Racheal, anorexia leaves us like a raw, exposed nerve. We don't have the energy to donate congeniality. All of these things I can also relate. I don't know how to say this, but I am worried about you. I am here! We can do this. There is so much more for us. It is my turn to pull you out of the ditch, as you did for me. Your willingness to be present was everything. Thank you. Please just be you💕💕💕✌️✌️✌️🙏🙏🙏
Like it or not, I am indeed me. ☺️😉 While it's kind of you to say I pulled you out of the ditch I want to commend you for, while perhaps my words gave you an internal boost of oomph or comfort, YOU are the badass who saved yourself. All the credit is yours to claim, my dear! That being said, I appreciate your concern and willingness to reciprocate support, as well as insightful and thoughtful comments. 🧡
@@rachaelerinrecovers6099 beautiful lady, I've been grappling with my thoughts. You, of course, are right. Only we can change our lives. You deserve to eat. You have unconditional permission to eat.. I'm not gonna lie, I've missed the clothes that no longer fit, my spindly legs and lean arms, BUT I can DO SOOOOO MUCH MORE!!! I am a better wife. My life is more than existing. I am a better person when I eat, not bc I victimized others, but bc I have the emotional energy to share with others. I have spent my life hating my physical being bc I have a genetic disorder. I am physically different. My life is full of physical pain and visual impairment. Starving myself the last 25 years served a purpose. I could say my only redeeming quality is my thinness. Even if that were true, life is less painful with nourishment... Even if you can't do it for yourself, feed your brain. She deserves to eat. I'm not sure if you have seen Billy Julianna’s channel, it is fun. She has been a great friend.
Totally with you. I want to leave the anorexic me behind but i have had this for so long i am not sure which is me with it and which is me without it and will people like me without it. That said anything has to be better than a life of restriction and numbers. Bambi for me when his mother dies gets me every time xx
OH MAN, yes that whole movie is just way too much for me... Can't handle it!! And indeed, the unknown of recovery is scary but anything must surely be better than this. 🧡
You’re such a kind sensitive person and the anorexia is stealing that from you and that’s not fair, why should it get all the good bits and leave you with the left overs. Tell it to ef if and it can go and get it from somewhere else but not here xxxxx
Indeed, anorexia is if nothing else unfair and the epitome of sloppy seconds! Both in terms of our personalities and life itself. I'm telling it a giant EFF OFF right now and forever more, both on behalf of myself and you as well.
Racheal, anorexia leaves us like a raw, exposed nerve. We don't have the energy to donate congeniality. All of these things I can also relate. I don't know how to say this, but I am worried about you. I am here! We can do this. There is so much more for us. It is my turn to pull you out of the ditch, as you did for me. Your willingness to be present was everything. Thank you. Please just be you💕💕💕✌️✌️✌️🙏🙏🙏
Like it or not, I am indeed me. ☺️😉 While it's kind of you to say I pulled you out of the ditch I want to commend you for, while perhaps my words gave you an internal boost of oomph or comfort, YOU are the badass who saved yourself. All the credit is yours to claim, my dear! That being said, I appreciate your concern and willingness to reciprocate support, as well as insightful and thoughtful comments. 🧡
@@rachaelerinrecovers6099 beautiful lady, I've been grappling with my thoughts. You, of course, are right. Only we can change our lives. You deserve to eat. You have unconditional permission to eat.. I'm not gonna lie, I've missed the clothes that no longer fit, my spindly legs and lean arms, BUT I can DO SOOOOO MUCH MORE!!! I am a better wife. My life is more than existing. I am a better person when I eat, not bc I victimized others, but bc I have the emotional energy to share with others.
I have spent my life hating my physical being bc I have a genetic disorder. I am physically different. My life is full of physical pain and visual impairment. Starving myself the last 25 years served a purpose. I could say my only redeeming quality is my thinness. Even if that were true, life is less painful with nourishment...
Even if you can't do it for yourself, feed your brain. She deserves to eat. I'm not sure if you have seen Billy Julianna’s channel, it is fun. She has been a great friend.
Totally with you. I want to leave the anorexic me behind but i have had this for so long i am not sure which is me with it and which is me without it and will people like me without it. That said anything has to be better than a life of restriction and numbers. Bambi for me when his mother dies gets me every time xx
OH MAN, yes that whole movie is just way too much for me... Can't handle it!! And indeed, the unknown of recovery is scary but anything must surely be better than this. 🧡
@@rachaelerinrecovers6099 ❤
You’re such a kind sensitive person and the anorexia is stealing that from you and that’s not fair, why should it get all the good bits and leave you with the left overs. Tell it to ef if and it can go and get it from somewhere else but not here xxxxx
Indeed, anorexia is if nothing else unfair and the epitome of sloppy seconds! Both in terms of our personalities and life itself. I'm telling it a giant EFF OFF right now and forever more, both on behalf of myself and you as well.
God bless you, I send you a big hug ❤️
And an equally big hug right back to you, thank you!