I’m lying down next to a girl that I think I’m falling in love with. She’s asleep and I’m listening on my headphones. Life is good and also weird and also confusing and I’m also unsure. What a trip
I love this, brother. Those days pass so quickly, but they shape who you are forever. Enjoy the utter bewilderment of it all, and how utterly insignificant it makes you feel. As we say here in Scotland... 'Lang may yer lum reek'.
@@merlindogs9703 and that's okay brother. Love just like life is fleeting, enjoy the times that were (even if they were only 3 weeks ago) because the most beautiful moments in life are often followed by the hardest.
I've read through a lot of what this comment section has to say and this is very accurate. There's beauty, sadness, love, loss, confusion, pain, and everything in between. Hundreds of different stories in here about every deep human emotion all brought up by this one song, amazing.
This is so well put. I think that most good art whether a piece of music or a painting has this quality where it gives us a means of reflection and can bring stuff out of us that gets buried.
My mom has cancer. Since everyone is sharing. I’m 22. About to open my first office and have my first employee. Just recovered from a seizure. I’m not stopping. I’ll make my mom proud. I wish you the very fucking best.
Sigue así, quisiera que la barrera del idioma no nos distanciara y quisiera poder expresar lo que siento hacia ti con algo más complejo y específico que el lenguaje; pero es la herramienta que tengo para llegar a ti, y, desde lo más profundo de mi corazón , te lo juro por mi madre, quiero lo mejor para ti, quiero que sepas que eres fuerte y nunca te olvides de ser feliz. Desconozco como haya sido tu relación con emociones como la felicidad, la tristeza, el enojo, etc. en tu vida, pero espero que, en todas las felicidades, tristezas y enojos que pasaron y que pasaran, al final de el día , encuentres plenitud. Pero más que nada, te encuentres a ti. Ama, llora, ríe, sueña y siente sin descanso, Por qué nunca sabrás lo fuerte que eres, hasta que ser fuerte sea la única opción.
I’m 41. Been married for 15 years, have two daughters, own a home, decent paying job. And it’s all happened in the blink of an eye. Seems like just yesterday I was a jackass 23 year old without a responsibility in the world. This song sums up how I feel when I look back at everything, how it’s all unfolded, and how it all had to happen (even the bad stuff) the way it did for me to have the life I do today. Life’s a trip, what might seem like something small today is leading you down your path to where you’ll be, and you can’t even realize it (yet). If you’re young and reading this, live it up and enjoy it, you’re in “the good old days”. You never know where today’s decision or minor detail is taking you. And you’re gonna be 41 too before you know it.
Im so scared of the future. I don't know where I will go after I finish school, and I can't even think about having my own family. But reading your comment made me realize that adults are also just a bunch of grown up kids and we should enjoy our lives. We only live once!!
listened to this chilling out after full on Goa partys in the 90s....good memories, those were the times, they won't come back but as long you remember it , it is not gone. I am 51, btw, but would go back any time if I had a Tardis....
Thank you, just thank you soo much to remembering that to us, im gonna turn 20 in next mounth and i was needing to remember that again. Because the things just makes me tired most of the time. I live in Turkey as a average Turkish young and i feel in void. i gotta ask you, no matter which standart i live, is things gonna be bearable at least?
@@beareleaseYes. The universe, god, nature, whatever it is - won’t throw anything your way that you can’t handle. Be good and life, even when challenged, will be good too.
To me this struggle just makes things worse. When I‘m at peace and have accepted the world, I know that in just a few minutes or hours I will feel pain until I think I’ll break for good now. A neverending cycle.
@@ahmedaudi5050 The chances of it happening again and again in the future are high, but think if you knew it would even happen once more. Know one day at some point it's going to happen and you'll feel as good as you felt.
I like to imagine that, here, at the comment section, we just gather around this music and share bits of ourselves. Total strangers, who happened to cross each other's ways by bumping into this random, yet special, piece of art.
The internet turned out to be so messy but comment sections like these take me back to the early days of the internet. Just a bunch of totally unrelated people doing their thing and connecting without a hidden agenda. This is what I love so much about the internet.
Today I was found not guilty for a crime I didn't commit, it's been a brutal 6 months and this song came in my feed. With that and reading the comments, it made me tear up and value my life more
I am currently fighting a case of robbery, aggravated assault as a juvenile, a crime I did commit, I have court coming up in June, any advice? I'm currently on house arrest.
Currently recovering from two emergency brain surgery's. Sitting in my garden with a coffee on a beautiful sunny morning, sun on my face, breeze gentle blowing the trees, birds chirping and singing, the distant sound of cars going by all add more beauty to this track. Happy to still be here 🙏🏻
“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.” -Lao Tzu.
@@westarrr you are correct, I tried to research where this quote came from but i wasn’t able to find anything. I did find that a lot of very old quotes are often credited incorrectly though. Very surprising because this has been one of my favorite quotes for years. Much love man
Came home from uni today. Took a walk through the woods, past the spot I had my first kiss, the place I used to smoke at, and the spot I tried to take my own life. Just watching the water move at it’s own pace and my breath in the cold was true peace life can be beautiful bros
hey take care dude hopefully youre doing alot better now and if you arent doing well keep pushin dont give up Youll get there! and the fact that you got this far is already pretty dang impressive so keep going mate
Hey brother I hope and pray you are feeling better and stronger mentally . This life everyday bring me down but you gotta keep pumping keep thriving it’s time to Focus .
I'm at the lowest point in my life while listening to this. I have a tumor in my knee and am unable to jump, run, or stand properly without pain. About a month ago I was driving home when someone turned out in front of me, resulting in a tbone wreck that totaled my car and injured me mentally and physically. Although I have recovered from the physical injuries, the wreck has caused me to become depressed again and demotivated to push toward my goals or even do the things I usually enjoy. I've spent the last couple years alone and in pain, wishing for at the very least a friend who can understand me. I turn 17 soon and I am in the same place I was years ago, but now I discovered this music. I hope that sometime in the future I can look back at this comment and see how my life has improved and changed for me.
You got this bro, the dark times will pass you, ik it feels like it won't but take it day by day, and in no time you will be where you wanna be. I believe in you
Hey, you are not alone mate! We hear you, i feel you! Everything happens for a reason, there is only upside from here ! When times are good be grateful, when times are bad be graceful. NEVER GIVE UP!
UA-cam comments are so beautiful when you think about it. Especially on videos like this. Here we are, all of us strangers, sitting together with this gentle song as we leave little pieces of ourselves for others to discover. Here I am part of something much bigger than myself. Here I see others out from under the guise of an introduction or a first impression. We can simply leave things of ours such as our thoughts, our wisdom, or stories for anyone else at all who might appreciate and just now I find that so beautiful. Thank you for reading this little piece of me.
Thank you for this. I find certain Aphex Twin tracks (this being one) gently pushes us to be self-reflective and philosophical. This is a go-to for me when I need inner peace. Headphones on, lights off: peace.
I am 26 years old. I have been a carer for my unwell parents for the last 3 years. I don't see my friends, I don't have any love in my life, I am isolated from the world and very alone. I am a deeply sad man. Every day I feel further from myself than the last. This song, this comments section, allows me to both pity myself and maintain a glimmer of hope that things will get better, that my life will improve. That one day I can again feel like the man I was who now seems a stranger. I hope all of you here now, who will be in the future, find happiness and peace, whatever form that takes for you.
May Allah heal your parents and heal your heart >> brother this life is cruel , I pray your parents get health and you also become joyful adventurous man again. Inshallah, I am 21 an immature tbh.
I’m also about to be 26 yo. From experience I can say that i have felt that feeling, sometimes it’s exhausting, other times it feels warm and a place comfortable. 6 months ago i decided to change my life, there are always ups and downs in this path to do what YOU want, and not what others want from you. It’s a long way, nothing you wouldn’t know by now. Don’t settle for what is happening right now. Make a change my man. You got it
i think most of us don’t realize how technology has changed us and how intertwined and connected we became. the total opposite is being said, we are being told that we are losing connections bonds with people but here we are millions of total strangers gathering in a comment section offering a look from a small window to our lives. we come together to tell our story, share our pain and cherish our good memories. we are human and we are connected. it is incredibly hard for me to live a life where i dont stop and think about the others who walked on the same streets as me or drank from the same cafe as me. it is exhausting at most times but sometimes it can be comforting. i go through the comments read bits and pieces of you guys’s lives and i smile, i get sad with you or i relate to your struggles. then when its time i like your comments and wish you the best. to all the strangers out there reading mine comment, have a wonderful day❤
not an realistic view brother, local communities are being destructed by social media, for example in the west no stranger ever talks to each other with good virtue like we used to do before the internet
Just discovered this gem today, October 28, 2023. I'm at a point of my life where I am still unsure about what next steps I should take. Hearing this, atleast for a couple of minutes was pure bliss. I guess I needed the break. Hopefully in the next time I check into this song, I have life figured out- or maybe at least have a sense of direction. Best regards to you future self!
for you who are reading this message, I want you to swear that you will never give up, no matter what happens in life, always believe that something beautiful will happen.
@@candycouldntbesosweet it's bad to lose someone that you have strong feelings towards them, like you mentioned. but please remember that sad happenings can lead out into better opportunities. so even if you lose someone like her, please do remember that someday you'll find someone that can be just like her, or even better, just trust me.
I’m a 22 year old single father. I lost my job a couple days before thanksgiving and have just finally gotten a new one. I’m falling in love for the first time since the mother of child left us for alcohol over a year ago. I’m healthier than I’ve ever been. I’ve regained my love for reading. I have picked up new hobbies. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been even though I’m in the most stressful position I’ve ever been in. Things get better. Life has a billion small joys that must be sought out. Keep going and you can find them.
Last October I left France for England, after 2 years of hard work and saving money I finally afforded me a music production school based in Manchester. On 17th October, after saying goodbye to my dad I jumped in my car, and started a very long journey to England. On 20 th October I finally arrived in Manchester. After few days of room research, finally found a place to stay. a lovely room in the suburbs of Manchester (Salford/ walkden). There was a lake next to my place that I used to walk almost every day even though it was raining and cold lol. There was this bunch at the lake where I used to sat and listening to this track with a good view on the lake. Damn it felt so good. Then I discovered that pub 5 min walking from my home, a pub full of very good lads, they all accepted me. Had very great times there My class was perfect, good student, good teacher. My times there was Epic. On Monday morning 12th December I made a song, I posted it on SoundCloud then send it to my dad, he responded me " son you getting better and better " On Monday evening, my step mom send me a text saying " your dad was admitted to the emergency cause he was feeling very bad and kept puking. The next day doctor found a pancreatitis to my dad. My step mom went to see him at hospital she told me he's very tired. On Wednesday 14th I woke up at 9am check my phone, I had a text from my step mom saying that he still tired but he's doing fine he's on his way to recovering Here's come 12pm I got a phone call from my step mom saying " your dad passed away ". I was there alone in my room sitting on my bed, couldn't realised what was going on. I bought myself a ticket flight the next day to go back to France, I had to quit my school and everything I started in Manchester. 7 months later I'm here in his house taking care of his dogs, and still listening to this music, watching stars in the sky at the same times and thinking about him. He was a very good man, always here for me. I can say I'm very proud to be his son ! All this made me realized that life is too short, and you have to enjoy every moment you spending on this planet. Thank you England for this very good experiences. Rest in peace dad, we will meet again. I love you forever dad ♥️
Thanks for sharing this❤️ too bad you had to leave school. Some day, a new oppertunity will appear. But it will only appear id you are open to it. Good luck and may your father rest in peace.
Hey man, I didn't know ur father but I can 100% tell u honestly that he was so so proud of u man. Going after ur dreams, building a career, and then also making the most of an unfortunate situation. I'm proud of u too bro, u keep going n just know that ur an inspiration to many strangers from all across the world (including myself) bless up brother, hope you and ur fam are doing well, and give ur father's dogs a pet for me bro🙏🙏
Im sorry for you man. Im glad you had such an great father figure in your life. Every time you feel sad about your loss, remember those amazing experiences you had with your dad, as simple as they may be, always remember them and look back on them. Good luck to you 🫶
I doubt anyone will read this but I wanna journal this moment of my life here. I’m currently laying down on a bench at my college, staring at the empty blue sky and thinking about how I’m both in an incredible, but equally lonely point in life. I feel so happy with how much I’ve powered through just to be going back to college and doing something I love. It feels lonely being here, all my friends have graduated, I’m 23 now. I feel like I’m not able to relate to anyone on campus as I’m not young, but I’m certainly not old. I feel alone in my accomplishments.
Hey man idk you but I just want to say keep up the good work. To do things in life alone can be agonizing; however, you should appreciate how beautiful it is to be with yourself. I think everyone goes through points in their life where they have to be lonely so they can learn to be with themselves comfortably. You are the person who you will spend the rest of your life with so you might as well love every moment with yourself. I do understand how you feel, but just know you're going to be okay, always:) good luck my friend
Join a local community that values you and can celebrate your accomplishments as you celebrate theirs! They are out there, and you can carve your own niche in any community. There are thousands more just like you, creating and accomplishing alone, hoping for unique and powerful connections like they had when school cohorts made it impossible not to make them. You will find them, and they will find you, if you look.
@@swayor I actually gained this exact mindset after I posted the original comment, I’m currently in the process of starting a club on my college campus related to music and music discussion
leaving for the military today, this song helped me calm my mind and ease the thought of entering the unknown. i hope i can come back and listen to it when i make it through and have my life together.
I’m currently 17, I just finished my first trimester of junior year. Hopefully i’ll come back to this song later on in my life and realize how good my life was during this time. To the future me, thank you for sticking around, be yourself. Enjoy the people you have around you. I know it’ll get hard. You need to help yourself before you help others.
we are in this together man. its hell but i can tell this is the last time i have before i lose the child in me, which is probably already gone. 17 feels so young yet so grown, why do i feel this way at such a young age 😭
When I was in utero my dad would play aphex twin and place headphones on my mums stomach. He used to wake me at dawn and bundle me in his arms as we strolled to the crisp Cornish beach to catch the sunrise listening to ambient works. When I was older he’d wake me up on nights where his insomnia was particularly bad and we’d stroll to the beach arm in arm watching the stars. I came across this as I’m sat in a daze alone in my bedroom. I’m 24 now, just under four years ago I woke to find my dads body after he took his own life. He requested #3 Ambient works as one of the songs for his funeral. I can’t listen to that album anymore without feeling deep turmoil, but this song gives me some will to fight. I feel as if my silhouette is a lightbulb and I could shatter at any moment but even still, there’s something in me willing to find the light.
You had an amazing dad.. treat your future child with similar childhood without negatives. I find your story beautiful. Its very sad but you wrote it beautifully
After my sister died, my dad gave up. I was twenty at the time. He didn’t end his life in one tragic event, but after he died we learned he was having heart problems and instead of seeking treatment that would have absolutely prolonged his life for decades, he chose to embrace death. He even asked days before he died if I would be able to take care of myself if something were to happen to him. It’s crazy to think I knew he needed peace in that moment, without knowing the consequences, and I told him I would be ok. My younger sister held onto anger for him for a long time, but I never did. I knew his soul was in pain and thus couldn’t see how much pain he would leave behind. My sister always runs through her head why we weren’t enough to keep him going, even ten years later. Would he have been able to hold onto his will to live if it was one of us and not the sister who died before him? I never thought that way, though. I know he couldn’t see the burden he would place on our shoulders or all the things that took place in the wake of his death. He didn’t know. And I’ve never felt a thing but forgiveness for that, for we are all human.
Me and my ex just broke up. She loved to listen to apex twin. Somehow I found myself stumbling upon this video reminiscing. Not a bad but thankful reminiscence. Thankful we met. Thankful for how she changed me as a person. Thankful that we still share the same sun. Even though we couldn’t see eye to eye on our differences I still wish her the best. I’ll always remember the times we spent in room 450
@@LordHaveMercy Kinda crazy I was listening to this and tought this you should dono, some real actually good music to share. Then I look comments see you here.. Small world.
My friend lost his battle against cancer this morning. He was the most amazing person i have ever met. I'm currently just not even sure what to do with my life, he has brought so much joy into my world. And now he's gone. Rest in peace, Matthew, you will be immensely missed.
Sounds like Matthew was a great guy, and I'm really sorry for your loss, I can't imagine how you must be feeling. I hope things can get better for you, for his friends, and for his family. I'll be praying for ya and sending love your way. Blessings to you and yours, and may Matthew rest in peace ❤🙏
Listening to this while I‘m zoned out in my bed and suffer because I lost my Dad who was my hero, my idol and my best friend through all these times. I still can’t get over it and have to think about him everyday. Today would‘ve been his birthday… Happy Birthday Dad, I love you and I always will
I wish the best for you in life mate, rest in peace to your father. I lost mine at 6 months old, I am now nearly 24 and not a day goes by that I do not think about him. Push yourself and be the best person you can be.
I'm so sorry for your lost. Just would like to remind you, you are not alone. You are strong enough to keep going. I lost mine last year, two months after I lost mine grandma, and he told me after that day, "the carrousel of life stop for a sec, she goes down, and the carrousel started again, life goes on" Wish u good luck
My wife is on the other side of the room studying for school. My kids play with their toys just before bed time. I just got done doing dished by hand after a long day at work. This will be my day tomorrow and I am totally okay with that.
Ive instructed my friends and family for years that this song is to be played at my funeral. There should be no eulogy, no talking, just this song and silence. Played one time, and then its over. Everyone is to go home, and get on with their lives. Over the years much has changed, but not this. Never this.
This song makes me appreciate what it is to be human. In a world full of deception and false glory, going through core emotions with yourself is still so real. Especially while listening to this song… take care.
It’s a Monday night/ Tuesday morning, it’s 2am and I was just about to head to bed and went to the kitchen to grab a drink then seen light shining through the window and went outside and seen it was a full moon. I don’t know why but I decided to get my headphones and listen to this song while watching the moon and stars. It’s a warm night and the sky is clear and for the first time in years I feel as if I’m at peace. I never really sit down to enjoy the little things in life cause life has been passing through so fast recently and it feels as if everything has sorta stopped and it’s just me and only me in this moment but while I was reading through the comments I was touched by the amount of people in here sharing a story so thought I’d add my own little one in here. The world is so beautiful but also so cruel at the same time, I need to appreciate things more in the sense as nothing lasts forever. I see why sunsets are so pretty, they may happen most days but only for a certain amount of time. It’s very quiet as i sit here at night time just looking up at the sky. The air feels clear, my mind feels free and the universe seems to stop for a minutes while I just lay here watching the stars in the distance and the full moon shining down. Appreciate little things like this.
I have so much fear of playing this, because if whenever i do, hours pass away, emotions flow like gushing river, cant focus on work to be done. I've always wanted to have some music that i have reserve for rare moments (good or bad) and this is the only one till now. Its a masterpiece. Thank you Aphex Twin
She’s my first thought in the morning when I open my eyes, and my last thought when I close them. I hope one day our paths converge again, for good this time. Forever and always.
My 8 year relationship fell apart last January, it’s transitioning from fall to winter now, for the entirety of 2023 I was stuck in limbo, not knowing what to do with myself everyday felt like a repeat. Listening to this while waiting to clock into work, I can feel 2024 will start a completely new and foreign chapter in my life. I am at peace now.
Hey, keep going, i totally got that, i think im falling down the same path with my gf and feel i cant do anything about it… 2024 will be a better year hopefully.
i’m 22 years old and i just stumbled across this song. i love the fact that everyone is sharing their stories as they come across this song, so i figured i’d add my own. the path i’m on feels so uncertain. i know i’m still young, but i feel like life is rushing by me faster than i can keep up with. i’m at a point in my life where i feel as though i’ll never find happiness, but these comments gave me hope and reminded me i need to slow down. the song feels a lot like me coming to this realization. instead of worrying and overthinking everything all the time, i need to let go and just go with the flow of life and let it take me wherever it’s gonna take me. i feel a lot lighter with the decision that i’m going to just live life and let it do it’s thing rather than me trying to control every aspect and keep up with my peers who i am often jealous of. i always seem to think they have better things than me and a brighter future, and maybe that’s true, but i need to just let my life run its course. i don’t need to have everything figured out… i’m only 22 after all. sometimes i just get so caught up in being alive itself that i forget to actually live. thank you to everyone who left a comment on this video, you all helped me realize things will get better eventually and everything will fall into it’s right place, whatever it may be. i just have to be patient and wait on it.
two days ago i had one of the worst days of my life and cried for more than an hour straight while watching videos of my dad who comitted suicide a few months ago and now im sitting at my dining table studying classical mythology with the sun shining off and on through my window thinking 'oh what a wonderful world we live in. it is going to be okay' and it is. it will. i am speaking to you, someone who is also having a tough time, you will find moments where you'll think this exact same thing, you will find peace and light and safety again. and i believe in you and i love you and i still miss my dad and wish he was here but i also still love him very much. and time will heal all wounds i promise
Last winter i was extremely depressed and listened to this song alot, i cried to it alot. I used to feel so incredibly empty but recently im feeling way better and hope this winter will be better. I hope everyone who is struggling sees through their struggles.
Last winter was the lowest ive ever been in my life. I remember queueing this song three times in a row while taking the metro to work, and just listened to this for 30 minutes straight. I learned from what happened last year and things got better in the summer, but its getting tough again. I hope things will be different this year.
Last winter and the start of 2023 was really bad for me. It's so easy to slip into a depression, and once you are there its so hard to see any way out. This winter will be much better. We will do great :)
I feel you man, currently just clawing my way out of a rut right now. This kind of music is quite therapeutic and I think is necessary to start healing. If you are into foo fighters I can suggest their earliest albums "Exhuasted" hits you right in the feels
I'm listening to this knowing it is time for me to take action and chase my goals because nobody is going to save me, to all of you out there i wish you the best guys we can do it. I Belive in you🙌
Im still alive, these past months have been hard, i broke up with the girl i thought i would marry, no job, and other things, but i believe that one day i will be happy, this feeling of sadness is temporary
Reading all these comments really helped me feel like i wasn’t alone with my problems. Its one thing for a parent or guardian figure in your life to say to you “you’re not alone”, but really seeing it with your own eyes is something else man. I appreciate all of you and am glad that you were all able to share your stories and experiences. Thank you, cheers 🍻
@@jackassir6060yeah I miss my cat. Had him for 15 years as I grew up and had such a bond with him unlike any other. This music makes me reflect on past times good and bad. As much as we want them back, it’s apart of life to live, love, grieve and appreciate the family, friends or companions we lost. Thankfully we had the memories and that never goes away.
I listen to this song every night to help me sleep but it usually ends up keeping me up, thinking about life, where I want to be, where I am, if I’m doing it right. Half the time it’s that or the other half is thinking about this girl that I’ve only been on one date with recently but she is just, well, different. Makes me smile, makes me happy. This music is the core of music
Not even halfway through this video and I’ve shed the first tears I’ve had in years. I miss my family but they’ve all accepted that I’m different from them and moved on. I just want to feel loved by my parents again, I want my father to be proud of me without denying me affection.
Clayton, we don’t know each other aside from sharing this piece of music. I think and believe that a person who can really express himself, is someone who I can look up to, who I can be proud of. Focus on building up your self confidence . How? By having fun being with yourself, doing things by yourself, exercise, play, distract from bad augury. Don’t carry yourself around, enjoy yourself while being yourself.
It's 6:22 am (EST), 15th January 2024, third week of the year. Our shops have just been looted and burnt down in the last few days. It all happened in a blink of an eye. I thought I was gon loose my job. My partner is pregnant with our first child, the thought of losing a job and the responsibilities of being a father. Thank God, I'm still here. I hope I can revisit this video when I have everything I always dreamed about.
You can do it my friend! You are strong hearted, face the hardships of the world and win for those you love, for their true happiness. Look for role models out of good people, let their way guide you to forge a good life
I've been a lonely person in my whole life. I had no purpose. But Today was the first day that I felt Power. First time I felt like an adult. My father got invited to a dinner party and I went with him. For the first time in my life I talked with people who I always wanted to become. Free. Happy. Ambitious. I talked with them like a man. Had amazing conversations.. I found what I want in life. My path. My goal. I will succeed
😂 billions nor millions 👉 the stable firm earth doesn't rotate only the celestial as we are in the FIRMAMENT 😊 and the earth should be less than 20 thousands years old
This is my first comment ever. I'm one of those people that are too ashamed of sharing their feelings and feel that everything about them is embarassing. I'm 15 and struggling with life, alone, well, I'm just too different from others. Family problems and had a very hard childhood, worried for my 2 brothers and 4 sisters. Mother hates me now because of father, and father expects too much of me. There's just so much I wan't to share with people but they never understand, they just...never do. Most of the time I feel like I'm not living and just exist. Thank you Aphex twin for all the emptiness and I swear it, I will never forget this song.
I feel like that because of the insane speed that the world is moving, we often get caught in the routine of the daily life and get used to think only in ways that would make us more effective and successful. Tracks like this remind me of a distant place and time, before 18 when everything had a special vibe and I had a lot of moments just to stop, listen to music while watching the sunset, and think. Those times feel long gone and forgotten, but every now and then I come around a track like this and remember to stop, and think
nah man, i feel you brother, back then we would just sit, listen to some chill songs and just stare at a sunset. we all need some time with ourselves, and even if we don t notice, that s a very important requirement for our sanity, we just need to release all the build up tension
When I listen to this, I'm imagining myself walking barefoot on the grass in an unknown distant land full of mysterious little creatures that walk around me and talk to me about life. This is the background music of this place, it's just flying in the air, undisturbed and eternal.
Fascinating how he managed to make 3 chords remain interesting for over 10 minutes. I suppose minimalism is one of the driving factors in a good ambient track.
It's extremely subtle, but there are elements being added and taken away throughout the entirety of the track. The rhythmic length of the 3 chord sequence also changes and extends/contracts. So there is change, but it's incredibly subtle.
idk. it's okay when you're falling asleep but it's not intented for active listening imo. Autechre's Vletrmx which basically has just like 5 different notes over 4 bars repeated for seven minutes sounds much more interesting and alive than this.
I'm currently 17 , i had best friend he was like a brother to me when we were in highschool he was always sharing his headphones with me when i tell him abt things that are going low & he always gave me it with this song on & always told me to fight & he knows that i struggle & how does it feel even though he never even cried or showed negative emotions to everyone besides he was always the therapist friend . One night him & i & bunch of our friends met & had fun & laughed & he laughed most and made us all laugh by his silly funny jokes that we used too . The day after that we heard that he took his life on his way home. Everytime i hear this song it reminds me of you dear Jacob 💗.
here i am, i was just laying in my bed, looking at the moon with this track playing next to my ears. i’ve gone through heartbreak recently, which ended the toughest year i’ve had so far. i feel deeply sad, frustrated, exhausted, but also hopeful. it is frustrating to be used to this shitty feeling that is heartbreak, although this time i turn to music and relaxation and crafts for relief, instead of substances like i’ve always had. what a strange year it’s been, i let myself get too comfortable, i was not responsible for myself, i spent my days in a high haze still hopeful, yet unwilling to do anything and detesting the environment and sometimes myself. i’ve always thought i need to break myself fully to start healing, only recently i have shed myself of that belief and i am slowly moving back to a healthy lifestyle and mindset. as i let myself go, anxiety caught me. i was supposed to go and have a half year of studying abroad instead of staying in the country that i hated, yet i gave in to the fear and anxiety and stayed back in my home country, which i adore. i now spend my days working a regular 9-5 office job, taking care of myself, feeling at ease with myself after all this time. mundane but fulfilling. life is beautiful, and this sonic masterpiece proves it. i get to feel my emotions to this wondrous track, and they may be unpleasant now, but i feel them instead of numbing myself again. which is beautiful and makes me feel alive and i remain hopeful, deeply hopeful, i wish for everybody to remain hopeful and curious, as that’s the youthful spirit to keep us going. i loved entering this touching space of your intimate personal comments, thank you and bless you
dude i'm just tired of feeling so lost. i don't even know where life is taking me, it's just like i'm always on autopilot waiting for something to happen
make sure you make the best of these moments. i totally understand man, its torture. you want your life to be yours. but it still can, even if thats on a smaller scale. you can pursue passions and creative hobbies. attempt to make fun out of the mundane. uproot routine and do something completely spontaneous. be consumed by time as you meander somewhere on a walk or in your mind. take control from the bottom up. that isn't professional advice or anything, but it's what I've picked up in my experience from feeling very disconnected and not understanding what im meant to be doing or where im going in life. much love.
I was with the love of my life for almost three years, and for two of those I was her carer. It was the hardest part of my life so far, and I put every fibre of my being into helping her to live a meaningful life, despite her disability.After multiple suicide attempts, endless trips to hospitals, and constant pressure to hold together our world while everything tried to tear it apart, I was exhausted. In the end I broke it off because I'd lost myself in the process and couldn't give anything more. I was done. But she was doing better - she finally had a network of support around her and was on a path that gave her hope for the future. For a long time I was in a deep depression, oscillating between being angry and bitter, and sadness - in mourning for the life I should have had. I hated myself for not being a strong enough man to resist the abuse and fit the masculine profile society tells me I should be. And I hated her for what she made me become. But then I started running again, spending time in nature, quitting alcohol and confronting who I really was; relearning the things I loved, revisiting old relationships and reminiscing about the people we were and the things we did. And I forgave her, because none of us are perfect, and navigating this world and the people in it is a challenging endeavour, not least when you're ill. Things aren't perfect, and life hasn't followed the trajectory I expected, but, a year later, I think I've finally found peace. I've realised that you can only do what you can do, and that every experience happens for a reason, and teaches you to be a stronger, more resilient person. Life isn't fair, but that's what life is. A beautiful collision of circumstance and helplessness, of love and anger, of reconciliation and acceptance. As I try to put my life back together now, I still think about her everyday, and the life I could be living. I don't think I will ever love anyone like I loved her, but I know we can never be together. And that's OK. I hope she's doing well.
I can't wait to come back to this video in some years and see all of your success stories about how you all managed to push through and find peace in the end. I look forward to it :)
It’s 6:48 in the morning I’ve been lost in my own thoughts and couldn’t sleep, I listen to this amazing song and can’t help but feeling some kind of peace, im going to sleep now, stay safe out there and have a nice life to whoever reads it.
To think of it. This is like the checkpoint level, just typing what we got in the comment section before continuing our journey. Stay strong, to the people who are still walking to get here.
Isn’t it crazy how songs like this can bring together people from all over the world and make them wanna share little pieces of their lives with complete strangers? Truly fascinating…
Currently laying in bed, listening to this masterpiece, overthinking everything that’s happened, thinking about what I could’ve done better or changed in my life to get to where I am. I feel like every time I’m at my lowest point in life I notice everything that’s happening around me, who’s really there for you and who’s not, the pain and struggle just hanging from my shoulders, the thought of giving up, always fatigued, no motivation or drive to do anything fun anymore, distancing myself from my loved ones, just mentally drained at this point. Whenever I come back to this sound it just keeps me at peace, and for anyone going thru the struggles right now, just know that this shit is temporary, we’ll be out the gutter soon! The people who were there for you when you had nothing keep them close, I know it’s tough but you gotta thug it out for your loved ones, Stay strong Kings! don’t let the struggle tear you apart. ❤️👑
Life is beautiful. It’s painful, scary, treacherous, but damn is it beautiful. I’m listening to this while getting ready to leave my childhood home. I’ve lived here for 20 years and it’s all I know. I’m reminiscing on all the memories that I’ve experienced here. The ups and the downs, the laughter and the tears. I’ve lived many lives here, had so many friends, so many parties, had love and heartbreak, had all my firsts here. Damn this is the last place that I ever saw my dad alive. This place has been my solace and has been the vessel to allow me to grow into the man I am today. I am afraid to leave, I don’t know what is to come, but change is so important and it is inevitable. We can’t just hold onto the past because we are afraid of letting it go. The more we strip the house of its furniture and Knick knacks the more I realize it was never the house that was my home, but the life I lived within it with my family and friends. I don’t know what the future has to offer, but I know it will bring more life, more friends, more love, more ups and downs. All I can do now is be grateful for the time and experiences I was able to have here, and be excited for what’s to come. Time to find my next home.
November of 2022, I met this girl, she was everything I was not but everything I’ve ever wanted. Was the most beautiful and amazing and silliest girl I’ve ever met. Met her in the the bay where I live while she was visiting here. Met her on a Thursday night, she was supposed leave the next day, Friday, but she extended her stay. I saw her Friday, Saturday, and dropped her off the airport Sunday. When I was dropping her off she started to cry but I remained strong in front of her and reassured her everything will be fine for her. She had to go back to San Diego. When I started leaving the airport I immediately broke down, almost like if part of my soul was being taken away. When you hold something so precious being taken away. She had opened up to me and I to her. I was enamored with this girl. 2 weeks later I flew out to her, I couldn’t stand being away from her. She picked me up at the San Diego airport, from there we went to our hotel. I went into the shower because she was insisting that I should shower, at the time I found it odd, like i was being setup. When I came out she surprised with one of the nicest gestures someone has ever done. She celebrated my birthday after I had told her I didn’t like to celebrate it. I wanted to cry but I held back. We hung out for the next couple days. 3 weeks into knowing this girl and I wanted to spend the rest of eternity with her. Due to unfortunate circumstances and my 20 year old undeveloped brain and understanding, things did not play out how I wanted things to go. I flew back and things started to turn for worse. At the end we did not understand each other and bitterness and pride took over both of us and we both left each other with our back turned as we rode away on our high horses. To this day I still think about her, I cannot escape her in my dreams. Moon Rangel from San Diego, I still think about you. I would’ve moved mountains and parted oceans to be together. It was the best month of my life.
14 is when I started listening to Aphex Twin and now I’m 32. I’ve never had a close friend who also loved his music. Now I’m a year in with a girlfriend who I showed this and the other tranquil beautiful songs to. We listened to Stone In Focus for the moon rising over the ocean last year and I played Lichen for her the first time I wanted to open up more deeply with her....... and last night was the first time I told her I love her. Just wanted to share that
I will never understand what kind of emotions I am feeling when I am listening to this masterpiece. I can’t tell if I am happy sad nostalgic or just lost. When I first heard it I started crying like I just needed to get it if my system but I don’t know why I was crying or why I had this strange sensation on my stomach. I think it was the first time I felt at peace
I just can’t get this girl out of my head. She’s the only person I’ve ever felt this way for, she’s the reason I want to get up in the morning, why I want to improve myself. She’s almost all I think of, yet I just can’t tell her how I really feel. One day, I promise I will.
You have nothing to lose, and everything to gain. I have waited every single time only to find out they felt the same but we both just moved on without even trying to talk about our feelings. It hurts so much when you find out it could've been something, but you didn't have the courage to confess. If they reject you not only as a romantic partner, but also as a friend, it was not meant to be and it will hurt. But at least you know you tried and didn't miss your opportunity. Please do it. Wishing you luck! :)
I'm 63 and only recently found Aphex Twin, quite by accident. Life is really amazingly random. For me, the lack of real control, and the awareness of that, which intensifies as you age, lose loved ones, accumulate various health issues (which may or may not be things you have any control over re behavior), etc. is what I struggle with. I had to actually look up "ambient music" to be sure I understood what it was. I had listened to some of it over the years from minimalist composers like Philip Glass (who did the wonderful music for Koyaanisqatsi), not even realizing that was a thing. But the first time I say that film at about age 24 (more like the age of various commenters here) and sat just STUNNED in the theater when it was over as everyone else in that big packed theater got up and hurried to their car, made me more aware "I'm not like most other people". For me at that point, it really dawned on me how badly we are screwing up the planet, decades before climate change became such an obvious huge problem. Now, almost 40 years later, I realize that I'm on the autism spectrum, and that's why I have trouble understanding the emotional life of lots of people. Like for me, I was really surprised at how sad so many people in comments said this beautiful song makes them feel. To me it makes me feel quiet, safe, and comfortable emotionally, even as my mind roams over many topics. It's like a calming tonic for the normal whirlwind chaos that is much of life. I agree with another poster re the quality and the compassion and positivity re all the comments here. Sometimes I am very proud to be a human being (unlike the dismay human events causes at other times), so thank you so much for this community for providing that as an adjunct to this wonderful piece of musical artwork.
Day after Christmas and I’m crying again listening to this song thinking abt my dead mom. I got her chain as a gift and wearing it makes me feel protected yet guilty because im not the person I want to be yet. But im still alive so I’ll just keep going. It’s so hard knowing she isn’t and will never be there to hug or congratulate me. The holidays have never hurt me this much. I love you and hope you’re safe.
I'm sitting out here in rural Eastern Estonia, listening to this song on repeat and looking out my 3rd floor apartment window in a trance like state, to an orthodox church a few hundred feet away, its getting late in the day now and the sun is glinting off its golden domes. A similar gold to the autumn leaves being carried by cold winds across an empty and quiet blue sky. I'm a thousand miles away from home, alone and seemingly at the edge of the world, in a land that speaks an alien tongue that i have taken up the commitment to study, its freeing but at times lonely. Just watching the world go by. Yet, however mundane it seems now, it is all what makes living... so extraordinary.
That sounds lovely, wish I could join you, I've lived in Australia all my life which, is nice but I'm sure Estonia would be a much better change in scenery
@@dasarath5779Nüüd olen tagasi Inglismaal, aga mingi osa minust ikka helistab, et naasta Eestisse. Ma ei saaks kunagi elada õnnelikku elu ilma uuesti tagasi tulemata. Ta tunneb end tõeliselt nagu kodus! Kirik, millest ma räägin, on Narva ikooni kirik. nii ilus :) Head ööd!
I understand you is a feeling that has accompanied me all my life and I don't know if one day this will change, but in spite of that I live trying to find enjoyment in life, in the little things, in the fleeting moments, in astonishing myself, in making an effort, in looking for certain tranquillity and coherence, to be at peace above all with myself, those things for me are condensed in this song.
I'm in a small 10€ Hostel room in Milan with 4 middle aged man and a dirty bathroom. But my bunk bed is next to the open window, warm summer night air is blowing inside, I can see trees and an appartment block under a milky orange night sky and listen to this with ventilators in the background.
I am forgetting your face and what your voice sounds like but I still remember exactly how your skin felt and what your hair texture felt like and the exact expression in your eyes as you looked at me. I didn’t want to leave but you left me no choice. I know you miss me but for now it’s the best choice for us. We will meet again, I love you
I don’t know who will see this, nor do I know what you have and haven’t. But regardless, I wish the best for you, because somehow, in the flaming pit of agony we call earth, you found this. Something that will probably help you feel something, whether that be sad or happy. I wish the best of you from here to wherever you end up.
jesus christ, these kind of comments make me want to unlearn empathy... just the mere imagination of having to attend my brother's funeral makes me feel sick. I'm so sorry for your loss, I really can't imagine what you have to go through.
@@cozymode70 You've spoke from the heart right there. I too sometimes wish i was born a psychopath. Human life, cognitive abilities, and the dark nature of the universe and nature is traumatizing and this stuff can be overwhelming the more conscious you are. I can envision you growing into a very strong person especially since you have the ability to reflect. And although it's extremely hard to imagine death, but i believe it's just an illusion. Before you were born you were in a state of nonexistence when you die you might end up in the state you were before you were even a sperm before you father existed. Time is not the same or if it's even there when we die. But i'm sure it will be like waking up again on a new planet maybe the same as a living thing. It's still too hard to accept too because there are many horrible ways you will die and you'll have the most blissful lives as well. The universe is torture and all this for why? What purpose if at all? And does it even need a reason?
A few days ago my grandpa was diagnosed with cancer. Today we discovered it was stage 3 and it could have spread to his brain. Im going to get my drivers license soon. Ive been in love with someone for a long time and recently it feels like they love me back. I feel like I’m entering a new phase of my life. I miss being a little kid but i also know i have so much ahead of me. I miss playing checkers with my grandpa. Thank you aphex twin, i love this song.
I feel you brother, my uncle got diagnosed stage 4 cancer almost 2 years ago now, thankfully he beat the shit out of this fucking disease. But shortly after another member of my family shot himself. But life goes on, there's some good times and some awful times. Although I feel like horrible things tend to affect and impact me a lot more.
hi bro, my grandma recently got stage 4 stomach cancer that might not be curable as she is in her mid 80s and on a slight decline, so I understand your pain. I also just got my drivers license in october, so I hope you were able to pass and get it! I am wanting someone to love in my life very bad, so I hope that person works out for you fr. I know I need to just be patient and trust. I too feel like i’m entering a new phase in my life, and am excited yet I also miss being a kid. I wish all the best for you in all aspects
One day, we all will be gone. You and everyone you'll ever know will cease to exist. Make the most of this life. Take everyday as a new opportunity. Never lose faith.
I met a girl about a year ago. She was different than anybody I had ever met before. When she entered the room, it really felt like everything got more colours. I remember one night we would walk through the city after watching a movie together. She decided to hold my hand and I felt, I did not want this moment to ever end. We made a stop at a lake to look at the beautiful boats. I looked over to her and realised how pretty she is. I often got lost in the beauty of her eyes. I never wanted this night to end. Her personality was like a fire with big flames, I never met anybody who could ever come close to her. I absolutely loved her. I never got to tell her these things, we went different paths but she changed the way I look at people and I still think about her often.
woah..same fate mate.same feelings.I know I have to let her go, but deep in my heart, I trust that one day the universe will bring us together again when we are both ready, especially from my side.
As a kid i looked at a pretty girl, but i don't remember anything afterwards between us after i've told her a phrase i will later learn meant a very terrible thing that used a slang word (it meant let's do bed dancing). Now i have a different interest and i feel like something could actually blossom if i break out of my own tar and show that i am capable of love and socializing. Lately i've convinced myself i AM depressed, because my default emotion is silent sadness and i was demotivated for a *long time.* But i can't find a way to express it best than to hope a friend or more, would notice, and give me the hand i needed (the amagi made a video based around if Sakura became Naruto's childhood friend, she helped him with grades, and as it hit a note and i burst into tears). When somebody crafts a form of media that encapsulates pure happiness in a form of relationship or socializing, i kind of burst into tears, at first it was a movie about a soldier whose soul got sent into the afterlife to be reborn. But he was reckless while waiting in the line, and smoked dirt with the soul of a kid, even made friends who he may be fated to meet in life. However lady fate gave him a disability which he reacted very harshly to, and almost missed the bus to life, he ended up succeeding as a physicist, even though his mother closely supported him and had to help him do mundane activities such as dressing up, and his dad left because he couldn't bear the table tapping because of his disability. I suspect it's related to autism. Point being, im not bad physically, not too bad intelligence wise, but i am in a heck of a cement mix and i just feel like i need somebody other than my parents to help me relearn the value of life. I think i had a dream about doors and in on of them i see my father's grave, which i think shows i hated his punishments more than i let on. I pray i don't let the things i legitimately hate consume me. It kind of feels like i see everything as dark shades of grey to black, imagine living with those colors visible to your eyes without feeling like a sack of shit. UA-cam says i might want to edit the comment, don't worry, i don't have any bad thoughts, i just acknowledge the fact that i had them and i know well i never intended and never will intend to act up on them, they are intrusive in nature. Im voicing out that i hope for a good future but that i don't have the strength to will it into truth without a very strong motivation. When i think of people, i think the times that i exercise, i can put just a little bit more strength in that moment, but i'd want more. I might regret sending this one hell of a reply because i took a little discord distraction and now i think this is very cringe.
Woah I’m in the same situation. I fell in love with a girl who honestly she’s the best recent thing to appear in my life. She brings out the best in me, I still cherish the memories I have of her. But I learned she already has a boyfriend. I have to accept that she won’t be in my life much longer…
This girl reminds me of my crush. She used to be in my school from 5th to 7th grade. Now we're in different schools because I live at the end of my hometown, and I had no other choise but to go to the nearest school to my block.
I played this for my father today who is 94 he can't see very well and couldn't see this beauty being in the water but he sat with his eyes closed listening meditating on it and every two or three minutes saying 'wow'.
I can't imagine what listening to this at age 94 would be like. All those years to reflect on while listening to this would be incredibly poignant yet comforting. like the ending credits to a powerful movie. thanks for sharing :)
I'll be honest, I've never experienced any of the hardships that others in this comment thread have had. I've had a relatively flawless life until now, which is saying something. I mean, I lost a couple grandparents, sad but not unusual, a few pets, very natural for emotional development. I've felt like i've missed out on a couple teen romances or experiences with others. But generally, my life is good. I have a good family. Great friends. All types of security. This song kind of lets me reflect and very much be grateful for this, as it gives me 10 minutes to look back on my relatively uneventful life and be appreciative that i've rode into the world this easy. More importantly, it makes me think of the future. I've got to fulfill my creative desire to just, make something, put it out there and wait for judgment. I can't wait to live through my 20s, have fun, meet people. Eventually live out a similar course to my parents, whose death I can't comprehend at this stage. I think life is good for me, at least for now.
08/05/2024 today was my last day of school and tomorrow i start my exams. i havent cried yet, and its strange because it feels like the end even though tomorrow i will see all the same people again. i'll never have a physics or chemistry lesson again and im noww free to study history! i hope it all turns out well and aphex twin has been helping me get through this weird time xx
"I survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me." It's one of my favorite quotes from a game. Last year, I honestly considered taking my own life. Life was becoming too hard on me, but that was mostly because of my bad decisions. Drugs, bad relationships, anger, and being overweight were all taking a toll on me. I decided to move away, cut all those people off, quit drugs, lose weight by fasting, dieting, and going to the gym every day, as well as controlling my anger with better sleep and meditation. I did everything I possibly could to feel better, and I can honestly say it worked. I still have issues with money, understanding people, especially myself, but at least I'm in a better spot than last year. I have hope that it'll get even better. Whoever reads this, don't give up, no matter how bad it gets; you have the potential. Take one day at a time. Breathe a bit; you can always make it better in some way.
Damn fr you just gave me a existential crisis at 12:32 am .. bruh I shouldn’t have ate that Burger King liek I shoulda just stayed home ya know :/ hungry
I'm sitting here randomly scrolling through youtube while on the phone with my girlfriend. She's sound asleep but I'm fully awake. She is the first person that feels like home, not just a young love but truly like home, warm, calm. Like coming home on a cold day after playing in the snow all day, and just feeling the warmth of home, sitting infront of the furnace with hot chocolate in your hands. Still I'm wondering what to do with my life, i have no idea where i am heading or where life takes me. I dont even know if i want to continue with uni . I'm 19 and dont know what to do or how to do it. It's a never ending cycle of questioning i cannot find the answers to, but everytime i scroll, hopelessly thinking and never finding an answer I remember her, and somehow I get calm and think to myself that all of this is part of life, its okay to feel lost, to feel alone, to feel you're at a place you dont belong to, being somehow with one foot in your own life and with the other you still cling to the peaceful life as a child. I have no Idea where I am going and thats okay, i think its part of becoming an adult. Although sometimes i wish i am still that kid running around in the snow, but i guess this is the bitter sweet part of adulthood, sometimes it frightens me. It's weird and idk if it will ever stop being weird, all i know that it's going to be okay somehow. This song sums up all of my thoughts and somehows makes me feel that life and adulthood will be okay.
You will achieve my friend, what may help is to find a role model, someone who achieves and is a good person, maybe a few, female and male, and listen to what they say. People say you are influenced by those you listen to, so listen to those who are loving and their ways, and you will have a very strong path ahead of you, lots of love mate
listening to this on january 8th 2024 at 17 years old i know many of you are much older than me and multiple are younger than me and some of you might be exactly my age down to the same day but that doesn't matter because we're all human we all feel emotions we all know what its like to be happy sad regretful nostalgic or joyful life truly hits you like a bullet train that was going at full speed 3 years ago from today when i was fourteen i could have never predicted where i would be right now i remember that same person 3 years ago hated the idea of love, hated the idea of smoking, hated the idea of losing faith for years i was a lazy person that would do nothing all day but play video games and eat but i had one thing going for me which was religion i was born muslim and followed it for years but then at some point 3 years ago i decided i wanted to better myself become a better person for this world so i started to become more athletic lost 15kg of weight and became skinnier than average won a championship in boxing and felt over the world i did my mission and changed for a better person but then something that felt even better than that came someone that i felt at ease with, and i know everyone has had their love stories but until the age of 16 until that person came along i'd like to say ive never felt emotion towards a person as much as i felt towards her she truly brought back that innocent child that was in me 10 years ago the child that would walk around skipping to his favorite music but then i grew fearful of losing her, started acting obsessed and lost her because of it and i know many people have it worse and many people have handled this exact situation better but i couldn't live with the thought of going back to having no emotions to living a life where id repeat the same routine everyday and what truly broke me was when i tried to cry but no tears came out, i remember before i met her i havent cried in 2 years but something about the way she talked to me the way she listened changed me and i began to cry from almost everything from romance movies to sad scenes on a show to just a heartwarming message from her but then when she left that bit of humanity left with her and i was once again left feeling empty inside i texted my best friend told him that if i didnt text him in the next 30 minutes it meant i was no longer on this earth and that he should tell my parents i loved them and tell my little brother im sorry for leaving him and then i did it. i hung myself tight leather belt around my neck. it felt beautiful. for around 20 seconds i was hanging there in the air thinking about all the things i had done and all the things ive wanted to do. but it was too late now i thought too late to think about the future as these were my final moments and then i passed out. all the lights were gone all the thoughts were empty i wish i could tell u what i saw or heard but i have no memory of it then after what felt like hours but was truly only a couple of minutes my biggest nightmare happened. i woke up laying on the floor having what i can only explain as a seizure my entire body shaking uncontrollably. my eyes seeing everything hazy and with extra color after a couple of seconds when i calmed down i realized my head was bleeding from the fall and my knee hurt like hell and still does till today i texted my friend who sent me as i was hanging "i know you're gonna come back" and i told him he was right and that i had failed. i felt ashamed and at the same time sad that it failed i had to live another day with the pain of not feeling anything. after a couple of days went by i stopped working out. stopped taking care of my diet and body i didnt feel motivation to study or exercise and lost faith in the religion i was born into after failing an attempt i followed other methods to feel something. both my parents have been smokers for as long as i can remember and my dad used to be a heavy drinker and abusive to my mom in the past and up to this point i had smoked a couple of times so i bought my first pack and began smoking then asked my sis for a joint then found my own plug and started buying from him. i know me from 3 years ago would be disappointed at where i am now but it helps me feel better and if its either this or cutting/hanging myself like i use to do then i would rather stick to this im here because my dealer quit smoking. everything cigarettes weed hash you name it he quit it so im once again left without anything to calm the pain. cigarettes dont really do what they use to now i can smoke a whole pack in a day and still not feel that kick i felt when i first started and now im scared ill truly never be able to feel new emotions again. i dont know which i prefer the me i am right now an attempt survivor and smoker. or the me 3 years ago that decided he was going to change himself for the better sure he was healthier and felt better about himself. but he had no emotion he was barely a person. i dont know what im going to do right now but all i know is that future me will look back to this era in my life and say it truly changed him, made him see the world differently. i love all of you guys, truly and even if not a single person read this which i dont expect anyone to. i want you to know you mean something. you mean the world to a person, someone wakes up and thinks about you, you matter to your family and you should never attempt to leave this world we live in, love yourself and take care i love you readers. and i loved you more aliana.
With this song as a witness, today will be the day I revert back to the good man I once was. I promise myself to no longer procrastinate. To not waste the life that millions would kill to have. I will realize my true potential. I was given a back to bear weights, not to turn it towards the people I love. I promise to be good, help others, and die great.
I sat and listened to this when i was 14 wondering where my life would take me....... I just turned 42 and it took me to a beautiful wife and 4 kids! Dont spend too much time wondering about life people, go and live it, it will pass in the blink of an eye believe me!
Thats insane this has been out for that long. Im 17 right now and im, honestly really afraid to grow up. I hope I can find my way and end up happy, as I hope you did.
I’m lying down next to a girl that I think I’m falling in love with. She’s asleep and I’m listening on my headphones. Life is good and also weird and also confusing and I’m also unsure. What a trip
Enjoy life, brother. That's what makes it something to write about.
I love this, brother. Those days pass so quickly, but they shape who you are forever. Enjoy the utter bewilderment of it all, and how utterly insignificant it makes you feel.
As we say here in Scotland...
'Lang may yer lum reek'.
Well, Merlin Dogs? 3 weeks has passed? How do you feel now about this girl now?
Wolf Child❤
@@wolfchild9755 if the truth be told mate I think we’re about to break up, life goes on hey 🤷♂️
@@merlindogs9703 and that's okay brother. Love just like life is fleeting, enjoy the times that were (even if they were only 3 weeks ago) because the most beautiful moments in life are often followed by the hardest.
This is not just music. It’s like a blank canvas, upon which we can paint our emotions, thoughts and stories.
Beautiful
I've read through a lot of what this comment section has to say and this is very accurate. There's beauty, sadness, love, loss, confusion, pain, and everything in between. Hundreds of different stories in here about every deep human emotion all brought up by this one song, amazing.
You are so right
Well said
This is so well put. I think that most good art whether a piece of music or a painting has this quality where it gives us a means of reflection and can bring stuff out of us that gets buried.
My mom has cancer. Since everyone is sharing. I’m 22. About to open my first office and have my first employee. Just recovered from a seizure. I’m not stopping. I’ll make my mom proud. I wish you the very fucking best.
Keep going on boss!! You're doing great!
Your mom should be proud of you , best wishes to yours mom ! don’t stop ! wish you health and good luck .
Sigue así, quisiera que la barrera del idioma no nos distanciara y quisiera poder expresar lo que siento hacia ti con algo más complejo y específico que el lenguaje; pero es la herramienta que tengo para llegar a ti, y, desde lo más profundo de mi corazón , te lo juro por mi madre, quiero lo mejor para ti, quiero que sepas que eres fuerte y nunca te olvides de ser feliz.
Desconozco como haya sido tu relación con emociones como la felicidad, la tristeza, el enojo, etc. en tu vida, pero espero que, en todas las felicidades, tristezas y enojos que pasaron y que pasaran, al final de el día , encuentres plenitud.
Pero más que nada, te encuentres a ti.
Ama, llora, ríe, sueña y siente sin descanso,
Por qué nunca sabrás lo fuerte que eres, hasta que ser fuerte sea la única opción.
Never give up on your dreams. You’re doing great. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your mom. ❤
Hey man. My mum died from brain cancer 3 months ago. I’m 19. I share your pain. Love is such a special thing
I’m 41. Been married for 15 years, have two daughters, own a home, decent paying job. And it’s all happened in the blink of an eye. Seems like just yesterday I was a jackass 23 year old without a responsibility in the world. This song sums up how I feel when I look back at everything, how it’s all unfolded, and how it all had to happen (even the bad stuff) the way it did for me to have the life I do today. Life’s a trip, what might seem like something small today is leading you down your path to where you’ll be, and you can’t even realize it (yet). If you’re young and reading this, live it up and enjoy it, you’re in “the good old days”. You never know where today’s decision or minor detail is taking you. And you’re gonna be 41 too before you know it.
Im so scared of the future. I don't know where I will go after I finish school, and I can't even think about having my own family. But reading your comment made me realize that adults are also just a bunch of grown up kids and we should enjoy our lives. We only live once!!
listened to this chilling out after full on Goa partys in the 90s....good memories, those were the times, they won't come back but as long you remember it , it is not gone. I am 51, btw, but would go back any time if I had a Tardis....
Thank you
Thank you, just thank you soo much to remembering that to us, im gonna turn 20 in next mounth and i was needing to remember that again. Because the things just makes me tired most of the time. I live in Turkey as a average Turkish young and i feel in void. i gotta ask you, no matter which standart i live, is things gonna be bearable at least?
@@beareleaseYes. The universe, god, nature, whatever it is - won’t throw anything your way that you can’t handle. Be good and life, even when challenged, will be good too.
This is how it feels to not know if you’re getting better or worse and you’re stuck between wanting to keep fighting or just let go
Never give up! Never surrender!
although as obvious as the answer may seem looking back in the moment you can never find the right one.
To me this struggle just makes things worse. When I‘m at peace and have accepted the world, I know that in just a few minutes or hours I will feel pain until I think I’ll break for good now. A neverending cycle.
❤
Real
This is how it feels when a good day ends and you know you will remember this day often in the future.
Real
And you'd be kinda sad cause it's maybe not gonna happen again
Fr
yea man, yea
@@ahmedaudi5050 The chances of it happening again and again in the future are high, but think if you knew it would even happen once more. Know one day at some point it's going to happen and you'll feel as good as you felt.
I like to imagine that, here, at the comment section, we just gather around this music and share bits of ourselves. Total strangers, who happened to cross each other's ways by bumping into this random, yet special, piece of art.
stories are how we connect. even if its only the briefest glimpse.
This comment section is like bros round a camp fire telling stories and thinking about the past
Yeah UA-cam comments on music centric videos is always this basically
Telling and sharing stories is a very special and human thing, like ancient peoples gathering around a fire…
The internet turned out to be so messy but comment sections like these take me back to the early days of the internet. Just a bunch of totally unrelated people doing their thing and connecting without a hidden agenda. This is what I love so much about the internet.
Today I was found not guilty for a crime I didn't commit, it's been a brutal 6 months and this song came in my feed. With that and reading the comments, it made me tear up and value my life more
Gang I'm here for you, don't you forget that. One is all you get charish and nurture the moment of which you have.
@@User-_-Invalid thanks 😊
You got this brother, stay strong and enjoy every day of your life because as you may know, you never know when things might change
I am currently fighting a case of robbery, aggravated assault as a juvenile, a crime I did commit, I have court coming up in June, any advice? I'm currently on house arrest.
@@initial2593 no advice but you’re not alone..
Currently recovering from two emergency brain surgery's. Sitting in my garden with a coffee on a beautiful sunny morning, sun on my face, breeze gentle blowing the trees, birds chirping and singing, the distant sound of cars going by all add more beauty to this track. Happy to still be here 🙏🏻
Good!
💙💙💙💙
wish you all the best for your recovery
Good job!
I hope that is the last of your medical problems for a very long time!
“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.”
-Lao Tzu.
👏
2023 version ending: If you are at peace, you should check your pulse, you are probably dead.
"I didn't say that" - Laozi
Still a nice phrase though, but.. Not written down in the Daodejing
thank you,this reminded me to not sorrow over lost past
@@westarrr you are correct, I tried to research where this quote came from but i wasn’t able to find anything. I did find that a lot of very old quotes are often credited incorrectly though. Very surprising because this has been one of my favorite quotes for years. Much love man
Came home from uni today. Took a walk through the woods, past the spot I had my first kiss, the place I used to smoke at, and the spot I tried to take my own life. Just watching the water move at it’s own pace and my breath in the cold was true peace life can be beautiful bros
hey take care dude hopefully youre doing alot better now and if you arent doing well keep pushin dont give up Youll get there! and the fact that you got this far is already pretty dang impressive so keep going mate
Hey brother I hope and pray you are feeling better and stronger mentally . This life everyday bring me down but you gotta keep pumping keep thriving it’s time to
Focus .
ily. please never forget that. please.
Thank you for your moment and memories.
Good work man you pulled yourself out of that hole. Not many can do that. Keep using your mental strength and keep working hard for what you want
I'm at the lowest point in my life while listening to this. I have a tumor in my knee and am unable to jump, run, or stand properly without pain. About a month ago I was driving home when someone turned out in front of me, resulting in a tbone wreck that totaled my car and injured me mentally and physically. Although I have recovered from the physical injuries, the wreck has caused me to become depressed again and demotivated to push toward my goals or even do the things I usually enjoy. I've spent the last couple years alone and in pain, wishing for at the very least a friend who can understand me. I turn 17 soon and I am in the same place I was years ago, but now I discovered this music. I hope that sometime in the future I can look back at this comment and see how my life has improved and changed for me.
Didn't I just see u in a meme asylum post comment section
Yeah, I also hope that after some years you will be able to proudly say that your life is improved. Rooting for you, bro, so never give up
Mucha fuerza para ti
You got this bro, the dark times will pass you, ik it feels like it won't but take it day by day, and in no time you will be where you wanna be. I believe in you
Hey, you are not alone mate! We hear you, i feel you! Everything happens for a reason, there is only upside from here ! When times are good be grateful, when times are bad be graceful. NEVER GIVE UP!
UA-cam comments are so beautiful when you think about it. Especially on videos like this. Here we are, all of us strangers, sitting together with this gentle song as we leave little pieces of ourselves for others to discover. Here I am part of something much bigger than myself. Here I see others out from under the guise of an introduction or a first impression. We can simply leave things of ours such as our thoughts, our wisdom, or stories for anyone else at all who might appreciate and just now I find that so beautiful. Thank you for reading this little piece of me.
Thank you for this. I find certain Aphex Twin tracks (this being one) gently pushes us to be self-reflective and philosophical. This is a go-to for me when I need inner peace. Headphones on, lights off: peace.
we need more of this kind of thing!
I love you, your comment and this video
@@_l__86indeed we do
it's really something isn't it. these are the best parts of the internet.
If life was a videogame, this would be its main menu theme.
Life is a video game
*Afraid of Monsters*
а главное меню - это земной шар крутящийся такой, как в spore каком-нибудь
@@guerrace3210 no te entiendo
@@OJIO3000 in the main menu there would be our planet, slowly spinning, something like in Spore
I am 26 years old. I have been a carer for my unwell parents for the last 3 years. I don't see my friends, I don't have any love in my life, I am isolated from the world and very alone. I am a deeply sad man. Every day I feel further from myself than the last. This song, this comments section, allows me to both pity myself and maintain a glimmer of hope that things will get better, that my life will improve. That one day I can again feel like the man I was who now seems a stranger. I hope all of you here now, who will be in the future, find happiness and peace, whatever form that takes for you.
Bro Thank U❤
I promise it will get better, you just have to keep taking the hits
May Allah heal your parents and heal your heart >> brother this life is cruel , I pray your parents get health and you also become joyful adventurous man again. Inshallah, I am 21 an immature tbh.
I’m also about to be 26 yo. From experience I can say that i have felt that feeling, sometimes it’s exhausting, other times it feels warm and a place comfortable.
6 months ago i decided to change my life, there are always ups and downs in this path to do what YOU want, and not what others want from you.
It’s a long way, nothing you wouldn’t know by now. Don’t settle for what is happening right now. Make a change my man. You got it
Keep that strength close to your heart.
i think most of us don’t realize how technology has changed us and how intertwined and connected we became. the total opposite is being said, we are being told that we are losing connections bonds with people but here we are millions of total strangers gathering in a comment section offering a look from a small window to our lives. we come together to tell our story, share our pain and cherish our good memories. we are human and we are connected. it is incredibly hard for me to live a life where i dont stop and think about the others who walked on the same streets as me or drank from the same cafe as me. it is exhausting at most times but sometimes it can be comforting. i go through the comments read bits and pieces of you guys’s lives and i smile, i get sad with you or i relate to your struggles. then when its time i like your comments and wish you the best. to all the strangers out there reading mine comment, have a wonderful day❤
♥♥♥♥♥
I hope u have a great week man
have a wonderful day too
not an realistic view brother, local communities are being destructed by social media, for example in the west no stranger ever talks to each other with good virtue like we used to do before the internet
Intertwined sure... connected? No
Consciousness is a hell of a drug.
@Alex Maybe life is it’s own creation
I want to be sober :(
@@143jcm What hinders you?
Very intriguing initial statement, BTW...
@@kaptainkrampus2856 from the looks of things it wasnt their initial statement, it was their only one.
Based
Just discovered this gem today, October 28, 2023.
I'm at a point of my life where I am still unsure about what next steps I should take. Hearing this, atleast for a couple of minutes was pure bliss. I guess I needed the break. Hopefully in the next time I check into this song, I have life figured out- or maybe at least have a sense of direction. Best regards to you future self!
Same.
From Tiktok 😂
Same, from tik tok as well
same
Hey brother found this song at the exact same date ❤
for you who are reading this message, I want you to swear that you will never give up, no matter what happens in life, always believe that something beautiful will happen.
I swear bro I'll never give up
@@kys_003 take care :))
thank you
thank you, I just lost the girl of my dreams ❤️🩹
@@candycouldntbesosweet it's bad to lose someone that you have strong feelings towards them, like you mentioned.
but please remember that sad happenings can lead out into better opportunities.
so even if you lose someone like her, please do remember that someday you'll find someone that can be just like her, or even better, just trust me.
I’m a 22 year old single father. I lost my job a couple days before thanksgiving and have just finally gotten a new one. I’m falling in love for the first time since the mother of child left us for alcohol over a year ago. I’m healthier than I’ve ever been. I’ve regained my love for reading. I have picked up new hobbies. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been even though I’m in the most stressful position I’ve ever been in. Things get better. Life has a billion small joys that must be sought out. Keep going and you can find them.
god bless you man.
Real!
22 and a father? I bet you'll have a great connection with your child when they grow up a bit..that's awesome.
This comment section is gold. I love how everyone talks about life, feelings, meanings etc. This shows how much music affects us people.
Hm, I'd argue that it's especcially this particular song, if you ask me, I'd probably the best song I've ever heard, for a few reasons
Only me, I talk about the monkey
@@DESIGNLIKEART About the monkey, too, I guess
TRUE
olis
Last October I left France for England, after 2 years of hard work and saving money I finally afforded me a music production school based in Manchester.
On 17th October, after saying goodbye to my dad I jumped in my car, and started a very long journey to England.
On 20 th October I finally arrived in Manchester. After few days of room research, finally found a place to stay.
a lovely room in the suburbs of Manchester (Salford/ walkden).
There was a lake next to my place that I used to walk almost every day even though it was raining and cold lol.
There was this bunch at the lake where I used to sat and listening to this track with a good view on the lake. Damn it felt so good.
Then I discovered that pub 5 min walking from my home, a pub full of very good lads, they all accepted me. Had very great times there
My class was perfect, good student, good teacher.
My times there was Epic.
On Monday morning 12th December I made a song, I posted it on SoundCloud then send it to my dad, he responded me " son you getting better and better "
On Monday evening, my step mom send me a text saying " your dad was admitted to the emergency cause he was feeling very bad and kept puking. The next day doctor found a pancreatitis to my dad. My step mom went to see him at hospital she told me he's very tired.
On Wednesday 14th I woke up at 9am check my phone, I had a text from my step mom saying that he still tired but he's doing fine he's on his way to recovering
Here's come 12pm I got a phone call from my step mom saying " your dad passed away ".
I was there alone in my room sitting on my bed, couldn't realised what was going on. I bought myself a ticket flight the next day to go back to France, I had to quit my school and everything I started in Manchester.
7 months later I'm here in his house taking care of his dogs, and still listening to this music, watching stars in the sky at the same times and thinking about him.
He was a very good man, always here for me. I can say I'm very proud to be his son !
All this made me realized that life is too short, and you have to enjoy every moment you spending on this planet.
Thank you England for this very good experiences.
Rest in peace dad, we will meet again.
I love you forever dad ♥️
Je te respecte infiniment, ton père devait être une belle personne, merci pour ce commentaire ❤
Thanks for sharing this❤️ too bad you had to leave school. Some day, a new oppertunity will appear. But it will only appear id you are open to it. Good luck and may your father rest in peace.
Hey man, I didn't know ur father but I can 100% tell u honestly that he was so so proud of u man. Going after ur dreams, building a career, and then also making the most of an unfortunate situation.
I'm proud of u too bro, u keep going n just know that ur an inspiration to many strangers from all across the world (including myself) bless up brother, hope you and ur fam are doing well, and give ur father's dogs a pet for me bro🙏🙏
Im sorry for you man. Im glad you had such an great father figure in your life. Every time you feel sad about your loss, remember those amazing experiences you had with your dad, as simple as they may be, always remember them and look back on them. Good luck to you 🫶
RIP ❤
I doubt anyone will read this but I wanna journal this moment of my life here. I’m currently laying down on a bench at my college, staring at the empty blue sky and thinking about how I’m both in an incredible, but equally lonely point in life. I feel so happy with how much I’ve powered through just to be going back to college and doing something I love. It feels lonely being here, all my friends have graduated, I’m 23 now. I feel like I’m not able to relate to anyone on campus as I’m not young, but I’m certainly not old. I feel alone in my accomplishments.
Hey man idk you but I just want to say keep up the good work. To do things in life alone can be agonizing; however, you should appreciate how beautiful it is to be with yourself. I think everyone goes through points in their life where they have to be lonely so they can learn to be with themselves comfortably. You are the person who you will spend the rest of your life with so you might as well love every moment with yourself. I do understand how you feel, but just know you're going to be okay, always:) good luck my friend
Wait till u hit 62
Do sum bout it
Join a local community that values you and can celebrate your accomplishments as you celebrate theirs! They are out there, and you can carve your own niche in any community. There are thousands more just like you, creating and accomplishing alone, hoping for unique and powerful connections like they had when school cohorts made it impossible not to make them. You will find them, and they will find you, if you look.
@@swayor I actually gained this exact mindset after I posted the original comment, I’m currently in the process of starting a club on my college campus related to music and music discussion
leaving for the military today, this song helped me calm my mind and ease the thought of entering the unknown. i hope i can come back and listen to it when i make it through and have my life together.
I wish you the best, take care of yourself (as much as you can in the military). Remember you are loved :)
Hope you have a good future man, it’s gonna be uncertain but I hope it goes well. Stay safe 🤘
You are awesome man, good luck
thanks for your service absolute legend hope you stay okay out there
Goodluck in the military, i hope to join when im older myself!! Thanks for serving :)
I’m currently 17, I just finished my first trimester of junior year. Hopefully i’ll come back to this song later on in my life and realize how good my life was during this time. To the future me, thank you for sticking around, be yourself. Enjoy the people you have around you. I know it’ll get hard. You need to help yourself before you help others.
Damn bro i hope your doing good so far. Hows live been?
we are in this together man. its hell but i can tell this is the last time i have before i lose the child in me, which is probably already gone. 17 feels so young yet so grown, why do i feel this way at such a young age 😭
@@type2406 i’m also 17 and i feel the same way man. i felt like a little kid last year and i’m gonna be an adult in 3 months. wtf 😭
You will look back and realize, trust me.
Enjoy every moment you have left as a child. You’ll look back eventually and you need to make it worth your while
When I was in utero my dad would play aphex twin and place headphones on my mums stomach. He used to wake me at dawn and bundle me in his arms as we strolled to the crisp Cornish beach to catch the sunrise listening to ambient works. When I was older he’d wake me up on nights where his insomnia was particularly bad and we’d stroll to the beach arm in arm watching the stars. I came across this as I’m sat in a daze alone in my bedroom. I’m 24 now, just under four years ago I woke to find my dads body after he took his own life. He requested #3 Ambient works as one of the songs for his funeral. I can’t listen to that album anymore without feeling deep turmoil, but this song gives me some will to fight. I feel as if my silhouette is a lightbulb and I could shatter at any moment but even still, there’s something in me willing to find the light.
💔
You had an amazing dad.. treat your future child with similar childhood without negatives. I find your story beautiful. Its very sad but you wrote it beautifully
I am so sorry for your loss. I did the same for my children when they were in utero and since. Your dad sounds like a good man.
After my sister died, my dad gave up. I was twenty at the time. He didn’t end his life in one tragic event, but after he died we learned he was having heart problems and instead of seeking treatment that would have absolutely prolonged his life for decades, he chose to embrace death. He even asked days before he died if I would be able to take care of myself if something were to happen to him. It’s crazy to think I knew he needed peace in that moment, without knowing the consequences, and I told him I would be ok.
My younger sister held onto anger for him for a long time, but I never did. I knew his soul was in pain and thus couldn’t see how much pain he would leave behind. My sister always runs through her head why we weren’t enough to keep him going, even ten years later. Would he have been able to hold onto his will to live if it was one of us and not the sister who died before him? I never thought that way, though. I know he couldn’t see the burden he would place on our shoulders or all the things that took place in the wake of his death. He didn’t know. And I’ve never felt a thing but forgiveness for that, for we are all human.
Your father was a great man. An angel in a cruel world. You're an angel too. Be strong king!!!
Me and my ex just broke up. She loved to listen to apex twin. Somehow I found myself stumbling upon this video reminiscing. Not a bad but thankful reminiscence. Thankful we met. Thankful for how she changed me as a person. Thankful that we still share the same sun. Even though we couldn’t see eye to eye on our differences I still wish her the best. I’ll always remember the times we spent in room 450
You’re going to find your person, don’t even sweat it ❤
“When a man is in despair, it means that he still believes in something.” - Dmitri Shostakovich
True
@@LordHaveMercy Skååål
@@Norden1 Skåååååål
@@LordHaveMercy Kinda crazy I was listening to this and tought this you should dono, some real actually good music to share. Then I look comments see you here.. Small world.
@@Norden1 wtf dude, that's so weird. And I thought I'd put it on IP2 saying goodnight before going to bed last night.
this is a certified hood classic
Damn son
I read that in that dudes voice
dog with headphones
@@-thesignpainter9486 YES.
@Андрей Славиков This guy has to be the most enjoyable person to pass the time
My friend lost his battle against cancer this morning. He was the most amazing person i have ever met. I'm currently just not even sure what to do with my life, he has brought so much joy into my world. And now he's gone.
Rest in peace, Matthew, you will be immensely missed.
Sounds like Matthew was a great guy, and I'm really sorry for your loss, I can't imagine how you must be feeling. I hope things can get better for you, for his friends, and for his family. I'll be praying for ya and sending love your way. Blessings to you and yours, and may Matthew rest in peace ❤🙏
Matthew would want you to Live and Laugh!
Sorry for your loss, man. Enjoy every day. Spend every moment with those you love. Thank you for sharing Matthew ❤
im 3, been struggling with constipation all my life, this song help me feel better when i shit my pant. Love yuo
Thanks for the giggle 🤭
I swear Aphex Twin songs have the best comment sections. It‘s incredible how music makes you feel and can change your life.
It’s because aphex twin has the best fans. Love you guys!
Listening to this while I‘m zoned out in my bed and suffer because I lost my Dad who was my hero, my idol and my best friend through all these times. I still can’t get over it and have to think about him everyday.
Today would‘ve been his birthday… Happy Birthday Dad, I love you and I always will
Im sorry your dad has passed on, rest in peace to him and a happy continuous life journey to you stranger
@@bumblerbee6309 Thank you man, means alot to me. Best of luck for you too
He will always be by your side. Stay positive and make him proud. But I am sure he already is. 😊
I wish the best for you in life mate, rest in peace to your father. I lost mine at 6 months old, I am now nearly 24 and not a day goes by that I do not think about him. Push yourself and be the best person you can be.
I'm so sorry for your lost. Just would like to remind you, you are not alone. You are strong enough to keep going.
I lost mine last year, two months after I lost mine grandma, and he told me after that day, "the carrousel of life stop for a sec, she goes down, and the carrousel started again, life goes on"
Wish u good luck
I don’t want to have to work. I just wanna travel the world with someone special, making music and expressing myself.
My wife is on the other side of the room studying for school. My kids play with their toys just before bed time. I just got done doing dished by hand after a long day at work. This will be my day tomorrow and I am totally okay with that.
Ive instructed my friends and family for years that this song is to be played at my funeral. There should be no eulogy, no talking, just this song and silence. Played one time, and then its over. Everyone is to go home, and get on with their lives.
Over the years much has changed, but not this. Never this.
damn thats cool
Nice writing sir, endurance is key to life. In all aspects
They mean it when they say funerals are for the living
This song makes me appreciate what it is to be human. In a world full of deception and false glory, going through core emotions with yourself is still so real. Especially while listening to this song… take care.
It’s a Monday night/ Tuesday morning, it’s 2am and I was just about to head to bed and went to the kitchen to grab a drink then seen light shining through the window and went outside and seen it was a full moon. I don’t know why but I decided to get my headphones and listen to this song while watching the moon and stars. It’s a warm night and the sky is clear and for the first time in years I feel as if I’m at peace. I never really sit down to enjoy the little things in life cause life has been passing through so fast recently and it feels as if everything has sorta stopped and it’s just me and only me in this moment but while I was reading through the comments I was touched by the amount of people in here sharing a story so thought I’d add my own little one in here. The world is so beautiful but also so cruel at the same time, I need to appreciate things more in the sense as nothing lasts forever. I see why sunsets are so pretty, they may happen most days but only for a certain amount of time. It’s very quiet as i sit here at night time just looking up at the sky. The air feels clear, my mind feels free and the universe seems to stop for a minutes while I just lay here watching the stars in the distance and the full moon shining down. Appreciate little things like this.
I have so much fear of playing this, because if whenever i do, hours pass away, emotions flow like gushing river, cant focus on work to be done.
I've always wanted to have some music that i have reserve for rare moments (good or bad) and this is the only one till now.
Its a masterpiece.
Thank you Aphex Twin
She’s my first thought in the morning when I open my eyes, and my last thought when I close them. I hope one day our paths converge again, for good this time. Forever and always.
Man this is accurate
I hope so too...
My 8 year relationship fell apart last January, it’s transitioning from fall to winter now, for the entirety of 2023 I was stuck in limbo, not knowing what to do with myself everyday felt like a repeat. Listening to this while waiting to clock into work, I can feel 2024 will start a completely new and foreign chapter in my life. I am at peace now.
glad to hear how you're dealing with that, you got this bro
Congrats man! On to better things
Never Trust women they let you fall if your not enough for them anymore
Hey bro, I can’t imagine what that would have felt like but I’m glad you have found peace, I wish you all the luck with moving on with your life ❤
Hey, keep going, i totally got that, i think im falling down the same path with my gf and feel i cant do anything about it… 2024 will be a better year hopefully.
i’m 22 years old and i just stumbled across this song. i love the fact that everyone is sharing their stories as they come across this song, so i figured i’d add my own. the path i’m on feels so uncertain. i know i’m still young, but i feel like life is rushing by me faster than i can keep up with. i’m at a point in my life where i feel as though i’ll never find happiness, but these comments gave me hope and reminded me i need to slow down. the song feels a lot like me coming to this realization. instead of worrying and overthinking everything all the time, i need to let go and just go with the flow of life and let it take me wherever it’s gonna take me. i feel a lot lighter with the decision that i’m going to just live life and let it do it’s thing rather than me trying to control every aspect and keep up with my peers who i am often jealous of. i always seem to think they have better things than me and a brighter future, and maybe that’s true, but i need to just let my life run its course. i don’t need to have everything figured out… i’m only 22 after all. sometimes i just get so caught up in being alive itself that i forget to actually live. thank you to everyone who left a comment on this video, you all helped me realize things will get better eventually and everything will fall into it’s right place, whatever it may be. i just have to be patient and wait on it.
don't worry about life, try to live it instead. At times, things will not be alright, at times things will. That's all there is
two days ago i had one of the worst days of my life and cried for more than an hour straight while watching videos of my dad who comitted suicide a few months ago and now im sitting at my dining table studying classical mythology with the sun shining off and on through my window thinking 'oh what a wonderful world we live in. it is going to be okay' and it is. it will. i am speaking to you, someone who is also having a tough time, you will find moments where you'll think this exact same thing, you will find peace and light and safety again. and i believe in you and i love you and i still miss my dad and wish he was here but i also still love him very much. and time will heal all wounds i promise
I’m so proud of you
Last winter i was extremely depressed and listened to this song alot, i cried to it alot. I used to feel so incredibly empty but recently im feeling way better and hope this winter will be better. I hope everyone who is struggling sees through their struggles.
This winter will be great I'm sure of it
Last winter was the lowest ive ever been in my life. I remember queueing this song three times in a row while taking the metro to work, and just listened to this for 30 minutes straight. I learned from what happened last year and things got better in the summer, but its getting tough again. I hope things will be different this year.
Last winter and the start of 2023 was really bad for me. It's so easy to slip into a depression, and once you are there its so hard to see any way out. This winter will be much better. We will do great :)
I feel you man, currently just clawing my way out of a rut right now. This kind of music is quite therapeutic and I think is necessary to start healing. If you are into foo fighters I can suggest their earliest albums "Exhuasted" hits you right in the feels
Whatever you do don't listen to William basinkis degraded loops or whatever that track is called
I'm listening to this knowing it is time for me to take action and chase my goals because nobody is going to save me, to all of you out there i wish you the best guys we can do it. I Belive in you🙌
I've been struggling alot lately and thinking of giving up. Thank you stranger, I needed this
I'm so glad I see these kinds of comments from time to time.
Everyone, let us not lose hope. One day, the sun will shine for us.
Im still alive, these past months have been hard, i broke up with the girl i thought i would marry, no job, and other things, but i believe that one day i will be happy, this feeling of sadness is temporary
maybe sometimes it’s not always about finding happiness but just enjoy how’s life going, I hope it’s okey
Reading all these comments really helped me feel like i wasn’t alone with my problems. Its one thing for a parent or guardian figure in your life to say to you “you’re not alone”, but really seeing it with your own eyes is something else man. I appreciate all of you and am glad that you were all able to share your stories and experiences. Thank you, cheers 🍻
Your never alone bro🙏
@@Complex_inc preciate you man 🤝
growing up is realizing that we really aren't so different with the issues we have and struggles, almost comforting to know that.
@@CoopyIIII it is comforting to know that for sure.
11 seconds it took for 10 minutes of tears.
Rewind, swollen eyes, endless gaze, soul empty, mind paralyzed.
Rest in piece my best friend.
I miss my cat, my rabbit, my cockatiel and my parrot.
@@jackassir6060 I truly trust with all my heart you’ll see your friends again. They flourish now with you in their heart.
@@jackassir6060yeah I miss my cat. Had him for 15 years as I grew up and had such a bond with him unlike any other. This music makes me reflect on past times good and bad. As much as we want them back, it’s apart of life to live, love, grieve and appreciate the family, friends or companions we lost. Thankfully we had the memories and that never goes away.
I listen to this song every night to help me sleep but it usually ends up keeping me up, thinking about life, where I want to be, where I am, if I’m doing it right. Half the time it’s that or the other half is thinking about this girl that I’ve only been on one date with recently but she is just, well, different. Makes me smile, makes me happy. This music is the core of music
“To see the world in a grain of sand
And a heaven in a wild flower
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand
And eternity in an hour”
Not even halfway through this video and I’ve shed the first tears I’ve had in years. I miss my family but they’ve all accepted that I’m different from them and moved on. I just want to feel loved by my parents again, I want my father to be proud of me without denying me affection.
While you await your dad's love, have some from the boys. You are here with us :)
Hey Clayton, if you feel like a black sheep in your family, just know that it’s for a purpose. You aren’t made to fit in, you’re made to stand out
Hey Clayton I personally don’t know you but I know you are loved by so many.
@@benrand1388 you too Ben. I can see you’re going through it but you still are there for others. That’s a wonderful thing ❤️
Clayton, we don’t know each other aside from sharing this piece of music. I think and believe that a person who can really express himself, is someone who I can look up to, who I can be proud of. Focus on building up your self confidence . How? By having fun being with yourself, doing things by yourself, exercise, play, distract from bad augury.
Don’t carry yourself around, enjoy yourself while being yourself.
Hopefully, someday, I come back again to this song, and feel better than I feel right now.
same
Sending Love and good wishes my friend
One Earth
One Family 💙
How are you doing today
@@AMH793 I second this. Hope you're doing well and are at peace.
you will man.
It's 6:22 am (EST), 15th January 2024, third week of the year. Our shops have just been looted and burnt down in the last few days. It all happened in a blink of an eye. I thought I was gon loose my job. My partner is pregnant with our first child, the thought of losing a job and the responsibilities of being a father. Thank God, I'm still here. I hope I can revisit this video when I have everything I always dreamed about.
You can do it my friend! You are strong hearted, face the hardships of the world and win for those you love, for their true happiness. Look for role models out of good people, let their way guide you to forge a good life
I've been a lonely person in my whole life. I had no purpose. But Today was the first day that I felt Power. First time I felt like an adult. My father got invited to a dinner party and I went with him. For the first time in my life I talked with people who I always wanted to become. Free. Happy. Ambitious. I talked with them like a man. Had amazing conversations.. I found what I want in life. My path. My goal. I will succeed
This piece was carved out of rock a billion years ago. This is what the universe sounds like when you can't die from time.
Masterfully expressed.
In the fabric of space where time becomes a loop
😂 billions nor millions 👉 the stable firm earth doesn't rotate only the celestial as we are in the FIRMAMENT 😊 and the earth should be less than 20 thousands years old
yea
@@AngelLuisEspada1970lol
"It's gonna be f***ing cold when I stand up outta this water. I'll just sit here a little longer....."
Like me in my bath until the bath gets cold too..
Same with humans clinging on to life.
Me every morning under the shower
Hahaha
@@ruthking5994 Dumb person.
This is my first comment ever. I'm one of those people that are too ashamed of sharing their feelings and feel that everything about them is embarassing. I'm 15 and struggling with life, alone, well, I'm just too different from others. Family problems and had a very hard childhood, worried for my 2 brothers and 4 sisters. Mother hates me now because of father, and father expects too much of me.
There's just so much I wan't to share with people but they never understand, they just...never do. Most of the time I feel like I'm not living and just exist.
Thank you Aphex twin for all the emptiness and I swear it, I will never forget this song.
I feel like that because of the insane speed that the world is moving, we often get caught in the routine of the daily life and get used to think only in ways that would make us more effective and successful.
Tracks like this remind me of a distant place and time, before 18 when everything had a special vibe and I had a lot of moments just to stop, listen to music while watching the sunset, and think.
Those times feel long gone and forgotten, but every now and then I come around a track like this and remember to stop, and think
this might be the dumbest thing ive read all year. and you've had 11 months.
nah man, i feel you brother, back then we would just sit, listen to some chill songs and just stare at a sunset. we all need some time with ourselves, and even if we don t notice, that s a very important requirement for our sanity, we just need to release all the build up tension
@@esala1817why?
When I listen to this, I'm imagining myself walking barefoot on the grass in an unknown distant land full of mysterious little creatures that walk around me and talk to me about life. This is the background music of this place, it's just flying in the air, undisturbed and eternal.
Aphex Twin : plays 3 chords repeatedly for 10 minutes straight
Us: this song literally saved my life
EDIT:
thanks guys for the likes
Truly shows his musical genius
Fr 😅
Sounds different every time though
definitely one of the songs ever made
dont forget the clicking thing
Fascinating how he managed to make 3 chords remain interesting for over 10 minutes. I suppose minimalism is one of the driving factors in a good ambient track.
Richard or the monkey ?? Lol
It's extremely subtle, but there are elements being added and taken away throughout the entirety of the track. The rhythmic length of the 3 chord sequence also changes and extends/contracts. So there is change, but it's incredibly subtle.
Excuse me, this is Aphex Twin we're talking about. That level of quality is to be expected.
Nairam Diam yeah but it is just three chords tho
idk. it's okay when you're falling asleep but it's not intented for active listening imo.
Autechre's Vletrmx which basically has just like 5 different notes over 4 bars repeated for seven minutes sounds much more interesting and alive than this.
I'm currently 17 , i had best friend he was like a brother to me when we were in highschool he was always sharing his headphones with me when i tell him abt things that are going low & he always gave me it with this song on & always told me to fight & he knows that i struggle & how does it feel even though he never even cried or showed negative emotions to everyone besides he was always the therapist friend . One night him & i & bunch of our friends met & had fun & laughed & he laughed most and made us all laugh by his silly funny jokes that we used too . The day after that we heard that he took his life on his way home.
Everytime i hear this song it reminds me of you dear Jacob 💗.
here i am, i was just laying in my bed, looking at the moon with this track playing next to my ears. i’ve gone through heartbreak recently, which ended the toughest year i’ve had so far. i feel deeply sad, frustrated, exhausted, but also hopeful. it is frustrating to be used to this shitty feeling that is heartbreak, although this time i turn to music and relaxation and crafts for relief, instead of substances like i’ve always had.
what a strange year it’s been, i let myself get too comfortable, i was not responsible for myself, i spent my days in a high haze still hopeful, yet unwilling to do anything and detesting the environment and sometimes myself. i’ve always thought i need to break myself fully to start healing, only recently i have shed myself of that belief and i am slowly moving back to a healthy lifestyle and mindset.
as i let myself go, anxiety caught me. i was supposed to go and have a half year of studying abroad instead of staying in the country that i hated, yet i gave in to the fear and anxiety and stayed back in my home country, which i adore. i now spend my days working a regular 9-5 office job, taking care of myself, feeling at ease with myself after all this time. mundane but fulfilling.
life is beautiful, and this sonic masterpiece proves it. i get to feel my emotions to this wondrous track, and they may be unpleasant now, but i feel them instead of numbing myself again. which is beautiful and makes me feel alive and i remain hopeful, deeply hopeful, i wish for everybody to remain hopeful and curious, as that’s the youthful spirit to keep us going. i loved entering this touching space of your intimate personal comments, thank you and bless you
I wish the best for you❤
We're in a middle of a big war in here and this song gives me a moment of silence
Stay safe man❤
Where u from?
Jerusalem
@@orehod476 oh man stay save alr?
Godspeed my friend, stay safe and healthy. Hope to see you back in this comment section!
dude i'm just tired of feeling so lost. i don't even know where life is taking me, it's just like i'm always on autopilot waiting for something to happen
make sure you make the best of these moments. i totally understand man, its torture. you want your life to be yours. but it still can, even if thats on a smaller scale. you can pursue passions and creative hobbies. attempt to make fun out of the mundane. uproot routine and do something completely spontaneous. be consumed by time as you meander somewhere on a walk or in your mind. take control from the bottom up.
that isn't professional advice or anything, but it's what I've picked up in my experience from feeling very disconnected and not understanding what im meant to be doing or where im going in life.
much love.
you’ll look back on these days and realize you were stressing for nothing, enjoy it now
Im in bed listening to this thinking about when i got my spiderman bike when i was 4. good times, good times.😊
I was with the love of my life for almost three years, and for two of those I was her carer. It was the hardest part of my life so far, and I put every fibre of my being into helping her to live a meaningful life, despite her disability.After multiple suicide attempts, endless trips to hospitals, and constant pressure to hold together our world while everything tried to tear it apart, I was exhausted. In the end I broke it off because I'd lost myself in the process and couldn't give anything more. I was done. But she was doing better - she finally had a network of support around her and was on a path that gave her hope for the future. For a long time I was in a deep depression, oscillating between being angry and bitter, and sadness - in mourning for the life I should have had. I hated myself for not being a strong enough man to resist the abuse and fit the masculine profile society tells me I should be. And I hated her for what she made me become. But then I started running again, spending time in nature, quitting alcohol and confronting who I really was; relearning the things I loved, revisiting old relationships and reminiscing about the people we were and the things we did. And I forgave her, because none of us are perfect, and navigating this world and the people in it is a challenging endeavour, not least when you're ill. Things aren't perfect, and life hasn't followed the trajectory I expected, but, a year later, I think I've finally found peace. I've realised that you can only do what you can do, and that every experience happens for a reason, and teaches you to be a stronger, more resilient person. Life isn't fair, but that's what life is. A beautiful collision of circumstance and helplessness, of love and anger, of reconciliation and acceptance. As I try to put my life back together now, I still think about her everyday, and the life I could be living. I don't think I will ever love anyone like I loved her, but I know we can never be together. And that's OK. I hope she's doing well.
wow man...
I can't wait to come back to this video in some years and see all of your success stories about how you all managed to push through and find peace in the end. I look forward to it :)
man i wish so
@@l.z.6553you will bro. Just trust the process
Only thing I hope for.
damn,hopefully gang.
It’s 6:48 in the morning I’ve been lost in my own thoughts and couldn’t sleep, I listen to this amazing song and can’t help but feeling some kind of peace, im going to sleep now, stay safe out there and have a nice life to whoever reads it.
6.29 here enjoy what time u have left bro
3:22 rn here bro, just happened something bad and i wish u the best
To think of it. This is like the checkpoint level, just typing what we got in the comment section before continuing our journey.
Stay strong, to the people who are still walking to get here.
Isn’t it crazy how songs like this can bring together people from all over the world and make them wanna share little pieces of their lives with complete strangers? Truly fascinating…
Currently laying in bed, listening to this masterpiece, overthinking everything that’s happened, thinking about what I could’ve done better or changed in my life to get to where I am. I feel like every time I’m at my lowest point in life I notice everything that’s happening around me, who’s really there for you and who’s not, the pain and struggle just hanging from my shoulders, the thought of giving up, always fatigued, no motivation or drive to do anything fun anymore, distancing myself from my loved ones, just mentally drained at this point. Whenever I come back to this sound it just keeps me at peace, and for anyone going thru the struggles right now, just know that this shit is temporary, we’ll be out the gutter soon! The people who were there for you when you had nothing keep them close, I know it’s tough but you gotta thug it out for your loved ones, Stay strong Kings! don’t let the struggle tear you apart. ❤️👑
yo we ain’t perfect, but we’ll all make it
Thank you for this.
Thank you
Thank you for this. Needed that! 🩵
Same brother
In my opinion, this is the greatest song ever made, it feels like the finale to all music, the ending of everything, a good ending
The true ending.
Yeah now i suggest "windowlicker" and "come to daddy" from the same artist 😳
@@P.G.ABD99 I’ve heard both, I’m a huge aphex twin fan but this is definitely his best song imo
@@EthanG2214 i was just suggesting man.... my favorite is actually alberto balsalm
agreed
Life is beautiful. It’s painful, scary, treacherous, but damn is it beautiful. I’m listening to this while getting ready to leave my childhood home. I’ve lived here for 20 years and it’s all I know. I’m reminiscing on all the memories that I’ve experienced here. The ups and the downs, the laughter and the tears. I’ve lived many lives here, had so many friends, so many parties, had love and heartbreak, had all my firsts here. Damn this is the last place that I ever saw my dad alive. This place has been my solace and has been the vessel to allow me to grow into the man I am today. I am afraid to leave, I don’t know what is to come, but change is so important and it is inevitable. We can’t just hold onto the past because we are afraid of letting it go. The more we strip the house of its furniture and Knick knacks the more I realize it was never the house that was my home, but the life I lived within it with my family and friends. I don’t know what the future has to offer, but I know it will bring more life, more friends, more love, more ups and downs. All I can do now is be grateful for the time and experiences I was able to have here, and be excited for what’s to come. Time to find my next home.
November of 2022, I met this girl, she was everything I was not but everything I’ve ever wanted. Was the most beautiful and amazing and silliest girl I’ve ever met. Met her in the the bay where I live while she was visiting here. Met her on a Thursday night, she was supposed leave the next day, Friday, but she extended her stay. I saw her Friday, Saturday, and dropped her off the airport Sunday. When I was dropping her off she started to cry but I remained strong in front of her and reassured her everything will be fine for her. She had to go back to San Diego. When I started leaving the airport I immediately broke down, almost like if part of my soul was being taken away. When you hold something so precious being taken away. She had opened up to me and I to her. I was enamored with this girl. 2 weeks later I flew out to her, I couldn’t stand being away from her. She picked me up at the San Diego airport, from there we went to our hotel. I went into the shower because she was insisting that I should shower, at the time I found it odd, like i was being setup. When I came out she surprised with one of the nicest gestures someone has ever done. She celebrated my birthday after I had told her I didn’t like to celebrate it. I wanted to cry but I held back. We hung out for the next couple days. 3 weeks into knowing this girl and I wanted to spend the rest of eternity with her. Due to unfortunate circumstances and my 20 year old undeveloped brain and understanding, things did not play out how I wanted things to go. I flew back and things started to turn for worse. At the end we did not understand each other and bitterness and pride took over both of us and we both left each other with our back turned as we rode away on our high horses. To this day I still think about her, I cannot escape her in my dreams. Moon Rangel from San Diego, I still think about you. I would’ve moved mountains and parted oceans to be together. It was the best month of my life.
14 is when I started listening to Aphex Twin and now I’m 32. I’ve never had a close friend who also loved his music. Now I’m a year in with a girlfriend who I showed this and the other tranquil beautiful songs to. We listened to Stone In Focus for the moon rising over the ocean last year and I played Lichen for her the first time I wanted to open up more deeply with her....... and last night was the first time I told her I love her. Just wanted to share that
congrats man wish you two the best
I was 16 at the time. Just a safespsce to come bsck to
Man, I'm glad for you! Hope you have a great relationship!
Happy days my friend.
I'm so happy for you bro
The monkey footage is from a movie called “Baraka”. The entire film is an audio and visual spectacle that is unmatched. Was filmed in 70 millimeter.
And with no commenter
@@user-ri8ws8nv3i i mean it would be kind of great if i started the movie and it began with "what's up guys its scarce here"
Samsara is awesome too
all Ron Fricke's work is amazing... Chronos is my fave!
You guys are cool AF✌✊🔥👍
I will never understand what kind of emotions I am feeling when I am listening to this masterpiece. I can’t tell if I am happy sad nostalgic or just lost. When I first heard it I started crying like I just needed to get it if my system but I don’t know why I was crying or why I had this strange sensation on my stomach. I think it was the first time I felt at peace
Same it’s really something about this song that makes u feel in a way you can’t really explain…
Life’s weird… you live 24 years then find a master piece like this… then you just keep living on
Same ..
I just can’t get this girl out of my head. She’s the only person I’ve ever felt this way for, she’s the reason I want to get up in the morning, why I want to improve myself. She’s almost all I think of, yet I just can’t tell her how I really feel. One day, I promise I will.
do it before it’s too late. don’t delay anything, the outcome will be the same as it is now.
You have nothing to lose, and everything to gain. I have waited every single time only to find out they felt the same but we both just moved on without even trying to talk about our feelings. It hurts so much when you find out it could've been something, but you didn't have the courage to confess. If they reject you not only as a romantic partner, but also as a friend, it was not meant to be and it will hurt. But at least you know you tried and didn't miss your opportunity. Please do it. Wishing you luck! :)
the worst feeling is regret, if you never tell her how you feel about her, you will regret it one day.
Same dude
We living parallel situations rn brother
I'm 63 and only recently found Aphex Twin, quite by accident.
Life is really amazingly random. For me, the lack of real control, and the awareness of that, which intensifies as you age, lose loved ones, accumulate various health issues (which may or may not be things you have any control over re behavior), etc. is what I struggle with.
I had to actually look up "ambient music" to be sure I understood what it was. I had listened to some of it over the years from minimalist composers like Philip Glass (who did the wonderful music for Koyaanisqatsi), not even realizing that was a thing.
But the first time I say that film at about age 24 (more like the age of various commenters here) and sat just STUNNED in the theater when it was over as everyone else in that big packed theater got up and hurried to their car, made me more aware "I'm not like most other people". For me at that point, it really dawned on me how badly we are screwing up the planet, decades before climate change became such an obvious huge problem.
Now, almost 40 years later, I realize that I'm on the autism spectrum, and that's why I have trouble understanding the emotional life of lots of people. Like for me, I was really surprised at how sad so many people in comments said this beautiful song makes them feel. To me it makes me feel quiet, safe, and comfortable emotionally, even as my mind roams over many topics. It's like a calming tonic for the normal whirlwind chaos that is much of life.
I agree with another poster re the quality and the compassion and positivity re all the comments here. Sometimes I am very proud to be a human being (unlike the dismay human events causes at other times), so thank you so much for this community for providing that as an adjunct to this wonderful piece of musical artwork.
This is the most heartfelt comment I think I have ever read, Thank you.
took the word out of my mouth
what a wonderful chance to read this meanwhile listen to this existentialist song.
We on the same boat captain!
I was obsessed with listening to Philip glass after watching the first season of the Terror
Day after Christmas and I’m crying again listening to this song thinking abt my dead mom. I got her chain as a gift and wearing it makes me feel protected yet guilty because im not the person I want to be yet. But im still alive so I’ll just keep going. It’s so hard knowing she isn’t and will never be there to hug or congratulate me. The holidays have never hurt me this much. I love you and hope you’re safe.
Stay strong my friend, it's gonna be okay.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Stay strong my friend, it will get better. Sending you a hug
واقعا متاسفم...
I'm sitting out here in rural Eastern Estonia, listening to this song on repeat and looking out my 3rd floor apartment window in a trance like state, to an orthodox church a few hundred feet away, its getting late in the day now and the sun is glinting off its golden domes. A similar gold to the autumn leaves being carried by cold winds across an empty and quiet blue sky. I'm a thousand miles away from home, alone and seemingly at the edge of the world, in a land that speaks an alien tongue that i have taken up the commitment to study, its freeing but at times lonely. Just watching the world go by. Yet, however mundane it seems now, it is all what makes living... so extraordinary.
That sounds lovely, wish I could join you, I've lived in Australia all my life which, is nice but I'm sure Estonia would be a much better change in scenery
oled eesti-ukrainlane kuskil narva kandis vä?
@@dasarath5779 Ei, ma olen inglise keele üliõpilane välisõppepraktikal. Õpin vene keelt. Narva on ilus
@@Mmjk_12 tore kuulda! oleme mõlemad siin hilja öösel siis praegult üleval. loodan parimat sinu õppustega, saadan tervitusi rakverest! head ööd ka! :D
@@dasarath5779Nüüd olen tagasi Inglismaal, aga mingi osa minust ikka helistab, et naasta Eestisse. Ma ei saaks kunagi elada õnnelikku elu ilma uuesti tagasi tulemata. Ta tunneb end tõeliselt nagu kodus! Kirik, millest ma räägin, on Narva ikooni kirik. nii ilus :) Head ööd!
Life has been feeling like an endless cycle of nothing and loneliness. This song is an accurate description of these thoughts.
Humanity is an experience, people will always be there for you :]
I understand you is a feeling that has accompanied me all my life and I don't know if one day this will change, but in spite of that I live trying to find enjoyment in life, in the little things, in the fleeting moments, in astonishing myself, in making an effort, in looking for certain tranquillity and coherence, to be at peace above all with myself, those things for me are condensed in this song.
I'm in a small 10€ Hostel room in Milan with 4 middle aged man and a dirty bathroom. But my bunk bed is next to the open window, warm summer night air is blowing inside, I can see trees and an appartment block under a milky orange night sky and listen to this with ventilators in the background.
where are u now
I'm curious - how did you end up in that situation? What's your story?
vibe
V i b e c h e c k
@@steffeeH Sounds quite a nice situation.
I am forgetting your face and what your voice sounds like but I still remember exactly how your skin felt and what your hair texture felt like and the exact expression in your eyes as you looked at me. I didn’t want to leave but you left me no choice. I know you miss me but for now it’s the best choice for us. We will meet again, I love you
I don’t know who will see this, nor do I know what you have and haven’t. But regardless, I wish the best for you, because somehow, in the flaming pit of agony we call earth, you found this. Something that will probably help you feel something, whether that be sad or happy. I wish the best of you from here to wherever you end up.
Thanks from South Africa 🫂
Thanks bro, wish you the same
Thanks cuz, much love. Gotta love life man
We played this during my brother's funeral. So thankful for Aphex.
It still hurts
D:
I'm sorry for your loss. I hope in some way he was able to enjoy the music a final time.
my deepest condolences..
jesus christ, these kind of comments make me want to unlearn empathy... just the mere imagination of having to attend my brother's funeral makes me feel sick. I'm so sorry for your loss, I really can't imagine what you have to go through.
@@cozymode70 You've spoke from the heart right there. I too sometimes wish i was born a psychopath. Human life, cognitive abilities, and the dark nature of the universe and nature is traumatizing and this stuff can be overwhelming the more conscious you are. I can envision you growing into a very strong person especially since you have the ability to reflect.
And although it's extremely hard to imagine death, but i believe it's just an illusion. Before you were born you were in a state of nonexistence when you die you might end up in the state you were before you were even a sperm before you father existed. Time is not the same or if it's even there when we die. But i'm sure it will be like waking up again on a new planet maybe the same as a living thing. It's still too hard to accept too because there are many horrible ways you will die and you'll have the most blissful lives as well. The universe is torture and all this for why? What purpose if at all? And does it even need a reason?
A few days ago my grandpa was diagnosed with cancer. Today we discovered it was stage 3 and it could have spread to his brain. Im going to get my drivers license soon. Ive been in love with someone for a long time and recently it feels like they love me back. I feel like I’m entering a new phase of my life. I miss being a little kid but i also know i have so much ahead of me. I miss playing checkers with my grandpa. Thank you aphex twin, i love this song.
I feel you brother, my uncle got diagnosed stage 4 cancer almost 2 years ago now, thankfully he beat the shit out of this fucking disease. But shortly after another member of my family shot himself. But life goes on, there's some good times and some awful times. Although I feel like horrible things tend to affect and impact me a lot more.
@@irlnq_fndamn bro.
hi bro, my grandma recently got stage 4 stomach cancer that might not be curable as she is in her mid 80s and on a slight decline, so I understand your pain. I also just got my drivers license in october, so I hope you were able to pass and get it! I am wanting someone to love in my life very bad, so I hope that person works out for you fr. I know I need to just be patient and trust. I too feel like i’m entering a new phase in my life, and am excited yet I also miss being a kid. I wish all the best for you in all aspects
Good luck, man
dude, I feel so bad for you. my grandma got stage 2 cancer a year ago but she won against it with one thing, hope.
One day, we all will be gone. You and everyone you'll ever know will cease to exist. Make the most of this life. Take everyday as a new opportunity. Never lose faith.
Many miles from home in a hotel room in a strange city, a strange country and all I do is miss my family back home.
I hope you got home ok
I met a girl about a year ago. She was different than anybody I had ever met before. When she entered the room, it really felt like everything got more colours. I remember one night we would walk through the city after watching a movie together. She decided to hold my hand and I felt, I did not want this moment to ever end. We made a stop at a lake to look at the beautiful boats. I looked over to her and realised how pretty she is. I often got lost in the beauty of her eyes. I never wanted this night to end. Her personality was like a fire with big flames, I never met anybody who could ever come close to her. I absolutely loved her. I never got to tell her these things, we went different paths but she changed the way I look at people and I still think about her often.
woah..same fate mate.same feelings.I know I have to let her go, but deep in my heart, I trust that one day the universe will bring us together again when we are both ready, especially from my side.
As a kid i looked at a pretty girl, but i don't remember anything afterwards between us after i've told her a phrase i will later learn meant a very terrible thing that used a slang word (it meant let's do bed dancing). Now i have a different interest and i feel like something could actually blossom if i break out of my own tar and show that i am capable of love and socializing.
Lately i've convinced myself i AM depressed, because my default emotion is silent sadness and i was demotivated for a *long time.* But i can't find a way to express it best than to hope a friend or more, would notice, and give me the hand i needed (the amagi made a video based around if Sakura became Naruto's childhood friend, she helped him with grades, and as it hit a note and i burst into tears).
When somebody crafts a form of media that encapsulates pure happiness in a form of relationship or socializing, i kind of burst into tears, at first it was a movie about a soldier whose soul got sent into the afterlife to be reborn. But he was reckless while waiting in the line, and smoked dirt with the soul of a kid, even made friends who he may be fated to meet in life. However lady fate gave him a disability which he reacted very harshly to, and almost missed the bus to life, he ended up succeeding as a physicist, even though his mother closely supported him and had to help him do mundane activities such as dressing up, and his dad left because he couldn't bear the table tapping because of his disability. I suspect it's related to autism.
Point being, im not bad physically, not too bad intelligence wise, but i am in a heck of a cement mix and i just feel like i need somebody other than my parents to help me relearn the value of life. I think i had a dream about doors and in on of them i see my father's grave, which i think shows i hated his punishments more than i let on. I pray i don't let the things i legitimately hate consume me. It kind of feels like i see everything as dark shades of grey to black, imagine living with those colors visible to your eyes without feeling like a sack of shit.
UA-cam says i might want to edit the comment, don't worry, i don't have any bad thoughts, i just acknowledge the fact that i had them and i know well i never intended and never will intend to act up on them, they are intrusive in nature. Im voicing out that i hope for a good future but that i don't have the strength to will it into truth without a very strong motivation. When i think of people, i think the times that i exercise, i can put just a little bit more strength in that moment, but i'd want more. I might regret sending this one hell of a reply because i took a little discord distraction and now i think this is very cringe.
Woah I’m in the same situation. I fell in love with a girl who honestly she’s the best recent thing to appear in my life. She brings out the best in me, I still cherish the memories I have of her. But I learned she already has a boyfriend. I have to accept that she won’t be in my life much longer…
I feel you
This girl reminds me of my crush. She used to be in my school from 5th to 7th grade. Now we're in different schools because I live at the end of my hometown, and I had no other choise but to go to the nearest school to my block.
I played this for my father today who is 94 he can't see very well and couldn't see this beauty being in the water but he sat with his eyes closed listening meditating on it and every two or three minutes saying 'wow'.
Wow
Amazing !
Bless your dads heart ♥️ I don’t even know him and I love him, and you.
I can't imagine what listening to this at age 94 would be like. All those years to reflect on while listening to this would be incredibly poignant yet comforting. like the ending credits to a powerful movie. thanks for sharing :)
Honey Mayhem I love you too
I'll be honest, I've never experienced any of the hardships that others in this comment thread have had. I've had a relatively flawless life until now, which is saying something. I mean, I lost a couple grandparents, sad but not unusual, a few pets, very natural for emotional development. I've felt like i've missed out on a couple teen romances or experiences with others. But generally, my life is good. I have a good family. Great friends. All types of security. This song kind of lets me reflect and very much be grateful for this, as it gives me 10 minutes to look back on my relatively uneventful life and be appreciative that i've rode into the world this easy. More importantly, it makes me think of the future. I've got to fulfill my creative desire to just, make something, put it out there and wait for judgment. I can't wait to live through my 20s, have fun, meet people. Eventually live out a similar course to my parents, whose death I can't comprehend at this stage. I think life is good for me, at least for now.
08/05/2024
today was my last day of school and tomorrow i start my exams. i havent cried yet, and its strange because it feels like the end even though tomorrow i will see all the same people again. i'll never have a physics or chemistry lesson again and im noww free to study history! i hope it all turns out well and aphex twin has been helping me get through this weird time xx
"I survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me." It's one of my favorite quotes from a game. Last year, I honestly considered taking my own life. Life was becoming too hard on me, but that was mostly because of my bad decisions. Drugs, bad relationships, anger, and being overweight were all taking a toll on me. I decided to move away, cut all those people off, quit drugs, lose weight by fasting, dieting, and going to the gym every day, as well as controlling my anger with better sleep and meditation. I did everything I possibly could to feel better, and I can honestly say it worked. I still have issues with money, understanding people, especially myself, but at least I'm in a better spot than last year. I have hope that it'll get even better. Whoever reads this, don't give up, no matter how bad it gets; you have the potential. Take one day at a time. Breathe a bit; you can always make it better in some way.
God bless you. Your drive has rubbed off on me a little and reminded me to get to bed. ❤
You’ve come a long way man. I’m proud of you❤️
We must return to monke
Damn fr you just gave me a existential crisis at 12:32 am .. bruh I shouldn’t have ate that Burger King liek I shoulda just stayed home ya know :/ hungry
@@deafgordon2187 Reject fast food. Return to vegetables and meats
ape together stronk
You all may think it’s a joke but I fr changed since then lol
Based
I'm sitting here randomly scrolling through youtube while on the phone with my girlfriend. She's sound asleep but I'm fully awake. She is the first person that feels like home, not just a young love but truly like home, warm, calm. Like coming home on a cold day after playing in the snow all day, and just feeling the warmth of home, sitting infront of the furnace with hot chocolate in your hands. Still I'm wondering what to do with my life, i have no idea where i am heading or where life takes me. I dont even know if i want to continue with uni . I'm 19 and dont know what to do or how to do it. It's a never ending cycle of questioning i cannot find the answers to, but everytime i scroll, hopelessly thinking and never finding an answer I remember her, and somehow I get calm and think to myself that all of this is part of life, its okay to feel lost, to feel alone, to feel you're at a place you dont belong to, being somehow with one foot in your own life and with the other you still cling to the peaceful life as a child. I have no Idea where I am going and thats okay, i think its part of becoming an adult. Although sometimes i wish i am still that kid running around in the snow, but i guess this is the bitter sweet part of adulthood, sometimes it frightens me. It's weird and idk if it will ever stop being weird, all i know that it's going to be okay somehow. This song sums up all of my thoughts and somehows makes me feel that life and adulthood will be okay.
You will achieve my friend, what may help is to find a role model, someone who achieves and is a good person, maybe a few, female and male, and listen to what they say. People say you are influenced by those you listen to, so listen to those who are loving and their ways, and you will have a very strong path ahead of you, lots of love mate
listening to this on january 8th 2024 at 17 years old
i know many of you are much older than me
and multiple are younger than me
and some of you might be exactly my age
down to the same day
but that doesn't matter because we're all human
we all feel emotions we all know what its like to be happy sad regretful nostalgic or joyful
life truly hits you like a bullet train that was going at full speed
3 years ago from today when i was fourteen i could have never predicted where i would be right now
i remember that same person 3 years ago hated the idea of love, hated the idea of smoking, hated the idea of losing faith
for years i was a lazy person that would do nothing all day but play video games and eat but i had one thing going for me which was religion
i was born muslim and followed it for years
but then at some point 3 years ago i decided i wanted to better myself become a better person for this world
so i started to become more athletic lost 15kg of weight and became skinnier than average
won a championship in boxing and felt over the world
i did my mission and changed for a better person
but then something that felt even better than that came
someone that i felt at ease with, and i know everyone has had their love stories but until the age of 16
until that person came along i'd like to say ive never felt emotion towards a person as much as i felt towards her
she truly brought back that innocent child that was in me 10 years ago
the child that would walk around skipping to his favorite music
but then i grew fearful of losing her, started acting obsessed and lost her because of it
and i know many people have it worse and many people have handled this exact situation better
but i couldn't live with the thought of going back to having no emotions
to living a life where id repeat the same routine everyday
and what truly broke me was when i tried to cry but no tears came out, i remember before i met her i havent cried in 2 years
but something about the way she talked to me the way she listened changed me and i began to cry from almost everything
from romance movies to sad scenes on a show to just a heartwarming message from her
but then when she left that bit of humanity left with her and i was once again left feeling empty inside
i texted my best friend told him that if i didnt text him in the next 30 minutes it meant i was no longer on this earth
and that he should tell my parents i loved them and tell my little brother im sorry for leaving him
and then i did it. i hung myself tight leather belt
around my neck. it felt beautiful. for around 20 seconds i was hanging there in the air
thinking about all the things i had done and all the things ive wanted to do.
but it was too late now i thought too late to think about the future as these were my final moments
and then i passed out. all the lights were gone
all the thoughts were empty i wish i could tell u what i saw or heard but i have no memory of it
then after what felt like hours but was truly only a couple of minutes
my biggest nightmare happened. i woke up laying on the floor having what i can only explain as a seizure
my entire body shaking uncontrollably. my eyes seeing everything hazy and with extra color
after a couple of seconds when i calmed down i realized my head was bleeding from the fall
and my knee hurt like hell and still does till today
i texted my friend who sent me as i was hanging "i know you're gonna come back"
and i told him he was right and that i had failed. i felt ashamed and at the same time sad that it failed
i had to live another day with the pain of not feeling anything.
after a couple of days went by i stopped working out. stopped taking care of my diet and body
i didnt feel motivation to study or exercise and lost faith in the religion i was born into
after failing an attempt i followed other methods to feel something. both my parents have been smokers for as long as i can remember
and my dad used to be a heavy drinker and abusive to my mom in the past
and up to this point i had smoked a couple of times
so i bought my first pack and began smoking then asked my sis for a joint
then found my own plug and started buying from him. i know me from 3 years ago would be disappointed at where i am now
but it helps me feel better
and if its either this or cutting/hanging myself like i use to do then i would rather stick to this
im here because my dealer quit smoking. everything cigarettes weed hash you name it he quit it
so im once again left without anything to calm the pain. cigarettes dont really do what they use to now
i can smoke a whole pack in a day and still not feel that kick i felt when i first started
and now im scared ill truly never be able to feel new emotions again. i dont know which i prefer
the me i am right now an attempt survivor and smoker. or the me 3 years ago that decided he was going to change himself for the better
sure he was healthier and felt better about himself. but he had no emotion he was barely a person.
i dont know what im going to do right now but all i know is that future me will look back to this era in my life
and say it truly changed him, made him see the world differently.
i love all of you guys, truly and even if not a single person read this which i dont expect anyone to. i want you to know
you mean something. you mean the world to a person, someone wakes up and thinks about you, you matter to your family
and you should never attempt to leave this world we live in, love yourself and take care
i love you readers.
and i loved you more aliana.
humans are devil
you shouldve sticked to islam
I'm 17 too but havnt had that rough of a life
With this song as a witness, today will be the day I revert back to the good man I once was. I promise myself to no longer procrastinate. To not waste the life that millions would kill to have. I will realize my true potential. I was given a back to bear weights, not to turn it towards the people I love. I promise to be good, help others, and die great.
i love you for this you will make it ❤
you don’t wish to be anything, you are a good man, a great one.
We are your witness brother do it for him her and us
this is such a 3am lifeshaping comment😹
Amen
I sat and listened to this when i was 14 wondering where my life would take me....... I just turned 42 and it took me to a beautiful wife and 4 kids!
Dont spend too much time wondering about life people, go and live it, it will pass in the blink of an eye believe me!
I hope you live a beautiful and prosperous life with your family
Thats insane this has been out for that long. Im 17 right now and im, honestly really afraid to grow up. I hope I can find my way and end up happy, as I hope you did.
@@learntoswim515 great advice man
I'm 18 years old and insecure as fuck but trying to get through this feeling. I'll take your advice
Damn I love this. Cheers man!