This actually gave me a huge understanding, you said people who've never had panic attacks probably wouldn't understand, but hearing your story made me realize, I've felt panic before, so a panic attack is just a really amplified feeling of that, crippling even, and it isn't always logical, like you said, it's just that feeling of pressure that you won't do it right and that you feel trapped or stuck or incapable, and you PANIC. I have a friend who gets panic attacks and this helped alot, THANK YOU!! Could you make a video on what someone could do to help a person with a panic attack? It probably depends on the person I suppose, but does it ever help to have someone close by telling you it's gonna be okay, or do most people want to be left alone because seeing people drawing their attention to it will make them panic more?
Luna Rose 🌹 just wanna say I think it's so sweet that you want to help your friend😊 Also, my personal preference is to recover on my own (because I get very embarrassed if people see me having a panic attack, and it's not easy to explain in the moment). However, it's always comforting to know that you've got a support system you can reach out to at any time, if needed. Hope this helps answer your question!
It depends on the person, but i think most would prefer being alone when having a panic attack maybe get comforted by a close friends too. I'm pretty sure no on would like so many people around when they're having a panic attack. I'll probably faint if that situation happened to me.
Kristen,i know this is completely of subject,but your smile instantly brightens up my mood! You just bring joy to anyone that sees you! And God THOSE EYES.
I just found your channel and this was the first video I watched, so I don't really know what you have covered yet but i wanted to comment my first time having a panic attack. My first panic attack was last year. I was at my college campus waiting outside a classroom because I was about to have a class. The class wasn't anything special or anything to worry about, but most of my anxiety is due to social situations. So, I was waiting outside the class and then all of a sudden I started getting this panicky feeling which I realized was due to other people talking. I doubt they were talking about me but there was something about their voices or the volume of everyone talking at once that felt overwhelming. I started shaking, I felt like I had trouble breathing and I couldn't stop to take full breaths. Over the next hour while I was in class trying to do my classwork I continued to experience this panic attack. I could barely type anything on their computers. I couldn't talk. I couldn't think or concentrate on anything I needed to think or concentrate on. I felt this impending doom and this feeling that there was something wrong with me and I was going to die. I remember feeling really bad for acting that way around other people because it had to have been distracting and worrying to others. I later apologized to them.
I thought this video was awesome I love these story time videos they are really interesting. I can remember my first ever anxiety attack I was in year/Grade seven and I was late to class and I didn't want the teacher to be mad at me so I started to rush to class my heart started beating fast like it was coming out of my chest my palms started to sweat and I felt like I couldn't breathe my throat felt like it was closing on me and it was all because I thought that I was gonna get into trouble but all the teacher was concerned about was if I was ok. I'm like you Kristin I don't like to disappoint people I don't like to get things wrong and I don't like to get into trouble. I'm kind of a perfectionist but I'm working on that with my therapist as well as my anxiety issues .
A few months ago, I was working on a seat for a play and it was pretty late at night. I live in a small town and lately their had been a lot of gang violence and we heard gunshots outside so we had to have a lock down. About 5-10 mins in I just started to panic I had to sit down and just kinda just stare off and think about losing everyone and people were noticing that I was shaking so they tried to comfort me. This is what I thought was my first panic attack. Now that I'm thinking about it it really isn't, I don't exactly know how many I've had just that I've definitely felt that way or the way you've described before and it's kinda fascinating to think about your life before you knew what anxiety or panic attacks were and how stuff like that can go unnoticed without proper education.
Last month I think I had my first panic attack. I've been looking up ways to see if it really was and I think it was. It was Halloween weekend. I just went through a loss of a super close loved one and I had a busy week and I was starting something new early the next morning. And my mom took my brother, his girlfriend, my sister, and I to this concert. It was around 1 in the morning and we were still there and I just started crying in this club (all ages) and freaking out I couldn't breath and my heart was racing so fast. I told my mom I wanted to go home. It was so sudden. She just kept telling me to calm down and to wait for the next song to end. Well I sat there wanting to crawl out of my own skin, so extremely embarrassed that I couldn't act the way my family wanted me to act because I'm 16 in a club. And this song just felt like it was taking forever to finish. When it finally did finish my brother and his girl friend disappeared and my mom just said to wait for them to get back then we would leave. Well they finally came back and at this point I had my head down and I was trying not to scream. And then they announced it was their last song so my family wanted to stay for the last song. I wouldn't sit anymore so I was standing by the door just ready to go, my makeup was ruined I was shaking and completely humiliated and wanted to go home. My family finally left and it was like a 45 minute drive home and my sister and brother's girlfriend were drunk so they were being so loud and it just made everything worse so I asked them to be quite and my sister was elbowing me and pissing me off. and the radio was on super loud and I was having a full on melt down shaking crying grabbing onto the door so hard that my knuckles were white and my sister just yelled "she's having a psychotic break!" And I screamed at the top of my lungs in the car for everyone to just shut up. It was a silent trip back and my sister was texting EVERYONE I could see out of the corner of my eye she was copying a pasting the same long message to all her friends, I knew it had to be about me. As soon as we got home I ran to my room and cried myself to sleep. It's been a month and my sister hasn't talked to me and sent a note to my mom saying that she's so happy she moved away and we need to change and that we never truest got along. Now I'm going to put it out there she has a mental disorder and anxiety. So I'm not sure if I should reach out to her assuming she would understand. The reason I'm putting this out there is to see if it was a panic attack so that I can get my facts strait when I tell her. I don't want that night to ruin our relationship because that's how my mom and her sister completely stopped talking.
My first experience that I can remember was when I was only about 8 years old. I had to watch my parent separate and my dad pushed my mum out the door. I was with my 3 year old sister at the time (she is now 12) and I was screaming and crying and I was hugging my sister trying to protect her. When my mum fell out the door I just ran over to her and I was shaking, crying, and I was having trouble breathing and I was so protective of my family at that point. I got to school the next day I was there and I didn't want to tell anyone about it because it was a touchy subject for me. Someone found out, and most of the students parents were still together, and they started picking on me saying things like "oh it's all your fault. It's because you were born that your parents separated" and I believed them. But now I know why they separated and I understand that people do separate and it's out of others peoples control. Ever since then I have suffered from depression and anxiety. My sister now lives with my dad and step mum. I live with my mum. Our family is being torn apart. On Thursday last week my dad got angry with my mum and started yelling at her. It brought back these memories and I was really scared. So I ran off in tears. And then I had to talk to the police about it and it was really hard for me. I still have flashbacks of that day, 9 years later and it's so hard right now.
(CW suicide) I think my first anxiety attack was when I was 17. I might have had anxiety before that, but this was my first anxiety attack. It was in my junior year, and the day after something really upsetting happened to my best friend she didn't show up to school. I was terrified because she struggled with severe depression and I thought she'd attempted suicide. That entire day I was having those anxiety adrenaline rushes every few seconds and I couldn't concentrate on anything. I didn't think it was an anxiety attack because I was still able to complete the school day and it lasted an entire day, but when I had a similar experience at the psych ward my nurse told me it classified as a panic attack.
I don't remember it extremely vividly. However, I was around 7 or 8 and I was in a dance class. Long story short, when it came around time for the recital, I ended up refusing to go and quit dancing because I was so worried and scared about the whole thing. Btw, you're an extremely inspirational girl and you're extremely helpful. Thank you for everything!
Hey Kristen, first off I want to tell you how happy your videos and advice make me! You make me feel not alone :) also would you mind making a video talking about your opinion on showing self harm scars in the work place?
The first anxiety attack I remember is when I was in 2nd grade. I was on a field trip and I was on the bus. Someone I knew on the bus had to sit in the front because she gets motion sickness. Then I started thinking that I had motion sickness too even though I didn't. Then I started freaking out and panicking. It was in front of my entire class and at the time I couldn't calm down. I was screaming and crying and shaking. That is the first time that I had a panic attack and since then I've had social anxiety and a phobia of being sick which comes with panic attacks. I'm doing much better today with my phobia. I still struggle with social anxiety but I've been getting help and it's really helped.
(triggers: emetophobia and detailed description of a panic attack) I remember before the first day of middle school I was so anxious I vomited, I've always felt really really really nervous for things even when they were familiar to me, since I was just a little kid. Only later I realized that it was anxiety. Also I got my first panic attack in high school when I was in Rome on a school trip, and everyone was sitting around a really big table. More and more people started coming and sitting at the table but they all sat on the other side and my anxiety got so bad I thought no one liked me so they wouldn't want to sit with me or even near me (I was bullied at my previous school so I have issues with wanting people to like and accept me) it just got so big in my mind that I just had to get away, I started crying and I couldn't see clearly and time slowed down and my hands and feet were tingling... I felt so ashamed cause everyone saw but luckily they were all very nice even though they didn't understand (I didn't fully understand it either back then) For me I think panic attacks trigger when something specific happens that makes me feel like a complete failure and in that moment there's nothing I could do to make me a good person I just freak out cause I'm feeling so worthless and like no one will ever appreciate or love me..
my first anxiety attack was a few years ago when I worked in a kitchen. I was stressed and I couldn't breath and I was disoriented. kind of like you I didn't want to let anyone down.
My first panic attack was when I was around the age of 6. I was at my first flute recital and I messed up on a note and fell to my knees crying and that's when the feeling hit me
I remember my first really bad anxiety attack happening my junior year of high school. I was taking a math test on logarithms. I never understood that topic I worked really at trying to study. I went in at lunch and after school everyday for a week to get extra help. My teacher was super nice and told me we would see how the test went and if I didn't do well we would work something out. I got the test and it started out okay knowing that if I didn't do well it wouldn't destroy my grade since she would help me. But I was still really upset that I couldn't do the math, I worked so hard. As I moved on it got harder and harder. Soon it was like I was reading a foreign language, I completely blanked out ( and I had a bunch of other really scary physical symptoms that I won't mention so I wound trigger anybody). I asked my teacher if I could go to the bathroom, I just really needed to escape and sneak listen to my favorite song. When I came back she asked if I was okay and I told her what was going on. She told me that she though I was having a panic attack and she had me hand in my test so I could relax. She always had fun coloring sheets and sit to dots to do after the test so she had me do one of those. She also let me finish my test after school where I could ask as ma h questions as I needed to and wasn't as pressured since it was more like one of our study sessions.
I distinctly remember my first panic attack (although at the time I didn't know what it was). I was at a family member's house for dinner and after eating we all played a board game together. I guess I really got into it & when I lost the game, all of a sudden this immense feeling of loss, shame, and loss of control came over me. I remember feeling horrified when I struggled to catch my breath and stop the tears. I ended up needing to leave the house and go for a walk outside before calming down and going back inside. It was so embarrassing.
I’ve only had a few monumental panic attacks, half of them I was so young I don’t remember them anymore. The first one that i remember, I’m not sure how old I was, I was probably between 4-6. I was at the airport either going to see family or coming home from seeing family and I was fumbling around and somehow my arm got stuck in between the 2 arm rests next to each other. After a minute or so of me just struggling and not getting free, starting to panic more, I told my dad. I started crying even more thinking I would make my family miss the flight and I would have to get my arm cut off (I didn’t). It took around 15-20 minutes or so for me to get free, but I was fine afterwards and we still made our flight. After that I didn’t have another panic attack that I remember until I was in 6th grade and around 10-11 yrs old.
My first panic attack was they day after my school found out I cut. I was having a rush of panic all the time because the counselor was supposed to see me that day(cause the saw my cuts at the very end of the day) and it was extremely upsetting to me. I never actually had to see the school counselor because my parents told the school to stay out of it because they were getting a counselor from outside the school. After all my teachers saw my cut I was being treated like i was about to cut long ways if anything set me off. This just got me bullied even more because everybody thought I was a teachers pet. School became a living hell even more than normal. That was my first panic attack. It was not fun at all.
The teacher's also treated me differently at school cuz of my Asperger's and i got picked on because of it. I was verbally bullied a lot by one person. She now studying to become a speech pathologist. Can you believe it? I think she'll be a terrible one.
Anxiety has been in my life since I was a toddler, so i dont remember my first time. But there are two occasions that stand out to me. One of them is when I was like 7 or 8 and I had (Well still have) the biggest phobia of vomit, and my friend had gotten sick in the car on the drive back from somewhere, and I just remember having this terrible anxiety attack that went on and on for days, and when we left for vacation my mom told me that it was impossible for me to get sick in the middle of a mini van and my friend was fine. (and of course when I got back I learnt that my friend was super sick the entire time and they just sent me into more panic). The second memory happened when I was 13 and I was just starting to suspect that I had a few anxiety disorders, and I thought that what was happening to me was panic attacks (and looking back, the times I thought of were more sever anxiety) and I was at a sleepover. I tried to explain this new thing to my friends, and they kinda got it (Even though I really messed up explaining it) and later that night I found myself having this really bad feeling where I was stuck between the bed and the was and I was not letting my bff touch me and my breathing was messed up. It was really weird for me then. Then I went and got help a few months later,
My first panic attack was earlier this year. I have really bad social anxiety and i had to do my english oral test and i was so nervous even though i didn't have to do it in front of everyone if i didn't want to. I was in my form room and everyone was talking about how prepared they were but i stayed up all night preparing and i still felt so unprepared. I started crying then all of a sudden i couldn't breathe and i got these random hot flushes. I started hyperventilating and i got pins and needles in my hands and feet. I didn't know what was wrong with me. It last around 20 minutes until i finally calmed down
I think my first panic attack happened when I was 9 or 10. My mom had to leave me somewhere for about a hour, and when I got there I started panicing. I remember how I felt like the room was collapsing in on it's self and feeling like the ticking of the clock sounded like thunder. I probably left within 15 minutes, but for along time I refused to go back there. Once I left I tried to explain what happened, but no one believed me. They thought I was just being stupid and overeating.
I've been told I started having panic attacks when I was around 7 (I'm 15 now) but the first one I can remember vividly is when I was 11 and my mom was sick and I didn't know what to do so I started crying and didn't know what to do so I got extremely anxious about what was going to happen to her so I started panicking a lot, and it didn't help that I had to call 911 for her as I'm having a panic attack so I could hardly tell them what was happening to my mom. It was horrible. Now whenever my mom is even slightly feeling bad or makes a noise that sounds painful I get anxious about her health and usually end up having a panic attack. And after 4 years of that we finally decided "let's go to the doctor!" And she said I have an anxiety disorder but nothing else has been done to help me since and it's been about 5 months
This isn't a panic attack story but something that I did when I was I don't know 5 or 6. So I loved staying at my grandmas house and I never wanted to leave. One day when we were going in the car I was crying and screaming because I didn't want to go. So I unbuckled my seatbelt and opened the door and jumped out. I ran inside and sat on the stairs crying. That's all I remember but I remember that because my grandma still jokes around about it.
I had a lot of experiences like this when I was a kid and I now know that they were panic attacks. I'd make a big deal over nothing and my parents didn't understand.
I had always been an anxious person. And people would make fun of me for it. It wasn't until I was in an abusive relationship that my anxiety became out of control. I developed panic disorder, chronic anxiety and even OCD. PTSD has played a massive part in my life
The first time I realized I was having a panic attack was because of marching band. One day I thought we were going to be late, and I started to have one. I didn't say anything to my dad or my best friend in the car because I was scared and I felt like I couldn't speak. This happened this past summer. I am 15 years old. We did make it on time, but of course "if you're early, you're on time. If you're on time, you're late." It was a scary and weird situation
I remember when I moved house for the first time and I wanted to meet some of the people in the area. I walked up to someone and I just froze. They didn't know me at the time so they looked confused and creeped out about it. I don't know how long I was standing there but I began to shake, sweat and feel like I was about the throw up so I just ran back to my house.
when I was little, I realized how tiny our earth was. my mom took me to a thing that showed a video about the history of the world, and I started getting anxiety every single night because I thought that the sun was going to explode, or an asteroid was going to rain down, or I just was going to die in my sleep. at 9 years old, I was having existential crisises and fearing death. the first panic attack I ever had was when I was driving back home, and my friend was in the car and it was nighttime, and Idk why but I suddenly couldn't breathe. I was yelling and telling my mom to pull over the car and call 911 because it literally felt like my lungs had collapsed and I couldn't possibly breathe. I think I was crying, but mostly I was hyperventilating. my mom just told me up was having a panic attack and I wasn't in danger and she told me to take deep breaths until I calmed down
My first panic attack was last year. My father (we don't get along) and I went to the store to get my mother a birthday present. My father yelled at me for walking behind him and then when I walked in front he yelled at me for not knowing where to go so he made us split up. The only thing was I didn't have my phone. I was so afraid my father was angry with me and trying to call me and find me. My anxiety-ridden mind was afraid he would hit me or something (I don't think he would now but my head was too cloudy to think clearly) and I was so scared I was crying in the store and just speed-walking around and feeling crap (about an hour or so) until I finally found my father. Not angry. Not screaming. Calmly looking through the shirts. What was I thinking??
I think my first panic attack was about a month ago, and at first I didn't know what it was, I thought I was just really ill. I was in school and I felt so out of control that I wanted to start crying. I had chest pains, I was shaking, I felt really nauseous but there was nothing me or my friends could do. It was the worst body experience of my life and although I've had a lot of school related anxiety before, that was my first real panic attack as far as I know.
My first anxiety attack was when I was going to give my first speech. When It was my turn to give my speech I was in tears begging my teacher not to make me give a speech. I had to have a friend stand up their with me and even then I was stuttering and I was shaking so bad.
My first experience was before the summer when my exams were coming up. I was stressed about my parents being disappointed in me. At this time I was also very suicidal, struggling (and still am,) with depression and an eating disorder. Although I haven't been diagnosed with anxiety, I continue to get panic attacks. I get at least one a week, sometimes more than one a day. Sorry for negativity but life sucks tbh
My first panic attack was in a English exam and I couldn't understand what it was asking me to write, so I ran out the room and one teacher left me to calm down but another started yelling at me and just made it worse, even though she was told not to "deal with me" because she justs makes things worse
Okay.. I never talked to people about panic attacks and what they are. I never understood how to categorize something as a panic attack. Now I do and now when I know i realized how much of them have I had...
I was 13 when I had my first panic attack. I was in class trying to write my essay when I received a text message from my gran saying mum had been rushed to hospital. I had to sit in class and wait for news and it was the longest 45 minutes of my life. Wasn't able to leave the class as I couldn't breathe or move and then threw up in shock😩 had to be carried out of class
My first panic attack happened when I was 12 (I'm 13 now) because I thought my parents left me at a restaurant, now I get panic attacks out of the blue and it sucks and I'm Scared to get help because I struggle with anxiety and depression
My first time having anxiety it felt so bad that I had to go to the hospital and the pain was physical, it felt like huge air bubbles were in my chest making it hard to breathe and when they got out they'd make a weird sound (this happens to my sister too, it's so weird) and now it's the same when I have anxiety and it hurts still but I'm used to it Anxiety attacks I'd prefer not to talk about cuz those get bad
I remember I was 15 at that time, I had panic attack when I was going to do a presentation group at summercamp and i fainted. It's embarassing to remember anyway -____-
I only had two panic attack’s (yet) they both happened in the same week.. it was about the last day of school And it seems that this happens when I’m really stressed and when I’m being too hard in myself...soo school is going to start very soon and I’m so afraid that it’s gonna happen again
I thought about my first experience I now narrowed down my first panic attacks was in 1st grade( at the time I didn't know it) I was 7 because I didn't know an answer on a test and began bawling and I couldn't breathe and my heart was beating uncontrollably and all the teacher said was " you need to calm Down" and I began gasping for air because I was trying to stop crying and I couldn't and it was terrible because I didn't know a supporting detail on a extended response question about firefighters I'm now 12 and still haven't told anyone because I'm terrified they will judge me and it's to the point ware I'm losing friends because I'm " too nervous"
Hey I'm 13 and I was in kind of a similar place. I remeber I was so scared to tell anyone about my anxiety when I was 12. and I let it get to bad. it became hard for me to live daily life I had to quit school and I'm seeing a doctor every week. I guess the moral of the story is don't let things become to terrible. reach out. trust me you will feel so much better. hugs!~♡
Just me and music XD Yeah it can be really terrifying at times. I'm not a person who likes to be weak in front of others but the first couple of visits with my doctor I sobbed like baby. it's a pretty comfortable place but your talking about things that are going to make you REALLY uncomfortable if that makes any sense..? but I know I've become like best friends with my doctor XD
I was on holiday with my family in a caravan and I was sleep and I woke up to the van shaking. Someone was on the roof saying he had a knife so at this point I’m panicking and my mum was saying what wrong with you and stop crying and saying I was making it worse by crying and screaming but I couldn’t stop. Nothing would work not my blanket. Not my teddy. My inhaler. Nothing. I thought I was going to die. To this day I get triggered by caravans. Possibly the weirdest trigger ever.
my very first one was I was 8 years old and I had a drink that had a lot of shuger in and. I read that and panicked thinking OMG what happens iF I DIE because of this drink and then I started shaking and crying and then I couldn't breath and then when dizzy and in 20 mins my mom got the ambulance out and they said it was a panic attack and. since that I have never drunk anything like coke, lukeasade...and now it is so bad I carnt function right and I cry all time and think I carnt breath I have 2 a day and watching you helps me xxx
first memerable one was when i was really, really young. like three or four. and i all i remeber was shaking and feeling really cold under a giant blanket. i was scared for no reason and i thought something was going kill me. i had difficulty breathing and my heart was gling too fast. i could not move either so that made it worse. apperently i had other attacks when i was two.
My panic attack was when my friends were having a fight they hated each other and they made me choose if u are friends with her we can't be friends so I was in gym then a few girls in the line to music started seeing me shaking and sweating so they called the couch and at the worst time the nurse isn't their that's when I start panicking and breath fast and faster then they say to slow down but I couldn't so my head was getting g light headed and I was crying.then the office got a hold with the nurse and she came tight away at the time I was on the office floor with a bag on my mouth breathing looking like I was dying and feeling g like I was dying.then I was able to calm down but the school contacted my mom and I had to tell her everything and I mean everything.well since I wasn't telling her about how I would get a sharp pain in my chest she yold me if u don't tell me anything else I will get a therapist eventually I told her I had to go to the docter it was crazy but I'll never forget that day
this is a lot like my frist panic attack only I am 11 this was like 6 months ago and I live with my grandparents, my parents, uncle and sister so 1 day my parents,sister and i wear trying to leave the house and I forgotten my charger inside and my grandma had said don't let the dog out and I went inside grabbed my charger and my grandma was outside watering her plants and the dog was a German shepherd so he was big and when I saw the dog sitting in front of the door I had panicked the dog was not trained at all he was not listening so the dog got out and my grandma was like "Jaime I told you not to let the dog out" and I did get in trouble
I once had to present something to the class, and I just basically had to read some words from the paper I had, eventually telling some stuff from myself. I walked all the way to the front of the classroom, and just started saying "uhm, well, uhhh, em" told my teacher that I can't do it and started crying. I literally had the text in front of me, but at that moment I felt like I forgot how to read. Was that a panic attack or what? I'm kinda concerned if it was or if it wasn't. (also sorry for bad english)
Idk if mines' really a panic attack, but about a year ago I was making cookies for my mom. She told me to get some weird ingredient and she left to go do something. I looked and looked for the ingredient but i couldn't find it. I ended up sitting in my bathroom and crying, and I didn't even know why. I just felt so bad. idk if this is actually a panic attack or me just being weird XD
One time when I was 10, my mom told me I had to eat my lunch. I wasn't very hungry so I couldn't. And idk why but I felt so terrified and I thought that I wouldn't be able to eat anymore or something and then my mom felt so bad and she let me go outside. 😂😂
I don't think so. i never yelled when i was panicking. If i was in a social situation then yelling would catch a lot of attention and that would make the attack much worse.
Otaku 58 I always yell, feel tightness in my chest and light headed when I have an attack, When I'm in a social situation or in general. So I was wondering. I have been looking it up but there isn't much help. Some say it is, some say it isn't
This actually gave me a huge understanding, you said people who've never had panic attacks probably wouldn't understand, but hearing your story made me realize, I've felt panic before, so a panic attack is just a really amplified feeling of that, crippling even, and it isn't always logical, like you said, it's just that feeling of pressure that you won't do it right and that you feel trapped or stuck or incapable, and you PANIC. I have a friend who gets panic attacks and this helped alot, THANK YOU!! Could you make a video on what someone could do to help a person with a panic attack? It probably depends on the person I suppose, but does it ever help to have someone close by telling you it's gonna be okay, or do most people want to be left alone because seeing people drawing their attention to it will make them panic more?
Luna Rose 🌹 just wanna say I think it's so sweet that you want to help your friend😊 Also, my personal preference is to recover on my own (because I get very embarrassed if people see me having a panic attack, and it's not easy to explain in the moment). However, it's always comforting to know that you've got a support system you can reach out to at any time, if needed.
Hope this helps answer your question!
***** Yeah, it definitely did. 😊 I figured most people might feel that way, so confirmation is good. Thank you.
It depends on the person, but i think most would prefer being alone when having a panic attack maybe get comforted by a close friends too. I'm pretty sure no on would like so many people around when they're having a panic attack. I'll probably faint if that situation happened to me.
Kristen,i know this is completely of subject,but your smile instantly brightens up my mood! You just bring joy to anyone that sees you! And God THOSE EYES.
I just found your channel and this was the first video I watched, so I don't really know what you have covered yet but i wanted to comment my first time having a panic attack. My first panic attack was last year. I was at my college campus waiting outside a classroom because I was about to have a class. The class wasn't anything special or anything to worry about, but most of my anxiety is due to social situations. So, I was waiting outside the class and then all of a sudden I started getting this panicky feeling which I realized was due to other people talking. I doubt they were talking about me but there was something about their voices or the volume of everyone talking at once that felt overwhelming. I started shaking, I felt like I had trouble breathing and I couldn't stop to take full breaths. Over the next hour while I was in class trying to do my classwork I continued to experience this panic attack. I could barely type anything on their computers. I couldn't talk. I couldn't think or concentrate on anything I needed to think or concentrate on. I felt this impending doom and this feeling that there was something wrong with me and I was going to die. I remember feeling really bad for acting that way around other people because it had to have been distracting and worrying to others. I later apologized to them.
I thought this video was awesome I love these story time videos they are really interesting. I can remember my first ever anxiety attack I was in year/Grade seven and I was late to class and I didn't want the teacher to be mad at me so I started to rush to class my heart started beating fast like it was coming out of my chest my palms started to sweat and I felt like I couldn't breathe my throat felt like it was closing on me and it was all because I thought that I was gonna get into trouble but all the teacher was concerned about was if I was ok. I'm like you Kristin I don't like to disappoint people I don't like to get things wrong and I don't like to get into trouble. I'm kind of a perfectionist but I'm working on that with my therapist as well as my anxiety issues .
A few months ago, I was working on a seat for a play and it was pretty late at night. I live in a small town and lately their had been a lot of gang violence and we heard gunshots outside so we had to have a lock down. About 5-10 mins in I just started to panic I had to sit down and just kinda just stare off and think about losing everyone and people were noticing that I was shaking so they tried to comfort me. This is what I thought was my first panic attack. Now that I'm thinking about it it really isn't, I don't exactly know how many I've had just that I've definitely felt that way or the way you've described before and it's kinda fascinating to think about your life before you knew what anxiety or panic attacks were and how stuff like that can go unnoticed without proper education.
Last month I think I had my first panic attack. I've been looking up ways to see if it really was and I think it was. It was Halloween weekend. I just went through a loss of a super close loved one and I had a busy week and I was starting something new early the next morning. And my mom took my brother, his girlfriend, my sister, and I to this concert. It was around 1 in the morning and we were still there and I just started crying in this club (all ages) and freaking out I couldn't breath and my heart was racing so fast. I told my mom I wanted to go home. It was so sudden. She just kept telling me to calm down and to wait for the next song to end. Well I sat there wanting to crawl out of my own skin, so extremely embarrassed that I couldn't act the way my family wanted me to act because I'm 16 in a club. And this song just felt like it was taking forever to finish. When it finally did finish my brother and his girl friend disappeared and my mom just said to wait for them to get back then we would leave. Well they finally came back and at this point I had my head down and I was trying not to scream. And then they announced it was their last song so my family wanted to stay for the last song. I wouldn't sit anymore so I was standing by the door just ready to go, my makeup was ruined I was shaking and completely humiliated and wanted to go home. My family finally left and it was like a 45 minute drive home and my sister and brother's girlfriend were drunk so they were being so loud and it just made everything worse so I asked them to be quite and my sister was elbowing me and pissing me off. and the radio was on super loud and I was having a full on melt down shaking crying grabbing onto the door so hard that my knuckles were white and my sister just yelled "she's having a psychotic break!" And I screamed at the top of my lungs in the car for everyone to just shut up. It was a silent trip back and my sister was texting EVERYONE I could see out of the corner of my eye she was copying a pasting the same long message to all her friends, I knew it had to be about me. As soon as we got home I ran to my room and cried myself to sleep. It's been a month and my sister hasn't talked to me and sent a note to my mom saying that she's so happy she moved away and we need to change and that we never truest got along. Now I'm going to put it out there she has a mental disorder and anxiety. So I'm not sure if I should reach out to her assuming she would understand. The reason I'm putting this out there is to see if it was a panic attack so that I can get my facts strait when I tell her. I don't want that night to ruin our relationship because that's how my mom and her sister completely stopped talking.
My first experience that I can remember was when I was only about 8 years old. I had to watch my parent separate and my dad pushed my mum out the door. I was with my 3 year old sister at the time (she is now 12) and I was screaming and crying and I was hugging my sister trying to protect her. When my mum fell out the door I just ran over to her and I was shaking, crying, and I was having trouble breathing and I was so protective of my family at that point. I got to school the next day I was there and I didn't want to tell anyone about it because it was a touchy subject for me. Someone found out, and most of the students parents were still together, and they started picking on me saying things like "oh it's all your fault. It's because you were born that your parents separated" and I believed them. But now I know why they separated and I understand that people do separate and it's out of others peoples control.
Ever since then I have suffered from depression and anxiety. My sister now lives with my dad and step mum. I live with my mum. Our family is being torn apart. On Thursday last week my dad got angry with my mum and started yelling at her. It brought back these memories and I was really scared. So I ran off in tears. And then I had to talk to the police about it and it was really hard for me. I still have flashbacks of that day, 9 years later and it's so hard right now.
Aww,it'll get better! Hang in there sweety:)
(CW suicide) I think my first anxiety attack was when I was 17. I might have had anxiety before that, but this was my first anxiety attack. It was in my junior year, and the day after something really upsetting happened to my best friend she didn't show up to school. I was terrified because she struggled with severe depression and I thought she'd attempted suicide. That entire day I was having those anxiety adrenaline rushes every few seconds and I couldn't concentrate on anything. I didn't think it was an anxiety attack because I was still able to complete the school day and it lasted an entire day, but when I had a similar experience at the psych ward my nurse told me it classified as a panic attack.
wow that's terrifying. I'm so sorry, and I hope you're friend is okay
My friend is fine! The situation resolved okay, but it was years ago anyway.
When you relies you may have had more panic attacks then you thought.
I don't remember it extremely vividly. However, I was around 7 or 8 and I was in a dance class. Long story short, when it came around time for the recital, I ended up refusing to go and quit dancing because I was so worried and scared about the whole thing. Btw, you're an extremely inspirational girl and you're extremely helpful. Thank you for everything!
Hey Kristen, first off I want to tell you how happy your videos and advice make me! You make me feel not alone :) also would you mind making a video talking about your opinion on showing self harm scars in the work place?
I'm having a rather hard time at the moment and I just wanted to say thank you for helping. Don't let the little things get you down, stay strong
this is perfect because I was just diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and I get panic attacks
your a true inspiration I love you so much
The first anxiety attack I remember is when I was in 2nd grade. I was on a field trip and I was on the bus. Someone I knew on the bus had to sit in the front because she gets motion sickness. Then I started thinking that I had motion sickness too even though I didn't. Then I started freaking out and panicking. It was in front of my entire class and at the time I couldn't calm down. I was screaming and crying and shaking. That is the first time that I had a panic attack and since then I've had social anxiety and a phobia of being sick which comes with panic attacks. I'm doing much better today with my phobia. I still struggle with social anxiety but I've been getting help and it's really helped.
(triggers: emetophobia and detailed description of a panic attack)
I remember before the first day of middle school I was so anxious I vomited, I've always felt really really really nervous for things even when they were familiar to me, since I was just a little kid. Only later I realized that it was anxiety.
Also I got my first panic attack in high school when I was in Rome on a school trip, and everyone was sitting around a really big table. More and more people started coming and sitting at the table but they all sat on the other side and my anxiety got so bad I thought no one liked me so they wouldn't want to sit with me or even near me (I was bullied at my previous school so I have issues with wanting people to like and accept me) it just got so big in my mind that I just had to get away, I started crying and I couldn't see clearly and time slowed down and my hands and feet were tingling... I felt so ashamed cause everyone saw but luckily they were all very nice even though they didn't understand (I didn't fully understand it either back then)
For me I think panic attacks trigger when something specific happens that makes me feel like a complete failure and in that moment there's nothing I could do to make me a good person I just freak out cause I'm feeling so worthless and like no one will ever appreciate or love me..
i cant walk into rooms without people i recognise becaue ill have an attack. the first day of school sucks soo bad. every single year
I recently found your channel and I really like your videos
my first anxiety attack was a few years ago when I worked in a kitchen. I was stressed and I couldn't breath and I was disoriented. kind of like you I didn't want to let anyone down.
My first panic attack was when I was around the age of 6. I was at my first flute recital and I messed up on a note and fell to my knees crying and that's when the feeling hit me
I remember my first really bad anxiety attack happening my junior year of high school. I was taking a math test on logarithms. I never understood that topic I worked really at trying to study. I went in at lunch and after school everyday for a week to get extra help. My teacher was super nice and told me we would see how the test went and if I didn't do well we would work something out. I got the test and it started out okay knowing that if I didn't do well it wouldn't destroy my grade since she would help me. But I was still really upset that I couldn't do the math, I worked so hard. As I moved on it got harder and harder. Soon it was like I was reading a foreign language, I completely blanked out ( and I had a bunch of other really scary physical symptoms that I won't mention so I wound trigger anybody). I asked my teacher if I could go to the bathroom, I just really needed to escape and sneak listen to my favorite song. When I came back she asked if I was okay and I told her what was going on. She told me that she though I was having a panic attack and she had me hand in my test so I could relax. She always had fun coloring sheets and sit to dots to do after the test so she had me do one of those. She also let me finish my test after school where I could ask as ma h questions as I needed to and wasn't as pressured since it was more like one of our study sessions.
Thank you for close captioning it any way
I distinctly remember my first panic attack (although at the time I didn't know what it was).
I was at a family member's house for dinner and after eating we all played a board game together. I guess I really got into it & when I lost the game, all of a sudden this immense feeling of loss, shame, and loss of control came over me. I remember feeling horrified when I struggled to catch my breath and stop the tears. I ended up needing to leave the house and go for a walk outside before calming down and going back inside. It was so embarrassing.
my first real panic attack was at homecoming my freshman year, it was really bad but i'm glad you can relate with having this issue
I’ve only had a few monumental panic attacks, half of them I was so young I don’t remember them anymore. The first one that i remember, I’m not sure how old I was, I was probably between 4-6. I was at the airport either going to see family or coming home from seeing family and I was fumbling around and somehow my arm got stuck in between the 2 arm rests next to each other. After a minute or so of me just struggling and not getting free, starting to panic more, I told my dad. I started crying even more thinking I would make my family miss the flight and I would have to get my arm cut off (I didn’t). It took around 15-20 minutes or so for me to get free, but I was fine afterwards and we still made our flight. After that I didn’t have another panic attack that I remember until I was in 6th grade and around 10-11 yrs old.
My first panic attack was they day after my school found out I cut. I was having a rush of panic all the time because the counselor was supposed to see me that day(cause the saw my cuts at the very end of the day) and it was extremely upsetting to me. I never actually had to see the school counselor because my parents told the school to stay out of it because they were getting a counselor from outside the school. After all my teachers saw my cut I was being treated like i was about to cut long ways if anything set me off. This just got me bullied even more because everybody thought I was a teachers pet. School became a living hell even more than normal.
That was my first panic attack. It was not fun at all.
The teacher's also treated me differently at school cuz of my Asperger's and i got picked on because of it. I was verbally bullied a lot by one person. She now studying to become a speech pathologist. Can you believe it? I think she'll be a terrible one.
Anxiety has been in my life since I was a toddler, so i dont remember my first time. But there are two occasions that stand out to me. One of them is when I was like 7 or 8 and I had (Well still have) the biggest phobia of vomit, and my friend had gotten sick in the car on the drive back from somewhere, and I just remember having this terrible anxiety attack that went on and on for days, and when we left for vacation my mom told me that it was impossible for me to get sick in the middle of a mini van and my friend was fine. (and of course when I got back I learnt that my friend was super sick the entire time and they just sent me into more panic). The second memory happened when I was 13 and I was just starting to suspect that I had a few anxiety disorders, and I thought that what was happening to me was panic attacks (and looking back, the times I thought of were more sever anxiety) and I was at a sleepover. I tried to explain this new thing to my friends, and they kinda got it (Even though I really messed up explaining it) and later that night I found myself having this really bad feeling where I was stuck between the bed and the was and I was not letting my bff touch me and my breathing was messed up. It was really weird for me then. Then I went and got help a few months later,
My first panic attack was earlier this year. I have really bad social anxiety and i had to do my english oral test and i was so nervous even though i didn't have to do it in front of everyone if i didn't want to. I was in my form room and everyone was talking about how prepared they were but i stayed up all night preparing and i still felt so unprepared. I started crying then all of a sudden i couldn't breathe and i got these random hot flushes. I started hyperventilating and i got pins and needles in my hands and feet. I didn't know what was wrong with me. It last around 20 minutes until i finally calmed down
I think my first panic attack happened when I was 9 or 10. My mom had to leave me somewhere for about a hour, and when I got there I started panicing. I remember how I felt like the room was collapsing in on it's self and feeling like the ticking of the clock sounded like thunder. I probably left within 15 minutes, but for along time I refused to go back there. Once I left I tried to explain what happened, but no one believed me. They thought I was just being stupid and overeating.
I've been told I started having panic attacks when I was around 7 (I'm 15 now) but the first one I can remember vividly is when I was 11 and my mom was sick and I didn't know what to do so I started crying and didn't know what to do so I got extremely anxious about what was going to happen to her so I started panicking a lot, and it didn't help that I had to call 911 for her as I'm having a panic attack so I could hardly tell them what was happening to my mom. It was horrible. Now whenever my mom is even slightly feeling bad or makes a noise that sounds painful I get anxious about her health and usually end up having a panic attack. And after 4 years of that we finally decided "let's go to the doctor!" And she said I have an anxiety disorder but nothing else has been done to help me since and it's been about 5 months
This isn't a panic attack story but something that I did when I was I don't know 5 or 6. So I loved staying at my grandmas house and I never wanted to leave. One day when we were going in the car I was crying and screaming because I didn't want to go. So I unbuckled my seatbelt and opened the door and jumped out. I ran inside and sat on the stairs crying. That's all I remember but I remember that because my grandma still jokes around about it.
I had a lot of experiences like this when I was a kid and I now know that they were panic attacks. I'd make a big deal over nothing and my parents didn't understand.
I had always been an anxious person. And people would make fun of me for it. It wasn't until I was in an abusive relationship that my anxiety became out of control. I developed panic disorder, chronic anxiety and even OCD. PTSD has played a massive part in my life
The first time I realized I was having a panic attack was because of marching band. One day I thought we were going to be late, and I started to have one. I didn't say anything to my dad or my best friend in the car because I was scared and I felt like I couldn't speak. This happened this past summer. I am 15 years old. We did make it on time, but of course "if you're early, you're on time. If you're on time, you're late." It was a scary and weird situation
I understand that so much I have the same problems I have really bad one 😰
I remember when I moved house for the first time and I wanted to meet some of the people in the area. I walked up to someone and I just froze. They didn't know me at the time so they looked confused and creeped out about it. I don't know how long I was standing there but I began to shake, sweat and feel like I was about the throw up so I just ran back to my house.
when I was little, I realized how tiny our earth was. my mom took me to a thing that showed a video about the history of the world, and I started getting anxiety every single night because I thought that the sun was going to explode, or an asteroid was going to rain down, or I just was going to die in my sleep. at 9 years old, I was having existential crisises and fearing death.
the first panic attack I ever had was when I was driving back home, and my friend was in the car and it was nighttime, and Idk why but I suddenly couldn't breathe. I was yelling and telling my mom to pull over the car and call 911 because it literally felt like my lungs had collapsed and I couldn't possibly breathe. I think I was crying, but mostly I was hyperventilating. my mom just told me up was having a panic attack and I wasn't in danger and she told me to take deep breaths until I calmed down
My first panic attack was last year. My father (we don't get along) and I went to the store to get my mother a birthday present. My father yelled at me for walking behind him and then when I walked in front he yelled at me for not knowing where to go so he made us split up. The only thing was I didn't have my phone. I was so afraid my father was angry with me and trying to call me and find me. My anxiety-ridden mind was afraid he would hit me or something (I don't think he would now but my head was too cloudy to think clearly) and I was so scared I was crying in the store and just speed-walking around and feeling crap (about an hour or so) until I finally found my father. Not angry. Not screaming. Calmly looking through the shirts. What was I thinking??
I think my first panic attack was about a month ago, and at first I didn't know what it was, I thought I was just really ill. I was in school and I felt so out of control that I wanted to start crying. I had chest pains, I was shaking, I felt really nauseous but there was nothing me or my friends could do. It was the worst body experience of my life and although I've had a lot of school related anxiety before, that was my first real panic attack as far as I know.
My first anxiety attack was when I was going to give my first speech. When It was my turn to give my speech I was in tears begging my teacher not to make me give a speech. I had to have a friend stand up their with me and even then I was stuttering and I was shaking so bad.
mine was my seventh birthday, standing in a queue at a theme park and I just started shaking and hyperventilating
My first experience was before the summer when my exams were coming up. I was stressed about my parents being disappointed in me. At this time I was also very suicidal, struggling (and still am,) with depression and an eating disorder. Although I haven't been diagnosed with anxiety, I continue to get panic attacks. I get at least one a week, sometimes more than one a day. Sorry for negativity but life sucks tbh
My first panic attack was in a English exam and I couldn't understand what it was asking me to write, so I ran out the room and one teacher left me to calm down but another started yelling at me and just made it worse, even though she was told not to "deal with me" because she justs makes things worse
I had a panic attack one time and it was for no reason, but it just happened.
Okay.. I never talked to people about panic attacks and what they are. I never understood how to categorize something as a panic attack. Now I do and now when I know i realized how much of them have I had...
I'm 17 and I have anxiety and panic attacks 2 often to remember my first
I was 13 when I had my first panic attack. I was in class trying to write my essay when I received a text message from my gran saying mum had been rushed to hospital. I had to sit in class and wait for news and it was the longest 45 minutes of my life. Wasn't able to leave the class as I couldn't breathe or move and then threw up in shock😩 had to be carried out of class
i remember my first anxiety/panic attack it was in 5th grade. (all my attacks have been at school :/). after that i had 2 more that same year.
I had loads of panic attacks that I cant even remember when was my first one lol
I have had 2 panic attacks... (I'm young) one today and one a little while ago...
My first panic attack happened when I was 12 (I'm 13 now) because I thought my parents left me at a restaurant, now I get panic attacks out of the blue and it sucks and I'm
Scared to get help because I struggle with anxiety and depression
My first time having anxiety it felt so bad that I had to go to the hospital and the pain was physical, it felt like huge air bubbles were in my chest making it hard to breathe and when they got out they'd make a weird sound (this happens to my sister too, it's so weird) and now it's the same when I have anxiety and it hurts still but I'm used to it
Anxiety attacks I'd prefer not to talk about cuz those get bad
I remember I was 15 at that time, I had panic attack when I was going to do a presentation group at summercamp and i fainted. It's embarassing to remember anyway -____-
I only had two panic attack’s (yet) they both happened in the same week.. it was about the last day of school
And it seems that this happens when I’m really stressed and when I’m being too hard in myself...soo school is going to start very soon and I’m so afraid that it’s gonna happen again
Welp, I had one when I was late for class
I thought about my first experience I now narrowed down my first panic attacks was in 1st grade( at the time I didn't know it) I was 7 because I didn't know an answer on a test and began bawling and I couldn't breathe and my heart was beating uncontrollably and all the teacher said was " you need to calm Down" and I began gasping for air because I was trying to stop crying and I couldn't and it was terrible because I didn't know a supporting detail on a extended response question about firefighters I'm now 12 and still haven't told anyone because I'm terrified they will judge me and it's to the point ware I'm losing friends because I'm " too nervous"
Hey I'm 13 and I was in kind of a similar place. I remeber I was so scared to tell anyone about my anxiety when I was 12. and I let it get to bad. it became hard for me to live daily life I had to quit school and I'm seeing a doctor every week. I guess the moral of the story is don't let things become to terrible. reach out. trust me you will feel so much better. hugs!~♡
I actually talked to my mom yesterday ( thank god) and my first counseling session is next week
Just me and music good! it's really scary at first.. but trust me it's amazing and you'll feel so much better!
Panda Kat thank you, but tbh I'm slightly terrified
Just me and music XD Yeah it can be really terrifying at times. I'm not a person who likes to be weak in front of others but the first couple of visits with my doctor I sobbed like baby. it's a pretty comfortable place but your talking about things that are going to make you REALLY uncomfortable if that makes any sense..? but I know I've become like best friends with my doctor XD
Idk i never had a panic attack but i somehow really understand
I was on holiday with my family in a caravan and I was sleep and I woke up to the van shaking. Someone was on the roof saying he had a knife so at this point I’m panicking and my mum was saying what wrong with you and stop crying and saying I was making it worse by crying and screaming but I couldn’t stop. Nothing would work not my blanket. Not my teddy. My inhaler. Nothing. I thought I was going to die. To this day I get triggered by caravans. Possibly the weirdest trigger ever.
Dogs make me have panic attacks.
Today i had a panic attack because of my dog that mom HAD to get.
my very first one was I was 8 years old and I had a drink that had a lot of shuger in and. I read that and panicked thinking OMG what happens iF I DIE because of this drink and then I started shaking and crying and then I couldn't breath and then when dizzy and in 20 mins my mom got the ambulance out and they said it was a panic attack and. since that I have never drunk anything like coke, lukeasade...and now it is so bad I carnt function right and I cry all time and think I carnt breath I have 2 a day and watching you helps me xxx
first memerable one was when i was really, really young. like three or four. and i all i remeber was shaking and feeling really cold under a giant blanket. i was scared for no reason and i thought something was going kill me. i had difficulty breathing and my heart was gling too fast. i could not move either so that made it worse. apperently i had other attacks when i was two.
My panic attack was when my friends were having a fight they hated each other and they made me choose if u are friends with her we can't be friends so I was in gym then a few girls in the line to music started seeing me shaking and sweating so they called the couch and at the worst time the nurse isn't their that's when I start panicking and breath fast and faster then they say to slow down but I couldn't so my head was getting g light headed and I was crying.then the office got a hold with the nurse and she came tight away at the time I was on the office floor with a bag on my mouth breathing looking like I was dying and feeling g like I was dying.then I was able to calm down but the school contacted my mom and I had to tell her everything and I mean everything.well since I wasn't telling her about how I would get a sharp pain in my chest she yold me if u don't tell me anything else I will get a therapist eventually I told her I had to go to the docter it was crazy but I'll never forget that day
this is a lot like my frist panic attack only I am 11 this was like 6 months ago and I live with my grandparents, my parents, uncle and sister so 1 day my parents,sister and i wear trying to leave the house and I forgotten my charger inside and my grandma had said don't let the dog out and I went inside grabbed my charger and my grandma was outside watering her plants and the dog was a German shepherd so he was big and when I saw the dog sitting in front of the door I had panicked the dog was not trained at all he was not listening so the dog got out and my grandma was like "Jaime I told you not to let the dog out" and I did get in trouble
i see all of these comments being like 11, 10, 12 and soo on and im here like 3!
My first was in the school bathroom...wasnt nice
I once had to present something to the class, and I just basically had to read some words from the paper I had, eventually telling some stuff from myself. I walked all the way to the front of the classroom, and just started saying "uhm, well, uhhh, em" told my teacher that I can't do it and started crying. I literally had the text in front of me, but at that moment I felt like I forgot how to read.
Was that a panic attack or what? I'm kinda concerned if it was or if it wasn't.
(also sorry for bad english)
i still don't get what it is
Idk if mines' really a panic attack, but about a year ago I was making cookies for my mom. She told me to get some weird ingredient and she left to go do something. I looked and looked for the ingredient but i couldn't find it. I ended up sitting in my bathroom and crying, and I didn't even know why. I just felt so bad. idk if this is actually a panic attack or me just being weird XD
One time when I was 10, my mom told me I had to eat my lunch. I wasn't very hungry so I couldn't. And idk why but I felt so terrified and I thought that I wouldn't be able to eat anymore or something and then my mom felt so bad and she let me go outside. 😂😂
I have a question: Is yelling, wailing a symptom of anxiety/panic attack
I don't think so. i never yelled when i was panicking. If i was in a social situation then yelling would catch a lot of attention and that would make the attack much worse.
Otaku 58 I always yell, feel tightness in my chest and light headed when I have an attack, When I'm in a social situation or in general. So I was wondering. I have been looking it up but there isn't much help. Some say it is, some say it isn't
I don't want to recall mine :( ._.
It definitely wasnt fun
Or maybe what I thought was my first wasnt actually
does anyone have a TalkLife account? TalkLife is an app that helps a lot of ppl with mental illnesses, it helps me alot