There's a really good chance we could chart with tthis one! This would be the first time in history a song about M.E and lyme disease would make the top 40 which would be huge for awareness. Moments like this are pinch me moments and make me feel good about keeping the promise to my younger self. That's because of all you guys so thankyou so much!! If you wana help secure that spot you can download Troubles on all platforms by following the link below Let's go!!! First official release of the year! renmakesmusic.lnk.to/troubles Heres the lyrics for anyone who wants them I don't reach into the past very much for these shards of shattered glass and harsh paper cuts, leave me stuck when I reach in, memories are seaped in hydrochloric acid, I go to war and get passive and freeze up, But music helped the ice to thaw, put a chizzel in the middle swing the hammer of Thor pull it out of the impossible, Excalibur sword etching note pads full of reasons why my feelings are sore The first day that I got sick ejected from cock pit of living Ninteen ,young teen, waking up Bitten posters up, man hunt, Ren went missing Hard to have faith when the gods don't listen The first year maybe was the hardest Waking in a body that was buried like a carcass Brain in the lions den Body in a sharkpit Waking up in pain again Aching broken hearted Persistent little bugger I was bouncing from a doctor to a doctor to a doctor like a table tennis game that has no end So be the fate of Ren Every single question asnwered with a question on the end The second year I came to terms with giving up my dreams mind severed from the means that helped me write these rhyme schemes brain was inflamed The fatigue was Crushing Hard to remain sane with your brain combusting And the third year was murder Living in a purga-tory full of worry wouldn't live to be thirty Life style style hurt me Always in my bed tomb Re-arrange the alphabet and all the letters spell doom Light hurt my eyes Popping pills to survive When you're 23 and mentally you steadily decline 24 I was poor disability benefits What's the benefit of disability it's irrelevant 25 and the scars that were etched... they cracked Elastic bands only stretch so far and then snap Deep in phsycosis hallucinations, troubled vision Visits from the underworld were conjuring my Superstition 25, living back at home with my mum But not because I'm a bum Alone and physically done So thin, so frail, so week I'd become And my skin so pale, never kissed by the sun One time I carved a whole in my chest, just to feel I wish that was a metaphor, the struggle was real When you're living in a holocaust you buckle and kneel There's relief in the teeth of the kiss of cold steel Facts 26 im highly medicated and the pain sophisticated while im laying broke and naked on my back I brought my microphone into my Coffin, started droppin raw thoughts with the grim reaper knocking on the track Then man, lo and behold I heard an angel beckon on this treacherous road Was a stem cell doctor with a generous glow And a cell transplant brought Me out of the Cold And my body got stronger And my skin got younger And my stomach felt hunger for a door that was closed And my soul heard music for the first time Beauty was a word I'd use for this gift of gold Oh lord I forgive you Lord I forgive you Lord I forgive you Make me whole This music I give you Pain that I live through Everything I been through Is yours to hold
I realized today that we used to know one another, I was part of the ME/CFS FB community where I met Jennifer Brea also - you've been my hero for the last two years, your music is an anthem for the pain we've experienced. One of these days, I would love to create something along side of you. Keep being brilliant, I am so stoked for tomorrow.
About a month ago I met a woman in her 50’s with Lyme disease. She’s from Brighton (REN’s hometown) and is part of a support group for other sufferers. I mentioned that I’d learned more about the disease through a musician called Ren. Her face immediately lit up, she described all the work he’s done to support her group - called him their hero. All of this done quietly, without fuss and without seeking any credit. He’s a good man. ❤
May is Millions missing month, or M.E. awareness month. When I was first diagnosed with M.E. the amount of support and understanding of this illness was very low. I was left to suffer with no real explanation as to why. I wasn’t told at the time that this can be a by product of conditions like Lyme, POTS, MCAS, reactivating viruses. I had to figure that out by myself and it took years of trial and error, and treatments that often left me worse off until I was a functional human again. Over a decade later and the landscape still looks very much the same. Sufferers all over the world re left with debilitating, confusing symptoms and are left to drop off the face of the earth, unnoticed, because of the limited energy people have to advocate for themselves. People go from living fully active lives to trapped in bed, sometimes for decades, with no reasons why. M.E. a debilitating and cruel condition receives less than 6 times the amount of annual funding than Male Pattern Baldness. Nancy Kilmas, a proffesor of microbiology and immunology once stated: ‘My H.I.V. patients for the most part are hale and hearty thanks to three decades of intense and excellent research and billions of dollars invested. Many of my ME/CFS patients, on the other hand, are terribly ill and unable to work or participate in the care of their families. I split my clinical time between the two illnesses, and I can tell you if I had to choose between the two illnesses (in 2009) I would rather have H.I.V.’ I first hand experienced the crushing defeat of having a condition that there is little to no support for, and it breaks my heart to know that every day people are dropping off the face of the earth, and in many instances will be left to suffer for years with no full explanation or support. I am one of the fortunate ones who managed to manage symptoms enough to resume a mostly functional life. I therefore see it as a duty to speak on behalf of people who find themselves in a position where it’s difficult to speak for themselves. I wish I’d had more stories of hope at the time. Now I’m in a position where I could actively make a dent, even if a small one. Ive spent the last month putting together a detailed account of my story in hopes that it helps the people suffering feel less alone, gives them hope, and also hopefully raises awareness and rattles enough cages to highlight the severity of this illness to the point where more is done for it. The first instalment will debut on my UA-cam and twitch channels tomorrow at 6:15 PM UK time, and will continue every day until the release of my next track ’Troubles’ on the 9th of may. I hope for the sake of all of us still actively fighting their hardest to participate in life, that this offers some kind of help, because I know what it’s like to feel hopeless. I love you Ren You can pre-save troubles by following this link! renmakesmusic.lnk.to/troubles
I'm so sorry for your pain. Something I know every thing about. I have come so far that I see pain as my friend. If not I would be nuts. 27 years with pain now and for the rest of my life. I see you and I feel like you. And I feel with you. 😔😇 Love from Norway 🇳🇴
There is s very good documentary on UA-cam called Lyme disease and the fight for recognition. It's on the D C Documentary channel. It talks to people who are suffering with it. And their story's are the same as what Ren says. Worth watching for anyone that wants to know how hard it is for people suffering from it. Also Kris Newby's books & documentaries. And if you Google Plumb Island and Lyme disease. For a different take on it. The comments for the D C documentary video are worth reading for peoples own experiences about living with it.
To all you artists, performers, writers, poets, etc…. Ren has demonstrated a template to create meaning, solace, compassion, and empathy. I for one, had lost a considerable amount of my passion for music appreciation and my own creative potential. Though it may sound like hyperbole, the art Ren has created has markedly improved my life in several ways. I see REN’s influence in other aspiring independent artists who have written more creatively and made videos pushing their previous practices and methods.
1000 percent agree! Ren has sparked my creativity. So has the people around him! Brigita is so talented! His lyric videos are amazing and I have created canvas pieces just because I like what she's done and want to create it to have for myself! He is very fun to follow and certainly gets creative juices flowing! He is capable of making people think! I enjoy every part of it!
@@tjh5716 You have still seen her work and may not realize it😊 If you're familiar with Rens 7 sins cover that's a drawn Ren with the 7 sins words around him in red she did that. Also all his lyric videos😊 She is a friend of his and does some awesome work! Next time you watch a lyric video of Rens check her work out😊
I just played this for my daughter who has a Connective Tissue disorder, POTSsnd heart condition. It made us both cry, because we felt heard. Thank you Ren. Keep pushing bro, but remember to stop, breathe and just be as well. Luv ya ❤❤
One of my oldest friends couldn't continue the battle of living with Fibro. He couldn't take the pain anymore. I understand his decision, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. I hope for a better future for all the people suffering under the weight of these conditions. Thank you so much for the work you do Ren, and for giving a voice to the voiceless x Kia kaha, tane toa.
My close nurse-colleague friend got COVID from a patient in 2021. Now she has been diagnosed with M.E. Initially, doctors said "You have long-COVID.. so sorry... we have no cure and no answers." Finally, she got a diagnosis of M.E. -- she lives in her house, afraid and alone. My heart is broken for this brilliant, highly educated, successful woman who dedicated her life to helping others survive illness. She has all kinds of crazy symptoms and is really drowning . Thank you, Ren, for bringing awareness to your terrible illness. I want to show my friend that you never gave up, and now you have HOPE. God bless you, precious one.
Ren is going through a lot right now. Send him prayers, the first round of treatment didn’t go so well…I saw your post mate. I’m so so very sorry @RenMakesMusic You literally have given this freshly diagnosed with M.S. 30 yr old man, inspiration from not just how you are fighting through an illness,but because you’re a once ina generation artist (vocal tones and the stylistic diversity that is quite captivating) and you care about people genuinely. You’re a product of the world you were forced to live in alone no matter how much you wanted understanding or others wanted to give you that. That darkness, stillness, and time to critically reflect on what’s important is a thing almost no one can grasp, only the few that have to keep up the smile and spirit, whenever they’re helplessly trying to hang on. I’ve never been more thankful for a person of musical and spiritual greatness like yourself. Truly A Legend in my book. I’m a Texan btw, so your influence is wide my friend. Now get mad and fight like hell, so you can be in a good enough place afterwards to be loved on and renewed with that purpose to fight. You got this slim!❤💯🫵🔥🐷🔥🫡
Because God will not give us anything we can’t handle, When you fight like he has and come out the other end you become thankful for the struggle. You see why he put you through it and still give God all the glory. Jesus Christ is the Lord ❤
Yes, I have tried and failed to find comparisons until I think of the late sixties and the "scene", the social movement with a soundtrack of mind blowing music. Ren reminds me of the entire movement.
@@patrickquinlan3056 Yeah! I have been thinking the same thing. I truly believe this is a happening moment and this young man is a catalyst for positive change in the world, i mean, it could just be a great beat and catchy tunes but I really think there's something going on here now.
Totally agree! 💯 The only artist/band I feel the same way about, and who invokes the same feelings and vulnerabilities as Ren does, for me, is twenty one pilots. The ‘message’ and lyrics can be a bit more challenging to break down as the writing is more abstract, but definitely similar thoughts and these 😉
As an old fart myself, Ren has inspired a generation and he did it without music industry help, no radio play,no funding, no A&R backing,,no media shorts,....he and a few good friends produced a phenomenal performance with "Hi Ren"...and the journey took hold.....its just like the late 60's and 77....independent musicians broke the system.. 🎵🎶🎵🎶🎵🎶🇬🇧👍🤔🎵🎶🎵🎶
Exactly, Ren! I was in Hospice in 2009 due to Multiple Sclerosis. I've since written two books and ran for U.S. Congress, spreading hope and Positivity to ALL who may need it. I am very blessed to have found your music. I ALWAYS forward you and #DAX to everyone I can. Thank you for being a voice to the voiceless and sharing your life with us. IT HAS been a light in my dark tunnels!
I have lived with severe Fibromyalgia for years, since before I was forty and I'll be 64 in August. Before that I had a life, good job, marriage, kids, home, gym for 17 years, snow skied 30, surfed 15 (did a serious scorpion on the bottom of the ocean,), that ended that and had walked great distances all my life. Slowly one by one it was all gone including 34 years of marriage. All because of the pain, the brain drain, exhaustion, inability to be me. I'm on so many meds and so sick and I look forward to the day I am no more. It's such a sad way to be. I'm raising my grandson whose ASD & ADHD and he keeps me going. He is the love of my life, but every day is torment. I get true hope from God but thank you Ren for understanding. No one else can who doesn't walk in our shoes. Keep on keeping on and you will reach great height's. When you do, don't let them change you. Fame is a complete mind f*ck. Stay real. God bless.
Ren, I am 53 and have had Lyme disease for 34 years in America. I’ve seen so many doctors and have never gotten any relief. I’m bed ridden most of the time now. I cannot tell you how elated I am for you that you didn’t suffer the rest of your life. I am in happy tears knowing that you crawled out of this hell. ❤❤❤
It takes real bravery to turn your soul inside out and bare it, opening yourself up to judgement but vulnerability isn't a weakness. It's a strength. You inspire others to be strong with you, for you and for themselves.
Whenever I did talk about my weakness they miss labeled as a victim and that is why, as Ren did, I studied all my conditions which are connected in somehow with many of us. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I am a 20+ years experienced Social Worker who specialises in Trauma and Complex Trauma…my work is diverse and heartbreaking and predominantly involves working within the horrific Mental Health System in Australia…..your words hit hard and with such INTEGRITY and TRUTH…only those who have been through the horrendous Health System which includes the Mental Health System revolving door or worked and supported and advocated for those within these systems intrinsically KNOW this…..YOU young Man are the most Inspirational, captivating, compassionate and ground-breaking musical genius I have witnessed in a very long time…and I am old enough to have witnessed the whole Michael Jackson evolution that turned the music industry upside down with his genius….. THANK YOU for all that you are and all that you do…sending Love and Blessings.
Having watched all of the chapters of your story and now this... Ren, you are a fucking inspiration. Please, never stop providing a voice for those that don't have one for whatever reason.
My wife (GF at the time) fell ill suddenly at age 24. She spent 15 years unable to feed herself and sometimes slipping into a coma. Finally we found a clinic that could and wanted to help her. Now at 46 she has the energy of a 60-y.o. woman. Which doesn't sound all that great -- but it is amazing progress for someone who sometimes could not even speak, focus her eyes, or recognise her husband. At this very moment she's outside in the drizzle, planting seedlings in the garden. There is always hope.
@@larablackburn9649 An ME-CFS specialised clinic in Amsterdam, The Netherlands. Finally some doctors and reseachers willing to look outside of the DSM.
"and my stomach felt hunger.." -- one autoimmune survivor to another, this gave me chills. It's the little blessings in a healthy body doing regular healthy body functions and not trying to suffocate the life out of you. Praying for health, healing, and well being for all those fighting for their lives and sanity in this war.
My new favourite artist. There's this saying 'Art is how we decorate space. Music is how we decorate time.' You have managed to incorporate both art and music to create space in our time. ❤
Oh Ren. Thank you for mentioning POTS. My beautiful daughter has been living with this for 5 years - came on at 19, like you... a good chunk of youth robbed away. I just sent this to her... I think it will give her HOPE. So much love to you, sweet Ren.
🙏🙏 Took me 13 years to figure out that I have POTS , OI ,and other forms of Dysautonomia. Sadly the Lyme took a toll on Ren's body and caused autonomic nervous system to falter too. I'm so glad that he is bring awareness to it now, and giving hope to keep pushing that we will have better treatment 💞 We need it more than ever now that long COVID ppl body have been damaged to their ANS and there's only 47 specialists in the entire United States😢
My daughter is 12 and was recently diagnosed with POTS. She’s not heard much of Ren’s stuff because her age but I showed her the captions at the end and that it’s part of why he’s my favorite, since she & I are both chronically ill. 🫶🏻
My girlfriend and best friend died almost one year ago, she had Lymes and for 7 years got almost zero help from the medical system here in Spain, your story resonates so much with hers. I am so happy to know Ren, that you will always champion this issue, please don't ever stop pushing for more awareness and recognition in the medical industry for this and other illnesses, it is so so needed. Thank you for being you, for your music, for the beautiful soul you are and share with us all.
As a mother of 3, I feel proud of you as if you were one of my kids. I can only imagine how your mom felt throughout this whole process and see you come out shining brighter than ever. She raised a remarkably strong and determined person. I imagine she must be just as remarkable. ❤
I was just said the same thing. I think a lot of older (slightly, lol) fans are like mama bears. I came for the unbelievable talent, and stayed for the openness and vulnerability. How could anyone not want to protect him and see him succeed? Watching Ren grow actually made me proud, so I can't imagine what his parents went through, and how relieved and overjoyed they must feel now.
I only just discovered your music and your story about a month ago. I've struggled to comment on videos because I've felt profoundly moved by your personal story and music. You are an insanely talented person. More than that, though, you seem to be a genuinely kind human being who is driven, ambitious, and a true warrior in this life. I scroll through the comments on your videos as I watch, and it's the same every time. So many people thank you for giving voice to their pain, fears, and loneliness. Time and time again, people have said they were so close to giving up until they heard a lyric or a melody that helped them. You may not single-handedly defeat all evil in this world, but even one life you have changed has a ripple effect that can change the whole world. One person that you helped can go on to help many others, who can go on to help many others. I am currently in school for psychology. I am working to become a behavior therapist for adults with developmental and intellectual disabilities. What discovering your story and music has done for me is to highlight the areas in this profession that need change. More compassion, more empathy, more LISTENING. I plan to use this lesson to help others. I can be more compassionate and empathetic in my own work, and I can work to raise awareness within the system as well. I have worked with people with disabilities for over twenty years, and I know there are not enough advocates to speak on issues that need to be driven into the public eye. I have an astounding amount of respect for you and your work. You advocated for yourself, and you advocate for others. You have done amazing things in this world, sir, even if you don't always see the results. I believe you will do even more. Sending love and well-wishes as you continue your journey, and I look forward to continuing my journey into the rabbit hole.
The backing track and production are out of this world. Seriously, one of the best performed and produced songs I have in my collection; and I'm nearly 71 and still own 45s of the Beatles, so you're in exalted company my young friend.
I’m 56, started being ill at 40. Pain is my normal. I live in a bed in an undecorated room, bare floor boards. I gave up. Thank you for making the invisible visible. Thankful one soul received their s.o.s.
I’m so sorry angel. That sounds so isolating, scary, numbing. Sending you all the love in the world, all the warmth of a hug and all the light of a star 🩷
Ren, you're the most underrated artist to ever exist, your music is incredible in millions of ways and hundreds of us are healing from it! Love from 🇮🇳
Only just discovered this genius. Mesmerized by the music and beauty of the message. As a survivor of decades of depression: I can see the light now and you will, too.
Enjoy the ride. Ren is once in a century talent. Please listen to: Hi Ren, Suicide, Money game 3, Diasepam, Depression (but most of his songs are amazing) !!!
Dam, this put a massive smile on my face. Had a couple chats with you years back & we both are at a stage with our Lyme where we get to live in our purpose. Hard to put this long journey into 1 song but you killed it. Keep living your best life Ren.
As someone with chronic illess and the pain and confusion that can come with it, your songs and stories have given me hope and answers. I know you don't believe you deserve all the love you get but my gratitude and respect is very real and very deep.
Same. Took me 12 years to be diagnosed with MS. If I would have had treatment when I first started looking for help and starting my journey then I wouldn't be in as bad of shape as I am now at 34. Rens music & creations help me and so many others with chronic illness and those struggling in and with the medical system. This guy's an angel 💜
I heard of Ren literally for the first time last night as I was sent Hi Ren. I was blown away, with the talent, the music, lyrics, and the inspirational message. I have never been so moved my artist in my life and im 47. The Hi Ren theme was so relatable and i needed to find out more about his story. After going to a REN rabbit hole for the past 12 hours i’m just in complete awe of this guys strength and talent. Ive suffered with ME/CFS, for years with no solutions from the medical professionals. Im medicated for depression and anxiety but for the ME there are no answers. I am so grateful for Ren sharing his story and using his amazing talent for good. His work and message makes my invisible illness feel seen and he gives me hope for humanity. Huge appreciation for the light he’s shining out of the darkness. I’m so grateful to have been sent his video. What a remarkable, and truly inspiring human being.
How powerful is it to twist "lord forgive me," to, "lord I forgive you?" Saying you forgive any sort of higher power that never seemed listen during the worst times... This just gets better with every listen. ❤
I’ve had many many favourite singers musicians bands I had to listen to many of their songs to say that I love them they are my favourite band or there must be something connected to their music a memory love story etc but it was different with REN it was an instant spark love from the first song !!! Never have I ever seen any other singer so talented and human at the same time REN deserves the best he touches so many hearts in the best way ❤
My 87 year old mother just got Lyme disease. Because of you Ren, I can understand more what she's dealing with. You help more people in so many ways, that you will never know. Thank you for everything you do. I'm so happy to know you are feeling better. We love you! ❤❤❤
I don't think I've ever commented on a video on YT, but I feel compelled here. I know you've heard so many stories, but this was the story of hope I need. I'm currently at the point of trying to get my doctors to listen; to get anyone to listen. It's nothing as devastating as your journey, but your story and your music has touched a part of my heart and mind I didn't realize needed to be reached. Thank you for bringing awareness to the "invisible" struggle - the physical struggle and the mental struggle that goes hand-in-hand. Thank you for your words and the hope you spread. Just...thank you.
I have MCTE, POtS and Fibro and I can attest to it taking years and feeling so alone and lost. I found a friend in REN’s voice. His voice in the darkness was my angel and I thank him.
"For those of you still living in the dark, hold on." You've done it again, brother. Every time you create, you reach out and touch millions of lonely wounds. Thanks for always talking to us through your music. Your heart and words do land and make a difference. 🙏🏻❤️
I never want every one of his performances ta end n his soul healing lyrics imparted with a profound understanding of the suffering many live with. I am so fuxkin happy I saw one of Rens song come up on my TikTok n decided ta watch as id heard amazing things. I went straight her n subscribwd ta him n love his big heart n total compassion he feels for others. Blessings mate xxxxx Petal from Australia 🇦🇺 xxxxxx
I've been missing for more than half my life. Sometimes it feels like I'll never be found. Thank you, Ren, for helping people to see us before we disappear. #MillionsMissing #M.E
Thanks for keeping that promise to your younger self REN , it is so powerful for those of us who suffer from these horrid illnesses to have an advocate like you out there. You are not one of the industry arse holes who as soon as they see fame buy a mountain of coke and play the money game. You are the genuine article...and it says so much about you to do this and the Chapters , man I related to so much I cried ( me a grown arse man...got M.E and Fibo at 20, got worse over the years and am now bed bound ). You're a good man Ren and I admire your humility and your talent in equal measure.
Back here because I always get depressed at the end/beginning of a new year. Living in a broken body constantly in pain! I know you are going through it again ren, but stay strong. Your music is still getting us all through the hard times 🤍
Great track, best of luck. 47 years, living with ME/CFS, POTS, hearing loss, PTSD and now erosive osteoarthritis. My body is failing bit by bit and I've gotten nothing but gaslighting and pain from the medical community. But I can still make music. Hope we can all find a way through this, hate to see my kid or his friends go through the same.
I live in the Highlands, tick central, I know a few folk with Lymes, yer music has raised awareness in bairns everywhere to the dangers of Lymes, my hat is doffed...
@soulTraveller144another way to heal Layne’s disease you are saying I guess? When you get mistreated for the wrong things, intensely, for over ten years, sorry but you are wrong. There is no way you can. There is permanent damage when mistreated that long. Maybe I’m way off and you aren’t saying there is a really really simple way to heal from Lynne’s disease of any case, simply?
This beat came right from the heavens into our ears, hearts and minds. Absolute fire and so groovy as well with all the layers and effects on there. Dig it massively. Cannot appreciate it more that you are shining light on those subjects and what you brought with your chapters was incredibly brave as well. Hope that it will bring more awareness and more hope to people who need it. Because yes, I do believe that we can fund our health care better all over the world so these types of illnesses get the attention that they need. And we need to get to a point where health care isn't down to profit anymore, everywhere. LOVE TO YOU REN!
One of my children went into acute renal failure at 12. 6 months later, 4 doctors from 4 different countries later , 5 different diagnoses later we got an answer of Serum negative lupus glomerularnephritis. No known cure but lets treat it with high dose of steroids and drugs used in cancer treatment, kidney biopsies , AWFUL AWFUL AWFUL and like you Ren my daughter found joy and a purpose in music! She is 19 now, still sick, but still singing and at uni....Keep making music Ren.....thankyou
@@michaelj4009I came here to say the same thing!!! They say people with Thyroid problems has to be on medication for life. Both my daughter and nephew got off their medication thanks to Anthony William.
I had exactly the same, in 2021christmas i wake up with swollen ankles, a few weeks later i'm like a balloon with 20 plus extra kilos of water retention and vomiting constantly, acute renal failure, three different countries Gibraltar, Spain and UK different diagnosis, all of the above apart from different eventual diagnosis of minimal change disease which is not a flippant as the name suggests, but its the steroids and the other immuno suppressants are the absolute worst, the side effects are horrendous and whilst keeping the auto immunity at bay is damaging the kidneys more and more, with only more severe drugs offered as solutions, its been three years now, all the best for your daughter.
Story time. A few days ago was my 39th birthday and me and a very close friend of mine (32) decided to have a celebratory acid trip. The trip was very intense, but also very good, there was a lot of laughter and love. When we were on our way down (still under it but definitely slowly coming out), we were listening to some songs on UA-cam and have stumbled completely randomly upon the video for Hi Ren. Listening to it for the first time our jaws remained open throughout. We were amazed how talented and versatile Ren is and how original and awesome his music is. Then we watched it for the second time, this time paying closer attention to the words. And that time we cried. A lot. Firstly we were stunned by how brutalny honest the song is, how much emotional effort it must have taken to write and produce it. But also both of us could really relate, though in different ways. For me the internal battle represented my own battles with self-loathing, debilitating need to please others, self-doubt that I'm still learning to navigate (especially in my artistic activities) and a possibly undiagnosed ADHD. For her it preresented her lifetime battle with psychological issues, depression, also undiagnosed problems she's still working out. In that context she really resonated with the internal battle of doubt in the validity of her mental issues, but also the inability to explain to other people what it's like to live inside her head. Over the following hours and days I listened to that song a couple dozen times (and other Ren's tracks, but none hit me as hard - and continues to do so every time I listen to it - as Hi Ren). Ren, I hope you are aware of how important your message is, and how appreciated your art is. You done good. You're a beautiful soul. Continue to be true to yourself and keep creating. We both wish you all the best, especially in your fight for health. Sending you a metric shitton of love from Poland.
Ren - beautiful song. I was the 90th documented case of lyme in the US back in the early 70s. At that point it wasn't known what caused it. Without a causative agent to target I just got tons of antibiotics, and then sent home. They thought it was Rocky Mtn Spotted fever, RA, among others. I went back into hospitals numerous times and would sometimes get so bad that my parents would have to carry me to bed because my joints were inflamed and painful. Got lyme twice more as an adult as I live in a hot zone for deer ticks. So far I've been lucky and don't appear to have 'Long Lyme" as they now call it (chronic). As you know, the latest buzz is that Autoimmunity arises AFTER the spirochete is cleared (previous infection) and there are many experts now experimenting with steroids to suppress the response. This is a HUGE sea change from only a few years ago. I hope you continue to heal and get distance between the present and those terrible days when you were bed bound. Thank you for your music and having the stamina to make and release it. Cheers.
I live in The Lake Tahoe area of the US and was diagnosed around 2000. I had suffered for around 5 years before being tested. Found a lyme’s specialist in San Francisco (at $500 a visit, no insurance taken) was a life saver. 16 months of IV antibiotics made be feel alive again but not forever. Sadly my life has never been the same. Autoimmune everything is the easiest way to explain. I am still grateful for this life and even more grateful for my family (not including my ex husband) that have loved and supported me. 💚
@@kimpreston3628 I'm sorry to hear about the lyme challenges. I'm assuming the long regimen was doxy? If your symptoms continue you might consider asking about steroids. The latest research is indicating that 'long, or chronic Lyme' is NOT due to the spirochete still being in one's system, but is the result of a previous infection that was cleared after treatment (treatment right after the tick is discovered). These researchers claim that this is why so many people don't get better when taking super long regimens of doxy...because there isn't a spirochete left in the body to clear. Steroids are showing some success and the idea is that they reduce the over-activity of the immune system (auto immunity). I'm not an MD, so please only take this as a suggestion the next time you communicate with a doctor about your symptoms. I wish you good luck.
@@steveames5797 hey Steve! Sorry you have gone thru that but happy to hear that you truly didn't develop "chronic" Lyme Disease. I'm 43 & was bitten twice in the head at 9yo in 1989/1990 & even then, they didnt know what it was...or most didn't & they didn't teach us kids about Ticks & why to avoid playing in the woods etc especially in CT or the areas known for deer tick hot-beds. I was living in Connecticut quite close to the town it got its name from at the time but was so young, nobody even assumed it could be any different than that of a normal non-poisonous bug bite. MAN I wish more was known at that time & that I was directed to get on Antibiotics within those first two weeks! But unfortunately the only sign I might have known something was possiblly going wrong was a diagnosis for ADD which we learned many years later that it most likely was. No bullseye rash(although known as false now, many believed if you didnt get one than you didnt have it). Anyway, I went on as a carrier without symptoms besides the ADD but again, wr had no idea it was linked to Lyme or even might be. Just, nothing was known! So I carried it until I was 18 & a passenger in a bad auto accident as well as losing my mother(42yo) to what we now know was most likely Lyme as well. She was diagnosed in her 30s of Fybromyalgia but back then many doctors didn't even think it was real amd only gave out scripts for pain/sleep/muscle relaxers etc. It quickly became a disease they would label people with when they didn't know what else to tell you that you had. Anyways, accident & losing her was the blow that weakened my immune system enough for the Lyme to take over. Very quickly the pain never went away & had SO much pain & fatigue I struggled to go up 3 stairs or ever get the pain to go away. We spent the next 7 years trying to test for everything possible until my father's best friend (who had a history with Lyme & a ton of knowledge about it) told my dad one day that it sounded like Lyme Disease to him (side note, does it frustrate you as much as me when they call it Lymes? Lol) & my dad was puzzled but after he explained, we finally got a text to IGenex which I think even to this day is one of it not the only lab here in the states to give you an accurate test and even it had occasionally spit out false negatives or positives. However, because of my dad's friend, I was fit into Dr. Horowitz's clinic in Hyde Park, CT who I think to this day is still regard as the godfather of Lyme Disease & THE guy you wanted to see if you had it especially back then as he wrote the book on it! Before we got my test results back tho, he diagnosed me with Chronic Lyme Disease just due to my page long list of symptoms as well as my story & where I was as well as where I got bit. But the test results proved that I did, in fact have full blown chronic Lyme & I have been fighting it ever since. I'm now 43 & have tried many treatments including 10 years of my life w/ a semi-permenant I.V. a Picc line in arm first for 2 yrs before it broke(not supposed to) & then had it removed & a groshong put in my chest for another 8 years while constantly cleaning & injecting 💉 heprin & saline as well as a regimen of IV Rocephrin & a few other anti-fungals & other medications. Not to mention both a ton of pain medication & a prescription for medical Marijuana. Everything but the Pain meds & Marijuana failed miserably & the Meds & MJ was just a quality of life deal of course, not a treatment. But it allowed me to at least function a small amount & not be bedridden 23 hours a day. I saw the best of the best LLMDs here in the states & even contemplated moving to Mexico for Stem Cell treatment or even Germany for a special doctor that treated Lyme quite successfully w/o using such heavy doses both of which nobody here in the states did a whole lot of not because they didn't think it had a chance to work but a lot in part to not wanting to lose their license to practice & save people. I still cannot believe the Doctor that was specifically treating kids & having success until they went at him hard causing him to have to stop helping kids. It wad my first glimpse into how political this disease was. Why would the doctors be targeted for treating patients? Why were (at the time) there more (*reported*) cases of Lyme in one year than there were Aids/hiv, West Nile, Bird Flu, Zika & more combined yet we(the public) was not even informed & to this day still are kept in the dark on how this all started & why the government was not treating this like the epidemic it is & had became? And why do they still keep their mouths shut as far as informing the masses that it exists & is very bad both in numbers & how horrible it is to go thru? It doesn't make any sense unless one of the conspiracy theories about this all going tied to research into bio-weapons that were being developed off the coast of Connecticut at the research facility in plum Island & they think they had a breach allowing things including infected ticks to make their way to the states & spread. And more & more, the numbers rise. Yet why nothing gets said or taught to the public including our students especially up in those bad tick infested areas or why they are not teaching hunters & outdoorsmen?? It's beyond me! I grew up being taught to trust the medical community but now I can't trust them at all, especially the government when it comes to a lot but more so for the lack of effort to tell the country what is going on. After all that has happened, & all that I have gone thru to try to get better, the only things to happen were to lose every dime my family had & has, lost all my friends & most of my family because they don't understand or their Dr's don't believe in it so I must just be full of it & faking what I'm going thru right? Guys that I was best friends with for most of my life just gone in what seemed like a day eventhough it wasn't that fast it sure felt like they were here one day & gone the next because to them I guess they thought I just quit wanting to party/hang out with them etc. And family just didn't get it but the internet & their doctors said it wad nothing. So they devided to basically sever all ties & I used to be upset but if they were that fast to kick me to the curb, they sure were not good family or friends in the first place. Right? Still has made the past 20/25 years extremely lonely. Some people lost their minds over the covid lockdowns yet, I've spent over 15 years without even touching grass really or getting out of the house or going ANYWHERE at all & the world changes & I lose touch with everything new & different including the changes in my city/state which seem like a brand new map! Lol. It's been crazy to say the least. So I'm just living with my father although he is getting old & frail from just old age. Has had some complications himself recently making me feel like I'm about to lose the one guy that's had my back all along including every Dr visit & more! So I'm 43 now, but have a hard time committing to trying any new or different treatments because I have been thru so much that still affect me to this day & I'm not sure I wanna go thru hell, herxes a more pain/nausea than I already go thru for things to just fail again. Not trying to be negative but I have not heard of anyone in my similar shoes that have had it this long & more actually beat it(unless rich) not just temporarily. I've seen some get back to having a life but then it comes back & they are forced to try again or try something else. Then if I choose to wait for something I can get behind to try, I "Must not want to get well" as I get accused of. It's disgusting because if these people knew the hell it was to go thru only to get nowhere, they might change their tone! I want nothing more than to get a % back let alone beat it entirely but I'm not about to let others force to to do something again only to go thru the pain of it not working & more. So it is what it is at this point. I'm going to try to do a couple different things that are unconventional but less invasive but I'm not sure less invasive actually does enough to make a dent but my only other option is more IVs & more pain, exhaustion & nausea etc. And they are already taming meds away from me that give me the QOL that I've had. So frustrating! I could go on forever but feel like I've already bored ya to death with my story. Sorry about that. Sometimes I just write & forget to actively try to keep i short. So ill just quit for now but one question for ya as I wrap this reply up... Did they even call it lyme disease back in the 70's/80's as I only remember them naming the Disease after Lyme, Connecticut when it was first discovered but have never known when they actually named it that. God bless you my friend! Hope all is as well as can be & I pray you never have to go thru anything remotely bad like it again! -Rob ✌️
@@gicueN17R0 - very interesting and challenging story there. Sorry you have had to deal with this. To answer your questions: 1) yes it bugs me when people call it 'Lyme's"! 2) I don't know the year it was named, but you are correct that it relates to Lyme CT, which was one of the first hot spots where patients were presenting with these symptoms. I do know that it wasn't called Lyme yet when I was battling it at first. Alan Steere, who was at Tufts Boston, discovered the causative agent (the spirochete) shortly after I got sick. My guess is that the name originated shortly after that...maybe '74-'75? Sorry if I missed this in your message, but have any of your docs tried steroids? I know a few people who have been healed through that method (after years of battling it). Most docs don't know about this, because it was only recently that the autoimmunity model emerged. This model explains why most people don't get much from long-term doxy, and also why isolating spirochetes from a chronic patient is practically unheard of. Anyway, good luck with it all. Cheers.
I am SO impressed with everything about this track. Not only that every word is based on actual EXPERIENCE, but the musicality is SO good.....this is going on repeat.....the line...Lord I forgive you, Lord I forgive you, Lord I forgive you, Make me whole..... just hit me so hard for some reason.....can't explain it.....but there again, there's not a single Ren song that doesn't change us on the inside is there..... he's gone and done it again..... masterpiece. ....geez......
Not nice to make an old man cry. I'm 51. I have 4 diseases. I started with one. When I was 29. Induced by stress of a hard divorce. Then 3 more have followed. I'm now unable to work, or do the things I once loved. Hardly leave the house. But one thing I still have that I love is music. Music is my drug. Ren, you are my dealer man. Thanks so much for the true, honest and heartfelt no bull shit music. I love all your songs. Fun ones, and serious ones. God bless you and your recovery. So glad that you are still with us. The world needs you. Don't forget that. ✌️
when I first got sick as a teen, I scoured the internet for musicians & artists that I could relate to. There were very few. Being young & sick is a horror show, and hearing ren put the experience into words has been so healing. Thank you for trusting us with your pain & your story.
Talking openly about past trauma and reliving those moments must have been painful. Hopefully, it brought you comfort, as it did for many of us, making us feel less alone and giving us the strength to keep on going. That it's okay not to be okay, and opening up can not only benefit oneself but also provide guidance for others struggling and needing a little push. Life is rough for everyone in different ways, but the best people always seems to suffer the most and still are the ones who fight bravely while still wearing a smile. Your music has been a lifeline for many, providing the encouragement needed to endure tough times. What's truly remarkable is your dedication to helping others through your music. Your music has been helping me so much through life and give me hope during my darkest moments, and I discovered it right when I needed it most. Please continue being the beautiful soul you are. I will never thank you enough for everything. I am genuinely proud of you and all that you've achieved. Keep staying true to yourself and pursuing your passion. With love ♡, Eden ◡̈
I was just diagnosed with fibromyalgia yesterday and only just noticed it's mentioned on this film clip. So glad I have a great GP who noticed this! Thanks for giving us you music Ren and bring things like this into the light and providing hope! Love ya mate ❤
Congratulations Ren!!! 1M in 5 days, impressive. Glad to hear your evolution of a message of pain to a profound message of hope, compassion and call to action. Keep it up my friend.🔥🔥🔥
It is emotionally overwhelming to watch this. Not just because of your story but you did this as an advocate for others. You didn’t have to do that and no one is going to overlook that. You had angels. Now you are one.
I absolutely love the person you are, the personal stories you share, and your outlook on the world as it is currently. You music is amazing and an inspiration along with your personality.
I have ME/CFS, fibromyalgia, I have cysts on nerves in my spine, and I'm diabetic. I've finally found a doctor who listens and is helping me be able to function again. I needed to hear this song today. For the first time in years, I'm hopeful I can be active again.
My wife has been suffering with chronic pain, chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia for the last 7 years.we are not even sure the meds work anymore. I just introduced her to your music and she has really connected with it. Just wanna say thank you .
Watch out when the dr tells you it’s fibromyalgia. That’s usually what they tell you when they don’t know what the problem is then they just give you painkillers for long pain and acute they give you gabbapentin, baclofen,cyclobenzaprine,ambien , lunesta, benzos if you’re lucky or unlucky depending how you look at it. If you went with the same aches and pains during c . O. v….d they would have said it’s longcovD. I’ve been diagnosed with both fibromyalgia and c and all kinds of other stuff but I’m pretty sure it’s none of that I’ve broke down in front of a few drs and befriended a dr and they told me fibromyalgia is bs that it’s something drs tell u so you keep coming to them it’s kind of like the new term for hypochondriac but if they said that you would go to a shrink….im not saying your wife doesn’t have something she probably has something terrible that’s undiagnosed just like ren was . Look into parasites 🦠 Lyme disease. By that I mean pay for the full spectrum of blood test it’s like 100 to 500 depending were your at in the world they also do at home fece test to look for parasites. If you ever ate bad or uncooked pork or other meats there’s a host of stuff she might have if she has ever been ate up by mosquitos or ticks there’s a host of stuff she might have and pretty much all of us have. Regular drs and emergency rooms ,doc in the box type places they rarely do things like full spectrum blood test even when they test your blood they don’t full spectrum and most people have had a fece test the reason they don’t do none of that is because of expense. I’ve learned in the 40s 50s early 60s one of the first things they did if you had long term neurological pain stomach ailments blood ailments unknown reasons for your problems was they gave you a enema to see and clear you of some parasites. Like it was a huge thing . I hope the best for you and your wife . I don’t pretend to know everything and hope I don’t sound pretentious I’ve just been dealing with the same type of bs forever . Best thing I ever did was get off all of the medications and start drinking mostly water , black coffee, and start to lift weights a bit and walk more. I’m not saying I’m an exercise buff or anything but I’ve spent years in bed and on meds and getting off them and getting out the house has been the best thing ever. If your wife has diabetes as well because people that are tired all of the time and in pain usually end up in bed with insomnia gaining weight from meds tell her to try Yerba mate extract and fiber powder it basically does the same thing as metformin which is cut your sugar down 30 percent without the side effects don’t just get off any meds you have to ween off . I don’t know for me I started to look at my dr and he’s over weight super pale unhealthy looking and that old saying dr heal thyself just popping in my head if my dr can’t even help himself how’s he gonna help me and I know for a fact I just got worse on the meds they pushed . anyways good luck yall life’s a struggle and sux the best thing we can do is smile and laugh and just live and be kind it’s had asf when your always tired in pain but it helps
Ren's music has been the chisel that he used to chip away at the raw marble of his pain and illness, what he has created through his persistence is sheer artistry. Musical masterpieces to share with the world. Ren is our modern day, soul-baring musical Michelangelo.
Thank you for recognizing Fibromyalgia! 3rd generation (diagnosed, finally) Fibromyalgia & Endometriosis Warrior, along with Depression, GAD, PTSD, ADHD, Panic Disorder... But we are NOT our disorders! Life is hard & we have to be harder... but we can be KINDER. WE'VE GOT THIS. IT'S NOT ALL IN OUR HEADS. Our struggle & pain, as much as it suuuuucks, make us more kind and understanding people. BUT, MORE MEDICAL RESEARCH & COMPREHENSION MUST TAKE PLACE ASAP!!!! 🤌🏽🖤❤️ Remembering and giving gratitude to my strong, late matriarchs for paving the way & fighting the fight. Rest In Power, Mammala & Grand-grey 💜💪🏽
I've done a little research trying to find an organization that helps individuals, funds research and advocates. I'm not rich, but I can afford to donate monthly. The problem is that it's hard to tell just from the Internet which organizations are really doing good work. The one that seemed most transparent about how they use funds had a statement on their site that said they were closing. I know it's odd to ask, but do you have any suggestions
I wish there will be more survivers like you and me. I was bed bound, dead written by doctors and yet here I stand again, dancing to your music. I celebrate you 👏
Wow, over 1M vies in 5 days for a purely independent artist. Ren, you rock. I see this as both art and a PSA to the community of individuals who are suffering or who have found healing to any degree. God bless you all for your persistance.
Hey Ren, I know what you're talking about...I was 13 when my health went downhill. Our time-line is a little different, but I know how it all feels. I'm 43 now and still struggle with the physical, mental, and emotional pain. Thank you for having the courage to talk about it! The pain and struggle is real. Most people shy away from it, making the majority think it's something only real in movies or whatever. But it is real, everyday! I'm glad you feel whole...maybe someday I'll feel that way too.
This is the first time I've heard this man and I am impressed. I enjoy the cadence and lyrics touch something deep. No longer sleeping on this GEM named REN.
He is absolutely remarkable! Multi instrumentalist ( guitar, bass, piano, drums, melodic , and a bit of cello). Lyrically a genius who also creates all his own beats, is self produced, mixed and at times mastered. Unlike this video ( which was masterfully edited using cuts) most of his videos are done live and one takes( even though it may take 4- 100+ takes to get the final version).
Found this Artist yesterday. Right off the rip, is now one of my top artists. Storytelling - Lyrics- beat & Message. Only a few out there today can accomplish this. Love this guy! Again - Now one of my favorites...
Our conditions are different. But the pain and most experiences are similar. I have SLE (fairly severe) and it’s destroying my body. Your music reminds me why I should be sharing my story with everyone. Sometimes it’s hard to do but every time feels a little lighter. Thank you for being that person for me.
Ren is a phenomenon! I believe you discover Ren in you're life when the time is right. Not everyone gets Ren because Ren is more than a world class musician and artist. It goes much deeper. His self awareness and ability to convey pain and struggle and hope at the same time. It deeply touches people who have experienced life changing trauma and quite simply some people are not ready for Ren. I'll keep it short. 18 months ago. I discovered Ren and I can't remember my life before that happened. I can't explain it but a shift in my dormant mind happened and Ren relit my fire for life again.Thank you for you're persistent bravery Ren 💙
Ren, you are a true treasure to this world and I don't know if YOU know just how special you actually are. You've changed so many lives. Bless you my friend 🙏
Your song is much needed and hits home. Chronically sick here too, with disabling illnesses. You're right, there's always hope besides the suffering, and we learn so much on ourselves and others going through this, and on appreciating life and its small joys... 🙏🙏❤
You once said, Ren, that it is--or should be--a duty of those of us who have never walked in this shadow to do more. Years before that, in a Lyme Disease Awareness Month video you said that those who were ill, and those who love them, needed to find a way to band together to demand better treatment. This song is helping accomplish those things. So proud of you, Ren.
An absolute masterpiece. I'm currently struggling with my own health and disability. I also received news today that I will be losing a family member. I needed this song today. In so many ways. Thank you Ren! You're music gives hope for a better tomorrow. It helps with the strong emotions and the difficult things everyone is going through in present day. Keep doing an amazing job! You're a genius.
This is pure poetry, absolutely stunning! I’ve just discovered REN, literally a couple of hours ago, and have been binge watching since. I might have to get these lyrics on a canvas, so powerful.
Ren, can I just say that your music heals me. When I feel cold, I play your music and I escape into a whole new world where my troubles are forgotten memories. When I was 6/7 years old, I woke up to realise that my legs weren’t moving. The doctors came to find that I had appendicitis, which is where the appendix becomes infected, and if it explodes it can lead to death. In the hospital, I was in so much pain, but I kept holding on, just like you. Thank you, Ren, for what you do. You have healed so many people. Please, keep on making as much music as you can. You have done so much for us.
i love how Ren's soulful creations manage to make me cry every time through pure love, admiration, sadness, beauty and art itself..i am not a "cry babe" and have never been but Ren's music and soul is stubbing into my soul somehow.. REN, DEAR, YOU'RE THE DEFINITION OF ART.. PERIOD..
I watched you tell your story each day. I felt your pain. I do hope that the world will take notice and help. I've lost so many. I find myself falling since my whole family died, not by old age but different illnesses. I'm trying so hard to keep it together as I just lost my brother and my mom. You're an inspiration. Thank you, Ren ❤
REN Has Honestly Given More Exposure Than Any Other Platform I've ever Seen. I'm So So Grateful 🙏 for His Sacrifice and Contributions. REN, THANK YOU ❤ 2.5 MIllion Views 4.9K Comments 60K 👍 Likes
Thank you, Ren, yet again. Not only are you the most brilliant talent I've come across in years, you're highlighting issues that bring change. As someone with M.E for 32 years, I heard that research into this illness amounted to 25p per sufferer per year in the UK, until covid. One GP told me he'd rather have curable cancer than M.E.! Unbelievable exhaustion & extreme muscle weakness are only 2 of the crippling symptoms of this poorly supported & much misunderstood condition. Your music is art, it is genius, keep creating, Ren. (& thank god for platforms like youtube which allow those unable to follow traditional routes to shine.)
REN, dear boy. I can relate so much to this song… But I just fight. Can’t find the strength to transform the pain into beauty like you do. Because my fight is for my kids. Your music is like a playground for my brain and my soul. Thank you. So glad you’re better now. ❤
I was born with HLHS, a rare congenital heart disease. I have a single chamber heart and a pacemaker. Experimental surgeries at age 3 to reroute my blood in my heart and subsequent ones for pacer replacements and follow ups, that actually worked mind you. I'm lucky because as healthy as I am (relatively speaking) most don't make it to 30. I'm 39. While I can't completely empathize with @Ren, I do understand what it's like to be poked and prodded by doctors and nurses (incredible people btw) especially from a very young age. I'm glad Ren can get this song made and bring attention to Lyme and M.E. It's a rough life, but it's worth the struggle to have the chance at waking up again. Incredible song and music in general @Ren. Hope you shine as bright a light on these diseases as you can man.
Reading these comments, it's heart breaking to see hoe many people are struggling with their health..😢 How beautiful that your songs provide support and the comment section is always filled with love. You create a safe space for each and every one of us listening. Thanks Ren. We love u!
I am so glad I found your music. I didn’t even hear this one first. I am 26 with similar conditions, finally had to apply for disability this year. Been going through grief. Found new doctors that may be able to help give me some of my life back recently. This video made me cry
When I got diagnosed with ME last year the whole process and ignorance in the medical community is so incredibly shocking. Thanks so much for bringing public awareness to these horrible illnesses
The last days have been a wild ride with this song and the crazy chat at the premiere topping it off. Please do not forget about us, world! We are still here, even if hiding under the sheets, behind the curtains, in pain, in agony! Don't give up hope!
I’ve been through some very similar traumas as Ren. There is no stem cell treatment for my pain but REN’s music is helping make the pain way more manageable. Thanks for the inspiration Ren, you’re helping way more people than you could have ever imagined.
There's a really good chance we could chart with tthis one! This would be the first time in history a song about M.E and lyme disease would make the top 40 which would be huge for awareness. Moments like this are pinch me moments and make me feel good about keeping the promise to my younger self. That's because of all you guys so thankyou so much!!
If you wana help secure that spot you can download Troubles on all platforms by following the link below
Let's go!!!
First official release of the year!
renmakesmusic.lnk.to/troubles
Heres the lyrics for anyone who wants them
I don't reach into the past very much for these shards of shattered glass and harsh paper cuts,
leave me stuck when I reach in, memories are seaped in hydrochloric acid, I go to war and get passive and freeze up,
But music helped the ice to thaw,
put a chizzel in the middle swing the hammer of Thor
pull it out of the impossible,
Excalibur sword
etching note pads full of reasons why my feelings are sore
The first day that I got sick ejected from cock pit of living
Ninteen ,young teen, waking up Bitten
posters up, man hunt, Ren went missing
Hard to have faith when the gods don't listen
The first year maybe was the hardest
Waking in a body that was buried like a carcass
Brain in the lions den
Body in a sharkpit
Waking up in pain again
Aching broken hearted
Persistent little bugger I was bouncing from a doctor to a doctor to a doctor like a table tennis game that has no end
So be the fate of Ren
Every single question asnwered with a question on the end
The second year I came to terms with giving up my dreams mind severed from the means that helped me write these rhyme schemes
brain was inflamed
The fatigue was Crushing
Hard to remain sane with your brain combusting
And the third year was murder
Living in a purga-tory full of worry wouldn't live to be thirty
Life style style hurt me
Always in my bed tomb
Re-arrange the alphabet and all the letters spell doom
Light hurt my eyes
Popping pills to survive
When you're 23 and mentally you steadily decline
24 I was poor disability benefits
What's the benefit of disability it's irrelevant
25 and the scars that were etched...
they cracked
Elastic bands only stretch so far and then snap
Deep in phsycosis
hallucinations, troubled vision
Visits from the underworld were conjuring my Superstition
25, living back at home with my mum
But not because I'm a bum
Alone and physically done
So thin, so frail, so week I'd become
And my skin so pale, never kissed by the sun
One time I carved a whole in my chest, just to feel
I wish that was a metaphor, the struggle was real
When you're living in a holocaust you buckle and kneel
There's relief in the teeth of the kiss of cold steel
Facts
26 im highly medicated and the pain sophisticated while im laying broke and naked on my back
I brought my microphone into my Coffin, started droppin raw thoughts with the grim reaper knocking on the track
Then man, lo and behold
I heard an angel beckon on this treacherous road
Was a stem cell doctor with a generous glow
And a cell transplant brought Me out of the Cold
And my body got stronger
And my skin got younger
And my stomach felt hunger for a door that was closed
And my soul heard music for the first time
Beauty was a word I'd use for this gift of gold
Oh lord I forgive you
Lord I forgive you
Lord I forgive you
Make me whole
This music I give you
Pain that I live through
Everything I been through
Is yours to hold
Be amazing if you chart …I’ll pre order now on Bandcamp! Love ya Ren ❤
Done, lets go for that top 10❤
You gave me hope back then and even more now! Thank you seems too feeble for all you have done for everyone so I ordered ordered ordered 😉
Done ✅ Preordered in a couple places ❤
I realized today that we used to know one another, I was part of the ME/CFS FB community where I met Jennifer Brea also - you've been my hero for the last two years, your music is an anthem for the pain we've experienced. One of these days, I would love to create something along side of you. Keep being brilliant, I am so stoked for tomorrow.
About a month ago I met a woman in her 50’s with Lyme disease. She’s from Brighton (REN’s hometown) and is part of a support group for other sufferers. I mentioned that I’d learned more about the disease through a musician called Ren. Her face immediately lit up, she described all the work he’s done to support her group - called him their hero. All of this done quietly, without fuss and without seeking any credit. He’s a good man. ❤
He’s the best ❤️
love this! Brighton is not his hometown though, but I guess he spent as much of his life there as beïng ill
His hometown is Dwyral iff I spellt it correctly, as I recal from his stories and intervieuws
❤️💪🏻
@@tomrobben5324 home is where your heart is, and he was happy there.. 🥰 x
May is Millions missing month, or M.E. awareness month.
When I was first diagnosed with M.E. the amount of support and understanding of this illness was very low. I was left to suffer with no real explanation as to why. I wasn’t told at the time that this can be a by product of conditions like Lyme, POTS, MCAS, reactivating viruses. I had to figure that out by myself and it took years of trial and error, and treatments that often left me worse off until I was a functional human again. Over a decade later and the landscape still looks very much the same. Sufferers all over the world re left with debilitating, confusing symptoms and are left to drop off the face of the earth, unnoticed, because of the limited energy people have to advocate for themselves.
People go from living fully active lives to trapped in bed, sometimes for decades, with no reasons why.
M.E. a debilitating and cruel condition receives less than 6 times the amount of annual funding than Male Pattern Baldness.
Nancy Kilmas, a proffesor of microbiology and immunology once stated: ‘My H.I.V. patients for the most part are hale and hearty thanks to three decades of intense and excellent research and billions of dollars invested. Many of my ME/CFS patients, on the other hand, are terribly ill and unable to work or participate in the care of their families. I split my clinical time between the two illnesses, and I can tell you if I had to choose between the two illnesses (in 2009) I would rather have H.I.V.’
I first hand experienced the crushing defeat of having a condition that there is little to no support for, and it breaks my heart to know that every day people are dropping off the face of the earth, and in many instances will be left to suffer for years with no full explanation or support.
I am one of the fortunate ones who managed to manage symptoms enough to resume a mostly functional life. I therefore see it as a duty to speak on behalf of people who find themselves in a position where it’s difficult to speak for themselves. I wish I’d had more stories of hope at the time.
Now I’m in a position where I could actively make a dent, even if a small one. Ive spent the last month putting together a detailed account of my story in hopes that it helps the people suffering feel less alone, gives them hope, and also hopefully raises awareness and rattles enough cages to highlight the severity of this illness to the point where more is done for it.
The first instalment will debut on my UA-cam and twitch channels tomorrow at 6:15 PM UK time, and will continue every day until the release of my next track ’Troubles’ on the 9th of may.
I hope for the sake of all of us still actively fighting their hardest to participate in life, that this offers some kind of help, because I know what it’s like to feel hopeless.
I love you
Ren
You can pre-save troubles by following this link! renmakesmusic.lnk.to/troubles
I have a lump in my throat😢 you cant wait until life is'nt hard anymore before you decide to be happy❤ much respect Ren.
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always keepin it real..much luv bro
Thank You for continuing to bring awareness and understanding to illnesses like this that some of us suffer so horribly... 💯Greatly appreciated.. 🫶
We love you Ren ❤❤❤
I never comment, but I will for you Ren. UA-cam gods please throw this on the recommended of everyone out there!
Thank you for your sacrifice to the UA-cam gods! Every little helps! 🤘
Each & every time. You Never fail to move me. Thankyou 🌟
I'm so sorry for your pain. Something I know every thing about. I have come so far that I see pain as my friend. If not I would be nuts. 27 years with pain now and for the rest of my life. I see you and I feel like you. And I feel with you. 😔😇 Love from Norway 🇳🇴
There is s very good documentary on UA-cam called Lyme disease and the fight for recognition. It's on the D C Documentary channel. It talks to people who are suffering with it. And their story's are the same as what Ren says.
Worth watching for anyone that wants to know how hard it is for people suffering from it.
Also Kris Newby's books & documentaries.
And if you Google
Plumb Island and Lyme disease. For a different take on it.
The comments for the D C documentary video are worth reading for peoples own experiences about living with it.
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To all you artists, performers, writers, poets, etc…. Ren has demonstrated a template to create meaning, solace, compassion, and empathy. I for one, had lost a considerable amount of my passion for music appreciation and my own creative potential. Though it may sound like hyperbole, the art Ren has created has markedly improved my life in several ways. I see REN’s influence in other aspiring independent artists who have written more creatively and made videos pushing their previous practices and methods.
Totally agree ..what a phanomar this guy is ❤
Love this! I think he does this for so many. His genuine heart is contagious. The ripples he is creating have such a power of good for the world 🌍
1000 percent agree! Ren has sparked my creativity. So has the people around him! Brigita is so talented! His lyric videos are amazing and I have created canvas pieces just because I like what she's done and want to create it to have for myself! He is very fun to follow and certainly gets creative juices flowing! He is capable of making people think! I enjoy every part of it!
@@Tinkerbell9332 I’m not familiar with who she is. Although I’m a renegade, I don’t have the broader knowledge that a lot of others have.
@@tjh5716 You have still seen her work and may not realize it😊 If you're familiar with Rens 7 sins cover that's a drawn Ren with the 7 sins words around him in red she did that. Also all his lyric videos😊 She is a friend of his and does some awesome work! Next time you watch a lyric video of Rens check her work out😊
I just played this for my daughter who has a Connective Tissue disorder, POTSsnd heart condition. It made us both cry, because we felt heard. Thank you Ren. Keep pushing bro, but remember to stop, breathe and just be as well. Luv ya ❤❤
🦓 My daughter and I both have a CTD, she has POTS and I have MCAS. I see you both ❤
My GF of 9 years has POTS, classical EDS, and heart issues as well. It's a powerful song for anyone who has ever been in that world.
hEDS, POTS, MCAS ++++++ here. This one hit hard
@@TheConfuddled1 I have the same. This song made me cry so hard
EDS POTS MCAS ADHD ASD alphabetti spaghetti here!
One of my oldest friends couldn't continue the battle of living with Fibro. He couldn't take the pain anymore. I understand his decision, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. I hope for a better future for all the people suffering under the weight of these conditions. Thank you so much for the work you do Ren, and for giving a voice to the voiceless x Kia kaha, tane toa.
My close nurse-colleague friend got COVID from a patient in 2021. Now she has been diagnosed with M.E.
Initially, doctors said "You have long-COVID.. so sorry... we have no cure and no answers." Finally, she got a diagnosis of M.E. -- she lives in her house, afraid and alone. My heart is broken for this brilliant, highly educated, successful woman who dedicated her life to helping others survive illness. She has all kinds of crazy symptoms and is really drowning . Thank you, Ren, for bringing awareness to your terrible illness. I want to show my friend that you never gave up, and now you have HOPE. God bless you, precious one.
Somehow ME seems to get the ones. Yet to meet a person with ME that isn't an amazing person despite all their troubles.
Similar to what happened with me. Crazy world we live in
Ya made me cry. Blessings n love from Petal in Australia xxxxxx
Ren is going through a lot right now. Send him prayers, the first round of treatment didn’t go so well…I saw your post mate. I’m so so very sorry @RenMakesMusic
You literally have given this freshly diagnosed with M.S. 30 yr old man, inspiration from not just how you are fighting through an illness,but because you’re a once ina generation artist (vocal tones and the stylistic diversity that is quite captivating) and you care about people genuinely. You’re a product of the world you were forced to live in alone no matter how much you wanted understanding or others wanted to give you that. That darkness, stillness, and time to critically reflect on what’s important is a thing almost no one can grasp, only the few that have to keep up the smile and spirit, whenever they’re helplessly trying to hang on. I’ve never been more thankful for a person of musical and spiritual greatness like yourself. Truly A Legend in my book. I’m a Texan btw, so your influence is wide my friend. Now get mad and fight like hell, so you can be in a good enough place afterwards to be loved on and renewed with that purpose to fight. You got this slim!❤💯🫵🔥🐷🔥🫡
I love how we typically beg for forgiveness but Ren is like "Lord I forgive you" for what he's been through. Generational artist ❤
That struck me, too.. Such an interesting twist on the "norm." Makes it so much more powerful, really hits hard...
Jesus Christ, it hits hard. The nail right on the head. 🥺
Because God will not give us anything we can’t handle,
When you fight like he has and come out the other end you become thankful for the struggle.
You see why he put you through it and still give God all the glory.
Jesus Christ is the Lord ❤
@@xxispeth thats rly dumb man
I don't forgive God, forgiveness is overrated
I watched woodstock happen, and yet I'm completely taken over by the brilliance of this vibrant artist.. Excellence is always appreciated 🌟
Yes, I have tried and failed to find comparisons until I think of the late sixties and the "scene", the social movement with a soundtrack of mind blowing music. Ren reminds me of the entire movement.
@@patrickquinlan3056 Yeah! I have been thinking the same thing. I truly believe this is a happening moment and this young man is a catalyst for positive change in the world, i mean, it could just be a great beat and catchy tunes but I really think there's something going on here now.
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Totally agree! 💯
The only artist/band I feel the same way about, and who invokes the same feelings and vulnerabilities as Ren does, for me, is twenty one pilots.
The ‘message’ and lyrics can be a bit more challenging to break down as the writing is more abstract, but definitely similar thoughts and these 😉
As an old fart myself, Ren has inspired a generation and he did it without music industry help, no radio play,no funding, no A&R backing,,no media shorts,....he and a few good friends produced a phenomenal performance with "Hi Ren"...and the journey took hold.....its just like the late 60's and 77....independent musicians broke the system..
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Exactly, Ren! I was in Hospice in 2009 due to Multiple Sclerosis. I've since written two books and ran for U.S. Congress, spreading hope and Positivity to ALL who may need it. I am very blessed to have found your music. I ALWAYS forward you and #DAX to everyone I can. Thank you for being a voice to the voiceless and sharing your life with us. IT HAS been a light in my dark tunnels!
I have lived with severe Fibromyalgia for years, since before I was forty and I'll be 64 in August. Before that I had a life, good job, marriage, kids, home, gym for 17 years, snow skied 30, surfed 15 (did a serious scorpion on the bottom of the ocean,), that ended that and had walked great distances all my life. Slowly one by one it was all gone including 34 years of marriage. All because of the pain, the brain drain, exhaustion, inability to be me. I'm on so many meds and so sick and I look forward to the day I am no more. It's such a sad way to be. I'm raising my grandson whose ASD & ADHD and he keeps me going. He is the love of my life, but every day is torment. I get true hope from God but thank you Ren for understanding. No one else can who doesn't walk in our shoes. Keep on keeping on and you will reach great height's. When you do, don't let them change you. Fame is a complete mind f*ck. Stay real. God bless.
Ren, I am 53 and have had Lyme disease for 34 years in America. I’ve seen so many doctors and have never gotten any relief. I’m bed ridden most of the time now. I cannot tell you how elated I am for you that you didn’t suffer the rest of your life. I am in happy tears knowing that you crawled out of this hell. ❤❤❤
@@UBERTAMMY we are so held prisoners of big pharma and lack of good doctors in this country.
It takes real bravery to turn your soul inside out and bare it, opening yourself up to judgement but vulnerability isn't a weakness. It's a strength. You inspire others to be strong with you, for you and for themselves.
I agree
Couldn't agree more! Well said. And I must admit I'm terribly grateful to Ren for his vulnerability. I know it carries a very heavy cost ❤️🩹
Whenever I did talk about my weakness they miss labeled as a victim and that is why, as Ren did, I studied all my conditions which are connected in somehow with many of us. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I am a 20+ years experienced Social Worker who specialises in Trauma and Complex Trauma…my work is diverse and heartbreaking and predominantly involves working within the horrific Mental Health System in Australia…..your words hit hard and with such INTEGRITY and TRUTH…only those who have been through the horrendous Health System which includes the Mental Health System revolving door or worked and supported and advocated for those within these systems intrinsically KNOW this…..YOU young Man are the most Inspirational, captivating, compassionate and ground-breaking musical genius I have witnessed in a very long time…and I am old enough to have witnessed the whole Michael Jackson evolution that turned the music industry upside down with his genius…..
THANK YOU for all that you are and all that you do…sending Love and Blessings.
Wim Hoff cold water therapy
THIS A ARTIST WHO WRITE FOR THE PEOPLE. NOT FOR THE MONEY
Having watched all of the chapters of your story and now this... Ren, you are a fucking inspiration. Please, never stop providing a voice for those that don't have one for whatever reason.
My wife (GF at the time) fell ill suddenly at age 24. She spent 15 years unable to feed herself and sometimes slipping into a coma. Finally we found a clinic that could and wanted to help her. Now at 46 she has the energy of a 60-y.o. woman. Which doesn't sound all that great -- but it is amazing progress for someone who sometimes could not even speak, focus her eyes, or recognise her husband. At this very moment she's outside in the drizzle, planting seedlings in the garden. There is always hope.
hells yeah =)
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what kind of clinic was it? x
what was her diagnosis
@@larablackburn9649 An ME-CFS specialised clinic in Amsterdam, The Netherlands. Finally some doctors and reseachers willing to look outside of the DSM.
"and my stomach felt hunger.." -- one autoimmune survivor to another, this gave me chills. It's the little blessings in a healthy body doing regular healthy body functions and not trying to suffocate the life out of you. Praying for health, healing, and well being for all those fighting for their lives and sanity in this war.
My new favourite artist. There's this saying 'Art is how we decorate space. Music is how we decorate time.' You have managed to incorporate both art and music to create space in our time. ❤
I've never heard that saying before, but I love it.
WOW - this is wild...LOOOVE it 😮👌🏼✨
Beautifully put!
Perfect ❤️🙏
That is f***ing beautiful! 💚
Oh Ren. Thank you for mentioning POTS. My beautiful daughter has been living with this for 5 years - came on at 19, like you... a good chunk of youth robbed away. I just sent this to her... I think it will give her HOPE. So much love to you, sweet Ren.
🙏🙏 Took me 13 years to figure out that I have POTS , OI ,and other forms of Dysautonomia. Sadly the Lyme took a toll on Ren's body and caused autonomic nervous system to falter too. I'm so glad that he is bring awareness to it now, and giving hope to keep pushing that we will have better treatment 💞 We need it more than ever now that long COVID ppl body have been damaged to their ANS and there's only 47 specialists in the entire United States😢
My daughter is 12 and was recently diagnosed with POTS. She’s not heard much of Ren’s stuff because her age but I showed her the captions at the end and that it’s part of why he’s my favorite, since she & I are both chronically ill. 🫶🏻
@@dottiemurray6013 Low dose naltraxone has been life changing for my daughter. Not a suggestion, just throwing it out there... until they find a CURE.
@dottiemurray6013 rapid training and specialist center needed.
I'm sad for lc patients 😢
But this makes it mainstream now.
Massive funding needed.
@dottiemurray6013 fauci been hiding this for years now.
Dam that man who knew that hiv was in the blood supply.
My girlfriend and best friend died almost one year ago, she had Lymes and for 7 years got almost zero help from the medical system here in Spain, your story resonates so much with hers. I am so happy to know Ren, that you will always champion this issue, please don't ever stop pushing for more awareness and recognition in the medical industry for this and other illnesses, it is so so needed. Thank you for being you, for your music, for the beautiful soul you are and share with us all.
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And here I am considering to go to Spain to hopefully get a diagnosis for my illness and health issues 🤦🏽♂️😔😔
So sorry for your loss.
I've recently had to swap from Gibraltar to Spain for my treatment, I have an auto immune disease, it has been a painstakingly slow process so far
As a mother of 3, I feel proud of you as if you were one of my kids. I can only imagine how your mom felt throughout this whole process and see you come out shining brighter than ever. She raised a remarkably strong and determined person. I imagine she must be just as remarkable. ❤
Awesome comment 👏👏👏 You can tell you’re a good mom
I was just said the same thing. I think a lot of older (slightly, lol) fans are like mama bears. I came for the unbelievable talent, and stayed for the openness and vulnerability. How could anyone not want to protect him and see him succeed? Watching Ren grow actually made me proud, so I can't imagine what his parents went through, and how relieved and overjoyed they must feel now.
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I only just discovered your music and your story about a month ago. I've struggled to comment on videos because I've felt profoundly moved by your personal story and music. You are an insanely talented person. More than that, though, you seem to be a genuinely kind human being who is driven, ambitious, and a true warrior in this life.
I scroll through the comments on your videos as I watch, and it's the same every time. So many people thank you for giving voice to their pain, fears, and loneliness. Time and time again, people have said they were so close to giving up until they heard a lyric or a melody that helped them. You may not single-handedly defeat all evil in this world, but even one life you have changed has a ripple effect that can change the whole world. One person that you helped can go on to help many others, who can go on to help many others.
I am currently in school for psychology. I am working to become a behavior therapist for adults with developmental and intellectual disabilities. What discovering your story and music has done for me is to highlight the areas in this profession that need change. More compassion, more empathy, more LISTENING. I plan to use this lesson to help others. I can be more compassionate and empathetic in my own work, and I can work to raise awareness within the system as well.
I have worked with people with disabilities for over twenty years, and I know there are not enough advocates to speak on issues that need to be driven into the public eye. I have an astounding amount of respect for you and your work. You advocated for yourself, and you advocate for others. You have done amazing things in this world, sir, even if you don't always see the results. I believe you will do even more.
Sending love and well-wishes as you continue your journey, and I look forward to continuing my journey into the rabbit hole.
The backing track and production are out of this world. Seriously, one of the best performed and produced songs I have in my collection; and I'm nearly 71 and still own 45s of the Beatles, so you're in exalted company my young friend.
For sure
The backing track is absolutely stunning
I’m 56, started being ill at 40. Pain is my normal. I live in a bed in an undecorated room, bare floor boards. I gave up. Thank you for making the invisible visible. Thankful one soul received their s.o.s.
I’m so sorry angel. That sounds so isolating, scary, numbing. Sending you all the love in the world, all the warmth of a hug and all the light of a star 🩷
@ that was a lovely message Thankyou.xx
Ren, you're the most underrated artist to ever exist, your music is incredible in millions of ways and hundreds of us are healing from it! Love from 🇮🇳
Only just discovered this genius. Mesmerized by the music and beauty of the message. As a survivor of decades of depression: I can see the light now and you will, too.
Enjoy the ride. Ren is once in a century talent. Please listen to: Hi Ren, Suicide, Money game 3, Diasepam, Depression (but most of his songs are amazing) !!!
Chalk line is one of my absolute favorites. Especially acapella
@@justinthompson7226 mine too
'ejected from cock pit of living' was a really powerful line to me, stay strong ren ❤
Thank you for putting your experiences out there as well as being so honest about your health. You have helped so many people have a voice ❤
Dam, this put a massive smile on my face. Had a couple chats with you years back & we both are at a stage with our Lyme where we get to live in our purpose. Hard to put this long journey into 1 song but you killed it. Keep living your best life Ren.
"One time I carved a hole in my chest just to feel / I wish that was a metaphor the struggle is real"
...that's such a hard bar
As someone with chronic illess and the pain and confusion that can come with it, your songs and stories have given me hope and answers. I know you don't believe you deserve all the love you get but my gratitude and respect is very real and very deep.
Same here.
Same. Took me 12 years to be diagnosed with MS. If I would have had treatment when I first started looking for help and starting my journey then I wouldn't be in as bad of shape as I am now at 34.
Rens music & creations help me and so many others with chronic illness and those struggling in and with the medical system.
This guy's an angel 💜
I heard of Ren literally for the first time last night as I was sent Hi Ren. I was blown away, with the talent, the music, lyrics, and the inspirational message. I have never been so moved my artist in my life and im 47.
The Hi Ren theme was so relatable and i needed to find out more about his story. After going to a REN rabbit hole for the past 12 hours i’m just in complete awe of this guys strength and talent. Ive suffered with ME/CFS, for years with no solutions from the medical professionals. Im medicated for depression and anxiety but for the ME there are no answers. I am so grateful for Ren sharing his story and using his amazing talent for good. His work and message makes my invisible illness feel seen and he gives me hope for humanity. Huge appreciation for the light he’s shining out of the darkness. I’m so grateful to have been sent his video. What a remarkable, and truly inspiring human being.
How powerful is it to twist "lord forgive me," to, "lord I forgive you?" Saying you forgive any sort of higher power that never seemed listen during the worst times... This just gets better with every listen. ❤
This isn't entertainment, this is real life. This is HOPE for so many people. Thank you! ❤
Amen 💯 Ren IS an absolutely, amazing, beautiful Divine Angel on this treacherous Road. 😇 #sickboi #TheRenEffect #renegades #northernmaine #troubles #love 1.1M views 💥💥💥
"Everything I've been through is yours to hold" HOLY SHIT how I wish someone had said this to me years ago. Thank you Ren
I’ve had many many favourite singers musicians bands I had to listen to many of their songs to say that I love them they are my favourite band or there must be something connected to their music a memory love story etc but it was different with REN it was an instant spark love from the first song !!! Never have I ever seen any other singer so talented and human at the same time
REN deserves the best he touches so many hearts in the best way ❤
My 87 year old mother just got Lyme disease. Because of you Ren, I can understand more what she's dealing with. You help more people in so many ways, that you will never know. Thank you for everything you do. I'm so happy to know you are feeling better. We love you! ❤❤❤
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I don't think I've ever commented on a video on YT, but I feel compelled here. I know you've heard so many stories, but this was the story of hope I need. I'm currently at the point of trying to get my doctors to listen; to get anyone to listen. It's nothing as devastating as your journey, but your story and your music has touched a part of my heart and mind I didn't realize needed to be reached. Thank you for bringing awareness to the "invisible" struggle - the physical struggle and the mental struggle that goes hand-in-hand. Thank you for your words and the hope you spread. Just...thank you.
I have MCTE, POtS and Fibro and I can attest to it taking years and feeling so alone and lost. I found a friend in REN’s voice. His voice in the darkness was my angel and I thank him.
I have fibromyalgia and it’s the same man. This dude is such a different animal
Thankyou Ren
"For those of you still living in the dark, hold on."
You've done it again, brother. Every time you create, you reach out and touch millions of lonely wounds. Thanks for always talking to us through your music. Your heart and words do land and make a difference. 🙏🏻❤️
I never want every one of his performances ta end n his soul healing lyrics imparted with a profound understanding of the suffering many live with. I am so fuxkin happy I saw one of Rens song come up on my TikTok n decided ta watch as id heard amazing things. I went straight her n subscribwd ta him n love his big heart n total compassion he feels for others. Blessings mate xxxxx Petal from Australia 🇦🇺 xxxxxx
I've been missing for more than half my life. Sometimes it feels like I'll never be found. Thank you, Ren, for helping people to see us before we disappear. #MillionsMissing #M.E
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I SEE you, you are there,you are SEEN!
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Missing for 6 years, I see you ♥️
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Thanks for keeping that promise to your younger self REN , it is so powerful for those of us who suffer from these horrid illnesses to have an advocate like you out there. You are not one of the industry arse holes who as soon as they see fame buy a mountain of coke and play the money game. You are the genuine article...and it says so much about you to do this and the Chapters , man I related to so much I cried ( me a grown arse man...got M.E and Fibo at 20, got worse over the years and am now bed bound ). You're a good man Ren and I admire your humility and your talent in equal measure.
Back here because I always get depressed at the end/beginning of a new year. Living in a broken body constantly in pain!
I know you are going through it again ren, but stay strong. Your music is still getting us all through the hard times 🤍
Great track, best of luck. 47 years, living with ME/CFS, POTS, hearing loss, PTSD and now erosive osteoarthritis. My body is failing bit by bit and I've gotten nothing but gaslighting and pain from the medical community. But I can still make music. Hope we can all find a way through this, hate to see my kid or his friends go through the same.
I live in the Highlands, tick central, I know a few folk with Lymes, yer music has raised awareness in bairns everywhere to the dangers of Lymes, my hat is doffed...
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❤ loving the shares
@soulTraveller144another way to heal Layne’s disease you are saying I guess? When you get mistreated for the wrong things, intensely, for over ten years, sorry but you are wrong. There is no way you can. There is permanent damage when mistreated that long. Maybe I’m way off and you aren’t saying there is a really really simple way to heal from Lynne’s disease of any case, simply?
This beat came right from the heavens into our ears, hearts and minds.
Absolute fire and so groovy as well with all the layers and effects on there. Dig it massively.
Cannot appreciate it more that you are shining light on those subjects and what you brought with your chapters was incredibly brave as well.
Hope that it will bring more awareness and more hope to people who need it.
Because yes, I do believe that we can fund our health care better all over the world so these types of illnesses get the attention that they need.
And we need to get to a point where health care isn't down to profit anymore, everywhere.
LOVE TO YOU REN!
One of my children went into acute renal failure at 12. 6 months later, 4 doctors from 4 different countries later , 5 different diagnoses later we got an answer of Serum negative lupus glomerularnephritis. No known cure but lets treat it with high dose of steroids and drugs used in cancer treatment, kidney biopsies , AWFUL AWFUL AWFUL and like you Ren my daughter found joy and a purpose in music! She is 19 now, still sick, but still singing and at uni....Keep making music Ren.....thankyou
Wish the best for your daughter. Hope she finds relief soon.
Find the work of Medical Medium, and apply it as soon as you can. There is hope.
@@michaelj4009I came here to say the same thing!!! They say people with Thyroid problems has to be on medication for life. Both my daughter and nephew got off their medication thanks to Anthony William.
All the best to your daughter.
I had exactly the same, in 2021christmas i wake up with swollen ankles, a few weeks later i'm like a balloon with 20 plus extra kilos of water retention and vomiting constantly, acute renal failure, three different countries Gibraltar, Spain and UK different diagnosis, all of the above apart from different eventual diagnosis of minimal change disease which is not a flippant as the name suggests, but its the steroids and the other immuno suppressants are the absolute worst, the side effects are horrendous and whilst keeping the auto immunity at bay is damaging the kidneys more and more, with only more severe drugs offered as solutions, its been three years now, all the best for your daughter.
Story time.
A few days ago was my 39th birthday and me and a very close friend of mine (32) decided to have a celebratory acid trip. The trip was very intense, but also very good, there was a lot of laughter and love. When we were on our way down (still under it but definitely slowly coming out), we were listening to some songs on UA-cam and have stumbled completely randomly upon the video for Hi Ren. Listening to it for the first time our jaws remained open throughout. We were amazed how talented and versatile Ren is and how original and awesome his music is. Then we watched it for the second time, this time paying closer attention to the words. And that time we cried. A lot. Firstly we were stunned by how brutalny honest the song is, how much emotional effort it must have taken to write and produce it. But also both of us could really relate, though in different ways. For me the internal battle represented my own battles with self-loathing, debilitating need to please others, self-doubt that I'm still learning to navigate (especially in my artistic activities) and a possibly undiagnosed ADHD. For her it preresented her lifetime battle with psychological issues, depression, also undiagnosed problems she's still working out. In that context she really resonated with the internal battle of doubt in the validity of her mental issues, but also the inability to explain to other people what it's like to live inside her head. Over the following hours and days I listened to that song a couple dozen times (and other Ren's tracks, but none hit me as hard - and continues to do so every time I listen to it - as Hi Ren).
Ren, I hope you are aware of how important your message is, and how appreciated your art is. You done good. You're a beautiful soul. Continue to be true to yourself and keep creating. We both wish you all the best, especially in your fight for health. Sending you a metric shitton of love from Poland.
Metric shitton of love ☺️❤
Ren - beautiful song. I was the 90th documented case of lyme in the US back in the early 70s. At that point it wasn't known what caused it. Without a causative agent to target I just got tons of antibiotics, and then sent home. They thought it was Rocky Mtn Spotted fever, RA, among others. I went back into hospitals numerous times and would sometimes get so bad that my parents would have to carry me to bed because my joints were inflamed and painful. Got lyme twice more as an adult as I live in a hot zone for deer ticks. So far I've been lucky and don't appear to have 'Long Lyme" as they now call it (chronic). As you know, the latest buzz is that Autoimmunity arises AFTER the spirochete is cleared (previous infection) and there are many experts now experimenting with steroids to suppress the response. This is a HUGE sea change from only a few years ago. I hope you continue to heal and get distance between the present and those terrible days when you were bed bound. Thank you for your music and having the stamina to make and release it. Cheers.
I live in The Lake Tahoe area of the US and was diagnosed around 2000. I had suffered for around 5 years before being tested. Found a lyme’s specialist in San Francisco (at $500 a visit, no insurance taken) was a life saver.
16 months of IV antibiotics made be feel alive again but not forever.
Sadly my life has never been the same. Autoimmune everything is the easiest way to explain. I am still grateful for this life and even more grateful for my family (not including my ex husband) that have loved and supported me. 💚
@@kimpreston3628 I'm sorry to hear about the lyme challenges. I'm assuming the long regimen was doxy? If your symptoms continue you might consider asking about steroids. The latest research is indicating that 'long, or chronic Lyme' is NOT due to the spirochete still being in one's system, but is the result of a previous infection that was cleared after treatment (treatment right after the tick is discovered). These researchers claim that this is why so many people don't get better when taking super long regimens of doxy...because there isn't a spirochete left in the body to clear. Steroids are showing some success and the idea is that they reduce the over-activity of the immune system (auto immunity). I'm not an MD, so please only take this as a suggestion the next time you communicate with a doctor about your symptoms. I wish you good luck.
@@steveames5797 hey Steve! Sorry you have gone thru that but happy to hear that you truly didn't develop "chronic" Lyme Disease. I'm 43 & was bitten twice in the head at 9yo in 1989/1990 & even then, they didnt know what it was...or most didn't & they didn't teach us kids about Ticks & why to avoid playing in the woods etc especially in CT or the areas known for deer tick hot-beds. I was living in Connecticut quite close to the town it got its name from at the time but was so young, nobody even assumed it could be any different than that of a normal non-poisonous bug bite. MAN I wish more was known at that time & that I was directed to get on Antibiotics within those first two weeks! But unfortunately the only sign I might have known something was possiblly going wrong was a diagnosis for ADD which we learned many years later that it most likely was. No bullseye rash(although known as false now, many believed if you didnt get one than you didnt have it).
Anyway, I went on as a carrier without symptoms besides the ADD but again, wr had no idea it was linked to Lyme or even might be. Just, nothing was known! So I carried it until I was 18 & a passenger in a bad auto accident as well as losing my mother(42yo) to what we now know was most likely Lyme as well. She was diagnosed in her 30s of Fybromyalgia but back then many doctors didn't even think it was real amd only gave out scripts for pain/sleep/muscle relaxers etc. It quickly became a disease they would label people with when they didn't know what else to tell you that you had. Anyways, accident & losing her was the blow that weakened my immune system enough for the Lyme to take over. Very quickly the pain never went away & had SO much pain & fatigue I struggled to go up 3 stairs or ever get the pain to go away. We spent the next 7 years trying to test for everything possible until my father's best friend (who had a history with Lyme & a ton of knowledge about it) told my dad one day that it sounded like Lyme Disease to him (side note, does it frustrate you as much as me when they call it Lymes? Lol) & my dad was puzzled but after he explained, we finally got a text to IGenex which I think even to this day is one of it not the only lab here in the states to give you an accurate test and even it had occasionally spit out false negatives or positives. However, because of my dad's friend, I was fit into Dr. Horowitz's clinic in Hyde Park, CT who I think to this day is still regard as the godfather of Lyme Disease & THE guy you wanted to see if you had it especially back then as he wrote the book on it! Before we got my test results back tho, he diagnosed me with Chronic Lyme Disease just due to my page long list of symptoms as well as my story & where I was as well as where I got bit. But the test results proved that I did, in fact have full blown chronic Lyme & I have been fighting it ever since. I'm now 43 & have tried many treatments including 10 years of my life w/ a semi-permenant I.V. a Picc line in arm first for 2 yrs before it broke(not supposed to) & then had it removed & a groshong put in my chest for another 8 years while constantly cleaning & injecting 💉 heprin & saline as well as a regimen of IV Rocephrin & a few other anti-fungals & other medications. Not to mention both a ton of pain medication & a prescription for medical Marijuana. Everything but the Pain meds & Marijuana failed miserably & the Meds & MJ was just a quality of life deal of course, not a treatment. But it allowed me to at least function a small amount & not be bedridden 23 hours a day.
I saw the best of the best LLMDs here in the states & even contemplated moving to Mexico for Stem Cell treatment or even Germany for a special doctor that treated Lyme quite successfully w/o using such heavy doses both of which nobody here in the states did a whole lot of not because they didn't think it had a chance to work but a lot in part to not wanting to lose their license to practice & save people. I still cannot believe the Doctor that was specifically treating kids & having success until they went at him hard causing him to have to stop helping kids. It wad my first glimpse into how political this disease was. Why would the doctors be targeted for treating patients? Why were (at the time) there more (*reported*) cases of Lyme in one year than there were Aids/hiv, West Nile, Bird Flu, Zika & more combined yet we(the public) was not even informed & to this day still are kept in the dark on how this all started & why the government was not treating this like the epidemic it is & had became? And why do they still keep their mouths shut as far as informing the masses that it exists & is very bad both in numbers & how horrible it is to go thru? It doesn't make any sense unless one of the conspiracy theories about this all going tied to research into bio-weapons that were being developed off the coast of Connecticut at the research facility in plum Island & they think they had a breach allowing things including infected ticks to make their way to the states & spread. And more & more, the numbers rise. Yet why nothing gets said or taught to the public including our students especially up in those bad tick infested areas or why they are not teaching hunters & outdoorsmen?? It's beyond me! I grew up being taught to trust the medical community but now I can't trust them at all, especially the government when it comes to a lot but more so for the lack of effort to tell the country what is going on.
After all that has happened, & all that I have gone thru to try to get better, the only things to happen were to lose every dime my family had & has, lost all my friends & most of my family because they don't understand or their Dr's don't believe in it so I must just be full of it & faking what I'm going thru right? Guys that I was best friends with for most of my life just gone in what seemed like a day eventhough it wasn't that fast it sure felt like they were here one day & gone the next because to them I guess they thought I just quit wanting to party/hang out with them etc. And family just didn't get it but the internet & their doctors said it wad nothing. So they devided to basically sever all ties & I used to be upset but if they were that fast to kick me to the curb, they sure were not good family or friends in the first place. Right? Still has made the past 20/25 years extremely lonely. Some people lost their minds over the covid lockdowns yet, I've spent over 15 years without even touching grass really or getting out of the house or going ANYWHERE at all & the world changes & I lose touch with everything new & different including the changes in my city/state which seem like a brand new map! Lol. It's been crazy to say the least. So I'm just living with my father although he is getting old & frail from just old age. Has had some complications himself recently making me feel like I'm about to lose the one guy that's had my back all along including every Dr visit & more! So I'm 43 now, but have a hard time committing to trying any new or different treatments because I have been thru so much that still affect me to this day & I'm not sure I wanna go thru hell, herxes a more pain/nausea than I already go thru for things to just fail again. Not trying to be negative but I have not heard of anyone in my similar shoes that have had it this long & more actually beat it(unless rich) not just temporarily. I've seen some get back to having a life but then it comes back & they are forced to try again or try something else. Then if I choose to wait for something I can get behind to try, I "Must not want to get well" as I get accused of. It's disgusting because if these people knew the hell it was to go thru only to get nowhere, they might change their tone! I want nothing more than to get a % back let alone beat it entirely but I'm not about to let others force to to do something again only to go thru the pain of it not working & more. So it is what it is at this point. I'm going to try to do a couple different things that are unconventional but less invasive but I'm not sure less invasive actually does enough to make a dent but my only other option is more IVs & more pain, exhaustion & nausea etc. And they are already taming meds away from me that give me the QOL that I've had. So frustrating!
I could go on forever but feel like I've already bored ya to death with my story. Sorry about that. Sometimes I just write & forget to actively try to keep i short. So ill just quit for now but one question for ya as I wrap this reply up...
Did they even call it lyme disease back in the 70's/80's as I only remember them naming the Disease after Lyme, Connecticut when it was first discovered but have never known when they actually named it that.
God bless you my friend! Hope all is as well as can be & I pray you never have to go thru anything remotely bad like it again!
-Rob ✌️
@@gicueN17R0 - very interesting and challenging story there. Sorry you have had to deal with this. To answer your questions: 1) yes it bugs me when people call it 'Lyme's"! 2) I don't know the year it was named, but you are correct that it relates to Lyme CT, which was one of the first hot spots where patients were presenting with these symptoms. I do know that it wasn't called Lyme yet when I was battling it at first. Alan Steere, who was at Tufts Boston, discovered the causative agent (the spirochete) shortly after I got sick. My guess is that the name originated shortly after that...maybe '74-'75? Sorry if I missed this in your message, but have any of your docs tried steroids? I know a few people who have been healed through that method (after years of battling it). Most docs don't know about this, because it was only recently that the autoimmunity model emerged. This model explains why most people don't get much from long-term doxy, and also why isolating spirochetes from a chronic patient is practically unheard of. Anyway, good luck with it all. Cheers.
I am SO impressed with everything about this track. Not only that every word is based on actual EXPERIENCE, but the musicality is SO good.....this is going on repeat.....the line...Lord I forgive you, Lord I forgive you, Lord I forgive you, Make me whole..... just hit me so hard for some reason.....can't explain it.....but there again, there's not a single Ren song that doesn't change us on the inside is there..... he's gone and done it again..... masterpiece. ....geez......
Not nice to make an old man cry. I'm 51. I have 4 diseases. I started with one. When I was 29. Induced by stress of a hard divorce. Then 3 more have followed. I'm now unable to work, or do the things I once loved. Hardly leave the house. But one thing I still have that I love is music. Music is my drug. Ren, you are my dealer man. Thanks so much for the true, honest and heartfelt no bull shit music. I love all your songs. Fun ones, and serious ones. God bless you and your recovery. So glad that you are still with us. The world needs you. Don't forget that. ✌️
when I first got sick as a teen, I scoured the internet for musicians & artists that I could relate to. There were very few. Being young & sick is a horror show, and hearing ren put the experience into words has been so healing. Thank you for trusting us with your pain & your story.
Talking openly about past trauma and reliving those moments must have been painful. Hopefully, it brought you comfort, as it did for many of us, making us feel less alone and giving us the strength to keep on going. That it's okay not to be okay, and opening up can not only benefit oneself but also provide guidance for others struggling and needing a little push.
Life is rough for everyone in different ways, but the best people always seems to suffer the most and still are the ones who fight bravely while still wearing a smile. Your music has been a lifeline for many, providing the encouragement needed to endure tough times. What's truly remarkable is your dedication to helping others through your music.
Your music has been helping me so much through life and give me hope during my darkest moments, and I discovered it right when I needed it most. Please continue being the beautiful soul you are. I will never thank you enough for everything. I am genuinely proud of you and all that you've achieved. Keep staying true to yourself and pursuing your passion.
With love ♡,
Eden ◡̈
My favourite part of the song is "Elastic bands only strech so far... and then SNAP" the video is timing this snap so well too.
I was just diagnosed with fibromyalgia yesterday and only just noticed it's mentioned on this film clip. So glad I have a great GP who noticed this! Thanks for giving us you music Ren and bring things like this into the light and providing hope! Love ya mate ❤
Congratulations Ren!!! 1M in 5 days, impressive. Glad to hear your evolution of a message of pain to a profound message of hope, compassion and call to action. Keep it up my friend.🔥🔥🔥
🙏For this to reach the charts - not just for you, Ren, but for everyone you're singing for💞
As a mom of a 30yo with health issues. I want to acknowledge his mom who was there for him.❤
YES...the forgotten, the family suffers and feel so helpless....
Thank you for being a lovely soul.
As a mama I totally agree! Thank you Rens mama!!❤️🔥💪🏼❤️🔥🎉
Yes! And she should know that she's not alone. ❤
I am currently bed bound. Your music gives me hope that this is not forever. Thank you Ren!!!!!! You give me hope.
It is emotionally overwhelming to watch this. Not just because of your story but you did this as an advocate for others. You didn’t have to do that and no one is going to overlook that. You had angels. Now you are one.
I absolutely love the person you are, the personal stories you share, and your outlook on the world as it is currently. You music is amazing and an inspiration along with your personality.
The Vera Hall sample works so well - this deserves to go straight to the top of the charts!!!
I have ME/CFS, fibromyalgia, I have cysts on nerves in my spine, and I'm diabetic.
I've finally found a doctor who listens and is helping me be able to function again.
I needed to hear this song today. For the first time in years, I'm hopeful I can be active again.
“There’s relief in the teeth of the kiss of cold steel” 😢
Well done Ren, you’ve outdone yourself with this one. 🤍🤍🤍
Sh*t! That one blew my mind... how does he manage to repeatedly phrase such tragic truths so poetically?!?
i'm crying, i've never seen ME have such a big audience before 🥺 thank you!!! 💚💚💚
My wife has been suffering with chronic pain, chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia for the last 7 years.we are not even sure the meds work anymore. I just introduced her to your music and she has really connected with it. Just wanna say thank you .
Watch out when the dr tells you it’s fibromyalgia. That’s usually what they tell you when they don’t know what the problem is then they just give you painkillers for long pain and acute they give you gabbapentin, baclofen,cyclobenzaprine,ambien , lunesta, benzos if you’re lucky or unlucky depending how you look at it. If you went with the same aches and pains during c . O. v….d they would have said it’s longcovD. I’ve been diagnosed with both fibromyalgia and c and all kinds of other stuff but I’m pretty sure it’s none of that I’ve broke down in front of a few drs and befriended a dr and they told me fibromyalgia is bs that it’s something drs tell u so you keep coming to them it’s kind of like the new term for hypochondriac but if they said that you would go to a shrink….im not saying your wife doesn’t have something she probably has something terrible that’s undiagnosed just like ren was . Look into parasites 🦠 Lyme disease. By that I mean pay for the full spectrum of blood test it’s like 100 to 500 depending were your at in the world they also do at home fece test to look for parasites. If you ever ate bad or uncooked pork or other meats there’s a host of stuff she might have if she has ever been ate up by mosquitos or ticks there’s a host of stuff she might have and pretty much all of us have. Regular drs and emergency rooms ,doc in the box type places they rarely do things like full spectrum blood test even when they test your blood they don’t full spectrum and most people have had a fece test the reason they don’t do none of that is because of expense. I’ve learned in the 40s 50s early 60s one of the first things they did if you had long term neurological pain stomach ailments blood ailments unknown reasons for your problems was they gave you a enema to see and clear you of some parasites. Like it was a huge thing . I hope the best for you and your wife . I don’t pretend to know everything and hope I don’t sound pretentious I’ve just been dealing with the same type of bs forever . Best thing I ever did was get off all of the medications and start drinking mostly water , black coffee, and start to lift weights a bit and walk more. I’m not saying I’m an exercise buff or anything but I’ve spent years in bed and on meds and getting off them and getting out the house has been the best thing ever. If your wife has diabetes as well because people that are tired all of the time and in pain usually end up in bed with insomnia gaining weight from meds tell her to try Yerba mate extract and fiber powder it basically does the same thing as metformin which is cut your sugar down 30 percent without the side effects don’t just get off any meds you have to ween off . I don’t know for me I started to look at my dr and he’s over weight super pale unhealthy looking and that old saying dr heal thyself just popping in my head if my dr can’t even help himself how’s he gonna help me and I know for a fact I just got worse on the meds they pushed . anyways good luck yall life’s a struggle and sux the best thing we can do is smile and laugh and just live and be kind it’s had asf when your always tired in pain but it helps
Ren's music has been the chisel that he used to chip away at the raw marble of his pain and illness, what he has created through his persistence is sheer artistry. Musical masterpieces to share with the world. Ren is our modern day, soul-baring musical Michelangelo.
Seventeen year old Ren was right, you are here to do something important, you are already doing it, thank you for everything Ren❤😊
Thank you for recognizing Fibromyalgia! 3rd generation (diagnosed, finally) Fibromyalgia & Endometriosis Warrior, along with Depression, GAD, PTSD, ADHD, Panic Disorder... But we are NOT our disorders! Life is hard & we have to be harder... but we can be KINDER.
WE'VE GOT THIS. IT'S NOT ALL IN OUR HEADS. Our struggle & pain, as much as it suuuuucks, make us more kind and understanding people. BUT, MORE MEDICAL RESEARCH & COMPREHENSION MUST TAKE PLACE ASAP!!!! 🤌🏽🖤❤️
Remembering and giving gratitude to my strong, late matriarchs for paving the way & fighting the fight. Rest In Power, Mammala & Grand-grey 💜💪🏽
I've done a little research trying to find an organization that helps individuals, funds research and advocates. I'm not rich, but I can afford to donate monthly. The problem is that it's hard to tell just from the Internet which organizations are really doing good work. The one that seemed most transparent about how they use funds had a statement on their site that said they were closing.
I know it's odd to ask, but do you have any suggestions
I wish there will be more survivers like you and me. I was bed bound, dead written by doctors and yet here I stand again, dancing to your music. I celebrate you 👏
Rens probably one of my favourite artists at the moment hes just different and and such a lyrical poet 🙌🙏
Wow, over 1M vies in 5 days for a purely independent artist. Ren, you rock. I see this as both art and a PSA to the community of individuals who are suffering or who have found healing to any degree. God bless you all for your persistance.
Hey Ren, I know what you're talking about...I was 13 when my health went downhill. Our time-line is a little different, but I know how it all feels. I'm 43 now and still struggle with the physical, mental, and emotional pain. Thank you for having the courage to talk about it! The pain and struggle is real. Most people shy away from it, making the majority think it's something only real in movies or whatever. But it is real, everyday! I'm glad you feel whole...maybe someday I'll feel that way too.
This is the first time I've heard this man and I am impressed. I enjoy the cadence and lyrics touch something deep. No longer sleeping on this GEM named REN.
Welcome. :)
He is absolutely remarkable! Multi instrumentalist ( guitar, bass, piano, drums, melodic , and a bit of cello). Lyrically a genius who also creates all his own beats, is self produced, mixed and at times mastered. Unlike this video ( which was masterfully edited using cuts) most of his videos are done live and one takes( even though it may take 4- 100+ takes to get the final version).
Yes sir. The lyricism , cadence, flow, production. And wait till you experience the other genres he slays.
Wow you are in for a ride!!! Please let us know your thoughts ❤
Also interested to know how you found him?
Found this Artist yesterday. Right off the rip, is now one of my top artists. Storytelling - Lyrics- beat & Message. Only a few out there today can accomplish this. Love this guy! Again - Now one of my favorites...
Our conditions are different. But the pain and most experiences are similar. I have SLE (fairly severe) and it’s destroying my body. Your music reminds me why I should be sharing my story with everyone. Sometimes it’s hard to do but every time feels a little lighter. Thank you for being that person for me.
Ren is a phenomenon! I believe you discover Ren in you're life when the time is right. Not everyone gets Ren because Ren is more than a world class musician and artist. It goes much deeper. His self awareness and ability to convey pain and struggle and hope at the same time. It deeply touches people who have experienced life changing trauma and quite simply some people are not ready for Ren. I'll keep it short. 18 months ago. I discovered Ren and I can't remember my life before that happened. I can't explain it but a shift in my dormant mind happened and Ren relit my fire for life again.Thank you for you're persistent bravery Ren 💙
Ren, you are a true treasure to this world and I don't know if YOU know just how special you actually are. You've changed so many lives. Bless you my friend 🙏
Your song is much needed and hits home.
Chronically sick here too, with disabling illnesses.
You're right, there's always hope besides the suffering, and we learn so much on ourselves and others going through this, and on appreciating life and its small joys...
🙏🙏❤
You once said, Ren, that it is--or should be--a duty of those of us who have never walked in this shadow to do more. Years before that, in a Lyme Disease Awareness Month video you said that those who were ill, and those who love them, needed to find a way to band together to demand better treatment.
This song is helping accomplish those things. So proud of you, Ren.
Definition of hero ...a person who is admired for their courage, outstanding achievements, or noble qualities. 👊🏻
An absolute masterpiece.
I'm currently struggling with my own health and disability. I also received news today that I will be losing a family member. I needed this song today. In so many ways. Thank you Ren! You're music gives hope for a better tomorrow. It helps with the strong emotions and the difficult things everyone is going through in present day. Keep doing an amazing job! You're a genius.
My deepest condolences. Keep your head up, tomorrow is a better day. 🙏
Sending Positive vibes ❤
This is pure poetry, absolutely stunning! I’ve just discovered REN, literally a couple of hours ago, and have been binge watching since. I might have to get these lyrics on a canvas, so powerful.
Ren's something truly, truly special.. Once in a lifetime - I'm so happy you've found him :)
Ren, can I just say that your music heals me. When I feel cold, I play your music and I escape into a whole new world where my troubles are forgotten memories. When I was 6/7 years old, I woke up to realise that my legs weren’t moving. The doctors came to find that I had appendicitis, which is where the appendix becomes infected, and if it explodes it can lead to death. In the hospital, I was in so much pain, but I kept holding on, just like you. Thank you, Ren, for what you do. You have healed so many people. Please, keep on making as much music as you can. You have done so much for us.
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i love how Ren's soulful creations manage to make me cry every time through pure love, admiration, sadness, beauty and art itself..i am not a "cry babe" and have never been but Ren's music and soul is stubbing into my soul somehow.. REN, DEAR, YOU'RE THE DEFINITION OF ART.. PERIOD..
I watched you tell your story each day. I felt your pain. I do hope that the world will take notice and help. I've lost so many. I find myself falling since my whole family died, not by old age but different illnesses. I'm trying so hard to keep it together as I just lost my brother and my mom. You're an inspiration. Thank you, Ren ❤
REN Has Honestly Given More Exposure Than Any Other Platform I've ever Seen. I'm So So Grateful 🙏 for His Sacrifice and Contributions.
REN, THANK YOU ❤
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Can’t wait. Thank you for being an advocate and using your platform to educate and help those who have little to no voice. ❤
Thank you, Ren, yet again. Not only are you the most brilliant talent I've come across in years, you're highlighting issues that bring change. As someone with M.E for 32 years, I heard that research into this illness amounted to 25p per sufferer per year in the UK, until covid. One GP told me he'd rather have curable cancer than M.E.! Unbelievable exhaustion & extreme muscle weakness are only 2 of the crippling symptoms of this poorly supported & much misunderstood condition. Your music is art, it is genius, keep creating, Ren. (& thank god for platforms like youtube which allow those unable to follow traditional routes to shine.)
Favorite part of this is at the part where he sings "Lord, I forgive you." You can hear the smile in his singing.
...and relief:)
Hope he's doing better.
Heard he suffered a relapse, nothing but well wishes for him ❤
He's back in Canada, again (atm)... getting some (even) more intensive treatment. Yes, well wishes to Ren!
REN, dear boy. I can relate so much to this song… But I just fight. Can’t find the strength to transform the pain into beauty like you do. Because my fight is for my kids. Your music is like a playground for my brain and my soul. Thank you. So glad you’re better now. ❤
I was born with HLHS, a rare congenital heart disease. I have a single chamber heart and a pacemaker. Experimental surgeries at age 3 to reroute my blood in my heart and subsequent ones for pacer replacements and follow ups, that actually worked mind you. I'm lucky because as healthy as I am (relatively speaking) most don't make it to 30. I'm 39.
While I can't completely empathize with @Ren, I do understand what it's like to be poked and prodded by doctors and nurses (incredible people btw) especially from a very young age. I'm glad Ren can get this song made and bring attention to Lyme and M.E. It's a rough life, but it's worth the struggle to have the chance at waking up again.
Incredible song and music in general @Ren. Hope you shine as bright a light on these diseases as you can man.
My 6 year old daughter has HLHS. Thank you pioneer. Much respect to you. Sending my love ❤
Reading these comments, it's heart breaking to see hoe many people are struggling with their health..😢
How beautiful that your songs provide support and the comment section is always filled with love. You create a safe space for each and every one of us listening. Thanks Ren. We love u!
I am so glad I found your music. I didn’t even hear this one first. I am 26 with similar conditions, finally had to apply for disability this year. Been going through grief. Found new doctors that may be able to help give me some of my life back recently. This video made me cry
When I got diagnosed with ME last year the whole process and ignorance in the medical community is so incredibly shocking. Thanks so much for bringing public awareness to these horrible illnesses
The last days have been a wild ride with this song and the crazy chat at the premiere topping it off.
Please do not forget about us, world! We are still here, even if hiding under the sheets, behind the curtains, in pain, in agony!
Don't give up hope!
I’ve been through some very similar traumas as Ren. There is no stem cell treatment for my pain but REN’s music is helping make the pain way more manageable. Thanks for the inspiration Ren, you’re helping way more people than you could have ever imagined.