Chatty Birthday GRWM Makeup Tutorial | Childhood Stories
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- Опубліковано 18 вер 2024
- A chatty Get Ready With Me Birthday makeup tutorial using all drugstore makeup! In today's video I'm talking about my personal life, and sharing stories from childhood ... not good stories, sadly but if these experiences can be helpful for others who have been through similar or worse, I am grateful for that. Please do keep in mind these stories are not meant to make you feel sorry for me, I don't want that in any way, shape or form. I've thought long and hard about whether or not to share these on a public platform, we'll see how this goes. I know I've made my peace with these people and therefore I can share these experiences with confidence and without any negative emotions. I couldn't do that 5 years ago, but that's the power of forgiveness.
If your comment isn't supportive, please refrain from commenting on this video. Thank you to those who are understanding and can empathize. For those who have been through similar, please know my heart goes out to you and I am so very sorry for what you've been through ♥
PRODUCTS USED
EYES
- Hada Labo Eye Cream
- Revlon eyeshadow primer
- Wet 'N Wild Comfort Zone palette
- Covergirl eyeshadow in 'Indigo Impact'
- NYX 'Mermaid' eyeshadow
- Wet 'N Wild Brow Pencil in 'Soft Brown'
- Rimmel Eye Pencil in 'Blamed Blue' (no longer available, sadly)
- Lashes: 'Upbeat' inkyminkylashe...
FACE
- PROCure Rosacare Hydrogel
- Soap & Glory Kick Butt Stay All Day Foundation
- Maybelline Age Rewind Concealer
- Covergirl Clean Matte Setting Powder
- No. 7 Bronzer in 'Golden Sand'
- Milani 'Luminoso' blush
LIPS
- LA Girl Intense Stay Auto Lip Liner in 'Forever Bare'
- Wet 'N Wild 'Bare It All'
- Maybelline 'Purely Nude'
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Thank YOU for watching!
XOXO!
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I think for Gia’s 10th birthday you should gift her a blue eyeshadow!! That would be such a cool full circle moment :)
Oh Zabrena.... I hurt for little Zabrena. I'm so glad you have been able to overcome all that you went through to become the amazing woman you are today. Happy, happy, happy Birthday Gorgeous lady. May your day leave you feeling completely spoiled and loved.
Sharing toxic history stories let others know that they really aren't alone or that they aren't the only one. There is also the survivor image that can help others get through as they move on. Been there, done that.
Sometimes it's so hard to let the past go, because it sometimes comes back to haunt you! I know!
Got a little teary eyed at the blue eye shadow gift you received from Megan! Such a sweet gesture. 😭
Happy Birthday sweet Zabrena!🎂🎁🎉🎉 I grew up with a hateful, malicious mother with a drinking problem. My greatest accomplishment in life is STOPPING the pattern of abuse in my own family. I'm so blessed to have a loving, positive husband and two wonderful sons. They are now married with their own families, who are very loving and sweet as well. The hatefulness ended with my mother, thank the Lord. 😌AND, I have forgiven her as well. Forgiveness=Freedom.
PS I also had therapy and I hope anyone who has had or is in a similar situation can feel comfortable doing the same.
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Patti 1962 god bless you and your family. Your story is similar to mine. I refused to further the cycle of alcoholism. I just wish I had had more time with my parents toward the end. In time we came to mend our fences.
@@Jade10122 My mother died in 2013 at 73. I tried to talk with her numerous times but she never would "go there." She was a mean spirited, bitter person and I feel so sad that her life turned out that way. Mine hasn't!
God Bless you & praying for you!!
@@TexasBeliever57 Thank yo so much!
Wow, amazing testimony. What the enemy takes, God restores. Thank you for sharing.
Oh Zabrena, thank you for sharing your life. The good, the bad, and the ugly. You're filled with the joy of The Lord and it's a beautiful thing to see. Forgiveness is so freeing and helps us heal. Thank you for all of it.
My birthday is September 13 and I’ll be 80 and I’m one of your faithful fans.
Happy 21st Birthday 🤪... We Virgos are big hearted people. I have the pleasure of sharing my birthday with my son. He turned 24 and I hit the big 60. You amaze me on how beautiful you are during your pregnancies. I was swollen during all four of my pregnancies. Swollen lips, nose, eyes and feet. It was a mess.
I also had hardships in my childhood. It took me years to forgive and actually realized that it made me strong so when life threw boulders at me I survived them. I am not sure if I had not had the hardships if I would have survived many of my trials. So as bad as it was, it did have a silver lining in those dark days. My healing really got stronger when I became a mom. I gave them all the love I wanted as a child. It was then when I learned what love was like without boundaries. It's the kind of joy that makes you cry and thank God for the gift of children even years later when they are grown. Enjoy your blessings and the perfect love that comes with it. ♥️
Re-creating a memory using the subject of a bad memory in this case eyeshadow helps the brain replace the bad memory with the good memory, therefore moving the emotions forward and getting unstuck from the past
What a wonderful video Zabrina! 💓My mother grew up with a mother that was like your grandmother. It really traumatized her for life, she still hasn't learned to forgive and let it go... It has effected us as children a well. Thank God you've chosen the high road! It will stop the cycle and give you and your children the life you've always wanted💓 Please do more lifestyle personal videos, you are so personable and inspirational! Thank you! 💓💓💓
This is such a sweet comment. I feel the same way,❤.
Marine Kaspaaryan ** I PRAY Zabrina Does MORE-N-MORE OF THIS TYPE OF VIDEO TOO!! I AM PRAYING FOR YOUR MOTHER, YOU, ALL OF YOUR SIBLINGS, YOUR CHILDREN, THEIR CHILDREN, YOUR HUSBAND AND THEIR HUSBANDS TOO!!!!!!! MAY OUR GOD’S ETERNAL BLESSINGS BE WITH EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU... In The Name Of Jesus Christ
AMEN
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My mom had the same experience and it has definitely affected me as well. I haven't had kids yet and I dont know if I will. No matter what I'm breaking the cycle.
I don’t usually comment but want to thank you for sharing a bit of your childhood experience. It was so reminiscent of my own I had tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat throughout. You are 100% right about how our toxic childhood relationships can shape us as adults. Choosing to use that experience as a reference for how not to parent/adult is so empowering. Thank you for speaking about the value of therapy to work through your trauma and your faith to sustain you in this journey we call life. The best is yet to come. Happy Birthday...that blue eyeshadow looks fabulous. 💙
Happy birthday beautiful glowing momma!!
I was crying so hard when you were talking about your dad. I lost my dad 2 years ago this week. He wasn't the most understandable person he was an alcoholic .
But he would do a lot for us.
As an adult, I learned to appreciate how far he came as a human being towards the end of his life. Thank you for sharing your story.
I loved the saying “Unforgiveness is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die”. It kills your soul. Forgiving helps YOU the most. My faith has gotten me through some times when I thought forgiving was impossible. God bless you, Zabrena.
I wish your 10 year old self could see what you have achieved. The stories brought tears in my eyes as I could relate and empathize. ❤❤ Love your content and your personality. I hope you stay strong and keep walking towards God. ❤❤ Happy Birthday Zabrena 💓💓❤❤ May God bless you and your family. 😍😍
I just watched the whole video Zabrena and this breaks my heart! I too have been thru a lot as a child, from my dad-which led to choosing abusive men throughout my life. I learned about God at a young age thanks to my best friend Barb, whose family would say a bedtime prayer before bedtime. That probably saved me cuz thats the only thing that has gotten me thru what ive been thru. I think forgiveness is so important. A therapist once told me that when yo forgive someone-youre not saying its ok what they did to you, you are cutting the painful emotional ties that you have to that memory of that person. Sorry if this doesnt make sense- im very tired right now lol.
You are the same age as my daughter. I would have loved having you as a Granddaughter. God bless you!❤️🙏🏼❤️
I had tears in my eyes when I saw your Instagram post about receiving that eye shadow! It's so lovely that you was able to do a birthday look with it and I hope you have/had a really special day xxx
I have experienced different psychological traumas in the past. On top of that I am disabled, have been through 9 surgeries, 5 of them spinal, and have a long list of health issues. Over the past 5 years I developed non-epileptic seizures which was very scary for us. But learning about this condition, I was completely unaware that psychological traumas can impact on your physical health, and one of the manifestations of that can be seizures. There are 2 books which I have found to be very helpful. The first is called "It's All in You Head" by Suzanne O'Sullivan and the other is called, "The Body Keeps The Score " by Vessel van de Kolk"
I personally am not religious but Mindfulness really helped me with acceptance and a sense of self-care which is something I am pretty bad at! I hope these help others in similar situations.
Thank you for being vulnerable and willing to share. Therapy, faith and forgiveness are so important when dealing with childhood trauma.
I can easily think of a dozen ways to tell a ten year old that she can’t wear makeup yet without being so nasty about it. Rough.
Tina your right , my daughters are quite young to wear make up but, I let them to play with it now and then its not hurt them . The do use my every single make up brushes have to wash them all afterward but it worth .💄💋👄
Maqbul Badrang Exactly!
I think I was 12 when my mother bought me my own slightly tinted Bonne Belle lip gloss. Before that, makeup was for at-home playtime only.
I don't often comment on UA-cam videos, but I am currently in therapy working through a lot of things from my childhood and it is so HARD. But I am also so incredibly grateful for the person my dad is today. Thank you for being vulnerable with us and for sharing your story ❤️
Oh my goodness you are describing my Nana to a T. She was mentality, emotionally and physically(overboard spanking) abusive. She took care of my sister and I all day long while my mom was working from the time we were babies up until high school. Scars from my childhood are there and are many but I went to therapy and have since forgiven her as well. Forgiveness is so important in healing. Thank you for sharing. There’s probably so many of us out there with similar childhoods.❤️❤️❤️ You are beautiful inside and out! Stay blessed and keep the vids coming, I’m here for them all!
You gave me a lot to think about with this video. I remember the anxiety I felt when a particular family member was home and the relief when they were gone. I also know how much this person loves me and how damaged they were. Your words about forgiveness and reinvention of a relationship instead of running and never coming back, in regards to your father, really hit home and have given me a lot to think about. It is true not all children have a perfect childhood. You were not wrong to talk about it and I leaned from you tonight.
This is one of your best videos. Thank you for sharing your testimony.
Happy Birthday Beautiful! 😘
A lot of us can relate to the childhood trauma😢 It always happens to the sweetest girls. Thank you for sharing your story, it really does help to hear each other’s histories. My Mother was artistic and narcissistic too. Your Mother probably married someone like her Mother. It’s a love map that gets into your subconscious until you can understand it.
Jet is a beauty!
Happy Birthday 🎉 That blue shadow is taking me straight back to 1983😄 I'd dampen the edge of that foam applicator & run the blue along my upper & lower lashline over black liner--no matter what other color shadows I was wearing--yeah, all 4 colors from the quads😄 8 layers of mascara, some Cheekers blush & a few rolls of Kissing Potion.
I feel your story (harsh grans here too) & yeah forgive & live free from things you couldn't control.
Ooooooh! Kissing Potion!
Wow - Never thought at that time to dampen the applicator...in 83-84 I loved my royal blue pencil on the lashline with the blue eyeshadow with mascara. My hazel eyes looked so yellow gold! Ahhh strawberry kissing potion yes.....
Hahahaha my first eyeshadow was also a bright blue and I was so obsessed with it I literally had solid blue shimmer powder from eyelash line to eyebrows! Omg I was quite a sight! I think I was 11 or 12 :)
Lol in 1983 I was 14 and doing the heating the red sticks of Maybelline black eyeliner with a lighter thing, still have a scar from burning my waterline (don’t put hot melted anything near your eyes, kids!). Good times🎉😄
Edited for grammar issues; it’s 2:40am here😁
@@charzipuddin6129 If I wasn't deathly afraid of lighters🙄 I would've been doing that too😄
“Mama my ear hurts”
“PRAISE THE LORD”
That made me laugh
Happy Birthday Zabrena!! My birthday is the 18th. I was also abused as a child in every way imaginable by my parents. My step-father even held a gun to my head. As an adult I blocked it all out. But eventually started having flashbacks and was diagnosed with PTSD, depression and anxiety. I also forgave but haven't forgotten. I had to cut off all ties with my family in order to break the circle of abuse. Have a great birthday!!! 🎉🎈🎁
omg i am so sorry for what you been through.what a terrible parents😭
wishing you everything amazing in life🥰
@@zayaslife4837
Thank you Zaya!! I have a kitty cat named Zaya!! She's all grey. 💗
I definitely can relate. My childhood was not for the faint of heart but to be able to live a life of peace I completely agree that forgiveness is key and with God’s word it’s amazing how you can get through many experiences. Thanks for sharing. 💕😊
Happy birthday beautiful! 🎂🎉 I can definitely relate to your stories. My dad became terminally ill when I was 7 and my mother was a verbally/physically abusive alcoholic. It’s affected my entire life. I’m so sorry you went through that. Hugs from Canada 🇨🇦
I feel for you with your sons ear issues. My son had 5 sets of tubes, it’s sooooo frustrating! Have a wonderful birthday!
I posted a pretty not graphic but very descriptive video about my bipolar anxiety about how I was raised etc. I did it to help someone.
Watching this in tears now. You are so right when your parents or gardens treat you bad it definitely changes you when you become a parent. I didnt have the best childhood and now I'm a mom all I want is to be the best mom the mom I always wanted.
I'm crying as I'm watching this. Happiest of birthdays sweet Zabreena. Bless you Megan. You have a beautiful heart.
I’m so sorry that your grandmother treated you like that. I can’t even imagine that. What a sweetheart Megan is!
Thank you Zabrena. It may be tough to reveal your life but you are being such a blessing.
I grew up in a horrible household and I appreciate you soooooo soooo much for sharing about your childhood. I have also moved on and hearing that someone else who is successful and doing well has had a similar past as me.
I remember crying in my room for hours because I was mistreated and felt like my life was so horrible.
Now I am hopeful and know I am a wonderful person. I am so grateful for you opening up and sharing! I love watching your videos because you are so awesome and so positive! Sometimes those hard times give us prospective and understanding of people that some will never have. For that I am very grateful.
my childhood, teenhood, young adulthood were filled with abuse: verbal, sexual, physical and emotional, courtesy or my mother, dad ....and other family members...My grandparents, for the most part, were okay.....but...I understand what it feels like being diminished, talked down to, told you're no good at this or that....being not protected by your parents, being not believed, not being hugged, or cherished, or validated or spoken to with kindness, never feeling loved. It is hard, really hard to forgive.....let go of the anger, the hurt....but somewhere along the line, it does happen...to some degree...i have two grown daughters; i tried so hard to be everything that my mother was not...I think I succeeded in alot of ways, and at times, I know I've made my own mistakes.....But, I never deny them, and own up to my mistakes...Being a parent is rough, especially if your partner/spouse is not much help, as in my case...
And.....I am a grandmother of 5 little granddaughters; they are my world...I come alive, I am a child again, I have magical bursts of energy, I am filled with disbelief over how blessed I am to be a grandma...how I love them.......and I cannot imagine being hurtful or mean or unloving or abusive to any of them......lessons learned in life: you can become like your abuser, your source of hurt or you can choose to take a different path......thank u for sharing, zabrena...it is very cathartic for you, and also helpful for others to feel not alone......and for some others who may have had a better young/younger life to understand how lucky they are.......xxxx
Thank you for sharing. You are loved.
Thank you for sharing parts of your childhood with us...it is never easy. I was abused mentally, spiritually and physically by my stepmom...the best "revenge" is living the wonderful lives we have now! I had to learn to forgive and let go for myself...not for the abusers...you are gorgeous inside and out! Also for me, church and God was my saving grace! 💜💜💜
Happy birthday!! Mine is September 18. Go virgos
Happy Birthday!! Mine is also the 18th!!!
Heyo! 3 times the charm lol
Mine was 9th!!
Mine was the 8th!
Wow I thought I was the only one my birthday is also in September 18
I can completely relate! Please remember that you can't just tell a child "don't do that" or "you are a bad kid". They aren't a bad kid. They just made a poor decision. Guve them choices on handle that situation again. Help them grow!
Love you!
Love that you got your blue eyeshadow, it looks gorgeous. Thank you for sharing your stories, my mum was the difficult parent, was verbally and physically abusive, it took years of therapy to work through it and I forgave her for all that she projected onto me, we had many long chats and I heard things from her that were heartbreaking. Towards the end of her life we spent a lot of time together and had a better relationship. When she passed there were no unsaid words or feelings, I am so glad we got to that point.
Thank you for talking about this! The beginning, when you talked about receiving the blue eyeshadow, really made me tear up! I’ve forgiven her, but my mom was verbally abusive to my brothers and me. Her dad was very physically and sexually abusive to her sister and her, and my grandma. And my grandma was also a very talented artist who just criticized us, on our visits. So a cycle of abuse was in my family. My dad was at home, but never there for us, and he and my mom constantly fought, growing up. We went to church, but they didn’t allow God to heal the wounds in their souls (watch Katie Souza, folks!). So my first marriage was with a very angry, verbally abusive man that claimed to be a Christian. Let me tell you. I’m glad you talked about forgiveness. I’ve learned, based on the Bible, there are different types of forgiveness (got a whole article with Scriptures about that). I didn’t leave him for years because I felt pressured by my church’s beliefs and my pastor to “walk in forgiveness.” I’m sorry, but letting an abuser continue to hurt you is not what God meant about forgiveness! I’m not saying you said that, but it was a misconception I had to overcome. After 12 years, I finally realized that praying all day wasn’t going to change my ex’s free will. So my sons and I went to a shelter, got counseling, and got out! Praise God! I’m now married to a wonderful man of God who is the father my kids never had, and a wonderful hubby. We are both starting up a new ministry. Things haven’t been easy, but we’re trusting God everyday. Btw, my parents allowed God to heal their marriage, once I was grown, and they are so happy now! So thank you so much for opening up about your story! I know this is a long comment, but I also hope to encourage people that they can, too, find hope and healing and get out of toxic relationships. Most of my women friends have similar stories of abuse and God delivering them. It’s more common than people realize. Your story is encouraging so many people! I pray I can one day help women with my story as well. You look so beautiful! Happy Birthday, and wear that beautiful blue eyeshadow, girl! 💪 You’ve more than earned it. 😉 Love & blessings to you and your sweet family! 🤗 🙏 💕
Wow, our skin is definitely NOT the same (53 and dry) but you are my go to makeup person! But our childhoods sound very much alike. And if nobody has ever said this to you, please allow me: I'm sorry you went through all of that. It is not your fault.
I love your videos and your talent with makeup. The artist in you definitely comes out when you are applying makeup.
I too had a horrific childhood. Unfortunately, I remember all of it. I agree 100% that forgiveness is key. It not only works for the people who hurt you, but like you said, it sets you free. I will say that it has taken me years and years of working on that and GOD to help me heal and repent myself. For me walking out my Christian faith has saved me; both literally and figuratively. God Bless and keep on goin'!
Yes, ma'am! Praise God that he first loved us and through His Son,Jesus, we are forever forgiven! This encourages us to forgive others that have and still continue to hurt us. Love reading all of these testimonies.
I am so proud to see another woman talking about her mistreatment as a child. I was taught about God from a little girl and am grateful for that because it got me through my mountain of healing time. I also shared with other women what I went through and it was amazing how they came and thanked me for telling them my experience. It does help immensely as they see what an amazing person you are now and that you got through it and healed. I’m so sorry for the pain you endured, you didn’t deserve any of it. My mother was very critical and I believe she had a mental illness but I grew to realize that she probably didn’t have very nice childhood either (grandpa was grumpy and mean). I then was able to forgive her, we made peace with each other and she passed away a few months later. I was so happy she didn’t pass with hard feelings between us for both our sakes.Thank you Zabrena. I’m hook on your videos and love the variety and how you talk about your babies, it warms my heart.
Happy birthday! What a beautiful person Megan is and you are! I love you deeply and I am sending you so much love!
I loved your stories of what a great man your dad was, and to hear that he was abusive and hostile is such a surprise. Given the way you talked about him with such positivity shows me how much you forgave him. I'm inspired.
Thank you for sharing your personal story xoxo that takes a lot, and forgiving them, wow, you are an awesome person xoxo LOVE THIS LOOK TOO! BEAUTIFUL!
It can be so rough - and worse - when a family member treats you badly. You are so right, Zabrena about forgiveness. The bitterness you harbor affects you, and makes you ill, and has very little effect on the other person. I went through something as an adult with a family member and am SO glad I came to terms with it and forgave - even though the other person never admitted any guilt. That person is now gone, and our relationship was mended before they passed. I also have God to thank for mending that fence! And by the way - Happy Birthday!
Happy Bday beautiful!!...
I'm so happy, Megan is so sweet for doing that for you!!..
I'm so sorry you had to go through all does things.I'm glad that those experiences didn't have a permanent damage on your beautiful soul, you are the person you are right now because God had a purpose with you. He knew you wanted to know about him and believing in him was going to be your way to forgiveness and happiness.🙏🏾
I'm happy Jet is doing so much better. Many blessings to you and your beautiful family.😘
PS: Stay strong 10 weeks would go by fast!.😘
I had 3, boy, girl, boy. The first is most assuredly the hardest, at least for me. He's older than you but laughs when I remind him that he was my prototype, the experimental model. Keep teaching your children with patience, love and firm boundaries. The best parenting advice I ever got was this: Say what you mean, and mean what you say. Your children need to be able to trust your word. Love and prayers, Zabrena.
This look was absolutely Stunning! And what a thoughtful gift...that was God giving that to you through Megan's hands and heart. Forgiveness has always been a struggle for me since I was raised by 2 highly narcissistic people, and have no contact with my father, and limited contact with my mother(my choice for my own health)... some days I think I've forgiven, but then other days definitely not..some things are just unforgivable. And while there's a part of me that understands forgiveness is for me, the other part still holds on to the belief that I'm letting them off the hook, and saying their behavior was acceptable. Now I've taken comfort in the fact that it's in God's hands now, and He will, and has been, healing my wounds, and will provide justice for the situation. That's
the best I can do right now. I like that you're Christian and share your faith openly..
And your makeup looks are always so pretty 💄🎨
There's something totally refreshing about someone doing full on makeup while talking about abuse at the same time, as well as forgiveness and faith in God. Thank you so much for sharing!!! Beautiful Blessed Birthday 🎂🎉 to you.
I can relate, such a lovely thing to do. Wow Megan👌 xxx💞💝❤ I did forgive took me years. I believe in the end it made me a better parent. Move on 😁
I held back tears with you. Neither of my grandmothers are nice people so I feel you.
Happy birthday to the most beautiful woman on UA-cam! ( INSIDE AND OUT) I hope you have a blessed day XOXOXO
Hearing these stories makes sense as to why you are such an amazing person. Its great that you are opening up to us, it gives hope and strength to others. It gives me the courage to maybe forgive people who wronged me. Stay beautiful, kind and unique! Much love Zabrena!!
Can you tell us about when you found God? That would be a beautiful story time
Freedom does come in forgiveness.i, too bad a very challenging and heartbreaking childhood. It has been, Christ who has saved me and He will always be here for us! Beautiful look too!!!!
Thank you for sharing. May God bless all of you!
Happy birthday Zabrena! I hope you have the best day!
My childhood was far from perfect. I feel this so much. My relationship with my mom is very strained and far from perfect. I try to deal because shes my mom. But it is not easy. She was abused as a kid and some of that came out with us. Not as bad as she got, but it still freaks me out sometimes. I'm glad you're such a wonderful human being and have grown from your experiences. Your kids are so lucky to have you and your kind presence.
Thank you SO much for being so open and real in this video. I'm a fellow abuse survivor and hearing you be so open about what it took for you to heal made me feel less alone. I've followed your channel for years and will continue to do so. You rock!
Happy birthday, Zabrena 🎉🎉🎉🎂🎂🎂
Well... I can relate to your childhood story, but I'd better not to tell you. I've been forgiving for what happened in the past, because what's in the past stays behind. Also, I chose to not tell it to everyone because it's a disgrace for me and my family.
But again, I chose to forgive people who've hurt me in the past and forget about what they've done. That's all I can do.
Thank you for sharing your childhood stories. I took have a lot of stories of pain, abuse, etc from various family members. People who don't have a relationship with God don't always understand how I can forgive those that hurt me so deeply. It only hurts myself to hold onto it. I found myself self destructing to "prove my pain". I'm so glad you see things clearly & are determined not to pass that pain to your own children. God bless!!!
Happy Birthday beautiful girl!!! Every happiness is yours today. 🎂❤️💞❤️🎂 May you be spoiled rotten today.
My mom does that same belittling your grandma did during mealtimes. She would pick at everything about me, from my skin, body, clothes, grades, habits, temperament, to eating tastes, and that made me miserable and self conscious. I know it stems from lack of self confidence from her side, so it's not as hurtful as it was when I was a child, but it made me very uncomfortable about eating at a table with other people. I feel most comfortable eating alone and in benches, a desk or the kitchen itself. It is definitely nice to know you're not alone. Thank you for sharing, congrats on finally getting your blue eyeshadow, and happy birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZABRENA!!! Big Hugs & Blessings 🎉🍾🎊
I’m sorry for what you went through as a child but happy that you have forgiven and moved on. Thank you for sharing! It’s not easy. I have also experienced a non-loving and abusive childhood. I’m 53 now and continue to manage the day to day. I am fortunate to have a loving partner to help guide me in this acceptance. Stay true to who you are. Love. Live life to the fullest. 💕
2 minutes in & I'm already blubbering 😭😭 Love you so much Zabrena! I hope you had a wonderful birthday! 💙💙
I love the way you shared your faith and explained forgiveness through God. It truly is the only way to lift the burdens we carry with us, and how failing to give that over can bleed over into every part of our lives. Keep your chin up with the pregnancy - not long now until touchdown!
Happy birthday! 🎉 I'll get ready for work with you this morning 🤗. I love your fall background!
My mother also delt with similar issues with her mom at times. And I too had a somewhat hard childhood. It’s so freeing when someone shares their struggles and to see them having come through it. I’ve done the same and am coming through a difficult previous marriage and can once again see blue sky’s ahead. God bless you and your precious family.
Thank you for sharing your life with us Zabrena. I'm going through some similar issues with my family. Anytime I would have a project for school, my dad would take over and finish it for me because I was doing it my way, not his. I'm going to my first therapy appointment next week to work pass all this.
For many years me and my mother didn’t get along. She was very religious and I’m not so much and she couldn’t just accept me for who I am, and she was very emotionally and mentally abusive. When I first moved out I didn’t speak to her for months. Almost a year. But regardless of the past, I still love her, and I chose to forgive her. She also changed, became less harsh with her opinions and criticism. Now she’s like my best friend. I call her everyday. Sometimes you just need time to reflect and think, and always learn to forgive if you can. It really does take a huge weight off your shoulders. Thanks for sharing your stories Z. You’re so strong and such an inspiration ❤️
Did we grow up in the same house(s)? My sister and I turned out different and she is repeating it all with her children. It is so sad to see it again. Please don't give up on more children. Each one is such a blessing.
What you said about forgiveness is so, so important, Z. Ma grandma was a very abusive, paranoid mother and my mom was pretty much the only one that truly forgave her over the years, even though she suffered for decades afterwards. And guess what? I can affirm that of all my mother's siblings who had kids, my mom was the one that was the most "balanced". She wasn't in a mental competition with her mom on how much of a better parent she was - and that's what made my childhood so blessed compared to my cousins. Plus, it actually helped my grandma and her relations with all of her kids and, eventually, her grandkids. And I'll forever be thankful for that. I couldn't have asked for a better grandma.
Zabrena, I love you and thank you so much for sharing these stories with us.
Happy happy birthday 🎂 beautiful!!!! I’m also a September 27 baby “36”🥰 and I’m 7 months pregnant too 😂😂😂😂
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I really relate to what you were saying. I had a very toxic, abusive childhood that has caused me a lot of self worth and other issues in my adulthood. I am working on the process of healing. Hearing your story was comforting and just confirms how God can heal our wounds and make something good out of such terrible things.
Happy Birthday 🎉🎁🎊
I hope this year will be a wonderful year and all your wishes become true 😊😊
I appreciate you sharing your stories. I also had a traumatic childhood that I didn’t realize effected me until I was in my early 40s and you’re right. You have to forgive or else you’re trapped and all of your power is being given to whomever committed those acts.
Happy Birthday to you!🎉🎂🥳 Mine was the 10th! Love your channel and your videos ❤️💗❤️
Thank you, Z, for showing us that peace can be found on the other side of abuse/trauma/neglect. It is all about letting God, and letting go, and with God, the letting go is possible. I'm privileged to see you now, and know your kids will be raised in love! Oh, and the crying at each stage of childhood? That doesn't go away. I only had 1 child, but am experiencing it again with my 4-month-old grandson (even though he has 2 involved parents)! LOL
Happy birthday to you my fellow Virgo 🎈💙today is also me and my sister's bday not twins tho 5 years apart 🎈🎈enjoy your day we're going to lunch 🎂
What a beautiful look! I’m sorry you had a rough childhood Zabrena. I did as well. Hearing your stories broke my heart for little 10 year old Zabrena, but you’ve become such an amazing woman. Your forgiveness and grace is so admirable. I am working on forgiveness myself. Thank you for sharing your stories and for always being a light in this world!
You’re grandma probably needed a deliverance or two!
You are great oh Lord God. For there is none like you nor it there any God besides you.
2 Samuel 7:23
Happy Birthday! You’re a strong woman of God.
This is exactly why I LOVE your channel. Your beautiful soul always shines through. What an amazingly strong person you are to have went through all that and still managed to find forgiveness. Happy Birthday xx
Hope you have a wonderful birthday... A very happy birthday dear... Mine is on 18th September and my daughter's on 19th September
My daughter is the 18th and my husband is the 19th! Lol
@@robinabdulla5979 lol... Best wishes for them in advance
As i sit hear listening to your life with your father when you were young i cant help to cry. Its like we were living the same lives.
You
Your Jesus-filled...Spirit-filled....soul is beautiful!
Suzanne Hegge, Amen!
Hey! That's probably why I enjoy watching these videos. Zabrena is no where near my shade, but she has consentantly been honest and sweet through all her videos. I only know of ONE beauty vlogger that openly shares her faith in Christ but she has not posted in months. I hope Zabrena continues to share more of her faith more boldly. It would inspire so many!
God bless you Zabrena! I too had less then happy childhood. However I’m now a grandma 👵 of a WONDERFUL grandson Paxton age 2. He’s a TRUE blessing and I never want to take for granted his unconditional love ❤️. The power of his love brings joy and happiness to me and everyday! I always knew you a beautiful woman! However I know for sure your a beautiful soul as well. Your children ARE sooo blessed to have you as a mother!
First, happy birthday Zabrena! Second, I am so sorry you went through so much as a child. I'm a retired social worker and my heart breaks for what you went through. Thank you for your testimony of God's love and the benefits of forgiveness. Take care of yourself and your beautiful family.
I have a late talker too! She knows some words but can't use them appropriately or only labels objects. Her words are rarely used to communicate. She turned 3 on Sunday and is at an early learning class. She loves it. Every morning she greets her teachers with a hug.
I wish Jet good luck!
Thank you for being the type of person worth following and watching. I'm not going to pretend I had a hard childhood, but parts of it were, and I remember reading a quote that's stuck with me that I think is appropriate now: Be the person your younger self needed.
I always think about wither or not my younger self would like who I am now, and the answer is yes. I also think your 10 year old self would love this Zabrena, so you should be dang proud of who you are and how far you've come
First of all, Happy Birthday! You deserve the best day Evah!
This is proof that we used to be able to do our eyeshadow without primer and how much more pigmented and the quality so much better back then.
I too had a horrible childhood and early adulthood of abuse in every possible way and I too share my stories because if my stories can help someone else then I’m willing to share. I will say that I’m glad of my childhood experiences, as horrible as they were, because due to those experiences it made me a stronger person and able to handle the tumultuous experiences I had as a teen and adult before I met my current husband. My experiences have made me who I am and gotten me to where I am today and I’ve been truly happy the last 20 years. So I don’t regret any of those bad experiences because if anything had been different I wouldn’t be here. So I feel you. Thank you for sharing! I’ve been a subscriber for many years and I’ve always loved your vids but I can also tell you are genuine and I love your spirit and that’s what keeps me coming back. I can’t tell you how many of the others I have unsubbed from, but I now only subscribe to a few that have remained true and down to 🌏 such as yourself. So stay you and have a Gorgeous Birthday!
Zabrena, I’ve watched you for such a long time and I’ve always thought you were such a beautiful soul even though I don’t “know” you. It is so wonderful that you could forgive those who have wronged you in your childhood. I’m so sorry for all tha you had to endure. Your children are so blessed that you are their Moma.
Happy Birthday Zabrena!!!!! I know one thing for sure, your childhood may have been crap but you have grown to be quite the amazing woman and mother and I for one am so proud of you. You could have let happen what happens in to many cases, you could have become what they were to you, instead your strength has made you what you are today. You can say therapy, a husband, friends, kids and whoever else has shaped you but the truth is only your own strength allowed you to let go of anger and be the loving caring woman you are now. You go girl, be proud of who you are.
I am glad that you can look back and see how much you were able to endure and most importantly learn, grow, and become a better person because of your past experiences.
Much love to you and your family ❤️ you are amazing
Awww... Sweet Zabrena, you didn't have choices at 10 years old. The people that should have been nurturing you were busy surviving for themselves. You lived through it to share it with us and help others not to feel so alone. Now that you are a beautiful mother, wife, and friend, you can have all the blue eye shadow you want, or any color for that matter. You can play with all the different ways it will look, find what you don't like and what you love, because you are talented, kind, and important. You show others the way, and share some good and less than perfect moments, and we love you just the way you are. Hugs on your birthday month and God bless you.
As a woman who had truly wonderful parents my heart hurts for u. My dad passed at 49 and my mom at 81 she was a true angel and loved me so much. As I love my children beyond all understanding. Again u are a true child of God to be living the life u are
Love the video, and I can totally relate. My childhood wasn't healthy, it was pretty toxic and has carried forward through most of my life. But healing can empower us, as it has you. Forgiveness is never for those who have done the wrong - but rather for those who are wronged. You are an amazingly strong woman.
Wow, thanks for opening up. You are incredibly strong and it’s nice to know I am not alone with childhood struggles and situations.
No matter how mean she was, you grew to a wonderful woman with kind heart and strong personality. You are adorable and God bless you sweetheart 🙏😘
Thank you for sharing your experiences as a child and how your faith in God made you the woman you are today. You are gorgeous both inside and out!
Thank you for sharing your experiences. It's not easy growing up in an environment where are you belittled, or have things stolen from you. I am still working on forgiving the person who did that to me.