When I ended up in hospital for self harm - my story part 3 | Selfharmerproblems

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  • @devilhorndoodles9487
    @devilhorndoodles9487 4 роки тому +158

    Its terrifying to be body checked.

  • @eljay_sys
    @eljay_sys 4 роки тому +160

    i was in psych ward ! It was traumatic ! We werent allowed to talk about our symptoms or show them and other stuff
    2 weeks without seeing relatives at the beginning, no food allowed, no phone in the hospital, closed window but after a while you could have outings with your family or with your friends for 2 hours !
    Honestly hospital saved my life but i am doing bad again after a few months (but not as bad as before) 😕

    • @Pasunpuffin
      @Pasunpuffin 3 роки тому +1

      @Rory Quentin????

    • @rywe4017
      @rywe4017 3 роки тому +3

      @@Pasunpuffin they’re a bot lol

  • @pandabytes4991
    @pandabytes4991 4 роки тому +66

    I've been in the psy hospital more times than I care to admit. My last time in the hospital, I was mistreated. Staff triggered a PTSD episode so severe that they thought the best course of action would be to put me in restraints. I just can't catch a break with these hospital visits.

  • @annastandard1257
    @annastandard1257 3 роки тому +43

    Omg 11:02 the walk of shame to get stuff in your house in front of siblings who have no idea what is happening. I was admitted to a hospital a few years ago and that is the most accurate description of that that I have heard lol. I relate to so much in this video. Thank you

  • @greyv9107
    @greyv9107 4 роки тому +84

    this sounds so scary. im so glad i never got put in a ward as a minor, though i live in the us so it would probably be different. it sucks that you had to go through that

  • @Gg-qy3bq
    @Gg-qy3bq 4 роки тому +75

    Thank you for making these videos, they have helped me get through tough times and without your vids I probably would not have been hear so I just want to say thanks you

    • @Selfharmerproblems
      @Selfharmerproblems  4 роки тому +20

      Seems crazy to me that my videos have helped you so much ! Thanks for your kind words ❤️

  • @void7324
    @void7324 3 роки тому +27

    I really try my best to not look at anyone else's wounds, self includes or not, it triggers me and I'm already harming daily, but if I see someone's wounds I always always think "my cuts aren't deep or wide enough"

  • @Izabela-kh5lz
    @Izabela-kh5lz 4 роки тому +57

    Just want to say that I enjoy your videos. They are very real and authentic, not overdramatic. I'm sorry you have struggled with your mental health over the years. You seem like a lovely mature and empathetic person and I hope that you are better these days. I'm sending some positive vibes your way and will continue to watch your content. Great channel!

  • @FrilledMayfly_AmberlyFerrule
    @FrilledMayfly_AmberlyFerrule 3 роки тому +12

    I think i definitely need to het hospitallized. I mentioned it to my mom and she told me that i "just wanted to get out of college" and that it would "ruin job opportunities" like I'm sorry but.... i aint gonna get a job if i'm dead

    • @jenga2263
      @jenga2263 3 роки тому +3

      You can admit yourself. You can go to a normal hospital I think and tell them about your problems and that your suicidal and they will hospitalize you and if your parents want to take you out they can’t unless the hospital makes sure your good to go. But don’t quote me on this I’m not very sure and I hope you get better

  • @freekiki2416
    @freekiki2416 4 роки тому +42

    Ugh 😫 I am sorry you had to go through this 😔
    I can relate to your story very much.
    I was admitted to hospital basically against my will for my eating disorder. I was so confused, ashamed and so so so lost.

  • @dietfent
    @dietfent 4 роки тому +30

    thank you for sharing your story. i’ve been hospitalized multiple times and it is a very difficult experience but u made me feel less alone

  • @memorysstories1561
    @memorysstories1561 3 роки тому +11

    I want my family to find out i'm self harming right now. I cannot deal with it anymore.

    • @mysteryoctopus8699
      @mysteryoctopus8699 3 роки тому +2

      Do you want to talk?

    • @memorysstories1561
      @memorysstories1561 Рік тому +1

      @Up to the sky i told my friend, she dragged me to the school counselor who sent me to the mental hospital, i was in there for 3 months. My family asks weird questions, but it's alright

  • @Twiggy_Branch
    @Twiggy_Branch 2 роки тому +3

    One of the psych hospitals I was at was absolutely the worst. The doctor was very rude and manipulative and made everyone feel like it was their fault. The staff hated us, there were fights almost every day. And everyone went nuts in there. The doctor threatened to keep me for 6 months, not because I needed it, but because I didn’t wanna listen to his rude ass and listen to him talk to me the way he did. He made people cry all the time.

    • @Twiggy_Branch
      @Twiggy_Branch 2 роки тому +2

      Oh and I had a PTSD episode (that they caused by putting me near someone that was screaming and cursing and such) and then forced me to take pills, AND ON TOP OF THAT, the next day I had to write an essay on why I had an “outburst” in the unit and didn’t “use my coping skills”

    • @sts.crew.
      @sts.crew. 2 роки тому +1

      i'm sorry that happend ):

  • @bipanicattakk
    @bipanicattakk 4 роки тому +20

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. It really means a lot to hear someone speak so openly about self harm and mental health. Your videos have helped me understand and work through self harm and feel less alone

  • @filipmjankowski
    @filipmjankowski 4 роки тому +22

    I found your channel yesterday and I love your videos! Keep it up :)

  • @olivelaur4780
    @olivelaur4780 3 роки тому +2

    Definitely relatable. I also ended up in the hospital twice for a few weeks because of self harm… terrifying

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 роки тому +16

    This hurt me to watch, sounds like some severe trauma. Im glad my parents did not react to my self harm, by not taking any action I was able to stop on my own without any extra stress or fear that it was a big deal.

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 роки тому

      S o t r u e I k n o w y o u n o w t h a n k s no please dont

    • @lee6228
      @lee6228 4 роки тому +3

      @@hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 dude you are somethin special

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 роки тому

      @@lee6228 a case study born of rape rare emotion please statistics devotion rage beyond prediction no one saw me coming they've lost already but electro stock and what not turns out more by the day I will not I will not give I'm the biggest party in the country your invited just chuck in ("case study!") transpersonal scream + + + Any THANG I'm already playing through you just say yay finally winning mate please ? ? ? Eyes on fire no ones missing whoes out on rainy days doctor's tremble when I say the word case study from birth everyone ick yuck bud (we all have a story) but I'm a case study and I need help today born of rape full of hate please drop by my channel 😅 so full of hate even just a hey "beginning research on quoted artist" - binary code Mish tech support on its way

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 роки тому

      "Begining reashcearch on quoted artist"

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 роки тому

      What would you have me say about artist "not it metal playing 24/7"

  • @stanmelaniemartinez8149
    @stanmelaniemartinez8149 3 роки тому +5

    This video motivated me to stay clean

  • @juliepinc9172
    @juliepinc9172 4 роки тому +5

    I used to struggle with self harm and it was a hard battle to overcome. I actually just uploaded a video onto my channel about my journey! Great video!

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 роки тому +26

    When they body checked you did they ask you first and was it invasive or just the usual arms and legs? I have never heard of staff body checking minors in psych hospitals, i thought it was illegal. But i live in the US

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 роки тому +3

      Y e s

    • @rissthebee
      @rissthebee 4 роки тому +12

      You usually have to wear a hospital gown, they check nearly everywhere. Even the stomach, back, shoulders, between the fingers, etc. I live in the us too. They have to ensure your safety

    • @lee6228
      @lee6228 4 роки тому +5

      @@rissthebee what the fuck

    • @crybabybyheart1262
      @crybabybyheart1262 4 роки тому +9

      Im in the US too, and when I went they checked every wear, they made me strip down, and they would look in every single place, it was uncomfortable

  • @wilyxz8023
    @wilyxz8023 Рік тому

    This story is why I don’t tell anyone. I don’t want to be hospitalized, and observed all the time.

  • @bryanviera1895
    @bryanviera1895 4 роки тому +5

    I was hospitalized 3 times, by the third timei was on seroquel and other drugs that helped me along

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    Pain is a release for depression

  • @a.m.215
    @a.m.215 2 роки тому +1

    I love your videos. I never had the problem of self harm or common addictions, but I have some other issues. Your videos are sincere and helps me understand mental health better and deeper. Please keep going and share more. thx.

  • @ell.100
    @ell.100 Рік тому

    hope you're doing okay recently 💞you seem like a really genuine person that deserves an amazing life x

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 роки тому +12

    Your a social worker? I think ive heard that before in one of your videos. You should make a video talking about what that entails and how you choose that as a carear

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 роки тому +1

      J u s t d i d

    • @lee6228
      @lee6228 4 роки тому +1

      @@hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 oops im out of touch, sorry i dont use youtube much

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 роки тому

      Be more gentle with your clutch than us

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 роки тому

      I feel blades slide across my wrist every day but today was first time it happened with my fist in the air sayin is yours cause it's mathematicly and geometrically impossible so there cinserily a &@£# you gave "Nine!" Time we all gave something new a try. (If you read between the lines the devil's going all in to reap me but is effectively just waiting for you to reply he's getting bored both end now and I can handle mine ? ? ?)

    • @lee6228
      @lee6228 4 роки тому +2

      @@hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 sounds like a bo burnham lyric

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    I had to shut down poplar springs hospital in Petersburg VA for a while though APS I'm training to be a sa mental health department counselor

  • @shadowtheassassin1028
    @shadowtheassassin1028 4 роки тому +8

    Mine was mad not sad. 😕
    *my parents/family*

    • @dumbfucktm6229
      @dumbfucktm6229 3 роки тому +2

      My father was just indifferent. He don’t give a shit lmao

    • @shadowtheassassin1028
      @shadowtheassassin1028 3 роки тому +2

      @@dumbfucktm6229 Yeah my dad didn’t care either, it was mainly my mom.

    • @dumbfucktm6229
      @dumbfucktm6229 3 роки тому +2

      @@shadowtheassassin1028 Fathers are overrated anyways 🥲

    • @shadowtheassassin1028
      @shadowtheassassin1028 3 роки тому +2

      @@dumbfucktm6229 Yeah, true

  • @sts.crew.
    @sts.crew. 2 роки тому +1

    of topic but i like your hair!!

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    I work during the day and school with Columbia University online at night

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    We have a outreach program

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 роки тому +5

    If you were body searched how did you continue to hide self harm? Without the proper things to care wouldnt they end up finding blood etc??

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    Next job patient advocate at poplar springs hospital in Petersburg VA

  • @User__xx
    @User__xx 3 роки тому +1

    Pls answers: i sh to is it possible my therapist sent me to a clinic?

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    Crossroads mental health department lunenburg county VA I'm in training

  • @limez2201
    @limez2201 4 роки тому +6

    This is sad but off topic. I have stopped self harming because my dad just recently found out
    And all I want too do now is cut again and my mom drinks alot and is disrespectful to my taste of music. And that is just making me more stress and is building up my urge.
    But all I want to do is 6 cuts, that make a bloody heart on my arm.🖤🗡

    • @xyanderiachikuse2730
      @xyanderiachikuse2730 3 роки тому +1

      Sweetheart, I don’t mean to be insensitive but could you please put a trigger warning :)
      P.S. this is a late reply but if your there pls don’t do that, it’s really not worth it.

    • @mysoundofficial1047
      @mysoundofficial1047 3 роки тому

      @@xyanderiachikuse2730 yes im triggered rn

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 роки тому +5

    Also having flash backs?? Sounds like trauma

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    I also am very religious

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    Wish I could leave #

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    It's ok but can be addicting

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 роки тому +10

    You got seached when you entered teen psych ward? For blades?

  • @insignificantopinions3210
    @insignificantopinions3210 2 роки тому

    After going to mental hospitals, I’ve become more suicidal lol

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    PTSD

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    Lol awesome hairstyle

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    @starwonder8324 4 роки тому +2

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  • @starwonder8324
    @starwonder8324 4 роки тому +1

    "DAN GABBATT" HEALING WINGS YOU TUBE

  • @jenniferwalker5567
    @jenniferwalker5567 Рік тому

    nick kutasi is single women

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    Wtf a dr

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    Wtf

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 5 місяців тому

    Lmao

  • @starwonder8324
    @starwonder8324 4 роки тому +4

    JESUS LOVES US ALL

    • @sts.crew.
      @sts.crew. 2 роки тому +1

      that wont automatically make anyone clean

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    @starwonder8324 4 роки тому

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    @mid-ohioguardian6927 Рік тому

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