💖Keep the mental health conversation going by sharing your story here in the comments. No matter where you are in your journey, you have a safe place here to share your struggles and accomplishments without judgment. This is how we shatter the mental health stigma.💖 And if you need some direction and would like me to be your Happiness teacher, you can sign up for my Happiness Boost course here: amandawebsterhealth.com/happiness-boost/
We all notice when one of our own are gone. Whether it's what you believe or not, we notice you therefore we need you. Strength is in numbers and you need us as much as we need you. I may not know you, but I know enough to fight for you.
Thanks for helping shatter the mental health stigma! Your music is changing the narrative and helps a lot of people 💖 Would love to interview you guys some time!
This song still has a massive impact for me. I discovered this song shortly after being diagnosed with PTSD and it summed up so many emotions and thoughts so perfectly
I’m already subscribed and I said it in the comments of your reaction to “Would Anyone Care” but of all the reactions I’d watched of that song in particular, you were the first one to make me cry. To reach out just as much as Citizen Soldier does with their music and make me feel seen and heard. And I can’t talk to the immediate people in my life about how I sometimes feel. Because the one or two times I tried to back when I was still in high school, and they were lesser in I guess severity of that’s actually the word I want, I basically got the response of “you don’t have any reason to feel like that” and even more recently within the last couple of years I had offered a constant unending headache for a solid week before going to get checked out by a doctor. Truly comes back as a stress headache and the first words my moms husband says on hearing that were “what’s she got to be stressed about?” So long ramble aside, I want to say thank you. And please please please keep listening to CS. I have a playlist of them I keep adding to. And of the 15 or so songs in it the three that resonate with me the most are Bedroom Ceiling, Would Anyone Care, and Never Good Enough. Other good ones are Words That Don’t Exist, Just Be Happy, and Waiting On The Sun
Society in general has become very stressful. We're not taught how to deal with it, then shamed when we can't figure it out. Anxiety and depression symptoms don't always have an obvious trigger, but they are always valid. 💖
@@MentalAmandaso very true i used to get those stress induced migraines from work stress and other things i still get them every now and then but not as often since changing jobs
This song was my life my first two years of the 4 years of my life with PTSD. It didn't take much to make me boil over, always on that edge with the monster created by trauma just under the surface ready to destroy at a split second. Now my favorite of their's is My Own Miracle which is pretty much 100% my own life. Almost all their songs are in the mixes UA-cam creates for me, I have heard every single one over 30 times now.
Citizen Soldier is such a great band; all of their albums have some amazing songs in them, but there are so many great ones in Scarecrow. Monster Made of Memories was the perfect start and transitions so well into Fever. Hope you do more, both from the band and from Scarecrow; they kind of branch out into their fans for this one.
Yay a nother citizen soldier reaction its my favourite band and I can relate to so many of there songs sens I have a lot of emotional and mental issues I have yet to get help resolve so I relate
I wish you would or at least I would really like you to react to the song pretend the pain away from citizen soldier there is a part of the song that really hits hard for a lot of people
Animals facts. I know it's been a while since my last one. Only 2 known animals in the world can smell rain - you know the smell after a rainfall or just before a storm. Camels and humans. Granted, humans can't navigate using that sense, as we have about one tenth of the receptors in our nose as camels, but we can detect it. Also humans, dogs and pigs can smell newly cut, certain kinds of grass. Which, horrifyingly, is grass(es?) way of warning other grass of danger. Certain trees can also communicate this way. Biology is amazing. Cows have best friends. Chickens know their favorite person by look, gate and body language, up to 3 years after they last see them. And last, chameleons can change their body colour the moment they hatch, and even do so while still in their egg.
I'm not good enough, I hate myself so much. Every time I cut myself, I've already attempted suicides. I'll be gone, I'm a burden. I hate my existence!!!! My life it's hard and disaster. I'm dying proof. My mental health it's worsing, I'll be gone. (I have so many bad throughs in my mind, I feel so many things that I don't know how to explain.) You won't notice when I'll be gone Amanda.
Thank you for sharing your pain with us. I will absolutely notice because I very much care if your light goes out. We're here to help you through. You're not alone.
Memories is what fuels my fears and anger. I constantly have to run from it. I've tried to be one with it for so long, but it's just not possible. All I really can do is be ahead of it, run a little faster, occupy my mind for long enough to forget it. Let my 'demons' have their playground when possible, controlled. I guess learning to live with the 'shadow' is different for everyone. Mine has to be silenced with anger, and is woken up by it too. It's like trying to put out a fire with gasoline. Theoretically possible, not recommended.
If you wanna learn a bit more about citizen soldier, i woulf recommend "Let it Burn" their first song, and "Limit" being a song thats mkre based on Jake's story (atleast the first verse)
Hi Amanda, I've been watching your reaction videos over the past few weeks and I love them. I appreciate what you're doing for those of us who struggle with mental health. I'm very analytical and therefore don't seem to have much of an emotional range, nothing really effects me, but music brings out my emotions and allows me to feel them. A couple of songs I'd love to see you react to that have been pretty powerful for me are "Ghost" by Badflower, and "Breaking Down" by I Prevail. I'll warn you, they're both really hard to listen to. Wrong Side of Heaven is another one, I love your reaction video for that one.
I have to be honest I haven't watched in a while. But the universe sent me a great message today through you Amanda. I've said before and I'll say it again thank you. 😊 🙏
I have serve ptsd from an off duty incident in which someone died . I had tried to find a song that described the ptsd and trauma but someone on twitter showed me this song . And now I am recovering and if anyone asks what happened I get them to listen to this song .
I'm so happy for you that you’ve found a song that resonates so deeply. It’s amazing how music can articulate what words sometimes can’t. For me, there are several Linkin Park songs that do that for me. Sharing these songs with others is a powerful way of helping them understand our experiences. I’m glad you’re on the path to recovery, and I hope you continue to find healing and peace. You’re not alone.
I still remember when they released this song & a few reactors were losing their minds over that little MEMORIES part towards the end cause it was the first time any of us had heard anything close to screaming stuff in a CS song 🤣
Can you also react to "Scarecrow" or "Golden Weather" by the same band? These songs are also about PTSD and in my opinion cover this topic even better than this one! I really like your videos
I've been suffering through my depression and anxiety and PTSD symptoms I know this is hard for people to hear. The fact that I don't remember the last time I wasn't depressed or traumatized I've been going through losses since last year I lost three loved ones in last year all within months apart the pain of losing my poppy my grandpa and my dog koko hasn't only affected me mentally and physically but I fear it has affected me spiritually as well it ruptured my spirit my heart and soul and my mind hurt every single day for over a year sometimes I want to try and make it through my life and sometimes I want to quit and throw in the towel but the only reason I am here trying is because I know someone else needs me here I'm basically living for someone else I'm in my own abyss and my own personal hell I'm grieving I've been grieving I'm severely depressed I've been that way for months now I came out of my depression at the beginning of this year and then I found out last month that my nana has cancer so its no wonder I've fallen back under slipped under a depression again but I still try so hard not to quit my boyfriend in the past has said and still to this day when I'm upset and start to cry he feels so bad for me and loves me so much he tells me please don't ever give up don't ever give up no matter what you can make it for and to the future I know this helps me to think about what he said to me and I continue to not give up because of him he makes me want to be here on this earth because he makes me feel loved and he keeps me and my heart safe he makes my heart and soul super happy I hope we get engaged and married someday he's amazing I'm also not only depressed and anxious and trauma stricken mentally and emotionally and physically by my grief and all that but on top of that I'm also mania stricken I'm manic as well my mind is a hurricane in my brain I wish I could heal and say it's done but it's not
I am so happy that you have someone so supportive in your boyfriend to help you through this time. Grief is the hardest thing we deal with and when it compounds like this, it can seem suffocating. Lean on your boyfriend, lean on us, talk to a professional if you need help getting through the loss (I did!). You're not alone.
I totally get this song. I guess my biggest trauma stems from just me existing. My monsters in my head have always been there. And I have tried many different medications and none seem to work so I just struggle with the monsters and try and coexist with them as best as I can. But some days the quality of life really sucks.
Totally off topic, but for your own listening pleasure listen to the old song "Monstrr Mash." Whem i first saw the title of your video all it sais was "Monster M. . ." So it came to mind for me.
Hey Amanda there are 2 song by citizen soldier alone with myself and broken like me. It’s two songs that how I feel right now if you’ll please try them out and do a reaction video.
Also I am really brutally hard on myself for my hard times I am having I been shortcoming selling my self short for all the progress I've made so far meaning if someone says to me that I'm doing great and I'm doing the best I can for what I've been through I argue with people and tell them that I am not doing anything right I'm not doing the best I can and I keep saying to my grandma and my aunt and my dad that I failed and I know I shouldn't feel that way but I blame myself for being alive and I hate myself for being alive here with everyone without the three of them being here I feel guilty for being here when others of mine are not here everyone can hug and kiss me but not them we can't hug and kiss them anymore I think if I was alot kinder and treated them better than I did that god would have spared me my loved ones and they would not be gone I feel so punished I hate to say this but I feel god is punishing me for the times I wasn't so kind with my words sometimes I know I sound so weak for saying that and for feeling that way I know its not true maybe it's not my mind the monsters in my head whisper those bad thoughts to me those untrue thoughts about god they whisper loudly to me in my head I don't like talking about this but that is because of the stigma feeding and people judge people for their feelings and thoughts I hope no one judges me I'm sharing this to raise awareness and to help you and help everyone else spread awareness for mental health and depression anxiety and PTSD and manic episodes I often cry and I don't understand what triggered my tears and my PTSD and manic episodes I happens out of nowhere unexpectedly sometimes alot of times I'm so confused all of the time I mistake what's true and what's a fantasy I mistake what's really happening and what someone is saying I mistake their real feelings with what aren't their real feelings I dissociate the real feelings people feel about me or say to me or about me and how I treated with lies mind made fantasies and lies things that my monsters in my head tell me that aren't real but I believe I really believe what my mind is telling me what the monsters in my head tell me people get frustrated and annoyed and angry at me for telling them what I think is going on but there isn't anything wrong except for my mind telling me to defend myself for the way I am and I always have to validate how I'm doing and that my feelings and thoughts are real the fears are so real to me I feel like a soldier fighting battles in a war against everyone and I'm so ashamed but I feel I'm a soldier and I'm in combat with my mind and this world everyone and everything makes me feel angry and sad and worthless and hopeless but I'm holding on even though I'm in pain I have to be patient and dance in the rain I'm going insane I'm sunshine with a little hurricane best of both sides light and dark I'll be fine I just need to finish healing I need to come out of my depression somehow I won't give up I will fight this depression and anxiety and PTSD until I have won the battle with the monsters in my head and the battle with myself I will be myself again I always get back up again when I fall into myself I always get back up and try again until I defeat my demons in my head I'm a fighter I was raised to fight the obstacles and the demons and the hardships because my mom taught me that just because I'm lost doesn't mean I won't be found just because it hurts doesn't mean I should give up keep going keep the good fight
💖Keep the mental health conversation going by sharing your story here in the comments. No matter where you are in your journey, you have a safe place here to share your struggles and accomplishments without judgment. This is how we shatter the mental health stigma.💖
And if you need some direction and would like me to be your Happiness teacher, you can sign up for my Happiness Boost course here:
amandawebsterhealth.com/happiness-boost/
I'm suffering greatly lately. I hate myself and my appearance lately. Despise living at all. Constantly considering the end
@@christamichelleortloff2195 I think you are in a transition period energetically. We just need to get you through it!
@@MentalAmanda you don't need me sweetheart. You have the rest of the pack. You won't notice when I'm gone
We all notice when one of our own are gone. Whether it's what you believe or not, we notice you therefore we need you. Strength is in numbers and you need us as much as we need you. I may not know you, but I know enough to fight for you.
@@christamichelleortloff2195 I absolutely will. I love all my cubs.
love love love how in depth you get with the lyrics. Thanks for reacting!
Thanks for helping shatter the mental health stigma! Your music is changing the narrative and helps a lot of people 💖 Would love to interview you guys some time!
This song still has a massive impact for me. I discovered this song shortly after being diagnosed with PTSD and it summed up so many emotions and thoughts so perfectly
My depression comes from looking at the past, the present, and the future. My anxiety is similar.
At the moment this band is pretty much keeping me alive and going,amazing reaction aswell
The lyrics are astounding. Musically amazing.
I’m already subscribed and I said it in the comments of your reaction to “Would Anyone Care” but of all the reactions I’d watched of that song in particular, you were the first one to make me cry. To reach out just as much as Citizen Soldier does with their music and make me feel seen and heard. And I can’t talk to the immediate people in my life about how I sometimes feel. Because the one or two times I tried to back when I was still in high school, and they were lesser in I guess severity of that’s actually the word I want, I basically got the response of “you don’t have any reason to feel like that” and even more recently within the last couple of years I had offered a constant unending headache for a solid week before going to get checked out by a doctor. Truly comes back as a stress headache and the first words my moms husband says on hearing that were “what’s she got to be stressed about?” So long ramble aside, I want to say thank you. And please please please keep listening to CS. I have a playlist of them I keep adding to. And of the 15 or so songs in it the three that resonate with me the most are Bedroom Ceiling, Would Anyone Care, and Never Good Enough. Other good ones are Words That Don’t Exist, Just Be Happy, and Waiting On The Sun
Society in general has become very stressful. We're not taught how to deal with it, then shamed when we can't figure it out. Anxiety and depression symptoms don't always have an obvious trigger, but they are always valid. 💖
@@MentalAmandaso very true i used to get those stress induced migraines from work stress and other things i still get them every now and then but not as often since changing jobs
This song was my life my first two years of the 4 years of my life with PTSD. It didn't take much to make me boil over, always on that edge with the monster created by trauma just under the surface ready to destroy at a split second.
Now my favorite of their's is My Own Miracle which is pretty much 100% my own life.
Almost all their songs are in the mixes UA-cam creates for me, I have heard every single one over 30 times now.
I'd love to see you do a reaction to the Citizen Soldier song Always December.
Citizen Soldier is such a great band; all of their albums have some amazing songs in them, but there are so many great ones in Scarecrow. Monster Made of Memories was the perfect start and transitions so well into Fever.
Hope you do more, both from the band and from Scarecrow; they kind of branch out into their fans for this one.
Yay a nother citizen soldier reaction its my favourite band and I can relate to so many of there songs sens I have a lot of emotional and mental issues I have yet to get help resolve so I relate
I find the buried six feet deep a scary idea. Being buried in my coffin with my monsters. Trapped and left behind.
I wish you would do them more often too
I wish you would or at least I would really like you to react to the song pretend the pain away from citizen soldier there is a part of the song that really hits hard for a lot of people
Animals facts.
I know it's been a while since my last one.
Only 2 known animals in the world can smell rain - you know the smell after a rainfall or just before a storm.
Camels and humans.
Granted, humans can't navigate using that sense, as we have about one tenth of the receptors in our nose as camels, but we can detect it.
Also humans, dogs and pigs can smell newly cut, certain kinds of grass. Which, horrifyingly, is grass(es?) way of warning other grass of danger. Certain trees can also communicate this way.
Biology is amazing.
Cows have best friends.
Chickens know their favorite person by look, gate and body language, up to 3 years after they last see them.
And last, chameleons can change their body colour the moment they hatch, and even do so while still in their egg.
I'm not good enough, I hate myself so much. Every time I cut myself, I've already attempted suicides. I'll be gone, I'm a burden. I hate my existence!!!! My life it's hard and disaster. I'm dying proof. My mental health it's worsing, I'll be gone. (I have so many bad throughs in my mind, I feel so many things that I don't know how to explain.) You won't notice when I'll be gone Amanda.
Thank you for sharing your pain with us. I will absolutely notice because I very much care if your light goes out. We're here to help you through. You're not alone.
Memories is what fuels my fears and anger. I constantly have to run from it.
I've tried to be one with it for so long, but it's just not possible.
All I really can do is be ahead of it, run a little faster, occupy my mind for long enough to forget it.
Let my 'demons' have their playground when possible, controlled.
I guess learning to live with the 'shadow' is different for everyone. Mine has to be silenced with anger, and is woken up by it too.
It's like trying to put out a fire with gasoline.
Theoretically possible, not recommended.
If you wanna learn a bit more about citizen soldier, i woulf recommend "Let it Burn" their first song, and "Limit" being a song thats mkre based on Jake's story (atleast the first verse)
HI Amands, thanks for those openjng words !
Ghost - Bad Flower. Perfect suicide survivor song. Acoustic or studio are both great.
Hi Amanda, I've been watching your reaction videos over the past few weeks and I love them. I appreciate what you're doing for those of us who struggle with mental health. I'm very analytical and therefore don't seem to have much of an emotional range, nothing really effects me, but music brings out my emotions and allows me to feel them. A couple of songs I'd love to see you react to that have been pretty powerful for me are "Ghost" by Badflower, and "Breaking Down" by I Prevail. I'll warn you, they're both really hard to listen to. Wrong Side of Heaven is another one, I love your reaction video for that one.
This song was so emotional for me when I've listened to it for the first time.💔🔥
I have to be honest I haven't watched in a while.
But the universe sent me a great message today through you Amanda.
I've said before and I'll say it again thank you. 😊 🙏
Dont believe in haters! They only ruin your way of thinking.
I have serve ptsd from an off duty incident in which someone died . I had tried to find a song that described the ptsd and trauma but someone on twitter showed me this song . And now I am recovering and if anyone asks what happened I get them to listen to this song .
I'm so happy for you that you’ve found a song that resonates so deeply. It’s amazing how music can articulate what words sometimes can’t. For me, there are several Linkin Park songs that do that for me. Sharing these songs with others is a powerful way of helping them understand our experiences. I’m glad you’re on the path to recovery, and I hope you continue to find healing and peace. You’re not alone.
If you haven't heard and seen it before, maybe you should try to watch "Babymetal - Road of resistance - live in Japan (official)" 😀
I still remember when they released this song & a few reactors were losing their minds over that little MEMORIES part towards the end cause it was the first time any of us had heard anything close to screaming stuff in a CS song 🤣
I would love to see a reaction to more of there songs, wired for worthliss, strong for somebody else and made by misery just to name a few
Can you also react to "Scarecrow" or "Golden Weather" by the same band? These songs are also about PTSD and in my opinion cover this topic even better than this one!
I really like your videos
Ngl I'm so glad you reacted to this! You should totally listen to Wired For Worthless when they release it!!
There's 2 songs by s club 7 that help me when I have an episode of depression and those songs are reach and bring it all back
I've been suffering through my depression and anxiety and PTSD symptoms I know this is hard for people to hear. The fact that I don't remember the last time I wasn't depressed or traumatized I've been going through losses since last year I lost three loved ones in last year all within months apart the pain of losing my poppy my grandpa and my dog koko hasn't only affected me mentally and physically but I fear it has affected me spiritually as well it ruptured my spirit my heart and soul and my mind hurt every single day for over a year sometimes I want to try and make it through my life and sometimes I want to quit and throw in the towel but the only reason I am here trying is because I know someone else needs me here I'm basically living for someone else I'm in my own abyss and my own personal hell I'm grieving I've been grieving I'm severely depressed I've been that way for months now I came out of my depression at the beginning of this year and then I found out last month that my nana has cancer so its no wonder I've fallen back under slipped under a depression again but I still try so hard not to quit my boyfriend in the past has said and still to this day when I'm upset and start to cry he feels so bad for me and loves me so much he tells me please don't ever give up don't ever give up no matter what you can make it for and to the future I know this helps me to think about what he said to me and I continue to not give up because of him he makes me want to be here on this earth because he makes me feel loved and he keeps me and my heart safe he makes my heart and soul super happy I hope we get engaged and married someday he's amazing I'm also not only depressed and anxious and trauma stricken mentally and emotionally and physically by my grief and all that but on top of that I'm also mania stricken I'm manic as well my mind is a hurricane in my brain I wish I could heal and say it's done but it's not
I am so happy that you have someone so supportive in your boyfriend to help you through this time. Grief is the hardest thing we deal with and when it compounds like this, it can seem suffocating. Lean on your boyfriend, lean on us, talk to a professional if you need help getting through the loss (I did!). You're not alone.
I totally get this song. I guess my biggest trauma stems from just me existing. My monsters in my head have always been there. And I have tried many different medications and none seem to work so I just struggle with the monsters and try and coexist with them as best as I can. But some days the quality of life really sucks.
You can reach me on IG @mentalamanda or email me at amanda@amandawebsterhealth.com
I’m certain ever1 suggests- BOTHER- by StoneSour side project of, CoreyTaylor from Slipknot, who sings it,( Spider-Man theme). Trust me!
Totally off topic, but for your own listening pleasure listen to the old song "Monstrr Mash." Whem i first saw the title of your video all it sais was "Monster M. . ." So it came to mind for me.
which of those doors are the closet? idk why that was the first thing i wondered but sure
😂 My left
Loved the lyrics, also got some vibes of Fall Out Boy with the singing style!
Our fear is the monsters power
Hey Amanda there are 2 song by citizen soldier alone with myself and broken like me. It’s two songs that how I feel right now if you’ll please try them out and do a reaction video.
Hey mental Amanda, can you do a reaction on ashes new, breaking now and Munster
You should check out citizen soldier's song life sentence
Can you watch Happy by NF?
HI AMANDA. I RECOMMEND YOU TO REACT ON THE NEW MOTORHEAD COVER BY SABATON CALLED "1916". YOU WILL LOVE IT
i have to admit even know iam old school that was pretty gooooood lol
Please do one from citizen soldier For Somebody Else
I love this song it’s like other people have trouble with truma to try to save their lives
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Also I am really brutally hard on myself for my hard times I am having I been shortcoming selling my self short for all the progress I've made so far meaning if someone says to me that I'm doing great and I'm doing the best I can for what I've been through I argue with people and tell them that I am not doing anything right I'm not doing the best I can and I keep saying to my grandma and my aunt and my dad that I failed and I know I shouldn't feel that way but I blame myself for being alive and I hate myself for being alive here with everyone without the three of them being here I feel guilty for being here when others of mine are not here everyone can hug and kiss me but not them we can't hug and kiss them anymore I think if I was alot kinder and treated them better than I did that god would have spared me my loved ones and they would not be gone I feel so punished I hate to say this but I feel god is punishing me for the times I wasn't so kind with my words sometimes I know I sound so weak for saying that and for feeling that way I know its not true maybe it's not my mind the monsters in my head whisper those bad thoughts to me those untrue thoughts about god they whisper loudly to me in my head I don't like talking about this but that is because of the stigma feeding and people judge people for their feelings and thoughts I hope no one judges me I'm sharing this to raise awareness and to help you and help everyone else spread awareness for mental health and depression anxiety and PTSD and manic episodes I often cry and I don't understand what triggered my tears and my PTSD and manic episodes I happens out of nowhere unexpectedly sometimes alot of times I'm so confused all of the time I mistake what's true and what's a fantasy I mistake what's really happening and what someone is saying I mistake their real feelings with what aren't their real feelings I dissociate the real feelings people feel about me or say to me or about me and how I treated with lies mind made fantasies and lies things that my monsters in my head tell me that aren't real but I believe I really believe what my mind is telling me what the monsters in my head tell me people get frustrated and annoyed and angry at me for telling them what I think is going on but there isn't anything wrong except for my mind telling me to defend myself for the way I am and I always have to validate how I'm doing and that my feelings and thoughts are real the fears are so real to me I feel like a soldier fighting battles in a war against everyone and I'm so ashamed but I feel I'm a soldier and I'm in combat with my mind and this world everyone and everything makes me feel angry and sad and worthless and hopeless but I'm holding on even though I'm in pain I have to be patient and dance in the rain I'm going insane I'm sunshine with a little hurricane best of both sides light and dark I'll be fine I just need to finish healing I need to come out of my depression somehow I won't give up I will fight this depression and anxiety and PTSD until I have won the battle with the monsters in my head and the battle with myself I will be myself again I always get back up again when I fall into myself I always get back up and try again until I defeat my demons in my head I'm a fighter I was raised to fight the obstacles and the demons and the hardships because my mom taught me that just because I'm lost doesn't mean I won't be found just because it hurts doesn't mean I should give up keep going keep the good fight
I absolutely LOVE your perspective: "just because I'm lost doesn't mean I won't be found."That is beautiful! Thanks for that 💖
Citizen soldiers limit ft lo spirit
I'm Here! Playing the algorithm like the bitch it is! I love your videos! It's so heartwarming 🥲