I understand the point you are making, and I overcame this sort of self doubt, but I think the devil lies in the fact that these thoughts are not a choice and therefore you can not choose to just not have them. At least that's what it feels like to me. achieving some kind of measurable success in form of landing a job and getting paid (at least that did it for me) made me realize that there is no validity to these thoughts, but it wasn't a choice. I was just convinced otherwise. So I feel like your insight might be a little post hoc. But what I can tell everyone who read this far: I don't know a single person who stuck with art that didn't overcome these trials in some way, and I think quitting because you feel like you are not good enough is a self fulfilling prophecy, and so is continuing because you trust in your ability. If you care so much about what people think of your art, trust them when they want to pay you for it. Grab the opportunities that present themselves, even if you don't feel you've earned it, because you will.
I love the idea that the flower has no beauty. It is when you take the image of it into you, that part of you finds the beauty in what you see. It exists because of that thing within you. All the genius you find in the work of Mozart, Shakespeare, Issa, Michelangelo is there inside of you. So go, make beautiful things.
I don't think this ever hit me as hard before. These thoughts you describe, i have had them all day every day for 39 years now. I have accomplished absolutely nothing all this time and became a master of avoidance. I came here for some some art tips, but got punched in the gut. Thanks for putting up this mirror.
thinking abount it... i oftenly do what you described and it makes me realize my own fears,anxiety and the negativity i generate on a daily basis, sometimes too scared to draw i shelter myself in games and forget, then i remember my art and what i have done soo far and i regret not using that time to draw and improove, thanks steven, you heleped me alot with this vidio, i will attempt my best to do as you suggested and ill update on anything that comes my way from it
3:10 For a moment, I thought he was gonna get some Minotaur fur :D Well said! I struggle with this as well, not the "quit" thing, never, but I have this "Uber-Ich" that somehow keps me from living my creativity, not good enough, can't show my stuff to others, afraid I will be judged "by this one piece" that I put out and I can't never have my reputation back" etc... it really can be hell for a creative person. But I am currently getting there, I battle myself out of this every day. The problem intensified cause I took about 1,5 years off of making personal pieces and just dedicated to learning art fundamentals. After that I was aware of a lot of stuff that I simply could not and can not reach still, so my standards have become waaay ahead of what I am capable to produce. That does not really keep me form producing, but it stifles my creativity. I have this high energy voice inside me, which is unfortunately a bit more silent than the mentioned Uber Ich. It tells me to create the things that I have concepted and dreamed of and collected in my concept folder, even doing some fan art pieces I was passionate about doing for years. But somehow, I never actually tackle them! I am afraid of what I love doing the most. It's absolutely silly. Even after learning to love the struggle, which is what the creative process is and whats great about it for every piece, there is always something that seeds doubt about if it is the right moment to start now. This could maybe go on until you die. You can't let that happen. It's good to strive for a certain standard and not half ass things. That's the other side of the medal. Just going out there and unfocusedly spread your energy without putting the love and determination into your pieces will make you fall on the nose and hurt your development. I have seen it, don't wanna be it. But that should not prevent one from doing stuff. It's just, that you do your best at that moment in time, you can't do more, you can of course always add that 10-20 extra percent and push through. Maybe this will even cause you to fail and having to start over or throw the piece away. It's so tough to kep that momentum going with all that in mind. Especially with the high pressure of social media which is such a heavy burden and blessing at the same time for artists in this day and age. Shame your Discord is patreon exclusive. I would have loved to chatter here and there in this lonely pandemic times. Really love your conent! But becoming a patroen is unfortunatley not an option for me financially and I wouldn't want to just for discord options, cause topic wise also, I am a 3d artists and albeit I love watching 2d content and wisdom to learn, It's not my main craft or everyday business. I wish you all the best with this channel and patreon. It will grow, I am really shure! I watch a lot of YT artists channels, and I know when one is truly honest and has a high quality with valuable stuff to offer about art, which is not talked about that much, such as this one.
Damn Steven, sometimes your videos make me paranoid lol! Jk, I actually don’t worry about my ideas that much anymore in my drawing-but when it comes to life and opportunities in general I can definitely relate... My instinctual habit is to do preemptive damage control over situations and scenarios that are for all intensive purposes, fictitious...which is really not productive or healthy. Being aware of it is good though, and I’ve also been trying to talk about my art in a more positive sense. When someone compliments my work I used to try and point out all the things wrong with it, or even do a little quick sketch to explain how it’s really just an illusion, belittling both myself and every other artist by doing so. Now I try to say, ‘yeah, it is cool!’
Awesome~ The other day one of the art kids of THE internet asked me how to go to Japan and work as an artist. Also added that I looked like a student that how I did it. I first felt really insecure "OMG I look like a student and I got lucky". Then I thought "Hey wait, I have been always a student and I will be. And I accepted this challenge and it is working out. And I get to eat a lot of weird snacks, I think I am fine". And even though it is fine... sometimes... thanks for this voice note again~ amazing art as usual.
I firmly believe every word has its place. Even expletives. Many people use them all the time and in doing so devalue them. However, the two fucks given (pun intended) were at great moments where it expressed lines crossed, where a frustrated prisoner breaks free of his restraints and progresses. You thanked me for drawing, I thank you for speaking. Subbed
Bring adrenaline to your art. Bring risk. Don’t plan. Or no; plan, but in your head, build the whole thing in your head, mull over it all of the day and absorb all relevant visual information like some kind of computer. Drawing with an eraser is so boring. That’s for the prep stage. But what I really like is not having the possibility to erase. It opens up so many other doors and ways of thinking. Sure, you can also do a massive fuck up; but there ain’t no heights without falls.
Damn it Steven! How will I ever live up to being a genius tortured artist if you keep making me feel good about myself!
I have done you a great disservice, please devolve into self doubt at your leisure.
Thank you so much for this "roast". I actually needed that :D
Always here for a good roast
6k subs? Man this world doesn’t appreciate dedication and skill.... Your drawings are unbelievably good!
Mate, you hit the nail on the head with me. Giving up as a kid because someone else was "better". Thanks for your knowledge and experience
Bingewatching for some inspiration and wisdom.
I don't how else to put this but truely inspired. Thanks Steven.
Thank you, you are kind.
I understand the point you are making, and I overcame this sort of self doubt, but I think the devil lies in the fact that these thoughts are not a choice and therefore you can not choose to just not have them. At least that's what it feels like to me. achieving some kind of measurable success in form of landing a job and getting paid (at least that did it for me) made me realize that there is no validity to these thoughts, but it wasn't a choice. I was just convinced otherwise. So I feel like your insight might be a little post hoc. But what I can tell everyone who read this far: I don't know a single person who stuck with art that didn't overcome these trials in some way, and I think quitting because you feel like you are not good enough is a self fulfilling prophecy, and so is continuing because you trust in your ability. If you care so much about what people think of your art, trust them when they want to pay you for it. Grab the opportunities that present themselves, even if you don't feel you've earned it, because you will.
I love the idea that the flower has no beauty. It is when you take the image of it into you, that part of you finds the beauty in what you see. It exists because of that thing within you. All the genius you find in the work of Mozart, Shakespeare, Issa, Michelangelo is there inside of you. So go, make beautiful things.
Nothing has ever told me to quit, but it is true, being negative takes up time and energy
beautiful. Thank you so much. I needed this
Thank you for your time, Steven
My pleasure, thank you.
This helps a lot. I have a lot of creative ideas, but because It doesn't always turn out the way I wanted, It makes me sad and dissapointed in myself.
This was great. Keep up the good work.
I don't think this ever hit me as hard before. These thoughts you describe, i have had them all day every day for 39 years now. I have accomplished absolutely nothing all this time and became a master of avoidance. I came here for some some art tips, but got punched in the gut. Thanks for putting up this mirror.
thanks for drawing today? wow, that made me tear a little
Excellent.
Thank you.
i love this video
Yes! More of this, even if it's on repeat! Just now I realized that most of your videos are best used as guided meditation, I mean drawing :D
You nailed it! That's exactly what I'm going for.
so much love sir!
thinking abount it... i oftenly do what you described and it makes me realize my own fears,anxiety and the negativity i generate on a daily basis, sometimes too scared to draw i shelter myself in games and forget, then i remember my art and what i have done soo far and i regret not using that time to draw and improove, thanks steven, you heleped me alot with this vidio, i will attempt my best to do as you suggested and ill update on anything that comes my way from it
"I'm just saying that maybe you could shut up?" Oh man, killing that voice...working on it.
This is absolutely brilliant! Thank you.
3:10 For a moment, I thought he was gonna get some Minotaur fur :D Well said! I struggle with this as well, not the "quit" thing, never, but I have this "Uber-Ich" that somehow keps me from living my creativity, not good enough, can't show my stuff to others, afraid I will be judged "by this one piece" that I put out and I can't never have my reputation back" etc... it really can be hell for a creative person. But I am currently getting there, I battle myself out of this every day. The problem intensified cause I took about 1,5 years off of making personal pieces and just dedicated to learning art fundamentals. After that I was aware of a lot of stuff that I simply could not and can not reach still, so my standards have become waaay ahead of what I am capable to produce. That does not really keep me form producing, but it stifles my creativity. I have this high energy voice inside me, which is unfortunately a bit more silent than the mentioned Uber Ich. It tells me to create the things that I have concepted and dreamed of and collected in my concept folder, even doing some fan art pieces I was passionate about doing for years. But somehow, I never actually tackle them! I am afraid of what I love doing the most. It's absolutely silly. Even after learning to love the struggle, which is what the creative process is and whats great about it for every piece, there is always something that seeds doubt about if it is the right moment to start now. This could maybe go on until you die. You can't let that happen. It's good to strive for a certain standard and not half ass things. That's the other side of the medal. Just going out there and unfocusedly spread your energy without putting the love and determination into your pieces will make you fall on the nose and hurt your development. I have seen it, don't wanna be it. But that should not prevent one from doing stuff. It's just, that you do your best at that moment in time, you can't do more, you can of course always add that 10-20 extra percent and push through. Maybe this will even cause you to fail and having to start over or throw the piece away. It's so tough to kep that momentum going with all that in mind. Especially with the high pressure of social media which is such a heavy burden and blessing at the same time for artists in this day and age. Shame your Discord is patreon exclusive. I would have loved to chatter here and there in this lonely pandemic times. Really love your conent! But becoming a patroen is unfortunatley not an option for me financially and I wouldn't want to just for discord options, cause topic wise also, I am a 3d artists and albeit I love watching 2d content and wisdom to learn, It's not my main craft or everyday business. I wish you all the best with this channel and patreon. It will grow, I am really shure! I watch a lot of YT artists channels, and I know when one is truly honest and has a high quality with valuable stuff to offer about art, which is not talked about that much, such as this one.
Thanks for sharing that bit of your journey, glad you're putting that personal hell away. Happy to have you around the UA-cam.
Damn Steven, sometimes your videos make me paranoid lol! Jk, I actually don’t worry about my ideas that much anymore in my drawing-but when it comes to life and opportunities in general I can definitely relate...
My instinctual habit is to do preemptive damage control over situations and scenarios that are for all intensive purposes, fictitious...which is really not productive or healthy.
Being aware of it is good though, and I’ve also been trying to talk about my art in a more positive sense. When someone compliments my work I used to try and point out all the things wrong with it, or even do a little quick sketch to explain how it’s really just an illusion, belittling both myself and every other artist by doing so. Now I try to say, ‘yeah, it is cool!’
Love that last part. I'm always amazed how artists bend of backwards to explain why they suck. I'm glad you're putting that part of you to rest.
This is very unique advice Steven, we appreciate you making this for us! I feel so much more aware of my connection to my work thanks to these videos!
Couldn't hope for anymore more- very glad!
Thanks man...needed that
Never knew I needed this until now. A great deal of thanks to you Steven, huzzah!
This is such a positive video, I loved hearing you talk about negative thoughts very very helpful definitely gonna subscribe!!
heck yeah
Heck yeah dude
Awesome~ The other day one of the art kids of THE internet asked me how to go to Japan and work as an artist. Also added that I looked like a student that how I did it. I first felt really insecure "OMG I look like a student and I got lucky". Then I thought "Hey wait, I have been always a student and I will be. And I accepted this challenge and it is working out. And I get to eat a lot of weird snacks, I think I am fine". And even though it is fine... sometimes... thanks for this voice note again~ amazing art as usual.
Love the way you can love your life. Bravo Mags.
Man this is just absolutely amazing! I'm loving these drawing companions more and more :)
Glad you like! Keep on loving.
@@StevenZapataArt I surely will :D
Ending after 10 min took me by suprise was expecting something 1h long ... still,great video and stright to the point!
Remember everyone "Fuck it, I'm just going to do it anyways" is the best motivator.
Thanks especially for this one
Wow I feel so called out on my worst habits. This was some great advice, thank you
Hah, glad I could do some essential calling out.
I firmly believe every word has its place. Even expletives. Many people use them all the time and in doing so devalue them. However, the two fucks given (pun intended) were at great moments where it expressed lines crossed, where a frustrated prisoner breaks free of his restraints and progresses.
You thanked me for drawing, I thank you for speaking. Subbed
Happy to have you, thanks for the sub. Glad you felt the emotional overtone of those moments.
Words i needed to hear!!! Thank you.
Think I needed to hear this one
Me too :) I get as much out of this stuff as you all do.
Wow I met this by proko and I must confess that it's awesome ,nos You have a new sub 👍😃😊🤩🤩🤩🤩
Thank you! Happy to have you on board.
Bring adrenaline to your art. Bring risk. Don’t plan. Or no; plan, but in your head, build the whole thing in your head, mull over it all of the day and absorb all relevant visual information like some kind of computer. Drawing with an eraser is so boring. That’s for the prep stage. But what I really like is not having the possibility to erase. It opens up so many other doors and ways of thinking. Sure, you can also do a massive fuck up; but there ain’t no heights without falls.
I feel called out
I just subscribed your channel. Great talk man, thanks. Pozdro666
Your stuff is always great. But the use of the “F” bombs and then “poopoo drawing” cracked me up.
I will make the best poo poo drawing.
thahaha
I'm cracking up too.
@@StevenZapataArt Yeah man, whats left is to have a real good laugh
who are you and why does it hurt so much
Hah!