Vinnie Paz talks depersonalization disorder, personal life

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  • @ColeWolfsson
    @ColeWolfsson 6 років тому +97

    Depersonilzation happens when your body goes into extreme anxiety so it detaches your being from yourself so you don't die from the stress.

    • @ColeWolfsson
      @ColeWolfsson 6 років тому +3

      I feel like Vinnie

    • @lzsszz1006
      @lzsszz1006 6 років тому +5

      You dont die, but some people comment suicide, i have depersonalisation and derealisation, anda a lot of panick attacks..

    • @thunor3656
      @thunor3656 5 років тому +5

      The irony is, the stress and anxiety caused by this disorder can cause people the kill themselves.

    • @bigjohnson9606
      @bigjohnson9606 4 роки тому

      I wake up at like 4am stomach churning racing thoughts it's hard to deal with sometimes but that's my life I think

    • @bigjohnson9606
      @bigjohnson9606 4 роки тому

      @@rw3833 Ok will do, my diet is pretty bad as well tbf

  • @nishantkhade8476
    @nishantkhade8476 5 років тому +31

    Month 8 of DP/DR, Getting better every day.
    Hang in there fellas. It DOES get better.
    God bless you!

    • @phazebeast7373
      @phazebeast7373 5 років тому +3

      I had mine for about 6 years , coming and going but now i think its gone ... but olny in rare ocassions when i have anxiety and stress it happens but for like 10 minutes then leaves but mine was caused by smoking weed ,

    • @nishantkhade8476
      @nishantkhade8476 5 років тому +5

      @@phazebeast7373 Mine happened from smoking weed too. Its so strange people dont know about this, Considering how they've been pushing marijuana as the "Safe" drug.

    • @phazebeast7373
      @phazebeast7373 5 років тому +4

      @@nishantkhade8476 exactly , they dont know what type of things it can do to people, they just praise it like a super safe drug , it does no harm , yeah right !

    • @bigjohnson9606
      @bigjohnson9606 4 роки тому

      Mines never got better

    • @nishantkhade8476
      @nishantkhade8476 4 роки тому

      @@bigjohnson9606 How long have you had it?

  • @tazmanian1033
    @tazmanian1033 2 роки тому +8

    My father was 80 years old and he was my best friend in the world..he had alot of health issues and was on oxygen. I took care of him, he took care of me and we would talk about everything together..shared some damm good laughs and he taught me alot about life and how to be a good person..every good quality I have today I contribute to him and how he raised me. Sadly he passed away recently on 11/22/22 and I miss him soo much.. RIP Dad, I love you

    • @cocopopsbrahhh
      @cocopopsbrahhh Рік тому +1

      that’s beautiful my friend, what more can we ask for

    • @tazmanian1033
      @tazmanian1033 Рік тому

      @@cocopopsbrahhh thank you man, I appreciate that 🙏

    • @90Geeza
      @90Geeza Рік тому +1

      Sorry to hear ya loss fam

    • @user-friendlyhuman
      @user-friendlyhuman 2 місяці тому +1

      RIP 🙏🏼 In other countries the date would be formatted like this 22/11/22, which is trippy! You have 22s on either side of the 11, and double 11 is 22. I might be trippin', but it could be a positive sign! ❤

  • @marccuomo6723
    @marccuomo6723 6 років тому +47

    Dont do drugs. Eat healthy,exercise and surround yourself with positive people. God be with u.

    • @t-man5196
      @t-man5196 4 роки тому +1

      Matt Tinkelman k

  • @scottmelling4501
    @scottmelling4501 6 років тому +11

    This single handedly exposed me to something I’ve always had a problem with, and could never put a name on. Narrarated by one of my favourite artists ever. My head is on the verge of exploding. This is way too much

  • @palmtreecorpse
    @palmtreecorpse 4 роки тому +10

    been dealing wit anxiety and feeling outcasted since i was a kid, had a traumautic childhood i didn't even realize until i was older been thru the psychward and diagnosed as bipolar. been listening to vinnie and jedi mind tricks since my teen years hearing him talk openly like this gives me hope to keep pushing on ! hardcore punk and hip hop saved my life

  • @mattsheezy5469
    @mattsheezy5469 2 роки тому +3

    Hearing Vinnie talk about losing his father really reminds me to appreciate the relationship I have with my Dad while he’s still alive. Hopefully, coming to grips with the idea that I’m going to lose him will help to not cripple me emotionally when I get that call. It’s a natural part of life, and the fact that life is finite is beautiful in its own way. I just hope that I can face it like a Man is supposed to.

  • @freddylocoglobalconflict226
    @freddylocoglobalconflict226 4 роки тому +11

    Vinnie speaks my life in his words of himself growing up. Thinking i was dead like i was invisible to the world like i didn't matter. Depression, bipolar, ADHD, ADD, . we are the unique few to a clueless world that don't understand the torcher we live with having icey n cold mood swings and thoughts of sadness and pain that we must struggle through each minute of every day. Happiness is just another word
    The fraugelant cloth,
    At my lowest i was introduced to vinnie paz from scrolling through UA-cam. God puts us all together in ways we couldn't imagine 💯💯👊💪🙏

    • @jamesdoakes4956
      @jamesdoakes4956 3 роки тому

      I’ve never taken meds for adhd and guess what, there’s no problem...Yea sometimes I’ll go skitzo and can’t stop moving or sit still, but is that really a problem? Not for me or anyone around me. I don’t understand why it’s even a disease. And I don’t understand why 2 people would be having the same symptoms but one is diagnosed with adhd and the other is just stressed and needs and physical and mental outlet...

    • @freddylocoglobalconflict226
      @freddylocoglobalconflict226 3 роки тому

      @@jamesdoakes4956 that's what you have to say about ADHD and believe me you don't know one thing about being bipolar or schizophrenic from what your description of it

    • @GerardGreen-oz5mn
      @GerardGreen-oz5mn Рік тому

      ​@@jamesdoakes4956
      No one understands then death

    • @jamesdoakes4956
      @jamesdoakes4956 Рік тому

      @@freddylocoglobalconflict226 you’re right. This was 2 years ago. When I was stuck in a low iq conservative echo chamber regurgitating things I heard conservative influencers like Steven crowder, Matt Walsh, Tatum, Jesse Lee Peterson, Tom Macdonald, Adam Calhoun, etc etc say. In the last 2 years I’ve greatly educated myself n got out of ignorance n edgelordism

  • @ethancswartz3657
    @ethancswartz3657 2 роки тому +2

    Before I became a Christian I came down with it. Had no clue what it was it felt like I was drifting into an abyss and nothing felt real, nothing looked real, nothing felt real. I thought I was going to disappear into myself. Everything looked like 3d from a 2d screen. I felt disconnected from reality, literally. Far away from the physical world. I thought that I might be slipping into another universe.It's was the end for me. Never been more down right terrified in my life. Kinda felt like the sunken place in get out. When I was diagnosed it was such a relief because I could no for sure what it was. I still have moments and times where it comes on sometimes out of nowhere but I've learned to live with it. And glory to God for it.

  • @DeathMetalRob
    @DeathMetalRob 6 років тому +7

    what a living hell.poor paz. I had general anxiety disorder for a few years but got rid of it through medication, forcing myself into social environments and a really good therapist. what he lives with made mine look like a common cold. my heart goes out to any sufferers of this.

    • @mrc.p8423
      @mrc.p8423 3 роки тому +1

      What meds?

    • @DeathMetalRob
      @DeathMetalRob 3 роки тому

      @@mrc.p8423 zoloft, although in the beginning there was also some risperdal for some intrusive thoughts but they resolved in a matter of weeks and then i got off the risperdal and it was straight zoloft. the thoughts were my fault because like an ass i delayed treatment and tried to deal myself and got extreme paranoia for my effort. don't do what i did.

  • @khyzer35
    @khyzer35 6 років тому +18

    I grew up spenidng my teens smoking weed listening to jedi mind tricks...in 2012 I triggered DP...then I find out Vinnie Paz has had it the whole time i was listening to him....shit is unreal, but sadly comforting.

    • @jadond.3913
      @jadond.3913 6 років тому +1

      Same... Florida dealers sometimes lace shit with PCP... got that a few months ago and have been heavily derealized since.
      Thank god for my arts like skating, rapping and music creation (and clean weed lmao)

    • @masondavis4554
      @masondavis4554 4 роки тому +1

      Been dealing with it up here in Canada too ...

    • @ta.entmoney3405
      @ta.entmoney3405 4 роки тому

      @@jadond.3913 I skate too got a blunt laced with pcp im 15 this shit ruined my life

  • @c4nucksens8tion
    @c4nucksens8tion 7 років тому +23

    Holy shit Vinnie Paz is literally talking about a lot of the same stuff I've went through.

  • @LordSkullFreak
    @LordSkullFreak 7 років тому +30

    I get depersonalization sometimes, people with OCD like me get these symptoms. I also have a lot of anxiety, which causes it too. It's true that it's very difficult to explain it to people. Interesting story about pazzy

    • @nit.issues
      @nit.issues 7 років тому +1

      I got it once during an anxiety attack and it was the craziest shit, i remember i went to the kitchen and washed a glass becouse i was in panic and didn't understand what was going on. Hopefully it was very brief, but didn' had lunch that night jajaja

    • @davidwillison7796
      @davidwillison7796 6 років тому

      U ain't lying explaining it is way hard man

    • @lzsszz1006
      @lzsszz1006 6 років тому

      Its impossible to understand if you dont go trough this

    • @AnimeRaindrop
      @AnimeRaindrop 5 років тому

      james alexander my dude im with you

    • @DarkClouds-v8
      @DarkClouds-v8 3 роки тому

      Weed and Alcohol have triggered it for me

  • @donnajohnson3449
    @donnajohnson3449 2 роки тому

    How I'm I just hearing this song and you talking about this. Thank you so much for speaking out. It's been over 40 years for me and I found out the same way by typing certain words in Google. You are here for a reason.

  • @Beyondying8
    @Beyondying8 4 роки тому +27

    12 years on depersonalization, it's still the same but somehow i got used to it i guess. I have forgotten how it feels to be normal anymore.

    • @Terra101
      @Terra101 4 роки тому +4

      Bro 12 years here too. Had it since 2009. I have been using drugs for most of the years so have never given my brain a chance to heal. I'm totally sober for 10 months now and have started to exercise regularely and eat healthy etc. I'm having more and more moments of flashbacks or whatever to what i used to be, so I'm hoping it just keeps getting better until i get normal again.
      I recommend watching Swamy G here on UA-cam, his videos have helped me alot in understanding this stuff.

    • @aryehakujin4374
      @aryehakujin4374 3 роки тому

      My whole life I've had it since about 5 years old, im 24 now. Vinnie's
      "is hapiness just a word" is the sound track to my life

    • @jonahjonah4361
      @jonahjonah4361 3 роки тому +1

      @@Terra101 any update bro

    • @imakrewitatl
      @imakrewitatl 3 роки тому +1

      I also have this. Its odd, i feel like what i need is to feel grounded to something. Whatever that is, art, music anything that can can pull you away from feeling detached. That sounds weird but we tend to be introspective aswell so its hard

    • @ericnovak2792
      @ericnovak2792 2 роки тому

      @@imakrewitatl the only way o can describe it is it's like taking the red pill in the matrix but you dont exactly come out of the matrix, you know the truth but you're still in. And the "grounding" concept makes sense in this situation. It just helps to feel normal again

  • @lilwayn1981
    @lilwayn1981 2 роки тому

    I noticed back in 2010 before I got out of the military with PTSD that I had depersonalization. It was the craziest thing I have ever experienced. Looking in the mirrors and being scared because I didn’t know who the person was that I was looking at. Talking and not recognizing the person who was talking even watching my face looking in the mirror. When I got around to telling people about it (doctors) after a couple years my psychologist mentioned depersonalization. Apparently my brain didn’t want to believe that this was me and said it wasn’t. I do a lot better but still don’t look in mirrors. It was crazy to hear your lyrics about it definitely made it better on some level.
    Much love and respect for talking about it

    • @ZahdShah
      @ZahdShah 2 роки тому

      Crazy how much PTSD comes out of the military. Is this the result of soldiers being essentially tricked into fighting an unjust war? Now they can't even look at their reflection because of the atrocities they witnessed or were complacent in.
      I feel very sorry for you because you were fooled into thinking you were helping your country. You had good intentions. But the war was illegal and unjust with no victory condition. You fought for the commercial interests of multinational corporations. Hard pill to swallow. The US foreign policy caused more destruction and trauma in the middle East. Slogans like peace through war or exporting democracy was a pure farce and media trickery. Fabricated intel of WMDs was just a poorly veiled excuse to kill.
      For the sake of your soul I hope you and your comrades heal. And I hope the people of Iraq, Afghanistan and other victims of US imperialism can have the opportunity to heal their inflicted and collective trauma.
      Would like to hear your thoughts on this.

  • @joemckeown7064
    @joemckeown7064 Місяць тому

    I’ve had this for about a year and a half and its crazy vinnie is one of my favourites rappers and he has it too. I was smoking a lot of weed everyday and i got a bad batch that fucked me up i started to convince myself that i was dead and that i was watching my life carry on but wasn’t willingly participating. I’m back to a state where i’m in tune with reality again but i still have bad thoughts and sometimes look at myself confused as to whether i’m me or not. I’ve just learnt to try and convince myself i’m being irrational and it slowly goes away for a bit. It still will always be with me though and there is no cure. Moral of the story don’t fucking do drugs even with the whole legalisation of weed in certain parts of the world and the information that says its absolutely fine it’s not even worth the fucking risk.

  • @moneylove2487
    @moneylove2487 2 роки тому +1

    You welcome for the 1k subscriber!, vinnnie paz is a beast and a huge role model to me!

  • @jazlynbell8202
    @jazlynbell8202 7 років тому +4

    I have Dp/Dr. I don't like rap or hiphop, but this is the only guy I will listen to.

    • @williamsastard8830
      @williamsastard8830 5 років тому

      Alexis Bell you're missing out on artists like him,
      eyedea - here for you
      Brother Ali - own light
      Atmosphere - last to say

  • @TheGhjgjgjgjgjg
    @TheGhjgjgjgjgjg 7 років тому +5

    I had this growing up,it would come and go in small 30 minute breaks.Then when I was 22 I smoked salvia and it became REALLY bad for 2 weeks.Everyone noticed something was seriously wrong,4 years later it is a lot better but I think it will be permanently worse then it ever was because of that.

    • @davidsloan8585
      @davidsloan8585 6 років тому +1

      You ever do DMT?

    • @LorD3able
      @LorD3able 3 роки тому +1

      @@davidsloan8585 have you tried dmt?

    • @davidsloan8585
      @davidsloan8585 3 роки тому

      @@LorD3able indeed. Twice

    • @LorD3able
      @LorD3able 3 роки тому

      @@davidsloan8585 Have you took dmt before dpdr or after you got dpdr? Could you share some of your experiences regarding it? Did you had any entity who explained you or gave you tips in order to fight the dpdr disorder?

  • @coloradomadeplayboy4358
    @coloradomadeplayboy4358 6 років тому +1

    I've had this for 20 years I never knew what it was til last year in a song by logic it was about anxiety but I heard a word derealization depersonalization can't remember what one but I googled it too and tripped out how many people go threw it it's so crazy

  • @lolarules.62
    @lolarules.62 3 роки тому +2

    i grew up with schizophrenia, which was pretty horrible :(

  • @flynn8148
    @flynn8148 7 років тому +7

    Had this it does go away

    • @lillyoliver7317
      @lillyoliver7317 7 років тому

      Flynn814 hi can u tell me how u got it and how it left you?

    • @flynn8148
      @flynn8148 7 років тому +5

      I got it from smoking marijuana, it just takes time and if you have any bad habits like drinking alcohol , drugs , bad eating habits anything that you can think of stop immediately, for me once I quit drinking within a couple months I came out of the fog.

    • @lillyoliver7317
      @lillyoliver7317 7 років тому

      Flynn814 what were your symptoms?? I've been dealing with fear of objects just about anything scares me i feel like mine are soo horrible I get scared that i might not make if out and mines from weed two....

    • @flynn8148
      @flynn8148 7 років тому +5

      I was scared of people and objects too I also couldn't look up at the stars with out freaking out I was always having panic attacks

    • @lillyoliver7317
      @lillyoliver7317 7 років тому

      Flynn814 omg I've been thinking​ i was crazy for so long. Did u ever get paranoia? Sorry i dont wanna bother u i just have noone to talk to about​ it this.

  • @lzsszz1006
    @lzsszz1006 6 років тому

    He talks from my soul man

  • @BugzBunnyKiD-jr7kg
    @BugzBunnyKiD-jr7kg 6 років тому +1

    Thank you so much. I've had it for so many fucking years and like so much other crazy shit. Like 7-10 years idk. I give up so much and try to "leave" . Like dude do y'all know how much it sucks forcing yourself to live? I wish somebody would tell me it's ok and they wouldn't cry. But it's whatever and I ain't gonna do nothing .peace

  • @terra_h4429
    @terra_h4429 7 років тому +26

    depersonalization is a symptom of high levels of anxiety. if you google ' the linden method' that shit most likely saved my life a few years ago. i'm sure it can help other people, too.

    • @jeffrey322
      @jeffrey322 5 років тому +7

      50 + years for me. There is no cure. It's like a pandora's box: Once you've seen it, you can never forget it. It's like a life sentence.

    • @HandleBarz89
      @HandleBarz89 5 років тому +22

      Jeffrey Cella that’s a compete and utter lie man. Don’t destroy people’s hopes like that. There’s been plenty of people who have recovered you just have to know how. Go check out Anxiety Ninja’s channel. He’s helped me partially recover.

    • @AnimeRaindrop
      @AnimeRaindrop 5 років тому +2

      Jeffrey Cella this is why i gotta stop researching, thats some scary shit you typed 4 months ago

    • @bigjohnson9606
      @bigjohnson9606 4 роки тому

      @@jeffrey322 Agreed I've had it 20 years

    • @alexanderhlebino
      @alexanderhlebino 4 роки тому +1

      i have it 25000 years ;)

  • @TheOnionMonkey
    @TheOnionMonkey 3 роки тому +1

    It can go away, for me sometimes it goes away, I hope that one day it never comes back.
    You can get better,
    I would strongly reccomend taking a break from drugs, especially psychedelic drugs from weed to DMT, at least for a week, I'm sure that it would help you to have a clearer mind

    • @oBlvd
      @oBlvd Рік тому

      💯💯

  • @psychodelic1457
    @psychodelic1457 4 роки тому

    I feel this hard right now

  • @finalboss8514
    @finalboss8514 2 роки тому

    why does it mute around 7:30?

  • @2010balancingact
    @2010balancingact 7 років тому +9

    I'm bipolar so I know exactly what you feel brother.

  • @brnsktingdieskting18
    @brnsktingdieskting18 8 років тому +8

    holy shit I never knew this. reminds me about when I was going through shit. makes sense now.

  • @soto7774
    @soto7774 5 років тому +1

    Me too vinnie P

  • @bigboxer2
    @bigboxer2 4 роки тому +1

    crazy vinnie goes through this

  • @BillyJack85
    @BillyJack85 5 років тому +1

    I been thinking for a while I'm just acting out life from within a mental hospital with doctors watching me thru a 2 way mirror. Dont do drugs kids

  • @hmidetooelabed9312
    @hmidetooelabed9312 6 років тому +4

    Please song's name 0:20

  • @TheModernHermeticist
    @TheModernHermeticist 7 років тому

    that explains some things

  • @daneg007
    @daneg007 3 роки тому

    that was great.

  • @romeo112707
    @romeo112707 7 років тому +8

    I sometimes think I'm in a movie and everybody else in the world is just a supporting character in my story.. Like I'm the only one whose actually real... it's weird

    • @MrJypsye
      @MrJypsye 7 років тому

      Roman Plays i hate that feeling

    • @loveandprogression
      @loveandprogression 6 років тому +1

      I hate it too .. it's essentially the brain dreaming I see it as the so much focused energy mixed with a vivid imagination it's like falling into a mini nightmare .. What's helped alot is really trying to relax my eyes and almost try and experience the world as if my who body was were energy flows into .. the brain relives the trauma you're going through and the eyes are straining to follow the trail of thoughts .. the key is to feel your body and realign your energy system .. I feel like dp/dr is essentially a major feedback loop , a processing error where the somatosensory input is not being integrated with the visual and auditory systems creating glitches in perception.. in a sense the energy of the enviorment is not smoothly communicating with your own energy system.. the blockage is occurring through the tremendous obsession of feeling and it's meaning.. the mind must be able to flow with the stream of the universal conscious experience we are all dancing with... so in short.. find a way to become immediate and spontaneous to the core again . . Learn to think with a different part of your self ... the ancient Intelligence that is always there if we would just stop getting out of our way to force our conscious experience into the framework we desire instead of learning how to become insync with the enviorment and have no mind at all.. just a strong vibration that is you expressing yourself at the deepest level .. the you that has a vital part in this dance with the universe.. we must find the child inside and make him believe he's ready for anything , we must always be stoic in the face of nature for it shapes us with every gust of wind

    • @brentfaut5916
      @brentfaut5916 4 роки тому +1

      solipsism

  • @Decarded
    @Decarded 5 місяців тому

    Smoking weed daily since I was 15 I’m 19 now and I’m prolly fucked but whatever I just smoke more weed right

  • @72ndHUMAN
    @72ndHUMAN 7 років тому +1

    Isolation Station 🤔

  • @asomareddy
    @asomareddy Рік тому

    It’s just dust.