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  • @skxgrndr
    @skxgrndr  5 років тому +624

    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
    suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
    Okay, guys, a past few weeks I've been seeing a lot of heartbreaking comments about suicide attempts, so please, everyone - pushing you into that decision is not what I wanted when I was editing this vid. It's hard to read that kind of stuff, especially if you decided it after watching my video. I know it's difficult, I know it's hard, but no matter what - your life is important, there's always people around you that will help. Please, don't give up, give your life another chance. You are important and loved more than you know. If you need help you can text me directly to my email - the1black1cancer@gmail.com or here's National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
    suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
    Stay strong, my loves. I love you. You are matter.

    • @quandaledingle2183
      @quandaledingle2183 5 років тому +19

      Actions speak louder than words. Stop pretending like you give an actual fuck. Suicide prevention my ass

    • @skxgrndr
      @skxgrndr  5 років тому +25

      @@quandaledingle2183 chill out, dude. What else can I do exactly? I'm here in all hands to help not to fight

    • @quandaledingle2183
      @quandaledingle2183 5 років тому +7

      @@skxgrndr sorry

    • @thatswhatshesaid8618
      @thatswhatshesaid8618 4 роки тому +2

      @@quandaledingle2183 sounds like u want to feel somtingh but u dont so u gotta get the Attention from people

    • @jex4371
      @jex4371 4 роки тому +12

      @@thatswhatshesaid8618 you shut up and people do suicide bcs of people like you who do shit and talk like they know whats going on in other people lifes you need to stop

  • @skittletoes7260
    @skittletoes7260 8 років тому +3156

    "I speak, at least I think I speak." chills

    • @alyssabrown4559
      @alyssabrown4559 4 роки тому +6

      I felt this 😕

    • @black_legend9308
      @black_legend9308 3 роки тому +3

      U wanna know what they mean by that I freaking type I'm depressed, I need your help to youtube whatsapp BUT NEVER SEND IT.

    • @robdaniels78
      @robdaniels78 3 роки тому +1

      I totally get you... I'm a long term silent sufferer of bipolar... Undiagnosed but so obvious

    • @backchodhaihum8429
      @backchodhaihum8429 3 роки тому +1

      @@robdaniels78 mate ....be strong
      .i know these words don't help...but try to be strong....survival is the only option

    • @robdaniels78
      @robdaniels78 3 роки тому

      @@backchodhaihum8429 thank you

  • @mistdeyt1805
    @mistdeyt1805 7 років тому +3570

    I'm tired man. No one hears me you know.

    • @eloisedurantet5424
      @eloisedurantet5424 7 років тому +31

      twdprincess I do
      My facebook is Lucie Sanhna And you Can come talk to me about whatever you want whenever you want ❤ You're not alone ❤

    • @claudiaanggreacia9942
      @claudiaanggreacia9942 5 років тому +3

      Me too

    • @violetruth4122
      @violetruth4122 5 років тому +53

      I wish I could talk about how I feel even when I feel like crying I laugh and make jokes so they don’t think I’m weak , I only cry when I’m in my room 😂

    • @chipshero7691
      @chipshero7691 5 років тому

      @@violetruth4122 huh

    • @swetasubedi9444
      @swetasubedi9444 5 років тому

      clodapets I am there

  • @florianejean3103
    @florianejean3103 8 років тому +2333

    I'm just sitting here rethinking my life choices

    • @Adrian-is3mg
      @Adrian-is3mg 8 років тому +50

      Floriane Jean same same just regretting everything 😔

    • @Maureen-sc7xt
      @Maureen-sc7xt 8 років тому +34

      Adrian Ramirez Don't regret what happened in the past.
      You can't change it either way.

    • @saffronrijnders77
      @saffronrijnders77 4 роки тому +4

      Floriane Jean I’m here because of my life choices

    • @nataliewangeci4007
      @nataliewangeci4007 4 роки тому +6

      If I could only take it back 😭😭

    • @asjakurtovic3366
      @asjakurtovic3366 4 роки тому +2

      U want to talk?

  • @dooofyrobinson68
    @dooofyrobinson68 2 роки тому +357

    5 years…5 years and I’m still stuck watching this…it never ends for some of us

    • @xGhostx697
      @xGhostx697 2 роки тому +31

      I thought I got better…. I knew this shit won’t ever leave. This time it’s real bad.

    • @lowbin
      @lowbin 2 роки тому +9

      We cursed

    • @priyankasarkar1987
      @priyankasarkar1987 2 роки тому +10

      5 fucking yrs and I m exactly in same place

    • @acio.
      @acio. 2 роки тому +7

      6 years. 2,149 days. And it still hurts just as much as day one, maybe even more.

    • @seyera2468
      @seyera2468 2 роки тому +6

      It'll never go away ...and no one can't do anything to prevent whats gonna happen next.

  • @edmcnorskminecraft
    @edmcnorskminecraft 8 років тому +1348

    "Its the same fucking day every day." relatable.

    • @LefftyJoozou
      @LefftyJoozou 8 років тому +27

      Yeah.. I think I'm a mess too..

    • @MickeyLissey
      @MickeyLissey 7 років тому +24

      MrKevz i hate how many people feel this way...

    • @Chriss121
      @Chriss121 7 років тому +20

      tomorrow ill kill myself... tomorrow... tomorrow... and somehow i survive every day like that

    • @internationallosers7845
      @internationallosers7845 7 років тому +1

      MrKevz Imma kill myself xx

    • @ameenahw6843
      @ameenahw6843 7 років тому +4

      International Losers don't .

  • @winendine2
    @winendine2 6 років тому +771

    " I'm here, why isn't that enough?" oof deep..

  • @julicu1242
    @julicu1242 5 років тому +869

    I dont know if im actually depressed, sometimes I just have this mentalbreakdowns and cry, I think its called sadness I dont know

    • @thea1130
      @thea1130 4 роки тому +49

      Me too. I cry myself to sleep almost everyday

    • @Mickey-rf7er
      @Mickey-rf7er 4 роки тому +3

      🥺

    • @neylaka
      @neylaka 4 роки тому +95

      I feel the same way... I mean, there are days I am fine, really everything is okay. But there are days where I'm just crying, again and again, I want to give up. I think I'm just sad but for no specific reason so that's kind of strange... Idk if you understand me but I just hope you are fine and you passed through this and feel better now

    • @smritikhatri2187
      @smritikhatri2187 4 роки тому +2

      Neylaka I feel you bro! I hope you’re fine too❤️

    • @thediaryofkp
      @thediaryofkp 4 роки тому +2

      Julicu 124 I feel the same but I don't know the reason

  • @andrewnugent6207
    @andrewnugent6207 4 роки тому +63

    No one notices your sadness
    No one notices your tears
    No one notices your pain
    But they all notice your mistakes

  • @callmemagiik
    @callmemagiik 8 років тому +1998

    I don't know who I am, I don't know what I want to be, maybe my time here is done.

    • @Maureen-sc7xt
      @Maureen-sc7xt 8 років тому +38

      Hey Its Magiik No, your time is not done!
      Just fight for your will to live.

    • @lanakanu2460
      @lanakanu2460 7 років тому +22

      Hey its Magiik life is all about finding out who you are and what are you doing ❤️ your time is not over
      Please

    • @callmemagiik
      @callmemagiik 7 років тому +38

      Lara Banana 2 months later and I'm getting a lot better, thank you❤ both of you❤

    • @lanakanu2460
      @lanakanu2460 7 років тому +7

      Hey its Magiik thats amazing
      Im seeing that comment just now so im sorry
      But im really happy for you ❤️❤️❤️

    • @callmemagiik
      @callmemagiik 7 років тому +5

      IchBinBlau 43 I couldn't agree more! Life's too short, enjoy it while you can❤❤

  • @rachelwang7778
    @rachelwang7778 3 роки тому +94

    you know it’s bad again when you come back to these to try to feel

    • @whitewolf3049
      @whitewolf3049 2 роки тому

      Unreal how much I can relate to this ^

  • @CptBrave
    @CptBrave 6 років тому +630

    I watch this once in a while. It makes me remember where I've been mentally.
    Glad this doesn't hit close to home anymore.
    It gets better, who ever is reading this.
    I promise.

    • @briankwiatkowski8172
      @briankwiatkowski8172 5 років тому +1

      Thank you

    • @saraagostinho8951
      @saraagostinho8951 5 років тому +1

      I am so happy to know that you are better now 😍

    • @lilahstahl1715
      @lilahstahl1715 4 роки тому +4

      Does it though....?I’ve been depressed since I was like 8 and I’m 11 now and it’s gotten worse....I’ve kinda given up hope

    • @Sarah-gr4pl
      @Sarah-gr4pl 4 роки тому

      I wish so bad it would get better and that ur right but it’s been so many years and it never did. Im glad you are happy now, but maybe it’s not for everyone...

    • @bajablastzeroaddict4671
      @bajablastzeroaddict4671 4 роки тому

      no it doesn't

  • @sushiyezen6767
    @sushiyezen6767 4 роки тому +56

    *“i’m here, why isn’t that enough?”*

  • @archie156
    @archie156 8 років тому +677

    im here
    why isnt that enough?
    im crying so bad rn oml this was so amazing.. thank you for this

    • @xX3liT35c0P3sXx
      @xX3liT35c0P3sXx 7 років тому

      sleepingwithpiløts what show/movie?

    • @nubianka4078
      @nubianka4078 7 років тому +3

      xX3liT35c0P3sXx fear the walking dead I think

    • @jensh2353
      @jensh2353 6 років тому +2

      I just live for friends and family so I don't hurt them with my disappearence I feel you.

    • @thisalhanss
      @thisalhanss 3 роки тому

      reading this comment four years later after you posting it. hopefully it will. i hope so

  • @isabelfakyeee2174
    @isabelfakyeee2174 6 років тому +185

    The voicemail message is so heartbreaking

    • @everettfanor1989
      @everettfanor1989 4 роки тому +8

      That literally my life. Lonely guy with no friends and never had a girlfriend

    • @ieh6
      @ieh6 3 роки тому

      @Mr. Aizat are you alive ?

  • @TheFuckyerface
    @TheFuckyerface 7 років тому +288

    Someday, I'll get away from this

    • @Izabella.N
      @Izabella.N 5 років тому +2

      How are you now? ❤

    • @kerrybecker4486
      @kerrybecker4486 5 років тому +6

      Johny O'blivion yea I said the same thing to myself 3yrs ago 😪

    • @brandonlai1651
      @brandonlai1651 5 років тому +2

      I'm here feeling fucked

    • @hel2727
      @hel2727 4 роки тому

      @@brandonlai1651 same here, buddy. It's gonna be alright.

    • @nightingale1208
      @nightingale1208 4 роки тому

      Johny O'blivion yeah, I’ve been saying that for 3 years bud

  • @lola6w
    @lola6w 8 років тому +578

    I am not English, but I understand the sadness of these words. This is really good work. From france (sorry for the mistakes)

    • @maryannken7974
      @maryannken7974 7 років тому +76

      _lola _ I know it has been 5 months but you do not have to apologize for trying to speak another language. Like that takes so much time and everything good for you.

    • @swetasubedi9444
      @swetasubedi9444 5 років тому +2

      06 _lola_ thats ik

    • @paisen4465
      @paisen4465 5 років тому +6

      Literally no mistakes

    • @titiadams8300
      @titiadams8300 4 роки тому +2

      I’m so jealous of people that speak French it’s so beautiful 😍

    • @lola6w
      @lola6w 4 роки тому +1

      Wow it's been 3 years and I really didn't know my message blow up this much, thanks you u all! 🥺

  • @xHeather360x
    @xHeather360x 8 років тому +574

    I found this video a few days ago and wanted to leave a comment to say that this was absolutely beautiful and just heartbreaking. I've been watching this a little on repeat for the past few days and I can relate a lot to it. Thanks for making it, you're a brilliant editor.

    • @skxgrndr
      @skxgrndr  8 років тому +30

      Omg, this literally made my day, seriously, thank you so much for this, I really appreciate your feelings and the fact that you write this touching comment!

  • @rheashah957
    @rheashah957 Рік тому +3

    All I know is it's getting worse as year passes by. Crying over same wounds , laughing over sadness , embracing the loneliness. I desperately wish to have control knowing I will be ruined if I don't but it's just so hard. So I sleep away my problems.

  • @Julia-vp9jr
    @Julia-vp9jr 5 років тому +64

    “But no one hears me.”

    • @adyaadrian
      @adyaadrian 4 роки тому +2

      Try saying it again...... this time people will

  • @nykkiicole5498
    @nykkiicole5498 5 років тому +78

    I’m a mess, I don’t understand the way I feel, I don’t know, I can’t explain it.... I’m tired that’s all I know I’m tired....

    • @Varillah
      @Varillah 5 років тому +5

      I know exactly how this is. I can’t explain my situation because it’s so bizarre & even if I do talk someone I’m afraid of being judge & being asked what is wrong with you. Even if my situation doesn’t make sense to others, what I go through makes sense to me or least I think it does. But even if it scares me cuz I don’t know how to let it go

    • @lizgruenloh8467
      @lizgruenloh8467 4 роки тому +1

      I’m tired as well... or so many things... but you and I, we are fighters. We are strong. We will live!

  • @kehaean
    @kehaean 4 роки тому +643

    I already knew 2020 will never be better. Its gonna be the same, like every year before. I'm still a loser, barely holding on.
    Gosh, people won't even surprise if I kill myself. I'm sorry dear self . . .

    • @gameboinaz6946
      @gameboinaz6946 4 роки тому +26

      Dam... That almost made me cry from that similar feeling...
      But you're right.

    • @syasyaj4057
      @syasyaj4057 4 роки тому +2

      Yeah me tooo n feels useless... But when u think u never be enough please listen to this song then u will feel much better ua-cam.com/video/oZvKJl1kK8g/v-deo.html😊

    • @umairramzan1991
      @umairramzan1991 4 роки тому +10

      @@drugs.. Happy birthday buddy. Know it probably dont feel like it now but one day your gonna find something or someone you love and everything is gonna change, trust me. You just keep holding on and when everything does change whatever troubles you face then wont be half as hard as what you been through

    • @bidesntumba8571
      @bidesntumba8571 4 роки тому +10

      Please don't. We could talk. You are important. Amazing and different and I know the feeling of nobody understanding. I've felt it it's hard I know but please stay alive it will be ok

    • @quentinlomelino1007
      @quentinlomelino1007 4 роки тому

      Ik how u feel

  • @excuseme7668
    @excuseme7668 4 роки тому +104

    im just gonna wait till i’m older.
    that’s what i tell myself i guess?
    i think i just tell myself it’ll get better so then maybe i’ll trick myself into making it?
    i’m gonna wait... yeah.

    • @oceanstaiga5928
      @oceanstaiga5928 4 роки тому +1

      Worked for me so far. I'm 20 now. Always tell myself just wait another year.

    • @black_legend9308
      @black_legend9308 3 роки тому +1

      Well I'm trying it I'm getting good at others eyes but in mine I'm a mess

    • @delicious9930
      @delicious9930 3 роки тому

      It does get much better. I was depressed every day from 15 to around 25. You will feel better, believe me friend

    • @liv4833
      @liv4833 3 роки тому

      @@black_legend9308 holy shit that hits deep

  • @SabariPaul-lc5yr
    @SabariPaul-lc5yr Рік тому +3

    I thought I was getting better but why am I back to watch these again I can't even cry watching them anymore it's so numb it's so empty 3 years and 6 months still hoping it would go away

  • @eviemaysellars
    @eviemaysellars 7 років тому +307

    I fucking love this edit so so so much, I genuinely watch it everyday. It's so beautiful, you should be so proud, like wow❤️

  • @lisdunec2725
    @lisdunec2725 5 років тому +52

    “I speak but no one hears me..” 💔

    • @kaitlynsvlogs7447
      @kaitlynsvlogs7447 4 роки тому

      Lis Dunec are you feeling better know I need hope that it gets better

  • @musicaffliction7353
    @musicaffliction7353 6 років тому +16

    "but no one hears me..I've said enough"

  • @Bethatwee
    @Bethatwee 8 років тому +240

    This is perhaps one of the best multifandom videos I've ever seen omg, wow. I'm speechless. You captured the perfect amount of emotion seriously, wow. There's some awesome transitions in there too that I noticed, like the drinking part. Well done :) Definitely subscribed, I can't wait to see more!

    • @skxgrndr
      @skxgrndr  8 років тому +5

      Сomments like yours motivate me so much, so thank you, seriously, you make me feel important for some reasons :) Thank you again!

  • @luciatrever3634
    @luciatrever3634 7 років тому +127

    i needed this , this is exactly what am feeling,

  • @Princesskerji
    @Princesskerji 4 роки тому +7

    That clip of that girl screaming under water - that’s how I feel like every day man.

  • @Hxtedo
    @Hxtedo 4 роки тому +8

    "I speak, at least I think I speak." felt that

  • @skxgrndr
    @skxgrndr  8 років тому +862

    GUYS, PLEASE CHECK THIS BEFORE START ASKING ABOUT
    VOICE OVER/SONG/MOVIE/TV SHOW
    I started answered to the same questions, so I decided to write ALL FANDOMS WITH TIMELINE
    FIRST, voice over at the start is from the song "Never Alone" by The Amity Affliction
    (link ua-cam.com/video/JaPeXEsP-wU/v-deo.html)
    SECOND, song after the voice over is "Never" by Young And Dramatic
    (link ua-cam.com/video/sG1KpwTCjFs/v-deo.html)
    And the last one
    ALL FANDOMS WITH TIMELINE:
    Kill Your Darlings ( 00:00 - 00:09, 00:48 - 00:50, 1:03 - 1:12)
    Remember Me ( 0:10 - 0:12, 0:39 - 0:44, 0:50 - 0:51, 1:48 - 1:56)
    Orphan Black ( 0:33 - 0:36, 0:54 - 0:58, 1:01 - 1:02, 1:45 - 1:47, 2:10 - 2:26)
    Requiem For A Dream ( 0:13 - 0:16, 0:29 - 0:32)
    Mr. Nobody ( 0:17 - 0:19, 0:52 - 0:53, 1:13 - 1:16, 1:39 - 1:44)
    Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind ( 0:20 - 0:24, 0:45 - 0:47, 0:59 - 1:00)
    Sucide Room ( 0:25 - 0:28, 0:37 - 0:38)
    Chatroom ( 1:17 - 1:24, 1:57 - 2:04)
    Scream ( 1:28 - 1:38)
    Fear The Walking Dead ( 2:05 - 2:09)
    The Fault In Our Stars ( 1:25 - 1:27)
    If you've read all of this GOD BLESS YOU

    • @nbcsm9128
      @nbcsm9128 8 років тому +3

      Thanks!

    • @HarryPotter-hn9og
      @HarryPotter-hn9og 7 років тому

      The Skygrounder h

    • @lisap-w593
      @lisap-w593 7 років тому

      The Skygrounder thank you (god bless you too haha) now i'v got so many movies to watch omg

    • @мел-т5щ
      @мел-т5щ 7 років тому

      can i just ask... what police did you use at the beginning?

    • @bubbeline8217
      @bubbeline8217 7 років тому

      whats the films names?

  • @monicpasi6037
    @monicpasi6037 4 роки тому +8

    I don't remember what it's like to be sad anymore... Just numb.

  • @skxgrndr
    @skxgrndr  8 років тому +293

    okay, now my father is gone and I'm totally fucked up...

    • @Lashtonafi
      @Lashtonafi 8 років тому +11

      Oh my god I am so sorry to hear that:( I can't imagine what you're going through rn.I'm here if you ever wanna talk.Please stay strong❤️

    • @skxgrndr
      @skxgrndr  8 років тому +1

      Thank you both...

    • @totsteekay
      @totsteekay 8 років тому +2

      The Skygrounder oh god I'm really sorry for your loss. :( stay strong beautiful. 💙

    • @ellenh3266
      @ellenh3266 8 років тому +1

      I'm so sorry for your loss 😔 Stay strong! And even if it doesn't feel like it, you're gonna be okay sweetie ❤️

    • @ItsDanaKy
      @ItsDanaKy 8 років тому +1

      The Skygrounder im so sorry for your loss. stay strong please 💚

  • @fakeucakeu5795
    @fakeucakeu5795 4 роки тому +8

    If only I can donate my life to someone deserving.

  • @sleeplesshorse9938
    @sleeplesshorse9938 4 роки тому +12

    Constantly live in fear and overthinking, shit its kills me

  • @КристинаЧерных-у7щ
    @КристинаЧерных-у7щ 5 років тому +8

    I read all these comments and Im crying. People answer to each other and maintain each other. That makes me feel better. That gives me a hope.
    I love you, guys❤️

  • @trinayanv1474
    @trinayanv1474 Рік тому +3

    Idk how many of you feel this out there. I don't even know how many of you are going to read this....
    Have you all felt like as if your whole life has loops in it ?
    Same things happen everytime
    Over and over again
    But with different people
    Ig the worst feeling is when you try to stop all of it , hoping that things might be different this time and people would finally stay back in your life but they don't .....
    I personally think that's the worst feeling ever

  • @Chill-Vibes
    @Chill-Vibes 3 роки тому +2

    Anyone havin a whole war in there head, giving up vs keep going, and keep going is slowly losing

  • @lou-xr5rz
    @lou-xr5rz 4 роки тому +3

    It's been years and i keep coming back to this video, because there are days when it's the only thing in the world that seems to understand what it feels like here. my heart feels like an empty fucking vessel and i keep screwing things up. i keep trying not to, but i keep fucking up, maybe it's in my nature. I go to this video when my heart hurts because it lets me know I'm not alone, it's like a sort of release because I have no one to talk to, nowhere to scream. i cry alone in the dark. thank you for making this. it just understands.

  • @surajnath2885
    @surajnath2885 4 роки тому +14

    I tried my best. To be nice and kind to everyone but I always find myself alone and betrayed. I lost all the people I thought where my friends. I tried every shit, alcohol and drugs. But I just end up crying or passed out. I think of ending all this once and for all, but there is this voice which always says why and for whom.

    • @lizgruenloh8467
      @lizgruenloh8467 4 роки тому +1

      suraj nath, I too always try to be nice and kind. I too am alone and betrayed. You and I, we are survivors. We are strong! We give others happiness because we don’t want them to feel our pain. So, believe it or not, people need you! They do, they’re just too scared to admit it right now. But they need you more than they need anybody else!

  • @berkeleygilman3972
    @berkeleygilman3972 3 роки тому +5

    This is incredible. Puts into words the emptiness and the monotony and the pain I felt back when I was suicidal. Whenever I wanted to tell someone how I felt, I showed them this video. It captured it completely. Wow wow wow

  • @dontknowwhattosay8202
    @dontknowwhattosay8202 7 років тому +222

    What a video...
    (First I am French so my English might be weird sometimes. Sorry for it)
    This explains my mind right now, so well.
    I am depressed.
    I only dream nightmares
    I live the same day everyday.
    I don't like myself. I have no confidence and it sucks.
    I have dreams, a lot. I want to be real.
    And I want my dreams to be real.
    If there's someone who reads this, keep reading because you may feel as destroyed as me...
    I'm going out that black place called depression because I want my dreams to come true, because I want to like myself and to know that I'm able to do things and that I'm not only that 'big shit I think I am'.
    My comment really is messy, I am sorry about it but it only follows my thoughts.
    Just want to remind you some things:
    We all see the same moon, sleep under the same stars, breathe the same air.
    We all have different skills and talents. But we all have. We all are able to dream our life and live our dreams.
    Do you see, that cloud that comes out your mouth when it's cold outside, while breathing, and that just makes your vision blurry?
    Think about it.
    Now, realise that when the hot days come, you don't see that blurrying cloud.
    The temperature represents your spirit and your mind.
    It's not a very good methaphore probably. But I thought about that while walking under our stars in the cold night.
    The first person we should love is ourselves. You cannot move on and be loved sincerely if you don't think that you are a good person, I guess.
    We just have to keep in mind that there always is a light in the obscurity.
    Just trust in you. You are an incredible person. With qualities.
    With beauty. With dreams. With a life to be lived.
    You can be whoever you want to be. Just believe in yourself. Nothing can stop you, except your own.
    Make all the chances together to finally reach the stars and be the one you want to be.
    It may means nothing but... We just have to believe in us.
    We should stop judging the others, but supporting them instead.
    It's not reality, unfortunately. Or fortunately. After all, if sorrow wouldn't exist, what would happiness be?
    Just to remind you that, even if your life's complicated and hard, be tough.
    For me, it's just my dad who has a problem but doesn't want to see it. And he destroys me without really realising it.
    But anyway.
    We just have to keep on living.
    I'm not speaking about surviving.
    I'm speaking about living. Living an awaken dream.
    Just that.
    Try to go through the darkness and fly to the sky.
    As they say, Sky is the limit.
    Know that you are not alone. You always have people by your side. Here to listen to you. To comfort you. To advice you a good music to feel better.
    And yeah, there are some shadows in the light too. But it's life.
    Know also that you are the only one who can change your life. So yeah, if you wanna quit that daily life, which is getting boring, only you can find an escape.
    Be hopefull and happy. Keep on smiling. Live. And dream.

    • @justaagirll1419
      @justaagirll1419 6 років тому +2

      i feel as destroyed as you.

    • @pasdenom1153
      @pasdenom1153 5 років тому +10

      @@justaagirll1419Hey, you may never see this, but I am the one who wrote that text.
      I totaly forgot about it, I was totaly fucked up at that time.
      I noticed many English mistakes btw lol
      Anyway
      This may mean nothing to you. But trust me, read it this you can cause I want to give you hope.
      I was in a tough depression. I used to be depressed. It went on for more than a year.
      I cried reading that text because, the one who wrote this, the one who felt this way... That wasn't me. It broke my heart and brought me back then, there, crying until I had no tears left.
      Look, I went to a therapist, it wasn't so helpful (at least not for me), but just, tell people about how you are feeling because there ARE people to help you out. You are never alone.
      When I wrote that text I never thought I would be the one I currently am. One morning, I just woke up and thought, "I can't keep on living like this."
      And so I tried. I fought my own mind and people were also here to help me.
      At first it was so unsteady. I was always breaking down so I thought my depression would never end.
      But after 6 months of hard work and people around me and positivity, I finally managed to reach a steady state.
      And you know what's the best? I am even a better me than who I used to be before being depressed. I am getting self confident I finally am feeling what self love and esteem means.
      The guy I love loves me back, I have many projects that I wanna pursue...
      Yes, in the beginning the break downs happened quite often. But now they are REALLY rare and I am so happy about this.
      I wish you the best only and if you ever need to talk I am here ❤

    • @handasan7251
      @handasan7251 5 років тому +2

      Basically my life the same as yours. I have depression and everything here. Im ruined. I had enough inspirations none worked. What I feel is just darkness and emptiness.

    • @shrigodjigar1921
      @shrigodjigar1921 5 років тому +1

      😅👍

    • @sophiabeebeeboo4579
      @sophiabeebeeboo4579 5 років тому +1

      That was maddening. And raw. And honest. And beautiful. And hopeful. All at the same time. Thank you for taking the time to write all of this down. My favourite line from everything you write is, “Without sorrow, what happiness would there be?” I love that. I love this whole thing. You are very brave to write this all down. I too have gone through a time in my life where I believed I was depressed. I was not clinically diagnosed but last year it went on for almost the whole year where I felt down for no reason all the time. I stayed in bed longer, I drifted away from people and I wrote a lot of poems that I have a hard time going back to and reading again. I just wanna say thank you again for writing this all down. And I hope that to whoever sees this if anyone does that you will be okay. You will be okay. The sun will rise again and you will be okay. Please, don’t give up.

  • @PirateSkye
    @PirateSkye 7 років тому +46

    Recently I've been going through one of the hardest parts of my life and I've just felt so down and anxious... This video sort of captures every emotion I've been feeling this last year. This edit is truly fantastic! Keep up the great work

    • @skxgrndr
      @skxgrndr  7 років тому +1

      Thank you so much!

  • @ahmedmohsen1109
    @ahmedmohsen1109 5 років тому +9

    "I think it.. you don't wanna hear this. I'm a mess. I'm sorry man."
    Living with such pain that keeps growing every day, not knowing when it'll ever stop.. it changes you..
    I've been in this shit for 8 years now, probably lost all hope of it ever getting better. I don't think I'll kill myself any time soon, but I probably won't live another 10 years.
    I'm sorry for whoever is reading this. I hope shit gets better for you, I sincerely hope so.
    Much thanks to OP for this edit. It's so real and sincere that I can't help but marvel at it.
    Great work! Thank you and I'm sorry.

    • @kevinwolf9195
      @kevinwolf9195 4 роки тому

      Ahmed Mohsen bro i‘m here HMU man don’t be like that

    • @magnoliababy8365
      @magnoliababy8365 4 роки тому

      I hope Your doing well love

    • @Illnessss
      @Illnessss 3 роки тому

      5 years now and I'm still holding on.. Its actually since I was born.. Don't you ever think you are alone on this shit..

  • @yourboo6416
    @yourboo6416 4 роки тому +11

    Despite all of this, sleep is my escape, even tho when u wake up that's shit is coming back again.

  • @a.k.6410
    @a.k.6410 6 років тому +5

    This is beautiful, but it's so freaking sad how many people can relate to this...

  • @hahaurdead83
    @hahaurdead83 4 роки тому +3

    “Drink, drink, drink again” mannnnn I just die inside when I hear that everytime.

    • @rolersch7332
      @rolersch7332 4 роки тому

      I love you , I drink daily too, it‘s shit

  • @dragnballclips1965
    @dragnballclips1965 5 років тому +4

    I just wanna say that "every life is precious".

  • @oasis-wasteland
    @oasis-wasteland 8 років тому +6

    Chatroom, Suicide Room, Orphan Black and Kill Your Darlings are things that made me cry individually so this just killed me. Excellent editing as well, that was very well executed.

  • @harisonnampoinajonathan8516
    @harisonnampoinajonathan8516 4 роки тому +4

    "I did my best, why it's not enough"

  • @lennertvercammen2634
    @lennertvercammen2634 7 років тому +17

    People on the phone
    Hiding behind the door of their room
    Telling they're fine
    Then telling to leave
    They say this is the way they want to chace
    When we all know inside
    That that is not the case
    Goodbye is forever
    But the memories will stay
    We've all been hurt
    But not in the same way
    Some hear voices
    Telling them to stop being themselves
    Others try to keep in touch with the wrong kind of people
    People that will ruin their day
    Their lifestyle
    Happiness
    We all have a different story that we sometimes don't want to see
    But just need to admit, tell and explain to people
    To the people you can trust in this world

  • @tpespos
    @tpespos 3 роки тому +1

    The worst part is those depressing thoughts never go away.

  • @raksjsjjsjesij4277
    @raksjsjjsjesij4277 6 років тому +7

    i remember watching this, a day before i attempted suicide. i had never related to something so much. the pain was unbearable, i just..HAD to go. and i couldn’t find peace at all. it has been 3 months and i still feel as depressed and plan on ending my life. not now, but one day. and i know it shouldn’t be the way but, i have no help at all. i just need to ease my mind. thank you for this video.

  • @somebeing26
    @somebeing26 Рік тому +2

    6 years that ı've been coming back to this video somehow. Makes me wonder if it ever gets better ? You know if i'll ever be just okay and not watch stupid shit like these. I doubt, ı dont know how much longer ı can keep going man

  • @nidhibhattacherjee8284
    @nidhibhattacherjee8284 4 роки тому +4

    Sometimes I get so selfish that I really start considering ending it.

  • @ptgproductions4173
    @ptgproductions4173 4 роки тому +2

    I feel happy a minute then in the middle I know that sadness is lingering, then it comes and just stays there for like a decade.

  • @phuongsam7481
    @phuongsam7481 5 років тому +27

    I am...alone in world full of people. 😓😢😭💔

    • @AliHassan-zq5tx
      @AliHassan-zq5tx 5 років тому +1

      no issues . i am here too....

    • @lizgruenloh8467
      @lizgruenloh8467 4 роки тому

      In a strange way... we all are. But we have to stick together. I promise to always be here for you! No matter what!

    • @rolersch7332
      @rolersch7332 4 роки тому

      Inlove you

  • @Guger431
    @Guger431 7 років тому +2

    Usually films or videos or whatever don't make me cry even if it's the saddest scene ever. This did. I kinda want to thank you for making this

  • @blahblah5063
    @blahblah5063 5 років тому +5

    Depression took everything away from me.

  • @sophnoel4635
    @sophnoel4635 5 років тому +1

    this video means so much. the best part is that you can go down into the comments and see all these people saying, “this is exactly how i feel,” and suddenly you’re not alone

  • @rochellenaude9866
    @rochellenaude9866 4 роки тому +4

    I listen to this from time too time and the sad thing is I relate more and more every time

  • @lou-xr5rz
    @lou-xr5rz 6 років тому +3

    I think this may be the thousandth time I’ve watched this masterpiece, but the feelings it gives me are always the same. It’s heartbreaking and beautifully edited but somehow this video makes me feel understood, like I’m not quite so… alone. So thank you. Thank you for making such an amazing edit, it really is a work of art.

  • @christos8941
    @christos8941 5 років тому +6

    I've been watching this every day for almost 3 years now.. I guess time can't heal all wounds.

    • @moniquetamara2430
      @moniquetamara2430 5 років тому +1

      I feel that. I’m with you.

    • @shoaibshaikh613
      @shoaibshaikh613 3 роки тому

      Ive been here with you mate..there's so much pain right Ik...yea u said right time can't heal all wounds ....I feel like just resting for my whole life and never to wake up....

  • @yenbui8849
    @yenbui8849 5 років тому +2

    I love that you put the suicide hotline in the description. I love this so much, I feel like someone finally understands me.

  • @recklesswanderess.5741
    @recklesswanderess.5741 7 років тому +34

    This is absolutely gorgeous!! And so heartbreaking! This is a beautiful video.... I can't put together the right amount of words to describe how you've made me feel. This is mesmerizing. Really. I adore Orphan Black and rewatching that scene of Sarah deciding whether or not to kill herself made my heart tighten because I was so scared. Again. Even though I already know she survives. You captured the pure essence of being stuck with this feeling of depression and being suicidal, with the questions of whether you should do it or not. Of being afraid that you're alone and knowing that you're not okay and not knowing if you ever will be.
    to sum up all of my love for this video: thank you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @frosts3690
    @frosts3690 2 роки тому +1

    I'm so tired... I'm constantly doing my best to make everyone else happy, and all these years have passed with no one doing the same for me. Instead, all of these bad things keep happening to me.

  • @morte_11
    @morte_11 6 років тому +20

    I speak, at least I think I speak, but no one hears me. I've said enough.

  • @kolumbus1754
    @kolumbus1754 Рік тому +1

    the self hatred is the worst, because you can't escape yourself. The feeling is constantly there, I keep fucking things up and it just stacks on top of everything. I had my worst breakdown yesterday and I really am trying to stay alive, but I feel like absolute shit. Gonna do a shrooms trip soon, Ive done it before. I hope I can see a new perspective on things and reason to live. I feel like I cant make any friends either, iv'e been convinced im an asshole since middle school. And I am.

  • @victortorres8289
    @victortorres8289 8 років тому +12

    the beginning is never alone by the amity affliction

    • @Abu_anas_almuwahid
      @Abu_anas_almuwahid 4 роки тому +1

      Thank you very much i hope that you have a great life now 🌸

  • @racyk8579
    @racyk8579 4 роки тому +3

    Why are we alive? To experience? To survive? To be happy? We're all just feathers of the same bird. When one feather falls, another one grows back and it just happens again and again and again like a cycle. But it doesn't mean anything in the end. We just exist.

  • @Ray-lk8gg
    @Ray-lk8gg 7 років тому +1

    the song and voice over and clips fit so well together, this is the most beautiful thing ever honestly

  • @devonberkowitz2705
    @devonberkowitz2705 7 років тому +9

    The amity affliction ❤ was not expecting this thank you

  • @collinshaffer4335
    @collinshaffer4335 4 роки тому +1

    the first minute explains what i can’t explain

  • @Moreno6000
    @Moreno6000 4 роки тому +3

    Thoughts come and go. After each thought I do an action. After each action I get doubt. After each time I doubt myself I put myself down. I think I am..... I think I just have to stop thinking.

  • @matthewjohnston3224
    @matthewjohnston3224 4 роки тому

    Anyone ever been the one to help people, fix them and try hard to keep them together hoping that maybe it'll fix you and ultimately they move on and you're still stuck being the broken one.

  • @animeshchandra4505
    @animeshchandra4505 4 роки тому +3

    I read so many comments about depression coming from relationship...am I the only one who cannot relate to them ? It’s as if I am hollow and on one side there is anxiety and on the other there is nothing...just a void...life just seems dark and nothing can make me happy or normal ... I’m actually envious of the people who are sad due to love life because there is hope for them

    • @backchodhaihum8429
      @backchodhaihum8429 3 роки тому

      I can relate buddy ...i know how it feels when you have no reason to be depressed and still fucked up...and you don't know what is okay for you anymore.....we will survive buddy ...we are trying

  • @kingthame
    @kingthame Рік тому +1

    Only moment I can actually have a conversation with people is when I drink and on valium. But I don't want to be alone it hurts, and I'm tired of drinking.

  • @idklol7165
    @idklol7165 4 роки тому +3

    When I ask my friends help they will just start talking themselves or saying there’s worse things happening in the world right now.
    He told me this after telling him I was using pills to escape the reality. No one takes me serious
    that’s why I like to hide it

    • @Kaijeha
      @Kaijeha 4 роки тому

      You're not alone, I feel you.. I'm using valium to sleep like everyday. It helps alot I understand. Maybe what we need to do is just time, hoping for a better day..

  • @majdamagic8506
    @majdamagic8506 5 років тому +1

    This was and forever will be the best edit of this audio

  • @robbieyoder9417
    @robbieyoder9417 7 років тому +4

    I can't stop listening to this, it's so true in every way that's possible. I hate being alone and I hate not being able to tell me what and how I truly feel. I'm depressed all the time and there's no one around to listen or hear me. I wanted to do stuff for myself but then it goes back to the way it's always been and that's being alone and sad all the time. it gets better sometimes but not always it's hard but faking a smile and pretending your okay is better than not actually being okay. when people see you they think you got everything good handed to you in life and how well your doing but feel down it's not true your just scared to face reality and let people see you depressed and that's me I keep it bottled up for a while and then when I'm not strong anymore I just blow it all out. 😒

  • @salc8724
    @salc8724 Місяць тому +1

    The Amity Affliction’s voicemail from OMGIMY pairs perfectly with this video.

  • @mel0675
    @mel0675 4 роки тому +10

    I don’t think I’m depressed. It’s not that bad I guess. It’s just... this emptiness. And I feel so alone and helpless. I don’t even know... It’s like... even when I’m laughing and smiling it’s there in the back of my mind and I know it’ll come back, it’s always going to be there. And I don’t know what to do.

  • @Ambientgamer86
    @Ambientgamer86 3 роки тому +2

    Just replace "drink drink drink again" with "smoke smoke smoke again" and it's painful how much I can relate..

  • @dsebp3755
    @dsebp3755 4 роки тому +6

    Okay guys, someday I will come back to this video when I feel better, and I will, I know I will.
    Right now I can’t even remember or imagine what feeling good feels like. But I’ll know again.
    I’ll edit this comment when that day comes.

    • @pamangobber5117
      @pamangobber5117 4 роки тому

      Found it bruh?

    • @lizgruenloh8467
      @lizgruenloh8467 4 роки тому

      I understand you. And you’re right, the feeling will come back! I promise! Try thinking of your happiest thoughts, mine are when I’m with the person I love, and I trip because I’m a clutz and he laughs at me, then I try to pull him down with me. Then we’re both laughing.

  • @haraya2760
    @haraya2760 6 років тому +1

    thank you for this video, i am so lost right now that i always feel sad and have the urge to cry, idk what it is.

  • @13reasonsyimangoner51
    @13reasonsyimangoner51 7 років тому +62

    An actual depressed person doesn't admit it. Some people need to learn the difference of getting emotional by a video or actually being depressedz

    • @kareemrussell4930
      @kareemrussell4930 4 роки тому +25

      Admitting you are depressed doesn't make your depression any less real

    • @Rat-dp3qx
      @Rat-dp3qx 4 роки тому +15

      @@kareemrussell4930 facts, it’s easier to talk to people online and express yourself about how you feel then to fake ass people who don’t give a shit about you in reality. Some people admit they’re depressed to help get the pain out and to stop hiding how they feel.

  • @unkn0wn261
    @unkn0wn261 Рік тому +1

    I know your intentions in this video isnt what some people think they are, I thank you for posting this so people know they arent alone and they can feel free to vent.
    usually I dont even have a reason to be sad I just wake up in the same mood everyday hoping something will change but in the end nothing changes, the only thing keeping me motivated is this girl that im with, she is my motivation; I love her to death. But sometimes I feel as if she doesnt love me back then I begin to overthink then everything goes downhill.

  • @bluntbitch853
    @bluntbitch853 4 роки тому +4

    lying on bed listening this..crying like hell m tired😭😭😭😭

  • @madyewell4085
    @madyewell4085 5 років тому +1

    Oh my god. So school just started and when I was in my Itialian class, the teacher said, "I want to thank you for being here. I know things are tough and somedays you'll hate the thought of stepping through that door. But even on those days, you're still here. And that's enough for me." I was on the verge of full on crying. I really needed to hear that and many more people do too. So I want to pass it on here because I know others need to hear it, whether it be about going to school, work, a lunch date with your mom. Being here is enough, even if you're the only person it's good enough for. ❤

  • @salvynuel3756
    @salvynuel3756 3 роки тому +1

    Sometimes I feel happy and sometimes I just start crying and feel like the pain am trying to hide is too much

  • @JusTdANCe95100
    @JusTdANCe95100 8 років тому +23

    Thank you for this video. I'm exactly in this mood right now. I cannot sleep. I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm losing my mind. I don't want to talk. And I am too scared to tell my "friends" that is something happening with me. I can relate to this moment (1:16-1:22) most. Cause it is me most in my life. I edited a video about my feelings about two days ago and I thought "This is what is happening with me." But Your video just proved that it's something more, something more deeper than I thought.
    I hope you'll getting feel better. If you want to.
    Thank you.

    • @skxgrndr
      @skxgrndr  8 років тому +2

      I wish I could do more than just a video. But thank you too. It's really important to me.

  • @emily3354
    @emily3354 6 років тому +1

    This always makes me cry, it’s a genuine edit and I love it so much - I watch it every few days and cry every time . Thanks so much for making this because it’s legit one of the best edits I’ve watched ✨

  • @beaverde6391
    @beaverde6391 6 років тому +3

    I can clearly understand and feel this I feel sick of everything I feel tired that I don't even know the purpose of my life sometimes I just wish I have never existed

  • @zackparkinson6894
    @zackparkinson6894 7 років тому +2

    when i listen to this i almost cry thinking deep thoughts about my past n thinking about what happened in my life and some of this its my life and i just wanna give up

  • @neyssa6632
    @neyssa6632 8 років тому +97

    This is me.

    • @dani-dd2my
      @dani-dd2my 8 років тому +13

      Neyssa RIVIERE please stay stong, i mean it. it really does get better.

    • @fatyzdancer5111
      @fatyzdancer5111 7 років тому +7

      Feeling depressed without hope how can get over it without anyone can hear u or feel u they judging all the fucking time

    • @danapratt6845
      @danapratt6845 6 років тому +1

      I feel ya...

    • @lizgruenloh8467
      @lizgruenloh8467 4 роки тому +2

      Good! I wouldn’t want anyone else.

  • @sandraliaz4294
    @sandraliaz4294 7 років тому +1

    I can't count how many nights I've been listening to this and just cry. I am completely alone, I have no friends, exactly the same day over and over again. It's kinda sad. My family don't like me either. I guess there's nothing else for me here

    • @skxgrndr
      @skxgrndr  7 років тому

      please don't give up. I totally feel you, I'm really sorry.. But only thing we can do right now - just don't give up and move on.. I know it's hard, but maybe someday it'll get better

  • @jinxx.mochii
    @jinxx.mochii 8 років тому +19

    My boyfriend is telling me how much he loves me as I am thinking about calling it quits..
    I know that people support me but that beside the point, in my own mind I feel so alone and helpless.. I can't sleep properly because I am up always thinking.. Always wondering.. But I've been here way to many times before and I am so done feeling this way

    • @skxgrndr
      @skxgrndr  8 років тому +4

      I know this feeling... Some people support me, at least they try, but when I go home, to my room, its just.. the walls are falling, u know? And I'm feeling so empty and weak again and again, and it doesn't stop. Not for now. And every day I think that it will be easier soon. But its not. And I dont know how to handle this.

    • @lizgruenloh8467
      @lizgruenloh8467 4 роки тому +1

      I am right here for you dear friend! I promise I’ll always be here for you! I care about you! I promise!

    • @dagashmagash7202
      @dagashmagash7202 4 роки тому +1

      Why we feel that way

  • @Ko-kf6lc
    @Ko-kf6lc Рік тому +1

    The love of my life and our daughters walked away from me over a year ago....living happily with her best friend and now boyfriend....all I've done is cry and try to use as much dope as possible to rid me from this world

  • @MelodyWithYuvi
    @MelodyWithYuvi 4 роки тому +13

    I hurt a lot of people
    I'm so sorry

    • @lizgruenloh8467
      @lizgruenloh8467 4 роки тому

      Melody With Yuvi, you don’t hurt me. You are proof of beauty and life. You do not cause hurt... you cause love!

    • @MelodyWithYuvi
      @MelodyWithYuvi 4 роки тому

      @@lizgruenloh8467 Thank you so much ❤️ but, no one likes me :(

    • @lizgruenloh8467
      @lizgruenloh8467 4 роки тому

      You are right, we love you! I love you just the way you are!

    • @MelodyWithYuvi
      @MelodyWithYuvi 4 роки тому

      @@lizgruenloh8467 Thank you sm Liz ❤️
      Why do people leave like we mean nothing to them? It hurts :(😭

    • @lizgruenloh8467
      @lizgruenloh8467 4 роки тому

      It does... but we are stronger than them! In so many ways, we are. Because we fight back! We are amazing! And the people that leave us, actually need us. Whether they want to admit it or not. I’m right here for you if you need to talk🤗