Some people aren't cut out to be entertainers, not saying that to be an asshole, just being fr. If it's not working out or causes you so much grief you end up in the hospital it might be worth it to look into different avenues man. You should invest in getting out & about in the world, could do ya some good.
I felt so bad that Dellor got hacked. I was following the entire thing unfold, and I just can't imagine how you'd be able to recover from such a devastating breach.
And people say I am paranoid gaming with hardware firewalls and an internal VPN. When my PS4 connects to the net, it gives an error saying there is no internet...but there is 😁 sure it lags my shots sometimes, but nobody has ever got in.
@@hicknopunk im 99% connected on a VPN (its only really off when im downloading shit to save bandwith) i legit have a server in a country nearby so it doesnt add too much latency. its custom-buillt vpn wiht just one IP. none of that commercial VPN shit
Obviously this guy is not a saint, but I feel for him. His final “breakdown” had me nodding in agreement. I could really put myself in his shoes and feel his despair. Things get overwhelming, especially when you’ve been through as much as he has. I hope he takes time to take care of himself and maybe thinks about leaving his rage persona behind, even if it’s what pays the bills.
Ikr sure it pays the bills but it's putting him in a more miserable state the more he does it & obviously the sites he is posting his rage on aren't fans of what he is doing.
@@ricniks4619 it’s just fucked all around. He’s very clearly mentally unwell and just fucking miserable. I don’t condone the things he has said in the past but I can sympathize with his mental struggles. There’s nothing worse than that.
I gotta say either I strongly appreciate the empathy you seem to have, or I hope you're doing well these days if it's actually sympathy that you're pulling from.
His apologies were actually some of the most genuine I’ve seen. Most people don’t admit exactly what they did and why it was bad and hurt people, like he did. It made me want to root for him despite the toxic behavior. It must have been hard not really having a support system.
That apology is probably the result of years of practice and forceful correction. For most autistic people, our instinct when we apologize is to try and explain ourselves, which inevitably comes across as excuses. I'm still trying to get it right, but he's got the "correct" apology down
lol apologies as in plural if it was genuine he wouldnt keep doing the exact same thing you cant keep saying im sorry then continue to do it if it was genuine he wouldnt keep doing the same thing it would of stopped the first or second time
That's because he's a genuine dude that knows he can make big mistakes and takes responsibility. I think it's because he doesn't have a big ego while a lot of the other people giving apologies have huge egos
He is one of the strongest people I know after wtaching this. Coming back this many times after the brutal actions taken against him is just beyond insane. He is a super human.
Christ, that poor guy. The clip makes it look like he's hating on his community for no reason, but you can tell here he's just frustrated with the hell streaming has put him through. Best of luck to him!
It's incredibly depressing what the internet has done to some people. Dellor's life is one nonstop tragicomedy, and it doesn't look to be getting better.
just wait till all these little kids whose attention span and self image being reduced to zero from tiktok grow up. Can we be a more narcissistic and shallow society? lol
"I haven't done anything to you I fucking hate you guys" this is so relatable in so many ways. I often find myself saying the same thing regarding all the people that have treated me like shit all my life. My heart goes out to dellor. I wish the best for him. Its hard, man...
People are mad fucked up, yet everyone larps as a saint these days. Meanwhile this guy is an out of control rager who has been fucked over at every turn and has more shreds of humanity than the most popular "holier than thou" youtubers. Its almost ironic that people will try to ruin this guy's career over a few offensive words but will justify actual crimes committed by celebrities/musicians or other, more popular streamers just simply because they align with their worldview more, and call them "based" for it even.
@@heyhackurs i know how it feels. Sure dellor has had it far worse than me but if you show a little bit of vulnerability to others they will make use of it and try to fuck you up. Cruel pieces of shit. Since dellor is an online figure he'll get obviously 10 times the amount of bullies that i ever got. And these scumbags will sleep soundly thinking they've "done a little trolling" and continue being the scumbags online that get outraged over everything in order to feel like they're such crusaders of justice. Fuck em.
yep i fucking hate people too as i got older. especially in the city i live in. no one isnt as nice as i thought when i was little. i would rather live in a place where people are more respectful or just stop talking to people all together
Hearing the hacking situation started stressing me out. I can't imagine the pain and stress he went through during that time. Truly a scary situation that i wouldn't wish on anyone. The thought of losing it all terrifys me.
When I saw the title, the one thing I didn't expect was a wholesome yet bittersweet tale of an underdog that got the worst possible lot in life and still somehow managed to succeed for some time. I really hope that he pulls through, the internet needs genuine people like that, and not just more copy-pasted self important eThot clones
Has it occurred to you that "eThots" are also just trying to grab that bag? They're not billionaire Dick Dastardly politicians, they're not EVIL, they're regular people.
Love the subtle sexism there. Keyboard headsmashing is clearly the kind of content only highly intellectual males such as yourself can appreciate, curse those evil view-stealing ethots!!!1 Weird how your demographic is also the main one watching those "self important ethots," though. Glad this guy is getting his shit together, but god I'm so sick of dudes spewing their thinly-veiled rage over the fact that attractive women can make money on the internet by being attractive, pleasant, and often--though most of you are terrified to admit it--actually good at games. Do we need less Nadias in the world? Absofuckinglutely. But do we need more of *this* guy? Based on what I've seen of him, no. Hope he proves me wrong, truly. Though I'd also love for him to explain how one "cooks" a sandwich. I think you need a panini press for that. I guess that's why he needs a woman for it--he clearly doesn't know how to make a sandwich himself.
as someone who got banned for 3 years i remember how much dellor resonated with me constantly, a imperfect dude that wears his heart on his sleeve and has an obvious past of deep set trauma just trying to entertain people because it felt like his calling. I hope nothing but the best for the dude, honestly. He''s extremely talented at what he does, gaming, entertaining and he deserves to be able to pursue the career he wants regardless of how cookie cutter he presents himself
Nah man, competitive gaming and streaming shouldn't be seen as anything more than a past time hobby. To treat it as a career path gives you about a 99% chance of failure and realizing afterwards that you are years behind your adult peers and lack skills to make up the difference. For now Dellor is seeing some success from not facing his trauma and having constant angry outbursts. He's just putting off confronting his trauma and working through it. It's very mentally unhealthy and in the end he's just pushing off being an adult hoping for permanent adolescence. It never works as anything more than a bandaid and the longer the bandaid stays on, the more infected the wound becomes.
@@symbiote1982pk bruh you dont even know what his childhood was like? "yeah guys this guy is really childish but he could've also been abused in his childhood and he may also have a mental illness" im not trying to say that what he did or said was right but you should at least see why he may of become like this, instead of just calling him a childish person, which i think isnt fair if you know nothing about him.
@Symm Thing is, there is a reason he was like this. Dellor built his entire life from less than nothing. Severe mental illness, addiction, thousands of dollars of debt etc. Sure, he has said and done stupid things, but you gotta understand his perspective, too. Dellor is a pure example of someone who was getting ruthlessly beat down by life and kicked while he was down over and over and over again until he eventually snapped. It's truly sad and horrible. Personally, I wish nothing but the best for him and hope he recovers physically, mentally etc.
Frankly the fact Twitch was blacklisting him for no reason meanwhile other people were being given special treatment... it's disgusting. I hate the blatant double standard. I can't blame him for his rage, it's justified.
@@walter4180 its completely understandable if some streamers get preferential treatment just because they pull in the big bux whats never fair is how they handle bans and punishments its still absurdly inconsistent
Honestly, I don’t even think inconsistent is the correct word. I’ve heard so many stories of twitch screwing over people for the smallest things while they promote people who consistently break they’re own rules. I don’t use twitch for those reasons. They’re petty backstabbing people and I don’t see how it can be so popular.
Yeh messing with someones livelyhood over a couple words is more toxic than telling someone to make a sandwich or saying the N word in a contex that doesn't even imply he's trying to be racist.
I stopped using twitch a long time ago. It’s straight up CANCER. Absolute cancer, the chat, the streamers, twitch themselves. It’s a failure of society, just like tik tok
Hasan laughs at the deaths of people he finds himself opposed to but God help you if you talk shit in a hyper competitive video game. Especially to someone twitch considers a protected class.
The shit he said about soccer fans not calling the other team racial slurs and not destroying everything around them couldn't be further from the truth Edit: I’ve made a severe lapse in my judgment… I now know it was a joke and I’m deeply sorry for committing the heinous crime of not getting the joke… I’m very sorry guys this is all my fault 😔😔😔
I wish nothing but the best of luck for Dellor, his story needs to be shared across as many platforms to understand where he comes from. He does not deserve so much pain that he's been enduring for a while. If anything, mental illness is not a joke and it should be taken seriously given the context of it.
I hope one day that someone suggests an occupational therapist or other autism specialist to him. It seems very much like the sense of being overwhelmed he gets is related, as are the "rages." Even just knowing what causes the different feelings can help; knowing ways to deal with it that work for you is even better. A lot of times, people on the "high-functioning" end of the spectrum just don't ever get that kind of life-changing guidance, because adults and mental health professionals in their lives don't see someone high-functioning as needing that kind of help.
Man, almost "raged" at the video myself. It just sucks so much the shithand that was dealt to this man. All these years of dedication, never giving up and still have life sucking for him. I hope it gets better for dellor, I really do.
@@marsaliscoln8892 he grew up in a shitty environment and dealt bad cards for life, you can't excuse what he said but thats all in the past, he has problems but he's actively trying to better himself, and throughout his life just got worse and worse
@@xenoslayys8122 probably because he would take two steps forward and 5 back. Hence; him saying the “N” word after getting a major gaming deal. That’s a victim mentality. 🤷♂️
@@marsaliscoln8892 people like you cant let go of the past, god it kills you to be able to give someone a second chance, he apologized and never said it again after that
Dellor seems like the guy who is legitimately just trying to live his life and despite his early life and anger problems, he just keeps running into shit luck. I kinda feel his pain, i hope he gets the help he deserves, the luck he's clearly missed in life and develops some form of a stable lifestyle
I understand what you're saying about his supposed bad luck but I can't help but point out how lucky he actually was as being a guy who can make a decent living for himself by sitting home and playing video games as opposed to all the people (myself included) who has to go work a shitty regular job just to be able to maintain living in poverty. I wish him the best but I'm just saying 🤷
When your mental state is in a bad place, a thousand small things or one big thing can make you panic and feel like life is over. I can only imagine how difficult it is to have so much happen in such a short time while already in a really awful state of mind. I hope you're doing better now and living your best life now, Dellor. Streaming is very emotionally draining even when you gave a good day with it.
I used to have anger issues, and one of the happiest moments of my life was when I realized that I hadn't had a freakout in almost a year. These days, I hardly ever get angry, even when something in my life goes seriously wrong. To some people, seeing a freakout is just entertainment, but I feel a lot of sympathy for people who genuinely can't control it. It can take years to conquer, and it can ruin your life if you get angry at the wrong time. I wish nothing but the best for this guy
Out of curiosity how did you control your anger? I didn't have anger issues until I developed some bad illnesses; getting medical help has been a nightmare which is what I think is fueling my anger issues. lol
yes, finally, another documentary for me to listen to while staring at my drawing pad, praying to god and jesus that i may have an actual art idea. Thank you flightless bird thomas, very cool. Edit: hey gang? I understood turkeys can fly after the first comment about it. Please think of something remotely original to put thank you ♡
man i feel bad for dellor. he's done a lot of messed up things in the past, but knowing about his upbringing, the trauma streaming gave him and his mental health issues explain a lot about how he acts. i hope everything works out for him and he gets to a stable place, mentally and financially.
what's even better is that he's aware hes done some bad things and is constantly trying better himself especially with the cards hes been dealt, its hard not to root for him
Tbh he’s just a dumbass for keeping streaming when all he does is get mad at his chat. I’ll never understand people who keep doing shit that doesn’t even bring them any joy. Why tf do mfs play games if all they do is scream and cry over it?
@@drcabbageface that’s the most impressive and respectable part about him, i think. he doesn’t try to excuse what he said or did but he seems to genuinely make an effort to change past it. if that’s not deserving of at least a little respect i don’t know what is
Yeah, his mental health wasn't in a good place to start with, but he never made excuses for the actual wrong things he did. He said he knew he did bad and didn't deserve forgiveness but would try to do better, and he consistently did seem to try to do better. That's far better than any of the fake apologies or excuses so many others put out for the same behavior that they never seem to get nearly the same amount of shit for. It's so hard to watch someone who came from such an awful background trying to better themselves financially and mentally and getting shoved back down at every turn even for the most insignificant things. It's like someone was watching from the shadows waiting for any excuse possible to make his life worse in some of these situations.
Having a mental breakdown/depressive episode online, just for it to be clipped, shared, and laughed it by a good percentage of your viewers would destroy your mental state in ways I can't even imagine. He isn't innocent, surely. But my guy still deserves some peace. Turkey Tom coming with the heat as usual!
@@Ava-nf2qq you dont choose when to have a mental breakdown, its not something he chooses to have at the moment, he just happened to have one in the middle of his job, which unfortunately for him, is livestreaming...
this is the most nuanced and complex story you’ve covered so far. you kinda hate him but also kinda love him and are rooting for him. i get the struggles he went through growing up, that mentality never really leaves.
Seeing the people say stuff like "Fake Rage" in the chat at the end reminded me of the Etika situation of him getting arrested during a mental breakdown. It's disgusting how people on the internet can be. The lack of empathy people show just because they have an anonymous account boils my blood. No one deserves this.
You say it as if people wouldn't be weary on an enviroment where fakings of this kind happens all the time, and as if it's obvious to everyone when clearly isn't, but go on, be self righteous for fake internet points
@@Nikolai1939 ah yes so instead we should treat each other like criminals out to get us for their own self gains 24/7. because that will lead us to a better world instead of a hellscape like the current one we're in. my god dude try thinking about the other person when you say and think shit like this.
Man, never heard of him until this video. I'm fucking rooting for him. He's super real, and has really been dealt a shit hand over and over. I would love to see things just work out for him.
I never knew dellors back story. I can actually relate a lot to how he grew up, the anger, the stress, and knowing what its like being homeless and not knowing if you will be homeless again. I will admit, i don't really like the content he does, but I do have sympathy and respect for someone coming up from that "untouchable" social class the world seems to ignore. This video hit home so hard. I hope hes doing better, and hes still rising from it all, because its not easy, and its still not easy, and there is a roof. Luck and heavy lifting have a lot to do with getting out of it. Thanks for the video tom as usual
38:30 It's sad, but the truth is, when you make rage-type content, you attract and create a toxic fandom. They want you to get mad, that's why they're here. You do still get some nice people like the people in the chat saying "we love you". But the toxicity tends to overwhelm the positivity.
That last breakdown just...hurt my heart. I have mental health issues and I know how easy it is for shit to pile up until you finally break. I was genuinely afraid this video would end with him saying Dellor took his own life and isn't around anymore. I'm glad he's still alive. I hope he has a come back or in the very least finds a way to make money that he enjoys. I hope he finds some joy and less stress.
Hey Deller first time I have ever heard of you but let me tell you bro you are strong as hell life has knocked you down over and over and yet you keep getting back up and fighting twice as hard. Furthermore when you messed up you made no excuses you owned up to it and made right. Nothing but respect bro mad respect.
Can't believe he went back to Twitch after all the shit they put him through. It's like a girlfriend going back to her abusive boyfriend thinking things are going to be different. I wish nothing but the best for Dellor, hopefully he can find a different way to make a living and be happy.
I feel so horrible for this guy, I can relate to him so much. I really hope he lives the life he wants and is truly happy within himself it's honestly the least he deserves.
Good lord, I genuinely feel bad for this guy. Between the mental health issues and all the bullshit he went through it genuinely hurts to watch. I hope he's doing well these days and is getting as better as he can be.
This video really makes me realize the true impact Twitch has on people with how biased and unfair they are. UA-cam has issues too but I think they're leagues ahead
I fully believe that a person can lash out and say the n-word without being racist. And I'm saying that as a black person. Can't say that about the other "nonracist" jokers who actually bragged about sitting down to count how many times he said it, however.
I abandoned twitch on a matter of principle long ago, but what they did to this man is absolutely despicable. It’s the epitome of psychological abuse and I’d argue, even emotional torture. I say this as someone with the same diagnoses as him and with an experience that at least outwardly is nearly identical. Watching that ban double-whammy section tore me apart inside.
Twice. They used him twice. They strung him along with promises he'd get everything back *twice* and then renegged on their agreements at the very last second when they'd milked everything they could out of him. I heavily blame Twitch for those mental health breakdowns. If they'd just left him alone to keep going on youtube after the first time, I think he'd be in a much healthier place. He also should have known better than to trust them, but I also understand his desire to want to return to what was 'normal'.
Agreed. The more and more I’ve hear about twitch the more and more I hate them. They pushed this man and genuinely ruined his life. Used him by dangling hope infront of his face, only to twice pull it out from under him and kicking him to the ground. As for those hackers? Disgusting they saw the man kicked on the ground trying to pull together what he had, shoved him to the ground and took all but the cloths on his back. Not exactly what happened but it’s how I see it. I wish him the best in the future and I hope twitch burns.
Damn man, this is really sad. Never heard of this guy, but he was dealt a complete shit hand ,complete with poverty and mental issues, and he still got the top rank in like every popular game there is. That's actually fucking crazy. Dellor if you see this, keep it up man, but maybe look into some tools for dealing with anger/other emotions (DBT). But you're actually really inspiring man imo
@@shakezhulaa You, my friend, are a weakling who lets a single word influence your entire opinion on a single, complex Human being. Saying the gamer word, or any word alone, does not make someone a bad person. That is a vapid and stupid way of thinking. "Oh noes! He said a slur! More than once! He deserves to literally have his entire life ruined because he said a bad word 😠" You sound like an idiot.
I've never even heard of him before but that stream where he said he hated everyone and everything... I felt like crying seeing the rage. It's obvious he's depressed and I don't think anyone can blame him. He's done shitty things but he's tried so damn hard. I hope he's better now
what shitty things did he do? He said the no-no word ooooooh must ruin his life! And told a dumb girl player to go back to the kitchen OH THE HORROR, THE ATROCITY!!!!!
Racial slurs and wrecking everything around them is actually 90% of soccer honestly. I’m not even joking it’s a huge problem. That was a wild example to use 😂
Wait until you hear of “The Football War” an armed conflict between Honduras and El Salvador. It started because one country harassed and endangered the lives of the opposing soccer team and vice versa.
I really, really hope that that he gets to have some kind of support system. I hope that he does get some good people in his life that care about him. It's not too late for this guy.
I had never heard of him before but I cried a lot listening to this. I struggle with mental illness and it heavily runs in my family. He's messed a lot and I expected to be angry with him during this video but it's the opposite. I just want things to work out for him and for him to really achieve stability and happiness
@@HolyGoddessMotherAnne awareness is so important, just continue to take responsibility for your actions and prioritize your health and safety. You're important and not a mistake-- you're ill but you're human and if your intentions are good, redemption is always possible. Be safe and be kind to yourself, not everyone understands people like us but we have each other's back
adding my own solidarity and hopes that we can all continue to improve, however slowly. i struggle a lot with seeing my incremental improvements, as well as blaming myself for relapses in behavior. but seeing comments like these reminds me i’m not the only one and i’m not an irreparably bad person for being ill, even if only for a moment. so thanks to all of you for that.
bro i love how tom be showing more of his personality more and more in these vids, feels refreshing from the almost robotic personality of other yt documentaries like sunnyv2
Thats the worst part of depression. You are in a constant flux of building yourself up and simultaneously tearing yourself down at the same time. It's a terrible feeling not being able to trust the only person in the world you should,yourself.
The fact they banned him on the day he was supposedly getting his partnership striped away after he had months of trying for redemption is just cruel and unusual and his twitlonger reflects that. Cant believe we can’t throw cats but not keyboards.
Ngl this is my favorite video of yours in a while and just so happened to be listening to this one during a rough day at work and I know I have it pretty good compared to others but this guy definitely has it rough, I hope he has a much brighter future ahead of him cause he definitely didn't deserve financial and mental headaches he's suffered in life
Although some of his actions were inexcusable, he did a decent job of taking accountability for them and he seems like a person who wants to improve. Its just so sad to see him lose his mental stability little by little, not to mention what he went through in his growing years. I hope one day he can find the peace he needs. As someone who was once as angry as him i hope one day he can look back and just laugh at things he used to be mad at. I can only imagine what it would be like to live through some of the stuff he did but i hope he can find the help he needs.
I mean for people to say he was done forever cuz he said a word, and obviously said it in anger and self destructively are more toxic. To ruin a mans life over that shit...I mean come on people act like they never said the N word before. GTFO lol.
As someone with ASD, I feel for Dellor. ASD makes emotional regulation much more difficult, sudden change is also a big no-no with ASD. What Dellor went through would be bad enough, but with ASD in the picture, the bad things he went through would be magnified due to being sudden changes, and if he had no outlet, negative emotions could’ve, and probably did, eat him up and impact him rather deeply.
@@shedshow1439 he said he wasn’t going to make an excuse for those words, my comment wasn’t meant to address those words, but to put it simply, no it doesn’t. Thanks for trying to twist it though.
@@oppytoppy275 I think ASD is silly at best and at worst it trivializes actual autism, which isn’t a condition where you do nothing for your mental health and are miserable, which is the obvious prognosis for this person. .
I also have ASD. Just wondering, has anyone else on the spectrum been having issues since things started going back to "normal" after the pandemic? Personally, I've been feeling extremely frustrated. Like, more frustrated than I've ever felt in my life. I got used to the way things were, especially how quiet the streets were, and I don't think I'll ever be able to fully adjust to the way the world is now. I did start vaping CBD and it made me feel better, but I ran out of e-liquid over a month ago and haven't bothered to buy more yet, partially because it's so fcking expensive. The 10ml bottle I bought cost me £17 ($20). Now every time I go out, I feel that same anger that I felt before and it feels bad man. I live in the UK and there's just too many people crammed into too little space. Obviously not a noticeable problem when everyone was on lockdown, but it's definitely noticeable now and it's the source of my frustration.
Given the range of characters I normally see covered here its refreshing to see one about an actual normal, hard working person. He has his flaws and he is clearly trying to work through them. Its impressive how he manages to claw his way out of each valley each time. But it was painful to see how life managed to always tear him back down. And for once I can honestly say I hope the best for the subject of one of your videos lol.
I think what you said at the end sums up why, at the end of the day, I love the guy. He’s human. More human than anyone else on the platform it feels like, so when he does win, it’s beautiful and amazing and it feels like it’s completely earned. I hope he does return and find the success he deserves.
I work with mental health clients and genuinely enjoy doing so. Makes me really feel for this dude. I like him. I hope he finds success and peace, for that matter.
From where he grew up, im not surprised he has so much pent up rage and emotion. In fact I'm sure streamers with better upbringings has rage inside. A lot of people that play video games dont have healthy ways of dealing with stress. And look what happens, its all comes out.
Honestly i wish the best for this man, his imperfections resonate with a lot of people including me. When you see someone dealt such a shitty hand in life and they do the best they can do with what they have you learn to appreciate and value the things you do have and to learn to maneuver things better
Dellor is forreal an underdog in being faced with so much shit and still pulling it out his success. He's a really misunderstood guy most of the time. With his last breakdown, it totally makes sense in being burned out and stressed, especially with all the bs he faces. Really hope he can get some help, and handle what he needs to.
@@personwithdiabetus9719 you may not have heard of him due to the current state of his career but DMBrandon. He streamed a game called smite and was probably one of the most toxic streamers. A fan once commented to thank him for helping them through a time they were suicidal. He then ranted about how selfish suicide is.
Honestly I really feel for this guy dude. I have emotional issues, it's so hard but so strong to try and get help. I hope his life starts to get better.
bro i knew that clip without knowing his story and honestly i feel for him. i can relate to the things he is saying. trying to do and become better, but repeatedly failing. the feeling of everything and everyone being out to get you. i cant say things will get better. nothing is guaranteed in life. the work you put in may not be worth it in the end. experiences that brought joy, turn into memories of sorrow. life is crurel
i have some anger issues aswell (not anywhere close to Dellor, but still) and i truly do empathise with him. It's really sad to me how the internet makes people so disconnected and apathetic and i really want this story to turn into a comeback story and for him of all people, someone who's shown how broken they are, to be able to work on his issues and succeed.
I swear at the end part where he is really upset it genuinely made me cry.. i cant understand how we can enjoy the suffering of others.. i hope he is doing well😢
Let's be real brothers and sisters this is the real rage of a person locked inside without zero outside world... Be careful We are here.. We all love ya 💪
It’s true, I prefer solitude but I have to force myself to go outside / interact w people on occasion or my depression becomes overwhelming. Maintaining decent mental health means doing things you don’t want to do sometimes.
You are not here for anyone, stop deluding people. People say all this stuff, only for temporarily feeling better about themselves, those words never mean anything.
I have been watching Dellor for a long time and have a lot of respect from where he came from and how much he accomplished coming from serious poverty. Great video TT
This makes me so sad :( I hope his life is getting better currently. It seems like life kept hitting him with really horrible and traumatic situations which really breaks your soul. He's so cute too. I don't care for gaming but I still wanna follow him cuz of his perseverance. His community is gross.
Damn thats so sad. Very motivation but conflicting. Thank you for bringing us this story Thomas, ive been interested in him since ive seen a couple of his clips.
One thing I will say is the community you build is a direct reflection of the content you make. If he finds his community toxic, it’s because rage content is toxic and toxic people want to watch that type of content. I do feel incredibly sorry for this guy. He has problematic and toxic moments, but that doesn’t mean he deserves everything that’s ever come his way. His whole stream career is the perfect example of “[W]hen it pours.” Add all of the problems he continuously has in regards to his streaming career, together with pre-existing mental health struggles, and all of the other problems he’s having personal life such as his mother’s health, it all adds up and becomes too much. No one should have to deal with that much stress so regularly for so long. As he said, he has no friends, and loneliness and having no one you trust, and care about and who also cares about you, you can talk to makes everything so much worse and makes you feel even lonelier. I truly hope he’s getting the help and support he needs. This whole story just makes me so sad.
This man is the epitome of here comes the consequences of my actions getting hacked is sad but i think we all get hundreds of spam emails but none of us have opened them
While some of his behavior was absolutely awful, I feel so bad for him. It's like anytime he starts climbing out of the pit, anytime he made steps to better himself and his behavior, something comes along to shove him back down. Looking for any excuse to do it. It's hard to watch someone make some mistakes, try to fix it and yet still being shoved back down.
Dellor is accepted back by Twitch unexpectedly. Me, "Ah. Good! I love a happy ending." (Sees there's still twenty minutes left in the video.) "Oh, no...."
this is super random, but I've been watching ur videos for weeks now n i love them so much, i didn't even realize i wasn't subscribed for like the first whole week just because of how invested i was, you're videos are so organized n well thought out n i can tell you put so much effort into them, its absolutely insane to me that ur subscriber count isn't in the millions, especially w some of your views, keep up the amazing work tom:) i can tell that with time its definitely going to pay off
You know, I used to laugh at this guy so much, I didn't know who he was, I just used to see him a lot in gamer rage compilations which I find funny. But after seeing this video, I legit do feel for this guy, I hope he does get the help he needs and hopefully he gets back on his feet.
I mean, nothing wrong with the laughter, that's why he made a whole thing out of breaking keyboards lol, he knew what was going on. But yeah, in terms of emotion and such, he just really deserves some care.
“There’s no possibility of destroying everything around them” As someone’s who’s been to Columbus Ohio during a day the buckeyes lost a football game, and they rioted through the streets I beg to differ lol.
My god. I binge watch ur videos all the time but this one was brutal. This dude has went through hell and back. Poor guy. Twitch fanbase is so ass too. Hope things get better for him
I believe even the popularity of his rage content is because of how most "people" (based gamers) can relate to him at least a little bit. I feel for the dude I hope he gets what he wants out of life.
I feel like twitch will die or become a shadow of its former self the second UA-cam has feature parody with it. The inconsistency of that platform is just absurd
As someone with autism, i feel his pain but as a different story. It's not that he's toxic but has no support system as far as i can tell and every big company beats him to the ground and dome outside force worsens his mood, just making him a victim of the current life mankind allows. Life sucks but you can't change it, but, you can except it, adapt, overcome and keep pushing on.
thank you for this... i know a lot of people don't like me. i'm just trying to achieve a decent life with the tools i was given.
You gained a new fan from this video. Hope everything gets better.
Holy shit It's him
dellor big man never give up im behind you
Keep your head up man. It sucks when it feels like the entire world is against you but I for one don't think you did anything wrong
Some people aren't cut out to be entertainers, not saying that to be an asshole, just being fr. If it's not working out or causes you so much grief you end up in the hospital it might be worth it to look into different avenues man. You should invest in getting out & about in the world, could do ya some good.
-banned for self-harm
-becomes suicidal and goes to psyche ward
good job twitch team
My thought exactly
Twitch is a fucking joke
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@@g0tsp33d u must think ur really funny huh
That is not twitches fault at all...
this guy is the epitome of “me on my way to relax by playing a game that makes me unimaginably angry”
You just explained 99% of the EFT community
Apex Legends
@@LiterallyJustaDude02 The what?
@@thedawginhumanity4635 League
Mini seasons, the show
Man watching the breakdown in full makes me so sad, I can really feel his struggle
On the other hand watching chat repeat "BREAK A KEYBOARD" made me lol
I felt so bad that Dellor got hacked. I was following the entire thing unfold, and I just can't imagine how you'd be able to recover from such a devastating breach.
Yeah it was honestly terrible that it happened to him.
And people say I am paranoid gaming with hardware firewalls and an internal VPN. When my PS4 connects to the net, it gives an error saying there is no internet...but there is 😁 sure it lags my shots sometimes, but nobody has ever got in.
Real. It sucks what happened to delly, i haven’t seen him in a while, hope hes doing well right now.
@@hicknopunk im 99% connected on a VPN (its only really off when im downloading shit to save bandwith) i legit have a server in a country nearby so it doesnt add too much latency. its custom-buillt vpn wiht just one IP. none of that commercial VPN shit
@@collared internal VPN. I have an external VPN too.
Obviously this guy is not a saint, but I feel for him. His final “breakdown” had me nodding in agreement. I could really put myself in his shoes and feel his despair. Things get overwhelming, especially when you’ve been through as much as he has. I hope he takes time to take care of himself and maybe thinks about leaving his rage persona behind, even if it’s what pays the bills.
Ikr sure it pays the bills but it's putting him in a more miserable state the more he does it & obviously the sites he is posting his rage on aren't fans of what he is doing.
@@ricniks4619 it’s just fucked all around. He’s very clearly mentally unwell and just fucking miserable. I don’t condone the things he has said in the past but I can sympathize with his mental struggles. There’s nothing worse than that.
That insight comes from pain. Hope you’re doing well.
Nah
I gotta say either I strongly appreciate the empathy you seem to have, or I hope you're doing well these days if it's actually sympathy that you're pulling from.
His apologies were actually some of the most genuine I’ve seen. Most people don’t admit exactly what they did and why it was bad and hurt people, like he did. It made me want to root for him despite the toxic behavior. It must have been hard not really having a support system.
dellor is a racist POS and deserves every bad thing ever to come to him
You're actually an idiot and should check out his reddit if you think this way. The kid is doing it for money to just peace out like everyone else.
That apology is probably the result of years of practice and forceful correction. For most autistic people, our instinct when we apologize is to try and explain ourselves, which inevitably comes across as excuses. I'm still trying to get it right, but he's got the "correct" apology down
lol apologies as in plural if it was genuine he wouldnt keep doing the exact same thing you cant keep saying im sorry then continue to do it if it was genuine he wouldnt keep doing the same thing it would of stopped the first or second time
That's because he's a genuine dude that knows he can make big mistakes and takes responsibility. I think it's because he doesn't have a big ego while a lot of the other people giving apologies have huge egos
He is one of the strongest people I know after wtaching this. Coming back this many times after the brutal actions taken against him is just beyond insane. He is a super human.
Cringe
Christ, that poor guy. The clip makes it look like he's hating on his community for no reason, but you can tell here he's just frustrated with the hell streaming has put him through. Best of luck to him!
Meh, I bet he'll be dead some time now.
That clip hits differently when context is involved. The trolls in chat, they got what they wanted.
@@Sceptonic Do I really need to make a video talking shit about autism, not knowing that I clearly have autism?
hes 33 i dont know if hes exactly a "kid"
hes racist
It's incredibly depressing what the internet has done to some people. Dellor's life is one nonstop tragicomedy, and it doesn't look to be getting better.
moufronn
This has been going on since the 90s lol
Yeah. Remember Etika?
@@MiketheNerdRanger rest in peace Etika
just wait till all these little kids whose attention span and self image being reduced to zero from tiktok grow up. Can we be a more narcissistic and shallow society? lol
"I haven't done anything to you I fucking hate you guys" this is so relatable in so many ways. I often find myself saying the same thing regarding all the people that have treated me like shit all my life. My heart goes out to dellor. I wish the best for him. Its hard, man...
People are mad fucked up, yet everyone larps as a saint these days. Meanwhile this guy is an out of control rager who has been fucked over at every turn and has more shreds of humanity than the most popular "holier than thou" youtubers. Its almost ironic that people will try to ruin this guy's career over a few offensive words but will justify actual crimes committed by celebrities/musicians or other, more popular streamers just simply because they align with their worldview more, and call them "based" for it even.
@@heyhackurs i know how it feels. Sure dellor has had it far worse than me but if you show a little bit of vulnerability to others they will make use of it and try to fuck you up. Cruel pieces of shit. Since dellor is an online figure he'll get obviously 10 times the amount of bullies that i ever got. And these scumbags will sleep soundly thinking they've "done a little trolling" and continue being the scumbags online that get outraged over everything in order to feel like they're such crusaders of justice. Fuck em.
@@heyhackurs Everyone wants a perfect painted picture just so they can avoid the elephant in the room.
yep i fucking hate people too as i got older. especially in the city i live in. no one isnt as nice as i thought when i was little. i would rather live in a place where people are more respectful or just stop talking to people all together
He really hates those guys
Hearing the hacking situation started stressing me out. I can't imagine the pain and stress he went through during that time. Truly a scary situation that i wouldn't wish on anyone. The thought of losing it all terrifys me.
When I saw the title, the one thing I didn't expect was a wholesome yet bittersweet tale of an underdog that got the worst possible lot in life and still somehow managed to succeed for some time.
I really hope that he pulls through, the internet needs genuine people like that, and not just more copy-pasted self important eThot clones
Fr, this is why I like Dellor. He's the definition of perseverance, determination, and never giving up💪
Has it occurred to you that "eThots" are also just trying to grab that bag? They're not billionaire Dick Dastardly politicians, they're not EVIL, they're regular people.
Love the subtle sexism there. Keyboard headsmashing is clearly the kind of content only highly intellectual males such as yourself can appreciate, curse those evil view-stealing ethots!!!1 Weird how your demographic is also the main one watching those "self important ethots," though.
Glad this guy is getting his shit together, but god I'm so sick of dudes spewing their thinly-veiled rage over the fact that attractive women can make money on the internet by being attractive, pleasant, and often--though most of you are terrified to admit it--actually good at games. Do we need less Nadias in the world? Absofuckinglutely. But do we need more of *this* guy? Based on what I've seen of him, no. Hope he proves me wrong, truly. Though I'd also love for him to explain how one "cooks" a sandwich. I think you need a panini press for that. I guess that's why he needs a woman for it--he clearly doesn't know how to make a sandwich himself.
We used to have role models, now we have dellors
dellor is a racist POS and deserves every bad thing ever to come to him
as someone who got banned for 3 years i remember how much dellor resonated with me constantly, a imperfect dude that wears his heart on his sleeve and has an obvious past of deep set trauma just trying to entertain people because it felt like his calling. I hope nothing but the best for the dude, honestly. He''s extremely talented at what he does, gaming, entertaining and he deserves to be able to pursue the career he wants regardless of how cookie cutter he presents himself
Sounds too naive to me, his past doesn't absolve his childish outbursts and dumb decisions. He'd be better off working in a different field.
Hey wobbles! Didn’t know you watched turkey Tom 😮
Nah man, competitive gaming and streaming shouldn't be seen as anything more than a past time hobby. To treat it as a career path gives you about a 99% chance of failure and realizing afterwards that you are years behind your adult peers and lack skills to make up the difference. For now Dellor is seeing some success from not facing his trauma and having constant angry outbursts. He's just putting off confronting his trauma and working through it. It's very mentally unhealthy and in the end he's just pushing off being an adult hoping for permanent adolescence. It never works as anything more than a bandaid and the longer the bandaid stays on, the more infected the wound becomes.
@@symbiote1982pk bruh you dont even know what his childhood was like? "yeah guys this guy is really childish but he could've also been abused in his childhood and he may also have a mental illness" im not trying to say that what he did or said was right but you should at least see why he may of become like this, instead of just calling him a childish person, which i think isnt fair if you know nothing about him.
@Symm Thing is, there is a reason he was like this. Dellor built his entire life from less than nothing. Severe mental illness, addiction, thousands of dollars of debt etc. Sure, he has said and done stupid things, but you gotta understand his perspective, too. Dellor is a pure example of someone who was getting ruthlessly beat down by life and kicked while he was down over and over and over again until he eventually snapped. It's truly sad and horrible. Personally, I wish nothing but the best for him and hope he recovers physically, mentally etc.
Frankly the fact Twitch was blacklisting him for no reason meanwhile other people were being given special treatment... it's disgusting. I hate the blatant double standard. I can't blame him for his rage, it's justified.
that's generally how the world works lol
less desirable streams get the short end of the stick, more desirable ones don't
Dont like the Dellor dude but agreed, Twitch should definitely bring the ban hammer down just as harshly as they did him for these other assholes
@@walter4180 Just because it happens doesn't mean the people perpetuating it don't deserve to be beheaded.
@@walter4180 its completely understandable if some streamers get preferential treatment just because they pull in the big bux
whats never fair is how they handle bans and punishments
its still absurdly inconsistent
If Dellor was a hot egirl twitch would be keeping that account open at all times lmao
"He went from dropping n-bombs on Overwatch to dropping 20 bombs on Fortnite." This had me rolling
Dellor might be Toxic, but Twitch is damn inconsistent AF, they we're toying with him, with his very livelihood. He didn't deserve that.
Honestly, I don’t even think inconsistent is the correct word. I’ve heard so many stories of twitch screwing over people for the smallest things while they promote people who consistently break they’re own rules. I don’t use twitch for those reasons. They’re petty backstabbing people and I don’t see how it can be so popular.
Just get a real job
Yeh messing with someones livelyhood over a couple words is more toxic than telling someone to make a sandwich or saying the N word in a contex that doesn't even imply he's trying to be racist.
I stopped using twitch a long time ago. It’s straight up CANCER. Absolute cancer, the chat, the streamers, twitch themselves. It’s a failure of society, just like tik tok
Hasan laughs at the deaths of people he finds himself opposed to but God help you if you talk shit in a hyper competitive video game. Especially to someone twitch considers a protected class.
The shit he said about soccer fans not calling the other team racial slurs and not destroying everything around them couldn't be further from the truth
Edit: I’ve made a severe lapse in my judgment… I now know it was a joke and I’m deeply sorry for committing the heinous crime of not getting the joke… I’m very sorry guys this is all my fault 😔😔😔
Tom should watch Green Street 😹
Yea tom has no clue what he's talking about. Literally France v Morocco
moufronn
He never seen a football game in his life
@@HazyFelix The racial slurs after England last Euros IN ENGLAND 😭
I wish nothing but the best of luck for Dellor, his story needs to be shared across as many platforms to understand where he comes from. He does not deserve so much pain that he's been enduring for a while. If anything, mental illness is not a joke and it should be taken seriously given the context of it.
I wholeheartedly agree.
Seems like an immature clown to me… but ok. Maybe he should get a job in the real world and see how long he lasts acting like a petulant child.
and we should be able to say nig
I hope one day that someone suggests an occupational therapist or other autism specialist to him. It seems very much like the sense of being overwhelmed he gets is related, as are the "rages." Even just knowing what causes the different feelings can help; knowing ways to deal with it that work for you is even better. A lot of times, people on the "high-functioning" end of the spectrum just don't ever get that kind of life-changing guidance, because adults and mental health professionals in their lives don't see someone high-functioning as needing that kind of help.
I really love how the swear words are silently bleeped out just prevent Susan from taking the ad money away from this video! LMAO
there was literally a war between two Latin American countries over soccer.....
This is a great way to end the year by a story of hardship to a fruitful career on twitch
moufronn
Man, almost "raged" at the video myself. It just sucks so much the shithand that was dealt to this man. All these years of dedication, never giving up and still have life sucking for him. I hope it gets better for dellor, I really do.
Yeah just forget about the “ni**ar” thing.
Lol I swear people love to make excuses. He dealt his own hand!
He deserved it
@@marsaliscoln8892 he grew up in a shitty environment and dealt bad cards for life, you can't excuse what he said but thats all in the past, he has problems but he's actively trying to better himself, and throughout his life just got worse and worse
@@xenoslayys8122 probably because he would take two steps forward and 5 back. Hence; him saying the “N” word after getting a major gaming deal. That’s a victim mentality. 🤷♂️
@@marsaliscoln8892 people like you cant let go of the past, god it kills you to be able to give someone a second chance, he apologized and never said it again after that
Dellor seems like the guy who is legitimately just trying to live his life and despite his early life and anger problems, he just keeps running into shit luck. I kinda feel his pain, i hope he gets the help he deserves, the luck he's clearly missed in life and develops some form of a stable lifestyle
wow you're not very smart
He courts ruin and brings it all on himself.
I understand what you're saying about his supposed bad luck but I can't help but point out how lucky he actually was as being a guy who can make a decent living for himself by sitting home and playing video games as opposed to all the people (myself included) who has to go work a shitty regular job just to be able to maintain living in poverty. I wish him the best but I'm just saying 🤷
When your mental state is in a bad place, a thousand small things or one big thing can make you panic and feel like life is over. I can only imagine how difficult it is to have so much happen in such a short time while already in a really awful state of mind. I hope you're doing better now and living your best life now, Dellor. Streaming is very emotionally draining even when you gave a good day with it.
100% sure he was doing meth during the n word incident
I used to have anger issues, and one of the happiest moments of my life was when I realized that I hadn't had a freakout in almost a year. These days, I hardly ever get angry, even when something in my life goes seriously wrong.
To some people, seeing a freakout is just entertainment, but I feel a lot of sympathy for people who genuinely can't control it. It can take years to conquer, and it can ruin your life if you get angry at the wrong time. I wish nothing but the best for this guy
Out of curiosity how did you control your anger?
I didn't have anger issues until I developed some bad illnesses; getting medical help has been a nightmare which is what I think is fueling my anger issues. lol
No anger issues? Ok p*ssy virgin 😉
yes, finally, another documentary for me to listen to while staring at my drawing pad, praying to god and jesus that i may have an actual art idea. Thank you flightless bird thomas, very cool.
Edit: hey gang? I understood turkeys can fly after the first comment about it. Please think of something remotely original to put thank you ♡
brother, i am doing the exact same thing rn. good luck with your drawing sesh! hopefully we can both whip out some masterpieces today
Draw me fighting dinosaurs pls
Fat puppies napping in the sunlight. 😁🤣🤭
Time to take some rule 34 submissions and get the juices flowing.
Edit: I meant to say “commissions”
Dang I do the same lmao
man i feel bad for dellor. he's done a lot of messed up things in the past, but knowing about his upbringing, the trauma streaming gave him and his mental health issues explain a lot about how he acts. i hope everything works out for him and he gets to a stable place, mentally and financially.
what's even better is that he's aware hes done some bad things and is constantly trying better himself especially with the cards hes been dealt, its hard not to root for him
Tbh he’s just a dumbass for keeping streaming when all he does is get mad at his chat. I’ll never understand people who keep doing shit that doesn’t even bring them any joy. Why tf do mfs play games if all they do is scream and cry over it?
@@froggy5748 No clue man, i genuinely dislike people who cant control their temper but with all the things happening i cant necessarily blame him
@@drcabbageface that’s the most impressive and respectable part about him, i think. he doesn’t try to excuse what he said or did but he seems to genuinely make an effort to change past it. if that’s not deserving of at least a little respect i don’t know what is
Yeah, his mental health wasn't in a good place to start with, but he never made excuses for the actual wrong things he did. He said he knew he did bad and didn't deserve forgiveness but would try to do better, and he consistently did seem to try to do better. That's far better than any of the fake apologies or excuses so many others put out for the same behavior that they never seem to get nearly the same amount of shit for. It's so hard to watch someone who came from such an awful background trying to better themselves financially and mentally and getting shoved back down at every turn even for the most insignificant things. It's like someone was watching from the shadows waiting for any excuse possible to make his life worse in some of these situations.
Gives a whole new meaning to N64.
Having a mental breakdown/depressive episode online, just for it to be clipped, shared, and laughed it by a good percentage of your viewers would destroy your mental state in ways I can't even imagine. He isn't innocent, surely. But my guy still deserves some peace.
Turkey Tom coming with the heat as usual!
you shouldn’t record it in the first place??
@@Ava-nf2qq you dont choose when to have a mental breakdown, its not something he chooses to have at the moment, he just happened to have one in the middle of his job, which unfortunately for him, is livestreaming...
When you do it in the back a shittyy food service job people hear it and forget after a few days
this is the most nuanced and complex story you’ve covered so far. you kinda hate him but also kinda love him and are rooting for him. i get the struggles he went through growing up, that mentality never really leaves.
No reason to hate him at all. He never hurt anyone. Words are not v10l3nce. He's not scamming or abusing animals.
@@TFrills I don't hate him, I support him.
Seeing the people say stuff like "Fake Rage" in the chat at the end reminded me of the Etika situation of him getting arrested during a mental breakdown. It's disgusting how people on the internet can be. The lack of empathy people show just because they have an anonymous account boils my blood. No one deserves this.
You say it as if people wouldn't be weary on an enviroment where fakings of this kind happens all the time, and as if it's obvious to everyone when clearly isn't, but go on, be self righteous for fake internet points
@@Nikolai1939 ah yes so instead we should treat each other like criminals out to get us for their own self gains 24/7. because that will lead us to a better world instead of a hellscape like the current one we're in. my god dude try thinking about the other person when you say and think shit like this.
@@rixia_ygo wtf you're on?
Man, never heard of him until this video. I'm fucking rooting for him. He's super real, and has really been dealt a shit hand over and over. I would love to see things just work out for him.
I never knew dellors back story. I can actually relate a lot to how he grew up, the anger, the stress, and knowing what its like being homeless and not knowing if you will be homeless again. I will admit, i don't really like the content he does, but I do have sympathy and respect for someone coming up from that "untouchable" social class the world seems to ignore. This video hit home so hard. I hope hes doing better, and hes still rising from it all, because its not easy, and its still not easy, and there is a roof. Luck and heavy lifting have a lot to do with getting out of it. Thanks for the video tom as usual
38:30 It's sad, but the truth is, when you make rage-type content, you attract and create a toxic fandom. They want you to get mad, that's why they're here. You do still get some nice people like the people in the chat saying "we love you". But the toxicity tends to overwhelm the positivity.
That last breakdown just...hurt my heart. I have mental health issues and I know how easy it is for shit to pile up until you finally break. I was genuinely afraid this video would end with him saying Dellor took his own life and isn't around anymore. I'm glad he's still alive. I hope he has a come back or in the very least finds a way to make money that he enjoys. I hope he finds some joy and less stress.
And your name is mcstruggles.. fitting
Hey Deller first time I have ever heard of you but let me tell you bro you are strong as hell life has knocked you down over and over and yet you keep getting back up and fighting twice as hard. Furthermore when you messed up you made no excuses you owned up to it and made right. Nothing but respect bro mad respect.
Can't believe he went back to Twitch after all the shit they put him through. It's like a girlfriend going back to her abusive boyfriend thinking things are going to be different. I wish nothing but the best for Dellor, hopefully he can find a different way to make a living and be happy.
My man dropped 64 Pewdiepie bridges in 40 seconds, quite impressive tbh
Based
So thats what we call n words now?
He stacked that many N Towers just to be burnt by the sun. This dude is a living rollercoaster, lmao.
@@superrazor7617 no but it's wha I call it 😂
A whole stack
I feel so horrible for this guy, I can relate to him so much. I really hope he lives the life he wants and is truly happy within himself it's honestly the least he deserves.
Good lord, I genuinely feel bad for this guy. Between the mental health issues and all the bullshit he went through it genuinely hurts to watch. I hope he's doing well these days and is getting as better as he can be.
This video really makes me realize the true impact Twitch has on people with how biased and unfair they are. UA-cam has issues too but I think they're leagues ahead
As someone with bipolar I can confirm that when the rage hits you can end up saying some really messed up things and deeply regret it right after.
vouch
Just try harder
@@chadperkins3848 i have now reconsidered my mental illness i will just try harder from now on thanks
@@Mikeunism1vouch i will also just try harder now
I fully believe that a person can lash out and say the n-word without being racist. And I'm saying that as a black person.
Can't say that about the other "nonracist" jokers who actually bragged about sitting down to count how many times he said it, however.
Being THE most toxic on Twitch is quite an achievement because competition is great.
twitch is a super sanitized place. you cant even be toxic on there.
moufronn
The rest of the twitch streamers are all e girls.... I'd rather take him than those e girls
Nyes
bro i feel like pscooly puts dellor's rage to shame. HE has fucking problems lol theres no way dellor is the most toxic
I abandoned twitch on a matter of principle long ago, but what they did to this man is absolutely despicable. It’s the epitome of psychological abuse and I’d argue, even emotional torture. I say this as someone with the same diagnoses as him and with an experience that at least outwardly is nearly identical. Watching that ban double-whammy section tore me apart inside.
Twitch did him dirty and they're responsible for his breakdown. That was in no way an organic ban, especially at the time, they had it out for him.
They wanted him to kill himself. That's what it was, they wanted to see the news article that says 'streamer hangs himself from being banned'
Twice. They used him twice. They strung him along with promises he'd get everything back *twice* and then renegged on their agreements at the very last second when they'd milked everything they could out of him. I heavily blame Twitch for those mental health breakdowns. If they'd just left him alone to keep going on youtube after the first time, I think he'd be in a much healthier place.
He also should have known better than to trust them, but I also understand his desire to want to return to what was 'normal'.
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@@prettyevil6662000 legit utterly disgusting. Bunch of cumbrains. Makes me wonder who these people are.
Agreed. The more and more I’ve hear about twitch the more and more I hate them. They pushed this man and genuinely ruined his life. Used him by dangling hope infront of his face, only to twice pull it out from under him and kicking him to the ground. As for those hackers? Disgusting they saw the man kicked on the ground trying to pull together what he had, shoved him to the ground and took all but the cloths on his back. Not exactly what happened but it’s how I see it. I wish him the best in the future and I hope twitch burns.
Damn man, this is really sad. Never heard of this guy, but he was dealt a complete shit hand ,complete with poverty and mental issues, and he still got the top rank in like every popular game there is. That's actually fucking crazy. Dellor if you see this, keep it up man, but maybe look into some tools for dealing with anger/other emotions (DBT). But you're actually really inspiring man imo
its so crazy that dellor breaking a keyboard over his head while raging at a game promotes self harm in twitchs eyes
Classic hypocritical sensitive twitch
Twitch is such a joke honestly. I'm surprised they've lasted so long
they just wanted him off the platform
I mean they're not inherently wrong
@@walter4180 I mean yeah they are tho
Trying to ruin a man’s career over telling someone to make a sandwich is INSANE
Especially when they didn't ban women for literally shitting on live streams and abusing animals
Actually, he said cook a sandwich. Das ist der Witzige.
thats twitch for you, they will forgive anything a woman does
How about for saying the N-word over 50 times? Trying to act like he didn't deserve this is INSANE
@@shakezhulaa You, my friend, are a weakling who lets a single word influence your entire opinion on a single, complex Human being. Saying the gamer word, or any word alone, does not make someone a bad person. That is a vapid and stupid way of thinking.
"Oh noes! He said a slur! More than once! He deserves to literally have his entire life ruined because he said a bad word 😠"
You sound like an idiot.
Yes! Thanks so much for doing this, Dellor is so entertaining!
moufronn
You're calling entertaining to a person who has anger issues and level 3 autism? *Bruh.*
I've never even heard of him before but that stream where he said he hated everyone and everything... I felt like crying seeing the rage. It's obvious he's depressed and I don't think anyone can blame him. He's done shitty things but he's tried so damn hard. I hope he's better now
what shitty things did he do? He said the no-no word ooooooh must ruin his life! And told a dumb girl player to go back to the kitchen OH THE HORROR, THE ATROCITY!!!!!
Man, dellor never deserved any of the shit that's happened to him. I really hope that one day he will be able to build a stable situation for himself.
He did lmao
@@faulgotzel4912 why? because he siad the n wolrd? stop being so sensitive and get a job
@@RonnieMcNutt666 ironic.
@@fullmetal_3961 nigga what
@@RonnieMcNutt666 i could beat ur ass. drop an address
Racial slurs and wrecking everything around them is actually 90% of soccer honestly. I’m not even joking it’s a huge problem. That was a wild example to use 😂
It was a joke bro ..
Wait until you hear of “The Football War” an armed conflict between Honduras and El Salvador. It started because one country harassed and endangered the lives of the opposing soccer team and vice versa.
@@dlz190I had to go back and watch bc I was listening without looking at the screen so I missed the context. You’re right brother
I really, really hope that that he gets to have some kind of support system. I hope that he does get some good people in his life that care about him. It's not too late for this guy.
I had never heard of him before but I cried a lot listening to this. I struggle with mental illness and it heavily runs in my family. He's messed a lot and I expected to be angry with him during this video but it's the opposite. I just want things to work out for him and for him to really achieve stability and happiness
Hey, relate to the mental illness thing, I am severely mentally and emotionally unstable and idk if i will ever change or become different tbh.
@@HolyGoddessMotherAnne awareness is so important, just continue to take responsibility for your actions and prioritize your health and safety. You're important and not a mistake-- you're ill but you're human and if your intentions are good, redemption is always possible. Be safe and be kind to yourself, not everyone understands people like us but we have each other's back
@@Someone-Who-Exists be safe and look after your health, I hope all is well and gets better, I know how tough it is. I'm wishing you all the best
@@HolyGoddessMotherAnne This hits hard man… getting better but yet still so unstable. And it’s cost me a lot. I fear for the future
adding my own solidarity and hopes that we can all continue to improve, however slowly. i struggle a lot with seeing my incremental improvements, as well as blaming myself for relapses in behavior. but seeing comments like these reminds me i’m not the only one and i’m not an irreparably bad person for being ill, even if only for a moment. so thanks to all of you for that.
bro i love how tom be showing more of his personality more and more in these vids, feels refreshing from the almost robotic personality of other yt documentaries like sunnyv2
Sunnyv2 used to have a personality in his videos. Then after he started really blowing up he started becoming neutral in everything
@@GOTTA_RUN especially after Skeppy's braindead fans attacked him for nothing
The windows USB notifications going off as he smashes his keyboard is sending my sides to orbit 😂
I just started, but since I'm on headphones, I'm just going to say thank you for the good audio balancing on the rage. This should be a good one.
1:25 Oh Tom, you haven't seen real football fans till you see them get irrationally angry at they're team losing
For real he's fucking dumb if he truly thinks that
That's football though... he was talking about soccer
@@miceltusav88
Soccer fans are just as bad if not worse
Football fans yea, soccer not so much, since theyre all scrawny soyboys
@@miceltusav88 Soccer fans are far far worse. I can find something in the past month worst than anything that’s happened in football in 10 years
Thats the worst part of depression. You are in a constant flux of building yourself up and simultaneously tearing yourself down at the same time. It's a terrible feeling not being able to trust the only person in the world you should,yourself.
It's sad to realize that he did achieve some level of happiness and was able to just relax and stream and then he started getting hacked
Lol. Almost shed a tear watching this. Even the most saddest movie hasn't hit me like this guy's story. He's nuts but genuinely seems like a good guy
cringe
@@g0tsp33d I hope you get harassed and bullied on a daily basis then when you fuck up you get ur life ruined
@@KEEGANATORGAMING Stop being a simp for a 34 yr old loser
He constantly says offensive shit online over and over, apologizes and promises to stop, and then does it again. Bro….
@@jakubmazur668 he has mental issues. Only time will tell if he actually changes after getting help
The fact they banned him on the day he was supposedly getting his partnership striped away after he had months of trying for redemption is just cruel and unusual and his twitlonger reflects that. Cant believe we can’t throw cats but not keyboards.
I get the feeling they wanted to ban him but they wanted to do it in a sick joke way. It feels too planned by the Twitch mods
Ngl this is my favorite video of yours in a while and just so happened to be listening to this one during a rough day at work and I know I have it pretty good compared to others but this guy definitely has it rough, I hope he has a much brighter future ahead of him cause he definitely didn't deserve financial and mental headaches he's suffered in life
I want him to get off the internet and get the help he needs. I don’t get the appeal of watching someone spiral into misery for entertainment.
Although some of his actions were inexcusable, he did a decent job of taking accountability for them and he seems like a person who wants to improve. Its just so sad to see him lose his mental stability little by little, not to mention what he went through in his growing years. I hope one day he can find the peace he needs. As someone who was once as angry as him i hope one day he can look back and just laugh at things he used to be mad at. I can only imagine what it would be like to live through some of the stuff he did but i hope he can find the help he needs.
I mean for people to say he was done forever cuz he said a word, and obviously said it in anger and self destructively are more toxic. To ruin a mans life over that shit...I mean come on people act like they never said the N word before. GTFO lol.
What did he do that was inexcusable? Tell me one thing. He hurt someone’s feelings? Oh no🥺 the only thing he did bad was the racist stuff
As someone with ASD, I feel for Dellor. ASD makes emotional regulation much more difficult, sudden change is also a big no-no with ASD. What Dellor went through would be bad enough, but with ASD in the picture, the bad things he went through would be magnified due to being sudden changes, and if he had no outlet, negative emotions could’ve, and probably did, eat him up and impact him rather deeply.
ASD makes you sexist and racist as well
@@shedshow1439 he said he wasn’t going to make an excuse for those words, my comment wasn’t meant to address those words, but to put it simply, no it doesn’t. Thanks for trying to twist it though.
@@oppytoppy275 I think ASD is silly at best and at worst it trivializes actual autism, which isn’t a condition where you do nothing for your mental health and are miserable, which is the obvious prognosis for this person. .
I also have ASD. Just wondering, has anyone else on the spectrum been having issues since things started going back to "normal" after the pandemic? Personally, I've been feeling extremely frustrated. Like, more frustrated than I've ever felt in my life. I got used to the way things were, especially how quiet the streets were, and I don't think I'll ever be able to fully adjust to the way the world is now. I did start vaping CBD and it made me feel better, but I ran out of e-liquid over a month ago and haven't bothered to buy more yet, partially because it's so fcking expensive. The 10ml bottle I bought cost me £17 ($20). Now every time I go out, I feel that same anger that I felt before and it feels bad man. I live in the UK and there's just too many people crammed into too little space. Obviously not a noticeable problem when everyone was on lockdown, but it's definitely noticeable now and it's the source of my frustration.
Completely made up disease
bro ive followd him when he had 100 avrage viewers, so happy u decided to cover him, looking forward to watch this
Given the range of characters I normally see covered here its refreshing to see one about an actual normal, hard working person. He has his flaws and he is clearly trying to work through them. Its impressive how he manages to claw his way out of each valley each time. But it was painful to see how life managed to always tear him back down. And for once I can honestly say I hope the best for the subject of one of your videos lol.
I think what you said at the end sums up why, at the end of the day, I love the guy. He’s human. More human than anyone else on the platform it feels like, so when he does win, it’s beautiful and amazing and it feels like it’s completely earned. I hope he does return and find the success he deserves.
I work with mental health clients and genuinely enjoy doing so. Makes me really feel for this dude. I like him. I hope he finds success and peace, for that matter.
From where he grew up, im not surprised he has so much pent up rage and emotion. In fact I'm sure streamers with better upbringings has rage inside. A lot of people that play video games dont have healthy ways of dealing with stress. And look what happens, its all comes out.
Honestly i wish the best for this man, his imperfections resonate with a lot of people including me. When you see someone dealt such a shitty hand in life and they do the best they can do with what they have you learn to appreciate and value the things you do have and to learn to maneuver things better
Dellor is forreal an underdog in being faced with so much shit and still pulling it out his success. He's a really misunderstood guy most of the time. With his last breakdown, it totally makes sense in being burned out and stressed, especially with all the bs he faces. Really hope he can get some help, and handle what he needs to.
“the most toxic man on twitch” is a title that i can think goes to like, 30 different people
Uhhh like who???
@@personwithdiabetus9719 Is that even a question?
@@personwithdiabetus9719 xQc, Tyler1, Trainwrecks,
@@personwithdiabetus9719 you may not have heard of him due to the current state of his career but DMBrandon. He streamed a game called smite and was probably one of the most toxic streamers. A fan once commented to thank him for helping them through a time they were suicidal. He then ranted about how selfish suicide is.
@@personwithdiabetus9719 LOW...TIER...GOD!!
Honestly I really feel for this guy dude. I have emotional issues, it's so hard but so strong to try and get help. I hope his life starts to get better.
bro i knew that clip without knowing his story and honestly i feel for him. i can relate to the things he is saying. trying to do and become better, but repeatedly failing. the feeling of everything and everyone being out to get you.
i cant say things will get better. nothing is guaranteed in life. the work you put in may not be worth it in the end. experiences that brought joy, turn into memories of sorrow.
life is crurel
Honestly, I just want to give him a hug. I really hope life sorts itself out for him.
i have some anger issues aswell (not anywhere close to Dellor, but still) and i truly do empathise with him. It's really sad to me how the internet makes people so disconnected and apathetic and i really want this story to turn into a comeback story and for him of all people, someone who's shown how broken they are, to be able to work on his issues and succeed.
I swear at the end part where he is really upset it genuinely made me cry.. i cant understand how we can enjoy the suffering of others.. i hope he is doing well😢
Let's be real brothers and sisters this is the real rage of a person locked inside without zero outside world...
Be careful
We are here..
We all love ya 💪
Some people like that solitude. They seek it out because they like it
It’s true, I prefer solitude but I have to force myself to go outside / interact w people on occasion or my depression becomes overwhelming. Maintaining decent mental health means doing things you don’t want to do sometimes.
You are not here for anyone, stop deluding people. People say all this stuff, only for temporarily feeling better about themselves, those words never mean anything.
I have been watching Dellor for a long time and have a lot of respect from where he came from and how much he accomplished coming from serious poverty. Great video TT
Man, this just makes me hope the guy gets the help he needs. He seems like such a genuine and nice guy at heart, I feel bad for dellor
Poor guy. I wish the best for him. It's not one's fault to suffer from anger issues, and I know they're difficult to manage/overcome.
This makes me so sad :( I hope his life is getting better currently. It seems like life kept hitting him with really horrible and traumatic situations which really breaks your soul. He's so cute too. I don't care for gaming but I still wanna follow him cuz of his perseverance. His community is gross.
Damn thats so sad. Very motivation but conflicting. Thank you for bringing us this story Thomas, ive been interested in him since ive seen a couple of his clips.
One thing I will say is the community you build is a direct reflection of the content you make. If he finds his community toxic, it’s because rage content is toxic and toxic people want to watch that type of content.
I do feel incredibly sorry for this guy. He has problematic and toxic moments, but that doesn’t mean he deserves everything that’s ever come his way.
His whole stream career is the perfect example of “[W]hen it pours.” Add all of the problems he continuously has in regards to his streaming career, together with pre-existing mental health struggles, and all of the other problems he’s having personal life such as his mother’s health, it all adds up and becomes too much. No one should have to deal with that much stress so regularly for so long.
As he said, he has no friends, and loneliness and having no one you trust, and care about and who also cares about you, you can talk to makes everything so much worse and makes you feel even lonelier.
I truly hope he’s getting the help and support he needs. This whole story just makes me so sad.
This man is the epitome of here comes the consequences of my actions getting hacked is sad but i think we all get hundreds of spam emails but none of us have opened them
While some of his behavior was absolutely awful, I feel so bad for him. It's like anytime he starts climbing out of the pit, anytime he made steps to better himself and his behavior, something comes along to shove him back down. Looking for any excuse to do it. It's hard to watch someone make some mistakes, try to fix it and yet still being shoved back down.
Dellor> Tara
Something comes along? He’s the something bro, he does it to himself
My favorite part of gamer rage vids is hearing Windows connect and disconnect the device repeatedly
Dellor is accepted back by Twitch unexpectedly. Me, "Ah. Good! I love a happy ending." (Sees there's still twenty minutes left in the video.) "Oh, no...."
Bro this is heartbreaking, I can’t finish, but I hope he gets a smooth ride soon
this is super random, but I've been watching ur videos for weeks now n i love them so much, i didn't even realize i wasn't subscribed for like the first whole week just because of how invested i was, you're videos are so organized n well thought out n i can tell you put so much effort into them, its absolutely insane to me that ur subscriber count isn't in the millions, especially w some of your views, keep up the amazing work tom:) i can tell that with time its definitely going to pay off
You know, I used to laugh at this guy so much, I didn't know who he was, I just used to see him a lot in gamer rage compilations which I find funny. But after seeing this video, I legit do feel for this guy, I hope he does get the help he needs and hopefully he gets back on his feet.
I mean, nothing wrong with the laughter, that's why he made a whole thing out of breaking keyboards lol, he knew what was going on.
But yeah, in terms of emotion and such, he just really deserves some care.
“There’s no possibility of destroying everything around them”
As someone’s who’s been to Columbus Ohio during a day the buckeyes lost a football game, and they rioted through the streets I beg to differ lol.
OHIO?!?!?!?!
My god. I binge watch ur videos all the time but this one was brutal. This dude has went through hell and back. Poor guy. Twitch fanbase is so ass too. Hope things get better for him
Dude needs help, but he deserves to succeed; he's been through enough.
I believe even the popularity of his rage content is because of how most "people" (based gamers) can relate to him at least a little bit. I feel for the dude I hope he gets what he wants out of life.
Q q
Touch grass
I feel like twitch will die or become a shadow of its former self the second UA-cam has feature parody with it. The inconsistency of that platform is just absurd
As someone with autism, i feel his pain but as a different story. It's not that he's toxic but has no support system as far as i can tell and every big company beats him to the ground and dome outside force worsens his mood, just making him a victim of the current life mankind allows. Life sucks but you can't change it, but, you can except it, adapt, overcome and keep pushing on.
Finally a Toronto man getting the recognition we deserve