And finally when you get to feel something for yourself its when you realize they might not love you back anymore or they never did to begin with. Its hard
That awkward moment when you think you're important to someone, and you're not. (EDIT: It has been 5 years since I commented this, and it was just a quote I saw online. Wow! I just wanted to say to anyone who is struggling, please do not give up. Your life is so much more important than you will ever know. Over the years, I have gotten a lot better, and realized my worth. I will not lie, depression is still a struggle, but I promise you, things get better, please don’t give up. 🖤)
people saying "cringe" in the comments to others who are pouring their hearts and life stories out there shows exactly how much compassion we've lost as a society for one another
It’s not that, it’s all the people who claim they’re going through depression, but it’s all the same stuff. All these people talking about abusive parents, self harm, and they always sound so... droning. On and on and on they talk and talk and talk. But it sounds so fake. Some people are actually suffering from depression and can’t express themselves without being calling a fake because no one can tell the difference anymore
@@Bee-fu9uz I mean ur right bc we r all misunderstood, but it doesn't make the right to think we r fake, I'm not ganna tell my story tho I keep that personal. But just a heads up, listen to their stories, see how hurt they r, be in their shoes! Just... Listen and u will understand, listen and u can hear their cry, listen and u can feel their pain, just listen and think how horrible our relationship as a society was and what it has become... Look for the details, hear for our silent screams, and just think...
Oh I have. I’m part of the gacha community That means posting or watching a sad mini movie or music video and then have to listen to all the people saying they’re going through depression. And it’s all the same stuff. Some people lie about abusive parents, and abusive partners, etc... it’s sad, because now, I’m here talking about it, and people are soon going to be mad at me for “ignoring” depression While I believe it is real and should be taken seriously, there are too many people out there who think they’re depressed
@@Bee-fu9uz I mean I totally agree that it should be taken seriously and that people should actually think about it deeply to see if they r actually in depression or if they r lying to themselves. But things about abusive parents aren't fake ok, I even had an abusive Dad who even shot a man bc he was so drunk! I'm also apart of the gatcha community and some might just be based off a movie they saw or just a mini movie they just wanted to make and some r real u can tell if they r real or not so watch out for that ok but maybe if u think those things just keep em to urself so u don't get people mad at u... Ok?
It’s Just Aimee why would someone randomly comment their fake traumas on a youtube video? childhood trauma and depression is way more common than you’d think. sometimes people who have dealt with those things flock to certain videos to communicate things they otherwise couldn’t say irl. it’s very unfair of you to just assume that most people are faking.
the moment when your own loving family doesn’t realize that you really are dying slowly..but you stand there in front of them, scratching away your life slowly.
try telling someone minor details reveal what you are feeling slowly. let one of closest family members or friend be your medicine. tell them gradually you dont have to tell them all at once go at your own pace
@@shyla9062 because it's a public platform and they thought people might relate. Does it really matter? You shouldn't comment just to start arguments or post opinions nobody asked for :)
Coming back to this song gives me chills. Last time I heard it, I was 15 and suicidal. I’m now 19, moved out of the shitty state I lived in, and starting my second year of college. Things get better, they really do. It takes time and that time is worth waiting for.
When I was at the peak of my depression, I used to stay up all night in the darkness. Doing absolutely nothing. Then at dawn, when the sky would turn orange I would play this song and think inspite of life being so beautiful, why couldn't I learn to be happy?
Bro I feel you. I remember just staring at the ceiling and watching it grow dark, even though I’m scared of the dark, I would never turn on the lights cuz I was waiting for the monsters to take me away. This was one of the song I’d listen to for hours on end and just stare
i feel this though, there are so many nights where i just can’t bring myself to sleep. i just feel so empty i can’t do it and i’ll sit in my windowsill looking out at the streetlights until morning
Tired Idiosyncratic Cat seriously, lol. fuck you honestly just fuck you, stating the clear obvious that i do not want too read or hear, joys of life man. itll be nice, too have a beer with you.
DrStarfucker you think I havent done that ive done everything I can do you think I want this shit to happen to me no I don't but thanks for putting your FUCKING opinion that I don't give a FUCK about☺
Dear Riley, Please don't leave me. Dear Amanda, Please don't leave me. Dear my dad, Please don't leave me. Dear my sister, Please don't leave me. Dear Brianna, Please don't leave me. Dear Micah, Please don't leave me. Dear Taylor, Please don't leave me. Dear Chris, Please don't leave me. Dear Amelia, Please don't leave me. Dear Ashton, Please don't leave me. Dear Ainsley, Please don't leave me. Dear Amber, Please don't leave me. Dear Avery, Please don't leave me. Dear Mrs. K, Why did you have to go? Dear Cynthia, Why did you have to go? Dear Da Tesha, Why did you have to go? Dear Emma, Why did you have to go? Dear Pappy, Why did you have to go? Dear Aunt Robin, Why did you have to go? These people either left me, died, are dying, or might leave me. ❤❤❤ I love you all, and for those of you who are still with me, please don't go! I don't want to loose anyone else. ❤❤❤
@@mikayla3766 She's one of the strongest people I know. Life's gonna have to put up a good, long fight if it wants to take her down. ( : I'm thankful to have such a courageous and caring mother in my life! She truly is someone I love and hope to be like one day! ❤🙂❤
I want you guys to know that no matter what you are going through right now please don't leave us, you are far too precious and someone out there in this big world needs you, whether it's in the future or now. Stay strong beautiful, because we love and need you here❤
This song reminds me of my brother. He’s a drug addict and when it says “you’ve got a beautiful brain but it’s disintegrated from all the medicine” it hits a bit different. It’s crazy how a song can hit so close to home and mean something different to every person.
@UCHbXDlUUTkeSJ98GS8_5lQQ same here, I get cravings sometimes but songs like this help me stay on the good path. There is help if you look for it, remember who you are, and when it gets better, always remember where you came from and how far you've come. Love yourself and be good to others, remember that there is a place for you in the world.
I hope your brother got clean,I'm four months sober from fentanyl praying my kids dad gets sober. This song always reminds me of him,I didn't know 10 years later this song would mean so much to me
my first ever kiss & boyfriend ended up being someone who was at one point my best friend years later. he taught me a lot and was one of the most unique, special people i know. he slowly but surely got way more into harder drugs at the age of 17. percocet, molly, coke, xanax, you name it. even if we had drifted apart slightly at this point, i knew he didn’t do it to be cool, he did it to escape. drugs and music were his medicine quite frankly. november 27th, 2018 he decided to take his life. i miss him so fucking much. all i can think of is how much i regret letting myself drift away from him and not help him get clean. both him and i didn’t necessarily believe in an afterlife, but with any sort of luck in the universe i hope he’s in a place where he’s happy and finally at peace & knows how much we all loved him. we miss you ethan. love you man❣️
Don't blame yourself you can't help someone get clean it's impossible I am currently trying everything it's there choice don't blame yourself and be proud you didn't sink into it to like me
Im so sorry for your loss, it must have felt really terrible losing someone to those pills , esecially knowing they did it to escape from what they're struggling 😭😭
To anyone else who digs their fingernails into their skin just so they can feel, to anyone who folds into their self and cries because no one else seems to understand, to the people like me, out there, looking for someone like them. I hope someone finds you. And saves you. Because boy do we all need saving. Trying so hard for so long to save everyone else from the imploding bomb that is us. Save us please. Thank you.
JediGeneral B Yes. We do need saving. But no ones going to save us and risk getting themselves trapped too. Life is just one big mess nowadays. We NEED to save EACH OTHER. Because soon, it's going to be too late for us. Stay strong angel x
im sitting at my window right now wondering when am i gonna change when am i going to find drugs to make me happier for a moment or find true happiness authentically i dont know but i do right now this very second i am waiting patiently and will continue to sometimes i wake up and dont know if i should even get up, but i do and things seem to feel a lil better almost as if me living in my head isnt all i feel there's definitely a part of me that wants to be here but doesnt know to show it
I love how the comment section is full of people telling their stories. Even though I don’t have a very meaningful story, I will still tell it because I know that this comment section is full of people who will care. When I was born, my parents were drug addicts and weren’t ready for a baby. They really weren’t. So they didn’t treat me well. I was abused and neglected. I don’t remember anything from that time (thank the lord) but my mom tells me stories from then. My connection with my new mother is special. She is my cousin. Our connection is extra special. I am actually related to her. Its hard to think about the past that I lived in. I no longer have contact with my real mother. I would like to meet her to show her how much of a good person I have grown up to be, but not for a while. Honestly I dont blame my parents. Yes, they could be better prepared. Yes, they could've been better parents. I dont blame them. Im so happy that I am with the family that I am now. The reason why I am in a safe, loving, and caring environment now is because of my birth mother. She acknowledged that she wasn't fit to be a mother, so she gave me up. Like I said, my mother now tells me stories about my childhood. When I first came to my family, I wasn't used to being able to cry. I used to not cry because I would get beaten if I did. Its awfully sad. I am so happy and lucky that I am in a safe place now. If you are going through anything sad or horrible just know that you are loved. I care about you. No matter who you are. I dont think there are bad people, just people who do bad things
Listening to this at 00:24 after having the most wholesome conversation about my dad giving me reasons to stay. To anyone who reads this, you're not alone. I am so incredibly proud of every single one of you. You're all valid and important.
my brother introduced me to daughter when i was a freshman in high school and medicine was one of the ones i always remembered. tonight it showed up on my shuffled songs for the first time in a long time now 8 years later. 3 years after my brother introduced me to this song his substance addictions became so apparent & unavoidable. he was using everything it seemed. he went in & out of rehab 4 times. he tried to committ suicide. he lied to me about using. i lost my relationship with him. he’s currently doing well it seems & i am reforming my relationship with him day by day. this song was almost a prediction, but it embodies my past 5 years of my relationship with my brother. it brings me peace. thank you for your gift of this song. it truly means the world to me.
@@r0830 thank you for listening & for your empathy. i cry every time i hear this song. my brother came home for the first time in 5 years. & although i know it may all come crashing down any second. its almost feels okay again.
@@agustinamansur5665 awh thank you i think i’ve finally come to terms with the fact that he may never stop relapsing but i want him in my life nonetheless. i hope everything between you & your brother is well also
My best friend got into a car crash, she ended up in the hospital... After she went into a coma for 6 years I almost gave up, then I heard this song. I learned all the lyrics and I sang it to her, three weeks later she woke up and got to go home. I am truly great full that God said it was not her time to leave this planet.
Don't forget that you can always try again! Dont give up, dont lose hope, and those who are strong and determined can pass the boss fight, depression. Hope you beat that level! :)
I'm not depressed. I'm not unhappy. I've never been in a relationship so I don't know the pain of heartbreak. But I listen to these types of songs because I like to write fanfiction/original fiction, and it helps me get into the mood and tone of the story. Daughter is amazing and I am trying to find all her best songs to listen to while I write
+barbaro267 it's definitely a good song to drive to! a good band I listen to for inspiration in writing is mumford and sons. They tend to have lyrics that tell stories well, as well as portray just about any mood you could want.
Dear Lora. We lost you to the medicine. It’s okay. I know you didn’t mean it. I know all you wanted in your life was for your children to have a good life, and be happy, but you weren’t happy. You didn’t have to stay with a man who made you unhappy. You didn’t have to drink that night. You didn’t have to take a pill that night. A pill you knew you shouldn’t take. I never thought I’d be attending your funeral. A year later, we all miss you. I’m sorry. I’m sorry you’re gone and now your kids are sad because they miss you. I’m sorry your youngest son will never remember his mother, her voice and her smell. I’m sorry that over time I will forget a lot about you. I’m sorry I forgot your voice. You’re my second mother, Rest beautifully dear. :(
@@travischristian9134 acceptance. They'll always be there, lurking, but it's how you let them effect you is the difference. Thoughts are just thoughts at the end of the day. Meditate, learn to recognize them, and learn to let them float by and live in the present.
At 11 I started feeling sad and down all the time, and I couldn’t really figure out why other than some mean girls at home. At 12 my mom made me talk to a psychologist and I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Later that year I cut for the first time and my parents took me back to the psychologist. It didn’t help. I was told I was suffering from severe depression and put on 100 mg of meds per day. I never take them. I don’t feel like it. 13, and I have suicidal thoughts. I don’t tell my parents, and I proceed to keep cutting. They found out and simply put me down for it and gave up trying to actually help. And here I am at 14, and just numb. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m one month clean. I wish it could stay that way. And that’s it. Update: I’m actually sobbing right now after having a breakdown then reading all of these comments. I relapsed in January but I’m currently 5 months and 3 days clean. I always come back to these comments when I feel like giving up because I know some people care. Thank you. update again: i relapsed. i’m crushed. i hope i can do better. my family is just so toxic. i guess there will be bumps in the road :/ update: my sister threatened me saying she was going to shoot us both. She said if she kills herself, which she wants to, it would be my fault. I don’t know what to do. I feel so lost. I don’t want to deal with this anymore. I forgave her, but inside I don’t think I am every really forget. she does this a lot. she has OCD and BPD. I try so hard to take the things she throws at me, but it’s getting to be too much
NEVER give up because there is so much more to live for my situation is kinda the same but I haven’t given up yes I am suicidal and yes I used to cut and yes I still feel numb like for instance at my grandmas funeral I didn’t cry because that’s how numb I was but I never gave up not once and baby girl ik you can do it too ♥️♥️♥️♥️x
Just going to tell u something i really respect u and what u said some people in the comments just dont get what people have been through and for u to tell people is one of the bravest things to do because people can put u down and i think if someone does that then ignore them because they dont deserve ur opinion
First time ever hearing this full song. I have two boys with the woman of my dreams. Money is hard. Everyday we struggle but our love saves all of us. Lately pressure and struggling have been slowly killing me. I started drinking. A LOT. My Medicine. This song is like a letter from my family. Its time to stop drinking and get better medicine. My boys need a healthy dad. My girl needs a strong husband. Im sorry for dragging you guys behind booze. Im sorry about my medicine.
Years ago when I was 12 I used to listen to this song religiously when I was alone at night crying. I was dealing with anorexia, losing friends from isolating myself, bullying, daily arguments with my family and “best friend”, my grades dropped, the one of the few people I had left close to me die and such. I felt it was worthless. In February I planned to kill myself in may if I didn’t get better as it been going on for 4 years then and said f it all as I would be dead. I stopped caring and there slowly threw everything I knew and did away. I was planning my letters out and I would drink to cope with everything around then, whether that was alone in my room or in the school day. Things finally were going better in may that I felt if I pushed longer that I would regret considering suicide. Everything got better and Just last week I finally put a quit to drinking as I no longer felt the need for it anymore and want to put an end before it led to addiction as I’ll soon have full access to alcohol. I also have a new amazing group of friends who make me want to get up in the morning on my bad days. I may still deal with things every now and then but Im happy and want to experience life. Im 17 now and I just want to share my story to others, just like people did years ago did of their recovery in the comments to give people that glimmer of hope or show that people out here understand and know your pain. if you ever need to talk I’m here :)
Ok so the mirror is my worst nightmare because there’s no chance to hide the truth of my emotions It reflects my emotions and i can’t see myself cry And can’t see myself anyways I hate myself and I hate what a mirror shows me😴
I lost my mom to drugs and this song always makes be cry. She chose medicine over her family. Seeing her downfall hurt my soul so much. I miss you ma. Mental health and addiction is not a kind beast. It’s been years since she’s passed but I wake everyday wanting to end my life. Please hug your loved ones.
i am so sorry for your loss. please stay safe and take care of yourself. i might be just a random stranger on the internet but i sincerely do care. sending you lots of love and hugs.
I hope you heal and find happiness within yourself someday. Life is unfair and unkind sometimes. But you are worthy to live it, dance in the rain, meet new people, listen to your favorite music, etc. Keep fighting angel!❤️
This song reminds me of how far addiction drove me away from who I was as a person. Nice charming smart hardworking caring. Until the day i started chasing a dream that only exist in another world. It is a long hard road back ,But anything is possible just never forget who you really are.Remember love is all that really matters.
+Jason Jewell RESPECT. Sometimes, the best people have been through the most shit to last 4 life times and they STILL come back to reality and get on with their lives and pursue what makes them happy! I hope you do well in life!
Listen this dude, another world by electus..... all of his stuff is good especially peace of mind and kingdom of lions.... but trust me this would help you and everybody else get through your hard time
Listen this dude, another world by electus..... all of his stuff is good especially peace of mind and kingdom of lions.... but trust me this would help you and everybody else get through your hard time
I actually can't cry, I haven't cried for at least a year. I've just been numb, like a cold and dark attic where everything is dusted over. I still feel sad though. Anyone else or just me..?
when i woke up this song js played and im replaying it bc its beautiful her voice and the meaning of the song is beautiful, im so sorry for the ppl who have lost loved ones or ppl who are going through a break up or abuse or abusive parents and depression im gonna pray for all of you, this song may be 12 yrs old and im 14 yrs old in 2024. Dear Lord, i pray that every single one of these people in the comments and outside of these comments find what they're looking for in life, i pray that whatever that's happening to them you are watching over. Lord many people are struggling in your world of creation and im so sorry few people don't realize how amazing you are and haven't found you yet. I pray for all the broken hearted to be healed and all the depressed ones and ones who have lost they re loved ones and the ones fighting in the wars for us, i pray for the homeless and the patients in the hospital fighting they're lives to be here. I pray for the elder i pray for the youth i pray that you show all of us who you really are because i know everyone needs you in your live just as well as I do. I pray for all the ones who are feeling as if they need to harm themselves or end they're lives. I pray for all the people who did die in the wars fighting for us, the children and parents who have killed themselves due to bullying, I pray you just heal this world and the people in it. Lord thank you for all that you have done for us I pray that everyone realizes the things you do is for a reason, you are not here to harm us you are here to love and forgive us for our sins that we make. Thank you lord for everything and for waking every single one of us in the mornings in Jesus name Amen. ❤
Dear person reading this, I hope your day has been going well, if not, I hope it gets better You are an amazing person who will inspire others to do great things so keep up the hard work. I know you may feel unimportant or insecure at the moment but know that you are a beautiful human being inside and out and you are important! Sometimes we just need such a message! I hope this comment helped you a bit and if not, I'm sorry Sincerely, Me, a fellow fallen angel.
A rap beat brought me here. I like this song alot. This song is for my Uncle. He was robbed of who he used to be but he doesn't see he is still my Uncle. I love you. I always will. I have a bike now. I'm waiting for you so we can ride like we talked about. I miss you.
Do you know that deep deep feeling if disconnect from your self? Have you ever hated ur self soo much that you just wanted to rip your own face from your skull. that no pain however severe was not enough. Have you ever been so full of hatred for the world abd yourself that you could almost feel the fire burning inside you. have you ever felt so alone that a full room seems empty, have you ever hated yourself so much that you just wanted to scream as loud as you could, because you couldnt hurt yourself enough? Thats me, and I know im not alone. this is for all the freaks like me out there. who feel like this world is to big for them, that they do not belong. that no one loves them or that they are broken beyond repair. you are not freaks - You can be fixed, and you are loved. if not by anyone in your life then by me! even if we've never met, how can you not have love for a broken soul. I am still lost and alone, even tho im engaged and have a nice family. Its like im a computer missing key components. I see the world around me, and it feels strange and cold. this is all a mess, i know, just like my mind. but if any of this ramble made any sense to you, if it somehow resonated with you, even if it is a mess. come find me, lets all put an end to freaks like us feeling wrong and fucked up.
The messed up thing is that being messed up is what makes the most beauty and from tragedy comes that which has value. That strange cold world had always been a reflection I would stare into in the mirror. It’s unpopular to care or feel and we are always told that we are trash. Trash was even something that was made because it was needed at one point. Maybe your reality is better than the one you are told to believe in. The one thing i could always cling to is that hating yourself is the worst mistake because it’s usually for reasons that make your life imperative. For those that have to fight and struggle to just be, more is traversed and learned than if things just felt normal or correct. To give in to anyone’s bullshit, even your own is the shadow that will always follow us but it follows you, not the other way around. If you have nothing and you are alone, you are more than most could even have the mind or eyes to see. Own it. At least it’s real. If you feel, it means the world surely needs you and you will find something better than you can imagine now. I’ll never regret crossing the river Styx a million times over again. There are few who can live to tell the tale. Everything that tried to kill me is just a blur not the horizon behind me when I choose to look. That loneliness is inhabited by more of us than I even realize. Don’t let it win; what you need and are meant for will come. I’ll never forget the day it happened to a freak like me. Oh and watch the movie Pump Up the Volume. It always helped me ❤️
Hey, this is my music. Be depressed somewhere else. Jokes aside, hope you feel a bit better by now. Listen. I need to explain a lot there, but you might come to the conclusion later on. A neuroscientist once said that every emotion we feel, every feeling we have and every thought we think is actually just a manifestation of our concious mind, our brain and body to start rearranging things in life. When we speak about a mental disorder, we talk about things in our head, that are producing a wrong thought process. In our everyday life, there are things we really enjoy doing. Might be sports, might be spending quality time with family or playing music, beeing a kind person, whatever. And now there is this society, this life we need to manage in order to keep things running for us. There is work, there is earning and spending money,( and yes there is a fight club referrence there, ) to buy shit we dont need to impress people we dont like. And all those things make us question if wasting precious time and money is really worth it in the end. Because most of the things we do arent really healthy or worth it, but in today society, we have to play a role as consumer, husband, work force... and we forget to spend time with what our body and soul really needs. Sleep. Good food. Quality time with family and friends, in order to achieve goals that arent ours but the ones from societies. And because we cant have both, we start deciding conciously to numb ourselves to not feel the attrocities of missing the most importsnt part in our lifes. Us and our needs. When a college says, he needs your help in your break, you counciously decide between "i could rest a little and eat and drink, or reputation and value". And because we could be productiv, and thus more valuable for your team, you decide to stop your sandwich, you numb yourself. You need to go shift work and mostly miss your significant others time at home, you rather numb to be succesfull, even in hard times, you tell yourself i dont need her atm, am at work. But if you think about her, you migjt need her. And all of those things add up, day for day, week for week, makes us depressed. We depress all our feelings and because its working for short term, our brain tells us "great work" and kicks in with dopamin for numbing ourselves. But it slowly becomes like an addiction of painkillers, and if you are numb enough, you dont feel like feeling even when you are next to your partner. Because its not yourself, but yourself that feels like rather missing or forgetting her while she is next to you, because suprise suprise,thats giving you more dopamin. Just get in touch with her again, make sure to love yourself and to love her as you should love yourself. Make sure this is giving you more dopamin again than missing her and your friends and family. And its a hard journey, but better start now.
Hey, you, yeah you reading this, you look great today, I’m proud of you, no matter how many times life has knocked you down, pushed you to rock bottom, made you scream until you couldn’t, made you cry till you passed out, you kept getting up and going. You’re taking this one step at a time and I’m proud of you for each step you take, recently life’s been hard, I feel like I’m losing my battle with my depression, if I do, I just want you to know how proud of you I am, you’ve made it so far, keep going, you got this, don’t give up now, maybe ask that special someone on a date, buy those things for a new hobby, text that person, spend time with your loved ones, and even if I’m not here for that, and even if you don’t know me, just know that no matter what, and no matter who, I am proud. The fact that you haven’t given up no matter how hard things have gotten, the fact that you’re here with me right now, reading this whole thing, means a lot, I’m proud, I’m so damn proud, keep going, you got this. I wish one day you fall in love with the idea of being alive. I love you, keep being great, here’s my discord if you wanna contact me ᴸᵃᵃʷⁿʸ@ (copy & paste or tell me your user and i can add you!) And if that’s not it I will update this as soon as possible, thank you for being here and being great, stay humble, stay great :)
I listened to this song years ago when I was depressed. My first suicide attempt was when I was 11. 5 years later I'm 16 with a great life. I got the chance to be blessed with having a child. I know I'm young, but God gave me a reason to live. I had no reason to live when I was younger. Now I have an amazing boyfriend, I'm having a baby, I have a great supportive family. I couldn't be luckier. If anyone thinks they don't have a reason to live, just wait. You won't regret it, I promise.
I’ve waited my whole life from abusive parents, being used, cutting, I attempted, everyone leaving, and now i literally have no one, no one talks to me even my therapist said I couldn’t be helped I tried to help myself so many times but I can’t plus there’s no reason to because I have nothing to loose and no one will actually notice. So yeah idk I’m probably just gonna do it
@@evie.9385 try writing everything down that you tried and then think of what you have never tried. A great mind once said "Don't give up because 1/100 times could be the time it works"
@@evie.9385 I'm so sorry for your pain I made a 365 activities and wrote each one on a folded post-it note and placed them all in a mug then everyday of the year I picked one out and it gave you something to look forward to . It could be worth trying.
@@evie.9385 hey evie, it's hard. Everything you've gone through must have been so hard... And listen here, I'm so so proud of you for still being here! life is tough ik that myself. But better times WILL come! When, is something only time can decide. But I promise you it's worth waiting. Have a little bit more patience and try to be strong.. you already were so strong don't throw your hard work away.. if you wanna talk about anything just tell me
I know this may sound cheesy, and maybe no one will read it. I think humans don't need what they think they need. I believe we all need hope, love, and comfort. When you feel like you have nothing, like every part of you is worthless. Just know you are not alone. Because I bet you, a lot of people of all different shapes, colors, religions, countries, and beliefs feel just like you. When you lay in your bed, and the tears come down. Know that I care, and even if I don't know you I still care. You're not worthless nor are you worth any less than any other person on this planet. You're a freaking awesome piece of art called "human". You breath the air and your heart beats and for that you matter.
But there's more than 7 billion other people in the world so that doesn't make me special whatsoever. I'm talentless, fat, ugly and most of all, worthless.
I’m currently listening to this lying in a hospital bed with my legs paralysed. This song hits really different now, especially the lines “you could still be what you want to be, what you said you were, when I met you” and “you’ve got a warm heart, you’ve got a beautiful brain but it’s disintegrating”. I’ve missed so much school recently. It feels like I’m going to be in a wheelchair forever. I’ve only spent 3 days in this hospital but it feels like forever since I’ve been outside of the building. Hopefully life will get better for me and every other person who feels trapped or hopeless.
This comments section is filled with the better half of humanity. I'm amazed at how amazing everyone is here. You are all thoughtful, kind, supportive, and loving even to complete strangers.
You know, I hate Humans. I hate it to be a human. Why? Because of their selfish way to live...but I can understand you. Everytime I'm a little bit sad, I search a song like this and read the nice comments. In such a moment I remember, who I am. I remember that humans aren't so bad, and now exists some people which might need me. So, I'm glad. I'm proud. I found my way back, back to me. And that's why I still keep going. Eh yes...I mean, yeah, it so awesome that people have such postives sides! I'm sorry for tell you all this kind of bullshit xD And sorry for my bad English! ._. *THE POWER OF MUSIIIIC* x3 Have a nice day, or night or whatever xD
i always feel like i’m doing everything wrong and i’m always disappointing people. i feel as if my friends don’t actually like me. i swear that i’m just an obstacle in everyone’s life. i’m an obstacle in my own life. i’m not able to have fun because nothing i do makes me happy or feel the same as i used to. i also hate my body and have been not eating as much because all the other girls are so skinny and beautiful and i look like i just crawled out of a sewer. i’m always trying to be perfect and act the way others want me too, but i’m too loud..too hyper for that. i try to be calm but it never works. i don’t really fit in with anyone. i feel like i get on my friends nerves which is why i barely ever talk to them and i stay in my room to avoid having to talk to my family. they aren’t bad people and they treat me amazing. it’s just i’m scared that i’ve done something wrong and don’t even realize it. i know my dad wouldn’t act like my mom did if something did happen but i’m still scared. i never really know how everyone will react to something i do. my mom used to be mad and take it out on me sometimes. mostly verbally except if it was something i did that was considered « really bad » . i used to say in my room so much when i was living with her that she would drag me out of my room. wasn’t exactly helpful to me trying to cheer myself up when i was upset all the time. she’d take the door off my room sometimes if i wanted to be alone and didn’t let my younger siblings in there. anyways i live with my dad now and i’m slowly getting happier..? kind of. i still feel so self conscious and scared of everything all the time. people say i’m just being an r/im14andthisisdeep girl but, i had a really rough time growing up and i am very sensitive to when people get mad at me. when i breakdown in school sometimes it’s blamed on hormones and everyone ignores me. that’s cool i guess except i’d like to have someone to talk to without them interrupting and telling me about how everything for them is worse. i just want someone to listen to me about nothing in particular that is bothering me. especially since i’m year 23’. people already hate the freshmen at this school, it really doesn’t help the fact that i’m upset all the time. they always say we are being dramatic or whatever. i probably sound dramatic right now. i just thought it felt nice to actually be able to talk without being interrupted or them making dumb jokes to try and make me feel better. i know they try to help sometimes but i just want them to listen to me so i can express my feelings without feeling like i’m being annoying or nobody’s listening to me. i feel that way all the time and people try to tell me they care. i don’t think they actually do considering they don’t act that way. i do all kinds of shit for them yet they still treat me less than them. i’m not in the « weird kid group » at school or whatever nor am i unpopular, but i still feel like i don’t actually have any real friends except one but we are slowly drifting off because i’ve been such an asshole to her. if you see this which is unlikely i’m so sorry i’m such a bitch. i don’t know what’s changed since 8th grade or why i am the why i am. i know i seem like such a dick of a person. just know every time on snap when you ask if i’m mad at i’m not. i still love you and i know you’re trying to pull our relationship back together. i’ve been thinking about how to do it but i can’t think of a way to do so without me saying something wrong and it coming out the wrong way. i miss when we hung out every weekend and a lot of the times all week. i know you do too because you have said so. we were talking about going to the skatepark i think we should. talk about everything. anyways sorry i left such a long message..i don’t care if you read it or not i just needed to be able to rant without interruptions. it’d be nice to do it irl but nobody will listen so i did this
You somehow had the power to make me cry. I’m so sorry you have to feel this, im very genuinely sorry and i hope things get better bit by bit. Please hold on and clutch to every ounce of power inside you, you’ll be okay, you’ll be fine and you’ll pull yourself up and you’ll be the happiest you’ve ever been. Please talk to your friend and try to explain to her how you feel, it’s always better when there’s communication. I hope she understands you and realizes how much you care about your friendship. I hope you have a lifetime of happiness.
WTF happened to me last night while listening for the first time is something not for the faint hearted. Transfixed to a whole new level and appreciation. The unexpected inner rush of my blood moving through my body, my heart beats to the rush of the sounds that felt like I was floating and feeling comfort that totally blew me away. I'm 49 and that was an experience totally unexpected. Thankyou it is just what I needed right then.
my son died almost 4 years ago, and listening to this song makes me think about how much i miss him, yet somehow feel that even now, without him i would not be the person i am today.
+JasonProds lol it's just a name bro....and yeah, do some research before you start flappin those loose ass lips homie. Sounds like you got some insecurities to deal with.
These are the type of songs I used to cry my eyes out to. I still could if I wanted to, but now I listen to them to make sure I can hold back tears. So I can make sure I know how to not cry. I made people spend too long on me. Making sure I was ok. Hearing about my problems. I dont want to do that to people anymore. These are my problems. Not anyone else's.
What can heal can also hurt. Never forget that. Family, medicine, friends, love. Be careful who you trust and what you do, but also appreciate what you have and who you are. You are a beautiful person worthy of everyone's love, and if noone sees that, then they must be blind. Never give up hope. Although it may seem tough, it WILL pass. Show how strong you are and make it through! :)
It seems to me it's about a girl who is losing somebody she loves to an illness and that person is refusing treatment which is why she's saying it's just medicine, but at the same time she knows it's ruining that person's spirit. However, she does not want to loose them. Therefore, she keeps insisting that it's "just medicine" and that they could have a "second chance."
Interesting thought, but I don't think that's the case. She sings "You've got a beautiful brain, but it's disintegrating from all the medicine". To me I think it's more related to people with illnesses like cancer, or alzheimers. People who are in a sense "there" but not entirely the same person they used to be. Throughout the song she says "you could still be, what you want to." I think that is more about coming to terms with your condition, and reliving your last most wanted moments before passing. To me "it's just medicine" sounds almost ironic, if not mocking, almost as if a nurse were to tell you that without showing any regard. Something we are so dependant on, something that drags out our existance just a little bit longer, but for some unfortunate people, that means living an empty life. Perhaps the song is trying to point out that sometimes it's better to let go, as in starting over again, instead of dragging out life which in the midst of your sickness has no purpose any longer. Anyways your guess is of course as good as mine. Many times the writer is not even thinking about anything special or intricate, just simply writing lyrics.
Annabelle Rose Sounds more like someone who is wasting their beautiful life & potential by not giving up their vice. Bottle of liquor, bottle of pills, pipe, needle, something that prevents them from being what they want to. They've got a warm heart, they got a beautiful brain, but it's disintegrating from all the medicine. Medicine they're taking to avoid dealing with their issues.
Today I found out my baby brother is dead. Although I never met him and neither did anyone else I developed a connection. It really sucks thinking about the memories we could’ve created but now we can’t. I’m losing everyone and it’s starting to hurt real bad. I’ve always managed to hide emotions and I’m starting not to be able to. I’ve lost so much. I lost 3 friends to suicide in 1 month. I’ve lost my dad, I’ve lost my grandad, my nana, some of my animals and now my baby brother. I can’t be bothered to deal with anymore shit. It feels like life is a test and I’m failing so fucking hard. I just want a break. Please.
It's not the end. Life will throw many problems at us. We are all humans, we are not perfect, we have flaws, we breakdown sometimes, we sometimes get lost into these cracks but just know this chapter of life will end n u will enter a beautiful chapter. Don't lose faith sweetie there's always new opportunity coming out. We can't control what we lost, we can't change it anymore but we can take charge of our future. Don't stress yourself out, it's not your fault sometimes it's just fate but we just want to blame ourselves because we are too kind. You have survived, you can take a break but just don't end it ❤️🌻
This song was one of those times where i was on the verge of breaking down, and the perfect song came up and told me just what i needed to hear.. and i cried and let it all out.. and kept going...
Whatever it is you're going through, I could only just imagine. I know we don't know each other but I want to tell you that you're worth it. Stay Strong Beautiful x
My first love. Was stuck that way for two years. I finally realized when when she broke up with me and I found out she was cheating on me for months. Been afraid of love and yet wanted it again ever since. I know, I'm pathetic. Sorry for wasting your time. Have a good day.
@@heathercarlson3181 don how tf is someone cruel for not reciprocating love? That's such a toxic standpoint, you have to accept that people feel the way people feel. They may like us or they may not. Suck it up and stop saying the world is so cruel.
lmao word like i just came here to listen to a good song but apparently the comments section is one big 12 year old girl with a tumblr, deviantart and depressing finsta
At first I thought - If I ever come across you, I might forget how to breathe. Soon enough I realized. I wasn't breathing all along. You'd be the air in my lungs. You'd give me an opportunity to glance at life and how it should be. You're all I need. And in your absence I've built love. I hide it under my pillow, like most people do. They all love like crazy, but as soon as dawn opens their eyes and their dreams collide with reality they decide to wrap up those emotions in a garbage bag and throw it away when no one's looking. I love you and I hate it, but I cannot let go. It feels like chewing a tasteless piece of gum, longing for that last bit of juice while tasting your spit. You're all I need. And I'm not confused. I'm not even love crazed. I swear I'm not bipolar. But I hate being in love with you. And it's amazing!
Losing loved ones is hard. Watching them lose themselves is harder. Mental illnesses kill a person before they die. Cancer etc kill a person before they die. Illnesses and medicines both kill people. They kill their spirit and their head. It’s the most heart breaking thing. This song is so special to me.
To all of you out there, who are living or passing thru a difficult moment in your life, keep strong keep fighting. I know what it is fighting depression, fighting with your own suicidal thoughts, been fighting this on my own for the last 10 years. Until recently, I had a meltdown, could not cope with it. I was on the brink to end it all until I started to ask what I want. The reply after so many times repeating the question I finally found the answer, "I want to live". That was the moment I searched for help and after 2 months of seeing a psychotherapist I am finally finding peace, dealing and accepting what my past was, the traumas that I endured. I just want you to know that no one is alone, there is always help. Please do not give up! Never! Be safe, I love you xx
@@LaoiseSmyth I been there and I still sometimes have my fall backs, but please hang in there you've been fighting all this time, you made it this far. You're a warrior, a winner, and winners they never give up! Much love xx
@@Rod22 hi how are you doing?? i have to say that the fact that you came back here and wrote the person that replied to you after two years really made me smile. i love small acts of kindness like yours. take care and stay safe xx
To all the people feeling sad out there. I just wanna tell you that you're amazing and nothing can stop you from becoming great. Bad times will come and we need to face them. " If greatness was easy then there would be no fun achieveing it " so just keeping working on yourself. You're beautiful. Go get it! ❤
I heard this song the first time on “the vow”. It’s such a beautiful song that hits home so closely. ‘You can still be who You want. Who you said you were when you met me.’ And ‘you’ve got a beautiful heart; you’ve got a beautiful mind, but it’s disintegrating’. Daughter completely shook my world by hearing this song. I have many mental health issues and addiction issues. Everyday is a struggle and I am not who I want to be, but I can go back to who I wanted to be if I want. Uhh my heart... my heart..
I am fortunate enough to have my family and friends, so when I read these comments, I feel like I should be more grateful. Remember, be grateful for who you have and what you have. A lot of people do not have both their parents and are going through a tough time. I have been feeling depressed for a while and have been told that it's nothing and that it's just me feeling sad or sorry for myself. If you need to talk to someone, talk to someone you trust to have your back through thick and thin. I hope that you get through your problems and that you feel better. It helps me to feel better by helping other people who are less fortunate than me, so if you feel bad, tell someone that you care. Don't tell them, "It will get better." because who knows, maybe it won't. But at least let them know that they're cared for and loved. :)
Absolutely love this song. So peaceful, yet sad, but beautiful. Same goes for the remix by Joji. Incredible feeling to these lyrics, regardless of their genre.
I'm in a depressing mood so I'm gonna type depressing shit because I have no where else to vent except to strangers who don't even care about me anyways lol. My mom, someone who's supposed to be my role model, my rock, my inspiration, fought with me. I brought up good news. "I can be in Naval Science for senior year, so I'd have to take a year break but they'll let me come back." She didn't seem happy, even though she wanted me to be in Naval Science. Since my mother and I have a relationship that's unfixable, it escalated from literally good news to "Your dad is fucking stupid and can't realize the mistakes he made, I don't have to apologize to you because I didn't do anything." (Keep in mind, I was hinting that I wanted an apology for all the times she's emotionally abused me because I just really needed to know that she did care, and she wouldn't apologize.) I cried so much, trying to get her to see my point of view on things, yet all went to shit when she got me so hurt to the point where I told her I "fucking hate" her. I needed to vent because it's really painful to cry right now because my jaw is aching from it. I wanted her to apologize because understand this, physical pain is temporary, we know it goes away, hence why self harm exists. Emotional pain doesn't, and I've been belittled, insulted, and bashed for so long, and I'm only 16. So much drama to experience in just 16 years of life. I want to start over. With new family members, and friends that I can actually trust. I don't want to feel emotional pain anymore, I don't want to feel any of it. I know it's never gonna happen, it's never gonna go away. But a girl can dream, right?
Hi... today’s my 13th birthday and I too have an abusive family. My dad is just so scary... and I just wanted to say I care about u because a girl can relate :,)
You need to find your own family in friends that don't abuse you and make you feel safe...don't give up. Just don't go into a bad relationship stay clear you deserve better
Pick it up, pick it all up And start again You've got a second chance You could go home Escape it all It's just irrelevant It's just medicine It's just medicine You could still be What you want to What you said you were When I met you You've got a warm heart You've got a beautiful brain But it's disintegrating From all the medicine From all the medicine From all the medicine Medicine You could…
There’s a “Hell” in hello, “Good” in goodbye, “Lie” in believe, “Over” in lover, “End” in friend And an “If” in life. Be strong, someone cares I promise! I’m depressed but I can get through it, I know I’m stronger than I let myself believe, and know u are strong!! I know your tiered, your fed up But there’s strength within you, Keep fighting!
for every single one who's crying listening to this song.
you're not alone, you can have me as your friend!
I love you
I was crying before this song
😪
I am crying trying to figure out what to do with my anxiety and depression.
I'm crying, and breaking. I can't do this. I'm sorry if I look like an attention seeker, but I'm just sorry for the world, living this way.
Does anyone ever hate themselves so much but love someone so much that you can’t even feel emotions for yourself anymore
xcarmen i relate to this so much
Doing everything you can even if it hurts just u can make them happy ....... i feel ya
Dont want the smile of those people that i love fade away
Yeesss
Literally me rn.
And finally when you get to feel something for yourself its when you realize they might not love you back anymore or they never did to begin with. Its hard
That awkward moment when you think you're important to someone, and you're not.
(EDIT: It has been 5 years since I commented this, and it was just a quote I saw online. Wow! I just wanted to say to anyone who is struggling, please do not give up. Your life is so much more important than you will ever know. Over the years, I have gotten a lot better, and realized my worth. I will not lie, depression is still a struggle, but I promise you, things get better, please don’t give up. 🖤)
Or when you love someone and your to worthless for them to care? Ya been there :'(
Yeah.. How I am right now..
I feel you, it hurts when they barely notice you
Its just more of they play with my feelings.
yep. going throw that rn
this song is so powerful. it gets me everytime. the lyrics are just so deep.
same🥲
@@kiaramolnar9566 WOAH THIS HAD 93 LIKES I HAD NO IDEA PLS but yes
Frrr
@@Matt-wj3zy hey stranger. i hope you will find happiness one day, you are not alone
YES!
people saying "cringe" in the comments to others who are pouring their hearts and life stories out there shows exactly how much compassion we've lost as a society for one another
It’s not that, it’s all the people who claim they’re going through depression, but it’s all the same stuff.
All these people talking about abusive parents, self harm, and they always sound so... droning. On and on and on they talk and talk and talk. But it sounds so fake. Some people are actually suffering from depression and can’t express themselves without being calling a fake because no one can tell the difference anymore
@@Bee-fu9uz I mean ur right bc we r all misunderstood, but it doesn't make the right to think we r fake, I'm not ganna tell my story tho I keep that personal. But just a heads up, listen to their stories, see how hurt they r, be in their shoes! Just... Listen and u will understand, listen and u can hear their cry, listen and u can feel their pain, just listen and think how horrible our relationship as a society was and what it has become... Look for the details, hear for our silent screams, and just think...
Oh I have.
I’m part of the gacha community
That means posting or watching a sad mini movie or music video and then have to listen to all the people saying they’re going through depression. And it’s all the same stuff. Some people lie about abusive parents, and abusive partners, etc... it’s sad, because now, I’m here talking about it, and people are soon going to be mad at me for “ignoring” depression
While I believe it is real and should be taken seriously, there are too many people out there who think they’re depressed
@@Bee-fu9uz I mean I totally agree that it should be taken seriously and that people should actually think about it deeply to see if they r actually in depression or if they r lying to themselves. But things about abusive parents aren't fake ok, I even had an abusive Dad who even shot a man bc he was so drunk! I'm also apart of the gatcha community and some might just be based off a movie they saw or just a mini movie they just wanted to make and some r real u can tell if they r real or not so watch out for that ok but maybe if u think those things just keep em to urself so u don't get people mad at u... Ok?
It’s Just Aimee why would someone randomly comment their fake traumas on a youtube video? childhood trauma and depression is way more common than you’d think. sometimes people who have dealt with those things flock to certain videos to communicate things they otherwise couldn’t say irl. it’s very unfair of you to just assume that most people are faking.
the moment when your own loving family doesn’t realize that you really are dying slowly..but you stand there in front of them, scratching away your life slowly.
tell them
@@gabriellal.2066 not that simple
If you dont feel like telling your family, try telling Jesus about it. He already knows, He's just waiting for you to open up to Him.
try telling someone minor details reveal what you are feeling slowly. let one of closest family members or friend be your medicine. tell them gradually you dont have to tell them all at once go at your own pace
❤️ to you - ❤️ to me
Note to self: *nobody can break you as much as you break yourself.*
@@shyla9062 she was making a note to herself, not anybody else
@@shyla9062 because it's a public platform and they thought people might relate. Does it really matter? You shouldn't comment just to start arguments or post opinions nobody asked for :)
Facts man..
That hit hard for some reason
@@mariahudgins3110 same.... i started crying cause i relate...
im never staying up all night again
Coming back to this song gives me chills. Last time I heard it, I was 15 and suicidal. I’m now 19, moved out of the shitty state I lived in, and starting my second year of college. Things get better, they really do. It takes time and that time is worth waiting for.
Exactly this Evelyn, same here. So happy that u are in a better place now. Things truly get better
I'm almost 16 and I love this comment 💕 I hope things get better 💜
i hope
They really do. Stay in touch with yourself and enjoy this life.
Hope you're doing fine these days ❤️❤️
When I was at the peak of my depression, I used to stay up all night in the darkness. Doing absolutely nothing. Then at dawn, when the sky would turn orange I would play this song and think inspite of life being so beautiful, why couldn't I learn to be happy?
When angels cry you were born, life is but red and orange, blissfulness and sweet surrender on the wings of forever we remember, clouds flow and rain calms the thunder, dreams are wishes and blades of grass wisp in the wind, dance with the lights stars twinkle... I sway in the shadows with you to remember.... Love I wrote this for the moment I read these words. ©
Bro I feel you. I remember just staring at the ceiling and watching it grow dark, even though I’m scared of the dark, I would never turn on the lights cuz I was waiting for the monsters to take me away. This was one of the song I’d listen to for hours on end and just stare
i feel this though, there are so many nights where i just can’t bring myself to sleep. i just feel so empty i can’t do it and i’ll sit in my windowsill looking out at the streetlights until morning
This made me cry.
@@mintingluo7370 I relate to this so much
That moment when home doesn’t feel like home anymore
😔😟😫😧😧 true
When your at "home" in your room and you have that feeling within still wanting to go home
Same
Never was
Good god, am I there today
It's impossible to forget someone. You just don't want to remember. Somehow, somewhere deep within you all the memories will remain.
Tired Idiosyncratic Cat very true ❤️❤️
Tired Idiosyncratic Cat seriously, lol. fuck you
honestly just fuck you, stating the clear obvious that i do not want too read or hear, joys of life man.
itll be nice, too have a beer with you.
Not when you have dementia
Anna Vlogz too heavy for UA-cam dude. And you should talk about that stuff with a therapist anyway
DrStarfucker you think I havent done that ive done everything I can do you think I want this shit to happen to me no I don't but thanks for putting your FUCKING opinion that I don't give a FUCK about☺
I feel numb I wanna cry but I can't I just feel empty...I hate it
Jesus loves you
O do you think you have the dry eyes?
same....
I can relate. I keep listening to sad songs, because I can’t feel anything. So I get the artists to express the emotion for me.
Same..I don't feel emotions that well anymore
Dear Riley,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Amanda,
Please don't leave me.
Dear my dad,
Please don't leave me.
Dear my sister,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Brianna,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Micah,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Taylor,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Chris,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Amelia,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Ashton,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Ainsley,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Amber,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Avery,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Mrs. K,
Why did you have to go?
Dear Cynthia,
Why did you have to go?
Dear Da Tesha,
Why did you have to go?
Dear Emma,
Why did you have to go?
Dear Pappy,
Why did you have to go?
Dear Aunt Robin,
Why did you have to go?
These people either left me, died, are dying, or might leave me. ❤❤❤ I love you all, and for those of you who are still with me, please don't go! I don't want to loose anyone else. ❤❤❤
Wihat about your mom? I don’t see her in there? :(
@@mikayla3766 She's one of the strongest people I know. Life's gonna have to put up a good, long fight if it wants to take her down. ( : I'm thankful to have such a courageous and caring mother in my life! She truly is someone I love and hope to be like one day! ❤🙂❤
@@Bee_Notabug You're the sweetest thing ever. omg.
Ur pathetic. They'll never read this.
Oh man, this really hurts my chest
I want you guys to know that no matter what you are going through right now please don't leave us, you are far too precious and someone out there in this big world needs you, whether it's in the future or now. Stay strong beautiful, because we love and need you here❤
Kiella Bella the world needs more people like you. thank you ❤️
Thank you
You saved my life.
You could still be
what you want to be
What you said you were
when you met me.
my favorite quote from this song
Souljah FAVORITE PART OF SONG 4 ME
+Trashville same lol
I'm gonna cry wtf I just came for a nice song
Souljah my favorite line..
This song reminds me of my brother. He’s a drug addict and when it says “you’ve got a beautiful brain but it’s disintegrated from all the medicine” it hits a bit different. It’s crazy how a song can hit so close to home and mean something different to every person.
Same here:(
@UCHbXDlUUTkeSJ98GS8_5lQQ same here, I get cravings sometimes but songs like this help me stay on the good path.
There is help if you look for it, remember who you are, and when it gets better, always remember where you came from and how far you've come. Love yourself and be good to others, remember that there is a place for you in the world.
The same part reminded me of my addict cousin he was my role model growing up now he’s gone beyond repair
Those lyrics held the same reminder for me 💜
I hope your brother got clean,I'm four months sober from fentanyl praying my kids dad gets sober. This song always reminds me of him,I didn't know 10 years later this song would mean so much to me
"The silence depressed me. It wasn't the silence of silence. It was my own silence." - Sylvia Plath
Can i use this as a caption ?
@@laurenallen9660 ofc
Love her
good for u
wow this hits me :(
my first ever kiss & boyfriend ended up being someone who was at one point my best friend years later. he taught me a lot and was one of the most unique, special people i know. he slowly but surely got way more into harder drugs at the age of 17. percocet, molly, coke, xanax, you name it. even if we had drifted apart slightly at this point, i knew he didn’t do it to be cool, he did it to escape. drugs and music were his medicine quite frankly.
november 27th, 2018 he decided to take his life.
i miss him so fucking much. all i can think of is how much i regret letting myself drift away from him and not help him get clean. both him and i didn’t necessarily believe in an afterlife, but with any sort of luck in the universe i hope he’s in a place where he’s happy and finally at peace & knows how much we all loved him.
we miss you ethan. love you man❣️
Don't blame yourself you can't help someone get clean it's impossible I am currently trying everything it's there choice don't blame yourself and be proud you didn't sink into it to like me
Today's date marks the death anniversary...I'm sorry for your loss
Im so sorry for your loss, it must have felt really terrible losing someone to those pills , esecially knowing they did it to escape from what they're struggling 😭😭
Trust me we can't help them. They have to take that the desicion. You made the right choice.
Mella Jahovic Yeah he might be in heaven and happy
To anyone else who digs their fingernails into their skin just so they can feel, to anyone who folds into their self and cries because no one else seems to understand, to the people like me, out there, looking for someone like them. I hope someone finds you. And saves you. Because boy do we all need saving. Trying so hard for so long to save everyone else from the imploding bomb that is us. Save us please. Thank you.
JediGeneral B Yes. We do need saving. But no ones going to save us and risk getting themselves trapped too. Life is just one big mess nowadays. We NEED to save EACH OTHER. Because soon, it's going to be too late for us.
Stay strong angel x
waiting for that person
I need to save myself
JediGeneral B I agree but you gotta save yourself, it’ll happen one day, you’ll grow strong by yourself
I love you, stay strong baby. 💙
When you have to cover your mouth when you’re crying so no one here’s you bc ur to scared to open up
Me rn
Every single day...
Been there so many times 💔
Hey don’t be scared to let your feelings out
@@mollybeaton8537 thank you :,)
depressed, stressed, suicidal, done, tired, broken, not loved, need help, cold. I sit at my window looking out all the time....
💕💕💕 you are not alone...I’ve walked through low and dark places..don’t give up...hold on to the fragments of hope...the sun will rise again...
We’ll be suicide buddies.
Tbh same life is trash right now 😔
im sitting at my window right now wondering when am i gonna change when am i going to find drugs to make me happier for a moment or find true happiness authentically i dont know but i do right now this very second i am waiting patiently and will continue to sometimes i wake up and dont know if i should even get up, but i do and things seem to feel a lil better almost as if me living in my head isnt all i feel there's definitely a part of me that wants to be here but doesnt know to show it
xXCayenne_The_Fire_Lion Xx why would I be an attention seeker?
I love how the comment section is full of people telling their stories. Even though I don’t have a very meaningful story, I will still tell it because I know that this comment section is full of people who will care.
When I was born, my parents were drug addicts and weren’t ready for a baby. They really weren’t. So they didn’t treat me well. I was abused and neglected. I don’t remember anything from that time (thank the lord) but my mom tells me stories from then. My connection with my new mother is special. She is my cousin. Our connection is extra special. I am actually related to her. Its hard to think about the past that I lived in. I no longer have contact with my real mother. I would like to meet her to show her how much of a good person I have grown up to be, but not for a while. Honestly I dont blame my parents. Yes, they could be better prepared. Yes, they could've been better parents. I dont blame them. Im so happy that I am with the family that I am now. The reason why I am in a safe, loving, and caring environment now is because of my birth mother. She acknowledged that she wasn't fit to be a mother, so she gave me up. Like I said, my mother now tells me stories about my childhood. When I first came to my family, I wasn't used to being able to cry. I used to not cry because I would get beaten if I did. Its awfully sad. I am so happy and lucky that I am in a safe place now.
If you are going through anything sad or horrible just know that you are loved. I care about you. No matter who you are. I dont think there are bad people, just people who do bad things
What do I do if I don't have a safe place
@@niageorgieva7739 reach out for help and look for people who really care, you deserve to be safe and loved ❤
tegmag my life was the same my mums nice tho my dad abused us
😢💔
tegmag Sending you a big hug.
Listen to this in a dark, cool room. Earbuds in and close your eyes, have the music up as loud as your ears can take. B E A U T I F U L
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Agreed
Thank you
Livi Holland I am crying when I did that
@@dragon_fall7716 same
Listening to this at 00:24 after having the most wholesome conversation about my dad giving me reasons to stay. To anyone who reads this, you're not alone. I am so incredibly proud of every single one of you. You're all valid and important.
Sucks when your home stops feeling like sanctuary
Feeling this rn
oh bro i felt this on a other way
i dont remember the last time i was in a home that felt like home
I feel trapped in mine atm
Isabel Jones damn...
my brother introduced me to daughter when i was a freshman in high school and medicine was one of the ones i always remembered. tonight it showed up on my shuffled songs for the first time in a long time now 8 years later. 3 years after my brother introduced me to this song his substance addictions became so apparent & unavoidable. he was using everything it seemed. he went in & out of rehab 4 times. he tried to committ suicide. he lied to me about using. i lost my relationship with him. he’s currently doing well it seems & i am reforming my relationship with him day by day. this song was almost a prediction, but it embodies my past 5 years of my relationship with my brother. it brings me peace. thank you for your gift of this song. it truly means the world to me.
Reading this while listening to the song. I cried.
@@r0830 thank you for listening & for your empathy. i cry every time i hear this song. my brother came home for the first time in 5 years. & although i know it may all come crashing down any second. its almost feels okay again.
Aww this comment made me teary eyed 😢 it reminded me of my brother who uses, too. I hope everything between you and your brother is well ❤
@@agustinamansur5665 awh thank you i think i’ve finally come to terms with the fact that he may never stop relapsing but i want him in my life nonetheless. i hope everything between you & your brother is well also
@@loveandhugsmaddie oh, i'm glad you are well with him ❤ yes, we are well, too. Thank you so much ❤
just the thought that there are people who make/listen to this type of music is enough to make me feel connected
when I read your comment, I feel connected too
❤️
wow, you put that perfectly into words...
that reminds me of some quote in perks of being a wallflower book. i think it's like a unity i guess.. that we like the same music.
@@skaldrun6727 Same
My best friend got into a car crash, she ended up in the hospital... After she went into a coma for 6 years I almost gave up, then I heard this song. I learned all the lyrics and I sang it to her, three weeks later she woke up and got to go home. I am truly great full that God said it was not her time to leave this planet.
Emilia Kieffer That’s to good stay strong!
This is the most amazing thing!
Life is just a game.
And boy am I losing
Don't forget that you can always try again! Dont give up, dont lose hope, and those who are strong and determined can pass the boss fight, depression. Hope you beat that level! :)
im about to end my game
This one dosent have a respawn button so please dont end it
@@pricelesspolaris5597 please dont, theres no respawn button....I'll miss you
@@Finnlandyy thank you
I'm not depressed. I'm not unhappy. I've never been in a relationship so I don't know the pain of heartbreak. But I listen to these types of songs because I like to write fanfiction/original fiction, and it helps me get into the mood and tone of the story. Daughter is amazing and I am trying to find all her best songs to listen to while I write
I totally fucking respect ur prof pic....just sayin
the song "youth" by her is awesome, though not as good for story writing, I wouldnt imagine. still could be worth a listen.
Seth Wilson Love the song "Youth"! It's not too good for writing, but I definitely listen to it in the car when I can :D
+barbaro267 it's definitely a good song to drive to! a good band I listen to for inspiration in writing is mumford and sons. They tend to have lyrics that tell stories well, as well as portray just about any mood you could want.
Seth Wilson Timshel is seriously my favorite song ever :D
Dear Lora.
We lost you to the medicine.
It’s okay. I know you didn’t mean it.
I know all you wanted in your life was for your children to have a good life, and be happy, but you weren’t happy.
You didn’t have to stay with a man who made you unhappy.
You didn’t have to drink that night.
You didn’t have to take a pill that night. A pill you knew you shouldn’t take.
I never thought I’d be attending your funeral.
A year later, we all miss you.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry you’re gone and now your kids are sad because they miss you. I’m sorry your youngest son will never remember his mother, her voice and her smell. I’m sorry that over time I will forget a lot about you. I’m sorry I forgot your voice.
You’re my second mother,
Rest beautifully dear. :(
God..
I have no words, I haven't felt that pain, I've felt horrible pain but not this bad. I'm sorry about what happened.
this touched me and im not even physical enough to be touched :( im sry for ur loss
My name is Laura and this spoke directly to my heart like what they would say if I did it
I'm crying awh, I'm sorry 💓
listening to it in the dark with earphones and full sound, in the cold while youre hugging your pillow hits different
I actually cried tbh
To my younger self,
I'm glad you weren't taken by the medicine
Hopeful nightmares
This comment made me happy 😊💖
💜💜
.
Hopeful Nightmare damn
*You got a second chance*
*You could go home*
*Escape it all*
*It's just irrelevant*
I always become covered in full body chills when I listen to this song. Hits home.
Luna Kumorri Same here
"destroy the thoughts not yourself."
How do I destroy the thoughts before they destroy me
@@travischristian9134 by turning 1 negative into 5 positive thoughts
@@travischristian9134 acceptance. They'll always be there, lurking, but it's how you let them effect you is the difference. Thoughts are just thoughts at the end of the day. Meditate, learn to recognize them, and learn to let them float by and live in the present.
At 11 I started feeling sad and down all the time, and I couldn’t really figure out why other than some mean girls at home.
At 12 my mom made me talk to a psychologist and I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety.
Later that year I cut for the first time and my parents took me back to the psychologist. It didn’t help. I was told I was suffering from severe depression and put on 100 mg of meds per day.
I never take them. I don’t feel like it.
13, and I have suicidal thoughts. I don’t tell my parents, and I proceed to keep cutting. They found out and simply put me down for it and gave up trying to actually help.
And here I am at 14, and just numb. I don’t know what to do anymore.
I’m one month clean.
I wish it could stay that way.
And that’s it.
Update: I’m actually sobbing right now after having a breakdown then reading all of these comments. I relapsed in January but I’m currently 5 months and 3 days clean. I always come back to these comments when I feel like giving up because I know some people care. Thank you.
update again: i relapsed. i’m crushed. i hope i can do better. my family is just so toxic. i guess there will be bumps in the road :/
update: my sister threatened me saying she was going to shoot us both. She said if she kills herself, which she wants to, it would be my fault. I don’t know what to do. I feel so lost. I don’t want to deal with this anymore. I forgave her, but inside I don’t think I am every really forget. she does this a lot. she has OCD and BPD. I try so hard to take the things she throws at me, but it’s getting to be too much
Yo I'm already crying, now I'm sobbing waterfalls and struggling to breathe.
You'll find release from this mess of a world someday, just hold on ❤️
Marissa C hey, how are you doing ?🥺
NEVER give up because there is so much more to live for my situation is kinda the same but I haven’t given up yes I am suicidal and yes I used to cut and yes I still feel numb like for instance at my grandmas funeral I didn’t cry because that’s how numb I was but I never gave up not once and baby girl ik you can do it too ♥️♥️♥️♥️x
please hold on i believe you can do it,even if it doesnt feel like that right now ♡
Just going to tell u something i really respect u and what u said some people in the comments just dont get what people have been through and for u to tell people is one of the bravest things to do because people can put u down and i think if someone does that then ignore them because they dont deserve ur opinion
listening to this while having a mental break down
really love this song it somehow calms me down even when everything is falling apart. love
Are you better now since it has been a year?
Me too
First time ever hearing this full song. I have two boys with the woman of my dreams. Money is hard. Everyday we struggle but our love saves all of us. Lately pressure and struggling have been slowly killing me. I started drinking. A LOT. My Medicine. This song is like a letter from my family. Its time to stop drinking and get better medicine. My boys need a healthy dad. My girl needs a strong husband. Im sorry for dragging you guys behind booze. Im sorry about my medicine.
Joshua Penn how are things ? You doing okay?
Good luck!!!
Hope you’re okay
I hope you were able to recover, not just for those around you but for yourself too
My family are my life. My kids are a strong and my wife is an angel. But I hear you man. Keep strong and put one step in front of the other.
Years ago when I was 12 I used to listen to this song religiously when I was alone at night crying. I was dealing with anorexia, losing friends from isolating myself, bullying, daily arguments with my family and “best friend”, my grades dropped, the one of the few people I had left close to me die and such.
I felt it was worthless. In February I planned to kill myself in may if I didn’t get better as it been going on for 4 years then and said f it all as I would be dead. I stopped caring and there slowly threw everything I knew and did away. I was planning my letters out and I would drink to cope with everything around then, whether that was alone in my room or in the school day. Things finally were going better in may that I felt if I pushed longer that I would regret considering suicide. Everything got better and Just last week I finally put a quit to drinking as I no longer felt the need for it anymore and want to put an end before it led to addiction as I’ll soon have full access to alcohol. I also have a new amazing group of friends who make me want to get up in the morning on my bad days. I may still deal with things every now and then but Im happy and want to experience life.
Im 17 now and I just want to share my story to others, just like people did years ago did of their recovery in the comments to give people that glimmer of hope or show that people out here understand and know your pain. if you ever need to talk I’m here :)
Stay safe !!
@@linaer6928 I’m glad it helped and well done on staying strong, you got this
☹☹
Thank you for sharing your story, I can only imagine how hard that must've been
"The Mirror is my friend
Cause it never laugh when im crying"
Excuse my english
Idc ur english i feel you
That phrase hurts me
when I tell you that hit me like a fire truck
FlameyMystic awww
Ok so the mirror is my worst nightmare because there’s no chance to hide the truth of my emotions
It reflects my emotions and i can’t see myself cry
And can’t see myself anyways
I hate myself and I hate what a mirror shows me😴
Im still crying to this song 6 years later wtf
Same
Same
9 years later. still crying to this song.
2019? Still crying.....😕🖤🎵
LuNa Wonderland
Okay but same :,(
All night long....
It's okay....I'm with you -.-
@@lemarpics yeah arent we all...
Yup. Nothing's gonna change that.
I lost my mom to drugs and this song always makes be cry. She chose medicine over her family. Seeing her downfall hurt my soul so much. I miss you ma. Mental health and addiction is not a kind beast. It’s been years since she’s passed but I wake everyday wanting to end my life. Please hug your loved ones.
i am so sorry for your loss. please stay safe and take care of yourself. i might be just a random stranger on the internet but i sincerely do care. sending you lots of love and hugs.
I hope you heal and find happiness within yourself someday. Life is unfair and unkind sometimes. But you are worthy to live it, dance in the rain, meet new people, listen to your favorite music, etc. Keep fighting angel!❤️
She didnt choose medicine over you. She fought the devil and lost. She didnt want to lose. ❤
How are you doing?
This song reminds me of how far addiction drove me away from who I was as a person. Nice charming smart hardworking caring. Until the day i started chasing a dream that only exist in another world. It is a long hard road back ,But anything is possible just never forget who you really are.Remember love is all that really matters.
+Jason Jewell RESPECT. Sometimes, the best people have been through the most shit to last 4 life times and they STILL come back to reality and get on with their lives and pursue what makes them happy! I hope you do well in life!
+spootization Thank you for the kind words. I wish the best for you as well my friend
Listen this dude, another world by electus..... all of his stuff is good especially peace of mind and kingdom of lions.... but trust me this would help you and everybody else get through your hard time
Listen this dude, another world by electus..... all of his stuff is good especially peace of mind and kingdom of lions.... but trust me this would help you and everybody else get through your hard time
this song is medicine holy fuck it’s a drug - am i the only one who wants to cry really hard right now? :'(
Look up the sound remedy remix of this, you won't be the same person after you've listened to it
alrighty then, ill tell you how i feel about it after i listen to it
No I want off all of these poisonous prescriptions they have me on!!!! Every time they add a new one I get more side effects that KEEP ME SICK!!!
Becky Heffernan I KNOW I KNOW !!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh
Becky Heffernan I was severly addicted to morphine for several years. However, I broke free - And you can too!
I actually can't cry, I haven't cried for at least a year. I've just been numb, like a cold and dark attic where everything is dusted over. I still feel sad though.
Anyone else or just me..?
I also do that :((
@@csphere_satoshi Aww let me hug you and we can be sad together :c
@@speccorvi7444 sure thing qwqq
Me and I just want a hug and to disappear
Yes.. seems like there's a brick wall between me and the act of crying
when i woke up this song js played and im replaying it bc its beautiful her voice and the meaning of the song is beautiful, im so sorry for the ppl who have lost loved ones or ppl who are going through a break up or abuse or abusive parents and depression im gonna pray for all of you, this song may be 12 yrs old and im 14 yrs old in 2024.
Dear Lord, i pray that every single one of these people in the comments and outside of these comments find what they're looking for in life, i pray that whatever that's happening to them you are watching over. Lord many people are struggling in your world of creation and im so sorry few people don't realize how amazing you are and haven't found you yet. I pray for all the broken hearted to be healed and all the depressed ones and ones who have lost they re loved ones and the ones fighting in the wars for us, i pray for the homeless and the patients in the hospital fighting they're lives to be here. I pray for the elder i pray for the youth i pray that you show all of us who you really are because i know everyone needs you in your live just as well as I do. I pray for all the ones who are feeling as if they need to harm themselves or end they're lives. I pray for all the people who did die in the wars fighting for us, the children and parents who have killed themselves due to bullying, I pray you just heal this world and the people in it. Lord thank you for all that you have done for us I pray that everyone realizes the things you do is for a reason, you are not here to harm us you are here to love and forgive us for our sins that we make. Thank you lord for everything and for waking every single one of us in the mornings in Jesus name Amen. ❤
Dear person reading this,
I hope your day has been going well, if not, I hope it gets better You are an amazing person who will inspire others to do great things so keep up the hard work. I know you may feel unimportant or insecure at the moment but know that you are a beautiful human being inside and out and you are important!
Sometimes we just need such a message!
I hope this comment helped you a bit and if not, I'm sorry
Sincerely,
Me, a fellow fallen angel.
+fallen angel This comment almost made me cry.
Thank you :')
+GoatKingdom you're welcome ^_^
I was looking at this song because I may be doing a solo to it in dance but your comment has meant a lot thank you x
+Heather 1106 thank you, it really means a lot to me that I was able to do something for you :)
This is cute, we need more positive people on this comment section tbh some people look like they're cancer victims like smh
A rap beat brought me here. I like this song alot.
This song is for my Uncle. He was robbed of who he used to be but he doesn't see he is still my Uncle. I love you. I always will. I have a bike now. I'm waiting for you so we can ride like we talked about. I miss you.
You made me cry omg.
Ipod Touch Please dont cry, Ipod Touch. You were my shit in high school. Had all my tunes PLUS touch screen... shit was dope ♡
Alzheimers?
Omg HAHAHA I can't deal with you right now haha
|-/
Hey
You
Yes,you
I know you are crying or tearing up
But just know people love you and are here for you❤️
Oof, hit me harder than the song lol
I love a boy that doesn't care anymore and it hurts me
yes at least i’ve always been there for myself even when people don’t
Thank you
...😩❤️
"You've got a warm heart. You've got a beautiful brain but it's disintegrated from all the medicine" i done know why but it hits hard
Same I just break at that part.
Yeah so stop it
Its happened to so many ppl
@@FyouThatsMyName More than ever. It blows my mind!
OK “Kacey”
Do you know that deep deep feeling if disconnect from your self? Have you ever hated ur self soo much that you just wanted to rip your own face from your skull. that no pain however severe was not enough. Have you ever been so full of hatred for the world abd yourself that you could almost feel the fire burning inside you. have you ever felt so alone that a full room seems empty, have you ever hated yourself so much that you just wanted to scream as loud as you could, because you couldnt hurt yourself enough?
Thats me, and I know im not alone. this is for all the freaks like me out there. who feel like this world is to big for them, that they do not belong. that no one loves them or that they are broken beyond repair. you are not freaks - You can be fixed, and you are loved. if not by anyone in your life then by me! even if we've never met, how can you not have love for a broken soul. I am still lost and alone, even tho im engaged and have a nice family. Its like im a computer missing key components. I see the world around me, and it feels strange and cold.
this is all a mess, i know, just like my mind.
but if any of this ramble made any sense to you, if it somehow resonated with you, even if it is a mess. come find me, lets all put an end to freaks like us feeling wrong and fucked up.
ACTAN0NVERBA wow, I have never agreed with someone so much before, I feel the same way.
That was me trying to accept my sexuality, but i'm okay now
The messed up thing is that being messed up is what makes the most beauty and from tragedy comes that which has value. That strange cold world had always been a reflection I would stare into in the mirror. It’s unpopular to care or feel and we are always told that we are trash. Trash was even something that was made because it was needed at one point. Maybe your reality is better than the one you are told to believe in. The one thing i could always cling to is that hating yourself is the worst mistake because it’s usually for reasons that make your life imperative. For those that have to fight and struggle to just be, more is traversed and learned than if things just felt normal or correct. To give in to anyone’s bullshit, even your own is the shadow that will always follow us but it follows you, not the other way around. If you have nothing and you are alone, you are more than most could even have the mind or eyes to see. Own it. At least it’s real. If you feel, it means the world surely needs you and you will find something better than you can imagine now. I’ll never regret crossing the river Styx a million times over again. There are few who can live to tell the tale. Everything that tried to kill me is just a blur not the horizon behind me when I choose to look. That loneliness is inhabited by more of us than I even realize. Don’t let it win; what you need and are meant for will come. I’ll never forget the day it happened to a freak like me. Oh and watch the movie Pump Up the Volume. It always helped me ❤️
Hey, this is my music. Be depressed somewhere else.
Jokes aside, hope you feel a bit better by now.
Listen. I need to explain a lot there, but you might come to the conclusion later on.
A neuroscientist once said that every emotion we feel, every feeling we have and every thought we think is actually just a manifestation of our concious mind, our brain and body to start rearranging things in life.
When we speak about a mental disorder, we talk about things in our head, that are producing a wrong thought process.
In our everyday life, there are things we really enjoy doing. Might be sports, might be spending quality time with family or playing music, beeing a kind person, whatever.
And now there is this society, this life we need to manage in order to keep things running for us.
There is work, there is earning and spending money,( and yes there is a fight club referrence there, ) to buy shit we dont need to impress people we dont like.
And all those things make us question if wasting precious time and money is really worth it in the end.
Because most of the things we do arent really healthy or worth it, but in today society, we have to play a role as consumer, husband, work force... and we forget to spend time with what our body and soul really needs. Sleep. Good food. Quality time with family and friends, in order to achieve goals that arent ours but the ones from societies.
And because we cant have both, we start deciding conciously to numb ourselves to not feel the attrocities of missing the most importsnt part in our lifes. Us and our needs.
When a college says, he needs your help in your break, you counciously decide between "i could rest a little and eat and drink, or reputation and value". And because we could be productiv, and thus more valuable for your team, you decide to stop your sandwich, you numb yourself.
You need to go shift work and mostly miss your significant others time at home, you rather numb to be succesfull, even in hard times, you tell yourself i dont need her atm, am at work. But if you think about her, you migjt need her.
And all of those things add up, day for day, week for week, makes us depressed. We depress all our feelings and because its working for short term, our brain tells us "great work" and kicks in with dopamin for numbing ourselves.
But it slowly becomes like an addiction of painkillers, and if you are numb enough, you dont feel like feeling even when you are next to your partner.
Because its not yourself, but yourself that feels like rather missing or forgetting her while she is next to you, because suprise suprise,thats giving you more dopamin.
Just get in touch with her again, make sure to love yourself and to love her as you should love yourself. Make sure this is giving you more dopamin again than missing her and your friends and family. And its a hard journey, but better start now.
ACTAN0NVERBA i love this and i love you great human
Does any feel so sad that they can’t really feel pain anymore and you just feel numb
Hannah Darcy yesss
Everyday
Yeah my dads abuse has kinda drained all that down the sink
Hannah Darcy yes
all the time
Hey.
You.
You could still be what you want to.
Nona Nah but what if i can't
はな well, you never know until you give it a shot
Nona Nah Can*
Hey, you, yeah you reading this, you look great today, I’m proud of you, no matter how many times life has knocked you down, pushed you to rock bottom, made you scream until you couldn’t, made you cry till you passed out, you kept getting up and going. You’re taking this one step at a time and I’m proud of you for each step you take, recently life’s been hard, I feel like I’m losing my battle with my depression, if I do, I just want you to know how proud of you I am, you’ve made it so far, keep going, you got this, don’t give up now, maybe ask that special someone on a date, buy those things for a new hobby, text that person, spend time with your loved ones, and even if I’m not here for that, and even if you don’t know me, just know that no matter what, and no matter who, I am proud. The fact that you haven’t given up no matter how hard things have gotten, the fact that you’re here with me right now, reading this whole thing, means a lot, I’m proud, I’m so damn proud, keep going, you got this. I wish one day you fall in love with the idea of being alive. I love you, keep being great, here’s my discord if you wanna contact me
ᴸᵃᵃʷⁿʸ@ (copy & paste or tell me your user and i can add you!)
And if that’s not it I will update this as soon as possible, thank you for being here and being great, stay humble, stay great :)
wow, thank you so much...
I love you
thank you so much. you do not know how much i needed this, thank you.
hey u still there? im proud of you too and i love you too
I love you, hope you’re doing okay babe 💕
can i just say i was here before the movie "five feet apart'
aniqdote I knew it existed I just forgot the name
@@Demol1tion-lovers yeah greys took me here.
Me too
definitely fell in love with this song three years ago when I fell in love
Same
To my mom,
We lost you to the medicine.
I'm sorry for your loss, take care.
I’m sorry for your loss.. I’m sure she was a beautiful human being may she Rest In Peace ♥️🇸🇦🇹🇷
im so sorry
Ik how you feel
Stay strong love
“Medicine” in my case.
WHO IS THIS PERSON
I WANT THEIR VOICE STUCK IN MY HEAD FOREVER
誰か someone the artist’s name is daughter
The singer is Elena Tonra. She released a beautiful album of her own under the name "ex:re" too!
The only song I never get tired of listening to
I listened to this song years ago when I was depressed. My first suicide attempt was when I was 11. 5 years later I'm 16 with a great life. I got the chance to be blessed with having a child. I know I'm young, but God gave me a reason to live. I had no reason to live when I was younger. Now I have an amazing boyfriend, I'm having a baby, I have a great supportive family. I couldn't be luckier. If anyone thinks they don't have a reason to live, just wait. You won't regret it, I promise.
I’ve waited my whole life from abusive parents, being used, cutting, I attempted, everyone leaving, and now i literally have no one, no one talks to me even my therapist said I couldn’t be helped I tried to help myself so many times but I can’t plus there’s no reason to because I have nothing to loose and no one will actually notice. So yeah idk I’m probably just gonna do it
@@evie.9385 you can talk to me ❤️
@@evie.9385 try writing everything down that you tried and then think of what you have never tried. A great mind once said "Don't give up because 1/100 times could be the time it works"
@@evie.9385 I'm so sorry for your pain I made a 365 activities and wrote each one on a folded post-it note and placed them all in a mug then everyday of the year I picked one out and it gave you something to look forward to . It could be worth trying.
@@evie.9385 hey evie, it's hard. Everything you've gone through must have been so hard... And listen here, I'm so so proud of you for still being here! life is tough ik that myself. But better times WILL come! When, is something only time can decide. But I promise you it's worth waiting. Have a little bit more patience and try to be strong.. you already were so strong don't throw your hard work away.. if you wanna talk about anything just tell me
I know this may sound cheesy, and maybe no one will read it. I think humans don't need what they think they need. I believe we all need hope, love, and comfort. When you feel like you have nothing, like every part of you is worthless. Just know you are not alone. Because I bet you, a lot of people of all different shapes, colors, religions, countries, and beliefs feel just like you. When you lay in your bed, and the tears come down. Know that I care, and even if I don't know you I still care. You're not worthless nor are you worth any less than any other person on this planet. You're a freaking awesome piece of art called "human". You breath the air and your heart beats and for that you matter.
Jackie G. Thanks you 💜 from Nigeria
Thanks
Your a good person thankyou
awwww.. aren't u a peach?
But there's more than 7 billion other people in the world so that doesn't make me special whatsoever. I'm talentless, fat, ugly and most of all, worthless.
"You've got a warm heart, you've got a beautiful brain, but its disintegrated"
Damn.
I felt that.
Draco Malfoy probably felt it too
It hit him like a ton of bricks.
@@pianopanicattack yup. Draco edits always make me cry
"Mr stark I don't feel so good" lmaooo im sorry
It hit him like Hermione’s fist
@@pianopanicattack Lmao love that
I’m currently listening to this lying in a hospital bed with my legs paralysed. This song hits really different now, especially the lines “you could still be what you want to be, what you said you were, when I met you” and “you’ve got a warm heart, you’ve got a beautiful brain but it’s disintegrating”. I’ve missed so much school recently. It feels like I’m going to be in a wheelchair forever. I’ve only spent 3 days in this hospital but it feels like forever since I’ve been outside of the building. Hopefully life will get better for me and every other person who feels trapped or hopeless.
I hope everything is better dawg 🙁
How are you doing? I hope Christ has filled you with His undying love. I’m here if you ever want to talk. You are so loved.
Dw if you'll see this or not, i pray to god that everything will pe good for you ❤
@ghost I hope life is kinder to you my friend❤
R u ok now
This comments section is filled with the better half of humanity. I'm amazed at how amazing everyone is here. You are all thoughtful, kind, supportive, and loving even to complete strangers.
You know, I hate Humans. I hate it to be a human. Why? Because of their selfish way to live...but I can understand you. Everytime I'm a little bit sad, I search a song like this and read the nice comments. In such a moment I remember, who I am. I remember that humans aren't so bad, and now exists some people which might need me. So, I'm glad. I'm proud. I found my way back, back to me. And that's why I still keep going.
Eh yes...I mean, yeah, it so awesome that people have such postives sides! I'm sorry for tell you all this kind of bullshit xD And sorry for my bad English! ._.
*THE POWER OF MUSIIIIC* x3 Have a nice day, or night or whatever xD
Shuffle Strash And you officially became my favorite person for sharing that in common with me xD
Hahaha thank you xDD
i always feel like i’m doing everything wrong and i’m always disappointing people. i feel as if my friends don’t actually like me. i swear that i’m just an obstacle in everyone’s life. i’m an obstacle in my own life. i’m not able to have fun because nothing i do makes me happy or feel the same as i used to. i also hate my body and have been not eating as much because all the other girls are so skinny and beautiful and i look like i just crawled out of a sewer. i’m always trying to be perfect and act the way others want me too, but i’m too loud..too hyper for that. i try to be calm but it never works. i don’t really fit in with anyone. i feel like i get on my friends nerves which is why i barely ever talk to them and i stay in my room to avoid having to talk to my family. they aren’t bad people and they treat me amazing. it’s just i’m scared that i’ve done something wrong and don’t even realize it. i know my dad wouldn’t act like my mom did if something did happen but i’m still scared. i never really know how everyone will react to something i do. my mom used to be mad and take it out on me sometimes. mostly verbally except if it was something i did that was considered « really bad » . i used to say in my room so much when i was living with her that she would drag me out of my room. wasn’t exactly helpful to me trying to cheer myself up when i was upset all the time. she’d take the door off my room sometimes if i wanted to be alone and didn’t let my younger siblings in there. anyways i live with my dad now and i’m slowly getting happier..? kind of. i still feel so self conscious and scared of everything all the time. people say i’m just being an r/im14andthisisdeep girl but, i had a really rough time growing up and i am very sensitive to when people get mad at me. when i breakdown in school sometimes it’s blamed on hormones and everyone ignores me. that’s cool i guess except i’d like to have someone to talk to without them interrupting and telling me about how everything for them is worse. i just want someone to listen to me about nothing in particular that is bothering me. especially since i’m year 23’. people already hate the freshmen at this school, it really doesn’t help the fact that i’m upset all the time. they always say we are being dramatic or whatever. i probably sound dramatic right now. i just thought it felt nice to actually be able to talk without being interrupted or them making dumb jokes to try and make me feel better. i know they try to help sometimes but i just want them to listen to me so i can express my feelings without feeling like i’m being annoying or nobody’s listening to me. i feel that way all the time and people try to tell me they care. i don’t think they actually do considering they don’t act that way. i do all kinds of shit for them yet they still treat me less than them. i’m not in the « weird kid group » at school or whatever nor am i unpopular, but i still feel like i don’t actually have any real friends except one but we are slowly drifting off because i’ve been such an asshole to her. if you see this which is unlikely i’m so sorry i’m such a bitch. i don’t know what’s changed since 8th grade or why i am the why i am. i know i seem like such a dick of a person. just know every time on snap when you ask if i’m mad at i’m not. i still love you and i know you’re trying to pull our relationship back together. i’ve been thinking about how to do it but i can’t think of a way to do so without me saying something wrong and it coming out the wrong way. i miss when we hung out every weekend and a lot of the times all week. i know you do too because you have said so. we were talking about going to the skatepark i think we should. talk about everything.
anyways sorry i left such a long message..i don’t care if you read it or not i just needed to be able to rant without interruptions. it’d be nice to do it irl but nobody will listen so i did this
Idiot Sandwich hi your comment made me sob please dm me on insta Moniqueesun
I felt that with my soul
I feel the same :(
If You need someone to talk to My insta is micahbutterfield_
You somehow had the power to make me cry. I’m so sorry you have to feel this, im very genuinely sorry and i hope things get better bit by bit. Please hold on and clutch to every ounce of power inside you, you’ll be okay, you’ll be fine and you’ll pull yourself up and you’ll be the happiest you’ve ever been. Please talk to your friend and try to explain to her how you feel, it’s always better when there’s communication. I hope she understands you and realizes how much you care about your friendship. I hope you have a lifetime of happiness.
Please pray for my mom she’s in the hospital 😖😢
Jesus Christ how’s she doing now? if you don’t mind me asking..
We’re all Mad here I just prayed I know it’s 6 months later but, how is she. I hope everything turned out ok
shinõa chan God Bless God loves you very much
Omg I'm so sorry😭😭😭
Dear lord I take a moment to pray for her mom I hope she will get better keep her and her fam under ur watch
WTF happened to me last night while listening for the first time is something not for the faint hearted. Transfixed to a whole new level and appreciation. The unexpected inner rush of my blood moving through my body, my heart beats to the rush of the sounds that felt like I was floating and feeling comfort that totally blew me away. I'm 49 and that was an experience totally unexpected. Thankyou it is just what I needed right then.
Honestly I am not depressed at all I just love this type of music.
same though
Same!
Same XD
me too :)
and do you know other song like that please ? :)
"I love walking in the rain, because no one can see me crying."
-Mr. Bean
omg same
I think Charlie Chaplin
I don't know if I'm ment to cry or laugh at this
I thought Charlie Chaplin said that
Kqly vac ban that was some poetic shit
my son died almost 4 years ago, and listening to this song makes me think about how much i miss him, yet somehow feel that even now, without him i would not be the person i am today.
+XxDJReasonxX Oh man, I'm so sorry. You have to remember that your not alone, many other people go through it. Stay strong.
+XxDJReasonxX Your name is XxDJReasonxX. I doubt you ever got a girlfriend.
+JasonProds lol it's just a name bro....and yeah, do some research before you start flappin those loose ass lips homie. Sounds like you got some insecurities to deal with.
I'm so sorry, I can't imagine what you must have gone through. Please stay strong and know that me and many others like you are supporting you.
I just cried..😔 I bet he is very proud of you.
These are the type of songs I used to cry my eyes out to. I still could if I wanted to, but now I listen to them to make sure I can hold back tears. So I can make sure I know how to not cry. I made people spend too long on me. Making sure I was ok. Hearing about my problems. I dont want to do that to people anymore. These are my problems. Not anyone else's.
What can heal can also hurt. Never forget that. Family, medicine, friends, love. Be careful who you trust and what you do, but also appreciate what you have and who you are. You are a beautiful person worthy of everyone's love, and if noone sees that, then they must be blind. Never give up hope. Although it may seem tough, it WILL pass. Show how strong you are and make it through! :)
people say “it’s going to be okay” but is it really? or will it only get worse?
yea, or do we jus get used to it ?
50 50
good for u
I love you and you matter okay bebe?
Nobody knows but it's worth trying
It seems to me it's about a girl who is losing somebody she loves to an illness and that person is refusing treatment which is why she's saying it's just medicine, but at the same time she knows it's ruining that person's spirit. However, she does not want to loose them. Therefore, she keeps insisting that it's "just medicine" and that they could have a "second chance."
Interesting thought, but I don't think that's the case. She sings "You've got a beautiful brain, but it's disintegrating from all the medicine". To me I think it's more related to people with illnesses like cancer, or alzheimers. People who are in a sense "there" but not entirely the same person they used to be. Throughout the song she says "you could still be, what you want to." I think that is more about coming to terms with your condition, and reliving your last most wanted moments before passing.
To me "it's just medicine" sounds almost ironic, if not mocking, almost as if a nurse were to tell you that without showing any regard. Something we are so dependant on, something that drags out our existance just a little bit longer, but for some unfortunate people, that means living an empty life. Perhaps the song is trying to point out that sometimes it's better to let go, as in starting over again, instead of dragging out life which in the midst of your sickness has no purpose any longer.
Anyways your guess is of course as good as mine. Many times the writer is not even thinking about anything special or intricate, just simply writing lyrics.
Annabelle Rose
Sounds more like someone who is wasting their beautiful life & potential by not giving up their vice. Bottle of liquor, bottle of pills, pipe, needle, something that prevents them from being what they want to. They've got a warm heart, they got a beautiful brain, but it's disintegrating from all the medicine. Medicine they're taking to avoid dealing with their issues.
I think its about drug use, and when the girl first met her the boy was nice, charming but he slowly changed to abusive, mean, shit like that...
Annabelle Rose Actually it is about the numbing effects of anti-depressants.
ninjablox how would you know that for sure?
Mom asks: how many times you going to listen to that song!?
Me: as many times it takes for it to fill the hole that's in my soul
Thank you for this comment. I love you. Okay
I love you too bby
as if the song alone isnt enough to make me cry, now yuo have to go and say this.
But it's le truth
Mom: Stop being melodramatic. Also, you have counseling starting Monday now.
Today I found out my baby brother is dead. Although I never met him and neither did anyone else I developed a connection.
It really sucks thinking about the memories we could’ve created but now we can’t. I’m losing everyone and it’s starting to hurt real bad. I’ve always managed to hide emotions and I’m starting not to be able to. I’ve lost so much. I lost 3 friends to suicide in 1 month. I’ve lost my dad, I’ve lost my grandad, my nana, some of my animals and now my baby brother. I can’t be bothered to deal with anymore shit. It feels like life is a test and I’m failing so fucking hard. I just want a break. Please.
i hope your fine now :(
Jeaneth Anasco I’m a lot better now, thanks love ♡
IM SO SORRY 🙏🏼💔
It's not the end. Life will throw many problems at us. We are all humans, we are not perfect, we have flaws, we breakdown sometimes, we sometimes get lost into these cracks but just know this chapter of life will end n u will enter a beautiful chapter. Don't lose faith sweetie there's always new opportunity coming out. We can't control what we lost, we can't change it anymore but we can take charge of our future. Don't stress yourself out, it's not your fault sometimes it's just fate but we just want to blame ourselves because we are too kind. You have survived, you can take a break but just don't end it ❤️🌻
im really sorry about everything that’s happened
Daughter's lyrics make me look at words I would see every day in a brand new light.
Roses are dying
Violets are crying
Outside I'm smiling
Inside. I'm crying
U cant use the same word twice smh
SAVANNAH SCOTT. DON'T SAY THAT
Happy Shi* i feel like that ti
@@angelapolinar9032 its truu
I don't care they can do that if there want to
This song was one of those times where i was on the verge of breaking down, and the perfect song came up and told me just what i needed to hear.. and i cried and let it all out.. and kept going...
Whatever it is you're going through, I could only just imagine. I know we don't know each other but I want to tell you that you're worth it. Stay Strong Beautiful x
Nancy Phung People like you are the essence of the human spirit :) thank you
***** no honey, just looking out for another being.
that moment when you realize that the person that you once loved doesn’t love you back.
Goddamn that's pathetic
I feel this so much it hurts. Idk how humans can be so mf cruel
My first love. Was stuck that way for two years. I finally realized when when she broke up with me and I found out she was cheating on me for months. Been afraid of love and yet wanted it again ever since. I know, I'm pathetic. Sorry for wasting your time. Have a good day.
shit this hit hard
@@heathercarlson3181 don how tf is someone cruel for not reciprocating love? That's such a toxic standpoint, you have to accept that people feel the way people feel. They may like us or they may not. Suck it up and stop saying the world is so cruel.
that moment when you realize you put everyone first, but no one ever puts you first.....
damn are y'all ok in the comments section here jfc
lmao word like i just came here to listen to a good song but apparently the comments section is one big 12 year old girl with a tumblr, deviantart and depressing finsta
hell no
@@creature6153 lmao same, cringe
" Oh no I'm super depressed pls sub to me "
Hell nah
a very close friendship that i had with someone ended so terribly, and it left me feeling so empty and lost. If only medicine would work
It gets better trust me
we all need medicine
My best friend moved away:(
i totally feel you, i'm still in recovery or withdrawal from my friend more or less
Estefania Castillo its a pain that won't leave, and i can't do anything about :(
At first I thought - If I ever come across you, I might forget how to breathe. Soon enough I realized. I wasn't breathing all along. You'd be the air in my lungs. You'd give me an opportunity to glance at life and how it should be. You're all I need.
And in your absence I've built love. I hide it under my pillow, like most people do. They all love like crazy, but as soon as dawn opens their eyes and their dreams collide with reality they decide to wrap up those emotions in a garbage bag and throw it away when no one's looking. I love you and I hate it, but I cannot let go. It feels like chewing a tasteless piece of gum, longing for that last bit of juice while tasting your spit. You're all I need.
And I'm not confused. I'm not even love crazed. I swear I'm not bipolar. But I hate being in love with you. And it's amazing!
This has got to be one of the most beautiful things I have ever read.
+Tyrone Mynhardt Thank you so much :')
+Marinelioo Thank you so much :') I'm really glad you like it
powerful.
Pleum Thank you!
Losing loved ones is hard. Watching them lose themselves is harder. Mental illnesses kill a person before they die. Cancer etc kill a person before they die. Illnesses and medicines both kill people. They kill their spirit and their head. It’s the most heart breaking thing.
This song is so special to me.
To all of you out there, who are living or passing thru a difficult moment in your life, keep strong keep fighting. I know what it is fighting depression, fighting with your own suicidal thoughts, been fighting this on my own for the last 10 years. Until recently, I had a meltdown, could not cope with it. I was on the brink to end it all until I started to ask what I want. The reply after so many times repeating the question I finally found the answer, "I want to live". That was the moment I searched for help and after 2 months of seeing a psychotherapist I am finally finding peace, dealing and accepting what my past was, the traumas that I endured. I just want you to know that no one is alone, there is always help. Please do not give up! Never! Be safe, I love you xx
thank you so much. i needed this.
The fact that it took ten years and it’s only been a year and I’m so close to ending, makes me feel like I won’t make it
@@LaoiseSmyth I been there and I still sometimes have my fall backs, but please hang in there you've been fighting all this time, you made it this far. You're a warrior, a winner, and winners they never give up! Much love xx
@@LaoiseSmyth it's been 2 years. Hope you are doing all well!
@@Rod22 hi how are you doing?? i have to say that the fact that you came back here and wrote the person that replied to you after two years really made me smile. i love small acts of kindness like yours. take care and stay safe xx
To all the people feeling sad out there. I just wanna tell you that you're amazing and nothing can stop you from becoming great. Bad times will come and we need to face them. " If greatness was easy then there would be no fun achieveing it " so just keeping working on yourself. You're beautiful. Go get it! ❤
Hey you crybaby!
Come here. *pulls you to a warm hug and pats your back*
;w;
thank you :
I needed that, thank you ❤
Thank you
Thank you so much. I really needed that. ❤
I heard this song the first time on “the vow”. It’s such a beautiful song that hits home so closely. ‘You can still be who You want. Who you said you were when you met me.’ And ‘you’ve got a beautiful heart; you’ve got a beautiful mind, but it’s disintegrating’. Daughter completely shook my world by hearing this song. I have many mental health issues and addiction issues. Everyday is a struggle and I am not who I want to be, but I can go back to who I wanted to be if I want. Uhh my heart... my heart..
Just a happy comment passing through :D hope you're having a great day!!
Kreamations Thanks, you as well. ^__^
Joey Rozic
Kreamations What? Why would you do that :(
nDCasT Why would i be happy? dumb question, i just like the song.
Kreamations Listen to 'Peacock Affect - Wallflower'
I am fortunate enough to have my family and friends, so when I read these comments, I feel like I should be more grateful. Remember, be grateful for who you have and what you have. A lot of people do not have both their parents and are going through a tough time. I have been feeling depressed for a while and have been told that it's nothing and that it's just me feeling sad or sorry for myself. If you need to talk to someone, talk to someone you trust to have your back through thick and thin. I hope that you get through your problems and that you feel better. It helps me to feel better by helping other people who are less fortunate than me, so if you feel bad, tell someone that you care. Don't tell them, "It will get better." because who knows, maybe it won't. But at least let them know that they're cared for and loved. :)
Absolutely love this song. So peaceful, yet sad, but beautiful.
Same goes for the remix by Joji. Incredible feeling to these lyrics, regardless of their genre.
^
Relevantly Wordless. Diversified... Priceless Love
I'm in a depressing mood so I'm gonna type depressing shit because I have no where else to vent except to strangers who don't even care about me anyways lol.
My mom, someone who's supposed to be my role model, my rock, my inspiration, fought with me.
I brought up good news. "I can be in Naval Science for senior year, so I'd have to take a year break but they'll let me come back."
She didn't seem happy, even though she wanted me to be in Naval Science.
Since my mother and I have a relationship that's unfixable, it escalated from literally good news to "Your dad is fucking stupid and can't realize the mistakes he made, I don't have to apologize to you because I didn't do anything."
(Keep in mind, I was hinting that I wanted an apology for all the times she's emotionally abused me because I just really needed to know that she did care, and she wouldn't apologize.)
I cried so much, trying to get her to see my point of view on things, yet all went to shit when she got me so hurt to the point where I told her I "fucking hate" her.
I needed to vent because it's really painful to cry right now because my jaw is aching from it.
I wanted her to apologize because understand this, physical pain is temporary, we know it goes away, hence why self harm exists. Emotional pain doesn't, and I've been belittled, insulted, and bashed for so long, and I'm only 16.
So much drama to experience in just 16 years of life.
I want to start over. With new family members, and friends that I can actually trust.
I don't want to feel emotional pain anymore, I don't want to feel any of it.
I know it's never gonna happen, it's never gonna go away.
But a girl can dream, right?
I care for your story.
Hi... today’s my 13th birthday and I too have an abusive family. My dad is just so scary... and I just wanted to say I care about u because a girl can relate :,)
Idk you but feel free to hmu bc I feel the same way.
You need to find your own family in friends that don't abuse you and make you feel safe...don't give up. Just don't go into a bad relationship stay clear you deserve better
Don't worry you've got a warm heart and a beautiful face lels
that goes for alcohol as well, or any kind of drugs that slowly eats you away
lulubeloo calpol really fucks your brain over
does love count?
Andromeda Man yes, yes it does
Sometimes love messes you up...But Sometimes, its just the best feeling that'll get you healed
#Wurf
Pick it up, pick it all up
And start again
You've got a second chance
You could go home
Escape it all
It's just irrelevant
It's just medicine
It's just medicine
You could still be
What you want to
What you said you were
When I met you
You've got a warm heart
You've got a beautiful brain
But it's disintegrating
From all the medicine
From all the medicine
From all the medicine
Medicine
You could…
Still hurts me to hear this song :) Glad ive found it again. its filled a gap I had forgotten, Thank you.
There’s a “Hell” in hello,
“Good” in goodbye,
“Lie” in believe,
“Over” in lover,
“End” in friend
And an “If” in life.
Be strong, someone cares I promise!
I’m depressed but I can get through it, I know I’m stronger than I let myself believe, and know u are strong!!
I know your tiered, your fed up
But there’s strength within you,
Keep fighting!
Thank you for saying this
Sofia Nola you mean bye in goodbye
You caused 19 people to cry to this comment
Sofia Nola thank you so much
I have loved this song since it came out and it’s in 5 feet apart now
i cried at that part so hard lol