Introduction to Kabbalah
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- Kabbalah, the mystic heritage of the Abrahamic faith. Mystery and esotericism abound riddled with antiquated interpretations, philosophy, and spirituality.
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Its amazing how "god" manifests itself through almost every single philosophical teaching. From the kabbalah to the sumerians, buddhism and hinduism to christianism...
Stoics, Magicians, Mathematics, Musicians... Jung really made a big step into the "aurora consurgens"...
The way you act in life, the more consciousness of the nature and interrelation of how "God" works, the more things start making sense and opening up to you....
It's like you can pierce trough the veil in everything you see in life.. Movies, paintings, your daily life.... The synchronicity, was always there, something odd was always there, you just could't notice it, for you were not looking trough your real eyes...
Just an advice for those on the path.
Love is the most primordial key to open up all of this "farfetched" knowledge.
Trust me, just learn what true love is, know thyself, and act out of love, nor impulses...
Once you do this, all you need will come piece by piece!
Trust, have faith, and love!
Btw, nice work my friend! Ty very much for your efforts!
"It's amazing to see the world through your eyes"
I completely agree and thanks for the compliment!
I've always been really happy to see how people connect over mystical insights or philosophical ideas.
The Nemeton You deserve it! Btw, have you ever read Aion, by Jung? You know, the thing with ancient knowledge is that some symbols get really hard to comprehend, for they are epignetically sort of “lost”, due to time itself...
See, every point in the universe can be perfected and actualized, and this book actually make a link to how the old teachings got integrated and transformed into our more recent Christian/scientific era.
It really helps going even deeper in therms if understanding!
Ty once again!
@@claudiomagalhaes1248 guess he was not all that interested in your ideas about Jung after all, huh? Can't blame him. Jung was a weirdo.
I just started doing the LBRP last week. IT led me here. This path is extremely powerful. Even though a very good thing it also needs some type of warning label. Surges of spiritual awakening after spiritual awakenings. An incredible experience unlike anything I could have dreamed of!❤️
Whoa awesome, glad you're having good experiences overall
It took me years to get here. I'm learning the LBRP as well
@@TheNemeton Thank you for these videos! Really! It's far more entertaining than those guys sitting behind a desk talking. 😂
@@TheNemetonI have a question. Are free masons "Evil" or "bad guys".
There's a lot of conspiracy theories surrounding them.
I'd like to know the truth. Is it true that they do human sacrifice? Or is that a myth. I Apologize if I sound ignorant.
I'm at a point in my journey that led me here to these videos.
@@UnderTheSameSun693 LBRP is a solid fusion of modern hermetic magick and Kabbalah. I'm glad you're enjoying yourself
Your explanation, especially for people who do not know the Kabala, answers many simple yet important related questions and information to gain better understanding without overthinking. You are a master of your word.
I cant explain how happy i am to find this channel. Ive been going over The Law of One for 3 years now and just discovered Kabbalah. Thank you!
I'm so happy to find this channel. I'm confident some of these videos will help me with the journey I'm taking in self care, contemplating universal laws through meditation, spiritual connection and hopefully personal evolution.
Thanks for sharing.
Thanks for watching! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Thank you for sharing your efforts with us. I look forward to all of your enriching content. You are a pillar of my motivations!
Each of the 10 sephiroth exist in each of the others. So there is a malkuth of malkuth as well as a kether of malkuth and everything in between. There is also a kether of kether and a malkuth of kether (which is different from the kether of malkuth). And there are 4 worlds, usually visualized as stacked upon the other, so in total there are 400 sephiroth. Tav or Tau is the last Hebrew letter and its numerical value is 400, totality, completion and the universe/world.
Wow, now this is just an impressive realization. Again yes, there are 10 sfiroth to each sfira, and 10 sfiroth to each world. While this is so uncommon in the Judaic Kabbalah, the Hermeticists noticed it much more and spoke on it more completely.
@Sons of Elohim assuredly so, yet the topic is typically put to rest around numbers 1, 10, and 400 for various reasons. As you know, the sfirothic diagram is also represented as concentric circles, and also a single wheel at times, in that it can be seen to represent an infinitely tiered and existent space.
The Nemeton You are mistaken. The Jewish Kabbalah repeatedly stresses the inter inclusion of the sefirot in the mystery of Unity. The hermetic Kabbalah is a comparative baby. Read Eitz Chaim, and the writings of the Rashash for more on the fractal nature of the sefirot. The partzufim are all interincluded.
This is great for a beginner intro to Kabbalah - I totally get it now
Free Speech isn’t that funny. The dullard and the educated end up the same! I like your post. A brashness of an experienced human along with understanding of a teacher ! Biker guru. Game recognize game . Humans are silly .
1st I feel, I move my hands. 2nd I hear, I listen with my ears. 3nd l smell, I breath with my nose. 4th I speak, my mouth expresses. 5th I see, I Open my eyes, to see the kingdom.
All your videos are great brother, stay optimizing
Sending gratitude your way Bru!!🙏
Thank you very much!
Thank you for efforts in sharing enlightening insights on the Kabbalah. This has brought me great peace and joy
I just found your channel and I'm so grateful! I can't wait to watch more videos. You explanations are so interfering. I have so many questions!!
Thanks Wendy! I'm really glad you enjoy the talks.
My man, I hope you keep doing this videos
Yeah I've done quite a few Kabbalah videos. You can find then on the channel playlist
The truth shall set us free 🙏🏼
Nice presentation style. I like it....kinda friendly, like a chat over a coffee on a rainy day in the park.
Hey yeah that's the idea! I like to be particular about the information but sort of "open" you know? I'm glad it has a good feel to it.
I love the occult female connection between Wisdom and kingdom/Shekinah. She is married to our Zar anpin both at the top and the bottom.
Precisely! I'm glad we've connected on this.
So my delve into the metaphysical has lead me to the Kabbalah/Zohar. I’m finding that many people issue warnings when learning Zohar - that it can lead to a loss of what I assume is a grounding to our perceivable reality. Basically, insanity - how would you address this? Additionally, what precautions would you take when diving into this?
Man that is an important question that I see so rarely raised and I'm glad you asked.
To start you are correct and there's a few ways to expand on it.
1 - it deals with grounding and staying part of the immediate world which plays a big role in the theological aspects of the Kabbalah.
2 - without proper immersion into the material some people fall to an egotistical tie to the material thereby creating fallacious beliefs
3 - with both fallacious beliefs and losing ones grounded nature heresy in thought and action is easily born, as in they cannot make valid sense of the passages and begin descending
There is a story that displays this rather well which is the 4 rabbanan that entered pardes.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pardes_(legend)
Also, if you're getting into Zohar you might really like my most recent video on the Kabbalah - Creation from Eyn to Earth. It's probably the best video I've ever made.
It is using a lot of different sources and the Zohar translation is the Kabbalah Center translation, but if you went Pritzker or strictly the antiquated aramaic it is still valid.
Well named, as you introduced me.to some concepts of Kabbalah.
Thumbs Up!
Thumbs up!
He's astute , well versed in this sub matter isn't he!👌
Hi there
one important mistake there
Keter כתר - is not knowing, it means "crown".
Da'at דעת- is knowing
And how is that , that sometimes we call the highest sefira above חכמה ,בינה da'at דעת and sometimes keter כתר
That is also secret to learn.
Very true! It gets talked on more in Luria's works, it has even been noted that Luria and Cordovero had some differences on this representation. I don't normally cover that sort of thing however. Thanks for sharing your insights!
Damn idk how I went so long without finding your channel but glad I did lol
Hey huge thanks, most of my high production value Kabbalah videos are quite solid. Hope you enjoy them!
Glad you put effort into study. You know more than many who make videos.
Also the "side tracks" were enjoyable with humanness. (Dont watch my newer videoz) 😅
Amazing video, thank you
Do you plan on making a video about the Qliphoth?
The Klipothic shells are surely a topic of interest but I haven't made one yet because of the various interpretations and confusion that come from varying lineages.
Like common Hermeticism, Thelema, Rabbinical styles, etc all have a different idea on them. I'll likely go the rabbinical route.
@@TheNemeton it's gained a big interest among Luciferians and Left Hand Path practitioners, I personally don't fell like I've grasped the full concept, I like to hear a breakdown from you
@@issamissa902 alright, I'll move it higher on the list. Thanks for the feedback
Teach me all the things : )
Well, now I want to watch your old videos!
I appreciate it but they're a little junky. My Kabbalah and alchemy series are the best as well is the Babalon video.
The fall caused Aima and Abba to turn their backs on each other, once they face each other again tiphareth will slide back up to where da'ath currently is, yesod will be where tiphareth is, and malkuth will be where yesod is.
I love how you explain that each of us can embody the traits of deity, we are the hands of deity in how we treat others! Our actions are the current unfolding or creation of the world. Genesis didn't happen once a long time ago, it is ongoing in each and every interaction between beings. :)
You are again very correct! I have found this to be called "The Tree of Perfection" and planned to speak on it in the future.
Really appreciate this a lot! Ty Nemeton! 3;) \,,/
It's a pleasure and I'm glad you enjoyed it!
Keep it up, this video is very good
Thanks a lot!
Hey man, I'm glad you enjoyed it!
Where can i find GUIDE to study the kabbalah since i have heard that those who study it by their own end up going crazy or exagerating their sense of justice...
Well Reshit Chochmah is the easiest start. It used to be a free pdf but is now purchase only
Thank you River I found this really helpful, as a beginner in this sphere (pardon the pun) of esoteric teachings - new subscriber
Can I ask why you use that specific tree? I have of course seen both must have mostly worked with the other one where hod and netzach connect to malkuth as well as the other differences further up the tree. Sorry for not knowing the names of the 2 versions haha
Good question.
I choose this particular tree because of how I view Da'at and Yesod.
Essentially, yesod being the foundation is intrinsically necessary to Malchut, and "the higher forms issue through Yesod" rather than Hod and Netzach.
It's just preference.
Jesse Baughman
Assyrian tree of life
Solid works !
Hey thanks man, I do what I can!
I'd like to know more about Da'at and why it's excluded. I've seen other examples include Da'at and exclude Kether.
Hey solid question. So Da'at and Kether are debated at times on which should be shown and which should not. If I remember correctly Cordovero was always in favor of displaying Kether, while Luria would argue for Da'at. This is a difference of perspective as I see it. Kether has no discernible quality from our vantage aside from it being an unrevealed state and holder of all later sfirothic natures, thus we don't really "know it."
In another manner to "know" the supernal matters we bridge the gap of being. This is really common to hermetic qabbalah which uses da'at as a resemblance of an abyss between the connection of our limited scope and the divine infinitudes.
In another way, these things are all symbolic of the mental associations we attempt to foster and cultivate to "touch" the divinity in some way, like certain mental states that are considered spiritual in nature.
I suppose the real difference between which one we choose to show is all a technicality. The thing is, if Da'at is present, then Kether is not unrevealed / we are in a connected knowing state as it relates to the divinity. If Kether is present, we aren't in that ultimate connected knowing state hence why Kether is an unknowable intangible state of being.
If you want to learn more try googling the GRA Tree of Life and the explanations surrounding it.
@@TheNemeton Definitely will. I'll keep that in mind as, there are aspects of it I would like to understand.
@@TheNemeton well. Reading on it, I find it to be a very intricate thing. One of the most interesting interpretations is Da'at being a sort of space, for any other of the Sfiroth and as a reflection of Kether. So not a Sfiroth but kind of a state in which each is realized.
Was the correspondence with the Tarot discovered or invented?
Tarot was invented in post. The symbols used in tarot cards as we know them are pictorial representation of ideas that preexisted them regarding magick and mysticism as well as simple life events and emotive leanings.
@@TheNemeton who invented the correspondence?
How does one become a patron?
There's a The Nemeton patreon but you're also welcome to come hang out on the discord server. There's a link in the description of the new Magic Squares video
@@TheNemeton thanks so much for the prompt response. I did find a link to your patreon and will be making my contribution this evening. I really can't tell you how much I appreciate the way you're presenting this content. I will definitely be checking out the discord as well now that I know. Anyway, many thanks again and looking forward to what's to come.
Are you available to skype? I am very interested in this subject but have trouble getting a grasp on it.
I'm always available to talk on this discord channel.
discord.gg/sX5hnKZ
living forever or immortality is a big misunderstanding in all spiritual traditions, most people still wrongly think that if you do or reach this or that "you" live forever, but they mean with I the body/name/concepts but all of this vanishes and if not thatn there never was any enlightened person in the world, why? because than this person would be still here obvious. To become immortal is a state of the mind or conciousness, there is no permanent person living forever and never will be, if you 100% have no fear or worries anymore, than you are immortal but this only can occur through deep understanding or certain extreme circumstances like in battle you can drop it in the face of death, or other extreme situations where you have the feeling of "now its unavoidable", its about a full letting go, full acceptance, full trust
This is amazing
Hey thanks, glad you enjoyed it!
i want more kabbalah video...
The Soul of Soul. The tree is an example of as above so below. All comes in 3s. Most things.
That's a pretty standard early interpretation for sure
‘And it shall come to pass in the last days, says God, That I will pour out of My Spirit on all flesh; Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, Your young men shall see visions, Your old men shall dream dreams.
This is so much info
I'll take it as a compliment!
watching the old vids :]
Ha, thanks man. Im glad you enjoy my videos. I'll be making more eventually just in a transition.
I'm really enjoying your new approach to your videos. Great job and great content!
Jesus is my Lord... He who is in me is Greater than he who is in this world!!
Hey awesome! I'm not Christian but I appreciate your faithful nature.
@Jeremy Mettler I'm sorry man but I'm earnestly not sure what you're trying to say.
@@TheNemeton I m not this one want to have a dialog but a monologue haha. Thank you for your videos and shearing for FREE the understanding given to you for FREE. Thank You.
I don't understand how hardcore Christians end up on these videos shouting from the rooftops what they believe
I never see occultists over on pastor Greg's bible study video telling everyone about magick
Hey sister...keep your head up and eyes open...the New Apostlic Reformation (prosperity pimp pastors) are Freemasonic Luciferians that are teaching KABBALAH from stages like Bethel, Elevation, Hillsong, etc...
I have near 250 videos showing the Freemasonic KABBALAHISTIC habbits inside WESTERNIZED CHRISTIANITY...
Be a Berean, double check what I'm saying, but go and look at the TERMS OF THE COVENANT.
There is a Sabbath and Moedim keeping aspect that the WESTERN churches have thrown out.
(We know sabbath was Sundown fri- Sundown Saturday based on the times the Gates to Jerusalem would have been closed to travels.)
YAH ESTABLISHED HIS Feast Dates.
He wants to meet with us so we understand the Greater Exodus of Moses and how the Return of Yeshua will happen during "A" Feast of Trumpets.
(We don't know the day or hour...we have to watch the moon to know which of the 2 days that the Feast will start...=the moon is a witness of YAH'S plan)
But....back to ON TOPIC....
Kabbalah is the DOCTRINE OF DEVILS.
It is a very specific book of teaching the Fallen Angels taught mankind in the Beginnings of Babylon.
Many Kabbalahists claim that the Kabbalah is the Oral Traditions that Yeshua taught Moses on Mt Siani,
But Moses in scripture says He Write down EVERYTHING HE HEARD...
So the story of the ORAL TRADITION starting at Moses is Debunked.
Great video
Much appreciated and thank you!
Kabbalah is much like this... ( insert metaphor)) it does 1234.... ( these dots have weird names so I will describe what they mean and what they are used for.( me knowing the Hebrew names doesn’t help me and only serves to make it more confusing my lad. Malcuth into upper saroyhes ....? You have so much potential
this is so accurate and informative
Hey thanks Red. I try to always make my content both valuable and dense with information.
Is enosis like a spiritual awakening?
Great question, it really depends on who you ask. On one level gnosis is a state of being, in another way it's a tier. I however like to think of it as a certain emotional / mental state that comfortably sits in the world unfettered by worldly struggle, or at least in how one responds to it. This is only one "side effect" though.
At the core use of the word it's simply becoming familiar with esotericism.
@@TheNemeton very interesting. I've only heard of this practice. I was looking up the gnosis yesterday also. I'll keep checking out your channel. I talk about spirituality on mine sometimes. Thanks for the response.
Thanks for the videos
Hey thanks for watching!
You're channel is amazing, thank you for the knowledge shared
👌🏽✡️
I'm glad you enjoyed it! You may enjoy some of the other Kabbalah videos. And There Is No Separation In Them is an all time favorite.
@@TheNemeton I truly cannot find more detailed and involved information online. Just many many many general kabbalistic videos or written books.
I'm learning hebrew now to read sefer yetzirah and the bahir
This channel is great though but I hope you reveal more information
@@fmafan123456789 Hey I'm glad you enjoy the videos.
It's awesome to hear you're self educating for the learning material.
If you want you can always read a translation of HaBahir prior to but it can be difficult to grasp certain intricacies (since there are a lot of letter based explanations in HaBahir).
Yetzirah is great and I also recommend Detzniyutha. Work of the Chariot Trust has a brief english version of Detzniyutha.
Lastly, yeah I'll always be making more videos and expanding the subject matter it just takes time.
Nice video makes me understand more about this new name i found
Oh I get it now. Hey nice!
Can i have your permission to see future videos ^^
Why you look very attractive and like u hidding alot of knowledge
Coolaboola... My girlfriend at the rip old age a 54 asked me what Kabbalah was .. so I googled Kabbalah in 3mins... Got a boogey video.. surfed a bit.. yours popped up and explained it quick fast in a hurry with class... Thanks & thumbs up !
Hey nice! That also means a lot to me. I'm glad that these efforts are helping out with the random questions lol.
@@TheNemeton Thanks.
As someone who, while by absolutely no means whatsoever would I consider myself a mekubal, have studied chasidic texts in traditional settings, while nothing you said is actually factually inaccurate insofar as what I've seen of your videos, there is a point that is missing. That thing is the importance of mitzvos, including the seemingly monotonous ones, which are fundamentally the mission which the kabbalah tasks man in, and according to their dassein (to borrow a term): women have their mitzvos, men have theirs, non-jews have theirs, levi'im have theirs, etc. The inner contemplations of the complex systems of Emanation serve to reinforce the outer duties of man, to create tikkun through their duties. Which is also why many chasidic kabbalists, such as Rebbe Nachman of Breslov (even if I am not necessarily a follower of this path) did not find the complications of the zohar to be the essence of mysticism, but rather a simple living with contemplation and observance. While I personally am more interested in the deeper elements (as was Rebbe Nachman himself), and therefore am watching your videos, it's important to understand what the goal behind the kabbalah is. It is not simply a system of metaphysics; it is the metaphysical tradition to reinforce a sociological system, that is Torah. This being said, as the Rebbe Maharash said, one must always know where one stands in the universe, and therefore even the common man must understand the Seder Hishtalshelus.
Also, out of curiosity, are you Jewish yourself?
Hey a fantastic point! The fulfillment of mitzvahs is a major segement and point of explanation in the Kabbalah but is not the ultimate culmination of what you learn from it, rather learning why you should do this. This is common chassid understanding. Also, I am not Jewish - I just study Zohar a lot.
@@TheNemeton its more like... the purpose of kabbalah, although you're correct that much of kabbalah isn't specifically pertaining to mitzvos. But I think the relationship between Torah and kabbalah is somewhat misunderstood as if these are two separate things, or that the expression of kabbalah in behavior is something other than mitzvos (even things like amulets are for the sake of healing, or success, which are for the sake of mitzvos.)
Do you see it as truly received from Sinai or just interesting?
subtitle pls
Hey man, the site is synchronizing the text to the videos and it'll be good to go afterwards.
Great video Thank you
Thanks for the compliment
Very helpful video, thank you. I much prefer so "Elohim" created man in their own image.
Was studying christianity and the quran, now lately ive been studying torah and kabbalah.
And whats so fascinating is that they are all three some kind of newer copies of the sumerian texts, but with some added parts.
Alot of hollow content to fill out the texts, and alot of obvious facts or guessings from that time.
It continues to fascinate me how people actually fall for this bla bla and goes on "believing" in it.
If one must choose, science would act as a better religion than this.
It has more to give, more content and more facts to back it up with, and you can view the force of the universe as a kind of God
if one wish to too.
And that is the SAME FORCE of which all texts speak of, but if one get "caught" in the "labels" or names, the more one knows not. As YOU say it, it is a Force, so why bother with arguments bout names? "What in the name?" Science is another "name", Kabbalah another, Gnosis another, Krishna another, Zoroastrianism another, Sufism another, as many NAMES as cultures and persons there are. People have different names don't they? But yet no one dsays that because we have different names we are not both men, right? The same here. And that feeling of want to have "the only name" is what leads us to misunderstanding and conflicts between each other, not the actual Truth, since Truth makes not difference among its creation but sees only "similitude" as the Quran says it.
Just some "food for thought", thank you for shearing yours!
Grimmer2006 You can’t study the Quran without a Master! You can’t practice spirituality without a Master too! I hope you have found what you were looking for ✌🏻
cycling of life As a Sufi myself. Spirituality is for less people to understand. A Master search for his students. Iam a Muslim (Sunni) what I learn very less Muslims will understand it. That’s why Iam not talking about.
@@NoorNoor-ul5zh The Master is within, or The Messenger if you will, or Christ if one is a Christian. For Me, to get caught up in the "doctrines of men" is NOT The point of ALL True religions. It does not matter the name. Just like Al- ilāh or EL. Or HE, no name in particular that's why Allah has no translation. And it means there is no other God than "He" or "El".
"He is God. There is no God but He, the Knower of secrets and declarations. He is the Compassionate, the Merciful." (S.59 a.22) Exactly the same says the Bible just that it doesn't "call" God Allah but God or another unpronounceable "label". The point is there is only ONE GOD, Most High, Most Merciful. Just ONE, scriptures speak the same, ONE GOD. But if one gets caught up in " names" then most likely will come to conflicts thus contradicting the one that says there is only ONE GOD. If there is ONLY ONE GOD, then why are we arguing if His name is this or that?
You might want to look into the method of Baal Hasulam taught today by Bnei Baruch they have a series online called Kabbalah Revealed. The reason I mention it is because you’re interpreting Torah passages without the language of branches. Which is part of the mouth to ear part. It can be taught openly in this generation as it’s considered the last generation. I should just say that we’re taught that the tree of life is really formed through connection with a group a ten who have the desire for spirituality and to enter into it and through the barrier. That’s why it cannot be done alone. You create a ten and “create the creator” within the connections between the group. You are automatically locked into the left side which is self interest or reception and you have to build bestowal the right side on top of that. The left sorts itself out. So you have to develop this entirely new sense of bestowal through a ten. Our Rav says you can analyse this for years and never get anywhere because you need to use the authentic method not just analyse it. Anyway just thought I’d mention it.
There is too much "you" in this explanation that I guess are the words of a "rabi" a man, not the Lord. Who is this "you" that everyone speaks of? Does "you" even exists? I do not see any "you" in My World... Those worlds with "you" in them are not getting anywhere and that's why the "rabbi" says one can be analyzing endlessly and never get anywhere. The "rabbi" says it because that's exactly his job, to keep as many as possible stuck, specially those who are not worthy of the Truth. This "rabbi's" job, since he has been hired, is to search everyone's heart and put them in prison or let them free according to their deeds. Chase the Truth and It will always run away from the one that "works hard" to attain it. The Truth cannot be grasp or "achieved" or "attained" or "worked for", the Truth is a GIFT and there's absolutely NOTHING that man can do to "gain" Truth, otherwise it wouldn't be a gift but BRIBERY, which is the only "kind" of "gift" men knows. Just as men does not know True Love because men has never seen True Love, just as a fish has never seen anything other than water. The same is true with Love and Gifts. Perhaps the only thing one can do is SURRENDER but even that word has lost its true meaning, so when a men is told to surrender, he doesn't know what surrender is and thus cannot surrender, therefore it is impossible for a man to "attain" Truth.
There is a lot of reasons why your comment is correct @Scan End but the only way someone falls into the error of "creating the creator" is if they're disconnected from the actual messages and warnings of the same in the Kabbalah. For example, in the Zohar this is called "trying the divine" as in you are placing measurements and disconnects upon the divine within your own mind [which is in a way polytheism]. One of the Rabbanan who entered Pardes made this mistake as well and became a heretic.
I will say though and this isn't to be disconnected, the authentic method you mention at the bottom has been debated for like, what 2000 years now? Probably just a little longer considering Moses and Aaron. So, I don't know it's a big deal.
I mean I like Rav Berg and Laitman, but what about the Holy Ari or Mosheh Cordovero? Those guys have their names in Kabbalistic history for a reason.
Whoa, @cycling of life that's a pretty intense but accurate statement. The nature of Truth is wholly a complex one and we could say that the striving for it does not deliver it and it is most certainly a gift. Just a lot that goes into that. Thanks for the breakdown.
@@TheNemeton Thanks for your comment. Just I felt the need to make clear that the videos and information you share with us is not to say "this is the key" to Truth but just that, shearing of ideas so we can all add out little piece of the puzzle. But the rats race is ending Now and Here as it is being shown with "Corona" Virus, the Virus of the King. The time for philosophy has ended, not that there will be no more philosophy, that can never desapear, but those who didn't practice it now will have no understanding and time to do so.
This is a really interesting time for Kabalah and the Mysteries of the Most High God! Loving it!!! For the Good of All!
@@Fitandover40 Hey that's a really solid point. I'm really a context and analysis person and you've likely noticed I don't really present things as truths but rather try to clarify the perspectives and ideas on a textual or individual level. Maybe this is a personal strength or maybe it's a lack of vision, I don't know for sure.
Abrahadabra 369 the path is math (as above so so below) love is the law.........find your "shin" eat the fruit of the tree of life to become immortal to become a god to become as one of us !!! Thank you Raziel for teaching me the law!!!
Well anyway
Great.
Thanks, I'm glad you enjoyed it!
I’m new to this
What does it do?
What's it's intention?
Why kabbalah?
I understand prayers intentions,
I could even understand witch crafts intentions, but what does kabbalah do? Is it just meditation?
How would somebody use kabbalah?
What does it do?
I am Christian by the way!
Kabbalah is more of the over-arching subject which includes metaphyiscal concepts and theological expansions but ultimately can be used for anything from practical magick to meditation and odd mystic fusions. Unfortunately you have to treat each micro-section as its own subject in many ways.
Depends on what you want to do I'd say.
Why shall ye not Uncover the nakedness of our mother and father? What is this degree/secret?
That's actually a big part of Kabbalistic mysticism. There are many commands on what not to uncover and it represents the supernal secrets. It's similar to "don't throw pearls to swine" and simply to respect the secret levels of scriptural analysis. There's a lot more that goes into it, but that's the general point.
@@TheNemeton I get it. Are you on Twitter?
Love the fit
Ay thanks!
If the Kabbalah was originally passed on to Moises "orally", is it not just logical to think that this continues to occur in that way with whom the Most High chooses to transmit directly all this knowledge? Shouldn't not be the Most High the One that delivers all this knowledge? In other words shouldn't be other people, like, moses who had officially nothing to do with "common Judaism" yet he received the Kabbalah?
Well yes and no. The reception of Mosheh is considered very special. However you're very right, in that truth is distributable by the divine and receivable by "an open and proper vessel" which is in a sense spiritual revelation of various supernal and worldly truths.
This mostly deals with the Kabbalistic explanations on what information really is in a spiritual way.
What's funny is that we had all the wisdom before we trusted evil. And the Tree of Life is referring to Jesus Christ.
Now ask yourself, what is the entire story of Jesus Christ referring to?
Jesus Christ is a representation of a Proper Spiritual Transformation.
Many fail to truly grasp the Parables and Allegories in which he spoke.
Carnal Minds tend to gravitate towards Literal and Physical interpretations, Neglecting some of the most revealing scriptures contained in the Bible.
The Kingdom of Heaven is not outside of you, and that God is a Spirit and you must Worship him in Spirit and in Truth.
Most Christians think that there automatically saved by believing in Jesus Christ. If you simply believe in Jesus Christ without doing the work; its pretty Vain and self defeating. It’s Ignorant to think that you can sow and spread Wickedness throughout your life time and Just Because you Believe in Figurative Character that you automatically will obtain Salvation or Reap a Righteous Reward for Unrighteous acts in ones lifetime.
And Jesus Christ is reference to the pure love of consciousness
Amazing info
I'm thrilled you enjoyed it
First time viewing you channel. Good videos. Will keep watching.
Hey thanks man! I'm glad you're enjoying the content.
Someone has their Halloween costume early
Never considered that, solid idea!
So do most jews practice kabbalah, and is it capable with christianity you think. Definitely asking for a friend
Most Jews don't practice Kabbalah in the sense of studying it. Various Rabbanan reject Kabbalah entirely.
There is a christianized form to Kabbalistic metaphysics. It began in Sicily.
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What is a Golem, And, do or did the Nephilim create them?
A Golem is a human-like, intelligent creature that has been metaphysically/scientifically formed from a previously lifeless substance such as dirt/clay or earth. It is brought to life by a series of procedures, one way was by ritual incantations and sequences of the Hebrew letters. The Golem, then brought into being by a human creator, became a helper, companion, or a rescuer/guardian, depending on the selected use. One account was of a giant-sized protector, made to protect an imperiled Jewish community. This use of Golem’s was also the case with the Egyptians and they made Golem’s for labor work, physicians and soldier/guards for protection. There are indications that the advanced civilization levels of India and elsewhere did the same.
Both the Egyptians and Hebrews practiced “Magic”, a use of Metaphysical-Science (mystified and not well understood today). During the times of Moses and Noah, magic use was rampant and displayed continuously, as is written in the Bible and the Egyptian Priests records at that time. The use of Golem’s might be to control people, harm people, mess with weather, send diseases or destroy crops and finances, if out of line from basic civil values. (Arab Moon Magic often deals with forms of harming others and directly deals with Golem creations of a sort.)
In general, the image of the Golem was usually held in secret, because the Material-Figurine/Golem was used like a Voodoo Doll, for control of the Golem spirit-form. The intent was so the Golem Spirit would not get out of control and become insubordinate and disobedient, or even be stolen, used or harmed by someone else. After their creation, they began to develop will and individuality. In the case of Rabbi Loew’s (between 1512 and 1526) Golem, he inscribed YHVH on the forehead of his Golem and so when he was done with this Golem’s use, he removed the Deity name of YHVH from the Golem's forehead and the life essence departed. A time period (life-span) of how long the Golem would live was also programmed-in during their creation. The stone statues of earlier civilizations were likely Golem’s and their time of function may or may not be expired.
According to the Zohar (Rabbinical comment on the Torah for 2,000 years) we Humans were made of the same Omani-Powerful Forces of the Hebrew Letters, which were Omni-Present, Omni-Potent Gods in a Counsel of 23 beings and the name of the Head-God was never revealed in their books. This is the Elohim Council! “Adam was made from the dust of the Earth.” The great knowledge that the Hebrews and Egyptians had, originally came from the Nephilim. In the America’s, genetic half-brothers, Algonquin/Wabanaki people, at one time made Golem’s. They would designate a special person that took care of them. In one historical instance, called “The Keeper of the Doll”.
For going on 100 years, we have been developing a mechanical form of Golem’s, computers. They are “made from the dust of the Earth”, have people’s thoughts programmed in (whether ignorant, sociopathic or otherwise), and will be developing will. The largest allocation of computer time is towards warfare, spying and addictions of various sorts. Androids and Artificial Intelligence is already partly here and may climb to the “state of the art” in time.
As I see it, an increase in science and technology does not work to civilize man/womankind, but it does give them far greater weapons to abuse one another, exponentially. Our greatest developments should be in benevolence, fairness and civility and so we are behind! According to ancient and Biblical history, the populaces of Earth have had several major corrections initiated on them, when behaviors and choices drifted so far off as to be inimical to all life. Are we all ready to experience another massive Cosmic Correction??
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Cordially, Robert
@I would love to make you an immortal. You have such a keen mind.
A difference between Judaism and Christianity is the difference between Kabbalah, on the one hand, and wiki, or process theology and natural law, on the other. Jesus is Khabbalah incarnate and He provided the behaviors arising from the Tree of Life as applied epistemology. He simplifies the mystical rituals of Khabbalah into an active relationship with the Holy Spirit as a capitalist tool
The Tree of Life is a Jewish ouija board. It's a board game closely connected to the Major Arcana of Tarot and played like Chutes and Ladders. It order to be able to play the game, I believe you have to be fluent in Hebrew and have memorized Psalms, entirely. The spiritual optimism of Hillel leads one up the ladders and the unforgiving realism of Shammai drags one down the chutes.
Kabbalah is a psychologically challenging quest. Wiki is Aritotiliean in aspect and employs a superior ontology that employs the mysteries of Kabbalah at high noon instead of the uncertain lunar illumination of the Witch of Endor. If your motives are impure with Khabbalah, which is the human condition, the game can blow up on you. With wiki, method replaces motive.
Jesus teaches wiki.
I don't even know where to begin with this one lol
@@TheNemeton Don't try. Your pretensions will only get in your way.
Read 'Chicken Qabalah' and you'll know more than 90% of self titled qabalists. A great starting point imo
Oh yeah, I quite like that book. I feel in terms of my personal approach Beginning of Wisdom is what really got me. You can find a copy online at Sefaria.org
@@TheNemeton hey! Thanks for the response, mate! Sadly I'm still a bit lost on where to go past the basics. Crowley has books, I know Agrippa does too, I think I have some from the Order of the Rosy Cross. What would you suggest?
@@tylerwylde4100 it all depends on the lineage you want to follow. There is a more hermetic path, the new age, and the tradition chassid style. The hermetic is split in a few more ways with BOTA, Thelema, and more classic hermeticism.
Personally, I'm on the more jewish side of things so I stick to the Zohar and other related texts. It isn't best for everyone though.
Maybe check this out and if it doesn't interest you try Crowley / other writers on the subject.
www.sefaria.org/The_Beginning_of_Wisdom%2C_Introduction?lang=bi
[Scroll down past the Hebrew portions]
@@TheNemeton thanks for the info, I've always been a bit of a Thelemite, as some of my mentors were Thelemites as well, but I'm always interested in other traditions to see if the "click", y'know?
@@tylerwylde4100 for sure. I'm friends with many Thelema leaning kabbalists. We don't look at everything from the same perspective and on higher matters there is even bigger differences, but we get along either way
Can we get married
thanks
Thank you for your interest
I'm still trying to catch up with basic Kabbalah, since when I started many years ago there were only books to learn by. I am lacking knowledge to help explain my Star Crowned apparitions visions as a young man. I asked a Rabbi for help and got a copy of the Zohar. I will study along your teachings because you are straight foreword and not arrogant and or intentionally fatigue.
@@franksigwart9777 Zohar is a fantastic text for learning Kabbalah, I wish you the best!
Dry and over intellectualized. Don't get me wrong, I'm subscribing! But I've been finding that the beauty of the Torah-or even Jesus's esoteric teachings-are geared for even the poorest of intellect to chew on and ultimately receive light. That's the beauty and power of stories and imagery.
I almost dressed up like an alien with a blue, bleeding dot on my forehead to start teaching this stuff. Then I concluded there were some slightly impure intentions moving me towards that need. Still working on the proper approach ✌🏽
That's a good point in that scriptural text is designed in such a way that everyone can get something from it. Also, I wish you luck in doing instructional work in the future and believe you'll find the proper methods.
The Nemeton let me know if you're interested in exchanging the individual circumstances by which it all was unveiled in private. I'm fascinated by the patterns found across individual experiences.
Interesting that "you" have discovered those "impure" intentions. And that "you are still" working... Who is working? Who was\is impure? Who does need to teach the creation? Does I the Most High need helpers? Or do I, the Most High, Alpowerful Lord need assistance?
Check out Kabbalah revealed they use an authentic kabbalistic method. The impure intention is what is called the evil inclination which we all have. And that is self interest. You can summarise both Kabbalah and also esoteric Christianity as “love thy friend as thyself” and in order to do that you need a group because it’s an entirely new sense you are developing. Even when you think you love others it’s really for what is called reflected light of a good feeling smugness self satisfaction. Etc. True bestowal has to be developed in a process by a group of people who have the “point in the heart”. Hope it helps.
@@danh5637 “The narratives of the Doctrine are its cloak. The simple look only at the garment - that is, upon the narrative of the Doctrine; more they know not. The instructed, however, see not merely the cloak, but what the cloak covers.”
Wow so adam and eve are code for atom and electron and it says don't uncover their nakedness...
yall never give any credit where credit is dew.
I'm not gonna lie. I'm completely lost. I'm gonna have to watch this video again and find some other sources to try to wrap my head around this.
That's alright. Kabbalah has a bit of a cognitive dissonance early on and I don't feel like I'm the best at explaining things. Thanks for joining me in my endeavors.
@@TheNemeton I appreciate you doing this at all. And I'm excited to check out your other stuff. I think you explained it just fine. But it's a lot to take in all at once. XD Do you have any books you could suggest to me? I went to a local metaphysical convention this weekend. While my wife was hunting crystals, I was looking for any books or resources on hermeticism or the Kabbalah. Unfortunately, I found absolutely nothing.
So the primary hermetic text is The Corpus Hermeticum. You can fuse Hermeticism and Kabbalah easily via The Hermetic Arcanum (which is earnestly a bit advanced and more theological than many people are comfortable with, in fact it is very Freemasonic in how it's written). Beyond that, the Kabbalah has an insane amount of texts, like seriously a ton and the best starting place as a Western Occultist seems to always be Dion Fortune or even better Eliphas Levi's Transcendental Magic. For Kosher points, Kabbalah will be a serious uphill battle between cognitive dissonance and odd explanations, but Sefer HaBahir, Sefer Yetzirah, and Sefer HaZohar are all fantastic points to begin, albeit complicated with Sefer Yetzirah being the easiest to grasp initially, but also a text with immense depth.
@@TheNemeton That's exactly what I'm looking for. Thank you so much. I'm not super concerned about hard to grasp concepts so long as I have some sort of foundation. I'm hoping these can help me find that foundation. Once I have that, I feel like I might find a lot of what I've been looking for in regards to life in general, if that makes sense at all. The biggest struggle for me has been forming that foundation. I was raised typical non-Catholic Christian and have a pretty decent knowledge of the Bible which helps, but given some biases I have been fighting all my adult life, thus far it's been an uphill battle. Stumbling upon your videos and a few other has given me a sort of direction to delve into.
So basically it’s just intense torah study?
Strikingly, yes. Some of it contains cultural points based on the time period but that's about it.
It was a grape 🍇 vine ..
Very nice!
Ill used the name Kabbalah i dont need permission i will just ask to God myself instead of JONYHOPE
I'm not sure what you mean but you seem stoked so I'm happy for you!
The ⛧ the pentagon inside of your accult
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נצח Victory or eternity?
eternity "netzach" not only the root of the hebrew word to victory
I'm confused
It has different leanings based on who's using it, why, or when. You can see the same on something like Chabad.
[[Netzach: (lit. “eternity; conquest; victory”); the fourth of the seven Divine middot, or emotional attributes, and of their corresponding mortal middot, or spiritual emotions]]
@@TheNemeton תודה thanks
Why a Tree? You can use Tree For many meanings..
A Tree 🌲 is indeed a plant but you also can use it as the number 3 or a Triangle 🔺️ (Tetragrammaton, Trinity, T=🔺️).. This symbol 🔺️ that the illuminati love to use with the third eye in it, also stands for 'selfknowledge'..
'The forbidden knowlegde' is your correct zodiac sign..
To make use of your third eye, you only need to know 2 things; Know THYSELF and know THY WORLD (As above so below, as within so without)
Eye of Horus=
Horuscope + Horuszon
Without these realisations and awakenings the nervesystem stays blocked so the soul can't escape the body on time (reason why they did mummification)..
And your cremation will unfortunately end in a true hell..
Jesus cross (T) is also a Triangle and also stands for that selfknowledge.. Or, the horizontal line stands for the horizon and the vertical line for the balance ⚖ that you will get after a selfrealisation.
I had my selfrealisation in 2012 after reading my Zodiac sign for maybe 2 hours or so, and now 7 years later I not only know everybody's correct sign you need for a selfrealisation (activation of the third eye) but also know my 2 past lives and the origins of Creation with a pink sun(red&blue♀️♂️) and a green radium moon 💚
Hey man, I wanted to take a moment to give you some stuff. From your statement, "This symbol 🔺️ that the illuminati love to use with the third eye in it, also stands for 'selfknowledge'."
The Eye of Triune nature comes from Sefer Detzniyutha, a small internal segment within the Zohar wherein we find "the eye of subsistence, the open eye that permits the whole of emanated things."
Another item, the T cross is commonly attributed to the rod of Moses, it represents the presence and force of Elohim, hence why it is an item that rattles the nature of our world. This is also why it is also a serpent, because it has on both sides the force of life and death.
While I don't have nearly enough time to begin talking on metempsychosis as it relates to the body just know that cremation is only unfortunate until the reassembly of the body (theologically speaking).
"The mind of the the ignorant is many branched" says the "scriptures". It is bout knowing Thyself indeed but those who say they see, remain in sin, BECAUSE THEY SAY THEY SEE.
4:55 sephiroth pronunciation
sfirot is Hebrew, sephiroth is later English usages of the term
Ava and ima?
Usually Aba not ava. It's a linguistic consistency from Hebrew
Henosis and Kabbalah have different theological framework.
That isn't relevant here but you're correct
First of all you never start from bottom up but up to bottom and Kabbalah comes from the Hebrew word לקבל which means to receive this ancient mystical wisdom from a master that was passed on from generation to generation as a guid ,blue print. So even though you introduce some proper basics you don’t seem to know the very building blocks of this ancient study.. you also sound like Hebrew is not your first language there for its much harder for you to understand the significance of this ancient wisdom which is studied in Aramaic translated to Hebrew. I suggest people don’t listen to you because you simply do not know enough
Your analysis is quite good!
So I'll discuss your points as you took the time to write them out.
To receive is a fine means of expression as I stated that it is believed that Kabbalah comes all the way from Moses to today via the generations, I believe I mentioned that in this video.
You are correct, Hebrew is not my first language nor do I well understand Aramaic, I have to use translations or go to other people at times.
On the matters of significance, surely you've seen Kav haYasher. If not you can find it on sefaria - very chassidic, very good text!
On not listening, I can understand, yet I'd suppose you're disinterested in my newer Kabbalah videos anyway so there's no room to change your mind.
Oh, I missed one point.
Yes I know the emanative process and sfirothic revealment starts from the top heading downward but for the telling sfirothic titles I'd not see it as much an issue. Especially so considering yichudim.
I guess also the suggestion is exactly that a suggestion, but at the end of the day each one of us decides, on their own, what one watches or not. If one doesn't like it, don't watch, very simple, and let the others make their own decision, without the need for using "suggestive methods" which usually include some form of devaluation of the subject being judged, that is the need to "kill" to "eat". The fact that one "suggests" others and has the need to "kill", to do such and such SHOWS there is no UNDERSTANDING.
I just want to know what a sefirot is, that is all, thats why I clicked on the thumbnail. This video is terribly unorganized, watching the entire video, I still leave with the same question. What is a sefirot? I dont understand the importance of an abstract tree and circles with random words? What does it mean, what can it do, what is it for? I am getting so exhausted of men who do not know how to organize their life... You need to organize and start from the beggining.
A sfirot is a quality of the divine nature made manifest.
If you're having issue with it conceptually I suggest studying general metaphysics.
@@TheNemeton thank you
Tree of life, why? Simply bcz of the physical nerves tree within humans body start from the head towards the feet.
Book of formation, formation of what? The human body of course.
Gevura is strength and not judgement.
22 letters relative to 22 human voice vibration can generate, and cannot generate more then that.
Yeah the bodily correlations are quite fun. Plenty to learn there
@@TheNemeton The only way to learn from. As above so below. 🙏
In the beginning were stones, then came trees, then living creatures, then the mind to research the whole process of origin.
Therefore "receive" what?
A frequencies!
Stones particles are the base of existence.
That's why those physical space bodies were named STAR after all.
STone and AR/OR (a light).... common names sharing light, ARI Hakadosh, ARIES(lamb), ARYE(lion) etc.
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Thanks, me too
Interesting how Satan wanted Adam and Eve to eat from the Tree of Life and YHWH feared them doing so, which is the real reason why Adam and Eve were expelled from Eden. Genesis 3:22: And the LORD God said, "The man has now become like one of us, knowing good and evil. He must not be allowed to reach out his hand and take also from the tree of life and eat, and live forever."
See, those are the big questions right?
The Nemeton Absolutely, what are your thoughts on the depiction of YHWH as tyrannical and Satan as a liberator?
@@Xeper616 great question. I find it mostly due to the perspective of the human being. A normal person thinks "they were given power" by way of eating the fruit, but in actuality they were reduced, because original Adam was unknowingly male and female, without separation, therefore he was closer to Atziluth and the truly divine. Immortal states are associated with Briah, therefore external existence doesn't even compare to the true divine state of the highest.
It's an unfortunate confusion in many ways.
The Nemeton Was it not God who pulled Eve out of the side of the original hermaphrodite Adam? Regardless, it’s certain YHWH was against Adam and Eve eating from the Tree of Life, which is described as making humanity divine.
Hmm, you know that's a really good point. There are definitely things to be considered and I'll have to think on it for a while. Maybe one day we can do a full discussion / video on it.
Is this satanic?
No, it's Jewish.
Yes and no... It depends of how one looks at it, but it could be either... You choose, "eat from the tree of knowledge" or "eat from the tree of Life", make your choice, Live or Die, tic tac. lol
@@TheNemeton what's the difference
What is SATANIC?
Who are you?
Who are you?
this way too confusing
Well I appreciate you checking it out anyway
Do you consider yourself to be a good person? Most people do. However, most of us differ as to the definition of "good." The Bible says that God is good, and the Ten Commandments are His standard of goodness. So, we will look at God's Law . . . With a tender conscience, ask yourself if you have obeyed the following:
You shall have no other gods before Me. (Have you always loved God above all else?)
You shall not make yourself an idol. (Have you made a god in your mind that you're more comfortable with, a god to suit yourself?)
You shall not take God's name in vain. (Have you ever used God's holy Name as a cuss word?)
Remember the Sabbath Day, to keep it holy.
Honor your father and mother.
You shall not murder. (God considers hatred to be as murder).
You shall not commit adultery. ("Whoever looks upon a woman to lust after her has committed adultery with her already in his heart" Matthew 5:27-28; this also includes sex before marriage).
You shall not steal. (Have you ever stolen anything? the value of the item is irrelevant).
You shall not lie. (Have you lied even once? Including answering these questions).
You shall not covet. (Have you ever jealously desired what belongs to others?)
The Bible says that God will punish all murderers, rapists, thieves, liars, adulterers, etc. He will even judge our words and thoughts. On Judgment Day, will you be found to be guilty or innocent of breaking His commandments?
Perhaps you think that God is good, and will therefore overlook your sins. But it is His goodness that will make sure that murderers, rapists, thieves, liars, etc. receive justice. He would be a corrupt Judge if He turned a blind eye to injustice. Have you kept the Commandments?
The Bible says that the Law is perfect. It commands you to be perfect (Matthew 5:48). Are you perfect (in thought, word, and deed)? Will you make it to Heaven? You may say that you are still good, but God says you're not (see Psalm 14:2-3). So one of you is lying, and the Scriptures tell us that it is impossible for God to lie. Remember that all liars will be cast into the Lake of Fire (Revelation 21:8). God's Law demands justice, and the penalty for sinning against Him is death and Hell. Listen carefully if you want to live.
God Himself made a way where His justice and His goodness could meet. We broke the Law, but He became a man to pay the fine. Jesus suffered and died on the cross to satisfy the Law. God can forgive us and grant us the gift of everlasting life! But you may still think that you can (from now on) keep the Ten Commandments. But isn't it true that the best of us have lied, stolen, lusted, hated, failed to love God above all else, and failed to love our neighbor as ourselves?
How can we then, live a "good" life if we have already sinned against God? At best we are reformed liars and thieves . . . but still Lawbreakers. Think of it this way - would you sell one of your eyes for a million dollars? Would you sell both for $50 million? I'm sure you wouldn't. Your eyes are priceless, yet they are merely the windows of your soul. What then must your life (soul) be worth? With these thoughts in mind, what would be a fair price to pay for everlasting life? It is utterly without price. Yet, if we trust in our own goodness to enter Heaven, we are saying to God, "I should enter Heaven because I have done good - I have earned my way in."
Imagine if you wanted to give me a brand new (very expensive) car, but I said, "I can't take it! I feel embarrassed receiving such a gift . . . here's 10 cents for it." I'm sure you would be very insulted by such a pathetic offer of payment. Besides, if I pay for it, it is no longer a gift, it's a purchase . . . it's mine by right.
When we talk of entering Heaven by being good, by trying to keep the Ten Commandments etc., we are tossing God 10 cents of "self-righteousness," which is a terrible insult to Him, in the light of His sacrifice. The only thing we can do is humble ourselves, repent of our sins, and receive the gift by trusting Jesus Christ alone. Almighty God demonstrated how much He loves you when Jesus suffered for you on the cross. If you want to trust in your own goodness, then you are saying His agonizing death on the cross was in vain. The Bible says, "For by grace are you saved through faith, and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God." You cannot earn a gift.
When Jesus said to "believe" on Him, He was saying we should have faith in Him, in the same way you would trust a parachute to save you when you jump from a plane. You don't merely believe in the parachute - you put it on. Please don't "jump" without Jesus. If you die in your sins there is no second chance. God will give you justice, and you will end up in Hell forever. Any troubles you have at present are dwarfed by the trouble you are in with your Creator. His wrath abides upon you (John 3:36). God doesn't want you to go to Hell. Neither do you want to go there, so confess your sins to God right now, put your trust in Jesus to save you, and you will pass from death to life. Then read the Bible daily and obey what you read. (See John 14:21). Your obedience to God is the proof of your love. Have faith in God, He will never fail you.
Pray something like this:
"Dear God, today I turn away from all of my sins (name them). This day I put my trust in Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. He is the only way for me to be saved. He is 'The way, the truth, and the life.'" Please forgive me, change my heart, and grant me Your gift of everlasting life. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen."