So that baby is Julian, he was not destined to come at that time. He came later, you passed mountains & rivers & oceans to get him, that’s your destiny....🥰
참 힘든시간을 보냈네요 멜.. 줄리안 동윤이가 바다넘고 산넘어서 멜에게 온건가 봐요 멀리 돌아돌아 다시 찾은 당신의 아이일 겁니다 축복합니다. 그리고 본인의 아픈 이야기를 사랑으로 다시 Vlog로 보여준것 정말 감사합니다. 많은 여성들과 가족들에게 큰 힘이 되었을 거예요... 같은 상실을 경험한 분들도 다시 건강한 아기천사들이 찾아올 겁니다. 💕
wow Mel, it seems you were alone for most of your marriage and despite the hardships I am so happy to see the strong, resilient, and wonderful woman that you are! never forget that your social media family loves and adore you and your kiddos 💖
You’re so right and it really is so sad to think about but I think it prepared me for life now! Thank you so much for your encouragement. It means so much for me 🤍
I had a miscarriage 4 weeks ago during my first pregnancy and it still hurts to talk about it but it has been helping also to talk about it. My family and friends have been incredibly supportive. Husband and I are trying again and hope we have a rainbow baby soon! Love watching your videos! This one definitely has been helping me cope for sure.
Thank you for sharing this mel! I’m not even close to having children but I’ve learned so much from this and now have a new understanding for that kind of loss. Sending love and prayers! 💓
I also experienced a miscarriage at week 8 of pregnacy before I eventually had another one, who is an adorable 7 yo boy now. I always believe that the one left earlier was the same soul as my boy. I think he came too early and so he left but came back at the right timing. This helped me a lot whenever I remember the grief I had back then.
Here i am sobbing my heart out remembering my own painful experience. It happened 7 years ago. I was sitting nervously in ER alone when the doctor told me there is no heart beat. I cant tell how many days i cried and there is no one to talk to. It is darkest days of my life. After couple years, i had rainbow baby girl who is now 4 years old, but i still remember that day like yesterday and miss my baby in my heart.
My rainbow baby look alike your Joonie a lot when she was little. That is how i started watching your channel. Love your family , always wish you best🥰
Thank you for sharing. It is definitely not shared enough. I had 3 miscarriages after having my daughter. She is now 16 years old and the center of my world, but I always think about the 3 that I lost. How life would have been different, who would they have become?? Thank you again for your story.
in tears. I have SO much love and respect for you Mel!! I'm literally 21 but you inspire me so much to become a more mature, stronger and loving woman!
Thank you for sharing 💙 I miscarried in a foreign country on q mission trip alone... my heart is still broken. Now I have my sweet 1 year old rainbow baby and just found our today that I'm expecting numbed 2. When I first miscarried I felt more alone than ever, until I found others who knew my pain. I found a support system.
Pase por lo mismo 2 años antes que tu, sentí que se desmoronaba mi vida. El dolor más grande que he vivido. Hoy tengo unos gemelos de 10 años pero ese vacío no se llena. Bendiciones
I have never been through this but my mom lost 2 of my sister's. One was a still born 8 months and one was 6 months. My mom is still very affected by it when she hears of people going through it as well. She told me many times there's nothing worse than going into the hospital pregnant and thinking you could go deliver the baby (like with the still born) and leave the hospital with no baby. So I feel for people who have gone through it as well. I know many more people who have had miscarriages too, it's quite common but doesn't make it any less heart breaking. Praying for everyone going through these situations❤
Thank you for sharing your story! I lost twin boys (stillbirth) and even though it’s been years, I can still remember that moment as if it was yesterday too (just like you mentioned). God bless you and your family!
Oh my gosh. Stillbirth is honestly just too much for me to even begin to imagine. That sounds excruciating and I don’t know how you have done it. But so proud of what an amazing mama you are. X🤍
My mother miscarried a little boy (stillbirth), her first child. I was born just one day shy of a full year later. I have felt my big brother watching over me my whole life. In the darkest of times, he has sent signs to both my mother and to me, usually on his birthday. If he hadn't died, I never would have existed. I am thankful for him and for my life every day.
You’re so strong Mel! ❤️ Also, on another note, could you please make a video about your different hair-dos and how to do them? I love how you have your hair in this video.
I love you Mel, thank you bringing community to the hardships in such a beautiful way. I haven't started a family yet, I didn't know these statistics or the surgery you went through. I feel the loss you went through losing a family member. Thanks for bringing awareness so bravely and beautifully!
People like you that are speaking up about this really do make a difference. I’m not planning on having kids any time soon but knowing that a miscarriage is sadly common, if it does happen to me, I know it will be devastating but at least I’m aware of the possibility.
I cry when you cry. Thank you for sharing a part of your life.❣️ My mother had 3 miscarriages as well. One before my older sister, and two before me. I'm happy to have my giant yet a baby- brother without any complications, he's my world. A spoiled brat, but still a treasure to me. It may sound weird, but I always prayed and thought that those 3 babies re-born to a better family.
Mel, you are an awesome mom and don’t worry about anything! i’m always praying for you and your family 💜 God is so great to have given you Luca and Julian 🙏 They are so precious!! 🥺🥰😍
I have 4 angel babies watching over my 3 rainbow babies. This was a long time ago, My youngest is 23 but it still hurts like it was yesterday. One of my babies died in utero and I almost lost my life going thru delivery. I had no support back then. It was not a subject anyone talked about. My heart breaks for all the mamas who have gone or are going thru this. ❤️❤️❤️
A mother never forgets the child in her womb. No mater the stage in life it is a painful loss. You have an 11 year old watching over you. A beautiful soul to hug in heaven.
Mel, I just adore you!! I have walked the journey... Loss AND infertility.. What I see now is the difference in support. When I went through the losses, it was taboo to talk About miscarriage. Thwre was a stigma shamefulness. There were "no rights" for grieving. It wasnt born so your loss wasnt really a big deal. That was the mentality of so many. So we suffered in silence. Then to walk the road of infertility was shameful, embarrassing, much like the scarlet letter that I was forced to wear. And of course EVERYONE around me was having babies so the club of "LIFE" was a place I had NO membership to. Now, to be honest Im amazed at the openness there is to talk about both of these things.. Im SO proud of each of you on this journey for your love and support for one another. Know there is NOTHING wrong with you.. Your feelings are as important and valid as anyone else. You HAVE THE RIGHT to grieve!! Its so important. Because these things werent talked about when I went through them, ( in the 90s) I have a chuck of my life that was spent being shameful. Ashamed and failure and hiding describes what should have been the best days of my life. I hid myself away.. People shunned and shyed away bc I didnt fit in w their place in life, had they just included me in their journey, it would have healed the edges . If you are on this Journey, PLEASE know youre not alone, if this jas been your path, your loss, pain, story STILL MATTERS... your story and journey did and does matter and have as much importance to life as anyone else. We didnt ask for this path, but somehow we ended up here. The loss and what ifs are as real and deep for those who walked this road 20 yrs ago or 20 days ago or are in the middle of it now. You matter. Your journey matters. You pain matters. Its real. I am praying for you all.. **Btw** .. I am now the Mommy to a 10, 3 and 1 yo. 2 boys and a girl.. God grew my family differently but they are MY children. Ive had each from the second they were born.. And they are MINE! I carried them in my body, just my heart instead of uterus.. I carried them for YEARS not 9 months.. I went through labor for years, and delivery was long a brutal and took MANY months to deliver .. My babies were very preemie (half bio siblings) so all the weird movements Mommys FEEL when pregnant I got to SEE. All those weird balls, jerks, strange stretches they only feel I got to SEE ... God didnt leave me out! He just gave differently!! Im forever grateful. Never lose hope or faith. However your journey unfolds, you have a purpose and God has a plan. Love to you ALL be blessed my precious friends.
Wow! I am so encouraged by your words and I hope others can be too. Thank you for sharing your story and you are SO right. It’s devastating to think that you had to go through it ashamed and alone but so glad that it’s so much more openly talked about now. Support is incredible to have in a time like that. Thankful for you! Sending you so much love. 🤍
Big gentle hugs Mel. It doesn't matter if it was last week or 20 years ago. The pain never ever leaves you. You will always remember the baby. People avoid you. No one knows what to say to you not even the professionals. Unless you have lived it no one knows your pain. Sending you my love from Liverpool 🇬🇧 🏴 😘
I had a miscarriage back in June, just 1 day after Father's day. It was so devastating. Like you mentioned, the world moved on so I didn't grieve for long. I have a 9 month old and he needed me to care for him. One thing that did help me was being able to share my experience with my closest friends and having their support.
@@melgutierrez thank you! My son is my main reason for being able to make it through. He is a preemie baby and watching him defeat his odds really made me a stronger person. Along with his Dad and support from my friends and family.
Thank you for sharing Mel. You are a very strong mom. I also had the same experience. I lost mine at Christmas day and it was the worst feeling ever. I couldn't celebrate Christmas for years. It always bring me back to that horrible day the doctor told me there was no heartbeat. I was scarred until last December, I had my baby boy. He was the best thing that ever happened to me. Keep pushing momma! You got this! ❤️
Mi querida Mel que bella persona eres🌹 gracias por transmitir tu vivencia con nosotros😘 gracias a Dios por darte la sabiduría y fortaleza para afrontar tan triste momento🙏 gracias también por ser mi amiga, te queremos💕
I've had 3 miscarriages, 1 happened recently in last july, 1 day before my birthday.. its hard for me to think about it, a lot of trauma, a lot of fear to move forward.. Hope someday I can have a cute little angel like luca and julian...
I am so sorry. I cannot imagine multiple losses and the trauma you’ve endured. You WILL have your sweet baby in your arms soon. You’re already an amazing mama. Sending you lots of love 😍
Thanks for sharing. I had 4 miscarriages and it never gets easier. I had tears when you described how it felt like. Right, I felt so empty in my body and mind and there was no one to share. I felt so sad and miserable. When I think about it I still feel the pain but God is faithful! He restored me with His strength and comfort and I have two children who I wouldn’t change with anything in the world. I am very thankful. Again thanks so much for sharing Mel! I feel very much comforted by someone exactly knows how it feels like. You are an angel from God! Blessings and Love, JH
So thankful for what an amazing and comforting God we serve. Thank you for sharing that with me. Glad you made it through and have two beautiful children. You’re an incredible woman and mama! Sending you so much love.
The first time i got pregnant i had miscarriage .. and i have a hard time accepting it and got depressed after hard to moved on .. because I can’t understand why these happened because when i found out i am pregnant i stop working I did bed rest a lot.. and i was not bleeding and then one day i have doctor appointment and then ob says there’s no heart beat anymore 🥺🥺 im 8 weeks that time🥺 and they need to do raspa surgery to get the dead fetus🥺 that was my greatest heartbreak 💔 in my wholelife After a year i got to see life is beautiful and everything has reasons why it happened:) a year after 2018 me and my husband try to conceive again @2019 i got pregnant again.. and it was healthy successful pregnancy 😇 got pregnant after 9 months and now i have two beautiful kids☺️
I had a miscarriage in 2015 just before mothers day. I went in for a check up at 11 weeks and they couldn't find a heartbeat. my husband was at home with our sick 18 month old and I had gone alone thinking it was just a routine check up. I refused the D&C, I was so in shock I couldn't even fathom letting them do that. it took about a week for my body to realize what my head already knew. it was 12 hours of pain and horror, feeling as bad physically as I did mentally. when it was all over I had to walk back into the same office to get a shot and it was like my heart broke all over again..... My daughter is my rainbow baby. we found out I was pregnant with her just 6 months after my miscarriage.
I'm really thank you for sharing this story😭Although it will be really hard to say, i want to give you big hug🥺Cheer up mel!!You are the strongest mother✨Thank you again.
i also lost my healthy beautiful baby boy to preterm labour at almost 22weeks pregnant with no known reasons. not even a day goes by when i don't miss my baby. i still cry everyday but i give myself hope that one day i"ll be brining my rainbow baby home i'm hopeful that day will come i've a faith in God Ameen.
Sorry you had to go through that Mel 😔 I hope time will heal all broken hearts 🙏🏽 My mom, grandma, several cousins and friends all had miscarriages. It’s crazy as to how common it is. Sometimes you have early miscarriages and you don’t even know it. A way that helps me mentally prepare and be strong about it is, i think to myself that it would be a miracle to actually deliver a baby...so that I won’t expect too much of it...and there are so many ways to actually have a baby; IVF, surrogacy, foster care, adoption etc. so we gotta be strong and think that these things are very very common and we need to be hopeful, and try not to think that it’s the end of the world even though it may feel like it is🙏🏽 This is me “trying” to be strong 🤷🏽♀️
I miscarried in 2019, & had my rainbow baby in 2020. It was a horrible feeling, but I always remember my lil one & find myself thinking of who that little one could have been
You are a true warrior I admire you very much You may have lived an experience that you would not wish on anyone, but life gave you 2 beautiful children, you gave the opportunity You may have lived an experience that you would not wish on anyone, but life gave you 2 precious children, you gave the opportunity to give a family to such a sweet child, life rewards you everything that happens❤️
So sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing this. I'm sure you helped some women that are either going through this or have gone through it. I hope those women and their husbands talk to someone about it.
Sending love Mel ♥️ Joshua 1:9 Haven’t I commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Don’t be afraid. Don’t be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go. Stay strong
When I lost my first baby at 34 years old, on Father's Day 1992 and got pregnant with my rainbow baby November 1993 ,he was born in August 1994.I was totally alone without any support as I was in another state
Valoro muchísimo tu fortaleza y la educación que les das a tus niños tan lindos, además les enseñan el español. Dios los bendiga y a tus papás también, son una linda familia y tu casa está hermosa!! Tengo una hija como tu y necesita animarse y amarse para salir adelante. Los queremos mucho 💕
I miscarried a baby that was conceived after a year of TTC. I was 17 weeks along and had to be induced. I remember coming home and feeling so empty where that baby was. That is a very real feeling.
Mel I also had a miscarriage before my rainbow babies. People think that because its so early on and your not showing or feeling the baby move yet that it’s not as devastating but there is still a connection w/mom and the grief is real.
Hi Mel! I had the same experience way back December 2019.. I lost mine when he/she was 8 weeks. They didn't find a heart beat. That baby should be my third.. I guess they are just too good for this world. I was just thinking Heaven gained another angel.
Thank you very much Mel, for sharing your experience with us. My mom had a miscarriage before me and my older brother were born. You have reminded me how I should show support for my mom even though it's been a very long time for her. I remember she would tell us "It is okay. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe if I didn't have that miscarriage, then you wouldn't be here today. (Because my mom just wanted 1 son and 1 daughter) And I am so glad I have you." 😭❤️
In the end that baby is never gone, i often think of what it would have been , at the time it happened i felt if nature tells me its not o.k. i better listen witch i did that little human was loved, that bond is forever . Be safe and Happy you all
When I was 21 I got oregnant for the very first time. But at 10 or 11 weeks I lost the baby. November 13, 2018 was the day of the miscarriage. It mentally was painful as hell. But in December 2020, I had my rainbow baby, a daughter. Her name is Jade. Now I am pregnant at 25 weeks with my 2nd baby.
Thank you for talking about this topic, right now I feel so lonely and lost. I lost my baby recently and my story is just like yours....I don't know how to keep on😭
I lost my last one. When I knew I was pregnant, I experienced my highest high, then when I lost my precious baby, I hit my lowest low. I couldn't be more sad. I had a time of mourning, however, I know God is fully in control and He formed the baby, now He took the baby, I just realized that He allowed me to rejoice the life of the baby. I don't know how my baby looks like, but He knows because He is the one who formed and gave the life. I still miss my baby sosososo so much and I have a hope to see my baby one day in heaven. :)
You're so brave before that happens!! God has a perfect plan for you! We don't know why ii happens, but we know that the Lord was and wiil be with you all the time!! I sent you a big hug and I feel sorry for your loss! No matter howv long time it takes!! The pain is present !! Love you so much!!🥰🥰🥰
It’s a horrible empty feeling, my second miscarriage was a girl and I still have that emptiness inside me I know that someday I will hold her in my arms. Gods promises are true
I’ve had 1 miscarriage back in March of 2020. And it hurt so much. I was going through it alone since the person I was with was mentally and emotionally abusive. I still cry til this day but, doing better because I left the situation. To anyone whose gone through it I’m so sorry.
I’m so sorry this happened to you. I have had two miscarriages one in may 2018 and one in august 2020. We also found out we were pregnant Christmas of 2019 but unfortunately January 5th we found out it was an ectopic pregnancy and had to have my right Fallopian tube removed. We started are ivf journey 10 weeks ago and low and behold we conceived naturally only to find out it was another ectopic pregnancy so three weeks ago I had to have my left Fallopian tube removed. It’s devastating losing four babies but we now also have to deal with the heart break knowing I will never conceive naturally. I think the hardest part is knowing so many women struggle with this and it is all they have ever wanted. I’m glad you now have two beautiful boys although I know it will never fill the hurt of not knowing your perfect angel it helps you appreciate them so much more. Hold them tight hug them and love them because they are your biggest achievement and miracle in life. Sending all of my love from England xx
He tenido 2 pérdidas y a mis 35 años no se si podré tener hijos algún día. Siento mucho lo que te pasó. La gente debería ser más comprensiva. Gracias por hablar de estos temas. Te admiro mucho éres una persona muy valiente.
I went to my gender ultrasound at 19wks 4days pregnant 12-7-19 and I found out it was a girl and I was in active labor with no pain I went into labor. But I will never forget when she died inside of me . I had a silent stillborn baby. I keep her in the room for 12 hrs and now she is home with us in an urn. On 5-27-21 few days after our wedding anniversary in Cabos I knew something was wrong and I went ER and I had a chemical pregancy miscarriage of 5 weeks 2 days . I have 5 yr old daughter super healthy pregnancy but I dont know why I can’t get pregnant . We both gave done several testing and all we get is on God hands.
I’ve had 2 ectopic pregnancies. 2017 and February this year. Because of this, I can’t conceive naturally. I’m 30 and have no kids. Some days are hard, but I push through
I had a miscarriage as well at 10 weeks. I can totally relate with the depression. I remember for around 2 months, i stayed away from anything baby n baby stuff. And i still remember for my 2nd pregnancy..i got so nervous, anxious and depressed..so afraid of obgyn visits, i didn't even take a maternity picture/any documentation throughout the pregnancy.. I would always wonder about that one if..
I had the bleeding and I went to ER, I was admitted. Later that evening I got up to go to the bathroom. Luckily they had pan in the toilet to catch anything.The baby just fell right out of me.and I think it was the next day that I had a D&C.
Aún no termino el vídeo y ya estoy 😭 te comprendo perfectamente que aunque pasen los años lo recuerdas y sigue doliendo yo pasé hace 6 años justo en este mes por un embarazo ectopico ( alojado en una de mis trompas) por lo que tuvieron que interrumpir el embarazo
sweet Mel l hope you hearth heals, you were so young when that happended, I have never wanted kids so my worst nightmares are about getting "accidentally" pregnant but really wanting a baby and losing it must be the worst!! I send u my best wishes for u and Luca and Joonie
I love the way you express your feelings every time and I’m sorry about what you gonna through you’re the strongest human being and example of good mom.❤️
It has been 12 year's since I had a miscarriage. I felt empty, heavy and like I was in the darkness loneliest black hole. Has anyone felt that way after a miscarriage? Feels like yesterday. I sympathize to everyone who has lost a child. Prayers to everyone 🙏
So that baby is Julian, he was not destined to come at that time. He came later, you passed mountains & rivers & oceans to get him, that’s your destiny....🥰
참 힘든시간을 보냈네요 멜.. 줄리안 동윤이가 바다넘고 산넘어서 멜에게 온건가 봐요 멀리 돌아돌아 다시 찾은 당신의 아이일 겁니다 축복합니다. 그리고 본인의 아픈 이야기를 사랑으로 다시 Vlog로 보여준것 정말 감사합니다. 많은 여성들과 가족들에게 큰 힘이 되었을 거예요... 같은 상실을 경험한 분들도 다시 건강한 아기천사들이 찾아올 겁니다. 💕
I've had 2 miscarriages..its a horrible feeling but I know that one day I will meet my 2 little Angel's..🙏
One day!!🤍
Psalm 34:18, “The Lord is near to the broken-hearted and saves the crushed in spirit.”
Beautiful scripture. Isnt God just precious?!
Amen!!!
Amen!🤍
wow Mel, it seems you were alone for most of your marriage and despite the hardships I am so happy to see the strong, resilient, and wonderful woman that you are! never forget that your social media family loves and adore you and your kiddos 💖
You’re so right and it really is so sad to think about but I think it prepared me for life now! Thank you so much for your encouragement. It means so much for me 🤍
I had a miscarriage 4 weeks ago during my first pregnancy and it still hurts to talk about it but it has been helping also to talk about it. My family and friends have been incredibly supportive. Husband and I are trying again and hope we have a rainbow baby soon! Love watching your videos! This one definitely has been helping me cope for sure.
I hope you will have a rainbow baby. May God bless you and your family.
Thank you for sharing this mel! I’m not even close to having children but I’ve learned so much from this and now have a new understanding for that kind of loss. Sending love and prayers! 💓
저는 몰랐는데 유산이 꽤나 흔한...경험이더군요.. ㅠ아이를 잃는 그 느낌은 전 절대 알 수 없겠죠 얼마나 고통스러울까요.
I also experienced a miscarriage at week 8 of pregnacy before I eventually had another one, who is an adorable 7 yo boy now. I always believe that the one left earlier was the same soul as my boy. I think he came too early and so he left but came back at the right timing. This helped me a lot whenever I remember the grief I had back then.
That’s such a sweet thought! 🤍🤍
Here i am sobbing my heart out remembering my own painful experience. It happened 7 years ago. I was sitting nervously in ER alone when the doctor told me there is no heart beat. I cant tell how many days i cried and there is no one to talk to. It is darkest days of my life. After couple years, i had rainbow baby girl who is now 4 years old, but i still remember that day like yesterday and miss my baby in my heart.
Ugh my heart sinks just reading this. It is excruciating pain. So thankful for your rainbow baby, but I know how difficult that must’ve been 🤍
My rainbow baby look alike your Joonie a lot when she was little. That is how i started watching your channel. Love your family , always wish you best🥰
Thank you for sharing. It is definitely not shared enough. I had 3 miscarriages after having my daughter. She is now 16 years old and the center of my world, but I always think about the 3 that I lost. How life would have been different, who would they have become?? Thank you again for your story.
You're such a great and strong mama to Luca and Julian. God bless your little family, Mel. ❤️
in tears. I have SO much love and respect for you Mel!! I'm literally 21 but you inspire me so much to become a more mature, stronger and loving woman!
Mel, you still have a lot to do to help others with your strength and faith !!!
Thank you for sharing 💙 I miscarried in a foreign country on q mission trip alone... my heart is still broken. Now I have my sweet 1 year old rainbow baby and just found our today that I'm expecting numbed 2.
When I first miscarried I felt more alone than ever, until I found others who knew my pain. I found a support system.
알아듣고 싶다...격하게 알아듣고 싶다...
나두,,,
저두요ㅠ
ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 저두요
저두요....
21살때 임신했었는데 임신 10주때 자다 일어나보니 출혈이 있었고 응급실 가서 초음파 찍어보니 유산이었대요..
Pase por lo mismo 2 años antes que tu, sentí que se desmoronaba mi vida. El dolor más grande que he vivido. Hoy tengo unos gemelos de 10 años pero ese vacío no se llena. Bendiciones
I have never been through this but my mom lost 2 of my sister's. One was a still born 8 months and one was 6 months. My mom is still very affected by it when she hears of people going through it as well. She told me many times there's nothing worse than going into the hospital pregnant and thinking you could go deliver the baby (like with the still born) and leave the hospital with no baby. So I feel for people who have gone through it as well. I know many more people who have had miscarriages too, it's quite common but doesn't make it any less heart breaking. Praying for everyone going through these situations❤
Wow, that’s a strong mama. Can’t imagine that pain times two. Thank you for sharing that with me.
We love you Mel! You're a strong mom and the best mom 🥰
Love YOU!
Thank you for sharing your story! I lost twin boys (stillbirth) and even though it’s been years, I can still remember that moment as if it was yesterday too (just like you mentioned). God bless you and your family!
Oh my gosh. Stillbirth is honestly just too much for me to even begin to imagine. That sounds excruciating and I don’t know how you have done it. But so proud of what an amazing mama you are. X🤍
@@melgutierrez honesty, my faith, my family and lots of time helped! It was the hardest and worst thing I’ve ever been through. Thank you!
My mother miscarried a little boy (stillbirth), her first child. I was born just one day shy of a full year later. I have felt my big brother watching over me my whole life. In the darkest of times, he has sent signs to both my mother and to me, usually on his birthday. If he hadn't died, I never would have existed. I am thankful for him and for my life every day.
You’re so strong Mel! ❤️
Also, on another note, could you please make a video about your different hair-dos and how to do them? I love how you have your hair in this video.
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thank you for sharing Mel, we love you , you are really strong and the best mum to Luca and Julian xx
I love you Mel, thank you bringing community to the hardships in such a beautiful way. I haven't started a family yet, I didn't know these statistics or the surgery you went through. I feel the loss you went through losing a family member. Thanks for bringing awareness so bravely and beautifully!
People like you that are speaking up about this really do make a difference. I’m not planning on having kids any time soon but knowing that a miscarriage is sadly common, if it does happen to me, I know it will be devastating but at least I’m aware of the possibility.
I cry when you cry. Thank you for sharing a part of your life.❣️
My mother had 3 miscarriages as well. One before my older sister, and two before me. I'm happy to have my giant yet a baby- brother without any complications, he's my world. A spoiled brat, but still a treasure to me.
It may sound weird, but I always prayed and thought that those 3 babies re-born to a better family.
Mel, you are an awesome mom and don’t worry about anything! i’m always praying for you and your family 💜 God is so great to have given you Luca and Julian 🙏 They are so precious!! 🥺🥰😍
Sorry to hear that..but I feel that made you to be wonderful mom ever!! send you love from Korea❤️
I have 4 angel babies watching over my 3 rainbow babies. This was a long time ago, My youngest is 23 but it still hurts like it was yesterday. One of my babies died in utero and I almost lost my life going thru delivery. I had no support back then. It was not a subject anyone talked about. My heart breaks for all the mamas who have gone or are going thru this. ❤️❤️❤️
A mother never forgets the child in her womb. No mater the stage in life it is a painful loss. You have an 11 year old watching over you. A beautiful soul to hug in heaven.
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Mel, I just adore you!!
I have walked the journey... Loss AND infertility.. What I see now is the difference in support. When I went through the losses, it was taboo to talk About miscarriage. Thwre was a stigma shamefulness. There were "no rights" for grieving. It wasnt born so your loss wasnt really a big deal. That was the mentality of so many. So we suffered in silence. Then to walk the road of infertility was shameful, embarrassing, much like the scarlet letter that I was forced to wear. And of course EVERYONE around me was having babies so the club of "LIFE" was a place I had NO membership to.
Now, to be honest Im amazed at the openness there is to talk about both of these things.. Im SO proud of each of you on this journey for your love and support for one another. Know there is NOTHING wrong with you.. Your feelings are as important and valid as anyone else. You HAVE THE RIGHT to grieve!! Its so important. Because these things werent talked about when I went through them, ( in the 90s) I have a chuck of my life that was spent being shameful. Ashamed and failure and hiding describes what should have been the best days of my life. I hid myself away.. People shunned and shyed away bc I didnt fit in w their place in life, had they just included me in their journey, it would have healed the edges . If you are on this Journey, PLEASE know youre not alone, if this jas been your path, your loss, pain, story STILL MATTERS... your story and journey did and does matter and have as much importance to life as anyone else. We didnt ask for this path, but somehow we ended up here. The loss and what ifs are as real and deep for those who walked this road 20 yrs ago or 20 days ago or are in the middle of it now. You matter. Your journey matters. You pain matters. Its real.
I am praying for you all..
**Btw** .. I am now the Mommy to a 10, 3 and 1 yo. 2 boys and a girl.. God grew my family differently but they are MY children. Ive had each from the second they were born.. And they are MINE! I carried them in my body, just my heart instead of uterus.. I carried them for YEARS not 9 months.. I went through labor for years, and delivery was long a brutal and took MANY months to deliver .. My babies were very preemie (half bio siblings) so all the weird movements Mommys FEEL when pregnant I got to SEE. All those weird balls, jerks, strange stretches they only feel I got to SEE ... God didnt leave me out! He just gave differently!! Im forever grateful.
Never lose hope or faith. However your journey unfolds, you have a purpose and God has a plan. Love to you ALL be blessed my precious friends.
Thanks for your encouraging words to my daughter ! Blessings❤️
Wow! I am so encouraged by your words and I hope others can be too. Thank you for sharing your story and you are SO right. It’s devastating to think that you had to go through it ashamed and alone but so glad that it’s so much more openly talked about now. Support is incredible to have in a time like that. Thankful for you! Sending you so much love. 🤍
Big gentle hugs Mel. It doesn't matter if it was last week or 20 years ago. The pain never ever leaves you. You will always remember the baby. People avoid you. No one knows what to say to you not even the professionals. Unless you have lived it no one knows your pain. Sending you my love from Liverpool 🇬🇧 🏴 😘
I had a miscarriage back in June, just 1 day after Father's day. It was so devastating. Like you mentioned, the world moved on so I didn't grieve for long. I have a 9 month old and he needed me to care for him. One thing that did help me was being able to share my experience with my closest friends and having their support.
I am so sorry for your loss. Wow. You are a strong mama to keep pushing for your baby at home. Thankful you’re doing okay. 🤍 sending you love!
@@melgutierrez thank you! My son is my main reason for being able to make it through. He is a preemie baby and watching him defeat his odds really made me a stronger person. Along with his Dad and support from my friends and family.
Thank you for sharing Mel. You are a very strong mom. I also had the same experience. I lost mine at Christmas day and it was the worst feeling ever. I couldn't celebrate Christmas for years. It always bring me back to that horrible day the doctor told me there was no heartbeat. I was scarred until last December, I had my baby boy. He was the best thing that ever happened to me. Keep pushing momma! You got this! ❤️
Mi querida Mel que bella persona eres🌹 gracias por transmitir tu vivencia con nosotros😘 gracias a Dios por darte la sabiduría y fortaleza para afrontar tan triste momento🙏 gracias también por ser mi amiga, te queremos💕
Muchas gracias a ti por tu apoyo y tus palabras tan lindas! 🤍
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Thank you for sharing your story and being raw and real as always. Sending you so much love Mel.
I've had 3 miscarriages, 1 happened recently in last july, 1 day before my birthday.. its hard for me to think about it, a lot of trauma, a lot of fear to move forward.. Hope someday I can have a cute little angel like luca and julian...
I am praying for you!! Your time is closer than you know. Be blessed my friend. Sending you hugs.
당신은 건강하게 다시 아기천사와 만날것입니다 😊💕
I am so sorry. I cannot imagine multiple losses and the trauma you’ve endured. You WILL have your sweet baby in your arms soon. You’re already an amazing mama. Sending you lots of love 😍
@@stephaniegamble3571 thank you 😊😊
@@hoouna7289 감사합니다
Thank you for your courage to give courage to others 👍👍 bless you, Mel..
Thanks for sharing. I had 4 miscarriages and it never gets easier. I had tears when you described how it felt like. Right, I felt so empty in my body and mind and there was no one to share. I felt so sad and miserable. When I think about it I still feel the pain but God is faithful! He restored me with His strength and comfort and I have two children who I wouldn’t change with anything in the world. I am very thankful. Again thanks so much for sharing Mel! I feel very much comforted by someone exactly knows how it feels like. You are an angel from God! Blessings and Love, JH
Simply.. Sending you a hug!
So thankful for what an amazing and comforting God we serve. Thank you for sharing that with me. Glad you made it through and have two beautiful children. You’re an incredible woman and mama! Sending you so much love.
Thank you so much Mel and Stephanie! I feel I’m heard and understood 🥺😭❤️
You girls are awesome ✨💕
I love you and God bless you!🥰
The first time i got pregnant i had miscarriage .. and i have a hard time accepting it and got depressed after hard to moved on .. because I can’t understand why these happened because when i found out i am pregnant i stop working I did bed rest a lot.. and i was not bleeding and then one day i have doctor appointment and then ob says there’s no heart beat anymore 🥺🥺 im 8 weeks that time🥺 and they need to do raspa surgery to get the dead fetus🥺 that was my greatest heartbreak 💔 in my wholelife
After a year i got to see life is beautiful and everything has reasons why it happened:) a year after 2018 me and my husband try to conceive again @2019 i got pregnant again.. and it was healthy successful pregnancy 😇 got pregnant after 9 months and now i have two beautiful kids☺️
I had a miscarriage in 2015 just before mothers day. I went in for a check up at 11 weeks and they couldn't find a heartbeat. my husband was at home with our sick 18 month old and I had gone alone thinking it was just a routine check up. I refused the D&C, I was so in shock I couldn't even fathom letting them do that. it took about a week for my body to realize what my head already knew. it was 12 hours of pain and horror, feeling as bad physically as I did mentally. when it was all over I had to walk back into the same office to get a shot and it was like my heart broke all over again..... My daughter is my rainbow baby. we found out I was pregnant with her just 6 months after my miscarriage.
I'm really thank you for sharing this story😭Although it will be really hard to say, i want to give you big hug🥺Cheer up mel!!You are the strongest mother✨Thank you again.
i also lost my healthy beautiful baby boy to preterm labour at almost 22weeks pregnant with no known reasons. not even a day goes by when i don't miss my baby. i still cry everyday but i give myself hope that one day i"ll be brining my rainbow baby home i'm hopeful that day will come i've a faith in God Ameen.
당신은 다시 아기천사를 만날 겁니다 당신과 당신의 가정을 축복합니다 🌼
I’m so sorry to hear that, but that day WILL come mama. Don’t lose hope! 🤍🤍
@@melgutierrez thank you so much for your kind word's. you're such a strong woman and a great mom. i love watching your vlogs❤
Sorry you had to go through that Mel 😔 I hope time will heal all broken hearts 🙏🏽
My mom, grandma, several cousins and friends all had miscarriages. It’s crazy as to how common it is. Sometimes you have early miscarriages and you don’t even know it. A way that helps me mentally prepare and be strong about it is, i think to myself that it would be a miracle to actually deliver a baby...so that I won’t expect too much of it...and there are so many ways to actually have a baby; IVF, surrogacy, foster care, adoption etc. so we gotta be strong and think that these things are very very common and we need to be hopeful, and try not to think that it’s the end of the world even though it may feel like it is🙏🏽
This is me “trying” to be strong 🤷🏽♀️
I miscarried in 2019, & had my rainbow baby in 2020. It was a horrible feeling, but I always remember my lil one & find myself thinking of who that little one could have been
It’s a pain like no other. Thankful you have a rainbow baby! 🤍
You are a true warrior I admire you very much
You may have lived an experience that you would not wish on anyone, but life gave you 2 beautiful children, you gave the opportunity You may have lived an experience that you would not wish on anyone, but life gave you 2 precious children, you gave the opportunity to give a family to such a sweet child, life rewards you everything that happens❤️
So sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing this. I'm sure you helped some women that are either going through this or have gone through it. I hope those women and their husbands talk to someone about it.
Sending love Mel ♥️
Joshua 1:9
Haven’t I commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Don’t be afraid. Don’t be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.
Stay strong
When I lost my first baby at 34 years old, on Father's Day 1992 and got pregnant with my rainbow baby November 1993 ,he was born in August 1994.I was totally alone without any support as I was in another state
Valoro muchísimo tu fortaleza y la educación que les das a tus niños tan lindos, además les enseñan el español. Dios los bendiga y a tus papás también, son una linda familia y tu casa está hermosa!! Tengo una hija como tu y necesita animarse y amarse para salir adelante. Los queremos mucho 💕
I miscarried a baby that was conceived after a year of TTC. I was 17 weeks along and had to be induced. I remember coming home and feeling so empty where that baby was. That is a very real feeling.
You are such a strong woman Mel I can imagine how hard it is to share your story I love watching your videos your boys are so sweet
Mel I also had a miscarriage before my rainbow babies. People think that because its so early on and your not showing or feeling the baby move yet that it’s not as devastating but there is still a connection w/mom and the grief is real.
Hi Mel! I had the same experience way back December 2019.. I lost mine when he/she was 8 weeks. They didn't find a heart beat. That baby should be my third.. I guess they are just too good for this world. I was just thinking Heaven gained another angel.
Thank you very much Mel, for sharing your experience with us. My mom had a miscarriage before me and my older brother were born. You have reminded me how I should show support for my mom even though it's been a very long time for her. I remember she would tell us "It is okay. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe if I didn't have that miscarriage, then you wouldn't be here today. (Because my mom just wanted 1 son and 1 daughter) And I am so glad I have you." 😭❤️
Mel, you shared your date, 10-18-10. I think it’s important to share the date. Mine is 7-23-03.
Stay strong Mel ♥ u r doing amazing mama ...we love u so much ♥
In the end that baby is never gone, i often think of what it would have been , at the time it happened i felt if nature tells me its not o.k. i better listen witch i did that little human was loved, that bond is forever . Be safe and Happy you all
When I was 21 I got oregnant for the very first time. But at 10 or 11 weeks I lost the baby. November 13, 2018 was the day of the miscarriage. It mentally was painful as hell. But in December 2020, I had my rainbow baby, a daughter. Her name is Jade. Now I am pregnant at 25 weeks with my 2nd baby.
My heart goes out to you, you're amazing love you ❤️
Hi I'm a Korean subscriber.I wish there are some Korean subtitles.It's bit hard to understand 100%.
I love you, Mel. 🥺
I love YOU, Camille 🤍
Thank you for talking about this topic, right now I feel so lonely and lost. I lost my baby recently and my story is just like yours....I don't know how to keep on😭
I lost my last one. When I knew I was pregnant, I experienced my highest high, then when I lost my precious baby, I hit my lowest low. I couldn't be more sad. I had a time of mourning, however, I know God is fully in control and He formed the baby, now He took the baby, I just realized that He allowed me to rejoice the life of the baby. I don't know how my baby looks like, but He knows because He is the one who formed and gave the life. I still miss my baby sosososo so much and I have a hope to see my baby one day in heaven. :)
I’m so sorry to hear that, but so glad you took comfort in knowing that He is in control! One day!🤍
That's how we started our friendship! Sweet, sweet tumblr and sharing our losses!
You're so brave before that happens!! God has a perfect plan for you! We don't know why ii happens, but we know that the Lord was and wiil be with you all the time!! I sent you a big hug and I feel sorry for your loss! No matter howv long time it takes!! The pain is present !! Love you so much!!🥰🥰🥰
It’s a horrible empty feeling, my second miscarriage was a girl and I still have that emptiness inside me
I know that someday I will hold her in my arms. Gods promises are true
I’ve had 1 miscarriage back in March of 2020. And it hurt so much. I was going through it alone since the person I was with was mentally and emotionally abusive. I still cry til this day but, doing better because I left the situation. To anyone whose gone through it I’m so sorry.
항상 건강하시고 행복하세요
I’m so sorry this happened to you.
I have had two miscarriages one in may 2018 and one in august 2020. We also found out we were pregnant Christmas of 2019 but unfortunately January 5th we found out it was an ectopic pregnancy and had to have my right Fallopian tube removed. We started are ivf journey 10 weeks ago and low and behold we conceived naturally only to find out it was another ectopic pregnancy so three weeks ago I had to have my left Fallopian tube removed. It’s devastating losing four babies but we now also have to deal with the heart break knowing I will never conceive naturally. I think the hardest part is knowing so many women struggle with this and it is all they have ever wanted.
I’m glad you now have two beautiful boys although I know it will never fill the hurt of not knowing your perfect angel it helps you appreciate them so much more. Hold them tight hug them and love them because they are your biggest achievement and miracle in life. Sending all of my love from England xx
He tenido 2 pérdidas y a mis 35 años no se si podré tener hijos algún día. Siento mucho lo que te pasó. La gente debería ser más comprensiva. Gracias por hablar de estos temas. Te admiro mucho éres una persona muy valiente.
I went to my gender ultrasound at 19wks 4days pregnant 12-7-19 and I found out it was a girl and I was in active labor with no pain I went into labor. But I will never forget when she died inside of me . I had a silent stillborn baby. I keep her in the room for 12 hrs and now she is home with us in an urn. On 5-27-21 few days after our wedding anniversary in Cabos I knew something was wrong and I went ER and I had a chemical pregancy miscarriage of 5 weeks 2 days . I have 5 yr old daughter super healthy pregnancy but I dont know why I can’t get pregnant . We both gave done several testing and all we get is on God hands.
I’ve had 2 ectopic pregnancies. 2017 and February this year. Because of this, I can’t conceive naturally. I’m 30 and have no kids. Some days are hard, but I push through
곧 님에게 아기천사가 찾아갈거예요 💕
Hi Mel you're an awesome mom ☺️ I just love you and your kids 💕😚 love from Kohima Nagaland India 🇮🇳💓 stay blessed always 😍♥️
I remember the emptiness of waking up from my DNC, from my missed miscarriage. 18 years later, and I can feel it still.
Thank you for sharing. Sending hugs to anyone who has gone/is going through this.
u're gonna be owkeii, god bless youu
오늘머리스타일그렇게해서그런가너무아름다워요.원래특출했었는데더이쁘고세련되었어요.내스타일30년째그머린데ㅠ.지금은더워서올림스타일로다녀요.용기있는행동대단해요.또내일은태양이떠요.힘내시고요.다들잘있쥬.행복하세요.
YOU ARE GONNA BE OKAY
I had a miscarriage as well at 10 weeks. I can totally relate with the depression. I remember for around 2 months, i stayed away from anything baby n baby stuff. And i still remember for my 2nd pregnancy..i got so nervous, anxious and depressed..so afraid of obgyn visits, i didn't even take a maternity picture/any documentation throughout the pregnancy..
I would always wonder about that one if..
I had the bleeding and I went to ER, I was admitted. Later that evening I got up to go to the bathroom. Luckily they had pan in the toilet to catch anything.The baby just fell right out of me.and I think it was the next day that I had a D&C.
I had it 4 Times 😔 4 lil Angels 😢💔
Thank you for Sharing the story. I’ve had a miscarriage. I have PCOS & Endometriosis I still go through so much.
사랑하는 엔젤! 당신은 꼭 아기 천사를 만나게 될거야~~ 당신 프로필 사진처럼 아름다운 미소를 가진 건강한 아이를! 축복할게요!💕🌿
Aún no termino el vídeo y ya estoy 😭 te comprendo perfectamente que aunque pasen los años lo recuerdas y sigue doliendo yo pasé hace 6 años justo en este mes por un embarazo ectopico ( alojado en una de mis trompas) por lo que tuvieron que interrumpir el embarazo
Sending you hugs and prayers my precious friend
Muchísimas gracias igualmente muchas bendiciones y abrazos
@@stephaniegamble3571 you are very kind person! God bless your life 🙏
Wow. Siento mucho tu pérdida. Sé que es un dolor profundo que se nos queda grabado en el corazón. Te mando un fuerte abrazo! 🤍
@@melgutierrez si es algo que no se olvida pero debemos seguir adelante solo pedir por nuestro angelito un fuerte abrazo
You are a very strong and beautiful woman who's inspires women ❤
Orang Indonesia?
Kayanya dr Indonesia ya@ningtyas kinasih..
Strong girls can handle anything in this world ❤️💔❤️
sweet Mel l hope you hearth heals, you were so young when that happended, I have never wanted kids so my worst nightmares are about getting "accidentally" pregnant but really wanting a baby and losing it must be the worst!! I send u my best wishes for u and Luca and Joonie
I remember watching this video last year. Coming back now to watch it after having a miscarriage. It's such a hard thing to go through.
I love the way you express your feelings every time and I’m sorry about what you gonna through you’re the strongest human being and example of good mom.❤️
You're a strong woman, gracias por existir Mel💗✨, Dios te bendiga y siga fortaleciendo
Gracias por compartir tu historia Mel 🤍
It has been 12 year's since I had a miscarriage. I felt empty, heavy and like I was in the darkness loneliest black hole. Has anyone felt that way after a miscarriage? Feels like yesterday. I sympathize to everyone who has lost a child. Prayers to everyone 🙏
Yes, absolutely! That’s exactly what it felt like. Like a big empty hole, and it stays with you. Thank you for sharing 🤍
Jamás pasé por ése trance tan doloroso pero a las que sí, las abrazo con mucho cariño.
I had misscarriage 2 days ago. I felt really horrible for the past 2 days. But now im trying to let go.
never been this early..stay strong Mel..Love you from the Philippines 😘💜
Lo siento mucho por tu perdida un abrazo enorme
I lost my first baby when I was 3 weeks.Spontaneous sp miscarriage. It would have been alot issues if it didn't pass.Genetic Chromosome Damage
thanks mel!!! 🙌🏼
Please subtitles 🙏 I hope you will have another baby if it’s possible sorry I understood nothing 😢 but kisses from France 😘😘😘😘
Sis, please show Indonesian subtitles so that we Indonesians understand what you are talking about, thank you
You always post those topics that makes me cry