A five year old child cry’s when they fall on the sidewalk and scrapes their knee because, that is some of the worst pain they have felt in their life. On the other hand if a thirty year old falls on the sidewalk and scrapes their knee they won’t cry because, they have felt worse pain in their life.
All I hear when people describe depression: depression is like... drowning. Let’s admit it, I have depression as well. It does feel like your drowning.. but it also feels like your dieing alive..
Kinda feels more like almost drowning. Like the weights in your chest and body are pulling you down but your only able to barely keep your head above the water. Then you keep taking deep breaths wondering when it will fully pull you under. Sometimes it does but you hold your breath and your able to get your head above again. Drowning seems more like when you finally give in to it and let the water take you.
this is literally my life. not even joking- the only difference is that I’m not rich and instead of my mom pushing me away she wants to know too much and then yell at me.
"Stop crying, some people out there have harder lives than yours" And I'm one of these people, but you don't seem to wanna see it. Gosh, the accuracy of this movie is scary.
Fax man everyone treats each other like one is beneath the other We as a society is slowing becoming the animals of the world while animals like primates are more human then we ever have been It’s sad and I am ashamed for real.
Ngl I ran away from my house last week but they found me and cried like crazy and promised me stuffs. They stopped doing what stresses me out from then on until yesterday. It all shifted back until the usual shit. I honestly feel like they only start to appreciate me when I'm gone. Now I'm here again and they don't care again. Shits going worse. I know I can't run away again. All I'm thinking about is suicide. I mean that's the only escape left
@@coffeemechanic4610 please dont! it might seem really hard right now but i promise itll get better. there are so many other ways to cope but not suicide. if you are in an unsafe situation see if theres a friend you can stay with. or honestly if they will listen sit down and talk to them about your feelings. if nothing else just find someone to talk to. if you dont have anyone you can talk to me. all of my social media is in the description on my youtube videos so dont be afraid to contact me. it gets better i promise
it was possible for me for one day, i succeeded when i believed in it. but when the supposed rationality says it's ridiculous to believe in it, you don't even try it.
The way the dad was yelling at Kirby and she was just standing there, even though she was not saying much I could still feel exactly what she was feeling... the whole time people are saying "you need to choose to be happy" and "it's just an excuse" and stuff like that hurt a person more than they know and I am told those things everyday by people at my school, by my parents by people I thought would understand me but no one does no one cares enough to know me
@@Star1ight.682 What I hate is that in movies, the lonely kid is the one who never sits with anyone. In real life, there are other people at my table but I'm not REALLY sitting with them. Lonely doesn't mean alone. It means FEELING alone in a crowd. It can mean feeling alone when you're alone, but the real meaning of loneliness is feeling alone when you're with people.
@@godofchaos9571 true that. In my old middle school I was deemed a really happy kid with tons of friends. In reality I didn't feel like I had friends and would sit at lunch without talking to anyone because of what you stated
Yeah, I feel this way too much... I’m the kid who’s nice to everyone and most people like, but I never get close to people so that I’m invited. I try to find the other lonely people, in a crowd or other, but no one really knows I’m the lonely one too...
If depression has progressed to this level and you feel there is no more hope, just cry, as hard as you can. Cry as long as you can until you become tired and feel the need to nap. When ever we feel trapped and have no means of control, that is when you know that it has hit you so hard, that you feel there is no chance at life. After you wake from that nap, take a deep breath, and relax. If you are brave, please contact someone who can help you to feel confident, and ready to fight. People do have to take medication to help them everyday to do the simple tasks that are so exhausting, especially just eating, or drinking water. It is hard, and it takes just one person to help you get focused and try for another day. Please don't turn to alcohol, please don't turn to drugs that harm you and make you feel so much worse. I know it is easier said than done, but a lot of people do go through this every day, and it isn't uncommon. You are beautiful, you are unique, you are creative, you are everything someone is looking for to be with for the rest of your life, there is someone out there for everyone, just be patient, things may seem difficult now, but things can change. A lot of people will overlook my comment, unless this speaks to you. Trust me, you are amazing, and you mean a lot to someone, it doesn't even need to be a human, but an animal that you own, or take care of. Go out, volunteer at a shelter, or a homeless shelter if you can! You will have a huge impact on someone's life especially if they are going through the same exact thing. Depression has become so clever at being hid, that no one knows about it, until it is too late. I hope this message can save you, I know it is scrambled, but it is the best I can write to help you, to show that you aren't the only one. You matter! You belong on earth, you may not see it now, but you have a spot in someone's life!
I understand how you feel, when I'm told that I should be happy because I have all this good stuff in my life I feel even worse because I start to think my feelings are all in my head and I'm not depressed and I should be happy, this is why I keep a open mind and don't just think someone has a easy life, everyone has their own problems and no matter how big or small everyone is valid
If people say that it’s ok to feel sad and angry then why do I get rejected and dismissed as complaining every time I tell my parents I have an issue with something they do that upset me
It’s kinda like the Pink Floyd song, Nobody Home: I got a little black book with my poems in, Got a bag with a toothbrush and a comb in, When I’m a good dog, they sometimes throw me a bone in. Got elastic bands keeping my shoes on, Got those swollen-hand blues, I got thirteen channels of shit on the TV to choose from. I got electric light, And I got second sight, I got amazing powers of observation. And that is how I know, When I try to get through, On the telephone to you, There’ll be nobody home. I got the obligatory Hendrix perm, And the inevitable pinhole burns, All down the front of my favorite satin shirt. I got nicotine stains on my fingers, I got a silver spoon on a chain, Got a grand piano to prop up my mortal remains. I got wild staring eyes, And I got a strong urge to fly, But I got nowhere to fly to (fly to... fly to... fly to...). Ooh, babe, When I pick up the phone, There’s still nobody home. Got a pair of Gohills boots, But I got fading roots. You could have all the coolest shit in the world, the nicest house in the world, the best family in the world, but none of that means jack shit if you don’t have someone to talk to. Take care everybody! ☺️
@@youreverydaysaltyiowastate5602 Reminds me Numb by Linkin Park I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface Don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) I've become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired So much more aware I'm becoming this All I want to do Is be more like me And be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control? 'Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) And every second I waste is more than I can take I've become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired So much more aware I'm becoming this All I want to do Is be more like me And be less like you And I know I may end up failing too But I know You were just like me with someone disappointed in you I've become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired So much more aware I'm becoming this All I want to do Is be more like me And be less like you I've become so numb I can't feel you there (I'm tired of being what you want me to be) I've become so numb I can't feel you there (I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
I had the whole time a straight face and zero feelings but at the end when she came back and her parents and sister hugged her i immediately cried because i never experience love from my family if i ran away and came back then they would’ve slapped me instead of hug me
I understand how u feel so lets just hold on to that hope that one day things are gonna turn to be alright i also suffer from anxiety and depression there is very little awareness about it in my country so when i tell them how i feel and what m going thru they never understand and judge for being lazy or this and that so i always come to comment section of utube and look we are not alone u are not alone we are all in this battle together lots of love and support for you💕
It's such a great movie to have just 13k views .I feel people need to be aware of the mental health . And of course, things like "You have very good life to be sad", "You are just lazy and attention seeking" are the most irritating words one can hear especially when they are not mentally fine .
When humans hunt monsters only one thing is true We are the monsters themselves Even primates have more kind souls to their kind then we ever had and some are vert violent tho.
This film was absolutely beautiful ! I am amazed at the great cinematography, acting and story line. I really appreciated this film. and your channel is so underrated. Please keep up with the creative and heart warming work ! much love .
"You're just too sensible" "That didn't happen, you're just imagining it's more than it actually is" "You're sitting on your unproductive table again." "You didn't do enough" "Why are you that way?" "It's scaring me that you're sitting here all day, not doing anything" "Is it because all your friends have something and you want to belong to them?" "But everything is fine" "If you don't like it, why don't you just stop?" "Mental stuff doesn't exist, it's just a persons character traits" "Psychology isn't even a real science thing" "Well, I don't think you've got anything"
the part where her dad says "You can't even handle yourself, what makes you think you could handle another person's problems?" is something that I've struggled with for a long time, since I'm a psych major myself. It can be so easy to feel like you're never qualified "enough"... I think for me, what's helped is realizing that, to an extent, everyone struggles, so that doesn't make your ability to help any less valid than someone who may not deal with a mental illness. If anything, I think it can give you a kind of understanding and empathy that can be slightly harder for someone else to have if they have never personally experienced it.
I hate when people say, you have it better then most people you should be happy, because that's messed up, just because it seems like someone has it better, that might not be the case. And also I hate how people say like you can choose to be happy, because you cant.
when the dad gave her a hug when he finally seemed to care was when I started crying. i just need a hug. this film literally represents me I always think I'm not good enough and then I doubt myself and think why I'm even here and then my parents compare me with other kids my age because they're prettier or more wealthy and have it "easier" . i hate it here. and thats how after all that, becomes eating disorders, self harm and plans to kms.
Other people has worst than u do This is what stops me from sharing my feelings to others Everytime i think i should share i feel maybe they will laugh because their problem might be more harsher or harder than mine :-)
I've been there. All those fights started by the parents when I've felt too depressed, or demotivated, or in need of recovering. Looking back, as a young man, I still can't understand how, year after year, a parent can't perceive that something is wrong, understand that he is destroying the self-confidence of his son, find some time and some courage to have a talk. Earning money to pay for the studies of a son is difficult. But growing up and learning to live is even more, when no one guides you.
This is the first depressed film I have seen that I do not blame her for thinking about killing her self and I probably would have actually killed myself if I was in her situation. She is so strong for not going through with it.
Just like my parents our friendship is all about my grades it’s so annoying and they compare me with my perfect sister it’s so annoying I can’t I’m done with this
Captain Erwin hi, i am. i’m sorry i replied 3 weeks later i haven’t been on youtube much. but i’ve been holding on i’m still in pain. but i’m trying my best to hold on.
I did not choose to think this way any more than you choose to breathe. It is true that we could both stop these things, but it would require severing something integral to who we are.
Feeling numb is knowing everything’s fine and you’re supposed to be fine but feeling and knowing that you aren’t. You don’t know why you feel like this and you don’t know how to fix it so you ride it out and cruise through it acting how you are supposed to
The whole part where she was saying she was okay hit me hard I didn’t realize other people tried to convince and comfort themselves that they’re okay out loud
To all the people here saying that this is what they feel like: please, please search for help. A therapy or other people. But please don't give up. There's a solution for everybody. You can make it out of this. (I know what I'm talking about.) please, you are all worth searching for even a therapist who can help you. Because in therapy you have someone you can tell everything to and someone to help you out of this. Don't be afraid of asking for help. It really IS okay.
My parents don’t care. My friend told them I wanted to die without my permission, and I heard them talking about how hormones are crazy, and my mom got mad at me. They don’t care.
people describe depression as drowning, and it’s true, but it’s more than that. you’re drowning, and swallowing and choking on the water and you can’t see and you just want to drown so it will stop but you don’t you just keep swallowing the water choking and sinking deeper and your vision gets blurrier and blurrier and it’s never ending pain
Thank you for making this video because that is like my story, I want to be a psychologist and yes I have my own problems I can't take care of myself but I am willing to change myself you know then my dad always tells me that I can't be then I feel like I was lost , what is the purpose of thinking about the future if I can't be the person I want to be, not only him many people told me and I was hurt but still I am gonna be a psychologist no matter what cause later no one cares about u more than u,so I will be a psychologist and even I don't get much money with it I will learn psychology masters until the end but working another field to live,so thank you so much for speaking out😍😘😘😘😘👍👍👍
I hate this so mutch the fact that kirby's dad dictates her life really sucks , but I get how it feels for your parent to not care about your mental health
"You have a good life, other people have it worse than you" Well, Kelly, you see, a person that drowned in a 15cm pool is just as dead as a person who drowned in the middle of the ocean.
‘You just have to choose to be happy’ god I feel like I hear this ALL the time, hidden in sentences trying to motivate me. That’s what my whole family is like to me, telling me to go out and stop being negative, exercise and see people, focus on yourself! and when I tell them I can’t just ‘GET BETTER’ they’re like ‘of course, yes I know it’s not easy but you can get there, just believe in yourself! don’t give up!’ ugh. 🤦♀️😒
This is my life. I've been called fat and ugly and I keep telling myself that cause that's what I think of myself. I cry myself to sleep and I have cut and thought of suicide. No adults knew. One day I sent what looked like a suicide e-mails to all my friends. I was sent to my school counselor and was in the office for 2 hours before I was called in. I cried my heart out infront of my counselor, resource officer,and another adult. We talked and I finally felt happy. Then my counselor called my dad and he told her he was working on getting a therapist for me.... It's been two weeks and I'm getting worse.... I don't wanna live and everybody I live has hurt me too much... I'm too numb to feel regret for anything
TheBadgerDen I understand very well on what you’re going through. I can feel that sadness and that pain inside of you. It’s like you’re drowning in the middle of the Ocean with no one to help. It’s as if suicide is the only thing in the whole wide world to solve your problem but the truth is all you want is for this pain to go away. So you view suicide as a way to get rid of the pain you’re going through. I’m an empath and I sense a lot of people’s emotions and their pain. Believe me I’ve felt the pain as well. It’s so unbearable that sometimes even I viewed suicide as a way to get rid of it. Sometimes I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs in agony while at the same time I hit my head as hard as I can. It’s as if I’m going insane because those feelings are so overwhelming. So yes, I understand your pain and it hurts. As much as this pain hurts, you must stay strong because in the end you will feel much better. Life moves on whether you move forward or not. I’ve felt this pain for almost 10 years and it still haunts me today. I’ve been tempted to kill myself before but I know I have to stay strong because even though it feels hopeless there is still hope. So yeah I understand what you’re going through and it hurts very much.
The problem is that my life is good but I can’t see it. It’s like everything that used to be all happy and colorful is now just.. dull. Nothing changed. Nobody in my life left me, nothing bad happened. I just started to feel so lonely and depressed but I can’t tell anyone because my life is “perfect”. I feel numb. I don’t even feel anything anymore. And when I do feel, it’s just hurt and pain. Good family, good home, good grades. “You have no reason to be sad.” The things that her parents and friends told her in this film is just what I tell myself. I need to lose weight, I don’t have a life, people have it way worse than me, I’m worthless, I’m stupid. I started self harming about 2 months ago now. Months before that, I was fine. Then everything slowly went from good to bad but it felt like such a quick process. I guess I didn’t wanna believe it. So now here I am, silent, hurting myself, wanting to scream, wishing I were dead. I just want to go back to how it used to be.. I was so happy and.. I can’t even cry anymore. The only way I feel anything is when I cut or when I dig my nails into my skin until I bleed or pull my hair so hard. I want to rip out my head because it won’t shut up, it’s not even my own thoughts anymore. This isn’t me.. I’m.. not like this. I’ve never dealt with depression or anything before and it’s all new and it came fast like a punch to the face and now I.. I can’t fucking tell my parents. Explain to me how the hell you tell the people who gave you life that you no longer want it. I don’t know what happened. I just want to stop existing. I don’t wanna die I want to sleep forever. I already feel dead, drained, empty. I’m sorry for ranting I’m just.. I’m scared. I don’t know what I’m doing or why or how to stop myself from doing what I do anymore. I’m letting my thoughts take over and becoming something I never thought I’d be..
its true we only matter once we die. Sometimes i feel like i want to die just to show everyone how much mental pain depression feels like. The mental suffering everyone would get from my death would show them whar suffering really is
@@ellenfox6869 i dont mean to hurt them just wish i could make them feel it just once. The only reason im still alive is for their sake. Other than that theres nothing left for me really. Im just living for my parents. Stuck in this stupid world
"other kids would kill to be in your position." "your have a nice life, you have a nice house, college is guaranteed" exactly like people dont understand just because someone has money and their parents are still together that they still have problems in their life. and just cause of those things doesnt mean depression isnt real for them. i get told "oh but you dont have to worry about food, your parents are still together, your not depressed, what could u possibly be depressed about?" theres lots of stuff people dont take the time to understand
The first time i've cried from watching a video. Ever. It really surprised me how similar things were with Kirby and me. Im doing a psychology degree when i was 'supposed' to do a law degree. My mum was dismissive of me and my sisters used to tell me the same things kelly said to kirby. The only difference (and thank goodness) was that my dad is not as terrible as kirby's. My dad, albeit did have some moments where he got equally as frustrated with me as kirby's dad was with her, is way better than that. I cried because it's all only starting to set in now that my life is relatively on track again. Im only starting to realise what almost could have happened. Realised that because of it, im still facing issues even now. This film hit hard.
At the start 0:33 she is right But for me its like drowning but instead of fighting to live then give up My brain tells me I can breath and my naïve heart believes it
My mom is just like her father, especially when he yells at her. She'll say anything to hurt me, especially when she's upset. She doesn't listen to me and doesn't respect my boundaries. She does nothing but complain about a job she only got through a friend but tells me how I should get a job on my own and reminds me of how lazy and stupid I am for struggling to find one. She has no empathy and just sees the world in her older generation worldview. She doesn't just talk about me either. She does the same to my older sister, saying she shouldn't be a fashion designer because of "how she dresses", despite never working in that line of work.
I am recovering from anorexia and that made me depressed and I kept thinking about killing myself but what if I actually did ? I was getting bullied from one of my best friends even though she wasn’t my best friend, only because I redid a year she kept saying you’re dumb you’re not worth it why are you even here and a few minutes past and she would say it again “Well you’re not so dumb” and that made me feel even worse. She was a little bit on the overweight side and that’s what made me go anorexic I was telling myself I never want to be her, but I did just another way Every day I put up with it I put up with the laughter just because of what I looked like. I am now two years into my recovery and I feel like every day it’s getting worse and worse I feel like I’m coming back to being anorexic. This video represents me in every way
"you have a good life! You have all the reason do be happy!" Thanks, I know Surreel!! Don't you think I feel bad enough for feeling the way I do? I have everything and I'm still messed up, deal with it and shut up if you dont't have anything helpful to say!!
"You just have to choose to be happy. It's not that hard!" Yeah yeah sureee. We're able to CHOOSE what we feel. Also the dad, hes literally saying that Kirby was a mistake to him. Sad days.
I don’t even cry. I haven’t cried in a year now. I can’t. I can smile, but I can’t feel the joy. Everyday I try and try to feel but I can’t. I’m not even living for myself . I’m living as my parents puppets . I don’t want to keep going. I’m tired but sleep doesn’t help.
"Other people have it worse than you" Doesn't mean I don't suffer!
Same
You can’t compare pain. Just because you have a broken arm and someone else is in a full-body cast doesn’t mean you’re not hurt.
A five year old child cry’s when they fall on the sidewalk and scrapes their knee because, that is some of the worst pain they have felt in their life. On the other hand if a thirty year old falls on the sidewalk and scrapes their knee they won’t cry because, they have felt worse pain in their life.
😭😭😭😭truth I started to believe I'm delusional
Yeah that's been haunting me since i were little.
“You’re okay. You’re okay. You’re okay. You’re fine! Just smile!”
Emma Presley that hit hard
bro i got whiplash from that lmao i always do that
same
Way to relatable😔
That got me
Oh my goodness, the number of times I've stood in front of my mirror crying telling myself I'm okay........
Hey just too let you know we are w u
Who cares?
Sane people@@tom-qe8ys
I do… 🫶🏻
@@tom-qe8ys bruhhh
All I hear when people describe depression: depression is like... drowning. Let’s admit it, I have depression as well. It does feel like your drowning.. but it also feels like your dieing alive..
Kinda feels more like almost drowning. Like the weights in your chest and body are pulling you down but your only able to barely keep your head above the water. Then you keep taking deep breaths wondering when it will fully pull you under. Sometimes it does but you hold your breath and your able to get your head above again. Drowning seems more like when you finally give in to it and let the water take you.
Isn’t dieing alive like drowning tho , cuz you are
Yh I'm dying alive
SOME KIDS ARE LIKE DEPPRESSION IS “”YoUr ReAlLy SaD!”” And I’m like Wow😒😡
It isn’t just that
this is literally my life. not even joking- the only difference is that I’m not rich and instead of my mom pushing me away she wants to know too much and then yell at me.
same here
Which doesn't fucking help you at all, and it's time people that are adopting this stupid behavior understand that.
Exactly!
This is exactly my life
Seriously? My mom does the exact same thing. It's been taking a toll on my mental health for years.
"Stop crying, some people out there have harder lives than yours"
And I'm one of these people, but you don't seem to wanna see it.
Gosh, the accuracy of this movie is scary.
Yes
Fax man everyone treats each other like one is beneath the other
We as a society is slowing becoming the animals of the world while animals like primates are more human then we ever have been
It’s sad and I am ashamed for real.
it really sucks that they didnt seem to care about her until after she was missing :(
For real tho
Ngl I ran away from my house last week but they found me and cried like crazy and promised me stuffs. They stopped doing what stresses me out from then on until yesterday. It all shifted back until the usual shit. I honestly feel like they only start to appreciate me when I'm gone. Now I'm here again and they don't care again. Shits going worse. I know I can't run away again. All I'm thinking about is suicide. I mean that's the only escape left
@@coffeemechanic4610 please dont! it might seem really hard right now but i promise itll get better. there are so many other ways to cope but not suicide. if you are in an unsafe situation see if theres a friend you can stay with. or honestly if they will listen sit down and talk to them about your feelings. if nothing else just find someone to talk to. if you dont have anyone you can talk to me. all of my social media is in the description on my youtube videos so dont be afraid to contact me. it gets better i promise
@@juliagracechaisson thanks
It also sucks that that's kind of how it is in real life..
“U just have to choose to be happy “ I’m sure if that was the case I would have choose that along time ago
Yeah true it hurts when they say that wish its that easy
Me too
Same here
We don't have choice,we are so poor at this situation
it was possible for me for one day, i succeeded when i believed in it. but when the supposed rationality says it's ridiculous to believe in it, you don't even try it.
The way the dad was yelling at Kirby and she was just standing there, even though she was not saying much I could still feel exactly what she was feeling... the whole time people are saying "you need to choose to be happy" and "it's just an excuse" and stuff like that hurt a person more than they know and I am told those things everyday by people at my school, by my parents by people I thought would understand me but no one does no one cares enough to know me
I care
And that is how eating disorders start...
same it’s mostly my body not my face i hate. but i want a slim face i hate that
so true
Yep..
Well I just want to die
Me: Hey, I'll sit with the lonely kid. Wait...
I'm the lonely kid.
Same here
@@Star1ight.682 What I hate is that in movies, the lonely kid is the one who never sits with anyone. In real life, there are other people at my table but I'm not REALLY sitting with them. Lonely doesn't mean alone. It means FEELING alone in a crowd. It can mean feeling alone when you're alone, but the real meaning of loneliness is feeling alone when you're with people.
@@godofchaos9571 true that. In my old middle school I was deemed a really happy kid with tons of friends. In reality I didn't feel like I had friends and would sit at lunch without talking to anyone because of what you stated
@@atlasz9209 Yeah...
Yeah, I feel this way too much...
I’m the kid who’s nice to everyone and most people like, but I never get close to people so that I’m invited. I try to find the other lonely people, in a crowd or other, but no one really knows I’m the lonely one too...
If depression has progressed to this level and you feel there is no more hope, just cry, as hard as you can. Cry as long as you can until you become tired and feel the need to nap. When ever we feel trapped and have no means of control, that is when you know that it has hit you so hard, that you feel there is no chance at life. After you wake from that nap, take a deep breath, and relax. If you are brave, please contact someone who can help you to feel confident, and ready to fight. People do have to take medication to help them everyday to do the simple tasks that are so exhausting, especially just eating, or drinking water. It is hard, and it takes just one person to help you get focused and try for another day. Please don't turn to alcohol, please don't turn to drugs that harm you and make you feel so much worse. I know it is easier said than done, but a lot of people do go through this every day, and it isn't uncommon. You are beautiful, you are unique, you are creative, you are everything someone is looking for to be with for the rest of your life, there is someone out there for everyone, just be patient, things may seem difficult now, but things can change. A lot of people will overlook my comment, unless this speaks to you. Trust me, you are amazing, and you mean a lot to someone, it doesn't even need to be a human, but an animal that you own, or take care of. Go out, volunteer at a shelter, or a homeless shelter if you can! You will have a huge impact on someone's life especially if they are going through the same exact thing. Depression has become so clever at being hid, that no one knows about it, until it is too late. I hope this message can save you, I know it is scrambled, but it is the best I can write to help you, to show that you aren't the only one. You matter! You belong on earth, you may not see it now, but you have a spot in someone's life!
Wow. Thanks! That is really sweet
Thank you. I needed that.
i love u
🥺❤️❤️
I’ve done everything you said, repeatedly but after 46 yrs, I’m exhausted. I’m ready to go anytime. I’m not living, I’m just existing….
"Other people have it worse than you... you have a good life" I get told that all the time but you don't really know the truth about how I feel
I understand how you feel, when I'm told that I should be happy because I have all this good stuff in my life I feel even worse because I start to think my feelings are all in my head and I'm not depressed and I should be happy, this is why I keep a open mind and don't just think someone has a easy life, everyone has their own problems and no matter how big or small everyone is valid
If people say that it’s ok to feel sad and angry then why do I get rejected and dismissed as complaining every time I tell my parents I have an issue with something they do that upset me
Same
Yeah she has nice things but that doesn’t mean she’s happy even with all these nice things you still feel empty inside
It’s kinda like the Pink Floyd song, Nobody Home:
I got a little black book with my poems in,
Got a bag with a toothbrush and a comb in,
When I’m a good dog, they sometimes throw me a bone in.
Got elastic bands keeping my shoes on,
Got those swollen-hand blues,
I got thirteen channels of shit on the TV to choose from.
I got electric light,
And I got second sight,
I got amazing powers of observation.
And that is how I know,
When I try to get through,
On the telephone to you,
There’ll be nobody home.
I got the obligatory Hendrix perm,
And the inevitable pinhole burns,
All down the front of my favorite satin shirt.
I got nicotine stains on my fingers,
I got a silver spoon on a chain,
Got a grand piano to prop up my mortal remains.
I got wild staring eyes,
And I got a strong urge to fly,
But I got nowhere to fly to (fly to... fly to... fly to...).
Ooh, babe,
When I pick up the phone,
There’s still nobody home.
Got a pair of Gohills boots,
But I got fading roots.
You could have all the coolest shit in the world, the nicest house in the world, the best family in the world, but none of that means jack shit if you don’t have someone to talk to. Take care everybody! ☺️
someone finally understands me
@@youreverydaysaltyiowastate5602 Reminds me Numb by Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
This is one of the better acting ones thank god. Off topic but that HOUSE LIKE THATS HUGE AH
"You're okay! You're okay! You're fine! Just smile!"
That is me when I cry....
Dude the type of person her sister is , is who i dont wanna have in my life.
Kelly is my inner freaking monologue. Constantly saying that I only want attention and that people have it worse than me. And the dad is like my own
I had the whole time a straight face and zero feelings but at the end when she came back and her parents and sister hugged her i immediately cried because i never experience love from my family if i ran away and came back then they would’ve slapped me instead of hug me
I understand how u feel so lets just hold on to that hope that one day things are gonna turn to be alright i also suffer from anxiety and depression there is very little awareness about it in my country so when i tell them how i feel and what m going thru they never understand and judge for being lazy or this and that so i always come to comment section of utube and look we are not alone u are not alone we are all in this battle together lots of love and support for you💕
little hope 🥺♥️
It's such a great movie to have just 13k views .I feel people need to be aware of the mental health .
And of course, things like "You have very good life to be sad", "You are just lazy and attention seeking" are the most irritating words one can hear especially when they are not mentally fine .
When humans hunt monsters only one thing is true
We are the monsters themselves
Even primates have more kind souls to their kind then we ever had and some are vert violent tho.
This film was absolutely beautiful ! I am amazed at the great cinematography, acting and story line. I really appreciated this film. and your channel is so underrated. Please keep up with the creative and heart warming work ! much love .
my family without the loving embrace.
"You're just too sensible"
"That didn't happen, you're just imagining it's more than it actually is"
"You're sitting on your unproductive table again."
"You didn't do enough"
"Why are you that way?"
"It's scaring me that you're sitting here all day, not doing anything"
"Is it because all your friends have something and you want to belong to them?"
"But everything is fine"
"If you don't like it, why don't you just stop?"
"Mental stuff doesn't exist, it's just a persons character traits"
"Psychology isn't even a real science thing"
"Well, I don't think you've got anything"
This is a great short film, but DAMN, did she just eat her cereal DRY?!?!
Yes dry cereal is actually very good
@@jacquelinesnelling8460 I mean yeah as a snack but as a MEAL?!?
the part where her dad says "You can't even handle yourself, what makes you think you could handle another person's problems?" is something that I've struggled with for a long time, since I'm a psych major myself. It can be so easy to feel like you're never qualified "enough"... I think for me, what's helped is realizing that, to an extent, everyone struggles, so that doesn't make your ability to help any less valid than someone who may not deal with a mental illness. If anything, I think it can give you a kind of understanding and empathy that can be slightly harder for someone else to have if they have never personally experienced it.
This was a rlly good example of how people feel and what other think about them xx well done x
That's pretty much me
Same
Yea me to
Same
U can text me at anytime i’ll be by your side!✨
.. me too
I hate when people say, you have it better then most people you should be happy, because that's messed up, just because it seems like someone has it better, that might not be the case. And also I hate how people say like you can choose to be happy, because you cant.
when the dad gave her a hug when he finally seemed to care was when I started crying. i just need a hug. this film literally represents me I always think I'm not good enough and then I doubt myself and think why I'm even here and then my parents compare me with other kids my age because they're prettier or more wealthy and have it "easier" . i hate it here. and thats how after all that, becomes eating disorders, self harm and plans to kms.
yk it gets bad when you watch these again
How are you?
It’s good coz it also shows that not everyone necessarily self harms
“Other people have it so much worse then you”
Every single day of my life I hear this
Can we talk about how good this is- the acktin not the situation... Even tho it's 4 years ago
*acting
@@ellenfox6869 oh thanks
Other people has worst than u do
This is what stops me from sharing my feelings to others
Everytime i think i should share i feel maybe they will laugh because their problem might be more harsher or harder than mine :-)
I've been there. All those fights started by the parents when I've felt too depressed, or demotivated, or in need of recovering.
Looking back, as a young man, I still can't understand how, year after year, a parent can't perceive that something is wrong, understand that he is destroying the self-confidence of his son, find some time and some courage to have a talk.
Earning money to pay for the studies of a son is difficult. But growing up and learning to live is even more, when no one guides you.
all of these people are like my entire brain like all the sides of my brain
This is extremely relatable,except I just can't cry when I want to,its like I Don't have control over my own feelings
My depression is like a roller coaster up and down
Kirby is literally me. I would reply before them and then they would say the exact same thing. That's scary
@Nijhad Badda hello ||-//
This is the first depressed film I have seen that I do not blame her for thinking about killing her self and I probably would have actually killed myself if I was in her situation. She is so strong for not going through with it.
Just like my parents our friendship is all about my grades it’s so annoying and they compare me with my perfect sister it’s so annoying I can’t I’m done with this
Hey, are you still there?
Captain Erwin hi, i am. i’m sorry i replied 3 weeks later i haven’t been on youtube much. but i’ve been holding on i’m still in pain. but i’m trying my best to hold on.
Why do these short films have such happy endings
I’m jealous
I did not choose to think this way any more than you choose to breathe. It is true that we could both stop these things, but it would require severing something integral to who we are.
Feeling numb is knowing everything’s fine and you’re supposed to be fine but feeling and knowing that you aren’t. You don’t know why you feel like this and you don’t know how to fix it so you ride it out and cruise through it acting how you are supposed to
I hate the parents so much omg.
Then again, they’re just like mine so that makes sense.
The whole part where she was saying she was okay hit me hard I didn’t realize other people tried to convince and comfort themselves that they’re okay out loud
I relate so much with her... every single moment on this film, I feel like I'm her somehow...
To all the people here saying that this is what they feel like: please, please search for help. A therapy or other people. But please don't give up. There's a solution for everybody. You can make it out of this. (I know what I'm talking about.) please, you are all worth searching for even a therapist who can help you. Because in therapy you have someone you can tell everything to and someone to help you out of this. Don't be afraid of asking for help. It really IS okay.
My parents don’t care. My friend told them I wanted to die without my permission, and I heard them talking about how hormones are crazy, and my mom got mad at me. They don’t care.
Who tf names their kid Kirby?!?!
A certain Japanese man
LMAOOOO I KNOW I COULDN’T GET PASSED THAT EVERY TIME THEY SAID IT 😭😭😭
People: “its all in your head”
Me: “uh… yeah that’s literally the problem”
It’s so sad to know that there are so many people who feel like this and nobody knows...
people describe depression as drowning, and it’s true, but it’s more than that. you’re drowning, and swallowing and choking on the water and you can’t see and you just want to drown so it will stop but you don’t you just keep swallowing the water choking and sinking deeper and your vision gets blurrier and blurrier and it’s never ending pain
i have depression and im short to changing myself emotionless.
I hate when people say people others have it so much worse than you it doesn’t make you feel any better
I always hate the line, 'You are doing this for getting attention'. Normal happy people can never understand what depression feels like.
''Not being alive would feel a lot better than i'm feeling now'' oh... oh that hit deep....
Thank you for making this video because that is like my story, I want to be a psychologist and yes I have my own problems I can't take care of myself but I am willing to change myself you know then my dad always tells me that I can't be then I feel like I was lost , what is the purpose of thinking about the future if I can't be the person I want to be, not only him many people told me and I was hurt but still I am gonna be a psychologist no matter what cause later no one cares about u more than u,so I will be a psychologist and even I don't get much money with it I will learn psychology masters until the end but working another field to live,so thank you so much for speaking out😍😘😘😘😘👍👍👍
I hate this so mutch the fact that kirby's dad dictates her life really sucks , but I get how it feels for your parent to not care about your mental health
Amazing video 👏 Deserves way more attention. I know there are lots of videos about depression, but this is one of those best in my opinion.
"You have a good life, other people have it worse than you"
Well, Kelly, you see, a person that drowned in a 15cm pool is just as dead as a person who drowned in the middle of the ocean.
‘You just have to choose to be happy’ god I feel like I hear this ALL the time, hidden in sentences trying to motivate me. That’s what my whole family is like to me, telling me to go out and stop being negative, exercise and see people, focus on yourself! and when I tell them I can’t just ‘GET BETTER’ they’re like ‘of course, yes I know it’s not easy but you can get there, just believe in yourself! don’t give up!’ ugh. 🤦♀️😒
This is my life. I've been called fat and ugly and I keep telling myself that cause that's what I think of myself. I cry myself to sleep and I have cut and thought of suicide. No adults knew. One day I sent what looked like a suicide e-mails to all my friends. I was sent to my school counselor and was in the office for 2 hours before I was called in. I cried my heart out infront of my counselor, resource officer,and another adult. We talked and I finally felt happy. Then my counselor called my dad and he told her he was working on getting a therapist for me.... It's been two weeks and I'm getting worse.... I don't wanna live and everybody I live has hurt me too much... I'm too numb to feel regret for anything
@@hope3132 thank you...
TheBadgerDen I understand very well on what you’re going through. I can feel that sadness and that pain inside of you. It’s like you’re drowning in the middle of the Ocean with no one to help. It’s as if suicide is the only thing in the whole wide world to solve your problem but the truth is all you want is for this pain to go away. So you view suicide as a way to get rid of the pain you’re going through. I’m an empath and I sense a lot of people’s emotions and their pain. Believe me I’ve felt the pain as well. It’s so unbearable that sometimes even I viewed suicide as a way to get rid of it. Sometimes I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs in agony while at the same time I hit my head as hard as I can. It’s as if I’m going insane because those feelings are so overwhelming. So yes, I understand your pain and it hurts. As much as this pain hurts, you must stay strong because in the end you will feel much better. Life moves on whether you move forward or not. I’ve felt this pain for almost 10 years and it still haunts me today. I’ve been tempted to kill myself before but I know I have to stay strong because even though it feels hopeless there is still hope. So yeah I understand what you’re going through and it hurts very much.
The problem is that my life is good but I can’t see it. It’s like everything that used to be all happy and colorful is now just.. dull. Nothing changed. Nobody in my life left me, nothing bad happened. I just started to feel so lonely and depressed but I can’t tell anyone because my life is “perfect”. I feel numb. I don’t even feel anything anymore. And when I do feel, it’s just hurt and pain. Good family, good home, good grades. “You have no reason to be sad.” The things that her parents and friends told her in this film is just what I tell myself. I need to lose weight, I don’t have a life, people have it way worse than me, I’m worthless, I’m stupid. I started self harming about 2 months ago now. Months before that, I was fine. Then everything slowly went from good to bad but it felt like such a quick process. I guess I didn’t wanna believe it. So now here I am, silent, hurting myself, wanting to scream, wishing I were dead. I just want to go back to how it used to be.. I was so happy and.. I can’t even cry anymore. The only way I feel anything is when I cut or when I dig my nails into my skin until I bleed or pull my hair so hard. I want to rip out my head because it won’t shut up, it’s not even my own thoughts anymore. This isn’t me.. I’m.. not like this. I’ve never dealt with depression or anything before and it’s all new and it came fast like a punch to the face and now I.. I can’t fucking tell my parents. Explain to me how the hell you tell the people who gave you life that you no longer want it. I don’t know what happened. I just want to stop existing. I don’t wanna die I want to sleep forever. I already feel dead, drained, empty. I’m sorry for ranting I’m just.. I’m scared. I don’t know what I’m doing or why or how to stop myself from doing what I do anymore. I’m letting my thoughts take over and becoming something I never thought I’d be..
its true we only matter once we die. Sometimes i feel like i want to die just to show everyone how much mental pain depression feels like. The mental suffering everyone would get from my death would show them whar suffering really is
Why would you want other ppl to suffer
@@ellenfox6869 because im always in pain because of them
@@sarahmansoor6173 so? There only hurting you while you’ll be hurting all of them they probably just don’t understand no need to go all phsyco on em
@@ellenfox6869 i dont mean to hurt them just wish i could make them feel it just once. The only reason im still alive is for their sake. Other than that theres nothing left for me really. Im just living for my parents. Stuck in this stupid world
@@sarahmansoor6173 what’s wrong with just living? There’s always pressure to be something great but I think it’s fine to just be
Her sister is basically an intrusive thought
"other kids would kill to be in your position." "your have a nice life, you have a nice house, college is guaranteed" exactly like people dont understand just because someone has money and their parents are still together that they still have problems in their life. and just cause of those things doesnt mean depression isnt real for them. i get told "oh but you dont have to worry about food, your parents are still together, your not depressed, what could u possibly be depressed about?" theres lots of stuff people dont take the time to understand
The first time i've cried from watching a video. Ever.
It really surprised me how similar things were with Kirby and me. Im doing a psychology degree when i was 'supposed' to do a law degree. My mum was dismissive of me and my sisters used to tell me the same things kelly said to kirby. The only difference (and thank goodness) was that my dad is not as terrible as kirby's. My dad, albeit did have some moments where he got equally as frustrated with me as kirby's dad was with her, is way better than that.
I cried because it's all only starting to set in now that my life is relatively on track again. Im only starting to realise what almost could have happened. Realised that because of it, im still facing issues even now.
This film hit hard.
"you just have to choose to be happy" easier said than done
"You should be happy"
Yeah i SHOULD but im not, i dont know why im not im jist not
Omg. I’ve never seen such parents. Omg
“You just have to choose to be happy, it’s not that hard” wow, just wow. You’ve cured all of us, haven’t you? Just me happy, ayy?😣
I can relate to this somewhat I felt like this too Years ago but the situation with my family way more differnt
At the start 0:33 she is right
But for me its like drowning but instead of fighting to live then give up
My brain tells me I can breath and my naïve heart believes it
this is so good
My mom yelled at me and got on to me for having a panic attack. I haven't slept since. I need someone to talk to. Can someone help?
I don’t know how I can help but you can talk to me ❤️
@@ellenfox6869 Oh thank you! Im better now! Thank you tho!
@@Blank-tw8kt that’s good to hear! ☺️
@@ellenfox6869 😊
My mom is just like her father, especially when he yells at her. She'll say anything to hurt me, especially when she's upset. She doesn't listen to me and doesn't respect my boundaries. She does nothing but complain about a job she only got through a friend but tells me how I should get a job on my own and reminds me of how lazy and stupid I am for struggling to find one. She has no empathy and just sees the world in her older generation worldview.
She doesn't just talk about me either. She does the same to my older sister, saying she shouldn't be a fashion designer because of "how she dresses", despite never working in that line of work.
I have depression and anxiety and others it hard because when you have both it s like your drowning and can’t get out
I am recovering from anorexia and that made me depressed and I kept thinking about killing myself but what if I actually did ? I was getting bullied from one of my best friends even though she wasn’t my best friend, only because I redid a year she kept saying you’re dumb you’re not worth it why are you even here and a few minutes past and she would say it again
“Well you’re not so dumb” and that made me feel even worse. She was a little bit on the overweight side and that’s what made me go anorexic I was telling myself I never want to be her, but I did just another way
Every day I put up with it I put up with the laughter just because of what I looked like.
I am now two years into my recovery and I feel like every day it’s getting worse and worse I feel like I’m coming back to being anorexic. This video represents me in every way
“It’s just in your head” yeah, you’re right but it also affects us physically
8:22 I actually threw my phone i was so shocked at how much this sentence applied to me. I've always felt like I have no reason to be this way
this film is underrated
I have this feeling everyday in life so i know how she feels. It hurts and sometimes u cannot break the pain
Hi, I hope you are ok
My mom told me to move out if I didn't like it at home. I would but i would literally have nothing...
I’m sorry that happened to you. Nobody deserves this. I hope it works out between you and your mom
truely wonderful work. Thank you very much
They hit me on a personal level
Not the father part cause he left me
But people saying I should be happy and all that shit
“Other people have it worse than you” well she has it and she should do what she wants with it because not everyone gets the opportunity
"you have a good life! You have all the reason do be happy!"
Thanks, I know Surreel!! Don't you think I feel bad enough for feeling the way I do? I have everything and I'm still messed up, deal with it and shut up if you dont't have anything helpful to say!!
In love with the ASMR
Why is this so much relatable
Hello
@@aubrey0324 hey
"You just have to choose to be happy. It's not that hard!"
Yeah yeah sureee. We're able to CHOOSE what we feel.
Also the dad, hes literally saying that Kirby was a mistake to him. Sad days.
How can one smile with broken heart and such a deep pain and sorrow
They don't care until your gone...
Dad: "Your not capable!"
My pov: I hear that a lot..
I don’t even cry. I haven’t cried in a year now. I can’t. I can smile, but I can’t feel the joy. Everyday I try and try to feel but I can’t. I’m not even living for myself . I’m living as my parents puppets . I don’t want to keep going. I’m tired but sleep doesn’t help.
Psychology isn’t a ideal future?! Does this man not know how much psychologist make a year?
Numb is a perfect word.
Depression always comes from prior frustration.
Poor Kirby had a bad start when mommy named her after a vacuumed cleaner.lol.
I can’t express how mad kirbys sister made me. The hate I have for her is un matched.
Sameee what the fuck is wrong with her
Her parents must love Super Smash Bros and Mario