"baby wasn't the size of a strawberry " actually broke me. :( you have so many people praying for you as you go through this scary process, we love you ❤
The audacity of some people to blame Liana saying "oh, you shouldn't have worked out" or stuff like that is disgusting. She's in the middle of grieving, leave her alone.
No fr. That’s horrible kinda like “I told you so”. Honestly there are too many jealous people spreading their negative energy to people on the internet. If I was them I wouldn’t announce the pregnancy for fear they’ll curse me.
Speaking from experience unfortunately...a few weeks of wonderful is worth the whole universe, even if the worst happens. Those that say nasty things...they can't hurt them anymore than they're hurting from their loss. But your words are kind words ❤❤❤
17:54 Oh darling, please don’t apologise for being excited. You were completely within your right to share the news, and you simply could not have predicted the outcome. You acted out of pure love and joy, and no one can fault you for that. In a way, it’s quite lovely that you did share the news, so your baby is remembered not just for being an angel, but for the joy they brought you and so many others for those few weeks.
Woah, I had NO idea going through a miscarriage was so drawn out, painful and traumatic (the actual process rather than the emotional loss obv). I’m so, so sorry your you loss. Please, both of you, look after yourselves ♡
That little moment where Liana just started crying broke my heart into pieces, no mother should ever have to go through the pain of miscarriage. I'm so sorry for your loss
I had two later term miscarriages (13 and 15 weeks) and it’s certainly something that leaves a small hole in your heart. Love and comfort to others who have experienced the same 💜
you are right Connor. No one asks about the Dad. He has lost a baby too and must feel so helpless seeing Mom go through this You looked so sad in this video Connor. I hope you're doing ok
17:54 You didn’t announce too early. You announced at a time that was right for you. It’s a situation that no one wants to find themselves in, but by sharing your pregnancy news early you were able to have the support of those around you (and virtual support on here) when you needed it most. Also, the main cause of miscarriage in the first trimester is chromosomal abnormalities. This is something that you could not change or do anything about. You did absolutely nothing wrong, and please don’t ever for a second let people tell you otherwise! Thank you for being so raw and honest about a situation that is all too common and rarely discussed
I miscarried alone and at home when I was 17. I hadn’t told anyone I was pregnant and didn’t tell anyone that I had miscarried for almost 5 years after it happened. I was far enough along to know that my child was a boy, but that’s all I ever knew. If it means anything at all, please know that I truly believe that my son is keeping your beautiful baby company until you one day meet them again. They know that they are loved and they know that we would have done anything in our power to keep them here with us.
i had a similar experience when i was around 16! i was so scared and sad that i laid around for days and got very sick and had to be rushed to the hospital but it was scary! it was the only girl i ever had and i was 20 weeks along!
i had a very similar experience unfortunately ): i was 14 though, pregnant under terrible circumstances, and i still think about my daughter almost daily. its been years. i was so terrified to be a mother but so excited. the pain of losing a child is one i wouldnt wish on anyone. i hope youre doing well now, and im sure your little boy is looking down on you just as my little girl is looking down on me. 🖤
Liana I am SO sorry. I’m an OB/GYN intern and we always tell our patients that with early miscarriages there was nothing you could have done, from the moment the embryo was conceived there must have been a genetic defect that meant it never would’ve gotten full term. You did NOTHING wrong. You could’ve been in bed all day from the moment you knew you were pregnant and it still would have happened. This is in no way your fault. You are so so strong and you will get through this. I think about you often and send all my love so that this time can progressively get easier. Take as long as you need and most importantly take care of yourself ❤❤❤
Cozy is still a big brother. His sibling is just a little angel in heaven. I'm sure you will have a beautiful rainbow baby soon!! Thank you for sharing. I'm 12 weeks with my 3erd and it broke my heart when I found out about your miscarriage. Stay strong tho. God has the perfect little baby waiting for you to be it's mama when it's the right time.
What a sweet and loving comment! We weren't blessed to actually become parents of a human baby, but we have at least to Angel babies and deep in love with our 10 year old rescue fur baby. A very smart, forever toddler tomcat Dolf. Your comment suggests you have had a similar experience and/or just know what it's like. From my heart to yours, Anne (Holland, Europe)
@ArjunBakshi-r7p So what is the meaning of 'not being mean'? What are you actually saying?! He's not cozy?! What the bleep? A bit more words makes it more understandable... Just a kind suggestion (saying "not being mean but, .... " isn't a very civil reply, to be honest.
@ambadres i know people personally who have had miscarriages and I know how hard it is because if it happened to me I know I would break down. Our babies are the whole world to us mama's and there so important too. Ide say no madder what kind of mama you are you are important.
THE MISCARRIAGE HAPPENED TO YOU, NOT BECAUSE OF YOU!!! Anyone who blames mothers for having a miscarriage needs to shut their trap & educate themselves! You did NOTHING wrong & I am so, so sorry you had to experience a loss as devastating as this. You have an amazing support system, lean on them when it gets hard & thank them when things get a little easier. Above all else, remember that you are strong & you are loved!!
I agree. I have had 5 pregnancies. 3 babies born. I have dealt with and survived 2 miscarriages. Somepoeple need to learn to keep their mouths shut. My boys hubby to included made me smile. Cry when you need too. You are grieving. Hugs and love from Phoenix Az USA. (my kids are grown now ages 29, 25, and 21 years )
Exactly! Just because moms carry the baby people think it’s automatically her fault if something happens to it. Pregnancy is pretty solid and you don’t just have a miscarriage because of working out. That’s the stupidest thing ever
@@margojohnson4224 Sadly, our stories are very similar. I’ve had 7 pregnancies. 1) miscarriage 2) daughter took 1 breath before passing away 3) eldest survivor 4) miscarriage 5) miscarriage 6) youngest survivor 7) miscarriage. My 2 survivors are now 24 & 23. Also, my hubby was born/raised in AZ, but we live in CA where I grew up. Years ago my husband discovered something that gets me through the hard times. If you subtract his birthday from my birthday you get our eldest survivor’s birthday..month, day & year. For an extra “it was meant to be” dose, if my daughter would’ve made it to full term, our eldest wouldn’t be alive as I got pregnant with them months prior to my daughter’s original due date. When our eldest turned 10, they decided to start an annual tradition in which they do something special on their sister’s birthday as a way to say Thank You for giving up her life so they could live.
@@lvg_18 Completely agree! GENERALLY speaking, if you’ve 1) discussed everything with your Dr & have their approval, 2) are healthy & 3) have no risk factors then you should be able to continue doing most, if not all, of the things you did prior to getting pregnant. Most Drs suggest a stopping point, but every single pregnancy is different & every Dr has their own opinion on what to do. Add in the differences between every country/region, cultures, traditions & religions, as well as the medical expertise/guidelines for each of those & things get complicated. Instead of adding on stress & pain by victim blaming & being hypercritical, insensitive & egotistical, ALL of us should start being more kind, caring, supportive, empathetic & understanding of what others are going through.
I'm so sorry you experienced this! This was my exact story 27 years ago. I still think about who that little person may have become. Sending hugs and love from Canada.
It's the silent club you never knew existed, never applied to join, but has many, many supporters. So sorry for your loss. Healing your heart takes time, and you will never forget. But you will feel normal again one day. Big hugs!
Agreed. After my first miscarriage I was amazed at how many women I knew who had been part of this “club”. The pain does lessen over the years but I have hope to see my sweet babies again someday.
i dont know if you’ll see this, liana, but one of the best things i heard from someone regarding pregnancy after loss was “your uterus has no memory”. your baby and your uterus were communicating, and they knew baby wasn’t doing well, so they decided to let them go peacefully. your uterus has no memory, has no ulterior motives- this is not the end, if you do not want it to be. do not feel as though all hope is lost, my love, because you are strong and your body will fight to do right by you, no matter what. we love you, and i hope your family is able to take time away to recover and heal. please dont listen to people saying “you shouldnt have revealed anything until 12 weeks” that would not have changed anything. frankly, if you reveal a pregnancy before or after 12 weeks it does not matter. the only thing that changed is you now have a huge circle of people who are here for you, who want to support you and who are able to understand the pain you are experiencing. we love you, and please don’t be disheartened by this. it was not a failure on your part or your body’s part. it was simply a matter of natural process. you could not have changed anything. you did everything right.
@@bunny-z2v am in my 60s now but had two miscarriages and my doctor more or less said the same thing to me ..( I had a great GP) we did get through it and have 3 gorgeous kids who are now all in their 40s.
❤ so well said & and beautiful. We went through 2 miscarriages before our 2nd child. 1 at 12 wks and another early on. It's truly heartbreaking 💔 😢 for you. Our youngest is 18 now. I think things happen for a reason. I'm sure you will go onto have a healthy pregnancy and baby. Give yourselves time to heal as a Family. You are such a lovely Family and have such a lovely little boy, he is super adorable 💙 xxxxxx
When I was pregnant with my little girl, you got pregnant with koazy, when you fell pregnant this time so did I shortly after. When you lost baby and posted it to the world to let us know I also lost my baby the same week. I understand everything you are feeling at the moment and I salute you as a mum, woman and as a human for being able to speak about your loss publicly and hold yourself together this well. There is light at the end of the tunnel ❤
You got this too. I hope you’re okay. My mom tried for 7 years to get pregnant, and she got gifted me and my beautiful twin. When my twin was ten years old she died. My mom fell into a depression state, and almost overdosed. My parents had to split up for a month, just to take a break because my mom was NOT okay. My mother tried to get pregnant once she was okay again and failed 3 times. She had 2 miscarriages and the last time the baby died 2 days after birth. My mother thought she wasn’t good enough. She then got gifted with triplets. My brother and both of my sisters. She was very overprotective to us growing up, for valid reasons. My mother is thriving now, and I carry my siblings deep in my heart. Everything will work out. It will be okay mama.
I have lost three babies the last one destroyed me. The medical management treatment was excruciatingly. I’ve been blessed with 4 beautiful amazing children since and they are only here because she passed away. My heart goes out to you all xxxxx
This comments for the dads the fall into the shadows and dont get asked how they are doing. Just seeing Connor's face throughout this video breaks my heart! CONNOR, how are you doing!? You experienced a great loss along side of Liana! Im so sorry to you both and sweet Koazy, too! That beautiful boy Koazy will contuine to gjve you both strength you never knew was witihin! Keeping loving one another through this and grieve as you need! Nothing but love and healing vibes your way!
@@misfitbritt 100% agree I wrote my message before and I know how hard it was on my partner. So I really hope Connor's okay and you can see the devastation in his eyes. It honestly made me cry. I feel so sad for both of them
While I agree, the pain Liana experienced is unimaginable. Yes you should make sure both are okay but imagine how Lianas feels and experienced with pain😢 I hope they are both okay though!
@TheCrewOfTheCourtTV well of course. Literally read the first sentence. I'm a mother myself and been thru similar. It's awful and so painful. While I see hundreds addressing Liana I see damn near none addressing him specifically. Hense why I said what I said but still included them both.
My step mom and dad lost my little sister years ago at 22 weeks, they got into an argument and my step mom told my dad she was the one who lost the baby not him. Yes the mother grows the child within her body but the man produces half the DNA. Maybe he did not want to tell his side and wanted her to be able to express how she is feeling and allow her to heal. Maybe he could make a video of how he is feeling and what he was and is experiencing if he hasn’t already.
@chantelbastiaen2595 damn... That's heartbreaking! So sad for your father! It's terrible for both parents to experience such a loss! I hope Connor does talk a bit more about it and how he's feeling. A lot of men need to see/hear it and know it's okay to not be okay. Men's mental health matters, too!
I am SO sorry for your loss. I went through my miscarriage last year. I was 9 weeks 4 days when I had symptoms but my baby only made it to 7 weeks, the size of a blueberry. I have a blueberry tattoo in my babies memory. It gets easier. Never forgetting but it does get easier. I’m praying that your next pregnancy grants you a healthy and happy baby!
We had a miscarriage a few months ago. Still miss the idea of the little bugger but life goes on and we are trying again now. Was very upsetting at first thinking I was gonna be a dad for 2 months and then that getting ripped away. More importantly watching my Mrs going through it was torture.
@@dougellis2k so sorry for your loss. No one ever asks about the dads and I don’t understand why. My partner struggled with our loss a lot worse than I did. Hope you get your rainbow soon ♥️
Don’t ever doubt your decisions! I got to 12 weeks to find out that I had triplets that had passed at 7 weeks. It was a huge shock but 2 months later I was pregnant again with twins who are now 22. There is so much to hope for ❤
Having had 2 miscarriages. You just know when something isn’t right. Almost immediately after finding out I was pregnant with my first two losses, it just didn’t feel weird. It has been the weirdest feeling I’ve ever had to know my babies were gone and to have to prepare for their loss before being told they were gone. Prayers for you and anyone else who has had to feel this pain.
My first pregnancy was a miscarriage about a week after we had told our extended family 💔 now I have a beautiful almost 2 year old boy. Thank you for sharing your story Liana! It helps to know you're not alone when going through something like that
As a mother who has lost her premature baby after birth- there is no 'safe' time to tell people that you're pregnant. You wanted to celebrate that little baby and rightly so. Your little baby knew only love guys. I am so sorry you know this pain. Sending love to you all
My baby passed inside the toilet. I fished her out and placed her in the ground 30 years ago. I then planted a rose bush in her name. Peace be with you, my friends. I'm truly sorry.
Hey Liana, I hope you feel better, my cousin went through the same and she hasn’t been the same since. I don’t want that for another person let alone my own kin. My condolences don’t just go to you, they also go to Connor and Koazy. Yall are the best family I’ve seen with how supportive you are to each other and I wish you the best in these times.
Telling people at 4 weeks, 20 weeks or 39 weeks wont stop a baby from miscarrying. My baby died at 21 weeks and i didnt tell anyone i was pregnant. You have nothing to be sorry for. Tell the world because you deserve to experience the joy of a new baby even if its just for a short time.
I just want to say, you did not do anything wrong by telling people 'early' about your pregnancy. You were excited and that is something you should be able to do, without feeling shame around. This is why women don't know how to handle a miscarriage when it happens to them (myself included before having my second baby), and it's because we're just taught to hide our feelings, emotions and experiences. I cried watching this video because I know the pain you feel, and the loss of a future you had so wanted for yourself and your family. Even down to having your first baby with you in the room for the scan; I had to take my little girl with me to a private scan when she was 3 to find out that our baby had no heartbeat after bleeding. You're an amazing person, Liana. You'll have your rainbow baby because you have the biggest heart and you deserve it - Connor, too. I wish you guys all the best and hope you heal from this in your own timing x
It broke my heart to see Connors face. He is being so strong. Sometimes the fathers can be forgotten. When I miscarried, I can remember putting my arms around my husband while he sobbed. I had my mum to talk to on the phone while I was going through the actual miscarriage in my bath but he had no parents to talk to about how he felt. I’m so sorry you both had to go through this
Koazy may not have the words but he almost certainly understands. And I'm proud of you both for a hundred things... but mostly for reading the signs. God sends his messengers from all quarters, even in the form of dragonflies. 💙
The same happened to me on my 4 child, I took the whole family for the scan ,then they told me to take the kids off the room and told me that there was no heartbeat, my whole world collapsed, I cried for days. 1 year later I was pregnant again,don’t worry the lord is watching and will bless you and your family ❤❤❤
When my son died a lady bird landed on his dad and stayed on his arm throughout the whole funeral. A lady bird now comes on sad days birthday Xmas times when ladybirds aren't supposed to be around... and sits. For a long 5min cuddle then just flies away again .. love it so comforting ❤ 🐞 🐞 ❤
I'm so sorry for your loss...This was actually the first time hearing someone talking about miscarriage with such clarity and i honestly felt every one of your sentences and i was at the edge of tears. Wish you and your family all the bests liana🫂🤍💫
Someone told me a long time ago after i lost twins. Part of babies DNA stays in mums body forever . Weather we loose them or not. You will physically hold a part of your babies with you forever and always. Hold onto that and heal slowly all of you ...and Kozy knows what was lost , baby was part of him too xxx
Pausing at 18:10 - that sweet little baby was a gift and I know people are making comments about the announcement being so early. Each life should be celebrated, that was your sweet little baby and it's OK to grieve. Koazy is still a big brother and always will be a big brother to that sweet little Angel. I am so so sorry for your loss, thank you for sharing your journey with everyone. Sending nothing but good vibes loves and prayers for your sweet family.
I've been through 8 miscarriages. They never get easier during them, but your love and appreciation for the child or children you have grows exponentially.
I'm so sorry for your loss. When I had my first miscarriage, someone told me that only the very best moms are chosen to have babies in heaven. She said she believes they wait for us and we get to raise them in the afterlife when all our work on earth is done. I love being a mom more than anything else I've done in this life, so believing that I'll get to raise that little one someday gave me a lot of peace, and actually made me less afraid of my own mortality, too. Hugs from the US.
Hi guys, so sorry for your loss. I too had a miscarriage with my second child. On the day the baby was due, may 3rd 1996, all of the yellow roses in our garden bloomed. My husband had a yellow rose tattooed on his arm and he always buys me yellow roses. You will get over this hunnys, I went on to have another 2 babies. The youngest of which is 21 and his girlfriend is expecting my first grand baby! Xxjojoxx
I am a silent watcher but today I felt it was right to send my love. I know I am a pea in the sea of messages you are getting now, but we are all supporting the same cause. You are so strong and brave, I am terribly sorry and sad for your loss. I hope you let yourself heal and love yourself regardless. Thank you for sharing, bless your souls xx
I cried watching this. So gutted for you both. I love that you are both so open about what you are going through and that your experience may help someone else. Take care x
When Liana started crying, she went straight to Conner. It was so beautiful to see that she finds comfort in him. Im so glad that you guys have each other during this rough time ❤
Hi Liana and Connor I have never commented on a UA-cam video but felt the need on this one. I am really sorry for your loss, you are an amazing family! You have the most precious little boy, he is so clever 😃 I am a young Mum to four children and I have miscarried twice and it’s the worst feeling in the world. Your so right when you say people are not alone. And yes nothing you could of done to stop it. This video that yourself and Connor have made is very brave and spoken very truthfully, I think this will help a lot of families that are going through the same thing. 🙏 👼 I hope your ok and I am glad people have asked if Connor is ok too as it’s his feelings that matter too and your both going through it. You make a great team and your UA-cam channel is amazing 😊
I’m so sorry, hun. So sorry. You are still that baby’s momma, even if he’s in heaven, and that in itself can be so beautiful. Thank you for sharing, esp for it to be here for other mommas who needed this.
Historically, the reason people didn't tell anyone before 12 weeks is because so many pregnancies sadly end in miscarriage anyway, but back in the old days, way more did because people weren't as healthy. It was so you didn't have to go around telling people you weren't pregnant anymore to save everyone being uncomfortable. Why on earth people have turned that into some kind of superstition that if you tell people before 12 weeks, you'll jinx it and lose the baby is beyond me. All that kind of comment does is make people feel like it's their fault that they lost the baby at a time in their life when they're grieving and probably wondering if they did something wrong anyway. You wouldn't go up to someone whose older child has died and say it's your fault, so people need to quit doing it for pregnancies and actually think before they open their trap. I'm so very sorry you're both going through this and Koazy too, I'm sure he was confused. Take this older lady's advice and don't give those kind of people a second thought. Your mental health is more important than their shitty opinion.
@Fluffnugget78 It is not bc it will jinx it. It is bc statistically, 30% of pregnancies end in miscarriage BEFORE 12 weeks! And it is even more painful to UNtell people, if need be. If one can handle that, fine. But better safe than sorry. It can be very difficult for many people. Similarly, many do not decorate a nursery until they bring a baby home! In my family, the tradition is not to buy anything (or at least not to have it delivered to the house) until home from the hospital! But every family is different!
Liana I am literally crying with you, I remember my miss*carriage. My baby stopped growing when I was around 7 weeks, I found out when I went for my 12 week scan. the only thing I felt throughout was slight abdominal pains but I was told by everyone that it's my uterus growing and preparing especially as it was my 1st pregnancy...The pain and sadness is still with me and it happened back in 2019. I am lucky, so lucky and grateful I have a healthy, happy, and naughty 2 year old baby girl but miss*carriage is something I'd never ever wish upon even my worst worst worst enemy. I understand your pain completely. You're strong, you both are. Love you guys
thank you so much for sharing this i’m a 15 year old girl and one night i went out drinking and my friend left me at a boys house alone and he did something very bad to me and then a month later i stated to get bad tummy pains and when i went toliet the was blood all through the toilet and that was only a month ago i didn’t even know i was pregnant until i lost my baby and i’m still not over it and it just helps so much to know that someone else has gone through it and i’m not the only one i’ve been watching your videos for years thank you so much for sharing your experience you have no idea how much it’s helping me thank you and i’m sending so much love ❤️
I am so sorry for both sad things that happened to you. Please seek counseling! I did not for years and rape stays with you and comes out in various ways! It will help in both your situations as you can't and shouldn't do it alone . Have a blessed day!
There’s something that “we might have told people a bit too early” and connors “I think so” that just made me bawl my eyes out. Losing a baby is losing a baby, whether you tell people early or later. I don’t know what it was about to but it really doesn’t sit right. You’re allowed to be excited. Your allowed to mourn. Announce early or announce late. It doesn’t change your outcome ❤
I am 63 yrs old. I had a miscarriage at 28. I have 2 beautiful kids born after. I healed and moved on but every now and then I still feel a pang of grief wondering what might have been. But I know my body naturally rejected the baby because something was wrong. I am so glad Koazy was there to help you both through it.
18:00 you didn't tell us too early. I was so excited with you. I also think it's so brave. You're giving a taboo space. You'll make women less ashamed. You're doing good in the world. It was super exciting and when rainbow baby comes that will be super exciting too❤❤❤❤
I'm so very sorry for y'alls loss. It's heartbreaking and it's good to talk about because it's a common occurrence, sadly, that happens to so many of us. Much love to you and your family ❤💙
I had a missed miscarriage like 12 years ago now, it was so painful mentally and physically and it took a while to work through the emotions. In turn bc it was my first pregnancy when I did get pregnant again I was just scared it would happen or something else horrible would occur. Kinda ruined my pregnancy experiences, but I went to therapy for the first time(so something positive came out of it and I worked on more than my health anxieties) Then I had a traumatic birth that affected my subsequent pregnancy. Thank you for talking about it and reminding others they aren’t alone. I’m so so sorry for your family’s loss. Koazy is a little doll.
The workout argument is rubbish. Working out is actually good for mummy and Baby. You did the right thing by working out. I watcged Videos by MamadoctorJones and she gives good information on the matter
So sorry for your loss, many years ago I had the a similar experience. At the scan ( because I was bleeding heavily) at 12 weeks I was told baby measured 7 weeks. I passed it a little while later. It nearly broke me at the time. My little girl was almost two and seemed to understand the baby was gone. I later had a healthy boy. They are 32 and 29 now. Give yourself time to grieve. Sending lots of love ❤
Liana, I’m so sorry for your loss. Know how loved you are and your family. I’m praying for you all during this trial. You are so amazing for sharing your story and know how much of a light you are to your fans and to all the women who are going through similar situations. Keep shining that light Liana. Don’t let anything block it out. You are amazing.
at 18:28 yes so many people can experience it but they pain is still there and it's all dealt with differently. i'm so sorry for you and Connor and you are so strong! i know you can do this Liana. ❤
I'm so so sorry for your loss. I had twins last year born at 26 weeks and they didn't make it. The loss of a baby never leaves you, and in those early months I truly just wanted to die. I felt I had nothing to live for, they were my first babies. The pain did begin to lessen with time, but they will always be with me, just as your little one will always be with you. And just like the dragonfly, you will always get signs from your little baby. Take care of yourself and each other and just feel whatever you need to feel. My heart and prayers are with you.
I found out I was pregnant when you posted about yours and have since miscarried and this video popped up. Thank you for sharing your experience. I too told everyone because we were so excited and can't help but to think what I could have done differently. Just know his plan for the future is greater than the pain we feel now. Love you all and hug your little ❤
I’m so sorry for your loss. I miscarried twins at 19 weeks and had to deliver them. It’s so hard to stay strong for everyone when your heart is broken. I have 2 beautiful boys now and I believe that if I had given birth to them at term, I would have stopped having children. There is a reason my two boys are on this earth, and I believe everything happens for a reason. Also, please seek mental health therapy. It helped me tremendously because I was protecting everyone else from the hurt, I didn’t morn them myself. Thank god you have your little man, and I hope and pray that you realize how strong and loved you are. God bless all of you.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Coazy putting his sweet little head on your tummy made me cry. What a tender soul he is-I’ve never seen a child like him. God bless your sweet family. ❤❤❤
Hey Liana, When you fell pregnant with K I was going through a silent miscarriage. So my 8 week scan was good with a heartbeat, but the lady had said the baby measures about 6 weeks. It was my first and so far only pregnancy and I didnt think much of it. I went for a 10 week scan at a gynea and there was no heartbeat. My husband and I were crushed! It was devastating, we were so excited. I was sent home with a script to basically miscarry, the gynea had told me the same sh*t about "period pains". IT IS NOT LIKE BAD CRAMPS, I have bad cramps, and it is nothing like it. I was at home basically having contraction pains with over the counter meds. Luckily, mine had come out and nothing was wrong enough for me to go to the hospital. But miscarriage is something I wouldnt wish on my worst enemy. It is crushing, and I am so sorry you have to go through it.
I think it's wild that 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage, yet the treatment for it is so drawn out and painful. Its barbaric that such an awful thing to go through is only made harder by the procedures the mother has to undergo to deal with it. Women's healthcare has such a long way to go.
Working out doesn’t hurt the baby. I worked out through my pregnancy with my son & daughter never miscarried. I did have 3 miscarriages 1 before my son and 2 after him. 1 was the loss of my daughter’s twin,(called Vanishing Twin Syndrome) It’s heartbreaking 💔 for the both of you. I am so sorry, but god has a plan for you! Love you both so much! So sorry you’re both hurting but remember this baby is now an angel and could be your rainbow baby.
Felt every part of that ❤️ we went for our first scan and she said she could see the heartbeat but wanted to go vaginal to get a better angle. She didn't see a heart beat because he/she was no longer with us, heart stopped beating at 8 weeks. I opted for the procedure and being put to sleep because I knew I wouldn't cope with the other options. You're so bloody brave. It's such a horrendous pain to mentally go through. All the excitement, planning, telling family for them to be equally as excited and even start knitting. Then in an instance, it comes crashing down on you. Too precious for this world, our little ones. They will gift us a brother or sister when the time is right ❤
I'm sorry girl I couldn't even finish watching. I honestly thought I was over losing my baby at 13 weeks and being told I couldn't have kids but this just brought back all the horror to where i had people yelling at me calling me a murder when i had to do the same as u expect they did the surgery on me and i was just upset losing my child and then those people doing all that after all my trauma already. I'm almost 38 and I just pray I can save enough for a private adoption before 40 but it's hard losing a child and then not knowing if you will ever carry again.
I'm sorry for your loss 😢 we were pregnant at the same time when you had Coazy. We also found out we were pregnant again this year same time as you, and we also miscarried again. We know your pain and are sending you all our love xx
I'm so so sorry 😢. I can totally understand how you feel I went through this 6 times. God blessed me and my husband with 1 at least is how I feel and he's 18 now. It will happen for yall I know it will. ❤❤❤❤ positive vibes shooting your way love yall.
@@flower19121 have u watched the video? Do you know the sensitive topic? Yet all you care about is how long ago the person commented say prays and thanks u divvy this gorge family deserve the world
I am so sorry. I’m sending you gentle hugs and prayers. I was home alone when I had mine. A year later I had my son. He just turned 32. He is amazing. You 2 bring me smiles and laughter. I absolutely adore Koazy. He is so happy.
I’m in tears, I’m so sorry for you guys. No words can say how sorry I am. You’re both the most amazing parents and just amazing human beings. I wish nothing but blessings and happiness and love to come your way and an extra hug from me. Love you guys. Praying for whatever you need to that will help you feel better. 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
A dragon fly also means a loved one is visiting you. My friend goes to her son’s grave to talk to him. She asks him to send dragonflies & TONS fly above them! It is really awesome to see in her videos. ❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so heartbreaking! I myself had a miscarriage last year, was a chemical pregnancy miscarriage when it was very early on which happened just after I had a positive test. Then, by some miracle, I found out I was pregnant with my daughter, who is now 3 months old, and she should have been a twin. Whatever you do next in the future, that little kidney bean will be with you guys! And when use decide to try again for your little miracle baby 🌈👶🏻 You'll know that little one in the sky has choose them for you 🥰
@december125690 it most definitely is hard, I struggled through my first trimester with Lilith and then I already had my son to look after too. So did effect my mental health. Sorry for your loss too! xx
The sorrow on your faces tore at my heart. You are such a lovely couple, and your little Koazy is so sweet. I pray for your physical healing, Liana, as well as emotional healing for both of you. Take good care of each other! ❤
Wow I never knew a miscarriage was so complex and terrible. I want to rly thank u for sharing Ur story for so much to hear and I gotta say, I'm only 11 turning 12 but I have been watching Ur channel since u were pregnant with koazy and u have come so incredibly far and u are so strong and ik that u'll get through this 💖💖
I was doing okay until she whispered “I was so excited…” Then I started sobbing. I’ve never experienced anything like this so all I can do is feel compassion in this moment, but I wish the very very best for this beautiful, loving family!
You guys are the sweetest💕 I cannot even imagine what you guys are going through. Just know that you are strong and so so loved. Thinking of you and your family Liana.
18:07… That was so deep, it’s hit me hard. Like I almost started tearing up. I’m so terribly sorry Liana and Connor, u are the best parents ever and it will get better. Koazy is so lucky to have parent likes u ❤❤
I am so sorry you lost your baby. That is a difficult thing to go through. I have lost 3. I named my children that I lost and wrote them a letter to say goodbye. It helped me to honor the children I lost, and gave me a kind of ceremony to grieve. I went on to have a total of 4 fantastic children. Honoring my children was a way to help me grieve.
Nothing you did, or didn't do, caused this loss. NOTHING. And there was nothing you, or anyone, could have done to prevent it from hapoening. So very sorry for your loss. Take care of yourselves, you both need it right now. Lots of love to you all ❤❤❤(((💖)))
Thank you for sharing this Liana and Connor. My mother went through 2 miscarriages and still had four children. You were very brave to share your story and I know it will help many. Big hug and lots of love.
Personally for me, dragonflies are a sign of people visiting from heaven. I just get an overwhelming sense of calmness and happiness when i view them. And i cant help but feel that my loved ones are with me when i see them.
I’ve had two miscarriages and it was emotionally traumatizing. It’s not something you can understand unless you’ve experienced it. You’re unbelievably brave for sharing your story and you’re helping us all. I’m rooting for you, Liana. God bless you, Connor and Koazy. Take care and be well ❤️🩹🙌🏽
Bless you! I am so sorry you had to go through this. It’s heartbreaking. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you big hugs and love from the USA. 🇺🇸 I do not know you personally but I love you! ❤️🙏🏻
Please dont ever apologize for having, showing, or feeling love. Ever. Not only in regards to your recent loss. But in every situation you may find yourself to be in, always show and feel the love. As soon as you feel it. When all is said and done with us, I sincerely believe that we will never regret love, in any of its forms. It seems that there's always an over abundance of negativity, everywhere. So when there is an oppotunity to show/feel love "excitement", show it. Feel it. Im so sorry for you three about your loss. Sending love, prayers, and pisitivi
"baby wasn't the size of a strawberry " actually broke me. :(
you have so many people praying for you as you go through this scary process, we love you ❤
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I just got to the part when she said that, broke me so much 😭
Was just coming to say that.
The audacity of some people to blame Liana saying "oh, you shouldn't have worked out" or stuff like that is disgusting. She's in the middle of grieving, leave her alone.
No fr. That’s horrible kinda like “I told you so”. Honestly there are too many jealous people spreading their negative energy to people on the internet. If I was them I wouldn’t announce the pregnancy for fear they’ll curse me.
Speaking from experience unfortunately...a few weeks of wonderful is worth the whole universe, even if the worst happens. Those that say nasty things...they can't hurt them anymore than they're hurting from their loss. But your words are kind words ❤❤❤
@@CookiehsAndDreams never seen this, vile
Yesss I agree with u💯
They don’t deserve this 😭 ❤❤😢😢
17:54 Oh darling, please don’t apologise for being excited. You were completely within your right to share the news, and you simply could not have predicted the outcome. You acted out of pure love and joy, and no one can fault you for that. In a way, it’s quite lovely that you did share the news, so your baby is remembered not just for being an angel, but for the joy they brought you and so many others for those few weeks.
Woah, I had NO idea going through a miscarriage was so drawn out, painful and traumatic (the actual process rather than the emotional loss obv). I’m so, so sorry your you loss. Please, both of you, look after yourselves ♡
That little moment where Liana just started crying broke my heart into pieces, no mother should ever have to go through the pain of miscarriage. I'm so sorry for your loss
i feel the same my heart just crumbled into pieces
I felt the same way, my heart just cracked when she started crying, it’s a pain that no one should have to go through 💔
@Darrentaqqrai I can't stop crying I feel that pain all over again when I see mothers go thru what I've been through.
I feel the pain when she cries. I cried out.
I had two later term miscarriages (13 and 15 weeks) and it’s certainly something that leaves a small hole in your heart. Love and comfort to others who have experienced the same 💜
you are right Connor. No one asks about the Dad. He has lost a baby too and must feel so helpless seeing Mom go through this You looked so sad in this video Connor. I hope you're doing ok
Yes you can see he is hurting very much. 😢
I agree the dads out there who have lost their baby too ❤
@@sueharrington9608 yes I agree, I truly hope he’s ok and I hope he takes time to heal emotionally as well, that’s his Bubbah too 😢❤️
@@sueharrington9608 I totally agree. My partner struggled with it more than I did. Even now 5 years later he finds it hard to talk about.
17:54 You didn’t announce too early. You announced at a time that was right for you. It’s a situation that no one wants to find themselves in, but by sharing your pregnancy news early you were able to have the support of those around you (and virtual support on here) when you needed it most.
Also, the main cause of miscarriage in the first trimester is chromosomal abnormalities. This is something that you could not change or do anything about. You did absolutely nothing wrong, and please don’t ever for a second let people tell you otherwise! Thank you for being so raw and honest about a situation that is all too common and rarely discussed
I miscarried alone and at home when I was 17. I hadn’t told anyone I was pregnant and didn’t tell anyone that I had miscarried for almost 5 years after it happened. I was far enough along to know that my child was a boy, but that’s all I ever knew.
If it means anything at all, please know that I truly believe that my son is keeping your beautiful baby company until you one day meet them again. They know that they are loved and they know that we would have done anything in our power to keep them here with us.
i had a similar experience when i was around 16! i was so scared and sad that i laid around for days and got very sick and had to be rushed to the hospital but it was scary! it was the only girl i ever had and i was 20 weeks along!
i had a very similar experience unfortunately ): i was 14 though, pregnant under terrible circumstances, and i still think about my daughter almost daily. its been years. i was so terrified to be a mother but so excited. the pain of losing a child is one i wouldnt wish on anyone. i hope youre doing well now, and im sure your little boy is looking down on you just as my little girl is looking down on me. 🖤
I’m so sorry for your loss 😢
Liana I am SO sorry.
I’m an OB/GYN intern and we always tell our patients that with early miscarriages there was nothing you could have done, from the moment the embryo was conceived there must have been a genetic defect that meant it never would’ve gotten full term.
You did NOTHING wrong. You could’ve been in bed all day from the moment you knew you were pregnant and it still would have happened. This is in no way your fault.
You are so so strong and you will get through this. I think about you often and send all my love so that this time can progressively get easier. Take as long as you need and most importantly take care of yourself ❤❤❤
Cozy is still a big brother. His sibling is just a little angel in heaven. I'm sure you will have a beautiful rainbow baby soon!! Thank you for sharing. I'm 12 weeks with my 3erd and it broke my heart when I found out about your miscarriage. Stay strong tho. God has the perfect little baby waiting for you to be it's mama when it's the right time.
Yes! That’s so true! ❤
Not trying to be mean but its koazy not cozy
What a sweet and loving comment! We weren't blessed to actually become parents of a human baby, but we have at least to Angel babies and deep in love with our 10 year old rescue fur baby. A very smart, forever toddler tomcat Dolf. Your comment suggests you have had a similar experience and/or just know what it's like. From my heart to yours, Anne (Holland, Europe)
@ArjunBakshi-r7p So what is the meaning of 'not being mean'? What are you actually saying?! He's not cozy?! What the bleep? A bit more words makes it more understandable... Just a kind suggestion (saying "not being mean but, .... " isn't a very civil reply, to be honest.
@ambadres i know people personally who have had miscarriages and I know how hard it is because if it happened to me I know I would break down. Our babies are the whole world to us mama's and there so important too. Ide say no madder what kind of mama you are you are important.
THE MISCARRIAGE HAPPENED TO YOU, NOT BECAUSE OF YOU!!! Anyone who blames mothers for having a miscarriage needs to shut their trap & educate themselves! You did NOTHING wrong & I am so, so sorry you had to experience a loss as devastating as this. You have an amazing support system, lean on them when it gets hard & thank them when things get a little easier. Above all else, remember that you are strong & you are loved!!
Couldn't have said it better myself. Prayers for you sweet girl.
I agree. I have had 5 pregnancies. 3 babies born. I have dealt with and survived 2 miscarriages. Somepoeple need to learn to keep their mouths shut. My boys hubby to included made me smile. Cry when you need too. You are grieving. Hugs and love from Phoenix Az USA. (my kids are grown now ages 29, 25, and 21 years )
Exactly! Just because moms carry the baby people think it’s automatically her fault if something happens to it. Pregnancy is pretty solid and you don’t just have a miscarriage because of working out. That’s the stupidest thing ever
@@margojohnson4224 Sadly, our stories are very similar. I’ve had 7 pregnancies. 1) miscarriage 2) daughter took 1 breath before passing away 3) eldest survivor 4) miscarriage 5) miscarriage 6) youngest survivor 7) miscarriage. My 2 survivors are now 24 & 23. Also, my hubby was born/raised in AZ, but we live in CA where I grew up. Years ago my husband discovered something that gets me through the hard times. If you subtract his birthday from my birthday you get our eldest survivor’s birthday..month, day & year. For an extra “it was meant to be” dose, if my daughter would’ve made it to full term, our eldest wouldn’t be alive as I got pregnant with them months prior to my daughter’s original due date. When our eldest turned 10, they decided to start an annual tradition in which they do something special on their sister’s birthday as a way to say Thank You for giving up her life so they could live.
@@lvg_18 Completely agree! GENERALLY speaking, if you’ve 1) discussed everything with your Dr & have their approval, 2) are healthy & 3) have no risk factors then you should be able to continue doing most, if not all, of the things you did prior to getting pregnant. Most Drs suggest a stopping point, but every single pregnancy is different & every Dr has their own opinion on what to do. Add in the differences between every country/region, cultures, traditions & religions, as well as the medical expertise/guidelines for each of those & things get complicated. Instead of adding on stress & pain by victim blaming & being hypercritical, insensitive & egotistical, ALL of us should start being more kind, caring, supportive, empathetic & understanding of what others are going through.
I'm so sorry you experienced this! This was my exact story 27 years ago. I still think about who that little person may have become. Sending hugs and love from Canada.
So sorry for your loss❤️
We all are❤
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We are all ways here of u
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Me as well. It is very sad
So sorry for your loss ❤
“My baby wasn’t the size of a strawberry” absolutely made me ball my eyes out. Sending healing prayers to you and your family ❤
7:19 the way connor grabs her shows how much he cares. I am so sorry. Koazy will always be there for you. ❤❤
Ik it’s so nice of him!❤
And we will always be there for you❤
It's the silent club you never knew existed, never applied to join, but has many, many supporters. So sorry for your loss. Healing your heart takes time, and you will never forget. But you will feel normal again one day. Big hugs!
Agreed. After my first miscarriage I was amazed at how many women I knew who had been part of this “club”. The pain does lessen over the years but I have hope to see my sweet babies again someday.
i dont know if you’ll see this, liana, but one of the best things i heard from someone regarding pregnancy after loss was “your uterus has no memory”. your baby and your uterus were communicating, and they knew baby wasn’t doing well, so they decided to let them go peacefully. your uterus has no memory, has no ulterior motives- this is not the end, if you do not want it to be. do not feel as though all hope is lost, my love, because you are strong and your body will fight to do right by you, no matter what. we love you, and i hope your family is able to take time away to recover and heal. please dont listen to people saying “you shouldnt have revealed anything until 12 weeks” that would not have changed anything. frankly, if you reveal a pregnancy before or after 12 weeks it does not matter. the only thing that changed is you now have a huge circle of people who are here for you, who want to support you and who are able to understand the pain you are experiencing. we love you, and please don’t be disheartened by this. it was not a failure on your part or your body’s part. it was simply a matter of natural process. you could not have changed anything. you did everything right.
Well said! Beautiful! Thank you for communicating this to this precious family! 🥰
@@bunny-z2v am in my 60s now but had two miscarriages and my doctor more or less said the same thing to me ..( I had a great GP) we did get through it and have 3 gorgeous kids who are now all in their 40s.
This 100 percent, wonderfully said. So much love to this family ❤
❤ so well said & and beautiful. We went through 2 miscarriages before our 2nd child. 1 at 12 wks and another early on. It's truly heartbreaking 💔 😢 for you. Our youngest is 18 now. I think things happen for a reason. I'm sure you will go onto have a healthy pregnancy and baby. Give yourselves time to heal as a Family. You are such a lovely Family and have such a lovely little boy, he is super adorable 💙 xxxxxx
@@bunny-z2v thank you so much. I always felt it was my fault. Thank you.😘💖
0:53 I’m already crying. You do so great at using your platform for good. You’re both so strong.
Same
When I was pregnant with my little girl, you got pregnant with koazy, when you fell pregnant this time so did I shortly after. When you lost baby and posted it to the world to let us know I also lost my baby the same week. I understand everything you are feeling at the moment and I salute you as a mum, woman and as a human for being able to speak about your loss publicly and hold yourself together this well. There is light at the end of the tunnel ❤
You got this too. I hope you’re okay. My mom tried for 7 years to get pregnant, and she got gifted me and my beautiful twin. When my twin was ten years old she died. My mom fell into a depression state, and almost overdosed. My parents had to split up for a month, just to take a break because my mom was NOT okay. My mother tried to get pregnant once she was okay again and failed 3 times. She had 2 miscarriages and the last time the baby died 2 days after birth. My mother thought she wasn’t good enough. She then got gifted with triplets. My brother and both of my sisters. She was very overprotective to us growing up, for valid reasons. My mother is thriving now, and I carry my siblings deep in my heart. Everything will work out. It will be okay mama.
@@CeCevlogzalr woah thanks for sharing❤
I'm sorry for your loss
@@mollyalathman619 thank you 🫶🏼
@@CeCevlogzalr your mumma sounds like on tough cookie 🫶🏼 thank you for sharing and for your kind words xx
I have lost three babies the last one destroyed me. The medical management treatment was excruciatingly. I’ve been blessed with 4 beautiful amazing children since and they are only here because she passed away. My heart goes out to you all xxxxx
This comments for the dads the fall into the shadows and dont get asked how they are doing. Just seeing Connor's face throughout this video breaks my heart! CONNOR, how are you doing!? You experienced a great loss along side of Liana! Im so sorry to you both and sweet Koazy, too! That beautiful boy Koazy will contuine to gjve you both strength you never knew was witihin! Keeping loving one another through this and grieve as you need! Nothing but love and healing vibes your way!
@@misfitbritt 100% agree I wrote my message before and I know how hard it was on my partner. So I really hope Connor's okay and you can see the devastation in his eyes. It honestly made me cry. I feel so sad for both of them
While I agree, the pain Liana experienced is unimaginable. Yes you should make sure both are okay but imagine how Lianas feels and experienced with pain😢 I hope they are both okay though!
@TheCrewOfTheCourtTV well of course. Literally read the first sentence. I'm a mother myself and been thru similar. It's awful and so painful. While I see hundreds addressing Liana I see damn near none addressing him specifically. Hense why I said what I said but still included them both.
My step mom and dad lost my little sister years ago at 22 weeks, they got into an argument and my step mom told my dad she was the one who lost the baby not him. Yes the mother grows the child within her body but the man produces half the DNA. Maybe he did not want to tell his side and wanted her to be able to express how she is feeling and allow her to heal. Maybe he could make a video of how he is feeling and what he was and is experiencing if he hasn’t already.
@chantelbastiaen2595 damn... That's heartbreaking! So sad for your father! It's terrible for both parents to experience such a loss! I hope Connor does talk a bit more about it and how he's feeling. A lot of men need to see/hear it and know it's okay to not be okay. Men's mental health matters, too!
I am SO sorry for your loss. I went through my miscarriage last year. I was 9 weeks 4 days when I had symptoms but my baby only made it to 7 weeks, the size of a blueberry. I have a blueberry tattoo in my babies memory. It gets easier. Never forgetting but it does get easier. I’m praying that your next pregnancy grants you a healthy and happy baby!
We had a miscarriage a few months ago. Still miss the idea of the little bugger but life goes on and we are trying again now. Was very upsetting at first thinking I was gonna be a dad for 2 months and then that getting ripped away. More importantly watching my Mrs going through it was torture.
You’d make a great father just by reading how much you care for your wife. Hope you’re doing okay yourself!
@@dougellis2k I hope you get pregnant and have an amazing child and know that their a reason for everything ❤️
Appreciate you !
Take care off you both end your sweet son❤
@@dougellis2k so sorry for your loss. No one ever asks about the dads and I don’t understand why. My partner struggled with our loss a lot worse than I did. Hope you get your rainbow soon ♥️
Don’t ever doubt your decisions! I got to 12 weeks to find out that I had triplets that had passed at 7 weeks. It was a huge shock but 2 months later I was pregnant again with twins who are now 22. There is so much to hope for ❤
Hearing the words “baby has no heartbeat” is the worst torture that there is. Healing comes eventually, no need to rush it ❤
@@HAppytobeHer it really is heartbreaking hearing those words.
Having had 2 miscarriages. You just know when something isn’t right. Almost immediately after finding out I was pregnant with my first two losses, it just didn’t feel weird. It has been the weirdest feeling I’ve ever had to know my babies were gone and to have to prepare for their loss before being told they were gone. Prayers for you and anyone else who has had to feel this pain.
My first pregnancy was a miscarriage about a week after we had told our extended family 💔 now I have a beautiful almost 2 year old boy. Thank you for sharing your story Liana! It helps to know you're not alone when going through something like that
As a mother who has lost her premature baby after birth- there is no 'safe' time to tell people that you're pregnant. You wanted to celebrate that little baby and rightly so. Your little baby knew only love guys. I am so sorry you know this pain. Sending love to you all
My baby passed inside the toilet. I fished her out and placed her in the ground 30 years ago. I then planted a rose bush in her name. Peace be with you, my friends. I'm truly sorry.
This happened to me as well during one of my miscarriages, and it was so traumatic for me, ❤
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I'm so sorry 🙏 That was a beautiful tribute to your baby ❤ May she rest in peace 😞
What a beautiful way to honor her
Hey Liana, I hope you feel better, my cousin went through the same and she hasn’t been the same since. I don’t want that for another person let alone my own kin. My condolences don’t just go to you, they also go to Connor and Koazy. Yall are the best family I’ve seen with how supportive you are to each other and I wish you the best in these times.
Telling people at 4 weeks, 20 weeks or 39 weeks wont stop a baby from miscarrying. My baby died at 21 weeks and i didnt tell anyone i was pregnant. You have nothing to be sorry for. Tell the world because you deserve to experience the joy of a new baby even if its just for a short time.
I just want to say, you did not do anything wrong by telling people 'early' about your pregnancy. You were excited and that is something you should be able to do, without feeling shame around. This is why women don't know how to handle a miscarriage when it happens to them (myself included before having my second baby), and it's because we're just taught to hide our feelings, emotions and experiences. I cried watching this video because I know the pain you feel, and the loss of a future you had so wanted for yourself and your family. Even down to having your first baby with you in the room for the scan; I had to take my little girl with me to a private scan when she was 3 to find out that our baby had no heartbeat after bleeding. You're an amazing person, Liana. You'll have your rainbow baby because you have the biggest heart and you deserve it - Connor, too. I wish you guys all the best and hope you heal from this in your own timing x
18:12 "Baby wasn't the size of a strawberry", I'm crying 😢
It broke my heart to see Connors face. He is being so strong. Sometimes the fathers can be forgotten. When I miscarried, I can remember putting my arms around my husband while he sobbed. I had my mum to talk to on the phone while I was going through the actual miscarriage in my bath but he had no parents to talk to about how he felt. I’m so sorry you both had to go through this
Koazy may not have the words but he almost certainly understands. And I'm proud of you both for a hundred things... but mostly for reading the signs. God sends his messengers from all quarters, even in the form of dragonflies. 💙
The same happened to me on my 4 child, I took the whole family for the scan ,then they told me to take the kids off the room and told me that there was no heartbeat, my whole world collapsed, I cried for days. 1 year later I was pregnant again,don’t worry the lord is watching and will bless you and your family ❤❤❤
Devastated for you both. Please take as much time as you need to heal. Sending our deepest condolences to your family during this time 🙏❤️
I cried with you. So sorry for your loss 😢 Your beautiful baby will come back to you, his soul is eternal and he will come back ❤ I want to think so!
When my son died a lady bird landed on his dad and stayed on his arm throughout the whole funeral. A lady bird now comes on sad days birthday Xmas times when ladybirds aren't supposed to be around... and sits. For a long 5min cuddle then just flies away again .. love it so comforting ❤ 🐞 🐞 ❤
I think it’s your son saying hello 🐞🩷
I'm so sorry for your loss...This was actually the first time hearing someone talking about miscarriage with such clarity and i honestly felt every one of your sentences and i was at the edge of tears.
Wish you and your family all the bests liana🫂🤍💫
Someone told me a long time ago after i lost twins. Part of babies DNA stays in mums body forever . Weather we loose them or not. You will physically hold a part of your babies with you forever and always. Hold onto that and heal slowly all of you ...and Kozy knows what was lost , baby was part of him too xxx
The same goes for sperm. Many people don't know that but all the men a woman slept with who came in her... Never completely leave her.
Pausing at 18:10 - that sweet little baby was a gift and I know people are making comments about the announcement being so early. Each life should be celebrated, that was your sweet little baby and it's OK to grieve. Koazy is still a big brother and always will be a big brother to that sweet little Angel. I am so so sorry for your loss, thank you for sharing your journey with everyone. Sending nothing but good vibes loves and prayers for your sweet family.
7:18 the way Conner immediately rushed to comfort Liana 🥺♥️
i’ve never cried so hard :( sending all my love, condolences and hugs your way guys. i love you millions 🥺❤️
I've been through 8 miscarriages. They never get easier during them, but your love and appreciation for the child or children you have grows exponentially.
Sending you love for sharing your experience and taking time to share kind words ❤
I'm so proud of you ❤
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit
Oh my goodness… I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for telling your experience.❤️
Six miscarriages on my end and currently 13 weeks pregnant… It’s absolutely horrific. I’m so sorry you’ve gone through that.
I'm so sorry for your loss. When I had my first miscarriage, someone told me that only the very best moms are chosen to have babies in heaven. She said she believes they wait for us and we get to raise them in the afterlife when all our work on earth is done. I love being a mom more than anything else I've done in this life, so believing that I'll get to raise that little one someday gave me a lot of peace, and actually made me less afraid of my own mortality, too. Hugs from the US.
Hi guys, so sorry for your loss. I too had a miscarriage with my second child. On the day the baby was due, may 3rd 1996, all of the yellow roses in our garden bloomed. My husband had a yellow rose tattooed on his arm and he always buys me yellow roses. You will get over this hunnys, I went on to have another 2 babies. The youngest of which is 21 and his girlfriend is expecting my first grand baby! Xxjojoxx
@@jorandle3455 such a beautiful sentiment 💛🌹
That’s so beautiful! Jesus loves you and your sweet baby in heaven👼🏼🤍
From a mum of a still born, a mum of a 12 week miscarriage and 3 early losses, I am so so so sorry ❤
I am a silent watcher but today I felt it was right to send my love. I know I am a pea in the sea of messages you are getting now, but we are all supporting the same cause.
You are so strong and brave, I am terribly sorry and sad for your loss. I hope you let yourself heal and love yourself regardless. Thank you for sharing, bless your souls xx
Ditto ❤
I cried watching this. So gutted for you both. I love that you are both so open about what you are going through and that your experience may help someone else. Take care x
When Liana started crying, she went straight to Conner. It was so beautiful to see that she finds comfort in him. Im so glad that you guys have each other during this rough time ❤
Hi Liana and Connor
I have never commented on a UA-cam video but felt the need on this one.
I am really sorry for your loss, you are an amazing family! You have the most precious little boy, he is so clever 😃
I am a young Mum to four children and I have miscarried twice and it’s the worst feeling in the world. Your so right when you say people are not alone. And yes nothing you could of done to stop it.
This video that yourself and Connor have made is very brave and spoken very truthfully, I think this will help a lot of families that are going through the same thing. 🙏 👼
I hope your ok and I am glad people have asked if Connor is ok too as it’s his feelings that matter too and your both going through it. You make a great team and your UA-cam channel is amazing 😊
I’m so sorry, hun. So sorry. You are still that baby’s momma, even if he’s in heaven, and that in itself can be so beautiful. Thank you for sharing, esp for it to be here for other mommas who needed this.
Historically, the reason people didn't tell anyone before 12 weeks is because so many pregnancies sadly end in miscarriage anyway, but back in the old days, way more did because people weren't as healthy. It was so you didn't have to go around telling people you weren't pregnant anymore to save everyone being uncomfortable. Why on earth people have turned that into some kind of superstition that if you tell people before 12 weeks, you'll jinx it and lose the baby is beyond me. All that kind of comment does is make people feel like it's their fault that they lost the baby at a time in their life when they're grieving and probably wondering if they did something wrong anyway. You wouldn't go up to someone whose older child has died and say it's your fault, so people need to quit doing it for pregnancies and actually think before they open their trap. I'm so very sorry you're both going through this and Koazy too, I'm sure he was confused. Take this older lady's advice and don't give those kind of people a second thought. Your mental health is more important than their shitty opinion.
@Fluffnugget78 It is not bc it will jinx it. It is bc statistically, 30% of pregnancies end in miscarriage BEFORE 12 weeks! And it is even more painful to UNtell people, if need be. If one can handle that, fine. But better safe than sorry. It can be very difficult for many people. Similarly, many do not decorate a nursery until they bring a baby home! In my family, the tradition is not to buy anything (or at least not to have it delivered to the house) until home from the hospital! But every family is different!
Liana I am literally crying with you, I remember my miss*carriage. My baby stopped growing when I was around 7 weeks, I found out when I went for my 12 week scan. the only thing I felt throughout was slight abdominal pains but I was told by everyone that it's my uterus growing and preparing especially as it was my 1st pregnancy...The pain and sadness is still with me and it happened back in 2019. I am lucky, so lucky and grateful I have a healthy, happy, and naughty 2 year old baby girl but miss*carriage is something I'd never ever wish upon even my worst worst worst enemy. I understand your pain completely. You're strong, you both are. Love you guys
My mom miscarried 3 times in between me and my sister, you will get through this, you are so strong. Much love from America ❤❤❤
thank you so much for sharing this i’m a 15 year old girl and one night i went out drinking and my friend left me at a boys house alone and he did something very bad to me and then a month later i stated to get bad tummy pains and when i went toliet the was blood all through the toilet and that was only a month ago i didn’t even know i was pregnant until i lost my baby and i’m still not over it and it just helps so much to know that someone else has gone through it and i’m not the only one i’ve been watching your videos for years thank you so much for sharing your experience you have no idea how much it’s helping me thank you and i’m sending so much love ❤️
I'm so sorry this happened to you & I hope you have some support...x
I am so sorry for both sad things that happened to you. Please seek counseling! I did not for years and rape stays with you and comes out in various ways! It will help in both your situations as you can't and shouldn't do it alone . Have a blessed day!
I'm sorry this happened to you, make sure you get some support. Don't be afraid to report him for what he did, take care of yourself
Good morning to you both. Prayers for peace above all human understanding. ❤
You have a perfect family and you will have another blessing soon.
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7:16 the way liana just broke down in tears broke me.. I feel so sorry for thrm 😢
I know❤😢
Same ❤😢
There’s something that “we might have told people a bit too early” and connors “I think so” that just made me bawl my eyes out. Losing a baby is losing a baby, whether you tell people early or later. I don’t know what it was about to but it really doesn’t sit right. You’re allowed to be excited. Your allowed to mourn. Announce early or announce late. It doesn’t change your outcome ❤
This is such a sweet comment.
I am 63 yrs old. I had a miscarriage at 28. I have 2 beautiful kids born after. I healed and moved on but every now and then I still feel a pang of grief wondering what might have been. But I know my body naturally rejected the baby because something was wrong. I am so glad Koazy was there to help you both through it.
🫂 hugs
18:00 you didn't tell us too early.
I was so excited with you.
I also think it's so brave. You're giving a taboo space. You'll make women less ashamed. You're doing good in the world. It was super exciting and when rainbow baby comes that will be super exciting too❤❤❤❤
I'm so very sorry for y'alls loss. It's heartbreaking and it's good to talk about because it's a common occurrence, sadly, that happens to so many of us. Much love to you and your family ❤💙
I had a missed miscarriage like 12 years ago now, it was so painful mentally and physically and it took a while to work through the emotions. In turn bc it was my first pregnancy when I did get pregnant again I was just scared it would happen or something else horrible would occur. Kinda ruined my pregnancy experiences, but I went to therapy for the first time(so something positive came out of it and I worked on more than my health anxieties) Then I had a traumatic birth that affected my subsequent pregnancy. Thank you for talking about it and reminding others they aren’t alone. I’m so so sorry for your family’s loss. Koazy is a little doll.
My deepest condolences. Sending you two a big bear hug 🫂
The workout argument is rubbish. Working out is actually good for mummy and Baby. You did the right thing by working out. I watcged Videos by MamadoctorJones and she gives good information on the matter
So sorry for your loss, many years ago I had the a similar experience. At the scan ( because I was bleeding heavily) at 12 weeks I was told baby measured 7 weeks. I passed it a little while later. It nearly broke me at the time. My little girl was almost two and seemed to understand the baby was gone. I later had a healthy boy. They are 32 and 29 now. Give yourself time to grieve. Sending lots of love ❤
Liana, I’m so sorry for your loss. Know how loved you are and your family. I’m praying for you all during this trial. You are so amazing for sharing your story and know how much of a light you are to your fans and to all the women who are going through similar situations. Keep shining that light Liana. Don’t let anything block it out. You are amazing.
at 18:28 yes so many people can experience it but they pain is still there and it's all dealt with differently. i'm so sorry for you and Connor and you are so strong! i know you can do this Liana. ❤
I'm so so sorry for your loss. I had twins last year born at 26 weeks and they didn't make it. The loss of a baby never leaves you, and in those early months I truly just wanted to die. I felt I had nothing to live for, they were my first babies. The pain did begin to lessen with time, but they will always be with me, just as your little one will always be with you. And just like the dragonfly, you will always get signs from your little baby. Take care of yourself and each other and just feel whatever you need to feel. My heart and prayers are with you.
I found out I was pregnant when you posted about yours and have since miscarried and this video popped up. Thank you for sharing your experience. I too told everyone because we were so excited and can't help but to think what I could have done differently. Just know his plan for the future is greater than the pain we feel now. Love you all and hug your little ❤
I’m so sorry for your loss. I miscarried twins at 19 weeks and had to deliver them. It’s so hard to stay strong for everyone when your heart is broken. I have 2 beautiful boys now and I believe that if I had given birth to them at term, I would have stopped having children. There is a reason my two boys are on this earth, and I believe everything happens for a reason. Also, please seek mental health therapy. It helped me tremendously because I was protecting everyone else from the hurt, I didn’t morn them myself. Thank god you have your little man, and I hope and pray that you realize how strong and loved you are. God bless all of you.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Coazy putting his sweet little head on your tummy made me cry. What a tender soul he is-I’ve never seen a child like him. God bless your sweet family. ❤❤❤
Hey Liana, When you fell pregnant with K I was going through a silent miscarriage. So my 8 week scan was good with a heartbeat, but the lady had said the baby measures about 6 weeks. It was my first and so far only pregnancy and I didnt think much of it. I went for a 10 week scan at a gynea and there was no heartbeat. My husband and I were crushed! It was devastating, we were so excited. I was sent home with a script to basically miscarry, the gynea had told me the same sh*t about "period pains". IT IS NOT LIKE BAD CRAMPS, I have bad cramps, and it is nothing like it. I was at home basically having contraction pains with over the counter meds. Luckily, mine had come out and nothing was wrong enough for me to go to the hospital. But miscarriage is something I wouldnt wish on my worst enemy. It is crushing, and I am so sorry you have to go through it.
I think it's wild that 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage, yet the treatment for it is so drawn out and painful. Its barbaric that such an awful thing to go through is only made harder by the procedures the mother has to undergo to deal with it. Women's healthcare has such a long way to go.
Working out doesn’t hurt the baby. I worked out through my pregnancy with my son & daughter never miscarried. I did have 3 miscarriages 1 before my son and 2 after him. 1 was the loss of my daughter’s twin,(called Vanishing Twin Syndrome) It’s heartbreaking 💔 for the both of you. I am so sorry, but god has a plan for you! Love you both so much! So sorry you’re both hurting but remember this baby is now an angel and could be your rainbow baby.
Felt every part of that ❤️ we went for our first scan and she said she could see the heartbeat but wanted to go vaginal to get a better angle. She didn't see a heart beat because he/she was no longer with us, heart stopped beating at 8 weeks. I opted for the procedure and being put to sleep because I knew I wouldn't cope with the other options. You're so bloody brave. It's such a horrendous pain to mentally go through. All the excitement, planning, telling family for them to be equally as excited and even start knitting. Then in an instance, it comes crashing down on you. Too precious for this world, our little ones. They will gift us a brother or sister when the time is right ❤
I'm sorry girl I couldn't even finish watching. I honestly thought I was over losing my baby at 13 weeks and being told I couldn't have kids but this just brought back all the horror to where i had people yelling at me calling me a murder when i had to do the same as u expect they did the surgery on me and i was just upset losing my child and then those people doing all that after all my trauma already. I'm almost 38 and I just pray I can save enough for a private adoption before 40 but it's hard losing a child and then not knowing if you will ever carry again.
I'm sorry for your loss 😢 we were pregnant at the same time when you had Coazy. We also found out we were pregnant again this year same time as you, and we also miscarried again. We know your pain and are sending you all our love xx
I'm so so sorry 😢. I can totally understand how you feel I went through this 6 times. God blessed me and my husband with 1 at least is how I feel and he's 18 now. It will happen for yall I know it will. ❤❤❤❤ positive vibes shooting your way love yall.
"If you are miscarrying, there is nothing you can do about it."
It's such a finite statement. So devastating.
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I am so sorry. I’m sending you gentle hugs and prayers.
I was home alone when I had mine. A year later I had my son. He just turned 32. He is amazing.
You 2 bring me smiles and laughter. I absolutely adore Koazy. He is so happy.
I’m in tears, I’m so sorry for you guys. No words can say how sorry I am. You’re both the most amazing parents and just amazing human beings. I wish nothing but blessings and happiness and love to come your way and an extra hug from me. Love you guys. Praying for whatever you need to that will help you feel better. 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
A dragon fly also means a loved one is visiting you. My friend goes to her son’s grave to talk to him. She asks him to send dragonflies & TONS fly above them! It is really awesome to see in her videos. ❤️
I honestly it was your baby visiting you or your baby & your grandma. 💕❤️💕❤️💕
7:37 bless koazy’s heart, stay strong Connor and liana, you are a true inspiration for koazy. Hugs and kisses ❤
I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so heartbreaking! I myself had a miscarriage last year, was a chemical pregnancy miscarriage when it was very early on which happened just after I had a positive test. Then, by some miracle, I found out I was pregnant with my daughter, who is now 3 months old, and she should have been a twin. Whatever you do next in the future, that little kidney bean will be with you guys! And when use decide to try again for your little miracle baby 🌈👶🏻 You'll know that little one in the sky has choose them for you 🥰
I also had biochemical pregnancy and even though it was so early on, it was very difficult for me emotionally
@december125690 it most definitely is hard, I struggled through my first trimester with Lilith and then I already had my son to look after too. So did effect my mental health. Sorry for your loss too! xx
The sorrow on your faces tore at my heart. You are such a lovely couple, and your little Koazy is so sweet. I pray for your physical healing, Liana, as well as emotional healing for both of you. Take good care of each other! ❤
Wow I never knew a miscarriage was so complex and terrible. I want to rly thank u for sharing Ur story for so much to hear and I gotta say, I'm only 11 turning 12 but I have been watching Ur channel since u were pregnant with koazy and u have come so incredibly far and u are so strong and ik that u'll get through this 💖💖
I was doing okay until she whispered “I was so excited…”
Then I started sobbing. I’ve never experienced anything like this so all I can do is feel compassion in this moment, but I wish the very very best for this beautiful, loving family!
This video required so much courage, healing and love. Beautiful to see you informing the world by your very difficult to share personal experience
You guys are the sweetest💕 I cannot even imagine what you guys are going through. Just know that you are strong and so so loved. Thinking of you and your family Liana.
18:07…
That was so deep, it’s hit me hard. Like I almost started tearing up.
I’m so terribly sorry Liana and Connor, u are the best parents ever and it will get better. Koazy is so lucky to have parent likes u ❤❤
I am so sorry you lost your baby. That is a difficult thing to go through. I have lost 3. I named my children that I lost and wrote them a letter to say goodbye. It helped me to honor the children I lost, and gave me a kind of ceremony to grieve. I went on to have a total of 4 fantastic children. Honoring my children was a way to help me grieve.
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Nothing you did, or didn't do, caused this loss. NOTHING. And there was nothing you, or anyone, could have done to prevent it from hapoening. So very sorry for your loss. Take care of yourselves, you both need it right now. Lots of love to you all ❤❤❤(((💖)))
Losing a baby is a really big deal. I understand your pain. It’s a very deep pain. I am so sorry for y’all loss.
Thank you for sharing this Liana and Connor. My mother went through 2 miscarriages and still had four children. You were very brave to share your story and I know it will help many. Big hug and lots of love.
Personally for me, dragonflies are a sign of people visiting from heaven. I just get an overwhelming sense of calmness and happiness when i view them. And i cant help but feel that my loved ones are with me when i see them.
I’ve had two miscarriages and it was emotionally traumatizing. It’s not something you can understand unless you’ve experienced it. You’re unbelievably brave for sharing your story and you’re helping us all. I’m rooting for you, Liana. God bless you, Connor and Koazy. Take care and be well ❤️🩹🙌🏽
Bless you! I am so sorry you had to go through this. It’s heartbreaking. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you big hugs and love from the USA. 🇺🇸 I do not know you personally but I love you! ❤️🙏🏻
Please dont ever apologize for having, showing, or feeling love. Ever. Not only in regards to your recent loss. But in every situation you may find yourself to be in, always show and feel the love. As soon as you feel it. When all is said and done with us, I sincerely believe that we will never regret love, in any of its forms. It seems that there's always an over abundance of negativity, everywhere. So when there is an oppotunity to show/feel love "excitement", show it. Feel it.
Im so sorry for you three about your loss. Sending love, prayers, and pisitivi
* posi
Sorry, fat fingers. *Positivity to your family.