Can we take 10 seconds to appreciate how awesome Emma always looks? Like her makeup is always so well done and bold and it matches her outfit. An iconic fashion queen! Love u so much Emma 💜
1. I’m so proud of you for completing the semester, prioritizing your education and your mental health. 2. I’m so happy you’re back! I’ve been watching your content since 2016, and have been a huge fan since. You’ve helped me come to terms with my identity, love myself, and more. Thank you. You’re going to be an awesome therapist one day, ahhh!!
I legitimately started to cry when you said your internship offered you a job. Watching you grow through this entire journey has been so cool and I am so proud of you for everything you have accomplished! I am hoping to start grad school for mental health counseling in the fall and seeing you thrive in this profession gives me comfort that I am going to be okay and everything is going to work itself out. Super proud of you!!!♥️
I feel like this video can be about me. I am finishing up my last month of my internship. I am graduating this Saturday with my masters in professional counseling! I completely understand being so proud of yourself! My internship also offered me a full time position and I was so grateful! Congratulations on your accomplishments!
omg ive been in dbt as a patient for two years. it changed my life and is the reason i’m still here, so glad you are working with dbt! thank you for your hard work, you are gonna help people so so much
Due to the pandemic, testing centers for MN had been shut down and I had to reschedule my MTLE exam FOREVER. It's the state test to get your teaching license (Minnesota Teaching Licensure Exam) but I passed my exam in March, got my score report and submitted everything to PELSB (Professional Educator's Standards Board) and my teaching license is now pending! Hopefully I will get it in July at the latest. I am now applying for teaching positions and hopefully one is a success! I'm so happy for you, Congratulations !!!! Hope you have an amazing upcoming summer!
DBT!! My heart fluttered when you said that you love it. It's the one type that has really been working for me during my ED treatment. So happy to see you on my screen again!
I had covid about a month or so before you did and your vlog came right around where i was still in that shocked and embarrassed phase about catching it even though I'm a healthcare worker and it was literally inevitable for me, so I remember seeing your vlog helped me get over that. I'm glad to hear you are feeling better and fully vaccinated!!
You are glowing!! ❤️❤️ In 2019 and 2020 my grandpa was battling cancer and it completely broke me when he passed away. I was raised by just by dad and we lived next door to my grandparents the entire time I lived at home growing up so we were very close. I started drinking more and more so I wouldn’t think of what was happening with my grandpa or the major hurtles our family would have to face once he was gone. After he passed and 2021 came I knew I needed to make some changes. I had gained tons of weight, felt awful all the time, and just genuinely didn’t recognize myself anymore, mentally or physically. I can say that 2021 has been a fresh clean slate for me and I have been doing great so far! My mood is SO much better, I am making moves in my career that are going to do wonders for my little family, and for the first time it what feels like 2-3 years I am seeing a little bit of myself shine through again. A big part of what helped me I think was finding my love for books and making things again. Every day I have just made a conscious effort to do at least one random thing that day that brings me joy. Going out to the pool by myself and read, go walk through my flower garden bare foot and smell all of my blooming babies 😍, going for a walk to listen to some good tunes, etc. It REALLY IS the little things. I feel like a completely different person now than I did even 6 months ago and I am so grateful for that. ❤️ I don’t know what other obstacles in life you’ve been facing lately, but I am wishing you all the very best. ❤️ We just have to remember that no one is perfect. Everyone falls down sometimes and that’s okay. What matters is we get back up and keep on trying. ❤️
ughh i feel you with the pandemic weight gain stuff, i'm finding it super difficult, i also have no time to go to the gym because school also the jake story 🥺 it's romance novel worthy
Emma!! ❤️ I have gained weight during the pandemic and it’s so hard to be gentle to myself because I was 100lbs overweight and I worked very hard to lose 50 of that in a healthy and sustainable way as my health issues needed me to do so and now I’ve gained a bit back. Thank you for sharing it is tough for you so I feel less alone. Congratulations on your upcoming graduation
It’s so so important to have that break. I recently come back from a UA-cam break (as a watcher) because I’m finally finished with my Master’s in Forensic Science (mashallah🤲🏽) - also congrats on finishing and the job that is actually a dream come true! but my experience of lockdown I moved in with my partner and got pregnant lol so lots of time for me to binge new Emma videos and lots of recommendations to get out of my reading slump 😂
Thank you so much Emma for making this video! TW:// ED As someone who has struggled in ED recovery for a long time- especially in this past year with being the “biggest” version of myself it is so comforting to know that I am not alone
This shirt, the beret, the makeup 😍 also school and job!! I have been the same ten years in recovery and with the same with having being the biggest I ever have..and the same with coping well to having neutrality with body still feeling the stangest of my body moving in ways it never has. The story of you and Jake is amazing, so cute!
Having a good practicum site is such a huge factor in how you feel once you've graduated and going in to getting licensed! Congrats on making it as far as you have! :)
Hi Emma! I don't regularly watch your video's and I have never commented before, but I've followed you on and off for the past few years. I just wanted to say that your excitement and gratitude towards your profession as a counselor really brought me to tears. Keep up the good work, your clients must be very grateful to have you as their counselor! Sending love from The Netherlands
Congrats!!! I’m so happy for you about your degree and your job. You’ve been working so hard for this! Also what has somewhat helped with my body issues is to try to compartmentalize my thoughts about my body. So instead of focusing on what my body looks like or how I want my body shape to change, I focus on how GOOD my body feels when I exercise, eat right, do yoga, etc. It’s way more validating to acknowledge the good feelings I get, than to obsess about the negative things I feel about my body. Similarly, it’s super easy to focus on the things our body can no longer do. I took a few years off athletics due to school as well, and when I thought about what I couldn’t do, I couldn’t get motivated. But when I started focusing on the things I still COULD do, and trying new sports or things that I thought I couldn’t even do, and I totally surprised myself with my abilities! So maybe try a new sport and it might bring you new-found confidence! I wish you all the best. Your videos bring me so much joy. So thank you :)
Thank you for sharing your body image struggles right now because I am in the EXACT same place. My body is bigger than its ever been and I sized up some of my clothes in the last few months and even those are getting tighter, so it was really a relief to hear that someone else out there is going through the same thing. Also thank you for mentioning the concept of "body neutrality", I literally never thought of that before and I'm really going to try to use that more. Thank you for being so honest with us about how you feel, I know I'm not the only one who is grateful for it
I’m from Ireland and the first few months of 2021 were very hard as we were locked down, cut off from school etc etc but now our country is opening back up again and it looks like this summer things might be fairly normal so I’m very excited about that!! Feels like the end of everything is in sight, like a big fog is clearing!
Congratulations Emma! My best friend just received her MFT license a few months ago, I understand the long hours, stress and hard work thst comes with this. You worked hard and like you said, have a job after school which is amazing! Congrats again!!
Welcome back! 🖤 breaks are important and it sounds like your break was needed! I’m glad that you’re happy and healthy! Congratulations on your Masters!
Every time I see your videos I get so inspired. I started grad school for my masters in clinical mental health counseling in January and I see so much of myself in you. I’ve been watching your videos for a long time so it’s really cool to see. Congrats on graduating, I know how hard it is and hopefully I’ll get there someday too❤️
Congratulations on school! You’d be great with teens! As someone with anorexia nervosa, bipolar disorder and anxiety, you have been such a light in the dark for me, Emma! I love you and I hope you have a great rest of the year!
Wow, your story and mine regarding grad school are so similar. I ended up getting an internship in the school I got my Master's in and they gave me a full time job right out of school. I also work in NYC but, I have been working at home mostly and personally, I kinda prefer it because I don't have a commute or have to get up so early to get to work. Good luck with everything!
I’m happy you made it to the other side of the semester! I’m a junior undergrad psych major (well now senior I guess lol) and this past semester was also quite rough. I’ve experienced the most intense burn out ever and it didn’t help that we didn’t have a spring break, but I finished with mostly A’s so I’m relieved. Now I’m just worried about if I’m going to get into grad school or not. This part of life is scary. Also congratulations on the job and good luck with your final classes this summer, you got this. And getting used to body changes takes time sometimes and that’s okay. Body neutrality/ acceptance is a journey that doesn’t have a final destination. I know for me I just simply try to focus on how it feels vs how it looks. That doesn’t always work on the bad days, but it does help.
I‘m so excited for new videos! Today, we got my dog‘s sister as a foster dog, because she has cancer and her owners didn‘t want her anymore. I‘d appreciate lots of love so she can stay well enough to live another few months as a happy dog❤️
First off, congratulations on finishing the semester; I am almost done with my semester as well. Second, I hope that you reach the point you want in regards to your mental and physical health. Third, your story with Jake was really really great to hear about. And finally, I want to really talk to you about what's been going on with me. I'm not sure if you will see this comment, but as you probably know, I've been following you for quite a while. Recently, there have been quite a big change in my life. I have gotten my first MA degree in education, I actually applied to another one because I wanted to go back for my teaching credentials. I am almost finished with my second semester in this program. I am hopefully going to start student teaching in my third semester. My dog for since I was 15 had passed away in March of this year; that was quite difficult for me. My mental health and productivity had decreased significantly. I am very fortunate to have understanding professors and classmates that helped me through this difficult time. I think I am doing better, but I remain in one of the stages of grieving. The pandemic have already made schooling incredibly difficult for me. I do not like learning online whatsoever, but was forced to take the classes online. I still learned a lot, but I would have loved to have experienced those classes in-person. I realized that communication through emails and texts can be incredibly tricky, I've already been in two misunderstanding where my classmates mistook something I said in a text. This also has caused me some stress. I have gotten my first two ear piercing recently because I wanted it so bad, despite being afraid of needles. I'm very happy with it, and it's just a small point of something nice that I simply want to tell you about. I hope you're doing well, and hopefully you will see this comment.
👏👏👏👏👏👏 I can’t believe you’re almost done with school AND you have an awesome job lined up fo after you graduate!!!!!!!! Love you so much Emma! We’re all so proud of you *hugs*
I had to stop the video multiple times to appreciate and admire Emma's beauty. It's amazing and I'm jealous. But congratulations with graduating grad school! I too am a grad student working to become a music therapist. Music therapy has been my calling since my mom told me about it in my junior year of high school. I've always had a passion for music and helping others. In addition, I have always wanted to give back to a community that I was once a part of (I was a child with special needs. More specifically, I have/had a speech and language impairment). My update: As of yesterday, I now have one more full year left and then I will be done with school. Wishing I had a girlfriend, but I am still depressingly single. Also been trying to manage my depression and anxiety. As I am writing this comment, my depression is skyrocketing. But watching your videos makes me feel better, especially in a time like COVID. So, thank you for your work!
So happy to see you back! You are amazing and I think no matter how long a break you ever take, I will always come back and smile at your content. I've been watching your videos for almost 5 years now and your content just feels nostalgic and comforting in a whole new way. Love you so much!
As someone who just graduated with my MHC-LP back in January of 2020 I can so see the need for a break. And even as I got my full time job from my internship and then 2 part time jobs burnout is real as a therapist. I'll be submitting my 3000 hours May 26th to finally be officially licensed.
First of all, your outfit is SOOO GORGEOUS and that makeup? Aesthetic goals, you look beautiful Second of all, I’m so glad you’re back! Objectively speaking it hasn’t even been that long but I still missed you
I don’t think I’ve ever been this excited for someone to get a job or talk about their school lol but it’s different with you since it’s clear how much you love it, I’m seriously so happy for you
Emma, I know you probably won't believe me, but you look amazing and you are a true inspiration for anyone who is dealing with a difficult time or mental health issues. Thank you ❤️
A couple days ago I opened UA-cam and searched your name and here you are with a new video! So glad you’re back. I can’t wait to see your reading vlog for Chain of Iron 💕
Hey Emma. It’s so great to have you back and I’m glad all things considered you’re doing well. I appreciate your honesty it’s about your mental health struggles because it something we can relate to doing this time and I’m so happy for you and Jake’s new relationship. Can’t wait to see your reading blogs and get more contact from you. Best of luck finding more time to go to the gym and pool classes. It totally makes sense that would being a student and juggling your internship work and school you wouldn’t have time for UA-cam but I’m so glad you do now and graduation and almost graduating
yayyyy you’re alive!!!!! 😍😍😍❤️❤️ Edit after watching the whole video: I’m so so happy you’re back! I missed your pretty face and videos so much! As for me personally, a lot has changed since 2020. First, I finally got my driver’s license 2 weeks ago (cue “Driver’s License” by Olivia Rodrigo lol). It was something that I’d been putting off fr years due to fear and anxiety on the road, but with driving school and the support of my family, I finally got it! Now I just need to upgrade my probationary license so I can get a car and drive around on my own for real! I also started therapy in November 2020-April 2021, which was the most eye-opening, terrifying, scary, productive, interesting experience ever. I’d never gone for my anxiety and family issues before, so diving that far into my personal life was needed. I’m currently waiting for a new therapist, so I’m trying to apply what I’ve learned in my sessions in real life. I did work with a life coach this past month to work on my professional and personal goals, which was kinda fun, considering we met from a library association meeting. Speaking of libraries, I’m also looking at schools to get my MLIS (Master’s in Library and information science) to become an academic librarian! I don’t know the specifics of where I want to work in academic librarianship, but it’s still connected to books, reading, literacy and information, which is very important to me. Additionally, I upgraded my book blog PoetryBooksYA from Blogger to Wordpress! I have to start my follower count all over again but at least I don’t have technical glitches anymore. And I’m more quantity over quality with my posts. Oh, and I’m writing my first poetry book!! It’s currently in the editing process; I’m working with an editor now to tidy it up, but that’s also something I always wanted to do but was afraid because I wasn’t a “professional/famous writer”, which I know now is BS LMAOOOO 😂. There’s no release date yet, but hopefully it’ll come soon. As for my love life..................nonexistent!! 😩😩 I haven’t been on a date since 2019. It’s on the back of my mind to try dating again, since my personal/professional life is starting to take off, but I’m in absolutely no rush. It’s in God’s hands, so I’ll gladly “wait” for my person ❤️❤️
I am SOBBING for you. Omg girl CONGRATULATIONS !!!! Holy heck you have really gone and did the damn thing. I am sooo incredibly PROUD of you. You've come so far and you've done the hard work, made the sacrifices and you're finally where you wanted to be. I am just in awe of you and your drive.
Congratulations Emma!! DBT is such an amazing counseling perspective. I wish my counseling grad program had included more info on it. That's amazing that you could intern and eventually work full time at a place that suits you so well and that you love! I totally feel you on going through clothing sizes... I bought pants two sizes higher than my "usual" last year and now I really need to go up another few sizes 😬 but sizes are arbitrary and so erratic anyway that who cares! As long as you feel good in your clothes that's all that matters!
Glad you're back! I have been struggling more recently with my mental health, already on meds for depression and anxiety, but things just kept happening that affected me and my health. I will actually begin seeing a counselor with my first appointment being Monday.
I'm so proud of you for everything you've accomplished in all areas of your life, Emma! You don't need anyone's validation though. I am really happy for you and Jake! You guys are meant to be, for sure! ❤️ You are a beautiful person inside and out!
i am so genuinely happy for you, i am so glad things are working out for you and that youre at a good place in your life. even the things youre struggling with, you deal with in such a healthy and mature way and not only is that inspiring, it also wholeheartedly fills my heart with joy to see you thrive. sending lots of love and i cant wait to see more of you in the next months. :) ps. as for me, ive been having some low moments and im not in the greatest place mentally but im trynna focus on the positives (i will likely get my drivers license in the next couple of weeks and ahhh ive wanted this for so long) so yea:)
DBT saved my life. I am a completely different person now than I was and that’s all due to the amazing extensive DBT program I did. These skills are so useful and can help anyone! I feel like it should be taught at school and work!
My masters graduation is this weekend! 🎉🎓 Congrats on achieving your dream and all your hard work! I've also been dealing with my body being the biggest I've ever experienced and 110% understand the frustration of needing to buy new clothes and nothing fitting! Wishing you amazing thoughts on getting active again and remain positive that your body is allowed to change and when you're back in a more normal routine you have the power to care for it like before 💕 Can't wait to see more videos from you again!!!
I finishing grad school in August as well! Preparing for my defense is terrifying, but I’m sure it will be fine! Congrats, it’s a huge accomplishment. I know how draining and much work grad school is.
So if I hadn't looked in the video description, I would have never known that you have a Patreon. I feel like this might be something you should/could mention in your videos, you provide great content and may have more folks out there who are interested in supporting you. I follow several creators in a very niche hobby who both have upwards of 1,000+ patrons. I believe their lowest tiers are $2/month, and one of them credits all of his patrons at the end of each video as a special thank you.
I'm so happy you're doing well you Queen !!!!!! For a second I saw some comments making me think you and Jake had broken up. I'm so happy you haven't, you guys are literally perfect and your story is beautiful ❤️❤️❤️
love you and Jake together so much 😭 I was cheesin during that whole part of the video. your story and admiration is beautiful 😍 also totally feel you on the weight gain :/ I reached my highest ever as well. online work/school plus quarantine greatly reduced our daily movement but we still gotta eat, so maintaining weight in that scenario is almost scientifically impossible. yet it's still tough to go through. but neither of us are demonizing unintentional weight gain itself- in my early twenties I went through unintentional weight loss and I was equally unhappy about it. it's the departure from normalcy, from the way you're used to looking and feeling, that's hard to go through. it's possible that the more life goes back to normal and the pace picks up that your body may find it's way back to where it feels most comfortable ❤️ whenever my bf & I are feeling uninspired in the kitchen we like to order a week of a meal kit service ! cooking with instructions and pre measured ingredients is more relaxing and always helps us get excited about cooking again. the trick is to try a new service every time to always get the new member perks 😉
I've also become the biggest I've ever been and it's been very disheartening, but I've really been trying to accept things and make small changes that will hopefully help. Congrats on all your hard work!
Congratulations girl Wow. Amazing!! It’s so cool to see you totally kick ass. I had an amazing therapist who literally saved my life. She was doing an internship and she went above and beyond for me and changed my life. I’m so happy you are going to do what you’ve always wanted to do!
Not always a possibility financially, but during grad school/transition, I really liked using the discount to participate in the meal delivery services. It helped get me eating better than I was, manage my time (picked 20-30 minute meals), and helped me learn some new recipes to carry-on with. Might be nice to look into even if it’s only for the promo time. ❤️
Apparently, there's a word limit... or UA-cam did something weird, but part of my comment got deleted. I had also typed something like: And we were also caught up in a world wind of love and like "the one that got away coming back" when covid really kicked in during March. It was crazy but we're doing well. It definitely felt like something out of a romcom. And I think it's so cool that you've had similar experience. Though we're both our own unique people and all. Thank you again for sharing:). I love your channel. I'm in school myself and how exciting that you're almost done and have a job lined up!
So you two are like sooooo meant to be together. It's so weird to be just crossing paths with that one person again and again that it just gives you the intuition or idk I was freaking at that.
I just took my AP Euro test last week and as someone who school has always come really easy to them, it was a real shock to my system 😳 but I worked really hard and managed to through it (hopefully my results turn out ok 🤞). I’m so happy you’re back and can’t wait to see the Chain of Iron vlog!
I too am finding it extremely hard to accept the weight gain over the last year and half. This is on top of the weight gain that accumulated during my PhD program I'm currently in. Thanks for talking about it.
This video just made my day!! And OMG SO happy about your graduation and upcoming career as a counselor as a psychology student also! Getting through these months in the best way, go girl! ps: LOVE your style, u r worthy in every way
I'm so happy and excited for you to graduate! I don't know you personally but your compassion shines so bright I'm sure you will be an amazing counselor. I can DEFINITELY relate to the body image issues. I'm also In my largest body and as much as I love to shop for clothes it's no fun to do it consistently because you're outgrowing everything which is me at the moment. 2020 definitely took a toll on my mental health but im getting back on track slowly but surely. I have a rare lung disease that forced me to take alot of time off which I was planning to read a ton but definitely just put me in a big reading slump. Can't wait to see more content from you! #phizergang!
my body should be the least interesting thing about me” , i am going to think of that whenever i start to feel down!! I also just wanted to say that I think you look awesome and I look up to you and your confidence so much, i love watching your dancing videos on tik tok and stuff because we have the same body type and you make me feel like maybe i could look that good!! haha
Halfway through and just have to say, my gosh, SERIOUS CONGRATULATIONS 🎉❤️ on your graduation coming up, your hard work paying off and getting a job at a company you CLEARLY love 👍❤️ I
It is so good to see your face on my screen again! I'm so happy for you and your life changes. I'm about to graduate college with my bachelor's and I'm starting a program in a few weeks virtually with NYU. After that, I have no idea what is going to happen but it is going to feel so good to not have any more assignments to do.
I'm so excited for you to be able to graduate College! Girl it's is the best feeling! I finished my bachelor's and associates and am hoping to go to grad school in the next year and a half!:)
Body neutrality yessssss. Love what you said "my body should be the least interesting thing about me". That's how I feel.
Agreed. People can get so over the top with this "Love your body" statement.
Can we take 10 seconds to appreciate how awesome Emma always looks? Like her makeup is always so well done and bold and it matches her outfit. An iconic fashion queen! Love u so much Emma 💜
1. I’m so proud of you for completing the semester, prioritizing your education and your mental health.
2. I’m so happy you’re back! I’ve been watching your content since 2016, and have been a huge fan since. You’ve helped me come to terms with my identity, love myself, and more. Thank you.
You’re going to be an awesome therapist one day, ahhh!!
I legitimately started to cry when you said your internship offered you a job. Watching you grow through this entire journey has been so cool and I am so proud of you for everything you have accomplished! I am hoping to start grad school for mental health counseling in the fall and seeing you thrive in this profession gives me comfort that I am going to be okay and everything is going to work itself out. Super proud of you!!!♥️
Emma should do a video where she reacts to therapy scenes in movies. “Therapist reacts to therapy scenes in movies.”
she is a "only" (no hate!!) counselor not a psychologist with a graduation in the psychological department of medicine :)
I feel like this video can be about me. I am finishing up my last month of my internship. I am graduating this Saturday with my masters in professional counseling! I completely understand being so proud of yourself! My internship also offered me a full time position and I was so grateful! Congratulations on your accomplishments!
Congratulations to you too
OMFG EMMA!!! I LITERALLY GOT SO EXCITED WHEN I SAW THIS
omg ive been in dbt as a patient for two years. it changed my life and is the reason i’m still here, so glad you are working with dbt! thank you for your hard work, you are gonna help people so so much
Girl lived a whole ass YA history without telling us ToT When is the book dropping sis?
That break did you well! You seem so happy and healthy, and its a wonderful look for you 🤍
Due to the pandemic, testing centers for MN had been shut down and I had to reschedule my MTLE exam FOREVER. It's the state test to get your teaching license (Minnesota Teaching Licensure Exam) but I passed my exam in March, got my score report and submitted everything to PELSB (Professional Educator's Standards Board) and my teaching license is now pending! Hopefully I will get it in July at the latest.
I am now applying for teaching positions and hopefully one is a success! I'm so happy for you, Congratulations !!!! Hope you have an amazing upcoming summer!
I am so happy you are back ! I'm glad you take time to live offline and take care of yourself !
DBT!! My heart fluttered when you said that you love it. It's the one type that has really been working for me during my ED treatment. So happy to see you on my screen again!
I had covid about a month or so before you did and your vlog came right around where i was still in that shocked and embarrassed phase about catching it even though I'm a healthcare worker and it was literally inevitable for me, so I remember seeing your vlog helped me get over that. I'm glad to hear you are feeling better and fully vaccinated!!
You are glowing!! ❤️❤️
In 2019 and 2020 my grandpa was battling cancer and it completely broke me when he passed away. I was raised by just by dad and we lived next door to my grandparents the entire time I lived at home growing up so we were very close. I started drinking more and more so I wouldn’t think of what was happening with my grandpa or the major hurtles our family would have to face once he was gone. After he passed and 2021 came I knew I needed to make some changes. I had gained tons of weight, felt awful all the time, and just genuinely didn’t recognize myself anymore, mentally or physically. I can say that 2021 has been a fresh clean slate for me and I have been doing great so far! My mood is SO much better, I am making moves in my career that are going to do wonders for my little family, and for the first time it what feels like 2-3 years I am seeing a little bit of myself shine through again. A big part of what helped me I think was finding my love for books and making things again. Every day I have just made a conscious effort to do at least one random thing that day that brings me joy. Going out to the pool by myself and read, go walk through my flower garden bare foot and smell all of my blooming babies 😍, going for a walk to listen to some good tunes, etc. It REALLY IS the little things. I feel like a completely different person now than I did even 6 months ago and I am so grateful for that. ❤️
I don’t know what other obstacles in life you’ve been facing lately, but I am wishing you all the very best. ❤️ We just have to remember that no one is perfect. Everyone falls down sometimes and that’s okay. What matters is we get back up and keep on trying. ❤️
ughh i feel you with the pandemic weight gain stuff, i'm finding it super difficult, i also have no time to go to the gym because school
also the jake story 🥺 it's romance novel worthy
Emma!! ❤️ I have gained weight during the pandemic and it’s so hard to be gentle to myself because I was 100lbs overweight and I worked very hard to lose 50 of that in a healthy and sustainable way as my health issues needed me to do so and now I’ve gained a bit back. Thank you for sharing it is tough for you so I feel less alone. Congratulations on your upcoming graduation
So happy for your and Jake! I did DBT therapy for two years and it was honestly a life saver at the time
Whenever i opened youtube i typed emmmabooks to see if she had posted something. So happy she finally did.
It’s so so important to have that break. I recently come back from a UA-cam break (as a watcher) because I’m finally finished with my Master’s in Forensic Science (mashallah🤲🏽) - also congrats on finishing and the job that is actually a dream come true!
but my experience of lockdown I moved in with my partner and got pregnant lol so lots of time for me to binge new Emma videos and lots of recommendations to get out of my reading slump 😂
Thank you so much Emma for making this video!
TW:// ED
As someone who has struggled in ED recovery for a long time- especially in this past year with being the “biggest” version of myself it is so comforting to know that I am not alone
This shirt, the beret, the makeup 😍 also school and job!!
I have been the same ten years in recovery and with the same with having being the biggest I ever have..and the same with coping well to having neutrality with body still feeling the stangest of my body moving in ways it never has.
The story of you and Jake is amazing, so cute!
Having a good practicum site is such a huge factor in how you feel once you've graduated and going in to getting licensed! Congrats on making it as far as you have! :)
I missed you but breaks are so important and I'm happy you're back and doing well!
Hi Emma! I don't regularly watch your video's and I have never commented before, but I've followed you on and off for the past few years. I just wanted to say that your excitement and gratitude towards your profession as a counselor really brought me to tears. Keep up the good work, your clients must be very grateful to have you as their counselor! Sending love from The Netherlands
Congrats!!! I’m so happy for you about your degree and your job. You’ve been working so hard for this! Also what has somewhat helped with my body issues is to try to compartmentalize my thoughts about my body. So instead of focusing on what my body looks like or how I want my body shape to change, I focus on how GOOD my body feels when I exercise, eat right, do yoga, etc. It’s way more validating to acknowledge the good feelings I get, than to obsess about the negative things I feel about my body. Similarly, it’s super easy to focus on the things our body can no longer do. I took a few years off athletics due to school as well, and when I thought about what I couldn’t do, I couldn’t get motivated. But when I started focusing on the things I still COULD do, and trying new sports or things that I thought I couldn’t even do, and I totally surprised myself with my abilities! So maybe try a new sport and it might bring you new-found confidence! I wish you all the best. Your videos bring me so much joy. So thank you :)
Thank you for sharing your body image struggles right now because I am in the EXACT same place. My body is bigger than its ever been and I sized up some of my clothes in the last few months and even those are getting tighter, so it was really a relief to hear that someone else out there is going through the same thing. Also thank you for mentioning the concept of "body neutrality", I literally never thought of that before and I'm really going to try to use that more. Thank you for being so honest with us about how you feel, I know I'm not the only one who is grateful for it
You could write a a YA novel about you and Jake relationship and it would sell.
I’m from Ireland and the first few months of 2021 were very hard as we were locked down, cut off from school etc etc but now our country is opening back up again and it looks like this summer things might be fairly normal so I’m very excited about that!! Feels like the end of everything is in sight, like a big fog is clearing!
Congratulations Emma! My best friend just received her MFT license a few months ago, I understand the long hours, stress and hard work thst comes with this. You worked hard and like you said, have a job after school which is amazing! Congrats again!!
Welcome back! 🖤 breaks are important and it sounds like your break was needed! I’m glad that you’re happy and healthy! Congratulations on your Masters!
Hey, I'm so proud of you every day. Also, I love you.
Every time I see your videos I get so inspired. I started grad school for my masters in clinical mental health counseling in January and I see so much of myself in you. I’ve been watching your videos for a long time so it’s really cool to see. Congrats on graduating, I know how hard it is and hopefully I’ll get there someday too❤️
Congratulations on school! You’d be great with teens! As someone with anorexia nervosa, bipolar disorder and anxiety, you have been such a light in the dark for me, Emma! I love you and I hope you have a great rest of the year!
Wow, your story and mine regarding grad school are so similar. I ended up getting an internship in the school I got my Master's in and they gave me a full time job right out of school. I also work in NYC but, I have been working at home mostly and personally, I kinda prefer it because I don't have a commute or have to get up so early to get to work. Good luck with everything!
I’m happy you made it to the other side of the semester! I’m a junior undergrad psych major (well now senior I guess lol) and this past semester was also quite rough. I’ve experienced the most intense burn out ever and it didn’t help that we didn’t have a spring break, but I finished with mostly A’s so I’m relieved. Now I’m just worried about if I’m going to get into grad school or not. This part of life is scary. Also congratulations on the job and good luck with your final classes this summer, you got this.
And getting used to body changes takes time sometimes and that’s okay. Body neutrality/ acceptance is a journey that doesn’t have a final destination. I know for me I just simply try to focus on how it feels vs how it looks. That doesn’t always work on the bad days, but it does help.
I‘m so excited for new videos! Today, we got my dog‘s sister as a foster dog, because she has cancer and her owners didn‘t want her anymore. I‘d appreciate lots of love so she can stay well enough to live another few months as a happy dog❤️
First off, congratulations on finishing the semester; I am almost done with my semester as well. Second, I hope that you reach the point you want in regards to your mental and physical health. Third, your story with Jake was really really great to hear about. And finally, I want to really talk to you about what's been going on with me. I'm not sure if you will see this comment, but as you probably know, I've been following you for quite a while.
Recently, there have been quite a big change in my life. I have gotten my first MA degree in education, I actually applied to another one because I wanted to go back for my teaching credentials. I am almost finished with my second semester in this program. I am hopefully going to start student teaching in my third semester. My dog for since I was 15 had passed away in March of this year; that was quite difficult for me. My mental health and productivity had decreased significantly. I am very fortunate to have understanding professors and classmates that helped me through this difficult time. I think I am doing better, but I remain in one of the stages of grieving.
The pandemic have already made schooling incredibly difficult for me. I do not like learning online whatsoever, but was forced to take the classes online. I still learned a lot, but I would have loved to have experienced those classes in-person. I realized that communication through emails and texts can be incredibly tricky, I've already been in two misunderstanding where my classmates mistook something I said in a text. This also has caused me some stress.
I have gotten my first two ear piercing recently because I wanted it so bad, despite being afraid of needles. I'm very happy with it, and it's just a small point of something nice that I simply want to tell you about. I hope you're doing well, and hopefully you will see this comment.
👏👏👏👏👏👏 I can’t believe you’re almost done with school AND you have an awesome job lined up fo after you graduate!!!!!!!! Love you so much Emma! We’re all so proud of you *hugs*
Your outfit is IT!! You are such a style icon!!
I had to stop the video multiple times to appreciate and admire Emma's beauty. It's amazing and I'm jealous. But congratulations with graduating grad school! I too am a grad student working to become a music therapist. Music therapy has been my calling since my mom told me about it in my junior year of high school. I've always had a passion for music and helping others. In addition, I have always wanted to give back to a community that I was once a part of (I was a child with special needs. More specifically, I have/had a speech and language impairment). My update: As of yesterday, I now have one more full year left and then I will be done with school. Wishing I had a girlfriend, but I am still depressingly single. Also been trying to manage my depression and anxiety. As I am writing this comment, my depression is skyrocketing. But watching your videos makes me feel better, especially in a time like COVID. So, thank you for your work!
"I don't remember what it feels like to be relaxed" is 100% how I feel about my last master semester too 💀😂
And the pandemic weight gain? Can relate.
hi I'm so glad you're back :) you look so gorgeous congrats on your new job!!
So happy to see you back! You are amazing and I think no matter how long a break you ever take, I will always come back and smile at your content. I've been watching your videos for almost 5 years now and your content just feels nostalgic and comforting in a whole new way. Love you so much!
As someone who just graduated with my MHC-LP back in January of 2020 I can so see the need for a break. And even as I got my full time job from my internship and then 2 part time jobs burnout is real as a therapist. I'll be submitting my 3000 hours May 26th to finally be officially licensed.
So happy to see you back on! Love the story about you and Jake💖
I’m so happy to hear about grad school and job offer!! Congrats!
First of all, your outfit is SOOO GORGEOUS and that makeup? Aesthetic goals, you look beautiful
Second of all, I’m so glad you’re back! Objectively speaking it hasn’t even been that long but I still missed you
I don’t think I’ve ever been this excited for someone to get a job or talk about their school lol but it’s different with you since it’s clear how much you love it, I’m seriously so happy for you
Emma, I know you probably won't believe me, but you look amazing and you are a true inspiration for anyone who is dealing with a difficult time or mental health issues. Thank you ❤️
A couple days ago I opened UA-cam and searched your name and here you are with a new video! So glad you’re back. I can’t wait to see your reading vlog for Chain of Iron 💕
Hey Emma. It’s so great to have you back and I’m glad all things considered you’re doing well. I appreciate your honesty it’s about your mental health struggles because it something we can relate to doing this time and I’m so happy for you and Jake’s new relationship. Can’t wait to see your reading blogs and get more contact from you. Best of luck finding more time to go to the gym and pool classes. It totally makes sense that would being a student and juggling your internship work and school you wouldn’t have time for UA-cam but I’m so glad you do now and graduation and almost graduating
yayyyy you’re alive!!!!! 😍😍😍❤️❤️
Edit after watching the whole video: I’m so so happy you’re back! I missed your pretty face and videos so much! As for me personally, a lot has changed since 2020. First, I finally got my driver’s license 2 weeks ago (cue “Driver’s License” by Olivia Rodrigo lol). It was something that I’d been putting off fr years due to fear and anxiety on the road, but with driving school and the support of my family, I finally got it! Now I just need to upgrade my probationary license so I can get a car and drive around on my own for real! I also started therapy in November 2020-April 2021, which was the most eye-opening, terrifying, scary, productive, interesting experience ever. I’d never gone for my anxiety and family issues before, so diving that far into my personal life was needed. I’m currently waiting for a new therapist, so I’m trying to apply what I’ve learned in my sessions in real life. I did work with a life coach this past month to work on my professional and personal goals, which was kinda fun, considering we met from a library association meeting. Speaking of libraries, I’m also looking at schools to get my MLIS (Master’s in Library and information science) to become an academic librarian! I don’t know the specifics of where I want to work in academic librarianship, but it’s still connected to books, reading, literacy and information, which is very important to me. Additionally, I upgraded my book blog PoetryBooksYA from Blogger to Wordpress! I have to start my follower count all over again but at least I don’t have technical glitches anymore. And I’m more quantity over quality with my posts.
Oh, and I’m writing my first poetry book!! It’s currently in the editing process; I’m working with an editor now to tidy it up, but that’s also something I always wanted to do but was afraid because I wasn’t a “professional/famous writer”, which I know now is BS LMAOOOO 😂. There’s no release date yet, but hopefully it’ll come soon.
As for my love life..................nonexistent!! 😩😩 I haven’t been on a date since 2019. It’s on the back of my mind to try dating again, since my personal/professional life is starting to take off, but I’m in absolutely no rush. It’s in God’s hands, so I’ll gladly “wait” for my person ❤️❤️
I am SOBBING for you. Omg girl CONGRATULATIONS !!!!
Holy heck you have really gone and did the damn thing. I am sooo incredibly PROUD of you. You've come so far and you've done the hard work, made the sacrifices and you're finally where you wanted to be. I am just in awe of you and your drive.
Congratulations Emma!! DBT is such an amazing counseling perspective. I wish my counseling grad program had included more info on it. That's amazing that you could intern and eventually work full time at a place that suits you so well and that you love!
I totally feel you on going through clothing sizes... I bought pants two sizes higher than my "usual" last year and now I really need to go up another few sizes 😬 but sizes are arbitrary and so erratic anyway that who cares! As long as you feel good in your clothes that's all that matters!
Glad you're back!
I have been struggling more recently with my mental health, already on meds for depression and anxiety, but things just kept happening that affected me and my health. I will actually begin seeing a counselor with my first appointment being Monday.
I'm so proud of you for everything you've accomplished in all areas of your life, Emma! You don't need anyone's validation though.
I am really happy for you and Jake! You guys are meant to be, for sure! ❤️
You are a beautiful person inside and out!
I’m so happy your infectious smile n self is back on UA-cam checking in :) your doing everything u need to it’s a pleasure to c i miss u girllll
i am so genuinely happy for you, i am so glad things are working out for you and that youre at a good place in your life. even the things youre struggling with, you deal with in such a healthy and mature way and not only is that inspiring, it also wholeheartedly fills my heart with joy to see you thrive. sending lots of love and i cant wait to see more of you in the next months. :) ps. as for me, ive been having some low moments and im not in the greatest place mentally but im trynna focus on the positives (i will likely get my drivers license in the next couple of weeks and ahhh ive wanted this for so long) so yea:)
DBT saved my life. I am a completely different person now than I was and that’s all due to the amazing extensive DBT program I did. These skills are so useful and can help anyone! I feel like it should be taught at school and work!
My masters graduation is this weekend! 🎉🎓 Congrats on achieving your dream and all your hard work! I've also been dealing with my body being the biggest I've ever experienced and 110% understand the frustration of needing to buy new clothes and nothing fitting! Wishing you amazing thoughts on getting active again and remain positive that your body is allowed to change and when you're back in a more normal routine you have the power to care for it like before 💕 Can't wait to see more videos from you again!!!
your makeup is incredible oh my GODD - and the outfit coordination??? immaculate.
I finishing grad school in August as well! Preparing for my defense is terrifying, but I’m sure it will be fine! Congrats, it’s a huge accomplishment. I know how draining and much work grad school is.
Obsessed with your hair. Also loved hearing your and Jake's story. So freaking sweet.
Hearing you talking about bodyweight really helped me, so thank you :)
So if I hadn't looked in the video description, I would have never known that you have a Patreon. I feel like this might be something you should/could mention in your videos, you provide great content and may have more folks out there who are interested in supporting you. I follow several creators in a very niche hobby who both have upwards of 1,000+ patrons. I believe their lowest tiers are $2/month, and one of them credits all of his patrons at the end of each video as a special thank you.
I'm so happy you're doing well you Queen !!!!!! For a second I saw some comments making me think you and Jake had broken up. I'm so happy you haven't, you guys are literally perfect and your story is beautiful ❤️❤️❤️
Welcome back, congratulations on your Master's and of course post videos when you can 💜💜
i’m so happy for you! i graduated high school this month as well, and i’m excited for the next step in my life just like you are. love you emma
love you and Jake together so much 😭 I was cheesin during that whole part of the video. your story and admiration is beautiful 😍
also totally feel you on the weight gain :/ I reached my highest ever as well. online work/school plus quarantine greatly reduced our daily movement but we still gotta eat, so maintaining weight in that scenario is almost scientifically impossible. yet it's still tough to go through. but neither of us are demonizing unintentional weight gain itself- in my early twenties I went through unintentional weight loss and I was equally unhappy about it. it's the departure from normalcy, from the way you're used to looking and feeling, that's hard to go through.
it's possible that the more life goes back to normal and the pace picks up that your body may find it's way back to where it feels most comfortable ❤️
whenever my bf & I are feeling uninspired in the kitchen we like to order a week of a meal kit service ! cooking with instructions and pre measured ingredients is more relaxing and always helps us get excited about cooking again. the trick is to try a new service every time to always get the new member perks 😉
I am so excited for you!!! I am happy that you have a job and getting amazing grades. Congratulations!!!
I've also become the biggest I've ever been and it's been very disheartening, but I've really been trying to accept things and make small changes that will hopefully help. Congrats on all your hard work!
My girl is back!! Welcome!! :3
Soooo happy for you beautiful lady!! ✨🌞
okay i'm still watching but i have to SCREAM: I'M IN LOVE WITH YOUR LOOKS ON THIS VIDEO OMFG WE STAN A STYLISH QUEEN i'll go back to watching bye
I also had a weird pandemic romance which has turned into the best and healthiest relationship I've ever been in and its so nice 😩
Congratulations girl Wow. Amazing!! It’s so cool to see you totally kick ass. I had an amazing therapist who literally saved my life. She was doing an internship and she went above and beyond for me and changed my life. I’m so happy you are going to do what you’ve always wanted to do!
Not always a possibility financially, but during grad school/transition, I really liked using the discount to participate in the meal delivery services. It helped get me eating better than I was, manage my time (picked 20-30 minute meals), and helped me learn some new recipes to carry-on with. Might be nice to look into even if it’s only for the promo time. ❤️
So glad you're back! I so resonate with the need to take a step back from booktube for work/school. Also your look in this video is fire!
We are soooooo proud of you!!!!!!
Thank you for sharing all these updates!
Apparently, there's a word limit... or UA-cam did something weird, but part of my comment got deleted. I had also typed something like:
And we were also caught up in a world wind of love and like "the one that got away coming back" when covid really kicked in during March. It was crazy but we're doing well. It definitely felt like something out of a romcom. And I think it's so cool that you've had similar experience.
Though we're both our own unique people and all.
Thank you again for sharing:). I love your channel. I'm in school myself and how exciting that you're almost done and have a job lined up!
So you two are like sooooo meant to be together. It's so weird to be just crossing paths with that one person again and again that it just gives you the intuition or idk I was freaking at that.
I just took my AP Euro test last week and as someone who school has always come really easy to them, it was a real shock to my system 😳 but I worked really hard and managed to through it (hopefully my results turn out ok 🤞).
I’m so happy you’re back and can’t wait to see the Chain of Iron vlog!
I too am finding it extremely hard to accept the weight gain over the last year and half. This is on top of the weight gain that accumulated during my PhD program I'm currently in. Thanks for talking about it.
I am so happy for you.. congratulations Emma ✨✨
so happy to hear from you
This video just made my day!! And OMG SO happy about your graduation and upcoming career as a counselor as a psychology student also! Getting through these months in the best way, go girl! ps: LOVE your style, u r worthy in every way
I hope I’m half the counselor you seem to be when I get my LPC! I just started in March and I’m excited for this new venture.
The queen's backk!💖
Congratulation Emma! Wish you all the best for the new journey of your life. Sending lots of love🥰
I'm so happy and excited for you to graduate! I don't know you personally but your compassion shines so bright I'm sure you will be an amazing counselor.
I can DEFINITELY relate to the body image issues. I'm also In my largest body and as much as I love to shop for clothes it's no fun to do it consistently because you're outgrowing everything which is me at the moment.
2020 definitely took a toll on my mental health but im getting back on track slowly but surely. I have a rare lung disease that forced me to take alot of time off which I was planning to read a ton but definitely just put me in a big reading slump.
Can't wait to see more content from you! #phizergang!
I’m so proud I hope your happy !
my body should be the least interesting thing about me” , i am going to think of that whenever i start to feel down!! I also just wanted to say that I think you look awesome and I look up to you and your confidence so much, i love watching your dancing videos on tik tok and stuff because we have the same body type and you make me feel like maybe i could look that good!! haha
So glad to see you and you look as gorgeous as always!
I freaking love you! So happy for you and all your accomplishments!
Halfway through and just have to say, my gosh, SERIOUS CONGRATULATIONS 🎉❤️ on your graduation coming up, your hard work paying off and getting a job at a company you CLEARLY love 👍❤️ I
Missed you Ems! Glad you’re back and doing well. Proud of you for finishing up your program #gradschoolgang
EMMAAAAA! Congratulations!!! I’m so happy for you. Your hard work has payed off. Kudos to you, girl👏🏻❣️
It is so good to see your face on my screen again! I'm so happy for you and your life changes. I'm about to graduate college with my bachelor's and I'm starting a program in a few weeks virtually with NYU. After that, I have no idea what is going to happen but it is going to feel so good to not have any more assignments to do.
I'm so excited for you to be able to graduate College! Girl it's is the best feeling! I finished my bachelor's and associates and am hoping to go to grad school in the next year and a half!:)
Congratulations on your masters Emma and your future as a therapist! Oh and welcome back.
I'm so glad for your job!!!