You are right, there is much that I do not understand. That said, I am listening, , I am trying to understand, I do care, and I am praying. I have many friends who attend group sessions and they often talk about how hard it is. I also thought the purpose of group was for you to talk. (?) I know that I am not the only one doing these things for you. We will help how we can. Love coming your way.in out thoughts and our hearts.
Jc we are sending our prayers .you are a very special person and we all love you .so please hang in there you are very Brave just wanted to tell our love prayer to you .😘😘😘❤❤❤❤
i really hope you do get help that you need. you really need to take care of yourself. i am just glad that you see that you need help instead of doing it on your own.
Jc you have a lot of followers and you know we will be here when you get back and we all would feel better knowing the reason we are not seeing you is because you are getting help . we will what for you we all love you or we would not keep coming back to you Please do it for you and us the ones that try to reach for you but cant touch you we try so hard we really care about you and want only the best for you . Always Your Friend And Follower........
im not going to sit here and say i know what your going threw but i can say i am here if you need to talk im trying my very best to be here as much as possible and be a good friend
TANYA'S REBORN'S can’t have a roommate here and they one can’t offer the intensive help that I need and if I would move to have a roommate it would be way too expensive you can rent apartment to bring in renting a room mate
can I make an observation? You have not found the last two hospitalizations to be helpful. You have come out sometimes worse then when you went in. So, going back into the hospital is not going to yield a better result. Also you have found medicine was helpful, but have refused to take it because you wanted to do it on your own. You take medicine to help you sleep/anxiety so that means you are on depressants which will make you more depressed meanwhile you have refused the mood stabilizers for bipolar. Also, this guy therapist you mention seems like a dud. If you go back in and advocate for a group home it is very possible you could end up stuck at the hospital for a year or longer waiting for a spot in a group home. It could very possibly effect your transition. As far as the group home goes, imagine the same miserable experience you had in the hospital..now imagine you cannot go home. The apartment is nice. You can make new memories. You have the crib and changing table, loft bed and you enjoy decorating it. The apartment is not the issue. Your mental health is the issue. So, find a local peer suport center for the mentally ill. You can spend every day their and make friends. Take your meds. Maybe consider cutting back of T until you are stable then up it again. Before you started T you were passible as a male. So do not worry about that. You said you didn't want to take meds bacause you wanted to try doing it alone. Well, that is not working. You are talking about a group home now...that is not alone. As far as this guy therapist goes...I get the sense that tommorow you will get some bad news from him. This is not your fault. The pronoun "They" is tricky to use in a sentence. With your learning issues they needed to be more understanding about that sli-p of the tong. I highly recommend getting ahold of your mom so that you are with her tommorow after you see that therapist. Do not take anything he says personally. He sounds like a prick. Take your meds, find other suppport groups, go to the club house for mentally ill people daily to make friends, schedule your days so you remmain EXTREMELY busy....make a reborn video, make a talking video, watch TV for two or three hours, update you ETSY shop, go to bountiful baby online and find a deep discount kit to make a doll, go to the gym, organize a corner of the room, make calls around for support, get a volunteer job somewhere etc etc...the days will go by better for you
MommyCassReborns long story but a lot of this is wrong just so u know I am on meds and my counselor and I are on the same page and this time will be longer if my counselor can talk to the hospital I’m at and get department mental health if I can’t get into a group home can I go home no big deal I can stay in the hospital for over a year to get into a group Home and he’s working to get me into a different program I that our session went very well and I know he is on my side I did a video to explain all this just don’t know if I can get it up in Time but understand no one sees my whole life not family friends or UA-cam a lot of things happen without u seeing on knowing about it too I can’t share everything but I can say I am in a good state to get these services I so desperately need at this time it’s scary showing the world how sick u can really get and they don’t really know what is really going on
Ok yeah I guess I missed a lot cause in one video you said you felt the medicine was working but you didn't want to take the meds for bi polar only the anxiety meds as you wanted to try it on your own. The way it was presented about the group coupled with your facebook post got me confused maybe you were referencing two different groups IDK. I just think if you have given the meds a try and they are too slow to kick in and you do have things in line for a group home I guess that's good. If the hospital was going poorly because they were so focused on letting you out before helping having him advocate will fix that problem. I am basing what I wrote after watching many of your videos (yes I watch the entire vids)...but I could be confused.
I understand after watching so many videos and sometimes the way you talk not really being able to see it the right way in the way that people can understand which I apologize and I know it can be confusing if you are on my Facebook versus a UA-cam video sometimes I’ll say things on Facebook I don’t say here cause I’m just saying what’s on my mind and this takes time to make videos but I do love to make them if I need help letting out some of the problems that I have the other problem though is when you’re too negative people don’t want to stay they’ve had enough on their plate for the day and they just want around rewind and settle Lynn so if I am going to do videos they need to be balanced so I am talking about problems I’m also having a video more positive even when I’m not doing well I still have to do some positive videos talk about ideas plans I would like to have that happen anything more positive than suicide I guess but I am been up all night I haven’t been able to sleep I took 200 mg of Benadryl and 2Milligrams of Ativan and I’m still awake at seven in the morning and I’ve been awake since six this morning so now I know I’m not gonna get a lot of sleep which does make me crazy and I just can’t go on like this I want out I want something out there to help me so I’m hoping that this last hospital stay is just when I need it and I’ll be at the whole thing I can get more out of it this time around it’s just hard because the doctors fight with youMilligrams of Ativan and I’m still awake at seven in the morning and I’ve been awake since six this morning It’s just hard in the hospitals because if find it is just really not equipped with the right staffing trained staffing and they have group therapies and programs in hospitals but I’m not round appropriately depending on what hospital u go to
I totally understand. It is extremely hard to be positive when you feel this poorly. The hospitals can be really bad or really helpful and it is really scary when you take the risk of trusting they can help when it has been difficult in the past. I got stuck inpatient for six weeks. The first hospital was beyond awful...like abusive. Then I was transferred to a different one and it really helped. I was very homesick though. I think a big piece of this is getting on the right meds. But sometimes they can't figure it out and that is when you need extra help. Why I like your channel is because you get it. You know what I have been through. You feel the same things. I am not trans but I know how pain like this feels. And I like that you are real. You don't fake being happy if you are not. I find honesty really magnetic. I hope you get the right meds because when you do I bet you will not need a group home but if you do I hope it is a good group home.
You are right, there is much that I do not understand. That said, I am listening, , I am trying to understand, I do care, and I am praying. I have many friends who attend group sessions and they often talk about how hard it is. I also thought the purpose of group was for you to talk. (?) I know that I am not the only one doing these things for you. We will help how we can. Love coming your way.in out thoughts and our hearts.
Jc we are sending our prayers .you are a very special person and we all love you .so please hang in there you are very Brave just wanted to tell our love prayer to you .😘😘😘❤❤❤❤
Prayers
i really hope you do get help that you need. you really need to take care of yourself. i am just glad that you see that you need help instead of doing it on your own.
It's Brave to admit you need help praying for you hang in there
Jc you have a lot of followers and you know we will be here when you get back and we all would feel better knowing the reason we are not seeing you is because you are getting help . we will what for you we all love you or we would not keep coming back to you Please do it for you and us the ones that try to reach for you but cant touch you we try so hard we really care about you and want only the best for you . Always Your Friend And Follower........
I struggle with depression and anxiety and I’m on antidepressants
im not going to sit here and say i know what your going threw but i can say i am here if you need to talk im trying my very best to be here as much as possible and be a good friend
maybe you should try getting a roommate
TANYA'S REBORN'S can’t have a roommate here and they one can’t offer the intensive help that I need and if I would move to have a roommate it would be way too expensive you can rent apartment to bring in renting a room mate
I was addicted to self harm
can I make an observation? You have not found the last two hospitalizations to be helpful. You have come out sometimes worse then when you went in. So, going back into the hospital is not going to yield a better result. Also you have found medicine was helpful, but have refused to take it because you wanted to do it on your own. You take medicine to help you sleep/anxiety so that means you are on depressants which will make you more depressed meanwhile you have refused the mood stabilizers for bipolar. Also, this guy therapist you mention seems like a dud. If you go back in and advocate for a group home it is very possible you could end up stuck at the hospital for a year or longer waiting for a spot in a group home. It could very possibly effect your transition. As far as the group home goes, imagine the same miserable experience you had in the hospital..now imagine you cannot go home. The apartment is nice. You can make new memories. You have the crib and changing table, loft bed and you enjoy decorating it. The apartment is not the issue. Your mental health is the issue. So, find a local peer suport center for the mentally ill. You can spend every day their and make friends. Take your meds. Maybe consider cutting back of T until you are stable then up it again. Before you started T you were passible as a male. So do not worry about that. You said you didn't want to take meds bacause you wanted to try doing it alone. Well, that is not working. You are talking about a group home now...that is not alone. As far as this guy therapist goes...I get the sense that tommorow you will get some bad news from him. This is not your fault. The pronoun "They" is tricky to use in a sentence. With your learning issues they needed to be more understanding about that sli-p of the tong. I highly recommend getting ahold of your mom so that you are with her tommorow after you see that therapist. Do not take anything he says personally. He sounds like a prick. Take your meds, find other suppport groups, go to the club house for mentally ill people daily to make friends, schedule your days so you remmain EXTREMELY busy....make a reborn video, make a talking video, watch TV for two or three hours, update you ETSY shop, go to bountiful baby online and find a deep discount kit to make a doll, go to the gym, organize a corner of the room, make calls around for support, get a volunteer job somewhere etc etc...the days will go by better for you
MommyCassReborns long story but a lot of this is wrong just so u know I am on meds and my counselor and I are on the same page and this time will be longer if my counselor can talk to the hospital I’m at and get department mental health if I can’t get into a group home can I go home no big deal I can stay in the hospital for over a year to get into a group Home and he’s working to get me into a different program I that our session went very well and I know he is on my side I did a video to explain all this just don’t know if I can get it up in Time but understand no one sees my whole life not family friends or UA-cam a lot of things happen without u seeing on knowing about it too I can’t share everything but I can say I am in a good state to get these services I so desperately need at this time it’s scary showing the world how sick u can really get and they don’t really know what is really going on
Ok yeah I guess I missed a lot cause in one video you said you felt the medicine was working but you didn't want to take the meds for bi polar only the anxiety meds as you wanted to try it on your own. The way it was presented about the group coupled with your facebook post got me confused maybe you were referencing two different groups IDK. I just think if you have given the meds a try and they are too slow to kick in and you do have things in line for a group home I guess that's good. If the hospital was going poorly because they were so focused on letting you out before helping having him advocate will fix that problem. I am basing what I wrote after watching many of your videos (yes I watch the entire vids)...but I could be confused.
I understand after watching so many videos and sometimes the way you talk not really being able to see it the right way in the way that people can understand which I apologize and I know it can be confusing if you are on my Facebook versus a UA-cam video sometimes I’ll say things on Facebook I don’t say here cause I’m just saying what’s on my mind and this takes time to make videos but I do love to make them if I need help letting out some of the problems that I have the other problem though is when you’re too negative people don’t want to stay they’ve had enough on their plate for the day and they just want around rewind and settle Lynn so if I am going to do videos they need to be balanced so I am talking about problems I’m also having a video more positive even when I’m not doing well I still have to do some positive videos talk about ideas plans I would like to have that happen anything more positive than suicide I guess but I am been up all night I haven’t been able to sleep I took 200 mg of Benadryl and 2Milligrams of Ativan and I’m still awake at seven in the morning and I’ve been awake since six this morning so now I know I’m not gonna get a lot of sleep which does make me crazy and I just can’t go on like this I want out I want something out there to help me so I’m hoping that this last hospital stay is just when I need it and I’ll be at the whole thing I can get more out of it this time around it’s just hard because the doctors fight with youMilligrams of Ativan and I’m still awake at seven in the morning and I’ve been awake since six this morning
It’s just hard in the hospitals because if find it is just really not equipped with the right staffing trained staffing and they have group therapies and programs in hospitals but I’m not round appropriately depending on what hospital u go to
I totally understand. It is extremely hard to be positive when you feel this poorly. The hospitals can be really bad or really helpful and it is really scary when you take the risk of trusting they can help when it has been difficult in the past. I got stuck inpatient for six weeks. The first hospital was beyond awful...like abusive. Then I was transferred to a different one and it really helped. I was very homesick though. I think a big piece of this is getting on the right meds. But sometimes they can't figure it out and that is when you need extra help. Why I like your channel is because you get it. You know what I have been through. You feel the same things. I am not trans but I know how pain like this feels. And I like that you are real. You don't fake being happy if you are not. I find honesty really magnetic. I hope you get the right meds because when you do I bet you will not need a group home but if you do I hope it is a good group home.