Vlog Spot - Letting out some anger triggered by the mail
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- Опубліковано 17 вер 2024
- This is kind of a sensitive video. Not sure how the younger kids will take it. And I think I said the H word and maybe one other. Sorry that it's so long. There is no part of me that wanted to upload it, but then I have to remember that this is my therapy and I must go forward with what feels right for me, even if it's not what other want to hear. If I sound angry in this video, it's because I am. Not angry at you, but just angry about many things from my past and I'm only now letting that anger out. So it sounds like I'm mad at my online family. I'm not. I just have years of anger built up and I'm letting it out any way I can.
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Oh my, Darlene I have a teenage daughter that suffers from social anxiety. It has gotten to the point that I have had to take her out of public school and I now homeschool her. Thank you so much for making this video! It has given me a better understanding of where she's coming from. I have tried for years to change her...to make her more outgoing with no luck. I cried through this whole video. it made me realize that there's nothing to change. she's perfect just the way she is, as are you! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing this video. You have no idea how much it has helped me to understand where my daughter is coming from. Thank you, Thank You, Thank you!! You have truly touched my heart!
I know it is an old comment... But I am not sure if you can compare Darlenes fear of mail to your daughters social anxiety o: Social anxiety has a much bigger effect on her whole life and psychological help might be useful instead of just accepting it. That is at least what I think because I dont think it gets just better by accepting it. But maybe I am wrong.
I don't think she was comparing the two. She was saying what Darlene said helped her to look at her daughter and understand that she does not need to change her.
I completely understand.. The crazy anxiety one gets when going out to get the mail is overwhelming.. If its outside of your house, it's a bit easier.. but going to the actual post office can be a tad much. Dont feel like you have to put yourself in situations where you're uncomfortable, Darlene! We (your fans) should show our love and support by watching/liking/commenting on your videos.. :) Not by forcing you to do things that you arent 100% comfy with. Ignore the pushy people.. they dont know you like the true fans do! :P :)
My motto is I am me and I am ok, you Darlene are You and you are Ok
I may not fully understand how you feel about things, I don't understand your negative feelings towards mail, I don't understand your love for grey days, but I accept you and love you for just the way you are. I don't need to understand everything about you to know that you are wonderful just the way you are. I enjoy hearing about your good times and I am willing to listen when you are struggling. Even though you don't know me, just know someone from the middle of nowhere in Michigan accepts and cares about you! Nothing but love ♥♥♥
Also you get the feelings you have. Nothing more nothing less. Be who you are. Anybody on your channel that doesn't like it can kick rocks.
Thank you for taking the time to explain this to us. I feel this way about the phone. Hoping you have a wonderful weekend!
+Kim Perow Phones are so stressful!!! I've come to learn that it causes anxiety for many of us!
Thank you! It took many years for me to realize that I can love my hubby the way he is. What he can give me emotionally is the best he can give. And just knowing he is giving his best makes it more meaningful and heartfelt to me. Your words clarified something I was unknowingly practicing all along.
I am so proud of you for making this video. I have so much anxiety and people never understand. I always get told "you're just shy or you just don't do it right". Everything you're saying resonates with me so much. Thank you
I have Asperger's so I totally get anxiety, people, the phone etc. You can't see it, so a lot of time people just assume I'm mean or rude, or uncaring. It sucks sometimes and I do try and try, but a lot of times I do feel like a failure. Thanks for putting this into words that make sense. I like your light and your dark. You give me strength thanks :)
ps. Those lamps behind you are awesome.
Phones, mail, tones of voices, smells, hoarding tendencies, fear of failure, obsessive tendencies, fear of public transport, fear of money (discussing it, making it, losing it, other people's money), fear of crowds, fear of mime artist (can you believe it...I mean, really?...yea really!) we are none of us perfect, some of us are are a little more complex. Life gets a lot easier for everyone when we learn to stop putting our expectations on others....if you start out expecting nothing then you're not disappointed when we say "I can't do that today...or ever". Simple really....so whys it so damn hard for people to do? Xx👏🏼👏🏼 well done for being brave enough to be honest, I respect that X
you are such a breath of fresh air....all my life I hv listened to people and always wondered what they actually mean.. tried to read their intent between the lines so to speak... so I do get you!!! never change this honest pure self of you!!!
I'm a perfectionist with OCD and now that I'm older, 53, it causes alot of anxiety til I forget why I'm so nervous and made myself sick over who knows what.
I've been critical with my children while they grew up cuz I always felt like a failure and didn't want them to ever have that feeling. In the end I probably made them feel like failures, how sad. You open my eyes and I need to apologize while I still can. Don't EVER EVER EVER change a single thing about yourself. I wish I could be as bold as you and speak my mind. I can learn how to be through you with video's like this. It's one breath at a time and some days I gotta just remind myself to breathe, everything's gonna be okay. Thanks again, thanks for helping me in too many ways to list here. From AZ... Babs
I go through the same exact thing. I was diagnosed with social anxiety last year. My mother blames me for the same things too. She says I can always do better, im lazy, I don't do anything productive when she doesn't know how much I'm trying in school. You don't need to change anything its normal. Youre honestly my favorite UA-camr even though im 15 and usually i should be interested in other teen youtubers who act too fake for me. Pleaseeee keep making these videos
+Shayna Mitchell So happy to have you as part of my online family!
Darlene Michaud thank you for the video I have some of the same issues it's hard for people to understand my family put me down all the time it hurts.
I completely get where ur comin from! omg,i just wish people would take the time to listen and acknowledge. When we are heard we start to heal. You have such a sweet soul and are a major empath. I totally enjoy u,keep speaking out and being u💛
I've only watched one of your videos and saw the title to this one and thought I'd check it out. I'm only 18 1/2 minutes in and already feel like this is one of the best therapy/motivational sessions I've heard in a long, long time. Thank you for being so candid! I've personally struggled with bipolar depression and anxiety and a variety of phobias my entire life, but I didn't begin my journey to discovering what it all is and what it's stemmed from until I was 30 (I'm now 36). I praise you for your courage and self awareness. It's really sad to know that some never figure themselves out and find peace and happiness from within. It is a daily battle, and I really hope that anyone watching this actually "gets it". Life is too short, the world is full of hate, and we all deserve the respect and support from each other for our individuality. I've subscribed and will definitely be watching more of your videos, with sound (I usually don't because I just want to get the gist of what's being done lol). I just love your personality. Don't worry, I won't send you any mail, because I do respect you. 😋 Keep it up!
Every video I watch I keep thinkk I'm so happy to have found you. You are so real. I live with anxiety so does my son and grandson. It's really nice to listen to you explain what a lot of us go threw. Thank you for being so truthful. And I am very happy you were born. I think you were put on this crazy world to help speak for yourself and for ithets that can't speak for themselves.
You do you Darlene. At the end of the day, you have to live with yourself and your decisions. You do have a voice and it does matter. I'm so glad you are getting to use it and to stand up for yourself. You're valid, your feelings are valid and you do matter. Keep on keeping on!
Love how honest you are Darlene. Thanks for keeping it real!
Darlene, you are truly authentic. And epitomize "to think ownself be true".
Darlene, you are being authentic and you are wonderful the way you are. I understand what you mean about people being rude, disrespectful and placing stress on you because of their expectation of reciprocation.
I completely understand where you are coming from. I am so sick of saying and doing things that make me miserable because they seem like the right thing to do or because I will make someone upset if I don't. It's inspiring to see you be so honest and true to yourself. I promise I won't send you any mail! :)
+Kaitlyn C Thanks so much for watching and for your kind words!
I know how you feel Darlene! I've delt with extreme anxiety my whole life and have always tried to put myself into society's mold. It's exhausting! If more people would just take one another for who they are instead of trying to change them, the world would be a much less anxiety filled place. You do you, Darlene! You have a whole following of folks that love you! I just happened to be watching this while I was dealing with a very annoying and stressful situation and it was nice to know I'm not the only one who feels this way!
totally nothing wrong with not wanting mail, this is your channel and you get to run it the way you want! that's the beauty of youtube lol no one gets to tell you what to do really. I hope making the videos and getting things like this off your chest helps Darlene! I've been taking a year off of school and just sorting through who I am, being true to yourself is the best thing you can do to be happy :)
Ps. Your laugh is infectious! love it!
not going to lie I cried because I know exactly what you're going through
Thanks Darlene, I feel you. Good job saying whats on your mind. Some of us know we are different and those that make us feel like we need fixing are a pain in the arse. I love all your videos.
You will be surprised how many people feel just as you do. I think some people mean well. I also think some people think they know, better than you, what works for you. Your video made me cry. I used to be a very outgoing person. Always a smile. Always wanting to make others smile, at least for a little while. Now, the older I get, I find myself in very much the same frame of mind as you. I don't like getting calls, esp from unknown numbers. I hate the mail. I find Myself making excuses to not go places. But you are much braver than I am. I could never voice it out loud. When someone comes over, I am good at making everything seem very normal. So good on you! I am quite proud of you for finding your voice and for sharing. You might be amazed at how many others you have helped.
loved this. Reminded me of my revelation a few years ago as I was a Yes person to everyone because I wanted to please. Would you fill in for me tomorrow? Yes, Would you go clean the church cause I want to go here or there? Yes....and then come home feeling so angry and resentful. A wonderful therapist taught me to speak what is true to me and to say no....no excuses...just no and then go home. First time I did that, I came home feeling like I had been liberated. We can't live our lives by others expectations. Rock on and not even knowing you I am proud of you for I know how hard it is to say what you said.
Hi Darlene I found your quilting videos over the weekend and I felt like you were a long lost friend,
and now I know why ,YOU ARE YOU do not change for anyone. xxx
Hi Darlene. I'm so sorry about the way that you're being treated. People can be so insensitive & judgmental. You & everyone else are entitled to how you feel. You are beautiful, unique & special. Please don't think you need to apologize to people. I love you for being you Darlene. You can be whoever God created you to be. Some people just don't get it & that's when you need to cut your losses. Mental illness runs in my family, depression & anxiety so you're not alone. I'm sending you a great BIG HUGG.
It's amazing that you even make videos. My social anxiety prevents me from showing my face on camera. It also prevents me from doing my job as a school librarian properly. Lots of talking to people and reaching out to people and that makes me very uncomfortable. Thanks for sharing your feelings with us.
+86Trudy It amazes me that I can make videos, too! I was scared to death at first, but I quickly discovered it was an outlet for me. A form of therapy. I'm still a nervous wreck half the time, but it's something that I'm able to push through because I am discovering I'm not alone.
You articulated your feelings very well. Being honest about the mail issue will serve you. Giving alternative examples of the situation in the form of stories such as the peanut story and the hand shaking story will help people remember the main point that you are trying to get across because folks remember stories. It's a good way to teach something. Thanks for being real. PS:. I have never sent you mail & have no intention to do so.
U are so amazing! Me and my daughter watch your videos every night and 500 times. You are very kind, right and inspiring person. And we love you.
How brave you are Darlene. I ache when I hear honesty because it's so rare, but Oh so beautiful. I think everyone on earth want's to be themselves but most of us don't even know what that is. It take a lot of living to get in touch with the real you and then it takes bravery to act on it, don't you think?
So glad you made this video. It's nice to see some honesty online for once.. and I think you were just a voice for many people out there that couldn't or didn't know how to say all this.
+Kershaw0027 I don't even know how to say it all! lol
+Darlene Michaud I think what you had said will help those that watch this video in one way or another. I know it gave me a insight on different things that go on in every day life.
We love you Darlene!
You are okay the way you are, You make me laugh every time I watch your videos!!! You don't have to do anything you don't want to do, I don't ever do what I don't want anymore, I used to, but not anymore. You are awesome just the way you are!!!
Your explanation made total sense. Thanks for the opportunity to get to know you better. You're going to attract like minded individuals to your channel, people that understand and accept your unique qualities....and that's it's all ok! It's good to be yourself and I see you advocating for you and others!! Love it!!!! ❤
+diggs1976 I'm going to be quite shocked if there are many like minded individuals out there. It sure would feel good to know I'm not alone. And I'm learning that more and more every day!
I understand. You are wonderful. Stay exactly the way you are. Be Darlene because we love Darlene.
I have social anxiety, a hoarding tendency, and I'm afraid every time I go to get my mail something bad will be there. I get it.
Yes! I haven't gotten my mail in weeks. It's always bad news ...... I'm anxious just thinking about it.
+Lisa Isablogger Very surprised to know that there are quite a few people in this world who struggle with mail! I had no clue! Thought it was just me.
I totally understand how you feel. There are everyday things that I just dread doing. I have OCD and that's the reason why I have these feelings. I don't think other people understand that there isn't a way to "help" get over these things, because we already know the fear is irrational.
+Larilee Yes! We know it's irrational! I think most people don't realize that we know that so they think educating us will help. I know more about mental illness than most doctors! lol
YES!!! I hear ya! Love the handshake comparison! I suffer from anxiety and most people don't get it because it's something you can't see. They just figure you should 'get over it'! Unfortunately, it's not that easy! "I know you don't like...." should never be followed by a "but"! My daughter keeps telling me, "Mom, you should do this" or "Mom, why don't you...." But the things she wants me to do or change are things I don't want to. I'm quite happy being me without someone trying to change me into their view or mold of how I should be! Thanks so much for sharing this video....I could so relate! Stay true to yourself, Darlene. I know you don't like mail so I won't send you anything :)
+Linda Gardellini Thanks for watching and understanding!
I'm 37 and have the same problems. Including my mother. I love being a hermit because I don't wanna be around people. I understand where your coming from.
Darlene, I ❤️ you! I do understand everything you said!! I suffer chronic anxiety and never know or why it comes on or goes away. When my anxiety is bad the depression comes too. I'm always fighting to keep it at bay. I've found for ME, I have to stay BUSY!! Mental illness is hard to describe to others who have never had it. A friend told me depression is like pulling a ball that weighs a ton. I love you videos!! Bye!
I just adore you. Sending you hugs. No mail! ;)
+psvzum LOL!!! I needed this!!!
Darlene, you are you. Don't change anything about yourself for anyone else. It took me years to realize that I am not going be good enough for everyone. And that's ok. I was in a
an emotionally abusive marriage for 19 years and I was conditioned to be someone I truly wasn't. It wasn't until I met my current husband who is so so supportive of me and what I do or can't do and he accepts me for who I am and doesn't want me to change. He accepts me no matter how much weight I've gained or if i'm having a bad day or if I'm grumpy for something I've had happen to me. I think you are an awesome person an I wish I could give you a big hug! Don't change a damned thing!
I think it's nice that you're being honest. You are being true to yourself and true to us. You are doing what is best for you and that's all that matters. I know you still care about your fans - just in a different way. Getting mail from complete strangers can be dangerous anyway.
+kewalgrl22 Thank you for understanding!
I Get It! Thank you Darlene for speaking for many of us, and keeping it real. I am the same age as you, and it sounds like our moms are a lot alike. You are good enough, thanks for sharing your life with us. Chelle.
Darlene you are great just the way you are...I had to live to eventually find myself and finally I accept me for who I am, part of this acceptance is because my father has passed on and I don't have to listen to him ragging on me about everything that I didn't do, couldn't do or wasn't smart enough to get done....now I can live in peace. Your peace is on it's way!! I have just recently found you and enjoy your videos. I love the crumb quilting videos the best girlfriend.
I relate so much. I'm 65. Hated school or any social settings. I don't people. I'm the oldest of 8 kids. I worked retail for 15 years. Went through several years of anxiety and depression trying to conform to what others want me to do. At the beginning of last year I was talking to one of my brothers about feeling better after moving in with my son. He told me-" Carolyn, life is too short to pull your punches. Never apologize for who you are. You have earned that right." He passed away 2 weeks later. I was able not to internalize it. It has become my motto. I say it everyday. I have a couple family members that personalize everything. I used to be afraid to say anything in case I was feeding their addiction. I can't help how other people feel. And I can't deal with that Drama.
Darlene, i have just found your videos on sewing. Then i found this. My heart goes out to you girl. Your just beautiful. Just be you and the real supporters with love you.
You ARE perfect just the way you are Darlene. So proud of your honesty. 💝
Love your honesty. Love your sewing and don't change a bit for anyone, just be you!
I think it's truly beautiful to see you speak up for yourself and your views, Darlene. Stay strong
+Woodplace Music Thanks for watching!
+Darlene Michaud always a pleasure :)
Thank you for opening my eyes. I have a person I love who acts in certain ways. I don't understand. But I will let this person act and live their own way. And still love them and be there for them. Thank you.
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Know that you are on the right track. A lot of people were raised with a crazy parent. Depression is so hard. You will heal yourself. Knowing you are not the problem is always something we as victims of the crazy parent need to remind ourselves of.
lovely lady ,.its now time to do what you need to do to be happy,we spend our lives looking after others and always doing the right thing but that is not always what we need for ourselves . If you don't like post ,don't collect it,who says you should ? If the phone rings or the door bell goes , why answer? your home ,you choose who you speak to and who you welcome in to you're house. It sounds hard but the boundaries need to be set. I learned this a long time ago and thing are still ok ! You are the most important person and people will love you for who you are . It doesn't matter what shape or form we come in we should always be true too ourselves! We're along time dead ! Rant now over, I love watching you , you're amazing ! xx will be watching tomorrow xxxx
I can relate to this so much!!! I am the same way when it comes to reading personal notes from people, especially family members. I literally cringe when someone writes me a personal note in a birthday card. I much prefer just a simple "Happy Birthday." I can't ever bring myself to read it. I'll just glance over it for a few seconds (pretending I'm reading it), and smile and say "Aww that's so sweet. Thank you" I can't explain it, it just makes me feel so uncomfortable. I also have problems figuring out what to write in others' birthday cards. Also, I don't like hugs or telling people i love them. I struggle even telling my husband I love him. It's obviously not that I don't love anybody, it's just that I have a hard time expressing it. I also have a severe fear of talking on the phone. If I miss a call, I can't call the person back. I have to wait until they call back and even then I have to force myself to answer the phone...so I definitely empathize with you!
+Leah J I'm the exact same with the phone. I can't even have an answering machine because that means I'd have to reply to the message. It puts the task on me. I wait for them to call back. And I still hate to answer!!! And I never know what to write in a card!!!
before the video you we're super tense, after you seemed more relaxed.
we love you Darlene!
I look up to you. You're so inspiring and have taught me so much. Thank you for being you! Don't change for ANYONE.
You are me and I am you. I really thought I was the only one who is like this. So good to hear you speaking in this video. Xxxxx
I love you for the person you are. you are down to earth and tell it like it is.
YOU KNOW DARLENE....I LOVE YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE...YOU DON'T NEED TO CHANGE A THING...FORGET THE MAIL....IT JUST DOESN'T MATTER....IT'S LIKE, WHY IGNITE THE FIRE...PUT IT OUT AND GO LIVE LIFE THE BEST WAY YOU KNOW HOW, WE ADORE YOU ANYWAY....HOPE YOU FEEL A LITTLE BETTER AND I BET YOU HELPED A LOT OF PEOPLE WITH YOUR BEING BRAVE ENOUGH TO LET US IN ON YOUR VERY REAL STRUGGLES EACH AND EVERY DAY!
I love you unconditional just the way you are Darlene, you keep being you!!!!
I have a generalized anxiety disorder and I find it very hard to sometimes communicate with people, at other times it is easy. Depends on how I feel. We all have personality flaws, we are none perfect. I love to watch you because I feel as if , what you see , is what you get. You`re real... don`t think we don`t understand you more then you think. I worry about everything. Most of the time I worry for nothing, it all turns out fine. Also, I hate phone conversations , I just hate to talk on the phone, I don`t like a lot if any company, or if I got a lot of mail like you do, I would not like it. Not because I don`t like people I just don`t feel social most of the time. I have hurt people`s feelings telling them I do take long phone calls, not a phone person. I too am a lot like you. I understand and thanks for sharing this and hearing I am not the only one way like I am.
You make me feel a little more normal, THANK YOU.
Please don't worry about getting a p.o box i know how you feel, i suffer a mental illness which is a form of Agoraphobia and it's stressful when i get forced to do things out of my comfort zone and people get annoyed at me because i won't do it!!.
Nobody knows how i feel unless they are in my shoes.
Your a great lady so do what you need to do for yourself and don't let yourself be pressured by anyone!
Thank you for being you! I wish I could be like you and say how I feel to my family and friends.I just like being my hermit self that way i dont have to deal with anything or anybody.
You said things really well and understandable. Other comments hit the nail on the head about social anxiety. Mail is a social connection. I have that kind of anxiety also. After hitting a state of depression, the antidepressant I am on eased this issue with me. Had it in school and got bad grades because if it. I didn't know I had the problem. I'm more In love with you after this video, we have so much in common! The only problem I see is that you have such a magnetic personality and captures people's attention, they want to connect with you. I feel I'm one of them, but I will not send you mail. ☺
I stopped working because I had a lot of illness and couldn't work any more...I am so happy to be home and focus on my needs...I forced myself for years to work...I hate talking on the phone so when texting came out I was in heaven...and I could say what I had to say and shut off the phone...I finally got people to stop calling me until after 2pm because I sleep late cause I can't sleep at night...I don't do lunch out because my stomach acts up...what I'm trying to say is that at 64 years old I try to do it my way for a change!!! I will not make myself miserable unless it's for my kids husband and sister and they know my needs...this video was great and you are right...and to your mom say ok I will do that and then just don't you should not allow yourself to get in a fight...
Please release the letter! I have pretty much reiterated most of it in the comments of the last couple of videos except for the fact that it says do WHATEVER you want with the yarn. It is yours with NO pressure to create something special or commemorate it etc. I have a picture of the drawing my daughter did and you have already seen it so you should release it without feeling any guilt or pressure about reading it. I'm GLAD you did this video and even though I triggered some of this video, it seemed be a big a step in a therapeutic way. It is also helped me to understand and accept you more!
+duckduckgander You are way above and beyond the most understanding person I know! Thank you for that!
Those lightbulbs were going off several times. Your insights are healing to me.
I can not thank you enough!!!! THANK YOU. Darlene, you are okay just the way you are. I am ok just the way I am. I am 43 and I have social anxiety and I can't even get my hair cut unless I can book an appointment online because I can't call other people on the phone. Can't do it. Can't. Nobody understands and people call me on the phone and just sit on the phone. I was adopted as an infant and i see judgement because I was never good enough for anybody. Ever.
+Alicia Bratton I can't stand making calls!!! It's the main reason nothing ever gets done around here. I just can't make the call. It's making me sick right now just thinking about it. I think about a phone and I get a little bit sick! It's very hard for people to understand that.
The doorbell ringing when I'm in one of my moods.
Never change to suit anybody Darlene. I live an almost hermit like existence, with zero friends, as I was sick to death of not being able to be me because most people consider me too 'outspoken'. Now, at 48, I am of the opinion that the less people I have to deal with, the better.
Darlene...YOU ARE fine just the way you are. Have a blessed day 💖
1 million thank you's for your sewing videos! I make lots of t-shirt dresses. Thank you Darlene! Love ya!
There's always going to be bad apples in the crop! I think you are pretty awesome and I think most of your "online family" love you as well. Please don't allow these angry people make you feel any other way then who you are.
As I listened to your whole vlog, it hit me of something I just went through. Someone was giving me a hard time because I have to have soupy grits because I can now swallow unless it is liquidy, because I am hearing impaired, etc...and finally I said "Do you think I am like this on purpose? I am not anxious, hearing impaired, have dysphagia, etc on purpose. It is just how I am and when people act like it is not important, it makes me feel like my feelings are not important or try to change me. It makes me feel like I have to hide it and not have it be a topic. I would just pretend I heard or I would just not eat because I could not swallow the food, etc.
I am proud of you for being true to yourself. We all need to be our own best friend.
When I watched your video where you said you were going to be getting a PO Box, I instantly thought no no no! That's going to stress her out!! I should have left a comment that day.
I totally get this. Be you, always.
+EyeWonderOne Yes, I had a manic moment! lol
I spent almost all my life trying to please someone other than myself. You can't handle mail, good because I really like your videos and I don't want to do anything to make you feel you should be anyone but you!
I absolutely love your videos! I love your honesty too! Keep doing what you do!
I appreciate you explaining this. I'm the same way with the phone. I get extremely nervous. Stay true to your self as always. Love your videos
That was one of my dad's favorite sayings: "say what you mean, and mean what you say."
Thank you for sharing. A few of my friends and I have the same story about the house cleaning. My self worth was measured against it, and it was never good enough for my mother. I am in the middle of re-painting and just doing some freshening up in my house...I looked around at the clutter and about lost it LOL. I can't wait to get some order restored. I'm lucky...my mother lives a couple of hours away :)
I get you Darlene :) Good for you for letting it out. Thank you for posting this.
It's interesting the different ways anxiety manifests itself. You are definitely not alone, I'm sure you have many followers, myself included, who can understand what you are going through. I don't have anxiety about the mail per se, but I am terrified of going to the post office. I avoid it like the plague. Thank God I have a mailbox because if I had to go to the post office to get my mail every day, I wouldn't.
I also have an INTENSE phobia of phones. I have no idea how it came to be, but I am terrified of calling anyone and answering the phone, even into my adult life. When I was a child/teenager living at home, when phones did not have caller ID, I would move to another room when the phone rang, and pretend that I was doing something else and could not answer the phone. Simply not knowing who is on the other end and not knowing what to say makes me so afraid. I wish I could get over it, I know I need to be a proper adult but it's just so hard. Making appointments is the absolute WORST. I don't even order pizza or anything because I am so scared to make the call. Even calls to and from friends and family make me nervous.
Anyway, sorry for the long comment... just wanted to say that you are among friends and are definitely not alone! You are such an inspiration and I love all your videos.
+DomTrendy Phones are horrible for me. Horrible!!! I would live in a phone-free world if I could.
You are a beautiful woman with legitimate feelings. I want you to know that you always make me smile when you laugh and have your carefree attitude in your videos. Sometimes when I need something to give me a smile I merely turn on one of your videos, wait for your laugh and smiles and I am good. Also lady, thank you for teaching me so much about quilting AND about taking others feelings into consideration!!! xoxoxxo
Thanks for helping us understand!
We all have the right to be ourselves and to hell with anyone that doesn't like it. The way I see it is your mother is the one who is missing out. Not seeing you as the great person you are Darlene. And you have a great personality to go with it. You bring joy to us out here and we love to tune in to your video's. Maybe one day your mum will wake up and see what she has missed out on. It used to bug the hell out of me with both my parents as we never heard them say they are proud of us or never said they lovedus in any way. All we got from mum was What did I do in my past life to deserve you all. But finally after a few years apart they both kept saying they loved me and boy it felt so good.I was 46 years old A long time to wait for three small words. Just remember Darlene we all love you out here.
Thank you! I realise now that i'm not the only one. Thank you!
This is a great video. Wow, this sounds a lot like me, it has also opened my eyes to other things about people in my life. I need to put some things in my vocabulary to alert family and friends to my turth and I need to remeber their turth also. Thanks again, this has really helped me.
I went through the same thing with my mother. Part of it is the way she was raised--her generation vs. our generation. I have Anxiety more than ever due to several medical issues I have. Love, Kindness and Respect. Hugs
Your life, your channel, your rules baby. Make the decision, state it clearly, never give it another thought. No one else has the right to create unwanted obligation or responsibility for you. Not your viewers, not your family, not even your mother. It's OK to say NO without explaining or justifying! You are a GOOD person and loved by many! Saying NO doesn't change that fact.
Hey sweet Darlene, I'm a new subscriber to your channel and I'm only now seeing this and I can definitely say u are such a sweet person. I want to watch u I want to hear what u have to say. I totally get all that u said, u are so real and I like that, that's what brings me back to u. Don't ever change who u are, such is life! I always wonder when I see other people do there mail opening how truthful they are by saying they like what they got, and it sometimes shows that it's all fake. So good for u, You're not alone in the way u feel. This world is made up of all types. How boring it would be if everyone was like me. I totally enjoyed your conversation and u explained everything so understandably. Food for thought! U are such an intelligent person, maybe more than you'll ever know. U are not flawed at all!!! It's u I come to see not anyone else. Go girl! By the way u should be a therapist, u calmed me down. Take good care...Sorry for being this long...
To be honest I have never heard of anyone not liking mail. Thank you for helping me learn this. My boyfriend hates and has anxiety about making phone calls. I had never heard of that before I met him. When I can, I do phone calls for him to ease his anxiety. When my boyfriend was younger, his Mom didn't know the language when they moved to Germany, my boyfriend learned the language so she made him do all the calling of people and businesses and he just hated it and his mom didn't care.
You are right Darlene! People think you are their best friend because they can watch you,Good for you! You shouldn't live and be ruled by the public because you can't please all the people all the time ,people DONT LISTEN.
darlene, i want to comment so badly, but i'm not sure what to say. i promise i won't send you any mail. i first became aware of you because i watched an art type video of yours and thought you were so cute. i love your laugh! then while i was looking around i came across some other videos that led me to believe there were some problems. last night i landed on your drinking as a kid video and my heart almost broke. that really opened up the door for me to see the journey you are on. i think what you are doing is wonderful. you have a lot of guts to get on you tube and be honest. hopefully one of the things that you will learn on your journey is, there are a LOT of people out there that honestly care about you and would not want to hurt you. i say go for it. and haters, i think they will become less important as you go. eventually you'll be able to roll over that pile of haters. i wish i had some words to make you feel better....but hey.....i don't. all i know, is that i like you. i'll keep watching your videos. the next one that i see up here is How I Met My Husband. so, i'm off to find out...have a good evening. p.s. i love your neighbors cat! so cute. talk to you later.
What I noticed, is that your eyes get very teary, in the few videos of yours I have watched. Not to the point of falling down your cheeks ( in the edited versions you show us) but to me, it's obvious something isn't comfortable with you and it shows in your eyes. Windows the soul!
Your therapy is our therapy.
We got your back, girl!
+Loni Carr I do often have teary eyes, but most of that is because I yawn constantly. I cut out the yawning. The yawning makes my eyes water and even makes my nose run. I don't sleep well and I'm always tired. lol
OOO I understand now. I do remember seeing the explanation about the beast next to the bed (cpap)!
My wish for you is inner peace. I hope you find it one day.
God Bless you , thank you for being true to yourself , and your fans 👼😇🙏👼😇🙏👍💕💕💕🌹