Problematic - I Need Help (Official Video)
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- Опубліковано 28 сер 2022
- Problematic - I Need Help (Official Video)
The Official Music Video For "I Need Help" By 'Problematic
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Beat Produced By: Trunxks Beatz
Mixed and Mastered By: Adam Lewis
Directed By: Problematic
Cover Art: Sonik
Edited By: Sonik HipHop
Problematic - I Need Help (Lyrics)
Verse 1:
I often reminisce and wonder where the time has gone
I’m suffering in silence but somehow remaining strong
I’m smoking w**d to get me higher than I’m Cheech and Chong
To balance out the lows but happiness ain’t lasting long
My head is in the clouds no sunny days it’s always raining
I need a new solution certainly and stop complaining
Cause it is doing no one justice like the crooked system
I’m here to speak the truth and always spew some words of wisdom
These people say I’m doing great but I do not believe it
Cause I am not half of the person that I was conceiving
I guess it’s all perception truly how you view the world
I feel the pressure under tension like I’m doing curls
I’m stressing over being stressed it’s such a mental burden
And my endeavours lead me here but I do not deserve it
At least that’s what I tell myself yeah I know it’s strange
I got some scars, I got some souvenirs from all the pain
Chorus:
I wanna do better but I still do hate myself
Tortured by my demons I’ve been walking through this h*ll
I need help
Looking in the mirror like who the h*ll am I though?!
I need help
Way too stubborn to ask
Think I’m about to relapse (ooh oooh)
Verse 2:
I’m stuck procrastinating questioning if I will make it
My sweaty palms / elusive thoughts has got me kinda anxious
The only time I’m truly satisfied is when I’m faded
The voices up inside my head is quite a conversation
I’m about to try some hypnotherapy and pray it works
Cause all the self help books and talk has actually made it worse
Domestic v*olence growing up can leave a person hurt
No father figure in the picture now I’m on the verge
It’s inconceivable the damage that is bleeding through
I was a sh*t disturber plenty days within my youth
I’m not exaggerating from the drugs I should of died
But God had better plans making sure I do survive
Don’t wanna compromise maybe that’s why I am single
I had to rid of people that would love to just belittle
I’ll turn the coldest like I’m Wim Hof on an expedition
I trust the process but there’s many days I feel like quitting
Chorus Repeat
Bridge:
They don’t understand no
I stay to myself and I lay low
Misery sure loves company
And my mind can’t lie been k*lling me
I’m falling
Still falling
I don’t know how I stay so strong
Keep calling
I’m calling
But ain’t nobody pick up the phone
Chorus Repeat
Outro:
(Oooooohhh) (Ooooohhh!)
They don’t know
(Oooooohhh) (Ooooohhh!)
They don’t know
Yeah
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I love your songs and im single
I love your music so much
I love you music i cant wait for you to make nother song
Respect from East Coast of Ireland to you 🇮🇪🍀🇮🇪
Love your music you are a amazing artist love this🔥I can fully relate
To the person reading this: Even though I don't know you but I wish you all the best for what life has to offer. And your gorgeous human being and you shouldn't let everyone bring you down your smile is precious and a key for a happy life. Hope you are having a wonderful day/night and hope you are staying safe and healthy God bless you and to your family. ^^ 💙
Much love! and I don't let anyone else bring me down I let myself down
Thank you and I wish the same stay safe
@@ProblematicHipHop i feel u. I let myself and everyone down i feel trapped here in this toxic household but i cant do nothing yet. And im mentally drained
@@urlocalgamer3857 There's always a way out and I'm optimistic you will find happiness
@@ProblematicHipHop we all can get through this. Yes its hard but i believe in all of us 💜💜💕💕👑💝 Just know all of you are amazing
Greg!!! This is one of the most deepest songs you've ever wrote, I relate to every word, and it kills me everyday that people aka my parents will never understand the abuse they put me through, so I smoke weed everyday to numb the pain!!! FUCKING LOVE YOU AND YOUR MUSIC!! it has always helped me and I'm so proud of you 😭❤️❤️
Thanks so much! stay amazing truly
keep you in my prayers bro. we all need this feeling of rest in our soul, pray you find yours.
many blessings
Listening to your music is an insight into myself. I to have been through so much in life and at the age of 56 still finding myself going in circles. I suffer from anti-social disability and at times It's a blessing, other times a curse. Keep up the great work Problem it's nice to know that someone gets it.
Life is always trying to teach us something and the learning process never stops. My pleasure
Awww, I wish I could take away all the pain and hell this beautiful soul has endured. You will rise and find love and I hope you find peace. I know exactly what you've been through I went through a majority of the same things some worse cases I struggle with my demons on a daily, the most powerful war we battle is that of our own mind, our inner demons take control and trap us in our own dungeon of hell.
Happy to help and I don't think I'm a pessimist by any means but rather like to take a practical approach on things
Woow so relatable , feeling this lyrics 💙🇿🇦
" They don't understand no , i stay to myself and lay low , misery sure loves company and my mind can't lie been killing me , I'm falling still falling don't know how i stay so strong "
Thats real life! much love
My brother your always getting me through my tough times my addiction my mental health without your music I'd be dead or worse so thankyou bro
Peace and love to you bruv !!!
Inspiration is key bro! one love
I got this song on replay right now, it’s just amazing and it’s just straight relatable, just mad talent and stories, and could just feel the emotions in your bars
Lets stream it up! happy to help
Still feeling this man's music at my core and I have listening to it for over a year now I swear I wish my freestyle flow could be as powerful as this man and his words
keep spreading the love
5 days late to the show, but yet again goosebumps! Love love love this song my Man. I am sad to see you feel like many of us
keep spreading the love bro
First time ever listening to this song and it hit home in so many different ways. For anyone needing to hear this don't let anyone or anything get in the way of your happiness
amen 🙏
You're an awakening empath!!! congratulations greg!! I've got 4 years sober i always change your 3 years to 4 when I sing your songs.. THIS SONG I FEEL TO MY SOUL, BESUTIFUL, MY GUY, NARCISSIST CODEPENDENT WEB
Being an empath is both a blessings and a curse
You will make it through your music and get the help.you need it saved my.life.
Therapy and hard hard work
Gotta keep fighting for what we believe in
Bro thank you for your music man... it's like your lyrics speak what's on my mind.. much blessing man and thank you...
I do my best! keep spreading the love
@@ProblematicHipHop and thank you so much for your reply. It shows you care about people like us with mental health man... namaste 🙏
@@wilsonsilvestre5277 I try
I offer unto You my wounded heart, my broken heart. I know it is You, my Lord, who will uphold me in the end. Let me not lose hope. Let me not cast away everything that's good and beautiful in this life.
God bless 🙏
@@ProblematicHipHop God bless you my friend. Thanks for being real and reaching so many people.
@@justincastille4428 of course
"I trust the process, but there's many days I feel like quittin"
U literally never fail me... I feel EVERY song and most the lyrics.. 🥰😍
Always tell it like it is! much luv
Just discovered you by accident last week. Had no idea that you would drop a song today that perfectly describes what I'm going through and went through TODAY.
Please hang on man...
Much love and happy to have you along for the ride
I’m addicted to this song man. I’ve been feeling this very much and then you dropped this song which is so relatable. Your the best rap artist out there IMO.
This is straight up fire and I think it’s some of your best work. Much love for you and your music man!!
Thank you so much as it genuinely means a lot. Keep streaming for me
Man this song hits close to the heart I can relate amazing song keep doing what u do🙏 stay blessed brother
Happy to connect
This guy needs way more credit than he gets👍👍 every songs a hit🔥🔥 keep doing what you do your such an inspiration🙏🙏
respect 🙏
I've got daddy issues too gregg, but I'm healing everyday and so are you beautiful human!!!!
at the same time we can't let our past dictate our future
It's about the RISE AFTER THE FALL.... can't do unless you do it for yourself and prayers 🙏
what matters most is we don't quit
Good morning Greg!!! Im in hell escaping through your beautiful flow of meaningful words to the right people, with that beautiful melody, you are so helpful and caring, but its hard to feel worthy of love, when you've been told your whole life your not worthy..you shine my good man!!! I feel like an alien not from this planet also, and carry the pain of the world. I'm trying to release what doesn't serve me, but I can't not care, im so thoughtful I mess shit up because I overthink it all, we are all worthy of love, not manipulation, actual love, no anterior motives, just to genuinely care about another's well being...you made me realize my passion, I don't sound good singing, I do it anyway, I don't like to feel seen alot, good attention makes me nervous, and trust issues.... saying no isn't confrontational its setting boundaries wich is self care....
Its not where you've been but rather where you are going. Better days to come
What i wouldn't give to just shake your hand ive been listening to you for 6 years now and new or old ur songs are more than a song to me these arent just words to me. I hope one we cross paths because shaking your hand would be a blessing and to look into ur eyes in person i would love to say thank you.❤😢
Maybe one day! keep up the amazing support
They killed the beat with this flow 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥❤🔥
much love and respect
it just hits so hard if you feel the same.
Happy to help 🙏
You're not alone. We all need help sometimes
It's true
It is just know I love your music and got your shirt man!
@@leeannmarie3372 stay amazing
I was found you when I was depression, because of believers humans.
Now I listen you for support
Stay happy and determination my friend 🙂
Happy to have you along for the journey
I can deff relate to 99.9% of your emotions in your tracks ⭐⭐⭐
Here to inspire
You have to be so tired of carrying the pain. The people that hurt us, justified it from a place of pain, we are perfectly made, we our pure 💘 love
makes you strong as hell at the end of the day
Amazing like always your songs always make me feel better keep up the good work we got your back
Happy to truly make a difference
Heeey we have same abandonment issues, anxious, detached, ocd, depression, broken. Lost, said, pain, we want to feel love...unconditional, non-judgmental, ride or die love, we want to be loved the way we love you. UNCONDITIONALLY
Happy to connect 🙏
Seriously see everyone in 5 years when this is recommended to you…… and it was recommended to you cuz your lost looking for music to help you be found. Well here you found the first step to that.
As long as you provide value to the market you will succeed in whatever career path you choose
Damn UA-cam lacking how'd I miss this banger 🔥💯💯💪
Respect 🙏
It hits hard too on the bass, with that melody and that voice...Thank you for your passion and pain in your lyrics, it helps to know im not alone.
Glad you like it
@@ProblematicHipHop when are you going to do another song ? Because I'm waiting for new song to come out ?
@@forzhrizon5874 it's never enough for some of y'all
@@ProblematicHipHop 😁 sorry for asking you this but do you have gf ? Because when you released lie i thought you have a gf in that video? Sorry for asking you that
@@forzhrizon5874 I am seeing someone now but that wasn't my gf
Another bad day Greg, im sad carrying pain thats breathtaking, again thank you, 4 years sobriety, I battle daily because of my environment, mostly, I know whats right, I feel empty, I don't want help, but I do need it, self isolating to control my triggers, holy shit, there's alot, mostly disrespect with actions and words...I love you man...
Love y'all! all in good time
Mystery as fireflies though, yet inspirational
much love and respect
Man bro this song hits different in my heart! Feel everything your spitting about! So relatable!
pleasure to inspire and truly make a difference
Your pain feels so familiar, your message is something I pretty much see as very relatable to the story of my own dark memories and the emotionally hopeless and suicidal tendencies of my own soul...
I just hope your story ends up with a happy outcome, whether of this Earth, spiritual or both.
For what it's worth man, you are not alone. My own life is riddled with a pain that's familiarity borders on your own in quite a real way but unlike me, I could see from the start of having found your content that your heart is pure and your life is one with not only hope in music, but with hope passing throughout all of the various n many areas which constitute meaning in life and validity for why one needs to hold onto themselves getting to live this life out long enough to see their story come to its natural, destiny of your God-given, living conclusion - the natural end to your life that He decides, not you/us/anybody other than Yahweh/Christ...
I love that you make music which serves to bring forth light into this fallen world...
Upon ones works is a man defined, in my eyes, and yours have likely brought quite a few the desire to stay alive while they see in you a person relatable on whatever level to themselves and, through this, find a reason for hope and to continue forward, no matter the sadness...
Always the goal to inspire and truly make a difference. We are never alone through the battle and music is the ultimate therapy that unites us all. God is good. I appreciate you
Problematic is one of my favorite artist but person also. He is real and raw not many out there now days. And he is doing it on his own. May be a stupid silly fan girl but he speaks to me and as much as it sucks I'm glad I'm not alone
I do what I can! mad love
Felt this song to the core😔
much love
I searched " I Need help" and I found this song.....thank you ;)
pleasure to inspire and truly make a difference
Hand down, the heaviest barz I've heard this year... Songs deep bro..
STAY blessed brother 1💜🙏
Nothing but love!
I know what it's like to hate yourself, I hate myself all the time, then I get angry with myself.
So I feel like rubbish.
I don't know who I am, no more.
Sometimes I think my family hate me too. Which is such an aweful feeling, that I just don't belong here on Earth.
All part of being a human. Onwards and upwards
U just made a song about my emotions rn!! I feel that pain and struggle. I think I need help too
Happy to connect bro
Not much I can say you have said it all in your song just please never stop because us out here going thru the same need to hear these songs on the days we are ready for it all to end 🎧
Always here to remind others that they are never alone. Much love
Always helps me listing to your music. Thank you so much man wish I could thank you in person. Keep doing what you do lots of people are truly thankful and proud of what your doing for mental health awareness.
A pleasure bro! keep spreading the love
You always have a spot in my top five
definitely means a lot
Hang in there man , your right though U here for a reason n God has A purpose for you, stay strong n 🙏💗
Much love and respect! thank you
As always you speaking the truth this song is not sugar coating it's just straight up facts. We all need help sometimes in life weather it's addiction or mental help in some way we are all struggling and that's why we love your music it's real life tells facts . We as you fans are here for you always this is a comment from Nathan your biggest fan much love
Thank you man 🙏 and I can promise to always tell it like it is. Much love
Self isolating to regulate my emotions, im drained physically, thank you Greg, it helps to know you have bad days too, its a miracle to survive them sometimes, a split second choice could end it all, its the avoiding that, that I fight for, guilt and shame eat at my soul, im trying to forgive me, I say it, you make me feel whole again every song, so I'm scared to leave, so I stay...the heaviness of the pain gets unbearable.
at the end of the day we have to remember we are all human and we all make mistakes
man , you drop right when i need it most . thank God for you sir . you cant imagine how much this helps me get through certain things
Happy to hear that. Lets keep spreading the word
Hello Problematic, i hope you are well and keeps on pushing forward, your music is so comforting and inspirational, I'm sorry you had too go through all of what you have, but I'm glad your so strong and able to share it with us! Sincerely thank you, your music is powerful ❤️
I do appreciate it! keep up the amazing support for real
The system is working 100℅💪
much love
Another on point song! If only you knew how relatable these songs are ❤️
I do my best! much love
Such a talent! REPEAT ❤️ what a song. A real inspiration!
Thanks so much
Just got betrayed by another mental health service providing place. This reminds me that I'm not alone and that there are people that go through very similar things. All the talk has made it worse hit really hard to because it's just too relatable. The more someone tries the less that person helps is the term I use to describe what just happened. Love your music Problematic. It helps me feel not so alone.
Tough when that happens but good thing we have music as the ultimate therapy
@@ProblematicHipHop music has always helped me to feel better. Music is mostly my life because certain artists understand mental disability and mood disorders like nobody else.
@@Azeas1993 those who know.. they know
Love you Problematic!! You'll be ok. Hold your head up ❤
Bless you
Man bro been living your lyrics in life! Man bro this ain't the first time you spoke to me!
Happy to help
doing better for yourself is years long process. some wont get through everything. but gotta focus on stuff you know that you can change. youre the reason why i been able to a semi balance with my issues,
What matters most is that we keep moving forward
I feel like this everyday bro thought it was only me ,thanks man this is deep
To inspire and leave a legacy
Let that pain out homie, I love this song, thanks for your truthful wisdom.
my vulnerabilities have become my ultimate strength
The legend 🔥 your music has helped me for years with depression much love🔥
Much love! you know I appreciate it
All your bars are straight 🔥, AMAZING WORK!!
Genuinely appreciate that
This is what I go through every day.
Hope the song genuinely helps
Lyrics are absolutely perfect! Thank you!
my pleasure
Love this song!! 🔥
Love how it turned out. Couldn't do it without you
The more disconnected and depressed I become the more aware of the evil in the world i get. It can be debilitating to know you are fighting a battle to live in a world you don't think is worth living for. But I will keep trying I have to. To anyone reading this please keep trying its all we can do. Don't take the final step before you have explored evert single option.
Know what it is like at rock bottom but I can promise you there is always a reason to keep pushing. Dig deeper
@@ProblematicHipHop I will, I refuse to have my mind rotten away, it's a slow process but I think I am in a place now mentally in which I can improve, a future seems possible. Thanks man, I found this song at the right time.
@@kinsal_9308 stay on an upward trajectory
This song keeps me from diving off the deep end
God bless
I can totally relate to everything you rap about and I think my brother would like it to. I miss him it has been 18 years coming up since he completed suicide. People that don't have mental health issues cannot possibly understand. Those of us that deal with one or multiple brain problems have a very difficult time making others understand. We are the only ones that know what is going on inside our minds. The brain is the hardest thing to fix no matter what issues or what doctors. It takes time to find the right medications because all brains are different. There is no one fix for us that are suffering and some medications can cause worse problems. Praying and reading my Bible helps the most and I am praying for all GOD'S children always. One day we will live in never ending happiness and that is my inheritance. There is nothing on earth I want except people making it ugly to stop. There is nothing going with me when I die and I am blessed with what I need. Kindness and smiles is something we all need to do always. Keep doing what you are blessed with doing and we appreciate you greatly.
You are right on that, unless you have gone through it, it's difficult to fully comprehend. It is possible to change our lives around but we also have to put in the work and want to change. Often times we get far to comfortable and that can be holding us back
Can relate so much its unreal keep your head up high in the clouds your doing whatt many others wish to
much love and respect
My rock bottom i looked in the mirror and I could not say anything good about myself. It was a profound moment where i turned my life around
Sometimes hitting Rock Bottom is what we need in order to better ourselves
This song can relate how I’m doing in my life
Thanks for this song
always here to inspire
This song relatable. Your music help me to get thru pain.
always the goal to inspire and truly make a difference
The struggles are real for everyone
You got that right
Im here to say life hasnt been what it is for me yall sooo y do i need to live life to the fullest i think god should take me back right after i was born to as a baby now to a man lost it all in life like i lost my dad
Trust the process
@@ProblematicHipHop thanks bro
@@EricAlford-mt7sq you got it
This is an awesome song. I am here if you need a hand....don't let go of that strength...I'm here if you need help. I will come to you
Much love and respect
This song so amazing great job with it it’s hard in life
It’s never to late to ask for help
Your not alone
I been in situations it’s hard to ask
But always remember
We love you and I support u as a fan always
Keep up the good work ❤🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Praying for u in your life from Caitlin
There's always help somewhere along the way. Here to be the voice for many
Hey buddy I feel a lot when I listen to your music I hope and pray everyday your okay everyday I’m going though a lot as well had no father he told my mother here’s money to kill me before I was born then as a kid I was touched and beat on as a kid and just to grow up and get hurt by woman I cared so much about over and over as I fight everyday to change and do better I love listening to your music never stop please man your a great soul and a fighter stay blessed problematic
The struggle is real but what matters most is we don't quit and continue progressing. Much love
Didn't lapse!! One day,hour.even.mins.
.awesome!!!!..
much love and respect
LEGENDARY MUSIC 🎶 🎵 🙌
appreciate you bro
Thank you for your music, man.
Absolutely my pleasure
Thankful to have found you!
Happy to have you part of the family
"The voices up inside my head it's quite a conversation" He dropped Barz on this
it be like that
Making this depressing music ain’t helping anybody bro. You listen to a certain type of music you’re gonna stay feeling that way. It’s time to be positive, no matter the circumstances.
Sometimes expressing the negatives are actually positive. Fake positivity is more detrimental in long term
@@lildumplin3495 I could give you my life experiences but trust me when I say it’s not. Accept the negative things in your life but strive for positivity. If you dwell on the negative you will find yourself in deep rut that feels impossible to climb out of.
Actually you're wrong. My music has impacted millions and continues to do so. You can speak for yourself and entitled to your opinion but you can't speak for the masses. My comment section on every video is living proof not to mention the messages I receive on the daily basis. I provide value to the market and that's why I'm winning
@@ProblematicHipHop You’re capitalizing off people when they are at their lowest. If you consider that winning then may God help you.
First time listening to some of your music and man it’s hitting different
Happy to help
Much respect I still listen to your music always will
keep spreading the love bro
Lyrics straight from the heart n soul as usual man🔥🔥🔥🔥
Thanks homie! keep spreading the love
This is so much how I feel right now. Keep the real music/ feelings coming
much love
You are great thanks for helping me be ok 😢 keep it up you help people threw their struggles.just wanted to say thank you an you make a difference (even if it only helps me) THANK YOU!!!!!!
Never alone through the battle. Keep pushing
Keep making music and keep up the good work you're awesome
much love and respect
ain't that the truth...I keep calling and nobody picks up the phone
real life
Thanks You, this is how I feel everyday knowing I can't nor talk about my problems with anyone, especially family & close friends.. the unknown things that I can't explain or try to find answers to fill my questions don't have a resolution or just plainly what it is, I praise you & you're helping a lot of people out here believe that. 💯🙏🏽🖤
Most will never understand the war inside. Here to remind others they are never alone
Man your flow! You haven't made a song I heard I didn't like! It's 🔥
Thanks homie! keep spreading the love
My kids i love you. Whether ur lost or hurt ill always be there for you. Until my last breath I'll make sure that no one will hurt you. U may not want to tell me everything but if u do ill fix ur broken wing. Ill never helicopter u let u fly u need to learn on ur own how to live life & no the dangers & not to die. Never give in to suicide. There will be bullies but pay them no mind. This world is tough trusting people will be hard to find. I want u guys to have everything that never got to be mine. If mommys broken down with daddy youll be fine. But mommy & daddy together will always make u shine. The best advise i can give u is be kind, be paitent with time, trust ur instincts & trust the signs. I love you forever youll always be mine.
U really dont know me. Like many of u Im damaged with a story. Like u i have history too. I was once a stronger person but life threw me around&destroyed me&my past is a little blurry so i talk about it poorly. I think i supress it&its better off lowkey. Aint no1 willing to save me&pay my bills for me. I pretend I'm ok&have support daily but if u only knew how im really lonely maybe serious you will take me. So I take the abuse fake a smile&pretend he adores me. Everything has a price wats urs show me. I rather pay u to be here&help me do what I can't&woah me!
I was born in NY always a hustler getting work finished school had a career but i can no longer do it bc i have a lot of fear. My anxiety won't let me catch the words &when I get nervous I go slow. A court reporter is what I am but its something I had to let go. Its serious&u can't joke gotta get the words down bc if they ask u to read back it'll be bad if u do choke.I had to stay up all night to do the work so when i was tired i started to do blow Then I needed to come down and snorted some dope. That was a battle in its own maybe one day ill speak about it but until then i don't want to speak about my low.
Its hard to speak I close my eyes & im slurry im in pain&exhausted so there's a good chance im snoring. Im extremely fatigued&I nevr feel like i get enough sleep. Im not gonna lie i became boring but this is when i need u the most my desperation is growing u need 2 reassure me the most instead of ignoring. I need ur paitence acceptance & worrying. I need ur support to know ur there for me. This is the perfect way to prove to me that we're meant to be when im broken the most and can't function & im lost i need you now more than ever i need u the most. Now it's not time to play ghost. Ur presence is dosed. I need u more than ur job does i know u gotta do both. But I cant do it alone im already exploding. I signed up for we not my own thing. U expect me to answer everytime ur calling just know it's not u its all me. I don't want to talk with anxiety. I need time so let me be ill call u back when I'm ready &the timing is right 4me. Its hard to answer if im going thru something mentality. I recognize that ur doing ur best & u barely get no rest i really appreciate that and the rest. When ur at ur good ur the best. I dont know what the future holds for me except im going for surgery. Those who wanna apologize for spreading all those lies thinking im purposely neglecting my son when im constantly pulled in every side and im desperate for som1 to help&all i do is cry. not now but gd usually ur timing is alright. My family i expect no reaction ive made peace with it &im relaxin. I wont give u satisfaction. Stop callinflg its a distraction. Wen ur ready to belive in me, take care of me&be with me hopefully it won't be too late for me. I need u now so hurry. If ur not there for me honestly ur dead to me.
Uch this isnt for me. My house is dirty. This isnt like me im usually up early getting things done in a hurry got a schedule & routine that's sturdy. I usually clean and cook & take care of our worries. But im weak right now im fighting & im hurting. I push myself still & i end up in the bed curling not walking to the bathroom but sometimes crawling. Im going through a lot my life is really falling. I'm doing my best but thats not what you see. I have ocd a lot of things are bothering me & it depresses me but there's nothing i can do so i let it be. my condition really lurks me, u know that if u know me. I have so many medical issues&I'm only in my 30s. I been through a lot&I didnt do wrong to earn it. All my tracks i wanna burn it cuz i thought they were for me. Right? Some call it a journey. Life did me wrong & played me dirty, I used to give my all but that's what really turned me. I used to be giving & concerning thought karma would find my way before this life started to hurt me. Im questioning my beliefs shud i let them burry me or is it bullshit&just let them burn me. I'll be ashes eventually ur gone so why worry. I feel so much burden lately&it hurts me. Pain pills barely touch me nothing is working. It takes the edge off but really I'm still hurting. I don't self medicate or abuse them, thats growing. I'm strong no matter what you say or think i need no warning. Im smart with it with myself im controlling. I have my good days&bad days& new ways im learning. Now i have methods what was difficult before is no more concerning. But movements still really hurt me. My lifestyle got so boring i can't do nothing&it's annoying. If u only saw the tears that i be pouring. Im so drained all day from grimacing & moaning. It's annoying i know so i tend to be lonely. Lost a lot of people lately that i thought we were growing now i see everyone's colors&it's disturbing. Take me back to black and white where it's simply wrong or right. Now No quetions asked cuz i arledy know u lied. U gave me ur word im sorry u were there when there was a fight but its still not righf that u bounced without sayin bye. Then u complained & went against my side u told me it wasnt ideal but everyday ur posting with the kids so u lied. Only u know what i mean u really blow my mind. U havent even checked on me. I'm just craving for something ill never find. Thought we had a bond but ur either good or im just blind. U played me raw but I refused to believe the signs. I don't wanna get into it cuz trust me I won't be kind. Im not bad but i could blow up in time. I just be patient & get along with time. Stop gossiping especially if its a lie. Im ok alone im good on the phone i journal or i write it keeps me from thinkin of my pain & puts me in a zone sometimes i wont answer i dont wanna hear the phone, i ignore everything &turn off my ringtone. u complain how I moan. it helps my pain.why am i telling u wats already known. Gd gives u only what u can handle or doesnt wake u up in the morning. Theres a lot of cruel things going on u gota learn to be big & say sorry. Ive been thru alot&saw a lot of worry. Drama all the time PTSD really worn me. My anxiety from every direction it's pouring my mental health is demolished have sum murcy its disturbing. Different dads all the time so i was just touring. Dont really kno the feeling of having a dad & its kind of tourchering. Dont notice it until ur older&unconsciouslly ur learning it. Facin my fears so i can destroy it & not burn in it
Keep on the grind
Do what u do my boy God Bless
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This one hits me really hard..I feel this so much..cried so much first time I couldn't handle it cos it was so close to home..honestly your amazing 🤩 if you don't make it then none of us will lol 😂 such an inspiration..thanks for being a light in the dark🕯️🌑x
Here to be the inspiration to many