Timestamps: 0:00 - I am not a robot 3:40 - top of my school 5:51 - wavin’ flag 9:35 - my alcoholic friends 12:20 - average 14:14 - Mrs. Potato head 17:50 - she used to be mine 20:13 - the greatest 23:36 - waka waka 26:41 - oh no! 29:40 - little miss perfect 32:54 - elastic heart 36:31 - don’t give up My first time doing them, glad I could finally be that person :)
I am an 8th grade academic achiever who loves to be a overachiever in anything I do Sports, Hobbies, Academics I have very big ambitions for myself like getting scholarships or getting into Ivies I have a deep fair of being a failure or not good at things it’s awful. Once you get a taste of success and praise it’s like a drug that I keep overdosing on just my grades and Volleyball it’s not healthy as sometimes I wonder if I’m even happy.
I remember 8th grade for me used to be my prime time. I used to be the happiest, the smartest, the best version of me. Waking up early staying up late to study. I was disciplined to work everyday and i enjoyed it. But things went absolutely down. I had to take a long break. (Due to medical conditions, i was sent to icu) Returned from the break, and saw nothing left. I didnt have the same spark in me, the same motivation i used to have. I felt like i lost myself. Two years later, I know my younger self who was in 8th grade would be very much disappointed and upset at me. She would be yelling at me like "get your lazy ass up!! We still have dreams to fulfill." Id smile and say "im not you anymore." I wish i could bring out my potential again. Im saying this to you for you to not lose your charm again. Fall in love with this. Learn to fall in love again. Im trying to do it too. ❤
I don't know why but,I always pressure myself....Everytime I get low grades I cry....and it's hard to cry infront of the teacher,specially that I'm a slow learner in math and some subjects...I hate being average,I wanna be like those smart students...I wanna be like them and able to achieve the scores and achievements I want...
@@lj_4ev3ruh.... i dont think you should say that.... What if they are already trying their best??? What if they are not getting what they desire even after doing their best???
Its okay girl, We don't have control over everything, And you're not average, you're unique the way you are. have a great dayyy!! don't pressure your self to much and pray everydayy.
It’s probably because you haven’t found a study method that truly works for you. I recommend trying out different strategies to figure out what study methods works best for you in each subject (it’s all trial and error). Remember to always aim to use active recall strategies (especially in math and science). It’s incredibly possible to achieve your dreams, as long as you’re willing to find what methods work best for you. Side Note: I also recommend refining your notes so that it’s easy to find information if you ever get stuck doing practice problems. A good way to start is labeling out subjects and writing dates on notes. Side, side note: Also maybe consider creating an ‘assignment schedule’ that includes readings, assignment due dates, etc. to keep you on track. And ALWAYS set solid goals before each study session (including estimated completed times) to hold yourself accountable.
I used to be a straight A student but after the pandemic things changed completely. But now, I'm pretty sure I can ACE this exam now! (From 18 to 28 September) I'm ready to study and tolerate all the pressure happily :) All the best for whatever you are doing! Stay happy and focused🔥 Wish me luck🍀
dropping by and found this playlist, i'm swearing myself that i'll try to crave for academic stability this 3rd year, if anyone can do it then why won't i? anw, i think it's okay to be pressured enough. you just have to know how to deal with it advantageously up to your utmost resources. good luck to everyone here, and to you who read this! fighting for the both of us.
I never know what medals are for when I was in elementary but from daycare to 6th grade I always have a awards (mostly 2 or 1).. 5th and 6th grade I was with honor.. I was removed from being an honor student when I was 7th grade because I was not serious about my studies back then, 8th I got it back, and in my 9th and 10th grade I experienced being the high achiever student, note that I am always in a room full of intelligent people since it was a star section or what you call the STE section. This song is my motivation not because I crave for more grades but because I romanticize studying lately, In my senior year my only enemy is my last year self not my classmates since I realized in my 10th grade that I do not have to compete with them because We all are just a different kids that have a different ways to learn, a bunch of kid that parents sent to school to learn not to get hurt for some grades. Note that if you felt that you are behind the class, don't take it that you failed school, it is because school fails to give you the exact learning to make studying much enjoying for every types of students. Love you all people!! Take care of yourself, life is short make it at least memorable.. enjoy school as much as possible!❤
Medals, achievements and praises were a big thing for me back then. It fuels my motivation that time without realizing it also losing myself. Pandemic happens when I realize that being an overachiever is stressing and tiring me so much. From being an overachiever student, I'm become an average freshman student who just want to pass my subjects. It just that being overachiever and reaching others' expectation really drain and lose myself so much.
This hits hard when you're the almost burnt out top student of your class, president of it, in 3 different clubs +choir and crave academic validation while also being in 7th grade
i'm 24yo, i've drop out of uni twice now, going for my 3rd try at uni currently and everything seems to be going great so far, it's been hard especially after dropping out and feeling like a failure, seeing people from hs graduate years before me and feeling like i'm behind, just a word to people out there specially the young ones, burn out its real, its what lead me here after so many years of being an overachiver, your body and mind have a limit. so please be kind to yourself, i promise it's all gonna be fine
OhHh, it's such a great playlist ! i was surprised to see that it's not as popular as other academic playlists :cCCCcCcC keep going!! you've helped me a lot today !!!!
for me, im an 8th grader too and i go to my states best high skl cuz i got in the enterence exam, i was always an over-achiever but in grade 7 i crashed bcu there was this guy... and i got bad grades but now im heartbroken and getting the best grades of my life and doing better than all the people around me. i have big dreams but im scared ill never ahcieve them or find love with those big dreams but i really want love and my big dreams (i wanna be a surgeon but also famous)
I'm an 8th grade student who won a scholarship to be in a private school, since I entered school I've always been a "genius", I learned to read at 4 y/o, while everyone else learned at 5/6. Once you get success for most of your life, you can't stop, it's like a drug. I've always wanted to be first in everything and anything. Right now I'm In school from 7:20 am to 3:10 pm, 15 minutes of breakfast and then half an hour of lunch time; on Mondays I have Mixed Martial arts practice, tuesdays and Wednesdays I go to the gym, thursdays I have a seminar that the scholarship requires, fridays soccer practice and on Saturdays I go to a college-level English course(English Isn't my first language), also required for the scholarship. And you must ask yourself, why would I want this? The truth is I never wanted to, I was always a smart kid, butt I didn't want my intelligence to be overused, thing my parents didn't understand because they're the reason I applied for this scholarship and most of things in my life.
Hard to believe but I went through the same thing in my 8th-grade year and now I'm a senior. In 8th grade, I was ranked number one because I scored 100% or more in almost all of my classes with only one grade being 99.89%. I then applied to a private school in my area while applying for a scholarship to afford said private school. During that time I was a full-time athlete playing football, volleyball, and jiujitsu. I was going to sleep around 11 or 12 and waking up at 5:30 in the morning. I had no weekends because I was always studying and had no free time to make friends nor maintain the ones I had. I became an extreme overachiever and continued to do so in high school by trying to be on every sports team and participate in every event. I only ended up hurting myself in the end by getting burnt out and losing my senses. I understand what you mean by it being like a drug. It truly is a drug that you won't want to quit but I advise you not to quit this drug but to manage it. It has taken me 4 years to understand the persistence and determination I had to keep up with being the "smart kid" wasn't bad it was just excessive. I went overboard trying to be the best in everything that every year by the end of finals I ended up in the hospital due to malnutrition or panic attacks finally catching up to me because I refused to be distracted by my health issues before finals ended. By the end of every school year, I end up getting sick, I don't recommend going this overboard. Of course, I'm not telling you to drop everything but I am advising you to prioritize what YOU want to do and what YOU want to achieve. All the things I did these past few years weren't for me. I did all these things because I wanted to make my family proud. I did so much to maintain the act I have been putting up for years but now I'm done. I'm choosing me, for the first time in life. I am going to take the classes I want because it makes me happy and it's what I WANT to do. Choose you, every time. I went through this. This is only my experience. Feel free to completely ignore this but I will leave this year for you just in case you need to feel like you are not alone because you aren't. I wish you the best and I'm here for you! :)
I'm so tired of always having to be perfect my life has seriously gone to hell this year and I just can't do it anymore. My parents love to say stuff like "Oh you're never going to make it with how stressed out you get over everything" when not to sound entitled but before I had to switch schools (I was sexually assaulted I'll get into that in a lil) I was always one of the top students people never knew any of the mental illnesses I was struggling with, I masked all of my struggles and did thousands of clubs and extracurriculars. My parents love to blame everything on me being Sa'd but for once I wish they'd realize how much during the school year they physically drained me. They'd spend hours fighting and while my brother was in his room I'd have to be secretly watching making sure my parents don't get physical with each other. Or whenever my dad was mad at my brother he'd usually try to get physical but every damn time I'd stand in the middle and take the hits, or hold my dad back. And it kinda sucks because I defend my brother in everything, hell I even parent him but his immediate reaction to anything is to always throw me under the bus. I don't think they realize how desperate I am for a normal family life. Seriously every male teacher of mine always turns into a father figure to the point where the only class I feel safe in is theirs. And I just want someone to love me, guys like me yeah but they don't ever like me for me. They like me for my body. Everyone always asks why I hate all the male attention I get when all it is is them staring at my tits or whispering about my waist or my thighs. I just want love, I want someone to hold me as I cry in their arms. Next: For fucks sake I just wish someone would realize how desperate I am for academic validation its the only thing that genuinely gives me a purpose anymore. Now to me having to switch schools and me ranting about shit; I was sexually assaulted from the ages of 10-13 almost every weekend. I realized what sexual assault was like last October. November and December were hell, my grades fell completely and I couldn't even go to school without throwing up since the girl who Sa'd me was in one of my classes. But despite all that shit I transferred schools and ended with a 4.0 Unweighted GPA while also doing many extracurriculars. But still, my parents love to tell me I won't ever make it. My mom constantly says she never puts academic pressure on me when she continually brags about me to all of her friends which I know I have to keep up with her friend's expectations on top of my own families, sends me stuff on how to get into Ivies, or gets mad when my grades even lower just slightly. I ended up developing an eating disorder, and I'm so scared for this year to start. I may have to go to a hospital after school which wouldn't allow me to do any extracurriculars. I'm hoping that doesn't happen. I mean I've had an eating disorder for around 2 years and I've survived with some minor health problems, so it'll be okay right?
A Grad Student here, working even harder than my old self because I keep regretting the wasted potential I had. I've lost my considered "close friends" because I never wanted a life like them, I don't want to settle for "Good enough" or average. Also to the younger ones who are reading, while you are working hard for the future, please take care of yourselves. Your health is important. Its how you can keep going. And also, spend more time with your loved ones.
I used to be a straight A student but after the pandemic things changed completely. But now, I'm pretty sure I can ACE this exam now! (From 18 to 28 September) I'm ready to study and tolerate all the pressure happily :) All the best for whatever you are doing! Stay happy and focused🔥 Wish me luck🍀
I was used to be a high achiever in my middle school and got 95% in finals and now I'm in high school and idk how i became such a lazy person and finds it hard to study and got B++ grade in the first year of high school and I'm disappointed in myself 😔 Now I'm studying to get A+ in the last year of my high school.....
There is a big exam that I am going to have this year. I am an 8th grader and in my country, students have this exam to get into highschool. This is my only opportunity to get into this exam and my goal is really big. I am honestly scared of my goal and sometimes i don't know what to do...
I really am obsessed with pressuring myself and then worrying that I’m not doing my best then my brain tels me mistake, useless and dumb just because I didn’t get the highest score 😔
I never was always smart…I became smart when I went into the 8th grade. To see my younger sister pass with flying colors in grades I couldn’t..hurts. I love that she’s succeeding, but it hurts to see how my younger sister could become smarter than me one day.. I worked day and night for the grades I have, and here she is barely studying and not having to do anything because they made learning easier.
My older sister is really smart and I'm the middle child the "mentally ill child" I have ADHD,PTSD,anxiety depression and im dyslexic. I try so hard in school but I just can't get good at it. I hate it when my stepdad calls me a disappointment,retarded,unless and a failure I try to get good at something and now my little 4 year old sister is really smart and there like wow she is so smart she is so pretty wow. And my stepdad calls me weak and he calls my mom weak behind her back and then when my little sister get hurt he tells her when we get hurt we don't cry were [last name] we don't cry and than he looked at me I haven't cried since last year. I'm numb now I just want something. You know.
@@HiddenName-kr4 yeah,I just sit in my room in the dark trying to cry nothing comes out I like pain now but when ever I do get hurt I always check if it bleeding if it's not who cares if it is OOO pretty slap's a ban aid on it. I honestly don't have alot of emotions ever since my little sister was born don't get me wrong I love her and I'm glad she was born but once she was born her dad aka my step dad got really rude to me first it was fine than he started calling me names like idiot and than he got real suicidal and did about 5 suicide attempts is were it really hit me cause he always blamed every fight on me and every time he tries suicide it's after a fight so me being myself is what made someone want to kill themselves fun. So Im pretty much a robot who tries to do what there told but has a malfunction in it to the point we're it's basically useless.
good luck!! but don't let the academic validation obsession ruin your mental health (coming from someone who has just graduated high school with straight As in everything)
@@mehxrvn yes because as you know the term "obsession" refers to unhealthy love for something, yes i encourage you to work hard and study and try new things etc etc and always aspire to be top of your class but never ever let it define your self worth, getting an 80% isn't the end of the world and it doesn't mean you're not smart anymore :)
hi guys! I just need some advice on how to come back again.I want to give back everything I wasted, but my IQ is gone. I'm breaking down more. I want to try again, but my laziness is coming first. I don't know if I'm going crazy. I'm just imagining it but I can't do it I want to do it but I don't know what's stopping me I cry every time I listen to the academic validations there's something I'm missing so much since I've lost my appetite for learning I've been too influenced by gadgets but I can't do it, I just want to learn and get back my hard work, I've failed because I expected before, but that position was burdened by others, I stocked too much in my past and I don't know what to do, I want to kill myself only myself I love it I love it I'm hurt I want to cry and cry I sometimes hit my head with my hand maybe that's why I'm going crazy I don't know what to do
Do you really care much about academic validation? You say you do but I find it hard to believe. If you really cared so much, "laziness" wouldn't be an excuse. Just start where you can. Find out what makes you happy. I'm sure you will enjoy learning if you just tried to understand it. Hitting yourself isn't going to do anything but make yourself feel dumb. I understand that you might not know where to start but once you start you will find it easier and easier to reach your goal. Believe in yourself.
my best advice? as someone who has been trying to get back into the flow of things; 1 daydream about where you want to be, this will help you get motivated 2 get together a playlist 3 plan out every single step to get to your goal 4 make dates and deadlines 5 just do it any questions?
I also face the same problem right now. I"m scared now since this year is very important to me but my procrastination does not help Idk what"s wrong with me? I hope it doesnt affect my future.
Timestamps:
0:00 - I am not a robot
3:40 - top of my school
5:51 - wavin’ flag
9:35 - my alcoholic friends
12:20 - average
14:14 - Mrs. Potato head
17:50 - she used to be mine
20:13 - the greatest
23:36 - waka waka
26:41 - oh no!
29:40 - little miss perfect
32:54 - elastic heart
36:31 - don’t give up
My first time doing them, glad I could finally be that person :)
I am an 8th grade academic achiever who loves to be a overachiever in anything I do Sports, Hobbies, Academics I have very big ambitions for myself like getting scholarships or getting into Ivies I have a deep fair of being a failure or not good at things it’s awful. Once you get a taste of success and praise it’s like a drug that I keep overdosing on just my grades and Volleyball it’s not healthy as sometimes I wonder if I’m even happy.
it's okay dont worry everything is gonna be just fine
Bro, same as me it's like we have the same life fr
Hey, it's okay, just relax and do your thing, you've got this!!!!!:)
omg same.
I remember 8th grade for me used to be my prime time. I used to be the happiest, the smartest, the best version of me. Waking up early staying up late to study. I was disciplined to work everyday and i enjoyed it.
But things went absolutely down. I had to take a long break. (Due to medical conditions, i was sent to icu) Returned from the break, and saw nothing left. I didnt have the same spark in me, the same motivation i used to have.
I felt like i lost myself.
Two years later, I know my younger self who was in 8th grade would be very much disappointed and upset at me. She would be yelling at me like "get your lazy ass up!! We still have dreams to fulfill." Id smile and say "im not you anymore."
I wish i could bring out my potential again.
Im saying this to you for you to not lose your charm again. Fall in love with this. Learn to fall in love again. Im trying to do it too. ❤
I don't know why but,I always pressure myself....Everytime I get low grades I cry....and it's hard to cry infront of the teacher,specially that I'm a slow learner in math and some subjects...I hate being average,I wanna be like those smart students...I wanna be like them and able to achieve the scores and achievements I want...
You need to put in the effort
@@lj_4ev3ruh.... i dont think you should say that....
What if they are already trying their best???
What if they are not getting what they desire even after doing their best???
@@lj_4ev3r so insensitive of you :///
Its okay girl, We don't have control over everything, And you're not average, you're unique the way you are.
have a great dayyy!! don't pressure your self to much and pray everydayy.
It’s probably because you haven’t found a study method that truly works for you. I recommend trying out different strategies to figure out what study methods works best for you in each subject (it’s all trial and error). Remember to always aim to use active recall strategies (especially in math and science). It’s incredibly possible to achieve your dreams, as long as you’re willing to find what methods work best for you.
Side Note: I also recommend refining your notes so that it’s easy to find information if you ever get stuck doing practice problems. A good way to start is labeling out subjects and writing dates on notes.
Side, side note: Also maybe consider creating an ‘assignment schedule’ that includes readings, assignment due dates, etc. to keep you on track. And ALWAYS set solid goals before each study session (including estimated completed times) to hold yourself accountable.
This playlist is a MUST for my studies!
I used to be a straight A student but after the pandemic things changed completely. But now, I'm pretty sure I can ACE this exam now!
(From 18 to 28 September)
I'm ready to study and tolerate all the pressure happily :)
All the best for whatever you are doing!
Stay happy and focused🔥
Wish me luck🍀
me too , im having exams too (10 - 25 sep) good luck
@@NimahSHashim Thanks! All the best 💗🔥
@Akshiii_Moon how's it going! :3
@@aaron4863 Pretty well! Except social studies 🥺
We have maths this Monday🙄
@@Akshiii_Moon GOOD LUCKK i hope you score well
dropping by and found this playlist, i'm swearing myself that i'll try to crave for academic stability this 3rd year, if anyone can do it then why won't i? anw, i think it's okay to be pressured enough. you just have to know how to deal with it advantageously up to your utmost resources. good luck to everyone here, and to you who read this! fighting for the both of us.
I never know what medals are for when I was in elementary but from daycare to 6th grade I always have a awards (mostly 2 or 1).. 5th and 6th grade I was with honor.. I was removed from being an honor student when I was 7th grade because I was not serious about my studies back then, 8th I got it back, and in my 9th and 10th grade I experienced being the high achiever student, note that I am always in a room full of intelligent people since it was a star section or what you call the STE section. This song is my motivation not because I crave for more grades but because I romanticize studying lately, In my senior year my only enemy is my last year self not my classmates since I realized in my 10th grade that I do not have to compete with them because We all are just a different kids that have a different ways to learn, a bunch of kid that parents sent to school to learn not to get hurt for some grades. Note that if you felt that you are behind the class, don't take it that you failed school, it is because school fails to give you the exact learning to make studying much enjoying for every types of students. Love you all people!! Take care of yourself, life is short make it at least memorable.. enjoy school as much as possible!❤
go girl always!!💙
Medals, achievements and praises were a big thing for me back then. It fuels my motivation that time without realizing it also losing myself. Pandemic happens when I realize that being an overachiever is stressing and tiring me so much. From being an overachiever student, I'm become an average freshman student who just want to pass my subjects. It just that being overachiever and reaching others' expectation really drain and lose myself so much.
fr since pandemic has happened, I'm jus not the way I used to be. I lost all of motivation
This hits hard when you're the almost burnt out top student of your class, president of it, in 3 different clubs +choir and crave academic validation while also being in 7th grade
i'm 24yo, i've drop out of uni twice now, going for my 3rd try at uni currently and everything seems to be going great so far, it's been hard especially after dropping out and feeling like a failure, seeing people from hs graduate years before me and feeling like i'm behind, just a word to people out there specially the young ones, burn out its real, its what lead me here after so many years of being an overachiver, your body and mind have a limit. so please be kind to yourself, i promise it's all gonna be fine
OhHh, it's such a great playlist ! i was surprised to see that it's not as popular as other academic playlists :cCCCcCcC keep going!! you've helped me a lot today !!!!
Fav playlist eveeeerr, all the songs describe me lol
for me, im an 8th grader too and i go to my states best high skl cuz i got in the enterence exam, i was always an over-achiever but in grade 7 i crashed bcu there was this guy... and i got bad grades but now im heartbroken and getting the best grades of my life and doing better than all the people around me. i have big dreams but im scared ill never ahcieve them or find love with those big dreams but i really want love and my big dreams (i wanna be a surgeon but also famous)
I'm an 8th grade student who won a scholarship to be in a private school, since I entered school I've always been a "genius", I learned to read at 4 y/o, while everyone else learned at 5/6. Once you get success for most of your life, you can't stop, it's like a drug. I've always wanted to be first in everything and anything. Right now I'm In school from 7:20 am to 3:10 pm, 15 minutes of breakfast and then half an hour of lunch time; on Mondays I have Mixed Martial arts practice, tuesdays and Wednesdays I go to the gym, thursdays I have a seminar that the scholarship requires, fridays soccer practice and on Saturdays I go to a college-level English course(English Isn't my first language), also required for the scholarship. And you must ask yourself, why would I want this? The truth is I never wanted to, I was always a smart kid, butt I didn't want my intelligence to be overused, thing my parents didn't understand because they're the reason I applied for this scholarship and most of things in my life.
@@WhoIs_Sxfi4 you're amazing. Just believe in yourself.
Hard to believe but I went through the same thing in my 8th-grade year and now I'm a senior. In 8th grade, I was ranked number one because I scored 100% or more in almost all of my classes with only one grade being 99.89%. I then applied to a private school in my area while applying for a scholarship to afford said private school. During that time I was a full-time athlete playing football, volleyball, and jiujitsu. I was going to sleep around 11 or 12 and waking up at 5:30 in the morning. I had no weekends because I was always studying and had no free time to make friends nor maintain the ones I had. I became an extreme overachiever and continued to do so in high school by trying to be on every sports team and participate in every event. I only ended up hurting myself in the end by getting burnt out and losing my senses.
I understand what you mean by it being like a drug. It truly is a drug that you won't want to quit but I advise you not to quit this drug but to manage it. It has taken me 4 years to understand the persistence and determination I had to keep up with being the "smart kid" wasn't bad it was just excessive. I went overboard trying to be the best in everything that every year by the end of finals I ended up in the hospital due to malnutrition or panic attacks finally catching up to me because I refused to be distracted by my health issues before finals ended. By the end of every school year, I end up getting sick, I don't recommend going this overboard.
Of course, I'm not telling you to drop everything but I am advising you to prioritize what YOU want to do and what YOU want to achieve. All the things I did these past few years weren't for me. I did all these things because I wanted to make my family proud. I did so much to maintain the act I have been putting up for years but now I'm done. I'm choosing me, for the first time in life. I am going to take the classes I want because it makes me happy and it's what I WANT to do.
Choose you, every time. I went through this. This is only my experience. Feel free to completely ignore this but I will leave this year for you just in case you need to feel like you are not alone because you aren't. I wish you the best and I'm here for you! :)
@@reactionkidz2897 Thank you so much for the advise. I hope one day I do the same as you, you're not alone either, I'm also here for you :)
I learned to read at 3
I'm so tired of always having to be perfect my life has seriously gone to hell this year and I just can't do it anymore. My parents love to say stuff like "Oh you're never going to make it with how stressed out you get over everything" when not to sound entitled but before I had to switch schools (I was sexually assaulted I'll get into that in a lil) I was always one of the top students people never knew any of the mental illnesses I was struggling with, I masked all of my struggles and did thousands of clubs and extracurriculars. My parents love to blame everything on me being Sa'd but for once I wish they'd realize how much during the school year they physically drained me. They'd spend hours fighting and while my brother was in his room I'd have to be secretly watching making sure my parents don't get physical with each other. Or whenever my dad was mad at my brother he'd usually try to get physical but every damn time I'd stand in the middle and take the hits, or hold my dad back. And it kinda sucks because I defend my brother in everything, hell I even parent him but his immediate reaction to anything is to always throw me under the bus. I don't think they realize how desperate I am for a normal family life. Seriously every male teacher of mine always turns into a father figure to the point where the only class I feel safe in is theirs.
And I just want someone to love me, guys like me yeah but they don't ever like me for me. They like me for my body. Everyone always asks why I hate all the male attention I get when all it is is them staring at my tits or whispering about my waist or my thighs. I just want love, I want someone to hold me as I cry in their arms.
Next: For fucks sake I just wish someone would realize how desperate I am for academic validation its the only thing that genuinely gives me a purpose anymore. Now to me having to switch schools and me ranting about shit; I was sexually assaulted from the ages of 10-13 almost every weekend. I realized what sexual assault was like last October. November and December were hell, my grades fell completely and I couldn't even go to school without throwing up since the girl who Sa'd me was in one of my classes. But despite all that shit I transferred schools and ended with a 4.0 Unweighted GPA while also doing many extracurriculars. But still, my parents love to tell me I won't ever make it. My mom constantly says she never puts academic pressure on me when she continually brags about me to all of her friends which I know I have to keep up with her friend's expectations on top of my own families, sends me stuff on how to get into Ivies, or gets mad when my grades even lower just slightly. I ended up developing an eating disorder, and I'm so scared for this year to start. I may have to go to a hospital after school which wouldn't allow me to do any extracurriculars. I'm hoping that doesn't happen. I mean I've had an eating disorder for around 2 years and I've survived with some minor health problems, so it'll be okay right?
A Grad Student here, working even harder than my old self because I keep regretting the wasted potential I had. I've lost my considered "close friends" because I never wanted a life like them, I don't want to settle for "Good enough" or average.
Also to the younger ones who are reading, while you are working hard for the future, please take care of yourselves. Your health is important. Its how you can keep going. And also, spend more time with your loved ones.
I used to be a straight A student but after the pandemic things changed completely. But now, I'm pretty sure I can ACE this exam now!
(From 18 to 28 September)
I'm ready to study and tolerate all the pressure happily :)
All the best for whatever you are doing!
Stay happy and focused🔥
Wish me luck🍀
@@Akshiii_Moon you got this!!
Idk for some reason this playlist doesnt irrate me like the other playlist does, it boost me up even tho its only a little
Ilovethisss song😢❤
When it comes to academic validation its always Marina❤
I was used to be a high achiever in my middle school and got 95% in finals and now I'm in high school and idk how i became such a lazy person and finds it hard to study and got B++ grade in the first year of high school and I'm disappointed in myself 😔
Now I'm studying to get A+ in the last year of my high school.....
@@HannahKhan013 You can do it. Believe in yourself
@@diabolica0 it means a lot girl🌸
There is a big exam that I am going to have this year. I am an 8th grader and in my country, students have this exam to get into highschool. This is my only opportunity to get into this exam and my goal is really big. I am honestly scared of my goal and sometimes i don't know what to do...
I really am obsessed with pressuring myself and then worrying that I’m not doing my best then my brain tels me mistake, useless and dumb just because I didn’t get the highest score 😔
When you try harder but always get 2/25 so you decide to pressure your self but not enough
I never was always smart…I became smart when I went into the 8th grade. To see my younger sister pass with flying colors in grades I couldn’t..hurts. I love that she’s succeeding, but it hurts to see how my younger sister could become smarter than me one day.. I worked day and night for the grades I have, and here she is barely studying and not having to do anything because they made learning easier.
My older sister is really smart and I'm the middle child the "mentally ill child" I have ADHD,PTSD,anxiety depression and im dyslexic. I try so hard in school but I just can't get good at it. I hate it when my stepdad calls me a disappointment,retarded,unless and a failure I try to get good at something and now my little 4 year old sister is really smart and there like wow she is so smart she is so pretty wow. And my stepdad calls me weak and he calls my mom weak behind her back and then when my little sister get hurt he tells her when we get hurt we don't cry were [last name] we don't cry and than he looked at me I haven't cried since last year. I'm numb now I just want something. You know.
I understand that. I became numb too. I can’t remember the last time I REALLY cried instead of fake crying to see if I can still feel something.
@@HiddenName-kr4 yeah,I just sit in my room in the dark trying to cry nothing comes out I like pain now but when ever I do get hurt I always check if it bleeding if it's not who cares if it is OOO pretty slap's a ban aid on it. I honestly don't have alot of emotions ever since my little sister was born don't get me wrong I love her and I'm glad she was born but once she was born her dad aka my step dad got really rude to me first it was fine than he started calling me names like idiot and than he got real suicidal and did about 5 suicide attempts is were it really hit me cause he always blamed every fight on me and every time he tries suicide it's after a fight so me being myself is what made someone want to kill themselves fun. So Im pretty much a robot who tries to do what there told but has a malfunction in it to the point we're it's basically useless.
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last time i listened to this and i got great score.so this time i planeed to do the same i want to get great mark than my rival and i will do it .
'little miss perfect' is perfect for me because i too have the reputation of being a good quiet girl with good grades and am a closeted lesbian
7th grader, who wanna pass all subjec5, straight A's. ☹️
good luck!! but don't let the academic validation obsession ruin your mental health (coming from someone who has just graduated high school with straight As in everything)
@@whosheather Okay, from now on, I wull keep my limuts on school academic obsession things thank you so much! 😭❤️
@@whosheatheris it really bad to be obsessed with academic validation?
@@mehxrvn yes because as you know the term "obsession" refers to unhealthy love for something, yes i encourage you to work hard and study and try new things etc etc and always aspire to be top of your class but never ever let it define your self worth, getting an 80% isn't the end of the world and it doesn't mean you're not smart anymore :)
hi guys! I just need some advice on how to come back again.I want to give back everything I wasted, but my IQ is gone. I'm breaking down more. I want to try again, but my laziness is coming first. I don't know if I'm going crazy. I'm just imagining it but I can't do it I want to do it but I don't know what's stopping me I cry every time I listen to the academic validations there's something I'm missing so much since I've lost my appetite for learning I've been too influenced by gadgets but I can't do it, I just want to learn and get back my hard work, I've failed because I expected before, but that position was burdened by others, I stocked too much in my past and I don't know what to do, I want to kill myself only myself I love it I love it I'm hurt I want to cry and cry I sometimes hit my head with my hand maybe that's why I'm going crazy I don't know what to do
Do you really care much about academic validation? You say you do but I find it hard to believe. If you really cared so much, "laziness" wouldn't be an excuse. Just start where you can. Find out what makes you happy. I'm sure you will enjoy learning if you just tried to understand it. Hitting yourself isn't going to do anything but make yourself feel dumb. I understand that you might not know where to start but once you start you will find it easier and easier to reach your goal. Believe in yourself.
my best advice? as someone who has been trying to get back into the flow of things;
1 daydream about where you want to be, this will help you get motivated
2 get together a playlist
3 plan out every single step to get to your goal
4 make dates and deadlines
5 just do it
any questions?
I also face the same problem right now. I"m scared now since this year is very important to me but my procrastination does not help Idk what"s wrong with me? I hope it doesnt affect my future.
a 9th grader who wanna top in all of her subjects