I feel the exact same way. You are so real and this is what youtube and the world needs. Not to be cringey but it's true. I love you and how open you are. You are not alone. 💛
I swear this is like therapy for both of us. (All of us) You make me feel like I’m not alone and we do the same for you. Since you’re someone who truly understands anxiety and depression, it makes me really connect and bond with you. NEVER have I EVER connected with someone through a UA-cam channel like I have with you. Thank you for being real, it’s hard to come by these days💕
I just had a baby, so I’m stuck breastfeeding on the couch with him all day long. I honestly look forward to your videos everyday. And it’s not like I watch all vlogmas videos I can find. I just watch yours. I love your personality and your relationship with your mom. You are so beautiful and so funny. It hurts my heart so much to know you’re hurting. Please listen to your mom and understand you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, smarter than you think and loved more than you know ❤️❤️
You being so open about your mental health has seriously helped me realize that I won't get better unless I really get honest about my struggles and then put in the work to get better. Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️
I'm in the doing nothing stage right now and I feel like I'm only existing and I dont know how I got here but you really help me feel again. I'm overwhelmed constantly but the feeling I have someone who understands like you even if it's just through a video helps me so much. Seeing others being open about getting help helped me get help. I stepped away from social media for a long time and I still do the back and forth being active and not on social media. I lost friends and close connections but I had to do what was best for me. You help me feel not alone and the comments make me feel like it's a community to help me when I need it. Just like you said we just have to try and make the next day better just because one day is bad the next is a new start. I have to remember that after everytime I binge. I totally understand the ED mental health flip constantly. I've lost 50 pounds not healthy calorie obsessed and was more unhappy than I was before. I got rid of the scale and focused on healthy low carb eating. You are not alone! Guess what I'm saying is thanks for being there for us Sam you are the best and you arent alone ❤❤❤❤❤
Hi I hope you're doing better, you can pull yourself out of this funk, you will be okay someday, and it will be work but you are strong. you can do it.
Whenever you need a break or to leave UA-cam it’s ok. Your mental health is the most important thing. We’re happy you left and got help! We want what’s best for you and anytime you need a break or to leave UA-cam for awhile you don’t need to explain and we’ll welcome you back with open arms.
I'm a 33 year old South African woman and I have severe OCD and anxiety and I love your channel because of how funny, real, smart and relatable you are. You are very talented and deserve to continue to grow and become an absolute force on UA-cam.
ive been struggling with my depression and eating disorder, but everytime i watch sammantha i kinda find her comforting and funny, she takes away every single sadness that i have.
I’ve struggled with horrible anxiety, depression and an eating disorder for years and having someone so open and honest on youtube is so refreshing to see. Thank you for being you and being so honest with us❤️❤️lots of love to you
The world needs more of Samantha Jo, we are so glad you didn't give up and freaking uploaded a video EVERY DAY (and I have been looking forward to each one) It takes a giant step forward to share your struggles with others. I still haven't gotten there yet... You fucking go girl ♥
We love you Sam ❤️ you will get through this, and we are here to support you through everything and anything you go through. We are so proud of you for talking to us about what’s on your mind. And I love watching you go through your journey of life 💕
What really hit home was when you mentioned that no one can really understand anxiety or depression if they don’t deal with it either...and that it’s not a flip of a switch. It’s a long and hard process and sometimes there are more bad days than good...but one day if you continue to work on it, you can proudly say that there are more good days than bad. And that in itself gives me hope. I look forward to that day.
I normally don't say thank you to someone for making a video, but thank you for making this. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in the world and everything. Hearing you talk about this made me happy and feel like I can be more open and honest about it. Thank you, Sam. ❤
Honestly I'm at a point in my life where I'm just lost. I have failed two semesrers of school, I work at a shitty job, and I am barley scrapping by with rent. I feel like I have tried so hard to fix my cycles of depression and I always come up short. I'm trying so hard to keep it together but I feel like I'm in complete pieces. I want to give up but I'm trying to believe there is a reason we go through all of these trails. Thank you for always being open and vulnerable with us. I promise to keep fighting for my happiness.
sam, you have no idea how comforting it is to hear somebody else talk about the same things Im struggling with on the inside every day. To know that someone else is hurting the way i am makes me sad, but it also lets me know that I’m not alone. I also struggle with a major anxiety disorder and I’m trying to learn how to deal with it every day. Sam, please know that the Lord is using you in such huge ways and he is using the trails you’ve been facing to speak to the masses and help us know that we’re not alone and that other people are going through this too. Please know that I am praying for you every day intentionally, and that I am so excited about how God is using you on your platform. God’s blessings to you, you’ve got this.
Omg stop I’m crying. I held it together the whole time and then read the part at the end and burst into tears. I have SO much to say but it’s 3:40am so I’m going to come back when it’s not and I’m not a hot mess lmao. But the one thing I HAVE to say is that I LOVE so so so much that you have such supportive subscribers. I see SO much hate in UA-cam comments and I know so many people judge people for every little thing, and also don’t understand mental illness. And it just makes me so happy that there is at least ONE channel on UA-cam that the comments are all so supportive. I’ve watched every day of vlogmas and read a lot of the comments. Your videos and peoples comments always lift my spirits and I’m just so glad this “community” you have formed is here. Bc even though I don’t actually know you or anyone commenting personally, sometimes you/others just GET me on a level no one in my “real” life does and it makes me feel like I “know” you bc I relate to you SO much. I’m so proud of you for getting this far with vlogmas & know that every day you spend the insane amount of time required to film, edit and upload, just by coming on and being YOU and opening up about your struggles you are helping SO many people. You will make it to the end of vlogmas, I know it! (Ok so I know I said I wasn’t saying anything lol I meant more specifically about depression/binge eating disorder but I’ll message you on Instagram instead of posting another novel on here tomorrow.😂) ❤️
You owe most of your appreciation to your precious mother. She is your biggest fan and shows it constantly. No stranger on the comment section of UA-cam could ever give you the love and devotion of your mother. Always put her in the top 3 in your life. I'm praying for you sweet girl. Now behave yourself!❤ Old lady Fan
you are by far the most authentic person on this platform. social media has become so toxic for so many people including myself and its so refreshing to watch someone that makes you feel hope and love. you are so incredible. you deserve so much -- you will be in my prayers we are all rooting for you!!
It’s okay to ask for help ❤️ We all love you so much & we’re SO proud of your growth 🥰 You haven’t failed, you’re learning as you go & if that means some hiccups so be it. You’re trying and that’s better than not trying !
I feel like a proud mama just watching you building up the courage to open up about your struggles and hardships. I don't think I could have ever opened up and talk about mine like you just did. so I just wanted to let you know that im proud of you. ive been here watching you since day one and I have never commented until now. I just am so glad we get to watch vlogmas and see both your good and bad days. Thank you for being you sam, love YOU!
I think you explained yourself really well! My therapist said something similar to me about my anxiety. She said talking about it helps you get out of your head and make you realize your anxious thoughts aren’t rational. I’m really happy you got help. I know you have inspired a lot of other people to get help! I understand having to get yourself back into society. When I had severe body dysmorphia and isolated myself, it made my social anxiety 100x worse and I had to relearn how to socialize basically. Mental illnesses suck, but it doesn’t mean we can’t live normal, happy, productive lives. I love you Sam. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
This video is making me tear up because I relate so much to you and you make me feel less alone. Sometimes we get in this mindset that it’s only us struggling and that people wouldn’t understand. Thank you for talking about this!
I suffer with depression and anxiety. My husband doesn’t understand my bad days so most of the time I just don’t tell anyone. I’m glad I can watch your videos and laugh or know I’m not the only one dealing with these issues. You are amazing, beautiful, and an inspiration to more people than you realize. ❤️
Mad respect for your strength! I, and so many people, suffer from anxiety and depression and you described it so well. Take the step and acknowledge how strong you are simply because you created this video for the millions of people that live with this, for the people that dont understand "what's wrong" with the people that suffer and for YOURSELF. Powerful stuff right here.
I'm so thankful for your honesty. Sharing about your successes and failures is something that is so hard to do. I relate a lot with both sides of being "healthy". So thankful to be able to have someone to look up to like you
I suffer with extreme anxiety and panic attacks.. and it’s so hard describe the way I’m feeling. My depression is not as bad as it use to be but when I do get those days it’s so hard to get out of the funk it puts me in. Mental health is real and you are not alone!
You’re super courageous and so inspirational. I can’t even imagine being that honest even with myself. I think it’s normal to go through ebbs and flows of eating disorders, addictions, etc. You got this, chica. You’re so worthy of a happy and healthy life.
You are the kind of person I love to surround myself with. I am in awe with your honesty. I’m going through the exact same thing. Dealing with my depression and anxiety trying to better myself and lose weight and not binge eat is so freaking hard.
I seriously love your honesty talking about your depression & eating disorder. Most people shy away about these "taboo" topics, but millions of people deal with it. I have emotional depression & suicidal thoughts, I got help from a psychiatrist & talking to my mom about it for the first time last July. I don't need to medicine to help me but, I will need to control it. Loke you said in your video, talking about it with someone you can trust, writing etc. Really does help. For me it's painting, writing, & rainy, dark gloomy days. For now, I've been good-good, since like August, finally moved from a town I felt emotionally drained & really suicidal, sometimes if you can, to leave a certain place does wonders to the mind & soul. Sorry for this comment being so long!!! But yeah, love you so so SO MUCH! I've been a subbie before you even had 100k so seeing yoir growth is amaze balls.♡ Lots of love from Brazil!
You are so BRAVE to admit and own up to your binges after having been eating healthy. I love watching your channel because you are so unapologetically real!
Dealt with the same thing right after high school graduation. Became extremely depressed and still don't know why. I was crying everyday, isolating myself, etc but eventually I beat it and have been depression free for 3 years now. It's not easy but I believe you can beat it, you're strong, have a beautiful personality, and you're taking the right measures to get rid of it. I believe in you, everybody else believes in you and you're not alone. We love you girl ❤
Gaining weight doesn't mean you've failed, love! Please remember that your body size or weight doesn't define you at all to those who matter. You are the MOST beautiful person inside and out. I'm proud of you, and you should be proud of yourself. It's so clear you're in a much better spot and can assess the positive behaviors that you've realized have helped you get where you are! Thanks for all you do and for giving us all a space we feel safe in, too. 💕
sam i am so proud about how honest you are and how far you have come with your mental health 🥺 you are so strong and beautiful and we are all so proud of you for completing TWO FULL WEEKS OF VLOGMAS!! we love you so much!!!!
I appreciate you sharing your journey. I have battled with depression and anxiety ever since I lost my dad in 2013. I also believe that I developed binge eating disorder after this and struggle with it on a daily basis. I either will eat so much or eat nothing at all. I would really enjoy hearing you speak more about this and your plan of action for that journey once you feel more comfortable talking about it. Thanks again💖
One of the biggest reasons I watch your channel is because I’m a Midwest girl too. Born & raised in northern Illinois. I moved to Virginia December of last year. The relationship you have with your mom reminds me of the relationship I have with mine & it kind of makes me feel at home when I watch your videos.
I appreciate you being so willing to talk about your life for real! No hiding means so much because I have struggled with depression, anxiety and eating disorders as well and since watching your vlogmas I have seen my doctor about getting help myself. I love you !
I suffer from anxiety and depression and my mental health was as bad as yours when I wasn’t on meds and I totally get where you’re coming from but my personal view is that whenever you would upload I would get so excited and knew that it took a lot on you to post it and I mean heck you’re my favorite youtuber so of course I loved it when you uploaded. I guess what I’m trying to say is you got this and all of your subscribers are going to love you for you and you aren’t going to get hate for uploading and saying you’re going to stay on top of it and you don’t because if you do then they haven’t your true subscribers
i just started watching your videos and just watched this and i just want to hug you. i struggle with severe anxiety and depression and was in that same position all of my freshman year of high school. i understand, not everything, but a lot of what you’re going through. you’re strong❤️
Sam, I relate to you so much! I am thankful you exist & are willing to be genuine with us. I have struggled with anxiety, depression, & binge-eating/over-eating since I was 12 years old (abt 10 years now). And I can tell you that, while it's not something I'll ever be entirely rid of, I have gotten better & will continue to. I never thought I could have a life and love life like I do now! Be proud of your progress, celebrate small victories, & trust the process. It isn't easy, but it IS worth it and you are capable of so much more than you know!! I hope you remember how much light you contribute to this world & that you possess a rare beauty, inside and out. We love you! ❣️
I am SO happy you're giving up the scale! I struggle with an eating disorder also and giving up the scale was one of the best things I could do for my mind. You got this girl. I'm from Wisconsin too. You can do this, we can do this ❤️
You are a ray of sunshine in this world. I feel so blessed that I found your videos because you have helped me more than you know. I will continue to support you through anything and thank you so much for everything that you are ❤️
I love how open you are about everything! You are not alone and you have so many people sending you so much love and support. We’re all in this together. Im so glad that I found your channel earlier this year and I’m so glad you’re doing vlogmas. You are a true inspiration.
I literally never ever comment on videos because i honestly don't think what i say has enough weight to matter. BUT! Gurl! You are one amazing human being. Your personality, your humour and honesty are amazing AND you are stunning, truly stunning. You've got that real raw old school beauty. Do not ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Watching this video has really made me realise just how strong you are. Sitting on camera like a trooper and talking about your mental health openly and being real. You deserve all the happiness in the world because you are an angel and anybody would be lucky to have you in their lives. ❤ youre a credit to yourself and your parents
I started taking anxiety and depression medication recently and I'm almost mad at myself for not talking to someone about it earlier.. it's hard to even get out of bed, I completely understand. You have a good following and lots of support! Just know that you're not alone and we all love you 😊
I've been on anxiety and depression meds for a long time but at certain point they stopped working for me and had to up my dose. Finally starting to feel human again. Leaving the bed a little more and actually functioning .Meds are really needed for some people because of the imbalances that can happen in the brain. Glad they are helping you too.
I appreciate your honesty and openness. I recently allowed myself to admit I go through states of depression, and most people do. I think it was just a fear of people not accepting it or thinking I was being dramatic. But the people around me SEE it happen to me, and I don’t like to tell people if I’m feeling down, but I learned I have to because they care about me. I’m not the only one, everyone feels this way sometimes. If we don’t have people around us that genuinely care for our well-being and happiness, we won’t ever get out of the holes. We just have to let them in, which may be the hardest part.
I love you so so so much Sam!!!!!! You’re amazing for being so open with all of your mental illnesses and ED. As someone who deals with a handful of mental illnesses and an ED it’s so so so nice to see someone being so open about it. Never feel bad about taking time away from social media we will always be here for you when you’re ready to come back. This video came at an amazing time for me because the last year I’ve been in the hardest mental battle I’ve gone through in years. I’ve gone through rapid cycles of manic to depressed(I’m bipolar) and I feel like so many traumatic things have happened to me this year but I’m finally getting into a better place and some days are still so so hard but I love your mindset of making the best of the day so you won’t let yourself get into a deep depression. You’re amazing sam and I love your content and I hope you continue to get better❤️❤️
You are amazing. I appreciate how authentic & real you are with your audience. You are one of the few people that is actually true with those watching your videos. Young people need the realness. I love you!!!!!
I found you only this week through Carrie Dayton, she gave a list of youtubers that she loved and you were one of them. When I went into the comment section of her video all I saw were comment after comment of people saying how much they loved you!! So of course I had to see what everyone else was so in love with. My first video that I watched of yours was you dancing drunk in your living room to your 2010's music playlist, I was having the worst kind of day that day and you turned that around and had me dancing and singing along with you. I just want to Thank you for just being you! You give an old lady joy with your spirit and your realness. I also love your relationship that you have with your mother.( makes me wish I had girl, I have two sons lol)
I'm going through the worst time right now with my family.... The only thing keeping me positive is watching your videos everyday. I look forward to them every day. Thank you for helping me through this dark time💗
Thank you for being so open and honest about your life. I relate to you on so many levels. I feel like I need a friend like you in my life and I have that when I watch your videos everyday, so thank you!
samantha, i adore you, you’re such a kind soul and deserve the world! you are so open with your emotions and i really am grateful to be able to watch and support a creator that is honest and kind towards these kind of subjects. i send love to you always. you’re such a beautiful, beautiful girl. i’m so excited to watch your videos now and into the future. 💓
You’re such a beautiful person, you make me feel so much more confident in myself because you’re so open and honest. It really makes me feel so normal, especially when an influencer acknowledges that they are also going through the same struggles. You give me soo much motivation to just be myself and be happy with what I have going on in my own life.
I just recently came across your channel, but I'm already in love with you and your channel. You're real and honest, that's special and very appreciated. You're doing your best and that's all you can do sometimes. Love you Sam
Hi Samantha!! Sending my love for you all the way from the Philippines!!! I'm a chloe ting subscriber and I started watching your videos up to your vlogmas! I hope you all the best and I know your strong and stronger to most. By doing this for us, we are here commenting and giving you and your mommy the good vibes that you all deserve!!! Thank you for being there and for being you! We love you! 🥰
I made the decision to not watch anyone's vlogmas because in previous years watching the videos of people in LA who seem to have perfect daily lives actually fueled my self hate and depression; but during this season I consider your channel a safe place. Thank you for being you! And stay warm (One WI girl to another)!
Sam, I wish you and mama Kelly nothing but great mental health and happiness in 2020! I love you and your honesty, you make it so personable. You just described my life entirely. I have an eating disorder too, it’s binge eating my feelings away. I’m right there with you. I love you and I’m rooting for you! ❤️
This actually has helped me, haven’t been good for a few months now but for some reason, you opening up has made me look at things differently , thank you.😊😊💕
Once you’re on the right depression meds they make the world of a difference. There’s a lot of trial and error when it comes to finding the right medicine for you but they work and you’ll feel so much better. I know I do.
i admire you so much for sharing all of this so openly, especially about your eating disorder. seriously wishing the best for you. i know how much it sucks to look back at times or years of your life and feel like they were wasted due to mental health issues.. hoping that isnt the case for you and you live your absolute best. 2020 is a new year and i hope it treats you with nothing but love and kindness (same for everyone who may also be reading this) !
So proud of you. Depression is so hard. And I couldnt have explained it better. I made my husband watch tbjs. Because he doesnt get it. Doesnt get why sometimes for no reason i just lay here and cry for weeks strait. Love u girl!! So proud of you for getting help
I'm so glad that social media became a positive place for you. It really is a result of you. You have created this community. You are the reason this community is so positive. So glad you're doing better mentally too
I completely relate to almost every once of this. I graduated high school this last year and waited till the last minute to decide to graduate earlier bc the entire first semester of my senior year was awful. I love school and learning but I was so low that I never went to school, went hours late when I did go, started drinking at school and before at like 8am, failing classes, and isolating myself from absolutely everyone but my girlfriend. I continue to struggle a lot currently but have gotten so much better due to simply wanting to not feel so terrible every single day and finding a reason to keep going. little things like your vlogmas videos and honestly like this video has kept me going. thank you so much for sharing with us, Sam. we love you. ❤️ p.s. I tell my gf that you are my friend all the time bc I feel like we really are. ❤️❤️❤️
I love your vlogs, my daughter and I watch every time you post. Your so open and honest and we really appreciate that! Depression sucks and your inspiring, we watch and talk about our feels, it’s hard to get a 15 year old to talk so a million thank you s for that too! Love and hugs! Also, props to your Mom she made a good human.
I think of you as a friend and so in that way I am so glad you have decided to share. I know that the majority of your viewers truly care about you and your well being.
You are such a beautiful person inside and out and you have an OUTSTANDING personality! Mental health is no joke, thank you for sharing your journey! Thanks for being YOU!!🥰❤🦄
you're amazing !! takes so much to speak up on topics like this. also Samantha Jo vlogmas is the only vlogmas ive ever kept up with and enjoyed watching every single day c: love you !!! ♡♡♡
I hope that you can reframe your idea of “failure” around your eating disorder. Life is such a journey, and just like being happy and sad, sometimes you do things in a better way than other times. You didn’t fail, you just had to place focus elsewhere for the time being 💗
You should be so so proud of yourself Sam!! I know I am! Battling the demons in your head is the hardest and most draining task you could ever face, and you’re bossing it! I think more than you give yourself credit for!! You are amazing keep being you!! Giving you the biggest cuddle (hopefully can in person one day, come over to the UK!) xxx
This is the first one of your vlogmas videos i missed watching the day it was posted, and it's because i had a bad day. Thank you Sam for sharing and making me feel like I have a friend in all of this. I'm also having a hard time in the cycle of depression, anxiety, seclusion and disordered eating. I finally feel like there is hope to get out of this and I'm finding resources tomorrow. Thank you for talking about this, thank you for pulling me out of denial, and thank you for encouraging me to get up and do something. ❤️❤️❤️
just found you a couple weeks ago, now ur my fav youtuber. u have the best personality and i seriously look foward to watch vlogmas everyday. thank u sm and were here for u bb.
I hella appreciate how fucking real and open you are. What you go through is so similar to what I struggle with and it makes me feel like I will always have someone. You will never understand how much you have helped and how much you continue to help me. Thank you, so much for everything. You’re amazing and I love you so much. 💖💖
I think you “got so lucky” with us because a lot of us discovered you through searching something relatable for me it was BED. I’m so happy I discovered you and the comments always make me realize I’m not the only one who goes though this cycle and thus stuff there’s so many of us here dealing with the same sh*t and I love this group of friends 🙂
i looooove your videos, they are so real and genuinely make me laugh and feel happy to watch. keep being you and being your authentic self online. I love that you don't let UA-cam change that. please don't let "UA-cam fame" ever change who you are!!!! you have such an amazing personality, Sam.
I have major depression and panic attacks which is caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain medications and therapy does help and eating disorders are related to how low you're feeling. It gets better honestly it does. I love you and a big hug. You are strong and fighting and working on your depression 🙏 in time you will be yourself again 🙏 always talk about it or journal 💯
I love how open you are. It takes courage to share your world like you do. I found your channel through Alex’s and I’m so thankful for that. I think channels like yours let you know that everyone struggles and we are all going to be ok. Just gotta keep swimming. ❤️
My husband struggles with anxiety and depression. It took me a long time to really understand it but after 10 years I get it. I’m not saying medication is for everyone but it really helped him. It doesn’t keep him from feeling feelings it just keeps him from the drastic highs and lows. Keeps him in that middle range. Like I said I’m not saying it’s for everyone but it might be worth a shot. Sending prayers and love to you ❤️
Sometimes when we start on a healing journey, our deepest pains come to the surface, which could be why your eating disorder comes up while you're starting to get better. I understand this completely. I also binge eat and it tends to happen when I'm "happier"....it's like my brain tricks me into thinking I deserve it, almost like a reward. ANYWAYS. Love you for you. Thank you for sharing!!!
my favorite thing about you is your honesty. u feel like someone i've been friends w forever and i only started following you recently.
I feel the exact same way. You are so real and this is what youtube and the world needs. Not to be cringey but it's true. I love you and how open you are. You are not alone. 💛
amen
I swear this is like therapy for both of us. (All of us) You make me feel like I’m not alone and we do the same for you. Since you’re someone who truly understands anxiety and depression, it makes me really connect and bond with you. NEVER have I EVER connected with someone through a UA-cam channel like I have with you. Thank you for being real, it’s hard to come by these days💕
We’re basically bffs at this point. So, love you girl you gunna get through it, you already know 🥰😘
I just had a baby, so I’m stuck breastfeeding on the couch with him all day long. I honestly look forward to your videos everyday. And it’s not like I watch all vlogmas videos I can find. I just watch yours. I love your personality and your relationship with your mom. You are so beautiful and so funny. It hurts my heart so much to know you’re hurting. Please listen to your mom and understand you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, smarter than you think and loved more than you know ❤️❤️
Congrats on the baby!
Kyleigh Skeen aww thank you! 🥰❤️
Congrats on its 4th birthday! (I don’t know the gender so I said it)
@@AriLovesSummer hahaha 😂 thank you! He's a four year old boy now.
You being so open about your mental health has seriously helped me realize that I won't get better unless I really get honest about my struggles and then put in the work to get better. Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️
I'm in the doing nothing stage right now and I feel like I'm only existing and I dont know how I got here but you really help me feel again. I'm overwhelmed constantly but the feeling I have someone who understands like you even if it's just through a video helps me so much. Seeing others being open about getting help helped me get help. I stepped away from social media for a long time and I still do the back and forth being active and not on social media. I lost friends and close connections but I had to do what was best for me. You help me feel not alone and the comments make me feel like it's a community to help me when I need it. Just like you said we just have to try and make the next day better just because one day is bad the next is a new start. I have to remember that after everytime I binge. I totally understand the ED mental health flip constantly. I've lost 50 pounds not healthy calorie obsessed and was more unhappy than I was before. I got rid of the scale and focused on healthy low carb eating. You are not alone! Guess what I'm saying is thanks for being there for us Sam you are the best and you arent alone ❤❤❤❤❤
It's been a while but I hope you're doing good. Hugs
Hi I hope you're doing better, you can pull yourself out of this funk, you will be okay someday, and it will be work but you are strong. you can do it.
Whenever you need a break or to leave UA-cam it’s ok. Your mental health is the most important thing. We’re happy you left and got help! We want what’s best for you and anytime you need a break or to leave UA-cam for awhile you don’t need to explain and we’ll welcome you back with open arms.
I'm a 33 year old South African woman and I have severe OCD and anxiety and I love your channel because of how funny, real, smart and relatable you are. You are very talented and deserve to continue to grow and become an absolute force on UA-cam.
ive been struggling with my depression and eating disorder, but everytime i watch sammantha i kinda find her comforting and funny, she takes away every single sadness that i have.
I’ve struggled with horrible anxiety, depression and an eating disorder for years and having someone so open and honest on youtube is so refreshing to see. Thank you for being you and being so honest with us❤️❤️lots of love to you
The world needs more of Samantha Jo, we are so glad you didn't give up and freaking uploaded a video EVERY DAY (and I have been looking forward to each one) It takes a giant step forward to share your struggles with others. I still haven't gotten there yet... You fucking go girl ♥
We love you Sam ❤️ you will get through this, and we are here to support you through everything and anything you go through. We are so proud of you for talking to us about what’s on your mind. And I love watching you go through your journey of life 💕
What really hit home was when you mentioned that no one can really understand anxiety or depression if they don’t deal with it either...and that it’s not a flip of a switch. It’s a long and hard process and sometimes there are more bad days than good...but one day if you continue to work on it, you can proudly say that there are more good days than bad. And that in itself gives me hope. I look forward to that day.
The fact that there are people like this out here gives me hope in the world
I normally don't say thank you to someone for making a video, but thank you for making this. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in the world and everything. Hearing you talk about this made me happy and feel like I can be more open and honest about it. Thank you, Sam. ❤
I totally understand 🤦♀️ can go from fine to falling apart in the same time period🤷♀️ 💕
Me too. In 2015 I went from being OK to being admitted to psychiatric hospital over a period of 2 months.
@@phoebethegreat6253 and look, you got thru it 💜 amazing
Honestly I'm at a point in my life where I'm just lost. I have failed two semesrers of school, I work at a shitty job, and I am barley scrapping by with rent. I feel like I have tried so hard to fix my cycles of depression and I always come up short. I'm trying so hard to keep it together but I feel like I'm in complete pieces. I want to give up but I'm trying to believe there is a reason we go through all of these trails. Thank you for always being open and vulnerable with us. I promise to keep fighting for my happiness.
sam,
you have no idea how comforting it is to hear somebody else talk about the same things Im struggling with on the inside every day. To know that someone else is hurting the way i am makes me sad, but it also lets me know that I’m not alone. I also struggle with a major anxiety disorder and I’m trying to learn how to deal with it every day. Sam, please know that the Lord is using you in such huge ways and he is using the trails you’ve been facing to speak to the masses and help us know that we’re not alone and that other people are going through this too. Please know that I am praying for you every day intentionally, and that I am so excited about how God is using you on your platform. God’s blessings to you, you’ve got this.
Omg stop I’m crying. I held it together the whole time and then read the part at the end and burst into tears. I have SO much to say but it’s 3:40am so I’m going to come back when it’s not and I’m not a hot mess lmao. But the one thing I HAVE to say is that I LOVE so so so much that you have such supportive subscribers. I see SO much hate in UA-cam comments and I know so many people judge people for every little thing, and also don’t understand mental illness. And it just makes me so happy that there is at least ONE channel on UA-cam that the comments are all so supportive. I’ve watched every day of vlogmas and read a lot of the comments. Your videos and peoples comments always lift my spirits and I’m just so glad this “community” you have formed is here. Bc even though I don’t actually know you or anyone commenting personally, sometimes you/others just GET me on a level no one in my “real” life does and it makes me feel like I “know” you bc I relate to you SO much. I’m so proud of you for getting this far with vlogmas & know that every day you spend the insane amount of time required to film, edit and upload, just by coming on and being YOU and opening up about your struggles you are helping SO many people. You will make it to the end of vlogmas, I know it! (Ok so I know I said I wasn’t saying anything lol I meant more specifically about depression/binge eating disorder but I’ll message you on Instagram instead of posting another novel on here tomorrow.😂) ❤️
You owe most of your appreciation to your precious mother. She is your biggest fan and shows it constantly. No stranger on the comment section of UA-cam could ever give you the love and devotion of your mother. Always put her in the top 3 in your life.
I'm praying for you sweet girl.
Now behave yourself!❤
Old lady Fan
I’m so happy I found your channel! Your videos honestly make my day ten times better! You make a grand difference in a lot of peoples lives. ❤️❤️
Whenever I watch your videos I forget about my anxiety I suffer from anxiety and it just makes me laugh or feel better about myself
you are by far the most authentic person on this platform. social media has become so toxic for so many people including myself and its so refreshing to watch someone that makes you feel hope and love. you are so incredible. you deserve so much -- you will be in my prayers
we are all rooting for you!!
It’s okay to ask for help ❤️ We all love you so much & we’re SO proud of your growth 🥰 You haven’t failed, you’re learning as you go & if that means some hiccups so be it. You’re trying and that’s better than not trying !
I feel like a proud mama just watching you building up the courage to open up about your struggles and hardships. I don't think I could have ever opened up and talk about mine like you just did. so I just wanted to let you know that im proud of you. ive been here watching you since day one and I have never commented until now. I just am so glad we get to watch vlogmas and see both your good and bad days. Thank you for being you sam, love YOU!
I think you explained yourself really well! My therapist said something similar to me about my anxiety. She said talking about it helps you get out of your head and make you realize your anxious thoughts aren’t rational. I’m really happy you got help. I know you have inspired a lot of other people to get help! I understand having to get yourself back into society. When I had severe body dysmorphia and isolated myself, it made my social anxiety 100x worse and I had to relearn how to socialize basically. Mental illnesses suck, but it doesn’t mean we can’t live normal, happy, productive lives. I love you Sam. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
This video is making me tear up because I relate so much to you and you make me feel less alone. Sometimes we get in this mindset that it’s only us struggling and that people wouldn’t understand. Thank you for talking about this!
I suffer with depression and anxiety. My husband doesn’t understand my bad days so most of the time I just don’t tell anyone. I’m glad I can watch your videos and laugh or know I’m not the only one dealing with these issues. You are amazing, beautiful, and an inspiration to more people than you realize. ❤️
Mad respect for your strength! I, and so many people, suffer from anxiety and depression and you described it so well. Take the step and acknowledge how strong you are simply because you created this video for the millions of people that live with this, for the people that dont understand "what's wrong" with the people that suffer and for YOURSELF. Powerful stuff right here.
I'm so thankful for your honesty. Sharing about your successes and failures is something that is so hard to do. I relate a lot with both sides of being "healthy". So thankful to be able to have someone to look up to like you
I suffer with extreme anxiety and panic attacks.. and it’s so hard describe the way I’m feeling. My depression is not as bad as it use to be but when I do get those days it’s so hard to get out of the funk it puts me in. Mental health is real and you are not alone!
You’re super courageous and so inspirational. I can’t even imagine being that honest even with myself. I think it’s normal to go through ebbs and flows of eating disorders, addictions, etc. You got this, chica. You’re so worthy of a happy and healthy life.
You are the kind of person I love to surround myself with. I am in awe with your honesty. I’m going through the exact same thing. Dealing with my depression and anxiety trying to better myself and lose weight and not binge eat is so freaking hard.
i also started going to therapy this year also 💕 we got this girl!
Me too! We've got this!
I seriously love your honesty talking about your depression & eating disorder. Most people shy away about these "taboo" topics, but millions of people deal with it. I have emotional depression & suicidal thoughts, I got help from a psychiatrist & talking to my mom about it for the first time last July. I don't need to medicine to help me but, I will need to control it. Loke you said in your video, talking about it with someone you can trust, writing etc. Really does help. For me it's painting, writing, & rainy, dark gloomy days. For now, I've been good-good, since like August, finally moved from a town I felt emotionally drained & really suicidal, sometimes if you can, to leave a certain place does wonders to the mind & soul. Sorry for this comment being so long!!! But yeah, love you so so SO MUCH! I've been a subbie before you even had 100k so seeing yoir growth is amaze balls.♡ Lots of love from Brazil!
You are so BRAVE to admit and own up to your binges after having been eating healthy. I love watching your channel because you are so unapologetically real!
Omg hellour!!! Ps you singing skyscraper in your drunk vlogmas LITERALLY gave me chill. And I showed it to my mom and got chills again
Dealt with the same thing right after high school graduation. Became extremely depressed and still don't know why. I was crying everyday, isolating myself, etc but eventually I beat it and have been depression free for 3 years now. It's not easy but I believe you can beat it, you're strong, have a beautiful personality, and you're taking the right measures to get rid of it. I believe in you, everybody else believes in you and you're not alone. We love you girl ❤
Gaining weight doesn't mean you've failed, love! Please remember that your body size or weight doesn't define you at all to those who matter. You are the MOST beautiful person inside and out. I'm proud of you, and you should be proud of yourself. It's so clear you're in a much better spot and can assess the positive behaviors that you've realized have helped you get where you are! Thanks for all you do and for giving us all a space we feel safe in, too. 💕
sam i am so proud about how honest you are and how far you have come with your mental health 🥺 you are so strong and beautiful and we are all so proud of you for completing TWO FULL WEEKS OF VLOGMAS!! we love you so much!!!!
You have the sweetest personality ever. I love how positive you are even on your worst days. ❤️
I appreciate you sharing your journey. I have battled with depression and anxiety ever since I lost my dad in 2013. I also believe that I developed binge eating disorder after this and struggle with it on a daily basis. I either will eat so much or eat nothing at all. I would really enjoy hearing you speak more about this and your plan of action for that journey once you feel more comfortable talking about it. Thanks again💖
One of the biggest reasons I watch your channel is because I’m a Midwest girl too. Born & raised in northern Illinois. I moved to Virginia December of last year. The relationship you have with your mom reminds me of the relationship I have with mine & it kind of makes me feel at home when I watch your videos.
I appreciate you being so willing to talk about your life for real! No hiding means so much because I have struggled with depression, anxiety and eating disorders as well and since watching your vlogmas I have seen my doctor about getting help myself. I love you !
I suffer from anxiety and depression and my mental health was as bad as yours when I wasn’t on meds and I totally get where you’re coming from but my personal view is that whenever you would upload I would get so excited and knew that it took a lot on you to post it and I mean heck you’re my favorite youtuber so of course I loved it when you uploaded. I guess what I’m trying to say is you got this and all of your subscribers are going to love you for you and you aren’t going to get hate for uploading and saying you’re going to stay on top of it and you don’t because if you do then they haven’t your true subscribers
Thanks for being so honest. I absolutely love your vlogmas intro. It makes me so happy.
i just started watching your videos and just watched this and i just want to hug you. i struggle with severe anxiety and depression and was in that same position all of my freshman year of high school. i understand, not everything, but a lot of what you’re going through. you’re strong❤️
Sam, I relate to you so much! I am thankful you exist & are willing to be genuine with us. I have struggled with anxiety, depression, & binge-eating/over-eating since I was 12 years old (abt 10 years now). And I can tell you that, while it's not something I'll ever be entirely rid of, I have gotten better & will continue to. I never thought I could have a life and love life like I do now! Be proud of your progress, celebrate small victories, & trust the process. It isn't easy, but it IS worth it and you are capable of so much more than you know!! I hope you remember how much light you contribute to this world & that you possess a rare beauty, inside and out. We love you! ❣️
I am SO happy you're giving up the scale! I struggle with an eating disorder also and giving up the scale was one of the best things I could do for my mind. You got this girl. I'm from Wisconsin too. You can do this, we can do this ❤️
You are a ray of sunshine in this world. I feel so blessed that I found your videos because you have helped me more than you know. I will continue to support you through anything and thank you so much for everything that you are ❤️
I love how open you are about everything! You are not alone and you have so many people sending you so much love and support. We’re all in this together. Im so glad that I found your channel earlier this year and I’m so glad you’re doing vlogmas. You are a true inspiration.
I literally never ever comment on videos because i honestly don't think what i say has enough weight to matter. BUT! Gurl! You are one amazing human being. Your personality, your humour and honesty are amazing AND you are stunning, truly stunning. You've got that real raw old school beauty. Do not ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Watching this video has really made me realise just how strong you are. Sitting on camera like a trooper and talking about your mental health openly and being real. You deserve all the happiness in the world because you are an angel and anybody would be lucky to have you in their lives. ❤ youre a credit to yourself and your parents
I love how all of these you tubers are talking about mental health because it is super important ...I am here for y girl
I started taking anxiety and depression medication recently and I'm almost mad at myself for not talking to someone about it earlier.. it's hard to even get out of bed, I completely understand. You have a good following and lots of support! Just know that you're not alone and we all love you 😊
I've been on anxiety and depression meds for a long time but at certain point they stopped working for me and had to up my dose. Finally starting to feel human again. Leaving the bed a little more and actually functioning .Meds are really needed for some people because of the imbalances that can happen in the brain. Glad they are helping you too.
I appreciate your honesty and openness. I recently allowed myself to admit I go through states of depression, and most people do. I think it was just a fear of people not accepting it or thinking I was being dramatic. But the people around me SEE it happen to me, and I don’t like to tell people if I’m feeling down, but I learned I have to because they care about me. I’m not the only one, everyone feels this way sometimes. If we don’t have people around us that genuinely care for our well-being and happiness, we won’t ever get out of the holes. We just have to let them in, which may be the hardest part.
I love you so so so much Sam!!!!!! You’re amazing for being so open with all of your mental illnesses and ED. As someone who deals with a handful of mental illnesses and an ED it’s so so so nice to see someone being so open about it. Never feel bad about taking time away from social media we will always be here for you when you’re ready to come back. This video came at an amazing time for me because the last year I’ve been in the hardest mental battle I’ve gone through in years. I’ve gone through rapid cycles of manic to depressed(I’m bipolar) and I feel like so many traumatic things have happened to me this year but I’m finally getting into a better place and some days are still so so hard but I love your mindset of making the best of the day so you won’t let yourself get into a deep depression. You’re amazing sam and I love your content and I hope you continue to get better❤️❤️
You are amazing. I appreciate how authentic & real you are with your audience.
You are one of the few people that is actually true with those watching your videos.
Young people need the realness. I love you!!!!!
I love how real and raw you are with us. Thank you so much. This honestly helps me more than you know
I found you only this week through Carrie Dayton, she gave a list of youtubers that she loved and you were one of them. When I went into the comment section of her video all I saw were comment after comment of people saying how much they loved you!! So of course I had to see what everyone else was so in love with. My first video that I watched of yours was you dancing drunk in your living room to your 2010's music playlist, I was having the worst kind of day that day and you turned that around and had me dancing and singing along with you. I just want to Thank you for just being you! You give an old lady joy with your spirit and your realness. I also love your relationship that you have with your mother.( makes me wish I had girl, I have two sons lol)
I related to this soo much. It’s comforting to know that their is someone that understands wat I’m going through
I'm going through the worst time right now with my family.... The only thing keeping me positive is watching your videos everyday. I look forward to them every day. Thank you for helping me through this dark time💗
Thank you for being so open and honest about your life. I relate to you on so many levels. I feel like I need a friend like you in my life and I have that when I watch your videos everyday, so thank you!
samantha, i adore you, you’re such a kind soul and deserve the world! you are so open with your emotions and i really am grateful to be able to watch and support a creator that is honest and kind towards these kind of subjects. i send love to you always. you’re such a beautiful, beautiful girl. i’m so excited to watch your videos now and into the future. 💓
You’re such a beautiful person, you make me feel so much more confident in myself because you’re so open and honest. It really makes me feel so normal, especially when an influencer acknowledges that they are also going through the same struggles. You give me soo much motivation to just be myself and be happy with what I have going on in my own life.
I just recently came across your channel, but I'm already in love with you and your channel. You're real and honest, that's special and very appreciated. You're doing your best and that's all you can do sometimes. Love you Sam
Hi Samantha!! Sending my love for you all the way from the Philippines!!! I'm a chloe ting subscriber and I started watching your videos up to your vlogmas! I hope you all the best and I know your strong and stronger to most. By doing this for us, we are here commenting and giving you and your mommy the good vibes that you all deserve!!! Thank you for being there and for being you! We love you! 🥰
You are getting STRONGER & inspiring ME.
You have no idea how much i understand this. Its a terrible cycle of being stuck in your head. I LOVE YOU SAM
I made the decision to not watch anyone's vlogmas because in previous years watching the videos of people in LA who seem to have perfect daily lives actually fueled my self hate and depression; but during this season I consider your channel a safe place. Thank you for being you! And stay warm (One WI girl to another)!
Sam, I wish you and mama Kelly nothing but great mental health and happiness in 2020! I love you and your honesty, you make it so personable. You just described my life entirely. I have an eating disorder too, it’s binge eating my feelings away. I’m right there with you. I love you and I’m rooting for you! ❤️
I honestly love how open and honest you are, I will support you at any size. Every time you upload it makes my day a lot better❤️
you and your mom have helped more people than you know and that is really special
This actually has helped me, haven’t been good for a few months now but for some reason, you opening up has made me look at things differently , thank you.😊😊💕
Once you’re on the right depression meds they make the world of a difference. There’s a lot of trial and error when it comes to finding the right medicine for you but they work and you’ll feel so much better. I know I do.
i admire you so much for sharing all of this so openly, especially about your eating disorder. seriously wishing the best for you. i know how much it sucks to look back at times or years of your life and feel like they were wasted due to mental health issues.. hoping that isnt the case for you and you live your absolute best. 2020 is a new year and i hope it treats you with nothing but love and kindness (same for everyone who may also be reading this) !
So proud of you. Depression is so hard. And I couldnt have explained it better. I made my husband watch tbjs. Because he doesnt get it. Doesnt get why sometimes for no reason i just lay here and cry for weeks strait. Love u girl!! So proud of you for getting help
I'm so glad that social media became a positive place for you. It really is a result of you. You have created this community. You are the reason this community is so positive. So glad you're doing better mentally too
I completely relate to almost every once of this. I graduated high school this last year and waited till the last minute to decide to graduate earlier bc the entire first semester of my senior year was awful. I love school and learning but I was so low that I never went to school, went hours late when I did go, started drinking at school and before at like 8am, failing classes, and isolating myself from absolutely everyone but my girlfriend. I continue to struggle a lot currently but have gotten so much better due to simply wanting to not feel so terrible every single day and finding a reason to keep going. little things like your vlogmas videos and honestly like this video has kept me going. thank you so much for sharing with us, Sam. we love you. ❤️
p.s. I tell my gf that you are my friend all the time bc I feel like we really are. ❤️❤️❤️
I love your vlogs, my daughter and I watch every time you post. Your so open and honest and we really appreciate that! Depression sucks and your inspiring, we watch and talk about our feels, it’s hard to get a 15 year old to talk so a million thank you s for that too! Love and hugs! Also, props to your Mom she made a good human.
These are the only vlogmas videos I watch but seriously you’re the most down to earth you tuber on here and I love it ! We love you Sam ❤️
I think of you as a friend and so in that way I am so glad you have decided to share. I know that the majority of your viewers truly care about you and your well being.
You are such a beautiful person inside and out and you have an OUTSTANDING personality! Mental health is no joke, thank you for sharing your journey! Thanks for being YOU!!🥰❤🦄
you're amazing !! takes so much to speak up on topics like this. also Samantha Jo vlogmas is the only vlogmas ive ever kept up with and enjoyed watching every single day c: love you !!! ♡♡♡
I hope that you can reframe your idea of “failure” around your eating disorder. Life is such a journey, and just like being happy and sad, sometimes you do things in a better way than other times. You didn’t fail, you just had to place focus elsewhere for the time being 💗
I love how you are super honest and open,I love you
You should be so so proud of yourself Sam!! I know I am! Battling the demons in your head is the hardest and most draining task you could ever face, and you’re bossing it! I think more than you give yourself credit for!! You are amazing keep being you!! Giving you the biggest cuddle (hopefully can in person one day, come over to the UK!) xxx
This is the first one of your vlogmas videos i missed watching the day it was posted, and it's because i had a bad day. Thank you Sam for sharing and making me feel like I have a friend in all of this. I'm also having a hard time in the cycle of depression, anxiety, seclusion and disordered eating. I finally feel like there is hope to get out of this and I'm finding resources tomorrow.
Thank you for talking about this, thank you for pulling me out of denial, and thank you for encouraging me to get up and do something. ❤️❤️❤️
just found you a couple weeks ago, now ur my fav youtuber. u have the best personality and i seriously look foward to watch vlogmas everyday. thank u sm and were here for u bb.
Thank you for posting this video, it makes me not feel so alone. Love you girlie so proud of you for pushing through
I hella appreciate how fucking real and open you are. What you go through is so similar to what I struggle with and it makes me feel like I will always have someone. You will never understand how much you have helped and how much you continue to help me. Thank you, so much for everything. You’re amazing and I love you so much. 💖💖
YOU ARE AMAZING! Thank you for helping SO many young (and old like me!) people by removing the stigma and being so vulnerable.
You are such an amazing soul love you girl we got your back❤️😍
I think you “got so lucky” with us because a lot of us discovered you through searching something relatable for me it was BED. I’m so happy I discovered you and the comments always make me realize I’m not the only one who goes though this cycle and thus stuff there’s so many of us here dealing with the same sh*t and I love this group of friends 🙂
i looooove your videos, they are so real and genuinely make me laugh and feel happy to watch. keep being you and being your authentic self online. I love that you don't let UA-cam change that. please don't let "UA-cam fame" ever change who you are!!!! you have such an amazing personality, Sam.
I have major depression and panic attacks which is caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain medications and therapy does help and eating disorders are related to how low you're feeling. It gets better honestly it does. I love you and a big hug. You are strong and fighting and working on your depression 🙏 in time you will be yourself again 🙏 always talk about it or journal 💯
I love how open you are. It takes courage to share your world like you do. I found your channel through Alex’s and I’m so thankful for that. I think channels like yours let you know that everyone struggles and we are all going to be ok. Just gotta keep swimming. ❤️
My husband struggles with anxiety and depression. It took me a long time to really understand it but after 10 years I get it. I’m not saying medication is for everyone but it really helped him. It doesn’t keep him from feeling feelings it just keeps him from the drastic highs and lows. Keeps him in that middle range. Like I said I’m not saying it’s for everyone but it might be worth a shot. Sending prayers and love to you ❤️
i went thru the EXACT same thing. it makes me happy and hopeful that u r now healing💕 hugs xo💕
Sometimes when we start on a healing journey, our deepest pains come to the surface, which could be why your eating disorder comes up while you're starting to get better. I understand this completely. I also binge eat and it tends to happen when I'm "happier"....it's like my brain tricks me into thinking I deserve it, almost like a reward. ANYWAYS. Love you for you. Thank you for sharing!!!
I’m in the seclusion part and this gives me hope that there is an end in this tunnel.