I have known it for a long time that i have dermatillomania. I’m not diagnosed but it is severe. I regularly see a therapist but she doesn’t seem to know anything about the diagnosis, let alone heard of it. She diagnosed me with depression, ptsd and social anxiety. But dermatillomania is definitely there too. I have been constantly picking at my skin since December 2019 and now it’s November 2022.. it is so bad that if I just lean down and let the blood flow to my face, it will burn insanely in my wounds to the point where I can’t lean down.. I have to wash my pillowcase almost every week due to the amount of blood that comes when I pick in bed late at night. I am worst when I go into a bathroom or anywhere with a mirror. I can stand there for hours at a time. And the longest I have done it for is around 9 hours… I can even use blades, scissors, needles and tweezers when I am so convinced that there is something under my skin that I need to get out (like a pimple or a filled pore) I am so scared of unclear skin that I end up ripping my face up to the point where I can’t even use the muscles in my face due to the pain of the wounds. I have always had super clear skin, no acne or anything, and the skin picking came out of nowhere. The point where I first started picking I still had completely clear skin. And I still do if I first manage to go a very short time without picking. Except from the bacteria from my fingers on my face when I pick, and that my skin has become super super dry from all the scabbing etc.. I just want to be diagnosed. I feel so invalidated. And all I want is for my parents to understand that is not possible for me to “just stop” like they tell me every week..
This is heartbreaking. Please look on the bfrb.org website and use what you find to communicate to your parents that you cannot "just stop." See if there's a therapist on the list of treatment providers there that is in your area. Watch more of my videos and learn ways you can help yourself too. A big hug and my best wishes. You deserve to get better.
@@annettepasternakSSPC thankyou!❤️ I am transferring psychologists when I turn 18 in december. I am seeing a child-psychologist now. So I hope I can get help from the new one instead🌸 my parents often promise me different gifts etc for “if I stop picking”, and get disappointed all the million times I haven’t stopped. I truly hope they’ll start to understand!🙏
It's so similar to me. I don't know English well, but want to say that I'm feeling myself like you and hate this terrible and dirty wish to picking my skin. My parents scared and I blame myself for this mania. Just wanted share with everyone.
@@wefre4646 it’s devastating that not enough people know of this disorder, it’s so difficult to get help, and it’s SO stigmatized. I am always filled with shame because of it. It’s really difficult to deal with
Oh snap, sounds like I have it. Should I ask my psychiatrist about it? I don't have psychotherapy, just go to a psychiatrist bcs of my ADHD and things related to my ADHD really. I find the thought of psychotherapy, at least right now, exhausting and dreadful and overwhelming. But I feel like my conversations with my psychiatrist, even though it's just once every one to two months, is like a mini psychotherapy session, though I've never had one but I imagine it similar. I've been picking at my acne ever since I have acne, I've got scars and all, I hate it, I hate how my skin looks and feels, I've had so much negative emotions because of it and it feels a lot like an addiction. Infact, when I first started my ADHD meds (methylphenidate) I was very strict with how I went about it and observed things a lot. Two things broke the flow that the meds gave me - doomscrolling and skin picking. Skin picking seemed to suck out the dopamine in the same way - it felt the same way, like the sensation if I can put it that way of what my mental state was like was the same - and the disrupted and now hard to get back to flow of productivity was disrupted just the same.
I pick my scalp until it hurts. I will get wounds, and I will say “I’m not doing this anymore!” But, I always start doing it again. 😢 I’m almost 60 and have been doing this since I was a teenager. Thank you for helping me.
I have had acne for a long time but it has slowly become just brushing and scabs and bumps ande even infections that I have caused myself.. I do believe there is a high chance I have this as I can not stop picking for a long time and I will make my self bleed and have just really bad skin and I finally sent my mum the NHS page about the disorder Today because before now I have been to ashamed to reach out for help and I didn't k it was a disorder for a long time as I thought it was just me being an idiot
I pick my skin mostly in summer. It's hot and making my skin dry so it's easier than in winter. I don't remember when I started but it was from a young age. I pick my lips for more than 5 years, if I remember correctly. I started with my legs one day after a swim in public pool. The chlorine made my skin dryer on my legs and much easier. I didn't even know what I was doing until there were red marks all over my legs. In quarantine I started with my arms too, which led to scarring. I managed to stop this winter but started again like a week ago. Mostly doing it from boredom or stress release. I decided to search what was wrong with me. My parents thought that it was sime kind of skin disease. But I know it's not. Does it clarify as dermatillomania?
I always pick my skin and I always set goals to stop myself each year but I just can’t. I usually feel the urge to pick at my face after school but never on holidays and rarely on weekends, I think this might be because school stresses me out but I’m still not sure why I pick my skin. Even when I was little I picked skin on my arms and it would stain my pyjamas, at that time I didn’t want my parents to know so I stuck a tissue on top of the bloody area on my pyjamas. My mum saw but she treated it like I was just itching my arm or hurt myself by accident. My parents think that I can just stop. I’m not sure if this is a disorder or just a bad habit but I truly do want to stop or get a diagnosis if it is a disorder. I just don’t know what to do.
I have known it for a long time that i have dermatillomania. I’m not diagnosed but it is severe.
I regularly see a therapist but she doesn’t seem to know anything about the diagnosis, let alone heard of it.
She diagnosed me with depression, ptsd and social anxiety. But dermatillomania is definitely there too.
I have been constantly picking at my skin since December 2019 and now it’s November 2022.. it is so bad that if I just lean down and let the blood flow to my face, it will burn insanely in my wounds to the point where I can’t lean down..
I have to wash my pillowcase almost every week due to the amount of blood that comes when I pick in bed late at night.
I am worst when I go into a bathroom or anywhere with a mirror. I can stand there for hours at a time. And the longest I have done it for is around 9 hours… I can even use blades, scissors, needles and tweezers when I am so convinced that there is something under my skin that I need to get out (like a pimple or a filled pore)
I am so scared of unclear skin that I end up ripping my face up to the point where I can’t even use the muscles in my face due to the pain of the wounds.
I have always had super clear skin, no acne or anything, and the skin picking came out of nowhere. The point where I first started picking I still had completely clear skin.
And I still do if I first manage to go a very short time without picking. Except from the bacteria from my fingers on my face when I pick, and that my skin has become super super dry from all the scabbing etc..
I just want to be diagnosed. I feel so invalidated. And all I want is for my parents to understand that is not possible for me to “just stop” like they tell me every week..
This is heartbreaking. Please look on the bfrb.org website and use what you find to communicate to your parents that you cannot "just stop." See if there's a therapist on the list of treatment providers there that is in your area. Watch more of my videos and learn ways you can help yourself too. A big hug and my best wishes. You deserve to get better.
@@annettepasternakSSPC thankyou!❤️ I am transferring psychologists when I turn 18 in december. I am seeing a child-psychologist now. So I hope I can get help from the new one instead🌸 my parents often promise me different gifts etc for “if I stop picking”, and get disappointed all the million times I haven’t stopped. I truly hope they’ll start to understand!🙏
@@2004Llkju I hope so too! Good luck!
It's so similar to me. I don't know English well, but want to say that I'm feeling myself like you and hate this terrible and dirty wish to picking my skin. My parents scared and I blame myself for this mania.
Just wanted share with everyone.
@@wefre4646 it’s devastating that not enough people know of this disorder, it’s so difficult to get help, and it’s SO stigmatized. I am always filled with shame because of it. It’s really difficult to deal with
Everyday I pick my lips,I try to stop myself and I don’t realize when I do it. It bleeds for hours at a time.
I feel the same way- my family doesn’t understand when I say I can’t control it :/
I pick my lips too. It hurts but feels good at the same time. I hate this
@@_seri.haiguys same
Oh snap, sounds like I have it. Should I ask my psychiatrist about it? I don't have psychotherapy, just go to a psychiatrist bcs of my ADHD and things related to my ADHD really. I find the thought of psychotherapy, at least right now, exhausting and dreadful and overwhelming. But I feel like my conversations with my psychiatrist, even though it's just once every one to two months, is like a mini psychotherapy session, though I've never had one but I imagine it similar. I've been picking at my acne ever since I have acne, I've got scars and all, I hate it, I hate how my skin looks and feels, I've had so much negative emotions because of it and it feels a lot like an addiction. Infact, when I first started my ADHD meds (methylphenidate) I was very strict with how I went about it and observed things a lot. Two things broke the flow that the meds gave me - doomscrolling and skin picking. Skin picking seemed to suck out the dopamine in the same way - it felt the same way, like the sensation if I can put it that way of what my mental state was like was the same - and the disrupted and now hard to get back to flow of productivity was disrupted just the same.
I pick my scalp until it hurts. I will get wounds, and I will say “I’m not doing this anymore!” But, I always start doing it again. 😢 I’m almost 60 and have been doing this since I was a teenager.
Thank you for helping me.
My pleasure. If you need more help, go to my website stopskinpickingcoach.com and sign up for a free consultation.
I have had acne for a long time but it has slowly become just brushing and scabs and bumps ande even infections that I have caused myself.. I do believe there is a high chance I have this as I can not stop picking for a long time and I will make my self bleed and have just really bad skin and I finally sent my mum the NHS page about the disorder Today because before now I have been to ashamed to reach out for help and I didn't k it was a disorder for a long time as I thought it was just me being an idiot
Good for you for reaching out for help. You're not an idiot!
I pick my skin mostly in summer. It's hot and making my skin dry so it's easier than in winter. I don't remember when I started but it was from a young age. I pick my lips for more than 5 years, if I remember correctly.
I started with my legs one day after a swim in public pool. The chlorine made my skin dryer on my legs and much easier. I didn't even know what I was doing until there were red marks all over my legs. In quarantine I started with my arms too, which led to scarring.
I managed to stop this winter but started again like a week ago. Mostly doing it from boredom or stress release.
I decided to search what was wrong with me. My parents thought that it was sime kind of skin disease. But I know it's not. Does it clarify as dermatillomania?
You can get evaluated by a mental health professional and they can answer that question. Thanks for sharing and good luck!
I always pick my skin and I always set goals to stop myself each year but I just can’t. I usually feel the urge to pick at my face after school but never on holidays and rarely on weekends, I think this might be because school stresses me out but I’m still not sure why I pick my skin. Even when I was little I picked skin on my arms and it would stain my pyjamas, at that time I didn’t want my parents to know so I stuck a tissue on top of the bloody area on my pyjamas. My mum saw but she treated it like I was just itching my arm or hurt myself by accident. My parents think that I can just stop. I’m not sure if this is a disorder or just a bad habit but I truly do want to stop or get a diagnosis if it is a disorder. I just don’t know what to do.
I pick at old mosquito bites that have turned into what I believe to be keloid scars. Do I fit into the category in the DSM-5?
Sorry, Gina, I can't answer that
Thankyou so much❤️
You’re welcome, Haley 😊
I do.
You have a lot of company.