a very sad life update

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  • @touchdalight
    @touchdalight  2 роки тому +895

    so yer i’m not very good at being nice and saying how i feel but If you watched this whole video i actually love you so much, I’ve just been feeling very lost recently but I am okay! i have good people around me and thats all I need! if you buy my new merch send me the confirmation on insta so I can follow you ❤ www.touchdalight.com

  • @liviavalencini
    @liviavalencini 2 роки тому +409

    Is it just me that after watching this thinks that the social climbers should have reunion, talk about everything and go over stuff. He seems like he’s going through a lot and I think that this is a side of carmie that we never expected and it’s so raw but so good for us to see.

    • @Shade44Grove
      @Shade44Grove 2 роки тому +7

      Seems like all of that stuff with them really cut him deep. He always goes on about it. Obvs breaking up with Kate did too but yea a lot of things from this platform have really hurt him. Kinda saw this coming tbh and I feel sorry for him 😩I just hope more than anything that him Millie and Spencer end up the biggest UA-camrs get that bag and have a great life..

  • @khalilahd.
    @khalilahd. 2 роки тому +330

    I’m so sorry you’re not doing well. We love you and wish you nothing but healing and joy. Take the time you need and when you’re ready we’ll be here 🥺💜

  • @saraha1302
    @saraha1302 2 роки тому +191

    genuinely breaks my heart to see you like this carmie, youre so incredibly strong for being vulnerable. take as much time as you need, we will always support you. sending so much love 💘💘

  • @stargirl3972
    @stargirl3972 2 роки тому +225

    vulnerability is a superpower. As soon as we are able to be honest with ourselves is when we are able to heal! Sending love

  • @lucyx9070
    @lucyx9070 2 роки тому +43

    i’ve been watching you for years and i’ll never be able to thank you for how much happiness you’ve given me

  • @georgiaphillips7833
    @georgiaphillips7833 2 роки тому +106

    showing a raw and vulnerable side of yourself is so refreshing for the internet to see. take as much time as you need carmie

    • @touchdalight
      @touchdalight  2 роки тому +12

      💙

    • @guy573
      @guy573 2 роки тому

      @@touchdalight as a fan since 2016 when you shaved your head one December
      I relate because to say my break up was bad was an understatement
      Keep your head up !

  • @finley2218
    @finley2218 2 роки тому +73

    this was so hard to watch, seeing you this hurt broke me :(( Carmine I hope you’re okay please take as much time as you need until you feel better to come back. We will all be here waiting take care my love xx

  • @izzystanleyfit6517
    @izzystanleyfit6517 2 роки тому +120

    Honestly getting on here + being vulnerable + normalising men being confused by their emotions + actually trying to speak about them will help SO many people. I know so many men who don't feel like they can talk about how they feel because it's seen as 'too soft' or they're told to 'man up' so I'm proud of you for being a role model for them 💗

  • @illique
    @illique 2 роки тому +55

    my respect for you after this video has risen so much, it’s nice to see this vulnerable side to you, it shows us how really inside you are just like us - still learning, growing, figuring things out, trying to find a way in life, healing from bitter experiences… i wish all the best for you carmie, thank you for this video

  • @nxfiza.1
    @nxfiza.1 2 роки тому +33

    This touched me differently,you are so strong honestly Carmie for speaking up about your emotions and no you are not weak! Never will be

  • @michiko8616
    @michiko8616 2 роки тому +7

    i’m glad you’re struggling

  • @joshdrabble7088
    @joshdrabble7088 2 роки тому +130

    This just shows that breakups have effects on boys too not just girls

  • @marlacook4993
    @marlacook4993 2 роки тому +42

    Carmie you deserve a break! we all love and support you no matter what and we would never judge you for anything. You are so young and have gone through so fuckung much and we are proud of you💘

  • @whatyagoindoooo
    @whatyagoindoooo 2 роки тому +57

    Carmie your honesty is admirable, ive been here from the Saffy B days, you've always been the realest in the game, I hope you take your time and feel good soon xxx

  • @watchonjar
    @watchonjar 2 роки тому +5

    At first i was like "why has this got so many dislikes, the guy looks genuinely upset" now im 5 mins in and holy shit m8 you have really perfected the art of torying out. You simultaneously are showing off about all your holidays and complaining that you have to work like what afew days a week.

  • @liseye701
    @liseye701 2 роки тому +20

    I’ve followed you for 5 years now and will always support you! Take your time 💗 xx

  • @jeevi5
    @jeevi5 2 роки тому +18

    genuinely breaks my heart seeing you like this, please take the time you need until you feel better. love you

  • @amymales3463
    @amymales3463 2 роки тому +381

    Just remember, you being you has made so many people less sad or depressed and although you may look at yourself and be like 'I'm a sarcastic piece of shit', your humour and just your presence has turned our worlds upside down and we are grateful for you. Take a break, come back thriving and remember your followers love you and are always here!

    • @nxfiza.1
      @nxfiza.1 2 роки тому +3

      Aww this is honestly so true x really has turned our world

    • @rhiannerussell1444
      @rhiannerussell1444 2 роки тому +1

      Agreed… I was in a dark place when I found carmie’s videos back in 2017

    • @caolanmulgrew4666
      @caolanmulgrew4666 2 роки тому

      Lol

  • @amymales3463
    @amymales3463 2 роки тому +23

    As someone who's watched you for the past two years I feel like ive gotten to know you to the point I feel as if your family, and seeing you like this makes me feel more connected to you. Society puts these stereotypes on men, making them feel that crying is '' weak '' or '' not masculine '' but we want you too know Carmie, it's completely okay and us real ones that have watched you grow and watched every single UA-cam video you've posted will stick with you and we are here for you through these times. I love you so much carmie and I'm sure everyone that's watching this does too.

  • @mackenzierivett-milne1862
    @mackenzierivett-milne1862 2 роки тому +43

    this is actually so upsetting too see but it’s also so so important to speak to people about how you’re feeling. you’re so strong and i hope you’re okay. take some time for yourself & take some time too heal. you’ll come back better than ever & we will all be waiting. lots of love ❤️

  • @eve6755
    @eve6755 2 роки тому +15

    Respect for showing your emotions Carmie! Especially for men it’s super important given the stigma still around it. Hope you’re okay and remember things will get better - give yourself time to be good again 👍

  • @showmoke
    @showmoke 2 роки тому +13

    The transition from childhood to adulthood can be quite a stressful and traumatic experience for some people.

  • @Elm0Films
    @Elm0Films 2 роки тому +211

    Love you so much darling

    • @nxfiza.1
      @nxfiza.1 2 роки тому +4

      Supportive friends

  • @bekshousee
    @bekshousee 2 роки тому +20

    This actually broke my heart to watch. I really hope you can heal yourself and start to feel more like YOU soon x

  • @princessalien912
    @princessalien912 2 роки тому +18

    Do what makes you happy!!! You deserve it. focus on your self.
    And just continue to keep up with the work you have been doing and make sure you're ENJOY what your working on and the people you work with.

  • @abismith1033
    @abismith1033 2 роки тому +13

    sending you so much love, please put yourself first and do whatever you need to do to get you back to feeling your best.

  • @taraparker1890
    @taraparker1890 2 роки тому +27

    you’re so strong for sharing this and being so vulnerable, this is the real shit.
    I hope you can find the source of your unresolved trauma’s. good luck on your healing journey❤️

  • @ray8447
    @ray8447 2 роки тому +8

    Bro I’ve watched your channel for so many years now and have made my day better all those times... I hope you take as much time as you need to focus on yourself and get your mental health to a good state because you deserve it sm.

  • @gracegibson6891
    @gracegibson6891 2 роки тому +6

    I really felt this. Was crying along with you- things always get better Carmie, just hold on and wait 😕❤

  • @itzmais
    @itzmais 2 роки тому +46

    Your the UA-camr that never gives a S hit or acts like they never give a shot, so seeing u cry and being fucking raw we have huge respect for that because being depressed for so long and acting out as your fine on social media can be so hard I relate bro. I’m sorry life and relationships is ducking hard.

  • @nxfiza.1
    @nxfiza.1 2 роки тому +7

    Been binge watching your videos! Your humour is on a another level! I'm so sorry you haven't been feeling well:/ stay strong you got this!💪💙

  • @megan.mcleod
    @megan.mcleod 2 роки тому +30

    i really hope you do feel better by posting this. it's actually so refreshing to see this, i've been following you since 2018, that period you said you didn't care about shit, and tbh i wasn't a big fan, but i didn't unsubscribe and the last few years i've watched you grow and go through a lot of stuff, and i've watched you become more and more open and more and more yourself and i really really like the person i watch on here nowadays, i hope things get easier and i can't wait to see what the future holds carmie :)

  • @libbyrobinson200
    @libbyrobinson200 2 роки тому +10

    been watching you for years now, never fail to make me laugh but hate seeing you like this❤️hope you’re feeling better soon you don’t deserve any of this

  • @rebecca3361
    @rebecca3361 2 роки тому +6

    This made me so sad , I really hope you’re okay carmie bless you’re heart you’re such a lovely person , keep being you💗💗💗

  • @immybarr2465
    @immybarr2465 2 роки тому +25

    I was a couple of years below you in the same secondary school and just wanted to say that I admired the courage it takes to continue to do what you loved even whilst so many people around you were taking the p and teasing. Although I didn’t know you personally, I knew you as the ‘guy who does UA-cam’ and honest to god, you are so much more than that. Thank you for sharing your struggles, it’s pretty incredible x

  • @simplykatexo2504
    @simplykatexo2504 2 роки тому +6

    sorry but i can't watch this whole video just the way he speaks annoys me and like how am i meant to take you seriously when every other word is bro or you feel me like it seems so fake and unauthentic and like he's trying to be someone he's not

  • @smallpotatoes5019
    @smallpotatoes5019 2 роки тому +11

    the internet hella wrong for making u feel like showing emotions is weakness. head up my guy

  • @meganwatson2190
    @meganwatson2190 2 роки тому +3

    You’ve got this & nothing I rate more than someone saying it ain’t something big to cry. What a guy ❤️❤️

  • @vongaichiwade164
    @vongaichiwade164 2 роки тому +12

    Love you. Take your time always and do what makes you happy. The merch is sick! Can’t wait for payday next week too buy a couple hoodies!💗

  • @lucyx9070
    @lucyx9070 2 роки тому +8

    your one of the realest people on the internet, i know this took a lot to post❤️

  • @pacmanghostdude5227
    @pacmanghostdude5227 2 роки тому +7

    Maybe it's karma?

  • @charlotterose8014
    @charlotterose8014 2 роки тому +11

    Thankyou for being so open and honest about how you're really feeling Carmie, that takes a lot of strength and courage to do this. You're doing the right thing by taking a break and focusing on yourself and being around good people, we will all still be here when you feel ready again. You lift everyone else's spirits with your content and you're so good at what you do, everything has seem to have gotten on top as you probably have not had a lot of time to process a lot of things you have gone through recently. I've been feeling the same way i have gone through a lot this year and have just been going on like this is fine etc but then it all hits you like a ton of bricks, just remember you are a great person and you help a lot of people you just don't realise it, sending you so much love and support❤️

  • @jellybean2882
    @jellybean2882 2 роки тому +5

    Been watching since the first ‘I went on holiday with my family and hated every second of it’ and yeah you’re sarcastic but you’re not a piece of shit and genuinely helped me so much. I’ve never missed a video and that’s coz they genuine help me by just putting a smile on my face, take all the time you need ❤️

  • @lillyhardy8972
    @lillyhardy8972 2 роки тому +3

    been subscribed to you for years and it’s heartbreaking to see you like this, you’ll bounce back though, stay positive and look after yourself 🤍

  • @mathistevens9839
    @mathistevens9839 2 роки тому +3

    Watched you since 2017 and you have grown so much. Proud of you and proud of you for opening up. Come back when you feel ready

  • @holaamigos7612
    @holaamigos7612 2 роки тому +15

    Usually just watch you passively but it’s so sad seeing you this upset, sending you only good vibes - you’ll bounce back x

  • @meganh7095
    @meganh7095 2 роки тому +4

    Genuinely hope ur okay Carmie, definitely my fave UA-camr and I’ve watched you for years now, and seeing you this upset is really sad! But it’s important to focus on yourself, and do things that you make you the happiest! I hope you feel better after opening up, I know it’s not easy! Love you

  • @osioriaku7867
    @osioriaku7867 2 роки тому +4

    We love you so much Carmie ♥️♥️♥️ And I’m happy you’re okay to show this side of your emotions- sending love x

  • @anna_mxo4046
    @anna_mxo4046 2 роки тому +4

    I hope you take this break to try and help yourself and take all the time you need, we will always be here for you, it’s okay to feel lost and confused about life and about your feelings, hope you feel better soon

  • @mimeePS
    @mimeePS 2 роки тому +3

    You’re generally amazing carmie, Ik that so many people are thankful for you and your videos and the smiles you put on people. I hope this rough patch all blows over soon for you Xx

  • @brookedriscoll9693
    @brookedriscoll9693 2 роки тому +3

    i remember discovering your videos when i was 14, felt like i have grown watching you. take the time you need, purchased a hoodie i love the designs!

  • @koranjclover6707
    @koranjclover6707 2 роки тому +2

    Genuinely breaks my heart to see you upset , I’ve been watching you since 2017 and I’ve got one of your OG hoodies !! Take time for yourself and we will all be waiting for you when your ready xx

  • @bellabucci2953
    @bellabucci2953 2 роки тому +5

    I've been here Carmie. It breaks my heart to see you this way, you deserve the best and I know you will find your best life soon enough. You are a comfort to me and you have been the past few years. Take your time, be patient with yourself and please, please keep talking about your feelings, you can't keep them all bottled up. Sending love, we are all here.

  • @Mphalliwell
    @Mphalliwell 2 роки тому +16

    Maybe you shouldn't have cheated In your GCSEs just saying

    • @Harvey1789
      @Harvey1789 2 роки тому +2

      And the Oscar winning award goes to

    • @Harvey1789
      @Harvey1789 2 роки тому +1

      Touchdaylight

  • @berniexo9782
    @berniexo9782 2 роки тому +3

    i don’t think we can describe how much we enjoy your videos as your subscribers! ur such a good person and it is so clear although u may not think it is. we know you always have good intentions and pure energy only. take your time my dear because having a social media job can be so draining. love you!!

  • @eviejowett6952
    @eviejowett6952 2 роки тому +3

    been here since 2016 n never get bored so you’re doing something right! hope you’re okay

  • @lucytownsend7572
    @lucytownsend7572 2 роки тому +5

    been watching you since day 1, we love you carmie x

  • @BayleyHill
    @BayleyHill 2 роки тому +2

    carmie we love you! take all the time you need im sorry you feel this way and you have evryones full support

  • @kinseyj9026
    @kinseyj9026 2 роки тому +4

    Been here since the beginning and I totally respect you going off and working hard with these companies - YOU'RE DOING GOOD!!

  • @fraftti
    @fraftti 2 роки тому +7

    this guy is so cringe

  • @charleytumblety7315
    @charleytumblety7315 2 роки тому +4

    Uno what’s horrible. Watching how social media and being a “ social influencer “ makes you have breakdowns and we can all say yeah like he has so many friends. But you could have millions of followers and friends and still feel so so alone. I feel for you carmi I really do. And I hope you find ur true happiness again. X

  • @nican6282
    @nican6282 2 роки тому +2

    Carmie, I feel proud of you for posting this video. One day years ago I came across your videos and at the time I was reallydown & not doing good. "We out here making memories" honestly resonated with me and I started doing my best to get out there & make them! I'm a stranger off the Internet & not gonna sit here and glorify you like a freak but you really helped me out without even knowing! I have anxiety & find social situations tough sometimes & even now you'll hear me shouting "we out here making memories" after a few drinks 😂 You've been through a lot of change lately. Having your heart broken alone is enough to drive you down the rabbit hole.. Its not easy, it's not fun and it's completely normal to be feeling how you're feeling! You'll look back on this in a few years & be thankful you made it, while in a completely different headspace! It's intense.. Taking a break is a great idea imo. Just live your life and centre yourself away from strangers judgement for a little bit... Do things that make you happy & make some amazing memories! Time will make things easier ♥

  • @louisegreet1230
    @louisegreet1230 2 роки тому +2

    This made my eyes water seeing you like this :( take all the time you need x

  • @maffaa3809
    @maffaa3809 2 роки тому +5

    Lol. Dont cheat on ur exams

  • @Xclass_ClownX
    @Xclass_ClownX Рік тому +2

    Oh Carmie is making a SAD life update, where he is UPSET. Well lads………honestly I don’t give a flying shit about him his videos don’t affect me in any way so uhh yeah

  • @summerxx123
    @summerxx123 2 роки тому

    so sorry you’re feeling like this, sending sm love💕💕

  • @moshi8828
    @moshi8828 2 роки тому +1

    The stuff you said about being yourself was cool and not worrying about showing emotions but please remember there are so many people in the world with so much worse problems than you and be grateful and remember get some perspective and be grounded

  • @amberalexandrafilm2219
    @amberalexandrafilm2219 2 роки тому

    respect you for being vulnerable, praying for you! Remember you're so loved x

  • @caolanmulgrew4666
    @caolanmulgrew4666 2 роки тому +4

    Thought u cheated in all your GCSEs ya prat

  • @raduhudita8491
    @raduhudita8491 2 роки тому +4

    im glad youre sad

  • @katief5385
    @katief5385 2 роки тому +1

    I’m so sorry Carmie- hope you find ease soon - you’re a great person and UA-camr !

  • @leahchloe.events6156
    @leahchloe.events6156 2 роки тому +14

    So horrible to see you upset ☹️ take some time to heal xx

  • @sophieeddison9383
    @sophieeddison9383 2 роки тому +3

    I saw you walking with Jacob in london yesterday when I was looking at my university (🤞 I get the grades to get in) and I was going to say hey but I thought something seemed up so I didn’t want to be a nuisance. I really hope you’re okay and you’ll take as much time as you need to think everything through and come to terms with it all. We’re all backing you and will support you in whatever you choose to do. You’ve achieved so many incredible things already and it’s only continuing. I can’t wait to see you back to your travelling vlogs and doing what you love most❤️

  • @Lolathebluesmartie
    @Lolathebluesmartie 2 роки тому +4

    i think you need to take a break from things and keep life simple for a bit. it sounds like you've got lots of thoughts and conflicting feeling. you may feel overwhelmed by all your emotions (like its chaotic when you pay attention to them) which happens when you dont express them enough..(you've bottled them up). this is not anyones fault but i think, for past present and future carmie you should take some time out from being in pressurised situations to process everything that you have been though. you will feel much better, brighter and clearer minded once you've felt all these feelings and processed everything that has happened. if you dont and you continue to bottle things up it will just happen again and again. sending you the best xxx

  • @livgrace411
    @livgrace411 2 роки тому +2

    I’m sorry to hear that u are felling like this . U and ur content is amazing u make ur fans so happy hope u feel better soon ❤️❤️

  • @alyssahorton5296
    @alyssahorton5296 2 роки тому

    ❤️ I totally understand your emotions. It’s hard to explain how I feel also. I usually just push it down and don’t voice them. Don’t even apologize for not knowing how you feel. I feel like that all the time.

  • @longgkong4007
    @longgkong4007 2 роки тому +4

    Looooooooool

  • @jessicajones4623
    @jessicajones4623 2 роки тому +2

    sending you so much ❤️ and respect for being so real x

  • @Tinyt2410
    @Tinyt2410 2 роки тому

    :( I’m sorry ur going through that .. I hope someone who comforts u gives u a hug. Everything will be okay and will work out

  • @tabitha.b2576
    @tabitha.b2576 2 роки тому +4

    I don’t usually comment on videos but I thought I would for this one. I’ve watched you for years now and have seen you grow up (I’m 20 btw lool), you’ve put a smile on my face and I really fw your humour. I’m glad that you’re being honest and want to take time for yourself :)

  • @mrsharrypotter143
    @mrsharrypotter143 2 роки тому +4

    Been watching you since 2016 when I was ten lol and you have always just been so real and genuine and I think that's what made me never get bored of you or your channel, as fakeness is just so exhausting and boring after a while. Please continue being you and posting what you want to!

  • @uzairdakri880
    @uzairdakri880 2 роки тому +4

    12:56 u can't blame people for thinking of that perception after the whole 'touchdanonce' situation with ur clickbait fortnite title saying that the female is 12 years of age

  • @Harryd06
    @Harryd06 2 роки тому +4

    remeber you failed ur gcse, you should enjoy youtube man

    • @user.0704
      @user.0704 2 роки тому +1

      His family are rich anyway. He didnt need to pass his GCSES

  • @kate5093
    @kate5093 2 роки тому +4

    Hi Carmie. Good on you for sharing this. This takes the most strength! I am a therapist and I know you said you don’t feel comfortable talking but telephone therapy tends to work best for some of my clients. Please reach out. Don’t believe the misconception that therapist offer advice or opinions, that’s not our place. If you would like to reach out I can help. Take care.

  • @KatieBainbridge-ef7nv
    @KatieBainbridge-ef7nv 2 роки тому

    I have been with you from the start! You are amazing Carmie! Lots of love X

  • @amymales3463
    @amymales3463 2 роки тому +2

    I could listen to this man all day.

  • @elliee2154
    @elliee2154 2 роки тому

    love the style of ur usual content but this video is so nice and raw. can really appreciate both sides. also so nice hearing about your passions like reselling preloved clothes! wishing you well 😌

  • @ellielouise993
    @ellielouise993 2 роки тому

    I’ve grown up watching you (: Hope you feel better soon & focus on you until you feel better to come back. All love 💙

  • @veritywalker9376
    @veritywalker9376 2 роки тому +10

    sending love and light

  • @rhiannerussell1444
    @rhiannerussell1444 2 роки тому +4

    take your time, look after yourself & know that we’re all here rooting for you. i’ve been supporting you for 5 whole years, you’ve brought some real good laughs into my life. i began watching you when i was in a dark place & your videos kept me going. (i may have watched every single one lol)
    you deserve to feel happy & respected, you are your own number 1. we’ll be here when/if you’re ready!❤️

  • @kingakomorowska9933
    @kingakomorowska9933 2 роки тому

    Just listening to the video but yes Ive literally been here since 2017 and always happily backing u , sending love

  • @daniifleur3187
    @daniifleur3187 2 роки тому +2

    It’s amazing that you’re speaking out about it, you are real and as long as your being yourself, I’ve been here watching for a long time xx you are genuine and yes sometimes rude however if everyone else was being real everyone would be in the same boat, look after yourself xxx

  • @marq1536
    @marq1536 2 роки тому +1

    icl carmie ur one of the only youtubers i’ve watched regularly for the past like 4 5 years. you have made me so happy when i was so sad. i’m so grateful for u even my brother started to act like u ur so influential. nah but fr tho take time to focus on yourself legend

  • @phoebereid5196
    @phoebereid5196 2 роки тому +1

    It’s actually crazy how far you’ve come! I remember watching you in high school I remember you painting your room bright green 😭 I still watch your videos even tho we’ve both grown up so much and change comes with that, it literally feels like I’ve grown up with you it’s so weird🥲 please take it easy on yourself!! 🤍

  • @dogs4life291
    @dogs4life291 2 роки тому +5

    Goes on holiday and acts gross and uncultured
    Carmie: "you're all so naive I'm over it"

  • @ams9934
    @ams9934 2 роки тому +4

    The power you hold tho, vulnerability is power. We need to talk about these things. I hope your start feeling better soon carmie, take your time, we will all right here when you come back

  • @georgiayoung5825
    @georgiayoung5825 2 роки тому +5

    Honestly, I would like to say it makes me so sad you feel like that, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. I remember when I first watched you way back in the day when you had over 67K and you always made me laugh, I remember meeting you in wireless 2019 honestly you was so kind and laughing around taking photos with me. I couldn’t thank you enough for having a photo with you. Honestly things will get better and take your time and have a break. Hope you come back soon and feel better x

  • @erwaterfield
    @erwaterfield 2 роки тому

    Love you babs. You’re the realest. Keep cryin keep shinin x

  • @amyb6091
    @amyb6091 2 роки тому +3

    So much respect for you and speaking your true feelings, you’re doing fab, you got this x