I say this very humbly believe me not an ounce of arrogance, but I believe God brought me into his life as a blessing and he fumbled me big time. I inspired him to open his own business, I was proud of him then he Acted like I had nothing to do with it. God has a way of showing you people.
❤❤❤ resonated. I had to let it all go. Kept getting in my spirit sleeping with the enemy....Ignored but finally that other shoe dropped and it was confirmed. No hard feelings on my end just a lesson taught. Attachment can be confused with love.
perfection is a PROCESS of perpetual improvements . . . honest open mindful communication is the key to unlimited abundance for ALL . . . the purity of our intentions determines thee effectiveness of our appeals to our truly benevolent divine intelligent designer located in the hearts of all heavenly-endowed eathly-beloved brethren critters souls . . . so lets redeem our collective soul power and regain our original ultranatural goddesspeed again regardless yawl !
you told me that my lack of confidence was a big turn off - i kind of get it now. i am sorry i fronted like i was worthy . sorry for getting offended by your rejection - and then triggered into being offensive. sorry i forget the hard-earned important lessons about what love really entails - (i have high ideals and should know better by now even though i have close to zero relationship experience - due to lack of confidence - due to lack of experience, etc. etc... ). i am so frustrated with myself because i have no money, no job, and not much patience left. also getting balder, older and cynical about life in general. i have a big heart and high hopes of changing the world for the better - but technically, i am just a total worthless loser . no wonder you cut me off with no mercy . thanks fer giving me hope, and also for that big slap of reality. i still don't have any idea what i can do to make myself worth a fook for whoever happens to show up in the future - but i am gonna try to do my best like i always do . but yeah - no wonder nobody recognizes my worthiness - because i do not either - no matter how hard i try to convince myself that i am. i am a dreamer leo/cancer - foolish enough to try to partner with a practical cappy/sag - i thought it would help - but it takes two to tango - and you just have more important things to work on. at least i got an all you can eat buffet of humble pie ! i know i have to keep working on myself and my financial 'game' . it'd be nice if i can ever luck into real opportunities to make myself useful and valuable - but i am still not going to hold my breath like i've done my whole life . too bad the commercial hustle culture has left genuinely nice and truthful to a fault guys like me in the dust . anyhow - even with as much as it hurts - thanks for keeping thee ideal - real yawl. goddesspeed again regardless ...
them not putting any effort in towards it ? not now - after waiting 3 months (probably putting in way too much effort) for any sign at all (other than ghostly silence) that she still wants anything to do with me - or not . she played herself. and i guess that is fine - if indeed that is fine . even though i am even more broke and extra unmotivated now. too bad Capricorn allows the goddamn greedy-sadistic devil to rule over them so ruthlessly. the last potential potential most significant counterpart contender (Cappy/Sag) i (Leo/Cancer) messed around with. (she, a trusted friend of the family, totally instigated the seduction through excessive body contact on a week beach vacation) eventually accused me of trying to force her to love me --- simply because i was trying to share my authentic insightful compassionate self perhaps a bit too overeagerly with her. she ghosted me after one month with absolutely no explanation - and what boggles my mind and heart worst was how she was obviously way into me at first . i think maybe she was just too preoccupied with mundane logistical considerations to take time to get to understand her true unadulterated self before her innocent inner child literally got raped by her step family and the conventional pedophile preistclass kingpimps hellbent on total world domination. she likely just misdirected hostility at me --- because narcissists exes she's accustomed to dealing with in the 'real world ' tend to pretend that they are 'nice guys' --- she could not wrap her head around the idea that i am actually the authentic real deal embodiment of true love (flaws and all). or maybe, since she lives 500 miles away, she just saw me as the impractical over-idealistic fool, who unfortunately, had the nerve to point out some of her blindspots - and so she decided to go find an easier more-realistic target to tease and distract herself from herself with. overanalysis-paralysis is not exactly as funny as it sounds ! luckily we eventually get fairly adept at dealing with being grossly misunderstood . hope is definitely a double edged sword . . . ( i had a bad complexion in high school, started going bald at 25, and therefore still relatively broke due to debilitating heartbreak, and so now, as an empathetic 51 yr old health nut, still have not yet even gotten close to experiencing a serious meaningful relationship.) i just want one wholehearted significant counterpart --- who can also appreciate flaws and all --- but it certainly feels like i'm looking for a needle in a hay stack these daze. poizion polluted mainstream corporate kingpimp hook-up hustle culture has really fucked this whole world up hard . anyhow, good luck finding authentic love before getting to old for it to even matter at all anymore --- and goddesspeed again regardless yawl !
who's heart is not in the right place ? sorry. that silent treatment is the kiss of death. u only ghosted yerself . on second thought, not so much sorry - just sad that you think you are so mischievously crafty . that silent treatment did successfully trigger me into pouring my heart out profusely through sending (love-bombing) desperate texts and links to music i hoped would resonate - but you left me totally hanging... turns out all those crazy epic rants did get delivered - but you cold-heartedly denied me ANY feedback at all. (i would be fine with whatever you wanted to do with me - or not - but you could not bother yourself to even ask yourself what you want to do with me, probably due to just distracting yourself with wine and work etc) turns out i happened to learn a LOT in that sadistic mean time - but unfortunately, now i got more reservations than ever and so now i am trying desperately to find something else to get overenthusiastically into besides you and your nevermind... yet nevertheless goddesspeed again regardless yawl !
This situationship taught me to trust the initial intuition you get about someone and not doubt it.
I say this very humbly believe me not an ounce of arrogance, but I believe God brought me into his life as a blessing and he fumbled me big time. I inspired him to open his own business, I was proud of him then he Acted like I had nothing to do with it. God has a way of showing you people.
This resonated so much omg 🤦🏽♀️
Not even 2 min in and WOW! Thank you!!! 🙏❤️
❤❤❤ resonated. I had to let it all go. Kept getting in my spirit sleeping with the enemy....Ignored but finally that other shoe dropped and it was confirmed. No hard feelings on my end just a lesson taught. Attachment can be confused with love.
perfection is a PROCESS of perpetual improvements . . . honest open mindful communication is the key to unlimited abundance for ALL . . .
the purity of our intentions determines thee effectiveness of our appeals to our truly benevolent divine intelligent designer located in the hearts of all heavenly-endowed eathly-beloved brethren critters souls . . .
so lets redeem our collective soul power and regain our original ultranatural goddesspeed again regardless yawl !
you told me that my lack of confidence was a big turn off - i kind of get it now.
i am sorry i fronted like i was worthy . sorry for getting offended by your rejection - and then triggered into being offensive.
sorry i forget the hard-earned important lessons about what love really entails - (i have high ideals and should know better by now even though i have close to zero relationship experience - due to lack of confidence - due to lack of experience, etc. etc... ).
i am so frustrated with myself because i have no money, no job, and not much patience left.
also getting balder, older and cynical about life in general.
i have a big heart and high hopes of changing the world for the better - but technically, i am just a total worthless loser . no wonder you cut me off with no mercy . thanks fer giving me hope, and also for that big slap of reality. i still don't have any idea what i can do to make myself worth a fook for whoever happens to show up in the future - but i am gonna try to do my best like i always do .
but yeah - no wonder nobody recognizes my worthiness - because i do not either - no matter how hard i try to convince myself that i am.
i am a dreamer leo/cancer - foolish enough to try to partner with a practical cappy/sag - i thought it would help - but it takes two to tango - and you just have more important things to work on. at least i got an all you can eat buffet of humble pie ! i know i have to keep working on myself and my financial 'game' .
it'd be nice if i can ever luck into real opportunities to make myself useful and valuable - but i am still not going to hold my breath like i've done my whole life . too bad the commercial hustle culture has left genuinely nice and truthful to a fault guys like me in the dust . anyhow - even with as much as it hurts - thanks for keeping thee ideal - real yawl. goddesspeed again regardless ...
What I thought I want it don’t want anymore…
the boss that is impossible is the goddamn devil for Christsakes !
pity the poor Cappy who's master is a narcissistic abuser .
The last thing you said about saying "I do" then stabbing you in the back........
That's exactly who she was.
i swear from other readings were all getting like like demons and cups or some shit hehe
I'm not sure where you are at but I was in Berlin last week.
WOW. 😮😳
Saturn vs the friggin Sun - time to show them materialistic planets who really rulz !
them not putting any effort in towards it ? not now - after waiting 3 months (probably putting in way too much effort) for any sign at all (other than ghostly silence) that she still wants anything to do with me - or not . she played herself. and i guess that is fine - if indeed that is fine . even though i am even more broke and extra unmotivated now.
too bad Capricorn allows the goddamn greedy-sadistic devil to rule over them so ruthlessly.
the last potential potential most significant counterpart contender (Cappy/Sag) i (Leo/Cancer) messed around with. (she, a trusted friend of the family, totally instigated the seduction through excessive body contact on a week beach vacation) eventually accused me of trying to force her to love me --- simply because i was trying to share my authentic insightful compassionate self perhaps a bit too overeagerly with her. she ghosted me after one month with absolutely no explanation - and what boggles my mind and heart worst was how she was obviously way into me at first .
i think maybe she was just too preoccupied with mundane logistical considerations to take time to get to understand her true unadulterated self before her innocent inner child literally got raped by her step family and the conventional pedophile preistclass kingpimps hellbent on total world domination. she likely just misdirected hostility at me --- because narcissists exes she's accustomed to dealing with in the 'real world ' tend to pretend that they are 'nice guys' --- she could not wrap her head around the idea that i am actually the authentic real deal embodiment of true love (flaws and all). or maybe, since she lives 500 miles away, she just saw me as the impractical over-idealistic fool, who unfortunately, had the nerve to point out some of her blindspots - and so she decided to go find an easier more-realistic target to tease and distract herself from herself with. overanalysis-paralysis is not exactly as funny as it sounds !
luckily we eventually get fairly adept at dealing with being grossly misunderstood .
hope is definitely a double edged sword . . . ( i had a bad complexion in high school, started going bald at 25, and therefore still relatively broke due to debilitating heartbreak, and so now, as an empathetic 51 yr old health nut, still have not yet even gotten close to experiencing a serious meaningful relationship.)
i just want one wholehearted significant counterpart --- who can also appreciate flaws and all --- but it certainly feels like i'm looking for a needle in a hay stack these daze. poizion polluted mainstream corporate kingpimp hook-up hustle culture has really fucked this whole world up hard . anyhow, good luck finding authentic love before getting to old for it to even matter at all anymore --- and goddesspeed again regardless yawl !
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Hey sissy ❤
who's heart is not in the right place ? sorry. that silent treatment is the kiss of death. u only ghosted yerself . on second thought, not so much sorry - just sad that you think you are so mischievously crafty . that silent treatment did successfully trigger me into pouring my heart out profusely through sending (love-bombing) desperate texts and links to music i hoped would resonate - but you left me totally hanging...
turns out all those crazy epic rants did get delivered - but you cold-heartedly denied me ANY feedback at all. (i would be fine with whatever you wanted to do with me - or not - but you could not bother yourself to even ask yourself what you want to do with me, probably due to just distracting yourself with wine and work etc)
turns out i happened to learn a LOT in that sadistic mean time - but unfortunately, now i got more reservations than ever and so now i am trying desperately to find something else to get overenthusiastically into besides you and your nevermind...
yet nevertheless goddesspeed again regardless yawl !