I’m having the same experience right now. I’m on the fifth week and this has been brutal. They gave me a high dose of methyl prednisone and sent me into a steroid induced psychosis. This shit is miserable. It has gotten a lot less but the maniac symptoms still there sometimes and the Anxiety attacks. It is a lot less frequent. They said it would take 6 to 8 weeks for it to go away totally this has been one hell of a horrible ride. Anyone going through this I feel for you. Just hang in there.God bless
I had almost this exact experience in May-June this year after a steroid injection while taking estradiol. I was in the mental hospital for 12 days. Thank you for sharing. I suddenly don’t feel so alone.
I had hallucinations as a child from being treated with cortisone where I believed that I was being chased by spiders. My parents were told that I was allergic to cortisone. Everytime I tell the doctors that I am allergic to cortisone they either tell me that it can't be or look at me perplexed. And there is hardly anything on the internet about this. I think I had steroid induced psychosis
Wow! That’s wild! You are the first person I’ve heard who had this as a child! Most who reach out to me were adults when it happened. I get the crazy looks too when I list off the steroids they can’t give me. Thank you for your comment! Glad it hasn’t happened since!
@@toriebrame3419 ADRENAL GLANDS can have problems with being born. ADDISONS D'S or Cushings Syndrome can come with being Born for some. and some people will not except Man made cortisols Hormones and reject the strange invader of the body. If you are having adrenal problems stay away from steroids they tend to do way more damage than any Good.
I also had this situation happen to me and I was only on steroids for a week. I didn't sleep for 5 days straight after taking them, then I slipped into the most terrifying hallucinations ever. Had to get taken to the ER, they thought I was schizophrenic so prescribed to me both antipsychotics and antidepressants at the same time which I found out later is a huge no no. Anyway I weened off of them after a week since I knew there was nothing wrong with me, and now I am completely back to normal. I really wish doctors would explain that this is very real, very possible side effect of taking steroids. Then we wouldn't have to be labeled as being insane. I can only imagine how much more scary it was to go to the psych ward after that, luckily i dodged that bullet but I feel like I too would've gotten ptsd. Thank you so much for sharing your story, it is much appreciated. We need more awareness about this.
I’m so glad you 1) went back to normal and 2) dodged the psych ward! Thank you for your comment 💜 it’s good to know we are not alone. And I completely agree about doctors being more clear about the side effects.
I once ended up with a prednisone induced psychosis, went to the emergency with my wife, they told me I should drink some alcohol and nothing they can do because I've got similar symptoms to covid. They would have let me die on the street that night, which is a fact I didn't make up, which is more scary than the psychosis I had that night.
Omg that is horrific 💔 I’m so sorry that happened to you. Sadly many of us have run into medical professionals who either aren’t trained or don’t care the way they should 😢
I was prescribed Dexamethasone in early-mid January for Covid Pneumonia; first few days were fine, but when the psychosis hit, it turned into literally the scariest experience of my life. I had to stay at my Mom’s place for the next few days, because I felt like I was going crazy. I never had any overt hallucinations, but I had thoughts and thought patterns that made no sense, intense mania, and I would have episodes where I felt like every neuron in my brain was firing at a million miles per hour and would descend into horrifying panic attacks. I quickly got off the stuff after my medically trained sister diagnosed me. Worst experience of my life. I will never take a steroid again 😥
Omg 💔💔 I’m so sorry that happened to you. I’ve definitely been there where I didn’t want to take one again. Methylprednisolone actually is okay for me in a low low dose. But it took me a long time to let a doctor give me anything. I’m so glad your sister was there to help you navigate that!!
I’m sorry to hear what happened, we are also dealing with something very similar, our family member got prescribed 10 (4mg) pills/ once a day for ten days.. The loved one didn’t start developing symptoms until atleast a week after the medication was over.. Is that what happened to you? When did you start seeing/feeling improvements?
@@toriebrame3419 Sorry for not responding sooner! But thanks for the positive thoughts, and I’m doing much better now. Hope everything is well with you too :)
@@jayross6588 Hi Jay, so sorry for not responding sooner; I haven’t been checking my notifications lately. The symptoms started getting better for me as soon as I stopped taking the steroid. It may take a couple weeks, though, to feel completely back to normal. Hope everything is well!
I had your same exact experience. In September of 2021 I was also prescribed dexamethasone for covid. I had all that you had and on top of that extreme insomnia where I couldn't sleep for 5 days straight! Luckily we are both fine now but sheesh you would think doctors would know about horrific side effects like PSYCHOSIS before freaking prescribing them! I warn everyone about them now. I hope you are well 💗
Someone I love had this steroid (dexamethasone) induced psychosis and I am waiting for them to return to normal. They've been off the steroid for almost 2 weeks. Thank you for sharing.
Us too, we are also in the same boat wondering when and even if it will wear off, the loved one is 67 years old so we are concerned they might not ever be healthy/normal again. It’s been about 14 since their last dose (4mg once a day for ten days for covid) and they are not showing any signs of improved cognitive function. I had never heard of this before, steroids are scary af, I’m warning anyone and everyone, you do NOT want this to happen to you or any loved one, hell I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, it has been EXTREMELY HORRIBLE TO SEE AND DEAL WITH 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞
@@jayross6588 how are they doing? I am doing research for a friend's husband in his 50s who had two corticosteroid injections too close to one another (time frame wise). He's been dealing with extreme depression for months and his family fears he will never heal.
@@jayross6588 my 87 year old mother was in hospital with pneumonia for 1 month. They pumped her full of high dose Prednisone and levothyroxine. She was starting to show signs of auditory hallucinations. She came home and was weaned for 2 months off of a starting home dose of 55mg Prednisone. She is in psychosis, hearing and seeing things. She is also now in steroid withdrawal which started approximately 6 days after her last dose of 5mg of Prednisone. Withdrawal as in like a drug addict detoxing. She is in a horrible state. We as a family were not given any warning. No one told us what the side effects were going to be, or that she would go into withdrawal , nothing . If I hadn't called her GP the morning after her coming home from hospital, we would not have known that it was standard . I'm furious that she was and is still going through this. We should have been as a family consulted first . I'm very sorry you are going through this my friend . I know exactly what you and your loved one is experiencing. I pray that both our loved ones will have peace and some normalcy from this soon. Blessings
Wow! Same thing happened to be as well- after having high dose steroid injection for rheumatoid arthritis and lupus. Absolutely unreal. I also have planned on telling my story but I too am in the research stage and acceptance of the event. Thank you so much for sharing. Unreal ❤️
Oh hun 💔 so sorry it happened to you! I think more people need to share the story so I’m always thankful for people who comment! Don’t feel a rush to tell it in a public way. It’ll keep until you’re ready💜
I was put on dexamethasone as part of my first round of chemotherapy and it made me have auditory hallucinations. I started to think I was dying, being chased by aliens, that I was the virgin mary and the tv/radio was talking to me directly. I was hospitalised on and off over the course of my treatment and ended up in a very low place. It’s nice to know there are people out there with the same experience as me.
I’m currently on a high dose of prednisone and feel like this is happening to me now. I’m super aware of my surroundings but constantly feel like I’m floating. An to my friends I sound crazy cause I’m constantly blurting out what’s on my mind. I just hope it doesn’t stay like this
Thank you for sharing your story. Our Dad was put on prednisone for RA. High dose for too long. He developed psychosis. We have all been thru hell. People need to know how dangerous this drug is. He has been weaned off prednisone, but he's not the same person. This experience has been heart breaking. If we had known the danger, we would have monitored it and gotten him off of prednisone much sooner.
My experience is not the same, but I went into a psychotic state of akathisia when I naively made the mistake of tapering both a benzo and Prozac at the same time. I still have PTSD from that and the scariest part was because of the half-life of Prozac, it didn't hit me until 3 months after I'd stopped and thought I was out of the woods. Right now I'm at a very uncomfortable place and tomorrow I will begin the process of slowly replacing the fluoxetine with Wellbutrin. I'm really hoping that drug has some positive results with fewer side effects. My biggest fear is ending back up in that state where I'm awake 24/7, can't eat, can't sleep, and constant terror. Thank you for being so open in your videos. Your Wellbutrin video is how I ended up here. All the best! - Bryan
I’m so sorry you went through all that. That’s a tough one! I really hope that you find the perfect thing soon! And thank you for sharing your story. Best of luck!!
I had similar mania and hallucinations happen (but not like yours) in addition to uncontrollable shskes/chills. All from 10 mcg of prednisone for a month. I too am on antidepressants as well. You are absolutely right that there’s not much to search about on this except for side effects. I did talk to my dr but they’re on vacation so the nurse told me to taper down to 5mcg until I see my immunologist (for chronic hives). Tysm for sharing your story, sorry you went through such a traumatic experience. The hallucinations were very scary. Your video really helped me feel like I’m not alone.
Wow thank you so much for your comment! And that’s so rough you experienced all those symptoms from such a low dose 😱 I’m glad my video helped in some way ❤️ sending you so much love!
Hey it's me again (different account) Thank you so much! Yeah, Prednisone psychosis +Withdrawal can happen at low doses such as 10mgs. My Dr explained it gets into every tissue in your body and can get into the wiring of your brain so it can interrupt things. But they still don't know for certain if it's from prednisone but they are leaning towards it being such. I was doing okay going on 5mg (but felt like absolute garbage all week) then felt much better at 4mg. I tapered down 1mg at a time, but once I got on the 3mg the hallucinations and shakes returned every night. I'm on 2mg right now and I get them nightly, so I take .5 of Ativan (it was prescribed to me for these symptoms) and for the most part helps. Sometimes I have to take 2 pills if I get woken up again with tactile hallucinations + uncontrolable shaking. They all tend to happen 12 hours after taking my prednisone dose each day. So I get the withdrawal symptoms at night. They seem worse the day after I taper down too. So I'm absolutely convinced it's adrenal crisis + withdrawals. I'm going to see my psychiatrist tomorrow and see what else I can do next. Prednisone is nothing to mess with long-term. It just sucks so much that there's hardly any info on hallucinations or psychosis online nor much support groups for it because it's such a rare side effect. So it helps not to feel alone in this. I Do want to ask, did the psychosis go away after you stopped prednisone? Or did it take some time to leave your system before the psychosis symptoms stopped happening?
My wife had almost exact experience you did back in April 2022, she was in psychosis for 35 days. Doc gave her a very high dosage of prednisone & my wife is a very small person so that combo did not work @ all. First stage was the joyfulness & the extreme ideas, second was the religion stage, third was the sleep deprivation & final was the full blown talking to angels & demons. Fortunately I was able to keep her out of psych ward @ the hospital but it was probably the scariest thing I’ve ever experienced w my wife, I felt so helpless & there was times where she was lucid but it was for like a 15 min period & then after that she was back in psychosis. God bless she is now good & hanging in strong, thank you for sharing your story.
That was soo extreme Torri 😳!. I'm sorry you had to go through that unsettling experience. So life altering, and reality shaking. What is reality? What are you thoughts on the spirit realm? Is there a such realm or reality that most natural men and women cannot see. Perhaps a supernatural realm? Regardless of how you were ushered there I mean you gotta admit something very real and extraordinary was happening to you. How is it that alot of people experience exactly what you have experienced without zoloft or steroids, some experience it without any drugs or substances at all.
Yeah that experience kicked off a spiritual awakening for me. A lot of the things I saw during that time stuck with me. ua-cam.com/video/CFtsHf1lVI4/v-deo.html This guy’s Ted talk really helped me. I wasn’t sure if my crazy just stayed or if I had been shown things on purpose. But now I really believe there was a lot of spiritual stuff going on that was meant to me. Very insightful comment thank you!!
Thank you so much for sharing your experience which has given me the courage to share my own. You are so right that there isn’t a lot out here for folks like us. I have MS and I am going through my 2nd occurrence of optic neuritis. I’ve been on steroids including IV for over a week and have 6 more days to go. I started experiencing steroid induced myopathy on my 2nd day of IV steroids and started experiencing steroid induced psychosis on my 3rd day of IV steroids. I have a useless ophthalmologist, an excellent neurologist and neuro-ophthalmologist but all insist on keeping me on the steroids at a reduced oral dose and documenting/ monitoring the psychosis and myopathy. I’m an educator so luckily I’ve been able to take my classes online because I can’t drive and can barely walk right now, plus I have organ traffickers chasing me through the jungles of Brazil with machetes and demons popping out of car windows. It sounds insane! And even harder for me to understand how lucid I am that I know it’s not real but there are moments that it feels very real….
One of the most traumatizing things that ever happened in my life was the steroid psychosis I experienced and 2018. It lasted for about 2 weeks. I was in a dream like state, never admitted myself or went to the er. Everyone just thought I cracked and so did i. I thought I killed the Brazilian president, had a bounty of $500,000 on my head, went to China and India for a game show. Spent time with the jackass crew from MTV and more disturbing things. It took me a long time to figure out what it was considering when I went to the doctor they kicked me out and said I sounded like a crazy drug addict. Almost lost my job and was speaking nonsense to strangers at my job. My doctor prescribed me 900 mg of prednisone a day which just threw me into the most disturbing mind fuck nothing experience. Hopefully I can do a research paper on this Sunday and use everybody's experience on here as well to spread awareness cuz my God no one should have to experience that type of terror and confusion
@@mish6063 my son is 21…he was admitted to the psych ward for two weeks. He is home and supporting him with medications and therapy (psychiatrist and family therapist) The doctors are treating him for bi polar disorder. It’s been about 6 weeks since treatment began. He is better but needs to be monitored and guided. I take it one day at a time.
I went to the ER a few weeks ago & they gave me Dexamethasone through IV. I went into the worst mental health decline i have ever had. I was paranoid, very anxious, i couldn’t sleep nor stay still, i was very emotional, i couldn’t get grounded. It was the worst!
Had a high dose steroid last week and think I’m going through mania? I can hardly speak and make sense. I have all the symptoms except hallucinations that I know of that makes me think it’s not psychosis. Im still not feeling good and my dr only put me on a low dose of a benzodiazepine and only 2 times a day, what doesn’t even cover the whole day. I just want to feel normal again. I feel like I’m losing it i don’t know if i can make it to my next dr appointment on Wednesday.
Stay strong, I've been dealing with the same symptoms for 8 weeks now after a dexamethasone dose, start feeling better. Thank God, ask your doctor if you probably need some antipsychotic for a couple of weeks and try to sleep as much as you can God bless
@@davidvalle1766 thank you, hopefully you start feeling better soon! I'm probably going to ask for a better benzo, for more doses throughout the day and see if there's anything else they can do to help. Hopefully I can make it to Wednesday cos I dont feel like im having much improvement. Wish I knew that this was a side effect beforehand
@peepohappy69 I've been taking clonazepam and olanzapine, it really helps, everybody is different, sadly with the steroids once they're in it's gonna take a while to get them out of the body Sleep well, relax, and drink plenty of water. God willing, you will be better soon. God bless
@@davidvalle1766 I'm on Oxazepam. I'm scared of trying an antipsychotic, I don't know why. Don't know how it'd effect me and what it'll be like. I'll ask my doctor what they think about those medicines you mentioned. I don't think my doctor knows much about steroid induced issues. Because they didn't seem to know what I was talking about when I came in. They had to search it up as they didn't know. So I don't know how much help I'll get from my doctor. Kinda just want to go somewhere like a hospital so I can just get all the proper medicine and have someone who knows what's happening. What doses are you on for the Clonazepam and Olanzapine? Hope you're feeling a bit better today and going okay
I was hospitalised in Jan 2021 for covid pneumonia, given antibiotics and Dexamethasone via IV. The psychosis started that evening, angels visited me and took me to see God. He told me I had a choice and if I wanted to return I would be able to heal people. Upon returning I thought I had the ability to heal and I had returned to save everyone from covid. I didn’t sleep for days and days and then developed severe paranoia where I thought someone was trying to kill me. Hallucinations were frequent, when transported for tests within the hospital the staff turned into dead relatives. This all carried on for 2 weeks and was the most frightening experience of my life. I also developed severe muscle spasms which they treated with a drug they give to people with Parkinson’s disease- can’t remember the name. After being discharged, coming off all the drugs was horrendous and left me with severe muscle paid for months. Thankfully I am almost back to normal now but the experience will never leave me.
I’m so sorry all that happened to you. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so glad you were able to get back to yourself. I also totally know what you mean by it will never leave.
My story isn’t quite as severe as yours, however I had a very high dose dexa taper following a major surgery. I had one intense psychosis episode where I felt my consciousness leave my head and run around the room, as well as not sleeping more than 30 mins a night for a week. Following that for weeks after I had hallucinations where I was transported back to my childhood; triggered by sounds or smells. It’s so frustrating that clinicians aren’t educated on the possible side effects and don’t communicate the risks to patients. I hope you’re doing better now :)
I am experiencing something a bit similar to what you describe and I feel like I have been so burdensome yo my boyfriend, but he has been so incredibly amazingly supportive. Butni am so scared right now because I feel my mind slipping and then moments of lucidity and then triggers and mood swings and mania and I am so scared thank you for sharing and helping me feel like I’m not alone in this right now. I’m not crazy. It’s going to go away. I’ll have my mind back.
So sorry you are going through this. You are not a burden 💜 just enjoy having someone love you so much like that. You are not crazy. You might just need a little extra support. Definitely not crazy tho.
Prednisone and naproxen was prescribed for my herniated disc. I am an athlete and don't do drugs this happened to me today and i live alone and have been searching for help. You are the only one I found . I'm not touching those again . Will my psychosis state leave ? I'm hearing wolves howling and a person groaning in agony. I feel like I'm in hell I can't imagine your long journey
Thanks so much for your comment and so sorry you’re going through it! I’d talk to your doctor as soon as you can and see what adjustments can be made. Hoping it gets better soon!
They could refer you to an antipsychotic. After the steroid, I was prescribed Abilify and felt like I was ready for anything in life. I would go places I would not normally Go. Being a piano keyboardist and Editer creating Music and harmony over dubbing vocalist . i was invited the Key to a music studio in the City !! the studio was advanced machinery. after about 3 months I went in the opposite direction never returning back to the Studio in a lost Grave Psychoses lasting 2 years. They never understood what happened.
Dexamethasone is one hell of steroid and although absolutely terrifying/I never wish it upon anyone, I'm glad to know I'm not alone. I only had dexamethasone in my system and had a VERY similar experience to yours. Anyone who is prescribed the drug should be given your UA-cam link. I felt ill-prepared and it's clear (given my own/everyones individual experiences) the general medical field is too when it comes to these scenarios even though plenty of cases and research confirming this exists. Thanks for sharing your story
I know im a little late but im reaching out because im afraid for my mother. She had covid 2 weeks ago and the doctor (non primary) perscribed her an average dose of dexa not knowing she is extremely sinsetive to medicines. She is having this exact situation, minus the hallucinations (thats shes made us aware of). She is sleeping 2 hours a night max and extremely emotional and fogged head. Her primary doctor has put her on .5 mg of atavan (3 times daily as needed, i convinced her to try only morning and night to not gain dependence on it) to ease the anxiety and she has been off the steroids for 1 week today after only taking them for 5 days. Any tips or advise you have for her family or for her? And what time frame would you guess we would be looking at for her to start feeling herself again? thanks so much.
Hey! So sorry you guys are all going through this! I would say be patient with her. And remember that she is still in there just not feeling herself so be kind to her. I had a different treatment to get back to normal so I can’t speak to that. But I’d encourage you to stay on it and keep in touch with her doctor if she gets worse or isn’t back to normal in a week or two. It took me awhile to get back, but I was closely monitored the whole time. It’s just a safe bet for everyone in the situation. Sending healing vibes. Sending her a hug from me 💜
@@toriebrame3419 thanks so much. She was in the hospital for 48 hours or so after fainting when she stopped taking dexa, they gave her lots of fluids and brought her blood pressure and sugar back to normal and she’s home now. She has friends coming over regularly and I spent the night last night to help. She says talking and doing things helps instead of just sitting around. So we’re trying to keep her engaged in things while also letting her rest. Thank you sincerely for making this video. As a scared son of an even more scared mom it is comforting seeing someone who has made it through. So sorry that you had the experience you did and hope all is up hill for you and yours from here.
It sounds like she has an amazing support system around her! I really hope she starts to feel herself again soon. And thank you for your kind words. You guys are far from alone in this. Hang in there!
I just basically ruined my life because of this crap. I was put on dexamethasone and methylprednisolone for a long taper (2 months) from a very high IV dose. I basically went into a delusionary state where I couldn't sleep for up to 5 or 6 days straight most weeks and was pretty much in a dream state n believing things that weren't real. This went on for 2 months. I too experienced all the hallucinating and even physically feeling like I'm floating when I would lay down. I too "seemed sane" at moments but others I would be doing and saying the most bizarre shit. I pretty much have no memory from jan2023 to march2023. I also had severe diabetes and was having comas multiple times a week which I know added to this psychosis. I am lucky to be alive but lost many friends and ruined my reputation in my town. This has been a complete nightmare. Not to mention the insane spending spree I went on. I'm pretty much broken mentally and financially after this ride I went on. Thank you for sharing your experience! I felt so alone! Still feel alone cuz nobody not even the doctors understand the depth of this shit
@@toriebrame3419 I am on olanzapine and it seems to be working, did you also have to take this or did you have to take anything else with it? I am scared to go to doctors now and ask for more medication.
@@kulkaur8003 they gave me risperidone. It took me about 3 months to wean off it. Never came back after. I was scared for a long time to try anything though. So I feel ya.
Nearly 10 years ago after a couple months battle of steroids pre, during, and post back surgery I ended up in the ER. Scariest thing I have ever experienced and my wife went through it with me. The best way to describe it was the absence of God. Felt like I was the only real thing in the world and universe. It radically change my life and direction. Sometime I wonder if I actually saw another dimension of life.
Oh wow. Yes it did feel like that for me too. Like seeing a whole new reality that only I could see. How did it change you? I also felt a radical shift after it.
Everyone is different so I can’t say for sure. Mine lasted a few months and I needed antipsychotics to get back to normal. Hopefully yours is mild enough to go away faster.
Why i became the most Atheist agnostic because all my life with Jesus was nothing really not all that true reality and behind my deepest feelings I knew it. I always Hope for an honest Loving Creator but fails me to at least know. Reading Parts of the Scriptures i probably should have never read. But a loving honest Creator wouldn't call me a sinner for doing some research on why Scriptures tell you to shut up and know not of yourself rings a Big Bell and finding out why is simply being honest and truthful and any honest Doubt as horrible as it stands must stand. we were gifted with Knowledge and going to use it at any given Moment. i don't think a true loving Creator would want our spirits always confused and frustrated? But rather settled at ease full of Concentration. though Sin and stupid things come with the Consequences of.
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I’m having the same experience right now. I’m on the fifth week and this has been brutal. They gave me a high dose of methyl prednisone and sent me into a steroid induced psychosis. This shit is miserable. It has gotten a lot less but the maniac symptoms still there sometimes and the Anxiety attacks. It is a lot less frequent. They said it would take 6 to 8 weeks for it to go away totally this has been one hell of a horrible ride. Anyone going through this I feel for you. Just hang in there.God bless
I had almost this exact experience in May-June this year after a steroid injection while taking estradiol. I was in the mental hospital for 12 days. Thank you for sharing. I suddenly don’t feel so alone.
Oh wow 💔 so sorry that happened. Glad you are feeling better ❤️❤️ you are certainly not alone.
Does prednisone psychosis go away or are you on meds the rest of your life?
I had hallucinations as a child from being treated with cortisone where I believed that I was being chased by spiders. My parents were told that I was allergic to cortisone. Everytime I tell the doctors that I am allergic to cortisone they either tell me that it can't be or look at me perplexed. And there is hardly anything on the internet about this. I think I had steroid induced psychosis
Wow! That’s wild! You are the first person I’ve heard who had this as a child! Most who reach out to me were adults when it happened. I get the crazy looks too when I list off the steroids they can’t give me. Thank you for your comment! Glad it hasn’t happened since!
@@toriebrame3419 ADRENAL GLANDS can have problems with being born. ADDISONS D'S or Cushings Syndrome can come with being Born for some. and some people will not except Man made cortisols Hormones and reject the strange invader of the body. If you are having adrenal problems stay away from steroids they tend to do way more damage than any Good.
So glad you're still with us and fought through the hell that many of us had to experience.
Thank you 🥰🥰
I also had this situation happen to me and I was only on steroids for a week. I didn't sleep for 5 days straight after taking them, then I slipped into the most terrifying hallucinations ever. Had to get taken to the ER, they thought I was schizophrenic so prescribed to me both antipsychotics and antidepressants at the same time which I found out later is a huge no no. Anyway I weened off of them after a week since I knew there was nothing wrong with me, and now I am completely back to normal.
I really wish doctors would explain that this is very real, very possible side effect of taking steroids. Then we wouldn't have to be labeled as being insane. I can only imagine how much more scary it was to go to the psych ward after that, luckily i dodged that bullet but I feel like I too would've gotten ptsd.
Thank you so much for sharing your story, it is much appreciated. We need more awareness about this.
I’m so glad you 1) went back to normal and 2) dodged the psych ward! Thank you for your comment 💜 it’s good to know we are not alone. And I completely agree about doctors being more clear about the side effects.
I suffered panic attacks and insomnia for months after Prednisone
@@ENIGMA111-c2whow many months bro ?
@@ishmelly210 2 - 3 months
I once ended up with a prednisone induced psychosis, went to the emergency with my wife, they told me I should drink some alcohol and nothing they can do because I've got similar symptoms to covid. They would have let me die on the street that night, which is a fact I didn't make up, which is more scary than the psychosis I had that night.
Omg that is horrific 💔 I’m so sorry that happened to you. Sadly many of us have run into medical professionals who either aren’t trained or don’t care the way they should 😢
@@toriebrame3419 ...or both
Thankyou for sharing, have a family member going through a similar situation and hearing how strong you are gives me hope for my sister ❤️
Sending hugs💜 Hoping things improve soon. You’re a good sister.
I was prescribed Dexamethasone in early-mid January for Covid Pneumonia; first few days were fine, but when the psychosis hit, it turned into literally the scariest experience of my life. I had to stay at my Mom’s place for the next few days, because I felt like I was going crazy. I never had any overt hallucinations, but I had thoughts and thought patterns that made no sense, intense mania, and I would have episodes where I felt like every neuron in my brain was firing at a million miles per hour and would descend into horrifying panic attacks. I quickly got off the stuff after my medically trained sister diagnosed me. Worst experience of my life. I will never take a steroid again 😥
Omg 💔💔 I’m so sorry that happened to you. I’ve definitely been there where I didn’t want to take one again. Methylprednisolone actually is okay for me in a low low dose. But it took me a long time to let a doctor give me anything. I’m so glad your sister was there to help you navigate that!!
I’m sorry to hear what happened, we are also dealing with something very similar, our family member got prescribed 10 (4mg) pills/ once a day for ten days.. The loved one didn’t start developing symptoms until atleast a week after the medication was over.. Is that what happened to you? When did you start seeing/feeling improvements?
@@toriebrame3419 Sorry for not responding sooner! But thanks for the positive thoughts, and I’m doing much better now. Hope everything is well with you too :)
@@jayross6588 Hi Jay, so sorry for not responding sooner; I haven’t been checking my notifications lately. The symptoms started getting better for me as soon as I stopped taking the steroid. It may take a couple weeks, though, to feel completely back to normal. Hope everything is well!
I had your same exact experience. In September of 2021 I was also prescribed dexamethasone for covid. I had all that you had and on top of that extreme insomnia where I couldn't sleep for 5 days straight! Luckily we are both fine now but sheesh you would think doctors would know about horrific side effects like PSYCHOSIS before freaking prescribing them! I warn everyone about them now. I hope you are well 💗
Someone I love had this steroid (dexamethasone) induced psychosis and I am waiting for them to return to normal. They've been off the steroid for almost 2 weeks. Thank you for sharing.
Oh hugs ❤️ sending you and them all the love and healing!
Us too, we are also in the same boat wondering when and even if it will wear off, the loved one is 67 years old so we are concerned they might not ever be healthy/normal again. It’s been about 14 since their last dose (4mg once a day for ten days for covid) and they are not showing any signs of improved cognitive function. I had never heard of this before, steroids are scary af, I’m warning anyone and everyone, you do NOT want this to happen to you or any loved one, hell I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, it has been EXTREMELY HORRIBLE TO SEE AND DEAL WITH 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞
@@jayross6588 how are they doing? I am doing research for a friend's husband in his 50s who had two corticosteroid injections too close to one another (time frame wise). He's been dealing with extreme depression for months and his family fears he will never heal.
@@jayross6588 my 87 year old mother was in hospital with pneumonia for 1 month. They pumped her full of high dose Prednisone and levothyroxine. She was starting to show signs of auditory hallucinations. She came home and was weaned for 2 months off of a starting home dose of 55mg Prednisone. She is in psychosis, hearing and seeing things. She is also now in steroid withdrawal which started approximately 6 days after her last dose of 5mg of Prednisone. Withdrawal as in like a drug addict detoxing. She is in a horrible state. We as a family were not given any warning. No one told us what the side effects were going to be, or that she would go into withdrawal , nothing . If I hadn't called her GP the morning after her coming home from hospital, we would not have known that it was standard . I'm furious that she was and is still going through this. We should have been as a family consulted first . I'm very sorry you are going through this my friend . I know exactly what you and your loved one is experiencing. I pray that both our loved ones will have peace and some normalcy from this soon. Blessings
I had a family member who entered psychosis from dexmethasone. She was determined to write a james bond novel and didn't sleep for days
Oh wow! Yeah I didn’t sleep for a long time! Did she come down off of it okay?
@@toriebrame3419 yeah shes back now but it took the best part of 2 months
Wow! Same thing happened to be as well- after having high dose steroid injection for rheumatoid arthritis and lupus. Absolutely unreal. I also have planned on telling my story but I too am in the research stage and acceptance of the event. Thank you so much for sharing. Unreal ❤️
Oh hun 💔 so sorry it happened to you! I think more people need to share the story so I’m always thankful for people who comment! Don’t feel a rush to tell it in a public way. It’ll keep until you’re ready💜
I was put on dexamethasone as part of my first round of chemotherapy and it made me have auditory hallucinations. I started to think I was dying, being chased by aliens, that I was the virgin mary and the tv/radio was talking to me directly. I was hospitalised on and off over the course of my treatment and ended up in a very low place. It’s nice to know there are people out there with the same experience as me.
Adding to this, I only slept for 3 hours a night during this
That is just awful!! I’m so sorry you went through psychosis but I’m glad you had people around you to help.
Thank you ❤ It was meant to be. And not fun to experience.
I’m currently on a high dose of prednisone and feel like this is happening to me now. I’m super aware of my surroundings but constantly feel like I’m floating. An to my friends I sound crazy cause I’m constantly blurting out what’s on my mind. I just hope it doesn’t stay like this
You should call your dr. and let them know what’s going on. I hope you get better soon!
@@toriebrame3419 thank you I saw my doctor earlier today an told him. I’m really happy to have come across your video before my appointment
Thank you for sharing your story. Our Dad was put on prednisone for RA. High dose for too long. He developed psychosis. We have all been thru hell. People need to know how dangerous this drug is. He has been weaned off prednisone, but he's not the same person. This experience has been heart breaking. If we had known the danger, we would have monitored it and gotten him off of prednisone much sooner.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this with your dad 💔 I hope you can find something that will help him come back to himself.
Thank you. Had a spinal injection and am going through this now. ❤
Sending my love 💜💜
This happened to me in 1999, I was PRESCRIBED huge steroids big as tylenol and I STOPPED SLEEPING AND WENT VERY PSYCHOTIC.
It is so great rhat you share your story to help others
Thank you so much 🥰
My experience is not the same, but I went into a psychotic state of akathisia when I naively made the mistake of tapering both a benzo and Prozac at the same time. I still have PTSD from that and the scariest part was because of the half-life of Prozac, it didn't hit me until 3 months after I'd stopped and thought I was out of the woods.
Right now I'm at a very uncomfortable place and tomorrow I will begin the process of slowly replacing the fluoxetine with Wellbutrin. I'm really hoping that drug has some positive results with fewer side effects. My biggest fear is ending back up in that state where I'm awake 24/7, can't eat, can't sleep, and constant terror.
Thank you for being so open in your videos. Your Wellbutrin video is how I ended up here. All the best! - Bryan
I’m so sorry you went through all that. That’s a tough one! I really hope that you find the perfect thing soon! And thank you for sharing your story. Best of luck!!
I had similar mania and hallucinations happen (but not like yours) in addition to uncontrollable shskes/chills. All from 10 mcg of prednisone for a month. I too am on antidepressants as well. You are absolutely right that there’s not much to search about on this except for side effects.
I did talk to my dr but they’re on vacation so the nurse told me to taper down to 5mcg until I see my immunologist (for chronic hives).
Tysm for sharing your story, sorry you went through such a traumatic experience. The hallucinations were very scary.
Your video really helped me feel like I’m not alone.
Wow thank you so much for your comment! And that’s so rough you experienced all those symptoms from such a low dose 😱 I’m glad my video helped in some way ❤️ sending you so much love!
Hey it's me again (different account) Thank you so much! Yeah, Prednisone psychosis +Withdrawal can happen at low doses such as 10mgs. My Dr explained it gets into every tissue in your body and can get into the wiring of your brain so it can interrupt things. But they still don't know for certain if it's from prednisone but they are leaning towards it being such.
I was doing okay going on 5mg (but felt like absolute garbage all week) then felt much better at 4mg. I tapered down 1mg at a time, but once I got on the 3mg the hallucinations and shakes returned every night. I'm on 2mg right now and I get them nightly, so I take .5 of Ativan (it was prescribed to me for these symptoms) and for the most part helps. Sometimes I have to take 2 pills if I get woken up again with tactile hallucinations + uncontrolable shaking. They all tend to happen 12 hours after taking my prednisone dose each day. So I get the withdrawal symptoms at night. They seem worse the day after I taper down too. So I'm absolutely convinced it's adrenal crisis + withdrawals. I'm going to see my psychiatrist tomorrow and see what else I can do next. Prednisone is nothing to mess with long-term.
It just sucks so much that there's hardly any info on hallucinations or psychosis online nor much support groups for it because it's such a rare side effect. So it helps not to feel alone in this. I Do want to ask, did the psychosis go away after you stopped prednisone? Or did it take some time to leave your system before the psychosis symptoms stopped happening?
My wife had almost exact experience you did back in April 2022, she was in psychosis for 35 days. Doc gave her a very high dosage of prednisone & my wife is a very small person so that combo did not work @ all. First stage was the joyfulness & the extreme ideas, second was the religion stage, third was the sleep deprivation & final was the full blown talking to angels & demons. Fortunately I was able to keep her out of psych ward @ the hospital but it was probably the scariest thing I’ve ever experienced w my wife, I felt so helpless & there was times where she was lucid but it was for like a 15 min period & then after that she was back in psychosis. God bless she is now good & hanging in strong, thank you for sharing your story.
Hi, how long did she take it for and at what dose?
The same situation happened to my husband.
That was soo extreme Torri 😳!. I'm sorry you had to go through that unsettling experience. So life altering, and reality shaking. What is reality? What are you thoughts on the spirit realm? Is there a such realm or reality that most natural men and women cannot see. Perhaps a supernatural realm? Regardless of how you were ushered there I mean you gotta admit something very real and extraordinary was happening to you. How is it that alot of people experience exactly what you have experienced without zoloft or steroids, some experience it without any drugs or substances at all.
Yeah that experience kicked off a spiritual awakening for me. A lot of the things I saw during that time stuck with me. ua-cam.com/video/CFtsHf1lVI4/v-deo.html
This guy’s Ted talk really helped me. I wasn’t sure if my crazy just stayed or if I had been shown things on purpose. But now I really believe there was a lot of spiritual stuff going on that was meant to me. Very insightful comment thank you!!
Thank you so much for sharing your experience which has given me the courage to share my own. You are so right that there isn’t a lot out here for folks like us. I have MS and I am going through my 2nd occurrence of optic neuritis. I’ve been on steroids including IV for over a week and have 6 more days to go. I started experiencing steroid induced myopathy on my 2nd day of IV steroids and started experiencing steroid induced psychosis on my 3rd day of IV steroids. I have a useless ophthalmologist, an excellent neurologist and neuro-ophthalmologist but all insist on keeping me on the steroids at a reduced oral dose and documenting/ monitoring the psychosis and myopathy. I’m an educator so luckily I’ve been able to take my classes online because I can’t drive and can barely walk right now, plus I have organ traffickers chasing me through the jungles of Brazil with machetes and demons popping out of car windows. It sounds insane! And even harder for me to understand how lucid I am that I know it’s not real but there are moments that it feels very real….
Hi! Thank you so much for sharing your story. I’m sorry you are going through so much 💔 sending you all the healing thoughts and vibes💜
One of the most traumatizing things that ever happened in my life was the steroid psychosis I experienced and 2018. It lasted for about 2 weeks. I was in a dream like state, never admitted myself or went to the er. Everyone just thought I cracked and so did i. I thought I killed the Brazilian president, had a bounty of $500,000 on my head, went to China and India for a game show. Spent time with the jackass crew from MTV and more disturbing things. It took me a long time to figure out what it was considering when I went to the doctor they kicked me out and said I sounded like a crazy drug addict. Almost lost my job and was speaking nonsense to strangers at my job. My doctor prescribed me 900 mg of prednisone a day which just threw me into the most disturbing mind fuck nothing experience. Hopefully I can do a research paper on this Sunday and use everybody's experience on here as well to spread awareness cuz my God no one should have to experience that type of terror and confusion
Thanks you for sharing this as I am researching to help figure out what caused this with my son. He is experiencing this now.
Sending prayers 💜💜
How is your son? We are currently dealing with this with my 5 year old
@@mish6063 my son is 21…he was admitted to the psych ward for two weeks. He is home and supporting him with medications and therapy (psychiatrist and family therapist) The doctors are treating him for bi polar disorder. It’s been about 6 weeks since treatment began. He is better but needs to be monitored and guided. I take it one day at a time.
@@laniraepedro5437 what was the cause, steroids? My son has been on prednisone, albuterol, and zrytec
@@mish6063 yes, steroids. Prednisone and dexamethasone shot provided at same time.
I went to the ER a few weeks ago & they gave me Dexamethasone through IV. I went into the worst mental health decline i have ever had. I was paranoid, very anxious, i couldn’t sleep nor stay still, i was very emotional, i couldn’t get grounded. It was the worst!
Wow that’s so scary! Thanks for sharing your story! You are not alone!
How long did those affects last residually?
Can you explain this a little more, this is what I’m going through
For me it took meds for the next 2 months to even me out
What would you like to know more specifically? I’ll answer whatever I can 💜
Had a high dose steroid last week and think I’m going through mania? I can hardly speak and make sense. I have all the symptoms except hallucinations that I know of that makes me think it’s not psychosis. Im still not feeling good and my dr only put me on a low dose of a benzodiazepine and only 2 times a day, what doesn’t even cover the whole day.
I just want to feel normal again. I feel like I’m losing it i don’t know if i can make it to my next dr appointment on Wednesday.
Stay strong, I've been dealing with the same symptoms for 8 weeks now after a dexamethasone dose, start feeling better. Thank God, ask your doctor if you probably need some antipsychotic for a couple of weeks and try to sleep as much as you can
God bless
@@davidvalle1766 thank you, hopefully you start feeling better soon! I'm probably going to ask for a better benzo, for more doses throughout the day and see if there's anything else they can do to help. Hopefully I can make it to Wednesday cos I dont feel like im having much improvement.
Wish I knew that this was a side effect beforehand
@peepohappy69 I've been taking clonazepam and olanzapine, it really helps, everybody is different, sadly with the steroids once they're in it's gonna take a while to get them out of the body
Sleep well, relax, and drink plenty of water. God willing, you will be better soon.
God bless
@@davidvalle1766 I'm on Oxazepam. I'm scared of trying an antipsychotic, I don't know why. Don't know how it'd effect me and what it'll be like.
I'll ask my doctor what they think about those medicines you mentioned. I don't think my doctor knows much about steroid induced issues.
Because they didn't seem to know what I was talking about when I came in. They had to search it up as they didn't know.
So I don't know how much help I'll get from my doctor.
Kinda just want to go somewhere like a hospital so I can just get all the proper medicine and have someone who knows what's happening.
What doses are you on for the Clonazepam and Olanzapine?
Hope you're feeling a bit better today and going okay
@peepohappy69 I'm taking very small dosis. Don't be afraid to look for treatment , but make sure to go to the right doctor for this case.
God bless
I had the same steroid induced psychosis, I thought I was close to God too. Mine was hallucinations but it wasn't as scary as yours
Ugh so sorry that happened! Thank you for telling me! It’s always good to know I’m not alone ❤️
hope you are better now 🙏🙏🙏🙏
I was hospitalised in Jan 2021 for covid pneumonia, given antibiotics and Dexamethasone via IV. The psychosis started that evening, angels visited me and took me to see God. He told me I had a choice and if I wanted to return I would be able to heal people. Upon returning I thought I had the ability to heal and I had returned to save everyone from covid. I didn’t sleep for days and days and then developed severe paranoia where I thought someone was trying to kill me. Hallucinations were frequent, when transported for tests within the hospital the staff turned into dead relatives. This all carried on for 2 weeks and was the most frightening experience of my life. I also developed severe muscle spasms which they treated with a drug they give to people with Parkinson’s disease- can’t remember the name. After being discharged, coming off all the drugs was horrendous and left me with severe muscle paid for months. Thankfully I am almost back to normal now but the experience will never leave me.
I’m so sorry all that happened to you. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so glad you were able to get back to yourself. I also totally know what you mean by it will never leave.
My story isn’t quite as severe as yours, however I had a very high dose dexa taper following a major surgery. I had one intense psychosis episode where I felt my consciousness leave my head and run around the room, as well as not sleeping more than 30 mins a night for a week. Following that for weeks after I had hallucinations where I was transported back to my childhood; triggered by sounds or smells. It’s so frustrating that clinicians aren’t educated on the possible side effects and don’t communicate the risks to patients. I hope you’re doing better now :)
So sorry to hear that happened to you. I so appreciate you telling me! It helps us all feel less alone. And yes I’m much much better now ❤️
I am experiencing something a bit similar to what you describe and I feel like I have been so burdensome yo my boyfriend, but he has been so incredibly amazingly supportive. Butni am so scared right now because I feel my mind slipping and then moments of lucidity and then triggers and mood swings and mania and I am so scared thank you for sharing and helping me feel like I’m not alone in this right now. I’m not crazy. It’s going to go away. I’ll have my mind back.
So sorry you are going through this. You are not a burden 💜 just enjoy having someone love you so much like that. You are not crazy. You might just need a little extra support. Definitely not crazy tho.
Prednisone and naproxen was prescribed for my herniated disc. I am an athlete and don't do drugs this happened to me today and i live alone and have been searching for help. You are the only one I found . I'm not touching those again . Will my psychosis state leave ? I'm hearing wolves howling and a person groaning in agony. I feel like I'm in hell I can't imagine your long journey
Thanks so much for your comment and so sorry you’re going through it! I’d talk to your doctor as soon as you can and see what adjustments can be made. Hoping it gets better soon!
Hi, have You recovered?
Glad to know they figure it out.
Me too 😅
They could refer you to an antipsychotic. After the steroid, I was prescribed Abilify and felt like I was ready for anything in life. I would go places I would not normally Go. Being a piano keyboardist and Editer creating Music and harmony over dubbing vocalist . i was invited the Key to a music studio in the City !! the studio was advanced machinery. after about 3 months I went in the opposite direction never returning back to the Studio in a lost Grave Psychoses lasting 2 years. They never understood what happened.
Thank you for sharing!
I had this happen. I have RA. I had a very bad reaction to high dose Prednisone. I almost died.
So sorry to hear it 💔
Dexamethasone is one hell of steroid and although absolutely terrifying/I never wish it upon anyone, I'm glad to know I'm not alone. I only had dexamethasone in my system and had a VERY similar experience to yours. Anyone who is prescribed the drug should be given your UA-cam link. I felt ill-prepared and it's clear (given my own/everyones individual experiences) the general medical field is too when it comes to these scenarios even though plenty of cases and research confirming this exists. Thanks for sharing your story
Oh no 💔 I’m so sorry all that happened to you. I’m glad you know you are not alone 💜
I know im a little late but im reaching out because im afraid for my mother. She had covid 2 weeks ago and the doctor (non primary) perscribed her an average dose of dexa not knowing she is extremely sinsetive to medicines. She is having this exact situation, minus the hallucinations (thats shes made us aware of). She is sleeping 2 hours a night max and extremely emotional and fogged head. Her primary doctor has put her on .5 mg of atavan (3 times daily as needed, i convinced her to try only morning and night to not gain dependence on it) to ease the anxiety and she has been off the steroids for 1 week today after only taking them for 5 days. Any tips or advise you have for her family or for her? And what time frame would you guess we would be looking at for her to start feeling herself again?
thanks so much.
Hey! So sorry you guys are all going through this! I would say be patient with her. And remember that she is still in there just not feeling herself so be kind to her. I had a different treatment to get back to normal so I can’t speak to that. But I’d encourage you to stay on it and keep in touch with her doctor if she gets worse or isn’t back to normal in a week or two. It took me awhile to get back, but I was closely monitored the whole time. It’s just a safe bet for everyone in the situation. Sending healing vibes. Sending her a hug from me 💜
@@toriebrame3419 thanks so much. She was in the hospital for 48 hours or so after fainting when she stopped taking dexa, they gave her lots of fluids and brought her blood pressure and sugar back to normal and she’s home now. She has friends coming over regularly and I spent the night last night to help. She says talking and doing things helps instead of just sitting around. So we’re trying to keep her engaged in things while also letting her rest.
Thank you sincerely for making this video. As a scared son of an even more scared mom it is comforting seeing someone who has made it through. So sorry that you had the experience you did and hope all is up hill for you and yours from here.
It sounds like she has an amazing support system around her! I really hope she starts to feel herself again soon. And thank you for your kind words. You guys are far from alone in this. Hang in there!
I felt that good feeling one time ago
I just basically ruined my life because of this crap. I was put on dexamethasone and methylprednisolone for a long taper (2 months) from a very high IV dose. I basically went into a delusionary state where I couldn't sleep for up to 5 or 6 days straight most weeks and was pretty much in a dream state n believing things that weren't real. This went on for 2 months. I too experienced all the hallucinating and even physically feeling like I'm floating when I would lay down. I too "seemed sane" at moments but others I would be doing and saying the most bizarre shit. I pretty much have no memory from jan2023 to march2023. I also had severe diabetes and was having comas multiple times a week which I know added to this psychosis. I am lucky to be alive but lost many friends and ruined my reputation in my town. This has been a complete nightmare. Not to mention the insane spending spree I went on. I'm pretty much broken mentally and financially after this ride I went on. Thank you for sharing your experience! I felt so alone! Still feel alone cuz nobody not even the doctors understand the depth of this shit
You are far from alone. I’m so sorry you went through so much 💔 hugs. Hoping things get better!!
@@toriebrame3419 oh yeah just a matter of time maybe a move 😂
Does the psychosis go away? I’m experiencing this as we speak.
Yes! But you need to talk to your doctor about it 💜 they can help you. Sleep as much as you can.
Thank you for replying back. Does it go away after the medication is stopped?
Mine didn’t. I needed more meds to even me out. I was on them for 3 months then it was gone for good and it never came back.
@@toriebrame3419 I am on olanzapine and it seems to be working, did you also have to take this or did you have to take anything else with it? I am scared to go to doctors now and ask for more medication.
@@kulkaur8003 they gave me risperidone. It took me about 3 months to wean off it. Never came back after. I was scared for a long time to try anything though. So I feel ya.
thank you for sharing this
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Nearly 10 years ago after a couple months battle of steroids pre, during, and post back surgery I ended up in the ER. Scariest thing I have ever experienced and my wife went through it with me. The best way to describe it was the absence of God. Felt like I was the only real thing in the world and universe. It radically change my life and direction. Sometime I wonder if I actually saw another dimension of life.
Oh wow. Yes it did feel like that for me too. Like seeing a whole new reality that only I could see. How did it change you? I also felt a radical shift after it.
It’s been a week and I still feel off mentally, feel like I’m changed mentally and not coming back, did anybody experience this ?
Are you seeing a psychiatrist? That might be best if you aren’t evening out yet 💜 they will help you.
I see one today I really just hope it’s from the steroids and goes away soon, does it last longer then a week ?
Everyone is different so I can’t say for sure. Mine lasted a few months and I needed antipsychotics to get back to normal. Hopefully yours is mild enough to go away faster.
Hopefully my phycatrist gives me answers, did you feel differently and off mentally
Oh yes. Definitely off.
This happened to me 7 months ago.
So sorry to hear that 💔 you are not alone ❤️
@@toriebrame3419 thank you so much 💜
How did you recover?
Why do you have chronic pain?
scary stuff
4:41 it was the steroid side effect.
Why i became the most Atheist agnostic because all my life with Jesus was nothing really not all that true reality and behind my deepest feelings I knew it. I always Hope for an honest Loving Creator but fails me to at least know. Reading Parts of the Scriptures i probably should have never read. But a loving honest Creator wouldn't call me a sinner for doing some research on why Scriptures tell you to shut up and know not of yourself rings a Big Bell and finding out why is simply being honest and truthful and any honest Doubt as horrible as it stands must stand. we were gifted with Knowledge and going to use it at any given Moment. i don't think a true loving Creator would want our spirits always confused and frustrated? But rather settled at ease full of Concentration. though Sin and stupid things come with the Consequences of.
I will not take any of them crazy drugs