Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
My first time doing MDMA was probably the most profound experience of my life. I took a point (100mg) which was almost exactly 1mg/kg. I could go in depth of my experience but I would hit the character cap for UA-cam comments. All I will say is that it was without a doubt the most profound experiences of my entire life and I wish everybody to be able to experience this substance before they leave this Earth. If you do decide to give it a go make sure to test it without the Marquis Reagent at a minimum, if not Simons and Froedhe reagents as well and don’t exceed the recommended 1-1.5mg/kg dose range.
The war on drug has been an absolute fail, enabling the creation and rise of cartels all around the world. All drugs should be legal, and the money spent on this war allocated to prevention and mental care. The governments or regulated companies would produce the drugs, which would save countless lives. Some countries have taken a step in the right direction, like Portugal, where all drugs are decriminalized.
Started off taking MDMA recreationally in the late 90s (back when it was ecstasy) and began using it several times a year in my 20s.... one of the most pivotal times I used it was at age 24 on the day my older brother died (at age 26)..it totally changed the way I look at death and it helped me process my brother's passing in a totally different/more healthy way than the rest of my family. Over my 30s I started using it less and less (mainly because my friends stopped using it as we got older). Now in my late 40s, I try to use it recreationally at least once a year and I am a huge advocate of it's use for both recreation and therapeutically for PTSD.
@@toxic7767 Well, I'm coming from a self-growth perspective. I think it can be a powerful psychotherapeutic tool for exploring emotions. I don't think you get that in a party atmosphere. One reason I think it should stay off the streets is that it ruins it with the lawmakers. Its whats made it so hard to bring psychedelics back in psychiatry. The only reason LSD and these substances were outlawed was because it hit the streets. Before that, over 40,000 research papers were written on LSD. Its listing as a schedule 1 substance was the result of recreational use. Unfortunately, it shut down virtually all legitimate research in the process. So recreational use makes it harder for people to accept in mainstream science. Plus there are always dangers with street drugs.
I've done MDMA in the 90's a few times. I wish you could get this at your local pharmacy, pure battery acid tasting E. It's something I would do maybe once a year , if even... Something like New Years. I think it has HUGE potential to bring love to the world and make this planet a better place. Be Kind to your neighbours.
Ecstasy, dmt, LSD and psilocybin containing mushrooms are amazing. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder 18 years ago as a teenage. Got diagnosed with BPD. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Yes he's Dr.benfungi. Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
I would like to know from those who have solved PTSD and anxiety, if they have solved it definitively and how to understand what quantity of psilocybin to take and when, for how long. And can you really heal without having an addiction? Thanks to everyone for helping me understand, I want to understand if it's something that can help me solve the problem (I have c-ptsd)
Shrooms helped kick the bottle as well and I feel like a much more balanced person now. I have recently started Molly therapy and its helped me shake off a lot of CPTSD and recall more memories.
Great video : ) Speaking from personal experience, MDMA (coupled with self-work, and all of the modern resources on we have to learn about psychology nowadays) has been a gamechanger. I was a raver in the 90's, but never used it because I was very guarded, counterdependent, and Avoidant - and thought that MDMA was WAY too "touchy feely hippie" for me. It wasn't until I tried it with a friend about 7 years ago now, and had a great conversation with her where I felt very relaxed and vulnerable, but unafraid that the ice really started melting for me. I think MDMA might really help a lot of men in particular who have been taught to suppress their emotions, and are suffering in silence.
I really reccommend ecstasy for people who never tried it before but keep a limit on it. Last year I've took a pill 6 days in a row and some days I've took 7 pills at once. I've never felt more dumb and depressed before but I only noticed how bad it was after I went sober. These days I usually take 1 pill per 3 months and I found that to be a good line. Cheers if anyone find this comment useful.
I just took MDMA for the first time a couple weeks ago. My only regret is not doing it sooner. For the first time in my life all of my anxieties and insecurities just dissolved and I was able to feel a genuine sense of compassion and connection towards myself and others. Even though I was high as a kite, the experience made me feel more sober than I’ve felt in…forever. As if I had just come off of a decade long depression bender. Maybe I’m deceiving myself, but I have noticed that things just feel a little bit lighter lately. I still have a lot of the same old problems, but I no longer feel this intense sense of hopelessness that makes addressing those issues difficult. The self-flagellating voice is still there, I’m just not as prone to buy whatever bs it’s selling me.
Ive done mdma on probably 30 + occasions and only once was it very high quality pure mdma. It was the absolute best experience with the drug and I had no come down. I was blissed out for weeks at least. My friend who has done twice as much mdma as me had the same experience that day. I think its important to understand that the pharmaceutical stuff will be as good as it gets and likely be the same way for most people. A lot of people talk about how bad the come downs are but have probably never had super pure squeaky clean mdma.
Had some Australian friends try the dutch mdma I had with me once (~75% of the worlds mdma supply comes from the Netherlands). They had done MDMA before, but they were in awe of the feeling pure MDMA gave them, not mixed with Amphetamines for example, which can't be compared. Here in NL you get the raw MDMA crystals in a bag.
good mdma definitely feels cleaner and has less negative effects compared to meth molly and suspicious pressies/powder! but you can have bad comedowns from pure mdma. it really depends on the person, their brain chemistry, the dose, whether or not they took supplements, etc. i’ve had a lotta clean pure molly rocks reagent tested and everything off the same batches me and my friends have different results even on the same dose. i have some friends who rarely or have never had comedowns. some just get mild comedowns. i have a friend who just can’t fully feel mdma or mda anymore, like she just doesn’t roll. i roll hard asf off low doses but i get horrible comedowns every single time i roll. there’s things i can do to make it a bit better, like it’s worse if i redose or take higher doses. but still i always get comedowns
@@Divine_Mode everybody who is not intentionally trying to misinterpret me understands that I'm talking about speed. Ie what is referred to as amphetamine by 99% of the population.
@@jarzezIt’s not ‘pure’. We still cut stuff in in the Netherlands because completely pure MDMA is actually too dangerous. But I get what you mean. We don’t tend to cut the dirty things the Americans do. It’s also super easy to test in the Netherlands so this discourages suppliers from doing that. American MDMA typically has heroin, meth and cocaine in it. Often there is more of these things than MDMA in American Ecstasy. Usually we cut pretty harmless things like weight loss drugs and stuff. And the drug is still mostly MDMA
I can't wait until MDMA is available for PTSD treatment. I have done ecstasy recreationally and it was good quality, I never felt so good, I had been searching for that connection for years in therapy, and I have been trying ever since to get it back !
I started doing drugs since my teenage. Got addicted to crack for over 22 years. Crack addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Mushrooms were the hardest drugs I'd experimented with before that time I decided to try E under the care of a friend. I read about it online and off we went to the mountains. That night, I felt like I had never before. I couldn't believe how it was possible to be that happy but I also wondered if I had crossed a line I wasn't going to uncross. It was like you said at 14:10. Then 2 days later happened. I wouldn't wish that night to my worst enemy. I am suicidal and no darkness I experienced before or since was as bad as that night. The coming down part I had not read about. I had no idea how important that was. I always assumed that coming down from a high made me feel sad just because it was over. I didn't understand at all how the brain worked. My friend had to hold my hand the whole evening and tell me, repeatedly, that this was the effect of the drug, that it wasn't me, that it was going to pass and that I was going to be fine. I survived that night somehow but I don't know if I could again. I never ever ever want to experience that feeling again. Ever.
There are many things you can do to avoid this. Taking supplements such as L-tyrosine, 5-HTP, Zinc, Magnesium, Calcium, multivitamins, GABA and L-Theanine for a couple days before and after (at least after) help quite a bit. And the day after, taking St. Johns Wort. Important not to mix St. Johns Wort with E or other meds as it is a natural MAOI, which is why it helps a lot with the come down
Damn. To think I've burdened this feeling so often but dealt with it so much better is nice. To see how some people react to one night of depleted serotonin is scary. And i thought i had problems
I got a theory that people against all drugs for being bad like fentanyl and xylazine never took mdma. So happy they are finally considering it for therapy use because that's the correct thing to do and it will help a great deal of people with deep depression and post traumatic stress disorder.
I have fibromyalgia and for more then 10 year now. Very recently I tried MDMA with two friends in a house setting. For 6 hours, I was pain free. The following 3/4 weeks after that I had a pain reduction of more then 50%. increased stamina, better sleep and lower stress. I tried MDMA because I wanted to calm my anxyiety. I did not expect the pain free side effect at all. My fysio therapist could not believe the reduction of my muscle tention after the session. He said it was like working on a different body. The problem with having fibro, anxyiety, depression and ptsd is that every single one of them feeds the other in a circle. MDMA broke that circle bij calming or removing them giving me a small vacation from my chronic pain and allowing my body to remember how my body feels when it does not have my illnesses. It did a bit of a reset since my body literally thinks my miserable state is the normal baseline and it constantly returns to it. I will take this every once in a while for relaxation and a medical agenda. Any and all legal medications my gp prescribed for me over the years have worked short term or not at all. There are several drugs that should be re-explored for their medical use instead of demonised as an evil thing.
Xtc changed my life for the better. I opened up and it allowed me to relax while being able to communicate with anyone around me. I'm rolling right now
I took twice, first time I took 2, I was soooo happy, can’t even imagine the feeling, I saw the cutest emoji in the world(I didn’t even see these emoji in real life before) I talk to myself as a third person, and I can see the sound in vision. Secondl time I only take 1, I opened up to friends with my childhood abuse which I never tell anyone before. BUT I feel extremely sad the another day after, the only thought is just please let me sleep forever and never want to wake up and don’t want to exist
I have BPD and I have been actively changing my life around and my behavioral patterns for both my benefit and for my partner. MDMA is amazing with your significant other, it helps you lift the veil of fear and insecurities and just allow love to flow.
Ive started taking mushroom powders in my morning tea and give supplements to one of my teenagers. Such a difference. Mushrooms are the hidden gem. Mother nature has everything we need.
When taken under supported conditions, psilocybin mushrooms can cause self-described spiritual experiences that generally result in positive changes in the person's attitude, mood and hehavior
Great work, as per usual! I've been watching you guys for a while. Recently a relative of mine was talking about how someone in our extended family has a science youtube channel with her husband. It's easy to forget just how small the world is! Greetings from a second cousin (I think?) in Minnesota :)
Oh dear, took vast quantities, very frequently in my 20s. It was a great crutch whilst giving up far worse substances. Wish I could get some now to treat my C-PTSD.
Back in the day my mate and I ran into a group of people loosely connected with MAPS who introduced us to Mr. Shulgin and pharmaceutical quality MDMA. My first dose was on my 40th birthday (1997) with friends and a playlist of music that encompassed modern classics and the results were absolutely stunning. (Other than the depression two days later which we knew was coming so was prepared for.) After that experience I came to believe that every American adult should do 125 mg of MDMA once a year as I'm pretty sure we'd have a better, kinder and gentler(tm) society. I've also tried to repeat that experience but access is hard and I will not buy off the club scene as only the fates know what's in *that* stuff. I have had the pleasure of repeating this experience twice since and I miss it as it is one of the very best 4-hour experiences a human can have. Like I said, once a year - every adult.
@@Aokaimusicpoliticians/government, crack, the 90's, Shulgin got busted (by his employer the fbi) and also possibly just because 'too much of a good thing is not-so-good ' and everyone had trouble with the comedown/hangovers
Great video overall but there’s some points that are incorrect. Shulgins and other psychopharmacologists did not oppose recreational use of mdma they even endorsed it. What they opposed was irresponsible use of any drug as well as prohibition. Recreational use did not cause the government to schedule mdma, the government not wanting people to be able to freely use substances that have known medical value, and the government wanting to be able to throw people in prison is why it was scheduled
Thank you so much for the video! Education is ever more important in this area. Btw, your way of speaking and your character is absolutely likeable! My first video of your and a huge fan already! ❤❤
PLEASE read this if you feel so inclined. I love MDMA, especially being someone who suffers from bad ADHD and OCD. It seems to eliminate the constant activity in my brain and allows my thoughts to flow normally. Just returned from the Lost Lands festival and unfortunately went way too far with it this time around. Ate roughly 2 grams over 4 days. As soon as i got home from the festival, I almost instantly started experiencing a majority of the symptoms related to serotonin syndrome. It was extremely unpleasant and scary. I've taken MDMA in varying severities for the last 12 years, and after that experience, I'll be dialing the use down dramatically. I'm starting to wonder if I've done irreversible damage to my brain chemistry and chemicals.
My take on MDMA is that it is completely underappreciated. a lot of the stimulant abuse with methamphetamine addicts or Adderall addicts can be treated with it as well. They need to introduce programs for addicts to get therapy with the effect of it I know it sounds far off but MDMA is a lot like those stimulants but because it is serotonergic it does not have the dopamine psychotic part of it. Yes repeated uses causes tolerance but that what makes it so much better than other stumulants, it slows down in its response and cant be redosed really effectively 24 hours in.
I've had one friend that got hooked on mdma as a tween/teen, and now his brain is extra hardwired for addiction. The folks who do it in moderation, 1~2 a year, are ~normal.
@Anne-yh6yn you assert your ignorance. While outside factors - like the presense and availability of drugs, and seeing its use - always play a role, one's own disposition may quickly become immaterial upon use. I assert that the human brain actively grows and develops until about the age of 25. Use of drugs at half that age will, typically, burn a pleasure seeking pathway into the brain. Regular use will then scar that path in without a chance to heal, forming an addiction to nuerochemical dumping activities, esp drug use.
getting addicted to anything already “hardwires” you like for example, getting addicted to cigarettes, makes you more likely to get addicted to something of a similar nature, because you have already developed those addictive tendencies
I've been a recent user of MDMA/XTC and I can only tell that I'm a better person after I took it first time. I don't need the drug anymore to feel good about myself to interact more with people, and to be a better human, because I have the memory of an experience of joy that lasts more than the drug effect. For me MDMA was therapy and I wish I had known this before. My life could be way better - but better late than never. I personally don't see why it should not be controlled and allowed since it does not do at all worse side effects than alcohol - also it's a regulated drug.
Attachment disorders are serious and difficult to treat. Might MDMA be effective in it's treatment given it's tendency to generate a sense of connection? Or is the inability to feel connected the root cause of attachment disorders?
it's my opinion that early attachment wounds cause the alexithymia to develop as a coping mechanism for not being able to trust the caregiver with our big feelings so we learn to bury them and forget how to even percieve them, but we can again!
im a recovering polyaddict and ai/neuroscience student, I largely agree with your video and analyis. I think drugs should be completely decriminalized and the effects of current recreational drugs further studied. For me personally MDMA has had two seemingly contradictory effects. It's both gotten me to open up my shell more and try to make more friends, but it's (and similar substances) abuse has also made this more difficult. I believe for most people (not necessarily me) this could be helped by decreasing the stigma against it and providing it primarily in proper doses and settings. I do have some issues with your characterization of the chemical action of both recreational and pharmaceutical (SSRI) drugs. I think their pharmacological effects have been stated with too much certainty in terms of how directly they impact your mood. For instance, I believe a recent study (Moncrieff et al. 2022) found no relationship between lowered serotonin and depression. Same thing for norepinephrine/dopamine (although it does seem to have a role, which serotonin might as well, it's much more complicated than much of popsci makes it seem).
The millennium new year was my first time with this stuff and I absolutely loved it. Had an awesome experience and night. Then over the next probably 5 or 6 years I’ve taken hundreds of them and I have some stellar memories from this time in my life. I also believe that everyone should do it at least once in their lives. I promise you will never forget it.
im willing to pay $1000 for any therapists if its available , the use if stimulants like Vyvanse its more on the manic side unlike MDMA, also all SSRI's are horrible with lots of side effects , I know why its band because it does cure faster
Hear me out. Alexander Shulgin is stereotypical villain from a cop movie: white hair and beard, Slavic origins, talented pharmacologist, a chemical lab in the backyard, literally experiments on himself, releases a very dangerous (according to DEA at least) substance into the world. Only this time around there were no superstar officers to stop him... And for that we are grateful.
SSRi and MDMA does not cause serotonin syndrome, SSRi make you more or less immune to MDMA because SSRi regulates the bodies serotonin uptake so even if MDMA floods the system with serotonin you don't experience any higher levels of serotonin because the SSRi prevents the surplus serotonin from binding to the receptors, it's the old anti-depressants MAOi that causes serotonin syndrome if mixed with MDMA.
If this drug were ever allowed for recreational use, like marijuana, people would greatly benefit and not be at risk because it would be more moderated and not given at dangerous doses. I think it would even help lower the amount of people that use this drug but aren't aware of the risks and don't know how much is too much.
When extacy hit the scene here, I was working for a bar/club that just happened to have a Techno Bar of the 9 bars it had under 1 roof. That area was always busy Fri & Sat nights in the early 2k's.
I find if I have a small dose and enjoy it at home with family or friends, I have a rise and level and wind down in reasonable time frame and still get to enjoy that wonderful feeling. It just doesn't beat my body up at a lower dose. Yes, its not worth doing it regularly. Occasionally is so much better!
When I use XTC I get these introspective thoughts at max strength. And sometimes I can sense what other people think and feel which is something that already have when sober but now much stronger and focused too.
same here bro :) but sometimes I have to stop myself from max overthinking at some point, so I don’t drift to far away from ‘reality’. But yeah it’s like being in god mode somehow - isn’t it?
@@Anthixy Yeah definitely, or it goes to feeling like dying at some point lol. But still feels amazing even then. Like you're being waken up from a deep sleep and you didn't even know you were sleeping.
I tried MDMA back in college and took about 200 mg, didn’t know I was supposed to split the dose, I had also taken Xanax plus had been drinking all night and I had been taking a ton of caffeine while studying. To top it all off I had smoked a joint somewhere in between 😅 I remember MDMA made me feel free, all my insecurities had faded, I felt like I could truly be the best version of me. Sadly the other drugs counteracted my experience and I had a panic attack. Now I can’t enjoy other substances from this negative experience. Because I freak out that I’m not in control.
@@neurotransmissions I didn’t get up till 4 pm the next day. I grew a lot from the experience but feel left out, I’d like to try shrooms one day and maybe give MDMA another try but worried about remembering this bad experience that I might freak out again.
@thisguyrools2807 about the freak out. I did extzy for a while, I loved it never had any addiction problem or anything, but once I did something else which freaked me out. (it was like a book, every page was a different reallity(they were looking 100% real and logical etc) and sometimes pages were changing so fast my brain couldn't keep up and so on... It was horrible). Since, I can not use any drug because, in the second I start to feel something, it throws me back to that horrible trip or something. It was a looong long time ago. I learnt to live without anything, I don't think I'd do any drug ever again. I recommend you to forget about drugs, make your real life the best as possible and that's all 😅
What would make it NOT work for someone? A family member tried it with friends when in college, and everyone else was definitely affected by it but she was not. The same happened when she tried LSD with the same group of friends in college. She said there was no difference in the way she felt, and no hallucinations or anything. Also, interestingly, when she has dental work done, Novocain only lasts about 15 minutes before it's ineffective. No one seems to know why.
(watched on Nebula - only went here to leave this comment) Thank you for this fairly unbiased explanation of the effects of MDMA. I learned some of it the hard way. I am convinced I would not have suffered the consequences of my recreational use of the drug had i watched this video in advance.
Then one blue and one more yellow pill One keeps you quiet One keeps you still You sang "The Way You Looked Tonight" Your voice is ringing true and clear
I used to be close to my daughter, but after she started dosing (not sure how much she took or how safe her source), our relationship changed for the worse. She’s unpredictable and volatile and has now destroyed all the close relationships in her life. I don’t know if she will ever come back. This alone causes me to caution everyone I can. This drug is not beneficial for everyone 😒
Took E about 4 hours ago. I would say i am doing Very well thanks for asking. currently and throughout its been mellow and just an extremely positive experience where everything feels right for lack of a better word. to your questions the answers would be yes, yes and no? i mean definitely no to recreational use.😇
This mini doc was well done. About a compound with genuine medical value, cast aside by an authoritative lack of knowledge. Certainly doesn’t belong on store shelves, but deserves a reasonable schedule 2-3 category, for the sake of individuals & couples who struggle daily, never realizing a potential solution exists within the fragrant root bark of a fairly common tree.
"Depression" from the days after comes mainly from how hard you pushed your body with acitivity, lack of water, poor food. In therapeutic settings this is almost never reported. You can feel a little blank, but is that really depression? It's not sadness. I think it's just that your habits have been programmed away, and you don't have that wheel of habits constantly spinning, habits you have grown accustomed to and think is normal and necessary to "function normally"
Great video. Glad I found your channel. I read TiHKAL & Phikal 1994. I don't think I've ever heard anybody else talk about them because so few people know of them or their contributions.
Really awesome video Good research, as some of the long term effects are pretty hard to find because of the hype, like the memory loss. But I can first hand attest to the memory issues. I love mdma, for me as someone on the spectrum, it is a way to grow and learn about my desired social life. It brings out my best version but also teaches me how to enjoy myself even when not on the stuff.. I go to parties completely sober now and can get that high authentically and without any drugs or alcohol now which is pretty fun, I can put down my worries and focus on the present moment and all the fun people around me. But yeah, like I said before, it is still a toxin. And memory will get affected over a longer period of usage. Another theory I have, is that the experiences on mdma release so much serotonin that your memory might loose some of it’s focus on less impactful moments of your every day life afterwards, but that’s my speculation. I’ve chosen to stop usage of mdma for an extended period, because I currently have other things I would like to focus on. And my life is exiting enough as it is, but I will probably get back to it at some point, because if done responsibly, you can feel like a kid again. And it can destroy old patterns that have bogged you down. It might even feel like a spiritual awakening sometimes, because it can really Help you uncover some truths about yourself and your place in the world. do it responsibly with people you truly trust ❤️
Took E at a pace of roughly between 3-5 doses, sometimes 8 per weekend, just about every weekend, for 10 years. After 15 years of use, it just quit working. Now it just gives me a really bad taste in my mouth, dry mouth, and makes me feel warm. There is absolutely ZERO fun or desire to ever take it again. Every year or sometimes longer, I will try a dose or two and nothing. Dont know if its the quality of modern stuff, or my brain just says NO. It was amazing while it lasted.
Placebo is just being able to convince your brain of something. MDMA makes your brain literally function differently and it's way more susceptible to any input, making it easier to convince. I would argue that even trying to separate these two concepts is meaningless. What MDMA does to you after it's physical effects wear off is essentially the same thing as placebo. MDMA just makes you more susceptible to it. You have to use it in a setting which is therapeutic to you, otherwise it's literally just increased brain activity. If you're not altering your state of mind during that increased brain activity then nothing will change afterwards.
Mushrooms have surpassed mdma in the US as the most popular psychedelic, probably because of its similar empatogenic effects coupled with less risk. MDMA can make me feel like my heart is going to jump out of my chest.
Totally opposite experience for me. Taking psilocybin mushrooms was the most terrifying experience I had in my life. I took MDMA once in the summer of 1999 and it was one of the best life experience I ever had.
From the initial flood of serotonin to potential long-term changes in brain structure and function, MDMA interacts with our neural circuitry in profound ways. In the short term, ecstasy can produce experiences of intense euphoria, empathy, and connection.
The first time I did a dug like this someone gave two really weird pills. They were called monkey stacks. It was three drugs stacked on top of each other and pressed into one tall, triple striped pill. He gave me two of them and I swallowed them both. I had a lot of fun that night, but... For the next week or two I suffered through having no dopamine left in my body so I was very, very sad and I had zero appetite. Food tasted like dirt. I lost 40 lbs in a month. My mood returned but the appetite never really did. The upside is I'm almost my exact recommended weight for a healthy male my age. I no longer feel I have to stuff myself to feel satisficed and I can tolerate the feeling of hunger much easier than ever before. I can actually ignore it easily if I choose. The downside of that is often times I will need to eat but dont feel hunger, just tired and irritable. "Why am I so grouchy? Oh, I havnt eaten in 7 hours. I should probably make a sandwich or something."
I truly wish everyone could experience this at least once in their life. It's the most therapeutic thing I've ever experienced. I wish society didn't stigmatize this stuff. It's profound. If I could, I would like to experience it once every few years at least. Luckily I had all my experiences before the fentanyl problem. This is why I wish we could overcome the war on drugs and take away power from the illicit black market. Society, our country should embrace it and control it. It legitimately helped me feel like I was able to rewire parts of my brain that have been so F'ed up throughout my teens & early 20's. I was able to bond with many of my friends and be there for them as they expressed what they wanted. It's genuinely something I feel sorry for anyone who never gets to try this experience at least once in their life.. Society has given so many things such a bad stigma. It's irritating.
First, I am not currently on mdma. That said, since you asked for personal experience, I will tell you that I feel I can attribute ecstasy for saving my marriage.
Idk man, the fact that taking it even only once can permanently change serotonin pathways is enough for me to not even want to try even a small dose ever. In a psych class in college, we were shown brain scans of serotonin in human brains before and after mdma use, and the after really scared me. Virtually no serotonin at all, even a long time after one use. Permanently changing your serotonin levels doesn’t sound like a good trade-off for a temporary super-dose of serotonin. You know?
What were the dosages used? Can you provide any source on that? From my understanding, there is a lot of anecdotal and clinical data about the safety of the substance and I've heard of people struggling with strong serotonin depletion only after severe often and frequent use. For people who wait few months between using the substance, I've never heard of what you described.
Every study I seen shows a complete recovery in brain receptors after a month? The only thing that could be observed from the longest running studies was that the seratonin pathways could potentially be slightly altered. But there was no proof whatsoever that altered seratonin pathways actually caused any impairment.
Slight mistake at 2:41 you show a Logo of Merck. However, this is not the same Merck that created MDMA. The German Merck (a pharmaceutical, life science and electronics company) synthesised it and runs under different names in the US and Canada. The US Merck is known and MSD (Merck Sharp and Dome) outside the US and Canada. You used the logo of the US Merck instead of the German Merck (also known as E. Merck, Darmstadt, Germany)
In a dream you might take a saw and cut open your skull and you might feel around. You might take a mirror and look inside and you could you could see the brain in the dream. If you see that brain in your skull inside your dream does that mean that brain is creating the dream? No of course not you see this is to confuse the contents of the dream for the dream itself and this is precisely the same thing that materialists do with this waking dream. So when I say something radical like the brain doesn't exist many people say oh my god that's crazy, that's ridiculous, what have you been smoking? No just think through the logic of it. It's very very simple. This here is your dream. You cut open your skull yes of course there's some pink squishy substance inside. You can feel it. You can screw around with it but does that mean that it is causing this whole dream. No of course not.
I once had a bad trip honestly, me and my friend were DJing some Hardtek at his place and I asked him if he had any MDMA and he went to grab a bag of it and just put it on his hand as he told me it was only like 1 hit, and after I licked it off his hand he said actually that was probably 2 hits or 2 and a half hits. I kinda silently panicked and just kept DJing I remember just feeling my legs were kinda flimsy and there was a cold draft in the room even though I was wearing a hoodie, and I felt super cold and shivering and I remember just stepping out to smoke a cigarette and that's when I noticed the Waves of Euphoria rushing up and down my back and I had cotton mouth, and I was super scared, I dunno why I just remember just telling him I'm uncomfortable and I put on a Jungle Mix on the CDJs and talked to him about random horrible stuff about my life to calm myself down and hoping the waves would die down but I failed to realized I was stuck like that until the next day of constant euphoria waves rushing up and down my back, I couldn't go with the flow and was fighting it the entire time. It wasn't until we went to get something to eat in the car, as we were coming back from McDonalds at 7am I saw the forest we were at was super foggy and the sun was shinning through the trees I started to feel comfortable and the music as well too made the whole drive just me sinking and melting in my seat, until we got back and I tried to sleep in cold sweats in my hoodie and a blanket listening to trance.
I would love to see if taking this once a year, in January, would help to train my brain to stop getting depressed every winter. It seems like a perfect fit.
Amazing video !! I have struggled with MDMA usage over the past few months, and I feel like I have done my research and learned a lot about the drug now. I am not planning on taking it for a while now. But I still have friends who are interested in trying it, but I keep hearing from people and reading some places that there is a chance that your body just simply can’t handle it. And I am not trying to green light a drug to my friends that might have a chance of killing them. So my question is if this is true or not that there is a chance that your body just simply can’t handle the drug ?
Dated a woman once who had way too much MDMA in her time (everything is good in moderation they say); It was good she was getting off the gear but looked 40 when she was 20.
MDMA clearly works. When I was young and took it I opened up to any random er in the club and had a good chat and they told me their issues. Woke up in the morning didn’t feel weird about it and was good to get it off my chest haha
it's a fantastic substance and not too dangerous in overdose either. Politicians lie about the harms of it all while giving alcohol a free pass despite killing more than any other drug
mdmas recorded effects in therapy are very similar to the effects most people i know would expect from it. music is needed for the other effects to appear.
Aaaaaand it's demonetized. Lol.
:| thanks youtube
Yeah I also feel like this video won't do that well and many comments will likely be hidden, possibly including mine
That's rough. :\
UA-cam needs some XTC in it’s life.
in better news, you seem to have made it onto (at least) my explore page, so hopefully you'll get more footfall than usual! brilliant video :)
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on inst?
Yes he is. dr.sporessss
We should give this stuff to politicians for debates
Debates turn in to a rave and the politicians in to djays
Yeah right 😅
Those mummies are busy trying to “BaN TiKtOk” and “regulate” AI like they even understand 😭
@@LilBipper and adult websites
Amen to that
My first time doing MDMA was probably the most profound experience of my life. I took a point (100mg) which was almost exactly 1mg/kg. I could go in depth of my experience but I would hit the character cap for UA-cam comments. All I will say is that it was without a doubt the most profound experiences of my entire life and I wish everybody to be able to experience this substance before they leave this Earth. If you do decide to give it a go make sure to test it without the Marquis Reagent at a minimum, if not Simons and Froedhe reagents as well and don’t exceed the recommended 1-1.5mg/kg dose range.
Down to get some good psychedelics? (lsd,dmt , shrooms,salvia,mdma……..)
psychstore_001
and this is why my fake name is ecstasy.
good on ya! thanks!!!
you weigh 1kg? lol
TESTING KITS. TESTING KITS. TESTING KITS.
Considering how widespread adulteration is in ecstasy pills, always test before consuming.
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where do I get testing kits ?
@@musiclovaa local harm reduction sites, needle exchanges, probably some harm reduction non profit organizations online!
My dealer says they're the best ones yet. They must be almost pure by now
This topic always fascinates me, I really dislike the lasting effect of the war on drugs and how much it slowed the research on this topic. :(
The war on drug has been an absolute fail, enabling the creation and rise of cartels all around the world.
All drugs should be legal, and the money spent on this war allocated to prevention and mental care.
The governments or regulated companies would produce the drugs, which would save countless lives.
Some countries have taken a step in the right direction, like Portugal, where all drugs are decriminalized.
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Started off taking MDMA recreationally in the late 90s (back when it was ecstasy) and began using it several times a year in my 20s.... one of the most pivotal times I used it was at age 24 on the day my older brother died (at age 26)..it totally changed the way I look at death and it helped me process my brother's passing in a totally different/more healthy way than the rest of my family. Over my 30s I started using it less and less (mainly because my friends stopped using it as we got older). Now in my late 40s, I try to use it recreationally at least once a year and I am a huge advocate of it's use for both recreation and therapeutically for PTSD.
So sorry for your loss💗
It should only be used therapeutically. Never recreationally
explain why? Not disagreeing just curious of your perspective@@tonydimartini
@@toxic7767 Well, I'm coming from a self-growth perspective. I think it can be a powerful psychotherapeutic tool for exploring emotions. I don't think you get that in a party atmosphere. One reason I think it should stay off the streets is that it ruins it with the lawmakers. Its whats made it so hard to bring psychedelics back in psychiatry. The only reason LSD and these substances were outlawed was because it hit the streets. Before that, over 40,000 research papers were written on LSD. Its listing as a schedule 1 substance was the result of recreational use. Unfortunately, it shut down virtually all legitimate research in the process. So recreational use makes it harder for people to accept in mainstream science. Plus there are always dangers with street drugs.
by the late 90s in the uk the e supply was extremely adulterated it's one of the reasons it became so cheap.
I've done MDMA in the 90's a few times. I wish you could get this at your local pharmacy, pure battery acid tasting E. It's something I would do maybe once a year , if even... Something like New Years. I think it has HUGE potential to bring love to the world and make this planet a better place. Be Kind to your neighbours.
Rolled into 2023… literally. Was on good vibes pretty much all year.
I agree. It makes sense why more people don’t use it I see now. When you spam molly, that serotonin syndrome fuckin sucks
@@scoopersnacksThat's why I never experimented with it 💯
Ecstasy, dmt, LSD and psilocybin containing mushrooms are amazing. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder 18 years ago as a teenage. Got diagnosed with BPD. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Yes he's Dr.benfungi. Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have
really helped him. mah dudes have safe
trips all.
I would like to know from those who have solved PTSD and anxiety, if they have solved it definitively and how to understand what quantity of psilocybin to take and when, for how long. And can you really heal without having an addiction?
Thanks to everyone for helping me understand, I want to understand if it's
something that can help me solve the problem (I have c-ptsd)
Yes he ships discreetly, Got mine delivered to me here in Slovenia 🇸🇮
Shrooms helped kick the bottle as well and I feel like a much more balanced person now. I have recently started Molly therapy and its helped me shake off a lot of CPTSD and recall more memories.
Great video : ) Speaking from personal experience, MDMA (coupled with self-work, and all of the modern resources on we have to learn about psychology nowadays) has been a gamechanger. I was a raver in the 90's, but never used it because I was very guarded, counterdependent, and Avoidant - and thought that MDMA was WAY too "touchy feely hippie" for me. It wasn't until I tried it with a friend about 7 years ago now, and had a great conversation with her where I felt very relaxed and vulnerable, but unafraid that the ice really started melting for me. I think MDMA might really help a lot of men in particular who have been taught to suppress their emotions, and are suffering in silence.
why did you think so many football casuals stopped fighting every weekend back then if it wasn't the e
I really reccommend ecstasy for people who never tried it before but keep a limit on it. Last year I've took a pill 6 days in a row and some days I've took 7 pills at once. I've never felt more dumb and depressed before but I only noticed how bad it was after I went sober. These days I usually take 1 pill per 3 months and I found that to be a good line. Cheers if anyone find this comment useful.
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Rip your serotonin receptors during that time
7 pills at once? Bro, how is your jaw doing? Are your teeth grinded down to the gums by now?
@@jarzez Im completely fine lol
@@jarzez 😂😂💯💯
I just took MDMA for the first time a couple weeks ago. My only regret is not doing it sooner. For the first time in my life all of my anxieties and insecurities just dissolved and I was able to feel a genuine sense of compassion and connection towards myself and others.
Even though I was high as a kite, the experience made me feel more sober than I’ve felt in…forever. As if I had just come off of a decade long depression bender.
Maybe I’m deceiving myself, but I have noticed that things just feel a little bit lighter lately. I still have a lot of the same old problems, but I no longer feel this intense sense of hopelessness that makes addressing those issues difficult. The self-flagellating voice is still there, I’m just not as prone to buy whatever bs it’s selling me.
How's the come up? Nausea? Dizziness? I'm doing it in a couple of weeks and i'm trying to prepare for w/e could happen 🤣
Ive done mdma on probably 30 + occasions and only once was it very high quality pure mdma. It was the absolute best experience with the drug and I had no come down. I was blissed out for weeks at least. My friend who has done twice as much mdma as me had the same experience that day. I think its important to understand that the pharmaceutical stuff will be as good as it gets and likely be the same way for most people. A lot of people talk about how bad the come downs are but have probably never had super pure squeaky clean mdma.
Had some Australian friends try the dutch mdma I had with me once (~75% of the worlds mdma supply comes from the Netherlands). They had done MDMA before, but they were in awe of the feeling pure MDMA gave them, not mixed with Amphetamines for example, which can't be compared. Here in NL you get the raw MDMA crystals in a bag.
good mdma definitely feels cleaner and has less negative effects compared to meth molly and suspicious pressies/powder! but you can have bad comedowns from pure mdma. it really depends on the person, their brain chemistry, the dose, whether or not they took supplements, etc. i’ve had a lotta clean pure molly rocks reagent tested and everything
off the same batches me and my friends have different results even on the same dose. i have some friends who rarely or have never had comedowns. some just get mild comedowns. i have a friend who just can’t fully feel mdma or mda anymore, like she just doesn’t roll. i roll hard asf off low doses but i get horrible comedowns every single time i roll. there’s things i can do to make it a bit better, like it’s worse if i redose or take higher doses. but still i always get comedowns
@@jarzezall forms are an amphetamine bro lol that’s what the A at the end of the acronym stands for
@@Divine_Mode everybody who is not intentionally trying to misinterpret me understands that I'm talking about speed.
Ie what is referred to as amphetamine by 99% of the population.
@@jarzezIt’s not ‘pure’. We still cut stuff in in the Netherlands because completely pure MDMA is actually too dangerous.
But I get what you mean. We don’t tend to cut the dirty things the Americans do. It’s also super easy to test in the Netherlands so this discourages suppliers from doing that.
American MDMA typically has heroin, meth and cocaine in it. Often there is more of these things than MDMA in American Ecstasy.
Usually we cut pretty harmless things like weight loss drugs and stuff. And the drug is still mostly MDMA
I can't wait until MDMA is available for PTSD treatment. I have done ecstasy recreationally and it was good quality, I never felt so good, I had been searching for that connection for years in therapy, and I have been trying ever since to get it back !
DEA: "Hey, people are having too much fun with that."
"Let's ban it!"
I started doing drugs since my teenage. Got addicted to crack for over 22 years. Crack addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Yes he's Dr.benshrooms.Lsd and psilocybin are amazing teachers along its dmt mah dudes have safe trips all. Shrooms are blessings from nature.😊
Microdosing helped me get out of the pit of my worst depressive episode, a three year long episode, enough to start working on my mental health.
Does he ship internationally?
Got mine shipped to me here in uk
Mushrooms were the hardest drugs I'd experimented with before that time I decided to try E under the care of a friend. I read about it online and off we went to the mountains. That night, I felt like I had never before. I couldn't believe how it was possible to be that happy but I also wondered if I had crossed a line I wasn't going to uncross. It was like you said at 14:10.
Then 2 days later happened. I wouldn't wish that night to my worst enemy. I am suicidal and no darkness I experienced before or since was as bad as that night. The coming down part I had not read about. I had no idea how important that was. I always assumed that coming down from a high made me feel sad just because it was over. I didn't understand at all how the brain worked. My friend had to hold my hand the whole evening and tell me, repeatedly, that this was the effect of the drug, that it wasn't me, that it was going to pass and that I was going to be fine.
I survived that night somehow but I don't know if I could again. I never ever ever want to experience that feeling again. Ever.
Same, I feel extremely happy after taken that and really want to kill my self for next 2 days
Soft, do not use drugs.
There are many things you can do to avoid this. Taking supplements such as L-tyrosine, 5-HTP, Zinc, Magnesium, Calcium, multivitamins, GABA and L-Theanine for a couple days before and after (at least after) help quite a bit. And the day after, taking St. Johns Wort. Important not to mix St. Johns Wort with E or other meds as it is a natural MAOI, which is why it helps a lot with the come down
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Damn. To think I've burdened this feeling so often but dealt with it so much better is nice. To see how some people react to one night of depleted serotonin is scary. And i thought i had problems
I got a theory that people against all drugs for being bad like fentanyl and xylazine never took mdma. So happy they are finally considering it for therapy use because that's the correct thing to do and it will help a great deal of people with deep depression and post traumatic stress disorder.
I have fibromyalgia and for more then 10 year now. Very recently I tried MDMA with two friends in a house setting. For 6 hours, I was pain free. The following 3/4 weeks after that I had a pain reduction of more then 50%. increased stamina, better sleep and lower stress. I tried MDMA because I wanted to calm my anxyiety. I did not expect the pain free side effect at all. My fysio therapist could not believe the reduction of my muscle tention after the session. He said it was like working on a different body. The problem with having fibro, anxyiety, depression and ptsd is that every single one of them feeds the other in a circle. MDMA broke that circle bij calming or removing them giving me a small vacation from my chronic pain and allowing my body to remember how my body feels when it does not have my illnesses. It did a bit of a reset since my body literally thinks my miserable state is the normal baseline and it constantly returns to it. I will take this every once in a while for relaxation and a medical agenda. Any and all legal medications my gp prescribed for me over the years have worked short term or not at all. There are several drugs that should be re-explored for their medical use instead of demonised as an evil thing.
Xtc changed my life for the better. I opened up and it allowed me to relax while being able to communicate with anyone around me. I'm rolling right now
I took twice, first time I took 2, I was soooo happy, can’t even imagine the feeling, I saw the cutest emoji in the world(I didn’t even see these emoji in real life before) I talk to myself as a third person, and I can see the sound in vision. Secondl time I only take 1, I opened up to friends with my childhood abuse which I never tell anyone before. BUT I feel extremely sad the another day after, the only thought is just please let me sleep forever and never want to wake up and don’t want to exist
It happened to me too the same thing
You’ve done your homework! Honest and comprehensive
I have BPD and I have been actively changing my life around and my behavioral patterns for both my benefit and for my partner. MDMA is amazing with your significant other, it helps you lift the veil of fear and insecurities and just allow love to flow.
Start with mushrooms, try about 3 grams. If you wanna go on a ride do 5
Ive started taking mushroom powders in my morning tea and give supplements to one of my teenagers. Such a difference. Mushrooms are the hidden gem. Mother nature has everything we need.
If you looking for any way to treat any mental health related issue, I'll recommend magic mushrooms.
When taken under supported conditions, psilocybin mushrooms can cause self-described spiritual experiences that generally result in positive changes in the person's attitude, mood and hehavior
y'all talk about the benefits of mushrooms, but no one talks about where to fetch from.
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Great work, as per usual! I've been watching you guys for a while. Recently a relative of mine was talking about how someone in our extended family has a science youtube channel with her husband. It's easy to forget just how small the world is! Greetings from a second cousin (I think?) in Minnesota :)
Probably one of the best videos I have seen about MDMA. I would share this with friends who are considering it for their first time.
MDMA + ppl you're attracted to + music is basically the most fun you can possibly have as a human being. Extremely therapeutic.
As a person who has been diagnosed with PTSD, I look forward to the reduction in this particular diagnosis
Try ketimine infusions
It's really demoralizing to see a video with high production quality to get such little views
bro literally gave me every reason to try this drug
Pretty sure thats a chick
Someone please tell me why i shouldn't try it
Oh dear, took vast quantities, very frequently in my 20s. It was a great crutch whilst giving up far worse substances. Wish I could get some now to treat my C-PTSD.
I wish I could find some it’s been awhile. It will make me happy and positive again
Back in the day my mate and I ran into a group of people loosely connected with MAPS who introduced us to Mr. Shulgin and pharmaceutical quality MDMA. My first dose was on my 40th birthday (1997) with friends and a playlist of music that encompassed modern classics and the results were absolutely stunning. (Other than the depression two days later which we knew was coming so was prepared for.)
After that experience I came to believe that every American adult should do 125 mg of MDMA once a year as I'm pretty sure we'd have a better, kinder and gentler(tm) society. I've also tried to repeat that experience but access is hard and I will not buy off the club scene as only the fates know what's in *that* stuff.
I have had the pleasure of repeating this experience twice since and I miss it as it is one of the very best 4-hour experiences a human can have. Like I said, once a year - every adult.
I think a gentler world is what the war-mongering government is trying to prevent by keeping it banned
OMG MDMA days was heaven , so much love and fun sadly it ended !!
bad quality, cant find it anymore@@Aokaimusic
@@Aokaimusicpoliticians/government, crack, the 90's, Shulgin got busted (by his employer the fbi) and also possibly just because 'too much of a good thing is not-so-good ' and everyone had trouble with the comedown/hangovers
@@Aokaimusic got older possibly?
Great video overall but there’s some points that are incorrect. Shulgins and other psychopharmacologists did not oppose recreational use of mdma they even endorsed it. What they opposed was irresponsible use of any drug as well as prohibition. Recreational use did not cause the government to schedule mdma, the government not wanting people to be able to freely use substances that have known medical value, and the government wanting to be able to throw people in prison is why it was scheduled
Thank you so much for the video! Education is ever more important in this area.
Btw, your way of speaking and your character is absolutely likeable!
My first video of your and a huge fan already!
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PLEASE read this if you feel so inclined. I love MDMA, especially being someone who suffers from bad ADHD and OCD. It seems to eliminate the constant activity in my brain and allows my thoughts to flow normally. Just returned from the Lost Lands festival and unfortunately went way too far with it this time around. Ate roughly 2 grams over 4 days. As soon as i got home from the festival, I almost instantly started experiencing a majority of the symptoms related to serotonin syndrome. It was extremely unpleasant and scary. I've taken MDMA in varying severities for the last 12 years, and after that experience, I'll be dialing the use down dramatically. I'm starting to wonder if I've done irreversible damage to my brain chemistry and chemicals.
My take on MDMA is that it is completely underappreciated.
a lot of the stimulant abuse with methamphetamine addicts or Adderall addicts can be treated with it as well.
They need to introduce programs for addicts to get therapy with the effect of it I know it sounds far off but MDMA is a lot like those stimulants but because it is serotonergic it does not have the dopamine psychotic part of it.
Yes repeated uses causes tolerance but that what makes it so much better than other stumulants, it slows down in its response and cant be redosed really effectively 24 hours in.
I have taken it many many times more than I can count. I started raving when I was 15 and I am 36 now
Huh? Molly has definitely made me psychotic
@@BooksReboundnope. Abusing substances you bought that you assume is mdma did that
I've had one friend that got hooked on mdma as a tween/teen, and now his brain is extra hardwired for addiction.
The folks who do it in moderation, 1~2 a year, are ~normal.
Yup! 1 - 3 times a year is the key. It should be a really special event.
Eh, not really.
Your brain is plastic till bout 25. Getting hooked at half that is terrible for one's future.
@Anne-yh6yn you assert your ignorance.
While outside factors - like the presense and availability of drugs, and seeing its use - always play a role, one's own disposition may quickly become immaterial upon use.
I assert that the human brain actively grows and develops until about the age of 25. Use of drugs at half that age will, typically, burn a pleasure seeking pathway into the brain. Regular use will then scar that path in without a chance to heal, forming an addiction to nuerochemical dumping activities, esp drug use.
getting addicted to anything already “hardwires” you like for example, getting addicted to cigarettes, makes you more likely to get addicted to something of a similar nature, because you have already developed those addictive tendencies
@@kendrickbates2606brushing your teeth every day also hard wires it in the brain.
One of the most comprehensive & informative videos on MDMA! Grate Work.
I've been a recent user of MDMA/XTC and I can only tell that I'm a better person after I took it first time. I don't need the drug anymore to feel good about myself to interact more with people, and to be a better human, because I have the memory of an experience of joy that lasts more than the drug effect. For me MDMA was therapy and I wish I had known this before. My life could be way better - but better late than never. I personally don't see why it should not be controlled and allowed since it does not do at all worse side effects than alcohol - also it's a regulated drug.
This one was fascinating. Nice work Alie!
This is an amazing video!! It really is a shame to see how controlled these substances are and how much it impedes research.
Attachment disorders are serious and difficult to treat. Might MDMA be effective in it's treatment given it's tendency to generate a sense of connection? Or is the inability to feel connected the root cause of attachment disorders?
it's my opinion that early attachment wounds cause the alexithymia to develop as a coping mechanism for not being able to trust the caregiver with our big feelings so we learn to bury them and forget how to even percieve them, but we can again!
When strangers act nice towards me, I tend to get suspicious lol@@Authentistic-ism
im a recovering polyaddict and ai/neuroscience student, I largely agree with your video and analyis. I think drugs should be completely decriminalized and the effects of current recreational drugs further studied. For me personally MDMA has had two seemingly contradictory effects. It's both gotten me to open up my shell more and try to make more friends, but it's (and similar substances) abuse has also made this more difficult. I believe for most people (not necessarily me) this could be helped by decreasing the stigma against it and providing it primarily in proper doses and settings.
I do have some issues with your characterization of the chemical action of both recreational and pharmaceutical (SSRI) drugs. I think their pharmacological effects have been stated with too much certainty in terms of how directly they impact your mood. For instance, I believe a recent study (Moncrieff et al. 2022) found no relationship between lowered serotonin and depression. Same thing for norepinephrine/dopamine (although it does seem to have a role, which serotonin might as well, it's much more complicated than much of popsci makes it seem).
What we’re u taking and on what days while being a polyaddict
I think the pharma companies pushed the low serotonin is the root cause of depression angle to sell SSRI's.
The millennium new year was my first time with this stuff and I absolutely loved it. Had an awesome experience and night. Then over the next probably 5 or 6 years I’ve taken hundreds of them and I have some stellar memories from this time in my life. I also believe that everyone should do it at least once in their lives. I promise you will never forget it.
im willing to pay $1000 for any therapists if its available , the use if stimulants like Vyvanse its more on the manic side unlike MDMA, also all SSRI's are horrible with lots of side effects , I know why its band because it does cure faster
Hear me out. Alexander Shulgin is stereotypical villain from a cop movie: white hair and beard, Slavic origins, talented pharmacologist, a chemical lab in the backyard, literally experiments on himself, releases a very dangerous (according to DEA at least) substance into the world.
Only this time around there were no superstar officers to stop him... And for that we are grateful.
A villain who had a permit from the DEA to handle Schedule 1 drugs 😂
SSRi and MDMA does not cause serotonin syndrome, SSRi make you more or less immune to MDMA because SSRi regulates the bodies serotonin uptake so even if MDMA floods the system with serotonin you don't experience any higher levels of serotonin because the SSRi prevents the surplus serotonin from binding to the receptors, it's the old anti-depressants MAOi that causes serotonin syndrome if mixed with MDMA.
Do you believe less than 30 mg of Duloxetine (snri) could still delete the effects of mdma?
If this drug were ever allowed for recreational use, like marijuana, people would greatly benefit and not be at risk because it would be more moderated and not given at dangerous doses. I think it would even help lower the amount of people that use this drug but aren't aware of the risks and don't know how much is too much.
Recreational use? Damn pls no. So many people would get addicted on how good it is. Use it for treating people instead (ptsd, depression etc)
@@oserchlpyou cant stop us. R*p***
The fact that this video is demonetized, tell us something about the current state of society
When extacy hit the scene here, I was working for a bar/club that just happened to have a Techno Bar of the 9 bars it had under 1 roof.
That area was always busy Fri & Sat nights in the early 2k's.
I find if I have a small dose and enjoy it at home with family or friends, I have a rise and level and wind down in reasonable time frame and still get to enjoy that wonderful feeling. It just doesn't beat my body up at a lower dose. Yes, its not worth doing it regularly. Occasionally is so much better!
When I use XTC I get these introspective thoughts at max strength. And sometimes I can sense what other people think and feel which is something that already have when sober but now much stronger and focused too.
same here bro :) but sometimes I have to stop myself from max overthinking at some point, so I don’t drift to far away from ‘reality’. But yeah it’s like being in god mode somehow - isn’t it?
@@Anthixy Yeah definitely, or it goes to feeling like dying at some point lol. But still feels amazing even then. Like you're being waken up from a deep sleep and you didn't even know you were sleeping.
@@martiendejong8857 if you control it intentionally it can be very healing I guess!
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I tried MDMA back in college and took about 200 mg, didn’t know I was supposed to split the dose, I had also taken Xanax plus had been drinking all night and I had been taking a ton of caffeine while studying. To top it all off I had smoked a joint somewhere in between 😅 I remember MDMA made me feel free, all my insecurities had faded, I felt like I could truly be the best version of me. Sadly the other drugs counteracted my experience and I had a panic attack. Now I can’t enjoy other substances from this negative experience. Because I freak out that I’m not in control.
Bro. It’s amazing you survived lol
@@neurotransmissions I didn’t get up till 4 pm the next day. I grew a lot from the experience but feel left out, I’d like to try shrooms one day and maybe give MDMA another try but worried about remembering this bad experience that I might freak out again.
@@neurotransmissionslol he's fine its a lot harder to od than you'd think....
@thisguyrools2807 about the freak out. I did extzy for a while, I loved it never had any addiction problem or anything, but once I did something else which freaked me out. (it was like a book, every page was a different reallity(they were looking 100% real and logical etc) and sometimes pages were changing so fast my brain couldn't keep up and so on... It was horrible). Since, I can not use any drug because, in the second I start to feel something, it throws me back to that horrible trip or something. It was a looong long time ago. I learnt to live without anything, I don't think I'd do any drug ever again. I recommend you to forget about drugs, make your real life the best as possible and that's all 😅
Dont smoke after mdma. It dumbs you down to a rock state, i couldnt finish a sentence when i did it..
What would make it NOT work for someone? A family member tried it with friends when in college, and everyone else was definitely affected by it but she was not. The same happened when she tried LSD with the same group of friends in college. She said there was no difference in the way she felt, and no hallucinations or anything. Also, interestingly, when she has dental work done, Novocain only lasts about 15 minutes before it's ineffective. No one seems to know why.
(watched on Nebula - only went here to leave this comment) Thank you for this fairly unbiased explanation of the effects of MDMA. I learned some of it the hard way. I am convinced I would not have suffered the consequences of my recreational use of the drug had i watched this video in advance.
I've done it countless times when I was young. Fun times until coming down from it. That empty sadness days following the high was terrible.
One of the best lil docu i've seen to md ! Well done :)
If you take it too often, it loses it's magic. Harmless way to break down social barriers and feel temporary judge-lessness.
Then one blue and one more yellow pill
One keeps you quiet
One keeps you still
You sang "The Way You Looked Tonight"
Your voice is ringing true and clear
I used to be close to my daughter, but after she started dosing (not sure how much she took or how safe her source), our relationship changed for the worse.
She’s unpredictable and volatile and has now destroyed all the close relationships in her life. I don’t know if she will ever come back.
This alone causes me to caution everyone I can.
This drug is not beneficial for everyone 😒
Mdma is AMAZING. ❤
Wonderfully done, thanks for your great work in health edutainment and harm reduction!
Took E about 4 hours ago. I would say i am doing Very well thanks for asking. currently and throughout its been mellow and just an extremely positive experience where everything feels right for lack of a better word. to your questions the answers would be yes, yes and no? i mean definitely no to recreational use.😇
I got three job interview requests during my roll so I’m feeling pretty good atm
This mini doc was well done. About a compound with genuine medical value, cast aside by an authoritative lack of knowledge. Certainly doesn’t belong on store shelves, but deserves a reasonable schedule 2-3 category, for the sake of individuals & couples who struggle daily, never realizing a potential solution exists within the fragrant root bark of a fairly common tree.
"Depression" from the days after comes mainly from how hard you pushed your body with acitivity, lack of water, poor food. In therapeutic settings this is almost never reported. You can feel a little blank, but is that really depression? It's not sadness. I think it's just that your habits have been programmed away, and you don't have that wheel of habits constantly spinning, habits you have grown accustomed to and think is normal and necessary to "function normally"
Great video. Glad I found your channel. I read TiHKAL & Phikal 1994. I don't think I've ever heard anybody else talk about them because so few people know of them or their contributions.
Really awesome video
Good research, as some of the long term effects are pretty hard to find because of the hype, like the memory loss.
But I can first hand attest to the memory issues. I love mdma, for me as someone on the spectrum, it is a way to grow and learn about my desired social life. It brings out my best version but also teaches me how to enjoy myself even when not on the stuff.. I go to parties completely sober now and can get that high authentically and without any drugs or alcohol now which is pretty fun, I can put down my worries and focus on the present moment and all the fun people around me.
But yeah, like I said before, it is still a toxin. And memory will get affected over a longer period of usage. Another theory I have, is that the experiences on mdma release so much serotonin that your memory might loose some of it’s focus on less impactful moments of your every day life afterwards, but that’s my speculation.
I’ve chosen to stop usage of mdma for an extended period, because I currently have other things I would like to focus on. And my life is exiting enough as it is, but I will probably get back to it at some point, because if done responsibly, you can feel like a kid again. And it can destroy old patterns that have bogged you down. It might even feel like a spiritual awakening sometimes, because it can really Help you uncover some truths about yourself and your place in the world.
do it responsibly with people you truly trust ❤️
Took E at a pace of roughly between 3-5 doses, sometimes 8 per weekend, just about every weekend, for 10 years. After 15 years of use, it just quit working. Now it just gives me a really bad taste in my mouth, dry mouth, and makes me feel warm. There is absolutely ZERO fun or desire to ever take it again. Every year or sometimes longer, I will try a dose or two and nothing. Dont know if its the quality of modern stuff, or my brain just says NO. It was amazing while it lasted.
First drug i ever did. Best experience ever
An interesting question crossed my mind at 16:23 - if MDMA were amplifying the mechanism behind the placebo effect, how would we know?
And, if it does, does it matter?
Placebo is just being able to convince your brain of something.
MDMA makes your brain literally function differently and it's way more susceptible to any input, making it easier to convince.
I would argue that even trying to separate these two concepts is meaningless. What MDMA does to you after it's physical effects wear off is essentially the same thing as placebo.
MDMA just makes you more susceptible to it.
You have to use it in a setting which is therapeutic to you, otherwise it's literally just increased brain activity. If you're not altering your state of mind during that increased brain activity then nothing will change afterwards.
Mushrooms have surpassed mdma in the US as the most popular psychedelic, probably because of its similar empatogenic effects coupled with less risk. MDMA can make me feel like my heart is going to jump out of my chest.
Totally opposite experience for me. Taking psilocybin mushrooms was the most terrifying experience I had in my life. I took MDMA once in the summer of 1999 and it was one of the best life experience I ever had.
This is the best sales pitch I’ve heard for MDMA 🤔
From the initial flood of serotonin to potential long-term changes in brain structure and function, MDMA interacts with our neural circuitry in profound ways. In the short term, ecstasy can produce experiences of intense euphoria, empathy, and connection.
The first time I did a dug like this someone gave two really weird pills. They were called monkey stacks. It was three drugs stacked on top of each other and pressed into one tall, triple striped pill. He gave me two of them and I swallowed them both. I had a lot of fun that night, but...
For the next week or two I suffered through having no dopamine left in my body so I was very, very sad and I had zero appetite. Food tasted like dirt. I lost 40 lbs in a month.
My mood returned but the appetite never really did. The upside is I'm almost my exact recommended weight for a healthy male my age. I no longer feel I have to stuff myself to feel satisficed and I can tolerate the feeling of hunger much easier than ever before. I can actually ignore it easily if I choose. The downside of that is often times I will need to eat but dont feel hunger, just tired and irritable.
"Why am I so grouchy? Oh, I havnt eaten in 7 hours. I should probably make a sandwich or something."
I just took one and haven’t felt anything so do I take another one ?
Never just wait for IT to kick in. Trust me
I truly wish everyone could experience this at least once in their life. It's the most therapeutic thing I've ever experienced. I wish society didn't stigmatize this stuff. It's profound. If I could, I would like to experience it once every few years at least. Luckily I had all my experiences before the fentanyl problem. This is why I wish we could overcome the war on drugs and take away power from the illicit black market. Society, our country should embrace it and control it. It legitimately helped me feel like I was able to rewire parts of my brain that have been so F'ed up throughout my teens & early 20's. I was able to bond with many of my friends and be there for them as they expressed what they wanted. It's genuinely something I feel sorry for anyone who never gets to try this experience at least once in their life.. Society has given so many things such a bad stigma. It's irritating.
Meditation and nature is way better than any drug.
First, I am not currently on mdma. That said, since you asked for personal experience, I will tell you that I feel I can attribute ecstasy for saving my marriage.
Idk man, the fact that taking it even only once can permanently change serotonin pathways is enough for me to not even want to try even a small dose ever. In a psych class in college, we were shown brain scans of serotonin in human brains before and after mdma use, and the after really scared me. Virtually no serotonin at all, even a long time after one use.
Permanently changing your serotonin levels doesn’t sound like a good trade-off for a temporary super-dose of serotonin. You know?
What were the dosages used? Can you provide any source on that? From my understanding, there is a lot of anecdotal and clinical data about the safety of the substance and I've heard of people struggling with strong serotonin depletion only after severe often and frequent use. For people who wait few months between using the substance, I've never heard of what you described.
I've never experienced a down, but it is a thing if you have MD too often or are succeptible to depression
Every study I seen shows a complete recovery in brain receptors after a month?
The only thing that could be observed from the longest running studies was that the seratonin pathways could potentially be slightly altered.
But there was no proof whatsoever that altered seratonin pathways actually caused any impairment.
Slight mistake at 2:41 you show a Logo of Merck. However, this is not the same Merck that created MDMA.
The German Merck (a pharmaceutical, life science and electronics company) synthesised it and runs under different names in the US and Canada. The US Merck is known and MSD (Merck Sharp and Dome) outside the US and Canada.
You used the logo of the US Merck instead of the German Merck (also known as E. Merck, Darmstadt, Germany)
Huh, TIL! Thanks for the correction!
AMAZING and informative video as always!!
Great vid, you’re amazing
In a dream you might take a saw and cut open your skull and you might feel around. You might take a mirror and look inside and you could you could see the brain in the dream. If you see that brain in your skull inside your dream does that mean that brain is creating the dream? No of course not you see this is to confuse the contents of the dream for the dream itself and this is precisely the same thing that materialists do with this waking dream. So when I say something radical like the brain doesn't exist many people say oh my god that's crazy, that's ridiculous, what have you been smoking? No just think through the logic of it. It's very very simple. This here is your dream. You cut open your skull yes of course there's some pink squishy substance inside. You can feel it. You can screw around with it but does that mean that it is causing this whole dream. No of course not.
I once had a bad trip honestly, me and my friend were DJing some Hardtek at his place and I asked him if he had any MDMA and he went to grab a bag of it and just put it on his hand as he told me it was only like 1 hit, and after I licked it off his hand he said actually that was probably 2 hits or 2 and a half hits. I kinda silently panicked and just kept DJing I remember just feeling my legs were kinda flimsy and there was a cold draft in the room even though I was wearing a hoodie, and I felt super cold and shivering and I remember just stepping out to smoke a cigarette and that's when I noticed the Waves of Euphoria rushing up and down my back and I had cotton mouth, and I was super scared, I dunno why I just remember just telling him I'm uncomfortable and I put on a Jungle Mix on the CDJs and talked to him about random horrible stuff about my life to calm myself down and hoping the waves would die down but I failed to realized I was stuck like that until the next day of constant euphoria waves rushing up and down my back, I couldn't go with the flow and was fighting it the entire time. It wasn't until we went to get something to eat in the car, as we were coming back from McDonalds at 7am I saw the forest we were at was super foggy and the sun was shinning through the trees I started to feel comfortable and the music as well too made the whole drive just me sinking and melting in my seat, until we got back and I tried to sleep in cold sweats in my hoodie and a blanket listening to trance.
Im really glad to find your channel, great content well presented and thorough
Adulterated Pme maybe respondable for harsh vomedowns and dysmotphia atrophies
Had the Tuesday blues. Popped them on Tuesday night again.
I would love to see if taking this once a year, in January, would help to train my brain to stop getting depressed every winter. It seems like a perfect fit.
what would you characterize as "too much" usage of mdma? 5-6 times a year is too much?
Amazing video !! I have struggled with MDMA usage over the past few months, and I feel like I have done my research and learned a lot about the drug now. I am not planning on taking it for a while now. But I still have friends who are interested in trying it, but I keep hearing from people and reading some places that there is a chance that your body just simply can’t handle it. And I am not trying to green light a drug to my friends that might have a chance of killing them. So my question is if this is true or not that there is a chance that your body just simply can’t handle the drug ?
Dated a woman once who had way too much MDMA in her time (everything is good in moderation they say); It was good she was getting off the gear but looked 40 when she was 20.
Glad to see this idea moving forward.
"Next-day-blues" means coming back to our shit-hole shared sense of consensus reality. Dont blame the "drug".
Great video.
MDMA clearly works. When I was young and took it I opened up to any random er in the club and had a good chat and they told me their issues. Woke up in the morning didn’t feel weird about it and was good to get it off my chest haha
it's a fantastic substance and not too dangerous in overdose either. Politicians lie about the harms of it all while giving alcohol a free pass despite killing more than any other drug
mdmas recorded effects in therapy are very similar to the effects most people i know would expect from it. music is needed for the other effects to appear.