It takes a lot of strength to share your story. You are going to touch so many people's lives. You don't know me but I'm proud of you and to be onist I'm much older than you but your courage is inspiring me to share my story fully with the people in my life so maybe I can start to heal and move forward in my new journey. Again, I'm proud of you for having the courage to speak out!! ❤😊 much love from the far north Cali
You are a strong woman. You shouldnt be very proud of who you have become and they life you have built and are building with grant. I tryely believe that where are parents have lacked in our up bringing we developed three fold. ❤️
Jordan if you help one person buy speaking up for others, this is a win. I think you impact more people than you realize! Thank you for fighting for yourself and being where you are today. I don’t know you or Grant. But I love the two of you! Can’t wait to see all the happiness you will be having this year. You both are truly blessed. Thanks again for sharing this and your very personal story. Love to you both! ❤ 😊 You do have an angel looking out for you. Might be hard to see at times. 😘
I'm not gonna say the obvious of what most people would say. I'm just gonna say that I'm proud of what you have become and accomplished considering what you have been through. Also, I think your life story will help so many other people who have lived through similiar situations. God bless you!❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing your story. I greatly appreciate you. Your story is the same for so many others including myself. Thank you Jordan for spreading love and light. ❤🙏
It’s funny how we have a tendency to find others that have been through similar situations. Although i think it’s harder to find someone who HASNT these days, but either way im happy you are here
You are a warrior, simply put. You broke the generational curse for your future children. May your courage to come forth and tell your story be the light for someone else’s tunnel 🙌🙌. God bless
Oh so many of your experiences sound familiar. I'm still getting therapy at 70. I'm better alone, and alot happier. Its nice to hear from someone else that I'm not alone. Best wishes to you and your fiancé.
There are so many with similar stories that feel isolated and alone because of the shame that comes with it. Glad to hear you are happy alone and doing what you need in life to feel good
I'm so thankful you were able to realize and get the help you needed and deserve at a young age. I didn't realize and start to heal until I was 50. You're amazing ❤
The more I tell my story the more people I find that were silently suffering thinking they were alone. There are so many of us and hopefully less and less each day
Thank you for sharing your story Jordan. You are an inspiration to others. I applaud you for changing your sad childhood into being a happy and successful adult! You are wise and strong! You have missed your calling. What a great therapist you could be. Sending you blessings.
So proud of you for so many reasons! I will support you any way I can, including sharing this with anyone I encounter that would benefit from your wisdom. Hugs and Happy Wedding!
Jordan, thank you for sharing your story. This will help so many people who you will be able to help! I’m going to share this video with my daughter. She’s decided to start therapy. She’s 23 now. There are some similarities in your story and her story! I hope her hearing your story will encourage her to see that a person can get healthier and live a good life despite going through terrible things in life, through therapy, hard work by working through it, etc. I love her so much it hurts me because I can’t help her. I want to see her happy, healthy and full of life. (Crying as I write this) I’m so genuinely happy for you and I always have hope for daughter that she will get through all of this and I believe she can!
It’s a long journey but that’s exactly the kind of hope I want to share with people. I hope my story helps your daughter with hers and helps her find her own voice through the mess of overwhelm and shame that can build up in our heads
Jordan, l looked at you with different eyes, what a touching and amazing video. You should be so proud of the person you have become, strong, courageous and proud. I know there are many in the You Tube world that found your video helpful in dealing with their own life. Keep up the great work, so proud of the person you have become.
Your an amazing person Jordan 🩷🌸🩷🌸You truly deserve the best in your future 🌸🩷🌸🩷This horrible situation you were bought up into has made you the incredible person you are 🌼🌼🌼🌼🙏🥰
Thank you for sharing..also being a molestation/rape survivor I have turned to the help of EFT (emotional freedom technique) to help heal myself and patterns that have developed from my traumas. Maybe you have done it or heard about it but if not it’s definitely a method you could work into your healing. Xoxoxox
Children really suffer because of adults and especially bad parenting So sorry you had to have all of this ..where was your mother in the middle of all this trauma?? Did your other siblings suffer all of this also..you are amazing ❤ Parents need to always protect their children ❤.
Well, that a way to trigger an old woman! I can say that I’m very proud of you Jordan! I studied psychology in college(minor) however, somehow I didn’t understand that it applied to me too! I know how did I not know? 🤷🏻♀️ I had the best parents was blessed to attend a great private school and really didn’t want or need anything as a child growing up! The big however, 😂😓 When I was born I had two older brothers one was 16, the other 11! My oldest brother and I had a great relationship and with him I knew I was safe! I was the little girl my daddy had waited for for 16 yrs and he was my soft place, my safety net! My mother however, I felt at the time didn’t like me! I think she was jealous of me and my daddy and looking back I don’t know why! I just remember never being good enough! I wasn’t perfect and she required perfect! Have you seen the movie The Help? If so do you remember the little girl banging on the window calling her nanny? That was me! Essie was my nanny and I loved her; with her I felt safe! Well, she had a daughter that had special needs so she had to go home with her baby! So my mom found a new nanny (mom found me a new one) and then my little sister came along! This new nanny got to work teaching me at 4/5 how to clean, dusting etc but the worst was cleaning out my sisters cloth diapers! I did that in my parents bathroom and a few years ago I realized why! It was in case my father might come home and she could conceal one of my daily tasks! He’d freaked! This woman was awful and was so mean! One day she allowed me to go outside alone and the older neighbors son and his cousin were playing and of course my little socialite personally went over to play! Well, the neighbors cousin got me in their laundry room which was outside off carport and if my neighbors son wasn’t a good guy I would’ve been raped that day but Ed was able to break in the door grab me and pull me inside the house and lock out that bad boy! I didn’t leave to go home until Ed’s mom came home! That evil nanny told my momma that I’d ran away so momma went to her favorite tree (plum limb) and came in and switched me till my legs bleed! I learned my lesson fast! We went by my daddy’s store on way to take home the nanny and he was leaned over as I was following mom inside daddy was outside and when I went by him I flipped my 1071 skirt up as I went by and my daddy followed me! Momma was in 25:16 the office and daddy wanted to know why my legs were bleeding! She told him the story and my daddy told her to fire the lady and moms crying saying but she HAD to work! Daddy told her they would figure it all out but that woman wasn’t allowed back to watch me! She never asked where I was what had happened nothing and I carried that day in my heart for the next 26 yrs bcuz I knew if my daddy ever found out he’d killed the guy! I was in therapy at 31 and my therapist told me it wasn’t my fault! That at 5 I should have been watched when I was outside! He told me I could forgive my self! Not long after that I was getting out of my car with my.3 yr old and saw what I thought was a friend dressed as Santa, so I took my babies hand and we walked out to the road and he slowed down stopping and when I made eye contact with him I said Gods going to get you bcuz it was my neighbors cousin! 6 months later I heard he’d died from pleurisy of the heart! That night over supper I finally told my parents about what had happened bcuz I knew my daddy wouldn’t be able to get him bcuz he was gone! I wrestled between being grateful I’d never have to look him in the eye again but I knew his mom dad siblings were heart broken! Guess what I am trying to say is I’m OCD ADHD dyslexic and have a rare genetic condition called Neurofibromatosis (RA etc) and never knew this until almost 50 when a new neurologist saw my extra large birthmark on my right arm and referenced it and said yes I’ve got another on my back that’s got 5 petals on it, and with my facial features the excessive birthmarks that I wasn’t born with and his 3 hr assessment he told me I had it! No wonder I had a hard time in my studies! I’m going to stop the story here but wanted to tell how I tried so hard raising my boys, I gave all of me and around 25 my son came home with a girl he’d been dating 3 months and my discernment went crazy l. He had always wanted to preach and I knew at first meeting she didn’t have the same desires nor was she even on the same path he was’ Je called me from his home he was buying 3 months now and told me he was marrying her! Here I was thinking we were having a mother son talk and girl I just cried and cried and told him what he would be getting, she wouldn’t clean and take care of him(nor his children) and Jordan I didn’t want to be right but I had a real bad feeling! Well, they’ve been married now 5 yrs and now my son I guess hates me! We were so close and now he never calls, he never returns a text and I never see my grands who for 6+ months cared for my grands one I got through marriage and ones my sons! Well, she got mad at me for picking up my grand baby whose hand was stuck in a plantation shutter and her little leg was stuck in a wire basket! I know I was told to not pick her up so I went outside on the porch and Jordan that baby cried 10 minutes before I had to check on her because my babies reality never cried! When I went in she was upstairs and I saw my babydoll I yelled for her mom but I went immediately to help the baby and 5 minutes later as I was trying to calm her my dil came down stairs as I was fixing her a drink to comfort her for now a 30 minute cry in pain and she ripped the baby from my arms and put her finger 1/2 inch from my nose and told me I told you not to pick her up! I tried to show her the babies leg and hand and she literally said I don’t care yelling at me! I left and it was a long time almost a yr unable to talk to any of them or see my grands! Then she decided to go to nursing school so stupid me I uprooted my life got a plane close to them and for 10 months I was literally abused! I watched the 3 now, did her laundry? Vacuumed everything, did all the dishes cooked meals for my grands I did everything i could to help her! Do you think she appreciated what I was doing? NO my son did lol bcuz after a 10 hr day of work he didn’t have to do the cleaning when he got home! Well, after 10 months I got a stomach virus and for 3 days I thought I’d die! Called my son and he was disgusted with me heard it in his voice and I told him if it could drive I’d be there to watch the Littles! I was in and out of bathroom I mean so sick dehydrated and when she got back I’d not cleaned and she thought I guess I hadn’t watched the babies but I know I did bcuz I’d walk through fire for them so once again I get blessed out and can’t talk to my son or see my grands! I’m so depressed’ I’m disabled but it doesn’t prevent me from loving all of them! I’ve said I’m sry I’ve said I’m sorry about all of it but I’m being punished again! The sad part is my granddaughter when I do see her is like a magnetic to me and when I leave she cries so hard and then I’m crying an hour home! I’ve tried I’m not a mean person I’m what they now call an Empath so I care and feel so much! Sry to write a book this is just a snippet of the heartache ive seen yet my own son could care less and he knows my story but still doesn’t care and it hurts me to my core bcuz I didn’t raise him like this so I don’t understand I know for his sanity it has to be this way but I feel like I’ll die and my babydoll will never know how much I love her! Yep I’m crying an ugly cry! I don’t feel I deserve it but I’ve been punished all my life and all I want to do is love!
I read your whole story and I wanted to thank you for sharing. I know memories can be hard to process when they come up all at once and putting it all out there is something I’m all too familiar with. I do hope you have someone to talk to about all of this because it’s so heavy to have to do alone. A professional can help you sort through the processing of all the emotions as they come up and work through how they manifest in your everyday life. Being neurodivergent on top of all that trauma really does a number in our heads and we react more than we live in the moment afterwards a lot of the time. I’ve found myself doing things that weren’t me because I didn’t know how to regulate my nervous system. It’s so hard with children because we pass on things we didn’t know we had in us sometimes and we try to protect them from something we have seen, but end up driving them into the very thing we tried to warn them of or end up doing hard that wasn’t intended in another way. You’re doing the best you can with what you know and that’s ok. You don’t deserve to be punished but try to see if your subconscious believes that about yourself too.
@@justjordanthings thanks Jordan for replying! I know in my heart and soul that Im not what is being projected on me! Yes, all I’ve ever wanted is to raise good men who know THE LORD! I know they know HIM! During my punishment time before I’ve told others that the only thing that truly matters to me is my children’s souls! What’s funny is I was sitting here just thinking that maybe a therapist might be what I need to help me wrap my mind around everything! I’ve been through a lot of trauma and I’ve buried it deep inside! I try to be a light in the world helping others and giving of myself to the point that this punishment wasn’t really my fault! I know this and I also know that dealing with the dark side can be hard and sometimes dangerous but I know that what’s in me is greater than what’s in this world! I’m just tired! This mama bear (lol that’s what my son tells people, so I wasn’t that bad for him to let others know how I’d protect my cubs with my life) is tired, hurt, and sooo sad! I never thought life would beat me down this bad! However, it’s one foot in front of the other! Like the song says, Onward Christian soldiers marching on to war; I’ll give my best and continue to help those who need it! Neglecting myself as I’ve done all of my life has to change bcuz I’ve less life now to live than in the past! It’s hard when those you love who’ve seen your neglect and they think it’s ok to do it too!
@@lalasventure8922 therapy helps so much just to have someone to help sift through all the thoughts we have. We aren’t born with the tools to process deep emotions and trauma and often we aren’t taught them growing up either. That’s where therapy comes in to help especially with neurodivergence. We don’t understand how out body communicates with us because our brain has to filter out so much and learning what to listen to and how is what helped me so much. I hear you’re tired and all we can do is take things one day at a time. Don’t look too far in the future and get overwhelmed it’s easy to do. You’ve got this! I can hear your heart is in the right place and that is what matters most
@@justjordanthings thank you Jordan! You’re a special lady! I was born in the same year as your mom and I can tell you growing up we were allowed feelings! Haha
I think its her actually mother.but I don't understand where her mother ( danni) was when all of this happened to her child .poor girl she should have been protected by her parents instead they totally let her down😢 Did all her siblings go through all of this ... Where was her mother ?? Where was her father? Her grandparents?? Was Danni aware of what was happening to her child ❤it's all so sad ❤
It takes a lot of strength to share your story. You are going to touch so many people's lives. You don't know me but I'm proud of you and to be onist I'm much older than you but your courage is inspiring me to share my story fully with the people in my life so maybe I can start to heal and move forward in my new journey. Again, I'm proud of you for having the courage to speak out!! ❤😊 much love from the far north Cali
You are a strong woman. You shouldnt be very proud of who you have become and they life you have built and are building with grant. I tryely believe that where are parents have lacked in our up bringing we developed three fold. ❤️
Jordan if you help one person buy speaking up for others, this is a win. I think you impact more people than you realize! Thank you for fighting for yourself and being where you are today. I don’t know you or Grant. But I love the two of you! Can’t wait to see all the happiness you will be having this year. You both are truly blessed. Thanks again for sharing this and your very personal story.
Love to you both! ❤ 😊
You do have an angel looking out for you. Might be hard to see at times. 😘
That’s what I have always said too. If this helps just one person then it’s done its job. Thank you for listening and supporting my mission
I'm not gonna say the obvious of what most people would say. I'm just gonna say that I'm proud of what you have become and accomplished considering what you have been through. Also, I think your life story will help so many other people who have lived through similiar situations. God bless you!❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing your story. I greatly appreciate you. Your story is the same for so many others including myself. Thank you Jordan for spreading love and light. ❤🙏
It’s funny how we have a tendency to find others that have been through similar situations. Although i think it’s harder to find someone who HASNT these days, but either way im happy you are here
Oh Jordan, I'm so sorry you went through this.
You are a warrior, simply put. You broke the generational curse for your future children. May your courage to come forth and tell your story be the light for someone else’s tunnel 🙌🙌.
God bless
Oh so many of your experiences sound familiar. I'm still getting therapy at 70. I'm better alone, and alot happier. Its nice to hear from someone else that I'm not alone. Best wishes to you and your fiancé.
There are so many with similar stories that feel isolated and alone because of the shame that comes with it. Glad to hear you are happy alone and doing what you need in life to feel good
I'm so thankful you were able to realize and get the help you needed and deserve at a young age. I didn't realize and start to heal until I was 50. You're amazing ❤
Better late than never! Some people never get a chance to change so be proud of that
You are amazing! ❤❤❤
Oh my goodness I am you. You are me. Thank you. My hubby saved me. I saw this I your Grant.
The more I tell my story the more people I find that were silently suffering thinking they were alone. There are so many of us and hopefully less and less each day
Thank you for sharing your story Jordan. You are an inspiration to others. I applaud you for changing your sad childhood into being a happy and successful adult! You are wise and strong! You have missed your calling. What a great therapist you could be. Sending you blessings.
So proud of you for so many reasons! I will support you any way I can, including sharing this with anyone I encounter that would benefit from your wisdom. Hugs and Happy Wedding!
Jordan, your a strong person . God bless you honey
Jordan, thank you for sharing your story. This will help so many people who you will be able to help! I’m going to share this video with my daughter. She’s decided to start therapy. She’s 23 now. There are some similarities in your story and her story! I hope her hearing your story will encourage her to see that a person can get healthier and live a good life despite going through terrible things in life, through therapy, hard work by working through it, etc. I love her so much it hurts me because I can’t help her. I want to see her happy, healthy and full of life. (Crying as I write this) I’m so genuinely happy for you and I always have hope for daughter that she will get through all of this and I believe she can!
It’s a long journey but that’s exactly the kind of hope I want to share with people. I hope my story helps your daughter with hers and helps her find her own voice through the mess of overwhelm and shame that can build up in our heads
Jordan, l looked at you with different eyes, what a touching and amazing video.
You should be so proud of the person you have become, strong, courageous and proud.
I know there are many in the You Tube world that found your video helpful in dealing with their own life.
Keep up the great work, so proud of the person you have become.
BRAVO Jordan!
❤courageous, inspiring, and educational…that’s what you are❤️ and oh so beautiful inside and out❤️
Wow! You are a very intuitive individual! Be proud of who you are and your future will continue to speak volumes! Bravo for you! 😊
I am proud of who I am (finally) and I hope to share that with others to help them reach that too
Thank you Jordan.
Your an amazing person Jordan 🩷🌸🩷🌸You truly deserve the best in your future 🌸🩷🌸🩷This horrible situation you were bought up into has made you the incredible person you are 🌼🌼🌼🌼🙏🥰
I’m so glad you can see the positive I try to bring to the world
Thanks Jordan you are very Brave ❤
Thank you for this
Thanks for sharing.
Thanks for watching!
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You are a very strong woman! You and Grant are such a cute couple. Never take each other forgranted . Best wishes!!
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Thank you for sharing..also being a molestation/rape survivor I have turned to the help of EFT (emotional freedom technique) to help heal myself and patterns that have developed from my traumas. Maybe you have done it or heard about it but if not it’s definitely a method you could work into your healing. Xoxoxox
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You are a very smart and beautiful young woman.
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Hello from Mexico 👋
Children really suffer because of adults and especially bad parenting
So sorry you had to have all of this ..where was your mother in the middle of all this trauma?? Did your other siblings suffer all of this also..you are amazing ❤
Parents need to always protect their children ❤.
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Well, that a way to trigger an old woman! I can say that I’m very proud of you Jordan! I studied psychology in college(minor) however, somehow I didn’t understand that it applied to me too! I know how did I not know? 🤷🏻♀️ I had the best parents was blessed to attend a great private school and really didn’t want or need anything as a child growing up! The big however, 😂😓 When I was born I had two older brothers one was 16, the other 11! My oldest brother and I had a great relationship and with him I knew I was safe! I was the little girl my daddy had waited for for 16 yrs and he was my soft place, my safety net! My mother however, I felt at the time didn’t like me! I think she was jealous of me and my daddy and looking back I don’t know why! I just remember never being good enough! I wasn’t perfect and she required perfect! Have you seen the movie The Help? If so do you remember the little girl banging on the window calling her nanny? That was me! Essie was my nanny and I loved her; with her I felt safe! Well, she had a daughter that had special needs so she had to go home with her baby! So my mom found a new nanny (mom found me a new one) and then my little sister came along! This new nanny got to work teaching me at 4/5 how to clean, dusting etc but the worst was cleaning out my sisters cloth diapers! I did that in my parents bathroom and a few years ago I realized why! It was in case my father might come home and she could conceal one of my daily tasks! He’d freaked! This woman was awful and was so mean! One day she allowed me to go outside alone and the older neighbors son and his cousin were playing and of course my little socialite personally went over to play! Well, the neighbors cousin got me in their laundry room which was outside off carport and if my neighbors son wasn’t a good guy I would’ve been raped that day but Ed was able to break in the door grab me and pull me inside the house and lock out that bad boy! I didn’t leave to go home until Ed’s mom came home! That evil nanny told my momma that I’d ran away so momma went to her favorite tree (plum limb) and came in and switched me till my legs bleed! I learned my lesson fast! We went by my daddy’s store on way to take home the nanny and he was leaned over as I was following mom inside daddy was outside and when I went by him I flipped my 1071 skirt up as I went by and my daddy followed me! Momma was in 25:16 the office and daddy wanted to know why my legs were bleeding! She told him the story and my daddy told her to fire the lady and moms crying saying but she HAD to work! Daddy told her they would figure it all out but that woman wasn’t allowed back to watch me! She never asked where I was what had happened nothing and I carried that day in my heart for the next 26 yrs bcuz I knew if my daddy ever found out he’d killed the guy! I was in therapy at 31 and my therapist told me it wasn’t my fault! That at 5 I should have been watched when I was outside! He told me I could forgive my self! Not long after that I was getting out of my car with my.3 yr old and saw what I thought was a friend dressed as Santa, so I took my babies hand and we walked out to the road and he slowed down stopping and when I made eye contact with him I said Gods going to get you bcuz it was my neighbors cousin! 6 months later I heard he’d died from pleurisy of the heart! That night over supper I finally told my parents about what had happened bcuz I knew my daddy wouldn’t be able to get him bcuz he was gone! I wrestled between being grateful I’d never have to look him in the eye again but I knew his mom dad siblings were heart broken! Guess what I am trying to say is I’m OCD ADHD dyslexic and have a rare genetic condition called Neurofibromatosis (RA etc) and never knew this until almost 50 when a new neurologist saw my extra large birthmark on my right arm and referenced it and said yes I’ve got another on my back that’s got 5 petals on it, and with my facial features the excessive birthmarks that I wasn’t born with and his 3 hr assessment he told me I had it! No wonder I had a hard time in my studies! I’m going to stop the story here but wanted to tell how I tried so hard raising my boys, I gave all of me and around 25 my son came home with a girl he’d been dating 3 months and my discernment went crazy l. He had always wanted to preach and I knew at first meeting she didn’t have the same desires nor was she even on the same path he was’ Je called me from his home he was buying 3 months now and told me he was marrying her! Here I was thinking we were having a mother son talk and girl I just cried and cried and told him what he would be getting, she wouldn’t clean and take care of him(nor his children) and Jordan I didn’t want to be right but I had a real bad feeling! Well, they’ve been married now 5 yrs and now my son I guess hates me! We were so close and now he never calls, he never returns a text and I never see my grands who for 6+ months cared for my grands one I got through marriage and ones my sons! Well, she got mad at me for picking up my grand baby whose hand was stuck in a plantation shutter and her little leg was stuck in a wire basket! I know I was told to not pick her up so I went outside on the porch and Jordan that baby cried 10 minutes before I had to check on her because my babies reality never cried! When I went in she was upstairs and I saw my babydoll I yelled for her mom but I went immediately to help the baby and 5 minutes later as I was trying to calm her my dil came down stairs as I was fixing her a drink to comfort her for now a 30 minute cry in pain and she ripped the baby from my arms and put her finger 1/2 inch from my nose and told me I told you not to pick her up! I tried to show her the babies leg and hand and she literally said I don’t care yelling at me! I left and it was a long time almost a yr unable to talk to any of them or see my grands! Then she decided to go to nursing school so stupid me I uprooted my life got a plane close to them and for 10 months I was literally abused! I watched the 3 now, did her laundry? Vacuumed everything, did all the dishes cooked meals for my grands I did everything i could to help her! Do you think she appreciated what I was doing? NO my son did lol bcuz after a 10 hr day of work he didn’t have to do the cleaning when he got home! Well, after 10 months I got a stomach virus and for 3 days I thought I’d die! Called my son and he was disgusted with me heard it in his voice and I told him if it could drive I’d be there to watch the Littles! I was in and out of bathroom I mean so sick dehydrated and when she got back I’d not cleaned and she thought I guess I hadn’t watched the babies but I know I did bcuz I’d walk through fire for them so once again I get blessed out and can’t talk to my son or see my grands! I’m so depressed’ I’m disabled but it doesn’t prevent me from loving all of them! I’ve said I’m sry I’ve said I’m sorry about all of it but I’m being punished again! The sad part is my granddaughter when I do see her is like a magnetic to me and when I leave she cries so hard and then I’m crying an hour home! I’ve tried I’m not a mean person I’m what they now call an Empath so I care and feel so much! Sry to write a book this is just a snippet of the heartache ive seen yet my own son could care less and he knows my story but still doesn’t care and it hurts me to my core bcuz I didn’t raise him like this so I don’t understand I know for his sanity it has to be this way but I feel like I’ll die and my babydoll will never know how much I love her! Yep I’m crying an ugly cry! I don’t feel I deserve it but I’ve been punished all my life and all I want to do is love!
I read your whole story and I wanted to thank you for sharing. I know memories can be hard to process when they come up all at once and putting it all out there is something I’m all too familiar with.
I do hope you have someone to talk to about all of this because it’s so heavy to have to do alone. A professional can help you sort through the processing of all the emotions as they come up and work through how they manifest in your everyday life. Being neurodivergent on top of all that trauma really does a number in our heads and we react more than we live in the moment afterwards a lot of the time. I’ve found myself doing things that weren’t me because I didn’t know how to regulate my nervous system. It’s so hard with children because we pass on things we didn’t know we had in us sometimes and we try to protect them from something we have seen, but end up driving them into the very thing we tried to warn them of or end up doing hard that wasn’t intended in another way. You’re doing the best you can with what you know and that’s ok. You don’t deserve to be punished but try to see if your subconscious believes that about yourself too.
@@justjordanthings thanks Jordan for replying! I know in my heart and soul that Im not what is being projected on me! Yes, all I’ve ever wanted is to raise good men who know THE LORD! I know they know HIM! During my punishment time before I’ve told others that the only thing that truly matters to me is my children’s souls! What’s funny is I was sitting here just thinking that maybe a therapist might be what I need to help me wrap my mind around everything! I’ve been through a lot of trauma and I’ve buried it deep inside! I try to be a light in the world helping others and giving of myself to the point that this punishment wasn’t really my fault! I know this and I also know that dealing with the dark side can be hard and sometimes dangerous but I know that what’s in me is greater than what’s in this world! I’m just tired! This mama bear (lol that’s what my son tells people, so I wasn’t that bad for him to let others know how I’d protect my cubs with my life) is tired, hurt, and sooo sad! I never thought life would beat me down this bad! However, it’s one foot in front of the other! Like the song says, Onward Christian soldiers marching on to war; I’ll give my best and continue to help those who need it! Neglecting myself as I’ve done all of my life has to change bcuz I’ve less life now to live than in the past! It’s hard when those you love who’ve seen your neglect and they think it’s ok to do it too!
@@lalasventure8922 therapy helps so much just to have someone to help sift through all the thoughts we have. We aren’t born with the tools to process deep emotions and trauma and often we aren’t taught them growing up either. That’s where therapy comes in to help especially with neurodivergence. We don’t understand how out body communicates with us because our brain has to filter out so much and learning what to listen to and how is what helped me so much. I hear you’re tired and all we can do is take things one day at a time. Don’t look too far in the future and get overwhelmed it’s easy to do. You’ve got this! I can hear your heart is in the right place and that is what matters most
@@justjordanthings thank you Jordan! You’re a special lady! I was born in the same year as your mom and I can tell you growing up we were allowed feelings! Haha
😢Give it to God❤
So Danni is your birth mom?
Yes Danni is my Birth mom
Where does Danni fit into your life? Another step'mom?
I think its her actually mother.but I don't understand where her mother ( danni) was when all of this happened to her child .poor girl she should have been protected by her parents instead they totally let her down😢
Did all her siblings go through all of this ...
Where was her mother ??
Where was her father?
Her grandparents??
Was Danni aware of what was happening to her child ❤it's all so sad ❤
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