You are a wonderful person Candice, I'm glad to have made the book.:) I'm also very grateful to be able to still be your friend, thank you for the good times, you helped me grow and I wont forget it.
I relate very strongly to your story...ex missionary here...I came out in Africa and was ditched by my organization. I am now 42 and finally out for good. Loved this. Thank you!
I love the fact that you shared something so personal with us Cus I swear though as soon as u opened that journal it felt like u just opened a treasure chest filled with long ago love and wanted to share so thanks alot
Everything about this is so beautiful. It captures so much of what so many people have gone through and who feel like they are the only ones feeling this way. You are a beautiful writer. Thank you for sharing :)
Candace, I'm trying to think of the right words to say but everything and nothing is coming out. Oh my GOD in heaven, you have put into words what none of us are able to articulate.... I have been living a lie for over 40 yrs, saying it's nobody's business but mine. Actually, my partner has never wanted to live our truth. It has caused me to only exist not really live. Candace, you have a wonderful opportunity to not only live your truth but help millions to come to know who they are sooner in life. Maybe, teaching is not where you need to be all your life? More people need to see and hear you. I believe in you. I love you. Our community is experiencing a revolution and the time is right for you to rise up and help others, gay and straight, to turn from hate and understand how to love. Peace and love be with you, always.
Even though it was a tough journey, the outcome was good. Glad to see that in such a touching video, Candice. But gosh, you made me cry. And I didn't exactly needed that just now... :'(
Oh my goodness. I had tears. thank you for sharing this.. so much of it I could relate to. I only came out a year ago and remember those feelings so well. especially having been raised in a cult. thanks for sharing
this was an awesome video. and thank you for sharing parts of journal and your journey. it means a lot because I think my religion is holding me back from coming out to my family and friends. it's like a self identity issue. both are right but somehow there is so much more consequences for just being yourself.
I feel so related right now. At some point, I went through the exact same thoughts you had and some of my diary entries and very similar to yours (I have a secret diary too... Well, it's not a diary, it's a secret Word document in my PC)
I don't know that I'll ever be able to come out. Every time I'm about to, something forces me back to the closet. I grew up in the Bible Belt, so it took a very long time just to come out to myself. I moved away as soon as I could and eventually landed in Chicago. Then I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to support myself while going to school. I was planning for many years to come out after I graduated, but then 2 months before I did, my mom was in a horrible accident. I've spent much of the last 2 years focused on her when I wasn't focused on my career. Things are finally starting to calm down with my mom and her being more independent (knock on wood). There's a big part of me that wants to be seen and every time someone calls me straight or asks me about why I don't have a boyfriend (never a girlfriend) because I'm feminine (also part of why it took me so long to accept that I could be a lesbian), it feels like a dagger to the chest. And yet, now I'm almost 29 and wonder is it even worth it anymore?
My sister just came out at 32. Our family is very religious and she fought herself her whole life until this point. She is now with the most amazing woman! It's NEVER too late to be happy. There is no feeling like loving and being loved, it is the number one experience that tops all others on Earth. None of the judgement will matter the day you get to experience that feeling. Live your life, fall in love, and coming out won't seem as hard with a girlfriend's support.
i love this video! and i have a diary too but i don't write into it that much anymore since i told my friend about that girl i'm in love with. but i think i will only stop writing into it if i told that girl but i'm too afraid! i told my handballteam that i was in love with a girl. i didn't tell them who she is because her best friend is in my team. i now told most of them who that girl is but i still don't want the girls that are in her class to know it's her. everyone's reaction was perfect! some said it was very brave of me to tell them. some said it is normal. some said that it's not a bad thing and still i'm afraid to tell her because i'm afraid that she would avoid me, that i couldn't look at her, that i wouldn't see her anymore. i'm in love with her.
I used to write a diary when I was 10, about my confused feelings to everything. I let it under my pillow, but my mom found out, she gave it to my dad, they teased me, laughed at me,... they were so rude, unbelievable,... my heart was broken and ashamed. Since then, I've never written any diary again, I'll never come out to them about my bisexual sexuality. I don't trust them anymore. It's more than just about a diary.
I really used to love my parents but then they did something similar. I have two years of high school left and then I'm away and off to college. I think after some time away I can learn to forgive them but right now it's too hard.
heyy there! :) can you give me some advice for coming out to my parents ? my friends knows that Im gay , but not my parents . can you help me? Im 15 and malaysian :)
i actuallylive in Romania, there s not much a comunity here and peopld wouldn t understand..i ve hinted a couple of times to my mom how i feel...but she got angry and started insulting me...i don t think i ll ever be able to be happy...just pretend..
Your perception of time right now is that it passes agonizingly, achingly slowly. It is impossible for you to comprehend that your perception of the passage of time will ever change. However, time will soon begin speeding up - gradually at first, then exponentially with every passing day. Your physical safety is the most important issue for you right now. Keep your secret so that you can continue to live in the home of your parents until you are self-supporting. Time will pass and life will get better.
+gk37013 that s what I used to tell myself during highscool..I m 27 now..unfortunately things don t change..even if you try to reach out to people, they re not that open minded here.. also, there aren t any gay/lesbian/queer people in my town..
this is a beautiful vídeo candice. i love the way you are and express your soul through letters. but right now i'm jealous. because i would like to get into the tub tub with you.
You are a wonderful person Candice, I'm glad to have made the book.:) I'm also very grateful to be able to still be your friend, thank you for the good times, you helped me grow and I wont forget it.
^This is "The Girl"... We had good times. ❤️ you always.
You are a beautiful writer. Your words are poetry
I relate very strongly to your story...ex missionary here...I came out in Africa and was ditched by my organization. I am now 42 and finally out for good. Loved this. Thank you!
hey..congratz yaa..😍😘
I love the fact that you shared something so personal with us
Cus I swear though as soon as u opened that journal it felt like u just opened a treasure chest filled with long ago love and wanted to share so thanks alot
Much love. The vulnerability here is so true and awesome.
Everything about this is so beautiful. It captures so much of what so many people have gone through and who feel like they are the only ones feeling this way. You are a beautiful writer. Thank you for sharing :)
Such a great video your writing is so poetic and I love it.
This is so real for so many people who are still going through this. Thanks for sharing !
Candace, I'm trying to think of the right words to say but everything and nothing is coming out. Oh my GOD in heaven, you have put into words what none of us are able to articulate.... I have been living a lie for over 40 yrs, saying it's nobody's business but mine. Actually, my partner has never wanted to live our truth. It has caused me to only exist not really live. Candace, you have a wonderful opportunity to not only live your truth but help millions to come to know who they are sooner in life. Maybe, teaching is not where you need to be all your life? More people need to see and hear you. I believe in you. I love you. Our community is experiencing a revolution and the time is right for you to rise up and help others, gay and straight, to turn from hate and understand how to love. Peace and love be with you, always.
This is fantastic, I can identify with a lot of these entries so much - I too kept diaries during my coming out years. Such a great video!
I always get excited when you post a new video because you're a wonderful inspiration.
Thanks for sharing your journey. You've always been a beautiful person. Wishing you all the love and healing and happiness!
Even though it was a tough journey, the outcome was good. Glad to see that in such a touching video, Candice. But gosh, you made me cry. And I didn't exactly needed that just now... :'(
I did a little happy dance when I saw you had posted another video! This is amazing. I feel like I need some dove chocolate now.
This is so wonderful. We love you so much. ❤️
I love you two so much!
Oh my goodness. I had tears. thank you for sharing this.. so much of it I could relate to. I only came out a year ago and remember those feelings so well. especially having been raised in a cult. thanks for sharing
this really is a beautiful video!! i love the way you write!! i hope you do more videos like this! love form italy
this was an awesome video. and thank you for sharing parts of journal and your journey. it means a lot because I think my religion is holding me back from coming out to my family and friends. it's like a self identity issue. both are right but somehow there is so much more consequences for just being yourself.
This was such an amazing video. Thank you for sharing.
This video 💜 made me cry just listening to this. Thank you for sharing
This was beautiful and your family is beautiful and I cannot wait til I'm at the point that you are now.
You really know how to command attention; such a teacher's heart!
I feel so related right now. At some point, I went through the exact same thoughts you had and some of my diary entries and very similar to yours (I have a secret diary too... Well, it's not a diary, it's a secret Word document in my PC)
This is so great...it resembles my internal struggle even though I am not a person who practice any religious faith. My parents are heavily religious.
brings tears to my eyes... beautiful
Thank you for sharing a bit of your story Candice xx
When I see your video I Feel good..and it's feel like you're giving me life....
This video is so great. Super creative. Loved it.
All I can think to say is thank you. Thank you very much.
I don't know that I'll ever be able to come out. Every time I'm about to, something forces me back to the closet. I grew up in the Bible Belt, so it took a very long time just to come out to myself. I moved away as soon as I could and eventually landed in Chicago. Then I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to support myself while going to school. I was planning for many years to come out after I graduated, but then 2 months before I did, my mom was in a horrible accident. I've spent much of the last 2 years focused on her when I wasn't focused on my career. Things are finally starting to calm down with my mom and her being more independent (knock on wood). There's a big part of me that wants to be seen and every time someone calls me straight or asks me about why I don't have a boyfriend (never a girlfriend) because I'm feminine (also part of why it took me so long to accept that I could be a lesbian), it feels like a dagger to the chest. And yet, now I'm almost 29 and wonder is it even worth it anymore?
My sister just came out at 32. Our family is very religious and she fought herself her whole life until this point. She is now with the most amazing woman! It's NEVER too late to be happy. There is no feeling like loving and being loved, it is the number one experience that tops all others on Earth. None of the judgement will matter the day you get to experience that feeling. Live your life, fall in love, and coming out won't seem as hard with a girlfriend's support.
I want to like this video a million times.
Thank you for sharing your private thoughts with us. I loved this video!
oh Sumer where are you now? "maybe this time" by david pomeranz might be your theme song :D
Who is Jane? What is that from? I love this video. Thank you.
Maybe God does talk to us through dove chocolates
i love this video! and i have a diary too but i don't write into it that much anymore since i told my friend about that girl i'm in love with. but i think i will only stop writing into it if i told that girl but i'm too afraid! i told my handballteam that i was in love with a girl. i didn't tell them who she is because her best friend is in my team. i now told most of them who that girl is but i still don't want the girls that are in her class to know it's her. everyone's reaction was perfect! some said it was very brave of me to tell them. some said it is normal. some said that it's not a bad thing and still i'm afraid to tell her because i'm afraid that she would avoid me, that i couldn't look at her, that i wouldn't see her anymore. i'm in love with her.
Good luck ! I wish you happiness!
So real. Raw. I love this.
I used to write a diary when I was 10, about my confused feelings to everything. I let it under my pillow, but my mom found out, she gave it to my dad, they teased me, laughed at me,... they were so rude, unbelievable,... my heart was broken and ashamed. Since then, I've never written any diary again, I'll never come out to them about my bisexual sexuality. I don't trust them anymore. It's more than just about a diary.
I really used to love my parents but then they did something similar. I have two years of high school left and then I'm away and off to college. I think after some time away I can learn to forgive them but right now it's too hard.
heyy there! :) can you give me some advice for coming out to my parents ? my friends knows that Im gay , but not my parents . can you help me? Im 15 and malaysian :)
You're amazing ❤
I'm new here but... why is she in the bath??
why in bath?
i actuallylive in Romania, there s not much a comunity here and peopld wouldn t understand..i ve hinted a couple of times to my mom how i feel...but she got angry and started insulting me...i don t think i ll ever be able to be happy...just pretend..
Your perception of time right now is that it passes agonizingly, achingly slowly. It is impossible for you to comprehend that your perception of the passage of time will ever change. However, time will soon begin speeding up - gradually at first, then exponentially with every passing day. Your physical safety is the most important issue for you right now. Keep your secret so that you can continue to live in the home of your parents until you are self-supporting. Time will pass and life will get better.
+gk37013 that s what I used to tell myself during highscool..I m 27 now..unfortunately things don t change..even if you try to reach out to people, they re not that open minded here.. also, there aren t any gay/lesbian/queer people in my town..
I'm Romanian too butt live in Canada. I know how homophobic the situation in Romania is like. :( sorry!
+Flint1545 but. Oops.
hey , do you have instagram?
I do: sitily
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this is a beautiful vídeo candice. i love the way you are and express your soul through letters. but right now i'm jealous. because i would like to get into the tub tub with you.
oh Sumer where are you now? "maybe this time" by david pomeranz might be your theme song :D
oh Sumer where are you now? "maybe this time" by david pomeranz might be your theme song :D