It's time to let go of 2022 and all the bad vibes! Thanks for sticking with me through the ups and downs of this year and always showing such love, support, and compassion. Making content for you this year really helped me in more ways than you know.
Of course you are blessing angel and most sweetest and strongest women and person ever and I am so sorry that happened and wish you joy love happiness strength peace positive vibes for next year LUV U MOLLY ❤️🙏🏻❤️
You have me sobbing watching this. We survived, & my biggest hope is "Not A Horrible Year." I would love a great 2023, but I would also be thrilled with "Just Meh." Thank you for sharing your world with us. I am learning a lot to help prepare me for life as my vision lowers.
Yeah. It's sad that so many people do make that permanent decision. I've heard that people who don't succeed with that decision regret that decision immediately. They often go on to improve their lives after that. It sounds like.
I have mixed opinions about this. Really just depends on your situation. With certain things this would apply but it is not temporary for me. I will never be able to replace my husband. Yes I can remarry but it wouldn’t be him. My daughter is without her daddy.
@@dardan1984 I'm so sorry for your loss. I think it refers to decisions like: maybe a good friend betrays another friend & that friend decides to never have friends again. Something like that.
The description of being so tired you cry from having done nothing but be exhausted is extremely relatable to me with ME/CFS. I would never wish fatigue on anyone. It is also always the worst when you are disabled and chronically ill and your health gets worse. It's like are you kidding me? It's so hard to adjust to a possibly new norm or a temporary new norm. Thank you Molly for talking about all of this and sharing all of this.
That was my thought as well, as a fellow ME/CFS sufferer. EBV is the trigger for ME in a lot of people, and I thoroughly wholeheartedly hope that Molly is not one of them.
Fellow CFS sufferer here and yes! The exhaustion to the point of tears is so real. I remember when I burst into tears because I didn't have the energy to put a piece of rubbish in the bin behind me. That was when my parents really understood just how ill I was. I'm much better now but still have days where a shower is too much energy. My best friend has lupus and fibromyalgia and we constantly tell each other how lucky we are to have someone else who understands what we are going through
@@LittleDergon oh no does Molly have a chronic illness too? I’ve just bookmarked this video. I haven’t watched yet. Sometimes sad content is too triggering for me so I have to be careful in what I take in and pace myself. 😢😔 I have CPTSD and Lyme disease which is so physically debilitating that it took me from a very active and healthy person to bedridden and I wouldn’t wish anything like it on anyone. 😔 it’s so sad. I love Molly so much. And I just wish healing for her, and anyone else suffering.
You saying “I didn’t want to do anything to actively harm myself but I certainly didn’t want to live” is how I’ve been feeling for the last six months and it helps so much to have someone else say that and put it into words.
Molly, imagine how your parents felt when they found out you were going to be blind. The fears about what jobs would be available to you…and if you would be able to support yourself. And now, not only can you support yourself but also your family. This is truly a win for your community, you’re surly inspiring so many.
Can confirm as a mother of a 2 year old daughter who is my world, and has visual, hearing, and physical impairments. Of course I worry about her future and what it will look like. I agree that this is such a full circle moment for your parents . Absolute blessing ❤
It must be a “going into your 30s” right of passage to have a super traumatic year of never ending shit to reset everything you know. Mine was 29. I have never experienced THAT much stress in my entire life. My mom got breast cancer, my grandpa got prostate cancer then Covid and passed away, my grandma got lung cancer, I got a divorce that forced me to give up my dream life in my dream city and move back to living with my parents in my hometown that I can’t stand. And then on top of it all…my best friend took his life. I can 110% sympathize with a year that keeps on giving. And I can 110% back up that the clouds DO clear and things get easier/better. I’m a completely different person now from all of the lessons I learned in 2020, but it’s the best change in myself I’ve ever had.
Hi Molly. My dad was diagnosed with esophageal cancer the day before Thanksgiving. The doctors originally told us he could have as little as 3 months, even with chemo and radiation. Luckily, it seems they have caught it quite early and we should have a little more time with him. So I definitely emphathize with your story of your mom's cancer. I know exactly how you feel ❤️
The sweat stain surprised me at first and then I was like "you know what?? ME TOO!" Like the amount of crap you've been through, you deserve to be able to sweat and not get made fun of. It's a bodily function! We all have them, Love ya Molly! I hope your next year is better and you get to thrive again!
My mom is my person, too. It’s great to hear and see other people who are so close with parents, and know that we’re not alone in our fears about losing our parents when the prospect becomes “real”.
Sending hugs ❤ been a hard year here too. I broke off my engagement of two years, had to deal with vision loss and epilepsy, and I’ve had to decide to drop out of college. It’s been a lot but we’re gonna push through. You got this!
Don't worry about the College. You can always go back. Some colleges are better than other with accommodations, so that will be something to look at. Depending on how far you got, a Two year and transfer is an option too. There are ways to do this.
Sending good vibes, & prayers, your way. Every one of those changes are huge, & make a big impact on both your physical & mental health. It was smart of you to take a break from your studies, because it is much harder to clean up bad grades, than it is to get back into the groove once you have adjusted to your new normal. I have had professors that were extremely helpful with assistance I may have needed due to my own health problems, & some that were less so. It is much easier to navigate when you know what kind of help you may need. I can't recomend Hadley enough. They have a lot of free resources to help you adjust. I hope 2023 is a much better year for you, & your health!
The fact that you, as the child, are supporting both of your parents and yourself, is BEYOND admirable. And the fact that you are so proud and happy to do so is absolutely beautiful. As you mentioned, they clearly raised you right. I love how willing you are to support them in literally every way that you can. You are just such a good daughter and such a good person. I'm only about halfway through the video, but I couldn't wait any longer to comment! Keep being your amazing self, Molly!! I wish you nothing but the best and I wish that blessings on top of blessings will soon come your way! ♡♡♡
2022 sure did suck. I had a miscarriage and lost a beloved pet suddenly to cancer all in the same month. We're always here for you, Molly. I hope you get lots of rest and recovery in 2023. Cheers to the new year and starting fresh!
When you said hang in there I started crying. This year has been so challenging for me and I'm at the point where I'm just hanging on by threads and praying I'll make it through okay. You're right, even though people go through different challenges, it feels so good to know that we're not alone. We're hanging on, but we're hanging on together. It's hard to remember why it's worth it to hang on and watching this video helped me so much. When I reach my next stage of human I will be better for it, but right now I am struggling to find what makes me happy again. Please keep doing what you're doing, you are making a difference
I appreciate your authenticity. While I enjoy positive upbeat videos I know that it's good for everyone to know that they're not alone in their struggles.
My brother took his life at the end of 2020. The next year was literally the worst of my life. We had 4 family members take their lives after him. It was truly awful. I’ve thought about taking my own life before so I can say to all of you feeling the same way who might read this; the people who you think will be better off without you never will be. They will never recover, I certainly haven’t. When you can’t fathom staying for yourself, at least stay for them ❤️
As someone currently battling with depression it’s very nice to hear you speak about your experience. And it helps in motivating me that things do get better 💕
Molly, you are such an inspiration in so many ways. I really hope 2023 is a really good year for you and your family. I found you only this year as new to UA-cam and initially was drawn to being educated in understanding blindness, which is in my family and could be a part of my future. I ultimately love watching you as you’re the most uplifting, down to earth, kind, fun, honest, genuine, open minded, vulnerable, strong and so likeable woman. You really are radiant! I just watched this with a loved one in mind, who’s had a bad year and you have given me strength in how to be a better support, friend, mum and me. You put everything into perspective in life and I always enjoy your videos. Thank you.
This has by far been one of the hardest years of my life, and at the time one of the most important years. Thank you for sharing your year with us and reminding us that the hard times don't last forever.
What i keep hearing from this video: I survived I got through We kept going I'm still here. Give yourself more credit! YOU MADE IT THROUGH We love you ❤
I too was just surviving, not thriving this past year. Thank you for sharing your experiences. We love you Molly ♥️ The feeling of getting through and helping each other with that is MUTUAL!
While I had a great year, I’ve had 5 years just like this. When you feel like there’s one crisis after another and it feels like it’s never going to be over, but it does. I’m so sorry you and your family had to go through ALL of this, but I’m glad you are so close to your family. Sometimes they are all you have. Us bees are always going to be here for you Molly. I’m so so thankful mama bee is ok. Big hugs to you and your family. Happy new year. 2023 will be better. We have to believe that. Life will always be hard, but my motto this year was “one day at a time.. that’s all I can do”
I understand as someone who has dealt with chronic fatigue for 4 years. The anxiety and trauma that you go through with fatigue is so difficult. As you explain, you are stripped down to the basics. You are vulnerable and you can't find behind the person you have created. But there is beauty to the suffering and vulnerability. What you gain is more than what you think you have lost. You gain gratitude, empathy, understanding, and resilience. I am glad things are now starting to look up for you. I hope god has fewer tough lessons for you next year. Sending lots of love. 💕
This is really inspiring and encouraging for me, Molly. I’m going through something very serious with my family right now and also dealing with a brain tumor at 30 years old. I’m having brain surgery in less than a month. I’m so terrified. Your words about things always eventually getting better though really made me feel so much hope. ❤ You’re such an inspiration to me.
Please Molly don't feel shame about your old videos!!!! Seeing change and growth it's such a great thing, I get where you are coming from and I am super thankful for not having videos of 20 year old me (haha) but we all have changed (or should) and hopefully for the best, so no judgement from yourself or others. And it was really a hard year, but I am sure it can only get better :) And how great it's to have such a wonderful family and be able to support each other!
I am watching this from my hospital bed. I was ending my year graduating from college and now face a cardiac medical emergency that doctors don’t know how to manage or help but can’t have me leave. I’m in for the long term. Sometime it’s nice to share our struggles because it unburdens our souls allowing us to heal physically and mentally. Thank you molly for your encouraging word. I’m so sorry you went through so much. You came out a wiser and stronger person.
Molly, I’ve been watching your videos for years. I’ve watched you tackle and conquer each hurdle that you’ve come across. You have stayed so humble and kind even with your continuous success. You’ve always felt like an older sister to me; someone I look up to and strive to be like. I wish you and your family the best going into 2023. Thank you for your honesty and positivity. Thank you for being you.
My Dad is my best friend, confidant and rock in any crisis in my life. When I am depressed, he makes life worth living. He's had many surgeries for melanoma over the years. I totally understand the fear of cancer and the dread of knowing your person won't be around forever. It's especially hard when you're coping with depression already.
My dad was my best friend. He died in 2001 when I was 15. ALS. It was horrible, and it's still really difficult to process. It's lonely and a lot of things felt hollow, for a long time. It's sometimes still that bad, but I've learned ways to celebrate the things about him I can still keep alive. Staying curious is one way I accomplish that. ✨️ I hope you so much warmth and healing, you and your family.
I’m so sorry that your dad passed away in that manner and that you had to witness it. It’s one of the most inhumane ways to pass away and nobody should have to go like that. A former classmate of mine died from ALS. The progression was quick, yet not quick when I could see how much she suffered. She had a baby boy and was full of live, so active and within a year she was in a wheelchair, could barely speak or swallow food. I hope you can feel your dad with you often.
Sending you so much love, my mum was my best friend and she left this plane of existence in 2016. I didn't get to start properly grieving until 2020 just before covid emerged disrupting everyone's lives. But I'm still here, And you're still here, And I'm so happy that we are all here and doing our damned best!
My dad had a seizure Christmas morning this year and was rushed into the ER. At 58 years old, he’s been incredibly healthy, and active - like we joke how he’s TOO ACTIVE! This really rocked our family. He can’t drive for 3-6 months now, and we’re waiting to find out if it’s epilepsy. It also made me have that hard realization that oh Shit.. my bestfriend .. my dad won’t be here forever. It’s so hard. I hope you’re being open and honest in therapy, because it’s the hardest thought to manage. Love you molly! From Vancouver BC❤
Thank you so much for sharing your year with us! Normalizing that people go through these things is so helpful. I love being able to relate to others and sharing your hard year helps me deal with my own troubles as well. Sending you and your family love and blessings for 2023 and forever.
Oh Molly, what a hard year you have had, you are so brave to share with us! On January 1st 2022 my beautiful Mama fell and broke her hip, 13 days later she was dead, she was 65. My Mum like yours was my best friend, she had been my carer, my support person, until she developed early onset vascular dementia she had her own room at my house and her own clothes/ toiletries etc because she would come out and stay with me when my husband worked away so she could help me with my babies. I can tell you my heart and soul were torn apart when my Mum died and 2022 was the hardest year of my life so far. But I’m still here, I’ve felt more pain and loneliness and emptiness this year than I ever have, but keeping going I’m realising how precious life is! We all need to cling to the good times, the laughter, the happy memories to sustain us through the harder days! I’m so glad you are recovering from Epstein Barr, I developed Severe M.E/CFS after that virus and have been so unwell for 20 years. But this last week I discovered that I also have Severe Obstructive Sleep Apnoea Hypopnea Syndrome and that’s why I’m so exhausted all the time! My husband purchased a test to check me for sleep apnoea and the day after the results were in I had my diagnosis! I stop breathing 65+ times an hour during light sleep and 95+ an hour during deeper REM sleep. So I too for the first time in 20 years am about to have a specialist and treatments to help me improve! I too am determined that 2023 will be a much better year! I pray that we all have a better year - I see great things ahead for you Molly! God Bless!
Thank you for sharing Molly! I find your channel to be so helpful and inspiring as someone dealing with chronic illness. It warms my heart to see all of these comments from others that have the same experience. Your vulnerability and ability to share what your life is like makes your channel a safe space where we can all gather and feel less alone in our personal struggles. I hope our comments help you also feel less alone. We all have to face our struggles by ourselves ultimately but it sure helps to have others supporting you. Very proud of the work you've done to get through it ❤
My mom also had a spot in her leg that was melanoma so I relate to how hard it is to watch your mom go through it. She went through cancer again on her scalp and went through chemo for that. Both of our mom are strong woman.
The area WAS NOT MELANOMA. This is a prime example of the things Molly says to engender pity. So it is needful that she learns to start telling the entire truth and not just pity me stories.
Molly said it was uncertain and then was determined to be precancerous. She told the whole truth. I'm sorry you don't feel comforted by other people experiencing and sharing hardships many of us can relate to. Maybe this video wasn't for you. Or it was but it triggered an experience you had that felt even harder. I'm sorry if that's true. But this is very vulnerable for Molly to share and it has benefited most of the people you see here. Be kind. Have a peaceful night.
I was surviving last year too. My mom passed away and I'm having a really hard time moving on. She was my best friend & we lived together & I took care of her. It was really unexpected. Hug your mom and never take her for granted. 💔💔‼‼
2022 was such a hard year for me too. I had to put down my 23 year old cat, Gypsy, and then exactly 6 months later my youngest cat, Charles, suddenly died. It felt like I had lost 2 of my children and I was ready for Gypsy to pass away because of her age and huge health decreases. Then I found out that my cat, Sage, has diabetes. They are my children and my family and it’s been so difficult for me to deal with. My mental health had been such a mess. My physical health disability list has been growing. I found out that I have the most severe variant of the Mthfr genetic mutation and that was just too much and feels like I’m losing all of my hopes for having a biological child and I can’t find the light at the end of the tunnel, it’s like my hope was gone. I’m just broken from 2022.
I'm so sorry to hear about your losses, I can relate as I lost my best friend and soulmate, my cat April to cancer last year. Its the worst experience I've ever been through and I've not had an easy life so far. Four months later and I still cry for hours every day, I don't have children either and she was my everything. A lot of people don't understand and invalidate let loss grief which makes it harder to cope. I hope you're OK but if you're not, that's OK, just keep going, that's all I'm doing, one day at a time. One reassuring thing is, our cats were as lucky to have been adopted by us as we were lucky to be adopted by them as they were much loved and cared for.
@@plannergirljones2551 I am on medication actually. But thank you so much Dr. Plannergirljones2551! Wow I should’ve come and saw you instead of paying money to see all the doctors I see. My cats were my emotional support animals, losing pets is already difficult but when you rely on them for emotional comfort and support, and then they die suddenly it’s a lot. That grief can be the same as if you actually lost a person you were close to. Please don’t belittle or discount other people’s traumas or losses. It’s really not your place to determine if it’s traumatic or a devastating loss.. I actually feel sad for those people that don’t get to have bonds with animals in the way that I do. It must be lonely, not feeling connected to other beings like that.
Molly! You are the only youtuber that I follow where I watch every video you release, from start to finish. I think that I might have skipped one or maby two videos during the last 2,5 years. I don't care what you are doing in your video actually. And I know that it sounds strange. But your personality draws me in, even if it is a subject that I would skip if someone else uploaded it. Don't worry about saying something wrong. You are so real, that I don't think that anyone could be so mad that they would cancel you for anything you say. I hope you get a wonderful 2023. I will be here watching with the other (almost) 2 million other persons who love you and your content
I think it’s been a really hard year for a lot of people. I’m sorry it has been for you, too. You have been my role model for years. You helped me “come out” as disabled and accept that aspect of my life and identity. You inspired me to get my service dog. You are important to me and to many others. You have many peoples’ thoughts and prayers with you
It's so crazy how hard we can be on ourselves....... I've been following you for like 6 years and have never once thought you were cringe or that you were making obvious mistakes. I always thought you lead with your heart and good intentions. Everything else has just been normal growth and change as you age. You're the best dude. I'm happy to exist on this planet with you.
I've loved seeing you and your content over the years! I'm glad you have learned and grown from the hard times in 2022, hopefully 2023 will bring about some well-earned peace ❤
I'm behind here. Lol. But I still wanted to comment here, even though it's been three months since this was released. I've got chronic pain and fatigue and what you described with your virus is how I feel every single day. I'm so glad yours was temporary! I also can SEE you've been in therapy with your video content. Therapy is an amazing tool. Thank you for being honest about it and sharing that. Seasonal depression is real. I suffer with that too (as well as regular depression) and I live in Ohio. Winter can be awful for those of us with SAD. I'm 40 and can SO relate to growth and recognizing of your growth. The older you get, the more that happens! May you thrive this year!
My mom was seriously sick when I was a kid and it turned out to be tumors in her uterus (see your gynecologist!) And she needed surgery but before the surgery I was terrified I remember going to school with my mom in the hospital and trying not to cry during lunch The fear of loosing a parent is truley the worst and I can not imagine what you went through But I'm so glad you are starting to feel better you really do deserve the world 💕
I don't know you personally, but I care about you. You feel like a friend. While I wish you many less struggles, your journey is making you a more mature, beautiful person. Thank you for sharing. It really helps me be more compassionate with myself. So Proud!!
First off, I just want to say I’m so proud of you. I have been following along with you for many years, through the ups and downs and somehow, you always seem to resonate with me through each season of life. 2021-2022 has been the hardest season of my life as well. I lost my heart dog just before I got married, then I had to put down my childhood dog of 16 years, I got married in September of 21, my husband had a mental break 2 weeks after our wedding, my parents got covid over thanksgiving, my Dad passed away 2 days before Christmas, i was in the most intense period of depression/grief afterward that I’ve ever been through, dealing with SI, my husband had me arrested and locked in a psych ward for 4 days and while I was there, my Grammy passed away. And these are only the major things that happened. I feel like people don’t believe that all of those horrible things could happen to one person and think that I make it up. And I wish I was. I never saw myself losing my Dad at just 28 years old. He was my best friend. My idol. And I work in healthcare. I saw what covid was doing to people and I would never in a million years have believed that it would destroy my own family in the place where I work. I have mustered up the strength to go to work everyday. The trauma is immense. When you spoke of what you went through with your Mom this past year and realizing the mortality of our own parents, I quite literally sobbed. When you talked about wanting to die and not wake up again, I sobbed because I live this nightmare too. Now I am facing divorce because this year has torn apart my husband and i’s relationship. Our newly wed status couldn’t bare the weight that was placed on it so quickly. It feels very freeing to post my traumas on the internet and share in the misery of others even though I wish that no one else was experiencing this level of heartache and pain. Thank you Molly for sharing your life experiences. This is now my favorite video of yours. And while I hate that you’ve gone through all this, I’m glad that we have each other. You mean the world to me even though you don’t know me. You keep me afloat when I feel completely alone. You are not alone either. You have me and all of us! I love you. ♥️ Here’s to our growth in 2023 🥂🎉
I have been following since at least my sophomore year of college which was like 2018-19. I can relate to the struggles you went through this year. 2022 was a crazy hard year. 2017 was really hard for my family. We lost a family member to cancer. While I can't say that I have experienced a "comedy" of errors like your year this year, I feel like 2022 was unnecessarily stressful. I hope that 2023 is better for you.
I have chronic fatigue from both physical and mental illnesses. I have learned people who have never experienced fatigue just don’t get it. They just have no reference point. Like I tell people and they’re all like, “yah I’m tired a lot too” or “of course you’re tired you have 4 kids” ect
It helped me to use the Spoon Theory when explaining to others what it's like to have chronic fatigue and illnesses. They might not have personal experience with it but it gave some people in my life a better understanding that I can't just snap out of it with a good night of sleep. It also helped me with figuring out where I was energy wise on a particular day and not expect more than I could handle. Hope that helps a little, from a fellow "Spoonie" ❤
Yes, it's so hard! I'm lying down right now because I took a walk a few hours ago. I want to clean the appartment and cook, but I can't. I want to be a fun and supporting girlfriend but I'm always tired. I'm scared people will just think I'm lazy. My mum talked about people with chronic pain earlier today and said "I think some people just need to think about how they're feeling less". She wasn't talking about me, but it hurt to hear. I know people will think I should just push through and won't understand what it's like to be too tired to sit up. If I could I would.
This is me with my husband. I know he’s tired too. But I also know that unless he somehow has what I have he is not this level of fatigue and sickness and it’s not fair for us to compare sleep hours. I think he’s starting to get it. But it’s hard.
This is so interesting because I feel like I’ve been force-taught similar life lessons this year, albeit through completely different challenges and circumstances, but my life has also been stripped down to the bare bones and I’ve rediscovered the real me. And I’m better for it, but jeez what a year! I’m so glad you’re feeling like you’re finally turning a corner and I really appreciate you sharing not only what you’ve been through but what you got out of it. These periods of growth in life do seem like such an essential part of the human experience. I wish thy weren’t so hard though!!
I am glad you're here to and made it through your hardships and challenges too. ^^ Off of to the thriving 2023? Would be fine with me. Or well just one foot closer to positivitiy.
The last few years have been very isolating for people. If it isn't COVID restrictions limiting their contact with loved ones or people in general, then it's problems and challenges they are trapped in that is emotionally crippling. I hope the new year brings some exhale points for all of us. My year has been very similar to yours so I share your fatigue, fears and sorrows. Count the blessings you do have and find gratitude in every day. I guess that we have to trust that " This too shall pass".
You are a warrior! I hope that 2023 is your year :) I lost my dad in 2022 and got broken up with from a 9 year relationship so it was pretty rough for me too. Hang in there. Love ya! ❤
Moving to CA is so beneficial to depression, you are totally VALID in your feelings about winter. The sun is just so important for mental health. Also financially, supporting yourself in your own through social media is sooo stressful. The disability community is used to being so vulnerable and often taken advantage of, unfortunately it can get projected onto creators. It’s so fearful wanting to make sure you don’t invalidate anyone or get canceled through sharing your vulnerability. On top of that, everything with your health, families health, constant public exposure, and dog chaos. :( GIRL YOU’VE BEEN THROUGH IT. Here’s to a brighter 2023 💜✨
One of my favorite quotes is by Zora Neale Hurston: "There are years that ask questions and years that answer." Wishing you a 2023 of peace and joy. 💜💜
My 2022 was a year of health. In January I found out I’m allergic to 8 different (main) foods and ended the year with being diagnosed MGD. Not to mention 1 of our dogs died and 3 days later we found out the other dog has cancer. 2023 better be better
Holy smoke yes it's been a rough year! I had a heart attack this year, and it completely changed my life and upended all my priorities. While there have been other stresses, nearly dying has outweighed them all. When you speak of resets, I relate immensely. I'm so glad you & yours are feeling better physically and emotionally. Your videos have given me so much comfort and joy through my own challenges. I'm so happy you can continue doing what you love! Peace. ❤
Hello thank you for sharing the highs and lows of your life. Your message is relatable because the lousy feeling when your unable to achieve your goals is relatable. Taking risk is scary, but it is amazing when the outcome is everything you want it to be. I am so glad you have your parents. I love that so much for you. I challenge everyone to fatty meat, eggs, fish, butter, salt to taste, electrolytes for 90 days for your health. The transition is different for everyone but AFTER you transition, you will feel AMAZING!
This video made me so happy! Not because of the terrible year you’ve had but to see how proud of yourself you are now that you’re healing, it’s truly inspiring! This video was so important for so many people, thank you Molly❣️
Thank you for sharing this video. I lost my mom in 2020. She had been battling skin cancer for 3 years and had gotten exposed to COVID-19. At the time my dad was living out of province for work. It was the most devastating time in my life and although I’ve been through the majority of the grieving process, it still effects me everyday. I appreciate you posting a video like this as many people go through this and need the support to not feel alone. Thank you 💕
Thank you so much for this video. I think it’s great that you share things like this because it’s human to have bad years (even though everyone has different things they go through). It’s good, especially for younger people, to see that it’s good to seek help from therapists and doctors and that you can get through these things! I wish you and your family the best for 2023 and the years after that because you deserve it!
I usually don't write comments, but this video helped me so much, so thank you Molly! My year also didn't go as planned, because I struggled with my physical and resulting from that also with my mental health. I was just so disappointed in myself for not reaching the goals I set for this year and for disappointing others as well. But your story and your words helped me to think about myself in a more kindly way and to give myself time to heal no matter if I can fullfill the expectations of others or reach all goals I set. Its just life and life is not as perfect as we hope for, but it's still worth living every day with new hope ❤
I love you Molly and thank God you did survive through such a rough year. I truly look forward to each and every video you do. I am thankful you did what you needed to do to take care of your health. Praying for you and your parents who are frickin’ amazing and for a glorious new Year!!
I'm really really glad you made this video! Especially sharing with us your therapist validating that "of course you feel like nothing is going to go right, and expect that, because the things happening for you *right now* confirm that." It really helps me contextualize a lot, and remember that things haven't necessarily been going "right" for me this year, or lately. that a lot of things have "confirmed" for me that "nothing goes right for me these days" BUT that while it's normal to be feeling that way, I don't have to let those thoughts control me!
Sending you all the positive vibes Molly. I’m only halfway through the video, but I’m glad your mom’s okay. I’m best friends with my mom too and having to face your mortality let alone others is such a scary thing. Sending you both well wishes into the new year!!
Thank you for talking about these things. I’m from California and have been struggling with seasonal affective disorder since I moved to Vancouver 4 years ago. Wishing you the best in your new home!
This year i went through something similar. My dad had a heart attack at the end of 2021 and had to undergo 2 surgeries and 6 months of physical therapy. At the time he had also just lost his job. I was away for my first year of college and was out of state and had back to back mono and covid, and my mono was so bad that my eustacian tubes were blocked so my ears couldn't regulate pressure and I couldn't fly home when it happened. Words cannot express the feeling of complete and total helplessness I felt. When I was finally able to get home and visit, going back to school triggered the most intense anxiety and depression that I've ever experienced. I've always had anxiety but every day I woke up with this gut-wrenching fear that someone was dead. Any time I woke up to a missed call it triggered a panick attack. I would not wish that awareness on ANYBODY. And I feel for you and your pain wholeheartedly. I'm glad you're healing and hoping that we can heal together ❤️. Sending you the best vibes for 2023
I totally understand the navigation of your mid to late 20s and trying to become the adult you always thought you would be with the highest form of optimism! I feel like, now that I’m 34, I am way more realistic than ever. Things aren’t always going to be shiny and new. Paint fades and glitter falls. I’ve been pretty pessimistic these last few months of this clinical depressive state I’ve been in with mo way out. I’m finally coming out of that pit and turning a corner. I am picking up my brand new Aussie pup tomorrow and she gives me so much to look forward to! God gives us grace, not because we deserve it, but because He knows we need it. Happiest New Year to you and your family ❤
2022 was super terrible for me too. My mom got diagnosed with lung cancer in May. I took care of her and my grandma with dementia all year long until my mom passed in September. I’m only 20 and my dad died before I was born so I’m officially an orphan. I’m still taking care of my grandma and her memory is getting much worse which makes that year worse however there is a light. I got my CNA certification shortly after my mom died. I was planning to get it before she got sick then couldn’t because I was taking care of her but she made me promise to go through with it and finish it and I did. I’m going to work my way up to being a nurse just like she would of wanted me to.
Really appreciate this. I always saw you on Instagram being bubbly and happy and you were with your pets and family and you went on a cruise and you seemed so happy on the outside. This was very real and vulnerable and it’s so important to share this side. I lost my grandma and had chaotic times throughout the year. To everyone reading this, keep going. Things are gonna be hard and very scary, but look to those who care about you and things that make you happy. 💛 Edit: Also speaking on the how every little thing felt like a domino effect. I felt that in 2020 and that if I made the wrong move my life would crumble and I’d lose my relationship and my pets and my family. It was some of the worst anxiety I’ve ever had.
You should never feel bad that your parents are you best friends. I lost my Dad 5 years ago this month and it was awful. My parents are both my best friend on this earth and in heaven. Continued love, hugs, and prayers.❤
Sounds like 2022 was truly a doozy. Glad you took the time to take care of your family and your health. Thank you for sharing and may 2023 bring you some much overdue joy ❤️
Molly I have just turned 50, almost the same age your Parents are and I am SO proud of you! I’ve been a sub now for a number of years, since your collab with Shane and I’ve seen a lot of your ups and downs. I too have had a year of surviving. My Mum has been very poorly and in and out of hospital many times, we almost lost her a couple of times. I’ve also got fibromyalgia, anxiety, CFS and depression so I really do understand your health issues. I’m also still very much dealing with the loss of my 16yr old Son in 2009. It will be 14 years next month and I’m already dreading hitting that major low point that I know will come with the anniversary. He would be 30 now, I also have 2 daughters age 27 and 18 so maybe that’s why I feel so motherly towards you! All this was to say yes, we do all have bad times, some more than others and honey, for your age you have had way too many. Anyone would crash and burn after the years you have had! I’m so glad things are finally looking up for you & your amazing parents (mine are my best friends too!). Please listen to your body and rest when you need to, your loyal bees will still be here. Lots of love to you ❤ xx
I had a really bad year as well. Started with my grandpa almost dying, ended with his death in December, fiancé failed first nursing preceptorship due to harsh preceptor, passed the second time around with flying colors, financial troubles, roof needing replaced and not covered due to previous home owners bad install, ended with getting Covid for the first time and being very sick. All while dealing with a stressful job and being understaffed. Sending you all the love and good vibes for a better year for both of us!
I’m only 10 minutes into the video but I already relate to so much of what you’re saying. Thank you for sharing Molly, your words always mean so much to me as an autistic anxious person.💛
I love you Molly! You have no idea how much you are helping us as much as we’ve helped you. It’s been reciprocal this whole time, and will continue to be. It’s amazing that through such hardship there can be absolutely beautiful things taking place at the same time. Life itself is surreal. Thank YOU, Molly. ♥️
This year was a hard year for me too. Also turning 29 in February. This year my health rapidly declined, I have progessive, degenerative conditions, I had to apply for disability, I moved to a different state that has better weather for my health. I made friends and then lost them in traumatic ways and they're still spreading lies about me on their social media, one of them even hacked my accounts as they blocked me on everything. But I did keep the same friends I started the year with and THAT matters to me. I didn't keep any new friends I made this year but the ones who matter are still here. I'm sorry this year was so difficult for you as well and I hope next year is much better for you.
Hey at least you have friends! The only friends I have are online. Thankful for them though 😊 Sorry, that you had to go through all that. Sucks that people suck and would do something like that to someone else!
I’ve enjoyed, learned from, and loved every cycle of personal growth you’ve gone through and I’ll continue to in these next chapters🤍 you’re more loved than not, and anyone who doesn’t adore you can get LOST!
@@MollyBurkeOfficial you got this! You’re one of the most resilient people on the platform! Your voice will always be valuable and in demand, your unique life experiences are priceless! Your parents are lucky to have you, but they also had a huge hand in molding you, so really you’re all so lucky to have each other ♥️
Even in this difficult year you've went through, your videos really helped me through one of the hardest years of my life. I'm sorry you had to go through any of that, but I appreciate you. I had many doctors appts, and dealing with declining vision and surgeries in one eye. Idk what the outcome will be for me in the future but I know I can handle it now.
It's time to let go of 2022 and all the bad vibes! Thanks for sticking with me through the ups and downs of this year and always showing such love, support, and compassion. Making content for you this year really helped me in more ways than you know.
Of course you are blessing angel and most sweetest and strongest women and person ever and I am so sorry that happened and wish you joy love happiness strength peace positive vibes for next year LUV U MOLLY ❤️🙏🏻❤️
Go Molly, go! You can do it! You are so strong and have gone through so much. Lots of hugs! 🫂💗
You have me sobbing watching this. We survived, & my biggest hope is "Not A Horrible Year." I would love a great 2023, but I would also be thrilled with "Just Meh." Thank you for sharing your world with us. I am learning a lot to help prepare me for life as my vision lowers.
2023 owes you big, Molly....and my family too, come to think of it.
More Peter Burke equals more dad jokes, good luck with that!
@@harveyabel1354 Dad Jokes are the Best! I hope 2023 Is wonderful for you too
Very wise words, "don't make a permanent decision from a temporary problem." Thank you!
Yes!!!
One of my favorite sayings is it might be a bad day, month or year but it is not a bad life.❤
Yeah. It's sad that so many people do make that permanent decision. I've heard that people who don't succeed with that decision regret that decision immediately. They often go on to improve their lives after that. It sounds like.
I have mixed opinions about this. Really just depends on your situation. With certain things this would apply but it is not temporary for me. I will never be able to replace my husband. Yes I can remarry but it wouldn’t be him. My daughter is without her daddy.
@@dardan1984 I'm so sorry for your loss.
I think it refers to decisions like: maybe a good friend betrays another friend & that friend decides to never have friends again. Something like that.
The description of being so tired you cry from having done nothing but be exhausted is extremely relatable to me with ME/CFS. I would never wish fatigue on anyone. It is also always the worst when you are disabled and chronically ill and your health gets worse. It's like are you kidding me? It's so hard to adjust to a possibly new norm or a temporary new norm. Thank you Molly for talking about all of this and sharing all of this.
That was my thought as well, as a fellow ME/CFS sufferer. EBV is the trigger for ME in a lot of people, and I thoroughly wholeheartedly hope that Molly is not one of them.
@@LadyAurian these words could be mine too. Have lived last 30 years with fibromyalgia and lupus
Fellow CFS sufferer here and yes! The exhaustion to the point of tears is so real. I remember when I burst into tears because I didn't have the energy to put a piece of rubbish in the bin behind me. That was when my parents really understood just how ill I was. I'm much better now but still have days where a shower is too much energy. My best friend has lupus and fibromyalgia and we constantly tell each other how lucky we are to have someone else who understands what we are going through
@@LittleDergon oh no does Molly have a chronic illness too? I’ve just bookmarked this video. I haven’t watched yet. Sometimes sad content is too triggering for me so I have to be careful in what I take in and pace myself. 😢😔 I have CPTSD and Lyme disease which is so physically debilitating that it took me from a very active and healthy person to bedridden and I wouldn’t wish anything like it on anyone. 😔 it’s so sad. I love Molly so much. And I just wish healing for her, and anyone else suffering.
@@LadyAurian Oh geez I didn't even think about that part
You saying “I didn’t want to do anything to actively harm myself but I certainly didn’t want to live” is how I’ve been feeling for the last six months and it helps so much to have someone else say that and put it into words.
It's called passive suicidal, if you ever need to communicate with anyone.
Molly, imagine how your parents felt when they found out you were going to be blind. The fears about what jobs would be available to you…and if you would be able to support yourself. And now, not only can you support yourself but also your family. This is truly a win for your community, you’re surly inspiring so many.
It's still a lot of pressure on somebody... I think she knows about these things and that's why she's so humble
Can confirm as a mother of a 2 year old daughter who is my world, and has visual, hearing, and physical impairments. Of course I worry about her future and what it will look like. I agree that this is such a full circle moment for your parents . Absolute blessing ❤
It must be a “going into your 30s” right of passage to have a super traumatic year of never ending shit to reset everything you know. Mine was 29. I have never experienced THAT much stress in my entire life.
My mom got breast cancer, my grandpa got prostate cancer then Covid and passed away, my grandma got lung cancer, I got a divorce that forced me to give up my dream life in my dream city and move back to living with my parents in my hometown that I can’t stand. And then on top of it all…my best friend took his life.
I can 110% sympathize with a year that keeps on giving. And I can 110% back up that the clouds DO clear and things get easier/better. I’m a completely different person now from all of the lessons I learned in 2020, but it’s the best change in myself I’ve ever had.
I think there are a lot of people who has had a bad year. I am sending you warm hugs, and I am hoping 2023 will be a better year 💙
Hi Molly. My dad was diagnosed with esophageal cancer the day before Thanksgiving. The doctors originally told us he could have as little as 3 months, even with chemo and radiation. Luckily, it seems they have caught it quite early and we should have a little more time with him. So I definitely emphathize with your story of your mom's cancer. I know exactly how you feel ❤️
The sweat stain surprised me at first and then I was like "you know what?? ME TOO!" Like the amount of crap you've been through, you deserve to be able to sweat and not get made fun of. It's a bodily function! We all have them, Love ya Molly! I hope your next year is better and you get to thrive again!
I didn’t notice it until, at the end, when Molly said it.
My mom is my person, too. It’s great to hear and see other people who are so close with parents, and know that we’re not alone in our fears about losing our parents when the prospect becomes “real”.
Sending hugs ❤ been a hard year here too. I broke off my engagement of two years, had to deal with vision loss and epilepsy, and I’ve had to decide to drop out of college. It’s been a lot but we’re gonna push through. You got this!
You’ve got this too! Sending best wishes
Don't worry about the College. You can always go back. Some colleges are better than other with accommodations, so that will be something to look at. Depending on how far you got, a Two year and transfer is an option too. There are ways to do this.
That is a very rough year. Sending good vibes for 2023.
Sending good vibes, & prayers, your way. Every one of those changes are huge, & make a big impact on both your physical & mental health. It was smart of you to take a break from your studies, because it is much harder to clean up bad grades, than it is to get back into the groove once you have adjusted to your new normal. I have had professors that were extremely helpful with assistance I may have needed due to my own health problems, & some that were less so. It is much easier to navigate when you know what kind of help you may need. I can't recomend Hadley enough. They have a lot of free resources to help you adjust. I hope 2023 is a much better year for you, & your health!
So sorry to read your struggles. I am sending you good vibes!! Love to you
The fact that you, as the child, are supporting both of your parents and yourself, is BEYOND admirable. And the fact that you are so proud and happy to do so is absolutely beautiful.
As you mentioned, they clearly raised you right. I love how willing you are to support them in literally every way that you can. You are just such a good daughter and such a good person. I'm only about halfway through the video, but I couldn't wait any longer to comment!
Keep being your amazing self, Molly!! I wish you nothing but the best and I wish that blessings on top of blessings will soon come your way! ♡♡♡
2022 sure did suck. I had a miscarriage and lost a beloved pet suddenly to cancer all in the same month. We're always here for you, Molly. I hope you get lots of rest and recovery in 2023. Cheers to the new year and starting fresh!
When you said hang in there I started crying. This year has been so challenging for me and I'm at the point where I'm just hanging on by threads and praying I'll make it through okay. You're right, even though people go through different challenges, it feels so good to know that we're not alone. We're hanging on, but we're hanging on together. It's hard to remember why it's worth it to hang on and watching this video helped me so much. When I reach my next stage of human I will be better for it, but right now I am struggling to find what makes me happy again. Please keep doing what you're doing, you are making a difference
I appreciate your authenticity. While I enjoy positive upbeat videos I know that it's good for everyone to know that they're not alone in their struggles.
My brother took his life at the end of 2020. The next year was literally the worst of my life. We had 4 family members take their lives after him. It was truly awful. I’ve thought about taking my own life before so I can say to all of you feeling the same way who might read this; the people who you think will be better off without you never will be. They will never recover, I certainly haven’t. When you can’t fathom staying for yourself, at least stay for them ❤️
As someone currently battling with depression it’s very nice to hear you speak about your experience. And it helps in motivating me that things do get better 💕
Molly, you are such an inspiration in so many ways. I really hope 2023 is a really good year for you and your family. I found you only this year as new to UA-cam and initially was drawn to being educated in understanding blindness, which is in my family and could be a part of my future. I ultimately love watching you as you’re the most uplifting, down to earth, kind, fun, honest, genuine, open minded, vulnerable, strong and so likeable woman. You really are radiant! I just watched this with a loved one in mind, who’s had a bad year and you have given me strength in how to be a better support, friend, mum and me. You put everything into perspective in life and I always enjoy your videos. Thank you.
This has by far been one of the hardest years of my life, and at the time one of the most important years. Thank you for sharing your year with us and reminding us that the hard times don't last forever.
What i keep hearing from this video: I survived
I got through
We kept going
I'm still here.
Give yourself more credit! YOU MADE IT THROUGH We love you ❤
Having fibromyalgia, I can so understand the fatigue and feeling ill. Glad you are doing better. wishing you the best new year!🎉❤
I too was just surviving, not thriving this past year. Thank you for sharing your experiences. We love you Molly ♥️ The feeling of getting through and helping each other with that is MUTUAL!
While I had a great year, I’ve had 5 years just like this. When you feel like there’s one crisis after another and it feels like it’s never going to be over, but it does. I’m so sorry you and your family had to go through ALL of this, but I’m glad you are so close to your family. Sometimes they are all you have. Us bees are always going to be here for you Molly. I’m so so thankful mama bee is ok. Big hugs to you and your family. Happy new year. 2023 will be better. We have to believe that. Life will always be hard, but my motto this year was “one day at a time.. that’s all I can do”
I understand as someone who has dealt with chronic fatigue for 4 years. The anxiety and trauma that you go through with fatigue is so difficult. As you explain, you are stripped down to the basics. You are vulnerable and you can't find behind the person you have created. But there is beauty to the suffering and vulnerability. What you gain is more than what you think you have lost. You gain gratitude, empathy, understanding, and resilience. I am glad things are now starting to look up for you. I hope god has fewer tough lessons for you next year. Sending lots of love. 💕
This is really inspiring and encouraging for me, Molly. I’m going through something very serious with my family right now and also dealing with a brain tumor at 30 years old. I’m having brain surgery in less than a month. I’m so terrified. Your words about things always eventually getting better though really made me feel so much hope. ❤ You’re such an inspiration to me.
Please Molly don't feel shame about your old videos!!!! Seeing change and growth it's such a great thing, I get where you are coming from and I am super thankful for not having videos of 20 year old me (haha) but we all have changed (or should) and hopefully for the best, so no judgement from yourself or others. And it was really a hard year, but I am sure it can only get better :) And how great it's to have such a wonderful family and be able to support each other!
Thank you Molly. I'm in my difficult season and this really helped. I hope so many good things for you
same molly. definetly no expectation for this year, just taking it as it comes, healing and maybe thriving
Your timing couldn't be better! Chronic illness is so hard!
Molly thank you for being so open, you're such a bright light. Sending you and the family ALL the love!
I am watching this from my hospital bed. I was ending my year graduating from college and now face a cardiac medical emergency that doctors don’t know how to manage or help but can’t have me leave. I’m in for the long term. Sometime it’s nice to share our struggles because it unburdens our souls allowing us to heal physically and mentally.
Thank you molly for your encouraging word. I’m so sorry you went through so much. You came out a wiser and stronger person.
Molly, I’ve been watching your videos for years. I’ve watched you tackle and conquer each hurdle that you’ve come across. You have stayed so humble and kind even with your continuous success. You’ve always felt like an older sister to me; someone I look up to and strive to be like. I wish you and your family the best going into 2023. Thank you for your honesty and positivity. Thank you for being you.
My Dad is my best friend, confidant and rock in any crisis in my life. When I am depressed, he makes life worth living. He's had many surgeries for melanoma over the years. I totally understand the fear of cancer and the dread of knowing your person won't be around forever. It's especially hard when you're coping with depression already.
My dad was my best friend. He died in 2001 when I was 15. ALS. It was horrible, and it's still really difficult to process. It's lonely and a lot of things felt hollow, for a long time. It's sometimes still that bad, but I've learned ways to celebrate the things about him I can still keep alive. Staying curious is one way I accomplish that. ✨️ I hope you so much warmth and healing, you and your family.
I’m so sorry that your dad passed away in that manner and that you had to witness it. It’s one of the most inhumane ways to pass away and nobody should have to go like that. A former classmate of mine died from ALS. The progression was quick, yet not quick when I could see how much she suffered. She had a baby boy and was full of live, so active and within a year she was in a wheelchair, could barely speak or swallow food. I hope you can feel your dad with you often.
Sending my love to you. Thank you for sharing how you’ve dealt with such a difficult experience. I hope you have a wonderful new year ❤️
I can’t imagine. Sending you love ❤️
Your words about celebrating him were beautiful. Thank you for sharing this.
Sending you so much love, my mum was my best friend and she left this plane of existence in 2016. I didn't get to start properly grieving until 2020 just before covid emerged disrupting everyone's lives. But I'm still here, And you're still here, And I'm so happy that we are all here and doing our damned best!
My dad had a seizure Christmas morning this year and was rushed into the ER. At 58 years old, he’s been incredibly healthy, and active - like we joke how he’s TOO ACTIVE! This really rocked our family.
He can’t drive for 3-6 months now, and we’re waiting to find out if it’s epilepsy.
It also made me have that hard realization that oh Shit.. my bestfriend .. my dad won’t be here forever.
It’s so hard. I hope you’re being open and honest in therapy, because it’s the hardest thought to manage.
Love you molly! From Vancouver BC❤
Thank you so much for sharing your year with us! Normalizing that people go through these things is so helpful. I love being able to relate to others and sharing your hard year helps me deal with my own troubles as well.
Sending you and your family love and blessings for 2023 and forever.
Oh Molly, what a hard year you have had, you are so brave to share with us! On January 1st 2022 my beautiful Mama fell and broke her hip, 13 days later she was dead, she was 65. My Mum like yours was my best friend, she had been my carer, my support person, until she developed early onset vascular dementia she had her own room at my house and her own clothes/ toiletries etc because she would come out and stay with me when my husband worked away so she could help me with my babies. I can tell you my heart and soul were torn apart when my Mum died and 2022 was the hardest year of my life so far. But I’m still here, I’ve felt more pain and loneliness and emptiness this year than I ever have, but keeping going I’m realising how precious life is! We all need to cling to the good times, the laughter, the happy memories to sustain us through the harder days!
I’m so glad you are recovering from Epstein Barr, I developed Severe M.E/CFS after that virus and have been so unwell for 20 years. But this last week I discovered that I also have Severe Obstructive Sleep Apnoea Hypopnea Syndrome and that’s why I’m so exhausted all the time! My husband purchased a test to check me for sleep apnoea and the day after the results were in I had my diagnosis! I stop breathing 65+ times an hour during light sleep and 95+ an hour during deeper REM sleep. So I too for the first time in 20 years am about to have a specialist and treatments to help me improve!
I too am determined that 2023 will be a much better year! I pray that we all have a better year - I see great things ahead for you Molly! God Bless!
Thank you for sharing Molly! I find your channel to be so helpful and inspiring as someone dealing with chronic illness. It warms my heart to see all of these comments from others that have the same experience. Your vulnerability and ability to share what your life is like makes your channel a safe space where we can all gather and feel less alone in our personal struggles. I hope our comments help you also feel less alone. We all have to face our struggles by ourselves ultimately but it sure helps to have others supporting you. Very proud of the work you've done to get through it ❤
My mom also had a spot in her leg that was melanoma so I relate to how hard it is to watch your mom go through it. She went through cancer again on her scalp and went through chemo for that. Both of our mom are strong woman.
The area WAS NOT MELANOMA. This is a prime example of the things Molly says to engender pity. So it is needful that she learns to start telling the entire truth and not just pity me stories.
Molly said it was uncertain and then was determined to be precancerous. She told the whole truth. I'm sorry you don't feel comforted by other people experiencing and sharing hardships many of us can relate to. Maybe this video wasn't for you. Or it was but it triggered an experience you had that felt even harder. I'm sorry if that's true. But this is very vulnerable for Molly to share and it has benefited most of the people you see here. Be kind. Have a peaceful night.
2022 has EASILY been the literally worst year of my life, yet the best in terms of learning :/
I was surviving last year too. My mom passed away and I'm having a really hard time moving on. She was my best friend & we lived together & I took care of her. It was really unexpected. Hug your mom and never take her for granted. 💔💔‼‼
Sending love your way, that must be so hard ❤
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sorry for the loss of your mom 💔
I'm so glad your mom is okay! My dad passed away from cancer this past summer. I'm still recovering it's something that you just can't prepare for.
2022 was such a hard year for me too. I had to put down my 23 year old cat, Gypsy, and then exactly 6 months later my youngest cat, Charles, suddenly died. It felt like I had lost 2 of my children and I was ready for Gypsy to pass away because of her age and huge health decreases. Then I found out that my cat, Sage, has diabetes. They are my children and my family and it’s been so difficult for me to deal with.
My mental health had been such a mess.
My physical health disability list has been growing. I found out that I have the most severe variant of the Mthfr genetic mutation and that was just too much and feels like I’m losing all of my hopes for having a biological child and I can’t find the light at the end of the tunnel, it’s like my hope was gone. I’m just broken from 2022.
I'm so sorry to hear about your losses, I can relate as I lost my best friend and soulmate, my cat April to cancer last year. Its the worst experience I've ever been through and I've not had an easy life so far. Four months later and I still cry for hours every day, I don't have children either and she was my everything. A lot of people don't understand and invalidate let loss grief which makes it harder to cope. I hope you're OK but if you're not, that's OK, just keep going, that's all I'm doing, one day at a time. One reassuring thing is, our cats were as lucky to have been adopted by us as we were lucky to be adopted by them as they were much loved and cared for.
You lost your cats? That’s it? You should be on medication
@@plannergirljones2551 I am on medication actually. But thank you so much Dr. Plannergirljones2551! Wow I should’ve come and saw you instead of paying money to see all the doctors I see.
My cats were my emotional support animals, losing pets is already difficult but when you rely on them for emotional comfort and support, and then they die suddenly it’s a lot. That grief can be the same as if you actually lost a person you were close to. Please don’t belittle or discount other people’s traumas or losses. It’s really not your place to determine if it’s traumatic or a devastating loss..
I actually feel sad for those people that don’t get to have bonds with animals in the way that I do. It must be lonely, not feeling connected to other beings like that.
Molly! You are the only youtuber that I follow where I watch every video you release, from start to finish.
I think that I might have skipped one or maby two videos during the last 2,5 years. I don't care what you are doing in your video actually. And I know that it sounds strange.
But your personality draws me in, even if it is a subject that I would skip if someone else uploaded it.
Don't worry about saying something wrong. You are so real, that I don't think that anyone could be so mad that they would cancel you for anything you say.
I hope you get a wonderful 2023.
I will be here watching with the other (almost) 2 million other persons who love you and your content
I think it’s been a really hard year for a lot of people. I’m sorry it has been for you, too. You have been my role model for years. You helped me “come out” as disabled and accept that aspect of my life and identity. You inspired me to get my service dog. You are important to me and to many others. You have many peoples’ thoughts and prayers with you
It's so crazy how hard we can be on ourselves....... I've been following you for like 6 years and have never once thought you were cringe or that you were making obvious mistakes. I always thought you lead with your heart and good intentions. Everything else has just been normal growth and change as you age. You're the best dude. I'm happy to exist on this planet with you.
I've loved seeing you and your content over the years! I'm glad you have learned and grown from the hard times in 2022, hopefully 2023 will bring about some well-earned peace ❤
I'm behind here. Lol. But I still wanted to comment here, even though it's been three months since this was released.
I've got chronic pain and fatigue and what you described with your virus is how I feel every single day. I'm so glad yours was temporary!
I also can SEE you've been in therapy with your video content. Therapy is an amazing tool. Thank you for being honest about it and sharing that.
Seasonal depression is real. I suffer with that too (as well as regular depression) and I live in Ohio. Winter can be awful for those of us with SAD.
I'm 40 and can SO relate to growth and recognizing of your growth. The older you get, the more that happens!
May you thrive this year!
My mom was seriously sick when I was a kid and it turned out to be tumors in her uterus (see your gynecologist!) And she needed surgery but before the surgery I was terrified I remember going to school with my mom in the hospital and trying not to cry during lunch
The fear of loosing a parent is truley the worst and I can not imagine what you went through
But I'm so glad you are starting to feel better you really do deserve the world 💕
You are such a great daughter!
All the best for you and a very happy 2023!
I don't know you personally, but I care about you. You feel like a friend. While I wish you many less struggles, your journey is making you a more mature, beautiful person. Thank you for sharing. It really helps me be more compassionate with myself. So Proud!!
2022 was a hard year for me too. Watching your video and wishing the best for you ❤️
Sending you a big virtual hug! Hopefully there are better days ahead for us both in 2023!
@@MollyBurkeOfficial thanks girlie 😘 your comment made my day!
Everyone I know had a real bad 2022 😅 I had brain surgery and I'm glad that year is over but also still trying to get through it all
Thank you for sharing. Appreciate the vulnerability & helps not feeling alone in surviving vs thriving.
First off, I just want to say I’m so proud of you. I have been following along with you for many years, through the ups and downs and somehow, you always seem to resonate with me through each season of life. 2021-2022 has been the hardest season of my life as well. I lost my heart dog just before I got married, then I had to put down my childhood dog of 16 years, I got married in September of 21, my husband had a mental break 2 weeks after our wedding, my parents got covid over thanksgiving, my Dad passed away 2 days before Christmas, i was in the most intense period of depression/grief afterward that I’ve ever been through, dealing with SI, my husband had me arrested and locked in a psych ward for 4 days and while I was there, my Grammy passed away. And these are only the major things that happened. I feel like people don’t believe that all of those horrible things could happen to one person and think that I make it up. And I wish I was. I never saw myself losing my Dad at just 28 years old. He was my best friend. My idol. And I work in healthcare. I saw what covid was doing to people and I would never in a million years have believed that it would destroy my own family in the place where I work. I have mustered up the strength to go to work everyday. The trauma is immense. When you spoke of what you went through with your Mom this past year and realizing the mortality of our own parents, I quite literally sobbed. When you talked about wanting to die and not wake up again, I sobbed because I live this nightmare too. Now I am facing divorce because this year has torn apart my husband and i’s relationship. Our newly wed status couldn’t bare the weight that was placed on it so quickly. It feels very freeing to post my traumas on the internet and share in the misery of others even though I wish that no one else was experiencing this level of heartache and pain. Thank you Molly for sharing your life experiences. This is now my favorite video of yours. And while I hate that you’ve gone through all this, I’m glad that we have each other. You mean the world to me even though you don’t know me. You keep me afloat when I feel completely alone. You are not alone either. You have me and all of us! I love you. ♥️ Here’s to our growth in 2023 🥂🎉
I have been following since at least my sophomore year of college which was like 2018-19. I can relate to the struggles you went through this year. 2022 was a crazy hard year. 2017 was really hard for my family. We lost a family member to cancer. While I can't say that I have experienced a "comedy" of errors like your year this year, I feel like 2022 was unnecessarily stressful. I hope that 2023 is better for you.
I have chronic fatigue from both physical and mental illnesses. I have learned people who have never experienced fatigue just don’t get it. They just have no reference point. Like I tell people and they’re all like, “yah I’m tired a lot too” or “of course you’re tired you have 4 kids” ect
It helped me to use the Spoon Theory when explaining to others what it's like to have chronic fatigue and illnesses. They might not have personal experience with it but it gave some people in my life a better understanding that I can't just snap out of it with a good night of sleep. It also helped me with figuring out where I was energy wise on a particular day and not expect more than I could handle. Hope that helps a little, from a fellow "Spoonie" ❤
Yes, it's so hard! I'm lying down right now because I took a walk a few hours ago. I want to clean the appartment and cook, but I can't. I want to be a fun and supporting girlfriend but I'm always tired. I'm scared people will just think I'm lazy. My mum talked about people with chronic pain earlier today and said "I think some people just need to think about how they're feeling less". She wasn't talking about me, but it hurt to hear. I know people will think I should just push through and won't understand what it's like to be too tired to sit up. If I could I would.
Exactly!!
This is me with my husband. I know he’s tired too. But I also know that unless he somehow has what I have he is not this level of fatigue and sickness and it’s not fair for us to compare sleep hours. I think he’s starting to get it. But it’s hard.
@@BethC817 Yes! I felt super validated after learning about Spoon Theory. I even got a lil spoon tattooed on my arm
This is so interesting because I feel like I’ve been force-taught similar life lessons this year, albeit through completely different challenges and circumstances, but my life has also been stripped down to the bare bones and I’ve rediscovered the real me. And I’m better for it, but jeez what a year! I’m so glad you’re feeling like you’re finally turning a corner and I really appreciate you sharing not only what you’ve been through but what you got out of it. These periods of growth in life do seem like such an essential part of the human experience. I wish thy weren’t so hard though!!
same here
I am glad you're here to and made it through your hardships and challenges too. ^^ Off of to the thriving 2023? Would be fine with me. Or well just one foot closer to positivitiy.
The last few years have been very isolating for people. If it isn't COVID restrictions limiting their contact with loved ones or people in general, then it's problems and challenges they are trapped in that is emotionally crippling. I hope the new year brings some exhale points for all of us. My year has been very similar to yours so I share your fatigue, fears and sorrows. Count the blessings you do have and find gratitude in every day. I guess that we have to trust that " This too shall pass".
As someone who is in the thick of it right now (dealing with loss and health problems), this video was insanely helpful. Thank you, Molly❤️
You are a warrior! I hope that 2023 is your year :) I lost my dad in 2022 and got broken up with from a 9 year relationship so it was pretty rough for me too. Hang in there. Love ya! ❤
I have the same bunny stuffie and I'm holding her for this too!! Love you bb
Sending you a blessing 😊 I hope 2023 is filled with success, happiness and good health.
As someone who has had a very rough past 2 years, I really appreciate you being so open about your struggles. I hope you have a better 2023 ❤️❤️
Healing and (maybe) thriving i love this! Thanks for sharing Molly. So good to hear you’re not alone.
You helping your dad and family makes me love you even more! I can’t imagine how hard it must feel for your dad also sending love to all
Moving to CA is so beneficial to depression, you are totally VALID in your feelings about winter. The sun is just so important for mental health. Also financially, supporting yourself in your own through social media is sooo stressful. The disability community is used to being so vulnerable and often taken advantage of, unfortunately it can get projected onto creators. It’s so fearful wanting to make sure you don’t invalidate anyone or get canceled through sharing your vulnerability. On top of that, everything with your health, families health, constant public exposure, and dog chaos. :( GIRL YOU’VE BEEN THROUGH IT. Here’s to a brighter 2023 💜✨
One of my favorite quotes is by Zora Neale Hurston: "There are years that ask questions and years that answer." Wishing you a 2023 of peace and joy. 💜💜
My 2022 was a year of health. In January I found out I’m allergic to 8 different (main) foods and ended the year with being diagnosed MGD. Not to mention 1 of our dogs died and 3 days later we found out the other dog has cancer. 2023 better be better
So many people are posting their 2022 highlights and I think it’s so important to be mindful that not everyone had a good year
Holy smoke yes it's been a rough year! I had a heart attack this year, and it completely changed my life and upended all my priorities. While there have been other stresses, nearly dying has outweighed them all. When you speak of resets, I relate immensely. I'm so glad you & yours are feeling better physically and emotionally. Your videos have given me so much comfort and joy through my own challenges. I'm so happy you can continue doing what you love! Peace. ❤
Girl, what a year. I hope your 2023 is a much better one with tons of good things happening to you and your family!
Hello thank you for sharing the highs and lows of your life. Your message is relatable because the lousy feeling when your unable to achieve your goals is relatable. Taking risk is scary, but it is amazing when the outcome is everything you want it to be. I am so glad you have your parents. I love that so much for you.
I challenge everyone to fatty meat, eggs, fish, butter, salt to taste, electrolytes for 90 days for your health. The transition is different for everyone but AFTER you transition, you will feel AMAZING!
This video made me so happy! Not because of the terrible year you’ve had but to see how proud of yourself you are now that you’re healing, it’s truly inspiring! This video was so important for so many people, thank you Molly❣️
Thank you for sharing this video. I lost my mom in 2020. She had been battling skin cancer for 3 years and had gotten exposed to COVID-19. At the time my dad was living out of province for work. It was the most devastating time in my life and although I’ve been through the majority of the grieving process, it still effects me everyday. I appreciate you posting a video like this as many people go through this and need the support to not feel alone. Thank you 💕
Thank you so much for this video. I think it’s great that you share things like this because it’s human to have bad years (even though everyone has different things they go through). It’s good, especially for younger people, to see that it’s good to seek help from therapists and doctors and that you can get through these things! I wish you and your family the best for 2023 and the years after that because you deserve it!
I usually don't write comments, but this video helped me so much, so thank you Molly! My year also didn't go as planned, because I struggled with my physical and resulting from that also with my mental health. I was just so disappointed in myself for not reaching the goals I set for this year and for disappointing others as well. But your story and your words helped me to think about myself in a more kindly way and to give myself time to heal no matter if I can fullfill the expectations of others or reach all goals I set. Its just life and life is not as perfect as we hope for, but it's still worth living every day with new hope ❤
I love you Molly and thank God you did survive through such a rough year. I truly look forward to each and every video you do. I am thankful you did what you needed to do to take care of your health. Praying for you and your parents who are frickin’ amazing and for a glorious new Year!!
I'm really really glad you made this video! Especially sharing with us your therapist validating that "of course you feel like nothing is going to go right, and expect that, because the things happening for you *right now* confirm that." It really helps me contextualize a lot, and remember that things haven't necessarily been going "right" for me this year, or lately. that a lot of things have "confirmed" for me that "nothing goes right for me these days" BUT that while it's normal to be feeling that way, I don't have to let those thoughts control me!
Sending you all the positive vibes Molly. I’m only halfway through the video, but I’m glad your mom’s okay. I’m best friends with my mom too and having to face your mortality let alone others is such a scary thing. Sending you both well wishes into the new year!!
Thank you for talking about these things.
I’m from California and have been struggling with seasonal affective disorder since I moved to Vancouver 4 years ago. Wishing you the best in your new home!
This year i went through something similar. My dad had a heart attack at the end of 2021 and had to undergo 2 surgeries and 6 months of physical therapy. At the time he had also just lost his job. I was away for my first year of college and was out of state and had back to back mono and covid, and my mono was so bad that my eustacian tubes were blocked so my ears couldn't regulate pressure and I couldn't fly home when it happened. Words cannot express the feeling of complete and total helplessness I felt. When I was finally able to get home and visit, going back to school triggered the most intense anxiety and depression that I've ever experienced. I've always had anxiety but every day I woke up with this gut-wrenching fear that someone was dead. Any time I woke up to a missed call it triggered a panick attack. I would not wish that awareness on ANYBODY. And I feel for you and your pain wholeheartedly. I'm glad you're healing and hoping that we can heal together ❤️. Sending you the best vibes for 2023
I totally understand the navigation of your mid to late 20s and trying to become the adult you always thought you would be with the highest form of optimism! I feel like, now that I’m 34, I am way more realistic than ever. Things aren’t always going to be shiny and new. Paint fades and glitter falls. I’ve been pretty pessimistic these last few months of this clinical depressive state I’ve been in with mo way out. I’m finally coming out of that pit and turning a corner. I am picking up my brand new Aussie pup tomorrow and she gives me so much to look forward to! God gives us grace, not because we deserve it, but because He knows we need it. Happiest New Year to you and your family ❤
Hoping that 2023 brings you and your family joy, love, and happiness Molly! 🎊
Thank you! You as well!!
2022 was super terrible for me too. My mom got diagnosed with lung cancer in May. I took care of her and my grandma with dementia all year long until my mom passed in September. I’m only 20 and my dad died before I was born so I’m officially an orphan. I’m still taking care of my grandma and her memory is getting much worse which makes that year worse however there is a light. I got my CNA certification shortly after my mom died. I was planning to get it before she got sick then couldn’t because I was taking care of her but she made me promise to go through with it and finish it and I did. I’m going to work my way up to being a nurse just like she would of wanted me to.
Really appreciate this. I always saw you on Instagram being bubbly and happy and you were with your pets and family and you went on a cruise and you seemed so happy on the outside. This was very real and vulnerable and it’s so important to share this side. I lost my grandma and had chaotic times throughout the year.
To everyone reading this, keep going. Things are gonna be hard and very scary, but look to those who care about you and things that make you happy. 💛
Edit: Also speaking on the how every little thing felt like a domino effect. I felt that in 2020 and that if I made the wrong move my life would crumble and I’d lose my relationship and my pets and my family. It was some of the worst anxiety I’ve ever had.
You should never feel bad that your parents are you best friends. I lost my Dad 5 years ago this month and it was awful. My parents are both my best friend on this earth and in heaven. Continued love, hugs, and prayers.❤
Happy New Year, Molly! This is one subscriber who's sticking around.❤💙💜
Sounds like 2022 was truly a doozy. Glad you took the time to take care of your family and your health. Thank you for sharing and may 2023 bring you some much overdue joy ❤️
Molly I have just turned 50, almost the same age your Parents are and I am SO proud of you! I’ve been a sub now for a number of years, since your collab with Shane and I’ve seen a lot of your ups and downs. I too have had a year of surviving. My Mum has been very poorly and in and out of hospital many times, we almost lost her a couple of times. I’ve also got fibromyalgia, anxiety, CFS and depression so I really do understand your health issues. I’m also still very much dealing with the loss of my 16yr old Son in 2009. It will be 14 years next month and I’m already dreading hitting that major low point that I know will come with the anniversary. He would be 30 now, I also have 2 daughters age 27 and 18 so maybe that’s why I feel so motherly towards you! All this was to say yes, we do all have bad times, some more than others and honey, for your age you have had way too many. Anyone would crash and burn after the years you have had! I’m so glad things are finally looking up for you & your amazing parents (mine are my best friends too!). Please listen to your body and rest when you need to, your loyal bees will still be here. Lots of love to you ❤ xx
I had a really bad year as well. Started with my grandpa almost dying, ended with his death in December, fiancé failed first nursing preceptorship due to harsh preceptor, passed the second time around with flying colors, financial troubles, roof needing replaced and not covered due to previous home owners bad install, ended with getting Covid for the first time and being very sick. All while dealing with a stressful job and being understaffed. Sending you all the love and good vibes for a better year for both of us!
I’m only 10 minutes into the video but I already relate to so much of what you’re saying. Thank you for sharing Molly, your words always mean so much to me as an autistic anxious person.💛
I love you Molly! You have no idea how much you are helping us as much as we’ve helped you. It’s been reciprocal this whole time, and will continue to be. It’s amazing that through such hardship there can be absolutely beautiful things taking place at the same time. Life itself is surreal. Thank YOU, Molly. ♥️
This year was a hard year for me too. Also turning 29 in February. This year my health rapidly declined, I have progessive, degenerative conditions, I had to apply for disability, I moved to a different state that has better weather for my health. I made friends and then lost them in traumatic ways and they're still spreading lies about me on their social media, one of them even hacked my accounts as they blocked me on everything. But I did keep the same friends I started the year with and THAT matters to me. I didn't keep any new friends I made this year but the ones who matter are still here. I'm sorry this year was so difficult for you as well and I hope next year is much better for you.
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Hey at least you have friends! The only friends I have are online. Thankful for them though 😊
Sorry, that you had to go through all that. Sucks that people suck and would do something like that to someone else!
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I’ve enjoyed, learned from, and loved every cycle of personal growth you’ve gone through and I’ll continue to in these next chapters🤍 you’re more loved than not, and anyone who doesn’t adore you can get LOST!
Let go of that bad juju, girl! Go in to the new year with positivity and hope and be the best version of you ♥️
We're getting rid of all those bad 2022 vibes and leaving it all behind!
@@MollyBurkeOfficial you got this! You’re one of the most resilient people on the platform! Your voice will always be valuable and in demand, your unique life experiences are priceless! Your parents are lucky to have you, but they also had a huge hand in molding you, so really you’re all so lucky to have each other ♥️
2022 had me crawling by the end of it. Im so excited for this year. It's a year of softness and deliciousness for me.
Even in this difficult year you've went through, your videos really helped me through one of the hardest years of my life. I'm sorry you had to go through any of that, but I appreciate you. I had many doctors appts, and dealing with declining vision and surgeries in one eye. Idk what the outcome will be for me in the future but I know I can handle it now.
I really needed this. thank you so much. I think this was my hardest year to date. I'm looking forward to some of the goals I am going to reach!