i had a public meltdown, storytime
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- Опубліковано 9 лют 2025
- today i'm going to tell you a story about something that happened to me a few weeks ago. it was so traumatic that i completely blocked it out, up until today. you're going to judge me, because this story is mortifying.
that thing in the back gets me every. single. time
Same
EVEN ME! and I watch these podcasts at night.🫠🫠
no bc this is the first time I watch this podcast and it gets me like every 5 minutes.
Mama a man behind you💜
Sameeee
As a snowboarder if you haven’t had a break down at least once on the mountain you aren’t challenging yourself enough haha. So no worries! It happens man!
uh yeahhhh i definitely had at leasttt one meltdown (crying panicking and all) everytime i went when i was learning to snowboard :p you just gotta keep trying, 2nd or 3rd time i went i got it down and was so proud of myself :)
Emma. In solidarity truly, I had the same exact experience. I love u beyond words. Genuinely crying screaming howling laughing at how good this was. I loved the story telling.
omg the way you describe the anxiety is sooo real! i felt the exact same way and im actually going this weekend. the only thing that keeps me together is my hope and that if i fail and fall ill still be okay. i’m still learning so i try to be gentle on myself but i always get right back up when i fall.
I had this exact same experience the first time I tried to ski, then had a blast the second time. There’s hope!
Oh goodness your comment actually gives me hope... I am listening to this story as a 28 year old woman who JUST had this experience my first time going. Half way down one of the "adult hills" i had a melt down, fell (for the 7th time) tears in my eyes and just absolutely refused to get up. lol
This is actually so vulnerable of you. I can’t help but think something very traumatic happened to you in regards to skiing maybe but I am absolutely not a professional… it did make a good story. Glad you’re ok 🩷
Why is this the experience of literally everyone I know who learnt to ski after the age of 16. Literally the amount of times I fell on my ass and then sat in the snow and cried and walked down the steep bit until I got the courage up to put my skis back on. I’ve taught many friends how to ski as well and often they cry and get in strops. I think it’s just a very vulnerable thing to learn whilst being very public and very terrifying. If you ever want to try skiing again and you find the s turns difficult, I recommend getting good on ice skates or even roller blades and then trying skiing. It helps learn the weight distribution and the leaning motions, as well as getting comfy with the idea of sliding
These recent pods have had me hooked
the average ski/snowboard experience. i have a love/ hate relationship with it!! I feel this soooo much 🫶🏻
This whole thing is so relatable and especially the feeling of being trapped or sensory overload
Thank you for being so real I love you
‘I’m in the business of telling stories’ and you’re GREAT at it!
Yayyy- love your story time episodes
skiing for the first time ever is tough especially when you're older!! this story was very close to my first ever skiing experience, but I'm glad I didn't stop then
At least you’ll be remembered. He’ll definitely be using you in his instructions for years to come lmao also it’s so strange that we aren’t allowed to be our truest selves around ppl we just met. Like ur gonna get to know me eventually, no point in delaying it lol but so glad u survived skeeing Emma!
the stuff u're talking about might be bit embarrassing to you but for me it's so helpful, for someone resettle diagnosed with anxiety,, it makes me not alone and not that weird 😅. I really love you're videos,✨✨✨
Emma sharing this made me feel so much better about my experience with snowboarding. I was forcing myself to have something in common with my ex, and he ended up cheating on me with a snowboarding instructor 😂 it's important to just do you for you ❤
This is too real. I got those anxious uncontrollable tears the one time I attempted climbing/bouldering. Not even 3 feet off the ground and I just started sobbing.
Atleast you tried, good to find out it’s not your thing so future you doesn’t have to go through that stress again ✨
Sweetheart....that figure in the background at the desk is giving me Psycho vibes. Scary Movie!
omg I just saw your profile picture and you look so cool
this is exactly how i feel when i'm driving... 😅
Never got a license because I knew it would drive me insane!
How is this chick both so relatable and unrelatable at the same time?
You’re so valid because I’ve skied since I was a kid but for some reason at the ripe age of 24 I also had a panic attack on a mountain and started falling a lot, fearing serious injury, hating the way the boots felt. I think as we age we just care more about safety and feeling in control of our bodies, or at least that’s what my therapist says 🥲
This is actually an accurate anxiety response because skiing and snowboarding can be soo so dangerous especially on the mountains there are so many variables that can go wrong for example weather, wind, other people, ski lifts, snow ditching and drop offs, hard snow vs fluffy snow, deep snow, ice, elevation, trees, etc. my brother had fallen in to a snow ditch and that was bad, also someone right in front of him on the ski lift fell off and had to be life flighted to a hospital. I have definitely had this feeling many times with a number of things and activities to the point where I didn’t even do them. I think it can be so fun and rewarding you just have to be mindful of yourself go at your own pace and be aware of your surroundings and self. You have to be aware of your body and what you’re ready for. The thing is you have to prepare and research for these activities and sometimes people don’t.
poor girl. i have had experiences like this pushing myself too hard with fears. what i think ive learned is that fear is fear. and on a line of fear, there are two extremes of a lot of it and none of it. i think you accessed something deep and every little thing that scared you after that access point just drove u deeper into fear because it was a place that became unfamiliar to you at a certain point in life. which is also a beautiful experience as u described because we dont get that in touch with that part of ourselves everyday in the midst of trying to keep a balance. just accessing that and pushing through it is all that you needed to do. doing it again could be dependent on so many other factors in the future other than "i do/don't like skiing." you are so brave though and know youre not alone in experiences like this. ive had many mental breakdowns and dissotiations with people who dont know me ..🧟 each one makes u stronger.
The instructor bring hot is so real bc I had to ask a very attractive man to help me put on my ski boots and it was very embarrassing I looked very stupid 8:00
I can totally relate. I had a panic attack while scuba diving a long time ago, and I almost drowned. It was a miserable experience, and I never tried it again. But that’s okay-I gave it a shot and realized it’s just not for me. Some people say you should always push yourself out of your comfort zone, but sometimes that just doesn’t work, and that’s not your fault.
I was scuba diving 2 days ago and i had a mini panic attack. It was my 3rd day in trying to get certified for open water and i was thinking i don't think i can get deeper than this, do i really like diving, oh my god should i just ascend, help i don't feel comfortable... so many thoughts.. i had to remind myself to relax and breathe normally. It wasn't a good feeling. But i'm not quitting yet. Maybe i'll get more comfortable in time.
It was the universes way of saying "hey, are you gonna let the things that humiliate you and make you feel weak and vulnerable control you for the rest of your life... Or will you continue to face those uncomfortable experiences until theyre no longer uncomfortable"
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I’ve skied my whole life and still cry every time I’m on moguls so I think it’s fine
Not the seam on the tip of socks 😭 That's why I could not stand wearing tights for school. All the sensory issues finally make sense for me though as I was just diagnosed with autism 3 days ago
okay you talking about the seam in the toe of your sock; that is the most relatable thing ever, like i almost feel claustrophobic if its wrong and i have to fix it like immediately or else i’ll freak out.
Oh my god I’m at the part where you’re talking about bending your knees the wrong way when you fall and I’m dying laughing because that was me!! I was terrified I was going to have broken knees forever and i still haven’t gone back to ski.
im 23 years old, and when I got on a kiddie height ride with my 10 year old nephew, i almost started crying; i was literally shaking, and my nephew kept telling me to hold his hand, that everything was going to be okay... so emma, you have no idea how much i understand you
great story im 26 this is exactly what i would go through if i tried to ski thank you for reinforcing my intuition that skiing is a no for me thank god and if i could live in a big t shirt forever i would
It's okay to break down ❤️ to be real.We can't always put on this "tough front" in front of others because then we're just suppressing our true feelings and never learning to deal with those feelings. In a way it makes us stronger to be real and honest even if that means revealing the most vulnerable "weak" sides of ourselves. It's so tough, but it's so empowering 😊
as someone with panic disorder i've experienced this many times in different scenarios it's rough
Thank you for sharing this bc that is 100000% how I would react if I tried skiing. And sometimes I forget that. I have joint hyper mobility and struggle with dislocations, so I can't imagine what damage would happen to my knees and hips in skis. I'm also terribly afraid of heights and would for sure sob like a baby on a ski lift. I'm happy reading in the cabin by the fire with my coffee thank you👼🏼
it’s ok queen i cry on day one of every ski trip. the panic attack that i had my first time ever getting on a lift caused me to literally black out. during my park city ski trip last year (day 1) i had forgotten how much it hurt to fall so i absolutely sent it. and guess what happened? you guessed correctly. i fell so hard that it set off my car crash detection with my insurance, who proceeded to call me 5 times to make sure i was okay because they “detected a car accident at 35+ mph”. i wanted to die. but by day 3 i was slaying and queening out the whole way down the mountain so i have faith in you emma
I literally feel the exact same about wearing too much equipment for activities
its okay emma! don’t feel bad..the last time i went skiing i was like 7 or 8 years old and i had to spend 4+ HOURS with a ski instructor JUST to learn how to stop. my younger sister who was probably 6 was flying down the hills..and stopping just fine. but me!? i spent the WHOLE day with the instructor and i still couldn’t stop. i ended up getting hit by a snowboarder, getting mad at my sister for being better than me and i haven’t been back to a ski lodge since..moral of my story, i hate skiing too😂
The sock thing!!! I did that as a kid too!!! Finally someone who understands
Ski boots make me so claustrophobic immediately it’s a whole thing 😅
the way this EXACT thing happened to me. literally cannot do heights at all without panicking
Despite my complaints I enjoyed the story and continue to appreciate your content.
You r still my hero, emma ❤️🔥 you did it despite all of your fears - that’s more than enough
I think I’m pretty good at doing things alone and actually seem to save my meltdowns for when I’m around people. I have hiked Cinque Terre in Italy alone and travel all over by myself, but I hiked with my best friend, her sister, and her 11 year old daughter in a state park in Illinois one summer. It started to rain, then it poured. We got trapped in the park because we were down in a ravine and every way out was uphill and all the paths were like mudslides. It was the most scared and frustrated I’ve ever been and I really was not the best version of myself that day. We made it out and decided we aren’t the outdoor adventurers we thought we were and maybe next time we go for a cutesy hike we’ll check for thunderstorms first.
No cause sensory issues really sets me off and makes everything else so much worse
I really enjoyed your sky story while having my breakfast 🫶🏻
yo Emma, not every battle has to be won. It's all good to fail sometimes.
love the outfit emma! the blue glasses are everything girl!! 😙☺️
I had a complete panic attack in the fitting room of a QUIET surf shop (only ones there) when my gf was trying to put my wet suit on and I slipped and slammed into the wall.
I can't wait to read your Vedic astrology birth chart one day 🌝💫😊 Thank you for being open and sharing this video. You're such a great communicator/story teller
i felt the same way when I signed up for ice skating as 25 y/o alone. the little kids flying pass me and tearing up when falling🕺💓
The soaking yogurt bowl is so relatable.
Also to be fair kids are more ‘fearless’ bc they’re trusting the adults and don’t have all the information or understand all the consequences. Once you’re an adult with all of this understanding, you’re gonna be way more scared 😅
no because ski lifts are terrifying
i weirdly relate to this with drinking/clubbing. i wish so badly that i could do it and have fun because i get such bad fomo when my friends do it and have a great time. but i know deep down it makes me miserable
as someone who was forced to learn to ski by my dad so i’m actually OK at it, it is not that fun for me. most people i know who love skiing are very adrenaline motivated which is not me at all…i just feel scared and uncomfortable, lmao😭 my favorite part is chilling in the lodge so i get you. maybe you should try cross country skiing instead! there’s no heights or downhill lmao
Im nearly certain that every adult beginner skier has had this moment🤣 “how did I get here?” While a kid bombs past you💀 it does get better if you ever decide to give it another shot.
I've skied my whole life and occasionally it hits me how crazy it is of a thing to do. I've seen so many friends and teammates injured from it and yet we go out there every winter anyways. I don't blame anyone for not doing it, lol, and believe me - the vast majority of skiers and snowboarders have also had breakdowns on the mountain, even if they bomb down it without worries now.
Emma you did better than me…. I WALKED my ass down a 3 mile mountain I was so terrified. Took me multiple hours and I vowed I would never touch a ski again
Ur so real for this
I went skiing for the first time with my friend and I had no clue what I was doing when I got on the snow it took 30 minutes just to put on the skis we decided to skip the baby thing and go on the skis lift, I was separated from my friend and was a lone crying on the lift, I to,d the lady to stop it she didn’t and I fell off it at the end bc I didn’t know how to ski, then I had to pay for a man to help me down the mountain
It was expensive
oh my god... im literally eating a yogurt bowl rn..0:45
Lesson learned; don’t be scared to try new things…but know your limits ❤
you are so endearing !
There is no doubt that you can envy your children, such an amazing storyteller, what the fairy tales of the night will be:) Excuse me, please, if anything, I'm here for the first time. This story is told in such a way that it seems to be completely screened, it can be an amazing comedy with these tears all over the face, horrors, curses and drawings in the head; or a soul-searching drama if you leave only tears in the trap, and in fact, if I'm honest, it reminded me of The Old Man and the Sea, a man in the trap of his own desires, suddenly turned into a real nightmare for him. But this storyteller's talent. I'm sorry, but I was very laughing at your suffering.
All the risks for injury are none of the ones I think of, lol. As someone in her 30s, I’m like okay, one minor looking topple, and my acl is torn. Especially since your feet are secured in, and you can so easily fall in an unnatural way. Or like one fall, and i have a Kevin Ware style leg fracture.
i don’t think anyone “likes” it when they first try snowboarding or skiing. the first day is literally hell but i promise it’s so rewarding if you stick with it. 😊
More grace to you Emma God bless you and your family ma'am... AMEN and AMEN 🙏
you would dislike scuba diving, the first time i went into the ocean with my dad, the wet suit was too tight around my wrists and i could not wait to get that thing off of me 😭 absolute panic
this is why i never try new things lol. sometimes ur pride and anxiety of embarrassment gets in the way... it sucks but who the hell cares if u can ski like
I had this same experience but with scuba diving. I knew i was hesitant before the class, I decided to try it anyway. Once in a life time in Hawaii sort of thing… I couldn’t get all of the concepts of breathing, hand signals, knowing what to do in the event of losing your oxygen, and clearing my ears when descending to come together in my head and it just made me panic. And then if one person needed to come up, the whole class would have to, and I couldn’t fathom that amount of pressure or being the one to cause the whole class to have to stop and come to the surface💀 so I just did a advanced snorkel on top of the surface with the oxygen tank 🤣 and i do not regret that, i know i should have followed my gut now! lol
You’re my favorite. Love you Emma
Where do we buy these glasses
i’m sorry this made me laugh. never been skiing. never will lol.
Emma but that was your first time skiing,you are so so hard on yourself !! Everybody fails the first time. I did too
I love you it’s so easy to listen lol
I can’t imagine how you felt going through ALL that just to reach the bottom of that mountain to find peter is fcking gushing blood and needs stitches on his knee 😂😂😂😂😂
please god no amazon sponsorship do they not get enough of our money already
I totally agree with the sentiment, that’s why l never go on rollercoasters anymore because l hate them and l am mature enough to accept it! 😁
I love rollercoasters! Haha
@ to each their own😁
M parents put me in to skiing when I was about 6-7 years old and i absolutely hated every second of it, my dad would leave me at the Milo kids and said he would be right back but he was infact not right back 😂
I learnt to like it more as I got older but I learnt you need the confidence and dedication to then turn it into being fun, I wouldn’t go back anytime soon but I went every year, I completely relate to this 😂
what you learned from this is never to fkn do it again. Or that its ok to allow yourself to let it out sometimes so you don't cry on a random instructor's arm 😅 BUT you got a good cry out of it
WHERE IS THE JUMPER FROM!!!!?????
this happened to me when i went with my brother for the first time but he skipped the lessons and took me to a moderately challenging hill :,) i did ride the ski lift back down.
24:38 the other noise
Hey at least you can surf like I think that might be cooler
the ski hill was not getting any less steep... in fact, the opposite was happening😂
tell me you’ve never been uncomfortable in life without telling me
Is this her official channel lmao? Why does everything say posted 2 weeks ago
Omg are you referring to the trip you went on with Sabrina Carpenter???
This happened to me snowboarding. Never went again
5:05 garrote noise
You basically had the same experience as thousands of first time skiers and snowboarders. Nothing unique happened.
Emma now there is a man staring at you 1 o clock
Emma, you may have autism or being a Highly Sensitive Person, because some of the things you're telling us
25:58 it’s not that hard to edit these out
I think you SHOULD go skiing again. What I've learned is that when we feel envious of others, it's because they're doing something that our soul is YEARNING to do AS WELL. We'll never feel that relief of envy until we follow that calling if that makes any sense? Even though you hate skiing.. your soul seems to be calling you to do it more so that you can learn to overcome those fears. Don't let those fears and insecurities control you for the rest of your life. Everything takes practice and consistency to become good at it and you shouldn't be so hard on yourself for not being a pro at skiing on your first try.. I think what freaked you out more than anything is that there were people around you seeing you "fail" and so another lesson you were meant to learn from that experience is no matter what people may think of you... Youve gotta keep going.. youve gotta learn to not care about embarrassing yourself in front of others.. it's not easy but you will never get over that fear of how others view you until you keep facing your biggest insecurities/vulnerabilities. ❤️❤️ I mean all of this in a good way and trust me, I'm on the same path as you and I know how uncomfortable it is but I'm telling you, YOU CAN DO IT. You can do anything you set your mind to.
Much love 💟
Please add it to the podcast! Can’t see on UA-cam Music
21:12 I’m aware you’re doing this on purpose to upset me.
ur comments r so npc like wtf r u talking abt😭??
wait did she get veneers
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