Young - Vacations (Official Lyric Video)

Поділитися
Вставка
  • Опубліковано 19 гру 2024

КОМЕНТАРІ • 6 тис.

  • @VACATIONSband
    @VACATIONSband  Рік тому +4569

    y'all out here writing essays in the comments

    • @sunsetz._.
      @sunsetz._. Рік тому +353

      just came back to this vid for a little cry sesh and i’m interrupted by this fresh comment from vacations on a 2 year old video 😭

    • @Ronaldo_Deus_Da_Batata
      @Ronaldo_Deus_Da_Batata Рік тому +141

      They be writing a Wikipédia here

    • @MAWIMO0
      @MAWIMO0 Рік тому +33

      ​@@Ronaldo_Deus_Da_Batatafr

    • @owenc1to
      @owenc1to Рік тому +34

      We love you guys 💙

    • @Someone-kq6nj
      @Someone-kq6nj Рік тому +11

      ​@@sunsetz._. Same dude

  • @rehanjaleeld6789
    @rehanjaleeld6789 4 роки тому +13367

    This song has lots of feelings

    • @AF-pq7wj
      @AF-pq7wj 4 роки тому +291

      this song literally makes me cry every time I listen to it

    • @enura8942
      @enura8942 4 роки тому +56

      @@AF-pq7wj Same.

    • @approachingthesky
      @approachingthesky 3 роки тому +34

      I agree with ya

    • @sammadkhan4459
      @sammadkhan4459 3 роки тому +15

      Mannn you say heavens

    • @something_error
      @something_error 3 роки тому +16

      @@AF-pq7wj man I can relate but in a different video

  • @damienlow1922
    @damienlow1922 4 роки тому +7182

    this song just hits different

    • @roundabout6099
      @roundabout6099 4 роки тому +21

      yeh it always does and i love it

    • @jonnyvidal5814
      @jonnyvidal5814 4 роки тому +5

      Jajaja

    • @varianalchemist
      @varianalchemist 4 роки тому +12

      i just saw two comments with the word “ this song “ under urs.

    • @damienlow1922
      @damienlow1922 4 роки тому +5

      @@varianalchemist this song rly do be hitting all your brain parts

    • @loufow
      @loufow 3 роки тому +2

      @@damienlow1922 it does

  • @harpi33
    @harpi33 3 роки тому +5070

    this song is like pain, happiness, and relationship/friendship love.

    • @jedlouie8817
      @jedlouie8817 3 роки тому +11

      Yes.

    • @box-vn9ou
      @box-vn9ou 3 роки тому +26

      all at the same time.

    • @nibs_777
      @nibs_777 2 роки тому +2

      Loss*

    • @MAR_StayChefin
      @MAR_StayChefin 2 роки тому +13

      Idk about pain, happiness, and relationship/friendship love, I just feel like a bottom less empty pit, I honestly don't care if my family and friends stick around or not, the phrase "it is what it is" describes my entire life at this point

    • @aids5849
      @aids5849 2 роки тому +1

      This is exactly what it feels like, it's a very weird feeling

  • @Quokka357
    @Quokka357 7 місяців тому +808

    "another day goes by, and where was i" hits hard for me

    • @ZahraHajissa
      @ZahraHajissa 5 місяців тому +8

      Real

    • @Jesicaah
      @Jesicaah 4 місяці тому +4

      Real shit

    • @AnimetaMorales-vq1wr
      @AnimetaMorales-vq1wr 4 місяці тому +5

      Didn’t think I’d still be

    • @trolledasian2482
      @trolledasian2482 3 місяці тому +1

      ​@@AnimetaMorales-vq1wr Just to make things clear..

    • @SongsAndplaylists777
      @SongsAndplaylists777 2 місяці тому +2

      @@trolledasian2482 what’s the use? I’m not talking sense! call it a ruse… on myself…

  • @psychedeliccam
    @psychedeliccam 4 роки тому +4451

    this song really brings me a lot of nostalgia

  • @sifi3840
    @sifi3840 4 роки тому +1435

    Where has this been my whole life

    • @audreyluvscats
      @audreyluvscats 4 роки тому +41

      seriouslyyyy i found it like a month ago and now i can’t get over it

    • @soul77736
      @soul77736 3 роки тому +17

      In depression...

    • @The_Kuichiki_man
      @The_Kuichiki_man 2 роки тому +1

      @@soul77736 😔

    • @yourefbiagent2688
      @yourefbiagent2688 2 роки тому +1

      @@soul77736 stuff got dark real quick

    • @weathersad6938
      @weathersad6938 Рік тому

      It's been waiting just for you all this time no matter what you did it has waited patiently

  • @ianaguilar5090
    @ianaguilar5090 2 роки тому +1357

    My interpretation of this song is that when you are young you must live, although you know that time passes, enjoy your youth because you only live once, and if it is sad to grow up, see that the ones you love most are gone, but don't give up when you are young is when it is time to enjoy life, be happy, be positive and enjoy your youth to the fullest. Just be happy, do what you like the most, don't let time delay you, don't feel sad because you're growing up, just keep going, you still have a lot of life ahead of you and you must be strong for the most difficult moments. Enjoy your youth.

    • @maven9323
      @maven9323 2 роки тому +35

      a nostlagic feeling of when u were a kid playing outside with your friends and having crushes, and now those days are over you barely talk to them, and feel lonely, i wish i could time travel

    • @mikeoxlong9303
      @mikeoxlong9303 2 роки тому +3

      love bro

    • @yurigenvaldez552
      @yurigenvaldez552 2 роки тому +4

      Love you bro

    • @Eagle1493
      @Eagle1493 2 роки тому +3

      Thank you for this translation, ive been trying to figure out what this song really means and it discribes a lot about my life right now

    • @enricoleon_3302
      @enricoleon_3302 Рік тому

      Respect for the pfp 🤝🏻

  • @brangtawng8105
    @brangtawng8105 9 місяців тому +371

    The lyrics “another day goes by” hits hard just like time goes by so fast and you don’t even realize the memories you had😢

    • @Jesicaah
      @Jesicaah 4 місяці тому +1

      Yep

    • @Kayleyydance
      @Kayleyydance Місяць тому

      Timestamp?

    • @Jesicaah
      @Jesicaah Місяць тому +1

      @@Kayleyydance that's literally the first lyrics of the song💀💀

  • @shroom9358
    @shroom9358 2 роки тому +3825

    This song feels nostalgic in sad way. To think about people you lost. That it entirely was your own fault. You can’t blame anyone but yourself.

    • @alaynah5733
      @alaynah5733 2 роки тому +19

      real😂

    • @Shinzo_Tenzei
      @Shinzo_Tenzei 2 роки тому +40

      Yes, I agree. But this song actually has a lot of feelings

    • @funtimes2763
      @funtimes2763 2 роки тому +37

      my grandads funeral was today and i just saw this 😐

    • @iamnotghost9311
      @iamnotghost9311 2 роки тому +1

      shut up npc

    • @thebetteralex2978
      @thebetteralex2978 2 роки тому +15

      i will blame everyone but myself for this

  • @jharris4234
    @jharris4234 4 роки тому +7512

    This song makes me wanna hit the road and just get away

  • @froginapot
    @froginapot 10 місяців тому +43

    Maturing is realizing that this song wasn't what made me sad and it was just the peaceful and free feeling it gave me. I've never been free or peaceful. The way i grew up i learned that being ignored was the best way to not get hurt. When you don't know peace you don't like it. The lines "another day goes by. And where was i? Didnt think id still be here. What's the use? Im not talking sense. All things come to pass with time but i want everything now to be all mine" aren't inherently sad people just think they are
    "Another day goes by and where was i?" Another day in life of the people who hurt you goes by and you weren't there to make them feel better about themselves by beating you down. You've moved on.
    "Didn't think id still be here" You thought that you were stuck where you were but you managed to clear your head and worked up the courage to stand up for what you wanted.
    "What's the use? Im not talking sense" you realized that if they wanted to listen they already would've and telling them how you feel and trying to convince them to acknowledge that they're in the wrong is just a fool's errand. If they loved you then you would know. If they love you then you wouldn't have convince them that they should.
    "All things come to pass with time but i want everything now to be all mine" Moving on was the best option you have more now and you dont want to lose it like how you let the things you loved then be taken by the toxic people in your life. Your happiness is yours and it will stay that way. Just because you think something is sad doesn't mean it is. Maybe you just aren't ready for it to be happy.

  • @agenericguy1014
    @agenericguy1014 8 місяців тому +28

    If there's one song that never fails to comfort me whenever I'm feeling down,sad,miserable or just straight up depressed...
    It'd be this very song right here.
    Whenever I feel like I made a huge mistake or accidentally broke down or even got mad,listening to this song just calms me down.
    It's like the song is telling me that it's okay,everything will be fine.Yes you messed up,but it doesn't mean that it's the end of the world or anything.
    At the end of the day,it's just one bad day,not one *bad life*
    It hits even harder when I start crying yet feel myself feeling gradually better as the song starts to end.
    I just wanna say that this song is an absolute piece of art as it has helped many(including myself) with dealing their own problems in this bittersweet world that we live in

  • @thatrandompalmtreeyousawon2068
    @thatrandompalmtreeyousawon2068 2 роки тому +4810

    This song feels like the beginning of summer break when you have next to nothing to do

  • @leetun444
    @leetun444 6 місяців тому +119

    This is honestly my favorite song. Speaks to the soul, not only the ears.

  • @akash-vi2tg
    @akash-vi2tg 3 роки тому +1769

    Smile if this wasn't recommended and you searched your way to this beautiful melody.

  • @Ice_Raps
    @Ice_Raps 2 місяці тому +6

    This song has stayed with me through some though times.
    Thank God everything is better now.
    And thank you, Vacations, for making such a beautiful song.

  • @MicahMazing1
    @MicahMazing1 2 роки тому +331

    "Good memories hurt worse than the bad ones" -Legend on the internet

    • @happy_4607
      @happy_4607 10 місяців тому +1

      wow

    • @5eda
      @5eda 9 місяців тому

      yes

    • @Aers09
      @Aers09 5 місяців тому +7

      Good memories only hurt when you are going through a bad moment.

  • @safran4588
    @safran4588 Рік тому +19

    I listened to this song a lot when I was traveling around Europe all by myself.
    It makes me feel that summer break laziness and how I would spend lots of time by myself outside. It‘s a cozy feeling in my stomach but it can become quite unsettling if it‘s there for too long.
    So I listen to it every now and then to feel that positive nostalgia, but that’s it. Too much nostalgia can tangle your perception of your current life.
    Live in the moment and enjoy it, guys!

  • @nixleton
    @nixleton 3 роки тому +1031

    Another day goes by
    And where was I?
    Didn't think I'd still be here
    Just to make things clear
    What's the use?
    I'm not talking sense
    Call it a ruse
    On myself
    I wanted to go
    I wanted to say
    All things come to pass
    With time
    But I want everything now
    To be all mine
    You think it's all over
    Get up and try again
    You've got to act your age, darling
    Before you fall back in
    What's the use?
    I'm not talking sense
    Call it a ruse
    On myself
    I wanted to go
    I wanted to say
    All things come to pass
    With time
    But I want everything now
    To be all mine

    • @joemamafartproductions4094
      @joemamafartproductions4094 3 роки тому +81

      lyrics are literally in the video what was the point of this 💀

    • @nixleton
      @nixleton 3 роки тому +45

      @@joemamafartproductions4094 jit i was just bored idk what the fuck i was doing

    • @unbannedJ
      @unbannedJ 2 роки тому +32

      @@nixleton thanks lyrics were a bit delayed and im learning the songgg

    • @nixleton
      @nixleton 2 роки тому +14

      @@unbannedJ yw. some other songs you should learn is telephones, honey, relax, away, or home

    • @unbannedJ
      @unbannedJ 2 роки тому

      @@nixleton All of those songs are great and I love honey bro thank youuu!!

  • @Belokus0
    @Belokus0 5 місяців тому +51

    who knew songs could make you cry, motivated and get nostalgia to hit you at the same time

  • @aj1er519
    @aj1er519 Рік тому +322

    This song always brings out that feeling of blaming yourself, you caused this, or you are the reason that this or that person was hurt. But it's only when you truly realize how much of a terrible person you are or were can you improve. The song also makes me think of every opportunity that goes by, that I just didn't grab. Not because it was too difficult to reach but because I became complacent, the worst crime. And the lyrics are like a realization of the fact that I should be other places, happier places, better places. Not just for myself but for others as well, but these are all mistakes we make growing up, all mistakes we make young. At least I hope because if you don't ever realize you're a failure and can do better then you'll be complacent your whole life.

    • @epicminigamer2284
      @epicminigamer2284 Рік тому +1

      Ye

    • @nicholasheflin965
      @nicholasheflin965 Рік тому +3

      This song has talked to me in a different way I have a hard time listening to wrong people and doubting myself but God has shown me through this song that I need to wait on what I want in life cause I've got what I need and that's him the big part of the song is wanting what you think your owed right away and Jesus had shown me that waiting is best or if I do without his permission I'll fall backwards to my old sinful life and there might not be a way back from that might be depressed now but it will get better.

    • @tonyvan8688
      @tonyvan8688 Рік тому

      This comment, this one right here is completely relatable

    • @richmondstrikersblog
      @richmondstrikersblog 9 місяців тому +1

      idk why but this entire essay you made... idk why but it makes me want to cry... I really don't know why...

    • @Shaaffy-zj6te
      @Shaaffy-zj6te 8 місяців тому

      in 2022 i was listening to this cuz college was over & i couldnt confront a girl. every day i would strategize how to do it but i never could, just eye game. it hurt me so bad but now if i look back it doesnt even hurt the slightest.

  • @jaimepalmeiro3537
    @jaimepalmeiro3537 Рік тому +257

    Every single time, I listen to this God damn music, I cry. I cry cuz this music remembers me, that I should've passed more time with my grandpa. Its been 2 years, but it feels forever without him. U're on a better place, grandpa. R.I.P

    • @Depresso-i7g
      @Depresso-i7g 8 місяців тому +4

      Meus pesames, força irmão 💔

    • @jaimepalmeiro3537
      @jaimepalmeiro3537 8 місяців тому +4

      ​@@Depresso-i7g Obrigado, que Deus te abençoe.

    • @_G.U.D.E.T.A.M.A_
      @_G.U.D.E.T.A.M.A_ 8 місяців тому +3

      Im so sorry to hear that I wish we could switch places

    • @Smokebombskate
      @Smokebombskate 8 місяців тому +2

      Sorry for your loss

    • @Rayeoeoeooe
      @Rayeoeoeooe 7 місяців тому +3

      The same goes for me exept it s my grand mother

  • @canyounot9347
    @canyounot9347 4 роки тому +4267

    I don't feel anything during this song, I'm just flying away

  • @kaz_kazoo
    @kaz_kazoo 5 місяців тому +84

    Future me will look back on this song and remmeber how it sat by my side, unknowingly offering the comfort and company I so desperately needed during some of my most trying hours.

    • @CHEZZ-GAMER
      @CHEZZ-GAMER 5 місяців тому +10

      I most likely will never see you, let alone this comment ever again. But I feel the same way.

    • @kaz_kazoo
      @kaz_kazoo 4 місяці тому +1

      ​@@CHEZZ-GAMER ♡♡♡

    • @Jesicaah
      @Jesicaah 4 місяці тому +2

      Yes

    • @CHEZZ-GAMER
      @CHEZZ-GAMER 4 місяці тому +2

      👋 Hello everyone! And goodbye 3 weeks.

  • @kyliyahnewsome4168
    @kyliyahnewsome4168 4 роки тому +1582

    imagine driving on a rainy day to this song

    • @Angie-bf7ll
      @Angie-bf7ll 4 роки тому +37

      Lucky me it’s raining rn brb gonna go for a car ride....

    • @XchampionXFTW
      @XchampionXFTW 4 роки тому +23

      I can tell you from experience, its dope

    • @Retrodank
      @Retrodank 4 роки тому +5

      Vibe

    • @lukehntd4706
      @lukehntd4706 3 роки тому +11

      And maybe u are changing country and u have to say goodbye to everyone that believed in you

    • @kevintorres4338
      @kevintorres4338 3 роки тому +4

      Just pull over and cry

  • @E404FF
    @E404FF 10 місяців тому +42

    This song makes you feel like you've broken up with the person you love the most and it's your last close, and it's like it's your fault that you lost them.

    • @Lovelydining
      @Lovelydining 7 місяців тому +2

      I lost my friends and this song makes me think it's my fault

  • @m.ikhsanmaulana8696
    @m.ikhsanmaulana8696 7 місяців тому

    Catatan ini ditinggalkan sebagai pengingat. Seberapa keras untuk kembali bangun setelah jatuh, seberapa keras mencoba untuk tetap pada pemikiran yang waras. "Saya berhasil bertahan dan menyelesaikannya" adalah kata akhir yang harus bisa dicapai. -2024

  • @piercesexistentialcrisis
    @piercesexistentialcrisis 11 місяців тому +65

    I used to listen to this song every single day in the summer of 2022. Vacations was my all time favorite band and I listened to it every day, that was a horrible time in my life. I was insanely depressed and wildly $u!c!dal, but I still remember that time with such nostalgia. I had a best friend at that time, I texted him all day every day and eventually when the school year started again, we lost contact. Every time this song comes on, the nostalgia wave hits me so hard I can’t do anything but sit in existential crisis or cry. It was a terrible time for my mental health, but still my favorite time in life. I miss it more than anything, and this song brings me back every time.

    • @Admiral_Kekdog
      @Admiral_Kekdog 6 місяців тому +1

      I had the same feeling about a period of my life. I feel nostalgia about this time because I didn't had to work

    • @Smith-u7e
      @Smith-u7e 5 місяців тому +1

      same

  • @olivequail1600
    @olivequail1600 Рік тому +77

    This song reminds me of a day of April not too long ago when I was madly in love with a girl who I had known for more than 3 years but I never had caught feelings for until January of the same year. Around that time we had stopped talking because she suspected I had feelings for her and I wasn't in my best mood.
    That day I had a high school trip to an amusement park which was closed and only opened for us to do some activities. Not just that but because of an exam we had the following day we were only 6 students and 2 teachers. On our way there this song started playing on my phone and it made me feel so many emotions that it stayed in my head the rest of the trip, it made so much sense. In the end it was a really fun and chill trip. There was 0 negativity and it will stay forever in my mind but still I couldn't stop thinking how much I would have liked her to be there with me during that quite and lovely day.
    This song may change its meaning but it won't lose its feelings.
    I know I'm late and this comment will probably get lost in the comment section but I couldn't resist to do it at least once, at least I will be able to read it again.

    • @Abhi_say000
      @Abhi_say000 4 місяці тому +1

      This comment can't get lost... never

    • @Neomes_SMiles
      @Neomes_SMiles 4 місяці тому

      @@Abhi_say000 ujum

  • @bsdellinger05
    @bsdellinger05 4 роки тому +223

    favorite band ever. love y’all 🖤

    • @shabibmahab
      @shabibmahab 4 роки тому +6

      brendan dellinger the only band I wanted to see perform live and absolutely loved it 👌

    • @hir3ath335
      @hir3ath335 4 роки тому +9

      This makes me think about an old friend I lost 1 month ago..

    • @gabrieltellesoliveira6283
      @gabrieltellesoliveira6283 2 роки тому +1

      @@hir3ath335 im sorry for u, i lost my girlfriend 3 years ago... everyday i lost her when i wake up

  • @andresflores6367
    @andresflores6367 8 місяців тому +23

    "It's confusing, isn't it? However, you know perfectly well that you are in bad shape, everything in your body, physically and mentally, lets you know... You feel lazy, with fatalistic thoughts... That feeling that everything is lost, that Nothing will ever be the same again... You torture yourself by remembering a random past experience that didn't even seem like a good time back then, but compared to how you feel now, you could say that... You were happy without knowing it..."

    • @jorgeml8112
      @jorgeml8112 7 місяців тому +4

      Jajaja enserio traduciste el meme al ingles para llamar la atencion de los gringos, que tan paтетico hay que ser?

    • @keso9098
      @keso9098 6 місяців тому

      ​@@jorgeml8112 CFFFFF

  • @Frdorito
    @Frdorito 3 роки тому +77

    when it says another day goes by it makes me think about life same with when it says all things come to pass with time. it makes me think that its crazy how time flies, its crazy how we live out our lives to make the best of them and then pass. it makes me pretty sad thinking about how life is full of different people that you meet along the way and that one day we all die and pass on. really hits the feels man thinking how time is like sand passing through your hand. its honestly really sad to me to think about how everyone you know dies and that when you die you remember your life and all the things youve done up until that point.

    • @y4sser1000
      @y4sser1000 3 роки тому

      @Stlix_playsYT man ....im just

    • @y4sser1000
      @y4sser1000 3 роки тому

      wow i need somewone like in my life

    • @lack5557
      @lack5557 2 роки тому +1

      joe mama

    • @FantaBoiFanta
      @FantaBoiFanta 7 місяців тому

      bro is having a extitential crisis

  • @fridagato
    @fridagato 10 місяців тому +12

    I love this song, I've been listening to it for a few years and I've never stopped liking it.

  • @Skell17-K47
    @Skell17-K47 Рік тому +787

    this song makes me realize how alone I am yet makes me feel so fine with it.

    • @Hope-ou3mv
      @Hope-ou3mv Рік тому +1

      yeah

    • @Wynnlol
      @Wynnlol Рік тому +1

      Same, this song also makes me realize how alone I am yet makes me feel so fine with it.

    • @dazz2468
      @dazz2468 Рік тому

      i cant take the loneliness anymore

    • @htsgm
      @htsgm Рік тому

      ​@@dazz2468 I sometimes feel the same as well try to work on your goals first and if you can achieve them you will get better
      you could also try to find people to talk to but that's easier said than done I know from myself
      so don't beat yourself up it will get better keep going
      "if you dont see light on the end of the tunnel you just are in the midway through your path"

    • @lasagnafield
      @lasagnafield Рік тому +1

      @@dazz2468me too man. I can be surrounded by a 100 or a million people and still feel like the black sheep out of the white.
      (Your profile pic is cool by the way. Prisoners is a great movie ❤)

  • @Mr.TacitusKilgore
    @Mr.TacitusKilgore Місяць тому +2

    Best song I've ever heard,i guess.I like this song so much rn, It's helping me distract from bad,cruel world around me and i just...Resting in my mind.

  • @no1legobatmanfan
    @no1legobatmanfan 3 роки тому +577

    this song makes me think of the year i’ve spent recovering from depression, self harm, and trauma. every line fits in chronologicaly. i still have ups and downs but it’s getting better and i know all of the bad happened for a reason
    edit 5/9/2022: Hi guys, i get a comment every now and then and id like to say, the fact that people are here writing meaningful messages towards me is beautiful. You guys really are amazing people. id also like to say i am still on my road to recovery and still suffering ups and owns, but i am feeling amazing. im so glad i am where i am and so happy to know theres people out there that support me. for those in a similar situation, just know you deserve the happiness and joy i have been able to achieve. dont feel bad about not being there yet.
    Edit, 3/10/24. I’m still here, I’m alive. I’m proud of myself for being alive. I have an amazing boyfriend, I love my family, I love my life. I’m 16 now. I relapsed on the day before my birthday after 6 months clean, but, I’m still proud. I haven’t been clean that long since I was 10. I hope I can reach it again.

    • @ashtonellsworth3589
      @ashtonellsworth3589 3 роки тому +5

      Hey! Keep going it will all get better with time

    • @JoshiX-jn5dz
      @JoshiX-jn5dz 2 роки тому

      Same path as you buddy we are in this together. How you are doing well.

    • @AntonioDiaz-zo6hw
      @AntonioDiaz-zo6hw 2 роки тому +2

      Dude i'm on that way, time to heal all da ol' blyat of my past, my own traumas, my depression and the thinks i just see right now and make me say: well maybe isn't good at all but i still here and i have a mission, i will do for my own, for my family and i will do it for he. The who told never give up, i trust you and his last words after he's never come back again: Díaz promise, you never do this, i can't take this anymore please forgive me.
      ( I'm not a English native )

    • @lack5557
      @lack5557 2 роки тому +1

      joe mama

    • @rafin.
      @rafin. 2 роки тому

      this songs is like being severely wounded, somewhat recovering, overcoming trauma, taking the first step outside and being shot dead

  • @ashig4520
    @ashig4520 3 роки тому +34

    “Another day goes by and where was I? Didn’t think I’d still be here” hits hard. I would be in such a depressive state that I would forget that I was even here,I would just be stuck in my mind.

    • @maven9323
      @maven9323 2 роки тому +1

      i feel sad, angry, fruistration, emptiness, because of the fact that i feel lonely, that nobody is there for me even tho i have people who loves me and is there for me. life just feels empty because it feels like i tried everything in my life

    • @maven9323
      @maven9323 2 роки тому +1

      i wish i'm still a kid, i feel so numb and it feels like life is not worth living now, im not trying to be edgy or anything this is just how i feel rn, i feel so lonely even when i know there's people who loves me

  • @dasmensch2317
    @dasmensch2317 Рік тому +5

    Vacations, that song is really important for me. I have many feelings and memories that I connect with this song.Thank you for creating it.Really thanks .

  • @thepuppetqueen57
    @thepuppetqueen57 3 години тому

    idk why but I really feel this song. like each lyric perfectly represents my feelings and my mind and I can feel and hear every single intrument so clearly. its almost like this song was just made for me.

  • @nosexd-dd1sv
    @nosexd-dd1sv Рік тому +199

    "Es confuso, ¿Verdad? Sin embargo sabes perfectamente cuando estás mal, todo en tu cuerpo, fisica y mentalmente te lo hace saber... Te notas flojo, con pensamientos fatalistas... Esa sensación de que está todo perdido, de que ya nada volverá a ser como antes... Te torturas recordando una vivencia pasada aleatoria que en aquel entonces ni siquiera parecía un buen momento pero comparado a como te sientes ahora, podría decirse que... Fuiste feliz sin saberlo..."

  • @pxwd_
    @pxwd_ Рік тому +73

    This song makes me go to my childhood... No stress no grind just school

  • @mikaelasydney788
    @mikaelasydney788 2 роки тому +1649

    This songs feels like your inner child questioning you "what happened to us? "

    • @maven9323
      @maven9323 2 роки тому +36

      this hits me so hard 💔, i wish i could just live and not worry about the future or anything like a kid

    • @mrdough2568
      @mrdough2568 2 роки тому +8

      Man this is so true. If only..

    • @thebetteralex2978
      @thebetteralex2978 2 роки тому +28

      im stronger, im smarter, im BETTER. I AM BETTER.

    • @sirpacifist7509
      @sirpacifist7509 2 роки тому +10

      "we've become better than we ever dreamed"
      I know the child me would be proud.

    • @H.M._
      @H.M._ Рік тому +5

      Since I started highschool I used to think so much like that, just some months before it I was a complete happy and innocent chil woah such times actually..

  • @claudiocondori6117
    @claudiocondori6117 17 днів тому +2

    This song makes me feel happy and nostalgic ❤

  • @afghanijalebi
    @afghanijalebi 3 роки тому +4324

    this song is legit the definition of being tired
    edit: why are yall so mad..

    • @robertorios-michel7464
      @robertorios-michel7464 3 роки тому +159

      This is an amazing comparison

    • @mitchacton4049
      @mitchacton4049 3 роки тому +119

      Actually, the “legit” definition of being tired is drained of strength and energy : fatigued often to the point of exhaustion

    • @afghanijalebi
      @afghanijalebi 3 роки тому +357

      @@mitchacton4049 uhm.. ik..

    • @cardrop33
      @cardrop33 3 роки тому +120

      @@mitchacton4049 nobody likes you

    • @gaybowser7416
      @gaybowser7416 3 роки тому +94

      @@cardrop33 chill

  • @imobsessedwith5828
    @imobsessedwith5828 3 роки тому +348

    this songs makes me thing back to where everything was semi- okay, and i didn’t have to worry about loosing anyone. or even myself. it sucks how everyone’s now going threw some messed up stuff. :(
    just letting whoever sees this comment, i’m here for them.

    • @sourcide
      @sourcide 3 роки тому +2

      what? it’s good everyone’s not going through messed up stuff💀

    • @imobsessedwith5828
      @imobsessedwith5828 3 роки тому +3

      @@sourcide WAIT WAIT THAT WAS A TYPO IM SORRY I TYPED THIS IN SCHOOL PLEASEEEE😫😫

    • @kent4862
      @kent4862 3 роки тому +4

      hey quackity pfp :)

    • @imobsessedwith5828
      @imobsessedwith5828 3 роки тому +3

      @@kent4862 hihi! :]

    • @Nookshush
      @Nookshush 3 роки тому +3

      Nice pfp

  • @IB21066
    @IB21066 2 роки тому +87

    This song is such a strong emotion, I wish there were more songs like this
    or maybe I just haven't found them yet

  • @charliemegadigital838
    @charliemegadigital838 Місяць тому +3

    I Hope Everybody can feel something diferent, Aesthetic, beauty and Surrealist, when listening this song ❤❤❤

  • @docandrook6450
    @docandrook6450 3 роки тому +378

    This song reminds me of when I met my first best friend at an my old elementary school, her name was Lyric, we were inseparable for a few months. She eventually found other friends and kinda left me there, i got a Snapchat notification and it was her telling me to leave her alone. I stared at the message for a minute as I slowly started to tear up. I wanted us to be friends forever, every time I saw her I started to break down. I bought us matching necklaces during our friendship, every night I would stare at mine and just sit there in sadness. I know she would never touch hers again. It was years ago and I still get teary when I think about how fun it was while it lasted. But, all good things must come to an end

    • @Snhitzell
      @Snhitzell 3 роки тому +30

      something like that happened to me when I was in college. I was the first to talk with a beautiful girl, everything was pretty well, and it seem we get along together for just a little amount of time. I was thinking to ask her if she wanted to be my girlfriend, but she get new friends, and gradually, I realized I was alone. this happened 4 years ago and I am still having feelings for her, I was a fucking coward because I didn't confess what I feel. this masterpiece just reminds me of that little dark age of mine, and also I learned to have courage.

    • @lack5557
      @lack5557 2 роки тому +9

      joe mama

    • @wizard1189
      @wizard1189 2 роки тому +9

      I played a game called "Pixel worlds" and me and a girl named "Lauraaa" or Laura with a bunch of A's somewhere in it. Me, her, and her friend used to play together everyday until she just randomly said that we can't hangout anymore with much of an explanation. I still see she has the same account after these... 3 years? Everytime I see her username i think of when the game first launched and we still played together. I wish I could go back to when the game was so simple and it was mostly about people talking and interacting...

    • @freddie9645
      @freddie9645 2 роки тому +9

      @@wizard1189 omg I love pixel worlds so much, I used to play every day with someone, until covid ended and they went back to normal life, we would spend every day on a 6 hour call grinding. So fun, I wish I could go back.

    • @iam_nobody8203
      @iam_nobody8203 2 роки тому +1

      I’m sorry

  • @masonroblox3438
    @masonroblox3438 Рік тому +24

    The song feels like you are relieving the best moments of your life

    • @sebasgamert
      @sebasgamert 10 місяців тому

      La verdad es que si 😢

  • @cooltownvintage4458
    @cooltownvintage4458 2 роки тому +429

    This song will always bring me to tears as it played in the car right after my childhood dog passed away. RIP Rocky 2008-2022

    • @fabiolopez1583
      @fabiolopez1583 2 роки тому +4

      Rip 🪦 🕊️

    • @GrimReaperZ00
      @GrimReaperZ00 2 роки тому +11

      Also my childhood cat passed away recently, she had the same age (2008-2022)

    • @june_qwq
      @june_qwq Рік тому

      @@basicsinbehavior. wtf

    • @Akil69
      @Akil69 Рік тому +7

      im racist

    • @mayatulips
      @mayatulips Рік тому +4

      @@Akil69 and then you question yourself why no one likes you…

  • @valerriya
    @valerriya 12 днів тому +3

    I was crying over my exam score,while listening this. And I just heard 1:53 . I guess I'll try again,forcefully

  • @aradrad1098
    @aradrad1098 Рік тому +17

    When I was 13 years old, I was deeply insecure about myself and deeply in love with a girl that didn't even care about me in the slightest, it truly was an extremely tough point of my life. Although I wouldn't describe myself as "depressed", I went through a year and a half of feeling mostly sadness. I regret that time a lot because it was basically the final point of my childhood that I could really enjoy until I turned into a teenager and had to deal with many more responsibilities and stresses. This song was basically the soundtrack of that time in my life, and although it brings me painful memories whenever I listen to it, deep down I absolutely love it. There was something about that eternal feeling of sadness that gave me a weird sense of comfort.

  • @marziah.a8040
    @marziah.a8040 3 роки тому +28

    this is literally one of my fav songs ever

  • @familyzoomsforus1930
    @familyzoomsforus1930 2 роки тому +13

    I can see sounds, I can hear colors, I forgot how to relax. Hearing this song almost makes me cry for some reason.

  • @kevinjoyce285
    @kevinjoyce285 8 місяців тому +1

    This song feels like just being broken inside, worn out and exhausted ove everything you've been through. A catchy beat, great lyrics, you could jump into this song if you had it in your head

  • @iranipriyadarshini5210
    @iranipriyadarshini5210 Рік тому +131

    Just imagine
    It's still dark outside
    Everyone at home is asleep
    It's 4:00 am in the morning
    You're getting ready for school
    This song on repeat
    Total silence
    Someone's memory inside the head
    HEAVEN

    • @s0ul980
      @s0ul980 Рік тому

      Omg I felt that

    • @iamforeversuccessful
      @iamforeversuccessful Рік тому

      we just just i miss Lolaloud_YT she did not be bestie

    • @alpereninan9500
      @alpereninan9500 Рік тому

      Getting ready for school at 4 am? What kind of a psycho are you???

    • @prince_of_sleep
      @prince_of_sleep Рік тому +2

      It's currently 3 A.M in the holiday, everyone is sleeping, yet I remain awake. All alone...

    • @Lalalalalaa
      @Lalalalalaa 10 місяців тому +1

      The memory of family members who you’ll probably never see again due to family issues

  • @miladelgadillo73
    @miladelgadillo73 3 роки тому +24

    The songs that make you imagine a whole better and different life is really the jamzz 😌

  • @pix_ie1142
    @pix_ie1142 4 роки тому +167

    This song makes me really sad, but I don't know why. It makes me tear up every time I listen to it.

    • @astrangekit-kat2708
      @astrangekit-kat2708 3 роки тому +4

      it makes me feel all choked up

    • @lack5557
      @lack5557 2 роки тому +1

      joe mama

    • @gdog2k619
      @gdog2k619 2 роки тому +3

      It makes me feel almost angry. Like the ending of a chapter that can never be reopened.

    • @aids5849
      @aids5849 2 роки тому +1

      This sound makes me feel kinda empty somehow, barely any emotions.

  • @danygomez1448
    @danygomez1448 День тому +4

    Who is here in December 2024? Nostalgia vibes ✨

  • @TamerlanAhmedov
    @TamerlanAhmedov 2 роки тому +288

    This music is completely different. As I listen, 17 years of my life come to life before my eyes. I'm in a very bad situation right now, school exams, my new job where I work for money, family and other problems are all on me right now. I'm finishing school now, and I'm taking my steps into the new "life", and it's very difficult. I don't even know what to do and how to do it. My only wish is to be a software developer or graphic designer in Germany. I have now started to learn German. I'm going to save up and buy a computer to learn graphic design and software. I am writing this message on May 30, 2022. I wish to move to Germany after 4-5 years. The person reading this comment, even though I don't know you, I know that you are a very good and compassionate person. Take care, you are loved❤

    • @aloisiophilipi6302
      @aloisiophilipi6302 2 роки тому +6

      Thank you very much. Good luck, I'm not going through all this but I identified with you, this song is really different. Written on June 25, 2022.

    • @The_Kuichiki_man
      @The_Kuichiki_man 2 роки тому +2

      Thank u. i really needed that. i wish u gl bro

    • @2minuss
      @2minuss 2 роки тому +5

      Good luck and take care.

    • @TreborEdwardss
      @TreborEdwardss 2 роки тому +3

      good luck to ya ♥️

    • @user-ew1xu4wq4k
      @user-ew1xu4wq4k 2 роки тому +2

      Good luck bro. Im 23 and i just feel like I’m starting my actual life now. You’re very young. You got this.

  • @aid-in2gb
    @aid-in2gb Рік тому +7

    this song is truly majestic. describes everything i feel inside of myself.

  • @WhatNoWay3
    @WhatNoWay3 2 роки тому +49

    No matter how many times I listen to this song I could never ever get sick of it I will forever love this song

    • @WhatNoWay3
      @WhatNoWay3 Рік тому +3

      oh look its past me🥰

    • @WhatNoWay3
      @WhatNoWay3 Рік тому +2

      Always come back to this song when I’m down

    • @bestoftheinternet3421
      @bestoftheinternet3421 10 місяців тому

      @@WhatNoWay3 its time

    • @Charpyss
      @Charpyss 9 місяців тому

      ​@@WhatNoWay3I hope you've been doing better now🙌

    • @WhatNoWay3
      @WhatNoWay3 Місяць тому

      Real

  • @ronniemcdonald-vj7gn
    @ronniemcdonald-vj7gn 9 місяців тому +4

    i remember crying to this song everyday. now that i come back to it. it still gives off that same energy.

  • @ontrack8931
    @ontrack8931 4 роки тому +116

    los amo gracias por sacarme de la falopa, greetings from argentina 🇦🇷

  • @c4d702
    @c4d702 2 роки тому +11

    This song truly makes you feel like another day went by

  • @Dizzy.Dooooo
    @Dizzy.Dooooo 2 роки тому +35

    I’ve been listening to this song for almost a year now. It’s one of my favourite songs to listen to when I’m numb and can’t cry. Idk what it is about this song...but it just... it lets you release your anger and stress and sadness.

    • @chester7687
      @chester7687 Рік тому +2

      It feels like defeat

    • @KaiCuomo
      @KaiCuomo Рік тому

      listen to the song "Space Song"

  • @Ally4ly
    @Ally4ly Місяць тому +2

    ive been listening to this song for 4 years now i love listening to it at hard times

    • @NahIdWin-77
      @NahIdWin-77 Місяць тому

      Nah, I'd Win🙋🇩🇪

  • @senatorarmstrong6966
    @senatorarmstrong6966 2 роки тому +183

    this song just shows you that everyday is the same day no matter what

    • @StarmenRock
      @StarmenRock 2 роки тому +21

      no, dude.... its about getting out of the shit to make yourself better. even though you wanted to say and wanted to go, everything passed and it's all on you now. no use telling yourself that you're worthless and driving yourself to give up, it'll just create more regrets. self hatred wont change anything, you need to be on your side, want everything for yourself.

    • @sirpacifist7509
      @sirpacifist7509 2 роки тому +1

      if Senator Armstrong was stupid:

    • @StarmenRock
      @StarmenRock 2 роки тому

      @@sirpacifist7509 really stupid

    • @blackgoku2358
      @blackgoku2358 Рік тому

      Nope

    • @anisatusshalihah2053
      @anisatusshalihah2053 Рік тому +1

      Unless you make a change then it wont be the same

  • @nisa6603
    @nisa6603 Рік тому +14

    This song is just awesome... A true masterpiece, it make me feel a lot of emotions, love this ! Thank you so much for this song !!!!

  • @joshsutton5509
    @joshsutton5509 2 роки тому +22

    as a person trying to recover from depression i love this song i often find my self regretting my past wishing things could be different
    but just end up hurting more people

  • @jin_woo955
    @jin_woo955 Місяць тому +9

    0:52 my favorite part

  • @flowers7231
    @flowers7231 3 роки тому +15

    “You’ve got to act your age darling before you’ll fall back in” crying rn

  • @sqmzreal
    @sqmzreal 2 роки тому +16

    This song gives a vintage feeling, like a old roadtrip memorie

  • @mrcipher8101
    @mrcipher8101 3 роки тому +83

    The emotions and feelings that I get when listening to this are: restlessness, hopelessness, anger, frustration, sadness, and emptiness
    7 months later and still the same

    • @neldp1460
      @neldp1460 2 роки тому +3

      I feel you man. I've hit the rock bottom of my life for a few weeks now and I don't think I'm getting out it anytime soon let alone at all. This song speaks all the feelings I've cooped up inside. Hope you're doing better.

    • @maven9323
      @maven9323 2 роки тому +5

      same for me, i feel sad, angry, fruistration, emptiness, because of the fact that i feel lonely, that nobody is there for me even tho i have people who loves me and is there for me.

    • @mrcipher8101
      @mrcipher8101 Рік тому

      @@neldp1460 Hey I am late, but I am doing better, thank you. Hope you also feel better

  • @MichaelaGordon-y3w
    @MichaelaGordon-y3w 9 місяців тому

    I really think of this song as God telling me to not give up, I’ve always interpreted that way for a while, but before I used to think it was just sad until God showed me a new perspective 💙

  • @ilans3832
    @ilans3832 2 роки тому +6

    Been listening to this song for 2 years I have to say this song have pulled me from a really bad places , thank you .

  • @undrakhnyamsuren4624
    @undrakhnyamsuren4624 Рік тому +21

    This song just makes me think all my life back, again and again, and Im Still...
    Single and my whole class all got their love, and me still alone, hands in pocket airpods in ears, walking alone in the night while others watching movie, hanging outside together

  • @pleasehelp2768
    @pleasehelp2768 4 роки тому +48

    This is one of those songs that I hear in the gas station and just linger around until it’s done

  • @delialugo1899
    @delialugo1899 9 місяців тому +19

    My friend died of cancer and at the same time my parents were fighting and broke up I truly have mixed emotions about them but I know for a fact that I don’t love them it hurts and all I’ve done in life is to make people happy and make them smile but this is how I’m rewarded by pain and suffering that I hide from my friends and family so they don’t worry about me and don’t question me about it and it builds up and I finally start cracking and start to show a bit of how I feel about this situation sometimes I wonder if I should continue in life with all of this around me

    • @kxchigh
      @kxchigh 5 місяців тому +1

      keep going, you've got it. everythings gonna get better. Im proud of you making it this far.

  • @hangez5161
    @hangez5161 2 роки тому +280

    *Gives everyone a really big hug*
    DON'T BE SAD!!

  • @Marine08
    @Marine08 2 роки тому +16

    You guys are my favorite band your songs like every song is my type of music I love it, It all has so much emotion and feelings and it’s so soothing and beautiful I love it thank you for your music I love it so much it makes me so happy and calm💖

  • @HoneyBeeY2K
    @HoneyBeeY2K Рік тому +69

    This feels like when you know your relationship is over but you’re done crying or trying to save it. It’s just “it is what it is” now.

    • @glendaaguilar8733
      @glendaaguilar8733 Рік тому

      Y eso aplica para amistades y parejas

    • @mickgrau4550
      @mickgrau4550 10 місяців тому

      Damn that’s hurt but it’s true , the only tears i have fall inside and never go away but it is what it is

  • @heatherbaxter3843
    @heatherbaxter3843 Місяць тому +9

    Just discovering this gem Oct 2024 so blessed

    • @Thesapientkitkat-satorugojo
      @Thesapientkitkat-satorugojo Місяць тому +1

      It's more than a gem it's a majestic star

    • @tiagomartinez8032
      @tiagomartinez8032 Місяць тому

      @@Thesapientkitkat-satorugojoforeal tho , jus a little sesh outside looking at stars with this song in ur airpods you’ll have a good night on folk

  • @Danny_mj
    @Danny_mj Рік тому +7

    This song feels like getting flashbacks on old memories of that one special person and all your memories together good or bad one's ❤️

  • @_s4tvrn
    @_s4tvrn Рік тому +4

    have been searching for this song so long oh god, its heavenly!! the instrumental is perfect, lyrics are beautiful. if i was the last person on earth this is the last song i'd listen to
    i would write a whole paragraph about this song
    it gives me a feeling i cant explain, its definitely going into my playlist.
    so much emotions but i cant express any of them
    the guitar.. jsyzyedhyd!!! omg
    it reminds me of fall, going for a walk in the park, colored leaves falling down from the trees as the doggies just walk and play around.
    i will never stop loving this song
    i would listen to this all day
    but knowing i gotta wake up tomorrow is trash
    i dont wanna wake up tommorow, i just wanna sleep. go into hibernation or something like that, while this song plays on repeat. its soothing, rain in the background while you listen to this song on your bed in the afternoon. you can hear the rain loudly pitter patter, but right now its 9:47 and really dark, im sleeping on the floor and just bored rlly. im really actually just a drunk saddo who likes music
    drunk saddos like me can relate.
    there isnt a favourite part for this song, its already perfect.
    sitting under my favourite tree in the forest while listening to this song with my headphones on, i cant imagine the joy that would bring me. i always know that mother nature is the root of my happiness, it makes me happier than anyone else
    reading a book while having this play in the background.. its pretty calming tbh, im probably in my delusional phase again gryeydwudu
    now im sad because i just thought of my dead cat bruh

    • @sniko1789
      @sniko1789 Рік тому

      It’s just a song it’s not that serious 💀💀😭😭(I literally relate so hard)

  • @lemond186
    @lemond186 6 місяців тому +2

    rest in peace nanamin kento, gojo u never died u won the battle gege isnt real u are the strongest sorcerer of all time and you did win you did not fail your students or anyone.

  • @thatonepersonoo3124
    @thatonepersonoo3124 3 роки тому +58

    I love this song it makes me feel hopeless

    • @joshuaamos8356
      @joshuaamos8356 3 роки тому +1

      Bruh 💀why do you want to feel hopeless

    • @tadeuszbanku2329
      @tadeuszbanku2329 2 роки тому +4

      @@joshuaamos8356 when you’re hopeless you have no more expectations from anyone, nothing matters anymore. Just makes life easier that way not focusing on any emotions and avoiding people.

  • @nourhoudabouzidi7081
    @nourhoudabouzidi7081 3 роки тому +203

    Listening to this song while writing all the bad memories in my diary is such a vibe

    • @99thJediWarrior
      @99thJediWarrior 2 роки тому +3

      Could make a book out of those

    • @nourhoudabouzidi7081
      @nourhoudabouzidi7081 2 роки тому +5

      wow how a year makes such a difference I started another diary tho but I still write every single bad memory lol what a nostalgia

  • @hanaribooru
    @hanaribooru 2 роки тому +17

    0:50 best part on my opinion

  • @error2438
    @error2438 4 місяці тому +2

    So this is it? The end of an endless journey that we tought would last forever. But in the end we are nothing but a memory that may last forever in the heart of the last pure hearted persons.

  • @joshuagarcia3499
    @joshuagarcia3499 2 роки тому +13

    I've listened to this song for years and I'm only now starting to understand it and what it means to be "young"

  • @theultimatekiwi
    @theultimatekiwi 2 роки тому +31

    This song is about feeling, it’s about pain, it’s about getting up and carrying on, it’s about being lost, it’s about finding the thing that makes you happy and then losing it. To me, this song is about life
    Heh 3am on UA-cam hits different

    • @MationsDam
      @MationsDam 2 роки тому +2

      BRO 3 AM AT UA-cam IS SOMETHING I SWEAR

    • @yeetboi3374
      @yeetboi3374 2 роки тому

      Yeah its 3 am rn 😀😔

  • @qqxxl
    @qqxxl Рік тому +432

    This song really hits hard on a car ride, windows down, wind hitting up against your hair and a sunset to complete it.

    • @SmileyGam3rr
      @SmileyGam3rr Рік тому +10

      It's like night time for me and we're out just driving to enjoy the nature of everything it feels kinda like liminal spacey or dreamcore but it's also very peaceful staring at the car window rn

    • @qqxxl
      @qqxxl Рік тому

      same I just do it in the afternoon and I agree it is like a liminal space it distracts you from your problems

    • @aSz_Skullz
      @aSz_Skullz Рік тому

      Sounds like the game called DCDAH

    • @UniqueMappingSequence
      @UniqueMappingSequence 10 місяців тому +1

      or at night with rain

    • @user4444zaza
      @user4444zaza 10 місяців тому +2

      Donald trump knows 😢😢😢

  • @mari_pesiduri
    @mari_pesiduri Місяць тому +16

    Here October 2024!!! 🗣️🔥🔥

  • @star-uw6ro
    @star-uw6ro 3 роки тому +425

    this song is literally what being mentally tired feels like
    edit: this song can have different meanings to different people yall needa calm down lmfao

    • @lack5557
      @lack5557 2 роки тому +4

      joe mama

    • @Carl-ld5jy
      @Carl-ld5jy 2 роки тому +1

      You've clearly never been tired in your life.

    • @star-uw6ro
      @star-uw6ro 2 роки тому +23

      @@Carl-ld5jy do yk my life 🤨

    • @Carl-ld5jy
      @Carl-ld5jy 2 роки тому +2

      @@star-uw6ro I can make a pretty good assumption based off the fact that you think fatigue is all sunshine and rainbows.

    • @leghostinator
      @leghostinator 2 роки тому +16

      @@Carl-ld5jy ? This song isnt a happy song bru

  • @ジェー-m1k
    @ジェー-m1k 4 роки тому +104

    the best music to get away from reality

  • @kristimccaney9997
    @kristimccaney9997 2 роки тому +11

    Its so calming i love it it makes me wanna cry its beautiful

  • @FireReaper626
    @FireReaper626 6 місяців тому +2

    This song is truly something else

  • @saqujart
    @saqujart Рік тому +5

    I've heard this song in the best day of my life, now that i'm not happy anymore this song is linked to that moment, everytime i hear it so many memories come back to me, it makes me so miserable and happy at same time...