Every Last Word by Tamara Ireland Stone / books to understand mental health better
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- Опубліковано 27 чер 2023
- Not on purpose, but life seeps through. My diagnosis is rearing its ugly head, and it's effecting every area. I hope you will watch this video with an open mind. I couldn't be more genuine, and that's scary. Ultimately, I hope you read a book and let it effect your life in a positive way.
Notes: I take off my glasses when I cry. I had Stitch with me for comfort.
“Everyone’s got something. Some people are just better actors than others.”
― Tamara Ireland Stone, Every Last Word
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Every Last Word
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“Fate, destiny…a horse?” Great reference. Comedy is tragedy with good timing 😉
I was so hoping someone would get that!
Love this. You’re really brave for sharing so openly. I have thought about it so many times but just can’t bare not to have the privacy. I always put all my cards on the table and then scramble to pick them back up and hide them again.
This character sounds a lot like my Junior year experience. Junior year was probably the hardest year of my life. I was rejected by my social group in a really public way and really flailed to find my new place. The root of it was me not understanding or caring to follow social norms.
I’m the only one in my family who had obvious and limiting mental issues. There was a lot of “just try harder.” My whole life was an education in masking 24/7. It’s exhausting. And definitively lonely because no one ever really knows you. And when you do open up, they tend to do the, “😳 Woah way too intense” thing you mention.
My family always knew my sister had mild ocd type tendencies, but she had compulsions that gave her relief. I did a research paper on OCD in college and realized I have STRONG obsessive tendencies, but no compulsions to try to relieve the anxiety. I’ve gotten decent control over it, but I was on Prozac for a while, when things were really bad. I’ve struggled with holding thoughts captive. I’d say there’s not a soul in this world I’ve ever been fully able to discuss my inner world with. I don’t think I could ever trust anyone that much or be that vulnerable.
I “laugh” (maybe more laugh to keep from crying) at how NT people want to talk big about being so open and authentic, but when you are, they close you out. When I post things meant to educate, they are very hands off or tell me “everyone does that a little bit.” 😂 The sentiment sounds nice, but I don’t think they get it even a tiny bit, in a lot of cases anyway. I think they’re obviously much more likely though if they’ve had close friends or family there before.
Olivia is so super special. I adore her. It was so easy to open up to her and I only recently found I was able to hang out without apologizing for “being too much.” She’s so incredible. I don’t usually have that comfort with people, ever. I just hang on the peripheral and constantly apologize for being me. In January I wrote a prayer request and pinned it to the cross in the sanctuary. I hadn’t had a friend-friend, a real one, in over 5 years. I really wanted one again and then, “Poof!” God put her at my study table. 😅
I’d love to be my full and relaxed self, but the majority of society doesn’t actually want that. 🫣 I love that you and Olivia are so down to earth, open, and kind. 💙
My oldest has Autism (I was diagnosed ADD, but now think it may actually be mild autism) and he’s kind of Sheldon Cooperesque, for easy reference point. I had a friend mention reading about a “promising potential cure” for Autism and she told me about it and asked if I was so excited for the possibility…
She was stunned that I said I’d never do it, support him if he chose it as an adult, but would be sad. I explained that he’s not suffering from it (as far as I can tell), and he’d be like a whole different person without it. Part of me would be grieving that loss, but also supportive because I know what it’s like to want to fit in. That was such a confusing idea to her. I don’t see why he needs fixing MORE than other people maybe just need educated and experience.
Then my middle kid has dyslexia. He always feels insecure. I was thinking about if we ever even COULD get to establish a colony on another planet… they would probably only take neurotypical people. So ironic how we would unlikely be included. Odd how broken we can seem to them… but centuries ago, someone with dyslexia or “aspergers” would be brilliant and respected, even if regarded as quirky, because they wouldn’t have had labeled disorders or necessarily noticeable lexical deficits. They were many of the scientists and inventors that laid the foundation for technology advancement and space travel… 😂🤷🏻♀️ But we’re weird and broken. It’s frustrating. The social world feels necessary but also like a cage. I struggle to know how or where to plug in.
I need to be better at just being with people. I’m working on it. I tend to be a troubleshooter and fixer. When people are sad I get squirmy and try to fix what’s making them sad. 😢 I definitely feel people’s feelings and I hate feeling sad. It’s scary to me. Like I’m okay with people having a right to feel sad 😄 but I don’t want them to have to feel that pain. I always want to find how to restore their peace to them. I know I really need to be able to be still in sadness and sit in it. I tend to feel deeply and it just really overwhelms me.
P.S. Sorry for ranting. 😬🥴😣
Don't apologize! I'm just waiting until I can get to my PC to give a proper response
@@madelynnstormbolton170 I probably wasn’t near as gracious as I could be 🥴…
I don't know about brave, but I'm not good at hiding anything. Never have been.
Ironically, junior year was also my worst year of high school. I had good friends, but horrible classes and even worse life events. Couldn't pay me to relive it...
I'm sorry you had to be a bit of a guinea pig for familial mental health. I was fortunate that that fell on my older sister. My parents often asked her for advice. I know she struggled, but it made a world of difference. I always had someone to turn to, someone to advise me, and I'm not sure I could have made it through otherwise.
Excuse my ignorance, what are "NT" people?
His hand is so obvious in it all! It's incredible. We all need to hang out. I would so love to get to know you better!
Wow, that is amazing. I don't have kids, but my youngest brother has downs. I can see him struggle with his limitations, but he is so amazing. I love him so much and I am so blessed to have him in my life, exactly as he is.
You should read "The Illustrated Man" if you haven't. I think you'd really enjoy it.
I hope you know that we were all created with different urges, desires, discomforts, for a reason. I am WAY too comfortable with tears. I can dwell in pain and sadness with anyone. Maybe we could learn from each other.
Owwie ow ow, my heart. I love you both. P.S. Hi to my kitty friend Hinata who appropriately came over as Maddie was talking about me and I'm sure that wasn't a coincidence whatsoever. ^_^
"Promosm" 💘