the moment when your own loving family doesn’t realize that you really are dying slowly..but you stand there in front of them, scratching away your life slowly.
try telling someone minor details reveal what you are feeling slowly. let one of closest family members or friend be your medicine. tell them gradually you dont have to tell them all at once go at your own pace
Coming back to this song gives me chills. Last time I heard it, I was 15 and suicidal. I’m now 19, moved out of the shitty state I lived in, and starting my second year of college. Things get better, they really do. It takes time and that time is worth waiting for.
people saying "cringe" in the comments to others who are pouring their hearts and life stories out there shows exactly how much compassion we've lost as a society for one another
It’s not that, it’s all the people who claim they’re going through depression, but it’s all the same stuff. All these people talking about abusive parents, self harm, and they always sound so... droning. On and on and on they talk and talk and talk. But it sounds so fake. Some people are actually suffering from depression and can’t express themselves without being calling a fake because no one can tell the difference anymore
@@Bee-fu9uz I mean ur right bc we r all misunderstood, but it doesn't make the right to think we r fake, I'm not ganna tell my story tho I keep that personal. But just a heads up, listen to their stories, see how hurt they r, be in their shoes! Just... Listen and u will understand, listen and u can hear their cry, listen and u can feel their pain, just listen and think how horrible our relationship as a society was and what it has become... Look for the details, hear for our silent screams, and just think...
Oh I have. I’m part of the gacha community That means posting or watching a sad mini movie or music video and then have to listen to all the people saying they’re going through depression. And it’s all the same stuff. Some people lie about abusive parents, and abusive partners, etc... it’s sad, because now, I’m here talking about it, and people are soon going to be mad at me for “ignoring” depression While I believe it is real and should be taken seriously, there are too many people out there who think they’re depressed
@@Bee-fu9uz I mean I totally agree that it should be taken seriously and that people should actually think about it deeply to see if they r actually in depression or if they r lying to themselves. But things about abusive parents aren't fake ok, I even had an abusive Dad who even shot a man bc he was so drunk! I'm also apart of the gatcha community and some might just be based off a movie they saw or just a mini movie they just wanted to make and some r real u can tell if they r real or not so watch out for that ok but maybe if u think those things just keep em to urself so u don't get people mad at u... Ok?
It’s Just Aimee why would someone randomly comment their fake traumas on a youtube video? childhood trauma and depression is way more common than you’d think. sometimes people who have dealt with those things flock to certain videos to communicate things they otherwise couldn’t say irl. it’s very unfair of you to just assume that most people are faking.
That awkward moment when you think you're important to someone, and you're not. (EDIT: It has been 5 years since I commented this, and it was just a quote I saw online. Wow! I just wanted to say to anyone who is struggling, please do not give up. Your life is so much more important than you will ever know. Over the years, I have gotten a lot better, and realized my worth. I will not lie, depression is still a struggle, but I promise you, things get better, please don’t give up. 🖤)
And finally when you get to feel something for yourself its when you realize they might not love you back anymore or they never did to begin with. Its hard
This song reminds me of my brother. He’s a drug addict and when it says “you’ve got a beautiful brain but it’s disintegrated from all the medicine” it hits a bit different. It’s crazy how a song can hit so close to home and mean something different to every person.
@UCHbXDlUUTkeSJ98GS8_5lQQ same here, I get cravings sometimes but songs like this help me stay on the good path. There is help if you look for it, remember who you are, and when it gets better, always remember where you came from and how far you've come. Love yourself and be good to others, remember that there is a place for you in the world.
I hope your brother got clean,I'm four months sober from fentanyl praying my kids dad gets sober. This song always reminds me of him,I didn't know 10 years later this song would mean so much to me
My best friend got into a car crash, she ended up in the hospital... After she went into a coma for 6 years I almost gave up, then I heard this song. I learned all the lyrics and I sang it to her, three weeks later she woke up and got to go home. I am truly great full that God said it was not her time to leave this planet.
@@shyla9062 because it's a public platform and they thought people might relate. Does it really matter? You shouldn't comment just to start arguments or post opinions nobody asked for :)
im sitting at my window right now wondering when am i gonna change when am i going to find drugs to make me happier for a moment or find true happiness authentically i dont know but i do right now this very second i am waiting patiently and will continue to sometimes i wake up and dont know if i should even get up, but i do and things seem to feel a lil better almost as if me living in my head isnt all i feel there's definitely a part of me that wants to be here but doesnt know to show it
@@travischristian9134 acceptance. They'll always be there, lurking, but it's how you let them effect you is the difference. Thoughts are just thoughts at the end of the day. Meditate, learn to recognize them, and learn to let them float by and live in the present.
I lost my mom to drugs and this song always makes be cry. She chose medicine over her family. Seeing her downfall hurt my soul so much. I miss you ma. Mental health and addiction is not a kind beast. It’s been years since she’s passed but I wake everyday wanting to end my life. Please hug your loved ones.
i am so sorry for your loss. please stay safe and take care of yourself. i might be just a random stranger on the internet but i sincerely do care. sending you lots of love and hugs.
I hope you heal and find happiness within yourself someday. Life is unfair and unkind sometimes. But you are worthy to live it, dance in the rain, meet new people, listen to your favorite music, etc. Keep fighting angel!❤️
When I was at the peak of my depression, I used to stay up all night in the darkness. Doing absolutely nothing. Then at dawn, when the sky would turn orange I would play this song and think inspite of life being so beautiful, why couldn't I learn to be happy?
Bro I feel you. I remember just staring at the ceiling and watching it grow dark, even though I’m scared of the dark, I would never turn on the lights cuz I was waiting for the monsters to take me away. This was one of the song I’d listen to for hours on end and just stare
i feel this though, there are so many nights where i just can’t bring myself to sleep. i just feel so empty i can’t do it and i’ll sit in my windowsill looking out at the streetlights until morning
Years ago when I was 12 I used to listen to this song religiously when I was alone at night crying. I was dealing with anorexia, losing friends from isolating myself, bullying, daily arguments with my family and “best friend”, my grades dropped, the one of the few people I had left close to me die and such. I felt it was worthless. In February I planned to kill myself in may if I didn’t get better as it been going on for 4 years then and said f it all as I would be dead. I stopped caring and there slowly threw everything I knew and did away. I was planning my letters out and I would drink to cope with everything around then, whether that was alone in my room or in the school day. Things finally were going better in may that I felt if I pushed longer that I would regret considering suicide. Everything got better and Just last week I finally put a quit to drinking as I no longer felt the need for it anymore and want to put an end before it led to addiction as I’ll soon have full access to alcohol. I also have a new amazing group of friends who make me want to get up in the morning on my bad days. I may still deal with things every now and then but Im happy and want to experience life. Im 17 now and I just want to share my story to others, just like people did years ago did of their recovery in the comments to give people that glimmer of hope or show that people out here understand and know your pain. if you ever need to talk I’m here :)
Dear person reading this, I hope your day has been going well, if not, I hope it gets better You are an amazing person who will inspire others to do great things so keep up the hard work. I know you may feel unimportant or insecure at the moment but know that you are a beautiful human being inside and out and you are important! Sometimes we just need such a message! I hope this comment helped you a bit and if not, I'm sorry Sincerely, Me, a fellow fallen angel.
I miss 4-5 years ago. Elementary school. I miss going to Football games on Friday night and Saturday mornings. I miss my Elementary friends. I miss the feeling of happiness that I had. I miss not being anxious. I miss playing on the playground. I miss field trips. I miss my old house. I miss my old town. I miss the plaza in town. I miss watching Christmas movies on the couch. I miss playing on my ds. I remember when I was like 5, I would look at teenagers and think “I can’t wait till I’m a teenager” now here I am, 14 and a freshmen wishing I could go back. The thoughts of the pasts are consuming. But I think out of everything, I miss myself the most.
To anyone else who digs their fingernails into their skin just so they can feel, to anyone who folds into their self and cries because no one else seems to understand, to the people like me, out there, looking for someone like them. I hope someone finds you. And saves you. Because boy do we all need saving. Trying so hard for so long to save everyone else from the imploding bomb that is us. Save us please. Thank you.
JediGeneral B Yes. We do need saving. But no ones going to save us and risk getting themselves trapped too. Life is just one big mess nowadays. We NEED to save EACH OTHER. Because soon, it's going to be too late for us. Stay strong angel x
my first ever kiss & boyfriend ended up being someone who was at one point my best friend years later. he taught me a lot and was one of the most unique, special people i know. he slowly but surely got way more into harder drugs at the age of 17. percocet, molly, coke, xanax, you name it. even if we had drifted apart slightly at this point, i knew he didn’t do it to be cool, he did it to escape. drugs and music were his medicine quite frankly. november 27th, 2018 he decided to take his life. i miss him so fucking much. all i can think of is how much i regret letting myself drift away from him and not help him get clean. both him and i didn’t necessarily believe in an afterlife, but with any sort of luck in the universe i hope he’s in a place where he’s happy and finally at peace & knows how much we all loved him. we miss you ethan. love you man❣️
Don't blame yourself you can't help someone get clean it's impossible I am currently trying everything it's there choice don't blame yourself and be proud you didn't sink into it to like me
Im so sorry for your loss, it must have felt really terrible losing someone to those pills , esecially knowing they did it to escape from what they're struggling 😭😭
I’m currently listening to this lying in a hospital bed with my legs paralysed. This song hits really different now, especially the lines “you could still be what you want to be, what you said you were, when I met you” and “you’ve got a warm heart, you’ve got a beautiful brain but it’s disintegrating”. I’ve missed so much school recently. It feels like I’m going to be in a wheelchair forever. I’ve only spent 3 days in this hospital but it feels like forever since I’ve been outside of the building. Hopefully life will get better for me and every other person who feels trapped or hopeless.
Hey, you, yeah you reading this, you look great today, I’m proud of you, no matter how many times life has knocked you down, pushed you to rock bottom, made you scream until you couldn’t, made you cry till you passed out, you kept getting up and going. You’re taking this one step at a time and I’m proud of you for each step you take, recently life’s been hard, I feel like I’m losing my battle with my depression, if I do, I just want you to know how proud of you I am, you’ve made it so far, keep going, you got this, don’t give up now, maybe ask that special someone on a date, buy those things for a new hobby, text that person, spend time with your loved ones, and even if I’m not here for that, and even if you don’t know me, just know that no matter what, and no matter who, I am proud. The fact that you haven’t given up no matter how hard things have gotten, the fact that you’re here with me right now, reading this whole thing, means a lot, I’m proud, I’m so damn proud, keep going, you got this. I wish one day you fall in love with the idea of being alive. I love you, keep being great, here’s my discord if you wanna contact me ᴸᵃᵃʷⁿʸ@ (copy & paste or tell me your user and i can add you!) And if that’s not it I will update this as soon as possible, thank you for being here and being great, stay humble, stay great :)
when i woke up this song js played and im replaying it bc its beautiful her voice and the meaning of the song is beautiful, im so sorry for the ppl who have lost loved ones or ppl who are going through a break up or abuse or abusive parents and depression im gonna pray for all of you, this song may be 12 yrs old and im 14 yrs old in 2024. Dear Lord, i pray that every single one of these people in the comments and outside of these comments find what they're looking for in life, i pray that whatever that's happening to them you are watching over. Lord many people are struggling in your world of creation and im so sorry few people don't realize how amazing you are and haven't found you yet. I pray for all the broken hearted to be healed and all the depressed ones and ones who have lost they re loved ones and the ones fighting in the wars for us, i pray for the homeless and the patients in the hospital fighting they're lives to be here. I pray for the elder i pray for the youth i pray that you show all of us who you really are because i know everyone needs you in your live just as well as I do. I pray for all the ones who are feeling as if they need to harm themselves or end they're lives. I pray for all the people who did die in the wars fighting for us, the children and parents who have killed themselves due to bullying, I pray you just heal this world and the people in it. Lord thank you for all that you have done for us I pray that everyone realizes the things you do is for a reason, you are not here to harm us you are here to love and forgive us for our sins that we make. Thank you lord for everything and for waking every single one of us in the mornings in Jesus name Amen. ❤
Don't forget that you can always try again! Dont give up, dont lose hope, and those who are strong and determined can pass the boss fight, depression. Hope you beat that level! :)
I have been an addict my entire life. Addicted to self harm, to drama, to toxicity, to drugs, to adrenaline, to people. I have been to rehab, jail, prison, you name it. I want every single one of you struggling to know that it takes time and it takes struggling every single day, but it does get better. I’m 22. I was released from prison 2 months ago. I am 26 months sober from self harm. 18 months sober from drugs. Every single day I contemplate relapsing, but through all of this I have found the ability to tell myself no. Keep fighting. Love yourself. And stay hydrated. I love each and every one of you.
Tired Idiosyncratic Cat seriously, lol. fuck you honestly just fuck you, stating the clear obvious that i do not want too read or hear, joys of life man. itll be nice, too have a beer with you.
DrStarfucker you think I havent done that ive done everything I can do you think I want this shit to happen to me no I don't but thanks for putting your FUCKING opinion that I don't give a FUCK about☺
WTF happened to me last night while listening for the first time is something not for the faint hearted. Transfixed to a whole new level and appreciation. The unexpected inner rush of my blood moving through my body, my heart beats to the rush of the sounds that felt like I was floating and feeling comfort that totally blew me away. I'm 49 and that was an experience totally unexpected. Thankyou it is just what I needed right then.
Losing loved ones is hard. Watching them lose themselves is harder. Mental illnesses kill a person before they die. Cancer etc kill a person before they die. Illnesses and medicines both kill people. They kill their spirit and their head. It’s the most heart breaking thing. This song is so special to me.
These are the type of songs I used to cry my eyes out to. I still could if I wanted to, but now I listen to them to make sure I can hold back tears. So I can make sure I know how to not cry. I made people spend too long on me. Making sure I was ok. Hearing about my problems. I dont want to do that to people anymore. These are my problems. Not anyone else's.
I love how the comment section is full of people telling their stories. Even though I don’t have a very meaningful story, I will still tell it because I know that this comment section is full of people who will care. When I was born, my parents were drug addicts and weren’t ready for a baby. They really weren’t. So they didn’t treat me well. I was abused and neglected. I don’t remember anything from that time (thank the lord) but my mom tells me stories from then. My connection with my new mother is special. She is my cousin. Our connection is extra special. I am actually related to her. Its hard to think about the past that I lived in. I no longer have contact with my real mother. I would like to meet her to show her how much of a good person I have grown up to be, but not for a while. Honestly I dont blame my parents. Yes, they could be better prepared. Yes, they could've been better parents. I dont blame them. Im so happy that I am with the family that I am now. The reason why I am in a safe, loving, and caring environment now is because of my birth mother. She acknowledged that she wasn't fit to be a mother, so she gave me up. Like I said, my mother now tells me stories about my childhood. When I first came to my family, I wasn't used to being able to cry. I used to not cry because I would get beaten if I did. Its awfully sad. I am so happy and lucky that I am in a safe place now. If you are going through anything sad or horrible just know that you are loved. I care about you. No matter who you are. I dont think there are bad people, just people who do bad things
Ok so the mirror is my worst nightmare because there’s no chance to hide the truth of my emotions It reflects my emotions and i can’t see myself cry And can’t see myself anyways I hate myself and I hate what a mirror shows me😴
It hits me hard for me too because I cant escape at home. I had problems with my family and on top of being bullied at school. So yeah irrelevant to escape there for sure.
My mom passed away 1 week ago. This song is so sad and it makes me cry a lot. It’s really sad and hard to know that i will never see her again or talk to her or hug her. But she will always be in my heart so my dear good people in this comments hug your mom or go for a walk with here . Because you never know when will you last time see somebody.
I want you guys to know that no matter what you are going through right now please don't leave us, you are far too precious and someone out there in this big world needs you, whether it's in the future or now. Stay strong beautiful, because we love and need you here❤
This song reminds me of how far addiction drove me away from who I was as a person. Nice charming smart hardworking caring. Until the day i started chasing a dream that only exist in another world. It is a long hard road back ,But anything is possible just never forget who you really are.Remember love is all that really matters.
+Jason Jewell RESPECT. Sometimes, the best people have been through the most shit to last 4 life times and they STILL come back to reality and get on with their lives and pursue what makes them happy! I hope you do well in life!
Listen this dude, another world by electus..... all of his stuff is good especially peace of mind and kingdom of lions.... but trust me this would help you and everybody else get through your hard time
Listen this dude, another world by electus..... all of his stuff is good especially peace of mind and kingdom of lions.... but trust me this would help you and everybody else get through your hard time
So... If you scrolled through the comments, and just happened to go by this comment, maybe listen? Hear me out? People say that society has given up, that we lock are doors and shut our windows. We may all be strangers in this comment section, but everyone here is encouraging and trying to help. People are giving advise to those who are giving up to fast. People are telling their experience and what they are still going through. We all care, because if we didn’t? Then why even comment in the first place. Thank you for sharing your stories, you are truly one of a kind? You are brave, you are fighting, and you need to have hope. Life is hopes, and wishes that come true, sometimes? Life only gives you a push, but you need to work your way to the top? Or have you already gave up? Have you tried trying? I’m not saying you have, or haven’t. All I’m saying is that you is the only you there is ever gonna be so? Are you gonna waste yourself? Or are you gonna show everyone, what you’ve gone through and what your going to do now?
I find myself coming back here a lot, trying to pick myself up and being everything I ever said I'd be but it's so difficult and suffocating and feels like it's not even worth it half of the time. Life is painful. Even breathing feels like a painful task to complete.
I actually can't cry, I haven't cried for at least a year. I've just been numb, like a cold and dark attic where everything is dusted over. I still feel sad though. Anyone else or just me..?
This comments section is filled with the better half of humanity. I'm amazed at how amazing everyone is here. You are all thoughtful, kind, supportive, and loving even to complete strangers.
You know, I hate Humans. I hate it to be a human. Why? Because of their selfish way to live...but I can understand you. Everytime I'm a little bit sad, I search a song like this and read the nice comments. In such a moment I remember, who I am. I remember that humans aren't so bad, and now exists some people which might need me. So, I'm glad. I'm proud. I found my way back, back to me. And that's why I still keep going. Eh yes...I mean, yeah, it so awesome that people have such postives sides! I'm sorry for tell you all this kind of bullshit xD And sorry for my bad English! ._. *THE POWER OF MUSIIIIC* x3 Have a nice day, or night or whatever xD
I heard this song the first time on “the vow”. It’s such a beautiful song that hits home so closely. ‘You can still be who You want. Who you said you were when you met me.’ And ‘you’ve got a beautiful heart; you’ve got a beautiful mind, but it’s disintegrating’. Daughter completely shook my world by hearing this song. I have many mental health issues and addiction issues. Everyday is a struggle and I am not who I want to be, but I can go back to who I wanted to be if I want. Uhh my heart... my heart..
Dear Lora. We lost you to the medicine. It’s okay. I know you didn’t mean it. I know all you wanted in your life was for your children to have a good life, and be happy, but you weren’t happy. You didn’t have to stay with a man who made you unhappy. You didn’t have to drink that night. You didn’t have to take a pill that night. A pill you knew you shouldn’t take. I never thought I’d be attending your funeral. A year later, we all miss you. I’m sorry. I’m sorry you’re gone and now your kids are sad because they miss you. I’m sorry your youngest son will never remember his mother, her voice and her smell. I’m sorry that over time I will forget a lot about you. I’m sorry I forgot your voice. You’re my second mother, Rest beautifully dear. :(
Dear Riley, Please don't leave me. Dear Amanda, Please don't leave me. Dear my dad, Please don't leave me. Dear my sister, Please don't leave me. Dear Brianna, Please don't leave me. Dear Micah, Please don't leave me. Dear Taylor, Please don't leave me. Dear Chris, Please don't leave me. Dear Amelia, Please don't leave me. Dear Ashton, Please don't leave me. Dear Ainsley, Please don't leave me. Dear Amber, Please don't leave me. Dear Avery, Please don't leave me. Dear Mrs. K, Why did you have to go? Dear Cynthia, Why did you have to go? Dear Da Tesha, Why did you have to go? Dear Emma, Why did you have to go? Dear Pappy, Why did you have to go? Dear Aunt Robin, Why did you have to go? These people either left me, died, are dying, or might leave me. ❤❤❤ I love you all, and for those of you who are still with me, please don't go! I don't want to loose anyone else. ❤❤❤
@@mikayla3766 She's one of the strongest people I know. Life's gonna have to put up a good, long fight if it wants to take her down. ( : I'm thankful to have such a courageous and caring mother in my life! She truly is someone I love and hope to be like one day! ❤🙂❤
Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words- becho :) Until tomorrow, my friend :)
I got home from school and like most I did nothing but play Xbox all night long. It was me and two of my mates. We played a game called “for honour”, a game where you would fight in 2v2 battles, this forced one of us to be with a stupid bot on the other team. We would of course take turns being the “unlucky one”. It reached about 1am and my mate told us he was getting off for the night after having a blast playing this cool new game we found. I said “yeah I’ll see you tomorrow at school” and so on as per usual. Me and my other friend played until early hours of the morning. The day after, whilst at school it was announced that my best friend had taken his own life shortly after hopping off Xbox that night. According to his Spotify, this was the last song he listened to. I can hardly listen to it without picturing so many horrible scenes. The playlist he had created still gives me nightmares.
First time ever hearing this full song. I have two boys with the woman of my dreams. Money is hard. Everyday we struggle but our love saves all of us. Lately pressure and struggling have been slowly killing me. I started drinking. A LOT. My Medicine. This song is like a letter from my family. Its time to stop drinking and get better medicine. My boys need a healthy dad. My girl needs a strong husband. Im sorry for dragging you guys behind booze. Im sorry about my medicine.
It was 2016 I was playing ps4 batman and listening to this song while playing it was just a beautiful memories and simple days that I was wanted to play with my brother ❤he’s good and alive but he is far from me now
You all are not alone. Each one of us is struggling through something. Life is the hardest thing we’ll ever know. But we have people to lean on even if you don’t feel like it. It’s okay to feel what you’re feeling. Don’t ever feel ashamed.
my brother introduced me to daughter when i was a freshman in high school and medicine was one of the ones i always remembered. tonight it showed up on my shuffled songs for the first time in a long time now 8 years later. 3 years after my brother introduced me to this song his substance addictions became so apparent & unavoidable. he was using everything it seemed. he went in & out of rehab 4 times. he tried to committ suicide. he lied to me about using. i lost my relationship with him. he’s currently doing well it seems & i am reforming my relationship with him day by day. this song was almost a prediction, but it embodies my past 5 years of my relationship with my brother. it brings me peace. thank you for your gift of this song. it truly means the world to me.
@@r0830 thank you for listening & for your empathy. i cry every time i hear this song. my brother came home for the first time in 5 years. & although i know it may all come crashing down any second. its almost feels okay again.
@@agustinamansur5665 awh thank you i think i’ve finally come to terms with the fact that he may never stop relapsing but i want him in my life nonetheless. i hope everything between you & your brother is well also
My good friend committed suicide last month. I've been so broken since... this was soon after the deaths of my ex boyfriend and my father, so this was the straw that broke the camel's back. This is the song that Tiffany's family used in her memorial video. I cry every time I hear this song.
My ex-girlfriend who I was still very much in love with committed suicide just under a month ago. We'd been broken up for years, but remained very close, and tried to be supportive. She sent me this song while I was doing outpatient therapy at a mental health facility. It makes me cry, too. Every single time.
This reminds me of my uncle, his a drinking addict, We tell not to drink, he never want to change. My grandmas had to bail him out, he almost died from the cold, he was drunk and my grandma found him just in time, Idek anymore I hate thinking about how much my grandma trys to turning him back into her sweet little boy but he never want to change. I'm 13 and I remember all the fun times I had with him. But he doesn't wanna change.
I'm not depressed. I'm not unhappy. I've never been in a relationship so I don't know the pain of heartbreak. But I listen to these types of songs because I like to write fanfiction/original fiction, and it helps me get into the mood and tone of the story. Daughter is amazing and I am trying to find all her best songs to listen to while I write
+barbaro267 it's definitely a good song to drive to! a good band I listen to for inspiration in writing is mumford and sons. They tend to have lyrics that tell stories well, as well as portray just about any mood you could want.
A rap beat brought me here. I like this song alot. This song is for my Uncle. He was robbed of who he used to be but he doesn't see he is still my Uncle. I love you. I always will. I have a bike now. I'm waiting for you so we can ride like we talked about. I miss you.
I'm a recovering heroin addict and alcoholic. Met myy girlfriend in treatment. They recommend against this, but I could see how different she was. It wasn't my first rodeo in rehab. I'd been around the other women. She wasn't like them, in anyway. We both discharged on the same day. Not AMA, we got kicked out of sober living. We stood up for ourselves and that was a big no no apparently. Well, we made our way up to Seattle, where shes from. Im from Vegas, thats where we met. She started to drink again. Im still sober. Not my first rodeo again so I know what I HAVE to do to stay sober. She doesn't for herself. I work the program of AA , the 12 steps. She likes the program, but doesn't want it. She says she does. But idk anymore. I love her so much. She loves me so much. But that isn't enough sometimes. And we know it. Its hard for me to watch her drink. After heroin, whiskey was my go too. It made me forget why I hate myself. Vodka does the same for her. It kills me knowing we hate ourselves so much. How can we really love eachother? She says she loves herself, but you don't drink yourself sick cause you're over the moon about who you are. Not in my experience at least. I know she has some serious trauma. Serious trauma. But she's come to terms with it. She's not drinking to forget it. So it only leads me to believe the former. Im an ungrateful asshole. I come from a well off, suburban life. Never wanted for a thing in my life. I have mood swings. Im hard to love. Hard to live with. We want to make it work. We communicate clearly after arguments. We own our parts. Try to understand each others emotions , even when we just don't understand. We are very open about our sexual emotions and desires. Our no go's on sex. We're both too smart for our own goods. But she's college educated. Went to UW Foster Business school. In the top 20 business schools, in the fucking world. I barely got my GED two years ago. Not "barely passed" but JUST got it. I was supposed to graduate in 2014...didnt cause I got addicted to drugs and selling drugs. But she considers me smarter than her because I'm gonna go to school to be a nuclear engineer. But I haven't gotten there yet. I feel so inferior to her and all her friends. They're all college educated. Have done well for themselves. And im over here just so grateful i havent shot any heroin in my fucking neck for 5 months. Yay me. Pathetic. Im scared we won't make it. I know if we don't, we just don't. But I cant accept that. But I also can't watch the love of my life just drink her self sick. First off because, selfishly, I want to fucking drink too. So bad. Secondly, it'll be to hard to watch her spiral back down. I cant save her. She can't save me. We can only save ourselves. I dont want to lose her. She doesn't want to lose me. But what if we can't fix ourselves in a timely manner relative to our own individual needs...? She can have whoever she wants whenever she wants. Ill be alone. Knowing someone else could do better than me...but she only gets with guys who can support her financially cause shes so stingy with money. She never loves the guys. She's supporting me right now. And says she's never been more in love. So if she left me, she'd be with someone she hates again. She'll be miserable. Ill be miserable. I just had to say this. Incoherent thoughts can sometimes be very helpful when said aloud or written down. God bless everyone who makes there way to this song. You can overcome anything. Just put in the work. Dont end up like me. A junkie whose only pride in life is being sober and loving a woman who I hold so highly on a pedestal, if she falls, it'll kill me. Do better than me. Goodnight.
I'm A 42-year-old man on my birthday thinking about my daughter listening to the song. All of you young people out there... you probably will never hear me but please hang on. Please. Someone somewhere feels you.
When I was younger my sister use to listen to this song all the time and she told me it was her love note to her ex. Now she's gone and somehow this song helps me be at peace with her no longer being in my life. I hope all you out there find love in your hearts and all the pain from those you have lost will fade with time. Be safe out there
At 11 I started feeling sad and down all the time, and I couldn’t really figure out why other than some mean girls at home. At 12 my mom made me talk to a psychologist and I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Later that year I cut for the first time and my parents took me back to the psychologist. It didn’t help. I was told I was suffering from severe depression and put on 100 mg of meds per day. I never take them. I don’t feel like it. 13, and I have suicidal thoughts. I don’t tell my parents, and I proceed to keep cutting. They found out and simply put me down for it and gave up trying to actually help. And here I am at 14, and just numb. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m one month clean. I wish it could stay that way. And that’s it. Update: I’m actually sobbing right now after having a breakdown then reading all of these comments. I relapsed in January but I’m currently 5 months and 3 days clean. I always come back to these comments when I feel like giving up because I know some people care. Thank you. update again: i relapsed. i’m crushed. i hope i can do better. my family is just so toxic. i guess there will be bumps in the road :/ update: my sister threatened me saying she was going to shoot us both. She said if she kills herself, which she wants to, it would be my fault. I don’t know what to do. I feel so lost. I don’t want to deal with this anymore. I forgave her, but inside I don’t think I am every really forget. she does this a lot. she has OCD and BPD. I try so hard to take the things she throws at me, but it’s getting to be too much
NEVER give up because there is so much more to live for my situation is kinda the same but I haven’t given up yes I am suicidal and yes I used to cut and yes I still feel numb like for instance at my grandmas funeral I didn’t cry because that’s how numb I was but I never gave up not once and baby girl ik you can do it too ♥️♥️♥️♥️x
Just going to tell u something i really respect u and what u said some people in the comments just dont get what people have been through and for u to tell people is one of the bravest things to do because people can put u down and i think if someone does that then ignore them because they dont deserve ur opinion
I remember coming across this video when I was 15 when I was an anxious depresso and listened to it to help me fall asleep. They've been my absolute favourite sound in the world ever since. I'm 22 now and those lyrics "you can still be want you want to, what you said you were when I met you" got me crying buckets rn. I've been so depressed and numb the last 2 years but those lyrics remind me of what little youthfull hope I felt when I first heard this song. They resonate with me so much. I need a mfing hug
everyone in the comments who is begging for hope, prayers, and a miracle it will be okay. i promise no one’s life will be perfect. the person next to you could just be suffering as much as you. it will be okay, please don’t stress yourself. we don’t have an infinite amount of time here. one day you’ll be greeted to a place where you won’t stress. we’ll have lives that we long to have now. it will get better. please do not give up hope. it’s okay if you’re hurt, it’s okay if you’re torn, it’s okay if you’re spilling out all your feelings because youtube is where people can finally understand how your feeling. just please, please do not give up. life has it’s ups and downs. i came here for a song from my dance class, but seeing all your comments make me tear up. prayers sent out to all of you...we got this 💖
I cry everytime when I listen to this song because I remember all the memories I had with my mum before she died if anyone needs a friend I’m here to help you or support through a tough time
I don't feel like a person anymore and I don't know why. I've felt myself drifting away for the past few years, but its starting to feel like there's nothing left. It's hard to move, to shower, to eat. I don't know what's wrong with me
I know this may sound cheesy, and maybe no one will read it. I think humans don't need what they think they need. I believe we all need hope, love, and comfort. When you feel like you have nothing, like every part of you is worthless. Just know you are not alone. Because I bet you, a lot of people of all different shapes, colors, religions, countries, and beliefs feel just like you. When you lay in your bed, and the tears come down. Know that I care, and even if I don't know you I still care. You're not worthless nor are you worth any less than any other person on this planet. You're a freaking awesome piece of art called "human". You breath the air and your heart beats and for that you matter.
But there's more than 7 billion other people in the world so that doesn't make me special whatsoever. I'm talentless, fat, ugly and most of all, worthless.
for every single one who's crying listening to this song.
you're not alone, you can have me as your friend!
I love you
I was crying before this song
😪
I am crying trying to figure out what to do with my anxiety and depression.
I'm crying, and breaking. I can't do this. I'm sorry if I look like an attention seeker, but I'm just sorry for the world, living this way.
the moment when your own loving family doesn’t realize that you really are dying slowly..but you stand there in front of them, scratching away your life slowly.
tell them
@@gabriellal.2066 not that simple
If you dont feel like telling your family, try telling Jesus about it. He already knows, He's just waiting for you to open up to Him.
try telling someone minor details reveal what you are feeling slowly. let one of closest family members or friend be your medicine. tell them gradually you dont have to tell them all at once go at your own pace
❤️ to you - ❤️ to me
this song is so powerful. it gets me everytime. the lyrics are just so deep.
same🥲
@@kiaramolnar9566 WOAH THIS HAD 93 LIKES I HAD NO IDEA PLS but yes
Frrr
@@Matt-wj3zy hey stranger. i hope you will find happiness one day, you are not alone
YES!
Coming back to this song gives me chills. Last time I heard it, I was 15 and suicidal. I’m now 19, moved out of the shitty state I lived in, and starting my second year of college. Things get better, they really do. It takes time and that time is worth waiting for.
Exactly this Evelyn, same here. So happy that u are in a better place now. Things truly get better
I'm almost 16 and I love this comment 💕 I hope things get better 💜
i hope
They really do. Stay in touch with yourself and enjoy this life.
Hope you're doing fine these days ❤️❤️
people saying "cringe" in the comments to others who are pouring their hearts and life stories out there shows exactly how much compassion we've lost as a society for one another
It’s not that, it’s all the people who claim they’re going through depression, but it’s all the same stuff.
All these people talking about abusive parents, self harm, and they always sound so... droning. On and on and on they talk and talk and talk. But it sounds so fake. Some people are actually suffering from depression and can’t express themselves without being calling a fake because no one can tell the difference anymore
@@Bee-fu9uz I mean ur right bc we r all misunderstood, but it doesn't make the right to think we r fake, I'm not ganna tell my story tho I keep that personal. But just a heads up, listen to their stories, see how hurt they r, be in their shoes! Just... Listen and u will understand, listen and u can hear their cry, listen and u can feel their pain, just listen and think how horrible our relationship as a society was and what it has become... Look for the details, hear for our silent screams, and just think...
Oh I have.
I’m part of the gacha community
That means posting or watching a sad mini movie or music video and then have to listen to all the people saying they’re going through depression. And it’s all the same stuff. Some people lie about abusive parents, and abusive partners, etc... it’s sad, because now, I’m here talking about it, and people are soon going to be mad at me for “ignoring” depression
While I believe it is real and should be taken seriously, there are too many people out there who think they’re depressed
@@Bee-fu9uz I mean I totally agree that it should be taken seriously and that people should actually think about it deeply to see if they r actually in depression or if they r lying to themselves. But things about abusive parents aren't fake ok, I even had an abusive Dad who even shot a man bc he was so drunk! I'm also apart of the gatcha community and some might just be based off a movie they saw or just a mini movie they just wanted to make and some r real u can tell if they r real or not so watch out for that ok but maybe if u think those things just keep em to urself so u don't get people mad at u... Ok?
It’s Just Aimee why would someone randomly comment their fake traumas on a youtube video? childhood trauma and depression is way more common than you’d think. sometimes people who have dealt with those things flock to certain videos to communicate things they otherwise couldn’t say irl. it’s very unfair of you to just assume that most people are faking.
That awkward moment when you think you're important to someone, and you're not.
(EDIT: It has been 5 years since I commented this, and it was just a quote I saw online. Wow! I just wanted to say to anyone who is struggling, please do not give up. Your life is so much more important than you will ever know. Over the years, I have gotten a lot better, and realized my worth. I will not lie, depression is still a struggle, but I promise you, things get better, please don’t give up. 🖤)
Or when you love someone and your to worthless for them to care? Ya been there :'(
Yeah.. How I am right now..
I feel you, it hurts when they barely notice you
Its just more of they play with my feelings.
yep. going throw that rn
When you have to cover your mouth when you’re crying so no one here’s you bc ur to scared to open up
Me rn
Every single day...
Been there so many times 💔
Hey don’t be scared to let your feelings out
@@mollybeaton8537 thank you :,)
I feel numb I wanna cry but I can't I just feel empty...I hate it
Jesus loves you
O do you think you have the dry eyes?
same....
I can relate. I keep listening to sad songs, because I can’t feel anything. So I get the artists to express the emotion for me.
Same..I don't feel emotions that well anymore
Does anyone ever hate themselves so much but love someone so much that you can’t even feel emotions for yourself anymore
xcarmen i relate to this so much
Doing everything you can even if it hurts just u can make them happy ....... i feel ya
Dont want the smile of those people that i love fade away
Yeesss
Literally me rn.
And finally when you get to feel something for yourself its when you realize they might not love you back anymore or they never did to begin with. Its hard
That moment when home doesn’t feel like home anymore
😔😟😫😧😧 true
When your at "home" in your room and you have that feeling within still wanting to go home
Same
Never was
Good god, am I there today
This song reminds me of my brother. He’s a drug addict and when it says “you’ve got a beautiful brain but it’s disintegrated from all the medicine” it hits a bit different. It’s crazy how a song can hit so close to home and mean something different to every person.
Same here:(
@UCHbXDlUUTkeSJ98GS8_5lQQ same here, I get cravings sometimes but songs like this help me stay on the good path.
There is help if you look for it, remember who you are, and when it gets better, always remember where you came from and how far you've come. Love yourself and be good to others, remember that there is a place for you in the world.
The same part reminded me of my addict cousin he was my role model growing up now he’s gone beyond repair
Those lyrics held the same reminder for me 💜
I hope your brother got clean,I'm four months sober from fentanyl praying my kids dad gets sober. This song always reminds me of him,I didn't know 10 years later this song would mean so much to me
My best friend got into a car crash, she ended up in the hospital... After she went into a coma for 6 years I almost gave up, then I heard this song. I learned all the lyrics and I sang it to her, three weeks later she woke up and got to go home. I am truly great full that God said it was not her time to leave this planet.
Emilia Kieffer That’s to good stay strong!
This is the most amazing thing!
Note to self: *nobody can break you as much as you break yourself.*
@@shyla9062 she was making a note to herself, not anybody else
@@shyla9062 because it's a public platform and they thought people might relate. Does it really matter? You shouldn't comment just to start arguments or post opinions nobody asked for :)
Facts man..
That hit hard for some reason
@@mariahudgins3110 same.... i started crying cause i relate...
im never staying up all night again
depressed, stressed, suicidal, done, tired, broken, not loved, need help, cold. I sit at my window looking out all the time....
💕💕💕 you are not alone...I’ve walked through low and dark places..don’t give up...hold on to the fragments of hope...the sun will rise again...
We’ll be suicide buddies.
Tbh same life is trash right now 😔
im sitting at my window right now wondering when am i gonna change when am i going to find drugs to make me happier for a moment or find true happiness authentically i dont know but i do right now this very second i am waiting patiently and will continue to sometimes i wake up and dont know if i should even get up, but i do and things seem to feel a lil better almost as if me living in my head isnt all i feel there's definitely a part of me that wants to be here but doesnt know to show it
xXCayenne_The_Fire_Lion Xx why would I be an attention seeker?
"destroy the thoughts not yourself."
How do I destroy the thoughts before they destroy me
@@travischristian9134 by turning 1 negative into 5 positive thoughts
@@travischristian9134 acceptance. They'll always be there, lurking, but it's how you let them effect you is the difference. Thoughts are just thoughts at the end of the day. Meditate, learn to recognize them, and learn to let them float by and live in the present.
I lost my mom to drugs and this song always makes be cry. She chose medicine over her family. Seeing her downfall hurt my soul so much. I miss you ma. Mental health and addiction is not a kind beast. It’s been years since she’s passed but I wake everyday wanting to end my life. Please hug your loved ones.
i am so sorry for your loss. please stay safe and take care of yourself. i might be just a random stranger on the internet but i sincerely do care. sending you lots of love and hugs.
I hope you heal and find happiness within yourself someday. Life is unfair and unkind sometimes. But you are worthy to live it, dance in the rain, meet new people, listen to your favorite music, etc. Keep fighting angel!❤️
She didnt choose medicine over you. She fought the devil and lost. She didnt want to lose. ❤
How are you doing?
When I was at the peak of my depression, I used to stay up all night in the darkness. Doing absolutely nothing. Then at dawn, when the sky would turn orange I would play this song and think inspite of life being so beautiful, why couldn't I learn to be happy?
When angels cry you were born, life is but red and orange, blissfulness and sweet surrender on the wings of forever we remember, clouds flow and rain calms the thunder, dreams are wishes and blades of grass wisp in the wind, dance with the lights stars twinkle... I sway in the shadows with you to remember.... Love I wrote this for the moment I read these words. ©
Bro I feel you. I remember just staring at the ceiling and watching it grow dark, even though I’m scared of the dark, I would never turn on the lights cuz I was waiting for the monsters to take me away. This was one of the song I’d listen to for hours on end and just stare
i feel this though, there are so many nights where i just can’t bring myself to sleep. i just feel so empty i can’t do it and i’ll sit in my windowsill looking out at the streetlights until morning
This made me cry.
@@mintingluo7370 I relate to this so much
You could still be
what you want to be
What you said you were
when you met me.
my favorite quote from this song
Souljah FAVORITE PART OF SONG 4 ME
+Trashville same lol
I'm gonna cry wtf I just came for a nice song
Souljah my favorite line..
"You've got a warm heart. You've got a beautiful brain but it's disintegrated from all the medicine" i done know why but it hits hard
Same I just break at that part.
Yeah so stop it
Its happened to so many ppl
@@FyouThatsMyName More than ever. It blows my mind!
OK “Kacey”
Years ago when I was 12 I used to listen to this song religiously when I was alone at night crying. I was dealing with anorexia, losing friends from isolating myself, bullying, daily arguments with my family and “best friend”, my grades dropped, the one of the few people I had left close to me die and such.
I felt it was worthless. In February I planned to kill myself in may if I didn’t get better as it been going on for 4 years then and said f it all as I would be dead. I stopped caring and there slowly threw everything I knew and did away. I was planning my letters out and I would drink to cope with everything around then, whether that was alone in my room or in the school day. Things finally were going better in may that I felt if I pushed longer that I would regret considering suicide. Everything got better and Just last week I finally put a quit to drinking as I no longer felt the need for it anymore and want to put an end before it led to addiction as I’ll soon have full access to alcohol. I also have a new amazing group of friends who make me want to get up in the morning on my bad days. I may still deal with things every now and then but Im happy and want to experience life.
Im 17 now and I just want to share my story to others, just like people did years ago did of their recovery in the comments to give people that glimmer of hope or show that people out here understand and know your pain. if you ever need to talk I’m here :)
Stay safe !!
@@linaer6928 I’m glad it helped and well done on staying strong, you got this
☹☹
Thank you for sharing your story, I can only imagine how hard that must've been
can i just say i was here before the movie "five feet apart'
aniqdote I knew it existed I just forgot the name
@@Demol1tion-lovers yeah greys took me here.
Me too
definitely fell in love with this song three years ago when I fell in love
Same
Dear person reading this,
I hope your day has been going well, if not, I hope it gets better You are an amazing person who will inspire others to do great things so keep up the hard work. I know you may feel unimportant or insecure at the moment but know that you are a beautiful human being inside and out and you are important!
Sometimes we just need such a message!
I hope this comment helped you a bit and if not, I'm sorry
Sincerely,
Me, a fellow fallen angel.
+fallen angel This comment almost made me cry.
Thank you :')
+GoatKingdom you're welcome ^_^
I was looking at this song because I may be doing a solo to it in dance but your comment has meant a lot thank you x
+Heather 1106 thank you, it really means a lot to me that I was able to do something for you :)
This is cute, we need more positive people on this comment section tbh some people look like they're cancer victims like smh
I miss 4-5 years ago. Elementary school. I miss going to Football games on Friday night and Saturday mornings. I miss my Elementary friends. I miss the feeling of happiness that I had. I miss not being anxious. I miss playing on the playground. I miss field trips. I miss my old house. I miss my old town. I miss the plaza in town. I miss watching Christmas movies on the couch. I miss playing on my ds. I remember when I was like 5, I would look at teenagers and think “I can’t wait till I’m a teenager” now here I am, 14 and a freshmen wishing I could go back. The thoughts of the pasts are consuming. But I think out of everything, I miss myself the most.
Same I wish I could go back to those days
@@angelasad6686 same :( but it will get better, nothing is permanent :)))
@@13b1tches hope so honestly
Now I’m graduating hs this year and everything has fallen apart. I wish I could go back to three years ago before everything broke
listening to it in the dark with earphones and full sound, in the cold while youre hugging your pillow hits different
I actually cried tbh
To anyone else who digs their fingernails into their skin just so they can feel, to anyone who folds into their self and cries because no one else seems to understand, to the people like me, out there, looking for someone like them. I hope someone finds you. And saves you. Because boy do we all need saving. Trying so hard for so long to save everyone else from the imploding bomb that is us. Save us please. Thank you.
JediGeneral B Yes. We do need saving. But no ones going to save us and risk getting themselves trapped too. Life is just one big mess nowadays. We NEED to save EACH OTHER. Because soon, it's going to be too late for us.
Stay strong angel x
waiting for that person
I need to save myself
JediGeneral B I agree but you gotta save yourself, it’ll happen one day, you’ll grow strong by yourself
I love you, stay strong baby. 💙
my first ever kiss & boyfriend ended up being someone who was at one point my best friend years later. he taught me a lot and was one of the most unique, special people i know. he slowly but surely got way more into harder drugs at the age of 17. percocet, molly, coke, xanax, you name it. even if we had drifted apart slightly at this point, i knew he didn’t do it to be cool, he did it to escape. drugs and music were his medicine quite frankly.
november 27th, 2018 he decided to take his life.
i miss him so fucking much. all i can think of is how much i regret letting myself drift away from him and not help him get clean. both him and i didn’t necessarily believe in an afterlife, but with any sort of luck in the universe i hope he’s in a place where he’s happy and finally at peace & knows how much we all loved him.
we miss you ethan. love you man❣️
Don't blame yourself you can't help someone get clean it's impossible I am currently trying everything it's there choice don't blame yourself and be proud you didn't sink into it to like me
Today's date marks the death anniversary...I'm sorry for your loss
Im so sorry for your loss, it must have felt really terrible losing someone to those pills , esecially knowing they did it to escape from what they're struggling 😭😭
Trust me we can't help them. They have to take that the desicion. You made the right choice.
Mella Jahovic Yeah he might be in heaven and happy
I’m currently listening to this lying in a hospital bed with my legs paralysed. This song hits really different now, especially the lines “you could still be what you want to be, what you said you were, when I met you” and “you’ve got a warm heart, you’ve got a beautiful brain but it’s disintegrating”. I’ve missed so much school recently. It feels like I’m going to be in a wheelchair forever. I’ve only spent 3 days in this hospital but it feels like forever since I’ve been outside of the building. Hopefully life will get better for me and every other person who feels trapped or hopeless.
I hope everything is better dawg 🙁
How are you doing? I hope Christ has filled you with His undying love. I’m here if you ever want to talk. You are so loved.
Dw if you'll see this or not, i pray to god that everything will pe good for you ❤
@ghost I hope life is kinder to you my friend❤
R u ok now
that moment when you realize you put everyone first, but no one ever puts you first.....
"The silence depressed me. It wasn't the silence of silence. It was my own silence." - Sylvia Plath
Can i use this as a caption ?
@@laurenallen9660 ofc
Love her
good for u
wow this hits me :(
To my younger self,
I'm glad you weren't taken by the medicine
Hopeful nightmares
This comment made me happy 😊💖
💜💜
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Hopeful Nightmare damn
Hey, you, yeah you reading this, you look great today, I’m proud of you, no matter how many times life has knocked you down, pushed you to rock bottom, made you scream until you couldn’t, made you cry till you passed out, you kept getting up and going. You’re taking this one step at a time and I’m proud of you for each step you take, recently life’s been hard, I feel like I’m losing my battle with my depression, if I do, I just want you to know how proud of you I am, you’ve made it so far, keep going, you got this, don’t give up now, maybe ask that special someone on a date, buy those things for a new hobby, text that person, spend time with your loved ones, and even if I’m not here for that, and even if you don’t know me, just know that no matter what, and no matter who, I am proud. The fact that you haven’t given up no matter how hard things have gotten, the fact that you’re here with me right now, reading this whole thing, means a lot, I’m proud, I’m so damn proud, keep going, you got this. I wish one day you fall in love with the idea of being alive. I love you, keep being great, here’s my discord if you wanna contact me
ᴸᵃᵃʷⁿʸ@ (copy & paste or tell me your user and i can add you!)
And if that’s not it I will update this as soon as possible, thank you for being here and being great, stay humble, stay great :)
wow, thank you so much...
I love you
thank you so much. you do not know how much i needed this, thank you.
hey u still there? im proud of you too and i love you too
I love you, hope you’re doing okay babe 💕
when i woke up this song js played and im replaying it bc its beautiful her voice and the meaning of the song is beautiful, im so sorry for the ppl who have lost loved ones or ppl who are going through a break up or abuse or abusive parents and depression im gonna pray for all of you, this song may be 12 yrs old and im 14 yrs old in 2024.
Dear Lord, i pray that every single one of these people in the comments and outside of these comments find what they're looking for in life, i pray that whatever that's happening to them you are watching over. Lord many people are struggling in your world of creation and im so sorry few people don't realize how amazing you are and haven't found you yet. I pray for all the broken hearted to be healed and all the depressed ones and ones who have lost they re loved ones and the ones fighting in the wars for us, i pray for the homeless and the patients in the hospital fighting they're lives to be here. I pray for the elder i pray for the youth i pray that you show all of us who you really are because i know everyone needs you in your live just as well as I do. I pray for all the ones who are feeling as if they need to harm themselves or end they're lives. I pray for all the people who did die in the wars fighting for us, the children and parents who have killed themselves due to bullying, I pray you just heal this world and the people in it. Lord thank you for all that you have done for us I pray that everyone realizes the things you do is for a reason, you are not here to harm us you are here to love and forgive us for our sins that we make. Thank you lord for everything and for waking every single one of us in the mornings in Jesus name Amen. ❤
Life is just a game.
And boy am I losing
Don't forget that you can always try again! Dont give up, dont lose hope, and those who are strong and determined can pass the boss fight, depression. Hope you beat that level! :)
im about to end my game
This one dosent have a respawn button so please dont end it
@@pricelesspolaris5597 please dont, theres no respawn button....I'll miss you
@@Finnlandyy thank you
Sucks when your home stops feeling like sanctuary
Feeling this rn
oh bro i felt this on a other way
i dont remember the last time i was in a home that felt like home
I feel trapped in mine atm
Isabel Jones damn...
The only song I never get tired of listening to
I have been an addict my entire life. Addicted to self harm, to drama, to toxicity, to drugs, to adrenaline, to people. I have been to rehab, jail, prison, you name it. I want every single one of you struggling to know that it takes time and it takes struggling every single day, but it does get better. I’m 22. I was released from prison 2 months ago. I am 26 months sober from self harm. 18 months sober from drugs. Every single day I contemplate relapsing, but through all of this I have found the ability to tell myself no. Keep fighting. Love yourself. And stay hydrated. I love each and every one of you.
im so proud of you!! :)
just the thought that there are people who make/listen to this type of music is enough to make me feel connected
when I read your comment, I feel connected too
❤️
wow, you put that perfectly into words...
that reminds me of some quote in perks of being a wallflower book. i think it's like a unity i guess.. that we like the same music.
@@skaldrun6727 Same
It's impossible to forget someone. You just don't want to remember. Somehow, somewhere deep within you all the memories will remain.
Tired Idiosyncratic Cat very true ❤️❤️
Tired Idiosyncratic Cat seriously, lol. fuck you
honestly just fuck you, stating the clear obvious that i do not want too read or hear, joys of life man.
itll be nice, too have a beer with you.
Not when you have dementia
Anna Vlogz too heavy for UA-cam dude. And you should talk about that stuff with a therapist anyway
DrStarfucker you think I havent done that ive done everything I can do you think I want this shit to happen to me no I don't but thanks for putting your FUCKING opinion that I don't give a FUCK about☺
WTF happened to me last night while listening for the first time is something not for the faint hearted. Transfixed to a whole new level and appreciation. The unexpected inner rush of my blood moving through my body, my heart beats to the rush of the sounds that felt like I was floating and feeling comfort that totally blew me away. I'm 49 and that was an experience totally unexpected. Thankyou it is just what I needed right then.
Listen to this in a dark, cool room. Earbuds in and close your eyes, have the music up as loud as your ears can take. B E A U T I F U L
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Agreed
Thank you
Livi Holland I am crying when I did that
@@dragon_fall7716 same
Mom asks: how many times you going to listen to that song!?
Me: as many times it takes for it to fill the hole that's in my soul
Thank you for this comment. I love you. Okay
I love you too bby
as if the song alone isnt enough to make me cry, now yuo have to go and say this.
But it's le truth
Mom: Stop being melodramatic. Also, you have counseling starting Monday now.
Losing loved ones is hard. Watching them lose themselves is harder. Mental illnesses kill a person before they die. Cancer etc kill a person before they die. Illnesses and medicines both kill people. They kill their spirit and their head. It’s the most heart breaking thing.
This song is so special to me.
These are the type of songs I used to cry my eyes out to. I still could if I wanted to, but now I listen to them to make sure I can hold back tears. So I can make sure I know how to not cry. I made people spend too long on me. Making sure I was ok. Hearing about my problems. I dont want to do that to people anymore. These are my problems. Not anyone else's.
I love how the comment section is full of people telling their stories. Even though I don’t have a very meaningful story, I will still tell it because I know that this comment section is full of people who will care.
When I was born, my parents were drug addicts and weren’t ready for a baby. They really weren’t. So they didn’t treat me well. I was abused and neglected. I don’t remember anything from that time (thank the lord) but my mom tells me stories from then. My connection with my new mother is special. She is my cousin. Our connection is extra special. I am actually related to her. Its hard to think about the past that I lived in. I no longer have contact with my real mother. I would like to meet her to show her how much of a good person I have grown up to be, but not for a while. Honestly I dont blame my parents. Yes, they could be better prepared. Yes, they could've been better parents. I dont blame them. Im so happy that I am with the family that I am now. The reason why I am in a safe, loving, and caring environment now is because of my birth mother. She acknowledged that she wasn't fit to be a mother, so she gave me up. Like I said, my mother now tells me stories about my childhood. When I first came to my family, I wasn't used to being able to cry. I used to not cry because I would get beaten if I did. Its awfully sad. I am so happy and lucky that I am in a safe place now.
If you are going through anything sad or horrible just know that you are loved. I care about you. No matter who you are. I dont think there are bad people, just people who do bad things
What do I do if I don't have a safe place
@@niageorgieva7739 reach out for help and look for people who really care, you deserve to be safe and loved ❤
tegmag my life was the same my mums nice tho my dad abused us
😢💔
tegmag Sending you a big hug.
"The Mirror is my friend
Cause it never laugh when im crying"
Excuse my english
Idc ur english i feel you
That phrase hurts me
when I tell you that hit me like a fire truck
FlameyMystic awww
Ok so the mirror is my worst nightmare because there’s no chance to hide the truth of my emotions
It reflects my emotions and i can’t see myself cry
And can’t see myself anyways
I hate myself and I hate what a mirror shows me😴
Note to self: "while young, don't ever fall in love.... it's fake" ~lil uzi vert
well obviously lmfao
Don’t fall full stop
Why else is it called falling
"you could go home escape it all" the line hits so hard i get bullied a lot at school which i am at school rn
Oh, please defend yourself! Or run away from them. But don't let the bullies get to you like I did. I hope you do well ❤🌳
if you can't even handle bullies at school then you're soft.
It hits me hard for me too because I cant escape at home. I had problems with my family and on top of being bullied at school. So yeah irrelevant to escape there for sure.
@@gabriellal.2066 this really does not help
2019? Still crying.....😕🖤🎵
LuNa Wonderland
Okay but same :,(
All night long....
It's okay....I'm with you -.-
@@lemarpics yeah arent we all...
Yup. Nothing's gonna change that.
“ I’m tired of living without really living” Stella ( five feet apart)💔
I LOVE THAT MOVIE RIP POE
"It's just a life Will,it will be over before we know it"
What's that
My mom passed away 1 week ago.
This song is so sad and it makes me cry a lot.
It’s really sad and hard to know that i will never see her again or talk to her or hug her.
But she will always be in my heart so my dear good people in this comments hug your mom or go for a walk with here .
Because you never know when will you last time see somebody.
Im so sorry for your less but I’m sure she is till here with you watching over you and is proud of you ❤️
i’m so sorry for your loss
RIP to her, may she fly high, ur so brave ❤️
a very close friendship that i had with someone ended so terribly, and it left me feeling so empty and lost. If only medicine would work
It gets better trust me
we all need medicine
My best friend moved away:(
i totally feel you, i'm still in recovery or withdrawal from my friend more or less
Estefania Castillo its a pain that won't leave, and i can't do anything about :(
To my mom,
We lost you to the medicine.
I'm sorry for your loss, take care.
I’m sorry for your loss.. I’m sure she was a beautiful human being may she Rest In Peace ♥️🇸🇦🇹🇷
im so sorry
Ik how you feel
Stay strong love
“Medicine” in my case.
This song always reminds me of my aunt who was fighting cancer but she was too weak to keep fighting and I honestly miss her
😢
Happy mothers day mom. :( I love and miss you. I'm so sorry for holding my grudges against you for so long.
I want you guys to know that no matter what you are going through right now please don't leave us, you are far too precious and someone out there in this big world needs you, whether it's in the future or now. Stay strong beautiful, because we love and need you here❤
Kiella Bella the world needs more people like you. thank you ❤️
Thank you
You saved my life.
This song reminds me of how far addiction drove me away from who I was as a person. Nice charming smart hardworking caring. Until the day i started chasing a dream that only exist in another world. It is a long hard road back ,But anything is possible just never forget who you really are.Remember love is all that really matters.
+Jason Jewell RESPECT. Sometimes, the best people have been through the most shit to last 4 life times and they STILL come back to reality and get on with their lives and pursue what makes them happy! I hope you do well in life!
+spootization Thank you for the kind words. I wish the best for you as well my friend
Listen this dude, another world by electus..... all of his stuff is good especially peace of mind and kingdom of lions.... but trust me this would help you and everybody else get through your hard time
Listen this dude, another world by electus..... all of his stuff is good especially peace of mind and kingdom of lions.... but trust me this would help you and everybody else get through your hard time
So... If you scrolled through the comments, and just happened to go by this comment, maybe listen? Hear me out? People say that society has given up, that we lock are doors and shut our windows. We may all be strangers in this comment section, but everyone here is encouraging and trying to help. People are giving advise to those who are giving up to fast. People are telling their experience and what they are still going through. We all care, because if we didn’t? Then why even comment in the first place. Thank you for sharing your stories, you are truly one of a kind? You are brave, you are fighting, and you need to have hope. Life is hopes, and wishes that come true, sometimes? Life only gives you a push, but you need to work your way to the top? Or have you already gave up? Have you tried trying? I’m not saying you have, or haven’t. All I’m saying is that you is the only you there is ever gonna be so? Are you gonna waste yourself? Or are you gonna show everyone, what you’ve gone through and what your going to do now?
I love you
I find myself coming back here a lot, trying to pick myself up and being everything I ever said I'd be but it's so difficult and suffocating and feels like it's not even worth it half of the time. Life is painful. Even breathing feels like a painful task to complete.
Please pray for my mom she’s in the hospital 😖😢
Jesus Christ how’s she doing now? if you don’t mind me asking..
We’re all Mad here I just prayed I know it’s 6 months later but, how is she. I hope everything turned out ok
shinõa chan God Bless God loves you very much
Omg I'm so sorry😭😭😭
Dear lord I take a moment to pray for her mom I hope she will get better keep her and her fam under ur watch
Honestly I am not depressed at all I just love this type of music.
same though
Same!
Same XD
me too :)
and do you know other song like that please ? :)
Anyone still here listening to it in 2024?let's keep this song alive!!
That feeling when you feel sad and then you think about someone you lost and start crying in the inside
I actually can't cry, I haven't cried for at least a year. I've just been numb, like a cold and dark attic where everything is dusted over. I still feel sad though.
Anyone else or just me..?
I also do that :((
@@csphere_satoshi Aww let me hug you and we can be sad together :c
@@speccorvi7444 sure thing qwqq
Me and I just want a hug and to disappear
Yes.. seems like there's a brick wall between me and the act of crying
This comments section is filled with the better half of humanity. I'm amazed at how amazing everyone is here. You are all thoughtful, kind, supportive, and loving even to complete strangers.
You know, I hate Humans. I hate it to be a human. Why? Because of their selfish way to live...but I can understand you. Everytime I'm a little bit sad, I search a song like this and read the nice comments. In such a moment I remember, who I am. I remember that humans aren't so bad, and now exists some people which might need me. So, I'm glad. I'm proud. I found my way back, back to me. And that's why I still keep going.
Eh yes...I mean, yeah, it so awesome that people have such postives sides! I'm sorry for tell you all this kind of bullshit xD And sorry for my bad English! ._.
*THE POWER OF MUSIIIIC* x3 Have a nice day, or night or whatever xD
Shuffle Strash And you officially became my favorite person for sharing that in common with me xD
Hahaha thank you xDD
When you haven't been yourself for a while but no one noticed.
I heard this song the first time on “the vow”. It’s such a beautiful song that hits home so closely. ‘You can still be who You want. Who you said you were when you met me.’ And ‘you’ve got a beautiful heart; you’ve got a beautiful mind, but it’s disintegrating’. Daughter completely shook my world by hearing this song. I have many mental health issues and addiction issues. Everyday is a struggle and I am not who I want to be, but I can go back to who I wanted to be if I want. Uhh my heart... my heart..
Dear Lora.
We lost you to the medicine.
It’s okay. I know you didn’t mean it.
I know all you wanted in your life was for your children to have a good life, and be happy, but you weren’t happy.
You didn’t have to stay with a man who made you unhappy.
You didn’t have to drink that night.
You didn’t have to take a pill that night. A pill you knew you shouldn’t take.
I never thought I’d be attending your funeral.
A year later, we all miss you.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry you’re gone and now your kids are sad because they miss you. I’m sorry your youngest son will never remember his mother, her voice and her smell. I’m sorry that over time I will forget a lot about you. I’m sorry I forgot your voice.
You’re my second mother,
Rest beautifully dear. :(
God..
I have no words, I haven't felt that pain, I've felt horrible pain but not this bad. I'm sorry about what happened.
this touched me and im not even physical enough to be touched :( im sry for ur loss
My name is Laura and this spoke directly to my heart like what they would say if I did it
I'm crying awh, I'm sorry 💓
Dear Riley,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Amanda,
Please don't leave me.
Dear my dad,
Please don't leave me.
Dear my sister,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Brianna,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Micah,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Taylor,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Chris,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Amelia,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Ashton,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Ainsley,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Amber,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Avery,
Please don't leave me.
Dear Mrs. K,
Why did you have to go?
Dear Cynthia,
Why did you have to go?
Dear Da Tesha,
Why did you have to go?
Dear Emma,
Why did you have to go?
Dear Pappy,
Why did you have to go?
Dear Aunt Robin,
Why did you have to go?
These people either left me, died, are dying, or might leave me. ❤❤❤ I love you all, and for those of you who are still with me, please don't go! I don't want to loose anyone else. ❤❤❤
Wihat about your mom? I don’t see her in there? :(
@@mikayla3766 She's one of the strongest people I know. Life's gonna have to put up a good, long fight if it wants to take her down. ( : I'm thankful to have such a courageous and caring mother in my life! She truly is someone I love and hope to be like one day! ❤🙂❤
@@Bee_Notabug You're the sweetest thing ever. omg.
Ur pathetic. They'll never read this.
Oh man, this really hurts my chest
Dear person whoever reads this,
Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile.
Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs.
Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
I love you and send you hugs.
You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you.
YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.
I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC.
You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice.
You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is.
Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN.
I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.
It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you.
I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go.
I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.??
I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night.
If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you.
If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits.
If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :)
Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out.
Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up.
I am sorry you feel misunderstood.
But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :).
Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?!
- The stranger that cares about you more than anything.
I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay.
This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it.
And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you.
I hope you will remember my words- becho :)
Until tomorrow, my friend :)
.
I got home from school and like most I did nothing but play Xbox all night long. It was me and two of my mates. We played a game called “for honour”, a game where you would fight in 2v2 battles, this forced one of us to be with a stupid bot on the other team. We would of course take turns being the “unlucky one”. It reached about 1am and my mate told us he was getting off for the night after having a blast playing this cool new game we found. I said “yeah I’ll see you tomorrow at school” and so on as per usual. Me and my other friend played until early hours of the morning. The day after, whilst at school it was announced that my best friend had taken his own life shortly after hopping off Xbox that night.
According to his Spotify, this was the last song he listened to. I can hardly listen to it without picturing so many horrible scenes. The playlist he had created still gives me nightmares.
im sorry that happened to you. i hope your doing good and ur recovering from that. losing a friend is hard stay strong ❤️
First time ever hearing this full song. I have two boys with the woman of my dreams. Money is hard. Everyday we struggle but our love saves all of us. Lately pressure and struggling have been slowly killing me. I started drinking. A LOT. My Medicine. This song is like a letter from my family. Its time to stop drinking and get better medicine. My boys need a healthy dad. My girl needs a strong husband. Im sorry for dragging you guys behind booze. Im sorry about my medicine.
Joshua Penn how are things ? You doing okay?
Good luck!!!
Hope you’re okay
I hope you were able to recover, not just for those around you but for yourself too
My family are my life. My kids are a strong and my wife is an angel. But I hear you man. Keep strong and put one step in front of the other.
listening to this while having a mental break down
really love this song it somehow calms me down even when everything is falling apart. love
Are you better now since it has been a year?
Me too
It was 2016 I was playing ps4 batman and listening to this song while playing it was just a beautiful memories and simple days that
I was wanted to play with my brother ❤he’s good and alive but he is far from me now
You all are not alone. Each one of us is struggling through something. Life is the hardest thing we’ll ever know. But we have people to lean on even if you don’t feel like it. It’s okay to feel what you’re feeling. Don’t ever feel ashamed.
my brother introduced me to daughter when i was a freshman in high school and medicine was one of the ones i always remembered. tonight it showed up on my shuffled songs for the first time in a long time now 8 years later. 3 years after my brother introduced me to this song his substance addictions became so apparent & unavoidable. he was using everything it seemed. he went in & out of rehab 4 times. he tried to committ suicide. he lied to me about using. i lost my relationship with him. he’s currently doing well it seems & i am reforming my relationship with him day by day. this song was almost a prediction, but it embodies my past 5 years of my relationship with my brother. it brings me peace. thank you for your gift of this song. it truly means the world to me.
Reading this while listening to the song. I cried.
@@r0830 thank you for listening & for your empathy. i cry every time i hear this song. my brother came home for the first time in 5 years. & although i know it may all come crashing down any second. its almost feels okay again.
Aww this comment made me teary eyed 😢 it reminded me of my brother who uses, too. I hope everything between you and your brother is well ❤
@@agustinamansur5665 awh thank you i think i’ve finally come to terms with the fact that he may never stop relapsing but i want him in my life nonetheless. i hope everything between you & your brother is well also
@@loveandhugsmaddie oh, i'm glad you are well with him ❤ yes, we are well, too. Thank you so much ❤
My good friend committed suicide last month. I've been so broken since... this was soon after the deaths of my ex boyfriend and my father, so this was the straw that broke the camel's back. This is the song that Tiffany's family used in her memorial video. I cry every time I hear this song.
I have lost 5 friends, almost 6 to suicide. It is very hard. I know. Bit you need to remember they are happy now.
I'm so sorry....... I can't imagine. I wish you the best, I hope you find a way to get to a good place.
I cry every time I listen to this song
My ex-girlfriend who I was still very much in love with committed suicide just under a month ago. We'd been broken up for years, but remained very close, and tried to be supportive. She sent me this song while I was doing outpatient therapy at a mental health facility.
It makes me cry, too. Every single time.
I'm so sorry to hear.
This reminds me of my uncle, his a drinking addict, We tell not to drink, he never want to change. My grandmas had to bail him out, he almost died from the cold, he was drunk and my grandma found him just in time, Idek anymore I hate thinking about how much my grandma trys to turning him back into her sweet little boy but he never want to change. I'm 13 and I remember all the fun times I had with him. But he doesn't wanna change.
Stay strong, your uncle is in a tunnel that seems to have no ending but show him the exit. Don't loose hope!
Note to self. **people don't change by themselves, they change because others impacted them too.**
thats not really true
I'm not depressed. I'm not unhappy. I've never been in a relationship so I don't know the pain of heartbreak. But I listen to these types of songs because I like to write fanfiction/original fiction, and it helps me get into the mood and tone of the story. Daughter is amazing and I am trying to find all her best songs to listen to while I write
I totally fucking respect ur prof pic....just sayin
the song "youth" by her is awesome, though not as good for story writing, I wouldnt imagine. still could be worth a listen.
Seth Wilson Love the song "Youth"! It's not too good for writing, but I definitely listen to it in the car when I can :D
+barbaro267 it's definitely a good song to drive to! a good band I listen to for inspiration in writing is mumford and sons. They tend to have lyrics that tell stories well, as well as portray just about any mood you could want.
Seth Wilson Timshel is seriously my favorite song ever :D
A rap beat brought me here. I like this song alot.
This song is for my Uncle. He was robbed of who he used to be but he doesn't see he is still my Uncle. I love you. I always will. I have a bike now. I'm waiting for you so we can ride like we talked about. I miss you.
You made me cry omg.
Ipod Touch Please dont cry, Ipod Touch. You were my shit in high school. Had all my tunes PLUS touch screen... shit was dope ♡
Alzheimers?
Omg HAHAHA I can't deal with you right now haha
|-/
I'm a recovering heroin addict and alcoholic. Met myy girlfriend in treatment. They recommend against this, but I could see how different she was. It wasn't my first rodeo in rehab. I'd been around the other women. She wasn't like them, in anyway. We both discharged on the same day. Not AMA, we got kicked out of sober living. We stood up for ourselves and that was a big no no apparently. Well, we made our way up to Seattle, where shes from. Im from Vegas, thats where we met. She started to drink again. Im still sober. Not my first rodeo again so I know what I HAVE to do to stay sober. She doesn't for herself. I work the program of AA , the 12 steps. She likes the program, but doesn't want it. She says she does. But idk anymore. I love her so much. She loves me so much. But that isn't enough sometimes. And we know it. Its hard for me to watch her drink. After heroin, whiskey was my go too. It made me forget why I hate myself. Vodka does the same for her. It kills me knowing we hate ourselves so much. How can we really love eachother? She says she loves herself, but you don't drink yourself sick cause you're over the moon about who you are. Not in my experience at least. I know she has some serious trauma. Serious trauma. But she's come to terms with it. She's not drinking to forget it. So it only leads me to believe the former. Im an ungrateful asshole. I come from a well off, suburban life. Never wanted for a thing in my life. I have mood swings. Im hard to love. Hard to live with. We want to make it work. We communicate clearly after arguments. We own our parts. Try to understand each others emotions , even when we just don't understand. We are very open about our sexual emotions and desires. Our no go's on sex. We're both too smart for our own goods. But she's college educated. Went to UW Foster Business school. In the top 20 business schools, in the fucking world. I barely got my GED two years ago. Not "barely passed" but JUST got it. I was supposed to graduate in 2014...didnt cause I got addicted to drugs and selling drugs. But she considers me smarter than her because I'm gonna go to school to be a nuclear engineer. But I haven't gotten there yet. I feel so inferior to her and all her friends. They're all college educated. Have done well for themselves. And im over here just so grateful i havent shot any heroin in my fucking neck for 5 months. Yay me. Pathetic. Im scared we won't make it. I know if we don't, we just don't. But I cant accept that. But I also can't watch the love of my life just drink her self sick. First off because, selfishly, I want to fucking drink too. So bad. Secondly, it'll be to hard to watch her spiral back down. I cant save her. She can't save me. We can only save ourselves. I dont want to lose her. She doesn't want to lose me. But what if we can't fix ourselves in a timely manner relative to our own individual needs...? She can have whoever she wants whenever she wants. Ill be alone. Knowing someone else could do better than me...but she only gets with guys who can support her financially cause shes so stingy with money. She never loves the guys. She's supporting me right now. And says she's never been more in love. So if she left me, she'd be with someone she hates again. She'll be miserable. Ill be miserable. I just had to say this. Incoherent thoughts can sometimes be very helpful when said aloud or written down. God bless everyone who makes there way to this song. You can overcome anything. Just put in the work. Dont end up like me. A junkie whose only pride in life is being sober and loving a woman who I hold so highly on a pedestal, if she falls, it'll kill me. Do better than me. Goodnight.
I'm A 42-year-old man on my birthday thinking about my daughter listening to the song. All of you young people out there... you probably will never hear me but please hang on. Please. Someone somewhere feels you.
this song is medicine holy fuck it’s a drug - am i the only one who wants to cry really hard right now? :'(
Look up the sound remedy remix of this, you won't be the same person after you've listened to it
alrighty then, ill tell you how i feel about it after i listen to it
No I want off all of these poisonous prescriptions they have me on!!!! Every time they add a new one I get more side effects that KEEP ME SICK!!!
Becky Heffernan I KNOW I KNOW !!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh
Becky Heffernan I was severly addicted to morphine for several years. However, I broke free - And you can too!
"You've got a warm heart, you've got a beautiful brain, but its disintegrated"
Damn.
I felt that.
Draco Malfoy probably felt it too
It hit him like a ton of bricks.
@@pianopanicattack yup. Draco edits always make me cry
"Mr stark I don't feel so good" lmaooo im sorry
It hit him like Hermione’s fist
@@pianopanicattack Lmao love that
When I was younger my sister use to listen to this song all the time and she told me it was her love note to her ex. Now she's gone and somehow this song helps me be at peace with her no longer being in my life. I hope all you out there find love in your hearts and all the pain from those you have lost will fade with time. Be safe out there
"You need to learn to love yourself before you can love anybody else"
-a fanfiction I read a really long time ago
Hey
You
Yes,you
I know you are crying or tearing up
But just know people love you and are here for you❤️
Oof, hit me harder than the song lol
I love a boy that doesn't care anymore and it hurts me
yes at least i’ve always been there for myself even when people don’t
Thank you
...😩❤️
At 11 I started feeling sad and down all the time, and I couldn’t really figure out why other than some mean girls at home.
At 12 my mom made me talk to a psychologist and I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety.
Later that year I cut for the first time and my parents took me back to the psychologist. It didn’t help. I was told I was suffering from severe depression and put on 100 mg of meds per day.
I never take them. I don’t feel like it.
13, and I have suicidal thoughts. I don’t tell my parents, and I proceed to keep cutting. They found out and simply put me down for it and gave up trying to actually help.
And here I am at 14, and just numb. I don’t know what to do anymore.
I’m one month clean.
I wish it could stay that way.
And that’s it.
Update: I’m actually sobbing right now after having a breakdown then reading all of these comments. I relapsed in January but I’m currently 5 months and 3 days clean. I always come back to these comments when I feel like giving up because I know some people care. Thank you.
update again: i relapsed. i’m crushed. i hope i can do better. my family is just so toxic. i guess there will be bumps in the road :/
update: my sister threatened me saying she was going to shoot us both. She said if she kills herself, which she wants to, it would be my fault. I don’t know what to do. I feel so lost. I don’t want to deal with this anymore. I forgave her, but inside I don’t think I am every really forget. she does this a lot. she has OCD and BPD. I try so hard to take the things she throws at me, but it’s getting to be too much
Yo I'm already crying, now I'm sobbing waterfalls and struggling to breathe.
You'll find release from this mess of a world someday, just hold on ❤️
Marissa C hey, how are you doing ?🥺
NEVER give up because there is so much more to live for my situation is kinda the same but I haven’t given up yes I am suicidal and yes I used to cut and yes I still feel numb like for instance at my grandmas funeral I didn’t cry because that’s how numb I was but I never gave up not once and baby girl ik you can do it too ♥️♥️♥️♥️x
please hold on i believe you can do it,even if it doesnt feel like that right now ♡
Just going to tell u something i really respect u and what u said some people in the comments just dont get what people have been through and for u to tell people is one of the bravest things to do because people can put u down and i think if someone does that then ignore them because they dont deserve ur opinion
I remember coming across this video when I was 15 when I was an anxious depresso and listened to it to help me fall asleep. They've been my absolute favourite sound in the world ever since. I'm 22 now and those lyrics "you can still be want you want to, what you said you were when I met you" got me crying buckets rn. I've been so depressed and numb the last 2 years but those lyrics remind me of what little youthfull hope I felt when I first heard this song. They resonate with me so much. I need a mfing hug
This songs hits different when your having a moment...
everyone in the comments who is begging for hope, prayers, and a miracle it will be okay. i promise no one’s life will be perfect. the person next to you could just be suffering as much as you. it will be okay, please don’t stress yourself. we don’t have an infinite amount of time here. one day you’ll be greeted to a place where you won’t stress. we’ll have lives that we long to have now. it will get better. please do not give up hope. it’s okay if you’re hurt, it’s okay if you’re torn, it’s okay if you’re spilling out all your feelings because youtube is where people can finally understand how your feeling. just please, please do not give up. life has it’s ups and downs. i came here for a song from my dance class, but seeing all your comments make me tear up. prayers sent out to all of you...we got this 💖
Im still crying to this song 6 years later wtf
Same
Same
9 years later. still crying to this song.
WHO IS THIS PERSON
I WANT THEIR VOICE STUCK IN MY HEAD FOREVER
誰か someone the artist’s name is daughter
The singer is Elena Tonra. She released a beautiful album of her own under the name "ex:re" too!
I cry everytime when I listen to this song because I remember all the memories I had with my mum before she died if anyone needs a friend I’m here to help you or support through a tough time
Stay strong my beautiful grandmother fly high and sing with the angels ❤️
"I love walking in the rain, because no one can see me crying."
-Mr. Bean
omg same
I think Charlie Chaplin
I don't know if I'm ment to cry or laugh at this
I thought Charlie Chaplin said that
Kqly vac ban that was some poetic shit
Hey.
You.
You could still be what you want to.
Nona Nah but what if i can't
はな well, you never know until you give it a shot
Nona Nah Can*
Relevantly Wordless. Diversified... Priceless Love
I don't feel like a person anymore and I don't know why. I've felt myself drifting away for the past few years, but its starting to feel like there's nothing left. It's hard to move, to shower, to eat. I don't know what's wrong with me
I really hope you are okay 💕
@@lexijai3180 it gets worse this time of year, but I'll be ok
Same lovely, it's doesn't help with this virus, just keep trying to do the things that make U happy, sending my blessings 💕
@@ej4539 thank you. I've been trying really hard
I know this may sound cheesy, and maybe no one will read it. I think humans don't need what they think they need. I believe we all need hope, love, and comfort. When you feel like you have nothing, like every part of you is worthless. Just know you are not alone. Because I bet you, a lot of people of all different shapes, colors, religions, countries, and beliefs feel just like you. When you lay in your bed, and the tears come down. Know that I care, and even if I don't know you I still care. You're not worthless nor are you worth any less than any other person on this planet. You're a freaking awesome piece of art called "human". You breath the air and your heart beats and for that you matter.
Jackie G. Thanks you 💜 from Nigeria
Thanks
Your a good person thankyou
awwww.. aren't u a peach?
But there's more than 7 billion other people in the world so that doesn't make me special whatsoever. I'm talentless, fat, ugly and most of all, worthless.