vaenom - Stand Still Time (Visualizer)

Eventually every human begins to wonder why time seems to be moving so quickly, especially as we age. Being a child felt like an entire lifetime itself, but ten years as an adult can flash by in a moment. There's plenty of theories out there. The most convincing to me being new experiences slow the personal perception of time. Again, being a child was mostly a whole new experience every single day as you learned customary lessons and developed your cerebral cortex. Then we grow older and find our routines. Monotony sets in. It's Monday and you're already wishing for Friday. Then it's Sunday and you're wondering what happened to Friday. Soon it's 2025 and last you checked it was 2022.
What if you step outside the universe and time really is speeding up, but the telemetry doesn't exist for us to measure it? The truth is it may forever remain one of the mysteries we can't solve within our reality. Maybe there's no mystery.
What we do know is certain - and what we do have control over - is our new experiences. So have new experiences, I tell myself. Force time to slow down. I've been a violator of this. A creature of habit. I know what I like, and I like to do what I like. But what I like can bring about this monotony, even if it is creative pursuits. The creativity within is boundless, but the environment around me is stagnant. My mind in a different world each day, but yet I sit in the same desk chair in front of the same screens that I did yesterday. It weighs on me mentally and physically.
Time has been on my mind a lot. Both what I have left of it and what happens to it once I'm long gone. It causes me indecision. "What's the best use of my time in this moment?" Guilt sets in as I allow myself free time, ignoring the escapism for consideration of what I could be doing productively instead. Ultimately, I've found myself in a state of analysis paralysis, wasting my precious time. A detrimental ouroboros, if you will.
So I learn to appreciate the minutiae. Examine everything as if it's a new experience. Engage my brain and my breath, but also let it wander... and wonder. Take in the texture. Think about something you've seen a hundred times before, but in a different way. Oblige a new perspective. Just enjoy, because that's within your control.
All I ask is that you stand still, time.
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