Been subbed going on ten years now, and haven’t really watched for about 5, but I was drawn in by the title because I just wanted to see how someone who had given me many laughs and good times in my late teens early 20’s was doing. I’m super proud of you. Never haven’t been.
I second that, back in the hidden and TTT days. Honestly, nick has the best laugh alongside adams, urs and adams laugh was the most memorable and I mean that in the best ways. Thank you so much for staying strong nick.
As someone with Autism and ADHD, I have a marijuana problem. I need it in order to be content, if I don’t have it I start to get into my head too much, and it spirals down and down. I feel like I need to be on a substance to supplement my mental issues
Exact same here--diagnosed audhd and used to have a drinking problem, I couldn't stop. I got onto weed and I told myself that whenever I get a craving, have weed. I am just over three years alcohol-free. For me, it's a weed solution.
HEY. I'VE WATCHED THIS ON MULTIPLE ACCOUNTS AND AM GETTING SOUND, NO IDEA WHY THATS HAPPENING BUT HAHAHA IT WOULD HAPPEN ON AN IMPORTANT VIDEO LIKE THIS. HIT REFRESH, HOPEFULLY THAT WORKS.
Hey man congrats. I gave up alcohol in January but it's because of probation. Either way I feel healthier. I'll see ya in the stream later. I'm the F!stmedaddydiction guy 😂 who now goes by this moniker.
Thanks for posting this! Alcoholism takes hold of everything in your life if you let it, it's all you think about and all that matters. ADHD only makes it far worse. I've been sober for 3 years now, and it's changed so much for the better, specially my attitude. The only way to quit is to want too, and put in the work knowing your triggers and how to control them. if you need help, PLEASE find help. Talk to someone. Your worth it.
You've taken the first step to dealing with it.... admitting it, that's one of the harder things to do...you have a lot of people here rooting for you....
I had to go sober a year ago because of health reasons, but it was also destroying my finances. I'm glad you're taking care of yourself, and proud of you for being open about your experience and telling your story. I'm sure you'll help others in your audience with this. I wish you the best of luck on your journey 💗
Hey Diction, long time subscriber and lurker. (Dizzy) and Alcohol has impacted me and my family. You and your videos gave me comfort in some really difficult times. I really do wish you all the best in life - this is just another reason you're amazing - I am super proud of you!
Hey Diction, I have always loved your honesty. Sending you love and light ETA: as someone in their late 30s with adhd, I never knew the dopamine and alcohol fact. I’ve just started ketamine infusions for treatment resistant depression… the dopamine thing makes SO much sense.
I'm a fan of yours, dude. And I really hope everything works out for you. Selfishly, I want you to still be around making videos because I really enjoy watching you fool around in video games with Mr Sark and the others. I love you, man. No homo.
Yo man, congrats on hitting 100 days! That's a huge accomplishment, keep it up. Having been sober for a little over 3 years I related to everything you said, the shame, hiding, and feelings of failure hit hard and just dug me into that black hole deeper and deeper. I used to always put my recycling in different bins around my neighborhood to try and hide it, though by the end everyone around me knew anyway no matter how slick I thought I was. I'm glad you're taking these steps and working through recovery, it isn't easy but it's worth it. Keep coming back dude, as a fellow alcoholic I'm rooting for ya
Damn, I've been following since the loft days and always loved your videos and streams, I can't really watch the streams much anymore since your schedule is just sort of incompatible with me (I'm in the UK) and I've grown up so can't really pull all nighters constantly anymore haha. Hard to believe it's been a decade since I first found your channel. It's good to see that you've accepted your problem and have really taken the steps to fix it. I know all to well how quick alcoholism can spiral, my father was an alcoholic too and in the end just couldn't quit the drink. I really hope you're able to stay sober and achieve your end goals in this. I'd love to see you come back to youtube and post skits and stuff like you used to if you're ever up for it, all the best man
Admitting the problem is there is the first and hardest step. Good on ya man. And damn good for you for working on it. It’s not an easy journey but you can get there. One day at a time. I know I’m a total rando but if you or anyone here in the community ever needs to talk/rant, I got you.
As someone else with ADHD as an adult, I feel that struggle super hard. Thank you for your honesty, and it’s good to see you again. Been a casual fan since the early source games days, so it’s great to catch you back around again. You got this.
I saw the signs of this when F'd Up Friday started. I'm glad most of you stopped that and have tried to go down a healthier path. Substance abuse is a dangerous road and I have many family and friends who suffer from it in one way or another. Keep healthy Diction and know we want the best for you.
So glad that youre doing better now man. It takes ALOT of strength to kick habits like booze, it takes alot of courage to openly talk about your struggles with it. In all honesty I stopped watching you for a long time, because I have had my own addiction problems and watching your streams and vids were hard because the alcohol was so prominent. I look forward to watching all the content from you in the future. Keep up the good work, wishing the best for you
Good for you for getting a handle on the drinking! I remember watching your videos back in the day, and enjoying watching them. Thank you for being willing to share the things that you struggle with and the things that have helped you with handling them.
Audio works fine. Proud as hell of you. I finally *finally* stopped the insane alcoholic death spiral two years ago, and it was almost entirely tied to how I was trying to deal with my own ADHD and mental issues. Actually getting help, making new routines, finding healthy and addictive habits like biking and lifting- those things have saved my life. You joke, but I haven't seen you in a while-- you already look *drastically* better, and I'm so grateful, man. You are one of the wittiest entertainers and you have such a place in my heart from watching you in my 20s, so it makes me happy af to see you doing better and deciding you're worth the frustration that comes with a change like this. Congrats man, take it easy and we'll see you when you feel like it's a good time, yeah?
It's been prolly a solid decade or so since I've been subbed to you and I gotta say, keep at it, it'll get hard and it'll suck but sticking with it will be all the better. Godspeed you beautiful bastard and best of luck.
Haven’t been on UA-cam for awhile and I just mainly lurk on here but I’m glad I checked on your channel and saw this video. It’s hard to talk about stuff like this, personally I get really embarrassed when it comes to dealing with addiction so seeing someone else be open about that definitely brings it into a more positive light. I’m glad you’re focusing on your health and happiness ❤
Glad I kept the subscription all theses years, I couldn't remove someone I've followed for it feels like since the start of UA-cam, happy to hear you're making a change, you sound healthier mentally and I am all for it.
Not going to say I didn't see this coming, but at the same time I'm glad you got to this point in your life, man. I was also diagnosed with ADHD(and BPD) only recently at the age of 25 and am an alcoholic who quit drinking in 2020. In 2010-2011 was around the time that I started watching your videos, and a few years after started regularly attending FUF streams, which was right around 17-18 when I had total freedom to buy booze and drugs whenever I wanted (until my parents were done with me) and I'm not gonna cut it sweet here but you were literally the only thing I looked forward to watching in a long LONG while, and became pretty parasocial with a few other streamers too. I hated my life, hated my prospects, but realized if I could get someone who was as fucked up as I was to laugh then I had a reason to keep on chugging, I was GOOD at something. I had stopped watching you in around 2017-2018 before I even took my alcohol problems seriously (but had went to a year long Christian rehab my parents forced me into in 2016, so I had no internet and therefore no contact to my previous parasocial relationships.. just lying dormant). So having not yet even been diagnosed with these disorders I took back all my previous habits having missed them, but I always remember this, because I felt guilty witnessing it, but I felt sorry for you because it was like remembering where I was (currently still was too) and knowing the theme of that chat had enabled that kind of mindset for everybody else. I still check in on your streams from time to time but I still get reminded of moments when I was at my lowest low and had zero control of my impulses, what I would say in chat, even if I could no longer type properly it didn't seem to bother my muddled brain. But tis community was here for me in the early days and I still have a high level of respect for their loyalty and kindness to me over those years, and I learned so much since. I have a baby on the way this coming February and I don't want to fuck it up, this new chapter awaits us all if we choose to batten down and ride those turbulent waves. Bears.
Been following for a long time. Glad to hear you're on a positive path. One day at a time bro. Even if you fuck up, just know tomorrow is a new day. Stay strong my dude
I've been following you on Twitch and on UA-cam, for years. No matter where you go, or the choices you make, I'll stand by your side and have your back. You're one of the good guys. Your content helped me so much, during so many ordeals. I'm not gonna go into the details, but... Just know you are very important to me. Y'know... Like an old friend you haven't seen in a while, but as soon as we "get to see each other", things have never changed. I love that you've been making more content with others that has found their way onto UA-cam in form of videos from streams and such. I'm here for the long haul. See ya on Twitch, Nick. All the love and support! Update: I just checked how long I've been subbed on your Twitch - 49 fucking months. Holy hell, time flies by when having fun, yeah?
Dude, I've been a subscriber since 2012. You've been there in my shittiest moments and also my best. The main reason I've never left, is because of this right here. You're real, and that's what sets you apart in my opinion. I ain't goin nowhere. You're doing the right thing and I applaud you for your honesty, maturity and perseverance. Excited for the new videos to come 😁
I have no idea how long I've been watching, or subscribed or anything, but I can say that I found Markiplier through you, back when he had like 400,000ish subs. You were probably the first UA-camr I ever subbed to, and you are the only person I've ever paid for a sub for on twitch. I can't say how glad I am to see you back on UA-cam, because I work during your stream schedule. No matter what, you always put me in a better mood. I'm struggling with quitting weed right now, so this resonated with me pretty heavily. I'm very glad you're doing better, Nick. You're a wonderful person. Love your content, and love you, man.
Fucked up Friday was great, but we got worried. I haven't watched you for a long time Diction. I'm so glad that you are working on your addiction. I'm so proud of you!
I'm proud of you, man. It is a hard thing, and you are taking care of yourself. I am looking forward to seeing you in the years to come. Been subbed for many years, and I am looking forward to many more. I have ADHD too, and am about your age, I... feel this a lot. People never told me that addiction would be a bigger issue and that it would make everything harder. I am always glad to see other people talk about it, even if I know it sucks to be in that boat
Diction, I watched you play gmod stuff with gassy and nanners starting almost 10 years ago, and was worried about your suspected alcoholism even back then... This video is not a surprise, but I'm glad you hit the bottom and have recognized it. Right there with you buddy, adhd aside, I look forward to seeing you healthy and back to your creative scatterbrained self.
Hey Diction, happy to hear from you in a "youtube style" video just hearing you directly from you to me which is always the reason why I've always enjoyed youtube videos. Obviously you can talk to someone on Twitch but it feels like talking to a group of friends. And I'm happy to hear you were able to get help homie.
2 years later and I hope ur doing good g. I'm Bipolar ADHD and I myself struggled with all forms of addiction including Ice, Weed, Alc, you name it. It's really hard but it does get better!
I'm proud that you're doing better now, it's impressive that you were able to completely cut alcohol off rather than reducing intake, I respect that! I used to watch you religiously in my early teens and now i'm in my mid 20's struggling with alcohol and ADHD, I know how bad those two are together. I hope to one day truly wake up and realise that alcohol isn't for me anymore like you did! Anyway, it's great to see a video from you man. I hope to stop by the streams sometime soon as well 😁
Congratulations on your journey, this is my first time seeing one of your videos, I also have ADHD and the one thing that has helped me was meditating. It’s hard to focus but it can be done, it’s also help with my bad smoking habit and my anger issues. Thanks for sharing, though I could share some here as well, stay strong and positive 🙏
I still wear my old "Tummy drips" shirt from time to time, and have so many good memories of the laughs you've brought me. I'm proud of you for doing better for yourself, it's good to see. And most of all, thank you for talking openly about this. As someone with ADHD myself and a family history of addiction, I have had to make a VERY conscious and firm effort to make boundaries for myself with things like alcohol, because if I don't I'd fall into that same brain chemical chasing trap. But being exposed to open conversation about the reality of what addiction does to people is the strongest force for making it possible that I take care of myself, and never fall down that hole. So genuinely, thank you. Keep being awesome, and take care.
I started watching your videos when I got into middle school when I was struggling with anxiety and depression, it made me feel better when I could go home and watch your videos. I am now 20 and still love watching your video and I have to say I am so proud of you for telling us what is going on. ☺
I feel like I need to write this somewhere and I just recently remembered this video i watched some time ago... I have adhd and a lot of anxiety, which then lead to cannabis use disorder exactly for the reason you mentioned. First time I stopped a year or so ago, I stopped by your stream after watching this and you had some very nice words of encouragement that you said to me that helped me very much. I fell into the same pattern again a couple months later and recently stopped marijuana a month and a half ago and also stopped smoking cigs a week ago because i knew i was just smoking cigs to cope and that it was not good for me which is a new thing and man is it hard... I feel so desperate because i have no substance left to rely on and I don't want to start any new habits because I want to deal with my emotions naturaly but man is it so freaking hard... I'm usually very outgoing and I love to make people laugh but I just can't right now and it's hurting me inside because I want to see people but I don't feel like I can be of great company to them as I usually am. Anyways, lot of adhd rambling to say that you really made a difference for me going through those two tough times and this video is my go-to whenever I'm having trouble with mentally dealing with my issues. I thank you very much for taking the time to make this video and would like you to know that you helped a lot more people than you think by making this video, I cannot thank you enough. Wish you the very best in your life you deserve it !
You were my childhood diction. Middle school and highschool I would watch you, nanners, chilled, Sark, all yall. It's so good to see you back. At age 26, a lot has changed, but I'm glad my first fav youtuber is still here.
I was 17 years old when i started watching your videos 😊 gave me a relief from the tragedy that is high school and just got to see a group of friends laugh and have fun playing games together and im proud to say i created a group not unlike your own to game with myself 😌 thank you for getting me through the dark times so i can enjoy the light at the end of the tunnel
I remember watching the LA stream, seeing how you were, it really worried me. As a fan whose been watching you for years, I hope you continue to work on your health. Because I’d love to keep watching your twitch streams and UA-cam videos for years to come. Much love, Diction!
As a fellow person who has adhd I totally get the easy addiction. You are great and are truly inspiring. Good luck man I’m newer around here but It’s so nice to see growth good luck on the future man.
Glad to hear that your taking your life back. looking forward to seeing more from you stay strong man. as someone who also suffers from all the bullshit lethargy of ADHD as an adult, I feel your struggle that shit is crippling if you don't stay on top of it. good luck and keep on trucking I'm rooting for you.
Welcome back! Straight up happy that you are doing well with your drinking and that you made a video again. I miss watching your content # subnatica and duck game. I also want to thank you for explaining your experience with ADHD I have friends and loved ones with this affliction and it put a lot of perspective for me why they struggle with things. This helps me to be more aware and accommodating to them :) thank you Diction I hope you continue on UA-cam !
Good going man stay strong I've been sober the last 3 weeks after a health scare and a diabetes diagnosis Dropping the junk food has been the hardest addiction to drop at the moment
It’s really thought-provoking to see the people you’ve followed for years make open and honest videos, especially those from your childhood, like you Diction. I’ve watched your Black Ops zombies videos, and it’s nice to see everyone play all those years ago; however, when I saw the title of this video, I couldn’t help but think that not everyone has it good, despite what their past videos show. I really hope you’re doing okay. I’ve seen Seananners and ChilledChaos struggle with some issues as well. From what I know, they’ve reached the light at the end of the tunnel. I hope you reach yours. Best of luck, if you see this.
ive been struggling with unresolved anger/emotinal issues and have been using alcohol as medicine to feel better - it went from boring sit on the couch drunk to full blown black out anger screaming. I am currently am seeking help and am still struggling. but i wish u all the best in hope that the sober days keep adding up
I have to admit, I haven’t watched any of your content for some time now. I would watch a few videos here and there, but nothing like I use to. That being said, out of all the content that I have watched, I really appreciate this video. One of the best videos that I have watched in a while. Thank you for your honesty. I’m glad that you noticed the problem and took the steps to fix it. Thank you so much, for real. Amazing. ✌🏽
Just want you to know that my parents were both alcoholics and they quit before I was born. They stared drinking again when I was 14 and it lasted until I was 18. They managed to once again get sober. It certainly wasn’t easy but it was absolutely for the better for everyone. I’m proud of you for wanting to make this better for yourself and I hope it goes well for you. I know the ADHD is going to make it harder, I have it too and while my experience was a bit different (between being over a decade younger than you and not being diagnosed until I was 20) quite a few things you said are very relatable. I’ve found that, because a part of ADHD is that minor inconveniences can completely shut you down, finding little things to avoid or ease certain “blocks” makes it so easy to get through things. Also about the weed: That is definitely going to do infinitely less damage to you than alcohol and having something BETTER to replace alcohol with can make it easier to step away. You can also find certain strains that may help with your ADHD if you haven’t already. There’s strains for everything
When I got out of the Army I had a heavy issue with alcoholism as well. I cold turkey it one night after I was hoping to end it all and use my addition as an excuse. I felt like utter shit for about 2 months straight, I substituted my alcohol with sprite, and stayed sober for a year before I learned moderation. To fix a problem is to recognize there even is a problem. I’m glad you recognized your demons and are working to live a sober life. The road is bumpy, but it is a much better life honestly.
My man, years ago as a teenager the content you made with everyone kept me happy when i was in a much darker place. I spent a lot of hours laughing at you guys, and i hope ya see this because i really appreciate it. I hope that you can find something that similarly makes things a bit easier.
All the best to you Diction on your journey down that road of yours. I've been down the same road with alcoholism and other issues, so I really do understand the struggle.
Missed you on UA-cam. Could never get that schedule down to watch people on twitch. Been watching you for almost ten years. You’ve inspired me before and you did it again. Can’t wait to see more vids from you.
Nick, I haven't watched you in years, I used to watch you Max and Adam, and you guys got me through a really shit time with anxiety, and the rest of the guys, Sark, Hutch, Chilled, Goldie etc. I checked in on Max last night and saw him still gaming and still with Adam, dropped a comment and then I get this vid recommended after I started re-watching the old Dayz with Jamie vids. I had no idea, though come to think of it I do remember all the fucked up Fridays and other drinking. I hope you don't think you on booze was what made you good at what you do either, you don't need it, you're awesome. Keep doing you because I know from experience it can make a difference to someone dealing with some shit.
I've been there brother, I was more 24/7 tbh tho, if I can do it then you more than have the ability to get through it, take care man, big love and support from scotland 🏴 ❤️
I left out some details for brevity. Towards the end it was a morning noon and night affair most days. Definitely glad I hit that wall eventually. Just wish it happened way sooner.
Congrats on the sober streak! As someone on the spectrum (specifically Aspergers), and with ADHD tendencies... I can definitely understand the dopamine struggles with booze. I definitely love having the occasional rum or whiskey, but I have to consciously remind myself not to rely on or binge. I'm still figuring that out, but I also don't want to emulate the alcoholism that has propped up throughout my family history.
In the last month i've been seeking help for what I have been told was an ignored diagnosing of ADHD from when I was a child and hearing you speak about it really hits home and makes me realize that alot of the things I do are things that are almost beyond for me to be able to control myself.
Hey if you need help with tips on that I can give you some. I’ve been diagnosed for 2 years now (22) and I’ve figured a lot out about how to navigate myself so if you’re struggling I may have some advice to offer. I’m certainly no expert but I’ve definitely got a bit of experience in trying to make my own life easier
Diction, I used to watch you all the time as a teenager. You're one of the reasons I got into PC gaming and streaming a little bit here and there myself. I hate to say it, but I don't tune into your streams very often if at all and I rarely click on your UA-cam videos. Your clickbait worked man, and I'm glad I watched this one. It's good to see that you're kicking the habit and trying to improve yourself. I commend that. I still may not tune into your content very often, but I'm glad to know that you're doing alright. You'll always hold a place in my youtube and gaming heart. Please keep up the good work man!
Dear Diction, we missed you here on UA-cam and we love to see you on twitch as well. We all have our own personal hell to get through and I'm glad that you have taken the first steps to becoming happy with who you know you can become. I've been here since Rene made brocolli stupid and I have to say your humor and uplifting self has helped me through my personal hell. You got this Diction. We are rooting for you.
Hey Diction, this was a great video. It was honest, and since I'm somebody with ADHD, a lot of what you said resonates. I also have dealt with addiction in my life, I'm only 29 now, but I will tell you that what you are doing is certainly better for you. Keep at it. The journey you are on to feel better physically and emotionally is long but is wroth every second.
Not alot of people have the strength to get help glad you did been missing you man seriously hopefully you get back to making videos soon if you make videos I’ll watch see you around diction
I subbed way back when you were playing Dead Island co-op with GoldGlove, I'll admit I haven't been keeping up with the channel for a while but, I'm glad to hear you're taking the steps to improve your health.
Gotta say I'm one of the ones that is a part of both your UA-cam and Twitch channels and you have and still bring me a lot of joy. I know I don't really know you but I'm proud of you. Addiction is a crazy thing to deal with. Keep being strong and keep bringing us laughs but always remember to take care of yourself.
Though I don’t know the addiction to alcohol i wanna say diction even though I don’t know it, I haven’t watched your videos all that much i subbed to support you. I want you to know you’re doing great, 105 days sober, proud of you. Keep at it diction we all got your back in one shape or another. This video grabbed my attention cause I didn’t know and instinctually i felt like watching to see how you’re doing kind of check in though this was eye opening for me. Anyways moral of what i’m saying before i start rambling is proud of you dude you’re doing great and you’re supported and cared for
@@DictionTV Hahaha in a nice way. Dunno if you remember me, Racehunt180. I watched your streams a lot back in the day. College got in the way and now I'm a doctor (and dealing with depression) so seeing you again made me happy. Hugs!
I think addictions get worse when combined with an addiction to gaming. We as gamers spend most of our days playing so it happens we also smoke weed or drink as well at the same time. We gotta work to be better. Glad to see your channel recommended again.
Diction, I think you're a pretty funny guy as you are. In the end I just hope you find your happiness, whatever that may be. I'm ultimately proud that you're actually trying to reach for it. Keep going, man! You're doing great!
I've been a fan for 10 years. I even met you at the big SF meet up with you and gassy (i was the guy who gave you guys vodka from my backpack). I hope you get ahold of this. Glad to see you are trying to get clean. Take care of yourself and keep making good content!
The way I see it, the video being clickbait or view seeking? Fucking great. Hope it outperforms your expectations. Admitting you have a problem is a difficult but vital step to take, and getting it out there may help others to also take that step. You're also using the platform you have to reach out to others that may need that help to say there are resources, and they don't have to be ashamed of using them. Big respect for putting yourself out there like that.
never seen you before, just saw you in my recommended, great video, love your personality and your honesty, so i've subscribed. i look forward to seeing your future content, no matter what platform you're on dude. good luck!
You know,I wondered what had happened to you. Sucks to hear you had such struggles but you've always been a funny dude. Hope you the best moving forward dude.
Been subbed on a different account for 10 years been watching you Adam, and Max since the earliest days of the hidden and ttt glad you are all doing great
I was diagnosed later in life with having adhd . I also struggling with addiction. Thank you for sharing your story Hopefully I will able to get clean too
Good luck on that! Sobriety will bring you more good things! Even though reaching that is hard it may help to keep the better future in sight to remind yourself that it’s a storm worth weathering. Many things get hard before they get better but don’t let that discourage you from reaching that better end point! You deserve that!
Man, I don't know you (just found you from IGP), but listening to you talk about how your ADHD contributed to the addiction reminded me that I need to keep my shit in check. Sometimes I forget how much ADHD increases my risk of addiction tbh.
Sound is fine probably getting trolled! Love you bro and coming out with this I'm still an active alcoholic and trying to get better about it and its hard dealing with people everyday that I don't want to deal with makes it so much easier to lay back and drink at the end of the day. ADHD is not fun I always got in trouble in school because of it. Alcohol definitely helps keep me calmed down but still have alot of issues between the 2. Keep posting I'll never unsub!!!
I hope you can join the road to sobriety soon. I know alcohol can feel like a nice escape but there’s so much damage it does to you too. Obviously no one can MAKE you do it if you don’t want to but quitting is going to make things better. Good luck to you
Like lots of other people here I haven't been able to watch you on twitch for sometime just cause life got in the way but I'm proud of you for making positive changes in your life.
I could go on and repeat what a lot of people have already said, but I'll just leave it at good luck Nick, you're not alone in that fight. Perseverance is the name of the game. You've got this.
Been a long time follower man and I knew from your very first Fucked Up Friday video on UA-cam that you were an alcoholic. I caught you on Twitch and saw you drinking and immediately knew you were an alcoholic but that's life my man. Shit like that happens to people and it's unfortunate but it's also normal. I can't hate on you for it, I mean hell in High School (fucking 14+ years ago) I was addicted to pills and I'd come home to take my moms pain killers every day. I'd find myself popping 1-3 Vicodin every day. It wasn't to fit in (grew up in the hood, this shit was normal) but it was to help get rid of those intrusive depressive thoughts. I never really understood what it was until I started to smoke weed, I realized quickly that weed was becoming my new vice and I was depressed. I still smoke weed, take edibles, etc. however it's to keep myself under control and to prevent myself from screaming at people who piss me off (which is a daily occurrence). I am happy to see you're changing man, especially with losing weight and choosing to better yourself by going sober because it's definitely a serious issue and habit that's hard to kick, I've had several family members that were dedicated alcoholics. My brother, my cousin and my uncle - all were alcoholics but once they quit drinking they started having these outbursts of anger until the withdrawals calmed down. You'll get to 1 year and in no time it'll be 5 years sober. I believe in you man.
Been subbed going on ten years now, and haven’t really watched for about 5, but I was drawn in by the title because I just wanted to see how someone who had given me many laughs and good times in my late teens early 20’s was doing. I’m super proud of you. Never haven’t been.
I second that, back in the hidden and TTT days. Honestly, nick has the best laugh alongside adams, urs and adams laugh was the most memorable and I mean that in the best ways. Thank you so much for staying strong nick.
I third this.
Ditto
As someone with Autism and ADHD, I have a marijuana problem. I need it in order to be content, if I don’t have it I start to get into my head too much, and it spirals down and down. I feel like I need to be on a substance to supplement my mental issues
Exact same here--diagnosed audhd and used to have a drinking problem, I couldn't stop. I got onto weed and I told myself that whenever I get a craving, have weed. I am just over three years alcohol-free. For me, it's a weed solution.
HEY. I'VE WATCHED THIS ON MULTIPLE ACCOUNTS AND AM GETTING SOUND, NO IDEA WHY THATS HAPPENING BUT HAHAHA IT WOULD HAPPEN ON AN IMPORTANT VIDEO LIKE THIS. HIT REFRESH, HOPEFULLY THAT WORKS.
Hey man congrats. I gave up alcohol in January but it's because of probation. Either way I feel healthier. I'll see ya in the stream later. I'm the
F!stmedaddydiction guy 😂 who now goes by this moniker.
Alcoholism is a terrible vise to have to battle with, Ive followed you my whole life and will continue to do so. Stay strong
Thanks for posting this! Alcoholism takes hold of everything in your life if you let it, it's all you think about and all that matters. ADHD only makes it far worse. I've been sober for 3 years now, and it's changed so much for the better, specially my attitude. The only way to quit is to want too, and put in the work knowing your triggers and how to control them. if you need help, PLEASE find help. Talk to someone. Your worth it.
Love it sonic! Great words!
You've taken the first step to dealing with it.... admitting it, that's one of the harder things to do...you have a lot of people here rooting for you....
I had to go sober a year ago because of health reasons, but it was also destroying my finances. I'm glad you're taking care of yourself, and proud of you for being open about your experience and telling your story. I'm sure you'll help others in your audience with this. I wish you the best of luck on your journey 💗
Hey Diction, long time subscriber and lurker. (Dizzy) and Alcohol has impacted me and my family. You and your videos gave me comfort in some really difficult times. I really do wish you all the best in life - this is just another reason you're amazing - I am super proud of you!
Hey Diction, I have always loved your honesty. Sending you love and light ETA: as someone in their late 30s with adhd, I never knew the dopamine and alcohol fact. I’ve just started ketamine infusions for treatment resistant depression… the dopamine thing makes SO much sense.
What state are you in your able to do so???
I'm a fan of yours, dude. And I really hope everything works out for you. Selfishly, I want you to still be around making videos because I really enjoy watching you fool around in video games with Mr Sark and the others.
I love you, man. No homo.
Thought we stopped with the whole "no homo" thing? It's 2022. Come on.
Fuckin no homo? Grow up, you can have love for somebody without it being romantic, It's not highschool.
Yo man, congrats on hitting 100 days! That's a huge accomplishment, keep it up. Having been sober for a little over 3 years I related to everything you said, the shame, hiding, and feelings of failure hit hard and just dug me into that black hole deeper and deeper. I used to always put my recycling in different bins around my neighborhood to try and hide it, though by the end everyone around me knew anyway no matter how slick I thought I was. I'm glad you're taking these steps and working through recovery, it isn't easy but it's worth it. Keep coming back dude, as a fellow alcoholic I'm rooting for ya
Damn, I've been following since the loft days and always loved your videos and streams, I can't really watch the streams much anymore since your schedule is just sort of incompatible with me (I'm in the UK) and I've grown up so can't really pull all nighters constantly anymore haha. Hard to believe it's been a decade since I first found your channel. It's good to see that you've accepted your problem and have really taken the steps to fix it. I know all to well how quick alcoholism can spiral, my father was an alcoholic too and in the end just couldn't quit the drink. I really hope you're able to stay sober and achieve your end goals in this. I'd love to see you come back to youtube and post skits and stuff like you used to if you're ever up for it, all the best man
Admitting the problem is there is the first and hardest step. Good on ya man. And damn good for you for working on it. It’s not an easy journey but you can get there. One day at a time. I know I’m a total rando but if you or anyone here in the community ever needs to talk/rant, I got you.
As someone else with ADHD as an adult, I feel that struggle super hard. Thank you for your honesty, and it’s good to see you again. Been a casual fan since the early source games days, so it’s great to catch you back around again. You got this.
I saw the signs of this when F'd Up Friday started. I'm glad most of you stopped that and have tried to go down a healthier path. Substance abuse is a dangerous road and I have many family and friends who suffer from it in one way or another. Keep healthy Diction and know we want the best for you.
was thinking the same thing.
So glad that youre doing better now man. It takes ALOT of strength to kick habits like booze, it takes alot of courage to openly talk about your struggles with it.
In all honesty I stopped watching you for a long time, because I have had my own addiction problems and watching your streams and vids were hard because the alcohol was so prominent. I look forward to watching all the content from you in the future.
Keep up the good work, wishing the best for you
Good for you for getting a handle on the drinking! I remember watching your videos back in the day, and enjoying watching them. Thank you for being willing to share the things that you struggle with and the things that have helped you with handling them.
Good for you for taking control! Lots of people kill themselves this way, it's so heartening to see someone overcoming this!
Audio works fine. Proud as hell of you. I finally *finally* stopped the insane alcoholic death spiral two years ago, and it was almost entirely tied to how I was trying to deal with my own ADHD and mental issues. Actually getting help, making new routines, finding healthy and addictive habits like biking and lifting- those things have saved my life.
You joke, but I haven't seen you in a while-- you already look *drastically* better, and I'm so grateful, man. You are one of the wittiest entertainers and you have such a place in my heart from watching you in my 20s, so it makes me happy af to see you doing better and deciding you're worth the frustration that comes with a change like this. Congrats man, take it easy and we'll see you when you feel like it's a good time, yeah?
It's been prolly a solid decade or so since I've been subbed to you and I gotta say, keep at it, it'll get hard and it'll suck but sticking with it will be all the better. Godspeed you beautiful bastard and best of luck.
Good luck brother. Don't be afraid to lean on your friends, their here for you.
Dude I'm so proud of you! I know working on ourselves is ridiculously hard. We'll be here
Haven’t been on UA-cam for awhile and I just mainly lurk on here but I’m glad I checked on your channel and saw this video. It’s hard to talk about stuff like this, personally I get really embarrassed when it comes to dealing with addiction so seeing someone else be open about that definitely brings it into a more positive light. I’m glad you’re focusing on your health and happiness ❤
Glad I kept the subscription all theses years, I couldn't remove someone I've followed for it feels like since the start of UA-cam, happy to hear you're making a change, you sound healthier mentally and I am all for it.
Not going to say I didn't see this coming, but at the same time I'm glad you got to this point in your life, man. I was also diagnosed with ADHD(and BPD) only recently at the age of 25 and am an alcoholic who quit drinking in 2020. In 2010-2011 was around the time that I started watching your videos, and a few years after started regularly attending FUF streams, which was right around 17-18 when I had total freedom to buy booze and drugs whenever I wanted (until my parents were done with me) and I'm not gonna cut it sweet here but you were literally the only thing I looked forward to watching in a long LONG while, and became pretty parasocial with a few other streamers too. I hated my life, hated my prospects, but realized if I could get someone who was as fucked up as I was to laugh then I had a reason to keep on chugging, I was GOOD at something. I had stopped watching you in around 2017-2018 before I even took my alcohol problems seriously (but had went to a year long Christian rehab my parents forced me into in 2016, so I had no internet and therefore no contact to my previous parasocial relationships.. just lying dormant). So having not yet even been diagnosed with these disorders I took back all my previous habits having missed them, but I always remember this, because I felt guilty witnessing it, but I felt sorry for you because it was like remembering where I was (currently still was too) and knowing the theme of that chat had enabled that kind of mindset for everybody else.
I still check in on your streams from time to time but I still get reminded of moments when I was at my lowest low and had zero control of my impulses, what I would say in chat, even if I could no longer type properly it didn't seem to bother my muddled brain. But tis community was here for me in the early days and I still have a high level of respect for their loyalty and kindness to me over those years, and I learned so much since. I have a baby on the way this coming February and I don't want to fuck it up, this new chapter awaits us all if we choose to batten down and ride those turbulent waves. Bears.
Been following for a long time. Glad to hear you're on a positive path. One day at a time bro. Even if you fuck up, just know tomorrow is a new day. Stay strong my dude
Thanks for sharing Diction. Very brave to be so open. I’m sure it will set a good model for others.
I've been following you on Twitch and on UA-cam, for years. No matter where you go, or the choices you make, I'll stand by your side and have your back. You're one of the good guys. Your content helped me so much, during so many ordeals. I'm not gonna go into the details, but... Just know you are very important to me. Y'know... Like an old friend you haven't seen in a while, but as soon as we "get to see each other", things have never changed. I love that you've been making more content with others that has found their way onto UA-cam in form of videos from streams and such. I'm here for the long haul. See ya on Twitch, Nick. All the love and support!
Update: I just checked how long I've been subbed on your Twitch - 49 fucking months. Holy hell, time flies by when having fun, yeah?
thank you so much for being so honest and vulnerable I relate to so much of what you shared
Dude, I've been a subscriber since 2012. You've been there in my shittiest moments and also my best. The main reason I've never left, is because of this right here. You're real, and that's what sets you apart in my opinion. I ain't goin nowhere.
You're doing the right thing and I applaud you for your honesty, maturity and perseverance. Excited for the new videos to come 😁
As a fellow Alcholic, I've learned that one of the 3 "L"s will get you to take a look at yourself. Your Lawyer, Lover or your Liver.
I have no idea how long I've been watching, or subscribed or anything, but I can say that I found Markiplier through you, back when he had like 400,000ish subs. You were probably the first UA-camr I ever subbed to, and you are the only person I've ever paid for a sub for on twitch. I can't say how glad I am to see you back on UA-cam, because I work during your stream schedule. No matter what, you always put me in a better mood. I'm struggling with quitting weed right now, so this resonated with me pretty heavily. I'm very glad you're doing better, Nick. You're a wonderful person. Love your content, and love you, man.
Fucked up Friday was great, but we got worried. I haven't watched you for a long time Diction. I'm so glad that you are working on your addiction. I'm so proud of you!
I'm proud of you, man. It is a hard thing, and you are taking care of yourself. I am looking forward to seeing you in the years to come. Been subbed for many years, and I am looking forward to many more.
I have ADHD too, and am about your age, I... feel this a lot. People never told me that addiction would be a bigger issue and that it would make everything harder. I am always glad to see other people talk about it, even if I know it sucks to be in that boat
Diction, I watched you play gmod stuff with gassy and nanners starting almost 10 years ago, and was worried about your suspected alcoholism even back then... This video is not a surprise, but I'm glad you hit the bottom and have recognized it. Right there with you buddy, adhd aside, I look forward to seeing you healthy and back to your creative scatterbrained self.
Hey Diction, happy to hear from you in a "youtube style" video just hearing you directly from you to me which is always the reason why I've always enjoyed youtube videos. Obviously you can talk to someone on Twitch but it feels like talking to a group of friends. And I'm happy to hear you were able to get help homie.
2 years later and I hope ur doing good g. I'm Bipolar ADHD and I myself struggled with all forms of addiction including Ice, Weed, Alc, you name it. It's really hard but it does get better!
I'm proud that you're doing better now, it's impressive that you were able to completely cut alcohol off rather than reducing intake, I respect that! I used to watch you religiously in my early teens and now i'm in my mid 20's struggling with alcohol and ADHD, I know how bad those two are together. I hope to one day truly wake up and realise that alcohol isn't for me anymore like you did! Anyway, it's great to see a video from you man. I hope to stop by the streams sometime soon as well 😁
Congratulations on your journey, this is my first time seeing one of your videos, I also have ADHD and the one thing that has helped me was meditating. It’s hard to focus but it can be done, it’s also help with my bad smoking habit and my anger issues. Thanks for sharing, though I could share some here as well, stay strong and positive 🙏
I still wear my old "Tummy drips" shirt from time to time, and have so many good memories of the laughs you've brought me.
I'm proud of you for doing better for yourself, it's good to see.
And most of all, thank you for talking openly about this. As someone with ADHD myself and a family history of addiction, I have had to make a VERY conscious and firm effort to make boundaries for myself with things like alcohol, because if I don't I'd fall into that same brain chemical chasing trap. But being exposed to open conversation about the reality of what addiction does to people is the strongest force for making it possible that I take care of myself, and never fall down that hole. So genuinely, thank you.
Keep being awesome, and take care.
Respect, brother. Adult ADHD is a tough lot, keep up the fight! We're proud of you
I started watching your videos when I got into middle school when I was struggling with anxiety and depression, it made me feel better when I could go home and watch your videos. I am now 20 and still love watching your video and I have to say I am so proud of you for telling us what is going on. ☺
I used to watch you back in the day, but fell off when life got busy. Glad to see you're trying to get your life back on track man. Keep it up.
I feel like I need to write this somewhere and I just recently remembered this video i watched some time ago... I have adhd and a lot of anxiety, which then lead to cannabis use disorder exactly for the reason you mentioned. First time I stopped a year or so ago, I stopped by your stream after watching this and you had some very nice words of encouragement that you said to me that helped me very much. I fell into the same pattern again a couple months later and recently stopped marijuana a month and a half ago and also stopped smoking cigs a week ago because i knew i was just smoking cigs to cope and that it was not good for me which is a new thing and man is it hard... I feel so desperate because i have no substance left to rely on and I don't want to start any new habits because I want to deal with my emotions naturaly but man is it so freaking hard... I'm usually very outgoing and I love to make people laugh but I just can't right now and it's hurting me inside because I want to see people but I don't feel like I can be of great company to them as I usually am. Anyways, lot of adhd rambling to say that you really made a difference for me going through those two tough times and this video is my go-to whenever I'm having trouble with mentally dealing with my issues. I thank you very much for taking the time to make this video and would like you to know that you helped a lot more people than you think by making this video, I cannot thank you enough. Wish you the very best in your life you deserve it !
You were my childhood diction. Middle school and highschool I would watch you, nanners, chilled, Sark, all yall. It's so good to see you back. At age 26, a lot has changed, but I'm glad my first fav youtuber is still here.
I was 17 years old when i started watching your videos 😊 gave me a relief from the tragedy that is high school and just got to see a group of friends laugh and have fun playing games together and im proud to say i created a group not unlike your own to game with myself 😌 thank you for getting me through the dark times so i can enjoy the light at the end of the tunnel
alcoholism is a life long struggle. more manageable when you admit you have a problem. cheers
glad you're taking your life back man. I've been subbed for probably five or six years. I'll be here where ever the ride takes us.
I remember watching the LA stream, seeing how you were, it really worried me. As a fan whose been watching you for years, I hope you continue to work on your health. Because I’d love to keep watching your twitch streams and UA-cam videos for years to come. Much love, Diction!
As a fellow person who has adhd I totally get the easy addiction. You are great and are truly inspiring. Good luck man I’m newer around here but It’s so nice to see growth good luck on the future man.
Glad to hear that your taking your life back. looking forward to seeing more from you stay strong man. as someone who also suffers from all the bullshit lethargy of ADHD as an adult, I feel your struggle that shit is crippling if you don't stay on top of it. good luck and keep on trucking I'm rooting for you.
Welcome back! Straight up happy that you are doing well with your drinking and that you made a video again. I miss watching your content # subnatica and duck game. I also want to thank you for explaining your experience with ADHD I have friends and loved ones with this affliction and it put a lot of perspective for me why they struggle with things. This helps me to be more aware and accommodating to them :) thank you Diction I hope you continue on UA-cam !
Good going man stay strong
I've been sober the last 3 weeks after a health scare and a diabetes diagnosis
Dropping the junk food has been the hardest addiction to drop at the moment
It’s really thought-provoking to see the people you’ve followed for years make open and honest videos, especially those from your childhood, like you Diction.
I’ve watched your Black Ops zombies videos, and it’s nice to see everyone play all those years ago; however, when I saw the title of this video, I couldn’t help but think that not everyone has it good, despite what their past videos show.
I really hope you’re doing okay. I’ve seen Seananners and ChilledChaos struggle with some issues as well. From what I know, they’ve reached the light at the end of the tunnel. I hope you reach yours. Best of luck, if you see this.
ive been struggling with unresolved anger/emotinal issues and have been using alcohol as medicine to feel better - it went from boring sit on the couch drunk to full blown black out anger screaming. I am currently am seeking help and am still struggling. but i wish u all the best in hope that the sober days keep adding up
I have to admit, I haven’t watched any of your content for some time now. I would watch a few videos here and there, but nothing like I use to. That being said, out of all the content that I have watched, I really appreciate this video. One of the best videos that I have watched in a while. Thank you for your honesty. I’m glad that you noticed the problem and took the steps to fix it. Thank you so much, for real. Amazing. ✌🏽
Just want you to know that my parents were both alcoholics and they quit before I was born. They stared drinking again when I was 14 and it lasted until I was 18. They managed to once again get sober. It certainly wasn’t easy but it was absolutely for the better for everyone. I’m proud of you for wanting to make this better for yourself and I hope it goes well for you. I know the ADHD is going to make it harder, I have it too and while my experience was a bit different (between being over a decade younger than you and not being diagnosed until I was 20) quite a few things you said are very relatable. I’ve found that, because a part of ADHD is that minor inconveniences can completely shut you down, finding little things to avoid or ease certain “blocks” makes it so easy to get through things.
Also about the weed: That is definitely going to do infinitely less damage to you than alcohol and having something BETTER to replace alcohol with can make it easier to step away. You can also find certain strains that may help with your ADHD if you haven’t already. There’s strains for everything
When I got out of the Army I had a heavy issue with alcoholism as well. I cold turkey it one night after I was hoping to end it all and use my addition as an excuse. I felt like utter shit for about 2 months straight, I substituted my alcohol with sprite, and stayed sober for a year before I learned moderation. To fix a problem is to recognize there even is a problem. I’m glad you recognized your demons and are working to live a sober life. The road is bumpy, but it is a much better life honestly.
My man, years ago as a teenager the content you made with everyone kept me happy when i was in a much darker place. I spent a lot of hours laughing at you guys, and i hope ya see this because i really appreciate it. I hope that you can find something that similarly makes things a bit easier.
All the best to you Diction on your journey down that road of yours. I've been down the same road with alcoholism and other issues, so I really do understand the struggle.
Keep trucking my guy, I've been here since ages, will keep watching.
Proud of you, would love to shake your hand for the amount of laughs you have given me throughout the years…
Missed you on UA-cam. Could never get that schedule down to watch people on twitch. Been watching you for almost ten years. You’ve inspired me before and you did it again. Can’t wait to see more vids from you.
Nick, I haven't watched you in years, I used to watch you Max and Adam, and you guys got me through a really shit time with anxiety, and the rest of the guys, Sark, Hutch, Chilled, Goldie etc.
I checked in on Max last night and saw him still gaming and still with Adam, dropped a comment and then I get this vid recommended after I started re-watching the old Dayz with Jamie vids.
I had no idea, though come to think of it I do remember all the fucked up Fridays and other drinking.
I hope you don't think you on booze was what made you good at what you do either, you don't need it, you're awesome.
Keep doing you because I know from experience it can make a difference to someone dealing with some shit.
Diction I’m proud of you fr I remember watching you Goldy Gassy Nanners and everyone else 9-10 years ago
I've been there brother, I was more 24/7 tbh tho, if I can do it then you more than have the ability to get through it, take care man, big love and support from scotland 🏴 ❤️
I left out some details for brevity. Towards the end it was a morning noon and night affair most days. Definitely glad I hit that wall eventually. Just wish it happened way sooner.
@@DictionTV I wish you all the very best my friend, you got this.
Congrats on the sober streak!
As someone on the spectrum (specifically Aspergers), and with ADHD tendencies... I can definitely understand the dopamine struggles with booze. I definitely love having the occasional rum or whiskey, but I have to consciously remind myself not to rely on or binge. I'm still figuring that out, but I also don't want to emulate the alcoholism that has propped up throughout my family history.
Love you Diction! And great job putting a realistic, usable link for help!!
In the last month i've been seeking help for what I have been told was an ignored diagnosing of ADHD from when I was a child and hearing you speak about it really hits home and makes me realize that alot of the things I do are things that are almost beyond for me to be able to control myself.
Hey if you need help with tips on that I can give you some. I’ve been diagnosed for 2 years now (22) and I’ve figured a lot out about how to navigate myself so if you’re struggling I may have some advice to offer. I’m certainly no expert but I’ve definitely got a bit of experience in trying to make my own life easier
We support you brother. I have ADHD and anxiety disorder so can't take a lot of meds unfortunately. I get what you're dealing with
Diction, I used to watch you all the time as a teenager. You're one of the reasons I got into PC gaming and streaming a little bit here and there myself. I hate to say it, but I don't tune into your streams very often if at all and I rarely click on your UA-cam videos. Your clickbait worked man, and I'm glad I watched this one. It's good to see that you're kicking the habit and trying to improve yourself. I commend that. I still may not tune into your content very often, but I'm glad to know that you're doing alright. You'll always hold a place in my youtube and gaming heart. Please keep up the good work man!
Dear Diction, we missed you here on UA-cam and we love to see you on twitch as well. We all have our own personal hell to get through and I'm glad that you have taken the first steps to becoming happy with who you know you can become. I've been here since Rene made brocolli stupid and I have to say your humor and uplifting self has helped me through my personal hell. You got this Diction. We are rooting for you.
YES glad to see you man! One of the legends has come home 🥺
Hey Diction, this was a great video. It was honest, and since I'm somebody with ADHD, a lot of what you said resonates. I also have dealt with addiction in my life, I'm only 29 now, but I will tell you that what you are doing is certainly better for you. Keep at it. The journey you are on to feel better physically and emotionally is long but is wroth every second.
Not alot of people have the strength to get help glad you did been missing you man seriously hopefully you get back to making videos soon if you make videos I’ll watch see you around diction
I subbed way back when you were playing Dead Island co-op with GoldGlove, I'll admit I haven't been keeping up with the channel for a while but, I'm glad to hear you're taking the steps to improve your health.
Gotta say I'm one of the ones that is a part of both your UA-cam and Twitch channels and you have and still bring me a lot of joy. I know I don't really know you but I'm proud of you. Addiction is a crazy thing to deal with. Keep being strong and keep bringing us laughs but always remember to take care of yourself.
Though I don’t know the addiction to alcohol i wanna say diction even though I don’t know it, I haven’t watched your videos all that much i subbed to support you. I want you to know you’re doing great, 105 days sober, proud of you. Keep at it diction we all got your back in one shape or another. This video grabbed my attention cause I didn’t know and instinctually i felt like watching to see how you’re doing kind of check in though this was eye opening for me. Anyways moral of what i’m saying before i start rambling is proud of you dude you’re doing great and you’re supported and cared for
Love you Diction. Big fans of your growth.
Oh god, I have a growth?
@@DictionTV Hahaha in a nice way.
Dunno if you remember me, Racehunt180. I watched your streams a lot back in the day. College got in the way and now I'm a doctor (and dealing with depression) so seeing you again made me happy. Hugs!
I think addictions get worse when combined with an addiction to gaming. We as gamers spend most of our days playing so it happens we also smoke weed or drink as well at the same time. We gotta work to be better. Glad to see your channel recommended again.
Good job on 105 days. Proud of You. Your story is almost exactly the same as mine. 3199 days and counting for me .
Congrats on that!!
Diction, I think you're a pretty funny guy as you are. In the end I just hope you find your happiness, whatever that may be. I'm ultimately proud that you're actually trying to reach for it. Keep going, man! You're doing great!
I've been a fan for 10 years. I even met you at the big SF meet up with you and gassy (i was the guy who gave you guys vodka from my backpack). I hope you get ahold of this. Glad to see you are trying to get clean. Take care of yourself and keep making good content!
The way I see it, the video being clickbait or view seeking? Fucking great. Hope it outperforms your expectations. Admitting you have a problem is a difficult but vital step to take, and getting it out there may help others to also take that step. You're also using the platform you have to reach out to others that may need that help to say there are resources, and they don't have to be ashamed of using them. Big respect for putting yourself out there like that.
Diction, you were a part of my childhood and I still remember moments that you made that made me laugh so much. Stay strong! You are awesome!
never seen you before, just saw you in my recommended, great video, love your personality and your honesty, so i've subscribed. i look forward to seeing your future content, no matter what platform you're on dude. good luck!
Welcome aboard!
You know,I wondered what had happened to you. Sucks to hear you had such struggles but you've always been a funny dude. Hope you the best moving forward dude.
Been subbed on a different account for 10 years been watching you Adam, and Max since the earliest days of the hidden and ttt glad you are all doing great
Brother, you’ve inspired me! I’m stopping drinking today! I’ve related to your story at a cellular level. I’m very proud of you man!
Good luck on getting sober then, man! You can do this!
We love man... I almost lost my brother to the issue... The good thing is you're seeing what you dont want from it
I was diagnosed later in life with having adhd . I also struggling with addiction. Thank you for sharing your story
Hopefully I will able to get clean too
Good luck on that! Sobriety will bring you more good things! Even though reaching that is hard it may help to keep the better future in sight to remind yourself that it’s a storm worth weathering. Many things get hard before they get better but don’t let that discourage you from reaching that better end point! You deserve that!
Man, I don't know you (just found you from IGP), but listening to you talk about how your ADHD contributed to the addiction reminded me that I need to keep my shit in check. Sometimes I forget how much ADHD increases my risk of addiction tbh.
Sound is fine probably getting trolled! Love you bro and coming out with this I'm still an active alcoholic and trying to get better about it and its hard dealing with people everyday that I don't want to deal with makes it so much easier to lay back and drink at the end of the day. ADHD is not fun I always got in trouble in school because of it. Alcohol definitely helps keep me calmed down but still have alot of issues between the 2. Keep posting I'll never unsub!!!
I hope you can join the road to sobriety soon. I know alcohol can feel like a nice escape but there’s so much damage it does to you too. Obviously no one can MAKE you do it if you don’t want to but quitting is going to make things better. Good luck to you
Even though you said this video was clickbait,
Thank you. I kind of needed this today
Happy to hear you are on the up and up! Now make more videos on Utube! I miss your content on here......
Like lots of other people here I haven't been able to watch you on twitch for sometime just cause life got in the way but I'm proud of you for making positive changes in your life.
I could go on and repeat what a lot of people have already said, but I'll just leave it at good luck Nick, you're not alone in that fight. Perseverance is the name of the game. You've got this.
He's back, bay bee
thank you for coming out with this
Been a long time follower man and I knew from your very first Fucked Up Friday video on UA-cam that you were an alcoholic. I caught you on Twitch and saw you drinking and immediately knew you were an alcoholic but that's life my man. Shit like that happens to people and it's unfortunate but it's also normal. I can't hate on you for it, I mean hell in High School (fucking 14+ years ago) I was addicted to pills and I'd come home to take my moms pain killers every day. I'd find myself popping 1-3 Vicodin every day. It wasn't to fit in (grew up in the hood, this shit was normal) but it was to help get rid of those intrusive depressive thoughts. I never really understood what it was until I started to smoke weed, I realized quickly that weed was becoming my new vice and I was depressed. I still smoke weed, take edibles, etc. however it's to keep myself under control and to prevent myself from screaming at people who piss me off (which is a daily occurrence). I am happy to see you're changing man, especially with losing weight and choosing to better yourself by going sober because it's definitely a serious issue and habit that's hard to kick, I've had several family members that were dedicated alcoholics. My brother, my cousin and my uncle - all were alcoholics but once they quit drinking they started having these outbursts of anger until the withdrawals calmed down. You'll get to 1 year and in no time it'll be 5 years sober. I believe in you man.