tremendous assistance to people trying to find a way through such things. For example extracts from your journals would look amazing in a graphic novel created to help people work through what you have already come through. And finally(and perhaps most importantly)... I like your hat! Looks good on you🙂
Instead of writing journals you should use artwork as an outlet for your mental state. That's what I do. It's more expressive. I just started drawing again for the first time since I was a kid and I love it. There's lots of different forms of art. Drawing, painting, spray paint (tagging), scrapbooking, clothing design, coloring your hair, make jewelry, gel nail design. Even doing your make up in unique ways is a form of art, I got really good at contouring.
Just found your channel so I know this is a late comment. I wanted to simply say you are amazing! It takes a lot of strength to be so open like you are. You said it yourself, you are a fighter❤️
@@amateuraries Woman God loves you and will heal you. Those are demonic entities. Don't be afraid of them , they need legal rights to torment you and those rights can be broken with the Help of Jesus.
I hope you can get some help. I am being treated for depression and anxiety and it's hard work to keep up with self care. I think what you're doing is smart and brave. Thank you for sharing!
A night before watching this I had a dream/vision of the triangular headed creature you drew. It peeked at me from the bottom of a wall and through a crevice..super weird.
looove your laugh. thank you for this. I can see you are very strong. please be well keep well and know that their are people that love and need you... 😉
I have disorganised schizophrenia. Which means disorganised thinking. Unmedicated I have mild delusions which questions my reality like is the tv talking to me. Fortunately I don’t have hallucinations, thanks for sharing!!!
Ur voices are similar to mine. Mine says "I'm big and you are small. Soon there will only be room enough for me" " if you kill me we both die" Why are they always so mean??? It's a comfort to know I'm not alone in the struggle =) Also the repeats. I really identify with that part too
I was just told today that i have schizophrenia and bpd and ptsd and i also have bipolor and anxity and depression u have help me understand what i feel is real and that im not alone thank u so much
My friend n roomie first told me she heard voices after i knew her for 3 years. She was in prison for 8 years, after voices told her to borrow a friends car or she would die, then other friends took the car keys so she couldnt return it. The voices told her to kill herself, all day every day. Then she asked me to be her bf, i said ok, then the voices only told her she was beautiful, on rare occasions, no bad words. So external events can change the voices from evil to friendly. Her journal entries included a letter to God saying ty for bringing me into her life, then got paranoid about what i was up to n didnt trust me. After she got outa prison i was her parole address, she would wake me up screaming how she was gona kill me in extreme detail like a hollywood movie script, call me her rapists name n see his head on my body. 1 year later she woke me with a baseball bat to my her n set me on fire, she ran away n told a cop she wanted to kill herself n told him my name calling me a rapist, she was taken to psych hospital #12 this year, she told me she really did try to murder me. Today she said she sees me stalking her tho i was with another gf or working out of state, shes mad i didnt pick her up n take me away to live with me, which i cant do until she gets antipsychotics n mood stabilizer n rehab, or she will succeed at killing me. She OD on heroin 4 times this year self medicating. Only 1 dr has ever given her antipsychotics at ER that lasted only 48 hours n she was the most amazing nice loving person. Otherwise shes demonpossed as her mom called it before she killed her mom by not telling her sis she had a medical emergency. You have a strong support network, she has none, living on street, family dead or gave up on her. I cant afford conservatorship tho i work 24.7 in 320 hour shifts. So pls be very thankful you have ppl to help you n a home to live in n a license n car n freedom from jail n straightjackets, not everyone has that. The more support n love the happier the voices get, at least for awhile.
How long have you and your husband been together? It sounds like you guys have come along way on your journey. And it seems as if you have yourself as well. Its enlightening to see, like if you guys can stay together and overcome or deal with something so deep that its possible for any relationship. Have there ever been times or a time where you separated bc of it? Or other relationships you've lost due to your disorder? Family, friends, bfs? I thank you so much for sharing your story. It really means alot to me that you're helping to educate us, I personally thank you and wish you the absolute best! Looking forward to more videos ❤
I’ve been in 27 relationships. Most cheated on me and left me. My husband and I have been together for 6 years and he only left me once after a year after a mental break down. We got back together the next day so I don’t exactly count it.
Erich the anime and game god look at dr marzinski research,he clearly says those arent hallucinations because hallucinations are not always bad contrary to what schizophrenia "hallucinations" are...
You’re “ lucky “ my voices don’t even allow me to expose anything they say .. I always thought I’d feel better if I just wrote stuff down .. but I was never allowed
I used to have Alma, an octopus, Russian oligarchs, CIzin, K. A, (these names are hidden, but they were editing me--I thought) and a cheerleader. Ironically enough, the cheerleader was the meanest and immature, always calling me out and threatening me with mitosis or the cause of cancer if I didn't keep her high in my mind. Alma warned me of things. Cizin tried to kill me multiple times. In a fog, there were three kids who would randomly tease me and try to get my kidney.
John 14: 27 “I am leaving you with a gift-peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.
You are not crazy. Those shadow people are very real. You are a person that lives in the fleshly world as well as the spiritual world. That’s why you are getting attacked/attention from the spirits. Everyone visits the spiritual world in their sleep, but there are some people that are in the middle of both. Stay strong 💪 and strengthen your abilities. We will need you more and more as our surroundings are changing 👍👍❤️❤️❤️
Thanks for sharing I struggle daily up and down roller coater negative thoughts ...! When ppl in around me get thoughts just punching ...! It seems im in a battle visions u fighting ppl with weapons and sometimes loops over and over and spooks me out...! Axiety depression PTSD shitty childhood was raped behind a school by 3 older females when i was 7years old as an adult male its total fucked me up ...! With socailizing ppl and with females it messed me . suicidal thoughts daily nervousness igatated cant hold a job down ...female relationship no go . Its truly a battle sometimes i cant get out of bed . ppl general when there in my space it seems cant hold conversations with ppl i get igatated pretty much flee . Thanks your story I was on Cymbalta but dont take it any more . Cant function to good but dont wont take meds. I get alot of foggyness and headaches all the time. I really appreciate u sharing ur courage ur truth ...! U stay strong girl. Cheers......!
@@stevewilliams2917 There are two problems that combine to cause schizophrenia. Smoking , drinking, and or taking drugs are poisons, these give rise to all terrifying thoughts that is the first problem. The other problem is a low protein diet. I triggered the condition when l went on a fruit only diet for one year. I didn’t know at the time nor did the doctors know how to help me. Simply the cure is to immediately stop all poisons, nicotine, alcohol, all drugs, even caffeine. Then to eat. Eat foods like hamburgers with the lot and plenty of milk. Force it down your throat. Don’t worry about putting on weight you will eventually iron out your weight problem, first you have to re-nourish your brain! Stick to it don’t give up and you will get out of it. It will take a while to reverse the hell of a world you have fallen into but don’t despair, you will get out! Remember all you have to do is stay away from all poisons and start eating hamburgers with the lot, lamb chops, t.bones, toasted ham, cheese and tomato sandwiches, chips, dim sims, flake, spring rolls, pies, pasties whatever makes you happy. Then you will get better every day, better and better. Good luck!
This might sound ridiculous for you as its nothing to do with the problem you are having..which you are extremely brave to talk about, and I wish there was something that could be done to help you, I assumed that medication was the key.. No , Ive noticed you have a slight problem which I used to have with catarrh .. I had it quite badly which is why I noticed.. I stopped having dairy products as a help.. and it really helped..took a short while to notice.. the problem I had with constant catarrh actually stopped.. I didnt think it had anything to do with it..but it had. I wish you all the best and your such a nice person and totally straight and have described your problem so honestly that it has made my eyes open as to the gravity of schizophrenia .. it breaks my heart to think more cant be done.. keep strong.. you have a beautiful soul.
I had a few months of un-diagnosed Schizophrenia type symptoms with weight gain ate bags of cookies gained 30lbs, insomnia. Hallucinations mainly at night in full fear from Birth control shots, Depo-prevera. Lost a boyfriend because I became more catatonic and uninterested and all this was in the first month of getting an injection.
I'm best friends with somebody who one might call schizophrenic. Or suffers from psychosis. Many could say I'm the same, but I'm certain I have no disorder as I'm determined to fight them and help others fight theirs. Neither us believe we're crazy, especially after both acquiring our own tangible evidence of it's reality (I.e. voices interrupting phone calls, receiving texts from each other that neither of us had written). They have died down for both of us, and if they ever come around, we don't hesitate to fight back.
I would not write out what the voices are saying unless they are happy/positive voices, or the voice of somebody you truly love. I used to hear voices like that but it was actual people getting in my face and saying it to me. My mom used to make jokes and call me the spawn of Satan because she hated my dad so much, growing up I thought I was actually the devils' child so I thought I deserved everything I was going through, until I realized everyone else acts evil and I'm actually very pure hearted.
Can you do a video on how your schizophrenia looked as a child, a lot of this sounds very similar to something that’s going on with my little sister but I’m not sure if I’m reading to far into it or not
I’m being legally forced to stay on antipsychotics against my will because I hate medication and I want “myself” back, including my hallucinations and “MY” reality and “delusions”
Honey all you have to do is stop feeding poisons to yourself like nicotine, alcohol, all drugs and caffeine. They are poisons! Then force feed yourself with rich, heavy foods like hamburgers with the lot and plenty of milk. Get fat and re-nourish your brain. Don’t worry you will lose weight afterwards. It will take 2 years to feel a million times better, then you will get better and better. I found the cure after 29 years of suffering. I’m totally out now. No more voices no more hallucinations. I’m free. Be determined and don’t give up. Stop the poisons and eat rich yummy food like there was no tomorrow 😄😄😄
@@Sweetie310 one night I was in bed . I was wide awake and I believed there was a porthole in my room opposite me and I was waiting in absolute terror for a giant puma to jump out and attack me. It never came but the fear was real and I was in that state of fear for maybe 3 hours.
Amanda i found a cure for myself, i don’t know if it works for you but I’m glad to share it. Schizophrenia is a double edged sword, there are two problems. One is the dark ,terrifying thoughts and the other is the hallucinations and delusions. I found that the terrifying thoughts came from my addiction to nicotine and alcohol and my hallucinations came from my insane experimentation with starvation diets. Like once l tried eating fruit for one year. This is what caused the hallucinations and delusions. The negative self harm thoughts came from the poisons. Nicotine, alcohol and all drugs are poisons you have to stop them, even caffeine you have to stop because its related to nicotine. Then you have to start eating and l mean eat like your life depends on it because it does. The foods you have to eat are like hamburgers with the lot and plenty of milk. Get fat, don’t worry about getting fat. You will iron out later. Next don’t give up your medication it wont affect your recovery. And be determined don’t give up. It will take a long time to escape schizophrenia. It depends on how deep in you are and how old. The younger the quicker you will heal. Don’t hesitate to contact me if you have problems. Good luck!
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia like 2 years ago. I remember all the delusions I had on the episodes. Now I understand the illness and I know that all of that wasn’t real but at that time it felt horrible. I was living in Toronto and in one episode I returned to my home country, Mexico because the presence that I felt made me feel that that was the right thing to do. I continued with the episodes in Mexico but at that time I didn’t feel like there was something wrong with me until one day I decided to stop eating and drinking water to kill my self. My family noticed that I wasn’t eating and that I was missing during all day. So they took me to the hospital where I was diagnosed with schizophrenia paranoid and depression. Every day I had to deal with suicidal thoughts. Now after two years of treatment I haven’t have a strong episode fortunately. Some days I still have the suicidal thoughts but I ignore the feeling and I tell to my self that everything is right and there’s no need to do that. Watching your videos makes me wanna do the same thing in Spanish. But I feel insecure about what people might say and how that may affect me. You’re so brave! Thanks for sharing! The best wishes ever
I once saw a podcast about a psychiatrist in which he was saying that the voices come from entities that have an objective reality. He talked for an hour about all the things he witnessed which can not be explained away if the voices are just glitches in the brain. What is your take on the origin of the voices? Most children are sensitive to seeing things. Is it possible that this condition never goes away for a schizophrenic but actually increases? If you study necromancy you will find out that there are exercises for permanently opening a door to the realm of the disincarnate. If this happens, you can see them permanently. I have a brother that has severe schizophrenia. He can not function in society. You can not even have a normal conversation with him. I thought all schizophrenics were like that. I think we are all affected by these voices in one way or another; audibly, visually or subconsciously. I have a book that talks about an energetic parasite called the Archon. It's called Overcoming the archon through alchemy by John Kreiter if you want to check it out. Thank you for sharing your videos.
@@singingfan but why do they always say negative things and ask you to harm people or aninals? And why these people see shades, demons and awful things? They could say nice things and the hallucinations could be good but they are not. Why?
My voices aren't always bad. In fact one is a woman. The only voice I gave a name to and she is always telling me to do better and not to listen to the others. Like a young mothers voice. I've actually had a dream about her few times.
Wherever you see them or hear them again just say name of Jesus or blood of Jesus. I know you might be sceptic but it will work I'm telling you from experience. They are real, we aren't crazy. Those are demons and they want to mess with us and terrorize us into ending our lives. But there is no need for that because Jesus will help you you just have to call on Him. Jesus is our savior in this and eternal life, just accept Him and seek Him daily. God bless
im on a ward were ive seen staff teleport from one side of the corridor to the other where the office. dont underestimate the reality of these voice. im glad your married, he must add some security spiritually, mentally ect
After several years of research, here is how I cured my brother's mental illness. Decades ago he was was given the labels of paranoid schizophrenic, bi polar, manic depressive and given handfuls of pills to take, that had horrific side effects. When I asked his psychiatrists if he could ever be cured, they all said no, that schizophrenia couldn't be cured only treated. Don't believe the psychiatrists that tell you there is no cure. Don't be intimidated by their title or college degrees. I have several graduate degrees and can tell you that they are just pieces of paper that mean absolutely nothing. We now have the internet and the collective knowledge of the world at our fingertips. I finally had enough of these morons that were too stupid to cure my brother, and asked God in the name of Jesus to show me what was causing my brother's problems, and here is what he showed me. I started searching for all things known to cause psychosis and also started learning how the brain operates. Then I started running my own blood tests on my brother through online labs such as request a test, to determine the imbalances in his brain and body. Here is what was causing his problems. 1. an elevated free copper level. 2. a low B12, which was causing an elevated methylmalonic acid level and this elevated methylmalonic acid was blocking enzymes that convert ammonia to urea in the urea cycle. An elevated ammonia causes psychosis, hallucinations, paranoia, depression, insomnia, and many other things. An elevated methylmalonic acid causes a host of problems too, and eventually eats the myelin sheaths off the nerves that contain the electrical signals. Once the B12 is brought back to normal, the myelin sheaths will reform within 2 years. As for the elevated free copper, it also causes psychosis, paranoia, hallucinations, and insomnia. The free copper also enters the brain, oxidizes neurotransmitters and short circuits the brain. Free or unbound copper is toxic, and a conductor of electricity, and the brain is an electrochemical organ, so it wreaks havoc on brain signals. Copper bound to ceruloplasmin protein is non toxic and actually used by the brain and body to properly function. Where did the free copper come from? He has a defective ATP7B gene, which doesn't properly bind copper. Anyway, get these 4 tests done. 1. direct measurement of free copper (test number 279071 at lab corp). This is not a serum copper test, so make sure you get the direct measurement of free copper. I use lab corp in Oklahoma, so the test number may be different in your state or country. Normal free copper level should be 0-10 mcg/dl. Anything over that and you have a problem. 2. Methylmalonic acid test, which will show the B12 at the tissue level. 3. serum B12. 4. Ammonia blood test. If your free copper is elevated only take zinc or ammonium tetrathiomolybdate (TM)to lower it. Don't take the old copper chelating drug penacillimine, because it is too aggressive at mobilizing the copper and can flood the brain with even more copper, leaving a person in a vegetative state. If a doctor tries to use this copper chelating drug, just say no. Zinc or TM are much safer and more effective. TM can be obtained from a compounding pharmacist and you will need a doctor's prescription to get it. Zinc is slower at chelating the copper and may take 2 or 3 years, but it will get the copper level down. Zinc needs to be taken without food one hour before or 2 hours after meals. If you take zinc with food it binds it up and renders it inactive. Zinc pulls copper from the blood through intestinal cells and also blocks the absorption of copper. Also stop eating high copper foods, such as liver and shellfish. Get your free copper level down to 10 mcg/dl or lower and you will say bye bye to those voices in your head and paranoia. Also if your methylmalonic acid is high, this is due to a low B12 at the tissue level, so have your doctor give you B12 injections until the M acid drops back down. You may have an intrinsic factor protein defect in your stomach that won't allow you to absorb B12 if taken orally, so go with the shots, or take it sublingually, which means under the tongue. If the M acid is high, the ammonia will be high too, and there are drugs to lower ammonia. The ammonia and M acid will eventually go down on their own once the B12 problem is corrected. Once your B12 normalizes this will make you feel like a new person. According to my research, these 2 things, a high free copper and low B12 are causing most of the mental illness in the world. I have learned that this cure for schizophrenia has been around since the 1960's when Dr. Carl C, Pfeiffer discovered copper was causing schizophrenia and he wound up curing 20,000 schizophrenics over his lifetime. According to him, once he started curing patients and getting them off their meds, big pharma spent millions to block his cure from getting into medical schools. Big pharma doesn't want anything cured, because they make billions treating diseases. Another thing I forgot to mention, I have tested several brands and types of zinc and found the least upsetting to the stomach is "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. I'm not being paid to promote anything, but found this zinc was effective at lowering free copper and also easy on the stomach. You can buy this zinc online and find it by googling "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. Take 50 mg of zinc 3 times a day, one hour before or two hours after meals. Once your free copper is lowered and your schizophrenia cured, which may take a few years with zinc, you will need to still take at least 50 mg once a day for the rest of your life to prevent the copper from building back up and causing a relapse. You can take TM and be decoppered in 8 weeks so you might wanna get a prescription for this. Also what I did for my brother was left him on his medication while I was decoppering him and bringing his B12 up. Once I corrected what was causing his problems I started gradually weaning him off his medications and today he lives a normal life free of medication and cured of schizophrenia, bi polar and manic depressive. Anyway good luck, and please share this cure with others on the internet so we can get rid of this needless suffering. God Bless
I'm no good at keeping journal's so I write poetry to vent my emotions. I'm in a manic right now and very angry which doesn't always happen. Stay a fighter Amanda
my worst episode i felt like i was being juggled with information that led to more information which led to me crying and screaming my head off. were talking about letting satan through the gates of heaven here. the info was tangible, biblical and involved nearly everyone i could think of. looking back now i realise im in the sain part of episode 2. (off topic but) nice eyes by the way you have the deepest blue eyes ive seen to date.
How long do episodes last? I haven’t been diagnosed but the doctors are thinking that I have it. I’ve been hallucinating for about a little more than 6 months.
Hey I know this comment is from 10 months ago but I was just wondering how it went? I’ve been having lots of episodes for months and the doctors still haven’t figured it out yet.
Jillian Lage hi I wasn’t sure if this was a reply to me or the channel but I do still hallucinate occasionally but it’s much better now. I was actually diagnosed with something called phycosis and I take medication for it now. I also suffer with anxiety/depression some came from the phycosis but I’m on three medications and I’m doing much better. The doctor ruled out everything physical with me first so they might try that with you if they haven’t already.
"I know you have these satanic aliens telling you to kill me. But that's okay, you're hot, so I'm willing to overlook this..." ~Every guy on this board
I'm 34. I was diagnosed with border line personality disorder about 8 years ago. I went threw so many years of being misdiagnosed. I wish i had been diagnosed sooner so i could have gotten it under control sooner. Well really idk if i have it under control now
For borderline they put me on a mood stabilizer, called lamotrigine. Ask about side affects first, there is a nasty one that affects a small amount of people. But this medication worked wonders for me. I just need to be upped a little.
I have schizophrenia & bpd also. Your so brave 💗 I did drawings from my last episode and wrote words as well but i threw them away. I remember seeing a praying mantis is the garden but like human size. I tried to draw it, it was quite alike but not as good as your drawings. X
This is such a great look into your mind, thank you. Have you done a video talking about what it was like for you and your family once your schizophrenia started coming out? Did you tell your parents that you were seeing/hearing things? Or did your behavior alert them to what was going on?
I did actual mention all this in some of my schizophrenic videos. My family didn’t seem to notice any traits though I definitely gave off plenty. My sister had claimed she heard voices when she was young, they took her to specialists who told them it was just depression. So I think they just were in denial about any signs after that. Plus my dad isn’t a big believer in schizophrenia or any disorders
I have split mind among other things. I love my schizophrenic drawings, its the only time i feel connected to something. My ex-wife has all my old journals, most of them are very dark but they feel like a rotten limb i don't want to cut off. Thanks for sharing your life!
Just say "no u" to the voices. Gets em every time
Sean Macguire do you hear voices to?
I do
My voices just get confused asf when i say this
Sean Macguire Boy go deal with them grays
I heard that is not an illness but spiritual awakening.
well clearly the voices are lying, 7.8k people have shown they care
Does she have ENOUGH Subscribers....... ?
Is She Now u tube RICH ?????
How bout a better life .choose me.
You're so brave. Proud of your bravery, not just as a psychology student, but as a person. I would warmly accept you as a person and not think any differently as most people do. But they just need some education about these stuffs. Love you, from Philippines
Greetings I hear a vedio before to same but mind control gang in Iraq use exactly the same and they use also spread rumors about thier victim that it sickness or psychology or else to can continue kill him if you have relationship with this girl or contact please ask her did she go to pray 2 did she noticed her family behave strange with her also did she feel variation in body in fingers for example 3 did she feel like something so like another brain beside her brain reverse or this brain or device trying to reverse for example when she want ignore this voices this device will let her think about its . I hear her talk a lot about suicide did she feel that her motion about life change I mean nothing became important this some questions I think if I get answers this will lead to take medical from mind control only
Sorry I add something
Mind control exactly so like psychology hear voices so known also inforece thoughts I mean they can convert victim to what they need by they way do you know why I comment this because this girl from Europe or usa and these countries under target to biggest terrorism gang in Iraq this devil gang have so develop programme of mind control even this countries didn't even know about it . Also this gangs use the name if god cause who lead it is devil make himself a prophet I don't want talk a lot about this matter but because this girl didn't recovering and I thing this is second vedio I see by the way they psycho so easy to medical but mind control so so difficult cause I wish for her health and recovery
Thanks
Uhmmm hello. Watch documentaries about schizophrenia. As I study Psychology, what we knew is that there are no causes of this illness. And yes, some people tend to manipulate their victims, which causes mental trauma or worse, mental illness. There is no such thing, like a device, that just puts you into a situation like having this kind of illness. And if your talking about her recovery, schizophrenia will be a part of her life. As of now, the only thing that can help her minimize her hallucinations is taking her prescribed medicines.
Some people fabricate or make stories about Psychology, even movies. That's why people, especially those who are mentally ill, are afraid to go to the professional, because of the fear that the society has set for all the psychology related issues. I feel like you only see the negative/sad part of Psychology, which was used by bad people for their bad agendas. I hope you still do your research more further, so you will be enlighten.
I don’t have schizophrenia, but I do deal with depression and anxiety. People who rise above their pain amaze and inspire me so deeply. You are so strong! God bless you in your fight! ❤️
Thanks, and depression and anxiety is definitely not an easy fight. Stay strong.
I agree with you 💙💖💜💛💚
Thank you for sharing so much deeply personal information to help us understand schizophrenia and other disorders. You are brave and courageous , you are a trailblazer, a true pioneer in opening the hidden and largely misunderstood realm of mental illness. This is in No way easy to do and I applaud your strength and you are a beautiful soul. Thank you again, please continue sharing. Ps your eye shadow is perfect, I love the colors. Perhaps do a makeup tutorial, you really know how to do makeup. Thanks again.❤
Kaet - Most depression and anxiety are caused by pernicious anemia, which causes a low B12. Get a methylmalonic acid blood test to see the B12 at the tissue level. You can also have a serum B12 test, but 50% of the time it will show normal, while your tissue level of B12 is low. If your B12 is low, you can cure your depression and anxiety with a few weeks of daily B12 injections.
thank you panic stay away
I'm 41 and 7 months ago I ended up in a ball on the floor hallucinating the most detailed abusive visions and voices it was absolutely horrendous. We can overcome our inner journey problems with the right people around us. I have to stay vigilant about what I let in to my life, my mind and my actions. I don't want to preach, but I found a loving God who saved me from it as long as I commit to learning and growing along good spiritual lines which means being the most loving, helpful person I can be. Peace and blessings.
Same. I didn't necessarily believe in God but when i started seeing this creatures and hearing evil hateful voices i started seeking Jesus and when i accepted Him as my savior it all stoped. It's conforming to know that we weren't crazy because whether people believe or not spritual world is just as real and even more real than this physical one because it's everlasting. Everyone needs to accept Jesus and repents of sins that's the only way to eternal salvation
@@standingfortruth4043 Are you saying true?...or it's just sczophernia symtoms
I love seeing schizophrenic drawings, I draw those kinds of things all the time due to my schizophrenia and several other illnesses I struggle with, seeing other drawings similar to my struggles helps me relate and feel like I’m not alone
My younger brother got diagnosed after our older brother committed suicide. I had no idea what was happing. I just knew he was different and that it was serious. I saw his journals and they disturbed me because I was uneducated on what was going on. That one picture really reminded me of his drawings. He's doing much better now. He finally opened up to me about 5 months ago. I'm happy he's doing good because not everyone will. I'm now learning so much about it. Thanks again for sharing
Wait so its mostly cause of a traumatic expierence? My aunt got hit by a train and got diagnosed
i hope these videos are therapeutic for you, keep being awesome.
You've given me courage to go look through the journals I'd scribble through at my worst. You're straight up amazing.
Thank you!
I'm glad I found you, my best friend of 25 years was just diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia (he thought me and my other 2 friends where part of the Aluminati and where out to get him) but he is in a stage where it's scary we haven't found the right medicines to get him on and he has really bad episodes (I'm the only person in life he's got) and I don't fully understand the condition and I don't know when I'm helping or hurting but when he gets through the other side of an episode and I have him back its worth it, so thanks for giving me hope that he will have a successful life with his condition and he won't be looked at like a freak or a psycho, you give me hope
I had an aunt with paranoid schizophrenia but it was hard to talk to her because a traumatic brain injury left her speech severely impaired. Watching videos like yours help me understand what life was probably like for her, in a way that she could never articulate. I hope you were eventually able to get a psychologist and that you're doing okay. Thank you for sharing with us.
You seemed so drained doing this video.. I can definitely relate 😔💓
I think it’s because I didn’t know how to explain the situation of my journal
That's understandable xx
my favourite thing to hear in these types of videos is "i dont do that anymore"
Your honesty is very inspiring, and your strength seriously shows. Thanks for sharing your stories.
Thank you
You’re a beautiful girl. Very brave of you to confront your illness. Also.....you’re an AMAZING artist.
you’re so strong. no really one understands the experiences people diagnosed with schizophrenia experience daily. it’s great that you are journaling, i find it really helps with mental health ❤️❤️❤️ i hope you’re doing well and taking care of yourself 😊
My nephew was just diagnosed with schizophrenia and I have been the one helping him get the help he needed. Your videos have been helping me understand what he is dealing with so much. Thanks for being so open and sharing your experiences.
I absolutely love that you got the song of healing playing in the background. You are so brave and wonderful and I can relate to you so much even if we don't share the same diagnosiseseses. Big hugs!
i think it's weird how we all see similar things during our episodes, last night i had one and wrote everything down, i saw a lot of old bony creatures with huge eyes or like cat eyes and i saw that in some of your drawings too
Wherever you see them or hear them again just say name of Jesus or blood of Jesus. I know you might be sceptic but it will work I'm telling you from experience. They are real, we aren't crazy. Those are demons and they want to mess with us and terrorize us into ending our lives. But there is no need for that because Jesus will help you you just have to call on Him. Jesus is our savior in this and eternal life, just accept Him and seek Him daily. God bless
My son went through this and medication didn't help.Hes been in mental hospital a few times.These voices ARE REAL,their from the spiritual realm,called demons,its biblical. Drs dont know what causes it,so they label you with these names and dope you up on these medications that have severe side effects .Anyone who has this problem, need to find a good deliverance minister and have them work with you.You CAN be set free!
@@standingfortruth4043 ableist
@@onickadominick6650 he couldve had treatment resistant schizophrenia. Where medication doesn't work. Please do your research before you say crap like this, its extremely dangerous and it doesn't help. It makes everything 3 times worse.
@@oddlysatisfying1790 no mate, mental illness is increase and hosiptal meds dont fix they simply just rid of symptoms. you cant completely say there is no spiritual healing, just like this girl in the video saying its stuck with your forever and you cant fix it. this is is what happens when you give up on other ways to cure yourself, i know some people who became more spiritual and fixed up.
Schizophrenics’ss
I also have racing thoughts, but I usually journal it and give myself a time out. I use relaxing piano music 24/7 or space music 24/7 whenever I’m stressed.
6:36 I’ve learned to have the compulsion not to say things I’ll regret later.
Your drawings remind me of that one guy from Birdbox who drew the monster he saw. It’s really interesting.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us.
Hey lovely,
I'm so sorry to hear of your full on struggles but really felt your strength for life in this video. I have diagnosed autism & schizophrenia but I don't have a borderline personality disorder. I can relate to quite a few things you were saying and even found that some of the voices you heard were saying things my voices say too. I was getting worse each day, struggling with suicide attempts over the years and trying to see how life is a good thing to live. Everyone around me seemed ok and happy to live life, I just needed to understand how. I knew that my mental state was different and that made things more challenging, but I just couldn't see what they saw. So I tried different psychologists, doctors, drugs, traveling, jobs - you name it, I probably tried it. But the last thing I tried has been helping so much and is the only thing that has ever helped long term. I've started practicing observing every thought (even the thoughts I considered "mine") and understanding that who I am is not confined to a thought. Through self observation I've come to realise that I am not my body, thoughts, emotions or achievements. It's a hard process and it's scary, but it seems we both have been through a lot of scary shit in our everyday lives. I've found people like Sadhguru, Mooji and Eckhart Tolle explain how to dissociate yourself from your thoughts and how to feel peace. It's the only way the thoughts have felt less severe for me, so I thought that it might help you too. I wish you the best life and think you're brave for putting your story online ☺️ Thank you for showing us what constant strength looks like 🌷
Thank you for sharing, you could choose to stay in the dark and let it consume you, but you aren't! I would never say I could understand what you are going through but you seem to be on a good path and want to conquer things. That makes me want to try harder about some things in MY life. Again thank you for sharing and keep the strength! I guarantee you are a light for people and are helping to change someone's life. Good on you!!!
i just started watching your videos a couple of days ago! i hope this doesn't sound repetitive, but i am honestly just floored by you. your reality sounds so incredibly disorienting and terrifying at times, i don't think many people could step into your shoes without getting lost within it. the fact that you can describe your thoughts, feelings and perceptions so clearly is such a gift to people like me who fall more within the nuerotypical spectrum. i really admire your strength, sense of humour and perseverance in life.
thank you for making me a more understanding/compassionate person by sharing your story. -ali
Thanks for video.
I’m glad you like my videos. Just got to keep fighting.
Song of Healing in the background! Why can't the voices ever be nice, like.. Instead of saying mean stuff they should say; ''You are beautiful!'' ''Have a nice day!'' ''Believe in yourself!''.
Ive wondered the same thing. If yer gonna hallucinate, why cant it be pretty flowers and such.
I wish my hallucinations were nice
The evil voices are coming from poison. Poisons that you may be addicted to are nicotine, alcohol, and all drugs. Caffeine is also not advised if your suffering, it is related to poison. The other problem is a starving brain. A starving brain hallucinates. Same as when one is lost in the desert with no food, eventually they hallucinate. You must force heavy foods like hamburgers with the lot and milk into your system. Then you will start hearing good voices. Easy fix. Stop all the poisons and start eating rich and heavy foods. You will get fat but don’t worry. Get your mind sorted first then you will lose the weight. More important to bring your mind out of hell first. Eat lots of ham, lamb chops, t. Bone, cheese, bread,tomatoes, onion, lots of amino acids to help rebuild. It will take time but be vigilant and determined. You will get there. You will be free from this condition. Oh! And don’t give up your medication, it wont affect your recovery, you will get to the stage where you will never need it again but that could be in 3 years. Take care> pan peter
@@petervossos4816 wtf
I write thousands of words in Google Docs. A recurring delusion is that my computer is being hacked, so I have open communication to the voices
You are a fighter! Stay strong! Xx ❤️❤️❤️❤️
You're a beautiful person.Thanks for sharing your journal, it's a personal thing and says so much about your episodes and what you go through.Keep being you.
You’re so pretty and seem so nice. I admire you a lot ❣️
Awe thank you
I am spiritual and obsessed with the supernatual and I feel like most schizophrenics are open spiritually
ua-cam.com/video/f3yM0aJBwfI/v-deo.html Check this out please and thank you Eric.
That profile pic lmao
I agree, my mum had this illness, and had a episode when i was early teens and some stuff she thought were hallucinations, walking, banging, voices, i heard at same time and the cat would react to it too, and then my mum she locked us out of the house saying someone was in the house my friend she put her hand through to open the door and something pulled her hand, the house was empty, a clairvoyant said they may have been drawn towards her because she was ill and would of been easier to manipulate, she said i was sensitive and picked up on them
Yes they are aware of the spiritual warfare around us. The 1/3 of heavens angels and Lucifer who fell and are out to torment and lead us away from Jesus to Hell with them. We need to keep our eyes on Christ and use the authority He gave us to stand against the demonic. He delivered me out of 10 years in the occult in which I had so many demonic portals open I was going crazy and saw the demonic felt it and they were trying to get me to kill myself so I would go to Hell. Christ delivered me and when they come back I use my authority to battle them. He is the way the truth and the life and gives us authority to tread on scorpions and serpents. I spent my whole life denying Christ and was shocked the night He came to me and I was overwhelmed with the Holy Spirit and on my face crying out for Him. He came and showed me that I was doing witchcraft which He is against and deceived by doctrines of demons in the New Age. Aliens, ghosts, spirit guides all deceived me but the Bible says they are the fallen angels and known as "familiar spirits" here to mislead us away from our salvation in Christ
You are so very brave to share like this. Thank you for showing some of your more vulnerable moments.
Thank you for sharing this. This is how I found that my daughter had this disorder. She was feeling depressive, so I gave her a journal to write poetry or her thoughts as a therapy, but then found that she was just streaming the voices onto paper. She had said she heard voices before, but she was a child, so I figured she was just trying to explain thoughts in her head. I didn't realize that they were actual voices tormenting her.
But at least you found out about it. You can now be supportive
Yes, it is actually a relief because she's had issues for years, but was misdiagnosed. I know it will not be an easy road, but now I feel like we can at least make progress. :)
I have schizophrenia and I draw and keep a journal. I draw because it relieves stress. The reason I keep a journal is because
it shows me where I have low times in my life and sometimes I am happy and I realize that the depression will pass. I learn a lot
about my life by keeping a journal.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 16 and spent 4 years in a hospital. You have told me better than any one eles how it is !
Sorry you had got spend time in a hospital
I was diagnosed with bipolar and schizophrenia earlier this year. My episodes have religious / spiritual overtones. I magnify God and take my medication and seee a therapist regularly. God Bless you In your treatment. Praying for you. I can notice when an episode is coming on now so I'm better at not over reacting
My friend was drawing the same kind of alien looking creatures, thanks for sharing .
Those are demons man. ua-cam.com/video/f3yM0aJBwfI/v-deo.html
Wherever you see them or hear them again just say name of Jesus or blood of Jesus. I know you might be sceptic but it will work I'm telling you from experience. They are real, we aren't crazy. Those are demons and they want to mess with us and terrorize us into ending our lives. But there is no need for that because Jesus will help you you just have to call on Him. Jesus is our savior in this and eternal life, just accept Him and seek Him daily. God bless
4:30 Your voices (the voices which talk to you) sound like the usual thoughts that one has but they come to you as voices.
Man I’ve been brought to my knees. I’m so sorry.
Yo I’m schizophrenic I seen that one drawing in person while having sleep paralysis and he wuz darker than night it wuz wild I feel you godbless take care I know how you feel it’s been 12 yrs now it’s finally getting better :) you be aight
Hi. I have listened to your sharing about scitzophrenia. I appreciate what you are sharing. I am 64. When I was 19 I had a severe breakdown and had to frop out of college. After dropping out of school I became aware of some coincidences that amazed me. I was being srawn to Jesus. After I believed I had a honeymoon experience with Him. But I still was sick. I had counseling with Christian counse
I had Christian counseling for several years. Each time I met with Him it was as if David shined a little light into dark rooms and hallways in my mind and gradually the darkness was forced to leave. I know that Satan finds foothold to enter people's lives and He must be forced to leave. So I recommend you seek out the Lord for yourself. Jesus said, I am the light of the world. Whoever follows Me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life. John 8:12.
You are absolutly stunning... And someone I could see my self getting along with quite well...
This was both a fascinating and potentially very helpful video for individuals experiencing these episodes. Chris Anderson commented on here that you are an inspiration, and I couldn't agree more. Your inherent strength and ability to rationalise and verbalise these episodes , is unusual. It puts you in a position were you could be of tremendous assistance to people trying to find a way through such things. For example extracts from your journals would look amazing in a graphic novel created to help people work through what you have already come through. And finally(and perhaps most importantly)... I like your hat! Looks good on you🙂
Thanks and I hope it does help.
Instead of writing journals you should use artwork as an outlet for your mental state. That's what I do. It's more expressive. I just started drawing again for the first time since I was a kid and I love it. There's lots of different forms of art. Drawing, painting, spray paint (tagging), scrapbooking, clothing design, coloring your hair, make jewelry, gel nail design. Even doing your make up in unique ways is a form of art, I got really good at contouring.
I do do art, just not very good at it lol
Just found your channel so I know this is a late comment. I wanted to simply say you are amazing! It takes a lot of strength to be so open like you are. You said it yourself, you are a fighter❤️
Song of healing
Yes it is and thank you :)
@@amateuraries Woman God loves you and will heal you. Those are demonic entities. Don't be afraid of them , they need legal rights to torment you and those rights can be broken with the Help of Jesus.
I hope you can get some help. I am being treated for depression and anxiety and it's hard work to keep up with self care. I think what you're doing is smart and brave. Thank you for sharing!
A night before watching this I had a dream/vision of the triangular headed creature you drew. It peeked at me from the bottom of a wall and through a crevice..super weird.
Before I heard the voices, I also saw what you saw. Face is triangular like a Racoon with the pointed ears. After 15 yrs it's getting better.
looove your laugh. thank you for this. I can see you are very strong. please be well keep well and know that their are people that love and need you... 😉
I have disorganised schizophrenia. Which means disorganised thinking. Unmedicated I have mild delusions which questions my reality like is the tv talking to me. Fortunately I don’t have hallucinations, thanks for sharing!!!
Pray and be still. Yes, you have a disorder, but this disorder includes spiritual torment. God bless you. You seem like an awesome person.
Agreed.!
Your absolutely correct.
@Austin Mark he never said they didn't dumbass
@Austin Mark I didn't say that you didn't say that they didn't say that that did I dumbass? The Crusade Will Go On
@Austin Mark you insinuated it don't lie
I love seeing the stuff that Schizophrenics draw! The things our minds come up with they make movies and art about the stuff we go through
Thanks for sharing, you are helping so many people. God bless.
Ur voices are similar to mine.
Mine says "I'm big and you are small. Soon there will only be room enough for me" " if you kill me we both die"
Why are they always so mean???
It's a comfort to know I'm not alone in the struggle =)
Also the repeats. I really identify with that part too
I was just told today that i have schizophrenia and bpd and ptsd and i also have bipolor and anxity and depression u have help me understand what i feel is real and that im not alone thank u so much
You’re welcome, thank you for watching
My friend n roomie first told me she heard voices after i knew her for 3 years. She was in prison for 8 years, after voices told her to borrow a friends car or she would die, then other friends took the car keys so she couldnt return it. The voices told her to kill herself, all day every day. Then she asked me to be her bf, i said ok, then the voices only told her she was beautiful, on rare occasions, no bad words. So external events can change the voices from evil to friendly. Her journal entries included a letter to God saying ty for bringing me into her life, then got paranoid about what i was up to n didnt trust me. After she got outa prison i was her parole address, she would wake me up screaming how she was gona kill me in extreme detail like a hollywood movie script, call me her rapists name n see his head on my body. 1 year later she woke me with a baseball bat to my her n set me on fire, she ran away n told a cop she wanted to kill herself n told him my name calling me a rapist, she was taken to psych hospital #12 this year, she told me she really did try to murder me. Today she said she sees me stalking her tho i was with another gf or working out of state, shes mad i didnt pick her up n take me away to live with me, which i cant do until she gets antipsychotics n mood stabilizer n rehab, or she will succeed at killing me. She OD on heroin 4 times this year self medicating. Only 1 dr has ever given her antipsychotics at ER that lasted only 48 hours n she was the most amazing nice loving person. Otherwise shes demonpossed as her mom called it before she killed her mom by not telling her sis she had a medical emergency. You have a strong support network, she has none, living on street, family dead or gave up on her. I cant afford conservatorship tho i work 24.7 in 320 hour shifts. So pls be very thankful you have ppl to help you n a home to live in n a license n car n freedom from jail n straightjackets, not everyone has that. The more support n love the happier the voices get, at least for awhile.
How long have you and your husband been together? It sounds like you guys have come along way on your journey. And it seems as if you have yourself as well. Its enlightening to see, like if you guys can stay together and overcome or deal with something so deep that its possible for any relationship. Have there ever been times or a time where you separated bc of it? Or other relationships you've lost due to your disorder? Family, friends, bfs? I thank you so much for sharing your story. It really means alot to me that you're helping to educate us, I personally thank you and wish you the absolute best! Looking forward to more videos ❤
I’ve been in 27 relationships. Most cheated on me and left me. My husband and I have been together for 6 years and he only left me once after a year after a mental break down. We got back together the next day so I don’t exactly count it.
@@amateuraries God bless you. Praying for you
I wish i was like you i get scared of my hallucinations all the time and i see demons killing my friends and family
They are scary at first, but I try to laugh it off. Life is too rough as it is...can’t let fear pull me down
Erich the anime and game god why do you think these are hallucinations;
Erich the anime and game god look at dr marzinski research,he clearly says those arent hallucinations because hallucinations are not always bad contrary to what schizophrenia "hallucinations" are...
@@amateuraries Did you try to get spiritual help?
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My husband has schizophrenia and I have bpd and bipolar your video was very helpful thank you
That must be a fun household! Also, doesn't bpd stand for bi-polar disorder?
@@_whatnext_9319 bpd is for borderline personality disorder
@@vxd8604 oh I see, thanks for letting me know...!
You’re “ lucky “ my voices don’t even allow me to expose anything they say .. I always thought I’d feel better if I just wrote stuff down .. but I was never allowed
Free yourself. Expose them.
Nah bro you tryna get me killed
If you have to take your secrets to the grave then let it be
Crying rn. You’re so strong & brave. Ilu
I used to have Alma, an octopus, Russian oligarchs, CIzin, K. A, (these names are hidden, but they were editing me--I thought) and a cheerleader. Ironically enough, the cheerleader was the meanest and immature, always calling me out and threatening me with mitosis or the cause of cancer if I didn't keep her high in my mind. Alma warned me of things. Cizin tried to kill me multiple times. In a fog, there were three kids who would randomly tease me and try to get my kidney.
John 14: 27 “I am leaving you with a gift-peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.
You are not crazy. Those shadow people are very real. You are a person that lives in the fleshly world as well as the spiritual world. That’s why you are getting attacked/attention from the spirits. Everyone visits the spiritual world in their sleep, but there are some people that are in the middle of both. Stay strong 💪 and strengthen your abilities. We will need you more and more as our surroundings are changing 👍👍❤️❤️❤️
I like your art, I used to have notebooks full of drawing I did while I was having symptoms but I destroyed them as well
Thanks for sharing I struggle daily up and down roller coater negative thoughts ...! When ppl in around me get thoughts just punching ...! It seems im in a battle visions u fighting ppl with weapons and sometimes loops over and over and spooks me out...! Axiety depression PTSD shitty childhood was raped behind a school by 3 older females when i was 7years old as an adult male its total fucked me up ...! With socailizing ppl and with females it messed me . suicidal thoughts daily nervousness igatated cant hold a job down ...female relationship no go . Its truly a battle sometimes i cant get out of bed . ppl general when there in my space it seems cant hold conversations with ppl i get igatated pretty much flee . Thanks your story I was on Cymbalta but dont take it any more . Cant function to good but dont wont take meds. I get alot of foggyness and headaches all the time. I really appreciate u sharing ur courage ur truth ...! U stay strong girl. Cheers......!
@@stevewilliams2917 There are two problems that combine to cause schizophrenia. Smoking , drinking, and or taking drugs are poisons, these give rise to all terrifying thoughts that is the first problem. The other problem is a low protein diet. I triggered the condition when l went on a fruit only diet for one year. I didn’t know at the time nor did the doctors know how to help me. Simply the cure is to immediately stop all poisons, nicotine, alcohol, all drugs, even caffeine. Then to eat. Eat foods like hamburgers with the lot and plenty of milk. Force it down your throat. Don’t worry about putting on weight you will eventually iron out your weight problem, first you have to re-nourish your brain! Stick to it don’t give up and you will get out of it. It will take a while to reverse the hell of a world you have fallen into but don’t despair, you will get out! Remember all you have to do is stay away from all poisons and start eating hamburgers with the lot, lamb chops, t.bones, toasted ham, cheese and tomato sandwiches, chips, dim sims, flake, spring rolls, pies, pasties whatever makes you happy. Then you will get better every day, better and better. Good luck!
This might sound ridiculous for you as its nothing to do with the problem you are having..which you are extremely brave to talk about, and I wish there was something that could be done to help you, I assumed that medication was the key.. No , Ive noticed you have a slight problem which I used to have with catarrh .. I had it quite badly which is why I noticed.. I stopped having dairy products as a help.. and it really helped..took a short while to notice.. the problem I had with constant catarrh actually stopped.. I didnt think it had anything to do with it..but it had. I wish you all the best and your such a nice person and totally straight and have described your problem so honestly that it has made my eyes open as to the gravity of schizophrenia .. it breaks my heart to think more cant be done.. keep strong.. you have a beautiful soul.
I am trying to journal
its going okay '
I hope no one reads them and pity me that makes it hard to write
Your so brave and beautiful. I hope you find peace .
I really like the last draw...i hope you don t get scared anymore really.
you know it's a piece of art, right? And I MEAN that! You know why art's been created? All the best and keep it up :)
I had a few months of un-diagnosed Schizophrenia type symptoms with weight gain ate bags of cookies gained 30lbs, insomnia. Hallucinations mainly at night in full fear from Birth control shots, Depo-prevera. Lost a boyfriend because I became more catatonic and uninterested and all this was in the first month of getting an injection.
Sorry to hear that
I'm best friends with somebody who one might call schizophrenic. Or suffers from psychosis. Many could say I'm the same, but I'm certain I have no disorder as I'm determined to fight them and help others fight theirs. Neither us believe we're crazy, especially after both acquiring our own tangible evidence of it's reality (I.e. voices interrupting phone calls, receiving texts from each other that neither of us had written).
They have died down for both of us, and if they ever come around, we don't hesitate to fight back.
I would not write out what the voices are saying unless they are happy/positive voices, or the voice of somebody you truly love. I used to hear voices like that but it was actual people getting in my face and saying it to me. My mom used to make jokes and call me the spawn of Satan because she hated my dad so much, growing up I thought I was actually the devils' child so I thought I deserved everything I was going through, until I realized everyone else acts evil and I'm actually very pure hearted.
Can you do a video on how your schizophrenia looked as a child, a lot of this sounds very similar to something that’s going on with my little sister but I’m not sure if I’m reading to far into it or not
I mention the topic of my past with my episodes in many of my episode videos
Amateur Aries ok I will definitely check them out, thank you so much!
I’m being legally forced to stay on antipsychotics against my will because I hate medication and I want “myself” back, including my hallucinations and “MY” reality and “delusions”
I do miss my delusions at times too, not so much the hallucinations
It's okay to have schizophrenia, you are not alone so no need to be afraid to say it
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Wow! I talk to myself like that. I have to love myself and continue to do the right things. Help me Jesus.
Honey all you have to do is stop feeding poisons to yourself like nicotine, alcohol, all drugs and caffeine. They are poisons! Then force feed yourself with rich, heavy foods like hamburgers with the lot and plenty of milk. Get fat and re-nourish your brain. Don’t worry you will lose weight afterwards. It will take 2 years to feel a million times better, then you will get better and better. I found the cure after 29 years of suffering. I’m totally out now. No more voices no more hallucinations. I’m free. Be determined and don’t give up. Stop the poisons and eat rich yummy food like there was no tomorrow 😄😄😄
@@petervossos4816 hi. Happy to hear you’ve healed. What did you have? Delusions?
@@Sweetie310 one night I was in bed . I was wide awake and I believed there was a porthole in my room opposite me and I was waiting in absolute terror for a giant puma to jump out and attack me. It never came but the fear was real and I was in that state of fear for maybe 3 hours.
@@petervossos4816 you poor thing. That fear sounds horrible. Glad you found something that works to relieve this. Take care and God bless
@@Sweetie310 thanks! God bless you too !
Love your videos it helps me better understand what people go through
I keep bedside notebook I quick sketch in have for a long time. It helps but sometimes triggers me into a mood
Amanda i found a cure for myself, i don’t know if it works for you but I’m glad to share it. Schizophrenia is a double edged sword, there are two problems. One is the dark ,terrifying thoughts and the other is the hallucinations and delusions. I found that the terrifying thoughts came from my addiction to nicotine and alcohol and my hallucinations came from my insane experimentation with starvation diets. Like once l tried eating fruit for one year. This is what caused the hallucinations and delusions. The negative self harm thoughts came from the poisons. Nicotine, alcohol and all drugs are poisons you have to stop them, even caffeine you have to stop because its related to nicotine. Then you have to start eating and l mean eat like your life depends on it because it does. The foods you have to eat are like hamburgers with the lot and plenty of milk. Get fat, don’t worry about getting fat. You will iron out later. Next don’t give up your medication it wont affect your recovery. And be determined don’t give up. It will take a long time to escape schizophrenia. It depends on how deep in you are and how old. The younger the quicker you will heal. Don’t hesitate to contact me if you have problems. Good luck!
Thank you for sharing I will try your suggestions
@@amandawoodard9848 No problem!😊
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia like 2 years ago. I remember all the delusions I had on the episodes. Now I understand the illness and I know that all of that wasn’t real but at that time it felt horrible. I was living in Toronto and in one episode I returned to my home country, Mexico because the presence that I felt made me feel that that was the right thing to do. I continued with the episodes in Mexico but at that time I didn’t feel like there was something wrong with me until one day I decided to stop eating and drinking water to kill my self. My family noticed that I wasn’t eating and that I was missing during all day. So they took me to the hospital where I was diagnosed with schizophrenia paranoid and depression. Every day I had to deal with suicidal thoughts. Now after two years of treatment I haven’t have a strong episode fortunately. Some days I still have the suicidal thoughts but I ignore the feeling and I tell to my self that everything is right and there’s no need to do that. Watching your videos makes me wanna do the same thing in Spanish. But I feel insecure about what people might say and how that may affect me. You’re so brave! Thanks for sharing! The best wishes ever
Do it! Do it! Make your video...!!!
I once saw a podcast about a psychiatrist in which he was saying that the voices come from entities that have an objective reality. He talked for an hour about all the things he witnessed which can not be explained away if the voices are just glitches in the brain. What is your take on the origin of the voices? Most children are sensitive to seeing things. Is it possible that this condition never goes away for a schizophrenic but actually increases?
If you study necromancy you will find out that there are exercises for permanently opening a door to the realm of the disincarnate. If this happens, you can see them permanently.
I have a brother that has severe schizophrenia. He can not function in society. You can not even have a normal conversation with him. I thought all schizophrenics were like that.
I think we are all affected by these voices in one way or another; audibly, visually or subconsciously. I have a book that talks about an energetic parasite called the Archon. It's called Overcoming the archon through alchemy by John Kreiter if you want to check it out.
Thank you for sharing your videos.
eovalle777 the brain chemicals are malfunctioning and that is when the voices are created. It’s not based on any sort of reality.
It’s not entities but thank you for your opinion
@@singingfan but why do they always say negative things and ask you to harm people or aninals? And why these people see shades, demons and awful things? They could say nice things and the hallucinations could be good but they are not. Why?
@@yesseniapilier2507
They don't say always negative things, it depends. And they are not entities. It's the state of your mind when you can hear them.
My voices aren't always bad. In fact one is a woman. The only voice I gave a name to and she is always telling me to do better and not to listen to the others. Like a young mothers voice. I've actually had a dream about her few times.
I haven't had any success in dealing with the voices without meds.
Same
Wherever you see them or hear them again just say name of Jesus or blood of Jesus. I know you might be sceptic but it will work I'm telling you from experience. They are real, we aren't crazy. Those are demons and they want to mess with us and terrorize us into ending our lives. But there is no need for that because Jesus will help you you just have to call on Him. Jesus is our savior in this and eternal life, just accept Him and seek Him daily. God bless
Hello Amanda, love your videos! may i ask where did you buy these contact lenses? xx Best wishes Also Amanda :)
I got them from my eye doctor. They are prescription contacts
@@amateuraries Please? :)
@@arsamandi8529 I don’t know why you are saying please, I gave you my answerr
im on a ward were ive seen staff teleport from one side of the corridor to the other where the office. dont underestimate the reality of these voice. im glad your married, he must add some security spiritually, mentally ect
After several years of research, here is how I cured my brother's mental illness. Decades ago he was was given the labels of paranoid schizophrenic, bi polar, manic depressive and given handfuls of pills to take, that had horrific side effects. When I asked his psychiatrists if he could ever be cured, they all said no, that schizophrenia couldn't be cured only treated. Don't believe the psychiatrists that tell you there is no cure. Don't be intimidated by their title or college degrees. I have several graduate degrees and can tell you that they are just pieces of paper that mean absolutely nothing. We now have the internet and the collective knowledge of the world at our fingertips. I finally had enough of these morons that were too stupid to cure my brother, and asked God in the name of Jesus to show me what was causing my brother's problems, and here is what he showed me. I started searching for all things known to cause psychosis and also started learning how the brain operates. Then I started running my own blood tests on my brother through online labs such as request a test, to determine the imbalances in his brain and body. Here is what was causing his problems. 1. an elevated free copper level. 2. a low B12, which was causing an elevated methylmalonic acid level and this elevated methylmalonic acid was blocking enzymes that convert ammonia to urea in the urea cycle. An elevated ammonia causes psychosis, hallucinations, paranoia, depression, insomnia, and many other things. An elevated methylmalonic acid causes a host of problems too, and eventually eats the myelin sheaths off the nerves that contain the electrical signals. Once the B12 is brought back to normal, the myelin sheaths will reform within 2 years. As for the elevated free copper, it also causes psychosis, paranoia, hallucinations, and insomnia. The free copper also enters the brain, oxidizes neurotransmitters and short circuits the brain. Free or unbound copper is toxic, and a conductor of electricity, and the brain is an electrochemical organ, so it wreaks havoc on brain signals. Copper bound to ceruloplasmin protein is non toxic and actually used by the brain and body to properly function. Where did the free copper come from? He has a defective ATP7B gene, which doesn't properly bind copper. Anyway, get these 4 tests done. 1. direct measurement of free copper (test number 279071 at lab corp). This is not a serum copper test, so make sure you get the direct measurement of free copper. I use lab corp in Oklahoma, so the test number may be different in your state or country. Normal free copper level should be 0-10 mcg/dl. Anything over that and you have a problem. 2. Methylmalonic acid test, which will show the B12 at the tissue level. 3. serum B12. 4. Ammonia blood test.
If your free copper is elevated only take zinc or ammonium tetrathiomolybdate (TM)to lower it. Don't take the old copper chelating drug penacillimine, because it is too aggressive at mobilizing the copper and can flood the brain with even more copper, leaving a person in a vegetative state. If a doctor tries to use this copper chelating drug, just say no. Zinc or TM are much safer and more effective. TM can be obtained from a compounding pharmacist and you will need a doctor's prescription to get it. Zinc is slower at chelating the copper and may take 2 or 3 years, but it will get the copper level down. Zinc needs to be taken without food one hour before or 2 hours after meals. If you take zinc with food it binds it up and renders it inactive. Zinc pulls copper from the blood through intestinal cells and also blocks the absorption of copper. Also stop eating high copper foods, such as liver and shellfish. Get your free copper level down to 10 mcg/dl or lower and you will say bye bye to those voices in your head and paranoia. Also if your methylmalonic acid is high, this is due to a low B12 at the tissue level, so have your doctor give you B12 injections until the M acid drops back down. You may have an intrinsic factor protein defect in your stomach that won't allow you to absorb B12 if taken orally, so go with the shots, or take it sublingually, which means under the tongue. If the M acid is high, the ammonia will be high too, and there are drugs to lower ammonia. The ammonia and M acid will eventually go down on their own once the B12 problem is corrected. Once your B12 normalizes this will make you feel like a new person. According to my research, these 2 things, a high free copper and low B12 are causing most of the mental illness in the world. I have learned that this cure for schizophrenia has been around since the 1960's when Dr. Carl C, Pfeiffer discovered copper was causing schizophrenia and he wound up curing 20,000 schizophrenics over his lifetime. According to him, once he started curing patients and getting them off their meds, big pharma spent millions to block his cure from getting into medical schools. Big pharma doesn't want anything cured, because they make billions treating diseases. Another thing I forgot to mention, I have tested several brands and types of zinc and found the least upsetting to the stomach is "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. I'm not being paid to promote anything, but found this zinc was effective at lowering free copper and also easy on the stomach. You can buy this zinc online and find it by googling "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. Take 50 mg of zinc 3 times a day, one hour before or two hours after meals. Once your free copper is lowered and your schizophrenia cured, which may take a few years with zinc, you will need to still take at least 50 mg once a day for the rest of your life to prevent the copper from building back up and causing a relapse. You can take TM and be decoppered in 8 weeks so you might wanna get a prescription for this. Also what I did for my brother was left him on his medication while I was decoppering him and bringing his B12 up. Once I corrected what was causing his problems I started gradually weaning him off his medications and today he lives a normal life free of medication and cured of schizophrenia, bi polar and manic depressive. Anyway good luck, and please share this cure with others on the internet so we can get rid of this needless suffering. God Bless
@@jimjackle6282 YHWH RAPHA. The Lord our Healer. Yeah man vitamins have a huge part I haven't been taking them lately but I will. Praise the Lord.
I'm no good at keeping journal's so I write poetry to vent my emotions. I'm in a manic right now and very angry which doesn't always happen. Stay a fighter Amanda
I’m sorry to hear that, I hope you fight out of it, I know it’s tough
my worst episode i felt like i was being juggled with information that led to more information which led to me crying and screaming my head off. were talking about letting satan through the gates of heaven here. the info was tangible, biblical and involved nearly everyone i could think of. looking back now i realise im in the sain part of episode 2. (off topic but) nice eyes by the way you have the deepest blue eyes ive seen to date.
How long do episodes last? I haven’t been diagnosed but the doctors are thinking that I have it. I’ve been hallucinating for about a little more than 6 months.
It can last for a few minutes, it can last months and even years depending the severity.
Hey I know this comment is from 10 months ago but I was just wondering how it went? I’ve been having lots of episodes for months and the doctors still haven’t figured it out yet.
Jillian Lage hi I wasn’t sure if this was a reply to me or the channel but I do still hallucinate occasionally but it’s much better now. I was actually diagnosed with something called phycosis and I take medication for it now. I also suffer with anxiety/depression some came from the phycosis but I’m on three medications and I’m doing much better. The doctor ruled out everything physical with me first so they might try that with you if they haven’t already.
"I know you have these satanic aliens telling you to kill me. But that's okay, you're hot, so I'm willing to overlook this..." ~Every guy on this board
You are amazingly strong. Always remember!
I'm 34. I was diagnosed with border line personality disorder about 8 years ago. I went threw so many years of being misdiagnosed. I wish i had been diagnosed sooner so i could have gotten it under control sooner. Well really idk if i have it under control now
It can be hard to control. I may even need to go up in medication
@@amateuraries do u mind me asking what medications they put you on for your borderline personality disorder
For borderline they put me on a mood stabilizer, called lamotrigine. Ask about side affects first, there is a nasty one that affects a small amount of people. But this medication worked wonders for me. I just need to be upped a little.
@@amateuraries yea I've been on it before
It stopped working after a year tho. I'm unmediated now
I have schizophrenia & bpd also. Your so brave 💗 I did drawings from my last episode and wrote words as well but i threw them away. I remember seeing a praying mantis is the garden but like human size. I tried to draw it, it was quite alike but not as good as your drawings. X
This is such a great look into your mind, thank you. Have you done a video talking about what it was like for you and your family once your schizophrenia started coming out? Did you tell your parents that you were seeing/hearing things? Or did your behavior alert them to what was going on?
I did actual mention all this in some of my schizophrenic videos. My family didn’t seem to notice any traits though I definitely gave off plenty. My sister had claimed she heard voices when she was young, they took her to specialists who told them it was just depression. So I think they just were in denial about any signs after that. Plus my dad isn’t a big believer in schizophrenia or any disorders
Thank for sharing, your amazing
Imagine moving into her previous house and seeing all she wrote on the wall.. 😲
Before we moved, we painted the closet. Took several coats of paint to get over all the writing
Paint ........ Easy !!!!
@@amateuraries how many Subscribers do you have ? Has this venue & these videos Changed your Financial Status ?(God Bless You ,IF it Has !!!!)😋
@@MrKinky4u I have over 10,000 subscribers and it hasn’t help much with money. I do have a patreon page where people can help out.
You seem to be aware. You have much awareness to make videos. Heck, you are doing better than me. Good job buddy
You’re amazing - I admire you
I have split mind among other things. I love my schizophrenic drawings, its the only time i feel connected to something. My ex-wife has all my old journals, most of them are very dark but they feel like a rotten limb i don't want to cut off. Thanks for sharing your life!
use a mirror on your draws and you will see the order of chaos
in my opinion you are decoding reality in a higher level
have you thought about using your journal entries to write a book about schizophrenia? i am
I draw weird stuff too.